1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:02,580 Y'all by the its morning evening or afternoon 2 00:00:02,580 --> 00:00:08,120 I'm just glad that you guys had decided to vibe with me the one and only eat 3 00:00:08,800 --> 00:00:15,980 Today's by we are closing out with the new year just basically during a recap of 4 00:00:17,040 --> 00:00:18,560 the new year of 5 00:00:18,560 --> 00:00:21,720 The year as well as within the podcast 6 00:00:22,140 --> 00:00:28,100 So with that being said today's vibe is just a recap of the year. So basically 7 00:00:28,100 --> 00:00:33,580 We're pointing out the pros and the cons because the bad of what had happened this year 8 00:00:33,820 --> 00:00:38,980 That can impact with your life and also my life as well and in y'all may or may not 9 00:00:39,900 --> 00:00:41,900 have the same 10 00:00:42,260 --> 00:00:46,900 Obstacles that but if you did hey, I'm just glad that we were able to get this journey 11 00:00:47,300 --> 00:00:49,060 Either together or not 12 00:00:49,060 --> 00:00:56,700 So without further ado, I want you guys to sit back relax and enjoy hearing our voice whether you're on a go or 13 00:00:56,700 --> 00:01:03,340 Or at home. I want you guys to get real comfortable because yeah, let's just you know recap and 14 00:01:04,220 --> 00:01:09,980 Think about some things such as like wearing out like I said the pros and the cons and what can we do? 15 00:01:10,340 --> 00:01:15,380 And you know, sometimes we always had that sugar coulda woulda. So yeah, let's just get to it 16 00:01:16,580 --> 00:01:20,100 So let's just break it down like this and we get another year 17 00:01:20,100 --> 00:01:24,460 I'll say this for me personally, you know, if you get in the year 18 00:01:24,460 --> 00:01:28,260 I just finished out my what was it? 19 00:01:28,860 --> 00:01:30,860 fall semester of 20 00:01:32,140 --> 00:01:34,460 2022 like 21 00:01:35,780 --> 00:01:42,740 Like I literally just transferred to Morgan like I literally transferred more like I was fresh out of community college 22 00:01:42,780 --> 00:01:45,220 Then went straight to a HBC you 23 00:01:45,820 --> 00:01:52,260 So I can pursue my two or three and a half years here at Morgan State University. I am at now and 24 00:01:52,260 --> 00:01:57,820 And I'm gonna say overall this year. Let's just go from like this overall this year 25 00:01:57,820 --> 00:02:02,860 I say I learned a lot about myself and I took risks on things that needed to be done 26 00:02:02,860 --> 00:02:05,820 And I hope you guys also took the risk on doing things that 27 00:02:06,620 --> 00:02:08,620 Needed to be done in your life let alone 28 00:02:09,140 --> 00:02:14,540 Doing things that you know for a fact that you needed to improve on let alone like 29 00:02:15,020 --> 00:02:20,780 Just go out there and do it because I'm telling y'all I I think like after my birthday 30 00:02:20,780 --> 00:02:26,980 That's when I just really felt comfortable and taking risks on just doing it, you know, because 31 00:02:27,820 --> 00:02:29,820 Like I say and if you're new here 32 00:02:30,620 --> 00:02:33,180 The mental is very important 33 00:02:33,780 --> 00:02:39,260 That mental is very important because that is one of the many things that keep us grounded 34 00:02:39,260 --> 00:02:46,660 That's one of the many things that we must keep intact because it's important to our life. It's a part of our health, you know, so I 35 00:02:47,260 --> 00:02:49,260 Learned a lot when it came to my mental 36 00:02:49,260 --> 00:02:52,580 Especially when it came to the park as I'm gonna say like this 37 00:02:53,180 --> 00:02:55,660 Oh overall this year. I 38 00:02:56,420 --> 00:02:58,420 Been through some good 39 00:02:58,620 --> 00:03:00,380 in some bad 40 00:03:00,380 --> 00:03:02,380 some surprises and 41 00:03:02,460 --> 00:03:04,180 some 42 00:03:04,180 --> 00:03:07,420 What the hell, you know, so I 43 00:03:08,180 --> 00:03:12,580 Say this as I always break the year down like into six months. So let's say 44 00:03:14,380 --> 00:03:17,020 Who that's doing like this 45 00:03:17,020 --> 00:03:19,020 I 46 00:03:19,100 --> 00:03:22,500 Must say cuz it's 12 months. I'm gonna say like this 47 00:03:26,660 --> 00:03:30,220 So I'm not out of the year I'm gonna say like this I'm the same probably from 48 00:03:32,100 --> 00:03:34,100 January to 49 00:03:34,260 --> 00:03:36,900 June I say things were 50 00:03:37,980 --> 00:03:43,980 Okay, they weren't so bad, you know, like I said, like I had my good mom was bad my bad mom was like January 51 00:03:43,980 --> 00:03:47,780 You know started spring semester 2023 52 00:03:49,540 --> 00:03:52,420 That's a mess. I let me just start with a semester. That's the message was really 53 00:03:53,620 --> 00:03:59,540 That was a question of semester and I must say it was questionable because like the courses I was taking 54 00:04:00,300 --> 00:04:05,340 Was to get into my program as those were major those pro those courses I took 55 00:04:06,180 --> 00:04:10,140 Amazing the other classes like the electives that I needed 56 00:04:10,700 --> 00:04:12,940 just in for my school in general was 57 00:04:12,940 --> 00:04:16,620 blowing me because it's just like 58 00:04:17,820 --> 00:04:24,740 One was online and the other one was in person and then you know, we all had that one professor teacher like 59 00:04:25,540 --> 00:04:30,340 Once it's done. It's done. And if you're not there, I'm not going back and 60 00:04:31,380 --> 00:04:37,220 So like last semester, I didn't miss no that's the message. I didn't miss any classes because I 61 00:04:37,860 --> 00:04:39,860 Just couldn't risk it. I couldn't risk it 62 00:04:39,860 --> 00:04:41,860 I 63 00:04:43,660 --> 00:04:51,220 Just y'all that's a message really just had me like I was I was so glad, you know from my pretty racks to get to the program 64 00:04:51,540 --> 00:04:56,940 Yes, and that was my main focus for this year was to get in the program. I told myself 65 00:04:57,740 --> 00:05:01,300 Okay after, you know, the may came around 66 00:05:02,180 --> 00:05:07,260 Apply for the program so you can get in and y'all I was who I was on 67 00:05:07,260 --> 00:05:11,660 I was on a 10 because I'm like hold up this process taking a little bit longer than it 68 00:05:11,660 --> 00:05:13,980 I then it was supposed to from what I have heard 69 00:05:14,700 --> 00:05:17,820 But what I got the letter I was just like yes buzzin on bless us because 70 00:05:19,100 --> 00:05:25,700 It's you can it's sacrifices. Let's just say let's talk about sacrifice right now within a she I know we all had to take 71 00:05:26,300 --> 00:05:31,740 Sacrifices and do things that we had to sacrifice in order to get the results that we wanted 72 00:05:31,740 --> 00:05:38,140 It's no matter how big or small it was you we had to take and had to do so much 73 00:05:38,380 --> 00:05:44,460 To sacrifice to get something because like it's very important to us. So if I have to 74 00:05:45,900 --> 00:05:48,460 Do like working if I have to work on 75 00:05:49,100 --> 00:05:52,780 Seven days a week and no days off if I got to work the whole month, you know 76 00:05:53,100 --> 00:05:58,740 6090 days I gotta get to I gotta get I gotta do what I gotta do because I'm sacrificing something in order for things 77 00:05:58,740 --> 00:06:05,580 You know to get handled that comes with a business. It comes with being parents that comes with anything of the source 78 00:06:05,700 --> 00:06:12,780 That is impacting with your life. I don't care if nobody else think is I don't care if nobody thinks is important is important to you 79 00:06:13,540 --> 00:06:18,820 Well, it's important to you and you do what you had to do because the sacrifices that you make 80 00:06:19,300 --> 00:06:25,220 It's gonna pay off in the end like I sacrifice a lot of things in jobs like 81 00:06:25,220 --> 00:06:30,340 Like we gonna get out of job working in the children's hospital. I love the it's home 82 00:06:30,980 --> 00:06:38,260 I noticed this wasn't for me. So I had to fall back, but I was glad I got the experience and got some type of you know 83 00:06:39,460 --> 00:06:41,380 some type of 84 00:06:41,380 --> 00:06:44,420 Feel of it and then like I was like, okay 85 00:06:45,380 --> 00:06:47,380 I got a feel of it. I love it, but 86 00:06:47,860 --> 00:06:50,580 I always see myself at a desk that 87 00:06:50,580 --> 00:06:55,700 I see myself at a desk. I see myself being a boss like that's why 88 00:06:56,340 --> 00:07:03,460 When if you guys follow me on my Instagram, I'm always saying the CEO the CEO because I'm putting that into 89 00:07:04,020 --> 00:07:07,460 The atmosphere I'm manifesting that I will be a CEO 90 00:07:07,460 --> 00:07:13,620 I will be a boss of something so global to the point where it's like I sacrifice this 91 00:07:13,780 --> 00:07:17,140 This is for me, you know, I don't get me wrong guys 92 00:07:17,140 --> 00:07:24,020 There's nothing wrong with working with working for or with someone, you know in order for you to get your stuff to the order 93 00:07:24,180 --> 00:07:26,180 That's what I'm doing now and I'm not 94 00:07:26,820 --> 00:07:31,460 I'm not afraid. I'm not ashamed of because at the end of the day is a sacrifice that I'm doing and 95 00:07:32,100 --> 00:07:37,460 Bills need to be paid. I need to be eaten. I need to be taken care of. I need to be well taken care of. Okay 96 00:07:38,340 --> 00:07:39,540 so 97 00:07:39,540 --> 00:07:44,100 You know the semester started so January semester is body. It's all the new job 98 00:07:44,100 --> 00:07:47,780 It was going well, but then like around February and March had to 99 00:07:48,660 --> 00:07:52,740 Fall back because my studies were getting in the way also and then I was just like, okay 100 00:07:54,180 --> 00:07:58,020 You got a feel of it and then it's like, okay. This is not for you 101 00:07:58,980 --> 00:08:03,300 So February I'm gonna say February not much really happened in February. I'll say 102 00:08:04,340 --> 00:08:06,340 um 103 00:08:06,660 --> 00:08:10,580 Not really but I can say this I will say this online if February 104 00:08:10,580 --> 00:08:13,540 I'll say this I became more 105 00:08:14,260 --> 00:08:20,180 Social on campus, you know, even though I started in the fall of 2022 106 00:08:20,740 --> 00:08:26,580 When spring 23 came around I was more social like I met some I met some amazing people 107 00:08:27,380 --> 00:08:30,820 I have a friend now that is one of my best of friends 108 00:08:31,620 --> 00:08:35,940 Like when I first came in the morning, I'll say this I didn't 109 00:08:35,940 --> 00:08:41,860 I didn't socialize with nobody it was the same. I felt like I felt like I was going through the same cycle 110 00:08:41,860 --> 00:08:45,060 I was and I was at my committee college like I go to class 111 00:08:46,340 --> 00:08:52,180 And I'm out once class over I'm gone getting ready for work and that was that and 112 00:08:53,620 --> 00:08:59,620 When I went to Morgan my friend I transferred same thing, but then I was like, you know what I can't like I can't do this 113 00:08:59,620 --> 00:09:01,620 You know, and I'm a social work major. I have to be social 114 00:09:01,620 --> 00:09:07,380 We have to be involved because like I said a couple episodes back and here and there 115 00:09:07,780 --> 00:09:10,820 As a social work major you're involved with a lot of projects 116 00:09:11,780 --> 00:09:13,780 And you're involved with a lot of people 117 00:09:14,660 --> 00:09:19,060 All over that's in the same program as you so you have to be social you have to 118 00:09:20,340 --> 00:09:22,820 Put your best foot out there sometimes it's like 119 00:09:23,460 --> 00:09:24,580 Okay, the day in the day 120 00:09:24,580 --> 00:09:30,260 But it's like long you always say long as a job gets done and everything is correct, you know 121 00:09:30,260 --> 00:09:33,780 And it's not procrastinating. It's not sloppy. We're gonna get this done 122 00:09:35,140 --> 00:09:37,140 so I say like, you know 123 00:09:38,180 --> 00:09:40,180 school wives from 124 00:09:40,260 --> 00:09:42,260 January to June 125 00:09:43,540 --> 00:09:48,100 It went well it went well, but the semester did have me questionable because it's like 126 00:09:49,060 --> 00:09:50,500 maybe because 127 00:09:50,500 --> 00:09:53,060 by me when I was in community college, I took like 128 00:09:53,060 --> 00:10:00,900 Six like 15 to 18 credit courses and then when I came to Morgan, it was just like 129 00:10:02,100 --> 00:10:08,340 Either 12 it was 12 my first two semesters really I was just like this ain't it. It's not enough 130 00:10:08,660 --> 00:10:14,740 You know, it's not enough for me. This this ain't what I'm used to and that's why it's like the semester's having like what it's going on 131 00:10:15,140 --> 00:10:18,180 And by me just starting most of my credits 132 00:10:18,180 --> 00:10:22,900 were like already approved and they were like credible for me and 133 00:10:23,860 --> 00:10:28,180 I couldn't take the courses that I'm taking now back there because I had to be in the program 134 00:10:28,500 --> 00:10:34,020 So I was just like, okay, like I really like I have nothing to do and the semester was really questionable 135 00:10:34,020 --> 00:10:36,740 And I'm just like, okay get the work done. Got to work 136 00:10:37,540 --> 00:10:40,420 Handle your business and that's that so yeah 137 00:10:40,420 --> 00:10:47,780 So I say like but then the beginning of the year the six months, you know beginning of the year those six months it really 138 00:10:49,300 --> 00:10:54,020 It was not so bad. I'll say that it was not so bad 139 00:10:54,660 --> 00:10:59,220 You know made some money, you know had my ups and downs 140 00:10:59,940 --> 00:11:00,980 but 141 00:11:00,980 --> 00:11:04,100 I was able to overachieve everything that I was going through 142 00:11:05,460 --> 00:11:07,460 Then let's take it to 143 00:11:07,460 --> 00:11:09,460 I 144 00:11:09,460 --> 00:11:11,460 I 145 00:11:11,460 --> 00:11:15,940 Guess you can say half of June up until today because yeah 146 00:11:16,580 --> 00:11:18,740 So when the semester was over, I was like, okay 147 00:11:19,540 --> 00:11:21,060 I'm gonna work 148 00:11:21,060 --> 00:11:25,460 Because like every time I go on break. I'm like I'm working like I got a family to feed 149 00:11:25,620 --> 00:11:29,140 I got my own little family to feed like five thin kids down there 150 00:11:29,380 --> 00:11:33,380 So why not grind stack that paper, you know get the money, you know, let it, you know 151 00:11:33,380 --> 00:11:37,060 Cause like if I stay in the house, I'm gonna I'm gonna go to sleep 152 00:11:37,780 --> 00:11:45,300 Like I'm really I'm a clean like I'm a really clean organized stuff everything like to the point where the closet get rearranged 153 00:11:45,700 --> 00:11:46,980 dressers clothes 154 00:11:46,980 --> 00:11:50,180 So I was like, uh-uh, I'm gonna work like I'm gonna work 155 00:11:50,820 --> 00:11:53,780 I buy even if I have one or two days off longest 156 00:11:53,780 --> 00:11:59,380 I know I'm working it's keeping me busy, you know, and my body is not so tired because that was another thing too 157 00:11:59,460 --> 00:12:01,460 That's another thing too late 158 00:12:01,460 --> 00:12:06,100 When you're not on your feet that much like your body gets worn out and that's what your mental too 159 00:12:06,180 --> 00:12:09,540 Because like I don't want to do nothing. Like I don't know what I do that 160 00:12:10,340 --> 00:12:12,500 So from half of June up until the day 161 00:12:14,260 --> 00:12:16,260 The podcast was 162 00:12:18,020 --> 00:12:20,020 Begun it was born 163 00:12:20,020 --> 00:12:22,660 And like I said like in the beginning 164 00:12:23,700 --> 00:12:25,700 What it can't do the podcast y'all 165 00:12:27,060 --> 00:12:29,540 I remember like this is so crazy like 166 00:12:29,540 --> 00:12:31,540 Before 167 00:12:31,620 --> 00:12:33,620 Christmas I must say this 168 00:12:33,620 --> 00:12:35,620 Like three or four weeks ago 169 00:12:35,620 --> 00:12:41,220 I was looking through my phone my notes because I keep everything in my notes is from the podcast to like notes of like 170 00:12:41,460 --> 00:12:46,660 What I'm gonna what's going on today where I need to do I need to edit x y and z 171 00:12:47,540 --> 00:12:50,500 and I've seen this um notes I had because 172 00:12:51,300 --> 00:12:54,900 I wanted to do graphic design such as like, you know, the party 173 00:12:54,900 --> 00:12:58,900 Unpromoters flyers party favors and 174 00:13:00,260 --> 00:13:05,620 Business flyers and things like that because like when I was in high school some of my friends 175 00:13:05,620 --> 00:13:10,900 Like they'd be like, oh, can you design or can you you know whip up like something for me? 176 00:13:10,900 --> 00:13:12,180 And I was like, okay cool 177 00:13:12,180 --> 00:13:16,660 And it was like you should make a business out of it, you know, because you're real good when it comes to it 178 00:13:16,660 --> 00:13:19,300 Mind y'all I had an iPhone 8 179 00:13:21,700 --> 00:13:23,700 I had my iPhone 180 00:13:23,700 --> 00:13:29,060 I found 8 plus and was doing it like I didn't have my iPad. I didn't have my Mac 181 00:13:29,140 --> 00:13:34,900 But I was doing everything on a phone like I had so many apps. It was just like whoa 182 00:13:35,940 --> 00:13:38,100 And looking back at those projects. I'm like wow 183 00:13:38,500 --> 00:13:44,740 I really did that and I remember what it was just so crazy like I remember when I did jot down the names of like 184 00:13:45,140 --> 00:13:48,500 What I wanted to do if I was to have 185 00:13:49,380 --> 00:13:50,820 a um 186 00:13:50,820 --> 00:13:57,140 You know ever took the risk of having a graphic design page, you know, just being that person be like, oh 187 00:13:57,780 --> 00:14:00,580 You know, you can hit me up. I can do this for you fly 188 00:14:02,180 --> 00:14:06,660 And when I did the business cards people was like, oh you did your own business cards 189 00:14:07,620 --> 00:14:10,900 Like you help me can you help me and that's the one that would work too because 190 00:14:12,980 --> 00:14:17,940 It's like when it comes to design when it comes to being creative and having a creative mind 191 00:14:17,940 --> 00:14:23,860 I shout out to all the creative people the creative people out there because y'all really have a creative eye 192 00:14:24,340 --> 00:14:30,500 like some of the stuff like we really turn nothing into something because when it came to 193 00:14:31,620 --> 00:14:33,620 during the podcast 194 00:14:34,020 --> 00:14:36,020 The name the outline 195 00:14:37,220 --> 00:14:40,980 The layout everything it took me a while and that's why I 196 00:14:41,300 --> 00:14:45,700 Procure it's needed so long until this y'all was like, fuck it. We bought we're gonna get it done 197 00:14:45,700 --> 00:14:52,260 Because it was my mission to do this. It was like this gonna keep me on my soul, too 198 00:14:52,260 --> 00:14:55,780 It's gonna keep me a little bit busy. It's gonna make me feel like 199 00:14:56,660 --> 00:14:59,940 I'm important. That's why I say CEO missy CEO 200 00:15:00,900 --> 00:15:05,380 Because this made me feel important and I know a lot of us out there 201 00:15:06,660 --> 00:15:08,660 Had the moments in our life where okay 202 00:15:09,460 --> 00:15:12,260 It's gonna take me a while to get this project started 203 00:15:12,260 --> 00:15:19,300 But long as I put my best foot forward and have that blueprint. I'm good another thing too of your new hair 204 00:15:19,300 --> 00:15:23,620 I'm big on blueprint like I'm big on the blueprint because like 205 00:15:24,500 --> 00:15:26,980 That blueprint is like a sketch 206 00:15:28,180 --> 00:15:32,020 Of your vision and you want everything on that blueprint 207 00:15:32,980 --> 00:15:36,260 To come to life to the tee you want every 208 00:15:37,220 --> 00:15:39,220 little detail to come to 209 00:15:39,220 --> 00:15:44,020 To you know come to life like how they say you turn a dream into reality 210 00:15:44,500 --> 00:15:49,220 That's how I live by that too like I can dream and I'm manifest and it's gonna come to reality 211 00:15:49,700 --> 00:15:54,740 Because I want to turn that dream into a reality because like I'm walking in my 212 00:15:55,220 --> 00:16:00,660 My dream and it's coming, you know, so realities. So that's another thing. I don't want y'all to give up on yourself 213 00:16:00,660 --> 00:16:07,460 That's another thing too like within this year. But at times we are almost gave up on myself because like I just felt like I was over it 214 00:16:07,460 --> 00:16:10,820 And you know like when you have people in your corner 215 00:16:11,460 --> 00:16:17,140 And you know, it's people in your corner, but then it's like they backpedaling and you know, they like oh talk about you on the side 216 00:16:17,540 --> 00:16:19,060 It can really 217 00:16:19,060 --> 00:16:24,100 Effect you it can really hurt you and somebody like me that has sensitive feelings here and there but 218 00:16:24,660 --> 00:16:26,660 also is getting 219 00:16:27,620 --> 00:16:31,620 Tough with a lot of tough skin now too and finally able to 220 00:16:33,060 --> 00:16:35,560 Speak her peace and speak her mind 221 00:16:35,560 --> 00:16:37,560 Don't let nobody play with you 222 00:16:38,200 --> 00:16:44,200 Like it's been too many times. I let people slide on things and I was like I'm done 223 00:16:44,360 --> 00:16:50,840 I'm over and that was one of the biggest lessons I learned this year y'all do not let nobody I don't care 224 00:16:51,800 --> 00:16:54,600 How close y'all are I don't care if y'all blood related 225 00:16:55,080 --> 00:17:01,240 Can I don't care do not let nobody play with your peace your respect your morals your values 226 00:17:01,240 --> 00:17:07,160 You know that because at the end of the day your feelings matter you put yourself first 227 00:17:08,840 --> 00:17:14,520 And that's all that matters like I just feel like I don't have time to people be playing with me because it's like for one 228 00:17:15,240 --> 00:17:20,120 I don't have time to go back and forth to people love to see other people downfall 229 00:17:20,760 --> 00:17:24,360 Most of the time you would think people would love to see you happy 230 00:17:24,680 --> 00:17:27,480 most of the time people love to see you down bad because 231 00:17:28,440 --> 00:17:30,440 They feel sorry for you 232 00:17:30,440 --> 00:17:34,200 And that's another thing I didn't like to I just couldn't stand 233 00:17:34,840 --> 00:17:37,240 Where people be like, oh, why you don't talk to me? Why you don't tell me something? 234 00:17:37,640 --> 00:17:40,920 This is another thing you gotta learn to and I hope this will 235 00:17:42,600 --> 00:17:46,360 Transfire to you within transpire to you 236 00:17:47,800 --> 00:17:50,040 Into 24 in 2024 237 00:17:51,720 --> 00:17:53,720 You gotta leave a mystery 238 00:17:54,120 --> 00:17:55,720 you gotta 239 00:17:55,720 --> 00:18:02,280 Leave a mystery within your life, especially become the social media because of some people, you know, they post every little thing 240 00:18:02,680 --> 00:18:07,640 Everything to the t it's like you don't have no mystery. Like I don't know like I don't know you 241 00:18:07,960 --> 00:18:13,720 It's like I know everything about you because every five minutes you're posting something 242 00:18:14,840 --> 00:18:19,000 Or someone that has affected you or you're dealing with you know 243 00:18:19,000 --> 00:18:24,760 Sometimes you need to leave a mystery and keep certain stuff private because not everybody needs to know 244 00:18:25,640 --> 00:18:31,160 Like with the parka's I use the parka's as the promise that because I didn't want to jinx myself 245 00:18:31,240 --> 00:18:35,400 That was the number one thing. I don't want I didn't want to drink myself. I didn't want to almost start a parka's 246 00:18:36,440 --> 00:18:39,560 And then I didn't what if I would have started the parka's show it wasn't 247 00:18:40,200 --> 00:18:44,120 Committed to it as I am now it wasn't like consistent as I am now 248 00:18:44,120 --> 00:18:49,640 You know because like at times we do have those moments in our life, but it's okay. I'm gonna do this 249 00:18:49,640 --> 00:18:54,760 I'm gonna do that. I'm gonna do this, but then it's like you come to the tea is like what the hell like you not staying consistent 250 00:18:56,040 --> 00:19:00,520 So when people found out about it was like, oh my god, I didn't know that what made you want to do that? 251 00:19:00,520 --> 00:19:01,880 It was just like and I said hey 252 00:19:01,880 --> 00:19:10,440 I love to talk and I love listening to podcasts and the podcast said I listen to they are helping me one step at a time 253 00:19:10,440 --> 00:19:14,600 like one of my favorite podcasters is she 254 00:19:15,400 --> 00:19:21,000 Like when I used to go to the gym, I'd be in there listening to it when I'm on the way to work 255 00:19:21,480 --> 00:19:23,480 Work up in the morning 256 00:19:23,480 --> 00:19:29,560 I ain't doing nothing and going to go to bed like she really just had me thinking and she's a cancer 257 00:19:29,560 --> 00:19:31,800 So, you know, that's my cancer sister shout out to you 258 00:19:32,920 --> 00:19:34,360 so 259 00:19:34,360 --> 00:19:37,560 You know, that was one of the biggest things that stood out to me too is that 260 00:19:37,560 --> 00:19:46,520 If your podcast can't help a lot of people as long as it helps someone and that's why I use my platform to 261 00:19:47,320 --> 00:19:49,320 speak in my truth 262 00:19:49,320 --> 00:19:54,760 Tell you what I say and I'm gonna keep it real like, you know, people be acting like they you know 263 00:19:55,560 --> 00:19:58,680 SHIT don't think like yes, dude. Don't 264 00:19:59,800 --> 00:20:04,680 Don't don't sit around here thinking you got it like that because like that's another thing too people feeling realized 265 00:20:04,680 --> 00:20:11,960 Do not think you are that when I know you're good and well because I'm like, oh 266 00:20:13,320 --> 00:20:19,480 You know, and that's another thing too. I learned about you cannot tell somebody how to do certain stuff because it's like 267 00:20:20,120 --> 00:20:22,680 It's not your business and it's not your place 268 00:20:23,480 --> 00:20:27,000 so I had to learn that like people used to 269 00:20:28,440 --> 00:20:31,800 Fake the funk and it's too much like don't be 270 00:20:31,800 --> 00:20:37,080 Be trying to act like you got it like that, but in my closed doors, you're begging big 271 00:20:38,120 --> 00:20:43,000 But then in my mind like I can't I can't judge it because not my place is by my business 272 00:20:43,400 --> 00:20:47,960 But if I know you well enough and you know me well enough, you know, they're going well. I'm not doing that 273 00:20:48,440 --> 00:20:50,440 You know, like you should know 274 00:20:50,680 --> 00:20:52,520 who to 275 00:20:52,520 --> 00:20:56,920 Who to play that game with who to play that game with who not to play that game with 276 00:20:56,920 --> 00:21:02,520 I just learned that too like a lot of people play my games or you would try to do stuff to you 277 00:21:03,240 --> 00:21:09,160 And one of the topics I wanted to talk about this year, but I didn't within vibes was jealousy 278 00:21:09,800 --> 00:21:15,320 And that's another thing too. I know we all dealt with jealous. I feel like we did with it every year, but this year was just like 279 00:21:16,680 --> 00:21:20,840 Boom right in my face like all up in my face within things that it just 280 00:21:20,840 --> 00:21:26,440 I just feel like it shouldn't be called for like little things that I did in life. It's like, why are you jealous of? 281 00:21:27,560 --> 00:21:31,080 You know, I don't be jealous of the next person because you know, like I said 282 00:21:31,640 --> 00:21:36,600 At times things are not meant for you. Like, you know, sometimes it's not meant for me to you know 283 00:21:37,640 --> 00:21:42,120 Move out. It's not meant for me to get a new car. It's not meant for me to get a new job right now 284 00:21:42,360 --> 00:21:44,920 It's not meant, you know, some stuff is not meant for you. Yes 285 00:21:44,920 --> 00:21:49,800 The next person had got it right in there. I give me flowers congratulating because I know hey, though 286 00:21:50,680 --> 00:21:54,440 But let's let you be the one to tell somebody 287 00:21:55,160 --> 00:22:00,840 About your achievements such as oh, I got my degree. I got this blah blah blah blah 288 00:22:01,000 --> 00:22:03,000 They be like, oh for real 289 00:22:03,560 --> 00:22:10,280 I don't like the word congrats. I just like what say the whole word congratulations make me feel like I feel like 290 00:22:10,280 --> 00:22:14,520 Oh, you know, I don't know. Maybe it's just me with that, but 291 00:22:15,480 --> 00:22:21,080 Yes, another thing too. I learned when it comes to cons is you got to be really careful on what you say and what you do 292 00:22:21,160 --> 00:22:25,480 Such as like with your comments. It's like I said some people acknowledge it some people don't 293 00:22:26,520 --> 00:22:30,840 Where from wale? He's my favorite one of my favorite songs right? Don't hold your applause for me 294 00:22:32,040 --> 00:22:34,040 Don't even do it. Don't even 295 00:22:35,240 --> 00:22:37,880 Don't even applaud me if it's not 296 00:22:37,880 --> 00:22:39,880 Not 297 00:22:39,880 --> 00:22:45,880 Genuine, you know, don't do things if not genuine and I've seen a lot of that this year because me I'm real genuine 298 00:22:46,200 --> 00:22:49,240 And when Christmas came around to I seen a lot of people 299 00:22:50,280 --> 00:22:55,240 Like I knew that like worked with or what the school and it's not something like I don't really care for Christmas stuff like that 300 00:22:55,240 --> 00:23:00,120 And I checked on like, you know, even though it's Christmas. I know you're not really into I want to show you okay 301 00:23:00,200 --> 00:23:03,800 That's like that some people are not genuine to do shit like that 302 00:23:03,800 --> 00:23:09,400 Some people are not even genuine to even give somebody a simple compliment not even say something nice 303 00:23:09,400 --> 00:23:12,840 By the way, you know why it's called jealousy and that's it in the 304 00:23:13,400 --> 00:23:17,320 People who love to see you fall before they see you grow 305 00:23:19,720 --> 00:23:25,160 And I know we all been through that this year and I'm telling y'all now and we're walking into the new year 306 00:23:26,040 --> 00:23:28,040 of 20 307 00:23:28,120 --> 00:23:29,720 24 308 00:23:29,720 --> 00:23:33,960 Leave all that out of the all them people and there's another thing too. I tell everybody 309 00:23:34,760 --> 00:23:40,440 Try show good try show intuition. I don't care how good or bad the issue is if you don't if you know 310 00:23:40,840 --> 00:23:43,080 It don't feel right or do feel right go for 311 00:23:44,120 --> 00:23:50,280 Me that's a lot of my intuition did not lie to me this year because certain stuff a certain people just had me all the way messed up 312 00:23:50,520 --> 00:23:55,880 In some stuff was a very good opportunity for me that I thank god every day that I took it 313 00:23:55,880 --> 00:24:03,240 Even within the bed. I think god for showing me because I learned that's another thing too within this year. I say I learned a lot 314 00:24:04,040 --> 00:24:06,040 I learned life by myself 315 00:24:06,440 --> 00:24:08,440 more than ever like 316 00:24:08,760 --> 00:24:10,760 this semester came 317 00:24:11,560 --> 00:24:12,680 for 318 00:24:12,680 --> 00:24:17,000 2023 this semester probably was one of the best semester I had in a long time 319 00:24:17,880 --> 00:24:20,280 And I had 15 credits. I was you know 320 00:24:20,280 --> 00:24:26,680 Stick it and moving even though the y'all know I read it about the ransom on about the group projects 321 00:24:26,680 --> 00:24:29,880 They was giving me the blues, but baby at the end of the day. I still 322 00:24:31,080 --> 00:24:32,680 maintain a 323 00:24:32,680 --> 00:24:34,680 3.8 GPA 324 00:24:36,680 --> 00:24:38,680 Like 325 00:24:38,920 --> 00:24:40,920 Like it's been times where I be up 326 00:24:41,880 --> 00:24:43,880 like 12 o'clock in the morning 327 00:24:44,360 --> 00:24:46,840 When it came to the group projects and make sure we were good 328 00:24:46,840 --> 00:24:51,960 And make sure I was okay with all my assignments and things like that. I don't play 329 00:24:52,760 --> 00:24:55,400 Like it was times where I was like, oh my god 330 00:24:55,400 --> 00:24:57,480 I get this homework out of the way and then I got a 331 00:24:57,960 --> 00:25:04,360 And then I got a record because this is my routine and this is something that I created. This is something that I 332 00:25:05,080 --> 00:25:08,200 Made for myself. This is the promise that I made to myself 333 00:25:08,600 --> 00:25:14,040 And I want to stay consistent and one thing about me. I'm gonna stay consistent on something because once I'm like 334 00:25:14,040 --> 00:25:18,600 Out of it. I'm out of it. Like the gym y'all couldn't is gracious 335 00:25:19,240 --> 00:25:20,360 I gotta get back at the gym 336 00:25:20,360 --> 00:25:24,360 Probably some of time was just like not for me because like I was working and in the podcast 337 00:25:24,440 --> 00:25:26,440 Like I would go to the gym here and there in the morning 338 00:25:26,600 --> 00:25:30,520 But then I was like, all right, forget it. I was like, all right, forget it because I used to work in the morning 339 00:25:30,600 --> 00:25:32,600 It's like I still work in morning shifts 340 00:25:33,160 --> 00:25:38,120 So I was like, all right. I can't go to gym at this time at night time. Oh, no, no, no, no 341 00:25:38,600 --> 00:25:39,640 I was like, nah 342 00:25:39,640 --> 00:25:42,760 Okay, I don't like night time because like when I'm with my best friend for the first time 343 00:25:42,760 --> 00:25:44,760 Everybody in their mama wasn't in 344 00:25:45,800 --> 00:25:52,120 I like to have like an open gym. I like, you know to have some type of room and I don't have to wait on certain stuff 345 00:25:52,200 --> 00:25:56,360 You know, but hey at times it happens. It happens. But I'm gonna get back in there 346 00:25:57,640 --> 00:25:59,080 but 347 00:25:59,080 --> 00:26:06,200 This year, I'd like I said, I hope y'all learned about yourself overall, especially when it comes to the good and bad 348 00:26:07,160 --> 00:26:09,160 the surprises 349 00:26:09,160 --> 00:26:14,280 The pros and cons highs lows prizes all that good and bad stuff 350 00:26:14,600 --> 00:26:21,000 Because it was a lesson learned like every year I say I learned about myself and every lesson that I dealt with 351 00:26:21,320 --> 00:26:23,320 In my life, I learned 352 00:26:23,400 --> 00:26:26,280 Within the end even if it was good or bad 353 00:26:26,280 --> 00:26:30,440 I learned like you learn something new every day like I learned something new every day by myself 354 00:26:30,840 --> 00:26:36,760 And what I can do and what I'm not taking no more, you know, and I hope y'all did 355 00:26:36,760 --> 00:26:38,760 Did the same because 356 00:26:39,960 --> 00:26:41,960 Every day is a new day 357 00:26:42,040 --> 00:26:46,600 And every day is something different. You can have the same routine, but it could be different like 358 00:26:47,720 --> 00:26:49,720 My professor 359 00:26:49,720 --> 00:26:52,280 Slash my cheer person from my major 360 00:26:52,920 --> 00:26:57,880 She tells every time like, you know, cuz I took family violence domestic violence 361 00:26:58,840 --> 00:27:01,640 Every time, you know, sometimes things happen in our life 362 00:27:01,960 --> 00:27:05,960 We always say we want our life to go back to normal and there's no such thing as normal 363 00:27:05,960 --> 00:27:13,640 Going back to normal. It's starting a new normal. So every year is a new normal or every obstacle you go through 364 00:27:14,040 --> 00:27:20,440 Just know it things are not going to go back to normal. You have to find your new norm. You got to find what can you 365 00:27:22,120 --> 00:27:25,320 Feel as you know, it's comfortable and normal to you now 366 00:27:25,640 --> 00:27:28,760 Feels like going back to that old that old norm is impossible 367 00:27:29,480 --> 00:27:33,480 It's impossible. So that's another thing too. I learned this year like 368 00:27:33,480 --> 00:27:37,800 Some of the stuff I went through was like, dang, I said too, I want things to go back to normal 369 00:27:38,200 --> 00:27:42,280 But then it didn't because I had to start a whole new routine 370 00:27:42,840 --> 00:27:47,240 And that routine also helped me and it's impact on me and it and it flaked 371 00:27:47,880 --> 00:27:49,880 On me into the person I am today 372 00:27:50,680 --> 00:27:52,680 As well as going and counseling 373 00:27:53,240 --> 00:27:59,800 My professor one of my professors my social policy and welfare professor when the incident had happened at my school 374 00:27:59,800 --> 00:28:03,320 You're done doing homecoming with the shooting number thing 375 00:28:04,200 --> 00:28:07,160 A lot of people in my courses 376 00:28:07,800 --> 00:28:11,240 Were either shook up some was like you're surprised and 377 00:28:11,960 --> 00:28:15,400 Some was like it is what it is and some was in the middle and for me 378 00:28:15,640 --> 00:28:18,840 I was I was shook up a little bit because it's like 379 00:28:19,640 --> 00:28:23,320 You wouldn't think people would do that during homecoming, but you know 380 00:28:23,640 --> 00:28:28,680 Usually stuff like that happens on the day of the football, you know homecoming, but that a peaceful rally 381 00:28:28,680 --> 00:28:33,240 It was just so crazy, but it got even more crazy because it's like 382 00:28:34,440 --> 00:28:37,320 As a social worker and you're dealing with people that's going through 383 00:28:37,880 --> 00:28:41,800 Everything in the book you have to be able to deal with that 384 00:28:42,520 --> 00:28:47,320 And if you're working in a field that deals with you working with people on a mental level 385 00:28:47,800 --> 00:28:49,800 Please go out and get help 386 00:28:50,120 --> 00:28:56,680 Not on no funny stuff, but for real go get you some help too because we have some things in our life that needs to be 387 00:28:56,680 --> 00:29:00,280 patched up resolved and things like that 388 00:29:00,920 --> 00:29:04,680 And in order for us to make sure that our clients are comfortable 389 00:29:05,560 --> 00:29:07,240 We need to 390 00:29:07,240 --> 00:29:09,240 Be there for them and also like 391 00:29:10,280 --> 00:29:18,120 Relate to them, but don't make it, you know within the session that the the client is the counseling you 392 00:29:18,680 --> 00:29:24,840 As the counselor social worker therapist or that was down a client because that was on that was one thing that I had 393 00:29:24,840 --> 00:29:28,920 That I was like, oh man, if I be a social worker or counselor 394 00:29:29,720 --> 00:29:34,760 I need to make sure I do not blow things out of apportion or don't bust all the seeds because like I said 395 00:29:34,840 --> 00:29:39,720 I'm sensitive when it comes to certain things and you know at times it's like oh my gosh, I can't do this 396 00:29:39,720 --> 00:29:41,480 I can't do that 397 00:29:41,480 --> 00:29:43,480 so 398 00:29:43,720 --> 00:29:45,720 You know, uh 399 00:29:46,520 --> 00:29:51,080 You gotta have to learn so I'm gonna say like overall this year was a learning 400 00:29:51,080 --> 00:29:53,080 A 401 00:29:53,080 --> 00:29:58,280 Learning year and I can say I had some good and some bad times had some fun 402 00:29:59,000 --> 00:30:01,400 I think I had a little bit more fun this year than I did 403 00:30:02,040 --> 00:30:07,720 When I for when I was 18, you know during the pandemic because one by me being social going to a hbcu 404 00:30:07,800 --> 00:30:13,960 It just changed everything being involved in things and also being social period 405 00:30:13,960 --> 00:30:21,160 It made me feel more comfortable. It made me feel like I finally found my voice and I know 406 00:30:21,240 --> 00:30:27,480 I truly am some more, you know, like I know who I am but deeply on a deeper level. It's like, whoa 407 00:30:28,200 --> 00:30:32,360 I could do a lot of things as long as I put my mind to it and I do what I gotta do 408 00:30:33,800 --> 00:30:36,280 So from like the end of June up until the day 409 00:30:38,040 --> 00:30:42,360 I had some moments, you know some breakdown moments some moments where I'm just like I'm over it 410 00:30:42,360 --> 00:30:47,720 I'm sick of it. I'm tired and stuff like that. But at the end of the day, I always made sure I came out strong 411 00:30:48,440 --> 00:30:49,800 because I don't 412 00:30:49,800 --> 00:30:55,560 Want to go out sad because once if I go outside, I don't want to do anything no more 413 00:30:55,640 --> 00:30:59,560 I don't think I want to continue. I don't think I would ever you know 414 00:31:00,520 --> 00:31:03,000 Be where I'm at today. I like if I would have stopped 415 00:31:04,040 --> 00:31:06,040 like it's been times where 416 00:31:06,680 --> 00:31:08,680 I don't want to record. I'd be like 417 00:31:08,680 --> 00:31:12,760 Ah, I don't want to record or I'd be a day late 418 00:31:13,480 --> 00:31:17,880 When recording because I used I like to get it done a week ahead. I pre-record 419 00:31:18,600 --> 00:31:19,880 Then then 420 00:31:19,880 --> 00:31:25,000 Sometimes you know, I was like the sacrifice I gotta make if I work this day and I get off that time 421 00:31:25,480 --> 00:31:28,920 I'm gonna get myself together, but don't get too comfortable because I got things to do 422 00:31:29,880 --> 00:31:33,640 Shoot y'all like we y'all know like y'all know like if y'all got other things to do 423 00:31:33,640 --> 00:31:38,040 Let's do dealin with other people, whatever it is, you know, you want to have your time, but it's like 424 00:31:38,680 --> 00:31:45,000 You can't have fun time until your business is taken care of and I've been like that since I was in middle school 425 00:31:45,240 --> 00:31:49,800 I'm not well actually elementary school because my parents had that in me 426 00:31:50,040 --> 00:31:52,040 Like you can't have no fun time 427 00:31:52,840 --> 00:31:57,640 If your business ain't taken care of like you gotta do your homework right before you can do anything 428 00:31:57,640 --> 00:32:03,280 out and then when I got older it always took by me because like even as an 429 00:32:03,280 --> 00:32:06,960 adult I'm not having no fun time if I know I got things to do such as if I 430 00:32:06,960 --> 00:32:12,820 gotta pay bills and you know we were outside it costs I'm not going outside 431 00:32:12,820 --> 00:32:17,760 if I know I gotta pay bills because I'm money gotta go to bills I catch y'all on 432 00:32:17,760 --> 00:32:23,000 the flip side or they just gonna have to wait you know especially when it come 433 00:32:23,000 --> 00:32:33,080 like that academics all know I'm not new no what last what girl that's the 434 00:32:33,080 --> 00:32:37,400 things to learn from my talk more I'm more extra on top I'm a very organized 435 00:32:37,400 --> 00:32:41,920 person I can't like one thing about me yes I'm talking about my slip on the 436 00:32:41,920 --> 00:32:47,440 podcast but long as it's done y'all can't tell me a Wednesday y'all hear me 437 00:32:47,440 --> 00:32:52,560 y'all can't tell me no way is that you're here about me you know you hear me 438 00:32:52,560 --> 00:32:56,080 especially when it comes to Instagram it's no way is they that died haven't 439 00:32:56,080 --> 00:33:02,160 missed yet but sometimes I felt like I was gonna miss because like I'd be so 440 00:33:02,160 --> 00:33:08,280 tired but it's like I said the sacrifices that you you make we make we 441 00:33:08,280 --> 00:33:13,080 gotta get it done the job ain't done if we do enough if we not doing we supposed 442 00:33:13,080 --> 00:33:17,200 do you know especially if you hold a higher title manager boss assistant 443 00:33:17,200 --> 00:33:22,440 manager supervisor CEO all that you gotta make sure your business is taken care 444 00:33:22,440 --> 00:33:27,120 of and it's right you know don't rush it cuz we rush it is called sometimes 445 00:33:27,120 --> 00:33:30,960 there's always an error and it sometimes if you rush it and you did which had to 446 00:33:30,960 --> 00:33:35,560 do kudos to you baby cuz I gotta take my time read all make sure things good 447 00:33:35,560 --> 00:33:43,400 punctuation everything like that's just me but I say this to say I hope that 448 00:33:43,400 --> 00:33:51,000 this year's only 23 you really had the chance to sit back and you know take a 449 00:33:51,000 --> 00:33:57,520 look back on things like just see what had you like whoa what had you like damn 450 00:33:57,520 --> 00:34:05,320 what has you like just sit back and just reflect recap on how this year did and 451 00:34:05,320 --> 00:34:13,120 how has this year impact you and what can you do better and why will you do 452 00:34:13,120 --> 00:34:19,480 that better and what you will it will not be taken into next year 2024 because 453 00:34:19,480 --> 00:34:26,520 baby we're almost there that's 20 30 I never thought I'd be saying that 2030 454 00:34:26,520 --> 00:34:33,280 like 2020 I never thought I'd like when I was in middle school and when I heard 455 00:34:33,280 --> 00:34:36,720 like you know when you graduate at high school you had all the high school 456 00:34:36,720 --> 00:34:41,480 fair and stuff and they give you all the 2020 I'm like 20 20 golly and this is 457 00:34:41,480 --> 00:34:46,480 nothing time waits for nobody time moves so fast like I just was saying that I'm 458 00:34:46,480 --> 00:34:53,320 then like dang it was just that on October now is the end of the year 459 00:34:53,320 --> 00:34:58,280 like time waits for nobody in y'all please do not waste your time because time 460 00:34:58,280 --> 00:35:06,280 blanks like that blink of an eye time moves so fast it's like like dang you 461 00:35:06,280 --> 00:35:13,480 gonna be like some will be in what 2026 so that means that y'all I hope that 462 00:35:13,480 --> 00:35:20,080 this year you learn more about yourself than ever and you know what you want to 463 00:35:20,080 --> 00:35:24,600 take it what you not gonna take I hope that you guys had weighed out of the 464 00:35:24,600 --> 00:35:29,000 good in the bad the ups and downs pros and cons the surprises and not so good 465 00:35:29,000 --> 00:35:33,880 surprises in this in this year is well for you and I hope that you were able 466 00:35:33,880 --> 00:35:41,000 to examine who Lord who's loyal such as who's real and who's not 467 00:35:42,120 --> 00:35:49,800 because whoo he's been a year and I was gonna hear but hey that's just thank 468 00:35:49,800 --> 00:35:54,440 God that we here to see another one okay so with that being said y'all I wish 469 00:35:54,440 --> 00:35:59,880 y'all nothing with the bus the best I hope y'all holidays was amazing as we 470 00:35:59,880 --> 00:36:04,560 ended the new year please be safe especially if you have new years plans 471 00:36:04,560 --> 00:36:10,240 I take on New York DC Philly the Vegas wherever please be safe out here please 472 00:36:10,240 --> 00:36:15,600 we should watch those on roundings I wish y'all nothing but peace of blessings 473 00:36:15,600 --> 00:36:21,960 happiness and joy and as always please be safe out here as well my summer's 474 00:36:21,960 --> 00:36:26,040 who I'm gonna say that over and over please please please be safe and be 475 00:36:26,040 --> 00:36:31,960 careful here cuz cuz it's still you know that time people still trying to do 476 00:36:31,960 --> 00:36:39,600 what they gotta do so yes please be safe out here please stand up for yourself 477 00:36:39,600 --> 00:36:45,400 and stand your ground and tell them you guys will hear from me next year I 478 00:36:45,400 --> 00:36:57,920 wish y'all nothing with the best as always bye