1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:07,800 Did you know that we live in a system, a society that has manufactured a system to keep you 2 00:00:07,800 --> 00:00:09,300 down? 3 00:00:09,300 --> 00:00:13,320 If you've been following this podcast, you probably do know that, and you've probably 4 00:00:13,320 --> 00:00:16,980 been thinking a lot about it lately. 5 00:00:16,980 --> 00:00:17,980 I know I have. 6 00:00:17,980 --> 00:00:23,400 I've been really going down the rabbit hole over these past couple months. 7 00:00:23,400 --> 00:00:33,120 And I've come to the conclusion so far that the system is in place to keep you down and 8 00:00:33,120 --> 00:00:37,400 to keep you trapped. 9 00:00:37,400 --> 00:00:45,640 And it does it in many different ways, like the school system, like the education, all... 10 00:00:45,640 --> 00:00:50,820 That's the only one that I can think about right now, but that's like the main thing, 11 00:00:50,820 --> 00:00:56,160 the school system into the workforce, into the working a nine to five job. 12 00:00:56,160 --> 00:01:00,440 And then also there's the social aspect of things. 13 00:01:00,440 --> 00:01:10,520 Because everyone else around you is being conditioned, then they're also under that 14 00:01:10,520 --> 00:01:12,320 programming. 15 00:01:12,320 --> 00:01:16,880 So that means that they're conditioning you as well, especially people that are older 16 00:01:16,880 --> 00:01:17,880 than you. 17 00:01:17,880 --> 00:01:23,160 They've been conditioned a lot longer, so they're helping out to condition you. 18 00:01:23,160 --> 00:01:30,520 This is why teachers in the school system are part of the system, because they've been 19 00:01:30,520 --> 00:01:37,160 conditioned to teach the conditioning. 20 00:01:37,160 --> 00:01:42,920 And I wrote down that the whole system is designed to keep you trapped by programming 21 00:01:42,920 --> 00:01:45,240 your thinking. 22 00:01:45,240 --> 00:01:51,280 So basically it doesn't keep you trapped like a normal prison does inside of walls behind 23 00:01:51,280 --> 00:01:52,720 a locked gate. 24 00:01:52,720 --> 00:01:57,400 It keeps you trapped through your thinking. 25 00:01:57,400 --> 00:02:00,480 Like you feel trapped. 26 00:02:00,480 --> 00:02:06,360 This is why so many people find themselves if they have a job that they know they want 27 00:02:06,360 --> 00:02:07,360 to quit. 28 00:02:07,360 --> 00:02:12,400 They're like, they don't want to quit because they feel trapped. 29 00:02:12,400 --> 00:02:18,080 They want to quit, but they don't because they have a fear. 30 00:02:18,080 --> 00:02:25,600 And that fear stems from the fear of death, which is another part of the whole game. 31 00:02:25,600 --> 00:02:34,400 Society has, we live in a society where everyone expects to live another. 32 00:02:34,400 --> 00:02:41,960 Everyone feels like it's their right to live a long and full life in our society. 33 00:02:41,960 --> 00:02:50,040 Everyone takes, basically feels like it's an undisputed fact that they're going to live. 34 00:02:50,040 --> 00:02:52,800 They're going to live. 35 00:02:52,800 --> 00:03:02,680 When in other cultures, they know that life happens and they know that your life is not 36 00:03:02,680 --> 00:03:07,120 guaranteed. 37 00:03:07,120 --> 00:03:21,920 And our society with modern medicine has really a toll on us because death is a very big factor 38 00:03:21,920 --> 00:03:24,760 in keeping us trapped. 39 00:03:24,760 --> 00:03:28,720 Like I said earlier, people don't want to quit their job because they have a fear. 40 00:03:28,720 --> 00:03:35,240 And all fear stems from one main fear and it's the fear of death. 41 00:03:35,240 --> 00:03:43,240 So it makes sense that the society takes advantage of that one main fear and ingrains everyone 42 00:03:43,240 --> 00:03:46,200 in it with that fear. 43 00:03:46,200 --> 00:03:47,200 And it does it. 44 00:03:47,200 --> 00:03:49,080 I don't know how it does it quite yet. 45 00:03:49,080 --> 00:03:53,680 And I don't really know exactly all the specifics, but there's one thing for sure. 46 00:03:53,680 --> 00:03:57,240 And it's that we are dying a lot longer. 47 00:03:57,240 --> 00:04:04,240 Our deaths are lasting a lot longer than they have ever before. 48 00:04:04,240 --> 00:04:11,400 And I'm reading a book called Died Wise right now and I'm learning all about it. 49 00:04:11,400 --> 00:04:12,880 And I just started the book. 50 00:04:12,880 --> 00:04:15,600 I'm probably on like page 70. 51 00:04:15,600 --> 00:04:17,280 So I'm not too far in. 52 00:04:17,280 --> 00:04:23,320 And over the next couple weeks or days, over the next week, I will definitely be talking 53 00:04:23,320 --> 00:04:25,400 about it a lot. 54 00:04:25,400 --> 00:04:30,880 I'm writing a lot of notes because soon there's going to be a few episodes dedicated to Died 55 00:04:30,880 --> 00:04:35,120 Wise. 56 00:04:35,120 --> 00:04:41,160 But with all of this, like all this said, how we live in a society that is conditioning 57 00:04:41,160 --> 00:04:44,560 us, keeping us trapped. 58 00:04:44,560 --> 00:04:46,480 Well there is hope. 59 00:04:46,480 --> 00:04:50,240 And that hope is to heal yourself. 60 00:04:50,240 --> 00:04:51,240 This is what I'm doing. 61 00:04:51,240 --> 00:04:55,160 I'm going down this path of healing while I'm still in the system. 62 00:04:55,160 --> 00:04:56,760 I'm still going to school. 63 00:04:56,760 --> 00:04:57,760 I'm still a senior. 64 00:04:57,760 --> 00:05:01,760 I still have two months left of school. 65 00:05:01,760 --> 00:05:07,520 In two months today is my last day of school. 66 00:05:07,520 --> 00:05:11,240 As of recording this, this is October 21st. 67 00:05:11,240 --> 00:05:15,000 And I am done with school in December 21st. 68 00:05:15,000 --> 00:05:18,800 So two months I'm done with school. 69 00:05:18,800 --> 00:05:25,800 So I'm at the pinnacle of the conditioning just at the end. 70 00:05:25,800 --> 00:05:27,720 But I'm not going to college. 71 00:05:27,720 --> 00:05:29,880 So I'm not quite there yet. 72 00:05:29,880 --> 00:05:37,000 But with all that said, I've been conditioned for 18 years of my life. 73 00:05:37,000 --> 00:05:41,880 And that means that there's some healing to do in order to break free. 74 00:05:41,880 --> 00:05:48,240 Right now I'm still confined in this prison that we see in the American, even Western 75 00:05:48,240 --> 00:05:51,160 society. 76 00:05:51,160 --> 00:05:53,080 So there's healing that you have to do. 77 00:05:53,080 --> 00:05:57,120 And there's a few things that I've been doing lately to heal. 78 00:05:57,120 --> 00:06:00,040 The first thing is read. 79 00:06:00,040 --> 00:06:02,160 Learn all of the stuff. 80 00:06:02,160 --> 00:06:05,960 You can't heal unless you know what's going on. 81 00:06:05,960 --> 00:06:07,880 And so first I'm reading. 82 00:06:07,880 --> 00:06:10,400 I'm going extremely redpill. 83 00:06:10,400 --> 00:06:18,880 I'm learning all about everything, the reality of our nature, the nature of our reality. 84 00:06:18,880 --> 00:06:25,120 I'm learning, I'm reading a lot of books that are going to teach me all this stuff. 85 00:06:25,120 --> 00:06:27,400 Really Transurfing is a big one. 86 00:06:27,400 --> 00:06:31,840 Dancing After The Music Stops was an introduction book to a lot of the stuff that I'm about 87 00:06:31,840 --> 00:06:35,720 to be reading in the coming days and weeks. 88 00:06:35,720 --> 00:06:38,320 Die-Wise right now I'm reading. 89 00:06:38,320 --> 00:06:43,200 Ascent on Humanity is one of the books that's going to start to lay out the foundation to 90 00:06:43,200 --> 00:06:44,200 the truth. 91 00:06:44,200 --> 00:06:45,600 I don't know what that means. 92 00:06:45,600 --> 00:06:50,720 I just read it in Dancing After The Music Stops. 93 00:06:50,720 --> 00:06:57,800 Gene Pasco-Rieman said that a scent of humanity, that book will lay out the foundation for how 94 00:06:57,800 --> 00:07:05,120 the world works and it will start your quest for the truth. 95 00:07:05,120 --> 00:07:13,800 So all these books are teaching me exactly like what I'm against, exactly what is going 96 00:07:13,800 --> 00:07:19,520 on and it's teaching me how I can fix it for myself. 97 00:07:19,520 --> 00:07:27,360 It's really allowing me to understand what parts of my brain to pick out, what parts 98 00:07:27,360 --> 00:07:35,080 of the conditioning or even what has been programmed into my brain. 99 00:07:35,080 --> 00:07:45,000 And so once you learn all that stuff, you got to heal and you do that through meditation. 100 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:53,640 And I see meditating as healing ever since I used to watch TikTok and YouTube. 101 00:07:53,640 --> 00:07:56,440 I used to watch movies all the time. 102 00:07:56,440 --> 00:08:03,600 I used to be just a normal American citizen watching TikToks, scrolling on their phone 103 00:08:03,600 --> 00:08:10,280 all day, going on Snapchat, social media, all of that garbage. 104 00:08:10,280 --> 00:08:17,480 And so I realized, there was a certain point of time during this last summer when I realized 105 00:08:17,480 --> 00:08:24,600 that that's like I was on TikTok for years. 106 00:08:24,600 --> 00:08:30,920 So I was filling my head with a bunch of garbage, my focus, my concentration and my attention 107 00:08:30,920 --> 00:08:33,560 all plummeted. 108 00:08:33,560 --> 00:08:39,840 And so I saw meditation as a way to heal from that and to fix that. 109 00:08:39,840 --> 00:08:42,000 But I still see that. 110 00:08:42,000 --> 00:08:48,480 I still am meditating to heal and increase my focus. 111 00:08:48,480 --> 00:08:50,800 And I use meditation. 112 00:08:50,800 --> 00:09:01,120 Another way that I saw it as is a way to help me train my control over my thoughts. 113 00:09:01,120 --> 00:09:11,120 But lately, a month ago, a little over a month ago, I started this meditation exercise or 114 00:09:11,120 --> 00:09:13,280 this meditation tape. 115 00:09:13,280 --> 00:09:20,040 I started using the gateway experience, which is basically auditory. 116 00:09:20,040 --> 00:09:27,440 It's like sounds that you listen to that, it's like a guided meditation with sounds in it 117 00:09:27,440 --> 00:09:37,680 that help you like attune your brainwave frequencies to get to deeper levels of meditation. 118 00:09:37,680 --> 00:09:39,920 So it helps you, but it doesn't get you there. 119 00:09:39,920 --> 00:09:41,840 And I understood that from the get go. 120 00:09:41,840 --> 00:09:48,000 I understood that it was going to be a process and it was more like a long term game. 121 00:09:48,000 --> 00:09:49,440 It wasn't going to happen right away. 122 00:09:49,440 --> 00:09:51,120 It wasn't going to actually know. 123 00:09:51,120 --> 00:09:54,760 To be honest, I don't think I understood that in the beginning. 124 00:09:54,760 --> 00:10:01,120 But I had this vague sensation or intuitive understanding that I would have to do it in 125 00:10:01,120 --> 00:10:03,920 the long run because I added it to my routine. 126 00:10:03,920 --> 00:10:05,360 So that's how you can tell. 127 00:10:05,360 --> 00:10:11,520 Because I remember in the beginning, I was expecting it to take me a week to get focus 128 00:10:11,520 --> 00:10:12,520 12. 129 00:10:12,520 --> 00:10:19,200 No, it took me a month. 130 00:10:19,200 --> 00:10:22,480 But none of that matters because now I know. 131 00:10:22,480 --> 00:10:33,160 And I see meditating when you're using these gateway experience and when you're like pushing 132 00:10:33,160 --> 00:10:36,600 hard or what's the word? 133 00:10:36,600 --> 00:10:41,880 I see meditation similar to reading. 134 00:10:41,880 --> 00:10:47,960 Reading opens your understanding to all of these new ideas and concepts. 135 00:10:47,960 --> 00:10:51,080 You initially learn about this stuff. 136 00:10:51,080 --> 00:10:55,960 But then meditation, you have experiences. 137 00:10:55,960 --> 00:10:57,480 You have crazy experiences. 138 00:10:57,480 --> 00:11:02,040 If once you meditate for long enough using the gateway experience and you get advanced 139 00:11:02,040 --> 00:11:05,200 enough, you start to have crazy experiences. 140 00:11:05,200 --> 00:11:13,280 I haven't had any true crazy experiences yet, but I know that they're like, I don't know 141 00:11:13,280 --> 00:11:18,160 about the crazy experiences, but I know that eventually I'll be able to learn a lot and 142 00:11:18,160 --> 00:11:21,040 it'll help to destroy my worldview. 143 00:11:21,040 --> 00:11:32,000 Because meditation is the nature of these deep meditations like focus 12 and focus 15. 144 00:11:32,000 --> 00:11:38,880 Really go against normal society's worldview, Western civilization's worldview. 145 00:11:38,880 --> 00:11:44,320 And so it helps to break down those barriers and it helps to break down the walls of your 146 00:11:44,320 --> 00:11:46,600 worldview. 147 00:11:46,600 --> 00:11:52,360 But another thing is you see it, you feel it, you know it and you understand it for yourself 148 00:11:52,360 --> 00:11:55,080 because you experience it yourself. 149 00:11:55,080 --> 00:12:00,240 You don't just read it where there's a sliver of a doubt, but once you actually experience 150 00:12:00,240 --> 00:12:08,080 this stuff, that's when you start to know and that's when the real progress happens. 151 00:12:08,080 --> 00:12:16,960 And there's the after meditation, after healing, I see the third step, which is growth. 152 00:12:16,960 --> 00:12:24,760 And this like three step process is not really like a step for step process. 153 00:12:24,760 --> 00:12:29,840 I see it as just three things that you should focus on to heal. 154 00:12:29,840 --> 00:12:37,600 And currently I'm only doing number one and two because number three is solitude in nature. 155 00:12:37,600 --> 00:12:40,400 I read about it in Dancing After Music Stops. 156 00:12:40,400 --> 00:12:46,280 He towards the end of the book, he said the best piece of spiritual advice he can give 157 00:12:46,280 --> 00:12:56,360 is to go out, go in solitude out in nature, like go, go observe nature alone, go rent a 158 00:12:56,360 --> 00:13:01,160 cabin in the woods for a month and be alone. 159 00:13:01,160 --> 00:13:07,320 Go rent a cabin in Alaska for six months and be alone. 160 00:13:07,320 --> 00:13:13,040 Solitude in nature is when you start to actually grow spiritually. 161 00:13:13,040 --> 00:13:18,400 And so I see that as like another step to the healing process. 162 00:13:18,400 --> 00:13:20,760 Currently I'm like I said, I'm only doing number one and two. 163 00:13:20,760 --> 00:13:31,000 I'm only reading and I'm only meditating, which for my current position in life, my 164 00:13:31,000 --> 00:13:36,200 current situation, I feel like those are the best to do right now. 165 00:13:36,200 --> 00:13:44,680 Because though I could go out in nature in solitude, I could, I absolutely could. 166 00:13:44,680 --> 00:13:51,200 I'm still choosing not to for some reason. 167 00:13:51,200 --> 00:13:56,320 I still have work to do to really get that into my worldview. 168 00:13:56,320 --> 00:14:01,200 And to be honest, I'm waiting. 169 00:14:01,200 --> 00:14:07,080 I'm waiting on seeing success in my business, which I fear once I actually start to see 170 00:14:07,080 --> 00:14:11,560 success, I'll still be trapped and I'll find something else to wait on before I actually 171 00:14:11,560 --> 00:14:14,360 go out and do stuff. 172 00:14:14,360 --> 00:14:23,720 So I'm kind of in this crossroads where on one hand, I'm genuinely waiting because I'm 173 00:14:23,720 --> 00:14:27,360 growing spirit, I'm still growing spiritually and I'm still destroying my worldview. 174 00:14:27,360 --> 00:14:29,840 I'm still figuring these things out. 175 00:14:29,840 --> 00:14:35,760 But on the other hand, I know enough information I can take action now. 176 00:14:35,760 --> 00:14:43,760 But I'm also waiting for me to be financially free so I can set myself up for the rest of 177 00:14:43,760 --> 00:14:44,760 my life. 178 00:14:44,760 --> 00:14:49,720 So it's kind of either or and I'm prepared for it to take a year. 179 00:14:49,720 --> 00:14:54,080 I'm prepared for it to take over a year. 180 00:14:54,080 --> 00:15:01,240 Like I said, when I first started this podcast, I started it to get financial freedom. 181 00:15:01,240 --> 00:15:05,480 I started it for my own selfish reasons. 182 00:15:05,480 --> 00:15:11,880 But the reason why I'm staying, like if I truly started it for my own selfish reasons, 183 00:15:11,880 --> 00:15:16,040 I would not have made it to episode 95. 184 00:15:16,040 --> 00:15:27,280 I'm doing it for much more because early on in my podcasting like journey, I realized 185 00:15:27,280 --> 00:15:34,160 that it's really a personal development journey, this podcast, because if you listen to my 186 00:15:34,160 --> 00:15:42,600 first episode, my trailer, which by the way, I'm planning on making a new trailer soon 187 00:15:42,600 --> 00:15:46,000 I don't know what I want to do with that current one because I want to keep it up. 188 00:15:46,000 --> 00:15:49,640 I want to make sure that people can see like where I started. 189 00:15:49,640 --> 00:15:55,280 The best case scenario is that trailer becomes an episode and then I replace it with a new 190 00:15:55,280 --> 00:15:56,440 real trailer. 191 00:15:56,440 --> 00:16:03,360 So I don't know when I'll make the new trailer soon I will. 192 00:16:03,360 --> 00:16:06,280 But I might even do it after this episode. 193 00:16:06,280 --> 00:16:07,280 Who knows. 194 00:16:07,280 --> 00:16:12,320 But the thing is, this, I see this as a self improvement journey. 195 00:16:12,320 --> 00:16:28,160 I am my initial kind of starting my initial objective for this podcast was financial freedom. 196 00:16:28,160 --> 00:16:34,440 But it quickly switched, it quickly shift gears to I realized that I was doing this 197 00:16:34,440 --> 00:16:36,000 for much more. 198 00:16:36,000 --> 00:16:39,120 I was doing this one for my own personal development journey. 199 00:16:39,120 --> 00:16:44,680 I'm finding my voice and I'm actually practicing and speaking better. 200 00:16:44,680 --> 00:16:50,320 You can tell to compare this episode to episode one. 201 00:16:50,320 --> 00:16:55,640 There's a major difference and not even, I'm not even talking about the quality of the 202 00:16:55,640 --> 00:17:02,880 sound because episode one was recorded on a voice recorder, a tiny little voice recorder. 203 00:17:02,880 --> 00:17:10,360 And I, right now I have a microphone, but what I'm saying is my actual speech, the words 204 00:17:10,360 --> 00:17:19,960 that are coming out of my mouth are much more, I don't know, educated or just much more practiced. 205 00:17:19,960 --> 00:17:23,880 And so that's one reason this podcast has been helpful. 206 00:17:23,880 --> 00:17:29,280 And then another reason is because I want to document the journey. 207 00:17:29,280 --> 00:17:31,920 I want to look back at my growth. 208 00:17:31,920 --> 00:17:35,360 I want to be able to see like I've been doing in all these episodes. 209 00:17:35,360 --> 00:17:42,680 I compare myself to right now to where I was three months ago. 210 00:17:42,680 --> 00:17:49,640 And I want to be able to see once I reach episode 365, which by the way, that's the 211 00:17:49,640 --> 00:17:50,640 end number. 212 00:17:50,640 --> 00:17:58,720 Like that's a number I plan on finishing, but I don't plan on stopping recording. 213 00:17:58,720 --> 00:18:02,200 365 is that is kind of like the target number. 214 00:18:02,200 --> 00:18:07,000 That doesn't mean that I'm going to stop recording once I get 365 episodes. 215 00:18:07,000 --> 00:18:12,240 It just means that that's my target number that I'm going for. 216 00:18:12,240 --> 00:18:21,160 And once I get 365, I'll be able to look back at my journey of the past year, which is, 217 00:18:21,160 --> 00:18:26,760 if you've never done that, if you are on self improvement and you have never looked back 218 00:18:26,760 --> 00:18:32,800 at your progress, fit like if you've never written down your progress somewhere, somehow 219 00:18:32,800 --> 00:18:35,400 form you're missing out. 220 00:18:35,400 --> 00:18:41,800 And I recommend you start because this reminds me a couple like at the beginning of this 221 00:18:41,800 --> 00:18:49,260 year, 2023, January 1st, I wrote down all of my stats. 222 00:18:49,260 --> 00:18:52,440 So at the time I was not doing entrepreneurship. 223 00:18:52,440 --> 00:18:55,120 I was just focused on health. 224 00:18:55,120 --> 00:19:02,840 So my stats at the time were kind of swayed towards what I was experiencing, what I was 225 00:19:02,840 --> 00:19:05,800 actually improving at the time. 226 00:19:05,800 --> 00:19:12,920 For example, one of my stats is like my bench, how much I can bench, how much I can squat, 227 00:19:12,920 --> 00:19:16,640 like my, how heavy weight I can lift. 228 00:19:16,640 --> 00:19:20,280 But it wasn't my one rep max because I don't, I don't do that. 229 00:19:20,280 --> 00:19:25,880 It was like my reps, how much I can do for 10 reps or 12 reps. 230 00:19:25,880 --> 00:19:28,680 And then it was like my pull ups, like all that stuff. 231 00:19:28,680 --> 00:19:30,680 And then it was also my diet. 232 00:19:30,680 --> 00:19:32,800 My current diet at the time was vegan. 233 00:19:32,800 --> 00:19:33,880 I was a vegan. 234 00:19:33,880 --> 00:19:38,000 Actually, no, I don't think I was a vegan. 235 00:19:38,000 --> 00:19:45,480 I didn't write diet until January 7th, I believe it was, because January 7th, I was vegan. 236 00:19:45,480 --> 00:19:49,360 After I read a book called The China Study, but now I'm not vegan. 237 00:19:49,360 --> 00:19:52,880 I was vegan for like three months. 238 00:19:52,880 --> 00:19:59,480 And then I wrote down one thing towards the bottom because I was just trying to think 239 00:19:59,480 --> 00:20:06,920 like what other stats are there to write because I was, I really only had lifting and my fitness 240 00:20:06,920 --> 00:20:09,480 journey on my mind. 241 00:20:09,480 --> 00:20:12,200 And I also wrote down my weight. 242 00:20:12,200 --> 00:20:16,800 And so I was like, what other things are there? 243 00:20:16,800 --> 00:20:18,400 What other things can I write down? 244 00:20:18,400 --> 00:20:20,440 So I was like, oh, money. 245 00:20:20,440 --> 00:20:21,440 What's my income? 246 00:20:21,440 --> 00:20:24,440 And I wrote down my income and I said zero, zero dollars. 247 00:20:24,440 --> 00:20:31,280 And I was like, I'm probably not going to actually work on that this year. 248 00:20:31,280 --> 00:20:32,800 Nope. 249 00:20:32,800 --> 00:20:38,280 I started working on it. 250 00:20:38,280 --> 00:20:42,040 Probably June or no, July. 251 00:20:42,040 --> 00:20:44,080 Just a couple of months ago I started working on it. 252 00:20:44,080 --> 00:20:46,760 Like I started working on business four months ago. 253 00:20:46,760 --> 00:20:51,880 Or not, I started like learning about business and getting serious. 254 00:20:51,880 --> 00:20:58,400 And then I started actually taking action, real action on my podcast, which you guys 255 00:20:58,400 --> 00:21:00,680 can see look back at time. 256 00:21:00,680 --> 00:21:04,720 It was 95 days ago. 257 00:21:04,720 --> 00:21:10,240 And that, like that's growth right there. 258 00:21:10,240 --> 00:21:14,880 Looking back, there's a concept that I learned about in 10X is easier than 2X. 259 00:21:14,880 --> 00:21:20,120 Looking back at your growth and being with a positive mind, that's called being in the 260 00:21:20,120 --> 00:21:21,320 gain. 261 00:21:21,320 --> 00:21:24,260 So there's a concept called the gap in the gain. 262 00:21:24,260 --> 00:21:33,000 If you look back at your growth and compare it to some unattainable, impossible goal, 263 00:21:33,000 --> 00:21:38,600 like you look at your progress over the past couple months and you're like, oh, I didn't 264 00:21:38,600 --> 00:21:41,960 make as much progress as I wanted. 265 00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:48,960 When you like getting at it yourself for that, that's called being in the gap. 266 00:21:48,960 --> 00:21:54,040 But when you look back at your progress and you like with a happiness and excitement and 267 00:21:54,040 --> 00:21:57,480 joy, that's called being in the gain. 268 00:21:57,480 --> 00:22:02,760 And I like being in the game because that is where you make the most of growth. 269 00:22:02,760 --> 00:22:05,000 You make the most progress. 270 00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:09,440 And it's also, it goes along with a trans surfing principle of coordination. 271 00:22:09,440 --> 00:22:11,680 Everything plays out for you. 272 00:22:11,680 --> 00:22:15,760 Everything works out for you. 273 00:22:15,760 --> 00:22:23,160 So all of this stuff, this journey, it doesn't happen right away. 274 00:22:23,160 --> 00:22:25,560 And it's actually quite, it's going slow. 275 00:22:25,560 --> 00:22:37,320 So in the gateway experience manual for Wave 1, there's a, in like, I don't remember which 276 00:22:37,320 --> 00:22:44,920 part it was in, but some of, one of the things that it said was over time, you'll become, 277 00:22:44,920 --> 00:22:51,040 you'll be able to perceive these, the energies more and more. 278 00:22:51,040 --> 00:22:57,120 And basically it may be that you'll get better and better over time, which is just like going 279 00:22:57,120 --> 00:23:01,800 to the gym per incremental growth over time. 280 00:23:01,800 --> 00:23:10,000 Or the other option is it will be like a flooded dam where you all of a sudden just know and 281 00:23:10,000 --> 00:23:14,400 you can see it all now. 282 00:23:14,400 --> 00:23:21,200 And I feel like that goes along with this business journey, this journey of documenting 283 00:23:21,200 --> 00:23:22,800 my growth. 284 00:23:22,800 --> 00:23:31,440 Because yeah, I'm growing incrementally, like on my RSS.com, my analytics for this podcast, 285 00:23:31,440 --> 00:23:34,480 the graph is incrementally getting better. 286 00:23:34,480 --> 00:23:40,200 Like last month, like in the first month, I had four rolling average subscribers. 287 00:23:40,200 --> 00:23:42,240 And then the second month, it was like six. 288 00:23:42,240 --> 00:23:44,240 And then the third month, it was seven. 289 00:23:44,240 --> 00:23:47,960 And then now it's like six. 290 00:23:47,960 --> 00:23:51,840 But it's like slowly incrementally getting higher and higher. 291 00:23:51,840 --> 00:23:55,640 Like the downloads per month in the beginning, it was low. 292 00:23:55,640 --> 00:23:59,000 And then it was a little bit higher and then slightly higher. 293 00:23:59,000 --> 00:24:02,680 Like that is slow incremental growth. 294 00:24:02,680 --> 00:24:05,440 And I can see that on my TikTok as well. 295 00:24:05,440 --> 00:24:11,520 On my TikTok, when I first started a couple of weeks ago, I had probably, well, I had 296 00:24:11,520 --> 00:24:13,000 zero followers. 297 00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:18,360 And then in like the first couple, in like the first week, I got one follower. 298 00:24:18,360 --> 00:24:22,320 And then every other day, I added another follower and then another. 299 00:24:22,320 --> 00:24:24,560 And now I have like 10 followers. 300 00:24:24,560 --> 00:24:26,160 So that's slow incremental growth. 301 00:24:26,160 --> 00:24:33,040 But I know once, I know this is more possible with the TikTok. 302 00:24:33,040 --> 00:24:40,360 Once I get like one viral video, that will like, that will be like the damn flooding. 303 00:24:40,360 --> 00:24:46,640 And then it'll be, it may or may not be free from there, depending on how much followers 304 00:24:46,640 --> 00:24:51,720 I receive, but it'll definitely be a huge boost. 305 00:24:51,720 --> 00:25:00,360 And on the podcast, I know once certain events happen, for example, once I talk on, like 306 00:25:00,360 --> 00:25:07,640 be a guest on another podcast, once I do that, then I'll get that exposure and then it'll 307 00:25:07,640 --> 00:25:08,760 be like a little boost. 308 00:25:08,760 --> 00:25:17,720 Or once like certain things happen, then I'll be able to really grow more on the podcast, 309 00:25:17,720 --> 00:25:21,240 which I definitely plan on changing the description. 310 00:25:21,240 --> 00:25:29,840 I'm definitely going to change a lot of this stuff on my channel because there is, I wrote 311 00:25:29,840 --> 00:25:34,360 like the description right when I first started and I had no idea what, where the podcast 312 00:25:34,360 --> 00:25:35,720 was going to go. 313 00:25:35,720 --> 00:25:41,880 And right now, it's definitely, I definitely have honed in on my message and I've definitely 314 00:25:41,880 --> 00:25:45,520 started to understand a lot more with what's going on. 315 00:25:45,520 --> 00:25:51,840 So with that said, I definitely plan on changing some stuff on my channel, but I'm going to 316 00:25:51,840 --> 00:25:56,920 take screenshots and I'm going to take, I'm going to like copy and paste everything that 317 00:25:56,920 --> 00:26:03,720 I delete in a Google doc because I still want you guys to be able to see my journey. 318 00:26:03,720 --> 00:26:10,320 I want you guys to see that I started from bad. 319 00:26:10,320 --> 00:26:15,400 And to be honest, I still am bad and it's apparent that I am because I have seven people 320 00:26:15,400 --> 00:26:24,920 listening to me, not the thousands or millions that I want to be listening to me. 321 00:26:24,920 --> 00:26:31,600 So I still have a lot of growth to go and that goes with just my skill as well as the 322 00:26:31,600 --> 00:26:38,960 business, like the quality of the podcast, the like perception that I'm giving to people 323 00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:44,640 because if people click on my channel and they listen to the trailer and it sucks, they're 324 00:26:44,640 --> 00:26:46,440 just going to click away. 325 00:26:46,440 --> 00:26:51,280 And I can tell because my trailer is my most viewed video. 326 00:26:51,280 --> 00:26:54,040 There's like 27 downloads on that trailer. 327 00:26:54,040 --> 00:27:00,040 I think it's 27, but there's like, like my trailers, my most viewed video. 328 00:27:00,040 --> 00:27:07,240 So it makes sense to change the trailer to something that's more how like, should I, 329 00:27:07,240 --> 00:27:09,600 how should I say it better for now? 330 00:27:09,600 --> 00:27:21,200 It's more, it actually represents my current growth, my current phase better, which I may 331 00:27:21,200 --> 00:27:27,880 change the trailer now and I may change it in another hundred days. 332 00:27:27,880 --> 00:27:32,600 Like I'm like in a hundred days, I'm probably going to be a lot better off. 333 00:27:32,600 --> 00:27:34,080 I will be a lot better off. 334 00:27:34,080 --> 00:27:38,520 Like my channel will be a lot better than it is now. 335 00:27:38,520 --> 00:27:43,680 So I'm probably going to change the trailer over time, multiple times. 336 00:27:43,680 --> 00:27:45,680 And that's like, it's just growth. 337 00:27:45,680 --> 00:27:50,280 Like things, you need to change things for growth to happen. 338 00:27:50,280 --> 00:27:53,480 And that's one of the hardest things to do yet. 339 00:27:53,480 --> 00:27:57,760 It's the most powerful and impactful things for your, for your growth change. 340 00:27:57,760 --> 00:28:02,400 It's cause there's, it's like a natural human instinct to not like change. 341 00:28:02,400 --> 00:28:06,680 We like things being consistent. 342 00:28:06,680 --> 00:28:13,920 But if you can overcome that, then you can actually manage to do good. 343 00:28:13,920 --> 00:28:20,240 And one thing that me and my friend Franklin actually did, which was to be honest, it was 344 00:28:20,240 --> 00:28:22,280 a pretty tough thing to do. 345 00:28:22,280 --> 00:28:27,880 It wasn't that hard, but it was like socially difficult. 346 00:28:27,880 --> 00:28:33,120 Cause we're both in a class called business incubator and we are, we initial, our initial 347 00:28:33,120 --> 00:28:40,440 plans were to complete the entire two semester course in one semester. 348 00:28:40,440 --> 00:28:45,040 But then we kind of like didn't like the idea anymore. 349 00:28:45,040 --> 00:28:48,760 And then we also didn't want to do like all that work because we want to focus on our 350 00:28:48,760 --> 00:28:51,800 actual businesses. 351 00:28:51,800 --> 00:28:55,560 And so lately we've, we haven't done anything for the, for that class. 352 00:28:55,560 --> 00:28:59,000 Like we've just been slacking the whole time. 353 00:28:59,000 --> 00:29:03,660 And so we realized that we don't want to do all this stuff. 354 00:29:03,660 --> 00:29:05,400 So we need to find an escape. 355 00:29:05,400 --> 00:29:08,200 Like we need to figure out how to get out of this. 356 00:29:08,200 --> 00:29:16,520 And so we made like this big, we like actually decided to quit the idea and switch groups, 357 00:29:16,520 --> 00:29:20,560 just like join with another group. 358 00:29:20,560 --> 00:29:25,400 So that was like a socially tough thing to do cause we announced it to everyone and people 359 00:29:25,400 --> 00:29:27,200 are like, what? 360 00:29:27,200 --> 00:29:33,240 Like it was, I mean, it, it wasn't like tough, but it was like mentally, it was like mentally 361 00:29:33,240 --> 00:29:34,240 difficult. 362 00:29:34,240 --> 00:29:40,600 Similar to how cold approach, like walking up to a girl and asking them for their number. 363 00:29:40,600 --> 00:29:41,600 That's difficult. 364 00:29:41,600 --> 00:29:47,040 Now, it was not nearly as difficult as that, but you get the idea. 365 00:29:47,040 --> 00:29:51,600 And that's all about like, that's all about making change. 366 00:29:51,600 --> 00:29:58,440 And as a result of that one action that we did, we saved a lot of our own personal time 367 00:29:58,440 --> 00:30:00,320 and mental power. 368 00:30:00,320 --> 00:30:03,440 So that's huge. 369 00:30:03,440 --> 00:30:09,320 All right. 370 00:30:09,320 --> 00:30:14,120 So I want to talk to you about something during summer. 371 00:30:14,120 --> 00:30:17,800 I really locked in on my fitness. 372 00:30:17,800 --> 00:30:26,120 I like lifted and then I went to the park every day, ran, did sprints. 373 00:30:26,120 --> 00:30:30,760 I was like barefoot outside on the park in the sun. 374 00:30:30,760 --> 00:30:35,040 Like my fitness and my health was at a peak. 375 00:30:35,040 --> 00:30:41,200 And then once school started, I was like, oh, I don't have any time to do, I don't have 376 00:30:41,200 --> 00:30:42,680 time to do cardio anymore. 377 00:30:42,680 --> 00:30:46,280 I don't have time to go outside anymore. 378 00:30:46,280 --> 00:30:54,320 So, and also I actually lowered the amount of gym time that I go to now. 379 00:30:54,320 --> 00:31:01,000 So I go to the gym three days on and two days off, which I was using that as an excuse because 380 00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:03,720 I heard that Hamza did that. 381 00:31:03,720 --> 00:31:10,080 He like dropped down his gym time to one day a week just to maintain. 382 00:31:10,080 --> 00:31:13,400 And so I was like, oh, maybe I can do that too. 383 00:31:13,400 --> 00:31:16,520 And then like I'm feeling the effects. 384 00:31:16,520 --> 00:31:22,760 I'm feeling not necessarily the gym, but I'm feeling the effects of not doing cardio. 385 00:31:22,760 --> 00:31:26,320 Cardio is so important to your success. 386 00:31:26,320 --> 00:31:32,280 And I haven't done cardio in a good two months. 387 00:31:32,280 --> 00:31:35,720 I've done a here and there, but not like consistently for two months. 388 00:31:35,720 --> 00:31:39,800 So I'm out of shape and I know it. 389 00:31:39,800 --> 00:31:43,920 Today there's this one thing that I've noticed. 390 00:31:43,920 --> 00:31:51,040 Once people get out of shape and they get like roll into their routine, it's difficult 391 00:31:51,040 --> 00:31:53,080 for them to get back into it. 392 00:31:53,080 --> 00:31:57,560 And I see that time and time again with people around me. 393 00:31:57,560 --> 00:32:01,280 And this morning when I was like reading, I was doing my morning studies and it was the 394 00:32:01,280 --> 00:32:02,280 week, it's the weekend. 395 00:32:02,280 --> 00:32:03,960 So I had extra time. 396 00:32:03,960 --> 00:32:08,420 I took my nap and then studied some more and I was like, oh, I'm kind of losing focus 397 00:32:08,420 --> 00:32:12,840 right now would be a perfect time to go to the park and do some sprints. 398 00:32:12,840 --> 00:32:18,880 And I was like, and I could tell that I was not wanting to do it. 399 00:32:18,880 --> 00:32:20,360 I could tell that I was resisting. 400 00:32:20,360 --> 00:32:25,000 I could tell that was becoming complacent and lazy. 401 00:32:25,000 --> 00:32:27,520 And I want to expose that factor right now. 402 00:32:27,520 --> 00:32:35,880 I want to expose it out in the open publicly because over the past two months, I thought 403 00:32:35,880 --> 00:32:40,680 that it was okay to not do any conditioning. 404 00:32:40,680 --> 00:32:44,800 No, absolutely not. 405 00:32:44,800 --> 00:32:47,200 It's essential. 406 00:32:47,200 --> 00:32:51,080 Your focus is better when you're more crystal. 407 00:32:51,080 --> 00:32:55,640 Like your attention is more dialed in. 408 00:32:55,640 --> 00:32:58,560 Your concentration is stronger. 409 00:32:58,560 --> 00:33:02,640 Everything goes well when you're in good shape. 410 00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:08,560 Video wise, fitness wise, your gym experience is so much better. 411 00:33:08,560 --> 00:33:14,760 I noticed that over summer I was able, I was lifting good and I wasn't really out of breath 412 00:33:14,760 --> 00:33:16,520 after. 413 00:33:16,520 --> 00:33:19,040 And then now when I go to the gym, I'm out of breath. 414 00:33:19,040 --> 00:33:20,640 I'm like breathing. 415 00:33:20,640 --> 00:33:27,160 I'm taking, I have to take time to breathe after every set. 416 00:33:27,160 --> 00:33:31,040 And it's like it affects every single aspect of your life. 417 00:33:31,040 --> 00:33:39,760 Like do you know when, do you ever experience waking up, especially on the weekends and 418 00:33:39,760 --> 00:33:52,760 you like, like I do my normal routine, but this feeling of feeling, feeling like lazy. 419 00:33:52,760 --> 00:34:00,120 Even though I'm studying, I'm not like on my phone, feels lazy because I'm not going 420 00:34:00,120 --> 00:34:02,600 out, I'm not doing physical labor. 421 00:34:02,600 --> 00:34:09,360 I'm not doing like physical exercise. 422 00:34:09,360 --> 00:34:11,880 So something's got to change in my day. 423 00:34:11,880 --> 00:34:20,240 I've got to figure out where I can add in cardio because this is like not acceptable. 424 00:34:20,240 --> 00:34:25,840 Is unacceptable that I am out of shape? 425 00:34:25,840 --> 00:34:28,400 Like that's unacceptable. 426 00:34:28,400 --> 00:34:34,400 So I wanted to expose that on the open and let that be known. 427 00:34:34,400 --> 00:34:40,560 So one other thing, I want to talk, okay, so I want to completely shift the topic. 428 00:34:40,560 --> 00:34:42,400 Go back to my meditations. 429 00:34:42,400 --> 00:34:49,880 If you've been following these past couple of weeks, honestly like this past week or 430 00:34:49,880 --> 00:34:55,560 two, I don't, I don't remember the exact day I started. 431 00:34:55,560 --> 00:35:02,840 Let's just say two weeks ago, I started Wave 2 on the gateway experience and right now 432 00:35:02,840 --> 00:35:05,320 I'm talking about meditation. 433 00:35:05,320 --> 00:35:12,240 So two weeks ago, I started Wave 2 just for argument sake or just for conversation sake. 434 00:35:12,240 --> 00:35:14,920 Let's just say two weeks ago. 435 00:35:14,920 --> 00:35:21,120 I have been like getting into focus 12 three times a day, practicing and practicing because 436 00:35:21,120 --> 00:35:26,200 I know that right away I'm not going to be able to actually achieve focus 12 because I 437 00:35:26,200 --> 00:35:29,640 have not practiced my second body. 438 00:35:29,640 --> 00:35:36,080 So basically when you're meditating or just anytime, you have a second body and that's 439 00:35:36,080 --> 00:35:44,880 like your body that you experience your meditations through out of body experiences and dreaming 440 00:35:44,880 --> 00:35:48,200 as well when you're asleep. 441 00:35:48,200 --> 00:35:53,600 So you perceive all of these things through your second body and if it's out of practice, 442 00:35:53,600 --> 00:35:54,600 it just makes sense. 443 00:35:54,600 --> 00:36:00,920 If you've never practiced it, just like anything else, if you've never practiced juggling, 444 00:36:00,920 --> 00:36:04,040 well then you're not going to be able to do it. 445 00:36:04,040 --> 00:36:12,200 But then once you practice and get those reps in over time after a couple days, weeks, months 446 00:36:12,200 --> 00:36:16,160 of practice, you'll be able to actually do it. 447 00:36:16,160 --> 00:36:22,840 So I see it as the same way for meditation. 448 00:36:22,840 --> 00:36:32,600 I see the gateway experience as helping you be able to be more efficient at practicing. 449 00:36:32,600 --> 00:36:36,920 But you still have to do the practice and I've understood that ever since I started 450 00:36:36,920 --> 00:36:39,440 the gateway experience, which is why I added it to my routine. 451 00:36:39,440 --> 00:36:44,960 I have initially it was two times a day and now it's three times a day. 452 00:36:44,960 --> 00:36:47,360 And it is definitely beneficial to do that. 453 00:36:47,360 --> 00:36:50,280 Like I've definitely noticed that I'm incrementally getting better. 454 00:36:50,280 --> 00:36:51,800 Like I said, there's two routes. 455 00:36:51,800 --> 00:36:56,840 There's either incremental improvement over time or incremental improvement over time 456 00:36:56,840 --> 00:37:04,800 until the damn floods, like the flood, the dam is flooded and then it's a burst of growth. 457 00:37:04,800 --> 00:37:09,360 And so right now for me, it's just incremental improvement. 458 00:37:09,360 --> 00:37:17,200 And one thing that I've noticed, I want to give some context, which I read this in the 459 00:37:17,200 --> 00:37:23,480 gateway experience, wave one manual, but I forgot about it and then I re-read it today. 460 00:37:23,480 --> 00:37:30,120 And in it, there's a, in the frequently asked questions FAQ page, there's one question that 461 00:37:30,120 --> 00:37:38,880 said like, is the surge of light Jesus or is it God? 462 00:37:38,880 --> 00:37:40,120 That was the question. 463 00:37:40,120 --> 00:37:46,640 And so they basically explained that it's common amongst travelers to experience the 464 00:37:46,640 --> 00:37:52,520 like surge of light and like sudden extreme light. 465 00:37:52,520 --> 00:37:56,920 And what that means is that they're becoming more perceptive to these energies and more 466 00:37:56,920 --> 00:38:01,240 perceptive to the deeper focus levels. 467 00:38:01,240 --> 00:38:05,240 And then they said that they don't like endorse any religion or the other. 468 00:38:05,240 --> 00:38:12,800 Like some people may perceive it as Christ, some people Buddha, like they just said that. 469 00:38:12,800 --> 00:38:18,360 But one thing that I realized is that that meant that I'm getting more perceptive. 470 00:38:18,360 --> 00:38:23,520 And if you guys been listening over the past couple, I don't know when I got my first like 471 00:38:23,520 --> 00:38:30,520 flash of light, but a couple, let's just say a couple, like a week ago, I got my first 472 00:38:30,520 --> 00:38:31,640 kind of flash of light. 473 00:38:31,640 --> 00:38:36,360 I was in my meditation and I noticed that I was kind of like dozing off, but I was trying 474 00:38:36,360 --> 00:38:39,200 to stay like disciplined and stay focused. 475 00:38:39,200 --> 00:38:40,200 But I was like tired. 476 00:38:40,200 --> 00:38:44,960 So it was like inevitable that I was going to lose my focus, but I just had to bring 477 00:38:44,960 --> 00:38:47,940 it back and back every time. 478 00:38:47,940 --> 00:38:55,840 And so I noticed that my, I was like, my mind was like losing its control. 479 00:38:55,840 --> 00:38:58,440 It's, it was releasing in script of control. 480 00:38:58,440 --> 00:39:03,800 And then there was like one instant where just for an instant moment, my mind like like 481 00:39:03,800 --> 00:39:06,880 release its control for just a moment. 482 00:39:06,880 --> 00:39:12,040 And in that moment, like my entire, by the way, I, I do my meditations in a pitch black 483 00:39:12,040 --> 00:39:13,280 room. 484 00:39:13,280 --> 00:39:17,360 Like my room is fully optimized for sleep. 485 00:39:17,360 --> 00:39:18,360 It's pitch black. 486 00:39:18,360 --> 00:39:25,000 I nailed, I nailed curtains, blackout curtains on the door frame. 487 00:39:25,000 --> 00:39:32,920 So there's no air like, uh, what's called no light going in through there. 488 00:39:32,920 --> 00:39:35,160 And I nailed it on my window frame as well. 489 00:39:35,160 --> 00:39:36,440 So my room is pitch black. 490 00:39:36,440 --> 00:39:38,880 You can't see a thing in there. 491 00:39:38,880 --> 00:39:42,920 And so when I was in that meditation, my, when my mind like release its control for 492 00:39:42,920 --> 00:39:50,760 one instant moment, like a flash of light, like flooded my perception and my eyes were 493 00:39:50,760 --> 00:39:54,640 closed and my room was pitch black and no one came in my room. 494 00:39:54,640 --> 00:39:56,240 So they couldn't have turned on the lights. 495 00:39:56,240 --> 00:40:03,880 And just for an instant, I saw like just pure brightness, pure light. 496 00:40:03,880 --> 00:40:06,120 And then I was like, whoa, what is that? 497 00:40:06,120 --> 00:40:11,880 And then I like my mind woke up and then it ended. 498 00:40:11,880 --> 00:40:17,080 And then just the other day, maybe like yesterday or two days ago or three days ago, I had a 499 00:40:17,080 --> 00:40:21,840 similar experience, same, same environment, same situation. 500 00:40:21,840 --> 00:40:29,200 I was a little tired and then my mind like clicked out, essentially like my mind like 501 00:40:29,200 --> 00:40:30,800 released its grip. 502 00:40:30,800 --> 00:40:36,600 And then I had the same experience of pure light, except this time there was like three 503 00:40:36,600 --> 00:40:41,400 dark like shadows on, and they looked like human figures. 504 00:40:41,400 --> 00:40:46,640 They looked in the shape of humans, three dark shadows on the bottom right of my perception. 505 00:40:46,640 --> 00:40:51,640 And when I say perception, it's because like I said, it's practiced through second body. 506 00:40:51,640 --> 00:40:55,640 So right now you're not going to be able to perceive the meditations through your physical 507 00:40:55,640 --> 00:41:00,320 senses, your physical body, what you're in right now. 508 00:41:00,320 --> 00:41:05,080 But you have to develop your second body's senses and you have to develop your perception 509 00:41:05,080 --> 00:41:06,080 from your second body. 510 00:41:06,080 --> 00:41:07,080 And that's what I've been doing. 511 00:41:07,080 --> 00:41:09,640 I've been practicing it. 512 00:41:09,640 --> 00:41:16,440 And so my perception was getting clearer, but it was still an instant moment. 513 00:41:16,440 --> 00:41:19,120 I was like, oh, that's cool. 514 00:41:19,120 --> 00:41:27,000 And then today during my meditation just before this episode, I had a similar experience, 515 00:41:27,000 --> 00:41:33,560 except it was not, it was like the same circumstances, same dark environment, same, but I always 516 00:41:33,560 --> 00:41:40,000 sleep in the same position, same bed, same everything, or not sleep, but meditate and 517 00:41:40,000 --> 00:41:43,600 sleep actually, but I don't sleep in the same position. 518 00:41:43,600 --> 00:41:45,360 Okay, whatever. 519 00:41:45,360 --> 00:41:49,120 So I sleep or I meditate in that position. 520 00:41:49,120 --> 00:41:52,280 And this time, like my mind was tired again. 521 00:41:52,280 --> 00:42:01,320 And this time I like clicked out my mind releases grip, except this time it was not like brightness, 522 00:42:01,320 --> 00:42:04,000 it was not pure light. 523 00:42:04,000 --> 00:42:11,440 This time I just saw like this, it looked like a piece of page like a page from a book. 524 00:42:11,440 --> 00:42:20,280 And it was instant, it was another instant moment where I saw a, it looked like black 525 00:42:20,280 --> 00:42:24,800 ink, but it looked like a foreign language and I couldn't make out because it was, I 526 00:42:24,800 --> 00:42:29,840 couldn't make out what it was or what it was saying because it was just an instant moment. 527 00:42:29,840 --> 00:42:35,080 And I saw the, it was like a page like my entire perception was filled with a piece 528 00:42:35,080 --> 00:42:40,000 of paper with black writing on it, black ink that looked like a different language and 529 00:42:40,000 --> 00:42:42,720 I couldn't tell what language it was. 530 00:42:42,720 --> 00:42:45,680 And to be honest, I don't really remember like much other than that. 531 00:42:45,680 --> 00:42:51,280 It was just white page black ink with text throughout the whole thing, just like a piece 532 00:42:51,280 --> 00:42:59,200 of paper from a, taken out from a book, but it was white and black on the, and I instantly 533 00:42:59,200 --> 00:43:05,360 knew it was like, I kind of had the sense that it was a piece of paper with, with like 534 00:43:05,360 --> 00:43:07,320 text on it, but I didn't know what it was. 535 00:43:07,320 --> 00:43:13,240 And when it ended, when my mind woke up, I was like scared, my heart rate rose. 536 00:43:13,240 --> 00:43:18,400 Like when, like in the first two experiences, when I experienced light, I was not scared. 537 00:43:18,400 --> 00:43:21,200 I was like, oh, that was cool. 538 00:43:21,200 --> 00:43:24,800 But this time I was like scared, I was startled and I don't know why. 539 00:43:24,800 --> 00:43:28,080 Like I was scared and I was like, oh my gosh, that was crazy. 540 00:43:28,080 --> 00:43:31,800 And I was, and then I instantly was like, oh, when's the next one going to happen? 541 00:43:31,800 --> 00:43:36,360 Maybe another one will happen in this meditation, which I instantly became conscious of that 542 00:43:36,360 --> 00:43:37,480 because that's an expectation. 543 00:43:37,480 --> 00:43:40,800 You have to drop those expectations. 544 00:43:40,800 --> 00:43:41,960 But that's good. 545 00:43:41,960 --> 00:43:49,680 That's good that these are happening because that is giving me another kind of motivation 546 00:43:49,680 --> 00:43:56,120 or not motivation, but it's giving me another kind of guidepost or sign that I am actually 547 00:43:56,120 --> 00:44:03,400 making progress and I'm actually working towards something better because for the whole first 548 00:44:03,400 --> 00:44:07,920 month I didn't experience anything because I was just doing focus 10. 549 00:44:07,920 --> 00:44:13,160 And to be honest, I believe that all of these experiences occurred in focus 10. 550 00:44:13,160 --> 00:44:21,480 Like right when I got into the meditation, once I got into focus 10, it like happened. 551 00:44:21,480 --> 00:44:24,480 So I don't know. 552 00:44:24,480 --> 00:44:29,800 It may have happened in focus 12, I don't know, but it just shows that I'm getting better. 553 00:44:29,800 --> 00:44:37,520 Like my virtual senses are getting stronger, more used, like they're actually being able 554 00:44:37,520 --> 00:44:39,880 to be used. 555 00:44:39,880 --> 00:44:44,760 And if you guys are interested in like learning what I'm doing, some of the tips that I learned 556 00:44:44,760 --> 00:44:51,360 is in order to build your virtual senses, which for me it's difficult because I don't, I'm 557 00:44:51,360 --> 00:44:55,280 like, I can't visualize, but I can kind of feel. 558 00:44:55,280 --> 00:45:00,800 So I can't like see things in my mind's eye, but I can feel it, if that makes sense, but 559 00:45:00,800 --> 00:45:08,920 I can still kind of see in the sense to, if I could translate it on paper and like draw 560 00:45:08,920 --> 00:45:11,680 out what I can visualize. 561 00:45:11,680 --> 00:45:20,560 For example, I can like draw out my current goal on paper, even though I can't see it, 562 00:45:20,560 --> 00:45:23,040 I can kind of feel it, but whatever. 563 00:45:23,040 --> 00:45:27,880 So pretty much I only see blackness, the only times that I've ever actually experienced 564 00:45:27,880 --> 00:45:36,160 anything other than blackness are when I just see those random like color shapes in my mind, 565 00:45:36,160 --> 00:45:39,080 which are rare, I can't induce them on purpose. 566 00:45:39,080 --> 00:45:46,480 Like sometimes I see like a red shape that changes form constantly, that I don't really 567 00:45:46,480 --> 00:45:48,120 count that. 568 00:45:48,120 --> 00:45:53,080 And the only other time ever is those three experiences during those meditations that 569 00:45:53,080 --> 00:45:59,800 I experienced, the pure light, the pure light with the three dark figures, and then the 570 00:45:59,800 --> 00:46:03,360 like page, a piece of paper with text written on it. 571 00:46:03,360 --> 00:46:13,400 Those are the three times that I've ever actually experienced a like something other than darkness. 572 00:46:13,400 --> 00:46:23,440 And so the strategy that I use to develop my second body, to develop my senses, my virtual 573 00:46:23,440 --> 00:46:32,800 senses basically, is exactly what someone who could visualize well would do. 574 00:46:32,800 --> 00:46:35,880 Because I learned that there are a few ways you can do it. 575 00:46:35,880 --> 00:46:42,160 First of all, you practice, you visualize things that you do in real life. 576 00:46:42,160 --> 00:46:50,380 So that's why once I learned about that, I started visualizing my routine at my slide. 577 00:46:50,380 --> 00:46:57,400 So initially, I was just in my slide, just like walking or like kind of being there, 578 00:46:57,400 --> 00:46:59,520 not really doing anything. 579 00:46:59,520 --> 00:47:05,160 But now I actually have a purpose, I go through my daily routine, more obviously it's more 580 00:47:05,160 --> 00:47:10,700 optimal for like the resources I have at my slide, like my goal. 581 00:47:10,700 --> 00:47:14,400 So basically I visualize my goal, which is my slide. 582 00:47:14,400 --> 00:47:16,400 My slide is me visualize my goal. 583 00:47:16,400 --> 00:47:21,000 By the way, if you're not familiar with that trans surfing term. 584 00:47:21,000 --> 00:47:32,240 So I visualize my goal, which is me at Hawaii, at a nice house that I own on my own, that's 585 00:47:32,240 --> 00:47:40,080 like a beach house that is on my own private beach with surfing waves. 586 00:47:40,080 --> 00:47:46,120 So I visualize my slide, but I go through my routine because I do my routine in real 587 00:47:46,120 --> 00:47:47,120 life. 588 00:47:47,120 --> 00:47:51,840 So basically the first tip is to do things in your visualization that you would do in 589 00:47:51,840 --> 00:47:52,840 real life. 590 00:47:52,840 --> 00:47:58,720 So for me, I wake up and in my real life, I always wake up and then right away, like 591 00:47:58,720 --> 00:48:06,240 do this, like I pick up my blanket and roll it around to like make it a ball and then 592 00:48:06,240 --> 00:48:08,720 pick up my pillow and put it in my closet. 593 00:48:08,720 --> 00:48:09,720 So that's what I do. 594 00:48:09,720 --> 00:48:16,640 The thing I do in my visualization is I wake up from my bed, which is not my normal bed, 595 00:48:16,640 --> 00:48:22,680 what I have now, it's my bed that I plan on having in the future, which is grass. 596 00:48:22,680 --> 00:48:29,880 And I basically pick up my pillow and put it in the closet and then I walk over to my 597 00:48:29,880 --> 00:48:35,920 kitchen and I always, it's like very detailed and I pour my water with all the supplements 598 00:48:35,920 --> 00:48:37,360 and I drink it. 599 00:48:37,360 --> 00:48:41,280 That's pretty much what I like all these things I do in real life. 600 00:48:41,280 --> 00:48:45,720 So that's the first tip for building your virtual senses, do things that you do in real 601 00:48:45,720 --> 00:48:47,040 life. 602 00:48:47,040 --> 00:48:51,780 And then the other tip is to actually use the senses. 603 00:48:51,780 --> 00:48:58,500 So when you're visualizing actually kind of feel things, hear things, taste things, 604 00:48:58,500 --> 00:49:00,240 not just see things because you're visualizing. 605 00:49:00,240 --> 00:49:05,920 So you are practicing that visual sense, but you're missing all of the five other ones 606 00:49:05,920 --> 00:49:12,560 here, taste, smell, touch and see. 607 00:49:12,560 --> 00:49:17,200 Basically what I do is like I said, I have a grass bed in my visualization. 608 00:49:17,200 --> 00:49:23,160 So I wake up and I feel the grass, feel it like on my back, feel it on my hands, my feet 609 00:49:23,160 --> 00:49:25,160 when I stand up. 610 00:49:25,160 --> 00:49:33,800 And then when I'm pouring my water, I hear the water pouring and then I use a like glass 611 00:49:33,800 --> 00:49:38,360 stick kind of thing to spin around the supplements. 612 00:49:38,360 --> 00:49:43,440 So I hear like that clicking, like that clanging noise. 613 00:49:43,440 --> 00:49:48,200 And then I kind of try to taste the water, which I'm not good at the taste, but and I 614 00:49:48,200 --> 00:49:49,880 actually haven't tried to do this. 615 00:49:49,880 --> 00:49:52,480 I have tried to do the smell. 616 00:49:52,480 --> 00:49:59,480 The worst that smell, second worst that taste, and then I can kind of do here, but and I 617 00:49:59,480 --> 00:50:00,480 can do touch. 618 00:50:00,480 --> 00:50:11,680 So for me, the order of easiness is see, touch, ear, taste, smell. 619 00:50:11,680 --> 00:50:17,200 I'm pretty sure that's like I can see and feel things pretty easily and taste or in 620 00:50:17,200 --> 00:50:19,880 here things pretty easily. 621 00:50:19,880 --> 00:50:24,280 So that's like those are the two tips that I have for developing that roots. 622 00:50:24,280 --> 00:50:28,880 Like do your things that you do in real life, physical life, I should say, because everything 623 00:50:28,880 --> 00:50:32,360 is real. 624 00:50:32,360 --> 00:50:37,480 And then do things that you are and actually practice the senses. 625 00:50:37,480 --> 00:50:39,200 So actually develop those senses. 626 00:50:39,200 --> 00:50:40,880 And then the third tip is just practice. 627 00:50:40,880 --> 00:50:42,720 Like it's not going to happen in a week. 628 00:50:42,720 --> 00:50:46,800 If you're at my position, it's going to happen in like a month or a year. 629 00:50:46,800 --> 00:50:47,800 Who knows? 630 00:50:47,800 --> 00:50:54,080 Like it's not going to happen right away and practice a lot to practice often. 631 00:50:54,080 --> 00:50:55,560 So that's pretty much what I do for that. 632 00:50:55,560 --> 00:51:12,000 Let me get some water. 633 00:51:12,000 --> 00:51:20,680 So like I said, I had that another meditative experience, the piece of paper with text on 634 00:51:20,680 --> 00:51:22,440 it. 635 00:51:22,440 --> 00:51:25,320 So that's three times I've had something. 636 00:51:25,320 --> 00:51:29,080 And they're happening quicker and quicker next to each other. 637 00:51:29,080 --> 00:51:32,440 Like the first time happened and then I had to wait like a week and then the second one 638 00:51:32,440 --> 00:51:36,320 happened and then a couple of days and then the third one happened. 639 00:51:36,320 --> 00:51:39,400 So that tells me two things. 640 00:51:39,400 --> 00:51:40,400 I'm getting better. 641 00:51:40,400 --> 00:51:45,800 Like I'm actually building my virtual senses, which is it's telling me that I'm actually 642 00:51:45,800 --> 00:51:47,280 doing the right things. 643 00:51:47,280 --> 00:51:53,960 Like I'm actually helping build my senses because I've been doing this for over a week 644 00:51:53,960 --> 00:51:58,120 or over a month, three times a day. 645 00:51:58,120 --> 00:52:03,880 And there's definitely been times where I'm like, is this, am I really doing this? 646 00:52:03,880 --> 00:52:05,280 Like is this actually helping me? 647 00:52:05,280 --> 00:52:12,520 Because I haven't seen any physical tangible results other than those three experiences. 648 00:52:12,520 --> 00:52:15,480 So like the whole first month, I did not experience anything. 649 00:52:15,480 --> 00:52:21,320 And to be honest, like even like the first week of focus 12, I didn't experience anything. 650 00:52:21,320 --> 00:52:24,920 Like I'm just starting to experience this stuff. 651 00:52:24,920 --> 00:52:32,400 And to be honest, from someone who just the other a couple of months ago when I was reading 652 00:52:32,400 --> 00:52:40,960 Transurfing and I found out that I can't visualize just from that. 653 00:52:40,960 --> 00:52:43,560 And someone that thought that, oh, I'll never be able to visualize. 654 00:52:43,560 --> 00:52:46,200 It's just like a genetic thing. 655 00:52:46,200 --> 00:52:47,200 No. 656 00:52:47,200 --> 00:52:52,520 Now I'm like, this is growth because now I know that I'm actually going to be able to 657 00:52:52,520 --> 00:52:54,840 visualize because it's not just visualize. 658 00:52:54,840 --> 00:52:57,560 It's I'm stepping into the second body. 659 00:52:57,560 --> 00:53:01,320 Like I'm, I'm learning about the focus levels as well. 660 00:53:01,320 --> 00:53:07,960 And I'm realizing that focus 10 is mind body, mind awake body asleep. 661 00:53:07,960 --> 00:53:14,320 That's basically the first kind of stage of you separating from your physical body. 662 00:53:14,320 --> 00:53:21,560 You're actually like forgetting about your physical body and your like soul is kind of 663 00:53:21,560 --> 00:53:24,800 traveling through the second body. 664 00:53:24,800 --> 00:53:29,880 But the mind of awake body sleep, your, your body is asleep, but you can still kind of 665 00:53:29,880 --> 00:53:31,440 perceive senses from it. 666 00:53:31,440 --> 00:53:32,440 You can still take it. 667 00:53:32,440 --> 00:53:39,960 It's just a little like censored or a little bit, um, not what's, I don't know the word. 668 00:53:39,960 --> 00:53:44,920 There's a, there's a good word for this, but I forgot. 669 00:53:44,920 --> 00:53:51,960 And then focus 12 is the first state of expanded awareness where you can still kind of perceive 670 00:53:51,960 --> 00:53:59,520 your physical body a little bit, but you're more and more aware that you're, you're more 671 00:53:59,520 --> 00:54:01,880 and more aware of your second body. 672 00:54:01,880 --> 00:54:09,080 And then focus 15 is the state of no time, which you barely perceive your physical body 673 00:54:09,080 --> 00:54:13,040 and you're more aware of your second body. 674 00:54:13,040 --> 00:54:16,400 So like you're even higher awareness. 675 00:54:16,400 --> 00:54:23,680 So I see the further down your focus levels you get, that's when, that's when you start 676 00:54:23,680 --> 00:54:29,720 to actually like, okay, so in waking life, I still can't visualize like right now I can't 677 00:54:29,720 --> 00:54:30,720 visualize. 678 00:54:30,720 --> 00:54:35,760 Um, I don't think I'd be able to have that same experience that I experienced three times 679 00:54:35,760 --> 00:54:41,200 like the brightness and the card or the paper with text. 680 00:54:41,200 --> 00:54:49,040 I don't think I'd be able to experience something like that in waking life, which tells me that 681 00:54:49,040 --> 00:54:50,280 this is actually real. 682 00:54:50,280 --> 00:54:53,840 Like right now I'm in my physical body, but then once you get in your meditation, the 683 00:54:53,840 --> 00:55:00,320 deeper and deeper you get, the more and more into your second body you get, which actually 684 00:55:00,320 --> 00:55:04,320 gives me hope because that means that I'll be able to perceive things. 685 00:55:04,320 --> 00:55:10,880 Once I build up practice as well as actually getting deeper levels of focus, which I've 686 00:55:10,880 --> 00:55:16,600 only bought wave one and wave two, which if I had the money, I'd buy wave three right 687 00:55:16,600 --> 00:55:20,640 now, but I don't have any money to be honest. 688 00:55:20,640 --> 00:55:28,560 And I'm saving my money to use on the members like the subscriptions for my podcasting stuff. 689 00:55:28,560 --> 00:55:33,720 And so I don't have money to buy the wave two or four or wave three or four. 690 00:55:33,720 --> 00:55:36,160 If I did, I'd buy them right now. 691 00:55:36,160 --> 00:55:40,800 I'd buy wave three, four and five right now. 692 00:55:40,800 --> 00:55:50,360 But with that said, I've basically just been doing the second exercise, which is like, 693 00:55:50,360 --> 00:55:51,920 like the questioning. 694 00:55:51,920 --> 00:55:57,000 It's like basically where you send a question out and you receive an answer from your higher 695 00:55:57,000 --> 00:55:58,400 self. 696 00:55:58,400 --> 00:56:04,480 And I've just been doing that one on repeat, even though it's like not, I haven't actually 697 00:56:04,480 --> 00:56:05,840 been doing the question. 698 00:56:05,840 --> 00:56:07,160 I haven't been following along with that. 699 00:56:07,160 --> 00:56:12,400 I just been doing my own thing because that's like, that's the one that is not talked on 700 00:56:12,400 --> 00:56:13,400 the most. 701 00:56:13,400 --> 00:56:15,840 Like it's talked on the lease on that one. 702 00:56:15,840 --> 00:56:17,600 Like Robert Monroe talks the least on that one. 703 00:56:17,600 --> 00:56:21,280 So that's the one I chose to repeat. 704 00:56:21,280 --> 00:56:28,840 And like I'm practicing more and more, but I'm only on focus 12 and I did try to get 705 00:56:28,840 --> 00:56:33,520 to focus 15, which I think I might have actually gone to focus 15. 706 00:56:33,520 --> 00:56:35,400 I just can't perceive it. 707 00:56:35,400 --> 00:56:36,680 Same thing with focus 12. 708 00:56:36,680 --> 00:56:40,200 I can't perceive it yet because I haven't built up practice. 709 00:56:40,200 --> 00:56:46,600 So I had to, and then I also tried to get into focus 21, which again, I don't think that 710 00:56:46,600 --> 00:56:47,600 I didn't perceive. 711 00:56:47,600 --> 00:56:50,760 I didn't perceive anything in that. 712 00:56:50,760 --> 00:56:59,960 But I did try and do, I basically like counted from 12 to 15 by like seeing the colors correlated 713 00:56:59,960 --> 00:57:00,960 with it. 714 00:57:00,960 --> 00:57:07,920 So focus 12 is green and then focus 13 is purple and then focus 14 is white and then 715 00:57:07,920 --> 00:57:18,760 focus 15 is blue and then focus 16 is red and then focus 17 is yellow and then 18 is 716 00:57:18,760 --> 00:57:25,840 rose and then 19 is, what is it? 717 00:57:25,840 --> 00:57:26,840 Green. 718 00:57:26,840 --> 00:57:27,840 Is that right? 719 00:57:27,840 --> 00:57:28,840 Yeah, green. 720 00:57:28,840 --> 00:57:29,840 Wait. 721 00:57:29,840 --> 00:57:37,040 Blue, red, yellow, green and then 20 is purple. 722 00:57:37,040 --> 00:57:40,320 Wait, I missed one. 723 00:57:40,320 --> 00:57:45,320 Blue, red, yellow, rose, green, purple. 724 00:57:45,320 --> 00:57:49,120 All right, so 20 is purple and then 21 is white. 725 00:57:49,120 --> 00:57:51,120 So those are the seven resident colors. 726 00:57:51,120 --> 00:57:57,960 I learned about that in the seven resident colors book. 727 00:57:57,960 --> 00:57:58,960 It's not like a book. 728 00:57:58,960 --> 00:58:01,520 It's like a packet or a document. 729 00:58:01,520 --> 00:58:06,640 It's 100 pages long and I recommend reading that because it's very interesting and it 730 00:58:06,640 --> 00:58:07,640 helps you learn a lot. 731 00:58:07,640 --> 00:58:12,080 So I basically read that and I'm not done with that. 732 00:58:12,080 --> 00:58:17,640 I'm only on like focus 24, which it goes through all the focus levels out of 49. 733 00:58:17,640 --> 00:58:20,240 So I'm only on focus 24 on that one. 734 00:58:20,240 --> 00:58:25,720 So I've just been reading it at school because I don't have anything else to read at school 735 00:58:25,720 --> 00:58:26,720 other than that. 736 00:58:26,720 --> 00:58:30,720 So I've just been doing it there. 737 00:58:30,720 --> 00:58:36,800 And it's definitely helpful because I learned about how you actually get from focus 15 to 738 00:58:36,800 --> 00:58:43,400 21 by imagining those colors and then counting to 21. 739 00:58:43,400 --> 00:58:49,880 And I try to do that but it's unsuccessful and I believe that it's simply because I haven't 740 00:58:49,880 --> 00:58:50,880 practiced it. 741 00:58:50,880 --> 00:58:57,440 So it may be that focus 12 is like the foundation to all of this. 742 00:58:57,440 --> 00:59:01,880 Like I see focus 10 as the foundation to my whole entire gateway experience because you 743 00:59:01,880 --> 00:59:04,920 have to get to focus 10 to access all this other stuff. 744 00:59:04,920 --> 00:59:10,400 But then I also, it may be focus 12 as the foundation to the rest simply because focus 745 00:59:10,400 --> 00:59:12,560 12 is where you build the virtual senses. 746 00:59:12,560 --> 00:59:18,920 So I have a theory that I am wanting to confirm once I actually get good enough where once 747 00:59:18,920 --> 00:59:23,080 you build the virtual senses using focus 12, then that will actually be able to translate 748 00:59:23,080 --> 00:59:29,020 and then you won't have to like start over from scratch once you get to focus 15. 749 00:59:29,020 --> 00:59:34,800 So what I'm saying is once you build focus 12 and you're able to perceive it fully, 750 00:59:34,800 --> 00:59:38,720 then maybe like I said, I have not experienced any of this stuff yet. 751 00:59:38,720 --> 00:59:40,680 So this is just my theory. 752 00:59:40,680 --> 00:59:48,720 Maybe once you have like, have your second body developed, then once you move to focus 753 00:59:48,720 --> 00:59:52,640 15, you won't have to start seeing nothing in darkness. 754 00:59:52,640 --> 00:59:54,360 I don't know. 755 00:59:54,360 --> 01:00:01,280 But yesterday I cut out the outro to the episodes. 756 01:00:01,280 --> 01:00:05,720 So I'm just going to say follow for more. 757 01:00:05,720 --> 01:00:06,720 That feels weird. 758 01:00:06,720 --> 01:00:31,480 I'm going to say follow for more and have a good day.