Did you know that we live in a system, a society that has manufactured a system to keep you
down?
If you've been following this podcast, you probably do know that, and you've probably
been thinking a lot about it lately.
I know I have.
I've been really going down the rabbit hole over these past couple months.
And I've come to the conclusion so far that the system is in place to keep you down and
to keep you trapped.
And it does it in many different ways, like the school system, like the education, all...
That's the only one that I can think about right now, but that's like the main thing,
the school system into the workforce, into the working a nine to five job.
And then also there's the social aspect of things.
Because everyone else around you is being conditioned, then they're also under that
programming.
So that means that they're conditioning you as well, especially people that are older
than you.
They've been conditioned a lot longer, so they're helping out to condition you.
This is why teachers in the school system are part of the system, because they've been
conditioned to teach the conditioning.
And I wrote down that the whole system is designed to keep you trapped by programming
your thinking.
So basically it doesn't keep you trapped like a normal prison does inside of walls behind
a locked gate.
It keeps you trapped through your thinking.
Like you feel trapped.
This is why so many people find themselves if they have a job that they know they want
to quit.
They're like, they don't want to quit because they feel trapped.
They want to quit, but they don't because they have a fear.
And that fear stems from the fear of death, which is another part of the whole game.
Society has, we live in a society where everyone expects to live another.
Everyone feels like it's their right to live a long and full life in our society.
Everyone takes, basically feels like it's an undisputed fact that they're going to live.
They're going to live.
When in other cultures, they know that life happens and they know that your life is not
guaranteed.
And our society with modern medicine has really a toll on us because death is a very big factor
in keeping us trapped.
Like I said earlier, people don't want to quit their job because they have a fear.
And all fear stems from one main fear and it's the fear of death.
So it makes sense that the society takes advantage of that one main fear and ingrains everyone
in it with that fear.
And it does it.
I don't know how it does it quite yet.
And I don't really know exactly all the specifics, but there's one thing for sure.
And it's that we are dying a lot longer.
Our deaths are lasting a lot longer than they have ever before.
And I'm reading a book called Died Wise right now and I'm learning all about it.
And I just started the book.
I'm probably on like page 70.
So I'm not too far in.
And over the next couple weeks or days, over the next week, I will definitely be talking
about it a lot.
I'm writing a lot of notes because soon there's going to be a few episodes dedicated to Died
Wise.
But with all of this, like all this said, how we live in a society that is conditioning
us, keeping us trapped.
Well there is hope.
And that hope is to heal yourself.
This is what I'm doing.
I'm going down this path of healing while I'm still in the system.
I'm still going to school.
I'm still a senior.
I still have two months left of school.
In two months today is my last day of school.
As of recording this, this is October 21st.
And I am done with school in December 21st.
So two months I'm done with school.
So I'm at the pinnacle of the conditioning just at the end.
But I'm not going to college.
So I'm not quite there yet.
But with all that said, I've been conditioned for 18 years of my life.
And that means that there's some healing to do in order to break free.
Right now I'm still confined in this prison that we see in the American, even Western
society.
So there's healing that you have to do.
And there's a few things that I've been doing lately to heal.
The first thing is read.
Learn all of the stuff.
You can't heal unless you know what's going on.
And so first I'm reading.
I'm going extremely redpill.
I'm learning all about everything, the reality of our nature, the nature of our reality.
I'm learning, I'm reading a lot of books that are going to teach me all this stuff.
Really Transurfing is a big one.
Dancing After The Music Stops was an introduction book to a lot of the stuff that I'm about
to be reading in the coming days and weeks.
Die-Wise right now I'm reading.
Ascent on Humanity is one of the books that's going to start to lay out the foundation to
the truth.
I don't know what that means.
I just read it in Dancing After The Music Stops.
Gene Pasco-Rieman said that a scent of humanity, that book will lay out the foundation for how
the world works and it will start your quest for the truth.
So all these books are teaching me exactly like what I'm against, exactly what is going
on and it's teaching me how I can fix it for myself.
It's really allowing me to understand what parts of my brain to pick out, what parts
of the conditioning or even what has been programmed into my brain.
And so once you learn all that stuff, you got to heal and you do that through meditation.
And I see meditating as healing ever since I used to watch TikTok and YouTube.
I used to watch movies all the time.
I used to be just a normal American citizen watching TikToks, scrolling on their phone
all day, going on Snapchat, social media, all of that garbage.
And so I realized, there was a certain point of time during this last summer when I realized
that that's like I was on TikTok for years.
So I was filling my head with a bunch of garbage, my focus, my concentration and my attention
all plummeted.
And so I saw meditation as a way to heal from that and to fix that.
But I still see that.
I still am meditating to heal and increase my focus.
And I use meditation.
Another way that I saw it as is a way to help me train my control over my thoughts.
But lately, a month ago, a little over a month ago, I started this meditation exercise or
this meditation tape.
I started using the gateway experience, which is basically auditory.
It's like sounds that you listen to that, it's like a guided meditation with sounds in it
that help you like attune your brainwave frequencies to get to deeper levels of meditation.
So it helps you, but it doesn't get you there.
And I understood that from the get go.
I understood that it was going to be a process and it was more like a long term game.
It wasn't going to happen right away.
It wasn't going to actually know.
To be honest, I don't think I understood that in the beginning.
But I had this vague sensation or intuitive understanding that I would have to do it in
the long run because I added it to my routine.
So that's how you can tell.
Because I remember in the beginning, I was expecting it to take me a week to get focus
12.
No, it took me a month.
But none of that matters because now I know.
And I see meditating when you're using these gateway experience and when you're like pushing
hard or what's the word?
I see meditation similar to reading.
Reading opens your understanding to all of these new ideas and concepts.
You initially learn about this stuff.
But then meditation, you have experiences.
You have crazy experiences.
If once you meditate for long enough using the gateway experience and you get advanced
enough, you start to have crazy experiences.
I haven't had any true crazy experiences yet, but I know that they're like, I don't know
about the crazy experiences, but I know that eventually I'll be able to learn a lot and
it'll help to destroy my worldview.
Because meditation is the nature of these deep meditations like focus 12 and focus 15.
Really go against normal society's worldview, Western civilization's worldview.
And so it helps to break down those barriers and it helps to break down the walls of your
worldview.
But another thing is you see it, you feel it, you know it and you understand it for yourself
because you experience it yourself.
You don't just read it where there's a sliver of a doubt, but once you actually experience
this stuff, that's when you start to know and that's when the real progress happens.
And there's the after meditation, after healing, I see the third step, which is growth.
And this like three step process is not really like a step for step process.
I see it as just three things that you should focus on to heal.
And currently I'm only doing number one and two because number three is solitude in nature.
I read about it in Dancing After Music Stops.
He towards the end of the book, he said the best piece of spiritual advice he can give
is to go out, go in solitude out in nature, like go, go observe nature alone, go rent a
cabin in the woods for a month and be alone.
Go rent a cabin in Alaska for six months and be alone.
Solitude in nature is when you start to actually grow spiritually.
And so I see that as like another step to the healing process.
Currently I'm like I said, I'm only doing number one and two.
I'm only reading and I'm only meditating, which for my current position in life, my
current situation, I feel like those are the best to do right now.
Because though I could go out in nature in solitude, I could, I absolutely could.
I'm still choosing not to for some reason.
I still have work to do to really get that into my worldview.
And to be honest, I'm waiting.
I'm waiting on seeing success in my business, which I fear once I actually start to see
success, I'll still be trapped and I'll find something else to wait on before I actually
go out and do stuff.
So I'm kind of in this crossroads where on one hand, I'm genuinely waiting because I'm
growing spirit, I'm still growing spiritually and I'm still destroying my worldview.
I'm still figuring these things out.
But on the other hand, I know enough information I can take action now.
But I'm also waiting for me to be financially free so I can set myself up for the rest of
my life.
So it's kind of either or and I'm prepared for it to take a year.
I'm prepared for it to take over a year.
Like I said, when I first started this podcast, I started it to get financial freedom.
I started it for my own selfish reasons.
But the reason why I'm staying, like if I truly started it for my own selfish reasons,
I would not have made it to episode 95.
I'm doing it for much more because early on in my podcasting like journey, I realized
that it's really a personal development journey, this podcast, because if you listen to my
first episode, my trailer, which by the way, I'm planning on making a new trailer soon
I don't know what I want to do with that current one because I want to keep it up.
I want to make sure that people can see like where I started.
The best case scenario is that trailer becomes an episode and then I replace it with a new
real trailer.
So I don't know when I'll make the new trailer soon I will.
But I might even do it after this episode.
Who knows.
But the thing is, this, I see this as a self improvement journey.
I am my initial kind of starting my initial objective for this podcast was financial freedom.
But it quickly switched, it quickly shift gears to I realized that I was doing this
for much more.
I was doing this one for my own personal development journey.
I'm finding my voice and I'm actually practicing and speaking better.
You can tell to compare this episode to episode one.
There's a major difference and not even, I'm not even talking about the quality of the
sound because episode one was recorded on a voice recorder, a tiny little voice recorder.
And I, right now I have a microphone, but what I'm saying is my actual speech, the words
that are coming out of my mouth are much more, I don't know, educated or just much more practiced.
And so that's one reason this podcast has been helpful.
And then another reason is because I want to document the journey.
I want to look back at my growth.
I want to be able to see like I've been doing in all these episodes.
I compare myself to right now to where I was three months ago.
And I want to be able to see once I reach episode 365, which by the way, that's the
end number.
Like that's a number I plan on finishing, but I don't plan on stopping recording.
365 is that is kind of like the target number.
That doesn't mean that I'm going to stop recording once I get 365 episodes.
It just means that that's my target number that I'm going for.
And once I get 365, I'll be able to look back at my journey of the past year, which is,
if you've never done that, if you are on self improvement and you have never looked back
at your progress, fit like if you've never written down your progress somewhere, somehow
form you're missing out.
And I recommend you start because this reminds me a couple like at the beginning of this
year, 2023, January 1st, I wrote down all of my stats.
So at the time I was not doing entrepreneurship.
I was just focused on health.
So my stats at the time were kind of swayed towards what I was experiencing, what I was
actually improving at the time.
For example, one of my stats is like my bench, how much I can bench, how much I can squat,
like my, how heavy weight I can lift.
But it wasn't my one rep max because I don't, I don't do that.
It was like my reps, how much I can do for 10 reps or 12 reps.
And then it was like my pull ups, like all that stuff.
And then it was also my diet.
My current diet at the time was vegan.
I was a vegan.
Actually, no, I don't think I was a vegan.
I didn't write diet until January 7th, I believe it was, because January 7th, I was vegan.
After I read a book called The China Study, but now I'm not vegan.
I was vegan for like three months.
And then I wrote down one thing towards the bottom because I was just trying to think
like what other stats are there to write because I was, I really only had lifting and my fitness
journey on my mind.
And I also wrote down my weight.
And so I was like, what other things are there?
What other things can I write down?
So I was like, oh, money.
What's my income?
And I wrote down my income and I said zero, zero dollars.
And I was like, I'm probably not going to actually work on that this year.
Nope.
I started working on it.
Probably June or no, July.
Just a couple of months ago I started working on it.
Like I started working on business four months ago.
Or not, I started like learning about business and getting serious.
And then I started actually taking action, real action on my podcast, which you guys
can see look back at time.
It was 95 days ago.
And that, like that's growth right there.
Looking back, there's a concept that I learned about in 10X is easier than 2X.
Looking back at your growth and being with a positive mind, that's called being in the
gain.
So there's a concept called the gap in the gain.
If you look back at your growth and compare it to some unattainable, impossible goal,
like you look at your progress over the past couple months and you're like, oh, I didn't
make as much progress as I wanted.
When you like getting at it yourself for that, that's called being in the gap.
But when you look back at your progress and you like with a happiness and excitement and
joy, that's called being in the gain.
And I like being in the game because that is where you make the most of growth.
You make the most progress.
And it's also, it goes along with a trans surfing principle of coordination.
Everything plays out for you.
Everything works out for you.
So all of this stuff, this journey, it doesn't happen right away.
And it's actually quite, it's going slow.
So in the gateway experience manual for Wave 1, there's a, in like, I don't remember which
part it was in, but some of, one of the things that it said was over time, you'll become,
you'll be able to perceive these, the energies more and more.
And basically it may be that you'll get better and better over time, which is just like going
to the gym per incremental growth over time.
Or the other option is it will be like a flooded dam where you all of a sudden just know and
you can see it all now.
And I feel like that goes along with this business journey, this journey of documenting
my growth.
Because yeah, I'm growing incrementally, like on my RSS.com, my analytics for this podcast,
the graph is incrementally getting better.
Like last month, like in the first month, I had four rolling average subscribers.
And then the second month, it was like six.
And then the third month, it was seven.
And then now it's like six.
But it's like slowly incrementally getting higher and higher.
Like the downloads per month in the beginning, it was low.
And then it was a little bit higher and then slightly higher.
Like that is slow incremental growth.
And I can see that on my TikTok as well.
On my TikTok, when I first started a couple of weeks ago, I had probably, well, I had
zero followers.
And then in like the first couple, in like the first week, I got one follower.
And then every other day, I added another follower and then another.
And now I have like 10 followers.
So that's slow incremental growth.
But I know once, I know this is more possible with the TikTok.
Once I get like one viral video, that will like, that will be like the damn flooding.
And then it'll be, it may or may not be free from there, depending on how much followers
I receive, but it'll definitely be a huge boost.
And on the podcast, I know once certain events happen, for example, once I talk on, like
be a guest on another podcast, once I do that, then I'll get that exposure and then it'll
be like a little boost.
Or once like certain things happen, then I'll be able to really grow more on the podcast,
which I definitely plan on changing the description.
I'm definitely going to change a lot of this stuff on my channel because there is, I wrote
like the description right when I first started and I had no idea what, where the podcast
was going to go.
And right now, it's definitely, I definitely have honed in on my message and I've definitely
started to understand a lot more with what's going on.
So with that said, I definitely plan on changing some stuff on my channel, but I'm going to
take screenshots and I'm going to take, I'm going to like copy and paste everything that
I delete in a Google doc because I still want you guys to be able to see my journey.
I want you guys to see that I started from bad.
And to be honest, I still am bad and it's apparent that I am because I have seven people
listening to me, not the thousands or millions that I want to be listening to me.
So I still have a lot of growth to go and that goes with just my skill as well as the
business, like the quality of the podcast, the like perception that I'm giving to people
because if people click on my channel and they listen to the trailer and it sucks, they're
just going to click away.
And I can tell because my trailer is my most viewed video.
There's like 27 downloads on that trailer.
I think it's 27, but there's like, like my trailers, my most viewed video.
So it makes sense to change the trailer to something that's more how like, should I,
how should I say it better for now?
It's more, it actually represents my current growth, my current phase better, which I may
change the trailer now and I may change it in another hundred days.
Like I'm like in a hundred days, I'm probably going to be a lot better off.
I will be a lot better off.
Like my channel will be a lot better than it is now.
So I'm probably going to change the trailer over time, multiple times.
And that's like, it's just growth.
Like things, you need to change things for growth to happen.
And that's one of the hardest things to do yet.
It's the most powerful and impactful things for your, for your growth change.
It's cause there's, it's like a natural human instinct to not like change.
We like things being consistent.
But if you can overcome that, then you can actually manage to do good.
And one thing that me and my friend Franklin actually did, which was to be honest, it was
a pretty tough thing to do.
It wasn't that hard, but it was like socially difficult.
Cause we're both in a class called business incubator and we are, we initial, our initial
plans were to complete the entire two semester course in one semester.
But then we kind of like didn't like the idea anymore.
And then we also didn't want to do like all that work because we want to focus on our
actual businesses.
And so lately we've, we haven't done anything for the, for that class.
Like we've just been slacking the whole time.
And so we realized that we don't want to do all this stuff.
So we need to find an escape.
Like we need to figure out how to get out of this.
And so we made like this big, we like actually decided to quit the idea and switch groups,
just like join with another group.
So that was like a socially tough thing to do cause we announced it to everyone and people
are like, what?
Like it was, I mean, it, it wasn't like tough, but it was like mentally, it was like mentally
difficult.
Similar to how cold approach, like walking up to a girl and asking them for their number.
That's difficult.
Now, it was not nearly as difficult as that, but you get the idea.
And that's all about like, that's all about making change.
And as a result of that one action that we did, we saved a lot of our own personal time
and mental power.
So that's huge.
All right.
So I want to talk to you about something during summer.
I really locked in on my fitness.
I like lifted and then I went to the park every day, ran, did sprints.
I was like barefoot outside on the park in the sun.
Like my fitness and my health was at a peak.
And then once school started, I was like, oh, I don't have any time to do, I don't have
time to do cardio anymore.
I don't have time to go outside anymore.
So, and also I actually lowered the amount of gym time that I go to now.
So I go to the gym three days on and two days off, which I was using that as an excuse because
I heard that Hamza did that.
He like dropped down his gym time to one day a week just to maintain.
And so I was like, oh, maybe I can do that too.
And then like I'm feeling the effects.
I'm feeling not necessarily the gym, but I'm feeling the effects of not doing cardio.
Cardio is so important to your success.
And I haven't done cardio in a good two months.
I've done a here and there, but not like consistently for two months.
So I'm out of shape and I know it.
Today there's this one thing that I've noticed.
Once people get out of shape and they get like roll into their routine, it's difficult
for them to get back into it.
And I see that time and time again with people around me.
And this morning when I was like reading, I was doing my morning studies and it was the
week, it's the weekend.
So I had extra time.
I took my nap and then studied some more and I was like, oh, I'm kind of losing focus
right now would be a perfect time to go to the park and do some sprints.
And I was like, and I could tell that I was not wanting to do it.
I could tell that I was resisting.
I could tell that was becoming complacent and lazy.
And I want to expose that factor right now.
I want to expose it out in the open publicly because over the past two months, I thought
that it was okay to not do any conditioning.
No, absolutely not.
It's essential.
Your focus is better when you're more crystal.
Like your attention is more dialed in.
Your concentration is stronger.
Everything goes well when you're in good shape.
Video wise, fitness wise, your gym experience is so much better.
I noticed that over summer I was able, I was lifting good and I wasn't really out of breath
after.
And then now when I go to the gym, I'm out of breath.
I'm like breathing.
I'm taking, I have to take time to breathe after every set.
And it's like it affects every single aspect of your life.
Like do you know when, do you ever experience waking up, especially on the weekends and
you like, like I do my normal routine, but this feeling of feeling, feeling like lazy.
Even though I'm studying, I'm not like on my phone, feels lazy because I'm not going
out, I'm not doing physical labor.
I'm not doing like physical exercise.
So something's got to change in my day.
I've got to figure out where I can add in cardio because this is like not acceptable.
Is unacceptable that I am out of shape?
Like that's unacceptable.
So I wanted to expose that on the open and let that be known.
So one other thing, I want to talk, okay, so I want to completely shift the topic.
Go back to my meditations.
If you've been following these past couple of weeks, honestly like this past week or
two, I don't, I don't remember the exact day I started.
Let's just say two weeks ago, I started Wave 2 on the gateway experience and right now
I'm talking about meditation.
So two weeks ago, I started Wave 2 just for argument sake or just for conversation sake.
Let's just say two weeks ago.
I have been like getting into focus 12 three times a day, practicing and practicing because
I know that right away I'm not going to be able to actually achieve focus 12 because I
have not practiced my second body.
So basically when you're meditating or just anytime, you have a second body and that's
like your body that you experience your meditations through out of body experiences and dreaming
as well when you're asleep.
So you perceive all of these things through your second body and if it's out of practice,
it just makes sense.
If you've never practiced it, just like anything else, if you've never practiced juggling,
well then you're not going to be able to do it.
But then once you practice and get those reps in over time after a couple days, weeks, months
of practice, you'll be able to actually do it.
So I see it as the same way for meditation.
I see the gateway experience as helping you be able to be more efficient at practicing.
But you still have to do the practice and I've understood that ever since I started
the gateway experience, which is why I added it to my routine.
I have initially it was two times a day and now it's three times a day.
And it is definitely beneficial to do that.
Like I've definitely noticed that I'm incrementally getting better.
Like I said, there's two routes.
There's either incremental improvement over time or incremental improvement over time
until the damn floods, like the flood, the dam is flooded and then it's a burst of growth.
And so right now for me, it's just incremental improvement.
And one thing that I've noticed, I want to give some context, which I read this in the
gateway experience, wave one manual, but I forgot about it and then I re-read it today.
And in it, there's a, in the frequently asked questions FAQ page, there's one question that
said like, is the surge of light Jesus or is it God?
That was the question.
And so they basically explained that it's common amongst travelers to experience the
like surge of light and like sudden extreme light.
And what that means is that they're becoming more perceptive to these energies and more
perceptive to the deeper focus levels.
And then they said that they don't like endorse any religion or the other.
Like some people may perceive it as Christ, some people Buddha, like they just said that.
But one thing that I realized is that that meant that I'm getting more perceptive.
And if you guys been listening over the past couple, I don't know when I got my first like
flash of light, but a couple, let's just say a couple, like a week ago, I got my first
kind of flash of light.
I was in my meditation and I noticed that I was kind of like dozing off, but I was trying
to stay like disciplined and stay focused.
But I was like tired.
So it was like inevitable that I was going to lose my focus, but I just had to bring
it back and back every time.
And so I noticed that my, I was like, my mind was like losing its control.
It's, it was releasing in script of control.
And then there was like one instant where just for an instant moment, my mind like like
release its control for just a moment.
And in that moment, like my entire, by the way, I, I do my meditations in a pitch black
room.
Like my room is fully optimized for sleep.
It's pitch black.
I nailed, I nailed curtains, blackout curtains on the door frame.
So there's no air like, uh, what's called no light going in through there.
And I nailed it on my window frame as well.
So my room is pitch black.
You can't see a thing in there.
And so when I was in that meditation, my, when my mind like release its control for
one instant moment, like a flash of light, like flooded my perception and my eyes were
closed and my room was pitch black and no one came in my room.
So they couldn't have turned on the lights.
And just for an instant, I saw like just pure brightness, pure light.
And then I was like, whoa, what is that?
And then I like my mind woke up and then it ended.
And then just the other day, maybe like yesterday or two days ago or three days ago, I had a
similar experience, same, same environment, same situation.
I was a little tired and then my mind like clicked out, essentially like my mind like
released its grip.
And then I had the same experience of pure light, except this time there was like three
dark like shadows on, and they looked like human figures.
They looked in the shape of humans, three dark shadows on the bottom right of my perception.
And when I say perception, it's because like I said, it's practiced through second body.
So right now you're not going to be able to perceive the meditations through your physical
senses, your physical body, what you're in right now.
But you have to develop your second body's senses and you have to develop your perception
from your second body.
And that's what I've been doing.
I've been practicing it.
And so my perception was getting clearer, but it was still an instant moment.
I was like, oh, that's cool.
And then today during my meditation just before this episode, I had a similar experience,
except it was not, it was like the same circumstances, same dark environment, same, but I always
sleep in the same position, same bed, same everything, or not sleep, but meditate and
sleep actually, but I don't sleep in the same position.
Okay, whatever.
So I sleep or I meditate in that position.
And this time, like my mind was tired again.
And this time I like clicked out my mind releases grip, except this time it was not like brightness,
it was not pure light.
This time I just saw like this, it looked like a piece of page like a page from a book.
And it was instant, it was another instant moment where I saw a, it looked like black
ink, but it looked like a foreign language and I couldn't make out because it was, I
couldn't make out what it was or what it was saying because it was just an instant moment.
And I saw the, it was like a page like my entire perception was filled with a piece
of paper with black writing on it, black ink that looked like a different language and
I couldn't tell what language it was.
And to be honest, I don't really remember like much other than that.
It was just white page black ink with text throughout the whole thing, just like a piece
of paper from a, taken out from a book, but it was white and black on the, and I instantly
knew it was like, I kind of had the sense that it was a piece of paper with, with like
text on it, but I didn't know what it was.
And when it ended, when my mind woke up, I was like scared, my heart rate rose.
Like when, like in the first two experiences, when I experienced light, I was not scared.
I was like, oh, that was cool.
But this time I was like scared, I was startled and I don't know why.
Like I was scared and I was like, oh my gosh, that was crazy.
And I was, and then I instantly was like, oh, when's the next one going to happen?
Maybe another one will happen in this meditation, which I instantly became conscious of that
because that's an expectation.
You have to drop those expectations.
But that's good.
That's good that these are happening because that is giving me another kind of motivation
or not motivation, but it's giving me another kind of guidepost or sign that I am actually
making progress and I'm actually working towards something better because for the whole first
month I didn't experience anything because I was just doing focus 10.
And to be honest, I believe that all of these experiences occurred in focus 10.
Like right when I got into the meditation, once I got into focus 10, it like happened.
So I don't know.
It may have happened in focus 12, I don't know, but it just shows that I'm getting better.
Like my virtual senses are getting stronger, more used, like they're actually being able
to be used.
And if you guys are interested in like learning what I'm doing, some of the tips that I learned
is in order to build your virtual senses, which for me it's difficult because I don't, I'm
like, I can't visualize, but I can kind of feel.
So I can't like see things in my mind's eye, but I can feel it, if that makes sense, but
I can still kind of see in the sense to, if I could translate it on paper and like draw
out what I can visualize.
For example, I can like draw out my current goal on paper, even though I can't see it,
I can kind of feel it, but whatever.
So pretty much I only see blackness, the only times that I've ever actually experienced
anything other than blackness are when I just see those random like color shapes in my mind,
which are rare, I can't induce them on purpose.
Like sometimes I see like a red shape that changes form constantly, that I don't really
count that.
And the only other time ever is those three experiences during those meditations that
I experienced, the pure light, the pure light with the three dark figures, and then the
like page, a piece of paper with text written on it.
Those are the three times that I've ever actually experienced a like something other than darkness.
And so the strategy that I use to develop my second body, to develop my senses, my virtual
senses basically, is exactly what someone who could visualize well would do.
Because I learned that there are a few ways you can do it.
First of all, you practice, you visualize things that you do in real life.
So that's why once I learned about that, I started visualizing my routine at my slide.
So initially, I was just in my slide, just like walking or like kind of being there,
not really doing anything.
But now I actually have a purpose, I go through my daily routine, more obviously it's more
optimal for like the resources I have at my slide, like my goal.
So basically I visualize my goal, which is my slide.
My slide is me visualize my goal.
By the way, if you're not familiar with that trans surfing term.
So I visualize my goal, which is me at Hawaii, at a nice house that I own on my own, that's
like a beach house that is on my own private beach with surfing waves.
So I visualize my slide, but I go through my routine because I do my routine in real
life.
So basically the first tip is to do things in your visualization that you would do in
real life.
So for me, I wake up and in my real life, I always wake up and then right away, like
do this, like I pick up my blanket and roll it around to like make it a ball and then
pick up my pillow and put it in my closet.
So that's what I do.
The thing I do in my visualization is I wake up from my bed, which is not my normal bed,
what I have now, it's my bed that I plan on having in the future, which is grass.
And I basically pick up my pillow and put it in the closet and then I walk over to my
kitchen and I always, it's like very detailed and I pour my water with all the supplements
and I drink it.
That's pretty much what I like all these things I do in real life.
So that's the first tip for building your virtual senses, do things that you do in real
life.
And then the other tip is to actually use the senses.
So when you're visualizing actually kind of feel things, hear things, taste things,
not just see things because you're visualizing.
So you are practicing that visual sense, but you're missing all of the five other ones
here, taste, smell, touch and see.
Basically what I do is like I said, I have a grass bed in my visualization.
So I wake up and I feel the grass, feel it like on my back, feel it on my hands, my feet
when I stand up.
And then when I'm pouring my water, I hear the water pouring and then I use a like glass
stick kind of thing to spin around the supplements.
So I hear like that clicking, like that clanging noise.
And then I kind of try to taste the water, which I'm not good at the taste, but and I
actually haven't tried to do this.
I have tried to do the smell.
The worst that smell, second worst that taste, and then I can kind of do here, but and I
can do touch.
So for me, the order of easiness is see, touch, ear, taste, smell.
I'm pretty sure that's like I can see and feel things pretty easily and taste or in
here things pretty easily.
So that's like those are the two tips that I have for developing that roots.
Like do your things that you do in real life, physical life, I should say, because everything
is real.
And then do things that you are and actually practice the senses.
So actually develop those senses.
And then the third tip is just practice.
Like it's not going to happen in a week.
If you're at my position, it's going to happen in like a month or a year.
Who knows?
Like it's not going to happen right away and practice a lot to practice often.
So that's pretty much what I do for that.
Let me get some water.
So like I said, I had that another meditative experience, the piece of paper with text on
it.
So that's three times I've had something.
And they're happening quicker and quicker next to each other.
Like the first time happened and then I had to wait like a week and then the second one
happened and then a couple of days and then the third one happened.
So that tells me two things.
I'm getting better.
Like I'm actually building my virtual senses, which is it's telling me that I'm actually
doing the right things.
Like I'm actually helping build my senses because I've been doing this for over a week
or over a month, three times a day.
And there's definitely been times where I'm like, is this, am I really doing this?
Like is this actually helping me?
Because I haven't seen any physical tangible results other than those three experiences.
So like the whole first month, I did not experience anything.
And to be honest, like even like the first week of focus 12, I didn't experience anything.
Like I'm just starting to experience this stuff.
And to be honest, from someone who just the other a couple of months ago when I was reading
Transurfing and I found out that I can't visualize just from that.
And someone that thought that, oh, I'll never be able to visualize.
It's just like a genetic thing.
No.
Now I'm like, this is growth because now I know that I'm actually going to be able to
visualize because it's not just visualize.
It's I'm stepping into the second body.
Like I'm, I'm learning about the focus levels as well.
And I'm realizing that focus 10 is mind body, mind awake body asleep.
That's basically the first kind of stage of you separating from your physical body.
You're actually like forgetting about your physical body and your like soul is kind of
traveling through the second body.
But the mind of awake body sleep, your, your body is asleep, but you can still kind of
perceive senses from it.
You can still take it.
It's just a little like censored or a little bit, um, not what's, I don't know the word.
There's a, there's a good word for this, but I forgot.
And then focus 12 is the first state of expanded awareness where you can still kind of perceive
your physical body a little bit, but you're more and more aware that you're, you're more
and more aware of your second body.
And then focus 15 is the state of no time, which you barely perceive your physical body
and you're more aware of your second body.
So like you're even higher awareness.
So I see the further down your focus levels you get, that's when, that's when you start
to actually like, okay, so in waking life, I still can't visualize like right now I can't
visualize.
Um, I don't think I'd be able to have that same experience that I experienced three times
like the brightness and the card or the paper with text.
I don't think I'd be able to experience something like that in waking life, which tells me that
this is actually real.
Like right now I'm in my physical body, but then once you get in your meditation, the
deeper and deeper you get, the more and more into your second body you get, which actually
gives me hope because that means that I'll be able to perceive things.
Once I build up practice as well as actually getting deeper levels of focus, which I've
only bought wave one and wave two, which if I had the money, I'd buy wave three right
now, but I don't have any money to be honest.
And I'm saving my money to use on the members like the subscriptions for my podcasting stuff.
And so I don't have money to buy the wave two or four or wave three or four.
If I did, I'd buy them right now.
I'd buy wave three, four and five right now.
But with that said, I've basically just been doing the second exercise, which is like,
like the questioning.
It's like basically where you send a question out and you receive an answer from your higher
self.
And I've just been doing that one on repeat, even though it's like not, I haven't actually
been doing the question.
I haven't been following along with that.
I just been doing my own thing because that's like, that's the one that is not talked on
the most.
Like it's talked on the lease on that one.
Like Robert Monroe talks the least on that one.
So that's the one I chose to repeat.
And like I'm practicing more and more, but I'm only on focus 12 and I did try to get
to focus 15, which I think I might have actually gone to focus 15.
I just can't perceive it.
Same thing with focus 12.
I can't perceive it yet because I haven't built up practice.
So I had to, and then I also tried to get into focus 21, which again, I don't think that
I didn't perceive.
I didn't perceive anything in that.
But I did try and do, I basically like counted from 12 to 15 by like seeing the colors correlated
with it.
So focus 12 is green and then focus 13 is purple and then focus 14 is white and then
focus 15 is blue and then focus 16 is red and then focus 17 is yellow and then 18 is
rose and then 19 is, what is it?
Green.
Is that right?
Yeah, green.
Wait.
Blue, red, yellow, green and then 20 is purple.
Wait, I missed one.
Blue, red, yellow, rose, green, purple.
All right, so 20 is purple and then 21 is white.
So those are the seven resident colors.
I learned about that in the seven resident colors book.
It's not like a book.
It's like a packet or a document.
It's 100 pages long and I recommend reading that because it's very interesting and it
helps you learn a lot.
So I basically read that and I'm not done with that.
I'm only on like focus 24, which it goes through all the focus levels out of 49.
So I'm only on focus 24 on that one.
So I've just been reading it at school because I don't have anything else to read at school
other than that.
So I've just been doing it there.
And it's definitely helpful because I learned about how you actually get from focus 15 to
21 by imagining those colors and then counting to 21.
And I try to do that but it's unsuccessful and I believe that it's simply because I haven't
practiced it.
So it may be that focus 12 is like the foundation to all of this.
Like I see focus 10 as the foundation to my whole entire gateway experience because you
have to get to focus 10 to access all this other stuff.
But then I also, it may be focus 12 as the foundation to the rest simply because focus
12 is where you build the virtual senses.
So I have a theory that I am wanting to confirm once I actually get good enough where once
you build the virtual senses using focus 12, then that will actually be able to translate
and then you won't have to like start over from scratch once you get to focus 15.
So what I'm saying is once you build focus 12 and you're able to perceive it fully,
then maybe like I said, I have not experienced any of this stuff yet.
So this is just my theory.
Maybe once you have like, have your second body developed, then once you move to focus
15, you won't have to start seeing nothing in darkness.
I don't know.
But yesterday I cut out the outro to the episodes.
So I'm just going to say follow for more.
That feels weird.
I'm going to say follow for more and have a good day.