WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:04.259 I spent three months making challenge videos 00:00:04.259 --> 00:00:09.519 and what I learned is that I don't want to make 00:00:09.519 --> 00:00:14.080 challenge videos. There's a way that I've been 00:00:14.080 --> 00:00:18.960 thinking about purpose lately. It's what is the 00:00:18.960 --> 00:00:23.960 thing that you want to become the best in the 00:00:23.960 --> 00:00:29.079 world at and that you think you can become the 00:00:29.079 --> 00:00:32.539 best in the world at. Now very early on you might 00:00:32.539 --> 00:00:36.219 not think that you can become the best in the 00:00:36.219 --> 00:00:38.479 world at, but once you get to a certain point, 00:00:38.539 --> 00:00:42.259 and I am very aware that I am currently very 00:00:42.259 --> 00:00:45.729 early on in my journey, but... I've gotten to 00:00:45.729 --> 00:00:48.170 the point where I really do think that I can 00:00:48.170 --> 00:00:51.490 become the best in the world at what I do. In 00:00:51.490 --> 00:00:53.770 fact, I actually think that I already am the 00:00:53.770 --> 00:00:56.149 best in the world at what I do, simply because 00:00:56.149 --> 00:00:59.969 no one else does what I do. Nobody else that 00:00:59.969 --> 00:01:05.950 I'm aware of makes videos like I do. And once 00:01:05.950 --> 00:01:09.609 I get to a certain point in quality and skill, 00:01:10.430 --> 00:01:16.579 then that's when the sky's the limit. Like, the 00:01:16.579 --> 00:01:20.040 reason why I believe, the reason why I'm not, 00:01:21.939 --> 00:01:26.140 the reason why I still have 400 subscribers on 00:01:26.140 --> 00:01:30.659 January, or it's not January, it's the middle 00:01:30.659 --> 00:01:34.980 of summer, in June, June 2nd, it's June 2nd, 00:01:35.019 --> 00:01:41.400 2025. Six slash two slash 25. The reason why 00:01:41.400 --> 00:01:45.079 I still have two, 400 subscribers and I've been 00:01:45.079 --> 00:01:49.019 making videos for the past two years. I'm about 00:01:49.019 --> 00:01:53.480 to hit two years in like a month It's because 00:01:53.480 --> 00:01:56.640 I am not good enough yet that I believe that 00:01:56.640 --> 00:01:59.099 that's really it Yeah, sure. Some people get 00:01:59.099 --> 00:02:02.420 lucky like there are some instances of some people 00:02:02.420 --> 00:02:04.819 getting one one or two viral videos and they 00:02:04.819 --> 00:02:06.719 can't really replicate it Yeah, sure. That's 00:02:06.719 --> 00:02:09.979 luck and I have not gotten that luck but then 00:02:09.979 --> 00:02:15.560 again there are other instances of people making 00:02:15.560 --> 00:02:18.400 super high quality videos, just really good videos 00:02:18.400 --> 00:02:21.919 that people want because you can make the best 00:02:21.919 --> 00:02:25.860 videos that people don't want. This is another 00:02:25.860 --> 00:02:29.139 side of the coin. You have to figure out what 00:02:29.139 --> 00:02:32.580 videos people want and then you have to actually 00:02:32.580 --> 00:02:36.759 make that video to a high quality. Those are 00:02:36.759 --> 00:02:39.159 the two things that you need. It's hard to find 00:02:39.159 --> 00:02:42.479 out what people want. Some people get lucky and 00:02:42.479 --> 00:02:47.419 figure that out, which whatever. And then you 00:02:47.419 --> 00:02:51.319 also have to be able to execute very well. And 00:02:51.319 --> 00:02:53.879 I've gotten to the point where I'm able to execute 00:02:53.879 --> 00:02:57.139 pretty well and I'm getting better every single 00:02:57.139 --> 00:03:03.639 day. And I was making challenge videos for three 00:03:03.639 --> 00:03:07.120 months and I realized that I just don't want 00:03:07.120 --> 00:03:09.960 to be the best in the world at that. Like I don't 00:03:09.960 --> 00:03:13.580 want to connect. A huge lesson I learned from 00:03:13.580 --> 00:03:17.340 it was I just don't want to connect my personal 00:03:17.340 --> 00:03:21.919 growth to video. Like I don't want to connect 00:03:21.919 --> 00:03:29.039 those two areas. Yeah, sure. I can grow, but 00:03:29.039 --> 00:03:33.300 I don't want to like record myself learning how 00:03:33.300 --> 00:03:35.879 code for 30 days straight because then I'm just 00:03:37.039 --> 00:03:40.479 Doing it for the video and I don't want to record 00:03:40.479 --> 00:03:45.400 myself biking all the way across the state to 00:03:45.400 --> 00:03:50.060 a different state Biking 60 miles to a park or 00:03:50.060 --> 00:03:53.199 to a campground. I don't want to do that Just 00:03:53.199 --> 00:03:55.460 for the video. I want to do that on my own, but 00:03:55.460 --> 00:03:58.120 I don't want to do it just for video because 00:03:58.120 --> 00:04:03.340 then I get the the mindset where When I'm done 00:04:03.340 --> 00:04:06.840 with it, I'm done Like I don't have to ever solve 00:04:06.840 --> 00:04:09.340 a Rubik's Cube again, even though I spent like 00:04:09.340 --> 00:04:12.460 20 hours, probably more than that, practicing 00:04:12.460 --> 00:04:15.560 and learning how to solve a Rubik's Cube. I don't 00:04:15.560 --> 00:04:19.300 have to code ever again in my life because now 00:04:19.300 --> 00:04:21.439 the video's over, so now I don't have to do it. 00:04:21.860 --> 00:04:26.759 I want to do personal growth so that it's a thing 00:04:26.759 --> 00:04:29.649 that... happens like a part of me for the rest 00:04:29.649 --> 00:04:32.670 of my life. For example, I was really thinking 00:04:32.670 --> 00:04:36.930 about making a YouTube video documenting my journey 00:04:36.930 --> 00:04:41.290 on learning how to make music. When I back in 00:04:41.290 --> 00:04:44.449 September of 2024, I decided that I was going 00:04:44.449 --> 00:04:46.870 to learn how to play the piano, learn how to 00:04:46.870 --> 00:04:50.970 compose music, learn how to produce that music 00:04:50.970 --> 00:04:56.199 and to wrap it all together. learn how to score 00:04:56.199 --> 00:04:59.939 my own videos, so create my own music for my 00:04:59.939 --> 00:05:06.720 videos. And I had the idea of making a video 00:05:06.720 --> 00:05:10.759 out of it, but something inside said no, something 00:05:10.759 --> 00:05:14.399 inside just said, just focus, just focus on yourself. 00:05:14.759 --> 00:05:17.480 And I'm glad that I didn't because then it would 00:05:17.480 --> 00:05:20.560 be connecting it to my video and then it would 00:05:20.560 --> 00:05:23.319 be like, oh, well, I'm done. with that video 00:05:23.319 --> 00:05:26.180 now so it's over like I don't have to ever make 00:05:26.180 --> 00:05:28.779 music again and sure maybe I wouldn't have had 00:05:28.779 --> 00:05:30.360 that mindset with that because that's something 00:05:30.360 --> 00:05:33.759 that I actually wanted to do in my career I wanted 00:05:33.759 --> 00:05:35.959 to make it a part of my career to make music 00:05:35.959 --> 00:05:39.120 for my videos that's a different argument but 00:05:39.120 --> 00:05:42.240 I hope you understand what I'm trying to say 00:05:42.240 --> 00:05:44.839 that I don't want to connect my personal growth 00:05:44.839 --> 00:05:53.079 to my videos now why did I stop doing challenge 00:05:53.079 --> 00:05:57.699 videos. I just don't want to make them anymore. 00:05:59.160 --> 00:06:03.500 Why am I making the videos I'm making now? Well, 00:06:03.720 --> 00:06:09.819 in the last month's episode, I was in a stagnant 00:06:09.819 --> 00:06:13.279 period. Every once in a while, I reach this period 00:06:13.279 --> 00:06:16.399 where I need direction, I don't know what to 00:06:16.399 --> 00:06:20.279 do, and I'm just kind of trying to figure it 00:06:20.279 --> 00:06:22.860 out. I basically drop everything and just start 00:06:22.860 --> 00:06:26.459 reading and I'm pretty sure it happened like 00:06:26.459 --> 00:06:29.459 immediately after I recorded that video or maybe 00:06:29.459 --> 00:06:33.660 like one day after I recorded that video or the 00:06:33.660 --> 00:06:39.279 last episode podcast I was about to rerecord 00:06:39.279 --> 00:06:43.339 the last episode of this podcast because I immediately 00:06:43.339 --> 00:06:48.079 found my new direction and The thing that was 00:06:48.079 --> 00:06:50.300 holding me back was I kept saying no, I don't 00:06:50.300 --> 00:06:52.680 want to do self -improvement videos I don't want 00:06:52.680 --> 00:06:54.899 to give advice. I don't want to do that. But 00:06:54.899 --> 00:06:58.040 then when I really just sat down in my room, 00:06:58.040 --> 00:07:02.959 I was like, okay What do I want? What do I want 00:07:02.959 --> 00:07:07.660 to do? And when I just completely cleared all 00:07:07.660 --> 00:07:11.759 of my prejudice all my bias just completely cleared 00:07:11.759 --> 00:07:17.579 every Limiting belief from my mind and just allowed 00:07:17.579 --> 00:07:27.579 myself to listen to my desires, I guess, I realized 00:07:27.579 --> 00:07:32.240 that I just want to make these self -improvement 00:07:32.240 --> 00:07:36.319 videos. Now I don't really call them self -improvement 00:07:36.319 --> 00:07:39.660 videos, but that's really what they are, I guess. 00:07:40.439 --> 00:07:43.360 To an outsider, they look like self -improvement 00:07:43.360 --> 00:07:46.189 videos. because it's in the self -improvement 00:07:46.189 --> 00:07:50.790 niche. But I think of them differently to that. 00:07:52.490 --> 00:07:56.889 The thing that I have been noticing lately is 00:07:56.889 --> 00:08:02.230 that I am innovating a brand new style. In the 00:08:02.230 --> 00:08:06.850 self -improvement niche, for example, most people, 00:08:07.769 --> 00:08:15.500 there are two primary styles. One style is unscripted, 00:08:15.839 --> 00:08:19.620 raw, unfiltered, just a dude speaking to the 00:08:19.620 --> 00:08:26.740 camera. And I did that in the past. And then 00:08:26.740 --> 00:08:34.860 there's another style of faceless, highly saturated 00:08:34.860 --> 00:08:39.159 edits, and it's really artificial. It's like 00:08:39.159 --> 00:08:43.049 lots, it's mostly computer generated, except 00:08:43.049 --> 00:08:45.870 for maybe the voice. And sometimes even the voice 00:08:45.870 --> 00:08:48.850 is computer generated too. But a lot of the times 00:08:48.850 --> 00:08:55.850 those videos do well too. But I want the best 00:08:55.850 --> 00:08:59.769 or not the best. I want a new style. I'm innovating 00:08:59.769 --> 00:09:03.370 a brand new style. And yeah, you can argue that 00:09:03.370 --> 00:09:06.070 some people are kind of making similar to this, 00:09:06.090 --> 00:09:09.679 but not really like how I am. I think that I 00:09:09.679 --> 00:09:13.059 am making a truly unique style in the self improvement 00:09:13.059 --> 00:09:19.100 niche and it is The way I like to describe it 00:09:19.100 --> 00:09:24.399 is There's this book that I barely read I didn't 00:09:24.399 --> 00:09:26.340 I did not read the whole thing. I just read a 00:09:26.340 --> 00:09:29.620 couple pages Maybe it's called meditations by 00:09:29.620 --> 00:09:33.259 Marcus Aurelius and it's not even a book They 00:09:33.259 --> 00:09:35.840 basically found this guy. There's this ancient 00:09:35.840 --> 00:09:40.639 Roman Emperor named Marcus Aurelius and he kept 00:09:40.639 --> 00:09:43.480 a journal and he would just write in his journal 00:09:43.480 --> 00:09:46.919 like thoughts and ideas and lessons that he learned 00:09:46.919 --> 00:09:51.720 in the world. Very similar to what I do. I very 00:09:51.720 --> 00:09:55.299 often just like write down lessons that I learned 00:09:55.299 --> 00:10:03.179 or write down ideas that are helpful. Or for 00:10:03.179 --> 00:10:07.629 example, if I see other people doing something 00:10:07.629 --> 00:10:12.830 that could be helped by an idea or Doing living 00:10:12.830 --> 00:10:17.909 a certain way and if they were aware of a different 00:10:17.909 --> 00:10:21.889 idea Then their life would be better then I I 00:10:21.889 --> 00:10:27.029 write that idea down in my journal and In the 00:10:27.029 --> 00:10:29.230 book meditations Marcus Aurelius basically just 00:10:29.230 --> 00:10:32.570 wrote down all of his ideas thoughts on the world 00:10:32.570 --> 00:10:37.080 Lots of wisdom was written in that book And I 00:10:37.080 --> 00:10:39.159 never read Psalms, but I'm pretty sure Psalms 00:10:39.159 --> 00:10:45.779 is just like that too, in the Bible. But the 00:10:45.779 --> 00:10:48.720 way I think of my videos are imagine if I did 00:10:48.720 --> 00:10:53.840 that, where I wrote down in my journal and I 00:10:53.840 --> 00:10:58.299 searched all of my ideas and selected the best 00:10:58.299 --> 00:11:02.500 ones. And then I made those ideas come alive 00:11:02.500 --> 00:11:08.210 through film, storytelling, video. music and 00:11:08.210 --> 00:11:12.830 I basically Create a movie around it like a full 00:11:12.830 --> 00:11:17.429 film around it Around that idea and create an 00:11:17.429 --> 00:11:21.269 experience for the viewer That's how I like to 00:11:21.269 --> 00:11:27.009 think of my videos it's not just It's it's it's 00:11:27.009 --> 00:11:29.690 almost like art. I mean, I like to think of my 00:11:29.690 --> 00:11:37.070 videos as art and It's not like Sit in front 00:11:37.070 --> 00:11:41.090 of a camera and give advice It's more of like 00:11:41.090 --> 00:11:44.570 creating a whole experience for the viewer Because 00:11:44.570 --> 00:11:48.289 I feel like video is such a unique opportunity 00:11:48.289 --> 00:11:52.169 like in real life I can just talk to somebody 00:11:52.169 --> 00:11:55.149 and we can give each other tell each other stories 00:11:55.149 --> 00:11:57.710 give each other advice give each other perspective 00:11:57.710 --> 00:12:00.549 and help each other out and Yeah, we're really 00:12:00.549 --> 00:12:05.309 only using like words sure we might like Use 00:12:05.309 --> 00:12:07.970 our our physical touch like push each other around 00:12:07.970 --> 00:12:11.450 or shake each other's hands but primarily the 00:12:11.450 --> 00:12:14.950 primary mode of communication in real life conversations 00:12:14.950 --> 00:12:20.929 is Speaking is just language. It's dialogue But 00:12:20.929 --> 00:12:24.370 with video you have access to so much more than 00:12:24.370 --> 00:12:30.309 that. You can show Video obviously like you let's 00:12:30.309 --> 00:12:33.490 say you're talking about and I picked up my book 00:12:33.490 --> 00:12:37.450 and started reading In real life you might do 00:12:37.450 --> 00:12:40.110 like hand charades, which is another form of 00:12:40.110 --> 00:12:42.570 communication But you might do hand charades 00:12:42.570 --> 00:12:44.750 so that the other person could visualize that 00:12:44.750 --> 00:12:48.490 and you would like Visually show yourself holding 00:12:48.490 --> 00:12:52.509 up your hand like you're reading a book But in 00:12:52.509 --> 00:12:55.509 video you can literally record b -roll which 00:12:55.509 --> 00:12:59.629 is the footage that you see it's let's say you 00:12:59.629 --> 00:13:04.169 have a voiceover of someone talking but then 00:13:04.570 --> 00:13:08.230 a clip plays over that voiceover so that you 00:13:08.230 --> 00:13:10.250 see the voiceover and you stop seeing that person 00:13:10.250 --> 00:13:15.370 talking. That's b -roll. And then you can literally 00:13:15.370 --> 00:13:19.009 show yourself, record yourself picking up a book. 00:13:19.669 --> 00:13:23.090 It's so much more immersive. It's so much more 00:13:23.090 --> 00:13:26.070 experience -wise. But that's not even the only 00:13:26.070 --> 00:13:30.649 part of it. You've also got sound effects. So 00:13:30.649 --> 00:13:34.480 like... I don't really use them right now. I've 00:13:34.480 --> 00:13:36.379 experimented with them. I haven't really found 00:13:36.379 --> 00:13:41.580 a great way to use like diegetic sounds, which 00:13:41.580 --> 00:13:44.019 are sounds that happen in front of the camera. 00:13:44.080 --> 00:13:47.120 So if I started eating a carrot, which I actually 00:13:47.120 --> 00:13:50.360 do quite often in my videos, then a sound effect 00:13:50.360 --> 00:13:52.779 for that would be like literally me eating the 00:13:52.779 --> 00:13:55.860 carrot sound, like the crunch of the carrot. 00:13:56.639 --> 00:13:59.320 But I don't really do that too often because 00:13:59.320 --> 00:14:02.779 I feel like it takes away from the audio like 00:14:02.779 --> 00:14:07.460 the dialogue because in my videos I like to order 00:14:07.460 --> 00:14:15.480 the Order the elements by importance so The most 00:14:15.480 --> 00:14:19.299 important thing for the experience is the audio 00:14:19.299 --> 00:14:22.580 which is the dialogue which is the what I'm actually 00:14:22.580 --> 00:14:25.360 saying And then the second thing that's important 00:14:25.360 --> 00:14:27.940 is the visuals, and then the third most important 00:14:27.940 --> 00:14:30.539 is the music. And now going back to what I said 00:14:30.539 --> 00:14:35.820 with video, you get dialogue, you can speak in 00:14:35.820 --> 00:14:38.759 front of a camera, but then you've also got visuals. 00:14:39.720 --> 00:14:43.179 That adds a whole new dimension of experience 00:14:43.179 --> 00:14:50.289 and transformative effects. If you want to transform 00:14:50.289 --> 00:14:53.110 someone and inspire someone, evoke change in 00:14:53.110 --> 00:14:55.830 their heart, light a fire in their soul, then 00:14:55.830 --> 00:14:59.429 you want to put them through an experience. That's 00:14:59.429 --> 00:15:04.129 why stories are so great because you are basically 00:15:04.129 --> 00:15:07.129 sharing your story and then in the other person's 00:15:07.129 --> 00:15:09.970 brain, they're literally recreating that story 00:15:09.970 --> 00:15:12.389 in their brain. So they're basically experiencing 00:15:12.389 --> 00:15:15.009 that too. And that's why stories have such a 00:15:15.009 --> 00:15:20.590 transformative power. But video you can access 00:15:20.590 --> 00:15:24.549 so many other storytelling tools like video, 00:15:24.629 --> 00:15:27.669 dialogue, but sound effects like I said, and 00:15:27.669 --> 00:15:33.409 music. Music is so crucial to the transformative 00:15:33.409 --> 00:15:37.269 element. Like have you ever, you don't even have 00:15:37.269 --> 00:15:42.909 to search for it in so many music videos. Like 00:15:42.909 --> 00:15:48.460 if you've ever seen YouTube videos of concert 00:15:48.460 --> 00:15:53.580 and then in the the video the camera usually 00:15:53.580 --> 00:15:57.360 flips between like the musicians and then the 00:15:57.360 --> 00:16:00.840 crowd and then they often do close -ups on certain 00:16:00.840 --> 00:16:03.120 individuals in the crowd that are feeling emotional 00:16:03.120 --> 00:16:06.759 and you don't even have to search far you always 00:16:06.759 --> 00:16:09.740 find people who are like tearing up or people 00:16:09.740 --> 00:16:13.100 who are waving their hands because they're so 00:16:13.100 --> 00:16:17.360 inspired like they're so inspired like They just 00:16:17.360 --> 00:16:21.980 feel elated. They feel overwhelmed music has 00:16:21.980 --> 00:16:28.340 such a powerful Effect on people's emotion and 00:16:28.340 --> 00:16:31.440 inspiration and motivation and just just how 00:16:31.440 --> 00:16:36.720 good they feel And I noticed that in my videos 00:16:36.720 --> 00:16:39.940 when I'm done with the edit I finish everything 00:16:39.940 --> 00:16:46.049 except for the music It just feels I mean, yeah, 00:16:46.289 --> 00:16:50.330 it feels cool, but it just doesn't feel powerful. 00:16:50.750 --> 00:16:54.610 But then when I'm done making, when I discover 00:16:54.610 --> 00:16:59.309 what the first idea of the music is gonna be, 00:16:59.610 --> 00:17:02.950 the first three seconds when I figure out all 00:17:02.950 --> 00:17:07.369 the different parts for it, I just get, it just 00:17:07.369 --> 00:17:14.079 feels so good. And I... I've noticed that in 00:17:14.079 --> 00:17:19.299 some of my videos when I watch them I start to 00:17:19.299 --> 00:17:25.019 feel a very vague sense of like Inner shaking 00:17:25.019 --> 00:17:28.839 like you know that feeling when you Just watch 00:17:28.839 --> 00:17:31.599 something super powerful and your entire being 00:17:31.599 --> 00:17:36.359 is like shaken and you just feel like Someone 00:17:36.359 --> 00:17:38.980 just took you by the shoulders and just shook 00:17:38.980 --> 00:17:41.619 you around, but not physically, but did that 00:17:41.619 --> 00:17:46.259 to your soul. I felt a vague sense of that in 00:17:46.259 --> 00:17:50.279 a couple of my videos. And that shows that I'm 00:17:50.279 --> 00:17:52.700 making progress because that's my goal. I want 00:17:52.700 --> 00:17:56.240 to be able to make videos that light a fire in 00:17:56.240 --> 00:18:01.480 people's souls. That's my compass, basically, 00:18:01.559 --> 00:18:07.069 my north star. I want to touch as many Souls 00:18:07.069 --> 00:18:11.390 as possible. I want to light a fire on as many 00:18:11.390 --> 00:18:18.549 hearts as possible And I feel like I'm getting 00:18:18.549 --> 00:18:23.029 a lot better at that the more I Get better at 00:18:23.029 --> 00:18:27.250 making the music especially That will help tremendously 00:18:27.250 --> 00:18:30.650 and I feel like that's my unique value with these 00:18:30.650 --> 00:18:34.210 self -improvement videos because most people 00:18:34.210 --> 00:18:39.700 they Most videos in the self -improvement niche 00:18:39.700 --> 00:18:46.420 are advice driven. My videos are experience driven. 00:18:47.720 --> 00:18:53.359 They're transformation driven. I want people 00:18:53.359 --> 00:18:56.859 to feel something when they watch my videos. 00:18:58.220 --> 00:19:01.880 Because in the past, when I've watched videos, 00:19:03.359 --> 00:19:07.559 I used to watch like Will Tennyson. He is a challenge 00:19:07.559 --> 00:19:11.339 -based YouTuber, where he would do crazy fitness 00:19:11.339 --> 00:19:15.339 challenges and food challenges, too, where he 00:19:15.339 --> 00:19:20.180 would eat 10 ,000 calories and burn 10 ,000 calories 00:19:20.180 --> 00:19:26.160 in one day. So he would eat an entire stadium 00:19:26.160 --> 00:19:29.839 -sized pizza and then go. in the pool and do 00:19:29.839 --> 00:19:33.299 like a circuit of swimming laps, do jumping jacks, 00:19:33.319 --> 00:19:35.920 push -ups. He would do that all day, like do 00:19:35.920 --> 00:19:40.700 crazy challenges. And me just watching that, 00:19:41.119 --> 00:19:45.420 I was, I felt something, and I was changed. My 00:19:45.420 --> 00:19:49.220 mind was like, it wasn't like an obvious change, 00:19:49.279 --> 00:19:53.579 but over time, my mindset and my worldview changed. 00:19:54.099 --> 00:19:57.210 I don't want... To just give people advice. I 00:19:57.210 --> 00:20:00.490 want people I want to like completely transform 00:20:00.490 --> 00:20:07.450 people's brains if that makes sense and Advice 00:20:07.450 --> 00:20:10.630 is just one tool to do that because yes in the 00:20:10.630 --> 00:20:14.049 past I have When the when you hear the right 00:20:14.049 --> 00:20:17.849 advice at the right time it just hits and you 00:20:17.849 --> 00:20:23.109 are changed but That's just one tool in my opinion 00:20:23.559 --> 00:20:28.079 music, video, storytelling, all that other stuff 00:20:28.079 --> 00:20:31.180 are other tools that other people don't use. 00:20:31.579 --> 00:20:38.539 And I use it, and I really believe that my videos 00:20:38.539 --> 00:20:49.359 will become very powerful. And shifting the topic, 00:20:49.960 --> 00:20:52.839 I've noticed something that I do very often. 00:20:53.359 --> 00:20:58.660 I go all into one thing and then a couple months 00:20:58.660 --> 00:21:03.019 later, I do a complete 180 and then I say, no, 00:21:03.019 --> 00:21:05.299 that thing was terrible. Like that was just so 00:21:05.299 --> 00:21:08.059 stupid. I was such an idiot. For example, I'm 00:21:08.059 --> 00:21:12.380 about to do it again right now in the challenge 00:21:12.380 --> 00:21:16.220 videos. I, if you go back and listen to the podcast, 00:21:16.240 --> 00:21:18.000 I would say, oh yeah, this is good. This is what 00:21:18.000 --> 00:21:20.920 I want to do. But now I'm doing a complete 180 00:21:20.920 --> 00:21:24.920 and say, no, I was just being an idiot. When 00:21:24.920 --> 00:21:28.720 you go if you the other day I went into my journals 00:21:28.720 --> 00:21:34.519 and I reread What I was writing down at the time 00:21:34.519 --> 00:21:38.079 like the months leading up to me shifting and 00:21:38.079 --> 00:21:42.220 switching to challenge based videos and There 00:21:42.220 --> 00:21:47.579 was one prompt that just Perfectly describes 00:21:47.579 --> 00:21:53.380 my mindset at the time and I said I am focusing 00:21:53.380 --> 00:21:56.619 on way too much on views. I have such a strong 00:21:56.619 --> 00:22:00.380 desire on views. I need to destroy this desire, 00:22:00.380 --> 00:22:05.660 like I need to fix this. Spoiler alert, I did 00:22:05.660 --> 00:22:08.700 not fix that desire. I did not eliminate that 00:22:08.700 --> 00:22:12.420 desire and I let it overcome me and as a result 00:22:12.420 --> 00:22:17.660 I ended up completely shifting to a foreign path. 00:22:18.059 --> 00:22:21.720 Like there's a concept in reality in a book I 00:22:21.720 --> 00:22:23.759 read all the time. I'm reading it right now, 00:22:23.960 --> 00:22:27.259 actually, for the fifth time. It's called, it's 00:22:27.259 --> 00:22:29.380 called Reality Transurfing, but there's a concept 00:22:29.380 --> 00:22:34.480 in that book called, or it's just about how everyone 00:22:34.480 --> 00:22:37.680 has their own innermost goal in life. It's the 00:22:37.680 --> 00:22:40.279 goal that they are personally drawn most to. 00:22:41.420 --> 00:22:45.900 And then there are also foreign goals, very seductive 00:22:45.900 --> 00:22:49.259 and they lure you over and they... are not really 00:22:49.259 --> 00:22:51.779 meant for you, and you're not really happy with 00:22:51.779 --> 00:22:55.380 those goals. And lots of problems arise when 00:22:55.380 --> 00:22:59.039 you are on those paths of a foreign goal. And 00:22:59.039 --> 00:23:01.140 that's exactly what happened to me with the challenge 00:23:01.140 --> 00:23:06.460 videos. The first video I made, I got super sick. 00:23:07.119 --> 00:23:11.319 Like I was literally throwing up. I actually 00:23:11.319 --> 00:23:15.119 wasn't super sick. But I did throw up like I 00:23:15.119 --> 00:23:17.799 I I had diarrhea and I was out for a two mile 00:23:17.799 --> 00:23:20.380 run recording a video And I literally had to 00:23:20.380 --> 00:23:22.759 poop in the woods Like that was the first time 00:23:22.759 --> 00:23:25.140 I'd ever done that that in fact that was actually 00:23:25.140 --> 00:23:28.819 on my bucket list to take a natural dump I didn't 00:23:28.819 --> 00:23:31.200 think that it was gonna turn out like that, but 00:23:31.200 --> 00:23:37.950 it did happen like that and the first Video I 00:23:37.950 --> 00:23:41.210 recorded I had so many problems arise and they 00:23:41.210 --> 00:23:44.210 did not stop like the problems just kept coming 00:23:44.210 --> 00:23:48.210 and it was such a Contrast to how I was living 00:23:48.210 --> 00:23:51.309 before where I was not experiencing any problems 00:23:51.309 --> 00:23:53.890 in my life like I was living a problem -free 00:23:53.890 --> 00:23:57.950 life because when you are Walking towards your 00:23:57.950 --> 00:24:00.529 actual goal that is meant for you and the goal 00:24:00.529 --> 00:24:03.430 that your heart is truly drawn towards and you're 00:24:03.430 --> 00:24:07.390 not really And you're just calm. You're not like 00:24:07.390 --> 00:24:11.250 super stressed out or you're not taking everything 00:24:11.250 --> 00:24:13.650 so seriously. When you're just calm and you're 00:24:13.650 --> 00:24:16.089 walking towards your goal, you don't have any 00:24:16.089 --> 00:24:19.049 problems in life. You just make progress and 00:24:19.049 --> 00:24:21.990 that's it. Like you just live life amazingly 00:24:21.990 --> 00:24:25.910 and that's when you're happy. But when I shifted 00:24:25.910 --> 00:24:28.809 and I started doing the challenge videos, so 00:24:28.809 --> 00:24:31.549 many problems. The first video that happened 00:24:31.549 --> 00:24:36.089 was I had diarrhea. I had the stomach bug. I 00:24:36.089 --> 00:24:39.769 got sick for like an entire week or even two 00:24:39.769 --> 00:24:42.789 weeks Maybe I don't remember but two weeks. I 00:24:42.789 --> 00:24:47.130 was like super down I was just reading all day. 00:24:47.329 --> 00:24:49.829 I barely wanted to work I maybe worked like an 00:24:49.829 --> 00:24:52.329 hour in the morning, and then I just didn't want 00:24:52.329 --> 00:24:56.329 to work anymore I just sat in front of the heater 00:24:56.329 --> 00:25:01.150 reading David Goggins all day long Which I mean 00:25:01.150 --> 00:25:05.549 is not bad but I would prefer to just work instead 00:25:05.549 --> 00:25:09.470 because I wanted to work, but I just felt so 00:25:09.470 --> 00:25:13.990 low energy because I was sick. But then the second 00:25:13.990 --> 00:25:19.069 video that I made, which was the push -up video, 00:25:20.529 --> 00:25:26.950 I got injured. I got nerve damage from that video. 00:25:29.699 --> 00:25:34.299 Did so many push -ups and I also did a pull -up 00:25:34.299 --> 00:25:37.279 I did like two one two one maybe a hundred fifty 00:25:37.279 --> 00:25:40.140 pull -ups that day to like my normal pull -up 00:25:40.140 --> 00:25:46.119 workout and I by the end of the day I remember 00:25:46.119 --> 00:25:50.799 doing the last like 600 push -ups and I was getting 00:25:50.799 --> 00:25:54.140 so much pain in my left tricep and the next morning 00:25:54.140 --> 00:26:00.309 I woke up and my entire hand like Not my entire 00:26:00.309 --> 00:26:05.869 hand, but imagine the nerves, the section of 00:26:05.869 --> 00:26:10.690 your hand that is connected to your ring finger 00:26:10.690 --> 00:26:15.609 and your pinky finger. That entire section of 00:26:15.609 --> 00:26:19.769 my hand was just completely numb. It hurt to 00:26:19.769 --> 00:26:26.789 bend it. And my... I ended up figuring out what 00:26:26.789 --> 00:26:30.829 it was and it was like... cubital tunnel syndrome 00:26:30.829 --> 00:26:34.309 ulnar nerve something ulnar nerve entrapment 00:26:34.309 --> 00:26:38.269 and I Got like nerve damage that set me back 00:26:38.269 --> 00:26:41.170 like three months I wasn't able to lift weights 00:26:41.170 --> 00:26:44.569 for three months even to this day. I am still 00:26:44.569 --> 00:26:48.529 not fully back to normal I mean, I just did like 00:26:48.529 --> 00:26:51.539 I was just out Training today, but I only did 00:26:51.539 --> 00:26:56.099 like 30 pull -ups, which usually I do like 150 00:26:56.099 --> 00:26:59.680 pull -ups, but I only did like 30 because I'm 00:26:59.680 --> 00:27:02.940 still recovering from this thing like I can still 00:27:02.940 --> 00:27:10.359 feel it the nerve damage in my pinky and my hand 00:27:10.359 --> 00:27:14.500 over there So that was a huge problem and that 00:27:14.500 --> 00:27:19.049 ended up Like making me feel so down like that 00:27:19.049 --> 00:27:23.970 was a super dark period in my life because That 00:27:23.970 --> 00:27:29.190 was like my hobby Working out was my hobby training 00:27:29.190 --> 00:27:32.710 my physique was my hobby and I love the feeling 00:27:32.710 --> 00:27:38.029 of every Six months or like every couple months 00:27:38.029 --> 00:27:40.670 every couple weeks being able to look at in the 00:27:40.670 --> 00:27:46.759 mirror and be just astonished by how attractive 00:27:46.759 --> 00:27:48.940 I look now, like how jacked I've gotten, how 00:27:48.940 --> 00:27:53.140 much better my physique looks like. And there's 00:27:53.140 --> 00:27:59.319 a very common negative bias towards that mindset, 00:28:00.319 --> 00:28:02.980 understandably so because it does screw a lot 00:28:02.980 --> 00:28:05.880 of people up, but not me because I actually don't 00:28:05.880 --> 00:28:10.000 have the same mindset that most people have with 00:28:10.000 --> 00:28:12.240 physique and like aesthetics and stuff like that. 00:28:12.750 --> 00:28:19.910 don't do it like yeah obviously I enjoy the attention 00:28:19.910 --> 00:28:24.609 from other people and enjoy the the power it 00:28:24.609 --> 00:28:27.869 gives you in social environments but that's not 00:28:27.869 --> 00:28:31.049 like the primary motivation that's like kind 00:28:31.049 --> 00:28:35.170 of like a benefit like that's just a side effect 00:28:35.170 --> 00:28:41.339 to me doing it for the lifestyle and The mindset 00:28:41.339 --> 00:28:44.740 that I have with it is not oh I do it for like 00:28:44.740 --> 00:28:48.359 the girls or or that I do it for the women but 00:28:48.359 --> 00:28:54.000 My mindset is actually it's just an ongoing art 00:28:54.000 --> 00:28:58.779 project like there's a Who who painted the the 00:28:58.779 --> 00:29:02.359 Mona Lisa was it Leonardo da Vinci? I don't know. 00:29:02.740 --> 00:29:05.160 Let's just say it is Leonardo da Vinci. I hope 00:29:05.160 --> 00:29:10.450 it is but The person that painted the Mona Lisa 00:29:10.450 --> 00:29:14.369 actually spent his entire life painting that 00:29:14.369 --> 00:29:20.529 thing. He didn't stop. Every once in a while, 00:29:20.789 --> 00:29:25.509 he would see a way to improve it, and he would 00:29:25.509 --> 00:29:29.890 just paint and paint. For his entire life, he 00:29:29.890 --> 00:29:32.390 painted that thing. And that's the way I see 00:29:32.390 --> 00:29:36.160 my... physique, my body. It's like an ongoing 00:29:36.160 --> 00:29:41.799 art project and an artist admires and creates 00:29:41.799 --> 00:29:47.619 their creation at the same time. So and you're 00:29:47.619 --> 00:29:50.539 also an artist is always or not maybe not always 00:29:50.539 --> 00:29:55.569 but an artist is usually surprised by Like the 00:29:55.569 --> 00:29:58.250 creation because the creative process like takes 00:29:58.250 --> 00:30:00.970 you to places You never would have expected and 00:30:00.970 --> 00:30:03.410 places that were better than you expected and 00:30:03.410 --> 00:30:05.809 that's the way I see my physique It's just like 00:30:05.809 --> 00:30:09.589 another art project where every every once in 00:30:09.589 --> 00:30:12.809 a while I look at it and I'm like, oh my gosh 00:30:12.809 --> 00:30:18.329 Like you are jacked Like like it's it's so satisfying. 00:30:18.329 --> 00:30:20.930 It's so fulfilling. It's so amazing. It's such 00:30:20.930 --> 00:30:24.900 an amazing feeling and That's a huge side, side 00:30:24.900 --> 00:30:26.640 tangent. I don't even know what I was talking 00:30:26.640 --> 00:30:30.400 about before. What was I even talking about? 00:30:36.240 --> 00:30:39.519 I don't know. Basically physique, my physique 00:30:39.519 --> 00:30:46.259 is another. Oh, I was talking about how I got 00:30:46.259 --> 00:30:50.099 injured and how it was such a dark period in 00:30:50.099 --> 00:30:53.450 my life for the past. Not the past two months, 00:30:53.450 --> 00:30:56.670 but two months ago for the past three months. 00:30:56.829 --> 00:31:02.410 So from like February of 2025 all the way up 00:31:02.410 --> 00:31:09.890 until maybe April or May of 2025 it was super 00:31:09.890 --> 00:31:12.930 dark because Bodybuilding was my hobby. It was 00:31:12.930 --> 00:31:17.269 also my art project. And so the fact that I was 00:31:17.269 --> 00:31:22.480 not able to do my hobby, but I was also not Actively 00:31:22.480 --> 00:31:26.680 creating my artwork was just so Not depressing 00:31:26.680 --> 00:31:29.900 like I wasn't I wouldn't consider myself depressed 00:31:29.900 --> 00:31:32.119 because I don't even know what that means But 00:31:32.119 --> 00:31:35.980 I was really not happy. It wasn't it was a very 00:31:35.980 --> 00:31:43.279 dark period and I I did like maintain my physical 00:31:43.279 --> 00:31:46.460 level by like going on very long walks. I ended 00:31:46.460 --> 00:31:49.240 up going on like a 10 mile walk which spoiler 00:31:49.240 --> 00:31:53.440 alert also caused another problem. Problems are 00:31:53.440 --> 00:31:56.940 just very abundant when you're not walking your 00:31:56.940 --> 00:32:01.700 true path. The problem that caused was that I 00:32:01.700 --> 00:32:05.759 ended up hurting my leg which was fine because 00:32:05.759 --> 00:32:10.000 I rested for like five days but I'll get to how 00:32:10.000 --> 00:32:12.880 that actually is bad in a moment but basically 00:32:12.880 --> 00:32:19.500 it was very dark period and I had lots of problems 00:32:19.500 --> 00:32:22.980 and on the third video that I made so the first 00:32:22.980 --> 00:32:27.460 video was the dips where I got super sick the 00:32:27.460 --> 00:32:30.779 second video I got nerve damage for like and 00:32:30.779 --> 00:32:33.839 I still have it for four months later and then 00:32:33.839 --> 00:32:38.509 the third video which I believe was I survived 00:32:38.509 --> 00:32:42.089 a 36 hour bike ride. That video was amazing. 00:32:42.230 --> 00:32:48.470 I am so happy with that video. Because it was 00:32:48.470 --> 00:32:52.609 such a great experience. I genuinely did want 00:32:52.609 --> 00:32:58.869 to go camping. But it did cause a problem because 00:32:58.869 --> 00:33:03.059 on the bike ride home, Was fine all the way up 00:33:03.059 --> 00:33:05.359 until when I got to the dunes and I was running 00:33:05.359 --> 00:33:07.920 around and I felt something in my knee But then 00:33:07.920 --> 00:33:10.140 on the bike ride home for the first 20 miles. 00:33:10.140 --> 00:33:13.460 I was fine. But then after that for the last 00:33:13.460 --> 00:33:18.680 40 miles my knee was hurting and I screwed up 00:33:18.680 --> 00:33:21.400 my knee I wasn't able to walk or like I was able 00:33:21.400 --> 00:33:25.420 to walk but I was not able to do like squats 00:33:25.420 --> 00:33:29.319 or Basically was nursing my knee for like three 00:33:29.319 --> 00:33:32.259 weeks straight after that video. So I got another 00:33:32.259 --> 00:33:35.119 injury I was basically injured in the knee and 00:33:35.119 --> 00:33:39.339 I was injured in the arm like the entire Nerve, 00:33:39.660 --> 00:33:42.980 so I basically couldn't do any exercise other 00:33:42.980 --> 00:33:45.980 than abs And that's what I was doing. Actually. 00:33:46.059 --> 00:33:51.279 I I was all I was doing was abs and That was 00:33:51.279 --> 00:33:55.400 just such a dark period and then the next video 00:33:56.059 --> 00:34:00.240 I toned it down and just learned a bunch of skills. 00:34:00.299 --> 00:34:03.140 And I don't think any problems occurred from 00:34:03.140 --> 00:34:07.700 that. And then after that was the music video. 00:34:07.759 --> 00:34:11.820 And then I just decided to drop it because I 00:34:11.820 --> 00:34:15.579 wanted to, I want to make the videos that I make, 00:34:15.639 --> 00:34:20.199 which are the self improvement videos. And if 00:34:20.199 --> 00:34:22.119 you're wondering, the reason why I don't like 00:34:22.119 --> 00:34:25.750 the term self improvement is because it has a 00:34:25.750 --> 00:34:31.230 very strong connection to dogma and cult behavior 00:34:31.230 --> 00:34:37.550 and I know that maybe not like most people probably 00:34:37.550 --> 00:34:40.670 don't have that connection but people my age 00:34:40.670 --> 00:34:44.449 that have been exposed to self -improvement especially 00:34:44.449 --> 00:34:48.250 like Hamza's style of self -improvement that 00:34:48.250 --> 00:34:54.269 is very cult well I mean obviously he Hamza he's 00:34:54.269 --> 00:34:59.710 or Hamza. He's the person that Said he literally 00:34:59.710 --> 00:35:04.710 says that he built a cult. So it's not like a 00:35:04.710 --> 00:35:10.230 Hidden thing but it does have a very damaging 00:35:10.230 --> 00:35:14.590 effect on the psyche Because I know because I 00:35:14.590 --> 00:35:17.530 used to I wasn't really a part of I never really 00:35:17.530 --> 00:35:20.550 considered myself a part of that cult and I I 00:35:20.550 --> 00:35:23.139 was always kind of like Hesitant about considering 00:35:23.139 --> 00:35:26.360 myself on self -improvement. I was more of like 00:35:26.360 --> 00:35:29.800 habit focus like I meditate and I journal and 00:35:29.800 --> 00:35:34.039 I Work out I'd I do this instead of saying I 00:35:34.039 --> 00:35:36.480 am on self -improvement. I would always just 00:35:36.480 --> 00:35:41.420 focus on the habit but It has a negative effect 00:35:41.420 --> 00:35:46.019 on the psyche and I know that because I Experienced 00:35:46.019 --> 00:35:51.570 it where I would look very down on people for 00:35:51.570 --> 00:35:54.690 I would just get super pissed off and I still 00:35:54.690 --> 00:35:58.090 I still get pissed off like it's still very part 00:35:58.090 --> 00:36:02.889 of my psyche but it's gotten a lot a lot better 00:36:02.889 --> 00:36:12.010 where I would get so enraged by not not by people 00:36:12.010 --> 00:36:14.070 that I didn't really know not by people on the 00:36:14.070 --> 00:36:16.989 streets by people that I was surrounded with 00:36:16.989 --> 00:36:23.190 24 -7 I would just get so pissed off at like 00:36:23.190 --> 00:36:30.869 all of the habits But now I've become a lot more 00:36:30.869 --> 00:36:37.150 calm Because I I'm not I've like healed myself. 00:36:37.530 --> 00:36:40.530 I'm not fully healed. I'm still like working 00:36:40.530 --> 00:36:45.820 on it actively But made a lot of progress And 00:36:45.820 --> 00:36:47.559 that's why I don't like the self -improvement 00:36:47.559 --> 00:36:51.559 term, but I still use it because it really is 00:36:51.559 --> 00:36:54.639 like the best way to describe what I'm doing, 00:36:54.920 --> 00:36:59.920 the self -improvement stuff. And also, I am aware 00:36:59.920 --> 00:37:03.760 that not everyone has that negative correlation 00:37:03.760 --> 00:37:07.039 to self -improvement. So it is the perfect term. 00:37:07.610 --> 00:37:11.250 just not for everyone. One person's understanding 00:37:11.250 --> 00:37:13.489 of self -improvement will be completely different 00:37:13.489 --> 00:37:16.130 to another person's. In the same way, and you 00:37:16.130 --> 00:37:18.969 can say that about literally anything in life. 00:37:19.610 --> 00:37:23.230 Someone who is allergic to peanuts is gonna think 00:37:23.230 --> 00:37:26.590 completely different about peanuts and peanut 00:37:26.590 --> 00:37:30.090 butter than somebody who eats it every day and 00:37:30.090 --> 00:37:33.230 loves it. That you can say that about anything. 00:37:37.110 --> 00:37:40.610 The reason why I'm sharing all this was I have 00:37:40.610 --> 00:37:45.570 a tendency to do a complete 180 so in my challenge 00:37:45.570 --> 00:37:48.150 videos I decided to go all in on the challenge 00:37:48.150 --> 00:37:51.630 videos completely destroy self -improvement from 00:37:51.630 --> 00:37:55.210 my mind and I don't like it don't like all any 00:37:55.210 --> 00:37:58.429 of that and Then I go all into that but then 00:37:58.429 --> 00:38:01.769 a couple of months later. I learn and I do a 00:38:01.769 --> 00:38:05.840 full 180 where I'm like, okay, no, I am done 00:38:05.840 --> 00:38:08.780 with challenge videos. I am going back to self 00:38:08.780 --> 00:38:13.980 -improvement videos. And that is a very common 00:38:13.980 --> 00:38:19.260 thing in my life. And I noticed, I actually read 00:38:19.260 --> 00:38:22.539 about this, there's a, I think it was Van Gogh, 00:38:23.000 --> 00:38:25.079 Van Go, Van Gogh, I don't know how to pronounce 00:38:25.079 --> 00:38:33.000 it, but that painter, he basically would, Almost 00:38:33.000 --> 00:38:36.559 like idolize a certain technique. So he would 00:38:36.559 --> 00:38:41.280 use like charcoal paint or charcoal like graphite 00:38:41.280 --> 00:38:45.019 or something charcoal utensils and He would be 00:38:45.019 --> 00:38:47.059 like, yes, I'm only using this but then a couple 00:38:47.059 --> 00:38:49.559 of weeks later a couple months later He would 00:38:49.559 --> 00:38:51.679 just completely destroy it and he'd be like no 00:38:51.679 --> 00:38:54.519 I'm never using that again and then he would 00:38:54.519 --> 00:38:58.320 obsess over like Painting or obsessing over this 00:38:58.320 --> 00:39:01.780 other technique and he would just do that for 00:39:01.960 --> 00:39:06.739 all kinds of different things. And what happened 00:39:06.739 --> 00:39:12.519 was after like many years of doing that, he created 00:39:12.519 --> 00:39:16.320 his own style that no one had ever seen ever 00:39:16.320 --> 00:39:19.900 before. And he became one of the greatest to 00:39:19.900 --> 00:39:23.440 ever live. And that's kind of what I do, where 00:39:23.440 --> 00:39:27.380 I go on to one thing and I'm like, no, after 00:39:27.380 --> 00:39:29.920 a couple of months, I'm like, no, not not doing 00:39:29.920 --> 00:39:32.769 that do a complete 180. So I just thought that 00:39:32.769 --> 00:39:35.710 was interesting to point out, like that 180 tendency. 00:39:37.610 --> 00:39:41.070 And now, I wanna talk about something I noticed 00:39:41.070 --> 00:39:50.210 is the binary nature of YouTube. I am so much 00:39:50.210 --> 00:39:54.269 better at YouTube, like my skill -wise, than 00:39:54.269 --> 00:39:58.349 I was when I started. Even six months ago, even 00:39:58.349 --> 00:40:01.610 a year ago. If you look back to any point in 00:40:01.610 --> 00:40:04.090 my journey, I am so much better now than I was 00:40:04.090 --> 00:40:10.170 then. So my growth has been, you could say, closer 00:40:10.170 --> 00:40:14.510 to linear. I have made steady progress, very 00:40:14.510 --> 00:40:19.269 noticeable improvements in my skill over the 00:40:19.269 --> 00:40:25.849 past two years. However, I gained the majority 00:40:25.849 --> 00:40:29.559 of my subscribers Not recently like recently. 00:40:29.559 --> 00:40:34.219 I think I have actually lost subscribers on Average 00:40:34.219 --> 00:40:37.019 like I think I lost four subscribers this past 00:40:37.019 --> 00:40:41.300 month instead of gaining So I've I've basically 00:40:41.300 --> 00:40:48.400 The the there's a binary nature to YouTube where 00:40:48.400 --> 00:40:50.900 you're either the best thing in the world or 00:40:50.900 --> 00:40:53.840 you just absolutely suck or Maybe not absolutely 00:40:53.840 --> 00:40:56.599 suck. You're the best thing in the world or you're 00:40:56.599 --> 00:40:59.760 a nobody You could be the second best in the 00:40:59.760 --> 00:41:02.500 world, but you're still a nobody until you're 00:41:02.500 --> 00:41:09.639 the best For example, there's a guy in the space 00:41:09.639 --> 00:41:14.320 self -improvement space Jack Pigott he Had no 00:41:14.320 --> 00:41:18.300 like he was a nobody until He wasn't and now 00:41:18.300 --> 00:41:20.420 he's got two million subscribers. And yeah, that 00:41:20.420 --> 00:41:23.820 was a journey Obviously it took him a long time 00:41:23.820 --> 00:41:25.980 to get to that point, but there was like a turning 00:41:25.980 --> 00:41:29.039 point where he started blowing up. And the same 00:41:29.039 --> 00:41:34.800 thing with Hamza, Hamza, he had like a thousand 00:41:34.800 --> 00:41:37.280 subscribers and then his video started blowing 00:41:37.280 --> 00:41:39.760 up. And now he was somebody, like he was the 00:41:39.760 --> 00:41:45.059 best in the world. And MrBeast, he had, he's 00:41:45.059 --> 00:41:47.219 getting, actually he probably was getting a lot 00:41:47.219 --> 00:41:51.079 of views, but all of a sudden one of his videos 00:41:51.079 --> 00:41:54.000 blows up. He like counted to a hundred thousand 00:41:54.000 --> 00:41:57.460 and now he is the best in the world. Now, it's 00:41:57.460 --> 00:42:01.300 not like super binary where now he's made it 00:42:01.300 --> 00:42:05.260 because he still, I mean, he still sucked back 00:42:05.260 --> 00:42:09.219 then, like compared to what he is now. And he 00:42:09.219 --> 00:42:10.980 definitely was not the best in the world back 00:42:10.980 --> 00:42:15.659 then. He is the best in the world now, but that's 00:42:15.659 --> 00:42:17.460 not what I'm saying where it's like absolute 00:42:17.460 --> 00:42:23.039 binary. I'm just pointing out that you can have 00:42:23.039 --> 00:42:28.449 99 % of the skill But zero percent of the results, 00:42:28.449 --> 00:42:33.309 but if you just keep improving your skill and 00:42:33.309 --> 00:42:36.110 Keep improving like your ability to make videos 00:42:36.110 --> 00:42:40.409 that people want to watch then once you hit that 00:42:40.409 --> 00:42:45.530 that ladder that 1 % tweak then boom explosion 00:42:45.530 --> 00:42:51.320 and That's just something that really find peculiar 00:42:51.320 --> 00:42:53.920 or not peculiar, but something I really find 00:42:53.920 --> 00:42:59.179 helpful to lean against because It's like looking 00:42:59.179 --> 00:43:03.480 at it objectively like it is Probably it's like 00:43:03.480 --> 00:43:07.599 embarrassing having 400 subscribers like if you 00:43:07.599 --> 00:43:10.960 if you have a YouTube channel and you have 400 00:43:10.960 --> 00:43:13.860 subscribers like you're an idiot like you're 00:43:13.860 --> 00:43:18.420 a fool you're Delusional you're just just bad 00:43:19.449 --> 00:43:24.650 even if you have 99 % of the skill and This is 00:43:24.650 --> 00:43:27.750 coming from somebody who currently has 400 subscribers 00:43:27.750 --> 00:43:30.590 You're probably listening to this in the future 00:43:30.590 --> 00:43:34.389 when I have not 400 subscribers, but currently 00:43:34.389 --> 00:43:37.349 when I'm recording this I have 400 subscribers 00:43:37.349 --> 00:43:41.130 and so objectively speaking like you're an idiot 00:43:41.130 --> 00:43:48.070 if you have 400 subscribers, but You could have 00:43:49.199 --> 00:43:53.760 The skill of somebody with 300 ,000 subscribers 00:43:53.760 --> 00:44:02.500 But not have 300 ,000 subscribers and Then the 00:44:02.500 --> 00:44:08.539 moment something clicks the moment you hit Like 00:44:08.539 --> 00:44:10.820 the moment one of your videos starts blowing 00:44:10.820 --> 00:44:18.000 up that's when Everything is That's when you're 00:44:18.000 --> 00:44:21.159 not at 400 subscribers. That's when you get a 00:44:21.159 --> 00:44:25.659 lot more subs and You like the difference let's 00:44:25.659 --> 00:44:28.820 say a video blows up. Well, let's say my next 00:44:28.820 --> 00:44:38.139 video blows up today I Have the same amount of 00:44:38.139 --> 00:44:46.539 skill Now That I would have tomorrow but tomorrow 00:44:46.809 --> 00:44:51.230 I will have a thousand times the results. Like 00:44:51.230 --> 00:44:53.789 if a video blows up and I immediately get a hundred 00:44:53.789 --> 00:44:58.250 thousand subscribers tomorrow, I will have nearly 00:44:58.250 --> 00:45:00.829 identical the amount of skill. Like, yeah, sure, 00:45:00.929 --> 00:45:05.949 I might learn something like a tiny bit today 00:45:05.949 --> 00:45:09.170 to where I know a little bit tomorrow. Yeah, 00:45:09.309 --> 00:45:12.030 I am getting 1 % better every day, but that's 00:45:12.030 --> 00:45:13.929 not what I'm pointing out. I'm pointing out that 00:45:13.929 --> 00:45:16.650 I basically have the same exact skill. Basically, 00:45:16.650 --> 00:45:19.170 I have the same exact knowledge. I'm not like 00:45:19.170 --> 00:45:23.449 immediately injecting myself with a hundred thousand 00:45:23.449 --> 00:45:27.769 subscribers worth of knowledge. I have the same 00:45:27.769 --> 00:45:33.590 knowledge, but something happens on YouTube to 00:45:33.590 --> 00:45:36.250 where now I have a thousand times the results 00:45:36.250 --> 00:45:40.769 and you're in it. Like you're in the game. Like 00:45:40.769 --> 00:45:44.170 I'm not in the game right now. Like no one knows 00:45:44.170 --> 00:45:47.469 about my channel. But the moment you blow up, 00:45:47.909 --> 00:45:51.510 you're basically in the game. You've entered 00:45:51.510 --> 00:45:55.030 your career. You've jump -started your career. 00:45:55.530 --> 00:46:00.050 And I don't think like that. I lean against that. 00:46:00.289 --> 00:46:04.809 It's very helpful to help me. But I don't think 00:46:04.809 --> 00:46:06.969 like, oh, I'm not in my career. This is what 00:46:06.969 --> 00:46:12.010 I'm doing. I don't think like that. I think like 00:46:12.010 --> 00:46:15.809 how... Am getting better like this is my career 00:46:15.809 --> 00:46:20.730 but that's an interesting thing to point out 00:46:20.730 --> 00:46:26.550 the binary nature of YouTube how you can be an 00:46:26.550 --> 00:46:30.690 absolutely nobody but then the next day or three 00:46:30.690 --> 00:46:36.889 months later you are a hot shot and That's it's 00:46:36.889 --> 00:46:40.300 it's such a unique Actually, I don't even know 00:46:40.300 --> 00:46:41.860 if it's unique because it's probably a thing 00:46:41.860 --> 00:46:47.659 in like a lot of careers And even in like fundamentally 00:46:47.659 --> 00:46:50.519 in life like we used to be a hunter -gatherers 00:46:50.519 --> 00:46:53.619 we would go out and hunt for like boars and pigs 00:46:53.619 --> 00:46:58.800 and stuff and Immediately once you get the kill 00:46:58.800 --> 00:47:01.599 you immediately have a thousand times the results 00:47:01.599 --> 00:47:05.389 like before moments earlier you were starving 00:47:05.389 --> 00:47:08.070 and now you have this pig in your hand that's 00:47:08.070 --> 00:47:11.809 gonna feed you for like the next month. So I 00:47:11.809 --> 00:47:16.250 guess that's like how the world works. Even though 00:47:16.250 --> 00:47:20.409 you had the same exact skill as a hunter a moment 00:47:20.409 --> 00:47:22.909 before, now that you killed a pig you have a 00:47:22.909 --> 00:47:27.429 thousand times results. So it's just a cool thing, 00:47:27.750 --> 00:47:31.849 an interesting thing to think about. Now... I 00:47:31.849 --> 00:47:34.170 wanna talk about what I've been doing. So the 00:47:34.170 --> 00:47:38.489 last month, on the last month's episode, immediately 00:47:38.489 --> 00:47:41.469 after I recorded it, basically I figured out 00:47:41.469 --> 00:47:43.630 what I wanted to do. And it was just to make 00:47:43.630 --> 00:47:48.389 these videos. And so my objective became to basically 00:47:48.389 --> 00:47:52.809 bury my challenge videos. I wanted to just pump 00:47:52.809 --> 00:47:56.150 out as many great videos as I could with great 00:47:56.150 --> 00:47:59.809 thumbnails so that I can bury all of those challenge 00:47:59.809 --> 00:48:03.440 videos because Need to I basically need to reestablish 00:48:03.440 --> 00:48:06.980 myself in this niche because if you look at my 00:48:06.980 --> 00:48:09.599 channel like a couple weeks a couple weeks ago 00:48:09.599 --> 00:48:11.900 You would say oh, he's a challenge youtuber, 00:48:11.900 --> 00:48:15.239 but I needed to reestablish myself in the self 00:48:15.239 --> 00:48:17.900 improvement niche So that was my objective to 00:48:17.900 --> 00:48:21.460 bury my videos and to just make a video a week 00:48:21.460 --> 00:48:24.559 Or not even make a video a week post a video 00:48:24.559 --> 00:48:28.159 a week and I wanted to do that. I wanted to do 00:48:28.159 --> 00:48:33.920 seven weeks worth of work in five weeks because 00:48:33.920 --> 00:48:40.559 I'm going on vacation in three days. So it's 00:48:40.559 --> 00:48:45.519 the second of June. Yeah, it's June 2nd right 00:48:45.519 --> 00:48:50.199 now and I'm going on vacation on June 6th. So 00:48:50.199 --> 00:48:56.099 four days actually. And I wanted to. be able 00:48:56.099 --> 00:48:58.679 to post while I'm on vacation too. So I wanted 00:48:58.679 --> 00:49:01.559 to do seven weeks worth of work in five weeks. 00:49:01.579 --> 00:49:05.019 And so I've been grinding, like grinding so hard. 00:49:05.340 --> 00:49:09.280 And around week four, like two weeks, maybe one 00:49:09.280 --> 00:49:13.460 or two weeks ago, I noticed a complete drop in 00:49:13.460 --> 00:49:16.960 my inspiration levels because before it was not 00:49:16.960 --> 00:49:19.239 like effortless. Like I still was like putting 00:49:19.239 --> 00:49:23.519 in the work, but it was like, I was very inspired. 00:49:23.719 --> 00:49:27.119 Like all day I was like pushing hard and it was 00:49:27.119 --> 00:49:31.199 actually closer to effortless than not But then 00:49:31.199 --> 00:49:34.420 around like week four week five my motivation 00:49:34.420 --> 00:49:37.300 completely plummeted and I wasn't like coming 00:49:37.300 --> 00:49:40.019 up with videos I was super inspired for and I 00:49:40.019 --> 00:49:42.320 was just trying to like finish these last two 00:49:42.320 --> 00:49:47.519 videos last two or three videos and I realized 00:49:47.519 --> 00:49:53.820 that seven or seven weeks is Or maybe it was 00:49:53.820 --> 00:49:57.239 five weeks or six weeks. I don't know. But I 00:49:57.239 --> 00:50:01.099 came up with an idea. Don't plan more than four 00:50:01.099 --> 00:50:05.000 weeks out. Because if you plan like, OK, I'm 00:50:05.000 --> 00:50:09.760 going to grind for 10 weeks straight, well, you're 00:50:09.760 --> 00:50:11.920 probably, or I don't know about you, but for 00:50:11.920 --> 00:50:16.320 me, I hit like a wall around week four. And that's 00:50:16.320 --> 00:50:19.460 also what happened with piano. Like I got super 00:50:19.769 --> 00:50:23.190 I was super motivated, closer to effortless than 00:50:23.190 --> 00:50:26.789 not, of me spending like 10 hours at the piano 00:50:26.789 --> 00:50:29.969 bench, just practicing, getting reps. And when 00:50:29.969 --> 00:50:34.190 I was not at that piano bench, I was eating food 00:50:34.190 --> 00:50:36.949 or working out, and while I was doing those two 00:50:36.949 --> 00:50:39.989 things, I was either visualizing, practicing, 00:50:40.929 --> 00:50:43.590 visualizing my memorization for certain theory 00:50:43.590 --> 00:50:47.070 knowledge I needed, and also practicing drills 00:50:47.070 --> 00:50:51.329 on the computer like, note memorization and all 00:50:51.329 --> 00:50:54.670 that like ear training, all that stuff. So I 00:50:54.670 --> 00:50:56.710 was basically spending the entire day and I also 00:50:56.710 --> 00:51:00.829 have done that in the past four weeks recently 00:51:00.829 --> 00:51:04.630 too. But then I hit a wall where I was like, 00:51:04.750 --> 00:51:07.909 okay, I'm kind of done. Like I need to change 00:51:07.909 --> 00:51:09.730 things up. And that's when I started working 00:51:09.730 --> 00:51:12.730 on composing and piano. And then now the wall 00:51:12.730 --> 00:51:16.510 that I hit, I actually am still pushing through. 00:51:17.840 --> 00:51:20.380 Because I'm going on vacation in like a couple 00:51:20.380 --> 00:51:22.920 days and I just have one more video to produce 00:51:22.920 --> 00:51:25.820 and that's it and I've already recorded it I 00:51:25.820 --> 00:51:28.880 just need to edit and make the music and that's 00:51:28.880 --> 00:51:34.599 it and One I'm on vacation. I'm just gonna completely 00:51:34.599 --> 00:51:38.519 detach Not even think about it. Yeah, sure. I'll 00:51:38.519 --> 00:51:40.400 think about it naturally obviously because this 00:51:40.400 --> 00:51:44.780 is my life, but I'm not gonna like I'm not gonna 00:51:44.780 --> 00:51:51.170 like strive for anything work related on vacation. 00:51:51.670 --> 00:51:54.070 Like I'm not gonna strive to come up with a great 00:51:54.070 --> 00:51:57.409 video idea. I'm just gonna completely detach 00:51:57.409 --> 00:52:01.969 and completely let my mind completely rest so 00:52:01.969 --> 00:52:04.489 that I can come back fresh with a brand new perspective 00:52:04.489 --> 00:52:07.989 and figure out my new direction moving forward. 00:52:08.110 --> 00:52:10.090 And I already have an idea of what my new direction 00:52:10.090 --> 00:52:14.719 will probably be and... It has an idea or it's 00:52:14.719 --> 00:52:17.880 similar to it's related to how these videos that 00:52:17.880 --> 00:52:21.119 I've been making are very similar to my 60 second 00:52:21.119 --> 00:52:26.980 videos and They just signal low effort low value 00:52:26.980 --> 00:52:31.639 for one reason because they're short like they're 00:52:31.639 --> 00:52:35.280 like less than three minutes long and So when 00:52:35.280 --> 00:52:38.619 you see that it just signals low effort low value 00:52:38.619 --> 00:52:42.139 like this person didn't even put any effort in 00:52:42.139 --> 00:52:44.780 this video to make it longer so that, and I'm 00:52:44.780 --> 00:52:46.340 not going to get that much value out of three 00:52:46.340 --> 00:52:49.960 minutes. Now obviously they are high effort. 00:52:50.960 --> 00:52:53.079 But yeah, I would agree that they are probably 00:52:53.079 --> 00:52:56.559 low value because there's only so much stuff 00:52:56.559 --> 00:53:02.199 you can put in three minutes. Now, And now I'm 00:53:02.199 --> 00:53:04.460 kind of like, oh, I kind of don't like these 00:53:04.460 --> 00:53:08.099 short videos. So my theory moving forward is 00:53:08.099 --> 00:53:12.619 to make longer videos. However, I made longer 00:53:12.619 --> 00:53:15.019 video. I made one longer video like this, which 00:53:15.019 --> 00:53:17.099 was why you keep feeling to change your life. 00:53:17.460 --> 00:53:21.300 It got like 900 views. The mistake I made with 00:53:21.300 --> 00:53:26.360 that one was it was exhausting to watch because 00:53:26.360 --> 00:53:32.409 the style that I have is just quick. is rapid, 00:53:32.650 --> 00:53:36.409 rapid, lots of cuts, lots of side angles, multiple 00:53:36.409 --> 00:53:41.929 camera angles, lots of, lots of movement, just 00:53:41.929 --> 00:53:45.789 really quick. And when you have quickness like 00:53:45.789 --> 00:53:48.909 that for 10 minutes straight, it's exhausting 00:53:48.909 --> 00:53:50.869 and you don't really get that much out of it 00:53:50.869 --> 00:53:53.130 and it's just like tiring and you just click 00:53:53.130 --> 00:53:58.809 off. And so what I think I want to experiment 00:53:58.809 --> 00:54:03.070 with is Fluctuations like that's that's how you 00:54:03.070 --> 00:54:07.329 build a good story where you have like ups and 00:54:07.329 --> 00:54:12.590 downs fasts and slows emotional unemotional I 00:54:12.590 --> 00:54:16.309 don't know, but I want to experiment with drawing 00:54:16.309 --> 00:54:23.070 scenes out so instead of having like a scene 00:54:23.070 --> 00:54:27.320 of me like picking up an object and Doing something 00:54:27.320 --> 00:54:29.980 with it like picking up a carrot and eating it 00:54:29.980 --> 00:54:34.179 that would have like five cuts. I want to experiment 00:54:34.179 --> 00:54:39.659 with less cuts and drawing out the scene and 00:54:39.659 --> 00:54:43.599 that would probably require different types of 00:54:46.280 --> 00:54:48.820 movement like instead of just eating a carrot 00:54:48.820 --> 00:54:50.719 that would be kind of boring maybe it would require 00:54:50.719 --> 00:54:54.619 like more dynamic movement like having multiple 00:54:54.619 --> 00:54:57.619 characters pop up and like interaction between 00:54:57.619 --> 00:55:00.300 the multiple characters and have like a more 00:55:00.300 --> 00:55:07.239 story like a more evolved story with one long 00:55:07.239 --> 00:55:11.440 cut That would help slow down the videos and 00:55:11.440 --> 00:55:13.079 I wouldn't have that throughout the whole video 00:55:13.079 --> 00:55:15.820 I would I would have like super quick moments 00:55:15.820 --> 00:55:20.940 of me like spitting a bunch of information like 00:55:20.940 --> 00:55:26.960 a bunch of knowledge wisdom Perspective and then 00:55:26.960 --> 00:55:30.559 just slow it down and let let that information 00:55:30.559 --> 00:55:33.480 Settle into the brain of the viewer and just 00:55:33.480 --> 00:55:36.159 let them sit with it for a second and then ramp 00:55:36.159 --> 00:55:39.659 it up again And that's what I notice I do. I 00:55:39.659 --> 00:55:42.000 might do that in these videos too, like these 00:55:42.000 --> 00:55:46.739 podcasts, but I do notice that I do that in conversation, 00:55:46.780 --> 00:55:49.900 real life. It's different with a podcast because 00:55:49.900 --> 00:55:52.659 they're like, you're not talking back. Like you're, 00:55:52.800 --> 00:55:54.860 I'm not able to actually communicate with you. 00:55:55.079 --> 00:55:59.599 So I'm not physically conversing with you and 00:55:59.599 --> 00:56:03.280 you are actually just my microphone. Like I don't 00:56:03.280 --> 00:56:06.940 know who you are. But in real life like you can 00:56:06.940 --> 00:56:11.920 talk with each other and so you What I noticed 00:56:11.920 --> 00:56:15.280 was I speak really fast and I like drop a lot 00:56:15.280 --> 00:56:17.239 of information I just talk talk talk talk talk 00:56:17.239 --> 00:56:21.199 talk, but then I just slow it down and then I 00:56:21.199 --> 00:56:25.699 kind of like reiterate slowly and just like let 00:56:25.699 --> 00:56:29.119 it Reinforce reinforce it and let it sink in 00:56:29.119 --> 00:56:31.900 and then I talk and talk and I like I repeat 00:56:31.900 --> 00:56:35.039 with the next point That's what I do in conversation. 00:56:35.599 --> 00:56:40.760 And I, I've been really thinking about paying 00:56:40.760 --> 00:56:45.800 attention to how I naturally am. Like, how am 00:56:45.800 --> 00:56:49.539 I really, what am I really like as a person? 00:56:50.460 --> 00:56:53.539 And being like that in my videos too. Like I 00:56:53.539 --> 00:56:56.599 don't, I don't want to fake my personality in 00:56:56.599 --> 00:56:59.739 my videos. I want to be as authentic as possible. 00:56:59.739 --> 00:57:03.679 And That's not just like my conversation style. 00:57:04.039 --> 00:57:08.059 I want every element of my video to be aligned 00:57:08.059 --> 00:57:13.320 to who I am. Every element, from the color coding, 00:57:14.139 --> 00:57:19.719 the color grading, to the shots, to the angles, 00:57:20.039 --> 00:57:25.059 to the actual way I speak, to the music, to everything. 00:57:25.460 --> 00:57:30.400 I want the entire video. be aligned to who I 00:57:30.400 --> 00:57:35.260 am and That's how you make like something that 00:57:35.260 --> 00:57:40.780 I want people to Like take a look At my channel 00:57:40.780 --> 00:57:43.920 and be like wow You really made something that 00:57:43.920 --> 00:57:46.599 belongs to you. Like you really made something 00:57:46.599 --> 00:57:50.340 that is truly yours That's what I want for my 00:57:50.340 --> 00:57:53.880 my channels or my channel. I only have one channel, 00:57:53.880 --> 00:57:59.510 but That's it So I'm really excited for the future. 00:57:59.530 --> 00:58:00.190 Peace.