What are we doing? What are we doing with our lives? I've been going to school my
whole life. Why do I go to school? I'm not sure. People say so I can get a job. Why
do I need to get a job? Is that really what I came here for? Like all of every
single person in humanity before all the hunter-gatherers, they didn't have jobs,
they didn't have to work in nine to five. All they had to do was survive. Like they
didn't have a school system. They say the school system is for our own good but
it's not. I really believe, I'm starting to believe a lot more lately, that we were
born into this world with full of potential. We were so much more powerful.
Like we came into this world full power and then the school system and society
starts to whittle away at our power and slowly but surely we eventually are left
with nothing. And so it's our job now to discover that power back. That's why I'm
going so deep into spirituality because I'm really starting to believe that
there's so much more. Like there's so much more to life. We are so much more.
People, like my whole life I've been led to believe that all I'm good for is to
work a nine to five job. Like that's all I've achieved in life. Yet I see human
beings all around me achieving great results. Even the people we study in the
history books achieving great results. I remember in middle school studying about
John D. Rockefeller. Like the richest man ever. A rich man in America. We
studied him and then it was, I don't really remember like the perspective we
took but I just remember him. And he definitely knew his power because you
don't just accidentally become the richest man in the world. And he's a human
just like I am. He was able to become the richest man on the planet. He was able
to achieve greatness. All these people around us are able to achieve
greatness. All of these, like there's a lot of podcasters that I used to listen
to. They have achieved greatness. They are very successful people. And
they're humans just like I am. And it just makes me think why do I feel like I
can achieve greatness? Well it's because of the school system. I really, all my
life I've been against like school. I never really found the purpose of it. But I
never really realized that it was actually bad for me and actually managing
to destroy me. And it destroyed me, it did. And now I'm fighting back and
regaining my humanity. And I'm regaining all of my divine essence. I'm rediscovering
it all. That's why I'm going so deep into spirituality. I am reading seven
books right now. And one of them called Dancing After The Music Stops is in the
introduction of the book. He is talking a lot about, he's referring back to the
school system and how it has, it's like the greatest, it's a terrible sin. And the
school system basically is like a factory and it produces machines or it
produces just components. And today at school we actually had drills. So we had
to do a fire drill, a hard lockdown drill, a shelter-in-place drill. And during
the fire drill I was just thinking, let's get, let's get led, let's get, what did I
say? I said something right when the fire alarm went off and I
noticed that everyone was going out through the same exact doors. And I was
like, let's get led by sheep, led like sheep. Or let's all get herded by, herded
like sheep. And then when I was going back inside the building I was saying,
this is the most sophisticated factory. Like this is the most sophisticated
factory on the planet, the American school system. It's a factory. It literally
produces cogs in a machine, produces components of people. Its input is bright
children. And then the output is so whittled down you can't even recognize
them. I really, I have 70 days left until I'm done with school. 70 days. And there's
a part of me where I'm thinking maybe I should just drop out right now. But then
there's another part of me thinking that I desire the safety of, I might as well
just finish it because that's all my parents want for me to do. And that's, and
I want to continue working on this podcast and I fear that I may not have
the opportunity to do all of this stuff that I'm doing right now if I drop out.
So that's why I'm just gonna finish 70 days left. And it's actually funny
because by the time I finish school I'll be on episode 150. Episode 150 will be
published the day I finish school. That's assuming I stay consistent which I will.
And it's also another thing. I've been meditating and I really feel like the
gateway experience is one of the biggest things for me exploring my divine
essence and exploring spirituality and my consciousness. Because it's very useful
reading about all this stuff. But like this, like Robert Monroe said, he said, you
don't know until you do it or something like that. You don't know
until you know. Or I don't remember the exact quote but I just read it in the
brochure for the Monroe Institute brochure. And I'm reading all this stuff so I
can have better. Honestly, this is kind of a suspicion that I came across today
while I was reading my books this morning. The gateway experience or just
meditation, me meditating and exploring all this stuff is a way for me to actually
be one with myself and actually learn of my inner or actually experience my inner
power or my divine essence. And then books kind of ignite the flame and lead me
forward and actually open up brand new perspectives. Because I read a few pages
of all of the books so far which are Ascent on Humanity, Toofty the Priestess,
Dancing After the Music Stops, Journey Out of the Bodies, Die Wise, Come of Age.
And there's one more. I forgot what that last one was. It'll come to me eventually
but I'm doing all these, I'm reading all these books and this morning I realized
that there's so much I don't know. There's so much. I was reading the intro to a lot
of the books and I didn't even understand any of it. And there's another thing that
I remember from one book. I read in a book one time and the person said the
ability to read something that you don't even understand yet is a very
valuable skill. Because if you can read, if you just push through and read it
even though you don't understand it, eventually you will understand it. Then
eventually you'll be able to read it. And honestly I don't know what's with it but
today I have low energy. I didn't feel low energy at school but once I got home
from the gym and then I got home and I meditated. Once I actually sat down to
meditate I was like very low energy. My meditation was not very deep and I was
just kind of very tired. I don't know why and I still am a little tired which is
why I'm gonna be honest. I messed up and I've been slacking. One of the most
important or one of the biggest things that will help me move forward and become
a higher quality pie casser is the one thing that I'm not doing and it's adding
rest days, adding buffer days and having dedicated focus days. The one thing that I
had to do was script out seven episodes so I can record them all this weekend
and be prepared and set up so that I can have rest days next week and then
script out and then start the loop of scripting and then preparing. I don't
know why I haven't done it yet. I simply just haven't prioritized it yet because I
definitely have the time. I could do it during my reading in the morning.
I could do it any other time. I don't know why I've been using this as an
excuse and I especially have to do it soon because in one month I'm going out
of town for a whole week. I'm going on vacation so this will be the longest time
I'll be gone from my house since I started podcasting. So I really want to have
seven. I want to have 14 episodes scheduled by the time I leave because I
want to have that entire week resting and not podcasting at all because in two
books that I read 10x is used in 2x as well as create don't capture they both
said that rest is essential and you need to actually be resting and taking up
long breaks from your work in order to be rejuvenated and ready to go for more.
So I need to have 14 episodes scheduled which should not be an issue
because this I will be doing this scripting out seven episodes and then
over the weekend probably not this weekend but next weekend or whenever I'm
going to actually be recording out these episodes and then that will get me ahead
of schedule so then that will get me probably about 10 no like 12 episodes
ahead of schedule so instead of seven episodes scheduled I'll have 12 and I
really think that like episodes like this are more common than I want them to
be episodes where I'm low energy like on these days are the days that I should be
taking breaks I should be taking rests but since I've set I've set myself up
to where if I take a rest today I'm gonna have to do double tomorrow and
that's why I need to set up this new routine or at least some routine that
is because I feel like the biggest issue or the biggest thing holding me back
from doing this new routine is simply the fact that I'm still in school and I
don't have all day every day available I have I don't get home till like 12 during
school days so that's that is something holding me back from doing this routine
but that means that I simply just have to rework it and do a different routine
I just have to figure out a different method or a different solution and I
finished all of the let's talk about the Monroe Institute the Gateway experience
I finished reading all of the packets and documents that I printed out except
for one which is probably the most beneficial that I haven't read yet but
I'm gonna start reading it tomorrow it's called the seven resonant colors and
it's a hundred it's about 150 pages long so that will be a long one and I'm gonna
start reading it tomorrow during class but there's one thing actually may this
may actually be this may be one reason why I'm super tired for some reason it's
because today I came to this solution for school literally just crank out the
work right away and just crank it out extremely quickly because then if I just
finish it quickly then I can focus on what I actually want to focus on after
the fact after I'm done and I did that in first period my humanities class I
just cranked out a project and that ended up taking the entire period so I
was focused the whole period and after that and then on in third period because
second period Jim third period I did the same thing I cranked out like three
assignments that were due on Monday in business incubator oh and I also have
one thing to talk about me and my friend Franklin's plan for business
incubator but and then in fourth period I cranked out a few things in like 20
minutes so business incubator took the whole period and then sports lit I had
probably like 20 minutes left free so I was pretty much working all day but that
means that tomorrow I'll probably be able to rest and just read all day tomorrow
which reminds me I have to bring a book I'm gonna bring the seven resident
colors book and I already have in my backpack but the thing I was gonna tell
about business incubator so business incubator is a class that I'm taking and
my friend Franklin's in the class as well and we're both entrepreneurs we're
both working on our business we both have podcasts and in this class we
basically have to build a business and yeah just build a business and we it's a
excuse me it's a one-year long class and since we're both graduating early we're
only there for half of a year and we talked to the teacher in the beginning
of the year and said that we can complete the whole course in one semester
which I regret now because I don't care about that class anymore it was just the
novelty of the class and I actually had a suspicion of this because I had a
similar experience last year when I got when I first started the year I would
get super excited about all my classes and then literally after like a month or
two I would not like it anymore and I just be like oh this sucks because it's
just the novelty and I kind of had a suspicion of the same thing happening
and it did for all my classes but especially business incubator because
we're working on a business about building funnels for other people and
neither me and or my friend are really focusing on that anymore because we were
focusing on that in the beginning of the year a lot but now we're not and now
we're just focused on content creation so our plan revolves around this one rule
that mr. my teacher has the one rule is we can drop our businesses anytime we
want with no reasoning or like we can drop our businesses anytime and start
over we want even at the end of the year so that's a huge thing and he also said
that that will not affect our grades so that's huge because we're probably just
gonna stay on this business until like December right before we have to leave
and then we'll switch or we'll drop it in like November or something or we'll
basically just work on it all semester and then just drop it or something like
that so that's basically I told my friend because we both literally just sit in
the back just reading we literally just study our own things like he read he's
into reading a lot about like research and science stuff relating to diet ADHD
all this stuff and I'm into reading about spirituality and so we're both just
sitting in the back just reading our own things not even working on anything
which I noticed and so we devised that plan and we both agreed to do that
because we're not into this business at all let me get some water so I want to
talk about balance balance has actually helped me a lot and it's been about I
think around two months that I've been balancing on this medicine ball every
single day for like five to ten minutes usually seven minutes every day and it's
actually like benefited me a lot in my lifting especially for my squat my
squat has helped a lot and I found that I'm a lot better at ice skating which
ice skating is actually pretty fun but also want to talk about these neck
exercises basically a neck push-up or it's basically where you lay on your
back and you lift up your body with your neck and so I've been doing that for
you few months now probably and that as well has definitely helped with
everything I was talking to my friend today I'm hiding and I was saying like
this has helped my squat go up help all my lifts go up because it builds your
spine and it makes your spine so much stronger but I'm just blabbering on
right now about random things because I'm gonna be honest I like I'm just
completely blank right now these these types of episodes are just really tough
and I hope that if you guys are listening to this I want you guys to know
that you will figure things out along the way that's one of my model models
right now just figured out along the way because I'm in this situation where
right now I'm it's evident that my podcast quality is low but then I'm also
not doing anything about it I'm not doing a single thing about it so where does
that put me and you know what right after this episode I'm gonna do something
about it I'm gonna start I'm gonna I don't even know what I would do I'm I'm
gonna start to map out a actual routine that I can use during the school year for
the next 70 days because I have 70 days until I finish so I have to be doing
this for 70 days and it's not gonna get any better unless I do something about
it which I was actually talking to my dad last night about how I make a lot of
changes I was telling him about this like I'm planning on making big changes to my
routine of my schedule and he was he said he believes it because I've been
making a lot of changes lately and I said yeah because big changes produce big
results drastic changes produce drastic results and there's this yesterday I
think I had this notion where I was kind of in this throughout myself improvement
journey there's like these phases where I make drastic progress and then there's
also phases where I make progress but I'm just kind of dolly going along and
it's evident that I'm not really making too much progress because I'm not making
drastic changes and so yesterday I realized that I was entering this new
phase of drastic progress but now I know that I'm not unless I do this unless I
reschedule restructure my schedule because that that's the biggest thing
that I learned about in 10x is using 2x not necessarily the biggest thing that
I learned about as importance but it's definitely the number one thing that I
got out of the book at the moment of the number one thing that it will be the
most beneficial for me to implement right now so that's that's what I got
yeah I'm not doing it it's been like 10 days no not 10 days it's been like five
days and I haven't done a single thing for it I've done a single thing to move
towards it
and I said I would I said that I would and I failed I failed at that
let's talk about my meditation journey so I want to talk about my gateway
experience journey because I just read the gate the Monroe Institute brochure
and in it there was a quote from a Buddhist monk who's 93 years old who
runs a Buddhist temple and he said that he went to the gateway voyage program
which is basically a program where you go to the actual Monroe Institute and it's
like a five it's like a six-day retreat where you just focus on exploring
your consciousness it's basically where you go in and actually use the hemisync
and meditate and you can make a lot of progress and so he went there and he said
that people make more progress in one year using the gateway tapes than they
do in erno in one in one week he said people make more progress in one week
using the gateway tapes than he did for years sitting they literally just sitting
and meditating so basically they I'm really grateful that I've experienced I'm
like born in this part of time because I would have had to if I was getting into
this stuff I would have had to invested years to get to this point
literally years because I've only spent one one month doing the gateway tapes and
I'm almost I believe that I've achieved focus 12 but it's not very strong I'm
definitely at focus 10 like I can get focused 10 very easily now and I actually
can get it without the tapes I haven't actually tried it but I know that I can
because I've tried like just putting my hands to sleep in just normal waking
reality and I'm able to do it like I'm able to put my hands like have them
relaxed deeply when I'm just like even right now I can do it I'm doing it right
now with my hands and I haven't really gotten any like benefit or not
necessarily benefit but I haven't gotten any cool experiences yet but I've
literally only been doing it for the visualization piece I haven't honestly I
don't even know how to experience it yet and that's that's why I added it into
my affirmation I do not hold any expectations for what will or should
happen during these meditations and during today's meditation right before
this episode I actually spent probably like three minutes trying to say that
one phrase because my mind was so like it was so tired like I did all the
preparatory process just fine and then once I got to the affirmation I
literally just repeated I couldn't figure out how to say that that I do not
hold any expectations for what will or should happen to these during these
meditations I could not figure out how to say that and that's probably evident
with my the quality of this episode right now which is another thing I know
that people don't succeed on content creation if they just post just the post
or if they just go through the motions and it's evident that right now I'm just
going through the motions because this like I'm obviously need a rest I
obviously need a break and I'm obviously not like ready to record today I'm
obviously not like up to full capacity yet I'm just going through the motions
getting the hour done like getting it off my checklist when in reality this is
my entire business right now like this is the foundation to everything that I
will like this is the entire foundation to my financial future so I need to start
treating it like it and actually actually take rest days and improve my
quality and actually learn how to get better at podcasting because right now
I'm just hoping that my quality improves over time over repetitions when in
reality it's repetitions under a new perspective after a new perspective so
this is why athletes who watch a game film level up so much quicker than
athletes who don't because they have this new perspective they can see
themselves after the fact and in create don't capture he actually talked about he
actually said that you should rewatch your videos or your content one week
after the fact and rewatch it to see where you can improve upon and what
you're doing wrong what you're doing good and just fix things because that
yes quantity high rap like a lot of hours can help you get better but
eventually you'll stagnant but it's the high quality hours where you're
reviewing your footage in my case I'm re-listing to my videos and then I'm
fixing those things because I remember over the the course of this like channel
I there was a few times where I would actually just listen to a few seconds of
the show and I realized that there's some things that I needed to tweak for
example there was one time where I noticed that I kept on breathing really
loudly and then I focused on fixing that the next episode but then I forgot
about it and I didn't like reinforce that at all so I think that my breathing
may still be a thing a still be an issue but that's another thing I feel that my
episode quality is going down and it's affecting my entire channel because I
just checked my analytics right before this episode which I shouldn't have
because that's just dumb to check analytics right before you record in my
opinion but I did it and instead of my normal six rolling average subscribers
I only have five now like I lost a viewer so I lost like one sixth of my
entire viewer base my entire audience I lost and it's because once I got home
from funnel hacking live my episode qualities were very poor and I remember
talking about that and then once I uploaded like episode 85 was pretty
decent but then like this one is not good I don't think so people want high
quality content and that's another thing I'm doing like a bunch of TikToks I'm
recording three shorts every day and posting three shorts every day yet I'm
not growing my podcast because one I probably haven't even had enough time to
grow an audience on my shorts but another reason is their low quality so
this is showing me that I'm not investing enough time I don't have the issue of
time just shows your priorities because right now I have no time in my day my
entire schedule is packed so I don't have enough time to just sit and do
nothing and think because I'm just always doing something I'm go go go and that
shows my priorities and one blaringly obvious thing that I could get rid of
is school which it'll be gone in 70 days so that'll free up half of my day but
then there's another like that that will free up like four and a half hours in my
day but then there's other things like I don't even know because all of all the
things in my day let me just let me just tell you my entire daily routine so in
the morning I wake up I'm not gonna say like everything that I do in detail but
I'll just say like the important big thing so in the morning I wake up shower
going to walk around the block which is around like seven minutes and I do I
wake about 4 a.m. so then I would shower and then go on a walk around the block
around like 4 4 30 and I do my breathing exercises during that to
increase my bolt score to make my breathing more effective on the walk
and then I cook and then I meditate for like 35 minutes depending on how long
the tape is it's 30 to 45 minutes and then I balance on my medicine ball for
seven minutes and then I eat and then I read for from like six until 7 20 when I
leave for school then I go to school all day until like 12 and then I go to the
gym on days that it's my gym day and then I come home and cook eat and then I
meditate and then I podcast and I record three TikToks right after the podcast
and then while I'm doing all that I edit like use the software to automatically
edit as well as post all of it and then I do my nighttime routine which is just
brush my teeth all that stuff journal ice my balls and then I meditate and then
go to bed that's my entire day and it takes up the entire day but on the
weekends I do the same thing in the morning but instead of read from 6 to
7 20 I read from 6 until 8 and then I take a nap from 8 until like 8 30 usually
I take a 26 minute nap but lately I've actually been taking a like a 26 minute
nap or a 30 minute nap and then turning off the alarm and then like taking
another nap kind of just laying there without like an alarm on and then after
like 10 15 minutes of that I just lay and stare at the wall and just think and
that's actually extremely good for you and then and then once I'm done with that
staring at the wall I read again and then around 10 or 11 I cook and eat and
then I go to the gym if it's my gym day and then I do the same thing like I come
home from the gym and then record or meditate and then record and then like
my night to routine and so on the weekends is when I actually have a lot
of time but I use a lot of that time to read which is a good investment I really
think that reading is very like impactful for my future as well as
everything like as well as just me growing and improving and getting better
at my show or my content creation but on the weekends like since I don't have
any time like my ideal schedule right now is on Monday through Friday or Monday
through Friday I do all my normal morning routine but no school and then at
after my sleep and after my staring at the wall I just right away get down to
script out like seven episodes over the course of the five days or so and then
once I do that on Monday through Friday I just follow the same routine except
don't podcast or record shorts and then on Saturday and Sunday I don't read as
much I just read from six until like 7 30 or six until eight and then I take a
nap and then I meditate and then I start recording like four episodes on
Saturday and three episodes on Sunday as well as the tiktoks the common to
accommodate them like that's my ideal and that's probably as of now and I
definitely know that it'll change because 70 days is a long time especially
if you're on a self-improvement you can grow so much on 70 days and you'll have
a brand new perspective so I'll probably come up with an even more optimal
routine to do once I graduate but like right now that's my plan and so I
created this whole plan for something that I can't even take care I think
that's actually my flaw I created this whole plan for something that I can't
even take action on right now I can't even take action on until two months
past 70 whole days like that's a lot of that's a long time so I need to create
this plan that's actionable right now so that's what I'm gonna do after this
episode I'm gonna finish all my leg net stuff and then go upstairs and literally
just actually no I'm gonna do it right here while this episode is updating or
downloading I'm gonna write it down in this notebook and I'm just gonna brainstorm
I'm gonna this is what I did while I was reading the okay wait I actually have
two plans I have to create my five pillars because that's gonna be extremely
important for me promoting or not promoting but me creating content and
re-scripting out all the content because your five pillars are basically the five
things that you talk about on your show and they could be different things so in
I learned about this originally in Russell's books expert secrets I think it
was or traffic secrets I don't remember but I learned about that it's basically
the five like ideas or concepts that you talk about on your show and then you
kind of cycle through them all and so what I was thinking is self-improvement
spirituality and then I don't even know what else to say because that's like
really what I'm only talking about right now I'll figure it out after this
episode and then I also had to figure out what I did to like map out my the
optimal plan for after I graduate the five days of rest and then two days to
record seven episodes I literally just wrote a box like I drew three boxes on
the page one was R which is rest one is B which is buffer and then one was F
which is focus so I drew three squares with R B F inside of each of them and
then that was like the key and then I literally just drew like I wrote letters
M T W Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday and then I kind of
just like kept on placing the different boxes to see like what see like the best
kind of like experiment with the different types of schedules and I kind
of just figured out over just experimentation by drawing out different
schedules and then I stopped once I found the most optimal schedule when I'm
not in school but since I'm still in school I have to I think what I'm going
to do instead is map out all of the time available that I have so pretty much on
days where I'm not in school I'm three days on in the gym two days off so I'll
map out that I have like probably from 315 until 445 so I have like an hour and
a half on days where I go to the gym available and then I have probably about
two like three hours or four I think like three or four hours on days where I'm
not at the gym so I'm actually going to map out all of the time free time that
I have over the course of like the week I'm just gonna say like since Monday is
always a different day like since I go three days on two days off it cycles so
I don't always have a rest day on Monday like some days it's rest day and
some days is the gym day so I'm gonna I'll figure out the schedule from there
maybe I'll create a five-day schedule instead of a seven-day schedule and then
just cycle through from there that's actually good I've never really done
something like this before like create a creative schedule I kind of just figure
out my routines in my in my mind and then just add things over time but this is
actually a good idea to create a five-day schedule of gym like three gym
days and then two rest days and then just repeat and then like my schedule will
be based around the gym since that's like the kind of non-negotiables even
though I should I should just drop the gym I should just lower my gym time I
should just go to the gym just to maintain but I don't want to do that
because that's my only exercise that I get and over summer I actually was in
very good condition I was in good fitness level because we were me and my
friend were sprinting at the park every day we would always just do sprints and
so I was like in really good shape over summer and then since school started we
didn't have time to do it anymore so we stopped or at least I stopped
exercising my cardio and I can definitely feel the difference cardio as
well as grounding so that's that's also why during my slide in my visualization
I visualize myself doing like my day-to-day stuff like I visualize myself
doing sprints lifting doing like swimming in the ocean like all of these
taking cold ice baths all these things in in Hawaii where my goal takes place my
slide takes place and so I take my kind of that's part of my slide as well as
meditating on the beach which is probably one of the things I'm looking
most forward to meditating naked on the beach my own private beach where no one
else has access to that's a cool cool experience that I want to have every day
multiple times a day but that's like I know that how like fitness is so
important especially for this like especially for content creation because
that's why rest days are so valuable and that's why maybe I'll even add in on my
rest days like cardio or something to add in on my rest days for creating content
if I have free time maybe I'll just go for a run or something like that because
that's another thing one of my friends texted me like on Sunday and today is
Thursday so my friend texted me like five days ago and I didn't see it until
last night because I simply just hadn't have enough time to check my phone like
imagine that you don't have enough time to even check your phone I was I used to
check my phone like hundreds of times a day and be on my phone for hours every
day but I I wasn't even I didn't even open actually I did that's a lie because I
opened my phone every day to record videos but I didn't like check any texts
or anything because the way my phone is set up is I don't have any notifications
on I do not serve on at all times airplane mode powered off and on my
home screen there's nothing there's no apps I have to search manually and so I
don't see like any notifications that I get so I simply just don't check and I
got like I had a few texts yesterday when I checked my phone like I don't even
have enough time to check my phone which is a good thing like it's a good thing
not to check your phone but I don't have enough time to just sit and stare
blankly or take naps when naps are extremely valuable because on the
weekends I was every single okay so since I am a part-time student every day
kind of feels like a mini weekend because I get home at 12 and then I
basically have like 20 plus hours until the next no probably not 20 hours
actually yeah 20 hours until then until I have to go to school again when before
it was probably like 15 hours or 12 hours or something like that no it was
it was more like 15 or 16 I don't even it it doesn't matter but I was like I
used to or right now I have all day like the entire afternoon like by the time
I'm done meditating after having gone to the gym after cooking after eating
after meditating school is still in session
and so it kind of feels like every single day I definitely have a long
break from school but on the weekends it's even longer because I get home for
on Friday around 12 around 12 yeah around 12 and then I don't have to go to
school until Monday until I literally have like two and a half days and I was
talking I was actually telling my mom that I get so much progress like I
gained so much progress and I get so much time my weekend is so optimal because
I'm that's another thing I was lately in my classes so in business incubator like
I said earlier in this episode I like cranked out all of my work but I was
sitting next to my friend and he was still just focusing on his stuff like
his personal work and he still had like all of his school work to do and I
decided to crank it out because I didn't want to have to do it at home and let me
tell you why at school you're kind of like default is not focused like there's
like this lingering element in the air that reduces your focus and it kind of
like it's like the it's like the most sophisticated factory that I was telling
you about it just being in that building destroys like everything like it just
being in that building slowly tears you apart even if you're not necessarily
doing anything related to school so that's why I choose to do my schoolwork
at school instead of at home because at home is a time where I can truly focus
on my own stuff and I don't have that like baseline biting at me all the time
it's a it's a hard concept to explain but I'm sure people in a similar
situation to I am where they're extremely they're way more aware of their
bodies and where the more aware of like the their focus and all that stuff I'm
sure that they can like I'm sure you guys are able to tell or at least
understand what I'm saying about school so that's why I focus on doing my work
at school because I know that like my parents only want me to have to have no
missing assignments and have good grades and if I have missing assignments then
that's when I have to do it at home and I don't want to waste my time at home
when I could use the time at school that's another reason why I hate homework
like I always say I don't do homework because it's a waste of time why waste
your time at home doing schoolwork when you could like home your baseline focus
level is normal it's like neutral but then at school it like eats away at your
focus just being there so you might as well do the waste of time work like
schoolwork and homework at school when you are wasting when you're already
wasting away so that's why if I had the option of doing the schoolwork or slacking
off with the schoolwork and doing my home like my own reading I would prefer
to do the schoolwork because I know that in the future I have to do that school
work anyway and it would end up being at home or I could just read at home and
actually have the focus that it requires and actually be able to focus a lot more
on the stuff that's actually important to me and that's that's like kind of my
take on schoolwork and I'm all caught up so tomorrow I think that I'll be able to
do absolutely nothing although or I'll be able to actually read my own stuff
which if I have no schoolwork to do I'm fine reading my own stuff even though my
focus level is not gonna be as high that's okay I want to talk about for want
to talk about staying awake I realize that I have to be even more relentless
because over summer yes I was relentless with being awake and by the way
being awake is when you're when you're controlling your attention and it is
kind of your attention is like lying in between outer and the inner screen so
your outer screen is anything going on outside so if you're watching the video
the outer screen would be the video and then inner screen is anything going on
inside your head and actually the outer screen this podcast like the audio would
also be considered outer screen I believe but inner screen is anything
that's going on inside your head so whenever you're deep in thought you're
in the inner screen and when you're deep into one or the other you're asleep
but you're awake when you focus you control your attention like in between
the two when you're focused on both the inner and the outer screen and so that's
what I learned in 250 the priestess a book by Vadim Zelen about transurfing
and in that book literally the first couple chapters he just points out that
you need to be awake like he said that you need to be awake one at least you
you need to wake up for one whole hour and that was just like a small number
that he threw out there and I've never even achieved one hour straight of
being awake I don't think and so I like this morning on my bike ride I decided
that I was gonna be awake and I was gonna be relentless again at staying awake
so that's what I did on my bike ride I kept on reminding myself to wake up now
I was falling asleep a lot but I was I was I have the habit now of calling
myself to wake up a lot more now so I would like wake up and then I'd say
awake for a few seconds and then I fall asleep and then a few moments later I'd
wake up again and then like the cycle would repeat but then I found that just
like how at school your focus level is kind of eaten away at your like
concentrate your control of your concentrations are also eaten away and I
can't explain it but when I'm at school I'm not awake that often like it's I'm
not awake too often at school it's just the environment that produces the
negative focus level as well as loss of attention loss of control over your
attention and that's another thing your time is your like I've always heard your
time is the most valuable resource when I was learning about financial freedom
I'm like unscripted people trade away their time for money when in reality time
is way more valuable than money but it's actually the most valuable resource is
your attention and so yes people have a lot of time but they don't have a lot
of attention because they're not controlling their attention so there's
like time when you're asleep you have a lot no control of your attention so
you're just you have no attention like you're wasting your attention so that
time is wasted it's useless but it's not until you actually take control of your
attention then you start having like optimal time and that's when your time
is actually like valuable so the time like control of your attention is the
most important thing in maybe in life I don't know that you when you he was
saying when you don't have control over your attention you don't have control
over yourself or your soul is not your own like when you don't have control over
your attention like when you're asleep your soul is not your own so basically
what using those words the most sophisticated factory the American
school system education system basically when you like it kind of force it
forms you to lose control of your attention and so basically you're just
walking along and you're not even in control of yourself you're not even
yourself you're just a cog and you lose your individuality which is actually
insane to think about it's really saddening but I'm really glad I'm gonna
be out of this place in in 70 days but that's the end of the episode so to wrap
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