WEBVTT 00:00:00.040 --> 00:00:03.839 Hi, guys. Welcome to episode two of the Almost 00:00:03.839 --> 00:00:13.419 Living podcast. Woo! Woohoo! Episode two. Welcome. 00:00:14.380 --> 00:00:19.399 How is everyone? I hope you're doing great. I'm 00:00:19.399 --> 00:00:21.460 doing pretty good. We're just going to jump right 00:00:21.460 --> 00:00:24.300 into it. I want to start off by saying I slept 00:00:24.300 --> 00:00:30.300 for 13 hours last night. So, yeah. This is the 00:00:30.300 --> 00:00:33.060 face of a girl who slept for 13 hours. I went 00:00:33.060 --> 00:00:37.520 to bed at like low -key like 8 or 9 p .m. So 00:00:37.520 --> 00:00:41.079 that's definitely why I was just really tired 00:00:41.079 --> 00:00:45.780 because I was hungover yesterday and then I worked 00:00:45.780 --> 00:00:49.679 and I was just like, I was just really tired. 00:00:50.039 --> 00:00:52.820 So I passed out and then I woke up this morning 00:00:52.820 --> 00:00:57.659 at like 8 and I was like, wow, rise and shine. 00:01:00.460 --> 00:01:03.840 Some a few little housekeeping things as far 00:01:03.840 --> 00:01:11.459 as the podcast goes First episode I went Sorry 00:01:11.459 --> 00:01:13.540 for the street noise we're gonna talk about that 00:01:13.540 --> 00:01:16.879 as well first episode I talked for like 10 minutes 00:01:16.879 --> 00:01:19.819 about all of the podcasts that I enjoy and all 00:01:19.819 --> 00:01:23.620 of that which I'm sure was just the most riveting 00:01:25.709 --> 00:01:28.890 Content ever but I did forget to mention one 00:01:28.890 --> 00:01:30.989 podcast So I did want to say that because I was 00:01:30.989 --> 00:01:33.549 watching it back and I was like girl. What the 00:01:33.549 --> 00:01:38.609 fuck? It's the I am the devil podcast and that's 00:01:38.609 --> 00:01:41.909 been I like go through I'll have like a few podcasts 00:01:41.909 --> 00:01:44.930 that I really enjoy at a time. I am the devil 00:01:44.930 --> 00:01:51.030 is Has been in my constant It's been in my current 00:01:52.730 --> 00:01:56.090 Shit, okay? I thoroughly enjoy it, and that's 00:01:56.090 --> 00:01:58.670 what I recently have been listening to a lot. 00:01:58.790 --> 00:02:01.129 It's basically a rewatch podcast for the show 00:02:01.129 --> 00:02:04.170 Vanderpump Rules. If you've never seen it, it 00:02:04.170 --> 00:02:09.169 is one of the best reality TV shows ever. And 00:02:09.169 --> 00:02:14.050 I love reality TV. It is an amazing show, but 00:02:14.050 --> 00:02:16.629 that's not what this is about. Just wanted to 00:02:16.629 --> 00:02:19.389 mention it because I love their podcast and I 00:02:19.389 --> 00:02:21.610 wanted to give them a proper shout out and I 00:02:21.610 --> 00:02:25.229 just like Watch Vanderpump rules, but also listen 00:02:25.229 --> 00:02:30.469 to their podcast because it's hilarious And then 00:02:30.469 --> 00:02:36.050 another thing Last episode I made an empty promise 00:02:36.050 --> 00:02:39.990 and I was like It wasn't a promise. I said it 00:02:39.990 --> 00:02:42.550 that I said verbatim. I did not want to make 00:02:42.550 --> 00:02:45.800 any promises, but I you know the background noise 00:02:45.800 --> 00:02:51.139 is a thing i live on a street so there is often 00:02:51.139 --> 00:02:55.340 noise there are cars whatever and i was like 00:02:55.340 --> 00:02:58.379 oh i'm gonna try to you know clear all that out 00:02:58.379 --> 00:03:01.379 i'll see whatever that did not end up happening 00:03:01.379 --> 00:03:04.560 and it did not happen not because i did not try 00:03:04.560 --> 00:03:10.280 really hard and not because i don't care i put 00:03:10.280 --> 00:03:14.120 in so much time so I will just say this. We don't 00:03:14.120 --> 00:03:16.060 need to spend so much time talking about this. 00:03:16.639 --> 00:03:20.900 The first episode of the podcast, I forgot that 00:03:20.900 --> 00:03:28.439 I had my camera settings to record in 4K and 00:03:28.439 --> 00:03:32.259 in 60 frames per second, which I'm pretty sure 00:03:32.259 --> 00:03:35.879 is the highest quality you can record anything 00:03:35.879 --> 00:03:43.050 in as far as iPhones go. So... For the video 00:03:43.050 --> 00:03:45.569 to be in 4k and for it to be an hour long it 00:03:45.569 --> 00:03:50.370 was 17 gigabytes it was a massive video and so 00:03:50.370 --> 00:03:57.469 trying to Edit and trying to send the video Anywhere 00:03:57.469 --> 00:04:00.430 or do literally anything with it was nearly impossible 00:04:00.430 --> 00:04:03.969 because of how large the video was and I spent 00:04:03.969 --> 00:04:09.969 hours trying to Run the video through several 00:04:09.969 --> 00:04:11.889 different programs to get rid of the background 00:04:11.889 --> 00:04:13.729 noise and it just wasn't working because the 00:04:13.729 --> 00:04:17.170 video was just too big And I didn't realize that 00:04:17.170 --> 00:04:21.310 until toying around with it for like six hours 00:04:21.310 --> 00:04:27.750 at least And so it's it's been a journey and 00:04:27.750 --> 00:04:32.269 I've I've learned I've I've learned lessons in 00:04:32.269 --> 00:04:35.310 just this past week of like just with getting 00:04:35.310 --> 00:04:37.209 this podcast like up and running. Because like 00:04:37.209 --> 00:04:40.110 I said, I started this podcast two years ago. 00:04:40.629 --> 00:04:43.449 I have started and stopped and started and stopped 00:04:43.449 --> 00:04:47.589 too many times to count. And when I first started 00:04:47.589 --> 00:04:50.370 the podcast, I was only doing audio version. 00:04:50.430 --> 00:04:52.569 So it was so easy. Like I would literally just 00:04:52.569 --> 00:04:56.509 go to my voice memo app, record a memo, and then 00:04:56.509 --> 00:04:58.990 I would just upload it. And that was it. Like 00:04:58.990 --> 00:05:01.689 there was virtually no work. But this time around 00:05:01.689 --> 00:05:04.720 with my podcast, I was like, I want to do a visual 00:05:04.720 --> 00:05:08.100 because sometimes you just want to look at something. 00:05:08.639 --> 00:05:10.500 And who doesn't want to look at my beautiful 00:05:10.500 --> 00:05:13.680 face as I'm speaking? So I was like, that could 00:05:13.680 --> 00:05:18.740 be really fun. And so it's just a little bit 00:05:18.740 --> 00:05:21.899 more work because now obviously I have to record 00:05:21.899 --> 00:05:26.579 the video and then I have to upload two separate 00:05:26.579 --> 00:05:28.800 things. I upload the video and then I extract 00:05:28.800 --> 00:05:31.040 the audio and then I upload that and whatever. 00:05:31.100 --> 00:05:33.709 And it's like, Honestly still pretty easy because 00:05:33.709 --> 00:05:37.769 with podcasting it's no like true editing Which 00:05:37.769 --> 00:05:39.470 I like video editing, I think it's really fun, 00:05:39.470 --> 00:05:41.310 but that would be a lot of work for an hour long 00:05:41.310 --> 00:05:45.110 video so as of now we're not doing that but um, 00:05:45.110 --> 00:05:48.870 it was it was just a lot guys like And I also 00:05:48.870 --> 00:05:51.569 don't have a computer I have my phone so I'm 00:05:51.569 --> 00:05:53.569 doing it all on my phone and like it was just 00:05:53.569 --> 00:05:58.490 so many hours spent just like Trying to upload 00:05:58.490 --> 00:06:03.019 a video to a certain Program and waiting and 00:06:03.019 --> 00:06:05.980 like watching it load up and like sitting there 00:06:05.980 --> 00:06:09.139 and then it getting Almost there and then just 00:06:09.139 --> 00:06:13.279 crashing and being like sorry error Sorry, we 00:06:13.279 --> 00:06:17.420 can't do it and I was like Okay, I'm going to 00:06:17.420 --> 00:06:25.019 literally Do something very bad soon But yeah, 00:06:25.300 --> 00:06:28.459 long story short the last video I did not edit 00:06:28.459 --> 00:06:32.430 the sound Once I figured out how to downsize 00:06:32.430 --> 00:06:35.709 the video and actually was able to like Move 00:06:35.709 --> 00:06:37.610 it around and do things with it. I was like, 00:06:37.610 --> 00:06:41.649 I'm over it. I just need to get this up. So yeah 00:06:41.649 --> 00:06:47.689 There's that Hopefully moving forward I can now 00:06:47.689 --> 00:06:51.430 that I know not to record in for fucking K Hopefully 00:06:51.430 --> 00:06:53.389 it'll be a little bit easier and that won't happen. 00:06:53.550 --> 00:07:02.620 But yeah, um also loving loving just the support 00:07:02.620 --> 00:07:05.220 loving people in my life like loving my friends 00:07:05.220 --> 00:07:09.459 like it's been wild this past week like literally 00:07:09.459 --> 00:07:13.939 just the people in my life like being like seeing 00:07:13.939 --> 00:07:15.740 me and being like hey I was listening to your 00:07:15.740 --> 00:07:17.800 podcast while I was like driving or I was listening 00:07:17.800 --> 00:07:20.199 to your podcast while I was cleaning my room 00:07:20.199 --> 00:07:23.519 or I watched your video and I was like oh my 00:07:23.519 --> 00:07:29.500 god this is crazy But like so like it really 00:07:29.500 --> 00:07:34.439 is warming my cold dead heart That anyone is 00:07:34.439 --> 00:07:37.079 like taking time out of their day to like even 00:07:37.079 --> 00:07:41.079 if for 10 minutes 20 minutes, whatever the whole 00:07:41.079 --> 00:07:45.839 thing That's just like really cool and really 00:07:45.839 --> 00:07:52.579 great That anyone like cares enough or like wants 00:07:52.579 --> 00:07:55.250 to take the time to like check something out 00:07:55.250 --> 00:07:59.569 that i'm doing so that's been fun also i have 00:07:59.569 --> 00:08:04.670 a latte i got a dirty chai um with vanilla so 00:08:04.670 --> 00:08:12.750 so good i i've really been flexing my dirty chai 00:08:12.750 --> 00:08:16.269 muscle recently i got my first one like of the 00:08:16.269 --> 00:08:23.259 season maybe like it was last month um Had my 00:08:23.259 --> 00:08:26.079 first sip I was like, wow I think that was my 00:08:26.079 --> 00:08:28.100 first dirty chai honestly because I've gotten 00:08:28.100 --> 00:08:32.580 chai before and I've tried dirty matcha But I 00:08:32.580 --> 00:08:34.100 think that was my first time getting a dirty 00:08:34.100 --> 00:08:41.799 chai and I was like this is life -changing It 00:08:41.799 --> 00:08:48.159 just like it tastes like fall it's so good But 00:08:48.159 --> 00:08:52.559 yeah Thanks, guys. Thanks for listening to the 00:08:52.559 --> 00:08:57.440 podcast. I don't know what I want to start with. 00:08:58.259 --> 00:09:01.779 I think we should talk. This is just a very quick 00:09:01.779 --> 00:09:06.200 little funny little wild thing. I was thrifting 00:09:06.200 --> 00:09:14.080 maybe a week, week and a half ago. Love to thrift. 00:09:14.500 --> 00:09:18.070 I love, I love thrifting. like not even truly 00:09:18.070 --> 00:09:21.090 the act of thrifting because thrifting does kind 00:09:21.090 --> 00:09:25.190 of stress me the fuck out um because it's not 00:09:25.190 --> 00:09:28.590 necessarily like fun per se you kind of have 00:09:28.590 --> 00:09:31.850 to like clock in like it's a job like i don't 00:09:31.850 --> 00:09:34.309 play around and i low key don't like thrifting 00:09:34.309 --> 00:09:36.789 with people like i can thrift with like good 00:09:36.789 --> 00:09:39.190 friends but if we're going out and thrifting 00:09:39.190 --> 00:09:42.409 like i'm thrifting i want i'm i'm popping in 00:09:42.409 --> 00:09:46.769 a headphone i'm I'm clocked in like I'm not gonna 00:09:46.769 --> 00:09:50.850 be chatting and giggling and talk. No No, I have 00:09:50.850 --> 00:09:54.970 to be silent. I need to be like So focused because 00:09:54.970 --> 00:10:02.330 I don't play I love fashion. I love clothes and 00:10:02.330 --> 00:10:04.830 Thrifting it like it's like it's not a joke. 00:10:04.970 --> 00:10:07.720 It's not a game. It's like I'm here To come out 00:10:07.720 --> 00:10:11.120 with a bag full of shit and I don't care what 00:10:11.120 --> 00:10:15.240 I have to do whose toes I need to step on like 00:10:15.240 --> 00:10:20.879 This is not This is you know, like I'm this is 00:10:20.879 --> 00:10:25.179 Real life shit. So I was thrifting the other 00:10:25.179 --> 00:10:30.789 the other day In Bushwick We're like all the 00:10:30.789 --> 00:10:33.289 all the good thrifting is in Brooklyn, but like 00:10:33.289 --> 00:10:35.090 especially like in the bush like I don't know 00:10:35.090 --> 00:10:38.629 There's just a lot of good stuff out there I'm 00:10:38.629 --> 00:10:42.970 thrifting. I'm chilling. I I'm looking at this 00:10:42.970 --> 00:10:45.850 sweater, right? I See the sweater. I'm like, 00:10:45.889 --> 00:10:50.190 oh, this is kind of cute. So I pick it up and 00:10:50.190 --> 00:10:53.269 I have my air pods in I look up I glance up and 00:10:53.269 --> 00:10:56.169 I notice this girl who's maybe like 10 feet away 00:10:56.169 --> 00:11:02.350 is like really staring at me And I'm like, okay, 00:11:02.690 --> 00:11:06.669 like, what's going on? Because I don't like, 00:11:06.809 --> 00:11:08.970 I don't, and no one likes being stared at. It's, 00:11:09.090 --> 00:11:10.590 it makes me actually really angry and we can 00:11:10.590 --> 00:11:13.529 talk about it, but like, I get triggered when 00:11:13.529 --> 00:11:16.250 people are staring at me. With women, it usually 00:11:16.250 --> 00:11:18.389 doesn't happen. It's the men that piss me off, 00:11:18.409 --> 00:11:22.509 but that's for, that's another whole other discussion. 00:11:23.529 --> 00:11:25.649 But she's like staring at me. And so I'm like, 00:11:26.029 --> 00:11:30.669 all right. What's going on? I'm like, I'm like 00:11:30.669 --> 00:11:32.830 shuffling like I have all these items. I'm like 00:11:32.830 --> 00:11:34.590 kind of organizing them She's still looking at 00:11:34.590 --> 00:11:36.610 me. So I take my air pods out and she's like 00:11:36.610 --> 00:11:38.269 kind of getting closer I take my air pods out 00:11:38.269 --> 00:11:44.590 and I'm like, hi and She's like hi. Um, she was 00:11:44.590 --> 00:11:51.789 like I was looking at that sweater, too And I 00:11:51.789 --> 00:12:02.779 was like, oh Okay And I like I I think I like 00:12:02.779 --> 00:12:07.120 awkwardly was like, oh, sorry But then I just 00:12:07.120 --> 00:12:10.740 like didn't say cuz it's like why would you do 00:12:10.740 --> 00:12:17.379 that? Why would you say that? I Never Why would 00:12:17.379 --> 00:12:22.279 you say that? truthfully I Was looking at that 00:12:22.279 --> 00:12:26.179 sweater too. Okay Am I supposed to give it to 00:12:26.179 --> 00:12:28.240 you? Like I don't care that you were looking 00:12:28.240 --> 00:12:31.980 at it. It's in my hand. I Have it. It's mine 00:12:31.980 --> 00:12:35.620 Like what? So she's like, yeah, I was looking 00:12:35.620 --> 00:12:40.200 at that sweater too. I was like, okay Um, and 00:12:40.200 --> 00:12:42.240 then I walk away. I'm like continuing shopping. 00:12:42.240 --> 00:12:46.779 I'm like, what the fuck I Keep looking at I was 00:12:46.779 --> 00:12:48.519 like looking at the sweater and then I was like 00:12:48.519 --> 00:12:50.600 low -key like this is kind of ugly like I don't 00:12:50.600 --> 00:12:55.320 really want it so me being just like the kind 00:12:55.320 --> 00:12:57.200 soul that I am, I was like, I'm going to go find 00:12:57.200 --> 00:13:03.580 this girl and give her the sweater. And so I'm 00:13:03.580 --> 00:13:05.940 like turning around to go like see where she's 00:13:05.940 --> 00:13:09.840 at and I see her. And then before I can even 00:13:09.840 --> 00:13:12.100 say anything, before I can even be like, oh, 00:13:12.220 --> 00:13:13.720 here, I'm going to give this to you because I 00:13:13.720 --> 00:13:17.200 don't want it. She comes over to me before I 00:13:17.200 --> 00:13:19.340 can even open my mouth. She's like, she's like, 00:13:19.379 --> 00:13:20.879 oh, yeah, I was actually just going to ask if 00:13:20.879 --> 00:13:24.440 I can have the sweater. And I was like, yeah, 00:13:24.460 --> 00:13:27.139 sure. Cause I didn't want it. So I gave it to 00:13:27.139 --> 00:13:29.320 her and she's like, thanks. And then she walked 00:13:29.320 --> 00:13:32.639 away. But like, is that not the craziest shit 00:13:32.639 --> 00:13:38.080 ever? I have done so much thrifting in my life. 00:13:38.340 --> 00:13:45.240 Like I started thrifting like maybe 16. I'm 23 00:13:45.240 --> 00:13:48.360 now. That's seven years. I've been thrifting 00:13:48.360 --> 00:13:51.179 for a little bit. A good portion of my life. 00:13:51.379 --> 00:13:56.220 I've thrifted. In Virginia, I've thrifted all 00:13:56.220 --> 00:14:00.440 over. Never have I ever been thrifting and had 00:14:00.440 --> 00:14:03.159 someone come up to me and be like, I was looking 00:14:03.159 --> 00:14:06.700 at that to something that I have in my hand. 00:14:08.759 --> 00:14:12.799 Don't do that. Guys, don't do that. That's like 00:14:12.799 --> 00:14:17.980 really awkward and uncomfortable. Luckily, I 00:14:17.980 --> 00:14:20.000 didn't want the sweater, but like if I wanted 00:14:20.000 --> 00:14:23.580 this like what were you gonna do about it? You're 00:14:23.580 --> 00:14:27.320 gonna take it for me like I Just thought that 00:14:27.320 --> 00:14:37.879 was very bizarre Very bizarre don't do that Just 00:14:37.879 --> 00:14:43.899 so awkward anyways um I'm also scared guys because 00:14:43.899 --> 00:14:50.049 I So I have been I have started taking pole classes 00:14:50.049 --> 00:14:54.370 recently As recent as like I think my first one 00:14:54.370 --> 00:14:59.970 is maybe three two three weeks ago So much fun 00:14:59.970 --> 00:15:03.049 so much fun pole is like been something that 00:15:03.049 --> 00:15:06.929 I've always been Interested in or not always 00:15:06.929 --> 00:15:09.610 but like I feel like in college like I started 00:15:09.610 --> 00:15:12.289 thinking about it just as like because I like 00:15:12.289 --> 00:15:17.340 working out and It just it always looks so fun 00:15:17.340 --> 00:15:20.700 and I always knew I was like that looks like 00:15:20.700 --> 00:15:24.659 that takes so much strength like And so I've 00:15:24.659 --> 00:15:29.820 started taking them here and I've done I've done 00:15:29.820 --> 00:15:32.740 like beginner just like pull like learning tricks 00:15:32.740 --> 00:15:41.019 and then I've also done What other class I've 00:15:41.019 --> 00:15:42.559 done another one I don't really remember it's 00:15:42.559 --> 00:15:47.159 not coming to me right now, but did one three 00:15:47.159 --> 00:15:51.279 days ago now it was it was pole conditioning 00:15:51.279 --> 00:15:54.500 which basically is like you know any conditioning 00:15:54.500 --> 00:15:59.940 class you're doing you're doing like exercises 00:15:59.940 --> 00:16:04.139 to like specific exercises to build the strength 00:16:04.139 --> 00:16:08.639 that you need in order to do certain pull tricks 00:16:08.639 --> 00:16:17.990 and I did that a few days ago and y 'all I My 00:16:17.990 --> 00:16:22.669 entire body I felt like I got hit by a truck 00:16:22.669 --> 00:16:29.509 sore literally everywhere head to toe Head to 00:16:29.509 --> 00:16:33.149 toe because we're doing like just so many different 00:16:33.149 --> 00:16:36.509 So many different things but like a lot of it 00:16:36.509 --> 00:16:40.460 is just like Learning how to hold yourself on 00:16:40.460 --> 00:16:44.299 the pole while doing different things while like 00:16:44.299 --> 00:16:51.820 Sorry while like lifting your legs and like Just 00:16:51.820 --> 00:16:55.000 having to lift your whole body and like doing 00:16:55.000 --> 00:16:58.580 shit and toward like oh My god, but I'm the reason 00:16:58.580 --> 00:17:00.860 why I'm scared is because I have another one 00:17:00.860 --> 00:17:06.119 today In like five hours, and I'm still like 00:17:06.480 --> 00:17:10.779 The soreness isn't as bad as it's been. I actually 00:17:10.779 --> 00:17:13.460 feel a lot better, but I'm really scared I'm 00:17:13.460 --> 00:17:16.059 gonna get there and just not be able to do anything 00:17:16.059 --> 00:17:20.700 because my body is still recovering. What was 00:17:20.700 --> 00:17:24.619 I thinking doing another conditioning class four 00:17:24.619 --> 00:17:26.619 days after the last? I thought that it would 00:17:26.619 --> 00:17:34.000 be enough time, but I'm scared as fuck. I feel 00:17:34.000 --> 00:17:38.319 dead. That shit was so hard but like so good 00:17:38.319 --> 00:17:42.359 and it's been really fun and I'm just like I'm 00:17:42.359 --> 00:17:46.839 so excited to like keep doing it and like You 00:17:46.839 --> 00:17:50.140 know, maybe a few months from now like I'm just 00:17:50.140 --> 00:17:55.279 gonna be doing crazy shit on the pole like that's 00:17:55.279 --> 00:18:01.789 really fun, but I do The classes are already 00:18:01.789 --> 00:18:04.289 adding up like they're only $30 a class, but 00:18:04.289 --> 00:18:06.950 like I've already done like four so it's like 00:18:06.950 --> 00:18:11.069 oh That is money, but I don't know. I'm gonna 00:18:11.069 --> 00:18:13.190 keep doing it cuz it's it's very rare that I 00:18:13.190 --> 00:18:17.950 like I just need to get into hobbies like That 00:18:17.950 --> 00:18:21.069 is something I'm always like trying to do and 00:18:21.069 --> 00:18:24.470 I feel like in high school and college like I've 00:18:24.470 --> 00:18:28.680 just always always go back to this like issue 00:18:28.680 --> 00:18:30.740 in my life where I'm like I don't have like consistent 00:18:30.740 --> 00:18:33.900 hobbies and like consistent things that I'm doing 00:18:33.900 --> 00:18:35.640 that are bringing me joy so it's like when I 00:18:35.640 --> 00:18:37.900 do find something like that like I have to hold 00:18:37.900 --> 00:18:41.640 on to it so yeah that's been a new fun development 00:18:41.640 --> 00:18:51.359 these like the the not that I ever didn't respect 00:18:51.359 --> 00:18:55.799 pole dancers or you know, whatever the case but 00:18:55.799 --> 00:18:59.599 so much respect like it is actually one of the 00:18:59.599 --> 00:19:03.660 hardest things ever and It takes so much strength 00:19:03.660 --> 00:19:08.660 So yeah, hopefully I mean I'm gonna go like I 00:19:08.660 --> 00:19:11.819 can't I can't get a refund or transfer the class 00:19:11.819 --> 00:19:15.759 So like I'm gonna I'm gonna be there. I'm just 00:19:15.759 --> 00:19:20.380 like really hoping that my body can do it We'll 00:19:20.380 --> 00:19:25.160 see We will see Yesterday I was on my way to 00:19:25.160 --> 00:19:31.519 work and You know like Sometimes you get on the 00:19:31.519 --> 00:19:34.900 train and it's air -conditioned and it's like 00:19:34.900 --> 00:19:39.579 blasting and it feels really nice I Was going 00:19:39.579 --> 00:19:43.539 to work yesterday And I got on the train and 00:19:43.539 --> 00:19:45.400 it was one of those trains where it's like not 00:19:45.400 --> 00:19:48.200 only not not only was like the air -conditioning 00:19:48.200 --> 00:19:51.220 just like not like Really hitting like there 00:19:51.220 --> 00:19:56.000 was just none. There was no AC. It was hot There's 00:19:56.000 --> 00:19:58.420 nothing worse than stepping onto a hot train 00:19:58.420 --> 00:20:02.500 and y 'all I got on that train and I sit down 00:20:02.500 --> 00:20:06.299 and I was like It smelled nasty. I was like what 00:20:06.299 --> 00:20:10.180 the fuck what is happening on this train? I Look 00:20:10.180 --> 00:20:13.640 up and over this man is eating an egg sandwich 00:20:13.640 --> 00:20:18.900 on the train It was too early. It literally pissed 00:20:18.900 --> 00:20:21.740 me off. I I waited until we got to the next stop 00:20:21.740 --> 00:20:26.059 and I wasn't even like I Wasn't even interested 00:20:26.059 --> 00:20:29.200 in going into the next car Like I was like no 00:20:29.200 --> 00:20:33.000 this this hot egg sandwich shit just pissed me 00:20:33.000 --> 00:20:36.279 clean off I just got off the train and just waited 00:20:36.279 --> 00:20:38.220 for the next one and luckily I waited for the 00:20:38.220 --> 00:20:40.539 next one the next one was air -conditioned and 00:20:40.539 --> 00:20:47.339 it did not smell like hot egg That's wild I I 00:20:47.339 --> 00:20:49.740 eat on the, I've eaten on the train. I've had 00:20:49.740 --> 00:20:53.220 snacks, you know, I'll eat something like, but 00:20:53.220 --> 00:20:57.000 like people who pop out whole meals, some girl 00:20:57.000 --> 00:21:00.440 one time had a whole like fried fish platter. 00:21:00.579 --> 00:21:09.019 I was like, clean, girl, girl. That is so inconsiderate. 00:21:09.119 --> 00:21:12.539 I'm so sorry. And I'm not even like, It's not 00:21:12.539 --> 00:21:15.660 even me just being an annoying vegan like I don't 00:21:15.660 --> 00:21:20.460 no one wants to smell your fish fish and an enclosed 00:21:20.460 --> 00:21:26.599 space with Non consenting individuals is crazy. 00:21:26.599 --> 00:21:30.400 I don't want to smell your fish or your eggs 00:21:30.400 --> 00:21:36.779 What that's like opening like sardines on a plane 00:21:36.779 --> 00:21:41.450 like some things you just don't do It was crazy 00:21:41.450 --> 00:21:45.690 and I was and I was Hell over I was like, I'm 00:21:45.690 --> 00:21:50.650 not I cannot smell egg right now. I just can't 00:21:50.650 --> 00:21:56.289 I'm really sorry all sorry for the gross coughing 00:21:56.289 --> 00:22:00.950 and like Throat noises I'm like recovering from 00:22:00.950 --> 00:22:03.089 something. I don't really know what it was but 00:22:03.089 --> 00:22:06.349 Like almost a week ago a few days ago. I was 00:22:06.349 --> 00:22:08.349 experiencing just terrible congestion and that's 00:22:08.349 --> 00:22:12.589 really it like Just congestion Like a few days 00:22:12.589 --> 00:22:15.450 ago. I couldn't breathe at all out of my nose 00:22:15.450 --> 00:22:18.750 and it was so Frustrating because for the first 00:22:18.750 --> 00:22:22.569 half of the day I was fine like like I was definitely 00:22:22.569 --> 00:22:25.369 congested but like I could still breathe I could 00:22:25.369 --> 00:22:27.890 still smell whatever and then it was this weird 00:22:27.890 --> 00:22:29.650 thing where it just flipped like the second half 00:22:29.650 --> 00:22:32.970 of the day My breathing just like turned off. 00:22:32.970 --> 00:22:37.180 I was like literally like like couldn't was breathing 00:22:37.180 --> 00:22:43.440 like a French Bulldog like just just just terrible 00:22:43.440 --> 00:22:47.819 and I was so frustrated too because I Worked 00:22:47.819 --> 00:22:49.980 and then I got home from work and I had so much 00:22:49.980 --> 00:22:53.900 food but I was like I Couldn't breathe which 00:22:53.900 --> 00:22:57.759 means I couldn't smell so I couldn't taste And 00:22:57.759 --> 00:22:59.660 so I got home from work and I literally was like 00:22:59.660 --> 00:23:03.329 I'm not eating like I'm just not to me Don't 00:23:03.329 --> 00:23:06.190 see any point in eating food if I can't taste 00:23:06.190 --> 00:23:11.069 it like I get like sustenance and all that stupid 00:23:11.069 --> 00:23:15.230 shit, but like I For me eating. I'm I'm a foodie. 00:23:15.250 --> 00:23:19.190 Okay. I just love to eat. I love food. I love 00:23:19.190 --> 00:23:23.250 taste I love the enjoyment and the dopamine that 00:23:23.250 --> 00:23:27.450 I get from eating good food. I Was like I'm not 00:23:27.450 --> 00:23:29.710 I don't see the point in eating like I was like 00:23:29.710 --> 00:23:32.519 I'm just gonna save all of this for another day 00:23:32.519 --> 00:23:36.140 when I can taste because I'm not about to just 00:23:36.140 --> 00:23:38.279 chew and it's like I can't even I don't even 00:23:38.279 --> 00:23:40.980 know what it is I'm having like I'm not there 00:23:40.980 --> 00:23:43.839 are flavor profiles that I'm looking forward 00:23:43.839 --> 00:23:47.799 to right now and I can't have it I was so sad 00:23:47.799 --> 00:23:52.579 so I just had miso soup and I couldn't taste 00:23:52.579 --> 00:23:55.079 it I was just like like I could taste that it 00:23:55.079 --> 00:23:57.220 was salty but like I couldn't actually like taste 00:23:57.220 --> 00:24:00.799 anything it was terrible so now I'm just like 00:24:01.759 --> 00:24:04.420 I'm recovering and I'm feeling and sounding a 00:24:04.420 --> 00:24:07.740 lot better surprisingly because I feel like I 00:24:07.740 --> 00:24:09.859 don't even sound that great right now but like 00:24:09.859 --> 00:24:15.519 before it was literally like horse like I sounded 00:24:15.519 --> 00:24:21.339 I sounded like Miley Cyrus you know like just 00:24:21.339 --> 00:24:27.180 so like or like who's that guy um Steve -O it 00:24:27.180 --> 00:24:30.339 was giving Steve -O vibes I was it was just not 00:24:30.339 --> 00:24:39.329 good Still congested It's really annoying um 00:24:39.329 --> 00:24:51.109 Well to talk about next um I Have I Have been 00:24:51.109 --> 00:24:54.569 embarking on a journey recently and The journey 00:24:54.569 --> 00:24:58.109 is that I am trying to train myself to become 00:24:58.109 --> 00:25:06.279 a back sleeper Yeah Yeah, um, and I'm sure you're 00:25:06.279 --> 00:25:09.259 probably wondering Kaylin why the fuck would 00:25:09.259 --> 00:25:13.180 you do that? Um, and that's a great question 00:25:13.180 --> 00:25:18.240 Because I would never do this For just no reason 00:25:18.240 --> 00:25:22.299 ever because I am a side sleeper and a stomach 00:25:22.299 --> 00:25:25.880 sleeper Unfortunately till I die. It's just so 00:25:25.880 --> 00:25:28.619 comfortable. It's just the way that I'm wired. 00:25:28.680 --> 00:25:32.410 I genuinely feel like the position that you sleep 00:25:32.410 --> 00:25:35.589 in is it has to be genetic it has to be because 00:25:35.589 --> 00:25:40.970 like I've only known one person in my life who 00:25:40.970 --> 00:25:43.549 is a back sleeper and it was this girl that I 00:25:43.549 --> 00:25:45.210 used to be really good friends with in elementary 00:25:45.210 --> 00:25:49.369 school and back sleeping is so rare to me like 00:25:49.369 --> 00:25:51.250 you don't come across it a lot because I used 00:25:51.250 --> 00:25:54.230 to be freaked out like I remember I invited her 00:25:54.230 --> 00:25:59.230 to my sleepover for like my birthday party and 00:26:00.549 --> 00:26:03.910 Mm -hmm. Me just being terrible. Me and my, like, 00:26:04.009 --> 00:26:06.130 other friends, she fell asleep first, right? 00:26:06.150 --> 00:26:08.589 And we were all, like, not making fun of her, 00:26:08.609 --> 00:26:10.509 but we were, like, scared. We were, like, oh, 00:26:10.509 --> 00:26:12.910 my God, it's so creepy. Like, she's sleeping 00:26:12.910 --> 00:26:15.910 on her back. Like, what's wrong with this chick? 00:26:16.309 --> 00:26:20.789 Like, it looks crazy. Being a back sleeper looks 00:26:20.789 --> 00:26:24.390 crazy. It looks like you're just, like, I don't 00:26:24.390 --> 00:26:27.849 know, like... Ready for the morgue. Like why 00:26:27.849 --> 00:26:30.490 are you on your back like that? But anyways, 00:26:30.490 --> 00:26:34.869 I am trying to become a back sleeper because 00:26:34.869 --> 00:26:46.609 I I just have a lot of piercings and I What the 00:26:46.609 --> 00:26:52.069 fuck can I like finish can I like why am I Me 00:26:52.069 --> 00:26:55.390 getting annoyed with myself Um, it takes me literally 00:26:55.390 --> 00:26:58.029 20 years to say something that would take just 00:26:58.029 --> 00:27:03.589 10 seconds. Why I'm like, um, so okay, I The 00:27:03.589 --> 00:27:08.029 other day and by the other day, I mean like Two 00:27:08.029 --> 00:27:12.089 weeks ago I had to get two piercings removed. 00:27:12.089 --> 00:27:16.569 It was a loss you guys and I'm getting them repierced, 00:27:16.569 --> 00:27:19.710 but it was these two piercings that I had and 00:27:20.779 --> 00:27:23.380 Over like they were pierced at an angle and then 00:27:23.380 --> 00:27:27.680 over time from sleeping on them they just moved 00:27:27.680 --> 00:27:30.140 to a position that I was not fucking with and 00:27:30.140 --> 00:27:33.440 so I Was like, okay And this is also something 00:27:33.440 --> 00:27:35.460 that I've had to like come to terms with over 00:27:35.460 --> 00:27:38.619 the course of months because I peeped this shit 00:27:38.619 --> 00:27:42.440 in February I peeped it in February and I started 00:27:42.440 --> 00:27:44.880 crashing out cuz I was like I was like I just 00:27:44.880 --> 00:27:51.500 don't like how this looks and I remember Whatever 00:27:51.500 --> 00:27:53.960 so yeah, this has been something that I haven't 00:27:53.960 --> 00:27:56.259 noticed but I didn't want to come to I was like 00:27:56.259 --> 00:27:57.880 I don't want to have to take these piercings 00:27:57.880 --> 00:28:01.900 out and then wait a long ass time For them to 00:28:01.900 --> 00:28:03.640 close and heal and then get them reappears like 00:28:03.640 --> 00:28:05.799 I don't want to do it So I was like, maybe I'm 00:28:05.799 --> 00:28:07.960 maybe this is something I just need to like radically 00:28:07.960 --> 00:28:13.160 accept and then fast forward from February to 00:28:13.160 --> 00:28:17.460 September The radical acceptance isn't working 00:28:17.460 --> 00:28:19.920 like I just don't like it so I was like, okay 00:28:19.980 --> 00:28:23.839 Let's just fucking bite the bullet and do what 00:28:23.839 --> 00:28:27.420 I know I've been needing to do And just take 00:28:27.420 --> 00:28:29.799 these out and wait and get them repierced like 00:28:29.799 --> 00:28:33.380 let's just do it. So I went to a piercer I like 00:28:33.380 --> 00:28:36.240 scheduled a consultation at this like nice piercing 00:28:36.240 --> 00:28:39.880 place because I was like I need the opinions 00:28:39.880 --> 00:28:48.619 of experienced professionals and Yeah, this piercer 00:28:50.350 --> 00:28:54.509 told me because I've Everyone that I asked all 00:28:54.509 --> 00:28:56.210 the piercings that I asked were like, yeah, cuz 00:28:56.210 --> 00:28:58.309 I've had this these piercings for like four or 00:28:58.309 --> 00:29:00.750 five years It's been a while. So whenever I asked 00:29:00.750 --> 00:29:02.509 a piercer like hey, how long would I have to 00:29:02.509 --> 00:29:03.890 take them out to get them? Repierced they were 00:29:03.890 --> 00:29:05.529 like you're gonna have to leave them out for 00:29:05.529 --> 00:29:08.089 one to two years because you've had them for 00:29:08.089 --> 00:29:11.170 so long and blah blah blah Which is obviously 00:29:11.170 --> 00:29:13.130 not what I want to hear and not what I want to 00:29:13.130 --> 00:29:15.309 do Because it's like if I have to take a piercing 00:29:15.309 --> 00:29:17.549 out for one to two like what's the point of like 00:29:17.549 --> 00:29:20.630 that's such a long time But I went to this piercer 00:29:20.630 --> 00:29:23.150 and they were like they were like, oh when you 00:29:23.150 --> 00:29:25.269 get she was like we could take them out today 00:29:25.269 --> 00:29:27.509 and You know in two to three months when you 00:29:27.509 --> 00:29:32.089 get them repierced with us and I was like Two 00:29:32.089 --> 00:29:37.049 to three months Two to three months That sounds 00:29:37.049 --> 00:29:39.690 a little like yeah, I like the sound of that 00:29:39.980 --> 00:29:45.279 two to three months I can do. But yeah, I basically, 00:29:47.200 --> 00:29:49.319 what am I, why have I been literally been talking 00:29:49.319 --> 00:29:54.400 for so long about this? Basically, I got my piercings 00:29:54.400 --> 00:29:56.079 taken out and I was just asking her a bunch of 00:29:56.079 --> 00:29:57.759 questions about whatever, because I was like, 00:29:57.819 --> 00:29:59.759 now that you're here, now that I've got this 00:29:59.759 --> 00:30:02.500 piercer in my possession, I need to get all these 00:30:02.500 --> 00:30:06.839 questions answered, because it's like, you can't 00:30:06.839 --> 00:30:10.180 just Reddit everything. Like you can, and I do, 00:30:10.839 --> 00:30:13.960 but with piercing stuff, I just get scared. It's 00:30:13.960 --> 00:30:17.660 so just like, like I'm a heavily pierced person, 00:30:17.759 --> 00:30:22.680 individual. I have like, I mean, right now with 00:30:22.680 --> 00:30:28.900 my loss, I think I have 14 piercings, but yeah, 00:30:28.960 --> 00:30:30.920 I've had, I have a lot of, I have a good amount 00:30:30.920 --> 00:30:36.769 of piercings. I've like, I feel like I do have 00:30:36.769 --> 00:30:40.410 a pretty good idea of how this stuff works, but 00:30:40.410 --> 00:30:42.690 at the end of the day, I myself am not a piercer, 00:30:42.789 --> 00:30:46.390 so with things like this, I just like to go and 00:30:46.390 --> 00:30:49.470 ask piercers in person, because I just get scared, 00:30:49.549 --> 00:30:52.150 and it's the human body, and I just don't want 00:30:52.150 --> 00:30:54.789 to fuck myself up. But my piercer was telling 00:30:54.789 --> 00:30:57.910 me, she was like, we can take the piercings out 00:30:57.910 --> 00:31:00.170 now, you can let them heal up, we'll re -pierce 00:31:00.170 --> 00:31:02.779 them, but she was like, you should try to start 00:31:02.779 --> 00:31:05.960 training yourself to sleep on your back now, 00:31:06.279 --> 00:31:09.740 so that by the time you get your piercings redone, 00:31:10.160 --> 00:31:13.539 you can sleep on your back, it'll be fine, and 00:31:13.539 --> 00:31:17.779 they'll heal well. Because, like, I'm pretty 00:31:17.779 --> 00:31:19.900 sure, and I don't know why I'm just, like, not 00:31:19.900 --> 00:31:21.859 remembering at this moment, but I think I've 00:31:21.859 --> 00:31:24.640 done this before, because, like, I have my belly 00:31:24.640 --> 00:31:28.799 pierced, and I had to get that pierced twice. 00:31:29.519 --> 00:31:33.099 Because the first time I pierced it, I think 00:31:33.099 --> 00:31:35.480 I was just sleeping on it, and I didn't give 00:31:35.480 --> 00:31:38.180 a fuck, and I was like, who cares? And it's like, 00:31:38.200 --> 00:31:41.119 well, your body does. The body keeps the score, 00:31:41.480 --> 00:31:44.059 honey. And if you sleep on your belly piercing, 00:31:44.279 --> 00:31:47.019 you're gonna fuck it up. It's gonna get infected, 00:31:47.259 --> 00:31:49.839 it's going to, the pressure and the rubbing and 00:31:49.839 --> 00:31:51.980 the moving, it's just not good for a healing 00:31:51.980 --> 00:31:54.460 piercing. So then I had to get it pierced a second 00:31:54.460 --> 00:31:57.099 time, and then, yeah, the second time I got my 00:31:57.099 --> 00:31:59.640 act together, but I don't remember if i was just 00:31:59.640 --> 00:32:02.240 doing a side sleep or if i was sleeping on my 00:32:02.240 --> 00:32:07.720 back because like guys i with these these few 00:32:07.720 --> 00:32:10.180 times that i have tried to fall asleep on my 00:32:10.180 --> 00:32:13.880 back it is legitimately one of the hardest things 00:32:13.880 --> 00:32:20.500 to do it is just terrible and agonizing and so 00:32:20.500 --> 00:32:28.160 fucking painful like genuinely painful Because 00:32:28.160 --> 00:32:31.299 these few nights where I have tried to lay on 00:32:31.299 --> 00:32:34.819 my back and close my eyes and fall asleep I will 00:32:34.819 --> 00:32:39.759 sit there for like an hour and Nothing happens 00:32:39.759 --> 00:32:42.839 and then I just end up giving up and the moment 00:32:42.839 --> 00:32:46.380 I roll over to my side Or I roll over on my stomach. 00:32:46.380 --> 00:32:52.859 I'm out like a light Like it is just so frustrating 00:32:52.859 --> 00:32:56.609 but I have to I really am trying to do it because 00:32:56.609 --> 00:33:01.410 I I Got my I took those two piercings out, right? 00:33:02.289 --> 00:33:08.609 sad day for me, so I was like I need to Do something 00:33:08.609 --> 00:33:12.450 to replenish this in a way so I got another piercing 00:33:12.450 --> 00:33:15.869 Because I was like if I'm losing two, let me 00:33:15.869 --> 00:33:20.890 at least get one today. Let me treat myself So 00:33:20.890 --> 00:33:26.839 there is a chain here called live by the sword 00:33:26.839 --> 00:33:33.039 and They do I pretty sure they do tattoos Am 00:33:33.039 --> 00:33:34.740 I making that up? Maybe they just do piercings. 00:33:34.740 --> 00:33:39.380 I don't know but they do $10 piercings which 00:33:39.380 --> 00:33:43.519 is crazy because The place when I went to school 00:33:43.519 --> 00:33:46.359 in Richmond, Virginia There was a piercer. There 00:33:46.359 --> 00:33:49.319 was a piercing shop called lucky 13 that did 00:33:49.319 --> 00:33:52.779 $20 piercings and everyone went there because 00:33:53.119 --> 00:33:56.039 we were all fresh college students who were like, 00:33:56.279 --> 00:33:59.559 I'm gonna get a piercing and $20 piercings. That's 00:33:59.559 --> 00:34:03.619 like so cheap. I thought that was crazy. $10 00:34:03.619 --> 00:34:06.339 piercings is wild. And they're like, they're 00:34:06.339 --> 00:34:10.039 good. Like I've gotten a few. I think when I 00:34:10.039 --> 00:34:13.219 first moved here, I got two from them and like 00:34:13.219 --> 00:34:16.840 they've healed fine. So I got my third lobe on 00:34:16.840 --> 00:34:20.320 my left ear because my other ear is like pretty 00:34:21.980 --> 00:34:26.739 like blinged out I have maybe like I have like 00:34:26.739 --> 00:34:29.719 seven piercings in that ear so and my other one 00:34:29.719 --> 00:34:31.960 is like a little bit blank so I've been wanting 00:34:31.960 --> 00:34:34.579 to fill that one out so when I took these two 00:34:34.579 --> 00:34:36.000 piercings out I was like let me get a piercing 00:34:36.000 --> 00:34:41.079 let me treat myself whatever and so it would 00:34:41.079 --> 00:34:45.059 just be beneficial with with any piercing anywhere 00:34:45.059 --> 00:34:47.659 to be able to sleep on my back because like even 00:34:47.659 --> 00:34:51.980 sleeping on your side like I have my second lobes 00:34:51.980 --> 00:34:55.179 on each of my ears. I have a little bit of scar 00:34:55.179 --> 00:34:58.539 tissue there from sleeping on them from like 00:34:58.539 --> 00:35:00.219 laying on them and like the pressure and the 00:35:00.219 --> 00:35:03.940 movement and it's fine like it's more so just 00:35:03.940 --> 00:35:06.699 cosmetic that like there's a little bump there 00:35:06.699 --> 00:35:08.500 like it's not like the cutest if you're like 00:35:08.500 --> 00:35:12.559 really staring at my ear. So that's why like 00:35:12.559 --> 00:35:15.099 I just know it would be good for like anything. 00:35:15.929 --> 00:35:19.010 You know piercings on the side piercings on the 00:35:19.010 --> 00:35:22.389 front like You just don't want to sleep directly 00:35:22.389 --> 00:35:24.849 on a piercing. So that's really important that 00:35:24.849 --> 00:35:28.630 I've also thought about it just for like As you 00:35:28.630 --> 00:35:32.570 like I'm always just like I am just the vainest 00:35:32.570 --> 00:35:35.170 person ever So I'm like, oh cuz like I sleep 00:35:35.170 --> 00:35:38.050 on my face usually like whether it's on my side 00:35:38.050 --> 00:35:41.409 or on my stomach like I sleep like this and so 00:35:41.409 --> 00:35:44.409 my my face will be like mushed up and and i just 00:35:44.409 --> 00:35:47.769 think about like fine lines and like eye wrinkles 00:35:47.769 --> 00:35:50.610 and i'm like like people do say like for wrinkles 00:35:50.610 --> 00:35:52.889 and for whatever it is good to not sleep on your 00:35:52.889 --> 00:35:55.710 face obviously because you're not like sleeping 00:35:55.710 --> 00:35:58.289 for eight hours with your face like pushed up 00:35:58.289 --> 00:36:02.230 so i don't know but it's it's just genuinely 00:36:02.230 --> 00:36:05.090 been so difficult um and i don't know if it's 00:36:05.090 --> 00:36:06.510 something that i'm actually going to be able 00:36:06.510 --> 00:36:09.829 to do but it's been something i'm trying i've 00:36:09.829 --> 00:36:13.119 tried and But it's also just like when I'm falling 00:36:13.119 --> 00:36:15.380 asleep, I don't want to do, I don't want to have 00:36:15.380 --> 00:36:17.599 to like run experiments. Like I'm not trying 00:36:17.599 --> 00:36:21.019 to fucking independent variable, dependent variable 00:36:21.019 --> 00:36:24.719 this shit. Like I just want to go to sleep. And 00:36:24.719 --> 00:36:26.659 so the easiest way for me to do that is by sleeping 00:36:26.659 --> 00:36:28.760 on my side or on my stomach. But like, guys, 00:36:28.780 --> 00:36:31.880 I got to lock in because when it's time to get 00:36:31.880 --> 00:36:36.800 my piercings re -pierced, I can't have this go 00:36:36.800 --> 00:36:45.269 wrong. I have to do this the right way. It's 00:36:45.269 --> 00:36:49.469 just a lot but I Just love I love piercings. 00:36:49.489 --> 00:36:54.010 I love I'm not as heavily tattooed. I have six 00:36:54.010 --> 00:36:58.510 tattoos Tattoos are obviously a little bit more 00:36:58.510 --> 00:37:02.650 expensive a little bit more permanent. Um so 00:37:02.650 --> 00:37:04.789 It's just kind of something you have to like 00:37:04.789 --> 00:37:06.349 think about a little bit more with a piercing 00:37:06.349 --> 00:37:10.670 like I love I love going to get a piercing and 00:37:10.670 --> 00:37:14.190 just like The adrenaline and like I never get 00:37:14.190 --> 00:37:18.329 nervous. I only get a little bit nervous like 00:37:18.329 --> 00:37:21.289 Right when they take the needle out like when 00:37:21.289 --> 00:37:22.949 they when they take the needle out and they like 00:37:22.949 --> 00:37:24.829 dot your you know, wherever they're piercing 00:37:24.829 --> 00:37:28.389 and they're like, okay breathe I'm always like, 00:37:28.769 --> 00:37:31.090 oh It's happening. I like get a little scared, 00:37:31.090 --> 00:37:34.190 but then it happens and then it's just like Pain 00:37:34.190 --> 00:37:37.289 for like one second and then it's over and like 00:37:37.289 --> 00:37:39.449 that's how it was. I got my when I got my lobe 00:37:39.449 --> 00:37:44.199 my third lobe The whole process from like walking 00:37:44.199 --> 00:37:46.699 in, filling the waiver out and getting my piercing 00:37:46.699 --> 00:37:50.599 was literally five minutes. And so as soon as 00:37:50.599 --> 00:37:52.239 it was over, I was like, damn, I was like, I 00:37:52.239 --> 00:37:55.739 should have gotten like four. But I do need to 00:37:55.739 --> 00:37:58.619 slow down because there is going to come a point, 00:37:58.960 --> 00:38:03.059 there will be a day where I run out of space 00:38:03.059 --> 00:38:08.260 for places to pierce. And that's gonna be a really 00:38:08.260 --> 00:38:11.699 sad day, guys, because I love. I just love getting 00:38:11.699 --> 00:38:20.639 piercings. It's so much fun. So much fun. I want 00:38:20.639 --> 00:38:24.280 to talk a little bit about how living in New 00:38:24.280 --> 00:38:30.440 York City is making me so aggressive. And I can 00:38:30.440 --> 00:38:33.719 talk about this for hours, but it's just really 00:38:33.719 --> 00:38:35.739 funny and it's really crazy to think about because 00:38:35.739 --> 00:38:41.360 like my whole life I have been The most non -convertational 00:38:41.360 --> 00:38:46.739 person ever like To the point where it's like 00:38:46.739 --> 00:38:49.519 just not good like I used to be a doormat I used 00:38:49.519 --> 00:38:55.260 to fully be Just like I had no backbone like 00:38:55.260 --> 00:38:58.059 I would just let people disrespect me I was like 00:38:58.059 --> 00:39:00.519 very timid very scared. I used to have really 00:39:00.519 --> 00:39:06.119 bad social anxiety growing up Like I was like 00:39:06.119 --> 00:39:09.960 a very like scared little timid little girl and 00:39:09.960 --> 00:39:14.320 now that I've lived here for almost a year like 00:39:14.320 --> 00:39:21.239 I genuinely have gotten to be I have like grown 00:39:21.239 --> 00:39:26.380 this rough exterior but I like kind of love it 00:39:26.380 --> 00:39:28.239 but sometimes I get scared because I'm like I 00:39:28.239 --> 00:39:30.699 don't want to lose like I've always just been 00:39:30.699 --> 00:39:33.340 a very nice like sweet person I don't want to 00:39:33.340 --> 00:39:38.139 lose that and I don't think I will but y 'all 00:39:38.139 --> 00:39:42.880 the way I I am so confrontational now and I am 00:39:42.880 --> 00:39:45.860 so aggressive like Especially when it comes to 00:39:45.860 --> 00:39:48.380 men usually only when it comes to men. I'm not 00:39:48.380 --> 00:39:51.500 even gonna lie because I I was talking earlier 00:39:51.500 --> 00:39:53.099 in this episode about how I hate people staring 00:39:53.099 --> 00:39:57.559 at me and I I deal with that so much like and 00:39:57.559 --> 00:39:59.599 in this neighborhood too that I live in like 00:39:59.599 --> 00:40:03.369 the catcalling and the harassment and All of 00:40:03.369 --> 00:40:05.769 that is the worst that I've ever had to deal 00:40:05.769 --> 00:40:08.230 with in my life, the worst I've ever dealt with 00:40:08.230 --> 00:40:11.869 in New York. Like just genuinely like crazy, 00:40:12.070 --> 00:40:15.150 like terrible. Like I've had men say insane shit 00:40:15.150 --> 00:40:23.769 to me and just go crazy. But it has made me really, 00:40:23.769 --> 00:40:28.670 really, really enjoy yelling at people, screaming 00:40:28.670 --> 00:40:34.730 at people. Just kind of like like I'm constantly 00:40:34.730 --> 00:40:38.369 on guard and it's like really wild like when 00:40:38.369 --> 00:40:43.590 a man is staring at me I have gotten so comfortable 00:40:43.590 --> 00:40:49.110 literally I was in the store the other day and 00:40:49.110 --> 00:40:51.389 This man bless his heart. He low -key wasn't 00:40:51.389 --> 00:40:53.550 even staring at me like that. He literally glanced 00:40:53.550 --> 00:40:56.630 at me for like three seconds. I Literally was 00:40:56.630 --> 00:41:01.550 like what the fuck are you looking at? Unprompted 00:41:01.769 --> 00:41:04.110 I was like, what are you looking at? And he started 00:41:04.110 --> 00:41:06.869 cursing at me. He was like, fuck you, you fuck, 00:41:07.829 --> 00:41:10.550 you bitch. And I like just walked out because 00:41:10.550 --> 00:41:14.690 I was like, I was leaving. But like on my way 00:41:14.690 --> 00:41:18.650 out, I was like, wait, are you staring at me? 00:41:18.949 --> 00:41:21.750 Because let's let's let's wake it up. Let's address 00:41:21.750 --> 00:41:25.530 this really quickly. But like, that's just that 00:41:25.530 --> 00:41:27.230 is crazy to me. Like if you would have told me 00:41:27.230 --> 00:41:31.210 years ago, I would just to random people that 00:41:31.210 --> 00:41:34.630 I don't know, random men, be like, what the fuck 00:41:34.630 --> 00:41:38.309 are you looking at? I would not believe you. 00:41:38.730 --> 00:41:43.969 I do it all the time. I do it all the time to 00:41:43.969 --> 00:41:46.449 the point where if I'm out in public and I think 00:41:46.449 --> 00:41:50.250 a man is staring at me, I'll get ready. I'll 00:41:50.250 --> 00:41:54.289 look at him. I'll glance away. If I see him staring 00:41:54.289 --> 00:41:57.250 at me, I'll look back, double check. To the point 00:41:57.250 --> 00:41:59.590 where like if they say they're looking at me 00:41:59.590 --> 00:42:01.670 But then I look back and then they're like looking 00:42:01.670 --> 00:42:03.750 down or they're whatever like I'll be like, oh 00:42:03.750 --> 00:42:05.230 great They're not staring at me. Like I don't 00:42:05.230 --> 00:42:09.750 have to I don't need to To do all that right 00:42:09.750 --> 00:42:14.690 now, but like I don't mind. I really don't mind 00:42:14.690 --> 00:42:20.889 like I Most days I have the time I've dealt with 00:42:20.889 --> 00:42:24.369 it so much. I remember I was walking. I was walking 00:42:24.369 --> 00:42:31.639 here from the gym And this man was he was turned 00:42:31.639 --> 00:42:34.659 around like getting he was paying for parking 00:42:34.659 --> 00:42:37.019 like at one of those machines and I'm walking 00:42:37.019 --> 00:42:40.280 on the street So he is turned the opposite way. 00:42:40.280 --> 00:42:45.800 He sees me and fully does a 180 degree turn to 00:42:45.800 --> 00:42:49.400 turn to look at me and Is fully staring at me 00:42:49.400 --> 00:42:52.719 and it wasn't a question of like whether he was 00:42:52.719 --> 00:42:56.369 staring at me and like the men here they don't 00:42:56.369 --> 00:43:02.409 have any shame. They will fully like, locked 00:43:02.409 --> 00:43:07.250 eyes, like look at you, stare at you, like they 00:43:07.250 --> 00:43:10.909 don't care. And for me, it's just like, okay, 00:43:10.969 --> 00:43:16.110 like that's rude. It's also annoying, especially 00:43:16.110 --> 00:43:19.130 when they're men, especially when they're like 00:43:19.130 --> 00:43:22.050 50 years old. Cause it's like, I am young enough 00:43:22.050 --> 00:43:25.130 to be your daughter. Don't stare at me. It's 00:43:25.130 --> 00:43:28.460 creepy. It's rude, and guess what? You think 00:43:28.460 --> 00:43:30.260 you can stare at me and make me feel uncomfortable 00:43:30.260 --> 00:43:34.539 and I'm just gonna be like a timid, no. Today 00:43:34.539 --> 00:43:37.719 you're gonna learn a lesson. I am the teacher, 00:43:37.900 --> 00:43:42.420 class is in session. You do not get to do that 00:43:42.420 --> 00:43:46.280 and leave unscathed. So he's like, he's staring 00:43:46.280 --> 00:43:49.820 at me, right? And so I take my AirPod out and 00:43:49.820 --> 00:43:54.739 I'm like, do you have a staring problem? And 00:43:54.739 --> 00:43:57.760 he's like, excuse me? Like he's like caught off 00:43:57.760 --> 00:44:00.300 guard. Cause they don't expect it, right? Like 00:44:00.300 --> 00:44:04.840 they don't think that I'm going to say anything. 00:44:04.920 --> 00:44:06.699 Like they just think that I'm gonna, they're 00:44:06.699 --> 00:44:08.820 gonna stare at me and I'm just gonna be uncomfortable 00:44:08.820 --> 00:44:12.860 and just like walk away. So he's like, excuse 00:44:12.860 --> 00:44:16.340 me? And I was like, do you have a staring problem? 00:44:17.539 --> 00:44:21.639 And this man goes, he goes, I'm looking. Which 00:44:21.639 --> 00:44:25.639 is... a crazy response, like he literally said, 00:44:25.659 --> 00:44:28.780 I don't care. He said, I'm looking at you. What 00:44:28.780 --> 00:44:31.139 are you going to do about it? I was like, well, 00:44:31.440 --> 00:44:34.420 stop looking then. And I like start screaming 00:44:34.420 --> 00:44:38.880 at him. And my favorite thing to do when a man 00:44:38.880 --> 00:44:41.940 is either staring at me or is cat calling me 00:44:41.940 --> 00:44:46.239 or saying some insane shit. When they start talking 00:44:46.239 --> 00:44:52.380 back. running their mouths I love to just start 00:44:52.380 --> 00:44:59.059 screaming like legitimately just like and just 00:44:59.059 --> 00:45:01.880 like scream over them because then it's like 00:45:01.880 --> 00:45:05.920 okay I don't know what you're saying and I'm 00:45:05.920 --> 00:45:09.039 louder than you so it's like you're either gonna 00:45:09.039 --> 00:45:12.000 keep talking and no one is understanding what 00:45:12.000 --> 00:45:15.820 you're saying or you're gonna stop talking and 00:45:15.820 --> 00:45:18.860 they usually just stop Or they just talk shit 00:45:18.860 --> 00:45:23.599 and they're like, you're a bitch! Fuck you! And 00:45:23.599 --> 00:45:29.119 I'm like, aww. You think that hurts my feelings? 00:45:33.880 --> 00:45:36.480 My own mother called me a bitch at like 13, so 00:45:36.480 --> 00:45:40.840 I don't really care. Nothing you can say can 00:45:40.840 --> 00:45:46.219 hurt my feelings. Yeah, but I just... I literally 00:45:46.219 --> 00:45:49.440 am so aggressive and so confrontational to men. 00:45:52.219 --> 00:45:55.760 I love it. I love it. It's like my favorite thing 00:45:55.760 --> 00:46:00.059 about dealing with these men is I don't care 00:46:00.059 --> 00:46:07.380 anymore. I don't care. I will so fast be like, 00:46:07.480 --> 00:46:09.300 do you have a staring problem? What are you looking 00:46:09.300 --> 00:46:12.039 at? Or my favorite thing is when a man is staring 00:46:12.039 --> 00:46:14.960 at me, I literally will just be like, hi. Hello. 00:46:15.000 --> 00:46:17.440 because they always get caught off guard they're 00:46:17.440 --> 00:46:22.000 like oh like oh hi hi like yeah what are you 00:46:22.000 --> 00:46:24.340 are you just gonna stare at me and be rude are 00:46:24.340 --> 00:46:27.400 you gonna say something like I don't understand 00:46:27.400 --> 00:46:35.960 that I do not understand that so weird so incredibly 00:46:35.960 --> 00:46:41.139 weird and so annoying they're so annoying I have 00:46:41.139 --> 00:46:44.179 to deal with like Have to deal with them so much. 00:46:44.179 --> 00:46:50.019 It's like really agitating And I mean this is 00:46:50.019 --> 00:46:54.340 something that will come up a lot cuz I It's 00:46:54.340 --> 00:46:57.320 just such a big part of my life but like I Love 00:46:57.320 --> 00:46:59.719 being mean to men and I think you should always 00:46:59.719 --> 00:47:02.780 be mean to them like cuz I don't I'm not gonna 00:47:02.780 --> 00:47:05.960 give a man the benefit of the doubt Cuz why would 00:47:05.960 --> 00:47:16.860 I do that? So I lead with aggression. And then 00:47:16.860 --> 00:47:18.400 it's like, if you actually are going to be nice, 00:47:18.400 --> 00:47:20.380 or you have something of substance to say, it's 00:47:20.380 --> 00:47:22.300 like, okay, we can we can go from there. But 00:47:22.300 --> 00:47:24.840 like, it's usually not anything. It's usually 00:47:24.840 --> 00:47:28.739 just men bothering me, and talking and saying 00:47:28.739 --> 00:47:32.820 nothing. And just being annoying. I hate when 00:47:32.820 --> 00:47:34.639 I'm walking home like at night and a man's like, 00:47:34.659 --> 00:47:37.840 good night. Good night, beautiful. Like, who 00:47:37.840 --> 00:47:44.250 are you? Why are you talking to me? Good morning! 00:47:45.170 --> 00:47:53.250 Hello, good mor - Hi? Like the fuck? Is there 00:47:53.250 --> 00:47:59.710 a reason that you're talking? To me? Have a good 00:47:59.710 --> 00:48:03.389 day! My day was good until a man started talking. 00:48:04.610 --> 00:48:11.329 Be quiet, and then I would have a good day. I 00:48:11.329 --> 00:48:14.650 don't understand what's... what's hard to understand 00:48:14.650 --> 00:48:19.710 about that. Okay, lastly, I'm gonna talk about, 00:48:19.769 --> 00:48:23.750 we're gonna talk about dating apps a little bit. 00:48:24.289 --> 00:48:29.489 Just a little bit, because I have been on them. 00:48:31.570 --> 00:48:37.389 When I first got here to New York, I immediately 00:48:37.389 --> 00:48:40.829 got on them, because I was like, I'm so excited 00:48:40.829 --> 00:48:46.119 to see what, hinge and what bumble sorry and 00:48:46.119 --> 00:48:49.260 what all of those things are like in new york 00:48:49.260 --> 00:48:54.199 because in virginia or in like i feel like any 00:48:54.199 --> 00:48:56.460 other place like i would always i would like 00:48:56.460 --> 00:48:59.039 download and redownload whatever these apps and 00:48:59.039 --> 00:49:03.179 i would just see the same people the same people 00:49:03.179 --> 00:49:08.329 um because You know, you're just in such a there's 00:49:08.329 --> 00:49:10.110 just not that many people, right? So I was just 00:49:10.110 --> 00:49:12.130 like always seeing the same people everyone was 00:49:12.130 --> 00:49:14.449 unattractive I was like there's just there has 00:49:14.449 --> 00:49:17.349 to be better And so I moved here. I got on the 00:49:17.349 --> 00:49:19.909 dating apps and I quickly realized that it's 00:49:19.909 --> 00:49:25.829 not better um, and It's almost exactly the same 00:49:25.829 --> 00:49:28.349 here as it would be anyone else. The only difference 00:49:28.349 --> 00:49:32.030 is that obviously there's just so many more people 00:49:32.030 --> 00:49:37.489 so it's It's the same experience just to a larger 00:49:37.489 --> 00:49:40.050 degree like you just have more people to like 00:49:40.050 --> 00:49:44.090 swipe through but like I Mean there are more 00:49:44.090 --> 00:49:47.530 attractive people that live in New York. I feel 00:49:47.530 --> 00:49:50.650 like compared to other places Yes, just again 00:49:50.650 --> 00:49:52.130 because of the sheer amount of people that live 00:49:52.130 --> 00:49:55.289 here, but there's just as many like unattractive 00:49:55.289 --> 00:49:57.329 people There's just as many weird people. There's 00:49:57.329 --> 00:50:00.030 just as many like whatever and like I also feel 00:50:00.030 --> 00:50:07.170 like with attract Got scared. I thought I just 00:50:07.170 --> 00:50:08.630 turned my microphone off, but I don't think I 00:50:08.630 --> 00:50:12.389 did um with attractive people that live here 00:50:12.389 --> 00:50:16.730 Yeah, it's just I don't know like people can 00:50:16.730 --> 00:50:19.429 just be clout chasey like New York is just an 00:50:19.429 --> 00:50:22.849 interesting place because everyone wants to be 00:50:22.849 --> 00:50:29.590 someone and it's just whatever but I I Got on 00:50:29.590 --> 00:50:32.170 dating apps right when I got here went on a couple 00:50:32.170 --> 00:50:38.619 dates that's in quotation marks, dates, had just 00:50:38.619 --> 00:50:41.940 a terrible, had terrible experiences. And then 00:50:41.940 --> 00:50:43.179 I was like, I don't want to do this anymore. 00:50:43.519 --> 00:50:45.699 So then I wasn't on them for a really long time. 00:50:45.800 --> 00:50:47.940 And then very recently, maybe like a month or 00:50:47.940 --> 00:50:54.539 so ago, I got back on. And it's terrible. It's 00:50:54.539 --> 00:51:01.170 terrible, obviously. And I just like... I just 00:51:01.170 --> 00:51:05.230 like can't date like it's just like I get so 00:51:05.230 --> 00:51:09.010 annoyed so easily I get so irritated I don't 00:51:09.010 --> 00:51:14.909 have the patience and especially when it comes 00:51:14.909 --> 00:51:23.849 to men they're just like they're just like interesting 00:51:23.849 --> 00:51:27.650 and I really can't do it and I really hate dating 00:51:27.650 --> 00:51:30.880 apps too because Feel like we live in a time 00:51:30.880 --> 00:51:35.960 where people really it's a lot easier to like 00:51:35.960 --> 00:51:40.119 Manufacture a feeling of closeness with someone 00:51:40.119 --> 00:51:45.239 With technology and people really try to do that 00:51:45.239 --> 00:51:48.900 with dating and I don't like that at all I don't 00:51:48.900 --> 00:51:53.099 like that at all. I matched with this man a few 00:51:53.099 --> 00:51:57.739 days ago And also like for me to even like for 00:51:57.739 --> 00:52:01.119 me to even like someone on a dating app. It's 00:52:01.119 --> 00:52:04.280 it takes a lot I remember I was I was with my 00:52:04.280 --> 00:52:06.400 friend. I was staying the night at her place 00:52:06.400 --> 00:52:09.659 and we She was like, oh can we like go through 00:52:09.659 --> 00:52:11.159 your hinge or go through your bumble together? 00:52:11.199 --> 00:52:12.940 I was like, yeah, she's in a relationship. She 00:52:12.940 --> 00:52:17.380 was like, I'm just so like curious and She was 00:52:17.380 --> 00:52:19.900 holding it and she was she was swiping through 00:52:19.900 --> 00:52:23.889 their profile and like being like okay tell me 00:52:23.889 --> 00:52:27.730 when to swipe left or whatever y 'all we did 00:52:27.730 --> 00:52:31.190 this for like 30 minutes it was i literally and 00:52:31.190 --> 00:52:34.389 it doesn't take like i can half a second look 00:52:34.389 --> 00:52:40.989 through a profile no we we swiped for 30 minutes 00:52:40.989 --> 00:52:44.030 i did not swipe right once i did not send that 00:52:44.030 --> 00:52:47.150 like once and i'm not even saying this to like 00:52:47.150 --> 00:52:50.030 try to flex or like sound cool like this is just 00:52:50.030 --> 00:52:54.090 the reality like i'm just Don't know. I'm just 00:52:54.090 --> 00:52:57.309 like I'm really picky. But I also just like I 00:52:57.309 --> 00:52:59.170 just like know what I thought I know what I don't 00:52:59.170 --> 00:53:02.570 want and like Again, I just get cringed out. 00:53:02.570 --> 00:53:07.869 So like anyways, I did match with this man and 00:53:07.869 --> 00:53:11.349 Match we like said hi or whatever and I said 00:53:11.349 --> 00:53:13.829 something where I was like was like, oh I just 00:53:13.829 --> 00:53:16.309 got off work Like I'm so excited to lay down 00:53:16.309 --> 00:53:18.369 like whatever like just trying to make conversation 00:53:18.369 --> 00:53:23.510 This man responds to me and he goes He goes, 00:53:23.769 --> 00:53:27.050 okay, can we skip all of this like He was like 00:53:27.050 --> 00:53:29.849 he said let's just skip all of this. Do you want 00:53:29.849 --> 00:53:33.570 to get married? Yes or no or like can I marry 00:53:33.570 --> 00:53:42.889 you? Yes or no or some shit like that? Who are 00:53:42.889 --> 00:53:47.809 you talking to? Who the fuck are you talking 00:53:47.809 --> 00:53:51.570 to? I don't like that. I do not like that. I 00:53:51.570 --> 00:53:54.630 don't find that attractive. Also, for me to be 00:53:54.630 --> 00:53:56.789 saying, for me to be trying to make conversation 00:53:56.789 --> 00:53:59.550 and you're like, you're like, all right, let's 00:53:59.550 --> 00:54:03.329 skip all of that. You want to get like the, all 00:54:03.329 --> 00:54:06.590 of this in question that you want to skip is 00:54:06.590 --> 00:54:09.369 me literally talking. So you just told me to 00:54:09.369 --> 00:54:13.309 shut the fuck up. That's what I took away. You 00:54:13.309 --> 00:54:17.369 literally, he told me to shut up. Like I can't 00:54:17.369 --> 00:54:20.429 get over that for me to be making conversation 00:54:20.429 --> 00:54:24.949 and you're like let's skip all of this So are 00:54:24.949 --> 00:54:29.570 you telling me to be quiet like what? You just 00:54:29.570 --> 00:54:32.730 told me to be you just told me to shut up. He 00:54:32.730 --> 00:54:41.630 just told me to shut my fat -ass mouth Let's 00:54:41.630 --> 00:54:44.250 skip all of this can we get married yes or no 00:54:45.440 --> 00:54:49.539 You know, I don't like that. That's not attractive 00:54:49.539 --> 00:54:55.360 to me and I I fear Sometimes when I do interact 00:54:55.360 --> 00:55:00.820 with men that are just like attractive like They 00:55:00.820 --> 00:55:03.980 don't have any game and I think it's because 00:55:03.980 --> 00:55:07.000 a lot of them They have interacted with girls 00:55:07.000 --> 00:55:09.340 in the past and they haven't had to really do 00:55:09.340 --> 00:55:12.780 anything or haven't had to like curate a personality 00:55:12.780 --> 00:55:17.050 because they're just attractive and I think like 00:55:17.050 --> 00:55:19.050 I've just interacted with so many men recently 00:55:19.050 --> 00:55:21.809 where I'm like okay I feel like girls have swooned 00:55:21.809 --> 00:55:25.670 over you from saying some like basic shit or 00:55:25.670 --> 00:55:30.010 some dumb shit honestly and so you think that 00:55:30.010 --> 00:55:33.750 that's like cool and it's actually not I'm actually 00:55:33.750 --> 00:55:37.110 not impressed and I need you to like say something 00:55:37.110 --> 00:55:40.269 with like a little bit more like be fucking charismatic 00:55:40.269 --> 00:55:45.920 be like be funny be something like It's not enough 00:55:45.920 --> 00:55:50.039 to just be attractive It's really not because 00:55:50.039 --> 00:55:57.239 I am Very attractive and I'm not Just that like 00:55:57.239 --> 00:56:01.780 Do you have a joke? Do you want to like do like? 00:56:02.460 --> 00:56:06.000 Do more and I don't I do not like I don't like 00:56:06.000 --> 00:56:08.780 the weird like I don't like I don't want to use 00:56:08.780 --> 00:56:10.840 the word love bombing because I don't even really 00:56:10.840 --> 00:56:15.820 I like it's love bombing adjacent where it's 00:56:15.820 --> 00:56:18.420 just like I literally haven't even met you we 00:56:18.420 --> 00:56:22.400 have not texted anything and you're like let's 00:56:22.400 --> 00:56:24.980 just get married like am I supposed to find that 00:56:24.980 --> 00:56:30.780 cute I don't and so yeah I never responded to 00:56:30.780 --> 00:56:33.820 that I was just I'm just like I'm never talking 00:56:33.820 --> 00:56:37.539 to you because you told me to shut up so we have 00:56:37.539 --> 00:56:42.699 nothing to talk about And I just hate that. I 00:56:42.699 --> 00:56:45.739 just hate it. And men are just so, like, scared. 00:56:46.340 --> 00:56:48.219 And just, like, don't match with me and then 00:56:48.219 --> 00:56:51.659 be on some weird shit of, like... Another man 00:56:51.659 --> 00:56:59.119 was like... He was like, send me a selfie. And 00:56:59.119 --> 00:57:03.199 so I blocked him. Because... What do you think 00:57:03.199 --> 00:57:05.679 this is? Who do you think you are to where you're 00:57:05.679 --> 00:57:09.119 gonna get, like, your own personal photo of me? 00:57:11.849 --> 00:57:19.909 Try again send you a self EW! EW! I'm literally 00:57:19.909 --> 00:57:24.670 throwing up It's it's like like really cringy. 00:57:24.670 --> 00:57:35.070 It's really gross I don't like it, and I also 00:57:35.070 --> 00:57:38.210 think this is honestly we're getting to the point 00:57:38.210 --> 00:57:42.539 where I need to bring this to a close, but I've 00:57:42.539 --> 00:57:44.139 been seeing a lot of people talk about this, 00:57:44.320 --> 00:57:46.519 and I literally just saw this this morning, and 00:57:46.519 --> 00:57:51.820 I was on hinge, I was swiping through. Men are 00:57:51.820 --> 00:57:55.079 always on some weird shit where they're like, 00:57:55.559 --> 00:57:57.619 I go crazy, you know the hinge prompts, like 00:57:57.619 --> 00:58:00.219 I go crazy for, or I really like, or blah, blah, 00:58:00.320 --> 00:58:02.900 blah, blah, blah. So many men are always like, 00:58:03.380 --> 00:58:09.960 I want a girl who's slightly autistic. Y 'all 00:58:09.960 --> 00:58:13.900 are telling on yourselves so hard. It's always 00:58:13.900 --> 00:58:19.460 It's always I want a girl who's slightly autistic 00:58:19.460 --> 00:58:25.920 or a little bit on the spectrum First like I 00:58:25.920 --> 00:58:29.780 Know what you are. I know what you are. I know 00:58:29.780 --> 00:58:31.719 who you are I know what you're trying to do and 00:58:31.719 --> 00:58:35.019 we know why it's always slightly you You want 00:58:35.019 --> 00:58:37.239 a girl that's slightly on the spectrum because 00:58:37.239 --> 00:58:39.400 you think it's cute and you want to romanticize 00:58:39.400 --> 00:58:41.619 it or sexualize it or whatever because men literally 00:58:41.619 --> 00:58:43.800 have to sexualize everything. You don't want 00:58:43.800 --> 00:58:46.079 a girl who's just autistic. You want a girl who's 00:58:46.079 --> 00:58:48.760 slightly autistic or a little bit on the spectrum 00:58:48.760 --> 00:58:52.659 because it still needs to be digestible and palatable 00:58:52.659 --> 00:58:56.800 for you. Do you understand what I'm saying? Do 00:58:56.800 --> 00:59:02.300 we see what's happening here? I want a girl who's 00:59:02.300 --> 00:59:08.639 on Prozac. No, you don't. No, you don't, and 00:59:08.639 --> 00:59:11.400 why are you actively seeking out women who have 00:59:11.400 --> 00:59:21.199 depression? That's weird. That's weird. I could 00:59:21.199 --> 00:59:25.139 talk about this all day, but we are unfortunately 00:59:25.139 --> 00:59:28.820 running out of time. So I will see you guys in 00:59:28.820 --> 00:59:32.760 the next episode. hope you enjoyed hope you have 00:59:32.760 --> 00:59:40.639 a great rest of your day um yeah see you in episode 00:59:40.639 --> 00:59:50.780 three bye why did i say bye like that bye i said 00:59:50.780 --> 00:59:51.199 it again