What are we doing?
What kind of life are we living right now?
We've got global warming about it wipe us all out and we don't even care
We're all living a fake life artificial life me included. I'm just learning of the truth. I
heard
This one quote the truth will set you free. I believe Jesus said it the truth will set you free
I'm just starting to learn about
The reality of the situation we're in. I'm just starting to learn about how we've been
Brainwashed all our lives in the system. I'm just starting to figure out that I
May not even have 50 years ahead of me on this earth. I may not even have 25 years left
It may not even have one year
I'm just starting to learn of all this stuff and I've just read one book so far
Not even halfway done
Dancing after the music stops and this is book one of
Like 180 books on the ultimate reading list for human beings
Just book one
And I'm already seeing major shifts in my thinking
How I perceive things
All around everything
My meditation today was the best that it's ever been every single day. I'm getting better and better at my meditation
I'm getting deeper and deeper. I'm getting
better and better and right now my goals for meditation is simply just to build my
Virtual senses to actually develop them because
We all have our five senses that we experience right now
but
We not everyone has their virtual senses built up. So when you're
Meditating and you are in focus 12
Right now all I see is blackness I have to create an image I have to
focus
the way that it works is I
Have to kind of fall asleep and lose focus but also direct my attention towards something and then whenever I realize something is happening I
Instantly become conscious of it and then it's and it ended it ends like in
Dancing after the music stops. I was reading it today and he said that
Eventually the truth will shine through like eventually there will be a crack and
The truth will shine through and you can actually make it make the crack
Bigger and have more light shine through
quicker
by being in solitude and
so that was that image of just light shining through was in my mind at the time and
When I'm meditating I
Sometimes my mind kind of wanders and like kind of falls asleep. I lose consciousness, but then like images appear
It's weird because
During my day, I can't visualize
But if I just fall asleep like my mind like falls asleep. I lose conscious or my I just
My consciousness is asleep
Then I can actually visualize and see images. It's quite weak. It's pretty weird
And I noticed that every single time I become conscious of it and like see it
Then it just instantly goes away and that same thing happened when I was meditating
today I was just
Meditating normal and then I kind of lost my mind drifted away and then I just saw this massive ray of light
shine like
Instantly just for a moment my whole entire eyes like lit up and
Then it and then I became conscious of it and I was like, oh, that's cool
And then it instantly ended
just the moment I came conscious of it and I
I feel as though it's because
My mind is holding me back
Because you're only limited by your own limitations you place upon yourself
That you are weak we are gods
So the only limitations we have are those that we place upon ourselves
And so I feel as though when my mind wandered I lost I like gained those visual senses
for an instant and then once I
realized that it was happening my mind instantly took control of the situation and
It ended and so I lost the ability to perceive that event and
So what I'm doing is just practicing because I feel as though I can develop the skills for my mind
to
Be able to see this while it's conscious and also it will be the more and more I feel like I
Have three core. I have a core three. This is my
framework that I'm living by right now in my current
Current life right now my core three is
Spirituality which I'm doing through meditation
World view which I'm doing through books
Which is like discovering the truth and then the third one is documentation which I'm doing through this podcast as well as
recording shorts to post on tiktok and YouTube and
So I feel like they're all connected the documentation obviously because I'm documenting everything that I learned along the way
But I feel like especially the meditation as well as the worldview
the spirituality as well as the
discovering the truth are both connected because
Like I said my mind instantly tried to take control of the situation
That's because I'm still in my I'm still brainwashed and I'm just trying to chip away
I told my friend today that
We're at school and like I can't wait until school is over for us because I
Am doing it now, but especially once school is over
I'm gonna lock in on the inner work and just instantly start chipping away at all of the
layers that school has like
Built upon in my brain
Chip away at everything that school put into my worldview
And that's what the inner work is all about. That's what the meditation the spirituality is all about
but it's also
Like I said when I had that moment of I had an instant moment of actually perceiving something in my meditation today
But it instantly disappeared because my mind decided to take control because my mind is still under
society's sway and
And so I feel as though once I start learning all of this stuff and reading all these books
Then my mind will be more open to these new ideas because I noticed that
reality trans surfing
Absolutely shattered my worldview and I actually it destroyed my mind so much that I had to stop like I didn't have to but
I chose to stop reading it for the first time through
because it was like
Shattering my like everything I knew so I couldn't handle it emotionally
And I eventually finished it and then I eventually read it a second time through and that's the first book first and only book that I've read so far
That has shattered my worldview
And I have a feeling that these books to come
especially die wise come of age ascent on humanity and the Egypt code as
well as journey out of bodies are
Are all gonna shatter my worldview again and
They're in all their own way because I'm learning about how
one of the themes in a sense of humanity is we are
separated from nature and
separated from ourselves
which is the root cause of our stuff like of the the cause of
how our reality is being destroyed as we know it and then I also know
That in die wise it's all about how we live in a society
And I'm talking about American society as well as like North American society
I'm pretty sure
America and Canada
like Western civilization lives in a society where death is feared and death is not talked about and people
Don't talk about it and it seemed it seems as something as a disease like it's not supposed to happen. It's unnatural
when
the fear of death is what creates
Mediocracy the fear of death is what creates drones and one of my favorite one of the quotes that stuck to me so far in
in
dance after music stops is
The school system turns gods into drones and
It's it's the school system. It's our worldview. It's our fear of death
And I'm realizing that that's one of the big pillars in expert secrets a business book that I've
read before
he talked about
the big domino
Which is basically the one big
belief that if you can like if the one big false belief that if you can like topple for your customer
Then they will believe everything you're saying so for example if you're trying to convert someone to Christianity
Then the one false belief the one big domino that you have to get them to believe in is the Bible
Like if you can get them to believe in the Bible then everything else
Falls into line and they believe into Christianity as a whole and so
for I feel like there are many different big dominoes that I have to push over to start the healing process from this extremely
destructive society that I've
Been born into one of the big dominoes is the fear of death and that that is one of the pillars as well as
my spirituality being disconnected as
well as the
reconnecting with nature and
with each other and
I feel like there's a lot more and
Reconnecting with my higher self as well
there's I feel like there's a lot more big dominoes that I'm yet to discover but these are the biggest ones that I've seen to
have come across so far and
Talk about the fear of death. I really feel like I
Think that he talks about that in die wise and I
Have seven books that I'm reading right now a scent of humanity die wise come of age
the Egypt code
journeys out of the body toof the priestess and
dance to the music stops and
The reason why I bought them all seven is because I wanted to
Try out this reading method to read them all at once like pick up one read inside lose focus
And then switch the next one and then switch and then switch and I tried it out and I decided that it's not for me
I don't like it
It doesn't work. One of the reasons is because for four of the books are
Pretty hard reads like they're way outside of my worldview and they're also very lengthy books as well as
they're written at a very high reading level
To where I I'm not really able to understand what they're saying much like I don't understand much of what they're saying and
So I find that when I was on those books
I would just read like a page and then I move on because I wanted to read like
Dancing after the music stops and toof the priestess and journeys out of the body
Which are three that quicker reads that I wanted to read but
That's why I am
Switching back to just reading one book at a time and the book that I chose to read first out of the seven in that pile is
Dancing after the music stops and I'm already halfway done with it because it's fairly quick read even though it's like
380 pages long
But there's a lot of pictures and there's a lot of pages where there's just no like there's just a few words on it
and I feel like that book is like the found like a very good introduction book to the entire list because
The guy who compiled the reading list Jean Pasco reman
The ultimate reading list for human beings that I'm following right now
He actually wrote dancing after the music stops
Which is like a compilation of everything that he learned in the past few years
Including all of those books that he read on the reading list
So I felt it was a good introduction to the reading list
And so that's what I picked first and then the next book that I'm gonna read is either a journey out of the bodies or
die wise because I
Really want to get into die wise soon because I feel like that will be one of the biggest
most impactful things for me because so many times in the past
Like past reading I've noticed that
Death and like you being on your deathbed is like a common theme amongst them all I've heard the saying that
every single fear is the fee like stems from the fear of death and
so me learning that
The fear of death is actually deeply rooted in the Western society Western civilization
The fear of death is deeply rooted
in grained into our brains to produce
like
ordinary drones like ordinary average mediocre citizens
then I want to destroy that and
replace it with something new
And so that's why I want to get into die wise because there's
It's number one on Gene Pascal Riemann's reading list and I feel like it's number one for a reason
and
more and more I'm really locking in to
the gateway experience and meditating because
More and more the more and more I read
Dancing after the music stops
The more and more it confirms my suspicions and makes me want to actually experience these higher levels of awareness and actually
Reach like focus 27 and focus 49
And
Like every single day it's getting I'm getting closer and closer. I'm getting better and better
Like my senses are strengthening more and more I
I
Still like see blackness
But like today I had that one brief moment of that light shining
Which I think is
spark of hope
Which in the moment I didn't really think anything of it. I just thought it was just something weird
But in hindsight, I know that that's like what they're talking about those those
experiences and
also, I'm I say what I'm about to say with
with conscious awareness and a little hold back because I
Don't want to hold expectations, but I also want to
Mention something I learned that in what I don't know where I read it probably like one of the gateway experience manuals or guidebooks
They said that
You may experience
You may get better and better at meditation slowly and surely just slow and sure progress
Which is what's happening right now
or you may
Get like an instant
Epiphany or an instant
Like you may see blackness and then in an instant everything changes like a flip of a switch and now you are
able to perceive all of this stuff like it's a dam breaking like a dam like all the water bursting through the dam and
So I I'm
Avoiding holding expectations for that being the case for me, but I'm also pushing through with the knowledge that
You never know what's gonna happen in the next meditation
It may be like it's been always where I slowly but surely improve
But it also may be a huge moment. So that's why every single time I'm making sure
That I maintain super strong focus because that's another thing that I learned in seven resonant colors
Maintain strong focus like
It's all about keeping strong focus and when your mind drifts and you I forgot what they were mentioning
It may in fact be to create that thought as a guardian
Like if you have a thought persisting and then you turn it into a guardian where you basically
Personify that thought and give it a throne room like give it a room a throne room and a throne to sit on and of
character in a mouth to speak through and
Then the more and more I'm pretty sure this is what it's relating to but the more and more like
Triumphs you have over your thoughts
The more
energy you get in the form of concentration and focus in the form of focus and
So I know that it's all about focus having high concentration and being extremely focused
And so that's why I'm really locking in like
Lately over the past maybe four days all of my meditations before
It's strange because my meditations in the morning and nighttime are fine and they're normal
But it's weird because it's it always seems to be the meditation right before this podcast
Where I'm like falling asleep, and I'm very distracted and I'm like
Low concentration low focus my mind is drifting a lot and I start to fall asleep and
That was the case for the beginning of this
meditation that I had today and
Then I like something flipped some
Something changed. I don't know if it was that light. I doubt it because I didn't really think anything of the light at the time
But it may just be the fact that I remember
Gratitude and love is universal in dancing after music stops
He mentioned that once you get to the highest levels of conscious awareness once you like
once you achieve the highest level of focus or the highest level of
Consciousness then you realize that like the last level of life
the last level of the game is just a level of pure love and
And so what I tried to evoke in my?
Meditations it wasn't till halfway through like in the beginning I kind of forgot about it
But then halfway through I remembered about love and gratefulness
and so I started to evoke it in
the meditation where I was just
One like towards the end of my
Once I finished my routine where I visualize my goal
Do my like routine in my goal? I?
Ended up ended off the
Meditation by the last like however long it was maybe five ten minutes maybe one minute. I don't know
Just
Visualizing myself on my beach that I'm gonna have in the future
With a campfire lit and it's like dark out and I'm just sitting out in solitude because that's another thing
solitude is
Extremely good like that's when
He's he mentioned that if you are if you spend a month in solitude then you will raise
Or I don't remember what he said it was something to do with like your awareness or your inner your higher cell
he said he said something about solitude and
the fact that solitude is like extremely beneficial for my goals right now like
like meeting up with my hair self and like merging with my hair self and my spirituality and all that I
Started visualizing myself in solitude on the beach in the in the darkness with the
sky the all the stars in the sky with
A campfire right in front of me, and I'm just sitting there listening to the waves crash
listening to the campfire crackle and
This is helping me with my senses as well as feel the true love and be in solitude
so I figured that since
another thing that I
Kind of he's bringing up a lot is that you are the totality of the universe like everything in the universe is
Like the entire universe is inside your mind like everything that is
Is in the universe is inside your mind which I have been like
Semi aware of that because in Transurfing
You are the creator of your reality and your thoughts are actually the creator of your reality, so
You send out your thought form into the world and then the world creates that like thought into
Reality and then that is like your reality, so I was kind of aware of that but that put it into more words and
so me I
Figured that me visualizing this is
Just as good or at least as good as it can get for my situation right now
to
Be to get these benefits of solitude and to get these benefits of love and being in nature and reconnecting with nature and
Reconnecting with my ourself my spirituality
re like healing my spirituality and
I feel as though
It's very beneficial to do this meditation to follow all these principles in
In my meditation because and I said that I said something about like a moment ago about my current situation. I
Don't want to lead you guys the wrong way. I I have the full capacity to change my situation
I could just drop out. I could just move and like go on my own
But I'm still choosing to stay and that's another thing that I've been struggling with lately
After reading dance after music stops. I know that I'm choosing to go through this
this
terrible
Machine of a school system. I'm still choosing to stay in this society. I'm still choosing to be here
I could just take the leap
But I feel as though I want to
To still have the time I
Have a lot of like logical reasoning behind my choice in staying
But then it's also
That's just logic and that's just my mind being reasonable. I
Don't know. I I feel as though I'm on the right path even if I stay home right now
because
Just like my core three as long as I keep up my core three which is spirituality through meditating
worldview and finding
discovering the truth finding the truth through books as
well as documentation through podcasts as long as I continue those it will lead me to my life that I
truly desire and the life that I am creating at the moment as we speak the life that I'm creating
Because each one of those has its peace in my
In my future
Podcasts will handle the monetary side of things
The worldview will help me reading will help me
learn about all of this stuff and
how to heal from it and then the
Meditation will actually help me heal and help me
Carve away all of these layers of plaque that society has built in my worldview into my mind and
Heal and then as well as
discover my true power
Like I said all or all
All the stuff that I'm saying right now is just words like a lot of this stuff
I'm just saying is just words and I'm just learning about it in real time and
It's slowly starting to actually become part of my worldview
But I'm just learning about this stuff
And in like
Honestly and
Honestly every single with every passing day I'm getting better and better more and more
and I have a feeling that
Everything is gonna radically change in the next hundred days
next
365 days
everything's gonna radically change over the following months and
I'm ready for it
I'm doing everything every day
So
In the I think that in the beginning of this podcast I was saying that we need to start living and
I'm realizing that
Global warming is actually much worse than I
expected
Because we're actually like
It's actually way closer than I thought like the year 2035 is
predicted to be the year when we actually start like losing our food and
The the middle class is slowly starting to disappear
And I'm part of the middle class and so I assume that the middle class is gonna become
Lower class and it's just gonna be lower upper class and then the poor are gonna get poorer and poorer
And so right now in my current situation, I am not gonna have a good future
But I am
Controlling my that's me in creating my reality
And I I intend to be a part of the upper class
By the time the hard times start to hit that's why we need to lock in right now lock in create our business
lock in create a life that we actually
Are happy about living like there is enough media not enough with
Mediocracy enough with average normalness
Like enough with all of that
garbage
because if we
Just bear with me
Let's say 10 years from now is when things just start to go downhill
We start to lose our food sources. We start to lose nature. We start to lose our world as we know it
People are suffering
That's 10 years
We are on the brink of catastrophe within the like in a decade
So let's say it happens in 10 years. I'll be 28
So I'll have lived most of my 20s and I plan on setting myself up. This is why I'm focusing so much on my foundation
My spirituality my worldview because I I am setting myself up for the future
Because I'm 18 right now and I plan on being
financially free to start to live my life during my entire 20s. So then I'll have
10 years to
enjoy life and live exactly how I plan and
Then by the time things go get hard
I'll be ready because I'll have all the resources I need to push through it and actually survive it
Like I'll be better off because I chose to put in the work now and I chose to change things
And
For some reason I'm starting to get a lump in my throat. I don't know why
Like we tough times are ahead and we need to be prepared
Like I have been working on business for the past four months I
Knew that this is the path I wanted to take entrepreneurship and
More and more I'm getting more and more convinced that this is the right path forward
Especially now that I'm learning about like the demise of the world as we know it
It's pushing me even more because now I know that
We had to start living life. It's time to break free from this concrete
World that we live in it's time to leave the school system
And I feel as though
Every every passing day it's getting harder and harder mentally for me to stay in school even though I
Literally have less than 70 days until I'm done and that's not even school days. That's just 70 days
70 days from now. I'll be done with school. I
Have way less
Time in school probably like 40 or 50 days maybe maybe less
But every single day like I talked to my friend this morning he was he was like
We're just talking and I was like dude. This is
This is the hardest time
mentally for me of my entire life because I'm going to school and
I'm discovering the truth like
School was hard in the first place to get through during the day. That's why I became a part-time student
That's why I'm graduating early school is hard already
But now that I'm discovering the truth and now my worldview is changing now
I'm actually learning about how and why school is so bad and what it's doing to us
It's becoming even harder and harder
and
I also have built up this extremely strong foundation in my school because in school
There's a grading system and that's the way they determine if you succeed or not or the way you you pass or not and
I
Have straight A's and
So I was telling my friend that I have straight A's and I I believe that if I do nothing for the rest of the year
Turn in nothing. I think that I'll still pass because you have to have a D to pass I
Believe that I'll still pass for the rest of you because we're halfway done and I have like perfect scores in all my classes
Or at least in like a few weeks if I maintain this grade and a few weeks
I can do nothing so that gives me some very good
mental space because I kind of locked in on school in the first semester first quarter and
Now this leaves me the second quarter to kind of just not care not give a F
No F's given
Yes, I'm still gonna turn in my work, but I'm not gonna turn in good quality work
I'm just gonna do random stuff like in in my fourth period class today. My sports lit
we had to listen to an audiobook and
We had to answer questions about it on a Google form and
I was basically just looking off of the person that I sit in front of I was basically copying some of his stuff and
Then he submitted it before I could see the rest so I literally just
Wrote in a bunch of gibberish and turn in it
Like that's how much I don't care anymore
Especially in that class as long as we turn in something of content we get a hundred percent
so
That's easy
Things are things are moving forward and I really believe that I'm on the right path forward
And the main thing that I'm working on in my spiritual spiritual journey my meditation is just practicing my senses because I know that
all of this stuff
past focus 10 like
all of the every single focus level
involves a virtual body like once you get into the focus 12 you enter a virtual body essentially
So you and the more deeper the deeper and deeper you get into the focus levels the less and less
physical inputs you receive so the more and more your consciousness is
inside of the
Utility of the universe and the less and less your consciousness is actually listening to your body
so the way I see it is
the deeper you get
inside of
Focus levels so basically I focused 10
Your body is asleep your mind is awake. So you have reduced
Used sensory input like you you can still feel senses from your body
You can still feel things and hear things and see things or
You can still feel things from your body
And then once you get focus 12, that's the state of expanded awareness and then you
Actually feel your body a lot less and you actually like experience a lot less inputs
And then once you get to focus 15, that's the state of no time and I have not been to focus 15 yet
But I imagine that you can't even like you barely feel your body
And then the more deeper and deeper you get focus 21 focus 27 deeper and deeper you get the less
You can actually feel your body and I imagine that focus 27 you don't even feel your body
and so in that sense you enter a
Higher your higher self or you enter your second body, which is basically
Your like virtual body your imaginary body
Yet, it's real you enter your virtual body. And so right now my virtual body is
Very weak because I never developed it. It's like I believe it's like a skill
Right now, I don't even I barely feel any senses from this virtual body
and if I do it's for a brief moment and
I can barely perceive things just like I said about that
Flash of light that I perceive for an instant moment and then it instantly left
Like I barely perceive things and this is because I see it as my virtual body is not developed
And it's like a low level right now, but the more and more I practice with it the more and more I develop it
Then it'll get stronger and stronger until it'll actually be natural for me to actually walk around and perceive things
And
That's why I'm really focusing on my senses during my meditation
building up my virtual body building up all these virtual senses because
This is I feel like this is the foundation like if you want to even experience these higher focus levels
You need to have the vehicle to get there and you need to have the vehicle to actually see it and feel it and
experience it one of my goals is to be in
focus 27 and
like reach these other
Beings like these other human souls that are in focus 27 and
Learn from them and be guided by them and get a mentor and
And so I
I'm locking in on the five senses because I feel like you really need to build your senses to be able to even perceive any of this stuff
Like I've never been able to even visualize and so now I'm gonna be able to learn how to visualize. I just have to build up the senses and
Another thing that another thing that I did during my meditation was I just had this
I just did it naturally like I didn't really think to do it. I just did it and
it was because I'm learning more about the school system and how it's like destroying me and
Yet I'm still going so I need some sort of protection and I know that the
Resonant energy balloon helps you for helps protect you and so I had that on my mind as well as the school system was destroying me
And then I also had the higher self on my mind
so in focus 12 at the end I was like
Protect me from school or protect me at school protect me during school
And that's just I just did that and I actually feel like that's helped a lot. I
Don't know what
Like a lot of times I can tell that whether my meditation was good or bad or whether I got a lot out of the meditation
by
how I feel after it and
I did based on my feelings after today's meditation I
can tell that I definitely got a lot out of it because I
got up
Stretched sat up and my mind was completely tranquil. It was like at peace and
And then it was like completely cleared as well every once a while a few thoughts popped in but for the most part
It was like very clear. I was in that meditative state and
Then slowly but surely it did go back to like it's normal, but like that's how I could tell
When I get better at that
And I want to talk more about that metaphor that I said about scraping away the black
left in my brain by the school system and
I really think that's extremely important especially now while I'm in the school system because
The way I see it is my whole life
I was part of the system my whole life. I lived in this concrete box grew up
Getting taught a bunch of lies about reality getting taught a bunch of garbage and
And
The way I see it is I have a broken world view right now
Which is considered a normal world view, but the way I see it is it's broken. It doesn't reflect the reality of things and
so I
Have to kind of
scrape it like I have to slowly but surely
work on
destroying it and
shaping it back to how I how it should be and
and trans reading trans surfing has actually like done a big
Very good job at like destroying it and shaping it to what it's supposed to be
Reading all these books are actually helping a lot
But one thing that is actually helping
tremendously is
meditating because the inner work
Like ever since I heard this one quote from Eman Gazi
Most people don't do the inner work and that's why they're not successful
Like ever since I heard that I've always like been
Thinking about the inner work and I've obsessed over it because I'm just constantly
Working on the inner work because I believe that that is exactly what will help me develop this
like character that I want to become and world that I want to shape and
And so one like meditation has helped so much just plain meditation
I've been doing meditating consistently for the past like four months. Maybe three months and
In the first few months like three or two or three months
I was simply just sitting and clearing my thoughts sitting in silence
Just clearing my thoughts not doing any exercises in my mind
and
That was helping and I definitely felt that that was like clearing all of the
it was helping to clear and
Kind of heal my mind and my focus and my concentration and my attention. It was helping to
Undo what tick tock did tick tock
Destroyed my mind social media
YouTube all that stuff destroyed my mind in the sense where it lowered my attention span a
Reduce my focus my concentration all that so just plain meditation helped to
Bring my focus back and my attention to my concentration back
But then it wasn't until I started to do
Exercises like I did I started the gateway experience and in that you
The first exercise that you do
Every single meditation is called the energy conversion box is basically where you place in a bunch of
bad things into it
So there's like eight or nine things that I place into it every single exercise and
that I felt was the first step to actually like
Do the inner work and clean up all the garbage that is in my mind because I see my mind as a
Just I see my mind as land and then when you grow up in a society like what I grew up in
the American society
Normal the Western civilization if you grow up in that
Then over your lifetime like or even over in your childhood
They start dumping trash into your sacred land like they dump trash through the school system
they dump trash
rapidly through
TikTok and social medias and
It eventually your mind your sacred land your sacred space becomes a dump and that's why most people can't even control
their attention from a
Long period of time they can't even control their attention for more than like three seconds
Which that was me a few months ago now
I'm able to control it for maybe like 15 seconds and then I lose control so I still have a long way to go
but I
I feel as though my whole life
I've been dumping a lot of trash in it and so now I have to start cleaning it up and
Meditation and doing the energy conversion box really helps to clean that up
Reading really helps to find all the trash and help me
Like figure out because I definitely know that once I start reading like die-wise
I'll be able to pinpoint a lot a big trash area because currently the death
Thing like being afraid of death is kind of unknown to me
So I don't know where that trash pile is in my mind once I start reading die-wise
I'll be able to know exactly what to do during my meditations
And I'll slowly but surely start to put in like certain things in the energy conversion box as well as add affirmations
and I found that affirmations actually help a lot because
Tiktok especially has like shaped my mind to
Look at girls and women
sexually and like
basically look at them and
basically idolize them and
just all around
Not good for my mental
And that was a bad thing and I still like do this to this day
But I found that energy conversion box. I put girls in the energy conversion box
That helps but another thing that is extreme like one of the better things that that I've done
to kind of fix this is
State in my affirmation. I am a man with high standards when it comes to women
Simple as that. I just say that three times in my affirmation and
Every single time I see it like a girl
That I would like lost over I always just I've been more like usually I would just instantly fall asleep and
just like stare or not even stare but like think about them and like all that
garbage that society has basically
taught us to do
But now I actually have this moment where I actually start to wake up and I'm starting to wake up a lot more and more
To the point where a lot of times when I instantly see
Like catch a sight of a girl I
Instantly like say I'm a man with high standards when it comes to women and I say I'm like I've
standards high standards and
That like does two things it allows me not to chase a
like low quality girl
Not to waste energy on low quality girl as well as it keeps me focused
Keeps me focused on my mission because these are all distractions around me
and
That's another that's a one quote that I read in the book dance. That's me as a sasua's I
Forgot what it was. It was like the average man chases
Like fake girls or low quality girls and
Like the
Mediocracy is all about low quality girls like fake fake girls or something like that
But I understand the concepts and it's basically just don't go for low quality
Don't chase low quality
Focus on your mission focus on your purpose
my friend a couple weeks ago
He's one year younger than me and he was asking me if he said he has girl problems and he was like
I want a girlfriend. I'm like and then he was like do you have a girlfriend? I said no he said
Do you want to get a girlfriend? I was like no
I gotta stay on my I have to stay on my purpose stay on my mission
And he was like well, do you think I should get one and I said no, absolutely not you need to stay focused on your mission
Stay focused on your purpose because these are all distractions and
the thing is I
Heard Hamza talk about it one time where
you
He basically went through a few girlfriends and he found that he like outgrew them
And he was on self-improvement and by the time within like a few months
He had grown so much as a man and improved himself so much and the girl the woman the woman couldn't keep up
And so he broke up and then went to a different one and then the same thing happened
And then he decided to stay alone for a little bit because you simply outgrow them like
another thing is in
like
one year two years
We're gonna be so far ahead of like everyone else
We're gonna be so far ahead of everyone else like in our society in our school because if you look around
Look around at everyone surrounding you
They they don't even like most people aren't even on self-improvement and the people that are on self-improvement
Like they're not even like learning about spirituality and meditation and like getting deep into this stuff
They're not they're not listening to this podcast. They're not learning about the gateway experience. They're not learning about
The world and how we're dying like the world is dying global warming. They're not worried about spirituality
And I'm so grateful that I went down this path
Because all around me I see people
Now I've kind of started to tune it out which is good because before I I got into a lot of
Before I actually
Especially when I was first becoming conscious of this I was extremely aware of the people around me and how everyone was asleep
Everyone was on their phones
But I'm starting to nail it like I don't even notice people on their phones anymore
I don't notice people like being asleep. I don't notice like this stuff much anymore
Which is good because it's starting to exit my worldview. I'm starting to tune all this stuff out because it's a waste waste of energy and
It's just a matter of time just maintain this path and then
Over time I'll add more and more things to my routine like I'll add more
I'll add more get rid of more like one of another quote is is easier to be great by
Getting rid of things than to add things like
if you
Want to see through a window that has like a bunch of post-it notes or pictures on it
It's easier to see through it if you get rid of a bunch of that stuff rather than add a little bit more stuff to it
Like the ability to get rid of things is one of the greatest abilities all I remember when I was
First getting self-improvement and I was like, oh, I'm never gonna delete YouTube or oh, I'm never gonna delete
Tiktok or Instagram. Oh, I'm not gonna not go on my phone
Oh, I'm not never gonna delete clash of clans like clash clans was a big game that I played throughout my childhood and
I developed like
My base a lot on that game and I was like, oh, I'm never gonna delete this
I'm just I'm gonna have this on my phone for the rest of my life and I'm gonna play it all of
Throughout my entire life and I'm gonna show my kids how good I am
and
Then literally like a week later. I deleted the app. I deleted the game. I haven't I haven't downloaded that ever since and
I'm not on my phone anymore
The only reason I am on my phone at all is to record shorts every day and then post it and that's it
That's all I do on my phone
Like the ability to just delete things from your life is so valuable
I was holding my self back for so long
Just holding on to the phone holding on to YouTube all that stuff
and
I remember junior year towards the end of the year. I was really going through the
I was going through all my social medias and I was just deleting my accounts. I wasn't just deleting the apps
I was deleting my entire account off of the app and
And there if you've ever deleted an account, you know that there's a 30-day period of where you delete the account and then
If you log in within 30 days your account gets reactivated
So you have to wait 30 days until it's completely deleted
and so I did that for all of my
like social media stuff and
I remember those 30 days were a very long and like kind of stressful period of my
Junior year not because I was like wanting to get on it
But because I wanted it to be deleted so soon. I wanted it to be gone
I wanted it just be out of out of sight out of mind
and
That was one of the best decisions that I've ever made
because even if it was deleting the actual account
Was so much better of a decision. I got so much more benefit out of it than simply
deleting the app and maintaining the account because I
was I remember over summer when I was telling my friend about this and
Like I had deleted social media for quite some time, but my friend hadn't he just deleted the apps. He didn't delete his accounts and
So I remember telling him about this and I was like, well, you got to delete the accounts because the moment you
Like delete it. It just gets
deleted out of your subconscious
Like when you completely eradicate it and have no point of return it's deleted off your subconscious
And so you instantly alleviate so much more mental energy
So the ability to delete things off of your life is so valuable and
Right now one of the biggest things that I'm struggling with to delete out of my life is school
It will be deleted automatically in 70 70 days, but I
Wanted to be deleted earlier and
the thing is I
Could just not go to school for the rest of the semester and still
Graduate which is all that my parents want. They just want me to graduate, but they do want me to have good grades. I
could do all that but
the thing is that
The as of this year like it wasn't like this last year
But this year the school added a 12-day attendance policy where you have to be in school
You only get 12 days 12 absences
Until you fail the class so if you are absent 12 times you're out of there you're you fail the class so then
My the number one thing I do not want to happen is to fail the class and then have to take it again next semester
Which means that I'll have to become another part-time student because you can't just take one class
You have to take an entire schedule and the small schedule they offers for four periods, which is what I'm doing
So I'd have to maintain this schedule all of next semester if I if I fail the class
So that's why I'm not feeling class
Because I know that I would rather a
Rather stay in school for
Just 70 days then fail and be in a situation where I'm forced to go for an entire another semester
I cannot I can't
survive another semester
That would be the epitome of like death for me I
Would be able to survive it, but I just that would not be a very good time for me
But
every day like
There there's one thing that I would talk
Right now I am
The dangerous thing about adding things to your identity is that once you realize that you need to outgrow it to make the next 10x jump
It's hard to because it's part of your identity
And one of the things that added to my identity is recording a one hour long podcast every single day or at least
Posting a one hour long podcast every single day
which a one hour long podcast daily is a lot and I'm just realizing that because
It's good for the first maybe 80 days
But I reach a certain point where my I don't know if my actual episodes are gaining much quality
So I'm reaching a point where it's simple
It's simply just quantity now and the way to actually make it quality is to have more time to prepare and
script like or actually
create a
Outline like lately I've been writing out outlines for my episode
But I feel as though it needs to be like more or I need a little bit more time to actually learn more
So I've been kind of thinking maybe I should do like less time
Episodes maybe not one hour maybe like 30 minutes or 20 minutes or maybe I should like
Make every other day or once a week. I don't know I just
My first goal or my first like the reason why I created this podcast in the first place was to try and prove or disprove
the statement that Russell Brunson
Said well, I'm actually trying to prove it. I'm not trying to disprove it because that'd be dumb
I'm trying to prove Russell Brunson statement of that if you post every day for an entire year
You'll never have to worry about money again
So that's why I'm trying to prove it and so I figured that if I do one hour episodes
Then it will be good
So I'm at a position where right now in my current
like
For the next 70 days, I'm still in school where it's just a grind to get all these episodes out
Not really like that. It's not a lot of work
It's just a grind to keep up and actually learn enough to actually talk about it
But oh in the next seven like one school is over for me
I'll have like a lot of time freed up and so I'll be able to
Have a rent brand new schedule and I know I talked about how it was gonna have a new schedule during this school year. I
Don't think I'm gonna do that
Because it's it's not much worth it to have two rest days when I would only have like four
Less than like four hours of rest by the time I get home. No, I'm not honestly like one hour of rest
It's not really much worth it
I'm just gonna maintain this until I get to the end. But there's one thing that I haven't done yet that I need to do is
discover my five pillars
for the podcast like right now I only have two pillars meditation and spirituality and if you guys haven't noticed or no
spirituality and worldview which spirituality is meditation but
If you guys haven't noticed all of my episodes lately have just been about
spirituality and meditation honestly like all my episodes in my entire show have been about meditation and spirituality in some way or another
or spirituality and worldview so
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