WEBVTT 00:00:00.270 --> 00:00:06.849 I just made a huge change in my life. I realized 00:00:06.849 --> 00:00:10.830 that I am fundamentally, I'm missing something 00:00:10.830 --> 00:00:14.150 fundamental, something fundamental in my message 00:00:14.150 --> 00:00:18.550 on YouTube and also in my own life, my personal 00:00:18.550 --> 00:00:22.070 development and everything relating to that, 00:00:22.289 --> 00:00:25.190 whether it's like spiritual, mental, intellectual, 00:00:25.870 --> 00:00:28.870 whatever that is. everything relating to that, 00:00:29.010 --> 00:00:34.609 I'm missing a fundamental element. And so one 00:00:34.609 --> 00:00:36.929 of the things that I identified that I'm missing 00:00:36.929 --> 00:00:42.549 in my YouTube channel is I want to be able to 00:00:42.549 --> 00:00:46.549 make videos that actually completely transform 00:00:46.549 --> 00:00:50.149 people's lives. not just videos that tell people 00:00:50.149 --> 00:00:52.429 what to do, tell people that they're messing 00:00:52.429 --> 00:00:56.570 up. I want to make videos that people watch and 00:00:56.570 --> 00:01:00.670 their life completely changes as a result. And 00:01:00.670 --> 00:01:03.149 so over the past couple years, I've been learning 00:01:03.149 --> 00:01:07.709 how to do that. It started with, after I started 00:01:07.709 --> 00:01:10.769 taking YouTube seriously, working on the editing 00:01:10.769 --> 00:01:13.129 and all that, I started to realize, oh, I actually 00:01:13.129 --> 00:01:15.750 want to start having like, almost a storyline 00:01:15.750 --> 00:01:18.930 but just having like simple b -roll footage and 00:01:18.930 --> 00:01:22.909 then it evolved to I identified that I wanted 00:01:22.909 --> 00:01:27.609 to utilize music to evoke emotion and also to 00:01:27.609 --> 00:01:31.969 have that transformative element so I spent like 00:01:31.969 --> 00:01:34.689 two months locked in my locked in my room learning 00:01:34.689 --> 00:01:37.310 how to make music so that I can reapply that 00:01:37.310 --> 00:01:40.069 to my YouTube videos so that they're just a little 00:01:40.069 --> 00:01:42.950 bit closer to being able to completely transform 00:01:42.950 --> 00:01:47.250 people's lives But the most recent thing that 00:01:47.250 --> 00:01:50.409 I identified that I'm missing, the first thing 00:01:50.409 --> 00:01:54.829 that I identified was that I want to be able 00:01:54.829 --> 00:01:59.250 to get people to think for themselves. So people 00:01:59.250 --> 00:02:02.810 don't actually change unless they think for themselves. 00:02:02.909 --> 00:02:05.510 And this is something that I've been acutely 00:02:05.510 --> 00:02:11.719 aware of in my life. How whenever I was like 00:02:11.719 --> 00:02:15.060 back in the day when I had bad habits I remember 00:02:15.060 --> 00:02:18.819 I would eat like a bunch of candy and then I 00:02:18.819 --> 00:02:22.819 would think to myself afterwards with a terrible 00:02:22.819 --> 00:02:26.000 stomach ache and I would just basically in my 00:02:26.000 --> 00:02:29.460 mind's eye I would just focus all of my thought 00:02:29.460 --> 00:02:32.539 like focus all my attention on the pain and I'm 00:02:32.539 --> 00:02:35.789 like Why did I like, why do I eat candy? Like 00:02:35.789 --> 00:02:38.969 this is disgusting. And I basically learned to 00:02:38.969 --> 00:02:42.849 identify that pain with candy. And that was my 00:02:42.849 --> 00:02:46.250 process for thinking for myself. And then I also 00:02:46.250 --> 00:02:49.389 use that same process, but in a different way 00:02:49.389 --> 00:02:53.449 with other things. Like, um, um, I can't think 00:02:53.449 --> 00:02:57.949 of a exact example right now, but whenever I, 00:02:58.830 --> 00:03:01.830 whenever there's something I always just think 00:03:01.830 --> 00:03:04.960 to myself, Like I was talking to a new friend 00:03:04.960 --> 00:03:07.520 the other day and we were talking for like four 00:03:07.520 --> 00:03:12.379 hours about just like a bunch of stuff but we 00:03:12.379 --> 00:03:14.860 had like this long conversation and he was doing 00:03:14.860 --> 00:03:16.939 the majority of the talking I was just listening 00:03:16.939 --> 00:03:21.819 soaking up all the information and I realized 00:03:21.819 --> 00:03:25.500 that at the end of the conversation he said that 00:03:25.500 --> 00:03:29.259 I'm not a yes man which is like Someone who always 00:03:29.259 --> 00:03:31.960 agrees and just doesn't really think for themselves. 00:03:31.960 --> 00:03:34.979 He said that you like challenge my worldview 00:03:34.979 --> 00:03:39.300 and you you try and test my ideas that I say 00:03:39.300 --> 00:03:43.800 to you or that I share and Throughout that conversation 00:03:43.800 --> 00:03:46.060 he would say something and I'm like, oh wait, 00:03:46.240 --> 00:03:48.479 what does that mean like? Explained that and 00:03:48.479 --> 00:03:51.340 then after I understood it I applied it to something 00:03:51.340 --> 00:03:54.060 else for example We were talking about he was 00:03:54.060 --> 00:03:56.419 bringing up this new concept that I'd never heard 00:03:56.419 --> 00:03:59.300 of called like the difference between objective 00:03:59.300 --> 00:04:03.180 morality and subjective morality and He was explaining 00:04:03.180 --> 00:04:05.439 all this stuff and then after he finished explaining 00:04:05.439 --> 00:04:08.699 it I was I basically put it to the test and I 00:04:08.699 --> 00:04:12.280 was like, okay Well, and I came up with different 00:04:12.280 --> 00:04:18.990 scenarios to test if objective Subject or objective 00:04:18.990 --> 00:04:22.490 morality was possible. And so I would say like 00:04:22.490 --> 00:04:27.829 well on I heard about this tribal island like 00:04:27.829 --> 00:04:31.449 this island tribe of hunter -gatherers back in 00:04:31.449 --> 00:04:38.790 the day where they would have to do like a Sacrifice 00:04:38.790 --> 00:04:41.589 they would have to sacrifice their own people 00:04:41.589 --> 00:04:44.550 every once in a while or else overpopulation 00:04:44.550 --> 00:04:47.959 would occur because if you have, and then if 00:04:47.959 --> 00:04:50.980 overpopulation occurs on an island with limited 00:04:50.980 --> 00:04:54.139 food, then everyone dies. And so they had to 00:04:54.139 --> 00:04:59.480 do, like they had to do routine sacrifices of 00:04:59.480 --> 00:05:03.000 their own people. And so I basically applied 00:05:03.000 --> 00:05:07.160 objective morality to that situation and questioned 00:05:07.160 --> 00:05:09.959 him. Like, well, were they objectively moral? 00:05:10.259 --> 00:05:13.889 And then like, basically that's like, me thinking 00:05:13.889 --> 00:05:16.529 for myself, like I was thinking through this 00:05:16.529 --> 00:05:19.629 new idea and concept that I was exposed to and 00:05:19.629 --> 00:05:22.569 seeing if it applied to like different situations. 00:05:23.250 --> 00:05:27.089 And so, and this, like this same concept of me 00:05:27.089 --> 00:05:30.949 thinking, whether it's like associating the pain 00:05:30.949 --> 00:05:33.810 of eating candy, like associating the pain of 00:05:33.810 --> 00:05:37.209 digesting all that food, all the candy and thinking 00:05:37.209 --> 00:05:40.389 about that or thinking about a new idea or concept 00:05:40.389 --> 00:05:43.329 that I'm exposed to. And that also, that thinking 00:05:43.329 --> 00:05:48.230 process is also relevant in any other aspect 00:05:48.230 --> 00:05:51.610 of life. And that's something that I've been 00:05:51.610 --> 00:05:54.889 acutely aware that I utilize, but not everyone 00:05:54.889 --> 00:05:58.129 does. And I believe that if people utilize it, 00:05:58.149 --> 00:06:00.889 then they would change their behavior. And I 00:06:00.889 --> 00:06:03.870 think that I realized that one of the missing 00:06:03.870 --> 00:06:07.449 pieces to my videos is that there is no thinking 00:06:07.449 --> 00:06:10.050 for yourself. It's just me talk, talk, talk, 00:06:10.050 --> 00:06:13.350 talk, talk. I don't know how to get people to 00:06:13.350 --> 00:06:15.470 think for themselves. And if they can't think 00:06:15.470 --> 00:06:18.550 for themselves, then they're not gonna actually 00:06:18.550 --> 00:06:21.829 change. And that's why I realized that I was 00:06:21.829 --> 00:06:26.029 missing a truly fundamental skill in my ability 00:06:26.029 --> 00:06:29.370 to make transformative videos, which is getting 00:06:29.370 --> 00:06:34.310 people to think for themselves. And so I, after 00:06:34.310 --> 00:06:38.920 pondering, I intuitively understood that Not 00:06:38.920 --> 00:06:43.720 intellectually, this is a key piece of information. 00:06:44.000 --> 00:06:48.779 I didn't intellectually decide to become a door 00:06:48.779 --> 00:06:52.699 -to -door salesman. I intuitively knew that if 00:06:52.699 --> 00:06:55.759 I trained as a door -to -door salesman, then 00:06:55.759 --> 00:07:00.920 I would learn all of the skills involved with 00:07:00.920 --> 00:07:03.160 allowing people to think for themselves. Plus, 00:07:03.759 --> 00:07:08.490 I've also noticed that one of my Huge weaknesses 00:07:08.490 --> 00:07:13.110 is on my social side of things of my social abilities 00:07:13.110 --> 00:07:16.889 and my charisma and like Just social confidence 00:07:16.889 --> 00:07:20.949 like all that stuff That's my that's my biggest 00:07:20.949 --> 00:07:23.550 weakness in my personal development right now 00:07:23.550 --> 00:07:26.410 everything related to the social side So I knew 00:07:26.410 --> 00:07:29.389 that becoming a door -to -door salesman would 00:07:29.389 --> 00:07:33.439 help with the skill. I needed to learn for being 00:07:33.439 --> 00:07:35.279 able to make transformative videos, but also 00:07:35.279 --> 00:07:37.639 just help with my personal development, which 00:07:37.639 --> 00:07:40.040 also includes being able to make transformative 00:07:40.040 --> 00:07:44.199 videos. So that is the big shift that I made 00:07:44.199 --> 00:07:47.600 where I actually completely put my YouTube channel 00:07:47.600 --> 00:07:52.339 on pause and I went and applied for a job as 00:07:52.339 --> 00:07:55.519 a door -to -door salesman. And then I went and 00:07:55.519 --> 00:07:58.560 the thing about that is for like the two weeks 00:07:58.560 --> 00:08:00.500 leading up to it, I actually had this lingering 00:08:00.500 --> 00:08:04.139 foot. kind of like achiness but I just thought 00:08:04.139 --> 00:08:05.980 that it was going to heal on itself so because 00:08:05.980 --> 00:08:08.319 it didn't really hurt and it wasn't really affecting 00:08:08.319 --> 00:08:12.120 anything and then I went and walked with this 00:08:12.120 --> 00:08:16.019 guy who was basically doing the interview as 00:08:16.019 --> 00:08:20.209 for door -to -door sales and We walked for like 00:08:20.209 --> 00:08:23.189 four or six hours and the next morning I woke 00:08:23.189 --> 00:08:26.110 up with like my foot was blown up like it was 00:08:26.110 --> 00:08:30.110 super achy Super weak. I couldn't walk I had 00:08:30.110 --> 00:08:34.049 to limp and I knew that I couldn't take the job 00:08:34.049 --> 00:08:36.470 I had to wait until I was fully healed So that's 00:08:36.470 --> 00:08:38.870 what I've been doing for the past two weeks that 00:08:38.870 --> 00:08:41.149 happened two weeks ago So for the past two weeks, 00:08:41.149 --> 00:08:44.070 I've literally just been my primary focus has 00:08:44.070 --> 00:08:50.360 been just healing my foot now That brings me 00:08:50.360 --> 00:08:54.179 to this current stage where since I put YouTube 00:08:54.179 --> 00:08:57.879 on pause and I went all into sales, but now I 00:08:57.879 --> 00:09:00.460 can't do sales. I'm literally just kind of in 00:09:00.460 --> 00:09:02.740 a stagnant period, but it's not the same type 00:09:02.740 --> 00:09:04.919 of stagnant period as I've been in the past. 00:09:05.000 --> 00:09:09.399 I actually clinged it to something. I drifted 00:09:09.399 --> 00:09:13.080 naturally towards meditation. So I started doing 00:09:13.080 --> 00:09:17.899 the gateway process again, which I Darted two 00:09:17.899 --> 00:09:21.039 years ago, but then I stopped after a while because 00:09:21.039 --> 00:09:23.480 of the reason why I stopped was because I thought 00:09:23.480 --> 00:09:28.299 that it was basically hurting my progress because 00:09:28.299 --> 00:09:32.279 I couldn't reach levels of focus and calmness 00:09:32.279 --> 00:09:35.000 that I had in the past before I started the gateway 00:09:35.000 --> 00:09:37.700 or when I first started the gateway, but in hindsight 00:09:37.700 --> 00:09:40.299 I realized that the issue was that I was using 00:09:40.299 --> 00:09:43.759 the gateway as a crutch the and what I mean by 00:09:43.759 --> 00:09:47.360 the gateway is I listened to their hemisync, 00:09:47.379 --> 00:09:51.779 like binaural beat gateway tapes, like the gateway 00:09:51.779 --> 00:09:56.059 experience tapes that are recordings of like 00:09:56.059 --> 00:09:58.639 guided meditation sessions that have binaural 00:09:58.639 --> 00:10:02.639 beats, which help get your brain into a heightened 00:10:02.639 --> 00:10:06.220 state of awareness. And so I used to use that 00:10:06.220 --> 00:10:08.259 as a crutch, not when I first started the gateway, 00:10:08.620 --> 00:10:10.600 excuse me, not when I first started the gateway 00:10:10.600 --> 00:10:17.720 experience, but when I got, when I got into the 00:10:17.720 --> 00:10:21.519 habit as in like I just it became routine and 00:10:21.519 --> 00:10:23.659 I stopped developing I stopped being intentional 00:10:23.659 --> 00:10:27.279 and I basically just Stopped really trying to 00:10:27.279 --> 00:10:30.000 progress in meditation and as a result I felt 00:10:30.000 --> 00:10:32.519 like I lost progress and I blamed it on the gateway 00:10:32.519 --> 00:10:35.500 tapes But the real reason was because I simply 00:10:35.500 --> 00:10:37.539 just stopped trying and I thought the gateway 00:10:37.539 --> 00:10:39.639 tapes were just gonna produce all the change 00:10:39.639 --> 00:10:42.340 in me for me But I actually had to do it for 00:10:42.340 --> 00:10:44.639 myself and they actually say that in the tapes 00:10:44.639 --> 00:10:47.690 that The tapes don't change you. You have to 00:10:47.690 --> 00:10:55.169 change yourself. And learning of this mistake, 00:10:55.509 --> 00:10:57.629 I started doing the gateway tapes again. And 00:10:57.629 --> 00:11:01.730 now I'm actually starting to experience some 00:11:01.730 --> 00:11:04.909 of the things that people talk about. For example, 00:11:06.669 --> 00:11:12.129 I reached focus 15, which is like a state of 00:11:12.129 --> 00:11:16.460 timeless. Like maybe not bliss, but just a state 00:11:16.460 --> 00:11:18.639 of timelessness. You don't really experience 00:11:18.639 --> 00:11:21.700 time, but I didn't reach it for very long. I 00:11:21.700 --> 00:11:25.620 was, my focus with the meditation is so that 00:11:25.620 --> 00:11:30.000 I can heal my feet. So I wanted to basically 00:11:30.000 --> 00:11:32.000 just focus my attention on healing my feet. And 00:11:32.000 --> 00:11:35.419 on this particular meditation session, I wanted 00:11:35.419 --> 00:11:41.190 to have help because I heard of like, other beings, 00:11:41.549 --> 00:11:44.649 like non physical beings that you can meet up 00:11:44.649 --> 00:11:47.730 with. And so I was like, okay, let's see if this 00:11:47.730 --> 00:11:52.750 is legit. And so I was like, I want help healing 00:11:52.750 --> 00:11:56.570 my foot. I just wanted someone to heal my foot. 00:11:56.570 --> 00:11:59.929 And so I've reached focus 15, which I'd never 00:11:59.929 --> 00:12:04.570 reached before. And in that moment, I just felt 00:12:04.570 --> 00:12:09.779 this like other being the room with me sitting 00:12:09.779 --> 00:12:14.000 like standing above my foot and like holding 00:12:14.000 --> 00:12:17.360 my foot and then I could feel symptoms in my 00:12:17.360 --> 00:12:21.820 foot of like healing symptoms and I could feel 00:12:21.820 --> 00:12:25.580 the being and I could vaguely see it like through 00:12:25.580 --> 00:12:30.360 my closed eyes and then it didn't feel like a 00:12:30.360 --> 00:12:33.360 godly thing it just felt like almost like my 00:12:33.360 --> 00:12:36.279 equal, like a friend or like just like an equal. 00:12:36.659 --> 00:12:39.059 It didn't feel like I was worshiping anything 00:12:39.059 --> 00:12:41.679 or it didn't feel anything like crazy. It just 00:12:41.679 --> 00:12:47.440 felt like another almost like another like equal 00:12:47.440 --> 00:12:50.299 is basically the best word for it. But that only 00:12:50.299 --> 00:12:53.320 happened for like two seconds maybe, maybe two 00:12:53.320 --> 00:12:55.120 or three seconds. And then I was like, whoa, 00:12:55.159 --> 00:12:58.220 what's that? My rational mind popped up and I 00:12:58.220 --> 00:12:59.620 was like, whoa, what's that? And then instantly 00:12:59.620 --> 00:13:03.120 disappeared and I haven't had an experience since 00:13:03.120 --> 00:13:06.419 that that happened maybe like two weeks ago or 00:13:06.419 --> 00:13:09.659 maybe less than that and I haven't had another 00:13:09.659 --> 00:13:13.419 experience of like another being like that but 00:13:13.419 --> 00:13:16.159 I have noticed that I have gotten a lot better 00:13:16.159 --> 00:13:19.919 meditation and I actually stopped doing the gateway 00:13:19.919 --> 00:13:24.059 again because like two days ago I stopped listening 00:13:24.059 --> 00:13:27.980 to the tapes just in favor of just meditating 00:13:27.980 --> 00:13:30.690 on my own Without the tapes because I wanted 00:13:30.690 --> 00:13:34.049 to do free flow exercise and I feel like I want 00:13:34.049 --> 00:13:36.149 to practice without the tapes for a little while 00:13:36.149 --> 00:13:40.269 not any not any reason against the tapes but 00:13:40.269 --> 00:13:41.950 just because I want to practice it on my own 00:13:41.950 --> 00:13:46.480 and I don't have the third wave of the tape so 00:13:46.480 --> 00:13:49.000 I've just been doing the first two sets and I've 00:13:49.000 --> 00:13:51.980 been trying to get to focus 15 which is not until 00:13:51.980 --> 00:13:54.620 the fifth wave but I've been doing anyways on 00:13:54.620 --> 00:13:56.519 like a second wave because I only bought the 00:13:56.519 --> 00:13:58.059 first two waves because I don't have any more 00:13:58.059 --> 00:14:00.580 money for the anymore but that's besides the 00:14:00.580 --> 00:14:02.899 point basically I've just been meditating my 00:14:02.899 --> 00:14:04.940 original intention was to meditate and learn 00:14:04.940 --> 00:14:09.460 how to heal my foot and Now I've kind of just 00:14:09.460 --> 00:14:12.440 started to shift and started to focus more on 00:14:12.440 --> 00:14:15.519 just like practicing my skill because I've been 00:14:15.519 --> 00:14:19.940 reading a lot about the I've been reading a lot 00:14:19.940 --> 00:14:24.259 of stories and Just of people's experiences in 00:14:24.259 --> 00:14:26.220 the in the past like two years ago when I first 00:14:26.220 --> 00:14:28.500 got into the gateway But also in recent time 00:14:28.809 --> 00:14:32.590 of people's experiences with meditation and also 00:14:32.590 --> 00:14:35.009 out of body experiences. So I've been reading 00:14:35.009 --> 00:14:38.809 Bob Monroe's first book, which is journeys out 00:14:38.809 --> 00:14:40.730 of the body. And I'm about to finish that. I'm 00:14:40.730 --> 00:14:43.789 probably going to finish it today. And it has 00:14:43.789 --> 00:14:48.049 just opened my mind up to so many things. And 00:14:48.049 --> 00:14:50.870 earlier in this podcast episode, I said that 00:14:50.870 --> 00:14:53.490 there were two things that I realized that was 00:14:53.490 --> 00:14:56.769 missing. The first fundamental thing was me. 00:14:57.930 --> 00:15:00.690 Not being able to get people to think for themselves 00:15:00.690 --> 00:15:03.350 and how I'm gonna learn to improve like to build 00:15:03.350 --> 00:15:07.429 that skill is through door -to -door sales But 00:15:07.429 --> 00:15:10.269 there was a second one and the second one is 00:15:10.269 --> 00:15:17.669 something so Unknown to me Like practically that 00:15:17.669 --> 00:15:21.830 I don't know how to put it to words But the best 00:15:21.830 --> 00:15:24.190 way I can describe it is kind of describing around 00:15:24.190 --> 00:15:28.700 it. So, you know how in like the spiritual space, 00:15:29.139 --> 00:15:33.120 religious spaces, spiritual spaces, like in most 00:15:33.120 --> 00:15:36.700 spiritual talk, it's all kind of like abstract. 00:15:37.440 --> 00:15:42.940 Like, oh, God, divine, divinity, all that stuff. 00:15:43.120 --> 00:15:47.860 It's all abstract. It's all everything in my 00:15:47.860 --> 00:15:52.720 experience, at least. The majority of Western 00:15:52.720 --> 00:15:59.159 cultures, religious experiences or knowledge 00:15:59.159 --> 00:16:03.600 is all abstract ideas in the clouds of your mind 00:16:03.600 --> 00:16:08.120 it's not it's not based off of direct experience 00:16:08.120 --> 00:16:11.879 and I'm not discrediting like I've heard lots 00:16:11.879 --> 00:16:15.029 of testimonies of things this is not what I'm 00:16:15.029 --> 00:16:17.909 talking about of how people say like oh all the 00:16:17.909 --> 00:16:20.450 events lined perfectly this should not have happened 00:16:20.450 --> 00:16:23.870 where this person talked to me in a very dark 00:16:23.870 --> 00:16:26.490 period in my life and It completely changed my 00:16:26.490 --> 00:16:28.889 life. I'm not talking about that. I'm talking 00:16:28.889 --> 00:16:32.429 about how Like when you go to church and you 00:16:32.429 --> 00:16:37.080 listen to the pastor talk about like God It's 00:16:37.080 --> 00:16:40.059 not based off of direct experience. It's based 00:16:40.059 --> 00:16:43.580 off of intellectual abstractions. And here's 00:16:43.580 --> 00:16:46.700 what I mean. Let's say I wanted to use the word 00:16:46.700 --> 00:16:50.340 pen, as in like the writing utensil, a pen that 00:16:50.340 --> 00:16:53.820 you use to write on a piece of paper. If I use 00:16:53.820 --> 00:16:58.580 that word, basically every single person listening 00:16:58.580 --> 00:17:03.399 to me say that word knows exactly what I'm. Talking 00:17:03.399 --> 00:17:06.079 about because they have direct experience using 00:17:06.079 --> 00:17:09.059 a pen to write things down They know what it 00:17:09.059 --> 00:17:10.720 does. They know what it looks like. They know 00:17:10.720 --> 00:17:13.420 all the different like a lot of different variations 00:17:13.420 --> 00:17:16.220 They have direct experience like I'm literally 00:17:16.220 --> 00:17:19.859 holding a pen in my hand right now so that I 00:17:19.859 --> 00:17:24.099 can label That object pen and now other people 00:17:24.099 --> 00:17:28.039 know what I mean by that but the issue with like 00:17:28.039 --> 00:17:31.400 talks of like religion and stuff like that is 00:17:31.529 --> 00:17:36.029 People don't or at least I've never had a direct 00:17:36.029 --> 00:17:39.630 experience with God as in like literally in front 00:17:39.630 --> 00:17:43.250 of you talking to another physical being or maybe 00:17:43.250 --> 00:17:46.730 not even a physical being but like The perfect 00:17:46.730 --> 00:17:51.490 example is the original Revelations like if you 00:17:51.490 --> 00:17:54.829 read the Bible like you hear about revelations 00:17:54.829 --> 00:17:58.710 from all like a lots of different religious feet 00:17:58.710 --> 00:18:04.630 religious people As a rule, only religious leaders 00:18:04.630 --> 00:18:09.609 have had direct experience with what I'm talking 00:18:09.609 --> 00:18:12.970 about, like religious symbols, as in like God, 00:18:13.210 --> 00:18:17.089 divinity, and all that stuff. And as a result, 00:18:17.450 --> 00:18:20.009 they basically interpret it and create a whole 00:18:20.009 --> 00:18:23.269 religion. Like that's pretty much all the Western 00:18:23.269 --> 00:18:27.609 religions, even like, or maybe not all, but a 00:18:27.609 --> 00:18:31.269 lot of the... lot of the religions were based 00:18:31.269 --> 00:18:35.049 off of the leaders in those religions or the 00:18:35.049 --> 00:18:39.269 the writers of the Bible having divine revelations 00:18:39.269 --> 00:18:42.430 that's direct experience and those people are 00:18:42.430 --> 00:18:47.130 able to label and put words to that experience 00:18:47.130 --> 00:18:51.490 and Communicate that to other people but the 00:18:51.490 --> 00:18:55.859 issue is no one else had those experiences No 00:18:55.859 --> 00:18:58.960 one else was walking down the road one day and 00:18:58.960 --> 00:19:01.339 all of a sudden an angel started talking to them. 00:19:01.619 --> 00:19:05.000 No one else had that direct experience. And so 00:19:05.000 --> 00:19:09.440 as a result, the other people have no other choice 00:19:09.440 --> 00:19:13.160 but to create an abstract idea, an intellectual 00:19:13.160 --> 00:19:16.359 abstract idea in their mind, in the clouds of 00:19:16.359 --> 00:19:21.000 their mind. It's not based off of true experience. 00:19:22.420 --> 00:19:27.440 that's what I realized is a huge flaw with religion 00:19:27.440 --> 00:19:35.059 is that it's it's not based off of real like 00:19:35.059 --> 00:19:38.420 personal experience it's based off of faith or 00:19:38.420 --> 00:19:42.299 belief in someone else's personal experience 00:19:42.299 --> 00:19:45.079 after they interpreted it and then after they 00:19:45.079 --> 00:19:47.920 told other people or wrote it down and then those 00:19:47.920 --> 00:19:51.650 books were interpreted so it's very far removed 00:19:51.650 --> 00:19:56.950 from daily experience. Now here's where it gets 00:19:56.950 --> 00:20:00.470 to, here's where everything ties back to the 00:20:00.470 --> 00:20:03.230 two fundamental things that I'm missing. The 00:20:03.230 --> 00:20:05.549 first one, like I said, is my ability to get 00:20:05.549 --> 00:20:08.109 people to think for themselves. And the thing 00:20:08.109 --> 00:20:11.390 that I'm gonna do to fix that, or to learn that 00:20:11.390 --> 00:20:14.349 skill, is to train as a door -to -door salesman. 00:20:15.410 --> 00:20:20.589 Now the second one is that I don't have any direct 00:20:20.589 --> 00:20:25.990 experience with so -called religious or spiritual 00:20:25.990 --> 00:20:33.269 things. And now I'm a little reserved of describing 00:20:33.269 --> 00:20:36.349 it like religious and spiritual things for the 00:20:36.349 --> 00:20:39.569 reason that I realize that there are certain 00:20:39.569 --> 00:20:43.430 individuals, for example, Robert Monroe, who 00:20:43.430 --> 00:20:47.329 describe these experiences in matter of fact. 00:20:47.640 --> 00:20:54.960 Not like all Important or not like in in awe 00:20:54.960 --> 00:20:59.240 or like in praise or whatever if you like I just 00:20:59.240 --> 00:21:01.099 finished reading journeys out of the body and 00:21:01.099 --> 00:21:06.019 then listen to Robert Monroe's Explorer tapes 00:21:06.019 --> 00:21:10.960 number 23 and If you go and listen to that or 00:21:10.960 --> 00:21:13.460 read the book and then listen to that you may 00:21:13.460 --> 00:21:15.000 understand a little bit of what I'm trying to 00:21:15.000 --> 00:21:19.039 get at but There are certain types of people 00:21:19.039 --> 00:21:22.559 who actually describe them as matter of fact 00:21:22.559 --> 00:21:30.980 and as fundamental parts of life, I guess. And 00:21:30.980 --> 00:21:35.039 they don't really describe it as religious. I'm 00:21:35.039 --> 00:21:37.640 just learning. Intellectually, I'm just learning 00:21:37.640 --> 00:21:43.220 about these. This is just, this is the second 00:21:43.220 --> 00:21:46.539 fundamental thing that I'm missing. The first 00:21:46.539 --> 00:21:50.859 -hand experience of something like that. Now, 00:21:51.160 --> 00:21:54.220 from the religious perspective, if there is something 00:21:54.220 --> 00:21:58.099 so powerful as like God or like all that, don't 00:21:58.099 --> 00:22:01.160 you think that it would be priority number one 00:22:01.160 --> 00:22:05.359 to obtain first -hand experience? that in your 00:22:05.359 --> 00:22:07.880 own life because that is something that will 00:22:07.880 --> 00:22:11.099 fundamentally alter the trajectory of your future 00:22:11.099 --> 00:22:14.240 now this ties back to two things the first one 00:22:14.240 --> 00:22:16.960 is what I talked about in last month's episode 00:22:16.960 --> 00:22:21.380 where I've been in search of ideas or things 00:22:21.380 --> 00:22:25.359 that will fundamentally alter the future or fundamentally 00:22:25.359 --> 00:22:28.920 alter my future in a similar way to reality trans 00:22:28.920 --> 00:22:32.740 surfing did two and a half years ago But I feel 00:22:32.740 --> 00:22:34.920 like I'm looking for something deeper, something 00:22:34.920 --> 00:22:40.759 more experiential, and less abstract, less intellectual, 00:22:41.119 --> 00:22:43.420 like rally transsurfing is. It's just ideas, 00:22:43.559 --> 00:22:46.519 but it's not really. It is firsthand experience 00:22:46.519 --> 00:22:49.680 if you apply it, which I did, and I am currently, 00:22:49.700 --> 00:22:54.099 and I am doing, but I'm looking for something 00:22:54.099 --> 00:22:57.859 more. And so the second thing that it connects 00:22:57.859 --> 00:23:03.619 to is My my current life philosophy last night. 00:23:04.019 --> 00:23:06.880 I've kind of been developing this life philosophy 00:23:06.880 --> 00:23:11.180 or like here and there pondering it but last 00:23:11.180 --> 00:23:14.519 night as I was falling asleep I had the like 00:23:14.519 --> 00:23:16.900 intuition and I just wrote it down in my journal 00:23:16.900 --> 00:23:19.460 and basically my life philosophy as of right 00:23:19.460 --> 00:23:24.880 now is that Life is a game of choices You don't 00:23:24.880 --> 00:23:28.839 necessarily get to choose what choices are available 00:23:28.839 --> 00:23:31.819 to you, but you get to choose, you get to make 00:23:31.819 --> 00:23:34.240 your own decisions based off of the choices that 00:23:34.240 --> 00:23:39.380 are presented to you. But you don't actually 00:23:39.380 --> 00:23:44.059 know every choice. Like there's possibilities 00:23:44.059 --> 00:23:47.359 that you can do that you're potentially unaware 00:23:47.359 --> 00:23:53.490 of. For example, if you don't know Spanish, and 00:23:53.490 --> 00:23:55.609 you've never even heard of that language before, 00:23:56.230 --> 00:23:58.789 you're not going to write down on a piece of 00:23:58.789 --> 00:24:05.349 paper an essay in Spanish. That's like one choice 00:24:05.349 --> 00:24:07.829 that you can make. That's one action you can 00:24:07.829 --> 00:24:11.009 take in life, just like an action of picking 00:24:11.009 --> 00:24:13.710 up an apple and eating it, or listening to this 00:24:13.710 --> 00:24:17.990 podcast episode. Writing an essay in Spanish 00:24:17.990 --> 00:24:20.390 is one choice you can make, but simply because 00:24:20.390 --> 00:24:22.849 you haven't been exposed to one, the language 00:24:22.849 --> 00:24:25.829 of Spanish, but also you don't know Spanish. 00:24:26.650 --> 00:24:30.319 You're not fluent in Spanish. So that choice 00:24:30.319 --> 00:24:33.279 is basically you can't make that choice I mean 00:24:33.279 --> 00:24:35.779 theoretically you could your hands could move 00:24:35.779 --> 00:24:39.539 like you could Get your hand to move in the perfect 00:24:39.539 --> 00:24:42.220 positions to where you could write an entire 00:24:42.220 --> 00:24:45.119 essay that makes sense in Spanish without actually 00:24:45.119 --> 00:24:49.220 understanding it but that's not a Choice that 00:24:49.220 --> 00:24:51.500 you're likely to make simply because you're unaware 00:24:51.500 --> 00:24:55.980 of it. And so this leads back to my my second 00:24:56.039 --> 00:24:58.119 or it actually leads back to the two fundamental 00:24:58.119 --> 00:25:00.339 things that I'm missing of the getting people 00:25:00.339 --> 00:25:03.779 to think for themselves and also like the experience 00:25:03.779 --> 00:25:09.579 of something greater, I guess. Like the religious, 00:25:09.839 --> 00:25:12.319 spiritual, mystical, whatever you may call it, 00:25:12.400 --> 00:25:16.140 but the experience of something more. It leads 00:25:16.140 --> 00:25:20.180 back to that because if I don't have those fundamental 00:25:20.180 --> 00:25:23.140 things, then I'm not going to be aware of the 00:25:23.140 --> 00:25:27.970 choices that they Allow me to make Those choices 00:25:27.970 --> 00:25:31.670 are currently available to me But I'm not gonna 00:25:31.670 --> 00:25:34.309 be able to make them because I'm not exposed 00:25:34.309 --> 00:25:38.569 to the ideas and experiences or skill Meditation 00:25:38.569 --> 00:25:41.130 and like spiritual things. I believe is a skill 00:25:41.130 --> 00:25:44.450 that you can learn it's like it's like a Like 00:25:44.450 --> 00:25:46.690 any skill that you have to learn that's why it 00:25:46.690 --> 00:25:49.970 takes like monks 30 years and then they're able 00:25:49.970 --> 00:25:53.369 to achieve like states of enlightenment that 00:25:53.400 --> 00:25:57.160 No ordinary person in modern society can even 00:25:57.160 --> 00:25:59.839 get close to achieving, potentially even with 00:25:59.839 --> 00:26:03.420 drugs or something. I don't know. But that's 00:26:03.420 --> 00:26:07.319 why I've really been focusing on these fundamental 00:26:07.319 --> 00:26:10.720 things that I'm missing, because then that will 00:26:10.720 --> 00:26:15.519 allow me to make, or it'll expose me to better 00:26:15.519 --> 00:26:18.359 choices, better options, better possibilities, 00:26:19.299 --> 00:26:24.650 greater possibilities. But that's only the first 00:26:24.650 --> 00:26:28.329 part of the philosophy. My life philosophy of 00:26:28.329 --> 00:26:31.869 life is a game. Or life is a game of choices. 00:26:32.470 --> 00:26:34.309 You don't necessarily get to choose the choices 00:26:34.309 --> 00:26:38.970 that are available to you, but you get to choose 00:26:38.970 --> 00:26:42.490 what decisions you make of the choices that are 00:26:42.490 --> 00:26:46.730 available to you. And the second part is that 00:26:46.730 --> 00:26:51.970 your Compass basically like your your way to 00:26:51.970 --> 00:26:54.230 know that you're making the right choices because 00:26:54.230 --> 00:26:58.269 there is I believe that there are Good and bad 00:26:58.269 --> 00:27:01.049 choices. Maybe not in a morality sense because 00:27:01.049 --> 00:27:03.910 that's probably subjective, but I think that 00:27:03.910 --> 00:27:07.910 there are actual According to like the laws of 00:27:07.910 --> 00:27:12.269 nature. I think that there are better choices 00:27:12.269 --> 00:27:18.690 than not as in like there's a reason why no one 00:27:18.690 --> 00:27:23.130 like sticks their hand in burning hot lava because 00:27:23.130 --> 00:27:25.869 that's a poor choice to make like according to 00:27:25.869 --> 00:27:28.890 the laws of nature if you stick your hand in 00:27:28.890 --> 00:27:33.210 boiling hot lava from a volcano then you're gonna 00:27:33.210 --> 00:27:35.289 lose your hand and then for the rest of your 00:27:35.289 --> 00:27:38.069 life you don't have a hand like that according 00:27:38.069 --> 00:27:41.450 to the laws of nature is a bad choice. And that's 00:27:41.450 --> 00:27:43.869 what I'm getting at with good and bad. I'm not 00:27:43.869 --> 00:27:46.170 talking about morality. I'm not talking about 00:27:46.170 --> 00:27:48.950 intellectuality. I'm talking about, according 00:27:48.950 --> 00:27:51.410 to the laws of nature, there are certain things 00:27:51.410 --> 00:27:54.509 that you can do that are good or bad. And it's 00:27:54.509 --> 00:27:57.630 a spectrum. As in, you could make a neutral decision. 00:27:57.630 --> 00:28:00.250 That doesn't really matter. I'm picking up this 00:28:00.250 --> 00:28:04.250 pen right now. That doesn't really matter to 00:28:04.250 --> 00:28:11.190 anything. The closer you are aligned to the laws 00:28:11.190 --> 00:28:14.690 of nature the more you're able to make better 00:28:14.690 --> 00:28:18.730 choices and I'm not even sure if I've been exposed 00:28:18.730 --> 00:28:24.230 to the absolute perfect choices and But the second 00:28:24.230 --> 00:28:27.670 part of my life philosophy is that the your tool 00:28:27.670 --> 00:28:30.670 to know how good of choices you're making is 00:28:30.670 --> 00:28:34.069 your happiness level If you are unhappy, then 00:28:34.069 --> 00:28:37.529 you are making poor choices, poor decisions in 00:28:37.529 --> 00:28:40.369 this game of life. Whether it's like your thought 00:28:40.369 --> 00:28:44.029 process, your actions, whatever it is, you're 00:28:44.029 --> 00:28:47.450 making poor decisions. But if you are happy, 00:28:48.230 --> 00:28:53.589 then you're making better decisions, closer to 00:28:53.589 --> 00:28:55.970 alignment with nature, like the natural laws, 00:28:56.529 --> 00:29:01.440 the laws of nature. That brings me back to the 00:29:01.440 --> 00:29:04.119 fundamental, the second fundamental thing that 00:29:04.119 --> 00:29:07.180 I'm missing of like the, the greater experience. 00:29:07.859 --> 00:29:15.359 I think that if I build that skill, then I'll 00:29:15.359 --> 00:29:21.079 be exposed to greater choices and I'll be making 00:29:21.079 --> 00:29:27.109 much better choices. Like lot like literally 00:29:27.109 --> 00:29:29.269 better choices according to the laws of nature. 00:29:29.910 --> 00:29:32.589 But I currently have the inability to do so because 00:29:32.589 --> 00:29:37.970 I don't have the skill. And the reason why, or 00:29:37.970 --> 00:29:41.490 one of the things that I've been really fascinated 00:29:41.490 --> 00:29:45.730 by lately is the fact that, for example, Robert 00:29:45.730 --> 00:29:49.650 Monroe talks about these things these experiences 00:29:49.650 --> 00:29:51.609 like literally going out of your body similar 00:29:51.609 --> 00:29:54.450 to how you do every single night in a dream which 00:29:54.450 --> 00:29:59.089 most people don't even remember but he talks 00:29:59.089 --> 00:30:02.089 about them matter of factly and he talks about 00:30:02.089 --> 00:30:08.269 his experiences just how it is and there's just 00:30:08.269 --> 00:30:14.809 something to it that just makes me realize that 00:30:14.809 --> 00:30:20.390 I It's so hard for me. I'm at the early stages 00:30:20.390 --> 00:30:23.109 of this I it's so hard for me to put the words 00:30:23.109 --> 00:30:27.269 what I'm trying to express But I just know that 00:30:27.269 --> 00:30:32.829 there's more and I'm exploring more options But 00:30:32.829 --> 00:30:37.490 that's basically it for This month's episode 00:30:37.490 --> 00:30:40.829 right now. I'm just meditating and healing my 00:30:40.829 --> 00:30:43.769 foot and then once my foot gets healed I'm starting 00:30:43.769 --> 00:30:49.509 that job And I have lots of potentialalities 00:30:49.509 --> 00:30:53.170 that I'm thinking of for the future. And the 00:30:53.170 --> 00:30:57.369 future is looking exciting. So have a good day. 00:30:57.410 --> 00:30:59.109 And I'll see you next month. Goodbye.