Y'all by the its morning evening or afternoon
I'm just glad that you guys had decided to vibe with me the one and only eat
Today's by we are closing out with the new year just basically during a recap of
the new year of
The year as well as within the podcast
So with that being said today's vibe is just a recap of the year. So basically
We're pointing out the pros and the cons because the bad of what had happened this year
That can impact with your life and also my life as well and in y'all may or may not
have the same
Obstacles that but if you did hey, I'm just glad that we were able to get this journey
Either together or not
So without further ado, I want you guys to sit back relax and enjoy hearing our voice whether you're on a go or
Or at home. I want you guys to get real comfortable because yeah, let's just you know recap and
Think about some things such as like wearing out like I said the pros and the cons and what can we do?
And you know, sometimes we always had that sugar coulda woulda. So yeah, let's just get to it
So let's just break it down like this and we get another year
I'll say this for me personally, you know, if you get in the year
I just finished out my what was it?
fall semester of
2022 like
Like I literally just transferred to Morgan like I literally transferred more like I was fresh out of community college
Then went straight to a HBC you
So I can pursue my two or three and a half years here at Morgan State University. I am at now and
And I'm gonna say overall this year. Let's just go from like this overall this year
I say I learned a lot about myself and I took risks on things that needed to be done
And I hope you guys also took the risk on doing things that
Needed to be done in your life let alone
Doing things that you know for a fact that you needed to improve on let alone like
Just go out there and do it because I'm telling y'all I I think like after my birthday
That's when I just really felt comfortable and taking risks on just doing it, you know, because
Like I say and if you're new here
The mental is very important
That mental is very important because that is one of the many things that keep us grounded
That's one of the many things that we must keep intact because it's important to our life. It's a part of our health, you know, so I
Learned a lot when it came to my mental
Especially when it came to the park as I'm gonna say like this
Oh overall this year. I
Been through some good
in some bad
some surprises and
some
What the hell, you know, so I
Say this as I always break the year down like into six months. So let's say
Who that's doing like this
I
Must say cuz it's 12 months. I'm gonna say like this
So I'm not out of the year I'm gonna say like this I'm the same probably from
January to
June I say things were
Okay, they weren't so bad, you know, like I said, like I had my good mom was bad my bad mom was like January
You know started spring semester 2023
That's a mess. I let me just start with a semester. That's the message was really
That was a question of semester and I must say it was questionable because like the courses I was taking
Was to get into my program as those were major those pro those courses I took
Amazing the other classes like the electives that I needed
just in for my school in general was
blowing me because it's just like
One was online and the other one was in person and then you know, we all had that one professor teacher like
Once it's done. It's done. And if you're not there, I'm not going back and
So like last semester, I didn't miss no that's the message. I didn't miss any classes because I
Just couldn't risk it. I couldn't risk it
I
Just y'all that's a message really just had me like I was I was so glad, you know from my pretty racks to get to the program
Yes, and that was my main focus for this year was to get in the program. I told myself
Okay after, you know, the may came around
Apply for the program so you can get in and y'all I was who I was on
I was on a 10 because I'm like hold up this process taking a little bit longer than it
I then it was supposed to from what I have heard
But what I got the letter I was just like yes buzzin on bless us because
It's you can it's sacrifices. Let's just say let's talk about sacrifice right now within a she I know we all had to take
Sacrifices and do things that we had to sacrifice in order to get the results that we wanted
It's no matter how big or small it was you we had to take and had to do so much
To sacrifice to get something because like it's very important to us. So if I have to
Do like working if I have to work on
Seven days a week and no days off if I got to work the whole month, you know
6090 days I gotta get to I gotta get I gotta do what I gotta do because I'm sacrificing something in order for things
You know to get handled that comes with a business. It comes with being parents that comes with anything of the source
That is impacting with your life. I don't care if nobody else think is I don't care if nobody thinks is important is important to you
Well, it's important to you and you do what you had to do because the sacrifices that you make
It's gonna pay off in the end like I sacrifice a lot of things in jobs like
Like we gonna get out of job working in the children's hospital. I love the it's home
I noticed this wasn't for me. So I had to fall back, but I was glad I got the experience and got some type of you know
some type of
Feel of it and then like I was like, okay
I got a feel of it. I love it, but
I always see myself at a desk that
I see myself at a desk. I see myself being a boss like that's why
When if you guys follow me on my Instagram, I'm always saying the CEO the CEO because I'm putting that into
The atmosphere I'm manifesting that I will be a CEO
I will be a boss of something so global to the point where it's like I sacrifice this
This is for me, you know, I don't get me wrong guys
There's nothing wrong with working with working for or with someone, you know in order for you to get your stuff to the order
That's what I'm doing now and I'm not
I'm not afraid. I'm not ashamed of because at the end of the day is a sacrifice that I'm doing and
Bills need to be paid. I need to be eaten. I need to be taken care of. I need to be well taken care of. Okay
so
You know the semester started so January semester is body. It's all the new job
It was going well, but then like around February and March had to
Fall back because my studies were getting in the way also and then I was just like, okay
You got a feel of it and then it's like, okay. This is not for you
So February I'm gonna say February not much really happened in February. I'll say
um
Not really but I can say this I will say this online if February
I'll say this I became more
Social on campus, you know, even though I started in the fall of 2022
When spring 23 came around I was more social like I met some I met some amazing people
I have a friend now that is one of my best of friends
Like when I first came in the morning, I'll say this I didn't
I didn't socialize with nobody it was the same. I felt like I felt like I was going through the same cycle
I was and I was at my committee college like I go to class
And I'm out once class over I'm gone getting ready for work and that was that and
When I went to Morgan my friend I transferred same thing, but then I was like, you know what I can't like I can't do this
You know, and I'm a social work major. I have to be social
We have to be involved because like I said a couple episodes back and here and there
As a social work major you're involved with a lot of projects
And you're involved with a lot of people
All over that's in the same program as you so you have to be social you have to
Put your best foot out there sometimes it's like
Okay, the day in the day
But it's like long you always say long as a job gets done and everything is correct, you know
And it's not procrastinating. It's not sloppy. We're gonna get this done
so I say like, you know
school wives from
January to June
It went well it went well, but the semester did have me questionable because it's like
maybe because
by me when I was in community college, I took like
Six like 15 to 18 credit courses and then when I came to Morgan, it was just like
Either 12 it was 12 my first two semesters really I was just like this ain't it. It's not enough
You know, it's not enough for me. This this ain't what I'm used to and that's why it's like the semester's having like what it's going on
And by me just starting most of my credits
were like already approved and they were like credible for me and
I couldn't take the courses that I'm taking now back there because I had to be in the program
So I was just like, okay, like I really like I have nothing to do and the semester was really questionable
And I'm just like, okay get the work done. Got to work
Handle your business and that's that so yeah
So I say like but then the beginning of the year the six months, you know beginning of the year those six months it really
It was not so bad. I'll say that it was not so bad
You know made some money, you know had my ups and downs
but
I was able to overachieve everything that I was going through
Then let's take it to
I
Guess you can say half of June up until today because yeah
So when the semester was over, I was like, okay
I'm gonna work
Because like every time I go on break. I'm like I'm working like I got a family to feed
I got my own little family to feed like five thin kids down there
So why not grind stack that paper, you know get the money, you know, let it, you know
Cause like if I stay in the house, I'm gonna I'm gonna go to sleep
Like I'm really I'm a clean like I'm a really clean organized stuff everything like to the point where the closet get rearranged
dressers clothes
So I was like, uh-uh, I'm gonna work like I'm gonna work
I buy even if I have one or two days off longest
I know I'm working it's keeping me busy, you know, and my body is not so tired because that was another thing too
That's another thing too late
When you're not on your feet that much like your body gets worn out and that's what your mental too
Because like I don't want to do nothing. Like I don't know what I do that
So from half of June up until the day
The podcast was
Begun it was born
And like I said like in the beginning
What it can't do the podcast y'all
I remember like this is so crazy like
Before
Christmas I must say this
Like three or four weeks ago
I was looking through my phone my notes because I keep everything in my notes is from the podcast to like notes of like
What I'm gonna what's going on today where I need to do I need to edit x y and z
and I've seen this um notes I had because
I wanted to do graphic design such as like, you know, the party
Unpromoters flyers party favors and
Business flyers and things like that because like when I was in high school some of my friends
Like they'd be like, oh, can you design or can you you know whip up like something for me?
And I was like, okay cool
And it was like you should make a business out of it, you know, because you're real good when it comes to it
Mind y'all I had an iPhone 8
I had my iPhone
I found 8 plus and was doing it like I didn't have my iPad. I didn't have my Mac
But I was doing everything on a phone like I had so many apps. It was just like whoa
And looking back at those projects. I'm like wow
I really did that and I remember what it was just so crazy like I remember when I did jot down the names of like
What I wanted to do if I was to have
a um
You know ever took the risk of having a graphic design page, you know, just being that person be like, oh
You know, you can hit me up. I can do this for you fly
And when I did the business cards people was like, oh you did your own business cards
Like you help me can you help me and that's the one that would work too because
It's like when it comes to design when it comes to being creative and having a creative mind
I shout out to all the creative people the creative people out there because y'all really have a creative eye
like some of the stuff like we really turn nothing into something because when it came to
during the podcast
The name the outline
The layout everything it took me a while and that's why I
Procure it's needed so long until this y'all was like, fuck it. We bought we're gonna get it done
Because it was my mission to do this. It was like this gonna keep me on my soul, too
It's gonna keep me a little bit busy. It's gonna make me feel like
I'm important. That's why I say CEO missy CEO
Because this made me feel important and I know a lot of us out there
Had the moments in our life where okay
It's gonna take me a while to get this project started
But long as I put my best foot forward and have that blueprint. I'm good another thing too of your new hair
I'm big on blueprint like I'm big on the blueprint because like
That blueprint is like a sketch
Of your vision and you want everything on that blueprint
To come to life to the tee you want every
little detail to come to
To you know come to life like how they say you turn a dream into reality
That's how I live by that too like I can dream and I'm manifest and it's gonna come to reality
Because I want to turn that dream into a reality because like I'm walking in my
My dream and it's coming, you know, so realities. So that's another thing. I don't want y'all to give up on yourself
That's another thing too like within this year. But at times we are almost gave up on myself because like I just felt like I was over it
And you know like when you have people in your corner
And you know, it's people in your corner, but then it's like they backpedaling and you know, they like oh talk about you on the side
It can really
Effect you it can really hurt you and somebody like me that has sensitive feelings here and there but
also is getting
Tough with a lot of tough skin now too and finally able to
Speak her peace and speak her mind
Don't let nobody play with you
Like it's been too many times. I let people slide on things and I was like I'm done
I'm over and that was one of the biggest lessons I learned this year y'all do not let nobody I don't care
How close y'all are I don't care if y'all blood related
Can I don't care do not let nobody play with your peace your respect your morals your values
You know that because at the end of the day your feelings matter you put yourself first
And that's all that matters like I just feel like I don't have time to people be playing with me because it's like for one
I don't have time to go back and forth to people love to see other people downfall
Most of the time you would think people would love to see you happy
most of the time people love to see you down bad because
They feel sorry for you
And that's another thing I didn't like to I just couldn't stand
Where people be like, oh, why you don't talk to me? Why you don't tell me something?
This is another thing you gotta learn to and I hope this will
Transfire to you within transpire to you
Into 24 in 2024
You gotta leave a mystery
you gotta
Leave a mystery within your life, especially become the social media because of some people, you know, they post every little thing
Everything to the t it's like you don't have no mystery. Like I don't know like I don't know you
It's like I know everything about you because every five minutes you're posting something
Or someone that has affected you or you're dealing with you know
Sometimes you need to leave a mystery and keep certain stuff private because not everybody needs to know
Like with the parka's I use the parka's as the promise that because I didn't want to jinx myself
That was the number one thing. I don't want I didn't want to drink myself. I didn't want to almost start a parka's
And then I didn't what if I would have started the parka's show it wasn't
Committed to it as I am now it wasn't like consistent as I am now
You know because like at times we do have those moments in our life, but it's okay. I'm gonna do this
I'm gonna do that. I'm gonna do this, but then it's like you come to the tea is like what the hell like you not staying consistent
So when people found out about it was like, oh my god, I didn't know that what made you want to do that?
It was just like and I said hey
I love to talk and I love listening to podcasts and the podcast said I listen to they are helping me one step at a time
like one of my favorite podcasters is she
Like when I used to go to the gym, I'd be in there listening to it when I'm on the way to work
Work up in the morning
I ain't doing nothing and going to go to bed like she really just had me thinking and she's a cancer
So, you know, that's my cancer sister shout out to you
so
You know, that was one of the biggest things that stood out to me too is that
If your podcast can't help a lot of people as long as it helps someone and that's why I use my platform to
speak in my truth
Tell you what I say and I'm gonna keep it real like, you know, people be acting like they you know
SHIT don't think like yes, dude. Don't
Don't don't sit around here thinking you got it like that because like that's another thing too people feeling realized
Do not think you are that when I know you're good and well because I'm like, oh
You know, and that's another thing too. I learned about you cannot tell somebody how to do certain stuff because it's like
It's not your business and it's not your place
so I had to learn that like people used to
Fake the funk and it's too much like don't be
Be trying to act like you got it like that, but in my closed doors, you're begging big
But then in my mind like I can't I can't judge it because not my place is by my business
But if I know you well enough and you know me well enough, you know, they're going well. I'm not doing that
You know, like you should know
who to
Who to play that game with who to play that game with who not to play that game with
I just learned that too like a lot of people play my games or you would try to do stuff to you
And one of the topics I wanted to talk about this year, but I didn't within vibes was jealousy
And that's another thing too. I know we all dealt with jealous. I feel like we did with it every year, but this year was just like
Boom right in my face like all up in my face within things that it just
I just feel like it shouldn't be called for like little things that I did in life. It's like, why are you jealous of?
You know, I don't be jealous of the next person because you know, like I said
At times things are not meant for you. Like, you know, sometimes it's not meant for me to you know
Move out. It's not meant for me to get a new car. It's not meant for me to get a new job right now
It's not meant, you know, some stuff is not meant for you. Yes
The next person had got it right in there. I give me flowers congratulating because I know hey, though
But let's let you be the one to tell somebody
About your achievements such as oh, I got my degree. I got this blah blah blah blah
They be like, oh for real
I don't like the word congrats. I just like what say the whole word congratulations make me feel like I feel like
Oh, you know, I don't know. Maybe it's just me with that, but
Yes, another thing too. I learned when it comes to cons is you got to be really careful on what you say and what you do
Such as like with your comments. It's like I said some people acknowledge it some people don't
Where from wale? He's my favorite one of my favorite songs right? Don't hold your applause for me
Don't even do it. Don't even
Don't even applaud me if it's not
Not
Genuine, you know, don't do things if not genuine and I've seen a lot of that this year because me I'm real genuine
And when Christmas came around to I seen a lot of people
Like I knew that like worked with or what the school and it's not something like I don't really care for Christmas stuff like that
And I checked on like, you know, even though it's Christmas. I know you're not really into I want to show you okay
That's like that some people are not genuine to do shit like that
Some people are not even genuine to even give somebody a simple compliment not even say something nice
By the way, you know why it's called jealousy and that's it in the
People who love to see you fall before they see you grow
And I know we all been through that this year and I'm telling y'all now and we're walking into the new year
of 20
24
Leave all that out of the all them people and there's another thing too. I tell everybody
Try show good try show intuition. I don't care how good or bad the issue is if you don't if you know
It don't feel right or do feel right go for
Me that's a lot of my intuition did not lie to me this year because certain stuff a certain people just had me all the way messed up
In some stuff was a very good opportunity for me that I thank god every day that I took it
Even within the bed. I think god for showing me because I learned that's another thing too within this year. I say I learned a lot
I learned life by myself
more than ever like
this semester came
for
2023 this semester probably was one of the best semester I had in a long time
And I had 15 credits. I was you know
Stick it and moving even though the y'all know I read it about the ransom on about the group projects
They was giving me the blues, but baby at the end of the day. I still
maintain a
3.8 GPA
Like
Like it's been times where I be up
like 12 o'clock in the morning
When it came to the group projects and make sure we were good
And make sure I was okay with all my assignments and things like that. I don't play
Like it was times where I was like, oh my god
I get this homework out of the way and then I got a
And then I got a record because this is my routine and this is something that I created. This is something that I
Made for myself. This is the promise that I made to myself
And I want to stay consistent and one thing about me. I'm gonna stay consistent on something because once I'm like
Out of it. I'm out of it. Like the gym y'all couldn't is gracious
I gotta get back at the gym
Probably some of time was just like not for me because like I was working and in the podcast
Like I would go to the gym here and there in the morning
But then I was like, all right, forget it. I was like, all right, forget it because I used to work in the morning
It's like I still work in morning shifts
So I was like, all right. I can't go to gym at this time at night time. Oh, no, no, no, no
I was like, nah
Okay, I don't like night time because like when I'm with my best friend for the first time
Everybody in their mama wasn't in
I like to have like an open gym. I like, you know to have some type of room and I don't have to wait on certain stuff
You know, but hey at times it happens. It happens. But I'm gonna get back in there
but
This year, I'd like I said, I hope y'all learned about yourself overall, especially when it comes to the good and bad
the surprises
The pros and cons highs lows prizes all that good and bad stuff
Because it was a lesson learned like every year I say I learned about myself and every lesson that I dealt with
In my life, I learned
Within the end even if it was good or bad
I learned like you learn something new every day like I learned something new every day by myself
And what I can do and what I'm not taking no more, you know, and I hope y'all did
Did the same because
Every day is a new day
And every day is something different. You can have the same routine, but it could be different like
My professor
Slash my cheer person from my major
She tells every time like, you know, cuz I took family violence domestic violence
Every time, you know, sometimes things happen in our life
We always say we want our life to go back to normal and there's no such thing as normal
Going back to normal. It's starting a new normal. So every year is a new normal or every obstacle you go through
Just know it things are not going to go back to normal. You have to find your new norm. You got to find what can you
Feel as you know, it's comfortable and normal to you now
Feels like going back to that old that old norm is impossible
It's impossible. So that's another thing too. I learned this year like
Some of the stuff I went through was like, dang, I said too, I want things to go back to normal
But then it didn't because I had to start a whole new routine
And that routine also helped me and it's impact on me and it and it flaked
On me into the person I am today
As well as going and counseling
My professor one of my professors my social policy and welfare professor when the incident had happened at my school
You're done doing homecoming with the shooting number thing
A lot of people in my courses
Were either shook up some was like you're surprised and
Some was like it is what it is and some was in the middle and for me
I was I was shook up a little bit because it's like
You wouldn't think people would do that during homecoming, but you know
Usually stuff like that happens on the day of the football, you know homecoming, but that a peaceful rally
It was just so crazy, but it got even more crazy because it's like
As a social worker and you're dealing with people that's going through
Everything in the book you have to be able to deal with that
And if you're working in a field that deals with you working with people on a mental level
Please go out and get help
Not on no funny stuff, but for real go get you some help too because we have some things in our life that needs to be
patched up resolved and things like that
And in order for us to make sure that our clients are comfortable
We need to
Be there for them and also like
Relate to them, but don't make it, you know within the session that the the client is the counseling you
As the counselor social worker therapist or that was down a client because that was on that was one thing that I had
That I was like, oh man, if I be a social worker or counselor
I need to make sure I do not blow things out of apportion or don't bust all the seeds because like I said
I'm sensitive when it comes to certain things and you know at times it's like oh my gosh, I can't do this
I can't do that
so
You know, uh
You gotta have to learn so I'm gonna say like overall this year was a learning
A
Learning year and I can say I had some good and some bad times had some fun
I think I had a little bit more fun this year than I did
When I for when I was 18, you know during the pandemic because one by me being social going to a hbcu
It just changed everything being involved in things and also being social period
It made me feel more comfortable. It made me feel like I finally found my voice and I know
I truly am some more, you know, like I know who I am but deeply on a deeper level. It's like, whoa
I could do a lot of things as long as I put my mind to it and I do what I gotta do
So from like the end of June up until the day
I had some moments, you know some breakdown moments some moments where I'm just like I'm over it
I'm sick of it. I'm tired and stuff like that. But at the end of the day, I always made sure I came out strong
because I don't
Want to go out sad because once if I go outside, I don't want to do anything no more
I don't think I want to continue. I don't think I would ever you know
Be where I'm at today. I like if I would have stopped
like it's been times where
I don't want to record. I'd be like
Ah, I don't want to record or I'd be a day late
When recording because I used I like to get it done a week ahead. I pre-record
Then then
Sometimes you know, I was like the sacrifice I gotta make if I work this day and I get off that time
I'm gonna get myself together, but don't get too comfortable because I got things to do
Shoot y'all like we y'all know like y'all know like if y'all got other things to do
Let's do dealin with other people, whatever it is, you know, you want to have your time, but it's like
You can't have fun time until your business is taken care of and I've been like that since I was in middle school
I'm not well actually elementary school because my parents had that in me
Like you can't have no fun time
If your business ain't taken care of like you gotta do your homework right before you can do anything
out and then when I got older it always took by me because like even as an
adult I'm not having no fun time if I know I got things to do such as if I
gotta pay bills and you know we were outside it costs I'm not going outside
if I know I gotta pay bills because I'm money gotta go to bills I catch y'all on
the flip side or they just gonna have to wait you know especially when it come
like that academics all know I'm not new no what last what girl that's the
things to learn from my talk more I'm more extra on top I'm a very organized
person I can't like one thing about me yes I'm talking about my slip on the
podcast but long as it's done y'all can't tell me a Wednesday y'all hear me
y'all can't tell me no way is that you're here about me you know you hear me
especially when it comes to Instagram it's no way is they that died haven't
missed yet but sometimes I felt like I was gonna miss because like I'd be so
tired but it's like I said the sacrifices that you you make we make we
gotta get it done the job ain't done if we do enough if we not doing we supposed
do you know especially if you hold a higher title manager boss assistant
manager supervisor CEO all that you gotta make sure your business is taken care
of and it's right you know don't rush it cuz we rush it is called sometimes
there's always an error and it sometimes if you rush it and you did which had to
do kudos to you baby cuz I gotta take my time read all make sure things good
punctuation everything like that's just me but I say this to say I hope that
this year's only 23 you really had the chance to sit back and you know take a
look back on things like just see what had you like whoa what had you like damn
what has you like just sit back and just reflect recap on how this year did and
how has this year impact you and what can you do better and why will you do
that better and what you will it will not be taken into next year 2024 because
baby we're almost there that's 20 30 I never thought I'd be saying that 2030
like 2020 I never thought I'd like when I was in middle school and when I heard
like you know when you graduate at high school you had all the high school
fair and stuff and they give you all the 2020 I'm like 20 20 golly and this is
nothing time waits for nobody time moves so fast like I just was saying that I'm
then like dang it was just that on October now is the end of the year
like time waits for nobody in y'all please do not waste your time because time
blanks like that blink of an eye time moves so fast it's like like dang you
gonna be like some will be in what 2026 so that means that y'all I hope that
this year you learn more about yourself than ever and you know what you want to
take it what you not gonna take I hope that you guys had weighed out of the
good in the bad the ups and downs pros and cons the surprises and not so good
surprises in this in this year is well for you and I hope that you were able
to examine who Lord who's loyal such as who's real and who's not
because whoo he's been a year and I was gonna hear but hey that's just thank
God that we here to see another one okay so with that being said y'all I wish
y'all nothing with the bus the best I hope y'all holidays was amazing as we
ended the new year please be safe especially if you have new years plans
I take on New York DC Philly the Vegas wherever please be safe out here please
we should watch those on roundings I wish y'all nothing but peace of blessings
happiness and joy and as always please be safe out here as well my summer's
who I'm gonna say that over and over please please please be safe and be
careful here cuz cuz it's still you know that time people still trying to do
what they gotta do so yes please be safe out here please stand up for yourself
and stand your ground and tell them you guys will hear from me next year I
wish y'all nothing with the best as always bye