So the big question is this, how do young men like us who didn't listen to society
who are on our own, how do we grow and improve ourselves so that we can live a
better tomorrow? That is the question and this show will give you the answers. My
name is James Radzinski and welcome to the Ascend Momentum Show.
Episode 50, welcome back everyone.
Milestone episode. So currently I have five episodes scheduled so I have a
five-day cushion on my episodes. Well right now I have four but once I'm done
recording this episode all five. So that's I'm telling you that because next
weekend I will be going out of town again. So I'm one of these days either
tomorrow, Saturday or Sunday because today is Thursday and one of these days I am
going to record two episodes in one day again like I did a couple episodes
back and it's gonna I'm gonna do it just like how I did before where I record my
normal episode and then right after I record a Transurfing Principles episode.
So look out for Transurfing Principles part five coming soon because I haven't
posted one in a while and I so that means that I built up a lot of notes in
my notebook for I'm just studying and the way I do it is I review all the like
most important notes from my previous session since the last review and I make
an episode on it but last time I did it I had nine pages I think or it was like
ten pages or something like that of notes it was either nine or eighteen I
don't know or twelve it was it was a lot of notes more than one episode worth of
notes so I had to make two episodes so that's why I had episode like Transurfing
Principles part three and then part four like the next over the next couple of
days and so I'm planning on doing that again I might even do I'm proud I'm
definitely gonna do at least one Transurfing Principles episode but I may or
may not do more because I definitely have a lot of notes to make like three
maybe even three episodes worth of Transurfing Principles so look out for
those in the future well let's get into today's episode I want to start things
off by saying I am I have been looking into the gateway process a lot more and
if you guys are new here the gateway process is basically a meditation
technique using audio like sound waves like you put a headphone put headphones
on and then you hear audio sound waves like white noise pink noise waves
crashing wind blowing like all kinds of different noises and you hear them in
your ears and it's hemisync so it means that your ears can hear the difference
between the two so you can hear some things in the right ear and some things
in the left ear so I I I'm not very I'm not too knowledgeable in it yet but I
have a basic understanding of this as of now because I've spent the past like five
or six days just researching it I mean not really focusing on it but every
whenever I have downtime I look into it and I read more documents and the gateway
process is basically a meditation where you listen to those sound waves and you
get into a deep deeper deep relaxation and then you can get into deeper and
deeper meditations and they call these they call these different levels of like
deepness if you if you will let me say different levels of depth of the
meditation called focus levels so right now you and I are on focus one it's just
normal consciousness in in in waking reality then focus 10 is deep relaxation
so that's like the first focus level that they let like that you practice
getting into because they have eight tapes so eight CDs basically and I bought
the first CD and in that first CD they it's basically all about practicing
focus 10 and I'm really interested in in this stuff because it's all about like
self-discovery and learning about your inner self expanding your consciousness
and a lot of this stuff goes hand-in-hand with transurfing so this stuff will
allow you to increase your energy levels and when you're in these when you're in
these meditative states you have unity of heart and mind so you're you're like
left brain and right brain are in sync so you can apply a lot of the
transurfing principles now transurfing if you are new here
transurfing is the most powerful worldview out there it's it's the most
powerful belief system and in my opinion from anything that I've seen so far I've
I am 17 years old and I am just one year into reading so I have limited
experience but from what I've seen so far it is the most powerful belief system
out there and it is not like people just don't know about it and people don't
practice the principles and transurfing and those who do are extremely
successful transurfing is a book it's there's a book on it by Vadim Zell
so Vadim Zellin is a Russian um that I looked it up and they said Russian
mystic but I don't really know what that means so I'm just gonna say he's like a
Russian author who like knows what he's doing and he knows all about life the
game of life and he basically right he wrote a bunch of books and the main
books that the ones that I've read so far is reality transurfing parts one
through five so he wrote five books reality transurfing one the alternative
space reality transurfing two and I forgot all the other titles were but he
wrote reality transurfing one through five and then after that he combined them
all into one book and it's like a set it's like a 750 page book which is like
five books combined and I've read it once already and I'm actually more than
halfway done with my second read through and this time I'm actually studying it
instead of just passively reading it so I'm taking a lot of notes and talking
about it on the podcast so that book will change your life if you let it it's
changing my life and I already I can just from the difference between when I
started reading it until now just six months it's actually crazy how how much
my worldview has changed how different I perceive things but I definitely recommend
getting getting that book if you have not already but what I'm trying to say
is lately I've been looking into the gateway process because I am trying to
get better at transurfing and so one of the things that I have been doing lately
is meditating and I've been meditating pretty consistently for the past couple
months two times a day morning and night and that has been extremely
beneficial for me just not even just for transurfing because in his book I I
don't think that meditation is part of the transurfing technique but it's
still beneficial to do anyways so I do it but I was actually looking into this
new I was looking into transurfing so I was researching transurfing and I
discovered this website called you the most beautiful world I think it's called
I should actually go back and look but because I keep saying the website title
and I could just be completely wrong so I should check after this episode but
so attention aside that website talked about the ultimate reading list for
human beings and it he basically talked about how you can go on and read all
these books but if they're not the right books then you're not gonna get
anywhere in life but if you you can basically unlock the truth to life
through education and he basically provided a 180 book long reading list
that will like is the ultimate reading list for human beings and the first book
he recommended on it was reality transurfing so I found that website and
then I read the beginning which the intro it was like a blog post the intro I
absolutely loved and it already struck a chord with me it already was like I
already liked it so I kept reading and then he said the first book you should
read is reality transurfing and this will set the tone like the foundation to
and it will allow you to expand your mind to be able to accept other truths or
basically like that and so then he also taught or he also like said that he
wrote his own book which was a collection of his past like three or eight
years of experience including all of the books on that reading list and his
three-year-long road trip he went on a three-year long road trip with two is
two of his best best friends and went all the way from the northern most part
of North America to the southern most point of South America and he went all
over like the Americas and so that book was like a culmination of all of that
stuff and so naturally I bought that book and I bought the first book on the
reading list since I had already read reality transurfing which was the
foundation to the whole reading list so I bought his book and then I bought the
first book on the reading list which is called die wise which I had never heard
of most of the books like 80 I'd say 80 upwards to 80 percent of the books on
that reading list I had never heard of and he said we're game changers and I
kind of into not intuitively but I kind of subconsciously not consciously new
but I subconsciously had a feeling that since I'm reading transurfing and that
changed my world starting to read that I was on I was unlocked to a brand new
like world essentially and my world just completely changed and I was kind of let
out of my box of social conditioning because over the past 17 years I'm 17
years old by the way over the past 17 years I have been conditioned by society
and it was shaping my brain and conditioning me to fit its needs and so I
kind of unconsciously felt that since I read transurfing and that unlocked so
many door like so many avenues in my life and actually greatly greatly expanded
my knowledge of like our existence if he was recommending transurfing as the
foundation and I had already gotten that result from transurfing the first 10
books on that list like even the first like 80 books on that list he said we're
must read and we're game changers like a lot of those books he said absolutely
changed his life and changed the lives of those he gave to like he gave he
gifted those books to other like to his friends and family and it changed their
lives as well and so this the fact that transurfing changed my life so much and
he's saying that's the foundation and then all of these other books changed his
life like he didn't say transurfing changed his life I'm sure it did but he
didn't specifically say that this was a game changer like this changed my life
he all he said was just read this book first and he said more but I can't
remember exactly what and then he went on to say as he was listing off all of
the next books he went on to say that like the first book changes life his
his favorite book the second book changed like like every single book on that
list changes life maybe not every single one but like at least the first like 50
books on that list were game changers for him and so that's kind of where I'm at
right now I am going to finish reading reality transurfing the second time
through and then I'm gonna be starting that reading list on on that website
because I am trying to unlock the truth of reality but let's flat let's go a
little bit back or let's go let's flash forward a little bit after the book came
so I ordered the first book on the reading list and the book that that guy
actually wrote the book he wrote is called dancing after the music stops and
I was so excited because I have been talking to you guys on this podcast
about that reading list and I had been talking to my friend about that reading
list and I've just been thinking about that reading list and I knew that that
was like the next part the next piece of my journey and so I was so excited and
I told myself I wasn't gonna read another book until I finished
transurfing and I still intend to do that but I couldn't help it one night and
I actually read the introduction to Dancing After The Music stops and let
me tell you that book just the introduction I know is gonna be great
that book he was talking he was just talking in such a way that really
resonated with me that the way he spoke in that book really spoke to me and he
was talking all about so many things that I'm yet to learn and so many things
that I'm starting to uncover and then I kept on reading the introduction and
there was like this one page that had like this weird font to it and I
read it and it was literally I read like I read it and then he had a caption
under it and the cat I didn't read the actual part yet but I read the caption
first and he said nothing like inserting a declassified CIA document about time
travel into the introduction of your book so I was like what that's that's
weird and then I kind of like dismissed it but then I read the the piece and it
made no sense to me like I kind of understood but it was just like one
paragraph of the CIA document so I don't really understand it but I then I went
back I finished that introduction went back to bed or not back to bed I went to
bed and then I kind of forgot about it for the rest of that night and the
morning after and then I remembered it at school when I was talking to my
friend about I was actually talking to my friend about the introduction to that
book and then I actually remembered while I was talking to him and I said he
put a declassified CIA document about time travel in that book in the intro and
we were both like confused and then so I ended up looking into it on my computer
and I actually found the entire document the CIA document it's called the
analysis and assessment of the gateway process and that document is not that
whole document the analysis and assessment of the gateway process is not
about time travel itself like it's all there's only one paragraph like one part
of that entire like paper that paper the analysis the analysis and assessment of
the gateway process is like 30 to 40 pages long or something like that but
only like less than one page is dedicated to time travel so it's not about
time travel it's about what I was talking about before the gateway process
it's like deep meditation and self-discovery and all that stuff and so
I read I actually printed out that entire paper at my school because we were at
school when we were talking about this so I printed it out from my school
computer to my school printer and went to the library and print got it this is
all my school and then I read that entire thing over that weekend which was a
couple days ago it was last weekend and today's Thursday so I read the entire
document and there was some crazy stuff they were talking about in there but if
I were to have read that document one year ago before I read Transurfing I
would have just dismissed everything in there and I would just been like oh
that's crazy get rid of that but after I read Transurfing I realized that that
mindset was because of the society's social conditioning and society basically
wants you to have that mindset and it's trying to hold you back and it's kind of
hiding away the fact that we are like we have the freedom of choice and we it's
hiding the fact of our abilities and like our it's hiding like the true nature
of reality essentially and so after I read Transurfing I had the proper context
to not context but I had the proper like worldview or I guess or the ability to
under sir I guess I after I read Transurfing I developed the ability to
not just instantly dismiss things that were outside of my worldview and so that
benefited me greatly because I read that entire assessment and then I went to I
just kept researching more and more about it at school again the next week and I
found two more PDFs about it so there was one PDF about Monroe Institute like
who we are and it's like four pages long I printed that out at the same place at
my school and then there's another PDF that I found which was the it's like the
gateway process guidebook or journal or something along along those lines and
it's like 25 or around there it's around 20 to 30 pages long and it's just like a
guidebook from the military from the CIA and I printed that out as well and it's
like 20 to 30 pages long but there's a lot of pictures in it so it's not that
much of a reading and so I printed all that stuff out so that's three PDFs that
I found to this day so but there is a lot more PDFs but there's only three that
are like actual actually for reading I found a another website called like
Stargate it's like Project Stargate and it's the CIA it's on the CIA's website so
look up like Project Stargate CIA and then it's probably the first link and on
the CIA website they actually have listed every single they listed every single PDF
about like relating to or not just PDF but every single document relating to the
gateway or the CIA's experiments with the gateway process and so you know how
on Google when you Google something and you scroll all the way down you can go
to the next page and sometimes there's like 20 pages sometimes there's like 500
pages so on the CIA's website it's that same format so it's like PDFs all the way
down it's like it kind of looks like a search engine but it's it's just like
documents all the way down and then once you get to the bottom of the page you
can click on the next page or you can click on go to last page and so I
clicked on the go to last page and it turns out there are like 600 and like
50 six around 650 pages of documents so and on each page there's like 10 to 20
actual documents and each of those documents is either one to like 20 pages
long so there are a lot there's a lot of information about the gateway process on
the line but I was looking through like the first page of documents and I came
to the conclusion that most of those documents are just like scratch notes
from like the scientists and just raw data and just a lot of stuff that is not
very legible for us is not very worthwhile for us to read and so basically
I came to the conclusion after maybe 30 to 2 hours like around 2 hours of research
I came to the conclusion that there are 3 so far this is my conclusion after like
a week of looking into this stuff there are 3 documents to read about the
gateway process that I found online like PDFs from the like Monroe Institute and
the CIA one of them is called the analysis and assessment of the gateway process
the other one is like Monroe Institute it's I don't know what it's called but
it's like a it's like a four-page packet about what they are and basically what
they do and how to do it and then the third one is like the gateway process
guidebook or handbook or something like that and it's from the CIA and it's
basically outlines like a guide outlines like all the different techniques and
then it has like paid images showing like examples of the techniques and then
there's like a guidebook page like a workbook and so those are the three
documents I have printed out so far and also by the way on the CIA's website for
the analysis and assessment of the gateway process page number 25 is missing
like it's the weirdest thing so I printed it out and then I didn't realize it
until I actually started reading it and then once I got to page 24 after I got
to then after I finished 24 I flipped to it straight to 26 and so I realized I
went back on to the PDF and it's just not there and so I looked up page number
25 missing from the analysis and assessment of the gateway process and I
found this website with a article it's like a blog post kind of or just like an
article and they said there was like a lot of different theories but I just
scrolled all the way down and they posted the complete PDF so if you're gonna
print out the or even read it I recommend looking up page number 25 missing
from the analysis and the gateway process look that up and then find that
website it's probably like the first one and then scroll all the way down to
where there's a PDF and then go read it from there because that's like the entire
complete thing so that's everything about all that and the way like the gateway
process is actually like I don't know if they're a company or like an institute I
don't know what they are but they're selling I assume they're a company
they're selling CDs like tapes they sell mp3s or CDs and there's one other
format but since I don't like to go on my phone and I like to use electronics if
I don't need to I opted for the CD even though I never use CDs like the last
time I used a CD was probably either back when I was playing Xbox and I had a
game that was on a CD or like when I watched Star Wars because my mom my
parents have Star Wars like the first three movies of Star Wars and on the CD
so I never use the CD and I don't have any means anymore like to listen to a CD so
I actually went on Amazon and bought a CD player and I bought the headphones and
then I bought that CD like the wave one because they have eight waves for the
gateway process and so I bought the first wave and it was like 80 bucks but
it's gonna be worth it I I know it so that's basically what I did and then I'm
gonna set it up the CD player and listen to it on in my room and a little bit a
couple episodes back I actually described my entire room so I think it was on
like the episode where it was titled how this CIA document changed my life I'm
pretty sure I described it on that one but I could be wrong but my room is
basically perfectly optimized for this and I figure I actually have been like
practicing getting into this focus 10 state because focus 10 is like the
foundation so you have to get into focus 10 to be able to get into focus 12 and
so basically if you can practice enough and consistently get into focus 10 then
and then strengthen your like presence in focus 10 then you'll be able to get to
focus 12 and then 15 and then 21 and like all these things so it gets so that's
why I got number the first CD because it's focus is on focus 10 and that's
like where you start you're supposed to start in sequential order like if you
start on number eight you're either just not gonna be able to get there or you'll
progress way too fast to where it'll actually be dangerous like I heard in
one of the readings that they said people if they if people progress too fast
that they're not ready for they could like lose their sense of self and I
don't know what that means but I don't want to find out let me get some water so
as you guys can tell I'm very excited about starting this gateway experience
because just from the one of the very one very powerful method of marketing in
business is to share like results customer results so share the results that
similar customers to you experienced and so right now or actually right now I am
a customer but a couple days ago I was a potential customer just reading their
content about the gateway experience and I actually read some stuff and they
were talking about how like they're not customers but the people who were
participating in their research they were just talking about a lot of their
like the benefits they received from it like their lives changed and one of the
things that I read was after they reached I don't know if it was focused 10 or
12 or 15 I don't know but after they reached focus 12 I'm just gonna say
after they reached focus 12 and we're proficient at it their lot they actually
found that their lives actually became more complicated like their lives
actually intensified like their actual lives real life not just their
meditations but their actual life like their day-to-day life actually
intensified and increased in like complexity but then they were they
actually found that they were they were given this like newfound abilities to
actually handle the new complexity of life better so essentially their life
became more complex but their skills actually became better to handle all
that stuff and that kind of just made me think about how a couple years ago when
I was just a normal well I should say normal kid nowadays not a normal kid
throughout history but a couple years ago even like one year ago I was just a
normal American kid I would always just go to school come home play Xbox watch
tiktok watch YouTube just do all of the normal stuff and my life was quite
simple I would just go to school come home and play Xbox play video games so
life was pretty simple I'd never really had any complications like the bit the
worst thing that would happen to me is I wouldn't be able to play Xbox in that
day and I could survive that so like one or two years ago my life was quite
simple and then once I started reading my life actually started to gain
complexity and I didn't realize it until just now while I'm talking about this
but my life actually started to gain complexity slowly but surely like now
I've got more I got bigger problems I actually don't really have that much
problems anymore because I follow Transurfing but now like I have a lot
more there's a lot more things available to me and a lot more things that I have
to take into consideration simply because I have a lot more knowledge like
once I started reading and after I've been reading for a year my life is
definitely it's it's I'd say it's a little bit more maybe not come maybe
complex is not the right word maybe it's like life is just a little bit more full
I guess like two years ago when I was playing video games my life was kind of
like let's use a metaphor my life was a line and then once I started reading my
life turned into a square and so now my life is kind of like a square it's like
not as simple as a line but it's like more complex than a line if that makes
sense I'm not sure if you guys are getting me but I'm just gonna keep going
with this and then they actually like I said on the Monroe Institute document
they actually found that their like their participants their lab rats
essentially like the people who were doing these experiments with meditation
they found that their lives became more complex and then they found that they
were able to develop more skills to handle that complexity and so what I
theorize what I predict will happen in the coming weeks or months as I become
more proficient at this deep meditation is my life will switch from being a
square and it will actually turn into a cube and then it will become more
complex that's that that metaphor is kind of what I theorize will happen I
predict that my life will become more complex and more full because when I was
when my only like when my only worries in life was in my can be able to play
Xbox my life was quite simple it was kind of mundane and there wasn't really
much to it it was not very full like that represents a simple line one
dimensional and then once I once I started educating myself and reading for
the past year my life became more full so now I turned into a square and right
now I'm very happy with my progress my life feels very full but then they said
that like the way they were speaking in those documents they were talking about
how you find like you're you're like discover your inner self and you discover
like a lot more of reality and there's I can't put into words just yet but the
way they were speaking about these like this technique this practice just really
made me think that once I become proficient at this my life will become
more full and I will realize that there's a lot more like right now my worries are
am I gonna do my homework or my worries are just basic things like am I gonna be
able I don't even know my worries are more advanced than am I gonna play Xbox
today but my worries are still not like to the point where I think they could be
like right now I'm mostly worried about tangible things like like am I gonna I'm
worried about scheduling my day to the point where I can still podcast I'm
worried about am I gonna have enough time in my day to podcast I'm worried
about staying conscious I guess that's not I don't know but I'm worried I'm
worried about like my health my sleep but I feel like I never really worry
about my spiritual or my conscious awareness or like expanding my
consciousness I never really worry about more than just the like material world
I I'm not really aware of much more than that simply because that's just the way
society like trains our brains we are simply just unaware of more of the
fact that there's more out there and that we are more than what we're basically
like taught that we are I'm not I'm I'm brand new at all this information so I'm
sorry if you guys aren't really making much sense of what I'm saying but I will
learn more and per constantly teach you guys more and that that's one thing I
just remembered I spent like the past hour and a half before this podcast
basically summarizing the past like week more than a week like a week and a
half since I think it was like around a week since the last time I had a
Transurfing principles I basically spent the past hour and a half
summarizing and like copying down all of the most important principles and notes
that I took from Transurfing over the past week and so there's this one thing
that I remember writing down and it's the fact that in Transurfing one of the
like things that you realize is that today is better than yesterday and
tomorrow will be better than today and that's that's all about like going
towards your goals and but I think there's a lot more to that it's the fact
that today is better than yesterday in self-improvement in general also that is
all about self-improvement you don't really notice much difference between
the days like put side by side but if you were to take day one and compare it
to day 30 you will notice a difference and then the more and more days that go
by the more and more difference it makes and that's that's one of the things I
had to remember yesterday actually I was kind of slacking off on the day-to-day
activities like I practiced down seeing on my ball for ten minutes every day and
I kind of just cut it down to six minutes but then I reminded myself that
it's the day-to-day that actually is what matters over time and so if I do six
minutes every day over time I'll get good results but if I do ten minutes over
day over time compared to that six minutes over every day over time the
ten minutes is me way better than the six minutes but it's also it's also like
me educating myself and you guys educating yourselves there's this one quote
that was in the I think it was yeah it was on the website the most beautiful
world website the reading list and I forgot like what it said I think it was
from Jordan Peterson but it was basically saying that when you educate
yourself you free yourself and I've been educating myself for the past year and
I still don't think that I'm free completely like I still I still I can't I
am free but there is a lot more and there's another thing the transfer from
there was one sentence where he talked about the matrix so far that I was
reading that I remember he said the matrix I don't remember what he said but
I'm basically gonna explain the we live in like a matrix and the pendulum so
pendulums are I am not I'm like I have a conceptual idea of what they are but
pendulums are basically they steal your energy and their inflect energetic
structures that steal your energy and they are always destructive they're
always looking out for their own good but they can make basically can control
you they basically can control you under their will once you have importance so
if you place importance over something inner or outer then then they can latch
onto that importance and you become their adherence and you basically act
under their will and then you kind of lose your freedom of choice because
your destiny is in their hands and not yours and pendulums are basically like
formed when multiple people our thoughts are aligned of the same thing and then
that thing will become its own kind of in like in its own being I guess and one
of the more dangerous pendulums in this society is all the information the
entertainment and I was actually learning about this in in class today
school is a very bad destructive pendulum as well but we'll not get into that and
also this podcast my business is a pendulum like everything is pendulums
you and I are pendulums in some degree or another so pendulums could be good
like like the gym is a pendulum so you simply just have to find your pendulums
but that I was learning about in class today there is this one story I forgot
what it was called but this one story where it was like a dystopia where they
would there was kind of like a hierarchy and all of the people were kind of drugged
and entertained all day so they were entertained 24-7 like with media and
they were just watching TV 24-7 basically and then that was basically how
they controlled the the people and it room it made me realize like that's
today pendulums are controlling us and we're kind of living in a matrix we are
living in a matrix where pendulums are controlling us and it's getting worse
and worse and they they pendulum strive to hide the fact of our freedom of
choice and hide our abilities from us and this is one thing that is I'm still in
the matrix but I'm basically taking the red pill through educating myself and
reading all this stuff reading reality Transurfing and reading this reading
list that I will start to read and also practicing the what is it called the
gateway process practicing that stuff all of these things will help me break
free and I'm documenting my journey when I first started this podcast I was
still looking at Transurfing but I had no idea of that there was more and I had
no I I guess I may have known there was more but I had like no idea of the
severity of the situation and I'm sure that in three months from now I will
look back and think that I had no idea even today so I'm just uncovering the
truth and that's like it's one of the big things that I'm really focusing on
right now I know that and okay let me just explain this one of the principles
of Transurfing is conscious awareness and being awake essentially so realizing
like being conscious aware that's what being awake is and I was I woke up today
during class and I just looked around and I'm a senior in high school for
context and I looked around the classroom and the faces were all if this was
first period at 8 a.m. like 8 30 in the morning the faces were all like smugged
gloomy eyed everyone was looking down and or like staring in one spot for the
entire class period and it was just a very disheartening sight to see because
that is like that is one of the most destructive pendulums education the not
education but schools the schooling system the American school system is
one of the most destructive pendulums and in the in general the American
schooling system ends after high school like ends like high school is basically
the end of the American school system and then they can go in the college most
people do but I'm just gonna for this the point of argument I'm just gonna say
the American school system ends at like you're at the end of the conformity like
by the time you get to senior year you're basically have been molded and
shaped and you're the end product of the American school system so when you
first enter in like kindergarten or first grade you're a very cheerful kid
you're amazing if you look at a first grade classroom they're all super
excited to be there all happy and they're all awake that's the thing they're all
present and they're all conscious aware and then if you compare that same
classroom to a senior year senior class like you compare that same classroom
like 15 years later or not 15 like 10 years later you compare it the two after
they've been a product of the American school system it's a very sad sight to
see because it like destroys the soul it forces the soul into a box and it
basically just turns the person into how the school system wants them to be and
I was a I kind of I was kind of aware of this throughout my life like I always
hated the school system but I was never really never really put words to it and
then I actually I didn't really understand that that's that that's the
goal to like destroy you but I always like never really understood why school
and I would always hate school I'm not in like elementary school but once I got
to middle school and high school I would always just start to hate it and then I
realized that I realized now that it's all just part of the system it's just a
pendulum trying to destroy you and control you and I'm still in school right
now I have I'm very grateful that I am a part-time student now and I only have
one semester left so it's September right now first semester and I only have
like four classes so I only have four periods in the day and then in December
I graduate so I'm very glad that I don't have to go that much but I still get the
negative effects of it like it is still conditioning me and so that's like the
biggest thing you have to be conscious aware all the time and conscious about
it but that's that's like my thoughts on that let me get some water
okay
all right let's go back to the gateway process so focus 10 I've been practicing
every single night during my meditations and in the morning since I learned
about it like or not since I learned about it but I've been practicing for
the past like maybe one or two days like yesterday is like probably the first
day that I practice it or look or two days ago I don't know but I've been
practicing it during my meditation and trying to get into focus 10 so what I do
is I I sleep on a mat it's a time you met so it's like a hard surface and if I
just lay on it on my back after a while my back it's sore so what I do is I I
place my big blanket on the mat and then I put my pillow down which is a buckwheat
pillow which is very it's like the perfect pillow for your head or for your
neck and then I lay on top of the bed the blanket and then lay on the pillow and
then I put another blanket on top of me which is my cotton blanket and then I
just like relax everything and just lay on my back in like an extremely relaxed
state and I don't have my headphones yet or the CD so I can't put my headphones
on yet once I get that I will but I have my alarm clock my hatch restore to I
it allows you to play what pink noise on it so I have that playing pink noise and
then I have my fans and my air purifier all playing like fan noise like it's
basically white noise and so my room is like perfect for that in that sense and
so I've been practicing getting into it and last night I actually had my closest
I think I had my closest to it so I was getting into the deep relaxation doing
the strategy where you like flow the energy up your body and like in the
inhale you bring all the energy in and then bring it all the way up to your head
and then hold your breath on after the inhale and then run that energy around
your head like your brain and then you exhale and then imagine all that energy
in your body leaving through your feet and then you inhale again and it's brand
new energy fresh energy and you repeat it it goes all in your body and then all
the way up into your brain hold your breath run it around and then exhale and
then have all the body energy leaving your feet so you repeat that and then at
the after the exhale you say two and then the next one three and then count up to
ten and so I was practicing that on the and then I was kind of like doing some
other stuff too but I was basically just trying to get into deep relaxation and I
like when I was I got so deep that I literally like lost my hand like I I
was laying there and then my hand just disappeared like I couldn't feel my hand
anymore and I could kind of feel like that it was not like I could feel that it
was not there I kind of just like it's so hard to explain but I was I got so
deep and then my hand just disappeared from my sensory but I could feel like
kind of my wrist or like I could feel the energy of my hand but I couldn't feel
my hand it wasn't numb but I just couldn't feel it it was the weirdest
sensation and so I got I got scared like and I was trying to like I was trying
to like combat that fear but I knew because I knew that that's like a normal
thing but I still got scared because that was the first time I've ever
experienced that because I literally lost my hand it's I can't explain the
feeling but that's like the best I can do so I lost my hand and I got scared and
I like moved my fingers to like reactivate my hand to make sure it was
still there and I like the second I moved my fingers I felt them and so I got
my hand back and I was like okay good and then I went back into that deep
relaxation and I lost my hand again but now I had this knowledge that it was
normal and I had the knowledge that I still had my hand so I can keep going
forward with it um it's now more comfortable with that so last night that was
like the big milestone or like stepping stone that I got in my meditations and
I'm pretty sure that's the I'm pretty sure that that's good because I remember
when they were explaining focus 10 they said if you're just beginning it might
be helpful to basically like put your each body part to sleep at a time or
get each body part to relax at a time so like start it with your feet and then
go up to your legs and then your abdomen or whatever and so I think that
that's what was happening with my hand where I just completely relax it and
lost it but I don't know that is like that was a crazy feeling and I'm very
excited for it I'm very excited for getting in into focus 10 but I'm definitely
gonna try again tonight let me get some water
so I was just thinking about in the beginning of summer like three months
ago I was I didn't even start my business and then I was just starting to
think like that's the next part of my life that I have to focus on like I've
been working on my health my fitness like all that stuff but I had not even
like begun thinking about my business and so in the beginning of summer I kind
of had the intuitive feeling that that's the next step of like my self-improvement
journey working on business and I had been listening to some business podcasts
as well but I hadn't really read anything about business and then over
summer I kind of just locked in and then learned a lot about business and then I
kind of like completely switched focus from business to this like new like this
new thing of trans surfing and meditating and all this stuff and so I
haven't really focused on learning about business in a while but I'm still like
applying the business skills that I learned on podcasting I'm not really
applying the skills but I'm still practicing and taking action on the
podcast so this I still find it beneficial because even though I'm not
like actively learning more about business I feel that right now it's
beneficial because this is a brand new avenue of my life and I feel it will help
a lot with business because I've been learning about worldview and how your
brain is like your mind is the only thing holding you back from achieving
success and so if I can learn all the strategies of trans surfing and learn a
lot I'll be able to gain success fairly well and that's like I just thought that
plus I have a lot of time but then I remembered in trans surfing I don't
remember the exact wording but I'm basically like the belief that you have
a lot of time left is like a fallacy it's it's not real it's like a false
belief and so I was thinking that I have a lot of time I have all of this school
year plus second semester I have completely off until I'm graduated with
high school so I have a lot of time to work on myself but then again I'm kind
of just like putting off business to the side but then again I'm building a
strong foundation of my spiritual side of things and like my worldview all of
this stuff I'm building a strong foundation so I don't really know I
don't know that reminds me of another thing once you get into like focus I
don't know if it was focused 10 or 12 but once you get into one of those stages
you basically have like you basically have access to this higher self and you
can ask yourself or a questions and it will be able to answer those questions
with a expanded awareness and expanded knowledge base essentially from what you
have of yourself and so maybe I'll ask it if I'm on the right path if I'm doing
the right things and maybe I'll ask it if Hawaii is even my innermost goal or
maybe I'll ask it what is my innermost goal that would just be a complete like
I don't know that is like I'm very excited for that part of things I was
actually thinking while I was writing my Transurfing principles down a couple
hours ago I was actually thinking of creating a brand new journal and just
like having it with all of like writing down all of the questions for my inner
self I was thinking of buying another journal and labeling it questions for
inner self and then I would just go through all those questions and ask them
all to my inner self once I get to focus 12 actually I'm definitely gonna do that
this is the end of the episode so I'm right away I'm gonna buy another journal
on Amazon like right now and I'm gonna label it questions for my inner self to
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