Hi, guys. Welcome to episode two of the Almost
Living podcast. Woo! Woohoo! Episode two. Welcome.
How is everyone? I hope you're doing great. I'm
doing pretty good. We're just going to jump right
into it. I want to start off by saying I slept
for 13 hours last night. So, yeah. This is the
face of a girl who slept for 13 hours. I went
to bed at like low -key like 8 or 9 p .m. So
that's definitely why I was just really tired
because I was hungover yesterday and then I worked
and I was just like, I was just really tired.
So I passed out and then I woke up this morning
at like 8 and I was like, wow, rise and shine.
Some a few little housekeeping things as far
as the podcast goes First episode I went Sorry
for the street noise we're gonna talk about that
as well first episode I talked for like 10 minutes
about all of the podcasts that I enjoy and all
of that which I'm sure was just the most riveting
Content ever but I did forget to mention one
podcast So I did want to say that because I was
watching it back and I was like girl. What the
fuck? It's the I am the devil podcast and that's
been I like go through I'll have like a few podcasts
that I really enjoy at a time. I am the devil
is Has been in my constant It's been in my current
Shit, okay? I thoroughly enjoy it, and that's
what I recently have been listening to a lot.
It's basically a rewatch podcast for the show
Vanderpump Rules. If you've never seen it, it
is one of the best reality TV shows ever. And
I love reality TV. It is an amazing show, but
that's not what this is about. Just wanted to
mention it because I love their podcast and I
wanted to give them a proper shout out and I
just like Watch Vanderpump rules, but also listen
to their podcast because it's hilarious And then
another thing Last episode I made an empty promise
and I was like It wasn't a promise. I said it
that I said verbatim. I did not want to make
any promises, but I you know the background noise
is a thing i live on a street so there is often
noise there are cars whatever and i was like
oh i'm gonna try to you know clear all that out
i'll see whatever that did not end up happening
and it did not happen not because i did not try
really hard and not because i don't care i put
in so much time so I will just say this. We don't
need to spend so much time talking about this.
The first episode of the podcast, I forgot that
I had my camera settings to record in 4K and
in 60 frames per second, which I'm pretty sure
is the highest quality you can record anything
in as far as iPhones go. So... For the video
to be in 4k and for it to be an hour long it
was 17 gigabytes it was a massive video and so
trying to Edit and trying to send the video Anywhere
or do literally anything with it was nearly impossible
because of how large the video was and I spent
hours trying to Run the video through several
different programs to get rid of the background
noise and it just wasn't working because the
video was just too big And I didn't realize that
until toying around with it for like six hours
at least And so it's it's been a journey and
I've I've learned I've I've learned lessons in
just this past week of like just with getting
this podcast like up and running. Because like
I said, I started this podcast two years ago.
I have started and stopped and started and stopped
too many times to count. And when I first started
the podcast, I was only doing audio version.
So it was so easy. Like I would literally just
go to my voice memo app, record a memo, and then
I would just upload it. And that was it. Like
there was virtually no work. But this time around
with my podcast, I was like, I want to do a visual
because sometimes you just want to look at something.
And who doesn't want to look at my beautiful
face as I'm speaking? So I was like, that could
be really fun. And so it's just a little bit
more work because now obviously I have to record
the video and then I have to upload two separate
things. I upload the video and then I extract
the audio and then I upload that and whatever.
And it's like, Honestly still pretty easy because
with podcasting it's no like true editing Which
I like video editing, I think it's really fun,
but that would be a lot of work for an hour long
video so as of now we're not doing that but um,
it was it was just a lot guys like And I also
don't have a computer I have my phone so I'm
doing it all on my phone and like it was just
so many hours spent just like Trying to upload
a video to a certain Program and waiting and
like watching it load up and like sitting there
and then it getting Almost there and then just
crashing and being like sorry error Sorry, we
can't do it and I was like Okay, I'm going to
literally Do something very bad soon But yeah,
long story short the last video I did not edit
the sound Once I figured out how to downsize
the video and actually was able to like Move
it around and do things with it. I was like,
I'm over it. I just need to get this up. So yeah
There's that Hopefully moving forward I can now
that I know not to record in for fucking K Hopefully
it'll be a little bit easier and that won't happen.
But yeah, um also loving loving just the support
loving people in my life like loving my friends
like it's been wild this past week like literally
just the people in my life like being like seeing
me and being like hey I was listening to your
podcast while I was like driving or I was listening
to your podcast while I was cleaning my room
or I watched your video and I was like oh my
god this is crazy But like so like it really
is warming my cold dead heart That anyone is
like taking time out of their day to like even
if for 10 minutes 20 minutes, whatever the whole
thing That's just like really cool and really
great That anyone like cares enough or like wants
to take the time to like check something out
that i'm doing so that's been fun also i have
a latte i got a dirty chai um with vanilla so
so good i i've really been flexing my dirty chai
muscle recently i got my first one like of the
season maybe like it was last month um Had my
first sip I was like, wow I think that was my
first dirty chai honestly because I've gotten
chai before and I've tried dirty matcha But I
think that was my first time getting a dirty
chai and I was like this is life -changing It
just like it tastes like fall it's so good But
yeah Thanks, guys. Thanks for listening to the
podcast. I don't know what I want to start with.
I think we should talk. This is just a very quick
little funny little wild thing. I was thrifting
maybe a week, week and a half ago. Love to thrift.
I love, I love thrifting. like not even truly
the act of thrifting because thrifting does kind
of stress me the fuck out um because it's not
necessarily like fun per se you kind of have
to like clock in like it's a job like i don't
play around and i low key don't like thrifting
with people like i can thrift with like good
friends but if we're going out and thrifting
like i'm thrifting i want i'm i'm popping in
a headphone i'm I'm clocked in like I'm not gonna
be chatting and giggling and talk. No No, I have
to be silent. I need to be like So focused because
I don't play I love fashion. I love clothes and
Thrifting it like it's like it's not a joke.
It's not a game. It's like I'm here To come out
with a bag full of shit and I don't care what
I have to do whose toes I need to step on like
This is not This is you know, like I'm this is
Real life shit. So I was thrifting the other
the other day In Bushwick We're like all the
all the good thrifting is in Brooklyn, but like
especially like in the bush like I don't know
There's just a lot of good stuff out there I'm
thrifting. I'm chilling. I I'm looking at this
sweater, right? I See the sweater. I'm like,
oh, this is kind of cute. So I pick it up and
I have my air pods in I look up I glance up and
I notice this girl who's maybe like 10 feet away
is like really staring at me And I'm like, okay,
like, what's going on? Because I don't like,
I don't, and no one likes being stared at. It's,
it makes me actually really angry and we can
talk about it, but like, I get triggered when
people are staring at me. With women, it usually
doesn't happen. It's the men that piss me off,
but that's for, that's another whole other discussion.
But she's like staring at me. And so I'm like,
all right. What's going on? I'm like, I'm like
shuffling like I have all these items. I'm like
kind of organizing them She's still looking at
me. So I take my air pods out and she's like
kind of getting closer I take my air pods out
and I'm like, hi and She's like hi. Um, she was
like I was looking at that sweater, too And I
was like, oh Okay And I like I I think I like
awkwardly was like, oh, sorry But then I just
like didn't say cuz it's like why would you do
that? Why would you say that? I Never Why would
you say that? truthfully I Was looking at that
sweater too. Okay Am I supposed to give it to
you? Like I don't care that you were looking
at it. It's in my hand. I Have it. It's mine
Like what? So she's like, yeah, I was looking
at that sweater too. I was like, okay Um, and
then I walk away. I'm like continuing shopping.
I'm like, what the fuck I Keep looking at I was
like looking at the sweater and then I was like
low -key like this is kind of ugly like I don't
really want it so me being just like the kind
soul that I am, I was like, I'm going to go find
this girl and give her the sweater. And so I'm
like turning around to go like see where she's
at and I see her. And then before I can even
say anything, before I can even be like, oh,
here, I'm going to give this to you because I
don't want it. She comes over to me before I
can even open my mouth. She's like, she's like,
oh, yeah, I was actually just going to ask if
I can have the sweater. And I was like, yeah,
sure. Cause I didn't want it. So I gave it to
her and she's like, thanks. And then she walked
away. But like, is that not the craziest shit
ever? I have done so much thrifting in my life.
Like I started thrifting like maybe 16. I'm 23
now. That's seven years. I've been thrifting
for a little bit. A good portion of my life.
I've thrifted. In Virginia, I've thrifted all
over. Never have I ever been thrifting and had
someone come up to me and be like, I was looking
at that to something that I have in my hand.
Don't do that. Guys, don't do that. That's like
really awkward and uncomfortable. Luckily, I
didn't want the sweater, but like if I wanted
this like what were you gonna do about it? You're
gonna take it for me like I Just thought that
was very bizarre Very bizarre don't do that Just
so awkward anyways um I'm also scared guys because
I So I have been I have started taking pole classes
recently As recent as like I think my first one
is maybe three two three weeks ago So much fun
so much fun pole is like been something that
I've always been Interested in or not always
but like I feel like in college like I started
thinking about it just as like because I like
working out and It just it always looks so fun
and I always knew I was like that looks like
that takes so much strength like And so I've
started taking them here and I've done I've done
like beginner just like pull like learning tricks
and then I've also done What other class I've
done another one I don't really remember it's
not coming to me right now, but did one three
days ago now it was it was pole conditioning
which basically is like you know any conditioning
class you're doing you're doing like exercises
to like specific exercises to build the strength
that you need in order to do certain pull tricks
and I did that a few days ago and y 'all I My
entire body I felt like I got hit by a truck
sore literally everywhere head to toe Head to
toe because we're doing like just so many different
So many different things but like a lot of it
is just like Learning how to hold yourself on
the pole while doing different things while like
Sorry while like lifting your legs and like Just
having to lift your whole body and like doing
shit and toward like oh My god, but I'm the reason
why I'm scared is because I have another one
today In like five hours, and I'm still like
The soreness isn't as bad as it's been. I actually
feel a lot better, but I'm really scared I'm
gonna get there and just not be able to do anything
because my body is still recovering. What was
I thinking doing another conditioning class four
days after the last? I thought that it would
be enough time, but I'm scared as fuck. I feel
dead. That shit was so hard but like so good
and it's been really fun and I'm just like I'm
so excited to like keep doing it and like You
know, maybe a few months from now like I'm just
gonna be doing crazy shit on the pole like that's
really fun, but I do The classes are already
adding up like they're only $30 a class, but
like I've already done like four so it's like
oh That is money, but I don't know. I'm gonna
keep doing it cuz it's it's very rare that I
like I just need to get into hobbies like That
is something I'm always like trying to do and
I feel like in high school and college like I've
just always always go back to this like issue
in my life where I'm like I don't have like consistent
hobbies and like consistent things that I'm doing
that are bringing me joy so it's like when I
do find something like that like I have to hold
on to it so yeah that's been a new fun development
these like the the not that I ever didn't respect
pole dancers or you know, whatever the case but
so much respect like it is actually one of the
hardest things ever and It takes so much strength
So yeah, hopefully I mean I'm gonna go like I
can't I can't get a refund or transfer the class
So like I'm gonna I'm gonna be there. I'm just
like really hoping that my body can do it We'll
see We will see Yesterday I was on my way to
work and You know like Sometimes you get on the
train and it's air -conditioned and it's like
blasting and it feels really nice I Was going
to work yesterday And I got on the train and
it was one of those trains where it's like not
only not not only was like the air -conditioning
just like not like Really hitting like there
was just none. There was no AC. It was hot There's
nothing worse than stepping onto a hot train
and y 'all I got on that train and I sit down
and I was like It smelled nasty. I was like what
the fuck what is happening on this train? I Look
up and over this man is eating an egg sandwich
on the train It was too early. It literally pissed
me off. I I waited until we got to the next stop
and I wasn't even like I Wasn't even interested
in going into the next car Like I was like no
this this hot egg sandwich shit just pissed me
clean off I just got off the train and just waited
for the next one and luckily I waited for the
next one the next one was air -conditioned and
it did not smell like hot egg That's wild I I
eat on the, I've eaten on the train. I've had
snacks, you know, I'll eat something like, but
like people who pop out whole meals, some girl
one time had a whole like fried fish platter.
I was like, clean, girl, girl. That is so inconsiderate.
I'm so sorry. And I'm not even like, It's not
even me just being an annoying vegan like I don't
no one wants to smell your fish fish and an enclosed
space with Non consenting individuals is crazy.
I don't want to smell your fish or your eggs
What that's like opening like sardines on a plane
like some things you just don't do It was crazy
and I was and I was Hell over I was like, I'm
not I cannot smell egg right now. I just can't
I'm really sorry all sorry for the gross coughing
and like Throat noises I'm like recovering from
something. I don't really know what it was but
Like almost a week ago a few days ago. I was
experiencing just terrible congestion and that's
really it like Just congestion Like a few days
ago. I couldn't breathe at all out of my nose
and it was so Frustrating because for the first
half of the day I was fine like like I was definitely
congested but like I could still breathe I could
still smell whatever and then it was this weird
thing where it just flipped like the second half
of the day My breathing just like turned off.
I was like literally like like couldn't was breathing
like a French Bulldog like just just just terrible
and I was so frustrated too because I Worked
and then I got home from work and I had so much
food but I was like I Couldn't breathe which
means I couldn't smell so I couldn't taste And
so I got home from work and I literally was like
I'm not eating like I'm just not to me Don't
see any point in eating food if I can't taste
it like I get like sustenance and all that stupid
shit, but like I For me eating. I'm I'm a foodie.
Okay. I just love to eat. I love food. I love
taste I love the enjoyment and the dopamine that
I get from eating good food. I Was like I'm not
I don't see the point in eating like I was like
I'm just gonna save all of this for another day
when I can taste because I'm not about to just
chew and it's like I can't even I don't even
know what it is I'm having like I'm not there
are flavor profiles that I'm looking forward
to right now and I can't have it I was so sad
so I just had miso soup and I couldn't taste
it I was just like like I could taste that it
was salty but like I couldn't actually like taste
anything it was terrible so now I'm just like
I'm recovering and I'm feeling and sounding a
lot better surprisingly because I feel like I
don't even sound that great right now but like
before it was literally like horse like I sounded
I sounded like Miley Cyrus you know like just
so like or like who's that guy um Steve -O it
was giving Steve -O vibes I was it was just not
good Still congested It's really annoying um
Well to talk about next um I Have I Have been
embarking on a journey recently and The journey
is that I am trying to train myself to become
a back sleeper Yeah Yeah, um, and I'm sure you're
probably wondering Kaylin why the fuck would
you do that? Um, and that's a great question
Because I would never do this For just no reason
ever because I am a side sleeper and a stomach
sleeper Unfortunately till I die. It's just so
comfortable. It's just the way that I'm wired.
I genuinely feel like the position that you sleep
in is it has to be genetic it has to be because
like I've only known one person in my life who
is a back sleeper and it was this girl that I
used to be really good friends with in elementary
school and back sleeping is so rare to me like
you don't come across it a lot because I used
to be freaked out like I remember I invited her
to my sleepover for like my birthday party and
Mm -hmm. Me just being terrible. Me and my, like,
other friends, she fell asleep first, right?
And we were all, like, not making fun of her,
but we were, like, scared. We were, like, oh,
my God, it's so creepy. Like, she's sleeping
on her back. Like, what's wrong with this chick?
Like, it looks crazy. Being a back sleeper looks
crazy. It looks like you're just, like, I don't
know, like... Ready for the morgue. Like why
are you on your back like that? But anyways,
I am trying to become a back sleeper because
I I just have a lot of piercings and I What the
fuck can I like finish can I like why am I Me
getting annoyed with myself Um, it takes me literally
20 years to say something that would take just
10 seconds. Why I'm like, um, so okay, I The
other day and by the other day, I mean like Two
weeks ago I had to get two piercings removed.
It was a loss you guys and I'm getting them repierced,
but it was these two piercings that I had and
Over like they were pierced at an angle and then
over time from sleeping on them they just moved
to a position that I was not fucking with and
so I Was like, okay And this is also something
that I've had to like come to terms with over
the course of months because I peeped this shit
in February I peeped it in February and I started
crashing out cuz I was like I was like I just
don't like how this looks and I remember Whatever
so yeah, this has been something that I haven't
noticed but I didn't want to come to I was like
I don't want to have to take these piercings
out and then wait a long ass time For them to
close and heal and then get them reappears like
I don't want to do it So I was like, maybe I'm
maybe this is something I just need to like radically
accept and then fast forward from February to
September The radical acceptance isn't working
like I just don't like it so I was like, okay
Let's just fucking bite the bullet and do what
I know I've been needing to do And just take
these out and wait and get them repierced like
let's just do it. So I went to a piercer I like
scheduled a consultation at this like nice piercing
place because I was like I need the opinions
of experienced professionals and Yeah, this piercer
told me because I've Everyone that I asked all
the piercings that I asked were like, yeah, cuz
I've had this these piercings for like four or
five years It's been a while. So whenever I asked
a piercer like hey, how long would I have to
take them out to get them? Repierced they were
like you're gonna have to leave them out for
one to two years because you've had them for
so long and blah blah blah Which is obviously
not what I want to hear and not what I want to
do Because it's like if I have to take a piercing
out for one to two like what's the point of like
that's such a long time But I went to this piercer
and they were like they were like, oh when you
get she was like we could take them out today
and You know in two to three months when you
get them repierced with us and I was like Two
to three months Two to three months That sounds
a little like yeah, I like the sound of that
two to three months I can do. But yeah, I basically,
what am I, why have I been literally been talking
for so long about this? Basically, I got my piercings
taken out and I was just asking her a bunch of
questions about whatever, because I was like,
now that you're here, now that I've got this
piercer in my possession, I need to get all these
questions answered, because it's like, you can't
just Reddit everything. Like you can, and I do,
but with piercing stuff, I just get scared. It's
so just like, like I'm a heavily pierced person,
individual. I have like, I mean, right now with
my loss, I think I have 14 piercings, but yeah,
I've had, I have a lot of, I have a good amount
of piercings. I've like, I feel like I do have
a pretty good idea of how this stuff works, but
at the end of the day, I myself am not a piercer,
so with things like this, I just like to go and
ask piercers in person, because I just get scared,
and it's the human body, and I just don't want
to fuck myself up. But my piercer was telling
me, she was like, we can take the piercings out
now, you can let them heal up, we'll re -pierce
them, but she was like, you should try to start
training yourself to sleep on your back now,
so that by the time you get your piercings redone,
you can sleep on your back, it'll be fine, and
they'll heal well. Because, like, I'm pretty
sure, and I don't know why I'm just, like, not
remembering at this moment, but I think I've
done this before, because, like, I have my belly
pierced, and I had to get that pierced twice.
Because the first time I pierced it, I think
I was just sleeping on it, and I didn't give
a fuck, and I was like, who cares? And it's like,
well, your body does. The body keeps the score,
honey. And if you sleep on your belly piercing,
you're gonna fuck it up. It's gonna get infected,
it's going to, the pressure and the rubbing and
the moving, it's just not good for a healing
piercing. So then I had to get it pierced a second
time, and then, yeah, the second time I got my
act together, but I don't remember if i was just
doing a side sleep or if i was sleeping on my
back because like guys i with these these few
times that i have tried to fall asleep on my
back it is legitimately one of the hardest things
to do it is just terrible and agonizing and so
fucking painful like genuinely painful Because
these few nights where I have tried to lay on
my back and close my eyes and fall asleep I will
sit there for like an hour and Nothing happens
and then I just end up giving up and the moment
I roll over to my side Or I roll over on my stomach.
I'm out like a light Like it is just so frustrating
but I have to I really am trying to do it because
I I Got my I took those two piercings out, right?
sad day for me, so I was like I need to Do something
to replenish this in a way so I got another piercing
Because I was like if I'm losing two, let me
at least get one today. Let me treat myself So
there is a chain here called live by the sword
and They do I pretty sure they do tattoos Am
I making that up? Maybe they just do piercings.
I don't know but they do $10 piercings which
is crazy because The place when I went to school
in Richmond, Virginia There was a piercer. There
was a piercing shop called lucky 13 that did
$20 piercings and everyone went there because
we were all fresh college students who were like,
I'm gonna get a piercing and $20 piercings. That's
like so cheap. I thought that was crazy. $10
piercings is wild. And they're like, they're
good. Like I've gotten a few. I think when I
first moved here, I got two from them and like
they've healed fine. So I got my third lobe on
my left ear because my other ear is like pretty
like blinged out I have maybe like I have like
seven piercings in that ear so and my other one
is like a little bit blank so I've been wanting
to fill that one out so when I took these two
piercings out I was like let me get a piercing
let me treat myself whatever and so it would
just be beneficial with with any piercing anywhere
to be able to sleep on my back because like even
sleeping on your side like I have my second lobes
on each of my ears. I have a little bit of scar
tissue there from sleeping on them from like
laying on them and like the pressure and the
movement and it's fine like it's more so just
cosmetic that like there's a little bump there
like it's not like the cutest if you're like
really staring at my ear. So that's why like
I just know it would be good for like anything.
You know piercings on the side piercings on the
front like You just don't want to sleep directly
on a piercing. So that's really important that
I've also thought about it just for like As you
like I'm always just like I am just the vainest
person ever So I'm like, oh cuz like I sleep
on my face usually like whether it's on my side
or on my stomach like I sleep like this and so
my my face will be like mushed up and and i just
think about like fine lines and like eye wrinkles
and i'm like like people do say like for wrinkles
and for whatever it is good to not sleep on your
face obviously because you're not like sleeping
for eight hours with your face like pushed up
so i don't know but it's it's just genuinely
been so difficult um and i don't know if it's
something that i'm actually going to be able
to do but it's been something i'm trying i've
tried and But it's also just like when I'm falling
asleep, I don't want to do, I don't want to have
to like run experiments. Like I'm not trying
to fucking independent variable, dependent variable
this shit. Like I just want to go to sleep. And
so the easiest way for me to do that is by sleeping
on my side or on my stomach. But like, guys,
I got to lock in because when it's time to get
my piercings re -pierced, I can't have this go
wrong. I have to do this the right way. It's
just a lot but I Just love I love piercings.
I love I'm not as heavily tattooed. I have six
tattoos Tattoos are obviously a little bit more
expensive a little bit more permanent. Um so
It's just kind of something you have to like
think about a little bit more with a piercing
like I love I love going to get a piercing and
just like The adrenaline and like I never get
nervous. I only get a little bit nervous like
Right when they take the needle out like when
they when they take the needle out and they like
dot your you know, wherever they're piercing
and they're like, okay breathe I'm always like,
oh It's happening. I like get a little scared,
but then it happens and then it's just like Pain
for like one second and then it's over and like
that's how it was. I got my when I got my lobe
my third lobe The whole process from like walking
in, filling the waiver out and getting my piercing
was literally five minutes. And so as soon as
it was over, I was like, damn, I was like, I
should have gotten like four. But I do need to
slow down because there is going to come a point,
there will be a day where I run out of space
for places to pierce. And that's gonna be a really
sad day, guys, because I love. I just love getting
piercings. It's so much fun. So much fun. I want
to talk a little bit about how living in New
York City is making me so aggressive. And I can
talk about this for hours, but it's just really
funny and it's really crazy to think about because
like my whole life I have been The most non -convertational
person ever like To the point where it's like
just not good like I used to be a doormat I used
to fully be Just like I had no backbone like
I would just let people disrespect me I was like
very timid very scared. I used to have really
bad social anxiety growing up Like I was like
a very like scared little timid little girl and
now that I've lived here for almost a year like
I genuinely have gotten to be I have like grown
this rough exterior but I like kind of love it
but sometimes I get scared because I'm like I
don't want to lose like I've always just been
a very nice like sweet person I don't want to
lose that and I don't think I will but y 'all
the way I I am so confrontational now and I am
so aggressive like Especially when it comes to
men usually only when it comes to men. I'm not
even gonna lie because I I was talking earlier
in this episode about how I hate people staring
at me and I I deal with that so much like and
in this neighborhood too that I live in like
the catcalling and the harassment and All of
that is the worst that I've ever had to deal
with in my life, the worst I've ever dealt with
in New York. Like just genuinely like crazy,
like terrible. Like I've had men say insane shit
to me and just go crazy. But it has made me really,
really, really enjoy yelling at people, screaming
at people. Just kind of like like I'm constantly
on guard and it's like really wild like when
a man is staring at me I have gotten so comfortable
literally I was in the store the other day and
This man bless his heart. He low -key wasn't
even staring at me like that. He literally glanced
at me for like three seconds. I Literally was
like what the fuck are you looking at? Unprompted
I was like, what are you looking at? And he started
cursing at me. He was like, fuck you, you fuck,
you bitch. And I like just walked out because
I was like, I was leaving. But like on my way
out, I was like, wait, are you staring at me?
Because let's let's let's wake it up. Let's address
this really quickly. But like, that's just that
is crazy to me. Like if you would have told me
years ago, I would just to random people that
I don't know, random men, be like, what the fuck
are you looking at? I would not believe you.
I do it all the time. I do it all the time to
the point where if I'm out in public and I think
a man is staring at me, I'll get ready. I'll
look at him. I'll glance away. If I see him staring
at me, I'll look back, double check. To the point
where like if they say they're looking at me
But then I look back and then they're like looking
down or they're whatever like I'll be like, oh
great They're not staring at me. Like I don't
have to I don't need to To do all that right
now, but like I don't mind. I really don't mind
like I Most days I have the time I've dealt with
it so much. I remember I was walking. I was walking
here from the gym And this man was he was turned
around like getting he was paying for parking
like at one of those machines and I'm walking
on the street So he is turned the opposite way.
He sees me and fully does a 180 degree turn to
turn to look at me and Is fully staring at me
and it wasn't a question of like whether he was
staring at me and like the men here they don't
have any shame. They will fully like, locked
eyes, like look at you, stare at you, like they
don't care. And for me, it's just like, okay,
like that's rude. It's also annoying, especially
when they're men, especially when they're like
50 years old. Cause it's like, I am young enough
to be your daughter. Don't stare at me. It's
creepy. It's rude, and guess what? You think
you can stare at me and make me feel uncomfortable
and I'm just gonna be like a timid, no. Today
you're gonna learn a lesson. I am the teacher,
class is in session. You do not get to do that
and leave unscathed. So he's like, he's staring
at me, right? And so I take my AirPod out and
I'm like, do you have a staring problem? And
he's like, excuse me? Like he's like caught off
guard. Cause they don't expect it, right? Like
they don't think that I'm going to say anything.
Like they just think that I'm gonna, they're
gonna stare at me and I'm just gonna be uncomfortable
and just like walk away. So he's like, excuse
me? And I was like, do you have a staring problem?
And this man goes, he goes, I'm looking. Which
is... a crazy response, like he literally said,
I don't care. He said, I'm looking at you. What
are you going to do about it? I was like, well,
stop looking then. And I like start screaming
at him. And my favorite thing to do when a man
is either staring at me or is cat calling me
or saying some insane shit. When they start talking
back. running their mouths I love to just start
screaming like legitimately just like and just
like scream over them because then it's like
okay I don't know what you're saying and I'm
louder than you so it's like you're either gonna
keep talking and no one is understanding what
you're saying or you're gonna stop talking and
they usually just stop Or they just talk shit
and they're like, you're a bitch! Fuck you! And
I'm like, aww. You think that hurts my feelings?
My own mother called me a bitch at like 13, so
I don't really care. Nothing you can say can
hurt my feelings. Yeah, but I just... I literally
am so aggressive and so confrontational to men.
I love it. I love it. It's like my favorite thing
about dealing with these men is I don't care
anymore. I don't care. I will so fast be like,
do you have a staring problem? What are you looking
at? Or my favorite thing is when a man is staring
at me, I literally will just be like, hi. Hello.
because they always get caught off guard they're
like oh like oh hi hi like yeah what are you
are you just gonna stare at me and be rude are
you gonna say something like I don't understand
that I do not understand that so weird so incredibly
weird and so annoying they're so annoying I have
to deal with like Have to deal with them so much.
It's like really agitating And I mean this is
something that will come up a lot cuz I It's
just such a big part of my life but like I Love
being mean to men and I think you should always
be mean to them like cuz I don't I'm not gonna
give a man the benefit of the doubt Cuz why would
I do that? So I lead with aggression. And then
it's like, if you actually are going to be nice,
or you have something of substance to say, it's
like, okay, we can we can go from there. But
like, it's usually not anything. It's usually
just men bothering me, and talking and saying
nothing. And just being annoying. I hate when
I'm walking home like at night and a man's like,
good night. Good night, beautiful. Like, who
are you? Why are you talking to me? Good morning!
Hello, good mor - Hi? Like the fuck? Is there
a reason that you're talking? To me? Have a good
day! My day was good until a man started talking.
Be quiet, and then I would have a good day. I
don't understand what's... what's hard to understand
about that. Okay, lastly, I'm gonna talk about,
we're gonna talk about dating apps a little bit.
Just a little bit, because I have been on them.
When I first got here to New York, I immediately
got on them, because I was like, I'm so excited
to see what, hinge and what bumble sorry and
what all of those things are like in new york
because in virginia or in like i feel like any
other place like i would always i would like
download and redownload whatever these apps and
i would just see the same people the same people
um because You know, you're just in such a there's
just not that many people, right? So I was just
like always seeing the same people everyone was
unattractive I was like there's just there has
to be better And so I moved here. I got on the
dating apps and I quickly realized that it's
not better um, and It's almost exactly the same
here as it would be anyone else. The only difference
is that obviously there's just so many more people
so it's It's the same experience just to a larger
degree like you just have more people to like
swipe through but like I Mean there are more
attractive people that live in New York. I feel
like compared to other places Yes, just again
because of the sheer amount of people that live
here, but there's just as many like unattractive
people There's just as many weird people. There's
just as many like whatever and like I also feel
like with attract Got scared. I thought I just
turned my microphone off, but I don't think I
did um with attractive people that live here
Yeah, it's just I don't know like people can
just be clout chasey like New York is just an
interesting place because everyone wants to be
someone and it's just whatever but I I Got on
dating apps right when I got here went on a couple
dates that's in quotation marks, dates, had just
a terrible, had terrible experiences. And then
I was like, I don't want to do this anymore.
So then I wasn't on them for a really long time.
And then very recently, maybe like a month or
so ago, I got back on. And it's terrible. It's
terrible, obviously. And I just like... I just
like can't date like it's just like I get so
annoyed so easily I get so irritated I don't
have the patience and especially when it comes
to men they're just like they're just like interesting
and I really can't do it and I really hate dating
apps too because Feel like we live in a time
where people really it's a lot easier to like
Manufacture a feeling of closeness with someone
With technology and people really try to do that
with dating and I don't like that at all I don't
like that at all. I matched with this man a few
days ago And also like for me to even like for
me to even like someone on a dating app. It's
it takes a lot I remember I was I was with my
friend. I was staying the night at her place
and we She was like, oh can we like go through
your hinge or go through your bumble together?
I was like, yeah, she's in a relationship. She
was like, I'm just so like curious and She was
holding it and she was she was swiping through
their profile and like being like okay tell me
when to swipe left or whatever y 'all we did
this for like 30 minutes it was i literally and
it doesn't take like i can half a second look
through a profile no we we swiped for 30 minutes
i did not swipe right once i did not send that
like once and i'm not even saying this to like
try to flex or like sound cool like this is just
the reality like i'm just Don't know. I'm just
like I'm really picky. But I also just like I
just like know what I thought I know what I don't
want and like Again, I just get cringed out.
So like anyways, I did match with this man and
Match we like said hi or whatever and I said
something where I was like was like, oh I just
got off work Like I'm so excited to lay down
like whatever like just trying to make conversation
This man responds to me and he goes He goes,
okay, can we skip all of this like He was like
he said let's just skip all of this. Do you want
to get married? Yes or no or like can I marry
you? Yes or no or some shit like that? Who are
you talking to? Who the fuck are you talking
to? I don't like that. I do not like that. I
don't find that attractive. Also, for me to be
saying, for me to be trying to make conversation
and you're like, you're like, all right, let's
skip all of that. You want to get like the, all
of this in question that you want to skip is
me literally talking. So you just told me to
shut the fuck up. That's what I took away. You
literally, he told me to shut up. Like I can't
get over that for me to be making conversation
and you're like let's skip all of this So are
you telling me to be quiet like what? You just
told me to be you just told me to shut up. He
just told me to shut my fat -ass mouth Let's
skip all of this can we get married yes or no
You know, I don't like that. That's not attractive
to me and I I fear Sometimes when I do interact
with men that are just like attractive like They
don't have any game and I think it's because
a lot of them They have interacted with girls
in the past and they haven't had to really do
anything or haven't had to like curate a personality
because they're just attractive and I think like
I've just interacted with so many men recently
where I'm like okay I feel like girls have swooned
over you from saying some like basic shit or
some dumb shit honestly and so you think that
that's like cool and it's actually not I'm actually
not impressed and I need you to like say something
with like a little bit more like be fucking charismatic
be like be funny be something like It's not enough
to just be attractive It's really not because
I am Very attractive and I'm not Just that like
Do you have a joke? Do you want to like do like?
Do more and I don't I do not like I don't like
the weird like I don't like I don't want to use
the word love bombing because I don't even really
I like it's love bombing adjacent where it's
just like I literally haven't even met you we
have not texted anything and you're like let's
just get married like am I supposed to find that
cute I don't and so yeah I never responded to
that I was just I'm just like I'm never talking
to you because you told me to shut up so we have
nothing to talk about And I just hate that. I
just hate it. And men are just so, like, scared.
And just, like, don't match with me and then
be on some weird shit of, like... Another man
was like... He was like, send me a selfie. And
so I blocked him. Because... What do you think
this is? Who do you think you are to where you're
gonna get, like, your own personal photo of me?
Try again send you a self EW! EW! I'm literally
throwing up It's it's like like really cringy.
It's really gross I don't like it, and I also
think this is honestly we're getting to the point
where I need to bring this to a close, but I've
been seeing a lot of people talk about this,
and I literally just saw this this morning, and
I was on hinge, I was swiping through. Men are
always on some weird shit where they're like,
I go crazy, you know the hinge prompts, like
I go crazy for, or I really like, or blah, blah,
blah, blah, blah. So many men are always like,
I want a girl who's slightly autistic. Y 'all
are telling on yourselves so hard. It's always
It's always I want a girl who's slightly autistic
or a little bit on the spectrum First like I
Know what you are. I know what you are. I know
who you are I know what you're trying to do and
we know why it's always slightly you You want
a girl that's slightly on the spectrum because
you think it's cute and you want to romanticize
it or sexualize it or whatever because men literally
have to sexualize everything. You don't want
a girl who's just autistic. You want a girl who's
slightly autistic or a little bit on the spectrum
because it still needs to be digestible and palatable
for you. Do you understand what I'm saying? Do
we see what's happening here? I want a girl who's
on Prozac. No, you don't. No, you don't, and
why are you actively seeking out women who have
depression? That's weird. That's weird. I could
talk about this all day, but we are unfortunately
running out of time. So I will see you guys in
the next episode. hope you enjoyed hope you have
a great rest of your day um yeah see you in episode
three bye why did i say bye like that bye i said
it again