Are you doing the inner work?
For a few years now, I've been exercising
slowly but surely
increasing my
bettering my health physical health
fitness levels physique appearance
Breathing all of these things I've been slowly but surely improving upon them and
And right now I'm at a point of very good health
But it wasn't till
seven months ago when I discovered
Transurfing and then that led me down a path of doing the inner work
And I didn't realize how important every like with every passing day
I'm realizing more and more how important the inner work is
because
Every single day
my mental my
thoughts are way
More calm way more controlled every single day. I feel way more peace
I feel way more calm throughout the day and I feel like I'm able to
control not control, but I feel like I'm able to
just exist more
Efficiently effectively I don't know how to put it to words, but
Especially after the after a
Epiphany I had today so as
You guys
If you're new here pretty much I've been doing the gateway experience. It's a meditate. It's a guided meditation and
It uses
sound specific types of sounds to induce to help you
Get higher levels of consciousness like get into deeper meditation essentially
and I've been learning a lot about the Munro Institute, which is the
organization that created the gateway experience and
I've been learning a lot about the gateway experience and expanded consciousness and energy
all this stuff
But then there was kind of this and I was actually printing a lot of pages out and
Then there was this like period where I just wasn't
Reading that much about it anymore. I moved on to other things
But today or yesterday. I actually started
Reading them again, and I'm I hadn't even finished reading all of the pages that I printed out
but I started
reading them and
pretty much I just have
Three documents left one document is probably about like 30 pages and I haven't fit I haven't even started yet
Another document is like five pages. So that'll be quick and then the last document is like a hundred and fifty pages
So that one's a long one and I think the long the 150 pages one seven resonant colors is gonna be the most beneficial
But I read the gateway experience manual like the guidebook and
I
Had an epiphany because I realized that this whole time of and I've been doing the gateway experience for one month
like three days ago I moved on to
Wave two which is focus 12
But for the past month I've been working on focus 10 and a little bit of focus 12 but mainly focus 10 over the past
two or three days I've been working on only focus 12, but
That also means I was working on my focus 10 as well because you have to get into focus time to get into 12
but pretty much this whole time I was trying to I
Was trying and that's the thing with meditation
You're supposed to just let it happen and it experience just enjoy the experience and you're supposed to just
Kind of float along you're not necessarily supposed to try and make
Trying like do things because I was always trying to I was reading about other people's experiences and they were crazy
And so I was trying to copy those experiences or I was trying to do things
for example one thing that I kept on trying to do was in
induce focus 12 like I kept on trying to I
Don't even remember what I was trying to I was trying to like expand my consciousness
Manually or something like that like forcefully expand my consciousness
Didn't work and I was stagnant
So I was making progress because slowly but surely after practice like this is my this kind of the
Epiphany that I came to as long as you just keep on practicing like I've been practicing three days or three times a day
as long as you keep on practicing you are guaranteed to
Make progress
Whether it's incremental over time, but you will make progress and that's like the brute force method
But once you and the thing is if you're just doing brute force and you're still trying to do like what I was doing for a whole month
Of trying to force things to happen
You're gonna make progress, but it's not gonna be as fast
but then I came to the
Conclusion that I was trying and that's bad like you shouldn't be trying you should just
Relax into it and also I was trying to mimic or have expectations of what my thing with my experience
was supposed to be like
when in reality
Everyone's experience is widely unique. There are some mundane experiences. There are some cosmic experiences
And to be honest, I've had mundane experiences, but they're my experiences and
Just today literally
The meditation I had right before this episode. I had my first
like good experience because I
I treated it as just that my experience and I actually took it as it was and
instead of trying to have an expectation or force some certain result and
One of the things that I found I added I've added a few things to my affirmation
So originally my affirmation that I say in the beginning of like during my preparatory process
My affirmation is when I first started was I am more than my physical body and that was it and then of and then added
I added things and then I eventually I added in a
few other phrases, but the
Important phrases are I am focused which I added because I had lost a lot of I wasn't very focused
During my meditations. I wasn't like putting as much focus into it as I should have
so I added that and
Then I added in I'm a man with high standards when it comes to women because I was
Just my brain was I was just thinking a lot about
girls that were around me that I
Didn't want to spend like my life with so it's a waste of time
Like even thinking about them. So that's why I added that and then the last thing I added was I
Hold no
expectations for any results or outcomes for this meditation or some variation of that I wrote it down on
While I was taking notes of on the gateway
Manual the guidebook that I read I just finished reading it today
I was taking notes on that and I wrote that down my affirmation. I that's basically like the
Essence of the affirmation not exactly what I said, but
That's it and I just said that I added that today like literally an hour ago in my meditation
right before this episode and
I
Tell you this because I really think that affirmations work
But they only work if you have the
Honestly, I found that affirmations don't necessarily work in waking as effectively as they do when you're in a meditation
Now let me explain. I I always used to have this one affirmation, especially when I was getting into self-improvement
I used to look at my like self in the mirror and I used to be like man
I'm a beast like I used to like get hype and look at myself in the mirror and say I'm a beast with the emotion and that worked
like that definitely works because it changes like the
mindset or the psychology but
Pretty much I found that adding the affirmation
Especially if especially if you come up with it yourself like I came up with this whole affirmation myself and slowly added to it over time
once you
Once you add it during that meditation when you're in that high energy state after having done the resident tuning and res and res energy balloon
There's just something to it. I don't even put too much emotion in it
but I I say it with like emphasis and
It definitely works like I say it in my in myself in my in my brain not out loud and
It definitely works like over time literally a short period of time
Maybe like for less than four days of saying it every single time during my meditation
It makes those changes and I definitely found that with the I am focused as well as I'm a man with high standards when it comes to women and
I will let you guys know about the the next one the newest one that I added which is I
hold no expectations for
this
the outcome or
Whatever happens that pretty much that affirmation and the reason why I added that was because I was expecting things to happen
I was expecting to have
Similar experiences to other people when in reality
I was just holding myself back and there was also another quote that I remember in the gateway
Experience manual it was like the more you practice the more or the more you let go of
expectations which allows you to
like be more
Like lean the more into the unknown and explore more and
That's also why I really think that brute force practice just literally just practice constantly is good as well
because I'm one month into the gateway experience and
I'm just now starting to get into focus 12
which I
remember in the beginning when I was looking into it I
Saw this YouTube video and I was talking about this YouTube video on the podcast when I was first looking into it
There's this YouTube video where the guy said that he was able to achieve like focus 15 within a month and
I thought that I was gonna be able to do that too
Nope, definitely not and that it's that's partially why because I had expectations
Expectations are so bad for this specific thing
But
that's
Really, it's I feel like okay. Let me explain in wave one once I got through all the exercises they had a
Free flow 10 like free flow focus 10
Which is basically like you they play the noises and you can do whatever you want in focus 10
But they don't have that in wave two for focus 12 and I don't think they have that into like wave four or wave five
for focus 12 and so I
Am basically right now the exercise that I'm doing is the second exercise on wave two which is all about
Problems, it's like asking a problem to your higher self and I found that that
From what I can see is the one that he talks in the least so I just treat that as a free flow and
I visualize my goal and
I
Today I did in the first half of the meditation. I did send out a question which was
what is my purpose and
What is the most important piece of information?
I need to know right now to move towards that and
I
Repeated that probably like 20 times and like did all the things like expanded that all out my
Con awareness and then I released it with gratitude and
I didn't receive an answer yet
but I
Don't really mind because I
Am just continuing to do what I'm doing right now, which is podcast
Meditate and learned that's literally all that I'm doing
create content meditate and learn and
And once I'm done with school, it's gonna it's gonna be so much
more because I
Found that during breaks from school like winter break and summer break especially I
make so much progress and self-improvement and
That's really like
I'm excited because in two months. I'm out of here. I'm out of school
for good
But I did start reading those seven books and
I'm not really sure if I like using that reading method which by the way the reading method is to
Read like get seven books in front of you pick up one read into the loose focus and switch and then just keep repeating that and cycle through them all
I'm not sure if I like it
But I'm gonna keep trying it
just
Just to see
Because I feel like one of my issues was I wasn't reading until I lose focus
I was just reading until the chapter was over or or in this case until like the introduction was over because I barely got through the introduction on all the books
But there was a few books that I did go
Read a lot more which were three books are the most interesting to me right now
Toofty the priestess dancing after the music stops and journey is out of the body
Journey is out of the body. I read the entire like introduction
Toofty the priestess. I read the first like three or four chapters and by the way the chapters are really short and
I feel like Toofty the priestess is gonna be one of the most beneficial for me right now
alongside dancing after the music stops because
in that he talks about
He
He was he brings in different the same contact
concepts as reality
Transurfing but he phrases them differently and in my opinion, there's there's actually a different concept that he brings in
which
It's the same concept
But he like frames it in a different way and he talked about waking up
So he talked about waking up in
Transurfing quite in depth, but he didn't explain it as well as he did in Toofty the priestess
Which basically is you have two types of screens. So there's an inner screen and an outer screen and
when you're like fully focus or when you're fully like
Immersed in one of the screens. So let's say inner screen when you're fully immersed in your own thoughts
You're immersed in the inner screen everything. That's inner like your thoughts is the inner screen
So when you're fully immersed in thought or deep thinking then
You're asleep and you're basically on autopilot and you're not controlling your destiny
and he actually said that you're operating at like 10% the efficiency or
or effectiveness as you would be if you were fully conscious and
then
If you are fully immersed in some external event like let's say tick tock if you're fully or even this podcast
If you're fully immersed in this and you're not aware of your inner if of your inner like thoughts or anything inner or
yourself then you're asleep and
the way you wake up is to
Straddle the line between the two and basically stay in between the two where you are
Inwards you're focused inwards as well as outwards like your focus is in between
in and out
so it's
It's kind of a weird concept to explain
but I think he explained it very well and it brought a lot of clarity to me because I
It's definitely
Definitely makes sense to me now a lot more
I always like knew like this sensation of waking up
but I didn't really know how to explain it and he explained it perfectly in my opinion and
Also, I realized more that I need to be waking up way more like I I kind of got complacent with waking up
That's not acceptable at all. And so what I'm thinking is
He actually wrote
You need to like try to stay awake for one hour straight. I've never stayed up awake for more than like 30 minutes
I don't think I don't think I've stayed awake for more than like 10 minutes to be honest
So he said try and stay up for a wake for more than one hour and
I'm gonna do that
I'm definitely getting more until being awake because that's all about controlling your reality
And that I think that being awake is a spiritual thing as well
pretty much yesterday's episode was I was talking about my new phase in life, which is spirituality and
in
In that episode I was talking about
How like I'm focusing all in on my spirituality and I don't really know what spirituality means, but I'm pretty much
meditating doing inner work like control focusing on my everything going on inside my
like inside my head and and
also
Documenting the journey and
And so pretty much everything inner work and that's another thing. I don't know. I don't remember where I read it, but
It was somewhere that I read today. I believe I
Don't know it was either one of the books or the gateway guidebook, but I read that
What did I read I
Don't I just completely blanked
Oh, yeah, no one can see
No one can see you doing the inner work like no one knows that you're doing it
whereas doing the physical work like go into the gym people see that and
People can actually see the results of you doing the physical work like getting a better appearance
Like a better physique getting stronger all of this stuff people can see the results as well as the process
But the inner work is entirely private like you are the only person
This is something I read about spirituality. You are the sole
Experimenter as well as observer like you are the only one who can experiment or observe on your
like personal discovery
Self-discovery journey and spirituality journey
So no one knows like obviously people know because I talk like obviously you guys know that I'm on
I'm doing the inner work because I'm telling you but you guys can't see me doing the inner work and
I don't tell I don't tell people like at school. I
Don't tell I don't like talk about it at school
No one knows like in real in my real life. No one knows that I do the inner work
So let's look in that context. No one can see me doing the inner work and
No one can really see the results like no one can see that I am
My thoughts are more controlled than they were a month ago. No one can see that. It's all me
I'm the sole experimenter as well as observer
but
What they can see are the results and let me explain not necessarily the direct results but the indirect results because
Soon I'm gonna be like
Exploding in my product like progress my journey as a human like I'm gonna be exploding in
financial wealth
physical health
Spiritual wealth all of this stuff. I'm gonna be exploding and it's because I did the inner work. So I have a prediction that
When you do the inner work after a little bit and once you reach a certain point then you'll reach like
The inner work will be evident
Based off of your achievements
So let me give you let me tell a story. This is a story that I made up. It's just a generic story
Just to explain my point. So let's say there's this 20. There's this man
Who is working a job?
Average American citizen working a full-time job and then he
He doesn't really have much going on in his life
But he decides to start doing the inner work and he starts controlling his thoughts. He starts meditating
He starts doing all this stuff inner all this inner work and
He gets to the point
Where he is able to stay awake for a very long time. He's
Able to get deep into meditation
He's able to do all this stuff now. No one can see any of that like to other people. He is still in the same exact spot
But then now with this newfound
Like ability so I want to go back to what I read in Toofty the Priestess where when you're asleep
You're operating at like 10% effectiveness
But when you're awake you're at like a hundred or 95% effectiveness
And so he's doing the inner work so instead of him operating at 10% effectiveness now
He's operating at 90 95 100% effectiveness
And so as a result now he's gonna start making big changes in his physical so now people are gonna be seeing like
The results of that but they're not necessarily gonna know that it's because of the inner work
They're not necessarily gonna know that he's able to achieve all of this and able to get more effective at this because he did the inner work
They're just gonna see oh this guy did the like physical work. He this guy either got lucky or
this guy
Just got successful. They're just gonna see the physical
Outcomes of it. They're gonna see that he became a millionaire. They're gonna see he quit his job now. He's financially free
And this was his plan all along he wanted to be financially free. He didn't want to be in this miserable existence anymore
So he quit his so he started by doing the inner work and
Yes while he was doing the inner work he was working on his business on the side
But it didn't really start to take off until he reached a certain point on his inner work
Because there's another quote that I heard somewhere where
Entrepreneurship is like the
most
What's the word?
It's the like the deepest truest form of self-improvement and self-development because the amount of inner work that he's doing
The amount of inner work that is required to build a successful business is immense
Like you have to do a lot of inner work
and
so that's also why I think that
if you were to take
already successful entrepreneur and
Have them swap roles with me like fit like let's no not even swap
Let's just have a successful entrepreneur start from scratch if they would and if I were to start from scratch as well
They would achieve success way quicker than I would simply because they've already done the inner work
So they're already operating at like a hundred percent effectiveness
whereas I'm still at like
50 I don't know I don't know what percent but I definitely am like higher than 10% now
So that's why I'm really focusing on this inner work and I I'm really like dialing in on it because I know that this is what it's gonna get me there and
Honestly, I don't even know what else. I feel like this is another reason why this is the right way forward because I don't know what else to do
Like the path is so clear. All I have to do is just keep moving forward in this current direction
and podcast like post content daily
Study and meditate
Like that is
Like before when I was first getting into business. There was so many different like
things or like routes that popped up left and right as I was reading books on business like
Originally, I wanted to learn how to code then I wanted to learn how to build funnels and then I wanted to
Like and then I wanted to do specific different businesses like acne and then I wanted to do
Like other things like so many I was bouncing back and forth between paths
But now I'm like dialed in I'm aware of all these other paths, but they don't seem as like
As optimal as this path
So I think that's why I'm on the right path because all the other paths are kind of just
Not relevant to like they don't seem the right way forward like this path I
Genuinely see this path is like the only way forward right now or not just not the only way forward but
the right way forward or the way forward because I
hadn't even thought of it like I hadn't even thought of the fact that
This is I'm going this way because
This is the way that I see as best
And that's really what transfer finance you just place one foot in front of the other and then the path becomes clear eventually
Does it I don't know but pretty much like right now. I don't know what's gonna happen in like a couple days. I
don't know if any new thing is gonna pop up but
Right now the path just seems so clear. I just have to keep recording keep building content every day
that will improve my skill as well as
Give me enough time to gather more audience and find my voice
So that's that and then just do the inner work spiritual growth
Study the books and just keep sharing what I'm learning along the way like this whole episode
I just spent sharing all the things I learned so far today
Which honestly, I'm gonna be honest right before this episode
I was like I just got finished meditating and I knew that I had to record right after the meditation
So right when I got out of the meditation. I was like
Putting the blanket away in my closet putting the pillow away and then I was thinking like what am I gonna talk about today?
Like maybe I should just skip today
Maybe I should not record today
And there was even this one thought that popped up in my head like maybe I should just sit here and do nothing and
Record one hour of blank like just a silent one hour recording and post it
But they're like that's such a stupid thought and like I instantly like dismissed it
all of those thoughts and then I
Just came down here and just figured it out along the way
I wrote down a few notes because I came down here and I was like what am I gonna talk about and I remember that I
Started like taking notes every day like
writing little notes every day
just
improve the quality and not avoid like
moments of silence and
Then I started writing the notes and I haven't even talked about a
few of the things on the notes
Because I've just gotten into the flow so I didn't really need to but
Like those like those thoughts were all the resistance like Russell Brunson talked about the resistance
Which is basically all negative thoughts that try and stop you
Like that's all negative thoughts
Like I did like there was a feeling that I didn't even want to record
But now that I'm recording. I just like it's all like on now that I take action. It's all gone
and
There's this also another thing
so
another reason why I know I'm on the right path is because
I'm not like struggling to do things
So I remember when I was like first adding things into my routine
I would have to like use a lot of discipline and willpower to kind of get consistent at it or
even stay consistent
But now my daily routine I just do it fluid fluidly and flow flow
low I
Just do it fluidly and I just keep moving forward with my daily routine. I do the same exact thing every day at
the same times every day and
I'm I also have spent a lot of time meditating like when I was first getting into
Meditation like consistently like seriously consistently
like 70 minutes a day I would do over two
Meditation sessions so 30 minutes in the morning or 40 minutes in the morning and 30 in the afternoon
Like right before I went to bed. I
Would do that and it would just be like me just sitting there blankly and I didn't really I
Always kind of there was times where I actually would cut it short for like weeks. I would literally just cut it like 10 minute short
But now I'm literally just sitting in the meditation the entire time now
Yes, the gateway experience has helped because now I'm semi entertained the whole time by hearing the speaking
but that's not necessarily true because
The speaking is only at certain points like it's not he doesn't speak the whole time
There's long moments of silence and
I'm entertained now because I actually know what to do like whereas before I was simply just sitting in silence and boredom
Just focusing on my breath trying to keep my thoughts empty
but now I actually have purpose in my meditation which I think is so valuable and
And looking in hindsight, I actually think that the before it was valuable also
But it was just harder because it's boring
What that's why it's valuable like don't discount regular plan on meditation with no
like breath work or
exercises
Because boredom is good like you need to be bored sometimes
and
But these new meditations, I'm always like doings. I'm always like I always have something that I could do in my head
And it's something that I'm working towards whereas the normal meditation
I didn't really feel like I was working towards anything simply just clearing my mind. It's just like being present
But now I feel like I'm working towards something with every single
action that I do in the meditation like
from the
Second that I start the energy conversion box. I know that that is helping me with inner work
Extremely because I've proved it with I am focused affirmation as well as I'm a man who has high standards when it comes to women
affirmation and I'm proving it with this third one, which is I
Don't hold any expectations
with the results of this meditation
So that first one I already know that I'm working towards something like it has a purpose and it's definitely helping me with inner work
And then the second one resonant tuning like I know that it's helping me because energy like I definitely can tell
That energy actually is a thing like free energy cosmic energy
I definitely can tell it's a thing first of all because I can literally feel it even right now. I don't feel like on a normal
Basis when I'm not thinking about it, but right now I can like hold up my hand and feel like the energy and then
Also, especially once I get into focus 10 and focus 12 I can definitely feel that energy and it's actually it feels amazing
And my energy levels are definitely increasing. I feel like now it's very slow
So I can't really tell if it's increasing
But I feel like if you were to compare me right now to me three months ago
I definitely would have higher energy now
and
Then the third one resident energy balloon. It's like it's it's it's resonant tuning on steroids
It's literally just constantly flowing the energy
constant flow of energy that is where I really feel the energy and actually I started
Doing the resident energy like usually you just do the resident energy balloon during your preparatory process while you're just a normal consciousness
Conscious one is what it's called or focus one
But I actually after reading the gateway manual just earlier today
I started doing the resident energy balloon during focus 10 and focus 12 and it's like
Resonant energy balloon you can feel it in conscious one
Yeah, I just did it right now, but you can feel it in conscious one like in your waking reality
You can feel it
But it is like that on
steroids like literally
So much more powerful in focus 10 and then even more powerful in focus 12. It's actually so awesome and
I started doing that and it's I definitely feel like that it's good and
Then the affirmation
The affirmation oh
Wait, I said the affirmation was the first thing the energy conversion box was the first thing
Which I put all of the things in and that is work similar to affirmation in the sense where it like
clears out like helps clean up my inner
like my mind and
All that stuff and it makes changes in me and
Then focus 10 helps me get into deep relaxation
and
That's another thing I when I first
Started getting into focus 10. I was doing it throughout the day at school
Like I would literally there was one time where I was sitting in the auditorium for a field trip and I was I literally just put my I
I practiced the focus 10 and put my hands and like I've put my hands to sleep or like put them into focus 10 and
I
Stopped that and then I was reminded that that's a thing that you can do
during your day and
So that's what I'm starting to do now. I started to do it today during school
So that's good focus 10 definitely helps make changes in you as well as it gives me a
Playground to visualize which is so huge. That's actually the reason why I got into the gateway experience
like
Yes, the gateway experience like intrigued me
But the main reason why I wanted to get into the gateway experience was because I had just I was breeding
Transurfing and I realized that I needed to visualize literally like 30 minutes a day and that was like a
foundational piece it was a core
Heller of found a of
Transurfing
Yet I wasn't doing it and I actually have a hard time like I I'm not a visualizer
I don't have like an imagery sense like I can't visualize during my waking and
So that's why I wanted to get in the gateway experience because I heard that
You can actually visualize in the gateway experience
Which is true like I definitely found that my visualization is way stronger in
The especially in focus 12 today was the deepest focus like the strongest focus 12. I've had so far I
Still can't see the pictures vividly, but it's getting clearer like it's definitely getting more clear
Which is really cool to see
and
So I'm definitely able to visualize a lot better
And that's exactly what like why I did it
Plus it's a dedicated position in my routine where I have three times per day where I'm
guaranteed a
timeframe to visualize which I always do and
Also one benefit that I didn't realize until after I started doing the gateway experience like just recently I realized that
Your visualization is way more powerful
in
meditation
especially after you've like done resident energy balloon and especially after you're in focus 10 higher
States of consciousness expanded consciousness like in focus 12 when you're in those high energy states
That's when you're like high energy like right now. I'm in a my normal waking state
So all the energy that I'm receiving is just normal, but when you're in that meditation, you're in a high energy state
so it's like it's like
Your energy that you're sending out like your thought energy is way more powerful in the meditation
So that's why I feel like it's extremely good as well for that case
Plus I'm not I never really was much of a daydreamer like I never really
Imagined or visualized things throughout the day
which is why I feel like it was so difficult for me to
Visualize in the first place for trans surfing so that's why I'm really glad I got into the
gateway experience and
I'd been doing this for a month and this whole month. I definitely found benefit like even from when I started benefits
But right now is where I'm starting to get
To get the fruits of my labor because now is when I'm starting to get into focus 12 because when I first started
Yes, I was spending a lot of time on focus 10, but ultimately my real
Goal was to get into focus 12 because that's when you can start that's where I heard that you could start actually visualizing
But then my goal changed to focus 15 because
That's where visualization is even more powerful and they have a thing called patterning
Which is basically just visualization and they have it in focus 12 as well as their focus 15 tape
but I
Wanted you you're supposed to do it all in order and I don't think that focus 15 is I think that focus 15 is not until like
wave six or seven
Or like way later like it's not in wave three or four. I don't think because I was looking at the I
Was looking at the I read the whole guidebook
Which is like wave one through five or wave one through four?
I don't remember all the number of the numbers. They just said like discovery threshold freedom. I
Don't remember the other ones, but they just had the name
So they didn't say the numbers and I was looking through and you can see like they say focus 10 like 10 with the numerical
10 like 1 0 and they say focus 12 numerical 1 2
So I was like scanning the rest
Are scanning through the last
Parts that I didn't really read because they were the next waves that I wasn't
Doing until like I probably won't do them for a little bit till I get money
Cuz and they didn't say anything about 15 like I didn't see any focus 15 and
Actually in the Q&A they said when there was a question because this was this guidebook manual was like released a long time ago
It was probably in like the 80s or 90s
and so there was in the Q&A session it
It said there was one question that asked when are you gonna release focus 15 and 21 and
They said they're not releasing it
But they have released it spoil earlier
But I just haven't gotten it
But right now I'm just focused on focus 12 because
I
Originally my intention like my reasoning originally for getting the gateway experience
Was solely for visualization, but now I see it as way more valuable than that
And now I want to explore like my consciousness and I want to explore further
I don't want to experience what all of these people are talking about like this one like there's so many cool
Stories and the experiences that people had that I want to experience for myself as well
Which is another expectation. I just became conscious of that, but I want to experience my own journey pretty much and
That's why now I'm not really I still am visualizing in the gateway experience, but I'm just not
like that's not my priority anymore because I
Want to gain I want to
I want to experience all this I want to explore and I really feel like the value because
similar to me podcasting I
I'm finding so much more the actual real value from me podcasting my original intention for podcasting was to never have to
Worry about money again. It was a means for my business
But now I realized that the value really comes from finding your voice and
all that stuff and
that's similar that to
The gateway experience my original intention was just to visualize which the reason why I visualize is so I can get the
actual
result of me actually getting to my goal
But now I realized that
The real benefit comes from the journey it comes from me
Me constantly working on myself me transforming myself, which is another concept that I learned about in expert secrets the
In a story like the hero goes through two journeys. I forgot what the first one was called, but it's basically like the journey of
achievement which is like
Imagine you're trying to become a millionaire you try to become a millionaire and
You like your journey of achievement is the journey to get a million dollars
But then you go through a second journey, which is the journey of transformation, which is the real journey
And it's the transformation that the hero goes through along the way towards his goal
And that's what happened for me with the podcast my hero of my journey of achievement is
is financial freedom which I haven't even achieved yet. I'm still on the journey and
But the real transformation is happening every day and the transformation is what is the real valuable part to it?
And I was just talking to my dad earlier
today where I
Was saying that if two if one millionaire already a millionaire
Had to start from scratch and I had to start from scratch and we raced to become millionaires
They would destroy me they would beat me so quick because they did the inner work and they've already gone through the the journey of
Transformation so now I still have to go through the journey of transformation
But they have already done it so they're starting with a much better baseline
So now they can actually simply just get the journey of a cheap now
Yes, there still may be a journey of transformation is just not as profound as the first time
And that's why it's so much easier to get your second million dollars than your first and
So I'm actually really starting to see that in a lot of things like
I'm looking for a destination. I'm looking for a result, but the real benefit is
the transformation like in my slide I actually have
me
doing like
My slide has a lot of things but essentially I realized that I
That's like the end result and I actually am not at that point yet and I have to like transform to get there
There's a lot of things that
I'm doing in the slide that I'm not able to do right now. For example in my slide. I like actually
Visualize me at the beach
Getting to like focus 21 or getting very deep into visualizations or
Not visualizations
meditations
So I that requires a journey of transformation just to achieve that result
So that's why I really think the journey of transformation is extremely important and extremely valuable
And
like
Yeah, honestly, I wrote down a bunch of notes in my notebook and
I was talking about how I hadn't even said anything on it
But I actually talked about everything on that
I was expecting to see some notes that I can talk about but I've already talked about all the things I wrote down
So that's that brings me to this one thing this one thing that I do all the time in my
videos is
After like all of my podcasts like none of them are really scripted just recently I started doing the
notes and I started writing like general
Structuring out like general ideas to talk about
but when I run out I have to start thinking of something random and
When in a case where I'm actually not I
Don't know why I'm not focused the cameras not focused on me
Okay, but in a case where I'm not
What's the word where I can't think of anything I was just get my water and I drink water
So I'm gonna do that right now. Let me get some water
There's one thing that I
Sat down this morning the first time I sat down to read these books the moment that I've been waiting for for literally a month
The seven books that I'm reading right now journey out of bodies toofty the priestess dancing for the music stops the Egypt code die wise come of age and
What's the last one a scent of humanity?
All of these books I've been waiting for literally like a year not a year a month to read and to get into
maybe even longer than that and
I
Sat down this morning and I couldn't even get through
Some of them. I just thought I was just bored even though I knew there was so much into them and
There was three that like I said earlier. There was three books that I really wanted to read like journey out of the bodies
toofty the priestess and
dancing after music stops those are the three books that
I'm really interested right now and
The issue with me studying this morning
Which is another reason why I think I might not do the seven books method is because I
I read barely any of all the other books just a few pages, but then I read a lot of
Like I spent way more time on reading the three books. I'm interested in right now
Which is why I think that it would be better if I simply just chose one and just stuck with it because then I wouldn't have the
excuse to move on to the next one like
Die wise is the first one of the books that I wasn't that I didn't I
like
sat down to read and I just couldn't get myself to read it and
So I use the excuse to move on to the next one and
I did the same thing with the next one and the next one
Which is why I think that
that
Seven reading that seven book method has its downfalls, but maybe I'm not even doing it the right way. I
Don't know. Maybe I should just read one book at a time
but I don't know and also I want to talk about money because I
Realize that I haven't really been thinking about money too much, but I'm kind of like in a position where I don't have any money
and I also want to kind of
move forward with my
With things like once I get like right now. I'm nowhere near
What where I want to be with focus 12 before I move on to a wave 3 of the gateway experience
but let's say I were to
Want to move on a wave 3 I wouldn't have the money to actually buy it because it's it's pretty expensive
It's like a hundred ten dollars for every wave
So I wouldn't be able to buy it
There's some things that want like honestly there I I'm getting through right now
Like like I said the only three things I'm focusing on our meditation
studying and
Concentration which are all three things that are basically free other than buy new books and paying for the membership for my editing software
as well as
RSS like podcasting software
So those are basically free
So I'm in a situation where I'm not really I don't really have any desire or I do have a desire to buy more things
But I don't really need to buy any more things
so I'm in a situation where I'm like
held back by money because I only have like hundred bucks in my bank account and I can't really spend it because
I need to have the money to be able to buy
Like pay for the membership like the softwares
And then
But it's also like I don't really
Honestly, I don't even know what I buy. I don't know never mind
But I really think that I want to talk about dancing if the music stops that is probably one of my favorite books right now that I'm reading of the seven
and the reason I'm reading the seven is because I'm not really sure what I'm reading
and the reason why is because
He's talking in such a way that really resonates with me like he is talking about how
the children of the light and I
Don't know there. It's just the type of book that I really am interested in right now because it's a he said a spirituality
handbook it's basically a guidebook for it's like a manual on how to go out go about life and
I don't know. Okay. I don't know why my webcam is not focusing this whole time. Oh
There we go just like that
But honestly, I'm really I'm really excited for
There's many things I'm looking forward to like throughout time like when I was in the gym first getting into the gym
I was really excited to see my progress
Now, yeah, I'm excited to see my progress, but I don't even think about my progress anymore at the gym
I'm gonna be honest. I'm still making progress like my physique is still
Making progress and it looks really good, but I'm not even thinking about it
And then there's but right now when I'm thinking about like the other day
I was thinking about reading a lot and I still am thinking about it, but it's kind of like 20% of my
excitement for the future growth, but really what right now what my real excitement is is meditation and
a cut like a couple months ago my real excitement was
Podcasts and right now. I'm not really thinking too much about the podcast because I know this is a long game and
Similar to my physique. It's it takes a long. It's like a slow
build
Like I'm not even at 1000 downloads yet. I'm at like 810 or something like that. I have like six subscribers
Which is funny because in the beginning of September last month I
had
like seven subscribers and then at the whole month I had only six and then I
I right at the end of the month I jumped up to seven so my graph for the month of September said seven subscribers or seven followers or
Whatever the word is a rolling average subscribers or followers, which is a stat that rss.com like
kind of made up to symbolize a
Generic number like it's not completely accurate, but it's kind of accurate
And so I had like seven at the end of the semester or
semester month and
The similar thing is happening right now it dropped down to six
Like it was at seven in the beginning of October and now it's been at six
so it's funny because
but I still am growing on my
views
Because it says like past 30 days download like downloads in the past 30 days and it's up like 60%
From the past 30 day session, which is good
So it's like a slow growth and I predict that at some point there's gonna be like big bounces and big spikes because
There's this one thing that I made the declaration that I was gonna do which is go on guest shows like be a guest speaker on a
Other shows to try and get some more organic traffic onto mine
So after times is doing that then that will give me a big spike of like audience
So right now I think the organic kind of method is a very long game because that's all I'm doing just the podcast as well as
Couple weeks ago. I started tiktoks. I started posting tiktoks and shorts every single day. I post three every day
and
Those lately on the tiktok. I've been getting
250 like around 200 views per
episode
So or per
tiktok
So that's that's good
I think especially for beginning as because I feel like I was talking to my friend when we first get in and into tiktoks
It's one skill set. I'm finding my voice in
In podcasting it's one thing to be able to talk for one hour and find your voice and
Talk like do all that but it's a completely different thing to find your voice in tiktoks
Like one minute and consolidate your point to like one minute videos or less than a minute
So I think that I'm making growth on that as well
So I think it's really beneficial even though I'm only spending like five minutes a day
Recording and I don't even edit those tiktoks right now at the moment. I'm not editing them because it's too much
To be honest, it's too much time that I I don't want to be spending on that
Even though I could just pop it into an editing AI editing software which
video.ai is one of the things that I was using before but
I'm using that as an excuse not to create high quality and
It's definitely gonna change. I definitely plan on editing in the future, but for the time being I'm just
Gonna focus I'm focusing on my priorities
Like I don't want to spend too much time because even after this episode. I'm going straight up
I'm not even gonna be able to edit this episode today
Maybe I will but
There's things that you have to prioritize but in two months
I'm really excited for two months because one I'm gonna already have so much more growth on my channel as well as my
current like I'll have
Okay, the reason why I'm so excited for
the end of school for me in two months is
One I'm gonna have an influx of time
But that's not even like the most exciting part the most exciting part is to set myself up for that like
Yes, it'd be amazing to have that time right now and I would prefer to have that time right now, but I
Have this opportunity to grow so much and literally just get prepare myself
so much like get
More viewers or just open a bunch more
Open up a bunch more
possibilities
Like find my voice more
Get better at podcasting get better at shorts get better at
meditating
Like get like I'll do the inner work for two more months. So I'll like literally my character might
Me is gonna grow so much over these next two months
And then by the time I have all this time now, I'm gonna have even more time to grow
So I'm gonna grow even more exponentially, but then I'll have so much more time now. I can start doing a lot more
and
Plus I was doing the math and I think I'm in two months. I'm gonna be at like
Is it episode 150 I think I'm gonna be at like episode 150
When I graduate around there, I don't know the and actually I wrote that in my journal last night
I I need to figure out the actual day that I am done like the last day of my finals and
And I'll figure out what episode I'll be on in two months because that's gonna be awesome
Episode 150 out of school
It's like setting myself up exactly perfect timing
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