I spent three months making challenge videos
and what I learned is that I don't want to make
challenge videos. There's a way that I've been
thinking about purpose lately. It's what is the
thing that you want to become the best in the
world at and that you think you can become the
best in the world at. Now very early on you might
not think that you can become the best in the
world at, but once you get to a certain point,
and I am very aware that I am currently very
early on in my journey, but... I've gotten to
the point where I really do think that I can
become the best in the world at what I do. In
fact, I actually think that I already am the
best in the world at what I do, simply because
no one else does what I do. Nobody else that
I'm aware of makes videos like I do. And once
I get to a certain point in quality and skill,
then that's when the sky's the limit. Like, the
reason why I believe, the reason why I'm not,
the reason why I still have 400 subscribers on
January, or it's not January, it's the middle
of summer, in June, June 2nd, it's June 2nd,
2025. Six slash two slash 25. The reason why
I still have two, 400 subscribers and I've been
making videos for the past two years. I'm about
to hit two years in like a month It's because
I am not good enough yet that I believe that
that's really it Yeah, sure. Some people get
lucky like there are some instances of some people
getting one one or two viral videos and they
can't really replicate it Yeah, sure. That's
luck and I have not gotten that luck but then
again there are other instances of people making
super high quality videos, just really good videos
that people want because you can make the best
videos that people don't want. This is another
side of the coin. You have to figure out what
videos people want and then you have to actually
make that video to a high quality. Those are
the two things that you need. It's hard to find
out what people want. Some people get lucky and
figure that out, which whatever. And then you
also have to be able to execute very well. And
I've gotten to the point where I'm able to execute
pretty well and I'm getting better every single
day. And I was making challenge videos for three
months and I realized that I just don't want
to be the best in the world at that. Like I don't
want to connect. A huge lesson I learned from
it was I just don't want to connect my personal
growth to video. Like I don't want to connect
those two areas. Yeah, sure. I can grow, but
I don't want to like record myself learning how
code for 30 days straight because then I'm just
Doing it for the video and I don't want to record
myself biking all the way across the state to
a different state Biking 60 miles to a park or
to a campground. I don't want to do that Just
for the video. I want to do that on my own, but
I don't want to do it just for video because
then I get the the mindset where When I'm done
with it, I'm done Like I don't have to ever solve
a Rubik's Cube again, even though I spent like
20 hours, probably more than that, practicing
and learning how to solve a Rubik's Cube. I don't
have to code ever again in my life because now
the video's over, so now I don't have to do it.
I want to do personal growth so that it's a thing
that... happens like a part of me for the rest
of my life. For example, I was really thinking
about making a YouTube video documenting my journey
on learning how to make music. When I back in
September of 2024, I decided that I was going
to learn how to play the piano, learn how to
compose music, learn how to produce that music
and to wrap it all together. learn how to score
my own videos, so create my own music for my
videos. And I had the idea of making a video
out of it, but something inside said no, something
inside just said, just focus, just focus on yourself.
And I'm glad that I didn't because then it would
be connecting it to my video and then it would
be like, oh, well, I'm done. with that video
now so it's over like I don't have to ever make
music again and sure maybe I wouldn't have had
that mindset with that because that's something
that I actually wanted to do in my career I wanted
to make it a part of my career to make music
for my videos that's a different argument but
I hope you understand what I'm trying to say
that I don't want to connect my personal growth
to my videos now why did I stop doing challenge
videos. I just don't want to make them anymore.
Why am I making the videos I'm making now? Well,
in the last month's episode, I was in a stagnant
period. Every once in a while, I reach this period
where I need direction, I don't know what to
do, and I'm just kind of trying to figure it
out. I basically drop everything and just start
reading and I'm pretty sure it happened like
immediately after I recorded that video or maybe
like one day after I recorded that video or the
last episode podcast I was about to rerecord
the last episode of this podcast because I immediately
found my new direction and The thing that was
holding me back was I kept saying no, I don't
want to do self -improvement videos I don't want
to give advice. I don't want to do that. But
then when I really just sat down in my room,
I was like, okay What do I want? What do I want
to do? And when I just completely cleared all
of my prejudice all my bias just completely cleared
every Limiting belief from my mind and just allowed
myself to listen to my desires, I guess, I realized
that I just want to make these self -improvement
videos. Now I don't really call them self -improvement
videos, but that's really what they are, I guess.
To an outsider, they look like self -improvement
videos. because it's in the self -improvement
niche. But I think of them differently to that.
The thing that I have been noticing lately is
that I am innovating a brand new style. In the
self -improvement niche, for example, most people,
there are two primary styles. One style is unscripted,
raw, unfiltered, just a dude speaking to the
camera. And I did that in the past. And then
there's another style of faceless, highly saturated
edits, and it's really artificial. It's like
lots, it's mostly computer generated, except
for maybe the voice. And sometimes even the voice
is computer generated too. But a lot of the times
those videos do well too. But I want the best
or not the best. I want a new style. I'm innovating
a brand new style. And yeah, you can argue that
some people are kind of making similar to this,
but not really like how I am. I think that I
am making a truly unique style in the self improvement
niche and it is The way I like to describe it
is There's this book that I barely read I didn't
I did not read the whole thing. I just read a
couple pages Maybe it's called meditations by
Marcus Aurelius and it's not even a book They
basically found this guy. There's this ancient
Roman Emperor named Marcus Aurelius and he kept
a journal and he would just write in his journal
like thoughts and ideas and lessons that he learned
in the world. Very similar to what I do. I very
often just like write down lessons that I learned
or write down ideas that are helpful. Or for
example, if I see other people doing something
that could be helped by an idea or Doing living
a certain way and if they were aware of a different
idea Then their life would be better then I I
write that idea down in my journal and In the
book meditations Marcus Aurelius basically just
wrote down all of his ideas thoughts on the world
Lots of wisdom was written in that book And I
never read Psalms, but I'm pretty sure Psalms
is just like that too, in the Bible. But the
way I think of my videos are imagine if I did
that, where I wrote down in my journal and I
searched all of my ideas and selected the best
ones. And then I made those ideas come alive
through film, storytelling, video. music and
I basically Create a movie around it like a full
film around it Around that idea and create an
experience for the viewer That's how I like to
think of my videos it's not just It's it's it's
almost like art. I mean, I like to think of my
videos as art and It's not like Sit in front
of a camera and give advice It's more of like
creating a whole experience for the viewer Because
I feel like video is such a unique opportunity
like in real life I can just talk to somebody
and we can give each other tell each other stories
give each other advice give each other perspective
and help each other out and Yeah, we're really
only using like words sure we might like Use
our our physical touch like push each other around
or shake each other's hands but primarily the
primary mode of communication in real life conversations
is Speaking is just language. It's dialogue But
with video you have access to so much more than
that. You can show Video obviously like you let's
say you're talking about and I picked up my book
and started reading In real life you might do
like hand charades, which is another form of
communication But you might do hand charades
so that the other person could visualize that
and you would like Visually show yourself holding
up your hand like you're reading a book But in
video you can literally record b -roll which
is the footage that you see it's let's say you
have a voiceover of someone talking but then
a clip plays over that voiceover so that you
see the voiceover and you stop seeing that person
talking. That's b -roll. And then you can literally
show yourself, record yourself picking up a book.
It's so much more immersive. It's so much more
experience -wise. But that's not even the only
part of it. You've also got sound effects. So
like... I don't really use them right now. I've
experimented with them. I haven't really found
a great way to use like diegetic sounds, which
are sounds that happen in front of the camera.
So if I started eating a carrot, which I actually
do quite often in my videos, then a sound effect
for that would be like literally me eating the
carrot sound, like the crunch of the carrot.
But I don't really do that too often because
I feel like it takes away from the audio like
the dialogue because in my videos I like to order
the Order the elements by importance so The most
important thing for the experience is the audio
which is the dialogue which is the what I'm actually
saying And then the second thing that's important
is the visuals, and then the third most important
is the music. And now going back to what I said
with video, you get dialogue, you can speak in
front of a camera, but then you've also got visuals.
That adds a whole new dimension of experience
and transformative effects. If you want to transform
someone and inspire someone, evoke change in
their heart, light a fire in their soul, then
you want to put them through an experience. That's
why stories are so great because you are basically
sharing your story and then in the other person's
brain, they're literally recreating that story
in their brain. So they're basically experiencing
that too. And that's why stories have such a
transformative power. But video you can access
so many other storytelling tools like video,
dialogue, but sound effects like I said, and
music. Music is so crucial to the transformative
element. Like have you ever, you don't even have
to search for it in so many music videos. Like
if you've ever seen YouTube videos of concert
and then in the the video the camera usually
flips between like the musicians and then the
crowd and then they often do close -ups on certain
individuals in the crowd that are feeling emotional
and you don't even have to search far you always
find people who are like tearing up or people
who are waving their hands because they're so
inspired like they're so inspired like They just
feel elated. They feel overwhelmed music has
such a powerful Effect on people's emotion and
inspiration and motivation and just just how
good they feel And I noticed that in my videos
when I'm done with the edit I finish everything
except for the music It just feels I mean, yeah,
it feels cool, but it just doesn't feel powerful.
But then when I'm done making, when I discover
what the first idea of the music is gonna be,
the first three seconds when I figure out all
the different parts for it, I just get, it just
feels so good. And I... I've noticed that in
some of my videos when I watch them I start to
feel a very vague sense of like Inner shaking
like you know that feeling when you Just watch
something super powerful and your entire being
is like shaken and you just feel like Someone
just took you by the shoulders and just shook
you around, but not physically, but did that
to your soul. I felt a vague sense of that in
a couple of my videos. And that shows that I'm
making progress because that's my goal. I want
to be able to make videos that light a fire in
people's souls. That's my compass, basically,
my north star. I want to touch as many Souls
as possible. I want to light a fire on as many
hearts as possible And I feel like I'm getting
a lot better at that the more I Get better at
making the music especially That will help tremendously
and I feel like that's my unique value with these
self -improvement videos because most people
they Most videos in the self -improvement niche
are advice driven. My videos are experience driven.
They're transformation driven. I want people
to feel something when they watch my videos.
Because in the past, when I've watched videos,
I used to watch like Will Tennyson. He is a challenge
-based YouTuber, where he would do crazy fitness
challenges and food challenges, too, where he
would eat 10 ,000 calories and burn 10 ,000 calories
in one day. So he would eat an entire stadium
-sized pizza and then go. in the pool and do
like a circuit of swimming laps, do jumping jacks,
push -ups. He would do that all day, like do
crazy challenges. And me just watching that,
I was, I felt something, and I was changed. My
mind was like, it wasn't like an obvious change,
but over time, my mindset and my worldview changed.
I don't want... To just give people advice. I
want people I want to like completely transform
people's brains if that makes sense and Advice
is just one tool to do that because yes in the
past I have When the when you hear the right
advice at the right time it just hits and you
are changed but That's just one tool in my opinion
music, video, storytelling, all that other stuff
are other tools that other people don't use.
And I use it, and I really believe that my videos
will become very powerful. And shifting the topic,
I've noticed something that I do very often.
I go all into one thing and then a couple months
later, I do a complete 180 and then I say, no,
that thing was terrible. Like that was just so
stupid. I was such an idiot. For example, I'm
about to do it again right now in the challenge
videos. I, if you go back and listen to the podcast,
I would say, oh yeah, this is good. This is what
I want to do. But now I'm doing a complete 180
and say, no, I was just being an idiot. When
you go if you the other day I went into my journals
and I reread What I was writing down at the time
like the months leading up to me shifting and
switching to challenge based videos and There
was one prompt that just Perfectly describes
my mindset at the time and I said I am focusing
on way too much on views. I have such a strong
desire on views. I need to destroy this desire,
like I need to fix this. Spoiler alert, I did
not fix that desire. I did not eliminate that
desire and I let it overcome me and as a result
I ended up completely shifting to a foreign path.
Like there's a concept in reality in a book I
read all the time. I'm reading it right now,
actually, for the fifth time. It's called, it's
called Reality Transurfing, but there's a concept
in that book called, or it's just about how everyone
has their own innermost goal in life. It's the
goal that they are personally drawn most to.
And then there are also foreign goals, very seductive
and they lure you over and they... are not really
meant for you, and you're not really happy with
those goals. And lots of problems arise when
you are on those paths of a foreign goal. And
that's exactly what happened to me with the challenge
videos. The first video I made, I got super sick.
Like I was literally throwing up. I actually
wasn't super sick. But I did throw up like I
I I had diarrhea and I was out for a two mile
run recording a video And I literally had to
poop in the woods Like that was the first time
I'd ever done that that in fact that was actually
on my bucket list to take a natural dump I didn't
think that it was gonna turn out like that, but
it did happen like that and the first Video I
recorded I had so many problems arise and they
did not stop like the problems just kept coming
and it was such a Contrast to how I was living
before where I was not experiencing any problems
in my life like I was living a problem -free
life because when you are Walking towards your
actual goal that is meant for you and the goal
that your heart is truly drawn towards and you're
not really And you're just calm. You're not like
super stressed out or you're not taking everything
so seriously. When you're just calm and you're
walking towards your goal, you don't have any
problems in life. You just make progress and
that's it. Like you just live life amazingly
and that's when you're happy. But when I shifted
and I started doing the challenge videos, so
many problems. The first video that happened
was I had diarrhea. I had the stomach bug. I
got sick for like an entire week or even two
weeks Maybe I don't remember but two weeks. I
was like super down I was just reading all day.
I barely wanted to work I maybe worked like an
hour in the morning, and then I just didn't want
to work anymore I just sat in front of the heater
reading David Goggins all day long Which I mean
is not bad but I would prefer to just work instead
because I wanted to work, but I just felt so
low energy because I was sick. But then the second
video that I made, which was the push -up video,
I got injured. I got nerve damage from that video.
Did so many push -ups and I also did a pull -up
I did like two one two one maybe a hundred fifty
pull -ups that day to like my normal pull -up
workout and I by the end of the day I remember
doing the last like 600 push -ups and I was getting
so much pain in my left tricep and the next morning
I woke up and my entire hand like Not my entire
hand, but imagine the nerves, the section of
your hand that is connected to your ring finger
and your pinky finger. That entire section of
my hand was just completely numb. It hurt to
bend it. And my... I ended up figuring out what
it was and it was like... cubital tunnel syndrome
ulnar nerve something ulnar nerve entrapment
and I Got like nerve damage that set me back
like three months I wasn't able to lift weights
for three months even to this day. I am still
not fully back to normal I mean, I just did like
I was just out Training today, but I only did
like 30 pull -ups, which usually I do like 150
pull -ups, but I only did like 30 because I'm
still recovering from this thing like I can still
feel it the nerve damage in my pinky and my hand
over there So that was a huge problem and that
ended up Like making me feel so down like that
was a super dark period in my life because That
was like my hobby Working out was my hobby training
my physique was my hobby and I love the feeling
of every Six months or like every couple months
every couple weeks being able to look at in the
mirror and be just astonished by how attractive
I look now, like how jacked I've gotten, how
much better my physique looks like. And there's
a very common negative bias towards that mindset,
understandably so because it does screw a lot
of people up, but not me because I actually don't
have the same mindset that most people have with
physique and like aesthetics and stuff like that.
don't do it like yeah obviously I enjoy the attention
from other people and enjoy the the power it
gives you in social environments but that's not
like the primary motivation that's like kind
of like a benefit like that's just a side effect
to me doing it for the lifestyle and The mindset
that I have with it is not oh I do it for like
the girls or or that I do it for the women but
My mindset is actually it's just an ongoing art
project like there's a Who who painted the the
Mona Lisa was it Leonardo da Vinci? I don't know.
Let's just say it is Leonardo da Vinci. I hope
it is but The person that painted the Mona Lisa
actually spent his entire life painting that
thing. He didn't stop. Every once in a while,
he would see a way to improve it, and he would
just paint and paint. For his entire life, he
painted that thing. And that's the way I see
my... physique, my body. It's like an ongoing
art project and an artist admires and creates
their creation at the same time. So and you're
also an artist is always or not maybe not always
but an artist is usually surprised by Like the
creation because the creative process like takes
you to places You never would have expected and
places that were better than you expected and
that's the way I see my physique It's just like
another art project where every every once in
a while I look at it and I'm like, oh my gosh
Like you are jacked Like like it's it's so satisfying.
It's so fulfilling. It's so amazing. It's such
an amazing feeling and That's a huge side, side
tangent. I don't even know what I was talking
about before. What was I even talking about?
I don't know. Basically physique, my physique
is another. Oh, I was talking about how I got
injured and how it was such a dark period in
my life for the past. Not the past two months,
but two months ago for the past three months.
So from like February of 2025 all the way up
until maybe April or May of 2025 it was super
dark because Bodybuilding was my hobby. It was
also my art project. And so the fact that I was
not able to do my hobby, but I was also not Actively
creating my artwork was just so Not depressing
like I wasn't I wouldn't consider myself depressed
because I don't even know what that means But
I was really not happy. It wasn't it was a very
dark period and I I did like maintain my physical
level by like going on very long walks. I ended
up going on like a 10 mile walk which spoiler
alert also caused another problem. Problems are
just very abundant when you're not walking your
true path. The problem that caused was that I
ended up hurting my leg which was fine because
I rested for like five days but I'll get to how
that actually is bad in a moment but basically
it was very dark period and I had lots of problems
and on the third video that I made so the first
video was the dips where I got super sick the
second video I got nerve damage for like and
I still have it for four months later and then
the third video which I believe was I survived
a 36 hour bike ride. That video was amazing.
I am so happy with that video. Because it was
such a great experience. I genuinely did want
to go camping. But it did cause a problem because
on the bike ride home, Was fine all the way up
until when I got to the dunes and I was running
around and I felt something in my knee But then
on the bike ride home for the first 20 miles.
I was fine. But then after that for the last
40 miles my knee was hurting and I screwed up
my knee I wasn't able to walk or like I was able
to walk but I was not able to do like squats
or Basically was nursing my knee for like three
weeks straight after that video. So I got another
injury I was basically injured in the knee and
I was injured in the arm like the entire Nerve,
so I basically couldn't do any exercise other
than abs And that's what I was doing. Actually.
I I was all I was doing was abs and That was
just such a dark period and then the next video
I toned it down and just learned a bunch of skills.
And I don't think any problems occurred from
that. And then after that was the music video.
And then I just decided to drop it because I
wanted to, I want to make the videos that I make,
which are the self improvement videos. And if
you're wondering, the reason why I don't like
the term self improvement is because it has a
very strong connection to dogma and cult behavior
and I know that maybe not like most people probably
don't have that connection but people my age
that have been exposed to self -improvement especially
like Hamza's style of self -improvement that
is very cult well I mean obviously he Hamza he's
or Hamza. He's the person that Said he literally
says that he built a cult. So it's not like a
Hidden thing but it does have a very damaging
effect on the psyche Because I know because I
used to I wasn't really a part of I never really
considered myself a part of that cult and I I
was always kind of like Hesitant about considering
myself on self -improvement. I was more of like
habit focus like I meditate and I journal and
I Work out I'd I do this instead of saying I
am on self -improvement. I would always just
focus on the habit but It has a negative effect
on the psyche and I know that because I Experienced
it where I would look very down on people for
I would just get super pissed off and I still
I still get pissed off like it's still very part
of my psyche but it's gotten a lot a lot better
where I would get so enraged by not not by people
that I didn't really know not by people on the
streets by people that I was surrounded with
24 -7 I would just get so pissed off at like
all of the habits But now I've become a lot more
calm Because I I'm not I've like healed myself.
I'm not fully healed. I'm still like working
on it actively But made a lot of progress And
that's why I don't like the self -improvement
term, but I still use it because it really is
like the best way to describe what I'm doing,
the self -improvement stuff. And also, I am aware
that not everyone has that negative correlation
to self -improvement. So it is the perfect term.
just not for everyone. One person's understanding
of self -improvement will be completely different
to another person's. In the same way, and you
can say that about literally anything in life.
Someone who is allergic to peanuts is gonna think
completely different about peanuts and peanut
butter than somebody who eats it every day and
loves it. That you can say that about anything.
The reason why I'm sharing all this was I have
a tendency to do a complete 180 so in my challenge
videos I decided to go all in on the challenge
videos completely destroy self -improvement from
my mind and I don't like it don't like all any
of that and Then I go all into that but then
a couple of months later. I learn and I do a
full 180 where I'm like, okay, no, I am done
with challenge videos. I am going back to self
-improvement videos. And that is a very common
thing in my life. And I noticed, I actually read
about this, there's a, I think it was Van Gogh,
Van Go, Van Gogh, I don't know how to pronounce
it, but that painter, he basically would, Almost
like idolize a certain technique. So he would
use like charcoal paint or charcoal like graphite
or something charcoal utensils and He would be
like, yes, I'm only using this but then a couple
of weeks later a couple months later He would
just completely destroy it and he'd be like no
I'm never using that again and then he would
obsess over like Painting or obsessing over this
other technique and he would just do that for
all kinds of different things. And what happened
was after like many years of doing that, he created
his own style that no one had ever seen ever
before. And he became one of the greatest to
ever live. And that's kind of what I do, where
I go on to one thing and I'm like, no, after
a couple of months, I'm like, no, not not doing
that do a complete 180. So I just thought that
was interesting to point out, like that 180 tendency.
And now, I wanna talk about something I noticed
is the binary nature of YouTube. I am so much
better at YouTube, like my skill -wise, than
I was when I started. Even six months ago, even
a year ago. If you look back to any point in
my journey, I am so much better now than I was
then. So my growth has been, you could say, closer
to linear. I have made steady progress, very
noticeable improvements in my skill over the
past two years. However, I gained the majority
of my subscribers Not recently like recently.
I think I have actually lost subscribers on Average
like I think I lost four subscribers this past
month instead of gaining So I've I've basically
The the there's a binary nature to YouTube where
you're either the best thing in the world or
you just absolutely suck or Maybe not absolutely
suck. You're the best thing in the world or you're
a nobody You could be the second best in the
world, but you're still a nobody until you're
the best For example, there's a guy in the space
self -improvement space Jack Pigott he Had no
like he was a nobody until He wasn't and now
he's got two million subscribers. And yeah, that
was a journey Obviously it took him a long time
to get to that point, but there was like a turning
point where he started blowing up. And the same
thing with Hamza, Hamza, he had like a thousand
subscribers and then his video started blowing
up. And now he was somebody, like he was the
best in the world. And MrBeast, he had, he's
getting, actually he probably was getting a lot
of views, but all of a sudden one of his videos
blows up. He like counted to a hundred thousand
and now he is the best in the world. Now, it's
not like super binary where now he's made it
because he still, I mean, he still sucked back
then, like compared to what he is now. And he
definitely was not the best in the world back
then. He is the best in the world now, but that's
not what I'm saying where it's like absolute
binary. I'm just pointing out that you can have
99 % of the skill But zero percent of the results,
but if you just keep improving your skill and
Keep improving like your ability to make videos
that people want to watch then once you hit that
that ladder that 1 % tweak then boom explosion
and That's just something that really find peculiar
or not peculiar, but something I really find
helpful to lean against because It's like looking
at it objectively like it is Probably it's like
embarrassing having 400 subscribers like if you
if you have a YouTube channel and you have 400
subscribers like you're an idiot like you're
a fool you're Delusional you're just just bad
even if you have 99 % of the skill and This is
coming from somebody who currently has 400 subscribers
You're probably listening to this in the future
when I have not 400 subscribers, but currently
when I'm recording this I have 400 subscribers
and so objectively speaking like you're an idiot
if you have 400 subscribers, but You could have
The skill of somebody with 300 ,000 subscribers
But not have 300 ,000 subscribers and Then the
moment something clicks the moment you hit Like
the moment one of your videos starts blowing
up that's when Everything is That's when you're
not at 400 subscribers. That's when you get a
lot more subs and You like the difference let's
say a video blows up. Well, let's say my next
video blows up today I Have the same amount of
skill Now That I would have tomorrow but tomorrow
I will have a thousand times the results. Like
if a video blows up and I immediately get a hundred
thousand subscribers tomorrow, I will have nearly
identical the amount of skill. Like, yeah, sure,
I might learn something like a tiny bit today
to where I know a little bit tomorrow. Yeah,
I am getting 1 % better every day, but that's
not what I'm pointing out. I'm pointing out that
I basically have the same exact skill. Basically,
I have the same exact knowledge. I'm not like
immediately injecting myself with a hundred thousand
subscribers worth of knowledge. I have the same
knowledge, but something happens on YouTube to
where now I have a thousand times the results
and you're in it. Like you're in the game. Like
I'm not in the game right now. Like no one knows
about my channel. But the moment you blow up,
you're basically in the game. You've entered
your career. You've jump -started your career.
And I don't think like that. I lean against that.
It's very helpful to help me. But I don't think
like, oh, I'm not in my career. This is what
I'm doing. I don't think like that. I think like
how... Am getting better like this is my career
but that's an interesting thing to point out
the binary nature of YouTube how you can be an
absolutely nobody but then the next day or three
months later you are a hot shot and That's it's
it's such a unique Actually, I don't even know
if it's unique because it's probably a thing
in like a lot of careers And even in like fundamentally
in life like we used to be a hunter -gatherers
we would go out and hunt for like boars and pigs
and stuff and Immediately once you get the kill
you immediately have a thousand times the results
like before moments earlier you were starving
and now you have this pig in your hand that's
gonna feed you for like the next month. So I
guess that's like how the world works. Even though
you had the same exact skill as a hunter a moment
before, now that you killed a pig you have a
thousand times results. So it's just a cool thing,
an interesting thing to think about. Now... I
wanna talk about what I've been doing. So the
last month, on the last month's episode, immediately
after I recorded it, basically I figured out
what I wanted to do. And it was just to make
these videos. And so my objective became to basically
bury my challenge videos. I wanted to just pump
out as many great videos as I could with great
thumbnails so that I can bury all of those challenge
videos because Need to I basically need to reestablish
myself in this niche because if you look at my
channel like a couple weeks a couple weeks ago
You would say oh, he's a challenge youtuber,
but I needed to reestablish myself in the self
improvement niche So that was my objective to
bury my videos and to just make a video a week
Or not even make a video a week post a video
a week and I wanted to do that. I wanted to do
seven weeks worth of work in five weeks because
I'm going on vacation in three days. So it's
the second of June. Yeah, it's June 2nd right
now and I'm going on vacation on June 6th. So
four days actually. And I wanted to. be able
to post while I'm on vacation too. So I wanted
to do seven weeks worth of work in five weeks.
And so I've been grinding, like grinding so hard.
And around week four, like two weeks, maybe one
or two weeks ago, I noticed a complete drop in
my inspiration levels because before it was not
like effortless. Like I still was like putting
in the work, but it was like, I was very inspired.
Like all day I was like pushing hard and it was
actually closer to effortless than not But then
around like week four week five my motivation
completely plummeted and I wasn't like coming
up with videos I was super inspired for and I
was just trying to like finish these last two
videos last two or three videos and I realized
that seven or seven weeks is Or maybe it was
five weeks or six weeks. I don't know. But I
came up with an idea. Don't plan more than four
weeks out. Because if you plan like, OK, I'm
going to grind for 10 weeks straight, well, you're
probably, or I don't know about you, but for
me, I hit like a wall around week four. And that's
also what happened with piano. Like I got super
I was super motivated, closer to effortless than
not, of me spending like 10 hours at the piano
bench, just practicing, getting reps. And when
I was not at that piano bench, I was eating food
or working out, and while I was doing those two
things, I was either visualizing, practicing,
visualizing my memorization for certain theory
knowledge I needed, and also practicing drills
on the computer like, note memorization and all
that like ear training, all that stuff. So I
was basically spending the entire day and I also
have done that in the past four weeks recently
too. But then I hit a wall where I was like,
okay, I'm kind of done. Like I need to change
things up. And that's when I started working
on composing and piano. And then now the wall
that I hit, I actually am still pushing through.
Because I'm going on vacation in like a couple
days and I just have one more video to produce
and that's it and I've already recorded it I
just need to edit and make the music and that's
it and One I'm on vacation. I'm just gonna completely
detach Not even think about it. Yeah, sure. I'll
think about it naturally obviously because this
is my life, but I'm not gonna like I'm not gonna
like strive for anything work related on vacation.
Like I'm not gonna strive to come up with a great
video idea. I'm just gonna completely detach
and completely let my mind completely rest so
that I can come back fresh with a brand new perspective
and figure out my new direction moving forward.
And I already have an idea of what my new direction
will probably be and... It has an idea or it's
similar to it's related to how these videos that
I've been making are very similar to my 60 second
videos and They just signal low effort low value
for one reason because they're short like they're
like less than three minutes long and So when
you see that it just signals low effort low value
like this person didn't even put any effort in
this video to make it longer so that, and I'm
not going to get that much value out of three
minutes. Now obviously they are high effort.
But yeah, I would agree that they are probably
low value because there's only so much stuff
you can put in three minutes. Now, And now I'm
kind of like, oh, I kind of don't like these
short videos. So my theory moving forward is
to make longer videos. However, I made longer
video. I made one longer video like this, which
was why you keep feeling to change your life.
It got like 900 views. The mistake I made with
that one was it was exhausting to watch because
the style that I have is just quick. is rapid,
rapid, lots of cuts, lots of side angles, multiple
camera angles, lots of, lots of movement, just
really quick. And when you have quickness like
that for 10 minutes straight, it's exhausting
and you don't really get that much out of it
and it's just like tiring and you just click
off. And so what I think I want to experiment
with is Fluctuations like that's that's how you
build a good story where you have like ups and
downs fasts and slows emotional unemotional I
don't know, but I want to experiment with drawing
scenes out so instead of having like a scene
of me like picking up an object and Doing something
with it like picking up a carrot and eating it
that would have like five cuts. I want to experiment
with less cuts and drawing out the scene and
that would probably require different types of
movement like instead of just eating a carrot
that would be kind of boring maybe it would require
like more dynamic movement like having multiple
characters pop up and like interaction between
the multiple characters and have like a more
story like a more evolved story with one long
cut That would help slow down the videos and
I wouldn't have that throughout the whole video
I would I would have like super quick moments
of me like spitting a bunch of information like
a bunch of knowledge wisdom Perspective and then
just slow it down and let let that information
Settle into the brain of the viewer and just
let them sit with it for a second and then ramp
it up again And that's what I notice I do. I
might do that in these videos too, like these
podcasts, but I do notice that I do that in conversation,
real life. It's different with a podcast because
they're like, you're not talking back. Like you're,
I'm not able to actually communicate with you.
So I'm not physically conversing with you and
you are actually just my microphone. Like I don't
know who you are. But in real life like you can
talk with each other and so you What I noticed
was I speak really fast and I like drop a lot
of information I just talk talk talk talk talk
talk, but then I just slow it down and then I
kind of like reiterate slowly and just like let
it Reinforce reinforce it and let it sink in
and then I talk and talk and I like I repeat
with the next point That's what I do in conversation.
And I, I've been really thinking about paying
attention to how I naturally am. Like, how am
I really, what am I really like as a person?
And being like that in my videos too. Like I
don't, I don't want to fake my personality in
my videos. I want to be as authentic as possible.
And That's not just like my conversation style.
I want every element of my video to be aligned
to who I am. Every element, from the color coding,
the color grading, to the shots, to the angles,
to the actual way I speak, to the music, to everything.
I want the entire video. be aligned to who I
am and That's how you make like something that
I want people to Like take a look At my channel
and be like wow You really made something that
belongs to you. Like you really made something
that is truly yours That's what I want for my
my channels or my channel. I only have one channel,
but That's it So I'm really excited for the future.
Peace.