WEBVTT 00:00:01.780 --> 00:00:05.080 What's up, you absolute freaks? Welcome to the 00:00:05.080 --> 00:00:08.419 Almost Living podcast. I'm Kaylyn, your host. 00:00:08.699 --> 00:00:12.679 Welcome. If you don't know me, I don't really 00:00:12.679 --> 00:00:16.239 have too much of an introduction. I am a freshly 00:00:16.239 --> 00:00:22.780 23 -year -old girl living in New York, navigating 00:00:22.780 --> 00:00:27.899 adulthood, chilling, vibing. There's really not 00:00:27.899 --> 00:00:33.630 much to it. I... Yeah. welcome hi how are you 00:00:33.630 --> 00:00:37.289 um welcome to this corner of my room if you're 00:00:37.289 --> 00:00:46.049 watching the visual version yeah why starting 00:00:46.049 --> 00:00:49.250 a podcast is literally the most like the intro 00:00:49.250 --> 00:00:55.850 like the intro i have personal beef with the 00:00:55.850 --> 00:00:59.490 introduction of a podcast it is always so awkward 00:00:59.490 --> 00:01:04.280 this is like the 50th time I have intro'd. I'm 00:01:04.280 --> 00:01:07.620 done. I'm not going to do it again. Hi. Welcome. 00:01:09.000 --> 00:01:13.780 Uh, hello. Um, I have a few topics written down. 00:01:13.840 --> 00:01:16.719 I have some, you know, little things I want to 00:01:16.719 --> 00:01:21.079 talk about, um, to get this started off, but 00:01:21.079 --> 00:01:25.079 I guess I should start by, I want to talk about 00:01:25.200 --> 00:01:29.500 just very quickly my personal love of podcasting 00:01:29.500 --> 00:01:32.400 because i don't know i feel like it's just something 00:01:32.400 --> 00:01:36.480 that i want to be trans like i just want to let 00:01:36.480 --> 00:01:42.439 it be known like i feel like podcasting is so 00:01:42.439 --> 00:01:49.739 like the the podcasting world is so overly saturated 00:01:49.739 --> 00:01:52.719 like i don't know what it is in the past like 00:01:52.719 --> 00:01:56.790 10 years that like everyone and their mama has 00:01:56.790 --> 00:02:03.230 a podcast. I feel like everyone in their early 00:02:03.230 --> 00:02:05.890 or mid -20s is like, you know what? You know 00:02:05.890 --> 00:02:08.169 what I'm gonna do? I'm gonna start a podcast. 00:02:08.650 --> 00:02:15.710 It's literally everyone. And so it just makes 00:02:15.710 --> 00:02:20.870 for an interesting kind of environment. I have... 00:02:20.860 --> 00:02:24.580 Started and stopped this podcast like three or 00:02:24.580 --> 00:02:27.120 four times over the course of like the past two 00:02:27.120 --> 00:02:32.340 years It has been a journey I like will post 00:02:32.340 --> 00:02:34.039 a few episodes. I'll get really excited about 00:02:34.039 --> 00:02:36.659 I'll get like really into it and like whatever 00:02:36.659 --> 00:02:40.400 and then I just like Sometimes I just get like 00:02:40.400 --> 00:02:42.780 I just get embarrassed like I just start thinking 00:02:42.780 --> 00:02:46.479 about it and then I'm like, oh my god Maybe I 00:02:46.479 --> 00:02:51.460 don't Maybe this is embarrassing And then I delete 00:02:51.460 --> 00:02:55.680 it So that's kind of been the case, but we're 00:02:55.680 --> 00:02:57.939 back we're back. We're better that we're back. 00:02:57.939 --> 00:03:04.960 We're back and we're here to stay Sorry about 00:03:04.960 --> 00:03:08.180 the street noises I'm going to try to clip that 00:03:08.180 --> 00:03:11.780 out. We're in the we're in the Big Apple, baby 00:03:11.780 --> 00:03:19.250 Okay, yes, sorry Hello ADD. Um, yes, the podcasting 00:03:19.250 --> 00:03:23.090 space is overly saturated and I feel like that 00:03:23.090 --> 00:03:28.509 has been a factor for me of why I Like why I 00:03:28.509 --> 00:03:30.530 get embarrassed and why like sometimes I'm like 00:03:30.530 --> 00:03:32.610 who cares who gives a fuck who cares what I have 00:03:32.610 --> 00:03:36.050 to say like I'm shouting into the void and That's 00:03:36.050 --> 00:03:38.370 kind of what a podcast is for the most part like 00:03:38.370 --> 00:03:42.030 in general until you like start getting traction 00:03:42.030 --> 00:03:46.460 and that's also fine like it's okay and it's 00:03:46.460 --> 00:03:49.120 it's fine and it just I need to get over it because 00:03:49.120 --> 00:03:52.879 I love the art of podcasting I love podcasts 00:03:52.879 --> 00:03:58.599 and that is why I have started this project and 00:03:58.599 --> 00:04:01.199 why I keep coming back to it because this is 00:04:01.199 --> 00:04:05.900 genuinely something that I love and that I feel 00:04:05.900 --> 00:04:10.479 like I need to do I don't know like I feel like 00:04:10.479 --> 00:04:13.319 I was put on this earth to be a podcast like 00:04:13.610 --> 00:04:17.550 i don't really know i i no i'm just kidding i 00:04:17.550 --> 00:04:20.230 but but i i'm being serious like i genuinely 00:04:20.230 --> 00:04:24.709 do think this is something that i need to do 00:04:24.709 --> 00:04:28.829 because i keep every time i stop i'm like girl 00:04:28.829 --> 00:04:31.170 like why did you do that like you you should 00:04:31.170 --> 00:04:37.550 just do it like it's fine um and you know i'm 00:04:37.550 --> 00:04:39.329 i don't play about this shit like i'm not someone 00:04:39.329 --> 00:04:41.649 who's like i'm gonna start a podcast because 00:04:41.649 --> 00:04:45.310 i'm funny Because like, do I think that? Yes. 00:04:45.910 --> 00:04:49.050 Well, yes, I do think I'm funny. And I, that 00:04:49.050 --> 00:04:52.110 is what has caused me, like over the past few 00:04:52.110 --> 00:04:53.709 years to be like, hey, maybe a podcast could 00:04:53.709 --> 00:04:56.889 be fun. Because like, especially in college, 00:04:56.949 --> 00:05:01.649 like me and my best friends would just smoke 00:05:01.649 --> 00:05:07.529 so much and get so high and have these like, 00:05:07.610 --> 00:05:09.209 just funny conversations. And, you know, just 00:05:09.209 --> 00:05:11.149 talk and whatever. But all the time we would 00:05:11.149 --> 00:05:14.689 be like this should be on a podcast like we should 00:05:14.689 --> 00:05:16.709 have a podcast this should be on a podcast like 00:05:16.709 --> 00:05:19.709 we're hilarious and like i feel like that's kind 00:05:19.709 --> 00:05:25.209 of what every friend group feels but it was something 00:05:25.209 --> 00:05:27.750 that i eventually was like you know what that 00:05:27.750 --> 00:05:30.290 wouldn't be the craziest thing in the world to 00:05:30.290 --> 00:05:33.009 have a podcast because i'm not someone who's 00:05:33.009 --> 00:05:34.769 just like oh i think i'm funny and i think i'm 00:05:34.769 --> 00:05:38.939 interesting that is a part of it but i also truly 00:05:38.939 --> 00:05:42.420 just love podcasts. Like, when I'm not listening 00:05:42.420 --> 00:05:48.720 to music, I have a podcast playing because I 00:05:48.720 --> 00:05:52.060 do not like being alone with my thoughts because 00:05:52.060 --> 00:05:57.839 my brain is a hellscape. So the way that I deal 00:05:57.839 --> 00:06:02.120 with that is by putting on podcasts and never 00:06:02.120 --> 00:06:06.620 allowing my brain to form a thought with no background 00:06:06.620 --> 00:06:13.610 noise. um so yeah i've just podcasts have been 00:06:13.610 --> 00:06:16.610 i don't really know when i started listening 00:06:16.610 --> 00:06:20.629 maybe like end of high school why yeah no no 00:06:20.629 --> 00:06:23.990 yeah no in high school i started listening to 00:06:23.990 --> 00:06:27.009 podcasts because i have written down i have written 00:06:27.009 --> 00:06:30.310 down like my topics and everything but um i also 00:06:30.310 --> 00:06:32.250 have written down the podcast that i like which 00:06:32.250 --> 00:06:37.019 is what i'm looking at um so I don't know if 00:06:37.019 --> 00:06:39.339 you guys are familiar with the Tiny Meat Gang 00:06:39.339 --> 00:06:44.060 podcast with Cody Ko and Noelle Miller and it 00:06:44.060 --> 00:06:46.279 also is kind of a touchy subject because Cody 00:06:46.279 --> 00:06:49.980 Ko has done some things if you're online, you 00:06:49.980 --> 00:06:53.860 know, if you know, you know. And it really sucks 00:06:53.860 --> 00:06:56.959 just because Cody Ko was like one of my favorite 00:06:56.959 --> 00:06:59.879 YouTubers. Like I loved his commentary videos. 00:06:59.899 --> 00:07:04.259 I think he is funny. Him and Noelle Miller I 00:07:04.259 --> 00:07:06.759 think are hilarious. I still love Noelle. um 00:07:06.759 --> 00:07:12.399 but yeah anyways the tiny meat gang podcast so 00:07:12.399 --> 00:07:15.899 okay kodiko he had a podcast called insanely 00:07:15.899 --> 00:07:20.459 chill that he started by himself um he would 00:07:20.459 --> 00:07:22.680 just you know be doing what i'm doing talking 00:07:22.680 --> 00:07:25.500 to himself for like an hour about random shit 00:07:25.500 --> 00:07:28.180 and i loved it and then he started the tiny meat 00:07:28.180 --> 00:07:33.000 gang podcast with noel um and then that is has 00:07:33.000 --> 00:07:36.810 gotten really successful now They have like a 00:07:36.810 --> 00:07:39.509 master company and they have a bunch of other 00:07:39.509 --> 00:07:41.509 podcasts like underneath them. Like it's a whole 00:07:41.509 --> 00:07:47.529 thing. But I loved their podcast. I and I still 00:07:47.529 --> 00:07:50.449 do like it's still like it's like a safe like 00:07:50.449 --> 00:07:53.509 comfort thing for me to listen to their stuff. 00:07:53.589 --> 00:07:57.290 And actually in high school. I don't remember 00:07:57.290 --> 00:07:59.949 what year this was maybe 2019 I went to their 00:07:59.949 --> 00:08:03.129 live like New Year's show in DC and I saw them 00:08:03.129 --> 00:08:05.290 live it was basically like a live podcast but 00:08:05.290 --> 00:08:07.490 they were like doing commentary like it was a 00:08:07.490 --> 00:08:09.529 bunch they were playing their music but it was 00:08:09.529 --> 00:08:12.529 really fun so yeah those are two podcasts that 00:08:12.529 --> 00:08:16.930 I really enjoy I'm not I'm not even gonna try 00:08:16.930 --> 00:08:18.850 to act like I don't still listen to them like 00:08:18.850 --> 00:08:23.500 I do It just it just brings me back to like a 00:08:23.500 --> 00:08:28.120 plate like especially insanely chill When I was 00:08:28.120 --> 00:08:30.279 listening to insanely chill or when I started 00:08:30.279 --> 00:08:35.820 listening to it I was living Or cuz I yeah, I 00:08:35.820 --> 00:08:38.639 tapped into the tiny meat gang before I think 00:08:38.639 --> 00:08:40.840 I started tapping into insanely chill I think 00:08:40.840 --> 00:08:43.659 because the way that I remember it after I graduated 00:08:43.659 --> 00:08:46.320 high school and I was in college for a while 00:08:46.320 --> 00:08:49.279 I worked at this botanical garden and they had 00:08:49.279 --> 00:08:52.220 a farm and I was working at the farm and I was 00:08:52.220 --> 00:08:54.860 working these like early ash shifts like I would 00:08:54.860 --> 00:08:58.279 get I would get there by like 6 30 a .m. and 00:08:58.279 --> 00:09:00.980 like Yeah, it was like farm shit. Like I was 00:09:00.980 --> 00:09:03.500 working outside. It was cold. It was like December 00:09:03.500 --> 00:09:07.980 I would be cleaning stalls and like Feeding, 00:09:07.980 --> 00:09:10.899 you know pigs and sheep and like all that shit 00:09:10.899 --> 00:09:12.980 like just doing random farm girl shit. Whatever. 00:09:12.980 --> 00:09:14.700 It was a fun job I really enjoyed it. I love 00:09:14.700 --> 00:09:20.759 animals but I would listen to the insanely chill 00:09:20.759 --> 00:09:23.000 podcast while I was doing that because like yeah 00:09:23.000 --> 00:09:24.679 I was just doing all this like physical like 00:09:24.679 --> 00:09:27.279 outside work and I would have a headphone and 00:09:27.279 --> 00:09:29.419 I'd be listening to it and so it was just like 00:09:29.419 --> 00:09:32.980 it was just it was so nice like it was just so 00:09:32.980 --> 00:09:37.000 lovely at like 7 a .m. when I'm tired and I'm 00:09:37.000 --> 00:09:39.519 cold like I'm like listening to this podcast 00:09:39.519 --> 00:09:42.000 and it was like I was like a part of a conversation 00:09:42.000 --> 00:09:45.750 like I was just like talking to a friend So yeah, 00:09:45.750 --> 00:09:49.169 those are two podcasts that I really enjoy. Emergency 00:09:49.169 --> 00:09:51.909 Intercom, I really liked. I don't have listened 00:09:51.909 --> 00:09:55.970 to it in a while. The Read, love The Read. My 00:09:55.970 --> 00:10:00.090 sibling introduced me to that podcast last year, 00:10:01.029 --> 00:10:03.350 shortly after I moved here. I moved here last 00:10:03.350 --> 00:10:05.870 October, which the fact that I've been here for 00:10:05.870 --> 00:10:08.269 almost a year is really crazy and I don't know 00:10:08.269 --> 00:10:11.210 how to feel about it. But I moved here last October. 00:10:11.570 --> 00:10:13.809 It was chill. When I got here, it was warm. It 00:10:13.809 --> 00:10:17.320 was nice, whatever. And then winter came and 00:10:17.320 --> 00:10:20.740 I didn't know anyone. I did not have a window 00:10:20.740 --> 00:10:27.159 in my bedroom or honestly access to any window 00:10:27.159 --> 00:10:29.840 in my apartment. So as you can probably imagine, 00:10:29.840 --> 00:10:31.899 I was losing my mind. I was going insane. And 00:10:31.899 --> 00:10:36.279 the read podcast got me through it. Like, I genuinely 00:10:36.279 --> 00:10:39.559 don't know that. Like, I'm not even looking like 00:10:39.559 --> 00:10:44.879 it was a very dark time. The sibling rivalry 00:10:44.879 --> 00:10:46.899 podcast, I'm almost done with this podcast rant, 00:10:46.940 --> 00:10:49.240 sorry. The sibling rivalry podcast with Bob and 00:10:49.240 --> 00:10:53.379 Monet is another one that I love. I'm a patron, 00:10:53.600 --> 00:10:55.740 I love them, I think they're hilarious. Trixie 00:10:55.740 --> 00:10:58.740 and Katya, two more drag queens that have a podcast 00:10:58.740 --> 00:11:03.600 that I love. I think it's hilarious. So yeah, 00:11:03.960 --> 00:11:08.340 I say all that to say I really love podcasts. 00:11:08.639 --> 00:11:13.360 I really, really do, and it's... form of media 00:11:13.360 --> 00:11:16.779 that I Consume a lot like probably more than 00:11:16.779 --> 00:11:20.500 anything else because it's also like I can do 00:11:20.500 --> 00:11:24.220 things while I'm listening to a podcast, you 00:11:24.220 --> 00:11:27.440 know, like same with music but like With music 00:11:27.440 --> 00:11:29.340 I can listen for like an hour or a few hours 00:11:29.340 --> 00:11:31.080 and then after a while. It's like, okay I'm kind 00:11:31.080 --> 00:11:33.039 of bored like I have to do it like in sessions. 00:11:33.299 --> 00:11:36.440 So once I'm done with my music i switch over 00:11:36.440 --> 00:11:37.940 to podcasting and then it's just like you can 00:11:37.940 --> 00:11:40.299 do whatever you want to do and like some podcasts 00:11:40.299 --> 00:11:42.500 have a visual you can look at a screen sometimes 00:11:42.500 --> 00:11:44.379 you don't need to you can just listen and it's 00:11:44.379 --> 00:11:51.340 just really nice um and i also i i have ad which 00:11:51.340 --> 00:11:55.159 will probably be brought up so much throughout 00:11:55.159 --> 00:11:57.879 this podcast and i'm apologizing now because 00:11:57.879 --> 00:12:00.600 it's going to get annoying because i am annoyed 00:12:00.600 --> 00:12:05.779 by it i am annoyed by me just having it um So 00:12:05.779 --> 00:12:07.639 and yeah, I talk about it so much because it 00:12:07.639 --> 00:12:10.299 genuinely affects like every aspect of my life 00:12:10.299 --> 00:12:13.100 like seriously Seriously, do you guys know that 00:12:13.100 --> 00:12:16.220 meme? It's not really a meme, but it's a and 00:12:16.220 --> 00:12:19.220 it was like a Twitter interaction where this 00:12:19.220 --> 00:12:21.659 person tweeted They were like we did not talk 00:12:21.659 --> 00:12:26.200 about how hard Halloween is for the ADHD community 00:12:26.200 --> 00:12:28.000 And then someone just responded and they were 00:12:28.000 --> 00:12:29.960 like, oh my god, your people can't do anything 00:12:33.940 --> 00:12:38.100 That tweet haunts me and I think about it every 00:12:38.100 --> 00:12:40.659 day Every time I'm struggling with something 00:12:40.659 --> 00:12:43.059 I think about it pops into my head, but that's 00:12:43.059 --> 00:12:45.100 how I feel I'm like, oh my god, bitch. I'm like 00:12:45.100 --> 00:12:47.240 stop talking about it. Like what can you do? 00:12:47.360 --> 00:12:50.399 What can you but? That's really it's real. I 00:12:50.399 --> 00:12:57.519 don't know. Um Why did I bring that up I guess 00:12:57.519 --> 00:12:59.639 this is something that I wanted to talk about 00:13:00.519 --> 00:13:04.840 with ADD and just with so much. Where do I even 00:13:04.840 --> 00:13:07.799 begin? Where do I begin, guys? I don't know. 00:13:09.440 --> 00:13:15.620 So I turned 23 this year in June, and I'm a Gemini, 00:13:15.639 --> 00:13:21.120 hello. And I don't know what it is about this 00:13:21.120 --> 00:13:24.379 birthday, but usually growing up when you have 00:13:24.379 --> 00:13:27.250 a birthday, your parents will be like, hi birthday! 00:13:27.529 --> 00:13:29.789 do you feel any different? like do you feel older? 00:13:29.889 --> 00:13:32.169 and like usually it's like no I feel exactly 00:13:32.169 --> 00:13:35.610 the same because it's just a new day something 00:13:35.610 --> 00:13:42.649 about this past birthday I felt older I really 00:13:42.649 --> 00:13:46.309 really felt it and it's it's just been crazy 00:13:46.309 --> 00:13:50.950 like and birthdays are also a very interesting 00:13:50.950 --> 00:13:55.360 time for me I am someone who gets So violently 00:13:55.360 --> 00:13:58.960 sad around my birthday and so stressed out. It's 00:13:58.960 --> 00:14:01.159 never something I'm looking forward to and I 00:14:01.159 --> 00:14:02.879 don't even know who does look forward to their 00:14:02.879 --> 00:14:07.240 birth like Always all maybe when I was like young 00:14:07.240 --> 00:14:12.139 young but like I Don't really know and I think 00:14:12.139 --> 00:14:17.080 also it may just be like growing up depressed 00:14:17.080 --> 00:14:22.149 and Because I feel like I just like didn't ever 00:14:22.149 --> 00:14:26.230 even think that I would make it to like 18 so 00:14:26.230 --> 00:14:30.850 like now being 23 like every year I'm just like 00:14:30.850 --> 00:14:34.629 oh fuck like we're really here we're really in 00:14:34.629 --> 00:14:37.509 this bit like we're really present um it's just 00:14:37.509 --> 00:14:43.070 crazy but yeah I always am sad around my birthday 00:14:43.070 --> 00:14:45.830 and just around my birthday whatever and this 00:14:45.830 --> 00:14:51.250 birthday was no different And I just I felt aged 00:14:51.250 --> 00:14:53.769 like I genuinely and I also think it might just 00:14:53.769 --> 00:14:56.750 be like this being my first year in New York, 00:14:56.750 --> 00:15:01.509 but like I Feel like I've aged like ten years 00:15:01.509 --> 00:15:04.649 No, that's an exaggeration five. I really feel 00:15:04.649 --> 00:15:08.529 like I've aged mentally five years in The near 00:15:08.529 --> 00:15:10.570 year that I have lived here like it has just 00:15:10.570 --> 00:15:14.169 been so much it's been so much and I honestly 00:15:14.169 --> 00:15:17.149 think I need to make an entire episode just about 00:15:17.149 --> 00:15:21.700 like my journey here and just like everything 00:15:21.700 --> 00:15:24.399 because it's just been crazy all and it's it's 00:15:24.399 --> 00:15:28.799 wild but I Do feel like with turning 23. I'm 00:15:28.799 --> 00:15:31.860 I've just been realizing things. This has been 00:15:31.860 --> 00:15:37.059 the year of realizations one of them being Guys, 00:15:37.679 --> 00:15:40.879 this is it's there's just there's life things 00:15:40.879 --> 00:15:46.330 that need to be changed. I am Realizing Really 00:15:46.330 --> 00:15:49.750 connecting with the fact that the early bird 00:15:49.750 --> 00:15:55.110 does get the worm Whoever whoever came up with 00:15:55.110 --> 00:16:00.429 that shit whoever branded that that uh You know 00:16:00.429 --> 00:16:04.990 whoever whoever said that they weren't not lying 00:16:04.990 --> 00:16:09.129 and it's really hard to like come to terms with 00:16:09.129 --> 00:16:14.500 because My whole life I have been a night owl, 00:16:14.620 --> 00:16:19.620 like always. In definitely all of high school, 00:16:19.740 --> 00:16:23.360 I was always staying up, you know, late, like 00:16:23.360 --> 00:16:26.240 2, 3 a .m. was like a normal night for me, like 00:16:26.240 --> 00:16:28.580 a normal just like, not even like, oh, I'm staying 00:16:28.580 --> 00:16:30.600 up, like that was just like the time that I would 00:16:30.600 --> 00:16:34.779 go to bed. I would pull an all -nighter like 00:16:34.779 --> 00:16:39.299 every once in a while. But yeah, just I've always 00:16:39.299 --> 00:16:41.399 loved the night. I don't know why. I think it's 00:16:41.399 --> 00:16:44.000 just like... it's like quiet like I don't know 00:16:44.000 --> 00:16:46.159 like everyone's like in their house it just kind 00:16:46.159 --> 00:16:48.960 of feels like you have like the world to yourself 00:16:48.960 --> 00:16:58.059 um and yeah it's it's always just been something 00:16:58.059 --> 00:17:00.820 that I like I just love the night I thoroughly 00:17:00.820 --> 00:17:07.240 enjoy night time um and I and in college like 00:17:07.240 --> 00:17:09.160 it was fine it was a vibe like I was you know 00:17:09.160 --> 00:17:12.460 whatever I could stay up late and I could roll 00:17:12.460 --> 00:17:15.039 out of bed at 1 p .m. and it didn't really matter 00:17:15.039 --> 00:17:19.519 and whatever. This has been something pretty 00:17:19.519 --> 00:17:21.859 recently that I am just like coming to terms 00:17:21.859 --> 00:17:25.859 with where I'm just like, if I want to do all 00:17:25.859 --> 00:17:29.839 the things that I want to do in like a timely 00:17:29.839 --> 00:17:33.299 manner, like I just have to get up early. I have 00:17:33.299 --> 00:17:38.369 to. I cannot just roll out of bed at noon. I 00:17:38.369 --> 00:17:42.650 can't roll out of bed even at 11. Like, I don't 00:17:42.650 --> 00:17:46.230 know, dude. I don't know. And it's just really 00:17:46.230 --> 00:17:48.609 hard to, like, come to terms with because you 00:17:48.609 --> 00:17:50.950 can't be both. You can't be a morning person 00:17:50.950 --> 00:17:53.410 in a night person. And if you are, you're getting, 00:17:53.410 --> 00:17:55.589 you know, four or five hours to sleep at night, 00:17:55.589 --> 00:17:58.849 which I don't think I can do. That's not something 00:17:58.849 --> 00:18:02.849 that I am ready to do in my life. I'm just not. 00:18:03.230 --> 00:18:07.430 Sleep has always been really big for me. Like, 00:18:07.440 --> 00:18:12.160 and i also am just a big sleeper like i was thinking 00:18:12.160 --> 00:18:14.720 about this the other day one time in college 00:18:14.720 --> 00:18:25.039 i slept for almost 24 hours i don't know what 00:18:25.039 --> 00:18:27.000 else to say i don't know what to follow that 00:18:27.000 --> 00:18:30.660 up with i slept for almost 24 hours and it was 00:18:30.660 --> 00:18:37.230 a very low point like i um i think i I went to 00:18:37.230 --> 00:18:40.630 bed at some point, like pretty early, like maybe 00:18:40.630 --> 00:18:45.390 like eight, nine, very early. Went to bed, woke 00:18:45.390 --> 00:18:48.549 up the next day. I remember I woke up, I looked 00:18:48.549 --> 00:18:52.730 at my phone and it said seven. And I was like, 00:18:52.990 --> 00:18:55.230 I'm confused. It says seven on my phone, but 00:18:55.230 --> 00:18:57.369 it's like dark outside. Like if it was seven, 00:18:57.410 --> 00:18:59.789 then it would be bright. Like that's like full 00:18:59.789 --> 00:19:05.079 daytime. Like the sun would be out. it was 7 00:19:05.079 --> 00:19:20.779 p .m. it was fully 7 p .m. and I was like are 00:19:20.779 --> 00:19:23.819 you fucking kidding me and I don't remember if 00:19:23.819 --> 00:19:27.779 I had class that day I don't remember if I had 00:19:27.779 --> 00:19:32.980 any think like any like i don't i don't know 00:19:32.980 --> 00:19:36.059 and it doesn't even matter but sleeping for almost 00:19:36.059 --> 00:19:38.940 24 hours is crazy and i don't know what what 00:19:38.940 --> 00:19:42.420 is wrong with me why i did that i haven't done 00:19:42.420 --> 00:19:44.859 that ever like that was i think the one and only 00:19:44.859 --> 00:19:47.799 time but like yeah i can just sleep and sleep 00:19:47.799 --> 00:19:49.319 and sleep and sleep it's like really a problem 00:19:49.319 --> 00:19:51.700 and so that's also that's why it's kind of hard 00:19:51.700 --> 00:19:54.200 for me like having to come to terms with just 00:19:54.200 --> 00:19:56.400 this like life change that i have to undergo 00:19:56.400 --> 00:20:01.140 because If I want to be a morning person, it 00:20:01.140 --> 00:20:05.200 seems that I am going to have to go to bed earlier 00:20:05.200 --> 00:20:07.920 to be able to get as much sleep as I want to 00:20:07.920 --> 00:20:10.579 get. Like, I don't know. I don't know, guys. 00:20:10.900 --> 00:20:15.779 It's really, like... It's really hard. It's really 00:20:15.779 --> 00:20:19.319 fucking hard. Because I love night, but you can't 00:20:19.319 --> 00:20:21.200 stay up late and then get up early. It just won't 00:20:21.200 --> 00:20:29.279 work. At least... You can. But here's the thing. 00:20:30.579 --> 00:20:39.220 I am a smoker. I started smoking in college. 00:20:39.759 --> 00:20:42.559 I didn't do anything until I got to college. 00:20:45.319 --> 00:20:51.900 And all of my friends and my peers were all stoners. 00:20:52.380 --> 00:20:55.079 So naturally, it became something where I was 00:20:55.079 --> 00:20:59.490 like, hmm. I'm interested in trying and then 00:20:59.490 --> 00:21:02.069 I tried it and we can, I probably won't talk 00:21:02.069 --> 00:21:03.750 about this right now, but at some point I will 00:21:03.750 --> 00:21:06.430 talk about my first time smoking. It was terrible. 00:21:07.650 --> 00:21:10.109 It was awful. It was literally the scariest moment 00:21:10.109 --> 00:21:18.250 of my life. I have never... I think that was 00:21:18.250 --> 00:21:22.609 my first moment where I was like, oh yeah, that 00:21:22.609 --> 00:21:24.990 was a panic attack. Like, without a doubt. It 00:21:24.990 --> 00:21:29.529 was crazy, but... that's for future um that's 00:21:29.529 --> 00:21:32.369 for another time but um yeah i started smoking 00:21:32.369 --> 00:21:36.150 in college um you know when i first started out 00:21:36.150 --> 00:21:39.910 i was like oh it's just on the weekends you know 00:21:39.910 --> 00:21:43.509 just do it on the weekends and then on the weekends 00:21:43.509 --> 00:21:47.410 turned into every day and then every day turned 00:21:47.410 --> 00:21:50.589 into multiple times a day and then you know that's 00:21:50.589 --> 00:21:55.200 just been a thing and um I've had ebbs and flows 00:21:55.200 --> 00:21:59.140 when it comes to my smoking practices. Right 00:21:59.140 --> 00:22:04.599 now, I am also coming to another big girl adulting 00:22:04.599 --> 00:22:08.119 realization, and it's that I probably should 00:22:08.119 --> 00:22:11.720 not smoke every day. And that's been really, 00:22:11.720 --> 00:22:23.650 really hard. That's been really difficult. here's 00:22:23.650 --> 00:22:26.829 why that is connected to my sleep because when 00:22:26.829 --> 00:22:32.549 you smoke and then you go to sleep like say you 00:22:32.549 --> 00:22:34.990 smoke at night your vibe and whatever you may 00:22:34.990 --> 00:22:37.849 even sober up a little bit but you go to sleep 00:22:37.849 --> 00:22:42.589 weed like fucks up your sleep which is great 00:22:42.589 --> 00:22:46.009 which is awesome we love that it fully wrecks 00:22:46.009 --> 00:22:49.069 your sleep because it causes you to not go through 00:22:49.069 --> 00:22:53.089 REM And REM is where you dream. That's mainly 00:22:53.089 --> 00:22:56.430 what people know it as. But it's also, you dream, 00:22:56.690 --> 00:23:04.569 you also process memories. You process low -key 00:23:04.569 --> 00:23:08.430 emotion. You're doing a lot of processing when 00:23:08.430 --> 00:23:11.369 you are in REM. It's extremely important. It's 00:23:11.369 --> 00:23:14.549 not just like, oh, if I smoke, I just don't have 00:23:14.549 --> 00:23:16.769 dreams. You're not dreaming, and you're also 00:23:16.769 --> 00:23:19.650 not processing. things that happen in your day 00:23:19.650 --> 00:23:21.630 whatever you're not like storing memories like 00:23:21.630 --> 00:23:23.650 and that's why when you smoke every day like 00:23:23.650 --> 00:23:28.329 your short -term memory is shit because it because 00:23:28.329 --> 00:23:30.329 of literally how it affects your sleep like it's 00:23:30.329 --> 00:23:34.630 crazy but what i've noticed is that when i smoke 00:23:34.630 --> 00:23:39.190 at night no matter how much sleep i get i wake 00:23:39.190 --> 00:23:43.529 up and i'm tired like so that has been something 00:23:43.529 --> 00:23:47.710 that I have slowly been noticing and having to 00:23:47.710 --> 00:23:49.930 actually like confront and come to terms with 00:23:49.930 --> 00:23:58.150 because it's just it's not it is not good it's 00:23:58.150 --> 00:24:01.170 not productive it's just so hard and this is 00:24:01.170 --> 00:24:03.849 I don't know why like I don't know what's happening 00:24:03.849 --> 00:24:08.210 guys but like being 23 and like being in New 00:24:08.210 --> 00:24:11.609 York, like I am entering a time in my life where 00:24:11.609 --> 00:24:17.069 I'm like, I have to be productive. Like I am 00:24:17.069 --> 00:24:22.630 running out of time. And part of it is like, 00:24:22.730 --> 00:24:24.130 girl, you need to calm down. Like you're not 00:24:24.130 --> 00:24:26.549 on your deathbed. But also another part of it 00:24:26.549 --> 00:24:31.039 is like, wait, I am like... These are the years 00:24:31.039 --> 00:24:34.200 like these are like I just like I have to like 00:24:34.200 --> 00:24:37.079 carp a DM like I have to seize the day I have 00:24:37.079 --> 00:24:41.220 to take advantage of time and like Do what I 00:24:41.220 --> 00:24:44.200 want to do like I cannot let every day pass me 00:24:44.200 --> 00:24:46.119 and I feel like when I'm smoking every day That's 00:24:46.119 --> 00:24:50.000 what happens. Like I just like am in a haze The 00:24:50.000 --> 00:24:53.859 days blend together Time is moving by so fast. 00:24:53.859 --> 00:24:55.940 I'm not remembering and it's just like really 00:24:55.940 --> 00:25:00.019 scary it's really really scary and that's crazy 00:25:00.019 --> 00:25:03.960 too because i did not i started smoking at i 00:25:03.960 --> 00:25:05.460 was like probably yeah i was probably like 18 00:25:05.460 --> 00:25:08.559 and on 23 it's been five years it's been five 00:25:08.559 --> 00:25:10.019 years and that's not even that long like some 00:25:10.019 --> 00:25:12.779 people a lot of people that i know started smoking 00:25:12.779 --> 00:25:18.440 at like 13 14 which is wild and like i'm so glad 00:25:18.440 --> 00:25:21.720 that i was like a goody two shoes up until college 00:25:21.720 --> 00:25:28.559 because This is this is one substance that I 00:25:28.559 --> 00:25:32.180 am trying to like get under control I can't I 00:25:32.180 --> 00:25:35.460 can't you know, I cannot imagine what I would 00:25:35.460 --> 00:25:39.960 be like if I started smoking at like 14 like 00:25:39.960 --> 00:25:49.380 also like the brain girl Girl, um But yeah, I 00:25:49.380 --> 00:25:53.589 I've really Very recently with just this past 00:25:53.589 --> 00:25:59.170 birthday. I have been so conscious of passing 00:25:59.170 --> 00:26:04.230 time and I do get very anxious about it and it's 00:26:04.230 --> 00:26:07.450 you know, not the best and it is something I 00:26:07.450 --> 00:26:11.369 need to like get under control, but Yeah, I don't 00:26:11.369 --> 00:26:14.109 know. It's just been it's really been haunting 00:26:14.109 --> 00:26:18.470 me and I'm just like You gotta get up. I'm like 00:26:18.759 --> 00:26:20.720 There's just so much to do like there's just 00:26:20.720 --> 00:26:22.480 so much to do like I have to start my podcast 00:26:22.480 --> 00:26:25.839 which hello It started there's there's that but 00:26:25.839 --> 00:26:30.380 I have to learn I have to learn Three languages 00:26:30.380 --> 00:26:36.099 I have to go to Brazil I have to Become a master 00:26:36.099 --> 00:26:38.920 at crocheting I need to start drawing like there's 00:26:38.920 --> 00:26:42.059 just so much I have to do and so it's just like 00:26:42.059 --> 00:26:45.940 All of these things guys, they're connected they're 00:26:45.940 --> 00:26:50.349 connected like it's a trifecta like Weed addiction 00:26:50.349 --> 00:26:57.970 ADD What else sleep, I don't know It's just a 00:26:57.970 --> 00:27:04.410 lot it's a lot um And it's just it's really rough, 00:27:04.490 --> 00:27:10.130 but Yeah, I it's just something like I've never 00:27:10.130 --> 00:27:16.450 thought about my age as much as i have in these 00:27:16.450 --> 00:27:18.869 past few months and i do really hate it because 00:27:18.869 --> 00:27:21.789 it is so fucking stupid like it's not logical 00:27:21.789 --> 00:27:27.230 at all to to feel this like all feelings are 00:27:27.230 --> 00:27:29.789 valid but it is not logical for me to be like 00:27:29.789 --> 00:27:33.690 oh my god i'm getting older and i'm running out 00:27:33.690 --> 00:27:37.650 of time like year 23 calm down my brain is not 00:27:37.650 --> 00:27:41.450 even fully developed but It is scary like it's 00:27:41.450 --> 00:27:43.450 obviously I'm the oldest I've ever been and it 00:27:43.450 --> 00:27:46.170 just feels really really crazy like something 00:27:46.170 --> 00:27:50.569 about 22 like I moved here and I was 22 and something 00:27:50.569 --> 00:27:53.829 about 22 just feels so fun and flirty and it's 00:27:53.829 --> 00:27:58.349 like and that even took me a while to be comfortable 00:27:58.349 --> 00:28:00.910 with because when I first turned 22 I was like 00:28:00.910 --> 00:28:04.750 oh my god I'm 22 I was 21 before and now I'm 00:28:04.750 --> 00:28:07.150 22 but then it got to a point where I was like 00:28:07.150 --> 00:28:10.150 22 is so cute yeah like how old are you like 00:28:10.150 --> 00:28:19.210 i'm 22 i'm 22 and now it's like ain't shit funny 00:28:19.210 --> 00:28:23.049 anymore because i also i one of my co -workers 00:28:23.049 --> 00:28:28.430 um who's 20 i remember when i my birthday was 00:28:28.430 --> 00:28:33.670 here um he was like how i was like he was like 00:28:33.670 --> 00:28:35.450 how old are you how old did you just turn i was 00:28:35.450 --> 00:28:40.920 like 23 and he was like damn And I was like, 00:28:42.079 --> 00:28:47.140 I should really beat you up right now. Like getting 00:28:47.140 --> 00:28:50.660 your first damn in response to your age, but 00:28:50.660 --> 00:28:53.160 it was like, it was like funny, but it was also 00:28:53.160 --> 00:28:56.559 just like, it was like, girl, it was like, you're, 00:28:57.599 --> 00:29:01.859 you're, in three years holler at me, cause you're 00:29:01.859 --> 00:29:04.859 gonna be in the exact same position as I am in. 00:29:04.960 --> 00:29:09.460 Like don't play with me, 20. 20 calling saying 00:29:09.460 --> 00:29:11.839 damn at a 23 year old is crazy, but it's truly 00:29:11.839 --> 00:29:16.200 like our brains are just so melted from like 00:29:16.200 --> 00:29:19.680 we're like losing sight because like truly even 00:29:19.680 --> 00:29:24.980 sometimes I do that we're like I feel like I've 00:29:24.980 --> 00:29:26.880 had co -workers just in the past where like I 00:29:26.880 --> 00:29:30.039 meet them and you know, we vibe and like I'm 00:29:30.039 --> 00:29:33.230 thinking that they're like my age and then you 00:29:33.230 --> 00:29:34.650 know i'm like how old are you and they're like 00:29:34.650 --> 00:29:37.390 oh you know i'm 29 and like sometimes in my head 00:29:37.390 --> 00:29:39.690 i'm like wow i'm like you look really good or 00:29:39.690 --> 00:29:42.710 you look really young and it's like 29 is not 00:29:42.710 --> 00:29:49.190 old it is not old and that's crazy like i sometimes 00:29:49.190 --> 00:29:51.410 have to catch myself and be like girl you're 00:29:51.410 --> 00:29:54.329 about getting like 29 or like even someone in 00:29:54.329 --> 00:29:56.390 their 30s they're like oh i'm 33 it's like wow 00:29:56.390 --> 00:29:59.250 you look so good it's like 33 is not old that's 00:29:59.250 --> 00:30:03.799 not old But genuinely like we are just our society, 00:30:03.900 --> 00:30:08.779 especially as a woman Especially as a woman let's 00:30:08.779 --> 00:30:11.960 put those thinking caps on because I don't play 00:30:11.960 --> 00:30:18.539 when it comes to I Yeah everything everything 00:30:18.539 --> 00:30:21.619 stems from the patriarchy aging as a woman is 00:30:21.619 --> 00:30:25.980 so scary because our youth is just looked at 00:30:25.980 --> 00:30:28.960 as like everything and men are allowed to age 00:30:28.960 --> 00:30:32.339 and get older and wrinkle and be ugly but as 00:30:32.339 --> 00:30:34.700 a woman you have to look good all of the time 00:30:34.700 --> 00:30:37.779 you cannot age you cannot look old whatever I 00:30:37.779 --> 00:30:40.279 don't know um it's just it's been really it's 00:30:40.279 --> 00:30:44.880 been it's been a journey and I'm just I'm just 00:30:44.880 --> 00:30:51.400 I'm rolling with the punches life is just yeah 00:30:51.400 --> 00:30:54.940 it's crazy it's it's really crazy but it also 00:30:54.940 --> 00:30:57.900 is like you know what i'm doing pretty well for 00:30:57.900 --> 00:31:01.880 myself because 10 years ago when i was 13 and 00:31:01.880 --> 00:31:05.859 when i genuinely did not see a future for myself 00:31:05.859 --> 00:31:12.059 past past 18 i would have never like if you would 00:31:12.059 --> 00:31:14.380 have told my 13 year old self that i would be 00:31:14.380 --> 00:31:21.000 here living in new york vibing like on my own 00:31:21.119 --> 00:31:23.559 and living my life and being independent and 00:31:23.559 --> 00:31:28.880 free, I would not have believed you. I would 00:31:28.880 --> 00:31:31.380 have been like, show me proof. Give me a photo. 00:31:32.299 --> 00:31:35.900 So it's really crazy. And I don't know. I have 00:31:35.900 --> 00:31:38.640 to sit sometimes and pat myself on the back. 00:31:38.880 --> 00:31:42.740 Bitch, you did that. You did that. And it's crazy. 00:31:43.059 --> 00:31:47.920 It's crazy. OK, this is random. And it's something 00:31:47.920 --> 00:31:50.059 quick and whatever. I just want to talk about 00:31:50.059 --> 00:31:56.539 it. Pet peeve. Pet peeve! Because I have had 00:31:56.539 --> 00:32:00.539 this said to me a few times recently and it really 00:32:00.539 --> 00:32:03.119 gets under my skin and I'm just curious how other 00:32:03.119 --> 00:32:10.819 people feel about it. But... Someone... People 00:32:10.819 --> 00:32:15.400 saying that you look tired I think is so fucking 00:32:15.400 --> 00:32:18.200 rude. It's so incredibly rude and I think as 00:32:18.200 --> 00:32:22.150 a society we need to stop doing it um because 00:32:22.150 --> 00:32:25.950 it's not nice it's not nice and i am unfortunately 00:32:25.950 --> 00:32:31.250 an over thinker and i will never forget i will 00:32:31.250 --> 00:32:34.710 think about that until the day that i die and 00:32:34.710 --> 00:32:36.710 it's been said to me multiple times like people 00:32:36.710 --> 00:32:39.430 see me for whatever reason they're just like 00:32:39.430 --> 00:32:44.450 you look tired it's like you might say that and 00:32:44.450 --> 00:32:49.369 not say that with intention of being mean But 00:32:49.369 --> 00:32:52.430 it doesn't fucking matter because what are you 00:32:52.430 --> 00:32:56.730 saying when you say that? What do you mean? What 00:32:56.730 --> 00:32:59.490 are you, what are you, what are you meaning by 00:32:59.490 --> 00:33:01.849 that? And also, what do you want me to do about 00:33:01.849 --> 00:33:07.430 it? That's my thing. Like, I had someone tell 00:33:07.430 --> 00:33:11.390 me that I look tired and that I also look like 00:33:11.390 --> 00:33:16.549 I just woke up. And I did just wake up. I woke 00:33:16.549 --> 00:33:19.160 up probably an hour before that was set to be 00:33:19.160 --> 00:33:24.380 an hour and a half maybe um also i'm sorry i 00:33:24.380 --> 00:33:26.779 keep sometimes i'm like looking over while i'm 00:33:26.779 --> 00:33:29.700 talking i need to like be conscious of the fact 00:33:29.700 --> 00:33:31.920 that i'm holding a microphone and the microphone 00:33:31.920 --> 00:33:35.099 is not a prop and i do need to speak into it 00:33:35.099 --> 00:33:37.579 to be picked up hopefully this audio is good 00:33:37.579 --> 00:33:40.339 if it's not i don't know what i'm going to do 00:33:40.339 --> 00:33:43.839 with myself but yeah i had that person i had 00:33:43.839 --> 00:33:46.150 this person be like you look like you just woke 00:33:46.150 --> 00:33:52.789 up and I was like what the f - like yeah I did 00:33:52.789 --> 00:33:59.849 now what like what it genuinely baffles me it's 00:33:59.849 --> 00:34:03.990 so like confusing and intriguing like also I'm 00:34:03.990 --> 00:34:06.950 gonna position myself differently because my 00:34:06.950 --> 00:34:12.159 foot is asleep oh my god I am on the loudest 00:34:12.159 --> 00:34:16.519 beanbag known to man. Sorry y 'all Hopefully 00:34:16.519 --> 00:34:21.099 it's not really annoying. But um Yeah, what do 00:34:21.099 --> 00:34:24.519 you want me what do you what do you want me to 00:34:24.519 --> 00:34:27.340 do about that? And what are you saying when you 00:34:27.340 --> 00:34:29.139 say that? Because when someone tells me that 00:34:29.139 --> 00:34:31.820 I look tired all I'm hearing is that I look ugly 00:34:31.820 --> 00:34:37.420 I look ugly. I look fucking like I just like 00:34:38.079 --> 00:34:40.639 That's the only thing that you could possibly 00:34:40.639 --> 00:34:45.420 mean when you're saying that. And what do you... 00:34:45.420 --> 00:34:49.179 Okay, you look tired. I am tired. I am tired. 00:34:49.780 --> 00:34:52.440 It's 9 a .m. What do you want from me? Where 00:34:52.440 --> 00:34:56.679 do we go from here? Like, it is genuinely so 00:34:56.679 --> 00:34:59.579 baffling. Stop saying that, people. Don't say 00:34:59.579 --> 00:35:03.840 that. I... Even if someone brings it up and is 00:35:03.840 --> 00:35:07.400 like, I'm really tired, like going like... Yeah, 00:35:07.400 --> 00:35:10.900 you look tired like how do you not see that that's 00:35:10.900 --> 00:35:14.639 a rude as fuck and you shouldn't say that but 00:35:14.639 --> 00:35:19.980 I'm also just vain and I'm just like Don't don't 00:35:19.980 --> 00:35:23.420 make a comment on my appearance that isn't Inherently 00:35:23.420 --> 00:35:28.840 positive. Sorry. I Don't like that. Um Okay, 00:35:28.840 --> 00:35:34.280 let's talk about movies It's the movie hour Let's 00:35:34.280 --> 00:35:40.280 talk about it. Um I have seen three movies in 00:35:40.280 --> 00:35:45.880 theaters in the past, like, few weeks. Also, 00:35:46.639 --> 00:35:50.659 am I gonna spoil anything? Yeah, I probably will. 00:35:51.380 --> 00:35:54.619 So, okay, what should I talk about first? Let's 00:35:54.619 --> 00:35:56.300 talk about weapons. Let's talk about weapons, 00:35:56.480 --> 00:35:59.280 because that was my favorite. Yeah, if you don't 00:35:59.280 --> 00:36:01.739 want to get spoiled, skip ahead a few minutes. 00:36:01.800 --> 00:36:04.059 I'm gonna see, I'm gonna try to put like timestamps 00:36:04.059 --> 00:36:06.820 in for my topics. We'll see, I can't make any 00:36:06.820 --> 00:36:09.800 promises, but yeah, skip ahead if you don't want 00:36:09.800 --> 00:36:12.219 to get spoiled because I'm gonna talk. I'm gonna 00:36:12.219 --> 00:36:17.019 talk freely. So yeah, I saw Weapons a few months, 00:36:17.139 --> 00:36:23.000 a few weeks ago. And for the record, horror is 00:36:23.000 --> 00:36:29.130 my favorite genre of movies. I just love scary 00:36:29.130 --> 00:36:32.190 movies. I don't know... I don't know what it 00:36:32.190 --> 00:36:35.969 is. I always have. And maybe it honestly runs 00:36:35.969 --> 00:36:39.610 in my genetic code, because my mom is really 00:36:39.610 --> 00:36:45.670 into scary, creepy stuff. Like, and my mom... 00:36:45.670 --> 00:36:50.769 There's a baby screaming outside. Shut up! I 00:36:50.769 --> 00:36:52.230 doubt that it's getting picked up, but that's 00:36:52.230 --> 00:36:59.679 really annoying. See that right there what we 00:36:59.679 --> 00:37:02.860 can talk about this in the future but kids, bro 00:37:02.860 --> 00:37:09.039 Y 'all got that y 'all got that I could never 00:37:09.039 --> 00:37:13.239 oh my god, I'm so annoyed. Okay. Um, yeah, my 00:37:13.239 --> 00:37:17.780 mom is crazy and She like she not only likes 00:37:17.780 --> 00:37:20.059 scary movies and likes true crime and likes all 00:37:20.059 --> 00:37:22.940 of that But she like will fully go in person 00:37:22.940 --> 00:37:25.219 to some creepy -ass shit. Like my mom has been 00:37:25.219 --> 00:37:27.550 to Cecil Hotel which, like, if you guys know 00:37:27.550 --> 00:37:30.289 about that, like, a lot of... it's haunted, apparently, 00:37:30.449 --> 00:37:34.690 like, whatever. My mom has gone to the site of 00:37:34.690 --> 00:37:38.150 where Jeffrey Dahmer's apartment building was. 00:37:40.190 --> 00:37:43.389 Yeah. Yeah. That Jeffrey Dahmer, the one that 00:37:43.389 --> 00:37:46.869 was, like, murdering people and dismembering 00:37:46.869 --> 00:37:50.289 their bodies in his apartment, she went there. 00:37:50.769 --> 00:37:52.309 There's nothing there anymore. I'm pretty sure 00:37:52.309 --> 00:37:54.510 it's just, like, a flat field, and I don't think 00:37:54.510 --> 00:37:56.500 they can... build anything because of the history 00:37:56.500 --> 00:37:59.800 but yeah i say a lot to say my mom loves really 00:37:59.800 --> 00:38:01.559 scary shit so maybe she just instilled that in 00:38:01.559 --> 00:38:04.800 me i don't know but i love horror i've always 00:38:04.800 --> 00:38:07.460 just i love the suspense i love being creeped 00:38:07.460 --> 00:38:09.880 out i love being scared like something about 00:38:09.880 --> 00:38:11.900 it maybe it's the adrenaline i don't know i really 00:38:11.900 --> 00:38:16.940 enjoy it so for me and with movies like like 00:38:16.940 --> 00:38:19.840 i said i have ad so sitting down and watching 00:38:19.840 --> 00:38:23.849 something is genuinely like Going to war for 00:38:23.849 --> 00:38:26.050 me. Like you have to put a gun to my head. Like 00:38:26.050 --> 00:38:32.750 I It's so rough I Usually am NOT someone you 00:38:32.750 --> 00:38:35.269 can like hang out with and just be like Oh, do 00:38:35.269 --> 00:38:37.510 you want to see this like brand insert like Miranda 00:38:37.510 --> 00:38:41.670 movie? Like no, I can't I can't I have to be 00:38:41.670 --> 00:38:45.309 extremely interested in a movie to even think 00:38:45.309 --> 00:38:47.590 about sitting down and watching it So usually 00:38:47.590 --> 00:38:51.789 it's only horror that I am like really into I 00:38:51.789 --> 00:38:53.630 saw the trailer for weapons a little while ago. 00:38:53.630 --> 00:38:58.550 It looks really interesting And it came out in 00:38:58.550 --> 00:39:01.190 theaters and I was like, let's go see this shit 00:39:01.190 --> 00:39:05.550 And I saw it alone I've seen it twice the first 00:39:05.550 --> 00:39:10.050 time I saw it alone Did I smoke before yes, I 00:39:10.050 --> 00:39:14.530 did What are you gonna do about it I wanted to 00:39:14.530 --> 00:39:22.190 make it fun Guys weapons was so good I really, 00:39:22.210 --> 00:39:27.050 really, really liked it. I really, really, really 00:39:27.050 --> 00:39:35.110 enjoyed it. I thought... I thought the... Where 00:39:35.110 --> 00:39:38.389 do I begin? As someone who likes horror, I can 00:39:38.389 --> 00:39:41.050 recognize that there are so many bad scary movies. 00:39:41.329 --> 00:39:44.769 There are. Maybe more bad than there are good, 00:39:44.909 --> 00:39:47.190 if I'm being for real. There are so many bad 00:39:47.190 --> 00:39:49.610 scary movies that just have shitty plots, shitty 00:39:49.610 --> 00:39:53.289 acting, and they're just relying on jump scares. 00:39:54.869 --> 00:39:58.269 Weapons was not that. Weapons had a fantastic 00:39:58.269 --> 00:40:01.510 storyline. The plot was so interesting. It was 00:40:01.510 --> 00:40:03.849 something that I have never seen before in a 00:40:03.849 --> 00:40:10.949 movie, truly. And it was a non -linear storytelling, 00:40:11.070 --> 00:40:12.989 which I feel like I don't really see a lot in 00:40:12.989 --> 00:40:15.960 movies, but it would like... you would be looking 00:40:15.960 --> 00:40:21.300 at the life of one person, and then they would 00:40:21.300 --> 00:40:23.460 have some sort of interaction or come into contact 00:40:23.460 --> 00:40:25.039 with someone else, you would, like, whatever, 00:40:25.380 --> 00:40:28.840 and then... I don't even know how to explain 00:40:28.840 --> 00:40:33.300 it, like, it wasn't... it wasn't, like, past, 00:40:33.340 --> 00:40:35.219 present, future storytelling, like, it would 00:40:35.219 --> 00:40:39.699 bounce around, like, you would see... I don't 00:40:39.699 --> 00:40:43.079 even, like... things would happen, and then it 00:40:43.079 --> 00:40:48.090 would show you... What occurred before? To lead 00:40:48.090 --> 00:40:50.030 up to that and it would show you that from the 00:40:50.030 --> 00:40:52.010 perspective of someone else like if that makes 00:40:52.010 --> 00:40:55.349 any sense at all Probably does not but it was 00:40:55.349 --> 00:40:58.889 so fun to watch. It was so fun to watch I was 00:40:58.889 --> 00:41:02.389 on the edge of my damn seat I was like this is 00:41:02.389 --> 00:41:06.150 amazing. I am so locked in like I Just had so 00:41:06.150 --> 00:41:11.130 much fun watching it. Like it was so fun. Um, 00:41:11.949 --> 00:41:17.920 and Genuinely was scary like, genuinely was scary. 00:41:17.980 --> 00:41:34.059 It was a mix of, like, gore with, like... I don't 00:41:34.059 --> 00:41:37.219 even know. I don't... I just feel like you have 00:41:37.219 --> 00:41:38.639 to watch. Like, I can't even... I don't even 00:41:38.639 --> 00:41:40.940 want to, like, spend the time, like, really getting 00:41:40.940 --> 00:41:42.960 into the nitty -gritty. Just watch the fucking 00:41:42.960 --> 00:41:51.800 movie. Okay, just watch the movie But I thought 00:41:51.800 --> 00:41:54.579 the jump scares were really good and not even 00:41:54.579 --> 00:41:57.699 just because I was high like Genuinely because 00:41:57.699 --> 00:42:00.880 even watching it back the second time high again 00:42:00.880 --> 00:42:03.880 But watching it the second time already knowing 00:42:03.880 --> 00:42:08.239 what was gonna happen. I still Was so like that 00:42:08.239 --> 00:42:11.139 movie did such a good job of creating suspense 00:42:11.139 --> 00:42:18.170 such a good job I just thought it was fucking 00:42:18.170 --> 00:42:21.969 fantastic. I thought it was brilliant. I thought 00:42:21.969 --> 00:42:30.150 it was funny. I loved the opening scene or like 00:42:30.150 --> 00:42:32.190 after there's a little bit of narration on it's 00:42:32.190 --> 00:42:34.989 an opening scene showing all of the children 00:42:34.989 --> 00:42:37.550 in this town running out of their front doors. 00:42:38.610 --> 00:42:43.210 They play the song is called Beware of Darkness, 00:42:43.230 --> 00:42:47.889 I believe. Good song. After I listened to it 00:42:47.889 --> 00:42:49.230 in the movies, I was like, wait, this song kinda 00:42:49.230 --> 00:42:52.510 lit and I have it in my legs. But they were playing 00:42:52.510 --> 00:42:54.429 this song in the background while these kids 00:42:54.429 --> 00:43:00.889 were running out of their house. And the dichotomy 00:43:00.889 --> 00:43:07.090 of a creepy visual with a semi -happy sounding 00:43:07.090 --> 00:43:11.289 calm Upbeat song was really cool and I loved 00:43:11.289 --> 00:43:14.690 it And I just thought it was so well done. I 00:43:14.690 --> 00:43:16.570 just thought it was fucking well done. I thought 00:43:16.570 --> 00:43:18.349 the jump scares were really good I thought it 00:43:18.349 --> 00:43:25.570 was creepy. It was scary The gore was done fantastically 00:43:25.570 --> 00:43:30.730 and I thought the the end scene of Gladys the 00:43:30.730 --> 00:43:34.210 witch who is like the antagonist of the story 00:43:36.059 --> 00:43:38.539 Being chased by all the children and then them 00:43:38.539 --> 00:43:43.280 eating her corpse Sorry spoil I thought it was 00:43:43.280 --> 00:43:45.699 just so fucking good. So brilliant. I thought 00:43:45.699 --> 00:43:47.760 it was so fun to watch. It was just great I really 00:43:47.760 --> 00:43:52.860 liked it. So go see weapons. I really liked it 00:43:52.860 --> 00:43:56.300 So that's why you should see it The next movie 00:43:56.300 --> 00:44:00.599 that I saw was together and I had high hopes 00:44:00.599 --> 00:44:05.619 for together. I was really excited about it Actually, 00:44:05.699 --> 00:44:07.539 I mean was I that I was I was semi excited. I 00:44:07.539 --> 00:44:11.880 hadn't heard too much about it, but I just heard 00:44:11.880 --> 00:44:14.420 people saying that it was a movie about a couple 00:44:14.420 --> 00:44:18.599 and that it was scary and that couples were watching 00:44:18.599 --> 00:44:22.340 it and were like breaking up because of it and 00:44:22.340 --> 00:44:26.300 so I was like I'm sold like this sounds interesting 00:44:26.300 --> 00:44:32.440 like what what could this possibly be and together 00:44:32.440 --> 00:44:38.389 was a movie, again, spoil. If you're still here 00:44:38.389 --> 00:44:39.989 and you're not wanting to spoil, I don't know 00:44:39.989 --> 00:44:45.210 what to tell you. Together was about this couple 00:44:45.210 --> 00:44:49.429 and they... basically the theme of the movie 00:44:49.429 --> 00:44:52.130 was codependency. That's basically what the movie 00:44:52.130 --> 00:44:54.530 was trying to talk about, was people who get 00:44:54.530 --> 00:44:56.329 into a relationship and then become codependent, 00:44:56.590 --> 00:45:01.050 which for me, that's really scary. That really 00:45:01.050 --> 00:45:05.019 scares me. So I was like this is a great concept 00:45:05.019 --> 00:45:06.780 for a scary movie because that's fucking terrifying 00:45:06.780 --> 00:45:13.079 But basically Throughout the whole movie they're 00:45:13.079 --> 00:45:15.039 having these certain things happen or they'll 00:45:15.039 --> 00:45:18.219 be having sex or whatever is going on and they 00:45:18.219 --> 00:45:23.380 start to Mesh together like their their bodies 00:45:23.380 --> 00:45:26.619 are becoming one essentially and it's a cool 00:45:26.619 --> 00:45:30.219 concept but after like the seventh time of it 00:45:30.219 --> 00:45:32.900 happening, it's just like Okay, I don't really 00:45:32.900 --> 00:45:36.480 give a fuck I don't really care and I don't know 00:45:36.480 --> 00:45:38.599 why I'm expected to care or why I'm expected 00:45:38.599 --> 00:45:42.360 to act like this is interesting fun cool creative 00:45:42.360 --> 00:45:50.079 it's really stupid and I just I hated it. I Me 00:45:50.079 --> 00:45:51.480 and the friend that I watched the movie with 00:45:51.480 --> 00:45:54.119 we left the movie theater and we were like Okay, 00:45:54.159 --> 00:45:58.429 so that was a waste of time. That was not anything 00:45:58.429 --> 00:46:01.230 like it was a movie where I left and I was like 00:46:01.230 --> 00:46:06.949 wait nothing happened like nothing happened and 00:46:06.949 --> 00:46:10.309 There was a point in the movie kind of towards 00:46:10.309 --> 00:46:13.110 like the beginning middle where they were like 00:46:13.110 --> 00:46:17.110 hiking or they were outside and they fell into 00:46:17.110 --> 00:46:22.030 this cave and This was just a crazy part for 00:46:22.030 --> 00:46:28.110 me Also, it's it's Dave Franco. He's the like 00:46:28.110 --> 00:46:33.190 boyfriend and then I Don't know her name off 00:46:33.190 --> 00:46:35.429 the top of my head I'm not gonna lie. Um, but 00:46:35.429 --> 00:46:39.130 they're married in real life, which is fun. Isn't 00:46:39.130 --> 00:46:44.030 that cool? So yeah, also that's also another 00:46:44.030 --> 00:46:47.190 reason why I could not enjoy the movie Dave Franco 00:46:47.190 --> 00:46:50.289 should never be in a serious role. He can't do 00:46:50.289 --> 00:46:53.380 it He just can't. I could not take him seriously. 00:46:53.880 --> 00:46:56.739 But anyways. They're hiking, they fall into a 00:46:56.739 --> 00:46:58.699 cave and it's night time and it's like pouring 00:46:58.699 --> 00:47:03.079 rain. Why do these motherfuckers set up a fucking 00:47:03.079 --> 00:47:07.619 fire and are like getting comfortable and finding 00:47:07.619 --> 00:47:09.460 a place to rest up for the night? And they're 00:47:09.460 --> 00:47:11.159 like, yeah, we'll just we'll just get out in 00:47:11.159 --> 00:47:12.780 the morning and we'll figure it out in the morning. 00:47:15.119 --> 00:47:18.980 I just find that to be so unrealistic. Like in 00:47:18.980 --> 00:47:23.179 what world would you be hiking somewhere and 00:47:23.179 --> 00:47:26.340 fall into a cave and instead of trying to get 00:47:26.340 --> 00:47:29.079 out right then and there, you're like making 00:47:29.079 --> 00:47:32.380 a fire and making a little bed and you're like, 00:47:32.400 --> 00:47:35.139 oh, we'll just get out in the morning. I'm not 00:47:35.139 --> 00:47:40.039 staying here. I am absolutely not sleeping here. 00:47:40.199 --> 00:47:43.900 Like what are you talking about? I thought that 00:47:43.900 --> 00:47:47.460 that was really crazy and just so unrealistic, 00:47:48.000 --> 00:47:53.820 like, no. In what world? If I was dating someone 00:47:53.820 --> 00:47:56.780 and we were fucking hiking in the middle of the 00:47:56.780 --> 00:47:59.559 forest for some reason and we fall into a cave 00:47:59.559 --> 00:48:04.360 and they're like setting up a fire, I'd be like, 00:48:04.360 --> 00:48:06.360 bitch, I'm breaking up with you and I'm also 00:48:06.360 --> 00:48:09.639 getting out of this cave right now because I'm 00:48:09.639 --> 00:48:14.800 not sleeping here. Are you insane? That's wild 00:48:14.800 --> 00:48:18.000 but Yeah, it was just a really stupid movie. 00:48:18.000 --> 00:48:20.659 Nothing happened. It wasn't scary. It wasn't 00:48:20.659 --> 00:48:24.059 even creepy The jump scares were made everything 00:48:24.059 --> 00:48:26.039 was made and then the ending was really stupid 00:48:26.039 --> 00:48:29.559 at the end. They just merged into one like Person 00:48:29.559 --> 00:48:33.400 so it was giving like non -binary tease like 00:48:33.400 --> 00:48:36.079 just like a person Just them mixed together and 00:48:36.079 --> 00:48:38.300 then it was it was just stupid. It was really 00:48:38.300 --> 00:48:43.449 dumb. Um The next movie that we're gonna talk 00:48:43.449 --> 00:48:47.070 about the last movie I saw two nights ago and 00:48:47.070 --> 00:48:51.429 it was the newest Conjuring and I'm a little 00:48:51.429 --> 00:48:53.369 scared to state my opinion because they have 00:48:53.369 --> 00:48:56.150 like a cult following like it's like a very big 00:48:56.150 --> 00:49:00.449 series and I will say I have not seen any of 00:49:00.449 --> 00:49:03.010 the movies um I went to go see it with a friend 00:49:03.010 --> 00:49:06.030 and he was like you need to watch like at least 00:49:06.030 --> 00:49:08.389 the first two Conjuring's first three or whatever 00:49:08.389 --> 00:49:14.179 the fuck so I started the first one watched about 00:49:14.179 --> 00:49:16.380 20 minutes of it. The drum scares that I saw 00:49:16.380 --> 00:49:20.619 were good, I think. But I just got bored. I got 00:49:20.619 --> 00:49:23.800 sidetracked. Hashtag ADD. And I was just like, 00:49:23.820 --> 00:49:25.940 I don't want to do this anymore. So I started 00:49:25.940 --> 00:49:32.900 watching something else. So, yes, I will... I 00:49:32.900 --> 00:49:37.480 will... Be open and transparent about the fact 00:49:37.480 --> 00:49:41.880 that I went into the last Conjuring movie with 00:49:41.880 --> 00:49:46.019 no context no knowledge of any of the lore Like 00:49:46.019 --> 00:49:48.619 never seen any of the movies and didn't see the 00:49:48.619 --> 00:49:51.159 Annabelle's didn't like whatever didn't see any 00:49:51.159 --> 00:49:57.139 of them But I really didn't like it guys I really 00:49:57.139 --> 00:50:03.000 didn't like it I'm like hunching I really did 00:50:03.000 --> 00:50:08.219 not enjoy it. I did not like it. I don't know 00:50:08.219 --> 00:50:13.179 what, I hated it actually. And it was also long. 00:50:13.300 --> 00:50:16.960 It was two hours and 15 minutes, which once you 00:50:16.960 --> 00:50:25.340 get over... For me, the sweet spot of a movie 00:50:25.340 --> 00:50:29.800 is an hour and like 40 minutes. That's a perfect 00:50:29.800 --> 00:50:35.369 movie length. Two hours Mmm, if you have a lot 00:50:35.369 --> 00:50:39.389 to say, okay Anything above two hours of it. 00:50:39.409 --> 00:50:43.210 All right now we're now we're doing a lot and 00:50:43.210 --> 00:50:47.369 so it was two hours and 13 minutes Which I didn't 00:50:47.369 --> 00:50:49.969 realize until like the very end because it got 00:50:49.969 --> 00:50:52.449 to a point where I was like I googled it because 00:50:52.449 --> 00:50:54.090 I was like I need to see how long this movie 00:50:54.090 --> 00:50:59.369 is because I'm going crazy, but um, I Just I 00:50:59.369 --> 00:51:03.750 just did not I thought I thought the acting was 00:51:03.750 --> 00:51:08.909 mid. I thought it was just like Really? Like 00:51:08.909 --> 00:51:13.130 I feel like if I was like a 40 year old like 00:51:13.130 --> 00:51:19.929 white father with like a Few kids, I don't like 00:51:19.929 --> 00:51:22.489 I could see myself enjoying it. I don't know. 00:51:22.550 --> 00:51:25.510 It's something about it. Just gave very like 00:51:25.510 --> 00:51:29.619 not even like family movie, but something where 00:51:29.619 --> 00:51:32.800 they're trying to appeal to the masses, but I 00:51:32.800 --> 00:51:35.679 am not the masses in question. Like, I like a 00:51:35.679 --> 00:51:37.559 movie that's gonna be thought -provoking, that's 00:51:37.559 --> 00:51:39.079 gonna, like, make me think, that's gonna be, 00:51:39.079 --> 00:51:42.119 like, a think piece. And for me, it was just 00:51:42.119 --> 00:51:45.960 kind of a basic, scary movie that was very formulaic. 00:51:46.500 --> 00:51:50.260 And the interesting thing is that while the jump 00:51:50.260 --> 00:51:53.159 scares all did get me, like, I was in that bitch, 00:51:53.400 --> 00:51:56.800 like, ah! Like, fully screaming, like, at a lot 00:51:56.800 --> 00:51:59.980 of the jump scares. I still expected all of them. 00:52:00.260 --> 00:52:04.039 Like, I knew that they were coming. Like, when 00:52:04.039 --> 00:52:06.760 someone walked into a room and they panned on 00:52:06.760 --> 00:52:09.639 a specific object, I was like, okay, I know that 00:52:09.639 --> 00:52:11.539 object is gonna start moving or some weird shit 00:52:11.539 --> 00:52:15.239 is gonna happen with that. Or, you know, when 00:52:15.239 --> 00:52:17.219 they're in an attic and they're like looking 00:52:17.219 --> 00:52:18.920 around, it was like, I know someone is gonna 00:52:18.920 --> 00:52:21.280 pop out and I know, like, there's, you know, 00:52:21.300 --> 00:52:25.599 there's music playing, there's like a... Like, 00:52:25.619 --> 00:52:29.099 I know when it's coming. it was still scaring 00:52:29.099 --> 00:52:31.659 me but it was just like I was just like I am 00:52:31.659 --> 00:52:35.619 expecting all of this like it is it was so predictable 00:52:35.619 --> 00:52:40.559 and I that's something I can't do in horror because 00:52:40.559 --> 00:52:44.239 that to me is like bad horror where it's just 00:52:44.239 --> 00:52:47.639 like I should not watch a movie and be like a 00:52:47.639 --> 00:52:49.940 scare is coming in 12 seconds you know like I 00:52:49.940 --> 00:52:56.099 shouldn't know that you you there's a way And 00:52:56.099 --> 00:52:57.980 I feel like weapons of this really well where 00:52:57.980 --> 00:53:00.719 they you can build us you can build suspense 00:53:00.719 --> 00:53:04.280 in a movie and make someone feel uneasy and make 00:53:04.280 --> 00:53:07.980 someone feel scared and feel like something is 00:53:07.980 --> 00:53:11.940 coming, but you Should make someone feel that 00:53:11.940 --> 00:53:16.800 way Like it should be like oh Something is coming, 00:53:16.860 --> 00:53:20.199 but I don't know when and I don't know what You 00:53:20.199 --> 00:53:22.659 know what I'm saying, but with the conjuring 00:53:22.659 --> 00:53:26.460 I was like something is coming and I I'm 99 % 00:53:26.460 --> 00:53:29.559 sure it's gonna be this and it's going to be 00:53:29.559 --> 00:53:36.400 very soon. You know what I'm saying? It was so... 00:53:36.400 --> 00:53:40.739 And for this to be the last movie in the series, 00:53:41.000 --> 00:53:49.280 I was just like... It didn't do what it did. 00:53:49.440 --> 00:53:52.460 I don't know. And then I also just... The graphics 00:53:52.460 --> 00:53:57.559 were insane. in a bad way like there were like 00:53:57.559 --> 00:54:00.800 there was a lot going on it was kind of gaggy 00:54:00.800 --> 00:54:03.500 like and i don't know if it was in a good way 00:54:03.500 --> 00:54:06.980 but annabelle was in the movie or like some doll 00:54:06.980 --> 00:54:09.940 that looked like her there was like some guy 00:54:09.940 --> 00:54:12.739 in their basement with a an axe like some sort 00:54:12.739 --> 00:54:15.639 of like lumberjack type i don't maybe not lumberjack 00:54:15.639 --> 00:54:20.300 some like big giant man but it was cgi but it 00:54:20.300 --> 00:54:25.480 was so bad like it was like that CGI where it 00:54:25.480 --> 00:54:27.880 wasn't scary. I was just like, what is this shitty 00:54:27.880 --> 00:54:32.320 video game? It's 2025. If you're using effects 00:54:32.320 --> 00:54:34.099 in your movies, that shit needs to look good. 00:54:35.059 --> 00:54:37.980 And even with a gore, the gore didn't look that 00:54:37.980 --> 00:54:42.000 good. And in weapons, weapons had gore and weapons 00:54:42.000 --> 00:54:46.460 had blood and ripped open skulls and everything 00:54:46.460 --> 00:54:50.059 looked really real. I was like, I feel like I 00:54:50.059 --> 00:54:51.639 need to be looking away. This is something that 00:54:51.639 --> 00:54:54.349 I shouldn't be seeing. With the conjuring I was 00:54:54.349 --> 00:55:00.289 like This doesn't look This is not this isn't 00:55:00.289 --> 00:55:04.030 scary. Like I just Like the jump scares got me 00:55:04.030 --> 00:55:07.010 but it was not scary. It wasn't scary. It wasn't 00:55:07.010 --> 00:55:10.050 creepy It was so predictable to me and it was 00:55:10.050 --> 00:55:16.289 so like bad like I just really I think I Don't 00:55:16.289 --> 00:55:18.489 know. I don't know. I feel like I would have 00:55:18.489 --> 00:55:21.230 to say the conjuring is worse in terms of just 00:55:21.230 --> 00:55:24.579 like So predictable and so like they were following 00:55:24.579 --> 00:55:27.199 a template for like what a scary movie about 00:55:27.199 --> 00:55:30.320 like a haunted houses or like haunted people 00:55:30.320 --> 00:55:38.820 but Yeah Sorry guys, I hated it I Didn't like 00:55:38.820 --> 00:55:40.599 it, but maybe I'll go back and watch like the 00:55:40.599 --> 00:55:43.760 older stuff Because the first Conjuring that 00:55:43.760 --> 00:55:46.340 came out in 2013 like from what I saw the 20 00:55:46.340 --> 00:55:48.869 minutes that I watched I was like, okay Like 00:55:48.869 --> 00:55:52.050 for 2013, like for 12 years ago, like okay, you 00:55:52.050 --> 00:55:54.710 know, but right now it's like you can't have 00:55:54.710 --> 00:55:58.210 like a shitty bad like unscathed, like it's 2025. 00:55:58.429 --> 00:56:02.929 You have to lock in. You have to. But I am also 00:56:02.929 --> 00:56:08.869 a horror buff. So I feel like I have very strong 00:56:08.869 --> 00:56:14.829 opinions about that. With that, I think I'm gonna... 00:56:15.980 --> 00:56:17.940 Bring this to a close. I've been talking for 00:56:17.940 --> 00:56:26.420 almost an hour That's wild um well We're at the 00:56:26.420 --> 00:56:30.260 end of this. I hope you guys enjoyed I hope that 00:56:30.260 --> 00:56:34.619 the audio quality is not terrible. This is This 00:56:34.619 --> 00:56:37.820 mic was less than $20 on Amazon and it's a very 00:56:37.820 --> 00:56:41.179 it's like a gaggy like tiny microphone I don't 00:56:41.179 --> 00:56:43.079 know why I just find these like cute and funny 00:56:43.870 --> 00:56:48.650 um i probably will definitely upgrade um at some 00:56:48.650 --> 00:56:51.530 point when the funds are there but y 'all can 00:56:51.530 --> 00:57:03.250 be patient um yeah hope you enjoyed um this podcast 00:57:03.250 --> 00:57:08.409 in what am i trying to say hello in theory i 00:57:08.409 --> 00:57:13.280 would like to drop episodes once a week um I 00:57:13.280 --> 00:57:15.639 still need to, you know, feel that out, find 00:57:15.639 --> 00:57:17.480 a schedule that works for me, find a day that 00:57:17.480 --> 00:57:21.159 works for me, but details on that coming soon. 00:57:21.840 --> 00:57:25.219 You can watch this on YouTube. If you are watching 00:57:25.219 --> 00:57:28.420 this on YouTube, hello. This will be available 00:57:28.420 --> 00:57:31.480 on Spotify, on a podcast, anywhere you can listen 00:57:31.480 --> 00:57:35.179 to a podcast. Thank you so much for viewing, 00:57:35.559 --> 00:57:37.900 for listening, for hanging out. I hope you have 00:57:37.900 --> 00:57:41.099 an amazing day. I will see you in the next episode. 00:57:42.000 --> 00:57:42.800 Bye!