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Hey y'all, whether it's morning, evening, or afternoon, I'm just glad that you guys

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had decided to vibe out with me, the one and only E. And today, we are vibing out with

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two of my favorite people ever.

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So with that being said, I want you guys to sit back, relax, and enjoy this show because

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as always, every vibe of the day is something special.

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Without further ado, let me introduce my guest.

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So today, we're vibing out with...

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I'm Jiong Ryan.

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Viong, it can be easy.

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Yeah.

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All right, let's get into it.

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So first, how are y'all feeling on this lovely day?

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I feel good.

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You feel good.

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No one wants to know how you feel.

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Period.

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I got 200 out of 200 on presentation.

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Period.

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Period.

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Period.

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I love that for y'all.

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All right, let's get into it.

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How are you?

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Can we jump here, guys?

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Yeah.

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Okay, I ain't no rules.

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I don't have a cuss of it.

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Sometimes it's good by my own.

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Okay.

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You don't have to be a mouthful to me.

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I can reject.

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Okay, so tell me a little bit about yourself.

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I'm going to start with D.R.

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I love having you stuck and put it back down.

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I spoke a lot of weed.

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I like anime and video games and I don't know how to watch like medium.

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I can watch a movie and talk about the three hours of the time shit.

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Okay.

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I'm talking about myself.

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I'm a girl.

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It's okay.

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I like that.

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Dang.

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So I'm going to be a social worker.

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I love me some Jesus.

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What else?

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I enjoy working with kids.

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I'm currently a senior.

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Period.

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Yeah.

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Love it here.

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So another question before we get into the topic.

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What inspires y'all every day?

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Because you know y'all are college students.

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Y'all are young adults.

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Y'all are working.

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What inspires y'all every day to keep moving forward?

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To be the best son out on my phone.

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Okay.

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Okay.

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To be honest, I don't know.

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To be honest, I don't know.

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I just want to be great.

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I want to help people and get my degree.

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That's it.

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Okay.

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I like it.

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I love the answers.

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Okay guys.

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So today we're talking about our childhood.

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And this was Naya's idea and also Dion wanted to come on here and talk about it as well.

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So without further ado, I'm going to let Naya start it off with the childhood and how it would impact her and her life.

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Okay.

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So my mom for the most part, she was a single mom.

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So like she had a village door.

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My dad was there.

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My dad.

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So once I got to a certain age, I kind of cut him off.

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Not cut him off.

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He still has access to me, but like he doesn't.

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That makes sense.

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So my mom's village, it was my grandmother.

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It was my aunt.

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And I guess you can say my step-grandfather.

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He wasn't technically my step-grandfather until I was five, but my grandmother was way friend until, you know, he was married.

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And yeah, I had like a real good childhood.

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I didn't like anything with that.

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However, I do feel like that accent of like that father figure, I don't know, kind of affected me, but I did have a step-dad, but I don't mess with him with that either.

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I had like a, I don't know, weird relationship with like the adult minimum if that makes sense.

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But I love my grandfather.

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I adored him.

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So yeah, I was like a real good child.

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You know, got the grades on the role.

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That's good.

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So I have a question.

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So when you mentioned that, you know, lack of relationship with your father, is that father, do you think that affects you now as an adult?

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To be honest, I guess because I don't take no mess from him.

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Like I cut my father off.

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I can cut you off if that makes sense.

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So I kind of said is a good thing that I won't take nothing from nobody.

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But then again, I felt like as every young girl, they deserve to have like that, you know, being spoiled by their dad and stuff like that.

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Because I know some people when they don't have that dad figure, they like they go wow and they go, well, love in the wrong places and things like that and become fast and all that.

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The whole time it's not like that.

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They just looking for love.

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So yeah.

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So did that affect you within dating?

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No, actually, I think it helped.

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Because like I didn't put up with certain things from my dad, so I'm not going to put up with certain things from you.

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And like I feel like I attract the men that like respect me because of that.

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Like, you know, not the mess with me.

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You know, not the treat me rude and anything like that.

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And if you didn't know, you won't get out.

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You're getting the door period.

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So yeah, I had a real strong mother to like the woman that was in her village raising me.

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They was strong women, strong black independent women.

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So like period, you can't tell me nothing.

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Yeah.

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I like that the village, you know that helps.

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That's really good.

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I supported.

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Yeah.

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And I noticed another thing too.

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You and Deon are both the only child.

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Yeah.

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And those siblings.

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So how did that affect you and then Deon, how did that affect you growing up being the only child?

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So when you don't got no siblings and this time the goal places is left like that.

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You dad bought yourself.

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So I had no choice but to like become an extrovert and like make friends.

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And luckily for me, it's easy for me to make friends.

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And like I felt like that.

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I don't know, it kind of helped me in my adult life.

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I'm not scared to talk to people and things like that.

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And I feel like it's going to help me in my profession as well when I become a social worker because I don't mind talking to new people and getting to know people.

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So yeah, I think it benefited me.

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That's perfect.

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And I get everything I want for the most part.

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Like I want to share.

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That's another thing that I don't like sharing.

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I do not like sharing.

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Don't ex me for nothing.

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Like if I got clothes or something, like don't ex me for that.

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Like, like it's like boundaries cool.

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Like if I have a new outfit in here, don't, don't point to that one.

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Like try something old.

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Or if I have food, like I would rather buy somebody their own food and share my food.

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Like if I'm just getting food, don't ex me for it.

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Let me finish it.

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Like I'm not touching it.

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They make you do this song.

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That makes me feel.

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Okay, now I'm to you Dio.

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By you being a man, so your, your opinion is going to be different and your views going to be different.

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So how was it for you growing up as the only child?

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On your mother's side?

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Yes, on your mother's side.

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Because you do have other siblings on your father's side.

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Like you mentioned earlier.

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I don't know.

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I was just chillin.

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I was on the game one time.

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So I'm still going to the same guy I do now.

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Still playing the game with the same girls online.

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It's just middle school.

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So it was like I had brothers, but they were just not my blood brothers.

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Oh, so that's a good point you mentioned because like, you know, at times your friends become your family members.

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So you think you're more comfortable with your friends versus your family members?

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Yeah.

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I'm not exactly five years, like five or seven years ago.

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Being on my siblings on my father's side.

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It wasn't like really siblings.

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It'd be awkward sometimes.

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We all just became like real, real siblings like five years ago.

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So how did that affect you?

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Or did it affect you?

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It didn't.

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It didn't?

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As a kid I would just be by myself for hours of time.

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Did you like being by yourself?

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Yeah, most of the most part, yeah.

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And why is that?

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Because I don't know why I don't.

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See for me it's different because like I have siblings.

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Like I'm the oldest of two.

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So when y'all say like, you know, it was good for y'all and you had to share and stuff.

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For me it's different.

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Like I share, you know, sometimes even gotta look out for them.

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So it's just like, wow.

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When you hear from other different people's point of views like, whoa.

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Like it's good and bad.

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It's good and bad moments.

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So what's your good and bad moment on like being the only child for you being on your mother's side?

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When she gone, I basically on my own house.

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The bad.

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I get to be by the top two around like not like I'm sad type shit like, but just to talk to.

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So do y'all ever think that y'all wish y'all had siblings?

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Like, do you ever wish your mother's might have had more siblings down the line?

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Or like, no, you could be an only sibling.

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To be honest, I'm a good not having siblings.

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However, I love little girls.

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So if I was to have a little sister, I feel like I would love that.

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But like not close to the end.

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Like I'm going to be able to tell her what to do.

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We know fight after having sex.

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Like I'm going to be like 12 when she was born.

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And like we go from there.

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I would love to be a big sister.

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And then like I don't mess with my father like that.

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And it's like, I feel like if he had kids, I would try to be around them.

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But like since I was in the room him, I don't see him.

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That's understanding.

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How about you?

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How would you feel if your mom was to have children down the line by you being, you know,

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from you being an older child, would you want your mom to have children?

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Or you just wanted to be the only child period for her?

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I'd rather than all my siblings and us having the same parents and start up with you yourself.

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Why is that?

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Because I think it's because I ain't allowed to grow up.

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I just always want the Disney Channel experience to have and I'm also used to have like three brothers and two sisters.

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I got them in seven of them.

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We just don't live with each other.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Like the guys we type to.

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That's not true.

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So let's get into it.

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Another question involving our childhood.

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How do y'all think that your childhood has impact your as an adult now, you know, going to school, working,

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you know, trying to do things different that your parents have done?

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So me personally, my mom, she would always been like a real, what's the word?

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She always been really hardworking.

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So me seeing it and me being hardworking, you literally a reflection of your parents.

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So like, I saw her go to nursing school and stuff like that when I was like eight, I think that's when she graduated.

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So I think it's like, okay, I can go to school and do all this and that too.

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And she wanted me to be a nurse like real baby.

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I might be a nurse because blood is itching.

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Yeah.

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I don't know.

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I feel like, I don't know.

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You can say.

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And I'll pick you back off for you.

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I'm going to have a few more time.

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The question was, how did your childhood affect you as an adult?

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Like, do you think it effect you in a good way, bad way?

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And then like, is there anything that you see different?

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Why is that?

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Because I was really like, if you really know me, you know, my own real narrative type shit.

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I was like in like middle school and like say everybody, you know, the games, time we sleep.

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I'd be watching like a space video like that you were watching class, but like that was my entertainment.

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So basically anything that's not mad, a lot of shit I already know, like in my history class now,

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how the shit that I learned, I learned like when I was like in middle school, in college, I still know.

252
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So it made me smarter because I was like, I was in the dumpster and bad because it took me until like 12th grade to learn how to be social.

253
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That's.

254
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Speaking about that, how do y'all think your social life is versus when you were a child versus to like now, like be like 2021, 22 years old?

255
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Oh, now?

256
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I said crazy now.

257
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I ain't lying.

258
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I ain't even talking to you in high school with me.

259
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So yeah.

260
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And how do you think it's different now versus from your childhood up until now?

261
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Was it good that you're social now or was like bad, especially when you go to college to go to more than state?

262
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So let us know.

263
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It's good now because I always been finding so.

264
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Don't be just around. Why do you make people more people have more than my entire shit?

265
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So I think it's good.

266
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What was I going to question? How is it bad?

267
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It's bad because niggas always want to be outside.

268
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I don't even know.

269
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You're looking at my account.

270
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It'd be like six shit spending and niggas talking about constant money.

271
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Yeah.

272
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Yeah, sometimes.

273
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Oh, and niggas always moving up my week.

274
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They're never mad at me.

275
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Dang.

276
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Dang. You ever told them that?

277
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How they felt about that? They wanted to fight or something like that.

278
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How do you usually, when you're fighting, you don't want to share anything?

279
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Right. I bought it. Get together.

280
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And I would be like, not many people.

281
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People don't deal with it.

282
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I really didn't even show them.

283
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I'd just say if I flip them off side, they'll go by faster.

284
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Because you're not. It's like, usually you buy yourself.

285
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Yeah.

286
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They go by faster. That's the way to play.

287
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Unless if I invite you, I'd be like, all right, let's chill. Let you know.

288
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Roll when I'm drinking stuff. Okay, cool.

289
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But if not, no.

290
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So Nia, how did your childhood put a good or a bad impact on YouTube

291
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as you're being older now and working?

292
00:13:16,440 --> 00:13:18,440
I already answered that. You want me to talk about my social life right?

293
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Yeah, your social life.

294
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So for me, I've always been like a natural leader.

295
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You can't tell me to do something and I don't want to do it.

296
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I'm just not going to do it.

297
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But something that I've always heard, even as a child is,

298
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when I first met you, I thought you was going to be mean.

299
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But you're so sweet.

300
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And I didn't say it all the time.

301
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Even the other day when I was at work, they was doing the activity with the kids

302
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and it was like saying a nice thing about everybody around you.

303
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And so she did one for me for an example of them.

304
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And she basically said you don't look the way you act.

305
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You know what? You're mean. You seem like you would be a mean girl.

306
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And I get that a lot.

307
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Did that ever affect you as a child?

308
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Absolutely not. Because I felt like when people think you're a mean girl,

309
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they think you're pretty or they think you're attractive.

310
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So in the back of my head, I get what you're saying, but it's a compliment.

311
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You think of that girl in real life and you think I'm going to treat you bad

312
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because of that and I won't.

313
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So that's why I'm here.

314
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But another thing that you're not always going to get,

315
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is people that's going to give you a chance because you look mean.

316
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So I also have girls that look at me like, oh, she thinks she's all that

317
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and then they just decide to distance themselves.

318
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And that's something I had to deal with my whole life as well.

319
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But like, who cares?

320
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And it's going to do me and surround myself with people that want to be around me.

321
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I'm a bad, bad, mean.

322
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But I'm bad at what I eat.

323
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Here we go!

324
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Don't throw my teeth up.

325
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Don't like eat up like that.

326
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Okay.

327
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So the next question.

328
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That hit the spot because I felt like that too.

329
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Growing up, even beyond, I was quiet as a mouse in middle school.

330
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For me to be social, it just, it happened out of nowhere.

331
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You know, like, you know, when people look at you, they're like,

332
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oh, they don't want nothing to do with you.

333
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Bullying, people don't understand.

334
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Bullying can really rub off on a person bad.

335
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Especially if you don't know them.

336
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Always tell people, don't judge a book by its cover unless you ain't had the chance

337
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to sit down and read that book to get to know them.

338
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And if you don't like it, then shut it and just leave it the hell alone.

339
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You know?

340
00:15:13,440 --> 00:15:19,440
So with that being said, when it came to compliments as a child versus now,

341
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how did y'all feel about it?

342
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Like, you know, when your child, people used to give you compliments,

343
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and now when you get older, like, hmm, but you know,

344
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do it ever like wander to you, like, is that a good or bad comment?

345
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For me personally, no.

346
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My whole life, my mom would be telling me I'm pretty.

347
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So if somebody told me I'm pretty, I'd be like, thank you, I'll read it.

348
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It would just be that simple for me.

349
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Compliments are cool, but I don't know.

350
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They just don't phase me.

351
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I'm just like, thank you.

352
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I'm glad you told me that you think I look nice with that.

353
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I don't know.

354
00:15:47,440 --> 00:15:50,440
I feel like compliments, that's not about appearance.

355
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I always know what you're doing.

356
00:15:51,440 --> 00:15:52,440
You don't need to tell me that.

357
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I like when people tell me I like your energy.

358
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I like how you do this.

359
00:15:55,440 --> 00:15:56,440
I like how you do that.

360
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I like stuff like that.

361
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That's what I'm saying.

362
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Yeah.

363
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How about you, Deon?

364
00:16:02,440 --> 00:16:04,440
I live two lives, for a friend.

365
00:16:04,440 --> 00:16:05,440
I ain't a lot to you.

366
00:16:05,440 --> 00:16:06,440
I didn't get compliments.

367
00:16:06,440 --> 00:16:07,440
I was like, yeah.

368
00:16:07,440 --> 00:16:09,440
I was like, why is that?

369
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Bro, you've seen it back then.

370
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I was like, baby.

371
00:16:13,440 --> 00:16:15,440
I was just like, oh, wait, I ain't nothing.

372
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I ain't a lot.

373
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So I ended up coming back then, but now it's weird because people be calling me.

374
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I ain't a lot.

375
00:16:22,440 --> 00:16:24,440
I feel like it's probably like at least like a three a month.

376
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Something like that.

377
00:16:25,440 --> 00:16:26,440
I don't know.

378
00:16:26,440 --> 00:16:29,440
I had some oil, they tell me, some handsome young man, my dog, I like that.

379
00:16:29,440 --> 00:16:33,440
So now it feels weird because I'm not used to it.

380
00:16:33,440 --> 00:16:36,440
But do you like the attention?

381
00:16:36,440 --> 00:16:37,440
I don't know.

382
00:16:37,440 --> 00:16:38,440
I like the attention.

383
00:16:38,440 --> 00:16:40,440
Do you like the attention?

384
00:16:40,440 --> 00:16:42,440
It doesn't really faze me.

385
00:16:42,440 --> 00:16:43,440
I don't dislike it.

386
00:16:43,440 --> 00:16:44,440
It's like, thank you.

387
00:16:44,440 --> 00:16:45,440
And I keep it moving.

388
00:16:45,440 --> 00:16:46,440
Okay.

389
00:16:46,440 --> 00:16:53,440
Now, speaking about the comments, when it comes to you, Naya, when it comes to men, how

390
00:16:53,440 --> 00:16:54,440
do you feel about it?

391
00:16:54,440 --> 00:16:59,440
And then for you, Deon, when it comes from women, like, how does the compliments rub off?

392
00:16:59,440 --> 00:17:01,440
Like it's like, okay, thank you.

393
00:17:01,440 --> 00:17:04,440
I was like, what the hell?

394
00:17:04,440 --> 00:17:08,440
It depends on who, like, what genre of men we talking about.

395
00:17:08,440 --> 00:17:13,440
This from my age, like early on, I was walking to the library and like the boy was like,

396
00:17:13,440 --> 00:17:15,440
they're pretty, like, do I appreciate them?

397
00:17:15,440 --> 00:17:19,440
But like, if it's an old man looking like he owns a new library, people look good today.

398
00:17:19,440 --> 00:17:20,440
You started, right?

399
00:17:20,440 --> 00:17:21,440
Get away.

400
00:17:21,440 --> 00:17:26,440
But I also know that I appreciate it when it comes from women, if anything.

401
00:17:26,440 --> 00:17:29,440
I don't know, like, I feel like boys, they boys are the invidious.

402
00:17:29,440 --> 00:17:31,440
I don't want to say good-up, they want to say to get your attention.

403
00:17:31,440 --> 00:17:34,440
I feel like after a girl that, you know, they just generally want to compliment you.

404
00:17:34,440 --> 00:17:36,440
I always loved it.

405
00:17:36,440 --> 00:17:37,440
I support it.

406
00:17:37,440 --> 00:17:38,440
Same.

407
00:17:38,440 --> 00:17:40,440
How about you, Deon?

408
00:17:40,440 --> 00:17:47,440
Oh, females, man, long as she don't, long as she don't, like, she don't want to be my sister,

409
00:17:47,440 --> 00:17:48,440
it doesn't matter, man.

410
00:17:48,440 --> 00:17:50,440
And not open up to my grandmother, yeah.

411
00:17:50,440 --> 00:17:57,440
It's always like, between like 20 and like 45.

412
00:17:57,440 --> 00:17:58,440
Okay.

413
00:17:58,440 --> 00:18:00,440
What's the craziest compliment?

414
00:18:00,440 --> 00:18:02,440
What's the craziest compliment you ever got?

415
00:18:02,440 --> 00:18:03,440
I don't have one.

416
00:18:03,440 --> 00:18:04,440
I don't have one.

417
00:18:04,440 --> 00:18:05,440
I don't have one.

418
00:18:05,440 --> 00:18:06,440
I'm not gonna say I'm crazy, man.

419
00:18:06,440 --> 00:18:07,440
No.

420
00:18:07,440 --> 00:18:11,440
I wouldn't say it was crazy, but it just rubbed me the wrong way.

421
00:18:11,440 --> 00:18:16,440
So my stepdad, he's like the, I don't even know what his title is, but basically he make airplane parts.

422
00:18:16,440 --> 00:18:18,440
That's what he went to school for.

423
00:18:18,440 --> 00:18:22,440
And they had this little thing where you invite your family and it's like a cookout type thing.

424
00:18:22,440 --> 00:18:24,440
It was like a crepe, that's whatever.

425
00:18:24,440 --> 00:18:27,440
So I walked over to the directs for getting me in my little cousin, like a priest friend.

426
00:18:27,440 --> 00:18:32,440
This white lady came up to me, felt my braids and said, I love the way you look, bitch.

427
00:18:32,440 --> 00:18:35,440
What you mean you love the way I look?

428
00:18:35,440 --> 00:18:36,440
Me too.

429
00:18:36,440 --> 00:18:37,440
Don't be touching me.

430
00:18:37,440 --> 00:18:39,440
And I just looked at her because I was younger.

431
00:18:39,440 --> 00:18:43,440
So I wasn't as, I was outspoken, but not as outspoken as I am now because I wasn't an adult.

432
00:18:43,440 --> 00:18:45,440
I didn't want to be this just about that.

433
00:18:45,440 --> 00:18:48,440
And I am like, I'm not as white lady, they just touched my brain.

434
00:18:48,440 --> 00:18:50,440
Like don't touch my hair.

435
00:18:50,440 --> 00:18:53,440
Please don't touch my hair.

436
00:18:53,440 --> 00:18:58,440
And like you didn't give me a compliment. Like if she would have been like, I like to have your braids look the same.

437
00:18:58,440 --> 00:19:00,440
Like I would have been like, okay, thank you.

438
00:19:00,440 --> 00:19:02,440
And got my free slender walk away.

439
00:19:02,440 --> 00:19:04,440
She touched my hair, polished my second.

440
00:19:04,440 --> 00:19:07,440
And she walked away like she didn't just touch me and evade my personal space lady.

441
00:19:07,440 --> 00:19:08,440
I can't know you.

442
00:19:08,440 --> 00:19:09,440
Yeah.

443
00:19:09,440 --> 00:19:22,440
I feel like the craziest compliment I ever got by being older is a grown man telling me I look, a grown man told me I look healthy.

444
00:19:22,440 --> 00:19:23,440
What?

445
00:19:23,440 --> 00:19:24,440
What is this?

446
00:19:24,440 --> 00:19:25,440
You look fertile.

447
00:19:25,440 --> 00:19:26,440
That's weird.

448
00:19:26,440 --> 00:19:27,440
What?

449
00:19:27,440 --> 00:19:29,440
I mean, you actually look healthy.

450
00:19:29,440 --> 00:19:33,440
I mean, I don't, and I was, and y'all know I work at Finish Line.

451
00:19:33,440 --> 00:19:35,440
So it was like, oh, so this was recently?

452
00:19:35,440 --> 00:19:36,440
Yeah. Like what do you mean?

453
00:19:36,440 --> 00:19:38,440
I look healthy.

454
00:19:38,440 --> 00:19:40,440
I'm not saying I'm fat.

455
00:19:40,440 --> 00:19:43,440
Like I be saying that like, I know I look fat, but healthy.

456
00:19:43,440 --> 00:19:46,440
I don't know the terminology and it didn't like affect me.

457
00:19:46,440 --> 00:19:47,440
Whatever you like.

458
00:19:47,440 --> 00:19:48,440
I like to look that up.

459
00:19:48,440 --> 00:19:58,440
I like that. I mean, he was like healthy, but I say like the compliments I had that versus a kid versus now is just like, it's crazy.

460
00:19:58,440 --> 00:20:00,440
It is not like not crazy, crazy.

461
00:20:00,440 --> 00:20:08,440
It's like people's thoughts are really like, whoa, you know, especially for females, you would be like, whoa, wait a minute.

462
00:20:08,440 --> 00:20:16,440
I like you said, I prefer for another female to give me a compliment because I feel better, you know, is empowerment versus sometimes a man give me a compliment.

463
00:20:16,440 --> 00:20:18,440
And you know, you don't want it.

464
00:20:18,440 --> 00:20:20,440
Oh, give me your parents.

465
00:20:20,440 --> 00:20:22,440
You want it.

466
00:20:22,440 --> 00:20:26,440
Hey, you know, I see you on the corner of my eyes.

467
00:20:26,440 --> 00:20:31,440
Like, I tried to school like, try to play it off, but I couldn't.

468
00:20:31,440 --> 00:20:41,440
But like getting compliments versus, I feel like this, if we're not cool, if you're not like my homeboy, something, they wouldn't like really like, but you're a stranger.

469
00:20:41,440 --> 00:20:50,440
Like the way you saying it, it give off like, wait a minute, what you trying to think what you getting at that makes sense.

470
00:20:50,440 --> 00:21:01,440
So that's going into childhood when it comes to academics. How do y'all feel from we all a little when it came to academic versus from now by us being in college.

471
00:21:01,440 --> 00:21:09,440
Like, how did that make you feel we use a child and can academic versus now grown like how do y'all operate with the academics.

472
00:21:09,440 --> 00:21:14,440
So when I was younger, my mom is really, really, really came to like my education.

473
00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:20,440
If I had sight words, whatever, I had a spelling quiz coming up, like she would make songs out of my words and stuff like that.

474
00:21:20,440 --> 00:21:25,440
Or like, to this day, I will not ask my mother to help in man.

475
00:21:25,440 --> 00:21:30,440
I love my mother, but the way she made me cry when I need to help with long division.

476
00:21:30,440 --> 00:21:31,440
That's another story though.

477
00:21:31,440 --> 00:21:40,440
But yeah, she was real hands on, but as I got older, she wasn't as hands on because she was raising me. She already instilled in me like what you supposed to do when they came to school.

478
00:21:40,440 --> 00:21:42,440
And like, I always got good grades.

479
00:21:42,440 --> 00:21:45,440
My old life, like I used to cry when I got to see, but that's how I was.

480
00:21:45,440 --> 00:21:52,440
So like now that I'm in college is like, I know C still get degrees, however, I want to do that.

481
00:21:52,440 --> 00:22:01,440
But like, if I don't and I just get to see, I'm not as hard on myself because college be hard and I got to go to work and do other things and other things.

482
00:22:01,440 --> 00:22:03,440
But like, I don't know.

483
00:22:03,440 --> 00:22:07,440
She raised me to always put school first and make sure I make decent grades.

484
00:22:07,440 --> 00:22:08,440
So like that's just how I am.

485
00:22:08,440 --> 00:22:10,440
Like I'll make sure I get that essay in.

486
00:22:10,440 --> 00:22:12,440
I'll make sure all of my stuff is in all the time.

487
00:22:12,440 --> 00:22:17,440
And if not, I'm gonna make sure I do it the next day just to make sure everything is good and that I'm not failing in places.

488
00:22:17,440 --> 00:22:19,440
That's not my biggest fear is to fail.

489
00:22:19,440 --> 00:22:22,440
How about you, Deon?

490
00:22:22,440 --> 00:22:26,440
I learned how to do just the right amount of work in high school just to not fail.

491
00:22:26,440 --> 00:22:34,440
So if it was only a class I like, like English or law, have an A or B, if it was math, I'll have a D or a C and be happy with it.

492
00:22:34,440 --> 00:22:35,440
So.

493
00:22:35,440 --> 00:22:36,440
So you can be like that.

494
00:22:36,440 --> 00:22:38,440
I mean, as long as you're passing.

495
00:22:38,440 --> 00:22:39,440
Mm-hmm.

496
00:22:39,440 --> 00:22:45,440
So how about now, about we being in our 20s and stuff and we on our own.

497
00:22:45,440 --> 00:22:50,440
How has keeping up with academics and living your life affect you as well?

498
00:22:50,440 --> 00:22:51,440
It's easy.

499
00:22:51,440 --> 00:22:56,440
Except for nights when I be letting my hormones stay up and I go to the gym.

500
00:22:56,440 --> 00:22:59,440
Maybe it's just show like that.

501
00:22:59,440 --> 00:23:03,440
So you be like procrastinating.

502
00:23:03,440 --> 00:23:04,440
Yes.

503
00:23:04,440 --> 00:23:06,440
And it's pretty much.

504
00:23:06,440 --> 00:23:15,440
I do want to balance my life with my school life because in town I care about lifting more, I care about school, in town I care about school and I care about lifting.

505
00:23:15,440 --> 00:23:17,440
So it's been back and forth.

506
00:23:17,440 --> 00:23:19,440
It be like that.

507
00:23:19,440 --> 00:23:20,440
It be like that.

508
00:23:20,440 --> 00:23:24,440
Speaking about that, how do y'all feel about this semester?

509
00:23:24,440 --> 00:23:27,440
I'm ready to be over.

510
00:23:27,440 --> 00:23:28,440
Yeah, I'm ready for it to be over.

511
00:23:28,440 --> 00:23:30,440
This semester was a new challenge and for me.

512
00:23:30,440 --> 00:23:38,440
I'm a procrastinator and you had those professors that don't care when you're training, working long, and I was like the manager then.

513
00:23:38,440 --> 00:23:43,440
But at the same time, I'm in the back of my head like oh my God, I got all that work to do.

514
00:23:43,440 --> 00:23:46,440
I'm still not going to do it because my professor ain't staying there.

515
00:23:46,440 --> 00:23:47,440
That was me last week.

516
00:23:47,440 --> 00:23:49,440
I was like I'm getting sick of worrying about this work I do.

517
00:23:49,440 --> 00:23:50,440
I just heard that man did it all.

518
00:23:50,440 --> 00:23:51,440
And it don't be hard work.

519
00:23:51,440 --> 00:23:53,440
It's just like I don't have to do it right now so I do it.

520
00:23:53,440 --> 00:23:55,440
I'm a real bad procrastinator.

521
00:23:55,440 --> 00:24:00,440
But when somebody says you have to do this by this power, I make sure I do it.

522
00:24:00,440 --> 00:24:05,440
But if there's some space for me not to do it when I'm supposed to do it, I'm taking it.

523
00:24:05,440 --> 00:24:08,440
What was the question?

524
00:24:08,440 --> 00:24:11,440
What was the question?

525
00:24:11,440 --> 00:24:14,440
How's the semester treating you?

526
00:24:14,440 --> 00:24:15,440
How do you feel about it?

527
00:24:15,440 --> 00:24:17,440
You said you wanted to be over, but how's it treating you?

528
00:24:17,440 --> 00:24:19,440
That's not even going to be.

529
00:24:19,440 --> 00:24:28,440
I'm not going to be in the next semester.

530
00:24:28,440 --> 00:24:35,440
So how do y'all feel by, how do y'all feel as being a student at Morgan?

531
00:24:35,440 --> 00:24:38,440
Because like Deon is your first year in Ohio.

532
00:24:38,440 --> 00:24:39,440
This is your last year.

533
00:24:39,440 --> 00:24:41,440
So how do y'all feel about it?

534
00:24:41,440 --> 00:24:44,440
So to be honest, like I like Morgan.

535
00:24:44,440 --> 00:24:45,440
It's a cool place to be.

536
00:24:45,440 --> 00:24:51,440
But like getting into Morgan and like trying to find the right people to tell you what to do is it can get real frustrated.

537
00:24:51,440 --> 00:24:53,440
I probably would have graduated by new head.

538
00:24:53,440 --> 00:24:56,440
I talked to the right people like when I first came, I wasn't supposed to come here.

539
00:24:56,440 --> 00:24:58,440
I was supposed to go to God.

540
00:24:58,440 --> 00:25:02,440
So and then once I changed my mind, I was like, okay, you got to do all this stuff.

541
00:25:02,440 --> 00:25:04,440
I'm like, all right, so I get to a advisor.

542
00:25:04,440 --> 00:25:06,440
The advisor basically told me, it's no classes for you.

543
00:25:06,440 --> 00:25:08,440
You might as well wait until the spring semester.

544
00:25:08,440 --> 00:25:09,440
I was like, dang.

545
00:25:09,440 --> 00:25:13,440
So what they told me I was good to start for as I can't start until the spring semester.

546
00:25:13,440 --> 00:25:18,440
And then when the spring semester came in, I had to reenroll, get re-accepted into Morgan.

547
00:25:18,440 --> 00:25:21,440
Yeah, it was like a bunch of stuff because I wasn't talking to the right people.

548
00:25:21,440 --> 00:25:23,440
And I'm like, cool, I want to be a social worker.

549
00:25:23,440 --> 00:25:24,440
I should have did.

550
00:25:24,440 --> 00:25:32,440
But I didn't now change my major to apply for liberal studies and I would have been out of here like clockwork because I came in with my social studies degree from high school.

551
00:25:32,440 --> 00:25:39,440
So I but like overall, like my experiences like with the professors and stuff like that has been good, especially what was her name?

552
00:25:39,440 --> 00:25:40,440
Dr. Thurman.

553
00:25:40,440 --> 00:25:41,440
Dr. Thurman.

554
00:25:41,440 --> 00:25:48,440
She, I think was about an hour, five, at least, to be a social worker page and not graduate until like a whole year or something.

555
00:25:48,440 --> 00:25:49,440
She had out the doctor's early.

556
00:25:49,440 --> 00:25:50,440
She was good, Dr. Green.

557
00:25:50,440 --> 00:25:52,440
She was another good professor.

558
00:25:52,440 --> 00:25:59,440
And like the professors that I had so far, at least they had empathy for their students.

559
00:25:59,440 --> 00:26:08,440
I know some like don't, but like most of them that I have like they care and they want to make sure you're good outside of like the academic, but you're mostly there and able to do your work.

560
00:26:08,440 --> 00:26:10,440
So yeah.

561
00:26:10,440 --> 00:26:16,440
This has been cool because for somebody that put me in class so I cheated on my math final.

562
00:26:16,440 --> 00:26:17,440
I'm not playing.

563
00:26:17,440 --> 00:26:18,440
I'm not playing.

564
00:26:18,440 --> 00:26:19,440
I cheated on my math final.

565
00:26:19,440 --> 00:26:22,440
I passed my other ones because it was easy.

566
00:26:22,440 --> 00:26:24,440
So I basically got in with no hard work to do.

567
00:26:24,440 --> 00:26:28,440
I'll head past town now basically I got in the Morgan.

568
00:26:28,440 --> 00:26:32,440
And passing, I'm getting my major next semester.

569
00:26:32,440 --> 00:26:33,440
Period.

570
00:26:33,440 --> 00:26:34,440
Everything went well.

571
00:26:34,440 --> 00:26:35,440
Which major?

572
00:26:35,440 --> 00:26:38,440
It's going to be cybersecurity.

573
00:26:38,440 --> 00:26:41,440
Oh yeah, because you did change it.

574
00:26:41,440 --> 00:26:48,440
I do hate this fucking campus because it's like, hey, this girl is in a water park.

575
00:26:48,440 --> 00:26:51,440
She closed her bag there a while ago for no reason.

576
00:26:51,440 --> 00:26:53,440
I almost hit the security guard to the other day in my car.

577
00:26:53,440 --> 00:26:55,440
She jumped in front of my car.

578
00:26:55,440 --> 00:26:59,440
Then why is it always water on the floor and the fucking down the hall?

579
00:26:59,440 --> 00:27:02,440
I almost fell like fucking like ten times a semester.

580
00:27:02,440 --> 00:27:08,440
You don't be no stress.

581
00:27:08,440 --> 00:27:10,440
That shit is alarming.

582
00:27:10,440 --> 00:27:11,440
What else?

583
00:27:11,440 --> 00:27:12,440
I don't know.

584
00:27:12,440 --> 00:27:13,440
Not all right.

585
00:27:13,440 --> 00:27:14,440
Just like ghetto shit on this campus.

586
00:27:14,440 --> 00:27:15,440
That's the only one I know.

587
00:27:15,440 --> 00:27:16,440
Okay.

588
00:27:16,440 --> 00:27:23,440
Tell us a little bit more, Dionne, about how it is to be a student on campus and tell

589
00:27:23,440 --> 00:27:26,440
us now how it doesn't feel to be a student off campus.

590
00:27:26,440 --> 00:27:27,440
On campus?

591
00:27:27,440 --> 00:27:29,440
Yeah, because you live on campus.

592
00:27:29,440 --> 00:27:35,440
I felt like if I was more social, it'd be even more fun, but it's cool because I mean,

593
00:27:35,440 --> 00:27:40,440
it felt like you're not living at home, but I was ten minutes away from when I'm fucking

594
00:27:40,440 --> 00:27:43,440
tired of living on that hard ass medicine on the phone.

595
00:27:43,440 --> 00:27:44,440
I go home.

596
00:27:44,440 --> 00:27:46,440
I just sit and I just go home.

597
00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:47,440
But on campus, it's cool.

598
00:27:47,440 --> 00:27:51,440
I could definitely see how I feel like something's all you want in one type of shit.

599
00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:53,440
Like they want to invite.

600
00:27:53,440 --> 00:28:00,440
I just be going to class, getting new grades, hotbox my car, and I go home.

601
00:28:00,440 --> 00:28:01,440
Makes sense.

602
00:28:01,440 --> 00:28:03,440
For me, I feel like if I was to be here.

603
00:28:03,440 --> 00:28:05,440
He's been helping people come.

604
00:28:05,440 --> 00:28:06,440
I'm sorry.

605
00:28:06,440 --> 00:28:09,440
I was like, oh shit, what did I do?

606
00:28:09,440 --> 00:28:14,440
But for me, I feel like if I was to stay on campus, it would be like going one on one

607
00:28:14,440 --> 00:28:15,440
for me.

608
00:28:15,440 --> 00:28:19,440
I'm a social butterfly, so I feel like if I had more opportunities to be on campus and

609
00:28:19,440 --> 00:28:24,440
to be around other students, not in a classroom, but you can't do much when you're in a classroom.

610
00:28:24,440 --> 00:28:27,440
Luckily for us, we had to do a little group work thing.

611
00:28:27,440 --> 00:28:28,440
That's how I got to know you.

612
00:28:28,440 --> 00:28:32,440
But if it wasn't for that, I probably would have saw you in class and laughed at me.

613
00:28:32,440 --> 00:28:34,440
Probably would never speak, spoken again.

614
00:28:34,440 --> 00:28:37,440
And that's how it been for a lot of the friends that I made here on campus.

615
00:28:37,440 --> 00:28:39,440
It was the teachers that made group work.

616
00:28:39,440 --> 00:28:41,440
Okay, that's how I made my friends.

617
00:28:41,440 --> 00:28:43,440
But other than that, I don't really know anybody on campus.

618
00:28:43,440 --> 00:28:46,440
I feel like a lot of it has to do with me not living on campus.

619
00:28:46,440 --> 00:28:49,440
Because a lot of stuff happened at night, and I'm like, okay, I'm not going to travel

620
00:28:49,440 --> 00:28:52,440
at night, and I'm going to go home and come back and all that.

621
00:28:52,440 --> 00:28:55,440
And then like, as my classes is over, there's no reason for me to still be here.

622
00:28:55,440 --> 00:28:59,440
If I'm not with you with the friends that I had, I'm like, alright, I'm going to go home now.

623
00:28:59,440 --> 00:29:01,440
I'm going to work or something.

624
00:29:01,440 --> 00:29:02,440
So yeah.

625
00:29:02,440 --> 00:29:04,440
It's also a good place if you were studying.

626
00:29:04,440 --> 00:29:06,440
Anybody that's studying listening to...

627
00:29:06,440 --> 00:29:07,440
Hey!

628
00:29:07,440 --> 00:29:09,440
Oh, I'm not sure.

629
00:29:09,440 --> 00:29:10,440
Yo!

630
00:29:10,440 --> 00:29:14,440
If you be smoking with me, or if I was walking, sometimes I would smoke and I would lift the bridge.

631
00:29:14,440 --> 00:29:16,440
I would have to face this, and I would literally...

632
00:29:16,440 --> 00:29:17,440
But it's a cool place to be.

633
00:29:17,440 --> 00:29:19,440
I'm not playing.

634
00:29:22,440 --> 00:29:25,440
Yeah, I would say like, when I transferred here, y'all, I'm saying things like,

635
00:29:25,440 --> 00:29:28,440
now you said my first like...

636
00:29:28,440 --> 00:29:29,440
Who's in here?

637
00:29:29,440 --> 00:29:30,440
I called myself.

638
00:29:30,440 --> 00:29:32,440
See, I just said, I seen you, you know, I called myself.

639
00:29:32,440 --> 00:29:37,440
When I first came here, I went to CCBC, or S6.

640
00:29:37,440 --> 00:29:40,440
I got my degree from them and straight came here.

641
00:29:40,440 --> 00:29:44,440
When I was at S6, same thing, if I had go to school...

642
00:29:44,440 --> 00:29:46,440
Oh my God!

643
00:29:46,440 --> 00:29:48,440
You went there?

644
00:29:48,440 --> 00:29:50,440
I felt like I was in the music room.

645
00:29:50,440 --> 00:29:52,440
Oh my God!

646
00:29:52,440 --> 00:29:55,440
So, D-O, I'm not paying too.

647
00:29:55,440 --> 00:29:57,440
So I went there.

648
00:29:57,440 --> 00:29:58,440
Same thing.

649
00:29:58,440 --> 00:29:59,440
I barely didn't know nobody.

650
00:29:59,440 --> 00:30:00,440
Like, the only person I knew was D-On.

651
00:30:00,440 --> 00:30:02,440
And like, we went during the pandemic.

652
00:30:02,440 --> 00:30:04,440
So it was like, we didn't, you know...

653
00:30:04,440 --> 00:30:06,440
I was on Fortnite in my program every day.

654
00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:07,440
I did not go to class.

655
00:30:07,440 --> 00:30:09,440
She had mad W's.

656
00:30:09,440 --> 00:30:11,440
What is a W?

657
00:30:11,440 --> 00:30:12,440
Withdrawal.

658
00:30:12,440 --> 00:30:13,440
Oh, what?

659
00:30:13,440 --> 00:30:15,440
Oh, double...

660
00:30:15,440 --> 00:30:17,440
Oh, I'm being taken into academic...

661
00:30:17,440 --> 00:30:21,440
Withdrawal, but I ain't going to lie though.

662
00:30:21,440 --> 00:30:23,440
Big shout out to D-On, because he tried again.

663
00:30:23,440 --> 00:30:25,440
I know that's right.

664
00:30:25,440 --> 00:30:27,440
But you hear that?

665
00:30:27,440 --> 00:30:29,440
You're here at university though.

666
00:30:29,440 --> 00:30:31,440
So like, you did your thing.

667
00:30:31,440 --> 00:30:33,440
Right, big shout out to you.

668
00:30:33,440 --> 00:30:34,440
There you go.

669
00:30:34,440 --> 00:30:35,440
We supported you.

670
00:30:35,440 --> 00:30:38,440
Y'all know I'm real big on support when it comes to my friends.

671
00:30:38,440 --> 00:30:40,440
I'm a big fan of your university, academics.

672
00:30:40,440 --> 00:30:42,440
Because this shit is not easy.

673
00:30:42,440 --> 00:30:44,440
I'm telling y'all, it's not easy.

674
00:30:44,440 --> 00:30:46,440
And that's why I say like, when it comes to our childhood,

675
00:30:46,440 --> 00:30:48,440
you know, back then you had your mother, your father,

676
00:30:48,440 --> 00:30:50,440
whoever, your guardian, whoever right there,

677
00:30:50,440 --> 00:30:52,440
helping you lead in your hand.

678
00:30:52,440 --> 00:30:55,440
But when you get older, it's like, shit, it's on you.

679
00:30:55,440 --> 00:30:57,440
The choices you made is on you, baby.

680
00:30:57,440 --> 00:30:59,440
Because it's like, this is your future now.

681
00:30:59,440 --> 00:31:02,440
It's not your mother, your father, your guardian's future.

682
00:31:02,440 --> 00:31:05,440
They did what they can to prepare you for your future.

683
00:31:05,440 --> 00:31:07,440
But then it's like, what do you want to do?

684
00:31:07,440 --> 00:31:09,440
And like, when we were growing up,

685
00:31:09,440 --> 00:31:11,440
I know that question, like, which one be when you grow up?

686
00:31:11,440 --> 00:31:13,440
That shit used to get on my nerves sometimes.

687
00:31:13,440 --> 00:31:15,440
Like, when I was like, I'm gonna say,

688
00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:17,440
when I graduated out of middle school,

689
00:31:17,440 --> 00:31:20,440
or out of high school, it was like, what the fuck?

690
00:31:20,440 --> 00:31:23,440
Like, so tell me the questions that you used to like.

691
00:31:23,440 --> 00:31:24,440
Yeah, question.

692
00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:25,440
Trit, what's up?

693
00:31:25,440 --> 00:31:28,440
Do you still be thinking what you want to be when you grow up?

694
00:31:28,440 --> 00:31:31,440
I felt like I finally know what I want to be

695
00:31:31,440 --> 00:31:34,440
right after I had graduated from CCPC,

696
00:31:34,440 --> 00:31:35,440
which is kind of crazy.

697
00:31:35,440 --> 00:31:37,440
Because like, y'all know, at times,

698
00:31:37,440 --> 00:31:40,440
it's like, y'all want to step in so many journeys.

699
00:31:40,440 --> 00:31:42,440
Like, you know, you want to do this, you want to do that,

700
00:31:42,440 --> 00:31:43,440
you want to do this.

701
00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:45,440
I remember like, when I was little, I said,

702
00:31:45,440 --> 00:31:46,440
I want to be a teacher.

703
00:31:46,440 --> 00:31:47,440
I said, oh, I want to be a fashion designer,

704
00:31:47,440 --> 00:31:48,440
because I used to dress up.

705
00:31:48,440 --> 00:31:50,440
Then I'm like, I can't draw for shit.

706
00:31:50,440 --> 00:31:53,440
So then I was like, I was still on the term,

707
00:31:53,440 --> 00:31:54,440
I want to be a teacher.

708
00:31:54,440 --> 00:31:55,440
Then I remember I was in the middle school,

709
00:31:55,440 --> 00:31:56,440
I said, I want to be a fighter.

710
00:31:56,440 --> 00:31:58,440
I want to be like, Ron DeRiong-y type.

711
00:31:58,440 --> 00:31:59,440
And I was like, nah.

712
00:31:59,440 --> 00:32:01,440
And then I want to be a lawyer.

713
00:32:01,440 --> 00:32:03,440
But then, you know, during the pandemic,

714
00:32:03,440 --> 00:32:06,440
like, a lot of things had crumbled down.

715
00:32:06,440 --> 00:32:08,440
But I always told myself, I wanted to help children

716
00:32:08,440 --> 00:32:11,440
in social work when I got to learn about that stuff.

717
00:32:11,440 --> 00:32:12,440
I was like, whoa.

718
00:32:12,440 --> 00:32:16,440
And then it was even, it was even counseling or social work.

719
00:32:16,440 --> 00:32:20,440
CCBC helped me get a certification within human behaviors.

720
00:32:20,440 --> 00:32:22,440
So that was one thing I say to help.

721
00:32:22,440 --> 00:32:24,440
Then when I came here,

722
00:32:24,440 --> 00:32:26,440
then my research was I was like, do I want to go to UB?

723
00:32:26,440 --> 00:32:28,440
Or do I want to go to Oregon?

724
00:32:28,440 --> 00:32:29,440
You know what I mean?

725
00:32:29,440 --> 00:32:30,440
You must be like saying, like,

726
00:32:30,440 --> 00:32:33,440
you should have me a fucking career and education.

727
00:32:33,440 --> 00:32:35,440
Like, God damn, you talking about men.

728
00:32:35,440 --> 00:32:36,440
Like, you know what I mean?

729
00:32:36,440 --> 00:32:37,440
That's a good thing.

730
00:32:37,440 --> 00:32:38,440
That's a good thing.

731
00:32:38,440 --> 00:32:40,440
I appreciate it.

732
00:32:40,440 --> 00:32:42,440
Because I mean, when we say earlier, we just, yeah.

733
00:32:42,440 --> 00:32:43,440
I felt the question changed me.

734
00:32:43,440 --> 00:32:45,440
It's not what I want to be when I grow up.

735
00:32:45,440 --> 00:32:47,440
It's what I want to do with my life.

736
00:32:47,440 --> 00:32:48,440
Get into that.

737
00:32:48,440 --> 00:32:49,440
Get diving in that.

738
00:32:49,440 --> 00:32:50,440
I want to hear it.

739
00:32:50,440 --> 00:32:52,440
I don't want to look forward to a job.

740
00:32:52,440 --> 00:32:53,440
And I just die.

741
00:32:53,440 --> 00:32:55,440
For me to change what I want to do with my life

742
00:32:55,440 --> 00:32:56,440
is now a big excuse me.

743
00:32:56,440 --> 00:32:59,440
I'm in college because I'm going to be able to be financially free.

744
00:32:59,440 --> 00:33:03,440
So I can do my passion, like bodybuilding and powerlifting.

745
00:33:03,440 --> 00:33:05,440
That's what I want to do with my life.

746
00:33:05,440 --> 00:33:09,440
Not before to a degree, a job, and then I die.

747
00:33:09,440 --> 00:33:10,440
No.

748
00:33:10,440 --> 00:33:12,440
I want to be a number one powerlifting and number one bodybuilder.

749
00:33:12,440 --> 00:33:14,440
And then I'm going to be with Dianne.

750
00:33:14,440 --> 00:33:15,440
I try this for me.

751
00:33:15,440 --> 00:33:16,440
So why is that?

752
00:33:16,440 --> 00:33:18,440
Like, what made you...

753
00:33:18,440 --> 00:33:19,440
Are you strong?

754
00:33:19,440 --> 00:33:20,440
Yeah.

755
00:33:20,440 --> 00:33:23,440
I'm trying to get that lift fee of 415 pounds.

756
00:33:23,440 --> 00:33:26,440
I might go for 435 tonight depending on my back.

757
00:33:26,440 --> 00:33:28,440
I'm going to get up on that.

758
00:33:28,440 --> 00:33:29,440
Talk that?

759
00:33:29,440 --> 00:33:30,440
Yeah.

760
00:33:30,440 --> 00:33:31,440
So why?

761
00:33:31,440 --> 00:33:32,440
Okay.

762
00:33:32,440 --> 00:33:33,440
Okay.

763
00:33:33,440 --> 00:33:35,440
So Naya, how do you feel?

764
00:33:35,440 --> 00:33:37,440
Like, what was the...

765
00:33:37,440 --> 00:33:40,440
So did your mind change when you got older?

766
00:33:40,440 --> 00:33:41,440
You know, when you...

767
00:33:41,440 --> 00:33:43,440
Versus when you were little, like, did the career change?

768
00:33:43,440 --> 00:33:45,440
I'm going to tell them I don't want to stay the same.

769
00:33:45,440 --> 00:33:47,440
I went from wanting to be the president.

770
00:33:47,440 --> 00:33:50,440
Oh, did I want to be a lawyer?

771
00:33:50,440 --> 00:33:52,440
I feel like it.

772
00:33:52,440 --> 00:33:54,440
But so the president of course...

773
00:33:54,440 --> 00:33:56,440
I mean, I thought I could still be the president,

774
00:33:56,440 --> 00:33:58,440
but that's not really my interest.

775
00:33:58,440 --> 00:34:00,440
I was just going to say that they don't want to be a lawyer.

776
00:34:00,440 --> 00:34:02,440
I could argue somebody there.

777
00:34:02,440 --> 00:34:05,440
However, I felt like the way I am, I'm a very emotional person.

778
00:34:05,440 --> 00:34:07,440
That's what made me feel so hard.

779
00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:08,440
So like, are you in...

780
00:34:08,440 --> 00:34:10,440
In trying to prove a point all the time?

781
00:34:10,440 --> 00:34:13,440
I feel like it would have, you know, taken a toll on me.

782
00:34:13,440 --> 00:34:15,440
But like, I can argue somebody there with any topic.

783
00:34:15,440 --> 00:34:17,440
I'm real talented when it comes to that.

784
00:34:17,440 --> 00:34:18,440
You can't tell me nothing.

785
00:34:18,440 --> 00:34:20,440
But like, I feel like it would have had a toll on me eventually.

786
00:34:20,440 --> 00:34:22,440
Then from Naya, I went to nursing because like I said,

787
00:34:22,440 --> 00:34:24,440
my mom wanted me to be a nurse.

788
00:34:24,440 --> 00:34:27,440
I'm like, he's touching people body fluids.

789
00:34:27,440 --> 00:34:28,440
Yeah.

790
00:34:28,440 --> 00:34:30,440
And also the school is hard.

791
00:34:30,440 --> 00:34:32,440
I'm not as fine as girl at the earth sign.

792
00:34:32,440 --> 00:34:33,440
It's not anything about nothing.

793
00:34:33,440 --> 00:34:35,440
Because I don't know.

794
00:34:35,440 --> 00:34:37,440
So I'm like, I want to help people.

795
00:34:37,440 --> 00:34:38,440
I want to help people.

796
00:34:38,440 --> 00:34:39,440
I'm thinking therapists.

797
00:34:39,440 --> 00:34:40,440
Therapists just talk to people.

798
00:34:40,440 --> 00:34:41,440
So she work.

799
00:34:41,440 --> 00:34:43,440
They talk to people, but they give them the resources too.

800
00:34:43,440 --> 00:34:45,440
So I'm like, alright, so she work.

801
00:34:45,440 --> 00:34:47,440
And that is the sense, I've been wanting to be a social worker.

802
00:34:47,440 --> 00:34:50,440
A social worker saying, I don't even know.

803
00:34:50,440 --> 00:34:53,440
I think since I love my spray and I just stop with it.

804
00:34:53,440 --> 00:34:54,440
Yeah.

805
00:34:54,440 --> 00:34:55,440
That's big.

806
00:34:55,440 --> 00:34:56,440
Yeah.

807
00:34:56,440 --> 00:34:58,440
That's real big.

808
00:34:58,440 --> 00:35:00,440
So Dior, it didn't affect you as a child.

809
00:35:00,440 --> 00:35:04,440
Like you never want to be something that it turned differently when you got older.

810
00:35:04,440 --> 00:35:07,440
I wanted to be a lawyer, but I should have acted too much.

811
00:35:07,440 --> 00:35:08,440
I had to pant down.

812
00:35:08,440 --> 00:35:09,440
I feel like, yeah.

813
00:35:09,440 --> 00:35:10,440
I took a law class.

814
00:35:10,440 --> 00:35:11,440
It was very interesting.

815
00:35:11,440 --> 00:35:15,440
We had to look at different cases and then, you know what a case brief is?

816
00:35:15,440 --> 00:35:16,440
Yeah.

817
00:35:16,440 --> 00:35:17,440
We had to write those.

818
00:35:17,440 --> 00:35:19,440
That's literally what the class consists of.

819
00:35:19,440 --> 00:35:20,440
And it was really interesting.

820
00:35:20,440 --> 00:35:21,440
It was in some grades.

821
00:35:21,440 --> 00:35:24,440
Big shout out to Mick D's.

822
00:35:24,440 --> 00:35:30,440
Because I feel like when I went to Murpho, he was the only reason why I wanted to be a lawyer

823
00:35:30,440 --> 00:35:32,440
and the way he did it.

824
00:35:32,440 --> 00:35:34,440
But then like the pandemic, like Dior said.

825
00:35:34,440 --> 00:35:35,440
You love to be a lawyer?

826
00:35:35,440 --> 00:35:36,440
Yeah.

827
00:35:36,440 --> 00:35:37,440
What?

828
00:35:37,440 --> 00:35:38,440
Tell him.

829
00:35:38,440 --> 00:35:39,440
I know you remember.

830
00:35:39,440 --> 00:35:41,440
Man, we want to wait for that shoot.

831
00:35:41,440 --> 00:35:42,440
I know.

832
00:35:42,440 --> 00:35:47,440
He's a movie called Lincoln Lawyer about a lawyer that drove a Lincoln.

833
00:35:47,440 --> 00:35:49,440
And he was just that nigga in that movie.

834
00:35:49,440 --> 00:35:51,440
And I was like, I don't try to be like that.

835
00:35:51,440 --> 00:35:52,440
He was.

836
00:35:52,440 --> 00:35:55,440
That was the biggest lawyer reason why I wanted to be a lawyer.

837
00:35:55,440 --> 00:35:56,440
You like that.

838
00:35:56,440 --> 00:35:57,440
Why do you want to be a lawyer, Mariah?

839
00:35:57,440 --> 00:36:00,440
I like to argue with people and I felt like I was good at it.

840
00:36:00,440 --> 00:36:02,440
What type of lawyer would you be though?

841
00:36:02,440 --> 00:36:04,440
I never got so far into that.

842
00:36:04,440 --> 00:36:07,440
But now that I'm thinking about it, because when I was saying this, I was probably just

843
00:36:07,440 --> 00:36:08,440
entering high school.

844
00:36:08,440 --> 00:36:12,440
But now that I'm thinking about it, I feel like I would, I don't know.

845
00:36:12,440 --> 00:36:14,440
I will always want to be in the right spot.

846
00:36:14,440 --> 00:36:16,440
So I feel like, I don't know how that would go.

847
00:36:16,440 --> 00:36:19,440
Like they got a lawyer for children and something.

848
00:36:19,440 --> 00:36:20,440
Family.

849
00:36:20,440 --> 00:36:21,440
Yeah, something like that.

850
00:36:21,440 --> 00:36:22,440
Something like that.

851
00:36:22,440 --> 00:36:23,440
Because I will always want to be in the right spot.

852
00:36:23,440 --> 00:36:25,440
I would never want to have to be a lawyer.

853
00:36:25,440 --> 00:36:27,440
I feel like that's something that doesn't come with that.

854
00:36:27,440 --> 00:36:32,440
And then I'm saying, so I feel like if I'm defending the right group of people, I feel like it's

855
00:36:32,440 --> 00:36:33,440
no wrong.

856
00:36:33,440 --> 00:36:38,440
He wanted to be the deep, the, uh, yeah.

857
00:36:38,440 --> 00:36:39,440
That's fair.

858
00:36:39,440 --> 00:36:40,440
That's fair.

859
00:36:40,440 --> 00:36:42,440
I'm real based on morals.

860
00:36:42,440 --> 00:36:47,440
So like if I feel like you're wrong and you deserve to go to jail, I couldn't trust myself

861
00:36:47,440 --> 00:36:48,440
to be a lawyer.

862
00:36:48,440 --> 00:36:49,440
You better go find somebody else.

863
00:36:49,440 --> 00:36:52,440
You got your like your plaintiff and then the deep.

864
00:36:52,440 --> 00:36:53,440
Yeah.

865
00:36:53,440 --> 00:36:54,440
So you'd be like plaintiff side.

866
00:36:54,440 --> 00:36:55,440
Yeah.

867
00:36:55,440 --> 00:36:56,440
You gotta go find somebody else.

868
00:36:56,440 --> 00:36:58,440
You said that you want me to defend you.

869
00:36:58,440 --> 00:36:59,440
Right.

870
00:36:59,440 --> 00:37:00,440
You said that and killed that lady.

871
00:37:00,440 --> 00:37:01,440
Mom, you want me to defend you.

872
00:37:01,440 --> 00:37:06,440
And it's crazy because like it's people out here that sacrificed their life to do these

873
00:37:06,440 --> 00:37:07,440
things.

874
00:37:07,440 --> 00:37:08,440
Even with social work.

875
00:37:08,440 --> 00:37:11,440
And it's crazy because it's like, wow, but somebody has to be there.

876
00:37:11,440 --> 00:37:12,440
Somebody got to be there.

877
00:37:12,440 --> 00:37:13,440
Somebody got to be there.

878
00:37:13,440 --> 00:37:14,440
Somebody got to be there.

879
00:37:14,440 --> 00:37:15,440
It just won't be me.

880
00:37:15,440 --> 00:37:16,440
No.

881
00:37:16,440 --> 00:37:20,440
For a lawyer, I had a whole bunch of like ideas.

882
00:37:20,440 --> 00:37:24,440
I wanted to be an entertainment lawyer, work for the NBA.

883
00:37:24,440 --> 00:37:28,440
Then I was like, okay, I want to be a family lawyer.

884
00:37:28,440 --> 00:37:30,440
Then what was the other one?

885
00:37:30,440 --> 00:37:32,440
It was another one.

886
00:37:32,440 --> 00:37:33,440
Oh, a criminal lawyer.

887
00:37:33,440 --> 00:37:35,440
But I was like, no, I'm from Baltimore.

888
00:37:35,440 --> 00:37:36,440
I ain't.

889
00:37:36,440 --> 00:37:37,440
No.

890
00:37:37,440 --> 00:37:43,440
I wanted to be like, what's her name, the one that they got her up there now on the news.

891
00:37:43,440 --> 00:37:44,440
Poor thing.

892
00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:46,440
I forgot her name.

893
00:37:46,440 --> 00:37:48,440
She helped with the Freddie Gray case.

894
00:37:48,440 --> 00:37:49,440
No.

895
00:37:49,440 --> 00:37:50,440
No.

896
00:37:50,440 --> 00:37:59,440
I forgot her name that fast, y'all.

897
00:37:59,440 --> 00:38:05,440
She helped Freddie Gray and now they on the news saying that she, she went to jail for

898
00:38:05,440 --> 00:38:07,440
a fraud and stuff.

899
00:38:07,440 --> 00:38:08,440
I forgot her name.

900
00:38:08,440 --> 00:38:12,440
We're going to tip on my tongue, but I'll come back to it.

901
00:38:12,440 --> 00:38:13,440
Okay.

902
00:38:13,440 --> 00:38:14,440
So what's another question?

903
00:38:14,440 --> 00:38:17,440
Because we still tap it into our childhood.

904
00:38:17,440 --> 00:38:20,440
Well, what do y'all want to talk about?

905
00:38:20,440 --> 00:38:23,440
How does that impact your childhood or something?

906
00:38:23,440 --> 00:38:26,440
Oh, it was one question I didn't get a chance to answer.

907
00:38:26,440 --> 00:38:31,440
I think it was something that you got X a lot growing up that used to be.

908
00:38:31,440 --> 00:38:32,440
Yeah.

909
00:38:32,440 --> 00:38:35,440
And I think that's what I mean.

910
00:38:35,440 --> 00:38:38,440
It's like when outside people outside of like, you know, my mom, my grandmother, my aunt,

911
00:38:38,440 --> 00:38:41,440
people that raised me, people that actually care about my well-being when they would just

912
00:38:41,440 --> 00:38:42,440
ask us to be nosy.

913
00:38:42,440 --> 00:38:46,440
They want an extra typical questions like, oh, how's school going?

914
00:38:46,440 --> 00:38:47,440
You know, things like that.

915
00:38:47,440 --> 00:38:52,440
Oh, wait, your little boyfriend that used to get on my nerves so bad.

916
00:38:52,440 --> 00:38:55,440
Like you just trying to get in my business so you can judge me.

917
00:38:55,440 --> 00:38:56,440
Like please leave me alone.

918
00:38:56,440 --> 00:38:57,440
Ask me about something that matters.

919
00:38:57,440 --> 00:39:01,440
Like I see you in years and that's your first question for me.

920
00:39:01,440 --> 00:39:03,440
Like, my uncle directed this is bad.

921
00:39:03,440 --> 00:39:05,440
I just be looking at him and walk away.

922
00:39:05,440 --> 00:39:07,440
Who are you to be asking me that?

923
00:39:07,440 --> 00:39:10,440
Or they ask me about like, if I'm having sex or stuff like that.

924
00:39:10,440 --> 00:39:13,440
Like, who are you to, like, you're not my doctor, you're not my mom.

925
00:39:13,440 --> 00:39:16,440
And I just be looking at my mom some sideways when she asks.

926
00:39:16,440 --> 00:39:18,440
I'm like, get away from me.

927
00:39:18,440 --> 00:39:19,440
As an adult.

928
00:39:19,440 --> 00:39:20,440
Yeah.

929
00:39:20,440 --> 00:39:22,440
Now let's get into it.

930
00:39:22,440 --> 00:39:29,440
When it comes to relationships or talking to people, how do y'all feel about that?

931
00:39:29,440 --> 00:39:35,440
Like, as an adult, when it comes to even one inspired relationship and talking to people,

932
00:39:35,440 --> 00:39:38,440
do you want people to know what's going on or you want to keep it to yourself?

933
00:39:38,440 --> 00:39:42,440
Or how long does it take for you to even tell people like, look, yeah,

934
00:39:42,440 --> 00:39:44,440
I'm in a relationship on talking to somebody.

935
00:39:44,440 --> 00:39:46,440
So what depends if it's brought up?

936
00:39:46,440 --> 00:39:50,440
Like if I was to get into a relationship with somebody yesterday and I saw you today,

937
00:39:50,440 --> 00:39:53,440
if it didn't come up, I probably wouldn't tell you, but it was like,

938
00:39:53,440 --> 00:39:56,440
if we was talking to you, I probably tell you, oh yeah, I thought this song was so,

939
00:39:56,440 --> 00:39:59,440
it don't be like no secret for me or nothing, but like if it don't come up,

940
00:39:59,440 --> 00:40:01,440
I'm not just going to come out and tell you.

941
00:40:01,440 --> 00:40:03,440
Now let's do something big like something I've already told you.

942
00:40:03,440 --> 00:40:04,440
Yeah.

943
00:40:04,440 --> 00:40:06,440
And then like who let me update her on that.

944
00:40:06,440 --> 00:40:08,440
But like if it's nice, like okay.

945
00:40:08,440 --> 00:40:11,440
But or if like somebody tried to talk to me and of course I would have to tell them

946
00:40:11,440 --> 00:40:12,440
I'm in a relationship.

947
00:40:12,440 --> 00:40:13,440
Yeah.

948
00:40:13,440 --> 00:40:15,440
How about you, Deon?

949
00:40:15,440 --> 00:40:16,440
It depends.

950
00:40:16,440 --> 00:40:18,440
I'm going to be talking to you.

951
00:40:18,440 --> 00:40:20,440
That makes sense.

952
00:40:20,440 --> 00:40:21,440
That's not going to hurt.

953
00:40:21,440 --> 00:40:22,440
Somebody actually go out of it.

954
00:40:22,440 --> 00:40:24,440
The Venn Go ahead.

955
00:40:24,440 --> 00:40:25,440
That's fair.

956
00:40:25,440 --> 00:40:27,440
What's your type?

957
00:40:27,440 --> 00:40:28,440
Hmm.

958
00:40:28,440 --> 00:40:30,440
Do I have a type?

959
00:40:30,440 --> 00:40:33,440
I have a type, but like if you're attractive, you're attractive.

960
00:40:33,440 --> 00:40:36,440
That doesn't mean that I'm going to endate you if you're not my type.

961
00:40:36,440 --> 00:40:39,440
But I like, hmm.

962
00:40:39,440 --> 00:40:43,440
I guess, I don't know.

963
00:40:43,440 --> 00:40:45,440
All I get is pretty boys.

964
00:40:45,440 --> 00:40:46,440
So I don't really know.

965
00:40:46,440 --> 00:40:48,440
What's your definition of a pretty boy?

966
00:40:48,440 --> 00:40:52,440
I like it as pretty boys, like people that's like obsessed with their hair and their appearance

967
00:40:52,440 --> 00:40:53,440
and stuff like that.

968
00:40:53,440 --> 00:40:55,440
Hmm.

969
00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:57,440
Alright, Deon!

970
00:40:57,440 --> 00:40:59,440
Hold on a minute.

971
00:40:59,440 --> 00:41:02,440
Because of my actual, like how they look physically.

972
00:41:02,440 --> 00:41:12,440
I guess like black, waves or lights and yeah.

973
00:41:12,440 --> 00:41:15,440
Somebody that's like me, do stuff that I do.

974
00:41:15,440 --> 00:41:19,440
I like, but you mean like the shot of the perfect looking person?

975
00:41:19,440 --> 00:41:21,440
That's what I thought you meant like.

976
00:41:21,440 --> 00:41:22,440
Yeah, like that.

977
00:41:22,440 --> 00:41:24,440
Oh no, what did you talk to me about?

978
00:41:24,440 --> 00:41:25,440
My personality, y'all look.

979
00:41:25,440 --> 00:41:26,440
That's how I get looks.

980
00:41:26,440 --> 00:41:29,440
Do y'all go off by looks or vibes?

981
00:41:29,440 --> 00:41:30,440
I'm just being honest.

982
00:41:30,440 --> 00:41:31,440
Or both.

983
00:41:31,440 --> 00:41:34,440
The first thing they say to my eyes is she does came with waistbeats and like lock.

984
00:41:34,440 --> 00:41:35,440
Hmm.

985
00:41:35,440 --> 00:41:36,440
That's what I'm saying.

986
00:41:36,440 --> 00:41:37,440
Interesting.

987
00:41:37,440 --> 00:41:38,440
Yeah.

988
00:41:38,440 --> 00:41:43,440
We actually like the perfect one, like the one like the one I got is like an ideal.

989
00:41:43,440 --> 00:41:47,440
You know I ain't right with the ideal person, but that's probably the ideal version.

990
00:41:47,440 --> 00:41:50,440
My ideal is straight songs, but that's not going to happen.

991
00:41:50,440 --> 00:41:55,440
I'm just saying that somebody that's like leaves my nose out because I don't like you know what?

992
00:41:55,440 --> 00:41:58,440
I sometimes like around me and keep telling me you don't think you should stop, but you

993
00:41:58,440 --> 00:42:00,440
think you can like that will get in my nerves.

994
00:42:00,440 --> 00:42:05,440
Because I'm productive strong, but if I had to mind around me, I got a little nerves about

995
00:42:05,440 --> 00:42:09,440
it, I wouldn't immediately just, you know what I'm going to speak to you because I'm like

996
00:42:09,440 --> 00:42:10,440
eww, get in my nerves like that.

997
00:42:10,440 --> 00:42:11,440
That makes sense.

998
00:42:11,440 --> 00:42:14,440
So somebody that's like stuff that I like, because I hate being around somebody that don't

999
00:42:14,440 --> 00:42:15,440
like my hobby.

1000
00:42:15,440 --> 00:42:16,440
Hmm.

1001
00:42:16,440 --> 00:42:17,440
So he wants somebody like you.

1002
00:42:17,440 --> 00:42:18,440
Yeah.

1003
00:42:18,440 --> 00:42:20,440
So would you like somebody like you and I?

1004
00:42:20,440 --> 00:42:22,440
My hobbies are very feminine.

1005
00:42:22,440 --> 00:42:26,440
If they enjoy dancing and working with children, then sure.

1006
00:42:26,440 --> 00:42:33,440
I mean, to be honest, I don't really, when I'm in a relationship, when I'm interested

1007
00:42:33,440 --> 00:42:37,440
in somebody, if their, their hobbies I would try to take interest in it.

1008
00:42:37,440 --> 00:42:38,440
If that makes sense.

1009
00:42:38,440 --> 00:42:41,440
Cause like I don't expect nobody to become a dancer because I didn't, just kind of like

1010
00:42:41,440 --> 00:42:44,440
my only habit that I most part.

1011
00:42:44,440 --> 00:42:49,440
But like, hmm, hmm, that makes sense.

1012
00:42:49,440 --> 00:42:52,440
Me is like, it is what it is.

1013
00:42:52,440 --> 00:42:54,440
Disrespect what I'm doing.

1014
00:42:54,440 --> 00:42:56,440
Respect bro is real big.

1015
00:42:56,440 --> 00:43:01,440
Like respect what I'm doing because like, like Dion said, I'm not a type to tell a dude

1016
00:43:01,440 --> 00:43:02,440
or a guy smoking.

1017
00:43:02,440 --> 00:43:07,440
Doesn't you like dude, sometimes you might got to hit one with him too, you know.

1018
00:43:07,440 --> 00:43:12,440
But yeah, I wanted to be with somebody that's comfortable and can accept me for who I am.

1019
00:43:12,440 --> 00:43:13,440
Cause I don't want to change it.

1020
00:43:13,440 --> 00:43:17,440
And that, do y'all have it ever happened to you in life that you felt like you had to

1021
00:43:17,440 --> 00:43:18,440
change where you are?

1022
00:43:18,440 --> 00:43:22,440
This would be accepted, like when you were a kid versus now or only when it came.

1023
00:43:22,440 --> 00:43:25,440
If you're not accepting me for who I am, then you want to be.

1024
00:43:25,440 --> 00:43:27,440
Like I feel like it's a difference.

1025
00:43:27,440 --> 00:43:31,440
Like if it's actually something wrong, like say, I don't know, like my personality, I'm

1026
00:43:31,440 --> 00:43:32,440
a mean girl, something like that.

1027
00:43:32,440 --> 00:43:34,440
Of course I don't want somebody to tell me I don't know.

1028
00:43:34,440 --> 00:43:36,440
Yeah, you need to say it like that or something like that.

1029
00:43:36,440 --> 00:43:40,440
Like if I'm just being mean, you don't like that, like pink or like you don't like that

1030
00:43:40,440 --> 00:43:45,440
I wear my hair and something like that, then you can even not tell me how I'm supposed to be.

1031
00:43:45,440 --> 00:43:46,440
How about you Dionne?

1032
00:43:46,440 --> 00:43:48,440
It's different from a man's perspective.

1033
00:43:48,440 --> 00:43:50,440
What's the biggest question?

1034
00:43:50,440 --> 00:43:55,440
Growing up, but you ever felt like you had to change who you are to be accepted versus now?

1035
00:43:55,440 --> 00:43:58,440
Oh yeah, I had no idea about music.

1036
00:43:58,440 --> 00:43:59,440
Really?

1037
00:43:59,440 --> 00:44:00,440
Really?

1038
00:44:00,440 --> 00:44:02,440
How do you think you would?

1039
00:44:02,440 --> 00:44:06,440
Like rock, I like metal sometimes.

1040
00:44:06,440 --> 00:44:11,440
There's a lot of white people that would get classified as.

1041
00:44:11,440 --> 00:44:14,440
But then once I got in high school, I was like, I don't care now.

1042
00:44:14,440 --> 00:44:17,440
And then I realized that I like back then, it's trendy now.

1043
00:44:17,440 --> 00:44:18,440
Versus?

1044
00:44:18,440 --> 00:44:19,440
I mean, I think it's so cool.

1045
00:44:19,440 --> 00:44:22,440
I don't know if Niggas give my ass for that.

1046
00:44:22,440 --> 00:44:26,440
Everybody thinks it's cool like white people give their ass for that.

1047
00:44:26,440 --> 00:44:28,440
Yeah, because they want Instagram now.

1048
00:44:28,440 --> 00:44:30,440
Don't they see that ticket they got on Instagram?

1049
00:44:30,440 --> 00:44:31,440
That sticker on Instagram?

1050
00:44:31,440 --> 00:44:32,440
Oh, that's my favorite.

1051
00:44:32,440 --> 00:44:35,440
I always loved me something like, I always had like a real diverse, like,

1052
00:44:35,440 --> 00:44:37,440
a real diverse taste of music.

1053
00:44:37,440 --> 00:44:39,440
It didn't matter if it sound good to me, I'm not listening to it.

1054
00:44:39,440 --> 00:44:41,440
I don't care who or where I'm listening to it.

1055
00:44:41,440 --> 00:44:45,440
Like if I was to put my music on shuffle right now, you'd have to be like,

1056
00:44:45,440 --> 00:44:47,440
what the hell she be listening to?

1057
00:44:47,440 --> 00:44:48,440
Like I did not be here.

1058
00:44:48,440 --> 00:44:49,440
I always been like that though.

1059
00:44:49,440 --> 00:44:52,440
Oh, that's the same thing for me.

1060
00:44:52,440 --> 00:44:56,440
Like one day I probably passed something, saw one day it's right from somewhere.

1061
00:44:56,440 --> 00:44:58,440
You know, that's the thing.

1062
00:44:58,440 --> 00:45:04,440
Speaking about that, do y'all feel comfortable with the person that y'all are today versus

1063
00:45:04,440 --> 00:45:06,440
what you were when you were a kid?

1064
00:45:06,440 --> 00:45:11,440
Yeah, I feel like 22 year old me would be best friend of a 12, 15 year old me.

1065
00:45:11,440 --> 00:45:13,440
And why is that?

1066
00:45:13,440 --> 00:45:15,440
Because he would, I think none of me would think I'm just like that.

1067
00:45:15,440 --> 00:45:17,440
He would think I'm so fucking cool.

1068
00:45:17,440 --> 00:45:19,440
I agree.

1069
00:45:19,440 --> 00:45:23,440
I feel like my youngest though, but love the person I am right now.

1070
00:45:23,440 --> 00:45:24,440
Mm-hmm.

1071
00:45:24,440 --> 00:45:28,440
If there would be something that y'all would like to tell your old self,

1072
00:45:28,440 --> 00:45:29,440
what would it be?

1073
00:45:29,440 --> 00:45:30,440
She might not be as old.

1074
00:45:30,440 --> 00:45:31,440
What?

1075
00:45:31,440 --> 00:45:32,440
She might not be as old.

1076
00:45:32,440 --> 00:45:34,440
I don't think so.

1077
00:45:34,440 --> 00:45:37,440
I'm gonna notice this.

1078
00:45:37,440 --> 00:45:38,440
This is all cut.

1079
00:45:38,440 --> 00:45:40,440
Y'all already know how this is.

1080
00:45:40,440 --> 00:45:43,440
And we gonna can't miss what it seems like.

1081
00:45:43,440 --> 00:45:45,440
Yeah, y'all be surprised.

1082
00:45:45,440 --> 00:45:47,440
Yeah, I think you have been outside that window.

1083
00:45:47,440 --> 00:45:48,440
What?

1084
00:45:48,440 --> 00:45:49,440
Oh my God.

1085
00:45:49,440 --> 00:45:51,440
The walls, any given second.

1086
00:45:51,440 --> 00:45:53,440
As long as they don't start shooting, it would be good.

1087
00:45:53,440 --> 00:45:55,440
Yeah, because I'm getting the hell out of it.

1088
00:45:55,440 --> 00:45:56,440
I'm ducking and rolling.

1089
00:45:56,440 --> 00:45:57,440
I'm getting the hell out of here.

1090
00:45:57,440 --> 00:45:58,440
I'm sorry.

1091
00:45:58,440 --> 00:45:59,440
Sorry.

1092
00:45:59,440 --> 00:46:01,440
It's still boring more than the day.

1093
00:46:01,440 --> 00:46:02,440
Okay.

1094
00:46:02,440 --> 00:46:07,440
If there was something that you would like to tell your childhood self,

1095
00:46:07,440 --> 00:46:08,440
what would it be?

1096
00:46:08,440 --> 00:46:09,440
Or a few things, whatever.

1097
00:46:09,440 --> 00:46:14,440
What is something you would tell your old self?

1098
00:46:14,440 --> 00:46:18,440
I think about this question often and sometimes I would like,

1099
00:46:18,440 --> 00:46:20,440
I don't know, because what if what I tell them changes,

1100
00:46:20,440 --> 00:46:25,440
like the outcome of how I'm, you know what I'm saying?

1101
00:46:25,440 --> 00:46:26,440
That's, yeah.

1102
00:46:26,440 --> 00:46:28,440
Because I feel like everything happens for a reason.

1103
00:46:28,440 --> 00:46:31,440
So maybe it was certain things that I didn't need to know at that moment.

1104
00:46:31,440 --> 00:46:34,440
So that they can live and I feel like everything happens.

1105
00:46:34,440 --> 00:46:38,440
You know, you need certain things for character development and things of that nature.

1106
00:46:38,440 --> 00:46:40,440
You're not wrong about that one.

1107
00:46:40,440 --> 00:46:41,440
How about you, Dionne?

1108
00:46:41,440 --> 00:46:42,440
Or it's like the same?

1109
00:46:42,440 --> 00:46:44,440
How about telling them to keep letting them stuff that you like?

1110
00:46:44,440 --> 00:46:46,440
Yeah, it would probably be like,

1111
00:46:46,440 --> 00:46:48,440
something like, you're beautiful, just keep doing something like that.

1112
00:46:48,440 --> 00:46:51,440
I probably wouldn't try to tell them nothing that's going to happen.

1113
00:46:51,440 --> 00:46:53,440
I'll try to do this and that and anything like that.

1114
00:46:53,440 --> 00:46:54,440
I just felt like.

1115
00:46:54,440 --> 00:46:58,440
I can't not, I would bully my young self a little bit, but I would tell them that 15, I would.

1116
00:46:58,440 --> 00:47:00,440
Oh my God.

1117
00:47:00,440 --> 00:47:02,440
I mean, I feel like that's understandable.

1118
00:47:02,440 --> 00:47:05,440
I feel like that wouldn't hurt enough, and especially if that's your interest now.

1119
00:47:05,440 --> 00:47:06,440
You want to lift it.

1120
00:47:06,440 --> 00:47:10,440
Speaking about that, your interest, Dionne, you talk a lot about lifting.

1121
00:47:10,440 --> 00:47:12,440
Give us some insight on how that is.

1122
00:47:12,440 --> 00:47:15,440
What you mean, like, how is it like?

1123
00:47:15,440 --> 00:47:16,440
Why you love it so much?

1124
00:47:16,440 --> 00:47:18,440
What made you do it?

1125
00:47:18,440 --> 00:47:21,440
How does it help you and things like that?

1126
00:47:21,440 --> 00:47:25,440
I feel like a lot of, I think eggs, a lot of lifters, they always had a story when they

1127
00:47:25,440 --> 00:47:30,440
was at their lowest point in their life, and then that's where they gave most of that strength from.

1128
00:47:30,440 --> 00:47:33,440
So I would say that's, that's probably the reason.

1129
00:47:33,440 --> 00:47:39,440
I don't know, I just wanted to get, I was always really weak and I wanted to be strong.

1130
00:47:39,440 --> 00:47:41,440
So I just got up and I just wanted to go get strong.

1131
00:47:41,440 --> 00:47:43,440
How long you been doing this?

1132
00:47:43,440 --> 00:47:45,440
It's been three years.

1133
00:47:45,440 --> 00:47:47,440
And that's commitment right there.

1134
00:47:47,440 --> 00:47:48,440
I appreciate it.

1135
00:47:48,440 --> 00:47:50,440
I respect it and appreciate it.

1136
00:47:50,440 --> 00:47:53,440
I've been probably stuck competing in four or five more years.

1137
00:47:53,440 --> 00:47:56,440
26, 27.

1138
00:47:56,440 --> 00:47:57,440
Okay.

1139
00:47:57,440 --> 00:47:59,440
Around the fifth.

1140
00:47:59,440 --> 00:48:02,440
Does that help you mentally and physically?

1141
00:48:02,440 --> 00:48:04,440
Not even just physically.

1142
00:48:04,440 --> 00:48:06,440
How does it help you mentally?

1143
00:48:06,440 --> 00:48:13,440
I feel like mentally, I feel like my mind has gone through check.

1144
00:48:13,440 --> 00:48:18,440
It's like I feel like year one and year two and year three, whereas in my mind there's different people.

1145
00:48:18,440 --> 00:48:22,440
I can like bookmark it in my mind, like how I used to think, you know, I used to be.

1146
00:48:22,440 --> 00:48:28,440
And I think because I grew up with my father in health, it took me out to be a man, I guess.

1147
00:48:28,440 --> 00:48:30,440
I think so.

1148
00:48:30,440 --> 00:48:36,440
Got a lot of the things I do now, like if I'm doing homework or if something's going on, I'm like, yeah, this is hard,

1149
00:48:36,440 --> 00:48:38,440
but it ain't as hard as it's lifting through.

1150
00:48:38,440 --> 00:48:39,440
I can do like something else.

1151
00:48:39,440 --> 00:48:40,440
Okay.

1152
00:48:40,440 --> 00:48:41,440
So that's how I think.

1153
00:48:41,440 --> 00:48:44,440
Like, yeah, this, like I was just doing like regular stuff.

1154
00:48:44,440 --> 00:48:48,440
I'm like, I'm just like doing it, but like, it ain't as hard as doing what you do on the gym.

1155
00:48:48,440 --> 00:48:50,440
So it makes, it makes regular life easy.

1156
00:48:50,440 --> 00:48:51,440
Mm-hmm.

1157
00:48:51,440 --> 00:48:52,440
Yeah.

1158
00:48:52,440 --> 00:48:53,440
I respect that.

1159
00:48:53,440 --> 00:48:54,440
I respect that.

1160
00:48:54,440 --> 00:48:57,440
So Nya, you talked a lot about dancing.

1161
00:48:57,440 --> 00:49:00,440
Same thing, like how does that impact you?

1162
00:49:00,440 --> 00:49:05,440
It impacts you physically, but how did it impact you mentally and how long you've been doing it and things like that?

1163
00:49:05,440 --> 00:49:08,440
I've been dancing since I was in middle school.

1164
00:49:08,440 --> 00:49:12,440
I don't know which age, what age exactly, but it's like an outlet for me.

1165
00:49:12,440 --> 00:49:13,440
Mm-hmm.

1166
00:49:13,440 --> 00:49:17,440
Like, I'm not the type of person to like express myself if something is going wrong.

1167
00:49:17,440 --> 00:49:18,440
You have to ask me, what's wrong?

1168
00:49:18,440 --> 00:49:19,440
Well, are you okay?

1169
00:49:19,440 --> 00:49:22,440
Like, I don't mess up and say it, not let's be cool like that.

1170
00:49:22,440 --> 00:49:23,440
Mm-hmm.

1171
00:49:23,440 --> 00:49:26,440
Like even men, like I don't be wanting to put my burdens on other people.

1172
00:49:26,440 --> 00:49:28,440
And I used to be like real heavy on the surgical dance.

1173
00:49:28,440 --> 00:49:31,440
That's like praise dancing when you dance the gospel music.

1174
00:49:31,440 --> 00:49:33,440
And that was like a real outlet for me, like praise in God.

1175
00:49:33,440 --> 00:49:39,440
And just like, you know, without them feeling just letting it out with my moves and like whatever, I decided to do the dance.

1176
00:49:39,440 --> 00:49:40,440
Mm-hmm.

1177
00:49:40,440 --> 00:49:44,440
And not only that, it helps me connect to like little girls younger than me.

1178
00:49:44,440 --> 00:49:47,440
You know, I'm all about sisterhood and what makes me want to stuff like that.

1179
00:49:47,440 --> 00:49:48,440
So it is.

1180
00:49:48,440 --> 00:49:51,440
It ties into a lot of things.

1181
00:49:51,440 --> 00:50:00,440
When it comes to your talents, I'm gonna say talents, do y'all want to go bigger on it like, you know, bodybuilding?

1182
00:50:00,440 --> 00:50:03,440
Do you want to have like your own session, studio type?

1183
00:50:03,440 --> 00:50:05,440
Do you want to have your own studio when it comes to dancing?

1184
00:50:05,440 --> 00:50:13,440
Like, do y'all see like some type of future business plan within what y'all do that makes you happy?

1185
00:50:13,440 --> 00:50:23,440
If my knees don't give out and I had to settle on a pound of deadlift and I went first place in a powerlifting contest and a bodybuilding contest,

1186
00:50:23,440 --> 00:50:25,440
I'll probably go over to my home proper gym.

1187
00:50:25,440 --> 00:50:29,440
Not no phony ass, like I'm in like a grudge gym, like where at?

1188
00:50:29,440 --> 00:50:32,440
You gotta at least be living like 200 something pounds even, come to the front door.

1189
00:50:32,440 --> 00:50:34,440
Oh, wow!

1190
00:50:34,440 --> 00:50:37,440
They call it hardcore gyms.

1191
00:50:37,440 --> 00:50:46,440
Yeah, I would say that's hardcore and I'm, I'm, I respect it because like, you know, it is like people are really, really strong on bodybuilding.

1192
00:50:46,440 --> 00:50:51,440
It is especially even just get out there to even get to do certain stuff.

1193
00:50:51,440 --> 00:50:57,440
I'm trying to change the industry because right now it's mainly about not how strong you can be naturally,

1194
00:50:57,440 --> 00:51:00,440
but how many steps you can take without dying first.

1195
00:51:00,440 --> 00:51:06,440
So a lot of young people when they get into it, they even transfer you in and they want steroids.

1196
00:51:06,440 --> 00:51:07,440
Damn.

1197
00:51:07,440 --> 00:51:09,440
It takes years of your life.

1198
00:51:09,440 --> 00:51:10,440
Good.

1199
00:51:10,440 --> 00:51:15,440
So I would try to promote being, me I couldn't talk about a lot, try to promote being natural.

1200
00:51:15,440 --> 00:51:19,440
Do what you can with your genetics, give you basically.

1201
00:51:19,440 --> 00:51:23,440
I just try to mean we have one steroids and then I'm down at like 30.

1202
00:51:23,440 --> 00:51:25,440
That's understandable.

1203
00:51:25,440 --> 00:51:26,440
Yeah.

1204
00:51:26,440 --> 00:51:27,440
How about you Nia?

1205
00:51:27,440 --> 00:51:30,440
So for me, dancing has always been just a hobby.

1206
00:51:30,440 --> 00:51:37,440
But however, Monday my mom was talking, me and my mom was talking, she was like, if you was to like hit the ladder and got like a bunch of money right now,

1207
00:51:37,440 --> 00:51:38,440
what would you do with it?

1208
00:51:38,440 --> 00:51:40,440
And I said, I would open up a rec center.

1209
00:51:40,440 --> 00:51:46,440
But now that you like mentioned dancing and like what I would do with it, I could probably make it like a little dance class for girls or whatever.

1210
00:51:46,440 --> 00:51:48,440
Cause like right now I'm into it.

1211
00:51:48,440 --> 00:51:51,440
It's called the Charm School Project for Girls and like we mentor through dance.

1212
00:51:51,440 --> 00:51:54,440
Like we teach them dance today, we like will show cases and stuff like that.

1213
00:51:54,440 --> 00:51:57,440
And I would probably do something like that if I ever had to opportunity to.

1214
00:51:57,440 --> 00:51:59,440
But it's not nothing like I'm like, yeah, I'm gonna do that.

1215
00:51:59,440 --> 00:52:01,440
And right now it's going to be a social worker.

1216
00:52:01,440 --> 00:52:02,440
I respect it.

1217
00:52:02,440 --> 00:52:03,440
I respect it.

1218
00:52:03,440 --> 00:52:10,440
So another question I have is what is your drive in life?

1219
00:52:10,440 --> 00:52:14,440
Like what is your motivation and key to everything that you're doing in life?

1220
00:52:14,440 --> 00:52:17,440
Not again, two goes in details.

1221
00:52:17,440 --> 00:52:18,440
I'm like telling you everything.

1222
00:52:18,440 --> 00:52:20,440
You're respecting?

1223
00:52:20,440 --> 00:52:25,440
2020 and 2021 is what makes me get up every single day.

1224
00:52:25,440 --> 00:52:26,440
So I'm gonna say.

1225
00:52:26,440 --> 00:52:28,440
And why is that?

1226
00:52:28,440 --> 00:52:29,440
You did a little bit.

1227
00:52:29,440 --> 00:52:30,440
It was the worst part.

1228
00:52:30,440 --> 00:52:36,440
So probably, I'm not gonna say the worst part, I'm only 22 so I still got to watch that shit that go through.

1229
00:52:36,440 --> 00:52:39,440
But so far it was probably the worst years of my life.

1230
00:52:39,440 --> 00:52:42,440
And those, those years make me get up every day.

1231
00:52:42,440 --> 00:52:43,440
Cause of the pandemic?

1232
00:52:43,440 --> 00:52:46,440
No, not the pandemic.

1233
00:52:46,440 --> 00:52:48,440
Just personal life and stuff like that.

1234
00:52:48,440 --> 00:52:49,440
I respect it.

1235
00:52:49,440 --> 00:52:51,440
I only know I can't tell you it's too much.

1236
00:52:51,440 --> 00:52:52,440
Yeah.

1237
00:52:52,440 --> 00:52:53,440
And it's okay.

1238
00:52:53,440 --> 00:52:54,440
It's okay.

1239
00:52:54,440 --> 00:52:56,440
To be honest, I don't even know.

1240
00:52:56,440 --> 00:53:00,440
I just be getting up like, we gotta do something productive and good so we can be good in the future.

1241
00:53:00,440 --> 00:53:01,440
And I'm like, alright.

1242
00:53:01,440 --> 00:53:02,440
I don't know.

1243
00:53:02,440 --> 00:53:05,440
I guess to make my mother proud, that would be cool.

1244
00:53:05,440 --> 00:53:06,440
I don't know.

1245
00:53:06,440 --> 00:53:08,440
I just, I was just raised to be a certain way.

1246
00:53:08,440 --> 00:53:10,440
So I guess that's just what I'm doing.

1247
00:53:10,440 --> 00:53:11,440
I don't know.

1248
00:53:11,440 --> 00:53:12,440
That's a good question.

1249
00:53:12,440 --> 00:53:17,440
I feel like I should have like a more meaningful answer to that.

1250
00:53:17,440 --> 00:53:20,440
It's okay though, cause that's how we don't.

1251
00:53:20,440 --> 00:53:22,440
I feel like I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing.

1252
00:53:22,440 --> 00:53:25,440
Like if I was doing anything else, I would probably feel like a bum.

1253
00:53:25,440 --> 00:53:30,440
And if I wasn't in school and if I didn't hit my job and like, you know, doing something productive,

1254
00:53:30,440 --> 00:53:32,440
I probably wouldn't be satisfied with my life.

1255
00:53:32,440 --> 00:53:33,440
And that's some motivation too.

1256
00:53:33,440 --> 00:53:34,440
I respect it.

1257
00:53:34,440 --> 00:53:35,440
I respect it.

1258
00:53:35,440 --> 00:53:36,440
Same here.

1259
00:53:36,440 --> 00:53:41,440
It's like, I think what motivated me is like grief.

1260
00:53:41,440 --> 00:53:47,440
You know, like sometimes when you lose people in your life, that grief just, it turns you up.

1261
00:53:47,440 --> 00:53:53,440
Like I lost my uncle at 12 and that really like, fucked me up to the point where like,

1262
00:53:53,440 --> 00:53:57,440
you know, I've lost my grandparents too, but it was like, I was so young.

1263
00:53:57,440 --> 00:53:59,440
So it did mess it up too as I was older.

1264
00:53:59,440 --> 00:54:03,440
Like, you know, you don't get that experience and stuff and then lost my grandfather.

1265
00:54:03,440 --> 00:54:06,440
And you know, I felt like grief helped me out a little bit too.

1266
00:54:06,440 --> 00:54:10,440
And then also remembering too, like you the oldest, you got, you got two young people.

1267
00:54:10,440 --> 00:54:11,440
Looking at you.

1268
00:54:11,440 --> 00:54:12,440
So it's like, it's no time.

1269
00:54:12,440 --> 00:54:17,440
Like we want, we're going to have our fucked up moments where it's like, you can't be fucking

1270
00:54:17,440 --> 00:54:18,440
up every time.

1271
00:54:18,440 --> 00:54:25,440
Cause like you have to make sure that you're setting an example, you know, so I respect that.

1272
00:54:25,440 --> 00:54:35,440
Another question is when it comes to this lifestyle of college, we back, whoo, from

1273
00:54:35,440 --> 00:54:39,440
Santa Monica attack, you're all done cutting it just, whoo.

1274
00:54:39,440 --> 00:54:43,440
When it comes to this lifestyle of being a college student, what is your pros and cons

1275
00:54:43,440 --> 00:54:47,440
that you would tell people when it comes to going to college period?

1276
00:54:47,440 --> 00:54:50,440
I had a lot of snacks.

1277
00:54:50,440 --> 00:54:52,440
I didn't eat them all the time.

1278
00:54:52,440 --> 00:54:55,440
Like I find more than I know snacks for some reason.

1279
00:54:55,440 --> 00:55:01,440
And finding it cool with cause it gets boring.

1280
00:55:01,440 --> 00:55:10,440
And then some pros is you know, your battering gets helped by getting an education.

1281
00:55:10,440 --> 00:55:15,440
Hopefully your degree will, you know, help you live whatever type of lifestyle you want.

1282
00:55:15,440 --> 00:55:19,440
And some cons, it's time to see them and they can be stressful.

1283
00:55:19,440 --> 00:55:20,440
Yeah.

1284
00:55:20,440 --> 00:55:26,440
I feel like, you know, the typical stuff people say all the time for real.

1285
00:55:26,440 --> 00:55:30,440
So when it comes to college.

1286
00:55:30,440 --> 00:55:35,440
How do y'all feel about it when it's, when y'all discussing it with your family members?

1287
00:55:35,440 --> 00:55:37,440
They make something super style.

1288
00:55:37,440 --> 00:55:39,440
Like I'm really doing that shit.

1289
00:55:39,440 --> 00:55:43,440
How does that make you feel though?

1290
00:55:43,440 --> 00:55:44,440
I don't know.

1291
00:55:44,440 --> 00:55:46,440
I think they don't need fun.

1292
00:55:46,440 --> 00:55:47,440
It don't like.

1293
00:55:47,440 --> 00:55:50,440
To me, what I'm doing is normal to them.

1294
00:55:50,440 --> 00:55:53,440
They think I'm really doing something big.

1295
00:55:53,440 --> 00:55:54,440
I'm just going to school.

1296
00:55:54,440 --> 00:55:55,440
Yeah.

1297
00:55:55,440 --> 00:55:57,440
I'm not a big deal.

1298
00:55:57,440 --> 00:56:05,440
I agree. I wouldn't say I'm the first generation technically I am because my mom, she went to community college and she became a nurse.

1299
00:56:05,440 --> 00:56:09,440
But like I'm the first person like to graduate from high school and go straight to college and stuff like that.

1300
00:56:09,440 --> 00:56:12,440
And like everybody is rooting for me for real and he just waiting for me to graduate.

1301
00:56:12,440 --> 00:56:15,440
Look at my look because she wants to go to more and stuff like that.

1302
00:56:15,440 --> 00:56:16,440
And it wasn't their role model.

1303
00:56:16,440 --> 00:56:24,440
Like for nobody in my family for a long time to actually, you know, did the right thing with through high school, go straight to college, graduate plan on getting your master stuff like that.

1304
00:56:24,440 --> 00:56:26,440
Nobody, that was nobody's plan.

1305
00:56:26,440 --> 00:56:29,440
So, you know, it's pressure.

1306
00:56:29,440 --> 00:56:36,440
But then again, it's like issuing like the little ones in my thing, like it's possible just because like we come from this doesn't mean like grid and things can't happen.

1307
00:56:36,440 --> 00:56:37,440
I think so.

1308
00:56:37,440 --> 00:56:40,440
Ah, really?

1309
00:56:40,440 --> 00:56:43,440
I couldn't go straight to college at high school.

1310
00:56:43,440 --> 00:56:44,440
But you did.

1311
00:56:44,440 --> 00:56:45,440
I didn't though.

1312
00:56:45,440 --> 00:56:47,440
You like you think you attended to.

1313
00:56:47,440 --> 00:56:58,440
I'm going to tell you, it was a moment and this was in 2020, I think when I was in CCB, I remember my father, my cousin, my sister, we were just smoking.

1314
00:56:58,440 --> 00:57:03,440
And I remember I was looking on the window and I was like, yo, I don't care what this college is doing.

1315
00:57:03,440 --> 00:57:05,440
Wow.

1316
00:57:05,440 --> 00:57:06,440
And for that.

1317
00:57:06,440 --> 00:57:08,440
And then that be 2020.

1318
00:57:08,440 --> 00:57:11,440
I basically just stopped going to class.

1319
00:57:11,440 --> 00:57:14,440
And then I feel like that was my year.

1320
00:57:14,440 --> 00:57:19,440
And I got in, I feel like I've been in this with me for different reasons.

1321
00:57:19,440 --> 00:57:22,440
And for that time, it was like I only care about school.

1322
00:57:22,440 --> 00:57:24,440
I was just rolling up.

1323
00:57:24,440 --> 00:57:28,440
So I care about types of 2021.

1324
00:57:28,440 --> 00:57:30,440
I can't keep doing this forever.

1325
00:57:30,440 --> 00:57:34,440
And then I started working out and working out me everything else seemed easier.

1326
00:57:34,440 --> 00:57:36,440
Like college is easy because I go to the gym.

1327
00:57:36,440 --> 00:57:40,440
I'm like, that's the only reason it's easy for me because.

1328
00:57:40,440 --> 00:57:46,440
So that motivates you to stay focused and to get this stuff done.

1329
00:57:46,440 --> 00:57:48,440
Yeah, philosophy.

1330
00:57:48,440 --> 00:57:51,440
Yeah, I guess if you lifted that baby elephant screen.

1331
00:57:51,440 --> 00:57:57,440
So yeah, so speak about motivation.

1332
00:57:57,440 --> 00:57:59,440
Like what motivated you to come to college?

1333
00:57:59,440 --> 00:58:00,440
What's that?

1334
00:58:00,440 --> 00:58:02,440
Naya, like seeing your mom.

1335
00:58:02,440 --> 00:58:07,440
To be honest, if this flowed, I didn't have no reason not to go to college.

1336
00:58:07,440 --> 00:58:09,440
I wasn't opposed to the idea.

1337
00:58:09,440 --> 00:58:11,440
It's something I'm supposed to do.

1338
00:58:11,440 --> 00:58:14,440
So when I'm here and I'm a, you know, finish.

1339
00:58:14,440 --> 00:58:17,440
I was my mom, she raised me to go to college.

1340
00:58:17,440 --> 00:58:23,440
I guess I know what she didn't have the pressure because like she already instilled into my mind that like the key to success is your education.

1341
00:58:23,440 --> 00:58:25,440
You have to take your education seriously.

1342
00:58:25,440 --> 00:58:28,440
And I don't have, I can have no other plane at that makes sense.

1343
00:58:28,440 --> 00:58:29,440
Like I didn't want to do nothing else.

1344
00:58:29,440 --> 00:58:33,440
I'm like, okay, in order to be what I want to be, I'm going to go to college.

1345
00:58:33,440 --> 00:58:34,440
So yeah.

1346
00:58:34,440 --> 00:58:35,440
I feel it.

1347
00:58:35,440 --> 00:58:44,440
Like when it comes to school period for me, it's like, it's people in my family that went and then Burley went.

1348
00:58:44,440 --> 00:58:55,440
So for me, like when y'all say like when they come to school at times, for me, if it's not my immediate household, you know, saying, you know, they appreciate it versus outside of family.

1349
00:58:55,440 --> 00:58:57,440
But it's like, I really don't care.

1350
00:58:57,440 --> 00:59:02,440
And it sounds harsh, but it's like, you know, who's loyal and who's not.

1351
00:59:02,440 --> 00:59:07,440
And that's what I had to realize growing up because like, you know, I always sell people to at times.

1352
00:59:07,440 --> 00:59:13,440
It's best to keep a mystery of your life, especially if you if we not dealing with each other every day.

1353
00:59:13,440 --> 00:59:17,440
It's like, I don't need to park broadcast everything that's going on versus like if we are.

1354
00:59:17,440 --> 00:59:18,440
Yeah, why not?

1355
00:59:18,440 --> 00:59:22,440
Because I know you're going to support me as much as to support you.

1356
00:59:22,440 --> 00:59:29,440
So going into support, how do y'all feel when it comes to your support system and who is in your support system?

1357
00:59:29,440 --> 00:59:34,440
Hmm, I got a small support system and that's okay.

1358
00:59:34,440 --> 00:59:39,440
Because like you said, you can't tell everybody what you got going on and all your goals and aspirations.

1359
00:59:39,440 --> 00:59:43,440
And like to be honest, it's the village that helped raise me.

1360
00:59:43,440 --> 00:59:50,440
You know, my mom, I guess my stepdad, my aunt and of course my little cousin, my friends, people that keep around, you know, we motivate each other.

1361
00:59:50,440 --> 00:59:53,440
You know, we got this thing going on and that's about it.

1362
00:59:53,440 --> 00:59:59,440
Yeah, the small group of people I can spend with friends and the family that you know, watch me grow up.

1363
00:59:59,440 --> 01:00:01,440
How about you, Dion?

1364
01:00:01,440 --> 01:00:03,440
Say, what was my name?

1365
01:00:03,440 --> 01:00:04,440
Your support system.

1366
01:00:04,440 --> 01:00:05,440
Your support system.

1367
01:00:05,440 --> 01:00:10,440
How is your support system and who is your support system?

1368
01:00:10,440 --> 01:00:13,440
I just bought my parents from.

1369
01:00:13,440 --> 01:00:16,440
And then I used my parents.

1370
01:00:16,440 --> 01:00:18,440
How do they support you?

1371
01:00:18,440 --> 01:00:20,440
She went to the Nigger Harley.

1372
01:00:20,440 --> 01:00:24,440
Yeah, I was good.

1373
01:00:24,440 --> 01:00:26,440
Can't shut me in.

1374
01:00:26,440 --> 01:00:28,440
How about when it come to academics?

1375
01:00:28,440 --> 01:00:31,440
How was your support system when it comes to your academic life?

1376
01:00:31,440 --> 01:00:32,440
I should have bought myself.

1377
01:00:32,440 --> 01:00:33,440
Really?

1378
01:00:33,440 --> 01:00:34,440
Yeah.

1379
01:00:34,440 --> 01:00:35,440
Why is that?

1380
01:00:35,440 --> 01:00:38,440
My father is not an academic man.

1381
01:00:38,440 --> 01:00:44,440
My mother, she not, my mother knows like, she's a student at school and she has medical bills and stuff like that.

1382
01:00:44,440 --> 01:00:46,440
But she don't know what the shit we do about her.

1383
01:00:46,440 --> 01:00:48,440
Yeah, I gave it.

1384
01:00:48,440 --> 01:00:50,440
I guess like my parents, that's in college.

1385
01:00:50,440 --> 01:00:53,440
I'm like, my mom, she, of course, she's the worst everything I do.

1386
01:00:53,440 --> 01:00:56,440
Like, you know, she give me money when I get good grades and stuff.

1387
01:00:56,440 --> 01:00:58,440
Yeah.

1388
01:00:58,440 --> 01:01:05,440
But like, I thought like, it's hard to support some, like, it's not that much you can do to support when like, it's not you doing it.

1389
01:01:05,440 --> 01:01:06,440
That makes sense.

1390
01:01:06,440 --> 01:01:08,440
Like, she ain't nobody but to come and do my work for me.

1391
01:01:08,440 --> 01:01:09,440
So it's really just me.

1392
01:01:09,440 --> 01:01:14,440
But like, I guess if I had to vent about like, I'm just so stressed out, I got my friends and things like that.

1393
01:01:14,440 --> 01:01:19,440
I feel like when it comes down to it, like, when it comes to supporting yourself, it's with you, like, you just got to do it.

1394
01:01:19,440 --> 01:01:21,440
Yeah.

1395
01:01:21,440 --> 01:01:26,440
Another thing I want to talk about, y'all know I'm big on that mental.

1396
01:01:26,440 --> 01:01:31,440
How y'all feeling mentally when it comes to everything that's going on?

1397
01:01:31,440 --> 01:01:40,440
If I had to read my mental from 1 to 10, it's on like a general thing, I would give it a 7 from 5.

1398
01:01:40,440 --> 01:01:42,440
And why is that?

1399
01:01:42,440 --> 01:01:44,440
I don't know. Like, I feel good right now.

1400
01:01:44,440 --> 01:01:45,440
Most days are good.

1401
01:01:45,440 --> 01:01:49,440
But like, you know, I haven't had my own stuff going on that I'm like getting pains.

1402
01:01:49,440 --> 01:01:51,440
I just got to have a good relationship, things like that.

1403
01:01:51,440 --> 01:01:55,440
And you know, sometimes that can be said, but I'm like, oh well, take things.

1404
01:01:55,440 --> 01:01:57,440
More so like disappointed than sad.

1405
01:01:57,440 --> 01:01:59,440
So that's why I say it's on my point 5.

1406
01:01:59,440 --> 01:02:01,440
Which is better than what it was a few weeks ago.

1407
01:02:01,440 --> 01:02:02,440
So privacy is everything.

1408
01:02:02,440 --> 01:02:03,440
I respect it.

1409
01:02:03,440 --> 01:02:04,440
And like school and stuff like that.

1410
01:02:04,440 --> 01:02:06,440
I just want to get everything done.

1411
01:02:06,440 --> 01:02:07,440
You know what I need?

1412
01:02:07,440 --> 01:02:08,440
I just want to go on a beach.

1413
01:02:08,440 --> 01:02:11,440
And I want to be a peanut colada.

1414
01:02:11,440 --> 01:02:13,440
And I want to get the waves.

1415
01:02:13,440 --> 01:02:15,440
And that's what I really need.

1416
01:02:15,440 --> 01:02:19,440
I just need a break for a second.

1417
01:02:19,440 --> 01:02:21,440
How about you, Deon?

1418
01:02:21,440 --> 01:02:23,440
I'm probably a 5.

1419
01:02:23,440 --> 01:02:25,440
Damn. Why is that?

1420
01:02:25,440 --> 01:02:27,440
Because I lost my edge forever.

1421
01:02:27,440 --> 01:02:28,440
You said you lost your edges?

1422
01:02:28,440 --> 01:02:29,440
No, my edge.

1423
01:02:29,440 --> 01:02:32,440
No, I'm a 1, but you beat that edge.

1424
01:02:32,440 --> 01:02:35,440
Like school be too busy.

1425
01:02:35,440 --> 01:02:37,440
I don't get to gym like everything I used to.

1426
01:02:37,440 --> 01:02:41,440
I used to be a lot harder on myself.

1427
01:02:41,440 --> 01:02:43,440
And a good way though.

1428
01:02:43,440 --> 01:02:45,440
I fight the grind slow down a little bit.

1429
01:02:45,440 --> 01:02:47,440
So I'm looking forward to want to break.

1430
01:02:47,440 --> 01:02:49,440
Because when I break is when the cut starts.

1431
01:02:49,440 --> 01:02:52,440
So up 5am outside running.

1432
01:02:52,440 --> 01:02:54,440
Training that I say one day.

1433
01:02:54,440 --> 01:02:57,440
Trying to drop like 40 pounds in 4 weeks.

1434
01:02:57,440 --> 01:02:59,440
And then jump back on the floor.

1435
01:02:59,440 --> 01:03:00,440
How do you do that?

1436
01:03:00,440 --> 01:03:07,440
Is this calories in calories out?

1437
01:03:07,440 --> 01:03:10,440
I lost my edge because I feel like when I'm in the gym now.

1438
01:03:10,440 --> 01:03:12,440
I've been thinking about how you wasn't here 2 days ago.

1439
01:03:12,440 --> 01:03:13,440
You missed 2 days.

1440
01:03:13,440 --> 01:03:15,440
And I'd be in my video right now.

1441
01:03:15,440 --> 01:03:17,440
So I could beat myself up a lot.

1442
01:03:17,440 --> 01:03:20,440
Because I'm not as scripted as I used to be.

1443
01:03:20,440 --> 01:03:21,440
I feel like it's okay though.

1444
01:03:21,440 --> 01:03:23,440
Because you're doing it for a good reason.

1445
01:03:23,440 --> 01:03:24,440
You were at school.

1446
01:03:24,440 --> 01:03:26,440
It's not like you just want to play video games or something.

1447
01:03:26,440 --> 01:03:28,440
There's something I used to do with you.

1448
01:03:28,440 --> 01:03:31,440
But like you're still getting it done.

1449
01:03:31,440 --> 01:03:33,440
You told work at the toilet though.

1450
01:03:33,440 --> 01:03:34,440
You'd be angry.

1451
01:03:34,440 --> 01:03:35,440
You wouldn't break out in the future.

1452
01:03:35,440 --> 01:03:39,440
But you never thought of like mapping your time out.

1453
01:03:39,440 --> 01:03:41,440
Like having a schedule.

1454
01:03:41,440 --> 01:03:43,440
Sometimes you do.

1455
01:03:43,440 --> 01:03:45,440
And then I get the text and things.

1456
01:03:45,440 --> 01:03:46,440
But you'll hop on the game.

1457
01:03:46,440 --> 01:03:47,440
Oh my god.

1458
01:03:47,440 --> 01:03:48,440
You ain't that though.

1459
01:03:48,440 --> 01:03:49,440
I didn't make a proper part like that.

1460
01:03:49,440 --> 01:03:51,440
And then I hop on the game with them.

1461
01:03:51,440 --> 01:03:53,440
I'm like I don't play the 2 hours.

1462
01:03:53,440 --> 01:03:54,440
And then that 2 hours fan is.

1463
01:03:54,440 --> 01:03:55,440
It go by so fast.

1464
01:03:55,440 --> 01:03:58,440
And I was like nah, I didn't do that.

1465
01:03:58,440 --> 01:04:00,440
I didn't smoke playing the game.

1466
01:04:00,440 --> 01:04:02,440
Now I'm going to get out.

1467
01:04:02,440 --> 01:04:03,440
I have a question for you.

1468
01:04:03,440 --> 01:04:06,440
Do you feel like smoking would interfere with your ultimate goal?

1469
01:04:06,440 --> 01:04:07,440
Or do you think you can do both?

1470
01:04:07,440 --> 01:04:08,440
And so be fine?

1471
01:04:08,440 --> 01:04:10,440
I found a way around that.

1472
01:04:10,440 --> 01:04:13,440
So after I'm done lifting, I smoke is like a reward.

1473
01:04:13,440 --> 01:04:15,440
Now I get to chill out.

1474
01:04:15,440 --> 01:04:18,440
So I'll probably go lift after I leave campus today.

1475
01:04:18,440 --> 01:04:20,440
So I'm not going to smoke for the next part of the week.

1476
01:04:20,440 --> 01:04:22,440
Did you worry about smoking?

1477
01:04:22,440 --> 01:04:23,440
Did you worry about something?

1478
01:04:23,440 --> 01:04:24,440
Yeah, but I'm good now.

1479
01:04:24,440 --> 01:04:25,440
I'm just like a time.

1480
01:04:25,440 --> 01:04:28,440
Okay, I'll have to shoot you sober up and you look okay.

1481
01:04:28,440 --> 01:04:30,440
I didn't sober up during this broadcast.

1482
01:04:30,440 --> 01:04:32,440
Oh my God.

1483
01:04:32,440 --> 01:04:37,440
Yeah, when I'm done lifting and I smoke, my body just be chilled.

1484
01:04:37,440 --> 01:04:39,440
So you don't have to get in the way of texture.

1485
01:04:39,440 --> 01:04:40,440
I respect that.

1486
01:04:40,440 --> 01:04:41,440
I respect that.

1487
01:04:41,440 --> 01:04:44,440
So, is there any questions y'all want to ask me?

1488
01:04:44,440 --> 01:04:49,440
Y'all like, you tell me, you know, any questions?

1489
01:04:49,440 --> 01:04:54,440
Break them into like you know.

1490
01:04:54,440 --> 01:05:03,440
Oh, I feel like it's between like, it's between like that six and seven,

1491
01:05:03,440 --> 01:05:08,440
probably a little bit of eight, because you know, like this semester by me being

1492
01:05:08,440 --> 01:05:14,440
in the by me being in the program, like by me being a social worker major period.

1493
01:05:14,440 --> 01:05:15,440
Thank you.

1494
01:05:15,440 --> 01:05:22,440
Thank you by me being in the program period and me finally like, understanding and getting

1495
01:05:22,440 --> 01:05:24,440
that feel of what's going on.

1496
01:05:24,440 --> 01:05:25,440
I say academics.

1497
01:05:25,440 --> 01:05:26,440
I'm there.

1498
01:05:26,440 --> 01:05:32,440
However, when it comes like outside life working in trying to maintain still keeping

1499
01:05:32,440 --> 01:05:33,440
me up.

1500
01:05:33,440 --> 01:05:38,440
I had I did something that a lot of people didn't know like I got help.

1501
01:05:38,440 --> 01:05:39,440
Like I got help.

1502
01:05:39,440 --> 01:05:40,440
Like I'm crazy.

1503
01:05:40,440 --> 01:05:42,440
Like I got a counselor.

1504
01:05:42,440 --> 01:05:47,440
Like it's nothing wrong with talking to a stranger and y'all build that relationship

1505
01:05:47,440 --> 01:05:52,440
to the point where they're able to help you and it drops off on you that people are you

1506
01:05:52,440 --> 01:05:54,440
able to help others.

1507
01:05:54,440 --> 01:06:01,440
So, yeah, because I'll say like when I started when we started this year, but this semester

1508
01:06:01,440 --> 01:06:03,440
I say it was cool.

1509
01:06:03,440 --> 01:06:09,440
But then like, you know, around homecoming and all that I was just like, I'm over it.

1510
01:06:09,440 --> 01:06:10,440
Like I was over it.

1511
01:06:10,440 --> 01:06:14,440
I'm almost at times like I'm over coming to the dad on campus.

1512
01:06:14,440 --> 01:06:18,440
Like if y'all don't call me anything, I don't have no drive to come up here.

1513
01:06:18,440 --> 01:06:19,440
Same.

1514
01:06:19,440 --> 01:06:24,640
It's like I don't have a drive like if I'm not here with my friends or like something

1515
01:06:24,640 --> 01:06:27,440
that I'm involved in like the organization on campus.

1516
01:06:27,440 --> 01:06:29,440
I'm involved in if it's nothing dealing with that or class.

1517
01:06:29,440 --> 01:06:32,440
I don't have no drive to come up here.

1518
01:06:32,440 --> 01:06:37,440
So I say mentally I'm like I'm where I'm at.

1519
01:06:37,440 --> 01:06:43,440
It's going to be hard to get like to eight, nine, ten, but that's seven and six and stuff.

1520
01:06:43,440 --> 01:06:44,440
Yeah.

1521
01:06:44,440 --> 01:06:46,440
And being, when Dion said five, that's in the middle.

1522
01:06:46,440 --> 01:06:50,440
So I give you that that's in the middle because at times it's like I say this, my middle

1523
01:06:50,440 --> 01:06:54,440
has been better because like sometimes at night I just be like over it.

1524
01:06:54,440 --> 01:06:56,440
Like I just be like I want to bust out crying.

1525
01:06:56,440 --> 01:06:59,440
But now it's like I haven't cried in a minute.

1526
01:06:59,440 --> 01:07:00,440
Same.

1527
01:07:00,440 --> 01:07:04,440
And I said that's like I haven't cried in a minute and that really changed.

1528
01:07:04,440 --> 01:07:10,440
Sometimes when I was like piss frustrated, I just bust out crying or like I still write

1529
01:07:10,440 --> 01:07:13,440
about everything like everything I do good or bad with that.

1530
01:07:13,440 --> 01:07:14,440
I write about it.

1531
01:07:14,440 --> 01:07:18,440
But like sometimes I owe like, you know, people say a good cry will help, but I haven't cried

1532
01:07:18,440 --> 01:07:19,440
in a minute.

1533
01:07:19,440 --> 01:07:22,440
And I tell people at the time, don't be afraid to get help.

1534
01:07:22,440 --> 01:07:26,440
And I felt like to like by us, you know, growing up in a black household, we was always told

1535
01:07:26,440 --> 01:07:28,440
that we don't need no therapist.

1536
01:07:28,440 --> 01:07:35,440
I feel like when we get older, we do because it's something like, there's some memories

1537
01:07:35,440 --> 01:07:40,440
and things that needs to be not patched up, but needs to be sealed so things can work

1538
01:07:40,440 --> 01:07:41,440
out for us mentally.

1539
01:07:41,440 --> 01:07:47,440
So yeah, I say like now that I'm talking to somebody has somebody to talk to stuff.

1540
01:07:47,440 --> 01:07:52,440
Besides my parents, I feel like more I'm feeling mentally better.

1541
01:07:52,440 --> 01:07:53,440
I'm not crying.

1542
01:07:53,440 --> 01:07:54,440
I'm not sad.

1543
01:07:54,440 --> 01:07:57,440
And I'm not sweating a small stuff because that was my problem.

1544
01:07:57,440 --> 01:07:59,440
Like things people used to say and do to me.

1545
01:07:59,440 --> 01:08:04,440
It used to trigger me and piss me off to the point where I want to lash out to the point

1546
01:08:04,440 --> 01:08:08,440
where I had to distance myself because when it came to my mental, it was like, bro, I

1547
01:08:08,440 --> 01:08:09,440
work two jobs.

1548
01:08:09,440 --> 01:08:10,440
I go to school.

1549
01:08:10,440 --> 01:08:11,440
I have a pocket.

1550
01:08:11,440 --> 01:08:13,440
I don't got time for that.

1551
01:08:13,440 --> 01:08:19,440
Like, you know, if we not here, like I, I, we each other, I don't want to hear it.

1552
01:08:19,440 --> 01:08:24,440
You know, so I just want to be surrounded by good vibes and good vibes only.

1553
01:08:24,440 --> 01:08:31,440
Yeah, I say like my mental like a six in a seven to and yeah, don't be afraid to get

1554
01:08:31,440 --> 01:08:32,440
help.

1555
01:08:32,440 --> 01:08:35,440
Like don't be afraid to vent to someone because you never know.

1556
01:08:35,440 --> 01:08:38,440
Like they could really help you out a lot.

1557
01:08:38,440 --> 01:08:39,440
So yeah.

1558
01:08:39,440 --> 01:08:40,440
Any questions?

1559
01:08:40,440 --> 01:08:45,440
You still give me Mario because you're like, you just asked me.

1560
01:08:45,440 --> 01:09:00,440
You know, oh my gosh fight you now or later.

1561
01:09:00,440 --> 01:09:02,440
You gonna get your Mario.

1562
01:09:02,440 --> 01:09:04,440
I'm still gonna get your Mario.

1563
01:09:04,440 --> 01:09:06,440
I told him I'm gonna get his Mario.

1564
01:09:06,440 --> 01:09:08,440
What do you say?

1565
01:09:08,440 --> 01:09:13,440
You're gonna get on Christmas like relax.

1566
01:09:13,440 --> 01:09:16,440
Like he just like a big key.

1567
01:09:16,440 --> 01:09:23,440
So is there anything else you guys want to talk about?

1568
01:09:23,440 --> 01:09:24,440
Oh, you're right.

1569
01:09:24,440 --> 01:09:25,440
A rat rat rat.

1570
01:09:25,440 --> 01:09:26,440
Yeah, man.

1571
01:09:26,440 --> 01:09:28,440
Nothing comes to mind.

1572
01:09:28,440 --> 01:09:30,440
It'd be like that.

1573
01:09:30,440 --> 01:09:32,440
You don't know.

1574
01:09:32,440 --> 01:09:34,440
Alrighty guys.

1575
01:09:34,440 --> 01:09:35,440
Okay.

1576
01:09:35,440 --> 01:09:36,440
Okay.

1577
01:09:36,440 --> 01:09:41,440
Well, I think you guys so, so very much, but even have the time to sit down and divide

1578
01:09:41,440 --> 01:09:43,440
out with me.

1579
01:09:43,440 --> 01:09:44,440
I appreciate it a lot.

1580
01:09:44,440 --> 01:09:46,440
And I think y'all so, so much y'all.

1581
01:09:46,440 --> 01:09:49,440
Y'all been supporting me since it even came out.

1582
01:09:49,440 --> 01:09:51,440
So yeah, big shout out to y'all.

1583
01:09:51,440 --> 01:09:56,440
So with that being said, y'all, I think you guys also very much for hearing our raw and

1584
01:09:56,440 --> 01:09:58,440
very, very uncut conversation.

1585
01:09:58,440 --> 01:10:01,440
I wish you guys another piece of blessings.

1586
01:10:01,440 --> 01:10:06,440
Please stay safe out here and also please, please watch out for your surroundings because

1587
01:10:06,440 --> 01:10:08,440
you know, when it hit five o'clock, it gets dark.

1588
01:10:08,440 --> 01:10:12,440
It's hell outside because I'm looking at the window right now and it's really dark.

1589
01:10:12,440 --> 01:10:17,440
And I hope you guys also enjoy your holiday because it's holiday season.

1590
01:10:17,440 --> 01:10:18,440
I want y'all to be safe.

1591
01:10:18,440 --> 01:10:22,440
You know, go to the doctor, get them checked up, shots, all that good stuff.

1592
01:10:22,440 --> 01:10:28,440
So yes, as always, you guys will hear from me next Wednesday.

1593
01:10:28,440 --> 01:10:38,440
Bye.