What is the next step?
Well, if you guys haven't noticed, lately the quality of my episodes have been lower.
And to be honest, I was unsure why.
I don't really know exactly why they're lower all of a sudden now, 85 episodes in, especially
since they were on a steady incline, my entire time recording episodes for the past 80 days.
But what I discovered is that I am not taking enough rest days.
I'm not taking any rest days, actually.
And I first learned about this in a book called 10x is easier than 2x.
And in there, I learned about you should focus on quality over quantity.
But then in the next book that I read called create, don't capture, he said, quality over
quantity, but quantity leads to quality.
But quality quantity is the best.
So what that means is basically quality is better than quantity.
But, and I'm talking about content creation.
So my podcast, for example, it's better to have higher quality podcasts than to have
a lot of podcasts.
But having a lot of practice, like IE, high quantity, like what I'm doing one hour every
day, having a lot of practice leads to higher quality.
And the end result, high quality with a lot of quantity is the best.
So high quantity, high quality, in high quality.
And I learned about that in 10x and create, don't capture.
And I was reading those books, those two books over the past week, a little bit over a week.
And I finished them both.
But I realized that I need to improve my quality.
So for this past week, I realized that I'm not improving my quality much.
And I have to do, I have to make some drastic changes in order to actually do that.
Some things that I need to start doing are taking rest days.
As in one of the chapters on 10x, he said, there's three types of days you should have
in your schedule.
Focus days, buffer days, and rest days.
Essentially, focus days are your work days.
So it's days that I'm recording, which for me is every single day.
Every single day is a focus day, because I record every single day.
But you also need buffer days, which are days to prepare for your recording or your work
work.
And in the acting business, focus days would be the day of the show.
And then buffer days would be practice days, like days when you're rehearsing and practicing.
But then you also need a third type of day, which is rest day.
On rest days, you do absolutely nothing.
You just rest and you regain your, like you just rest up.
And it's extremely good because I also learned about that.
I knew that it was important from reading in 10x, but then I also read it again in create
don't capture, like rest days.
The guy, Eric Thane, who wrote create don't capture, actually, he knows how valuable rest
days are.
And like days where you're just doing nothing and just recharging and refueling.
He knows how valuable they are to the point where he, after a business conference, funnel
hacking live, the same business conference I went to, but he went the year before.
This is, he's, I'm talking about the year before.
So 2022 funnel hacking live, he went there and then he went straight to a cruise for four
days.
So, and what he was doing on the cruise the entire time was just thinking and he was in
silence the whole time, just thinking and deep in his books or deep in his journal.
I don't think he was even in books.
He was just thinking the whole time, just recharging and resting.
And he told me that story at funnel hacking live because he was speaking when I went in
2023.
He told the story and I wrote down in my journal, I want to do that.
Like I want to take a cruise and just, like just being deep thought the whole time and
not even get off the boat.
Just literally stay on the boat the entire time and just being deep thought.
And then I learned, I learned more in 10X is easier than 2X.
Pretty much the way I read books is I don't get the most out of it.
I get one thing and I apply that one thing or two things.
Pretty much the thing that I got out of 10X is I got so much out of it, but the two things
I'm actually like taking action on are I have to improve the quality or quantity and I have
to incorporate rest days, buffer days and focus days.
And the way that I plan on doing that right now is I'm going to be having my entire week,
Monday through Friday, rest slash buffer days where I'm just studying.
I literally just read my books all day, study all day, read all day.
And then I consolidate all of the notes that I take from reading into seven episodes worth
of notes.
And that will be seven hours worth of content.
And I record all of that on the weekend.
Four hours on Saturday and three hours on Sunday.
And that will be, those two will be my focus days.
And this will improve my quality as well.
So this will improve my quality and the fact that I need rest days.
And it'll improve my quality because I'll have a lot more time, bulk time to do the same
things.
And this is another thing I learned in the four hour work week and then it continued on
10X is easier than 2X, where you should have, you should batch your schedule.
So pretty much if you have meetings, then you should have one day of the week dedicated
to meetings.
Or if you go on your phone or you go on your email, then you should have one day of the
week or one specific time at the end of the day to check your phone or check your emails.
And for a long time, that's what I did.
I only checked my phone after every single podcast every day for a few weeks I did that,
maybe even months.
And I would only check my email after every podcast, but lately I haven't even been checking
my phone or my email because it's just, I'm not having enough time to do that.
And to be honest, I haven't found any value in doing either at all.
So I just don't do that much.
The reasoning behind it is it is extremely bad for our focus to switch back and forth
between tasks, like working deep work on your work, like your priorities, like your main
business, your 20% tasks.
If you're in deep work on that and then you switch to go check your phone or you switch
to go into a meeting and then you switch back, it just doesn't work.
And so that's why you have to have entire days dedicated to just one thing.
And that's also what I'm going to be doing.
I'll dedicate my entire week to just creating episode notes.
I'm just going to dedicate five days of my week to creating episode notes so I can have
somewhat of a structure during my episodes, my shows.
Because there's one thing that I don't like about my episodes.
I was telling my friend about this today.
I don't plan the episodes out and as a result, I bounce back and forth between ideas.
And I'm sure you guys have definitely noticed this.
I start going on one idea and then I bounce to a different idea and then I go back to
the original idea.
And then it's just crazy.
It's hard to follow and to be honest, I don't think that it's good content.
It's not high quality.
So what I realized is I have to improve that by adding somewhat of a structure.
I'm not going to script out the episode, but I'm going to have a structure.
For example, in my Transurfing Principles episodes, like yesterday's episode was the
last Transurfing Principles episode for now.
And those are structured because I write five pages worth of notes just to talk about all
those five pages.
And that's when I'm probably not going to write five pages worth of notes on all of
my things.
Over the past two days, I've been doing a just basic structuring, just extremely basic.
Like today's notes, which I'm going to get into later on in this episode is I want to
talk about spirituality and how that's the next step for me.
But before I want to tell you guys more about this.
So we've discussed 10x and how you should structure a week.
And that's what I'm going to do.
These are the next steps in my progress.
During my week to just study all week and then on the weekends I record.
And this will give me a lot of rest and time to recover from the creative side because
you can't just crank out episodes like daily.
That's what I've come to realize.
And the way I plan on doing this, I plan on dedicating my entire weekend.
Like I'm not going to go to the gym at all on the weekends anymore.
Once I implement this schedule, I'm only going to be, the only thing I'm going to be doing
over the weekend is record and meditate.
I'm literally just going to wake up, do my morning routine and then literally just get,
I'm probably going to read for like a little bit in the morning because I don't want to
record like right away at the brink of dawn because my family is still asleep.
But pretty much I wake up and then read, do my normal routine.
Like my morning routine has reading in it.
So I wake up, do my morning routine and then eventually once like my family's all settled
like awoken, then I will meditate.
First thing.
I'm going to go back and forth, meditate, record, meditate, record.
And I'll do this for four episodes on Saturday and three episodes on Sunday.
That's going to be my entire weekend.
Meditate and record.
I'll probably get like, I'll wake up, do my meditation in the morning and then I'll
meditate before the first and I'll meditate for the second, third, fourth.
And then I'll probably get six meditations in on Saturday, which will be the most that
I've ever done.
I don't know how I'll feel after that.
I don't know what, I don't know what to expect, but that's what I'm going to do.
And again, this may change and it probably will change.
Like my plans will probably change because I'm probably not going to be able to implement
this fully.
Like I'm not, I'm probably not going to be able to fully dive into this until I'm graduated,
which is in two months.
Today is, uh, when I record this episode, it's Tuesday, October 10th.
So I believe that this episode will go live or will post on Tuesday, October 17th.
So around about a month because I graduate probably on like December 20th.
So around two months I'll graduate and then I'll have my entire schedule freed up just
for this.
Like I'm literally just going to dedicate myself entirely to two things or three things actually.
Building myself through expanding my knowledge base, like studying a lot and meditating.
That will be, and like building my spirituality through meditating as well as reading books
about spirituality.
And then the third thing is documenting my journey and which is building my channel,
building my, just building my channel because that's all I'm focusing on.
Like I decided to get into entrepreneurship over summer, probably four months ago is when
I decided to get into business.
But I did not expect to, I thought that I was just going to be focused on business and
like figuring out business strategies and tactics.
But what I'm extremely grateful for is that I discovered that you, the billionaires of
tomorrow are building their brands today.
And what that means is tomorrow's billionaires, like the billionaires of the next decade are
all building their channel, building their content, building their influence right now.
They're starting to build their channels and their social media and presence.
And that's especially good because this will lead into a business opportunity, but the whole,
like the most important part of it is it is expanding my own development.
It is developing myself.
I'm developing myself through one finding my voice, my purpose and my, my like, like
my goal.
That's finding my voice and my purpose in through podcasting and recording TikToks.
That's that.
I'm documenting my journey.
I'm teaching what I'm sharing at real time.
So I'm strengthening my own knowledge as well through podcasting.
And two, the way I get like now that's all I focus on.
Like that's the old, that's my entire job right now.
That's the only thing I focus on.
And then the rest of my time is dedicated 100% to studying and evolving my spirituality
because over the past couple of months, I don't know, you've probably, you guys have
definitely been able to tell that I'm kind of on the verge to discovering something.
And over the past couple of months, I've been like talking a lot about worldview and how
you're thinking is like the most like everything that goes on in your head is like the biggest
factor in determining your success or not.
And that's why I've been getting into all of this stuff like mindset and worldview books
like reality, trans surfing and 10 X is easier than 2X.
But what it's led me down is a whole journey of realizing that my spirituality is the next
phase of my life.
So when I said, what is the next step in the beginning of this episode?
The next step is me focusing 100% on my spiritual journey.
And let me explain because probably like a month ago or two, like, yeah, probably a month
ago I was researching reality, trans surfing because I wanted to learn more about it.
And I was in I was in the middle of my second time reading it.
And then I found this one website called the most beautiful world, which led me down this
whole reading list.
It was called the ultimate reading list for human beings.
And what I read on this reading list was it was basically a blog post.
It was like an introduction, like a blog post.
And then it was the reading list.
And in that blog post, he basically hinted at that there's more to life and that you
can discover the truth through reading and that you that there is way more than we expected
that there's way more than we've been led to believe.
Pretty much everything that I kind of had suspicions about from reading, trans surfing,
because once I read trans surfing, it opened the door of possibilities in my in my knowledge base
to where I thinking, oh, wow, there's way more because I cannot now I can actually achieve
things.
I have a goal right now to move to Hawaii and become a surfer and have a yacht and own
a beach, a private beach.
That's my goal that I never would have had a goal so ambitious one year ago.
My most ambitious goal one year ago was probably I don't even know.
I think it was probably like gaining five pounds on tricep push down or something like
that, something I could achieve in literally like two weeks.
So this reading list, I read through the entire thing.
It probably took like, I don't know how long, probably 20 minutes.
I read through the entire page and I realized that like more than three more than three
fourths of the books on that reading list, all the like the first 100 books on that reading
list I had never even heard of before.
And he was talking so highly of them.
Like the first one, die wise, he said, this is the best book that I've ever read in my
life.
This is my most gifted book.
And it's the book that you need to read right now today.
And then another one, it was like number 113 called journey, journeys out of the body.
And he said, this is another book that the power that be does not want you to read.
I have no idea what that means.
But it interests me.
And then he wrote a book, like he read this entire reading list went on an amazing trip
road trip for three years around North the Americas, all the way across the entire, like
both North and South American continent.
He went on a road trip and he wrote a book discussing everything that he learned from
all the books as well as the road trip.
And I bought that book, it's called dancing of the music stops.
And in the introduction, he placed a declassified CIA document about time travel in the intro
to his book that intrigued me.
So I looked into that and I actually printed out the entire document that it was taken
from, which is called the analysis and assessment of the gateway process.
So I printed that the entire thing out and I read it all in one weekend.
And this was after I'd read Transurfing.
So my worldview was already greatly expanded more so like my worldview was already more
closer to the truth to the average person already.
But this gateway, the analysis and assessment of the gateway process literally just like
30 pages absolutely like sparked something in me because I realized that there's so much
more because literally every single thing that was written in that book was absolutely
out of this world for me, not the book, the gateway assessment, the document.
So I did a deep dive on the gateway experience and the Monroe Institute and I went through
and found like probably like 10 documents and I printed them all all straight from my
school printer at the school.
But I printed them all and I've only read about half of them and there's one that is
like a hundred plus pages long called the Seven Resonant Colors, which is I really want
to read soon, but I simply just haven't prioritized it yet.
And so I got into all this stuff and I started looking at the gateway experience, which is
basically a meditative guided meditation that uses certain sound waves at certain frequencies
that can induce changes in the chemistry of your brain and can actually help you get into
deeper levels of meditation that otherwise would not be accessible in such a short period
of time.
So I naturally I bought the first wave, which is wave one called discovery and it focuses
on focus 10, which is essentially mind awake body sleep, which I initially interpreted
that as sleep paralysis, because that's what I heard online sleep paralysis while your
mind is awake.
So that I spent an entire month just using just practicing the focus 10.
And then I realized after reading another post online that this one woman basically wrote
about her experience, she described her experience about focus 10 and her description was exactly
the same.
It's identical to my experience, and I thought that my experience was not deep enough.
I thought that I needed to get it deeper before I moved on to focus 12.
When in reality I was ready to move on to focus 12.
So one month into focus 10 practice practice focus 10 for one month.
And yesterday, I think it was yesterday, I moved on to wave two.
And so that's focus 12.
It's all about focus 12.
I am unsure if I've achieved focus 12 yet.
I believe I have.
And there's many different things going on.
First of all, I'm looking into a lot of other people's experiences.
And so that's manipulating my expectations about what I should basically expect.
But everyone's spiritual journey is different and everyone's is unique to themselves.
And so I read this in the same lady that described her focus 10 experience.
She kept on saying that do not have expectations and also she kept saying that your experience
is going to be different.
So don't compare, don't have expectations that yours is going to be any different to
mine.
And also your experience is going to be the best experience ever because it's just that.
It's your experience.
And my experience is going to be better than her experience simply because it's my experience
and it's my own journey.
It's my soul's journey through spirituality.
So ever since I read that post literally like four hours ago, probably during class, I read
that today.
And I decided that I was going to stop comparing myself or stop comparing or I decided I was
going to stop looking at other people's experiences using the gateway experience.
And so as a result, now I'm just focusing on my own experience and I'm going to decide
that my own experience is exactly as it should be.
But I want to tell you about the next books that I'm reading.
One of the seven books that I'm reading right now is called Journey Out of the Bodies or
Journeys Out of the Body.
It's by Robert Munro who is basically the person who popularized out of body experience
as well as he founded the Munro Institute which created the gateway experience.
And so I started reading literally just the author's note just like the first couple pages
of the book.
And in it he said, there was one thing that struck me and he said that he was getting
into his out of body experiences and then instead of consciously controlling the situation
and consciously controlling the journey which he'd done before and he got results, but he
actually let go of the control and gave control to his higher self which he said his soul
as a question mark in parentheses.
So he gave control to his higher self which is his soul over his out of body experiences
and as a result he had so much better experiences that he's ever had before.
And over the next couple weeks I'm going to be reading that book and learning and sharing
all the things that I learn about.
And that one thing that he said I decided to implement it and I have no idea how to
go about releasing my control and giving control to my higher self.
I have no idea how to go about that.
But today during my meditation right before this episode instead of doing because I'm
on the tape two of wave two which has two exercises which is the first one is patterning
one month patterning which is all about manifestation and I did that a few times because that's
what I'm into but I decided that I didn't really like the structure of it.
I would rather have a free free flow experience where I can structure the visualization myself
so then I moved on to the next exercise which is called color breathing.
And so I expected to get more focus 12 experience but instead it was all about you were just
in focus 10 the entire time.
So it was kind of disappointing but I decided to stick through it.
It was a 35 minute meditation and so I didn't get focus 12 and I didn't really have the
ability to release the control to my higher self but I did try and do it with my focus
10 experience but it didn't.
It was just focus 10 so I didn't really have that big of an experience plus.
I realized that the importance of maintaining a consistent consistent on the dot sleep schedule
over the past like ever since I got home from Florida I've been going to bed at 6 10 exactly
I would always look at the clock right before I go to bed and it's 6 10 every single time
and as a result I woke up at the same time and then last night I had a double episode
and I kind of had to stay on the recording a little bit longer and so as a result I went
to bed at 6 28 and said so it was 18 minutes past what I should have gone to bed at and
I like it destroyed not destroyed but I definitely could tell the difference in my focus during
my meditation just now because I was kind of like falling as I was trying I was starting
to fall asleep in my meditation so that's why I'm also locking in on my maintaining
my schedule exactly like at 4 45 I always go up I always because I'm in the basement
recording and it's 356 right now at 4 45 I always go upstairs because then I start my
time and I time routine and I have this whole system to make sure I go to bed at the same
time but I want to talk about the whole why did I get on this tangent I was talking about
the oh yeah focus 12 so giving my higher consciousness or allowing my higher self to control the situation
and releasing control to my higher self and this leads me on to the whole point of this
entire episode so far I wrote down in my episode notes the foundation is spirituality and let
me talk about that I believe that my worldview is the foundation to my success and as a result
I spent two months reading reality Transurfing two times so I probably read it for four months
and then I realized that there's more to it I went on that whole deep dive on the gateway
experience and this reading list for discovering the truth and actually the third book on that
reading list I believe it's the third it's called a scent of humanity and his description
of it said he said this book lays out the foundation to how the world works and this
should be the first book you read to start to discover like the truth so I don't know
what the truth is like I told my friend George this morning I we're walking because I saw
him in the morning right when I got to school so we were walking to the cafeteria together
because that's usually where we go before school and he said he's one year younger than me
and he is just getting into actually he's just getting into reality Transurfing so he
is just beginning his journey on discovering the truth and he said that he instantly gains
like every time he's near me he gains a brand new perspective on his surroundings because
we were just walking through a huge crowd of people before school started so we were
walking through a huge crowd of high schoolers and we're just walking there and I was just
present I was focused like I am not as much as I hope to be but at that time I was present
and I was focused and he said I instantly gain a new perspective when I'm near you and
I said I don't remember how I responded but the conversation led to me saying I'm beginning
to discover the truth and don't ask me what the truth is because I have no idea I have
no idea and I need to know the truth because when I'm reading just the introduction to
Gene Pascal Riemann's book Dancing After The Music Stops the guy who compiled this reading
list when I'm reading the introduction to his book today I read it for the second time
just the intro I've just read the intro so far I have never read the whole book yet but
I read the intro two times and in the intro it was just it sparked another fire in me
because he is definitely he knows all the things that I desire to know right now so
I'm believing that worldview is the next is like the foundation but I go one step further
I say spirituality is the foundation to my success and worldview is just a piece in my
spirituality so this whole time I've just been focusing on one piece I have been focusing
on meditation but not really the deep meditation that is accessible to everyone but no one
knows about and it's focus 12 focus 15 focus 21 all of the deep focus levels as well as
out of body experiences astral projection I don't know anything I don't know much about
any of this stuff but I desire to experience it all and that is my journey on spirituality
that is why this next step this next phase in my life is going to be dedicated entirely
to growing my spirituality and entirely dedicated to mastering this stuff and documenting my
entire journey that is why I'm beginning to shift make some big changes I realized in
my past I'm okay so recently I read the book 10x is easier than 2x and it talked about
10x jumps and basically making jumps of 10x like instead of incrementally improving yourself
you radically improve and I've done that a few times in the past for example when I started
reading another example when I started lifting I radically improved my life and I radically
just like took out a lot of different things for example I got rid of video games I got
rid of junk food I got rid of tiktok YouTube social media Snapchat all of this stuff I
got rid of because I made radical changes in my life and as a result I was able to radically
improve my life and radically shift the course of events and my destiny and I'm on the verge
of another 10x jump I'm not really sure my last 10x jump but I'm on the verge of another
one because I am beginning to look into all of this stuff I'm beginning to radically shift
my entire work week schedule having five rest days and entire life and I realized in entire
week I realized that when I make big changes like I made a big change to not go to college
to declare that I wasn't going to college that improved so much that improve my situation
so much and then I made another big change I declared that I was going to graduate early
that was another big change that saved five months of my life and then I made another
big change I declared that I was not only going to graduate early I was also going to
become a part time student and have four periods four classes in my entire day for my entire
last semester of senior year my last semester of high school so I saved all that time and
that's because I made big changes I remember my dad talking to me because this was in the
period of time a couple months ago when I was actually starting to make these changes
and go to email all these people to drop out of certain things and talk to my counselor
and talk to my parents to get permission to do all this stuff I remember my dad said like
you're making big changes like you are starting I don't remember exactly what he said I regret
I'm gonna probably ask him but he basically said something like he said like you're making
big changes and he was like applauding me for it because I'm making big changes and
I'm starting to take control of my fate and my destiny and my life through making big
changes and he said that I'm making like there's one word that he used but he was basically
saying that you're being extremely bold and decisive in your actions and I applaud you
for it because no one else is doing stuff like this and so every time I make radical
adjustments to my life I am I massively improve and so now I'm going all in on this new phase
which is spirituality I really believe that meditation this is why I'm been meditating
three times a day for the past couple months no past month and I've been meditating at least
two times a day for the past couple months I've been meditating consistently for the
past couple months and recently I've upped it to three times a day for like 30 to 45
minutes per session so I'm meditating for 90 to 2 hours every day 90 minutes to 2 hours
every single day and this has purpose this is my spiritual journey and I'm also gonna
be learning about it in my books this is the next phase this is my radical shift this I'm
starting it right now like I started it before this I started reading those books that I
listed which are die wise come of age ascent on humanity toofty the priestess journey out
of the bodies dancing after the music stops and what's the last one the Egypt code all
of these books are the next phase of my life and that's why I start I'm starting it today
I already started it these next books at least I've been meditating but I probably won't
be able to make the radical changes that I want to until I free up my entire schedule
in two months so after I graduate I'll be able to make even more radical changes but
I am not gonna stop I'm making big radical changes now like all I'm gonna I'm gonna try
my hardest to make the radical changes now but if I have to hold off until I will but
I'm gonna do it all now and see where it takes me radical changes are changing my schedule
to have focus and rest days and buffer days going all in on spirituality and now I realize
that I have to just work there's one quote that I heard that I read about in Eric Thane's
book don't create don't capture and he said work on the messenger not the message like
improve the messenger not the message and it basically means that don't work on your
message that you're sending to your audience don't work on what I'm saying right now work
on yourself like work on yourself and grow yourself work on self development self improvement
so now that gave me that basically gave me permission to go all in now all I'm doing
now podcasting was my whole thing like podcasting was my main priority in my in my day now it's
gonna be my main priority on the weekend but now my main priority is studying all these
books and meditating that is all I'm gonna be doing for the time being until further
notice meditating and studying books and podcasting those are my meditation studying books podcasting
are my three tasks for every like my three priorities those are the only things that
I'm focusing on the meditation and studying will be self development so I'll be growing
as a person and I'll be growing myself and then the podcast is for documenting all of
that as well as finding my voice so then I can document my growth and you guys like this
the growth has been evident over the past 85 episodes 85 days my growth has been evident
because in the beginning literally the trailer this is one thing that I might want to change
because my trailer this season's trailer on my podcast is terrible because that was the
first episode I ever posted the trailer so I might make a new trailer so people actually
hear better have a better initial like response because usually the trailer is the first thing
people listen to and they judge the quality of the show based off that so I'm that's one
thing I might do but I'm not gonna do it for the time being like this is like this these
radical changes are what has to be done in order to make massive progress I'm gonna be
honest that's all the notes that wrote down but that's another thing soon I'm gonna be
actually starting to kind of structure out the episodes so the first 40 minutes of this
episode was structured out not entirely most of it was just free free ballin I don't know
if that's the right word but all like all I wrote down was spirituality and books and
meditation for my structure but let me get some water I want to talk about this one concept
that became clear to me today I started reading the books and one of the books I read was
Tufti so as I've talked about in the past episodes I'm reading I'm reading all seven
at the same time I just get the full pile stacked in front of me I pick up one read
tell loose focus then put it down and read the next one until I lose focus and then just
cycle and before this episode I got through three I only had like 30 minutes to read but
I got through three and I read like first couple pages of three which were journey out
of the bodies dancing after music stops and to feed the priestess and in to feed the priestess
it's another book by Vadom zone it's a more recent book by Vadom zone compared to reality
Transurfing and it's about Transurfing and in like the first couple pages he talked about
being asleep and being awake and he described it very well in that essentially we are asleep
in our dreams we're asleep and in reality we're asleep and when we're basically when
we're born and we're socialized our parents basically say look over here look at that
focus on me or focus on that and that basically gets our focus onto something outer so he
explained that there's two types of focus outer and inner when you're lost in thought
and you're just deep in thinking you're in you're asleep and you're basically on your
external actions are basically on autopilot but you're asleep that means that you're
asleep because you're deep in inner your attention is focused inwards that's enough
that's a that's being asleep but then the other side of it is when your attention is
focused fully on outer and you're immersed in the outer experience like a certain event
going on or you're immersed in this podcast that means that you're asleep as well but
then he described that most of the time we're either in one or the other and very rarely
were in between both and then he said that in order to wake up you have to be kind of
jaw what's the word straddling the line of them both so you have to be inner and outer
you have to be focused your attention on inner and outer so you have to hold your attention
on your inner thoughts like controlling your thoughts as well as being present in the outer
moment and that's basically what being awake is and when we were first born we controlled
our thoughts and then over time as like people said focus on this focus on that we started
to focus on outer and then we started focused on inner as well and then we lost control
it we started to not control our thoughts anymore which basically brings me hope because
the fact that we lost like that the ability to control our thoughts or not even the ability
but the intent to control our thoughts at your feed that basically shows me that we
can actually reverse the process and strengthen it back again and regain the ability to control
our thoughts which I have proved over the past couple months in the beginning of summer
when I first started reading transfer for the second time I decided that it's actually
vital to stay awake and work on being awake and present throughout the day and so over
the past let's just say four months I have been working on staying present and over these
four four months it's been like a long journey but every single day it got better and better
and better and then eventually just kind of became a habit and right now I'm kind of
in a situation where I'm not really sure if I have it as a habit to re kind of bring back
my thoughts to conscious awareness I'm not sure if it's a habit or if I lost everything
because I don't really call myself to wake up anymore like I used to consciously say
wake up wake up wake up I used to obsess over it but now I haven't really done that much
I kind of just like wake up naturally but I'm not sure how much thought the day but
I do think that I am doing a little a lot more like I'm conscious a lot more throughout
the day simply because my mind is a lot more clear and I have this feeling that I'm getting
closer and closer to my goals and I'm locking in even though I haven't seen a single change
in my environment not a single change in my environment that I've noticed but I have a
sense that I'm getting closer not really I think I just made that up but I'd like to
tell myself that but these next books I'm really I know that these are going to be game
changing for me because these are like the top books that he recommends and he has spirituality
all my life I grew up in the church like I grew up a Christian in the church and I was
always told like spirituality I don't even know what spirituality is I always said that
I believed in God but I didn't know I was just lying just to fit in I didn't know what
that meant and I was just I was just lying I got confirmed into the church I had to basically
say to the whole congregation that I believe in God and I did basically write a whole
story of my like the one moment where I realized that God was real that was all lies it wasn't
until I actually started to take my journey into my own hands and looked in Transurfing
which by the way I had no idea that Transurfing was going to talk about God it wasn't until
I realized I read Transurfing when I like decided not to be a Christian I'm no longer
Christian I don't go to church and thankfully my parents don't make me go to church anymore
or at least as the time being and it wasn't until I started looking into the stuff and
then I started meditating and I looked into this deep stuff like the gateway experience
when I'm starting to uncover the truth and I believe in God now not just faking it anymore
but I don't know yet and that's why I'm getting into the gateway experience that's why I'm
really going deep into spirituality because today I read the most crazy thing the most
crazy was actually crazy the thing that I read and this was the thing that I was talking
about earlier the person documenting her focus 10 experience which was identical to my own
but then she also went on to talk about her focus 12 experience and then further down
the post focus 15 and so I actually discovered this post last night on my computer and then
I copied and pasted it and put it in a Google Docs on my school account so I can actually
access it on my school computer today which was the next day yesterday because the school
blocks a lot of websites so I wanted to be able to read the post at school so I read
it at school and the way she was talking now granted she had a lot of experience like she
said that she had an experience either being or being with a Tibetan monk meditating so
she had a lot of experience on spirituality and that's what I noticed there was another
woman that I read about who had been meditating for 15 years and then started the gateway
experience and then within a couple months she was able to achieve like the final focus
level that they offer in the gateway experience like focus 27 and so they had a lot of experience
but that's not stopping me because I have one month of experience with the gateway experience
with wave one so I feel like within the next couple months I'll be able to achieve focus
12 focus 15 hopefully and the whole thing that I'm saying is that this woman the first
woman I'm talking about which is the one I read today she described her focus 10 identical
to mine and her focused 11 so her experience was absolutely insane she got to like in the
focus 12 tape in the intro to focus 12 he has you go to focus 10 and then he counts
up from he counts from 10 to 11 so he's like 10 11 12 but it's extremely long period in
between each number so it's like more like 10 and then he waits like a minute and then
it's 11 and then waits another minute and then 12 and so she realized that there's actually
amazing things to explore in between focus 10 and 12 which is focus 12 or focus 11 and
she like discovered the multiverse she was able to she basically described her experience
like she saw the multiverse which looks like a soap like suds of soap or like a cobweb
and then she also she went on to explain a lot of different things that like absolutely
blew my mind and then towards the end of her whole post after she was talking about like
focus 15 and all that stuff she was saying like I I the reason I share this is not so
you can have an expectation of what to expect on your own because your experience will not
be the same your experience will be unique to you and then she was basically going on
to say that everyone's spiritual journey is their own and it's just for them to experiment
and for them to observe no one else sees it and no one else experiences your journey and
then she went on to say that she said this post to give inspiration and kind of like
reignite the flame for some people to actually go with the gateway experience because she
thinks that she claimed that the gateway experience was like I don't remember exactly what she
said but she like the general thing that she said was that the gateway experience allowed
you to actually explore your divine essence and she talked about how we are infinite and
after reading that I was biking home and I had this entire like mindset shift like over
the past couple days I was really spending a lot of thought energy thinking about my
goal like being in Hawaii I was like thinking about a lot especially during my meditations
and then after reading that I was just in this completely different perspective like
all of a sudden the goal didn't really matter as much anymore like all of a sudden now the
next thing that I really need to get into is spirituality.
Yes I still want to achieve the goal but now like everything in life just kind of seems
less significant or it just feels like I'm a lot more it kind of feels like I had these
different thoughts like this one thought popped into my mind where we're infinite beings so
and then she also said our souls are immortal and so when I was cooking earlier today I
this thought creeped into my mind it was like so since we're immortal maybe we are experiencing
life just to have a perspective and to actually start to maybe we live in life so we can more
appreciate being infinite like maybe if we were infinite beings then we were then we
decided to go into life to experience the finite so we can better appreciate being infinite
maybe we lost our appreciation for the infinite maybe I'm just making a bunch of stuff up
but the point is that I started thinking differently after this one post and I started like thinking
bigger thoughts and different things and I had a different perspective around me too like
today during my gym class we were playing we're at the every Tuesday we go to the ice
rink and we skate and so we were playing soccer on the ice which is actually so fun and I
was like the only person on my team that was like really doing anything and then there
was two girls on the other team that were very good figure skaters and this one girl
in the beginning of the class I really like I this one girl is like cute and so I was
like you know how it goes I thought that she was cute but I never really talked to her
and then today we were like me and her were literally just going at it back and forth
because we're on opposite teams and we're the only two people that could actually play
and so we were basically going at it like back and forth I was defending and then she
was defending like all this and like it got to the point where like it was getting like
I would like we almost fell in like we kind of fell into each other and like all this
stuff and she gave me she was like high five and all this stuff a couple months ago if
that would have happened to me I would have been thinking about that experience and her
literally for the rest of the week but lately ever also the fact that I put girls in the
energy conversion box and I have this affirmation of I'm a man with high standards when it comes
to women ever since those two as well as yeah just those two I am like not really thinking
too much about her or girls in general that are in my school or in my town because I know
that I have higher standards for and I want like the girl that I really want to spend
my energy on will be my future wife which is not anyone at this school that I go to
and so like that that's another part that like spirituality and like meditation has
actually helped me so much clear my mind and yes meditation is good but doing exercises
during meditation I feel like this was one of my mistakes I would just meditate and simply
just clear my thoughts just focus on my breath for many months and even like I would have
been meditating inconsistently for the past maybe two years or one year but it wasn't
till like and also since I started meditating consistently over summer break I was just
like focusing on my breath and literally just sitting there in silence which is good but
once I started the gateway experience and actually implementing these tools and using
them practically like the energy conversion box that actually started to change things
in me like in the intro to focus 12 the beginning Robert Monroe basically says like these exercises
can help you to induce changes in yourself and you can use these tools to make changes
in yourself and I've realized that this actually does make changes because now I'm like I have
higher standards for like girls and women and not only that like I'm just not thinking
to I feel like my mind is stronger because especially when I was conditioned on tick
talk I used to watch tick tock and my mind was weak and I would literally just the sight
of a girl would just make my mind race and I would just constantly think about that girl
especially if I had a just a normal interaction with her like let's say I just said hello
or she said hello like just a normal attraction I would rate my mind would race and today's
interaction was like crazy like we were like ice skating and like we bumped like we were
like I like ran into her on accident and we were like literally going at it on the rink
and then we high-fived and all this stuff I would have my mind would have raced and
to be honest my mind did race a little bit but I was able to control it and now I'm like
it's not even I'm not even thinking about it but like that's the power of meditation
and this is why I really believe that I'm like right now my I really like that concept
of how strong my mind is like on tick tock my mind was weak now my mind is like moderately
weak so I'm trying to strengthen it because then I'll be capable of doing a lot more things
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