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Hey y'all, whether it is morning, evening, or afternoon,

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I'm just glad that you guys have decided to vibe with me.

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Yes, the one and only Eve.

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And today, I'm vibing out with a special someone.

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So today's episode will be very different.

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So if you're new here, welcome, welcome, welcome.

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And for those of you who are not new to this, but true to this,

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hey, y'all, what's up?

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What's poppin'?

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So without further ado, I want you guys to sit back, relax,

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enjoy the show.

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Whether you want to go or on the move,

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I'm just glad that you guys decided to vibe out with me.

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So let's get into it.

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Today, I'm vibing out with Zay, but people call me Zay2K.

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OK.

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Types of it.

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All right, Zay.

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So first, tell me a little bit about yourself.

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I'm from Maryland.

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I go to Morgan State.

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I major in business administration.

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I make music.

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Oh, OK, OK.

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And what type of music do you make?

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I make it different.

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I make all types of music.

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Let us know.

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Rap, singing, melodic.

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Mm.

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OK.

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Pissing that.

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OK.

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How long have you been making music?

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I've been making music since like ninth grade.

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Ooh.

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But I really started taking it serious when I came to Morgan.

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What made you want to make music, though?

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Like, what was your, like, try to make music?

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I feel like I've been through a lot since I was a kid.

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So I was like, I had to find a way

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to cope with the things I've been through.

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And I feel like since I've been through a lot,

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books relate to me.

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So my music kind of helps other people out.

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Really?

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OK, I like that.

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I like that.

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I like that.

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And I like music.

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Like, I had an episode on music.

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If you didn't check that out, like, music is one of the key ways

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that we express ourselves.

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Even if we can't express it like drawing or whatever,

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like, music is one of the things that help everybody.

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And they help me, too.

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So I'm going to check that out.

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So yeah, y'all go check out Zayn music and stuff like that.

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I'm going to put this tag and everything in there, too.

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So yeah, go support.

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OK?

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What type of music do you listen to?

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Type of music I listen to.

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I like old R&B, soul, jazz.

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The new generation, don't get me wrong,

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but the new generation is like, you can get hip to it

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if you're in that mood.

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But me, I really got to be in the mood to be listened to it

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on a daily.

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Like, I like soft stuff.

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Like, I like Wale.

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People will laugh at me.

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I'll be like, I love Wale.

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Like, he different.

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Love Brand.

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I was just about to say, ah!

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He real valid, real valid.

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I love Brand.

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I love Brand.

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Them two, I listen to him all day.

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All day.

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Is it a new album?

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Love it.

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And I was just telling one of my friends, I was like,

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at first, I was like, people are not really going to feel it

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because they don't understand it.

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And everybody's music is different from today and yesterday,

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as they say.

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But I feel like certain people make certain music

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for certain people.

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And I always say people that create music are poetic.

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Because the way you doing it on a beat, like, come on now.

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I can't do that.

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I write poetry, but I'm not putting my ass on a beat

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in trying to say.

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I'm sorry.

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So shout out to you and everybody else

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that can do that because that's Caroline.

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I can't.

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I can't.

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You can do it.

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But just more like, you got to just kind of, yeah,

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believe in yourself.

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Yeah, you right.

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I'm going to try.

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I'm going to try.

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I'll probably let you help me.

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But I don't know.

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I'm like, nah.

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But OK.

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OK.

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So tell me, where do you see yourself when it comes to your

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music?

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Do you see yourself being like a brand?

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Or how do you see yourself?

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I see myself as being Z2K.

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I feel I see myself just being kind of unique and different

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than other artists.

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The way I like make my music, the way I express myself with

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music.

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So you say Z2K.

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Like, where did that damn come from?

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Because we all have these names.

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And people will be like, how you came up with your names?

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I'll be like, tell us where did Z2K come from?

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I think I was like, I think I was in sixth or ninth grade.

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My Instagram account got deleted.

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And I was like, anything but name, something.

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So I was like, I want to be called Zay.

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And I'd be playing 2K.

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So I was like, I kind of mix that together.

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And I was like, Z2K.

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OK, OK.

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Oh, OK.

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It's playing a song for you, though.

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It's playing a song for you.

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That's all I can do.

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Is I can sing it.

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Some courses.

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Yeah, it's cool.

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It's cool.

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So, since we've been out with you today,

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what you want to talk about?

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What you want to vibe out with?

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Because we talk about the music a little bit

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without you on the vibe out with.

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Shoot, we could talk about so many things I want to talk about.

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Well, hmm.

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Don't be a nerd.

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Morgan State.

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OK, OK.

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Since we are bears, and we are bears,

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you don't start no mess.

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We don't play.

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I don't know.

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I'm sorry.

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So, OK, because we did talk about this earlier

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before we started recording.

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I say this, being a bear, I don't regret it.

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I don't regret coming to Morgan State because, like I said,

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I went to a community college.

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And I was surrounded by not a lot of people

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that looked like us.

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So when I was out there, my whole purpose

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was to get the work done and get out.

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But when you come, when you have Morgan,

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it's like you meet a lot of people.

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You get into things, and it helps you become the person

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that you are.

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And you become in love with the person

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that you are potential to be.

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And you meet a lot of people.

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And you be like, whoa.

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Because I mentioned earlier, when I came here,

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I was just like, my first semester when I transferred,

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I was in and out.

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I had that same mindset when I was in community college.

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Like, I'm here, and I'm out.

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But then, like, that spring semester,

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and I got a feel of it.

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I started talking to people, stepping out of my shell.

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And I was like, hey, I want to connect more with people,

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get a sense of everything.

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But overall, I say, Morgan, it is very good.

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Like, academics-wise, it's good.

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Every university has their problems and shit.

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But I say myself, like, Morgan been

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helping me through a lot, especially the staff here

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too.

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So yeah, I'm regretted.

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How do you feel?

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How do I feel?

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Freshman year at Morgan, I was just having fun.

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Like, it was really, I was like, this is the school I want

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to go to.

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And then, like, you know, I feel like when you go to college,

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you try to, like, not fit in, but try

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to find your place and stuff.

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And it's kind of hard to do that freshman year when, like,

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you kind of just don't know where you fit in.

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So like, freshman year, I was just having fun, you know,

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I find myself.

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And like, spring semester, I started, like, you know,

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started, like, I don't know the word, but like, I started to,

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like, catch a feeling of Morgan State.

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Try, you see, you could fit in, you got, OK, you know,

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your place here.

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And I'm comfortable, yeah.

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I get that.

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Then, like, I'm a sophomore now.

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And then, like, sophomore year, I'm kind of like,

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I know what I'm supposed to do.

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I know the people.

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I know how to move around.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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But I do, like, applaud Morgan State,

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because Morgan State did help me, like, become who I am today.

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You know, they do have some great staff here.

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They do have some, they do have some bad professors here

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and here and there.

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But the students here, though, they're really interesting.

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Quite interesting.

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People, like, some students or, like, classmates, whatever,

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you know, say.

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Something to be moving weird, but, like, like, when you really

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find your people, you really find your people.

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And, like, I always, like, it would laugh at me when I say,

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like, if I go to college, I want to experience that,

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that experience of, like, a different world,

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like the series they had back then, like, cool.

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I felt like everything in the 90s was just, like,

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it was worth it, especially going to college and the HBCU

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lifestyle.

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They had, like, grass, sororities, RAs,

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how they were RAs was, a professor, the sisterhoods,

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everything.

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I was like, I want to go to a HBCU that's just like that.

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And I want to be surrounded by people that's good.

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Excuse me.

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Bless you.

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Thank you.

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I want to be surrounded by people that's like that,

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like, make me have a purpose to come to school.

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Not even just, like, yeah, I'm here for a purpose to get a

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degree, but I also want to feel like I'll be able to make

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friends here for a lifetime.

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Because, like, you know, a lot of people, they come to college,

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they be like, they be the best times of your life,

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and you meet the best people in your life that you'll be

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friends with forever.

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And I was like, yeah, come in the morning.

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And that experience, I'm getting a sense of that.

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It's still like a process, but it's like I'm getting a sense

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of, like, who I want to be around, who I am, what I don't

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tolerate and what I'm intolerant.

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And then also going back to professors, too, like, I'm a

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social work major.

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And these professors that I have, their doctors, PhDs, they

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have all that.

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And I always tell people, too, you always want to be in good

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graces with your professors, even if they get on your

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nerves, you need to be in good graces with them.

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Because those are the ones that have been through this.

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And they're in this.

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They're preparing us for, like, I believe in, like, the

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pressure.

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Because pressure helps people.

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And sometimes it's like, people can take it as some can.

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And the professors that I have so far, like, they've been

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pushing me and pushing me.

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And I appreciate that.

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And I appreciate that, too, from Morgan.

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Because, like, I don't know, when I was at CCBC, that's a

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community college, if those that you don't know, I felt

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pushed but not pushed enough.

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Because I wasn't surrounded by a lot of professors that

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looked like me.

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I didn't count on one hand how many professors I had that

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looked just like me.

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And it was only two.

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Like, shout out to them, too.

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But it's like, too, like, when you're around, I feel like

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your people, you're more pushed.

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You feel more accepted.

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You feel like I'm comfortable with you.

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So yeah, I agree with you.

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I feel like a problem, I did make freshman year.

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I surrounded myself with the wrong people.

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And they really brought me down.

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I went through, I'm not going to lie, I went through

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depression and anxiety freshman year because I was just

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around the wrong people.

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Yeah, but I'm glad, like, I'm glad, like, we also talked

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about it, too, y'all.

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Before we even started recording, we was preparing.

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It was like, oh my god, I want to connect the mics down.

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But really, we were at, it was like, no.

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Because you don't want to interrupt.

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But like, we did talk about how, like, they mentioned that

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within listening to all of my episodes, they said, I'm big

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on a mental.

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I appreciate you for noticing that.

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Because I am, the mental is a terrible thing to a, and then

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also for us being in college, we cannot drain ourself for

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so much because once you do, it's like you're out of it.

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And then once you're mentally out of it, you're physically

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out of it, I don't even want to go to school.

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I don't want to do nothing.

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Yeah, it's like, it's no motivation not there.

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Then like when you said, too, being around the wrong people,

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too, can also drain you.

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Yeah, because you need to be surrounded by people that's

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willing to help you.

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You help me, I help you.

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You want to be surrounded by people that's, you know, we're

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in college, you know, we have our moments where we fuck up

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and shit, you know, but it's so many times you don't want to

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fuck up because, like, I pay my money to go here.

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Like I'm getting money and stuff and people help me, so I

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don't want to fuck it up.

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But I also want to be able to explore the college life, but

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I also got to make sure that, you know, I'm here for, let it

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be known like, too, like I'm here for purpose.

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So let me make sure this purpose is in check before I do

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anything like, you know, I say don't, you know, live that

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college life, but also be cautious of everything you do

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and who you be around.

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But I say, like, every day you learn something new, too.

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So it's like, when you were a freshman, you learn and now

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you're a sophomore, you like, you're better, you work on

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your menswear and everything.

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So that's a plus because, like, I know some people who, they're

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still drained because they just don't know what to do and I'm

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not going to lie to you, it takes time, it takes time, but

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once you get yourself together, start starting over or anything,

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the best feeling ever.

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I always say people don't be afraid, just do it.

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Like, thank you, just do it.

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But yeah, that's a good point, too.

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And I'm glad like you are accepting the fact and then you

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were able to say you were having problems because that's

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another thing, too, us being in college, it's hard to express

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ourselves.

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It's hard.

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But I feel like also working with your surround people and

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they give you resources to help you sit down.

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Like, they have counselors, they have doctors, everything

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here, and then people in your major stuff, they're also

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willing to help you.

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So that's a big plus, also, too.

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Well, yeah, I agree with you with that.

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I really do.

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I agree.

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So, yeah, I agree with you.

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Um, and what's your major in again?

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I'm a social work major.

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And how's that going for you?

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As fate is, I'm finally in my program as of fall 2023.

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I say this, if you want to be a social worker, and whatever

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social you've got to be, you have to be prepared for

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everything that comes in your way.

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You'll have clients that'll give you the blues.

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You'll have clients that, you know, it's a lot, but you've

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got to honestly be prepared because as a future social

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worker that want to work with children, it is my duty to

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help them for the better.

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Even if I have to dig deeper, that's another thing to, you

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got to dig deep, especially with an mental, you have to dig

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deep on how this happened, why this happened.

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How do you help out your mental?

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For my mental, like you say you do music, I write about it.

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Writing saved me as a child.

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Like every time I would feel down or something like that, I

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would write about it.

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Writing was one of my coping piece ever methods that still

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helps me today.

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You know, everybody, and I always tell people, what makes

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you happy?

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Let that help you mentally because say if you're having a

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bad day, instead of lashing out, do something that makes you

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happy, like people paint, doing music like you, I like to

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write.

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And also the podcast helped me too.

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Because we mentioned earlier, I listen to podcasts, listen to

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music, we talk about it.

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Listening to other people also helps you too.

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Because you never, like, we're human.

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People, you'll be surprised at who goes through shit that you

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wouldn't think that go through the same thing as you.

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Especially within the Black community too.

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Like that's really, really, really, really, that helps a

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lot.

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Because a lot of people will be like, I don't know what to do,

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I don't know what to do.

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That'd be like, what makes you happy?

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That can help you with your mental.

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Do something that makes you happy.

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So yeah, that's what I do for my mental.

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I write, and I always encourage people, like whatever you

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like doing, fashion, drawing, paint, ever, that's your safe

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space to go there.

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And it's going to help you.

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One thing that really did help me was, when I was going

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through it, was I've been like, feel my inner child.

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And the way I hope, feel my inner child was doing things I

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did when I was younger, like watching shows.

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I used to watch Coward, Curious to Cowardly, The

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Dollars, and the like.

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I don't remember what it's called.

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It's on Netflix.

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Or nah, it's on Curious Network.

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And just doing things I like doing around with a child.

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Like going on walks, nature walks too, that really

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helped me a lot.

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Or just having that one person talk to about your

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feelings and things that you're going through.

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Not helping him, but sometimes friends, family, it's

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not really going to be there for you.

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So you just kind of be there for yourself.

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I think that's one of the toughest things about

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college, too.

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It's just going to be sometimes where you're not really

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going to have your friends not going to be able to help you

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out.

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You've got to help yourself out, too.

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Yeah, by being in college, not even just being in college,

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also, being in a thought, it's not easy.

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It's not easy.

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Imagine going to school, working, all that.

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It's not easy.

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So just imagine trying to live your life and also tell people

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like, what's going on?

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Because nothing too.

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You lose friends and you gain some.

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But it's like, I believe in that same thing.

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People come for the season and you have people that's there

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for a reason.

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Family members is hard, too.

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Because you know, people are like, you can't do that.

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That's your family.

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But sometimes you have to distance yourself from family

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because certain family members just don't understand

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because it's a life.

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Life is life.

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People don't understand that life be really life in front of you.

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But when it comes to your life, I always

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help people live for you and don't let nobody control it.

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Because it's your world.

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That's how I live, too.

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I'm only going to live this life once.

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I might as well do what I want to do.

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I want to talk to that girl.

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I want to talk to that girl.

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If I want to, I don't know.

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I'm not going to say crash out.

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But just do what you want to do.

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It's like, damn, I'm a lot of person.

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Yeah, go ahead.

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All right, cool.

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Just do what you want to do.

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It's like, shit, if you have a dream, chase that shit.

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Period.

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Period.

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I like that.

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I like that.

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You can achieve anything you want to do in this life

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as long as you believe in yourself and put the work in.

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Period.

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OK, so you said a lot of dreams.

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So what are your dreams?

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What are you manifesting for yourself?

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Let's put it like that.

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Yeah, that's best.

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I mean, one of the things I do, one of my dreams

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is to blow up.

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I know it's going to happen.

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But it's better than that, though.

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I kind of want to help the world out somehow.

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To speak my truth and speak my story.

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And also, you know, everybody wants to be raised.

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Of course, of course.

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I see myself like, I see myself up, like years

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from now, you know, with a little bad days, you know.

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Like, music, chilling at the Bahamas.

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Oh, so did.

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But I mean, hey, like, I don't believe in a term

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that's five to six.

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I feel like there's no limit in life.

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So yeah, if you got a dream you manifest it, go for it.

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It's worth it.

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Go get it.

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I applaud it.

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Yeah, I like that.

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I like the sound of that.

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Why not?

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Rock out.

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So I have a question.

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If I you being a business major, what

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are you going to use your degree in?

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I'm not like, I have some ideas, but not

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race expressing it, but I have some ideas.

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Some things I'm working on behind the scenes.

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I believe.

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I believe in that.

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I believe in that.

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And at times, even when you're in college

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and you are doing something, it is kind of like,

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it's a hassle.

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Because it's like, business, you can do anything and everything.

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Shout out to all you business majors,

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because you all can do it.

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Edit everything with a business degree.

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And you can have your own business, help people

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to do business things like that.

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So it's like, it's a lot.

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And even by us being in the business building,

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it's like, y'all can get a lot done in here

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and do a lot with a business degree.

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And I don't need to do like, masters or anything.

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You can, but are you going to do like your masters

522
00:20:40,920 --> 00:20:41,920
and stuff like that?

523
00:20:41,920 --> 00:20:43,880
Most likely.

524
00:20:43,880 --> 00:20:47,680
I wonder of classes that be stressing me out here,

525
00:20:47,680 --> 00:20:52,400
working as an I-NAS as, oh my god.

526
00:20:52,400 --> 00:20:54,440
Like you guys, any business major,

527
00:20:54,440 --> 00:20:56,080
they're going to tell you like, that's one like the worst,

528
00:20:56,080 --> 00:20:57,680
not the worst class.

529
00:20:57,680 --> 00:20:58,920
Tell us about that class.

530
00:20:58,920 --> 00:20:59,600
Like, what is it?

531
00:20:59,600 --> 00:21:01,400
That's my first time ever hearing about that.

532
00:21:01,400 --> 00:21:04,000
That's thing too, working at hella classes up here

533
00:21:04,000 --> 00:21:06,160
that people do not be knowing about.

534
00:21:06,160 --> 00:21:07,800
So express a little bit on that.

535
00:21:07,800 --> 00:21:08,960
Like, what is that?

536
00:21:08,960 --> 00:21:11,400
Like, basically, we just worked on like,

537
00:21:11,400 --> 00:21:15,880
we learned how to use Excel, PowerPoint.

538
00:21:15,880 --> 00:21:18,720
All the basics of Microsoft was 360.

539
00:21:18,720 --> 00:21:20,960
Yeah, it was like, it's like a class for like,

540
00:21:20,960 --> 00:21:22,280
I want to say it's for old people,

541
00:21:22,280 --> 00:21:24,880
but like the way how they like teach it is like,

542
00:21:24,880 --> 00:21:26,960
they've been teaching us like, we're 50 years old.

543
00:21:26,960 --> 00:21:30,000
Oh, dang.

544
00:21:30,000 --> 00:21:33,440
But you, I mean, like by us, like the new generation

545
00:21:33,440 --> 00:21:36,160
or whatever, we're going to like, then do with adults.

546
00:21:36,160 --> 00:21:38,440
We know all that too, in high school.

547
00:21:38,440 --> 00:21:40,480
So like, I was a master in it.

548
00:21:40,480 --> 00:21:42,680
It was to the point where people was like, I should do IT.

549
00:21:42,680 --> 00:21:45,240
I'm like, nah, I don't like coding all that.

550
00:21:45,240 --> 00:21:49,680
But I felt like, yeah, with Microsoft Excel,

551
00:21:49,680 --> 00:21:53,080
Microsoft Word, I'm sorry, Microsoft Excel,

552
00:21:53,080 --> 00:21:56,040
PowerPoint and scrolls are the basics right there.

553
00:21:56,040 --> 00:21:57,320
But you'll be surprised at the things

554
00:21:57,320 --> 00:21:58,720
that you can do on there.

555
00:21:58,720 --> 00:22:01,120
Like, I love a good PowerPoint.

556
00:22:01,120 --> 00:22:02,360
I love a good PowerPoint.

557
00:22:02,360 --> 00:22:04,640
I can do a whole bunch of stuff with it.

558
00:22:04,640 --> 00:22:08,720
Now, Excel, I don't like that because I don't like math.

559
00:22:08,720 --> 00:22:11,480
I can't stand it, but like, I'll use it

560
00:22:11,480 --> 00:22:13,200
because it helps you out.

561
00:22:13,200 --> 00:22:15,440
But sometimes putting stuff in the cells

562
00:22:15,440 --> 00:22:18,240
and get all my nerves, but I'm got better.

563
00:22:18,240 --> 00:22:21,720
So yeah, I got better, but yeah.

564
00:22:21,720 --> 00:22:26,840
But I understand like, sometimes when it comes to like,

565
00:22:26,840 --> 00:22:30,120
technology, it can be your best friend

566
00:22:30,120 --> 00:22:32,720
and it can be your worst enemy.

567
00:22:32,720 --> 00:22:34,720
Like, oh, like.

568
00:22:34,720 --> 00:22:36,040
Especially social media.

569
00:22:36,040 --> 00:22:37,320
Yes, yes.

570
00:22:37,320 --> 00:22:38,400
And that's what you say.

571
00:22:38,400 --> 00:22:42,720
By you doing music, how has social media been

572
00:22:42,720 --> 00:22:44,800
like your best friend at times?

573
00:22:44,800 --> 00:22:47,120
Like, I'm sick of it.

574
00:22:47,120 --> 00:22:50,040
Sometimes, you know, social media is like,

575
00:22:51,040 --> 00:22:52,840
it's very complicated, but like,

576
00:22:56,360 --> 00:22:59,160
social media helped me connect with other people

577
00:22:59,160 --> 00:23:02,520
who, you know, live far away or not help me,

578
00:23:02,520 --> 00:23:03,920
even help me meet you.

579
00:23:03,920 --> 00:23:05,080
Yeah.

580
00:23:05,080 --> 00:23:07,680
So like social media has its positives and negatives,

581
00:23:07,680 --> 00:23:10,040
you know, something that's going to hate,

582
00:23:10,040 --> 00:23:11,920
you know, why they could be hated in the generation.

583
00:23:11,920 --> 00:23:15,040
Social media, but you can't really focus on the hate

584
00:23:15,040 --> 00:23:17,800
because you want to, if you focus on the hate,

585
00:23:17,800 --> 00:23:20,200
then you get more hate, but you focus on the hate,

586
00:23:20,200 --> 00:23:22,760
you get more positive, you know, like a lot of,

587
00:23:22,760 --> 00:23:25,080
that's some type of a lot of attraction.

588
00:23:25,080 --> 00:23:28,760
Yeah, because I like, I thought about it, I'm like,

589
00:23:28,760 --> 00:23:30,680
when you do music, a lot of people that do music,

590
00:23:30,680 --> 00:23:32,600
like we talked about before, we started like,

591
00:23:32,600 --> 00:23:34,960
you know, you got your oozy, you got your brain,

592
00:23:34,960 --> 00:23:37,640
you got young boy and things like that.

593
00:23:37,640 --> 00:23:40,560
I just feel like the media is a place

594
00:23:40,560 --> 00:23:42,440
where you can be yourself and it's like,

595
00:23:42,440 --> 00:23:45,880
if you be yourself, you still get backlash.

596
00:23:45,880 --> 00:23:47,160
Like Kanye.

597
00:23:47,160 --> 00:23:48,480
Yeah.

598
00:23:48,480 --> 00:23:50,760
Like, oh my gosh.

599
00:23:50,760 --> 00:23:53,720
I'm like, people like call Kanye crazy, yeah, yeah, yeah.

600
00:23:53,720 --> 00:23:56,240
He might be a little crazy, no, that's not my business.

601
00:23:56,240 --> 00:23:58,560
But like, the thing that like I doubt

602
00:23:58,560 --> 00:24:00,080
they get like Kanye is,

603
00:24:01,320 --> 00:24:02,160
His flowers.

604
00:24:02,160 --> 00:24:05,360
His flowers, he's really his authentic self.

605
00:24:05,360 --> 00:24:08,160
Like he says what you want to say.

606
00:24:08,160 --> 00:24:10,600
And like that's like, I only look up to Kanye,

607
00:24:10,600 --> 00:24:12,120
but like he has an inspiration,

608
00:24:12,120 --> 00:24:14,560
but like one of my favorite rappers, X.

609
00:24:14,560 --> 00:24:15,400
Oh.

610
00:24:15,400 --> 00:24:19,680
He, you know, people have his other opinions about him,

611
00:24:19,680 --> 00:24:22,400
but I feel like he really did like, you know,

612
00:24:22,400 --> 00:24:24,960
create the, it's not created, but like,

613
00:24:26,400 --> 00:24:29,280
he had like a big empath, he has a big, like, yeah.

614
00:24:30,440 --> 00:24:31,640
I'll kind of explain it.

615
00:24:32,720 --> 00:24:37,480
I feel like he's, okay, I can't explain this.

616
00:24:37,480 --> 00:24:39,320
You haven't seen One Piece, right?

617
00:24:39,320 --> 00:24:40,720
Anime?

618
00:24:40,720 --> 00:24:42,040
I'm not big on anime.

619
00:24:42,040 --> 00:24:42,880
I'm sorry.

620
00:24:42,880 --> 00:24:44,640
Y'all gonna get my bird.

621
00:24:44,640 --> 00:24:46,320
And both of my best friends love it.

622
00:24:46,320 --> 00:24:48,320
The people who watch One Piece,

623
00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:52,040
they know just a person called Gordy Rodger.

624
00:24:52,040 --> 00:24:54,600
And like, he started a new pirate era.

625
00:24:54,600 --> 00:24:56,880
And then, you know, he died and he was like,

626
00:24:56,880 --> 00:24:59,040
go find my treasure, yeah, yeah, yeah.

627
00:24:59,040 --> 00:25:01,160
So I feel like X, he kind of had like something to do

628
00:25:01,160 --> 00:25:03,920
with the new wave of rap or the way how people

629
00:25:03,920 --> 00:25:06,240
express themselves today through music.

630
00:25:06,240 --> 00:25:09,040
And, you know, I give him as far as I'm not.

631
00:25:09,040 --> 00:25:12,160
Yeah, shout out to all of them because like,

632
00:25:12,160 --> 00:25:13,640
I listened to X music before.

633
00:25:13,640 --> 00:25:15,800
My little brother in love, X too.

634
00:25:15,800 --> 00:25:19,880
And like, you know, when you really listen to the things

635
00:25:19,880 --> 00:25:22,360
that people are saying, I honestly say,

636
00:25:22,360 --> 00:25:24,920
artists are storytellers, like we mentioned earlier,

637
00:25:24,920 --> 00:25:28,800
being able to just tell your story on a beat

638
00:25:28,800 --> 00:25:31,120
and letting it flow, that is one of them.

639
00:25:31,120 --> 00:25:32,160
Yeah, that's a lot.

640
00:25:32,160 --> 00:25:34,320
And that's one of the most, I feel like that's

641
00:25:34,320 --> 00:25:36,720
a real, real vibe of talent because a lot of people

642
00:25:36,720 --> 00:25:41,720
cannot be able to do that and then make it sound good.

643
00:25:42,160 --> 00:25:43,760
You know, even though we had the auto-tutors,

644
00:25:43,760 --> 00:25:46,480
that helps, like, that's, you know, that's good.

645
00:25:46,480 --> 00:25:50,200
But, and even when people do acapella or two,

646
00:25:50,200 --> 00:25:51,960
that also be like, wow.

647
00:25:52,720 --> 00:25:57,400
Like music, people in music is just a beautiful thing.

648
00:25:57,400 --> 00:25:59,760
Like going back on the episode I did on music,

649
00:25:59,760 --> 00:26:04,120
like music is one of the ways that helps mentally

650
00:26:04,120 --> 00:26:06,480
because there's people out there that makes music

651
00:26:06,480 --> 00:26:09,000
for certain purposes.

652
00:26:09,000 --> 00:26:13,240
So when it comes to music, like you mentioned,

653
00:26:13,240 --> 00:26:16,000
you wanna make music to help people too.

654
00:26:16,000 --> 00:26:19,360
Do you think that your music will impact,

655
00:26:19,360 --> 00:26:21,400
how would you think your music would impact people

656
00:26:21,400 --> 00:26:24,520
in general, especially for the new generation?

657
00:26:24,520 --> 00:26:26,080
I play for my music.

658
00:26:26,080 --> 00:26:29,400
The music I make is kind of like a escape.

659
00:26:29,400 --> 00:26:32,440
It's like, you know, a lot of people go through a lot

660
00:26:32,440 --> 00:26:34,440
and so like with my music, I kind of wanna make people

661
00:26:34,440 --> 00:26:36,480
feel like they're in different worlds.

662
00:26:36,480 --> 00:26:39,520
I think kind of like this, get away from real world reality

663
00:26:39,520 --> 00:26:41,520
and it's like, you know.

664
00:26:41,520 --> 00:26:44,240
So, you know, you're in a little dreamy state.

665
00:26:44,240 --> 00:26:49,240
Yeah, get away, get away, you know, express yourself.

666
00:26:50,600 --> 00:26:53,280
And I like that because like also too, like,

667
00:26:53,280 --> 00:26:55,280
maybe it's me, maybe not me, you know what,

668
00:26:55,280 --> 00:26:58,720
next time when you probably in your room, your car,

669
00:26:58,720 --> 00:27:01,840
whatever, if you have headphones on or not,

670
00:27:01,840 --> 00:27:05,120
I feel like we have headphones on, like air pods,

671
00:27:05,120 --> 00:27:07,560
beats and everything with noise cancellation,

672
00:27:07,560 --> 00:27:10,520
it's dark at night and you hear the music.

673
00:27:10,520 --> 00:27:11,360
That's his difference.

674
00:27:11,360 --> 00:27:13,800
Oh, it's different, see, I thought I was the only one.

675
00:27:13,800 --> 00:27:16,280
It hits different and it's like,

676
00:27:16,280 --> 00:27:18,440
you can listen to it on over and over again,

677
00:27:18,440 --> 00:27:20,200
but like once you hear it one night,

678
00:27:20,200 --> 00:27:22,720
like just on like, you just chillin' tip

679
00:27:22,720 --> 00:27:26,240
and you like, whoa, that's deep.

680
00:27:26,240 --> 00:27:29,080
And the way you did that, that's deep.

681
00:27:29,080 --> 00:27:32,920
That's really, really deep.

682
00:27:32,920 --> 00:27:36,360
And I feel like a lot of people, like,

683
00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:41,240
they try find their own way to escape from life.

684
00:27:41,240 --> 00:27:43,400
Like, you know, maybe listen to music

685
00:27:43,400 --> 00:27:45,480
or maybe go into the gym.

686
00:27:45,480 --> 00:27:46,440
Yeah.

687
00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:47,960
And you know, people would be like,

688
00:27:47,960 --> 00:27:50,200
oh, if you're feeling depressed, yada yada,

689
00:27:50,200 --> 00:27:52,120
go into the gym, yada yada.

690
00:27:52,120 --> 00:27:53,600
I mean, like, yeah, that helps too,

691
00:27:53,600 --> 00:27:55,560
but like, then that's like another way

692
00:27:55,560 --> 00:28:00,560
of you coping your problems away, you know, with addictions.

693
00:28:00,680 --> 00:28:02,080
Yeah, and that's the only thing too,

694
00:28:02,080 --> 00:28:04,680
like I say it early, when you come to your mental,

695
00:28:04,680 --> 00:28:07,720
I always tell people, do things that impacts

696
00:28:07,720 --> 00:28:09,320
with what you like.

697
00:28:09,320 --> 00:28:13,720
And sometimes when you do turn into getting,

698
00:28:13,720 --> 00:28:15,720
creating new habits, that also helps you like,

699
00:28:15,720 --> 00:28:18,920
I'm not gonna lie, like, after the spring semester,

700
00:28:18,920 --> 00:28:20,400
I started going to the gym.

701
00:28:20,400 --> 00:28:22,360
And it was helping, like, I would be in a gym,

702
00:28:22,360 --> 00:28:24,680
had a big soil, listen to podcasts,

703
00:28:24,680 --> 00:28:27,480
listen to music, help me out.

704
00:28:27,480 --> 00:28:29,200
And then I started slipping,

705
00:28:29,200 --> 00:28:33,040
because I was just like, the pain, like, I can't,

706
00:28:33,040 --> 00:28:34,280
like when I was in high school,

707
00:28:34,280 --> 00:28:37,840
like I was an athlete, a plate soccer and stuff like that.

708
00:28:37,840 --> 00:28:41,760
Then like, when I was in the process of transferring

709
00:28:41,760 --> 00:28:44,320
from one school to another, I lost it.

710
00:28:44,320 --> 00:28:47,320
So like back then, I felt like if I kept up,

711
00:28:47,320 --> 00:28:49,000
had a dream, I would have been cool.

712
00:28:49,000 --> 00:28:52,040
Would you know, sometimes it's best to start new things.

713
00:28:52,040 --> 00:28:54,920
Like I mentioned, the free set episode I had too,

714
00:28:54,920 --> 00:28:57,960
about starting, is a lot of pros and cons

715
00:28:57,960 --> 00:28:59,560
that comes with starting, but I felt like,

716
00:28:59,560 --> 00:29:02,040
don't be afraid to do it because you never know.

717
00:29:02,040 --> 00:29:05,200
Never know, like, another thing with music too,

718
00:29:05,200 --> 00:29:07,480
like some people, like they make music and, you know,

719
00:29:07,480 --> 00:29:10,240
they start and like, none's really happening for them

720
00:29:10,240 --> 00:29:13,000
and they start to like, they just not for me, yeah, yeah,

721
00:29:13,000 --> 00:29:15,960
yeah, but how I keep myself on is like,

722
00:29:15,960 --> 00:29:17,040
why am I bloated the next day?

723
00:29:17,040 --> 00:29:19,480
Or like, what if this opportunity comes in the next day?

724
00:29:19,480 --> 00:29:21,480
Like, you never know.

725
00:29:21,480 --> 00:29:24,000
That was very asked, like, have you had those moments

726
00:29:24,000 --> 00:29:26,360
in your life where you wanted to stop?

727
00:29:26,360 --> 00:29:29,160
Of course, of course, like, I had a lot more

728
00:29:29,160 --> 00:29:33,280
I wanted to stop, but then like, when I'm about to stop,

729
00:29:33,280 --> 00:29:34,600
a breakthrough happens.

730
00:29:34,600 --> 00:29:37,480
It's like, God really comes through for me.

731
00:29:37,480 --> 00:29:38,400
Mm-hmm.

732
00:29:38,400 --> 00:29:40,600
And you said you played sports when you was younger?

733
00:29:40,600 --> 00:29:42,080
Yeah.

734
00:29:42,080 --> 00:29:43,480
I have a story to tell.

735
00:29:43,480 --> 00:29:44,640
Go ahead.

736
00:29:44,640 --> 00:29:47,400
But I got to really talk about shit.

737
00:29:47,400 --> 00:29:51,280
It's not, it's not, it's really, fuck that coach, bro.

738
00:29:51,280 --> 00:29:53,720
No, now I'm gonna talk about shit.

739
00:29:53,720 --> 00:29:55,560
Bro, now I'm great, right?

740
00:29:55,560 --> 00:29:57,280
I tried out for a basketball team.

741
00:29:57,280 --> 00:29:59,120
Oh man.

742
00:30:00,920 --> 00:30:02,960
I tried out for a basketball team, right?

743
00:30:02,960 --> 00:30:03,920
Mm-hmm.

744
00:30:03,920 --> 00:30:05,200
You know, I go to the first trial,

745
00:30:05,200 --> 00:30:06,440
like I'm really hooping on these niggas,

746
00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:09,200
like I'm really doing my shit, you know, yada yada yada.

747
00:30:09,200 --> 00:30:11,640
You know, the first day ended and everybody was saying,

748
00:30:11,640 --> 00:30:13,960
like, damn, I didn't know you had it like that, yada yada.

749
00:30:13,960 --> 00:30:16,440
Yeah, I was like, yeah, I'm really talking to shit.

750
00:30:16,440 --> 00:30:18,960
Like, I'm really am.

751
00:30:18,960 --> 00:30:20,800
So then the second day, right?

752
00:30:20,800 --> 00:30:22,720
I'm doing my shit again, yada yada yada.

753
00:30:22,720 --> 00:30:24,480
Like, I'm scoring on these.

754
00:30:24,480 --> 00:30:25,960
I'm doing my shit, you know.

755
00:30:27,760 --> 00:30:30,160
Passing the ball around, you know, playing defense.

756
00:30:30,160 --> 00:30:32,480
Like, I feel like I really did my shit, right?

757
00:30:32,480 --> 00:30:33,520
Mm-hmm.

758
00:30:33,520 --> 00:30:36,960
So then I go to school the next day or the next week,

759
00:30:36,960 --> 00:30:41,560
whatever, and she puts the list on the door.

760
00:30:41,560 --> 00:30:43,880
So I'm looking, I'm looking, I'm like,

761
00:30:43,880 --> 00:30:46,280
damn, my name not there, right?

762
00:30:46,280 --> 00:30:49,920
So I'm like, I'm like, right, ain't no way, right?

763
00:30:49,920 --> 00:30:53,080
But, hold on, let me see more.

764
00:30:53,080 --> 00:30:55,680
So then I look at people on the list, right?

765
00:30:55,680 --> 00:30:58,400
Some of the players that did not try out that,

766
00:30:58,400 --> 00:31:00,200
oh, they made it on the team.

767
00:31:00,200 --> 00:31:02,680
So I was like, bro, I just got hoed.

768
00:31:02,680 --> 00:31:04,520
Like, I think I was that hoed.

769
00:31:04,520 --> 00:31:06,080
But like, you know, sometimes you like,

770
00:31:06,080 --> 00:31:08,400
sometimes people just don't make a team.

771
00:31:08,400 --> 00:31:11,480
They don't, I don't really care, but like,

772
00:31:11,480 --> 00:31:13,960
the person that was like playing my position

773
00:31:13,960 --> 00:31:16,880
made it on the team and I feel like I should be on the team.

774
00:31:16,880 --> 00:31:17,960
But like, you didn't even try out.

775
00:31:17,960 --> 00:31:21,000
I was like, some boy on behind the scenes, but like, you know,

776
00:31:21,000 --> 00:31:23,520
yeah, that's the spring road.

777
00:31:23,520 --> 00:31:24,360
I'm on see all that.

778
00:31:24,360 --> 00:31:29,800
I guess I think I'm the last year that spring broke.

779
00:31:29,800 --> 00:31:31,640
That basketball team started losing.

780
00:31:31,640 --> 00:31:33,240
But that's like, that's their karma for playing with you.

781
00:31:33,240 --> 00:31:34,240
Oh my God.

782
00:31:34,240 --> 00:31:38,360
Oh, dang.

783
00:31:38,360 --> 00:31:39,360
Oh my God.

784
00:31:39,360 --> 00:31:44,160
I was like, how did that affect you?

785
00:31:44,160 --> 00:31:45,800
Because like, we all had a moment in our life

786
00:31:45,800 --> 00:31:46,840
where it affected us.

787
00:31:46,840 --> 00:31:48,880
Like, we might have our moments.

788
00:31:48,880 --> 00:31:50,200
It might take days, weeks.

789
00:31:50,200 --> 00:31:52,040
I try not to make it go about months and years

790
00:31:52,040 --> 00:31:54,840
because like, I don't want to, you know,

791
00:31:54,840 --> 00:31:55,720
affecting your muscle.

792
00:31:55,720 --> 00:32:00,160
And then having you be afraid to even try again.

793
00:32:00,160 --> 00:32:01,000
You know?

794
00:32:01,000 --> 00:32:02,160
I'm not gonna lie.

795
00:32:02,160 --> 00:32:03,920
Me not making the team,

796
00:32:03,920 --> 00:32:05,640
Knife grade really did like,

797
00:32:05,640 --> 00:32:06,840
fuck up my mental a little bit.

798
00:32:06,840 --> 00:32:10,960
So I was like, I really gotta wait until next year

799
00:32:10,960 --> 00:32:12,440
to try that again.

800
00:32:12,440 --> 00:32:13,480
And this time I really don't know

801
00:32:13,480 --> 00:32:15,360
if I'm gonna make the team or not.

802
00:32:15,360 --> 00:32:18,280
But you know, I think I was like,

803
00:32:18,280 --> 00:32:20,320
I think I stopped playing basketball a little bit.

804
00:32:20,320 --> 00:32:22,040
But now I started playing basketball again.

805
00:32:22,040 --> 00:32:24,800
You know, I'm just trying to start out a practicing again.

806
00:32:24,800 --> 00:32:26,920
Start playing on like, AAU teams.

807
00:32:26,920 --> 00:32:27,760
Hell yeah.

808
00:32:27,760 --> 00:32:31,680
Shout out to them AAU teams.

809
00:32:31,680 --> 00:32:34,320
And then like, I think I'll,

810
00:32:34,320 --> 00:32:35,920
I don't think I'll try that out again.

811
00:32:35,920 --> 00:32:39,160
Think I really started to, started getting some music.

812
00:32:39,160 --> 00:32:40,760
I have another story time too.

813
00:32:40,760 --> 00:32:43,480
Go ahead, go ahead.

814
00:32:43,480 --> 00:32:47,760
So 12th grade, I was on a football team.

815
00:32:47,760 --> 00:32:49,960
You know, I was on the team.

816
00:32:49,960 --> 00:32:52,640
It was cool.

817
00:32:52,640 --> 00:32:54,000
But the coaches were asked.

818
00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:55,000
Oh my God.

819
00:32:55,000 --> 00:32:56,800
I'm exposing everybody.

820
00:32:56,800 --> 00:32:58,000
That is so mean.

821
00:32:58,000 --> 00:32:58,720
Spring broke.

822
00:32:58,720 --> 00:33:01,360
I'm really coming for y'all.

823
00:33:01,360 --> 00:33:03,120
You know, like the coaches were asked,

824
00:33:03,120 --> 00:33:05,040
but we had really great players like,

825
00:33:05,040 --> 00:33:07,680
like, bro, I think some of the players went D1

826
00:33:07,680 --> 00:33:09,280
or they were D2 now.

827
00:33:09,280 --> 00:33:12,360
No, there's like this one game.

828
00:33:12,360 --> 00:33:14,320
I was like, bro, I'm trying to get in.

829
00:33:14,320 --> 00:33:16,320
You know, I didn't get in the game.

830
00:33:16,320 --> 00:33:19,240
I told my, I told my good man, my man,

831
00:33:19,240 --> 00:33:20,920
I'm not gonna say his name, but me and, you know,

832
00:33:20,920 --> 00:33:22,440
we fell out.

833
00:33:22,440 --> 00:33:25,120
But I told him like, bro, I'm about to go home,

834
00:33:25,120 --> 00:33:27,280
go to the studio, make a song.

835
00:33:27,280 --> 00:33:28,920
I'm about to really crank that bitch out.

836
00:33:28,920 --> 00:33:30,120
Oh my God.

837
00:33:30,120 --> 00:33:32,040
And so I made this song and that song

838
00:33:32,040 --> 00:33:34,480
ended up becoming like my most played song too.

839
00:33:34,480 --> 00:33:36,720
Okay, okay.

840
00:33:36,720 --> 00:33:39,480
That's what really like, that's what really got me like,

841
00:33:39,480 --> 00:33:42,720
wanting to like keep on doing music because, you know,

842
00:33:42,720 --> 00:33:44,920
like basketball is kind of out of your control.

843
00:33:44,920 --> 00:33:47,320
Like, the sports out of your control.

844
00:33:47,320 --> 00:33:48,400
It's out of your control.

845
00:33:48,400 --> 00:33:50,240
And I like, you know, I always been looked

846
00:33:50,240 --> 00:33:53,000
as like the underdog like my whole life.

847
00:33:53,000 --> 00:33:55,720
So I was like, okay, I'm gonna do something

848
00:33:55,720 --> 00:33:59,960
that like I have like full control over and like, you know,

849
00:33:59,960 --> 00:34:02,080
like something that nobody can really control.

850
00:34:02,080 --> 00:34:02,960
Yeah.

851
00:34:02,960 --> 00:34:05,360
So that's why I really keep,

852
00:34:05,360 --> 00:34:08,160
that's why I really do music now.

853
00:34:08,160 --> 00:34:10,240
I like that. I support it.

854
00:34:10,240 --> 00:34:13,920
Because when it comes to even finding something

855
00:34:13,920 --> 00:34:16,520
that really impacts with you and even something

856
00:34:16,520 --> 00:34:20,680
that really like, wow, put a big impact on you

857
00:34:20,680 --> 00:34:22,120
and you fall in love with it.

858
00:34:22,120 --> 00:34:23,800
It's one of the best feelings I've ever like,

859
00:34:23,800 --> 00:34:26,560
with me, with the podcast, being able to talk

860
00:34:26,560 --> 00:34:28,920
and talk how I want to control how much,

861
00:34:28,920 --> 00:34:30,040
that's the best feeling ever.

862
00:34:30,040 --> 00:34:30,800
Talking shit.

863
00:34:30,800 --> 00:34:31,560
Yeah.

864
00:34:31,560 --> 00:34:35,160
Sometimes, you know, but like, I always try to,

865
00:34:35,160 --> 00:34:39,200
you know, I'm big on that mental, that self-improvement

866
00:34:39,200 --> 00:34:40,640
and that self-empowerment.

867
00:34:40,640 --> 00:34:42,320
Cause at times it's like, you know,

868
00:34:42,320 --> 00:34:44,680
we need people to rely on.

869
00:34:44,680 --> 00:34:46,520
And I feel like within our community,

870
00:34:46,520 --> 00:34:49,240
see we need to rely on each other.

871
00:34:49,240 --> 00:34:51,440
It's how to keep going back and forth with each other

872
00:34:51,440 --> 00:34:53,920
and stuff, you know, I don't condone violence.

873
00:34:53,920 --> 00:34:55,080
I don't like mass.

874
00:34:55,080 --> 00:34:57,200
I don't like none of that.

875
00:34:57,200 --> 00:34:59,400
I'm real big on like coming together,

876
00:34:59,400 --> 00:35:00,920
collaborating with people.

877
00:35:00,920 --> 00:35:03,200
Cause you never know, like even like by us going

878
00:35:03,200 --> 00:35:06,760
to Morgan State and by us being here on Morgan State,

879
00:35:06,760 --> 00:35:09,280
doing the recording stuff and meeting people

880
00:35:09,280 --> 00:35:12,920
from different ages of and being able to collaborate

881
00:35:12,920 --> 00:35:13,760
with them in the future.

882
00:35:13,760 --> 00:35:15,680
That is like, worth it.

883
00:35:15,680 --> 00:35:19,400
You know, making relationships with people is worth it.

884
00:35:19,400 --> 00:35:22,680
But like, you know, sometimes, sometimes in relationships,

885
00:35:22,680 --> 00:35:25,280
we may, it may last for a reason,

886
00:35:25,280 --> 00:35:26,680
sometimes it might last for a season,

887
00:35:26,680 --> 00:35:30,160
but I always think of two, don't end on a bad note.

888
00:35:30,160 --> 00:35:31,840
Cause you don't want to leave on a bad note

889
00:35:31,840 --> 00:35:33,400
with people when they know, you know,

890
00:35:33,400 --> 00:35:38,200
nobody want to deal with that, that beef in mind.

891
00:35:38,200 --> 00:35:39,160
I feel like that's for girls.

892
00:35:39,160 --> 00:35:42,240
Like we had those problems where we just with beef.

893
00:35:42,240 --> 00:35:43,080
Really?

894
00:35:43,080 --> 00:35:44,400
Oh, no.

895
00:35:44,400 --> 00:35:46,320
Like I never really thought about that.

896
00:35:46,320 --> 00:35:49,160
Like I always sound like with us females,

897
00:35:49,160 --> 00:35:51,520
cause people be like, oh, y'all feel and see much

898
00:35:51,520 --> 00:35:52,360
and all that.

899
00:35:52,360 --> 00:35:56,160
Like, yeah, depending on who it is, it was a situation.

900
00:35:56,160 --> 00:35:57,000
It doles.

901
00:35:57,000 --> 00:35:59,840
I felt like it's whatever y'all just be like, it's whatever.

902
00:35:59,840 --> 00:36:02,000
But I never really thought that y'all would like that.

903
00:36:02,000 --> 00:36:03,120
What?

904
00:36:03,120 --> 00:36:04,560
That was crazy.

905
00:36:04,560 --> 00:36:05,400
Yeah.

906
00:36:05,400 --> 00:36:06,880
I feel like a lot of women in this generation,

907
00:36:06,880 --> 00:36:08,200
like it really just hurt.

908
00:36:08,200 --> 00:36:09,040
Really.

909
00:36:09,040 --> 00:36:10,360
Mm-hmm.

910
00:36:10,360 --> 00:36:14,240
Like, yeah, this is, you can't really get into it.

911
00:36:14,240 --> 00:36:16,080
But like, I feel like a lot of women in this generation

912
00:36:16,080 --> 00:36:16,920
really hurt.

913
00:36:16,920 --> 00:36:19,280
You know, like, you know, like, you know, like,

914
00:36:19,280 --> 00:36:21,680
you know, like, Tita went up, I guess.

915
00:36:21,680 --> 00:36:22,520
Really?

916
00:36:22,520 --> 00:36:23,440
Yeah, okay.

917
00:36:23,440 --> 00:36:25,400
Like, it's like nobody really trusts each other

918
00:36:25,400 --> 00:36:26,240
in this generation.

919
00:36:26,240 --> 00:36:27,080
Yeah.

920
00:36:27,080 --> 00:36:29,360
Yeah, trust, like, oh my God.

921
00:36:29,360 --> 00:36:30,880
You dig in deep.

922
00:36:30,880 --> 00:36:32,320
Trust, when it comes to me, even trust,

923
00:36:32,320 --> 00:36:33,160
that's the biggest thing.

924
00:36:33,160 --> 00:36:37,160
Like, the words forever, love, hate, and promise are,

925
00:36:37,160 --> 00:36:39,400
where does that stick to me?

926
00:36:39,400 --> 00:36:42,520
And those are like real big words that people be like,

927
00:36:42,520 --> 00:36:43,440
oh, that's nothing.

928
00:36:43,440 --> 00:36:44,280
You got a thing.

929
00:36:44,280 --> 00:36:46,440
Like, you're not just gonna tell anybody you love them.

930
00:36:46,440 --> 00:36:49,440
I feel like you need to be able to feel that love,

931
00:36:49,440 --> 00:36:50,640
explain why.

932
00:36:50,640 --> 00:36:52,920
Now, hate, that's real love.

933
00:36:52,920 --> 00:36:53,760
That's real love.

934
00:36:53,760 --> 00:36:54,720
Somebody's like, oh, I hate you.

935
00:36:54,720 --> 00:36:56,040
Like, whoa.

936
00:36:57,040 --> 00:36:58,360
Cause once you say that, that's it.

937
00:36:58,360 --> 00:36:59,200
That's gone.

938
00:36:59,200 --> 00:37:02,680
Like, I don't even wanna patch anything up.

939
00:37:02,680 --> 00:37:04,840
But I just feel like too, like I said earlier,

940
00:37:04,840 --> 00:37:06,280
tongue is a powerful thing.

941
00:37:06,280 --> 00:37:08,200
You gotta really be careful what you saying,

942
00:37:08,200 --> 00:37:09,640
how you say it, and who you saying it to.

943
00:37:09,640 --> 00:37:11,640
Cause you don't know who can take what,

944
00:37:11,640 --> 00:37:15,800
and who can manage what, and who the hell know who.

945
00:37:15,800 --> 00:37:17,720
That's another thing too.

946
00:37:17,720 --> 00:37:19,560
And yeah, like, it's a female.

947
00:37:19,560 --> 00:37:20,960
It is hard to trust.

948
00:37:20,960 --> 00:37:22,360
It's hard to trust.

949
00:37:22,360 --> 00:37:27,200
Now, the cheating thing, I don't know so much about it.

950
00:37:27,200 --> 00:37:31,360
I don't know her stories, you know, in the media display.

951
00:37:31,360 --> 00:37:33,000
And that's one of our biggest things too.

952
00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:34,560
I don't wanna deal with that.

953
00:37:34,560 --> 00:37:35,400
You don't.

954
00:37:35,400 --> 00:37:37,280
But it happens, you know it happens.

955
00:37:37,280 --> 00:37:41,160
But you just don't want it to happen in a way

956
00:37:41,160 --> 00:37:42,640
that you don't know how to handle it.

957
00:37:42,640 --> 00:37:44,520
And it'd be at times where we have situations

958
00:37:44,520 --> 00:37:45,560
that we can't handle.

959
00:37:46,560 --> 00:37:49,280
And they'd just be like, whoa.

960
00:37:49,280 --> 00:37:51,120
Like, oh.

961
00:37:51,120 --> 00:37:52,560
Sometimes like losing a woman in your life

962
00:37:52,560 --> 00:37:54,040
can only do a lot to the dance.

963
00:37:54,040 --> 00:37:56,320
You're like, look at me, milk.

964
00:37:56,320 --> 00:37:58,120
I don't know, don't do me like that.

965
00:37:58,120 --> 00:38:00,080
Don't do me like that.

966
00:38:00,080 --> 00:38:01,560
Don't do him like that.

967
00:38:01,560 --> 00:38:02,400
No, we not.

968
00:38:02,400 --> 00:38:03,240
No.

969
00:38:03,240 --> 00:38:04,080
No.

970
00:38:08,080 --> 00:38:09,000
I like me milk.

971
00:38:09,000 --> 00:38:11,640
I got a sense of, I like me milk.

972
00:38:11,640 --> 00:38:12,480
You cool?

973
00:38:12,480 --> 00:38:14,280
Yeah, I think you're cool.

974
00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:16,920
I just feel like for us, this generation period,

975
00:38:16,920 --> 00:38:21,440
it's hard because like, some of us wants to take things

976
00:38:21,440 --> 00:38:24,240
seriously, some of us just like, we just,

977
00:38:24,240 --> 00:38:27,920
we just get in the feel of who and then do whatever

978
00:38:27,920 --> 00:38:29,760
with who and that's it.

979
00:38:29,760 --> 00:38:32,640
So it's like, it is hard with that love type.

980
00:38:32,640 --> 00:38:33,920
Ooh, time for you to go in love.

981
00:38:33,920 --> 00:38:34,760
It's hard.

982
00:38:34,760 --> 00:38:36,080
Like it's hard.

983
00:38:36,080 --> 00:38:39,200
Wanting to even be out there to jump out there

984
00:38:39,200 --> 00:38:41,640
to be like, okay, I want to talk to you.

985
00:38:41,640 --> 00:38:43,440
You know, because sometimes like,

986
00:38:43,440 --> 00:38:44,640
it's a bad thing.

987
00:38:44,640 --> 00:38:45,480
I don't like it.

988
00:38:45,480 --> 00:38:47,240
So to me, they'd be like, oh yeah.

989
00:38:47,240 --> 00:38:48,720
Me and this person would be doing this

990
00:38:48,720 --> 00:38:50,320
and basically doing relationship stuff

991
00:38:50,320 --> 00:38:51,280
and don't want a relationship.

992
00:38:51,280 --> 00:38:55,200
Like, well, that's waste, time is a terrible thing to waste.

993
00:38:55,200 --> 00:38:58,440
Why are you wasting your time in this person's time?

994
00:38:58,440 --> 00:39:01,760
I'm like, be big on honesty.

995
00:39:01,760 --> 00:39:03,160
Yeah.

996
00:39:03,160 --> 00:39:05,480
Like, let me know from the jump what's going on

997
00:39:05,480 --> 00:39:08,760
so nobody will feel, you know, used.

998
00:39:08,760 --> 00:39:09,680
That's another thing too.

999
00:39:09,680 --> 00:39:12,800
And for our generation, we always felt like,

1000
00:39:12,800 --> 00:39:15,080
we want to be in love, but it's for like,

1001
00:39:15,080 --> 00:39:16,600
I don't want to be used at the same time.

1002
00:39:16,600 --> 00:39:18,160
Because in the end, sometimes you find out

1003
00:39:18,160 --> 00:39:20,120
you've been being used for things

1004
00:39:20,120 --> 00:39:22,280
that you never thought you'd be used for.

1005
00:39:22,280 --> 00:39:23,320
And it's crazy.

1006
00:39:24,680 --> 00:39:27,800
And that's one of the saddest things I've ever, like, love.

1007
00:39:27,800 --> 00:39:29,240
To me, love's a beautiful thing.

1008
00:39:29,240 --> 00:39:33,360
I have hope in love again, but it takes time.

1009
00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:38,360
And you have to also be mentally, physically,

1010
00:39:38,440 --> 00:39:41,280
spiritually, emotionally prepared

1011
00:39:41,280 --> 00:39:43,720
to want to get to know a person all over again.

1012
00:39:43,720 --> 00:39:45,840
And to even push yourself in a position,

1013
00:39:45,840 --> 00:39:48,680
okay, I'ma take this person seriously.

1014
00:39:48,680 --> 00:39:51,320
I think that's one of my problems too.

1015
00:39:51,320 --> 00:39:53,400
It's like, I was in love before,

1016
00:39:53,400 --> 00:39:56,320
and then like, you know, the relationship kind of ended.

1017
00:39:56,320 --> 00:40:00,320
And I was like, I was with that person for like two years.

1018
00:40:00,320 --> 00:40:05,320
And it's just like, damn, we're starting as a person.

1019
00:40:06,000 --> 00:40:08,920
And then like, what if I really put my all of somebody else

1020
00:40:08,920 --> 00:40:10,760
just for me?

1021
00:40:10,760 --> 00:40:13,360
Not even get treated like shit, but just more like,

1022
00:40:13,360 --> 00:40:14,840
you know, what if I just waste that time?

1023
00:40:14,840 --> 00:40:18,960
But then again, you know, really living once, you know,

1024
00:40:18,960 --> 00:40:20,600
like book ups happen, break ups happen,

1025
00:40:20,600 --> 00:40:21,920
you gotta live through that shit.

1026
00:40:21,920 --> 00:40:25,360
But I started to like, not try to find love

1027
00:40:25,360 --> 00:40:26,880
within like other people, but like,

1028
00:40:26,880 --> 00:40:28,680
I just started to love myself.

1029
00:40:29,560 --> 00:40:31,480
It's like, how can I love other people

1030
00:40:31,480 --> 00:40:33,280
if I can't love myself first, you know?

1031
00:40:33,280 --> 00:40:36,360
World spills, like, I was just about to say,

1032
00:40:36,360 --> 00:40:39,600
like in order for you to even try to put yourself out there

1033
00:40:39,600 --> 00:40:40,960
with trying to do mean everything,

1034
00:40:40,960 --> 00:40:43,520
you gotta make sure you treat, especially when it comes

1035
00:40:43,520 --> 00:40:45,600
to love, you gotta make sure you love yourself

1036
00:40:45,600 --> 00:40:48,120
because you don't wanna deal with somebody yet.

1037
00:40:48,120 --> 00:40:51,840
Then it's like, you loving them more than you love yourself.

1038
00:40:51,840 --> 00:40:53,920
And nobody wanna deal with that stuff.

1039
00:40:53,920 --> 00:40:57,960
Like also too, like you said, being like in a relationship

1040
00:40:57,960 --> 00:41:02,040
with somebody for so long, and then things, you know,

1041
00:41:02,040 --> 00:41:03,160
didn't work out.

1042
00:41:03,160 --> 00:41:05,120
That also takes time to even process

1043
00:41:05,120 --> 00:41:07,000
what the hell had happened.

1044
00:41:07,000 --> 00:41:08,800
I feel like we all been there like,

1045
00:41:08,800 --> 00:41:09,920
shoot, I've been there too.

1046
00:41:09,920 --> 00:41:11,600
It takes like process.

1047
00:41:11,600 --> 00:41:15,000
I haven't been years, but I have some months.

1048
00:41:15,000 --> 00:41:16,840
But you know, we still, when a relationship period

1049
00:41:16,840 --> 00:41:19,400
was in my, it takes a while to even accept

1050
00:41:19,400 --> 00:41:20,600
the fact that it happened.

1051
00:41:20,600 --> 00:41:24,480
And then to even want to.

1052
00:41:24,480 --> 00:41:25,840
Be on the mark, David.

1053
00:41:25,840 --> 00:41:27,080
Yeah, yeah, that too.

1054
00:41:27,080 --> 00:41:29,200
And then be able to say, okay,

1055
00:41:29,200 --> 00:41:31,640
I have to start a new norm for me.

1056
00:41:31,640 --> 00:41:34,160
Cause there's no such thing as going back to normal.

1057
00:41:34,160 --> 00:41:37,480
You have to start a new norm for yourself.

1058
00:41:37,480 --> 00:41:40,040
You know, you have to start doing things different.

1059
00:41:40,040 --> 00:41:41,640
And I experienced that.

1060
00:41:41,640 --> 00:41:44,080
It took me a while to start thinking things differently.

1061
00:41:44,080 --> 00:41:46,200
And start, you know, sometimes you also

1062
00:41:46,200 --> 00:41:47,640
gotta keep your guard up too.

1063
00:41:47,640 --> 00:41:48,480
That's another thing.

1064
00:41:48,480 --> 00:41:50,400
You don't want to be so rude.

1065
00:41:50,400 --> 00:41:53,920
But sometimes like, look, nobody got time for that.

1066
00:41:53,920 --> 00:41:56,200
You gotta let me know what's going on.

1067
00:41:56,200 --> 00:41:57,120
Cause I ain't got time.

1068
00:41:57,120 --> 00:41:59,720
Even within friendships too, like you don't want to

1069
00:41:59,720 --> 00:42:02,040
befriend somebody and they have an agenda

1070
00:42:02,040 --> 00:42:04,200
and it's not right.

1071
00:42:04,200 --> 00:42:08,080
Cause I'm, yeah, I'm big on that like genuine.

1072
00:42:08,080 --> 00:42:11,360
If your vibe ain't right, I'm,

1073
00:42:11,360 --> 00:42:14,040
we just want to keep this cool, calm and collect.

1074
00:42:15,080 --> 00:42:16,840
And I'll say, I agree with that.

1075
00:42:16,840 --> 00:42:19,680
Even within our generation as a whole, like,

1076
00:42:19,680 --> 00:42:22,520
we know what we want and we don't want.

1077
00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:25,080
I give that to us.

1078
00:42:25,080 --> 00:42:27,280
But sometimes it's like, we do have them things

1079
00:42:27,280 --> 00:42:31,120
where we just, we might lash out.

1080
00:42:31,120 --> 00:42:35,120
And sometimes, you know, people always find a way to

1081
00:42:35,120 --> 00:42:39,360
do things that just do not set right for you to lash out.

1082
00:42:39,360 --> 00:42:43,800
And I always try to like play the bigger person.

1083
00:42:43,800 --> 00:42:45,400
Always with a bigger person.

1084
00:42:45,400 --> 00:42:48,360
And by the way, I also listened to one of your podcasts

1085
00:42:48,360 --> 00:42:52,800
about man's not the health and you're somewhere like,

1086
00:42:52,800 --> 00:42:54,760
how like men don't like talking about their problems

1087
00:42:54,760 --> 00:42:55,600
and stuff.

1088
00:42:55,600 --> 00:42:57,520
And I was going to ask, why do you think that?

1089
00:42:57,520 --> 00:42:59,240
Why do you think men don't like talking about their problems?

1090
00:42:59,240 --> 00:43:02,320
When it comes to a black man, shout out to all you,

1091
00:43:02,320 --> 00:43:06,800
you know, I feel as though y'all were brought up in that

1092
00:43:06,800 --> 00:43:10,120
norm where even if you were around a male figure

1093
00:43:10,120 --> 00:43:15,120
or male figures that real men don't cry when you were mad.

1094
00:43:16,000 --> 00:43:19,680
You the one that's supposed to, you know, you're in charge.

1095
00:43:19,680 --> 00:43:22,000
You take control of everything.

1096
00:43:22,000 --> 00:43:26,640
And I felt like regardless, a man or woman or not,

1097
00:43:26,640 --> 00:43:28,760
you have feelings, you're human.

1098
00:43:28,760 --> 00:43:30,840
We bleed the way we bleed.

1099
00:43:30,840 --> 00:43:32,840
We all bleed the same, you know.

1100
00:43:32,840 --> 00:43:35,480
So if something's hurting you, express it,

1101
00:43:35,480 --> 00:43:38,600
even if you don't express it to a person right away,

1102
00:43:38,600 --> 00:43:42,360
try to get it out because that thing of like your feelings

1103
00:43:42,360 --> 00:43:47,200
and emotions that you keep brought up, it will affect you.

1104
00:43:47,200 --> 00:43:49,320
It will hurt, like it will affect you to the point

1105
00:43:49,320 --> 00:43:51,480
where it's hurting you and then to the point

1106
00:43:51,480 --> 00:43:53,440
where your feelings are appearing.

1107
00:43:53,440 --> 00:43:54,560
And I'm like at Elbert's.

1108
00:43:54,560 --> 00:43:55,960
I've been around a long person.

1109
00:43:55,960 --> 00:43:57,520
Yes, yes.

1110
00:43:57,520 --> 00:44:01,720
And like I always like, I'm big on that mental.

1111
00:44:01,720 --> 00:44:06,720
Like I packed those issues in my life where my mental,

1112
00:44:07,440 --> 00:44:10,520
like I couldn't, I can't handle by playing with my mental

1113
00:44:10,520 --> 00:44:13,080
and I'm not gonna play with it because your mental

1114
00:44:13,080 --> 00:44:14,720
is something very important.

1115
00:44:14,720 --> 00:44:19,360
It's, you need to, we need to really, really pay close

1116
00:44:19,360 --> 00:44:21,400
attention to anything and everything in our power

1117
00:44:21,400 --> 00:44:23,680
to make sure that we're mentally and physically straight

1118
00:44:23,680 --> 00:44:28,120
because the brain is always, is always racing.

1119
00:44:28,120 --> 00:44:30,640
It's always doing something and you don't want to mess

1120
00:44:30,640 --> 00:44:33,120
that up because you don't, you know,

1121
00:44:33,120 --> 00:44:36,360
you don't want to lose your mind for things and people

1122
00:44:36,360 --> 00:44:37,960
that is just like, it's not worth it.

1123
00:44:37,960 --> 00:44:40,320
And when it comes to men, y'all very strong.

1124
00:44:40,320 --> 00:44:42,360
I give it like they all strong,

1125
00:44:42,360 --> 00:44:46,680
but strong people also has feelings.

1126
00:44:46,680 --> 00:44:49,040
We all have feelings.

1127
00:44:49,040 --> 00:44:51,960
At times you gotta lash out, do it,

1128
00:44:51,960 --> 00:44:56,040
but don't carry all that weight on you because also

1129
00:44:56,040 --> 00:44:57,560
that can lead to health problems.

1130
00:44:57,560 --> 00:45:01,440
Like you have heart attacks and things like that.

1131
00:45:01,440 --> 00:45:02,760
You don't want that.

1132
00:45:04,600 --> 00:45:06,640
Like since like a lot of men,

1133
00:45:06,640 --> 00:45:08,200
and boys too in the generation,

1134
00:45:08,200 --> 00:45:11,640
they hold their feelings and like they cope with drugs

1135
00:45:11,640 --> 00:45:14,280
because like drugs and health escape.

1136
00:45:14,280 --> 00:45:16,520
Sometimes, sometimes like when they're going through it

1137
00:45:16,520 --> 00:45:18,040
or I'm like we just hold all those feelings

1138
00:45:18,040 --> 00:45:20,440
and he can't even toss them away about it.

1139
00:45:20,440 --> 00:45:23,840
You know, start smoking like popping pills

1140
00:45:23,840 --> 00:45:26,400
because that's the only way that like,

1141
00:45:26,400 --> 00:45:28,560
you know, it's the feelings that I sometimes,

1142
00:45:28,560 --> 00:45:31,400
but like I don't want to encourage people to do drugs.

1143
00:45:32,840 --> 00:45:36,200
But at the same time too, nah, that's a bad influence,

1144
00:45:36,200 --> 00:45:37,960
but at the same time, sometimes like,

1145
00:45:38,960 --> 00:45:41,000
sometimes where you really gotta do what you gotta do.

1146
00:45:41,000 --> 00:45:43,520
Like, I sound so bad right now,

1147
00:45:43,520 --> 00:45:46,160
but like it's more like I've been on both sides.

1148
00:45:46,160 --> 00:45:51,160
Yeah, and it's like, I would say go do drugs,

1149
00:45:51,560 --> 00:45:54,960
yada yada yada, but like try to find a way to cope.

1150
00:45:54,960 --> 00:45:56,520
How do we have a cope?

1151
00:45:56,520 --> 00:45:57,840
It's not too drugged.

1152
00:45:57,840 --> 00:45:59,800
Yeah, I agree with that.

1153
00:45:59,800 --> 00:46:02,760
I agree because it's like, you know,

1154
00:46:02,760 --> 00:46:07,200
once you get hooked onto a substance,

1155
00:46:07,200 --> 00:46:10,360
it can either put a good impact or bad,

1156
00:46:10,360 --> 00:46:12,120
and most of the time it's always bad

1157
00:46:12,120 --> 00:46:14,520
because it's like once you're hooked, that's it.

1158
00:46:14,520 --> 00:46:17,360
And like drinking, smoking, like it's people like,

1159
00:46:17,360 --> 00:46:19,880
by me, when I went to community college,

1160
00:46:19,880 --> 00:46:22,840
in I majored, minor in human counseling,

1161
00:46:22,840 --> 00:46:26,480
I used to read cases where people wake up in the morning

1162
00:46:26,480 --> 00:46:27,800
in order for them to get a good day start,

1163
00:46:27,800 --> 00:46:31,480
they gotta drink a pint of this, smoke this, snort that,

1164
00:46:31,480 --> 00:46:33,880
like it just was like, whoa.

1165
00:46:33,880 --> 00:46:36,560
And that, when that takes a toll on a person

1166
00:46:36,560 --> 00:46:39,360
because especially if you're around people

1167
00:46:39,360 --> 00:46:42,000
that care and love you and want to do everything

1168
00:46:42,000 --> 00:46:44,640
and power for you and take advantage of it,

1169
00:46:44,640 --> 00:46:46,640
it also hurts them too.

1170
00:46:46,640 --> 00:46:48,920
So also like when it comes to men,

1171
00:46:48,920 --> 00:46:53,320
with y'all, like even if y'all do or do not have a family,

1172
00:46:53,320 --> 00:46:55,680
you know, sometimes when you have a family, I see too,

1173
00:46:55,680 --> 00:46:58,440
that's hard, you know, you're the man of the house.

1174
00:46:58,440 --> 00:47:00,200
You gotta make sure this straight, that straight,

1175
00:47:00,200 --> 00:47:02,400
this straight, that straight, and that's a task too,

1176
00:47:02,400 --> 00:47:05,240
because you still have a life.

1177
00:47:05,240 --> 00:47:09,080
And I'm also big on like making time for you,

1178
00:47:09,080 --> 00:47:13,000
wherever you at, take five, 10, 15, 20 hour, hour,

1179
00:47:13,000 --> 00:47:15,120
however long to get yourself together

1180
00:47:15,120 --> 00:47:19,000
before it's time to get back into business.

1181
00:47:19,000 --> 00:47:21,640
Because if you don't make time for yourself

1182
00:47:21,640 --> 00:47:23,600
and always there for others,

1183
00:47:23,600 --> 00:47:28,600
you're going to, you're going to lash out.

1184
00:47:29,600 --> 00:47:32,280
And you don't want to be in that predicament.

1185
00:47:32,280 --> 00:47:35,080
You don't want to lash out, you know?

1186
00:47:35,080 --> 00:47:37,920
So yeah, when it comes to men, I applaud y'all,

1187
00:47:37,920 --> 00:47:42,480
especially the black men, but there's a lot on y'all,

1188
00:47:42,480 --> 00:47:44,640
especially like since y'all were younger, you know,

1189
00:47:44,640 --> 00:47:47,000
some of y'all have been raised in a norm like,

1190
00:47:47,000 --> 00:47:49,880
oh, if you cry, I shake it off, you know,

1191
00:47:49,880 --> 00:47:53,240
or like real men don't cry.

1192
00:47:53,240 --> 00:47:55,760
I was like, man, what?

1193
00:47:55,760 --> 00:47:56,960
You hear me?

1194
00:47:56,960 --> 00:47:59,040
You heard and let it out.

1195
00:47:59,040 --> 00:48:02,000
You need help, go talk to somebody, like let it out,

1196
00:48:02,000 --> 00:48:03,360
don't be ashamed.

1197
00:48:03,360 --> 00:48:08,360
When I was younger, I heard the same like, men don't cry.

1198
00:48:08,360 --> 00:48:11,360
You know, I used to like live off of that.

1199
00:48:11,360 --> 00:48:13,360
But now I'm older now.

1200
00:48:13,360 --> 00:48:16,360
And I'm just like, sometimes I really do need to cry.

1201
00:48:16,360 --> 00:48:19,360
But just like, it doesn't come out.

1202
00:48:19,360 --> 00:48:22,360
It's like, I know my feelings so much

1203
00:48:22,360 --> 00:48:25,360
when I was younger, so point doesn't even come out, you know?

1204
00:48:25,360 --> 00:48:26,360
So nice guy.

1205
00:48:26,360 --> 00:48:31,360
Like this life shit is hardest, but I really got that shit out.

1206
00:48:31,360 --> 00:48:35,360
I keep on going like you never know what's around the corner.

1207
00:48:35,360 --> 00:48:40,360
Yes, because life be life thing.

1208
00:48:40,360 --> 00:48:44,360
And it is no joke, especially if you are willing

1209
00:48:44,360 --> 00:48:50,360
to pursue a career at any age, doing any and anything.

1210
00:48:50,360 --> 00:48:54,360
It's hard period being an adult and being,

1211
00:48:54,360 --> 00:48:57,360
I feel like once you hit 18, that's all on you.

1212
00:48:57,360 --> 00:48:58,360
Your future is in your hands.

1213
00:48:58,360 --> 00:49:02,360
It's no more your mother, your father, grandparents,

1214
00:49:02,360 --> 00:49:05,360
or legal guardians, whoever is in your corner pushing you.

1215
00:49:05,360 --> 00:49:08,360
It's like you got to push yourself and you got to make

1216
00:49:08,360 --> 00:49:11,360
decision on what you want to do for yourself because.

1217
00:49:11,360 --> 00:49:14,360
Yeah, like it's hard.

1218
00:49:14,360 --> 00:49:15,360
It's hard.

1219
00:49:15,360 --> 00:49:18,360
And that's why I always believe in surrounding myself

1220
00:49:18,360 --> 00:49:23,360
with people that's positive and want to,

1221
00:49:23,360 --> 00:49:25,360
I want to be surrounded by people that's willing to win.

1222
00:49:25,360 --> 00:49:28,360
I want to be surrounded by people that's wake up in the morning

1223
00:49:28,360 --> 00:49:29,360
to be motivated.

1224
00:49:29,360 --> 00:49:31,360
You know, at times we are motivated.

1225
00:49:31,360 --> 00:49:35,360
I be tired, but I always remember like I got a future.

1226
00:49:35,360 --> 00:49:36,360
I got a future.

1227
00:49:36,360 --> 00:49:38,360
Like my future on the line, I can't.

1228
00:49:38,360 --> 00:49:40,360
Sometimes you be like, yeah, I got to stop,

1229
00:49:40,360 --> 00:49:42,360
but I always say I can't stop.

1230
00:49:42,360 --> 00:49:45,360
I won't stop one, no days off because I got shit to do

1231
00:49:45,360 --> 00:49:47,360
and shit must be done.

1232
00:49:47,360 --> 00:49:50,360
Once it's done, all right, I could play, chill, relax,

1233
00:49:50,360 --> 00:49:53,360
vacation, whatever, but in the process, I'm not doing that

1234
00:49:53,360 --> 00:49:55,360
and once you take a break, that's it.

1235
00:49:55,360 --> 00:49:57,360
It's not coming back.

1236
00:49:57,360 --> 00:50:00,360
And you don't want to get too comfortable.

1237
00:50:00,360 --> 00:50:06,360
I feel like I'll be comfortable once I'm in where I want to be at.

1238
00:50:06,360 --> 00:50:07,360
I work so hard for these.

1239
00:50:07,360 --> 00:50:11,360
Once I'm finished doing what I'm doing and I'm in that

1240
00:50:11,360 --> 00:50:15,360
mind space of where I'm at, then I can get comfortable.

1241
00:50:15,360 --> 00:50:19,360
I can go crazy, go stupid, you know, but right now,

1242
00:50:19,360 --> 00:50:23,360
playtime is over with all of our business.

1243
00:50:23,360 --> 00:50:25,360
We're staying on business, no days off.

1244
00:50:25,360 --> 00:50:26,360
I heard his standing down.

1245
00:50:26,360 --> 00:50:31,360
I think Dr. Dre said he was like, the hardest part is not going

1246
00:50:31,360 --> 00:50:33,360
to the top, it's staying on top.

1247
00:50:33,360 --> 00:50:35,360
Yeah, ooh, that's deep.

1248
00:50:35,360 --> 00:50:36,360
That's deep.

1249
00:50:36,360 --> 00:50:38,360
How you feel about that?

1250
00:50:38,360 --> 00:50:40,360
That's deep, but...

1251
00:50:40,360 --> 00:50:44,360
I mean, you know, like, you know, like right now,

1252
00:50:44,360 --> 00:50:48,360
I guess like, you know, people are like, I guess people might

1253
00:50:48,360 --> 00:50:50,360
feel like they're like an underground rapper, but like,

1254
00:50:50,360 --> 00:50:52,360
deep down on, I feel like an underground rapper.

1255
00:50:52,360 --> 00:50:55,360
I feel like I'm on top, and I feel like that's how everybody

1256
00:50:55,360 --> 00:50:56,360
should have that mentality.

1257
00:50:56,360 --> 00:50:58,360
I know my rigor at in life.

1258
00:50:58,360 --> 00:51:01,360
Like, even if you're a bench player, you should feel like

1259
00:51:01,360 --> 00:51:02,360
you're the star player.

1260
00:51:02,360 --> 00:51:05,360
And just keep that mentality up and just don't get comfortable

1261
00:51:05,360 --> 00:51:06,360
to keep going.

1262
00:51:06,360 --> 00:51:07,360
Just keep pushing.

1263
00:51:07,360 --> 00:51:12,360
I feel like, you know, my life is like, I feel like my life is

1264
00:51:12,360 --> 00:51:17,360
like, um, there's like, living proof that like,

1265
00:51:17,360 --> 00:51:21,360
if you keep on going, you can really achieve your dreams.

1266
00:51:21,360 --> 00:51:24,360
I feel like that's like another point I'm trying to prove.

1267
00:51:24,360 --> 00:51:27,360
Like, you know, my friends would say, there's a 2K rock.

1268
00:51:27,360 --> 00:51:28,360
There's a 2K rock.

1269
00:51:28,360 --> 00:51:34,360
You know, not like, not crash out like all like,

1270
00:51:34,360 --> 00:51:35,360
whereabouts of doing this.

1271
00:51:35,360 --> 00:51:37,360
Bro, we can talk about DMV rappers.

1272
00:51:37,360 --> 00:51:41,360
No, I really have like a shoulder bone to pick with that.

1273
00:51:41,360 --> 00:51:44,360
But it's like, a lot of DMV rappers, they promote violence,

1274
00:51:44,360 --> 00:51:45,360
yada, yada, yada.

1275
00:51:45,360 --> 00:51:48,360
And then like, they be, they begin to string to name,

1276
00:51:48,360 --> 00:51:50,360
make it out the hood, yada, yada, yada.

1277
00:51:50,360 --> 00:51:51,360
But then they crash out.

1278
00:51:51,360 --> 00:51:53,360
I was like, I'm like, like, what are you doing?

1279
00:51:53,360 --> 00:51:55,360
Like, what are you doing with your life?

1280
00:51:55,360 --> 00:51:56,360
Like, what?

1281
00:51:56,360 --> 00:52:00,360
Like, something moved out to Cali that come back to Maryland

1282
00:52:00,360 --> 00:52:01,360
just to crash out.

1283
00:52:01,360 --> 00:52:03,360
Like, they went to rapper to crash out the other day.

1284
00:52:03,360 --> 00:52:05,360
I think the name was on it.

1285
00:52:05,360 --> 00:52:10,360
I don't remember his name, but he crashed out.

1286
00:52:10,360 --> 00:52:13,360
Like, most artists in Maryland be crashing out.

1287
00:52:13,360 --> 00:52:15,360
Like, there's a lot of talented artists in Maryland.

1288
00:52:15,360 --> 00:52:16,360
Yeah.

1289
00:52:16,360 --> 00:52:19,360
And like, they really have what it takes to go to the top

1290
00:52:19,360 --> 00:52:22,360
and stay on top, but it's just crashing out.

1291
00:52:22,360 --> 00:52:25,360
I feel like also to like, by me being born and raised

1292
00:52:25,360 --> 00:52:27,360
in the city of Baltimore,

1293
00:52:27,360 --> 00:52:31,360
a lot of people crash out because of where they from

1294
00:52:31,360 --> 00:52:34,360
and who, you know, in their community.

1295
00:52:34,360 --> 00:52:36,360
Because it's like also like,

1296
00:52:36,360 --> 00:52:39,360
one of our biggest rappers was Skoda.

1297
00:52:39,360 --> 00:52:43,360
And like when he passed,

1298
00:52:43,360 --> 00:52:46,360
it really just had an impact on people because certain people

1299
00:52:46,360 --> 00:52:49,360
was like, dang, I don't know if I'm going to do this.

1300
00:52:49,360 --> 00:52:50,360
I don't want to do that.

1301
00:52:50,360 --> 00:52:52,360
And some did crash out.

1302
00:52:52,360 --> 00:52:57,360
And I feel like too, like your environment can also impact

1303
00:52:57,360 --> 00:53:01,360
how you navigate things and how you want things to be done.

1304
00:53:01,360 --> 00:53:03,360
Cause I was just like, whoa, like you said,

1305
00:53:03,360 --> 00:53:05,360
it is a lot of talents and people here,

1306
00:53:05,360 --> 00:53:08,360
but you also got people that's always going to be negative

1307
00:53:08,360 --> 00:53:11,360
and be like, hang on, make it.

1308
00:53:11,360 --> 00:53:13,360
And then they're like, and when they do make it,

1309
00:53:13,360 --> 00:53:17,360
they are like, yeah, like, no, I don't like that fake love shit

1310
00:53:17,360 --> 00:53:21,360
because it's like, if you didn't support them,

1311
00:53:21,360 --> 00:53:22,360
don't say nothing.

1312
00:53:22,360 --> 00:53:23,360
Like if you have nothing, I say,

1313
00:53:23,360 --> 00:53:25,360
they teach you that in school when you're a little like,

1314
00:53:25,360 --> 00:53:28,360
you don't have nothing nice to say, don't say nothing at all.

1315
00:53:28,360 --> 00:53:30,360
Even your parents, if your parents even told you,

1316
00:53:30,360 --> 00:53:32,360
you have nothing like to say, don't say nothing at all.

1317
00:53:32,360 --> 00:53:35,360
Because like I say, the tongues, the powerful thing

1318
00:53:35,360 --> 00:53:38,360
and words can affect a person.

1319
00:53:38,360 --> 00:53:40,360
And you don't know how people navigate through stuff

1320
00:53:40,360 --> 00:53:43,360
and you don't even know how people handle things.

1321
00:53:43,360 --> 00:53:44,360
So yeah, I agree with you.

1322
00:53:44,360 --> 00:53:47,360
And like in the community as a whole,

1323
00:53:47,360 --> 00:53:50,360
when it comes to chasing dreams and everything like that,

1324
00:53:50,360 --> 00:53:52,360
it's like you got to keep things sometimes to yourself

1325
00:53:52,360 --> 00:53:54,360
on the QT because people just,

1326
00:53:54,360 --> 00:53:58,360
some people are not truly happy for you.

1327
00:53:58,360 --> 00:53:59,360
And I felt like we are,

1328
00:53:59,360 --> 00:54:03,360
but in those stages where we didn't want to keep things quiet,

1329
00:54:03,360 --> 00:54:05,360
but it's like in order for me to keep my sanity,

1330
00:54:05,360 --> 00:54:09,360
in order for me to know I'm doing right,

1331
00:54:09,360 --> 00:54:13,360
is just keeping it quiet and just pop out with it.

1332
00:54:13,360 --> 00:54:15,360
Because me, I always say,

1333
00:54:15,360 --> 00:54:19,360
people should leave a mystery of certain stuff in their life

1334
00:54:19,360 --> 00:54:22,360
because it's like social media also plays a big part.

1335
00:54:22,360 --> 00:54:24,360
Like some people tell their whole story.

1336
00:54:24,360 --> 00:54:27,360
I prefer keeping a mystery.

1337
00:54:27,360 --> 00:54:29,360
Because if you want to get to know the real me,

1338
00:54:29,360 --> 00:54:31,360
let's have a conversation face to face.

1339
00:54:31,360 --> 00:54:33,360
You see me as a bad guy.

1340
00:54:33,360 --> 00:54:34,360
Yeah, it's like social media,

1341
00:54:34,360 --> 00:54:36,360
like you could be any and anybody on there.

1342
00:54:36,360 --> 00:54:40,360
I can promote, say, dude, all types of shit on this social media.

1343
00:54:40,360 --> 00:54:42,360
But when it comes to real,

1344
00:54:42,360 --> 00:54:45,360
it's hard to identify who's real and who's not on social media

1345
00:54:45,360 --> 00:54:48,360
because you could be any and anybody.

1346
00:54:48,360 --> 00:54:50,360
You know?

1347
00:54:50,360 --> 00:54:52,360
I think I was on takes off the other day

1348
00:54:52,360 --> 00:54:56,360
and like somebody was saying that like everybody,

1349
00:54:56,360 --> 00:54:58,360
everybody's an actor, you know?

1350
00:54:58,360 --> 00:55:01,360
And it's like, you know, somebody,

1351
00:55:01,360 --> 00:55:05,360
George Washington, they're trying to play like the lover

1352
00:55:05,360 --> 00:55:08,360
after their life and yada yada yada.

1353
00:55:08,360 --> 00:55:13,360
So it's not even about like what's real and what's fake.

1354
00:55:13,360 --> 00:55:15,360
I feel it's really about like,

1355
00:55:15,360 --> 00:55:18,360
no, it is about that, but it's just more like being authentic,

1356
00:55:18,360 --> 00:55:19,360
you know?

1357
00:55:19,360 --> 00:55:20,360
It's the truth to me.

1358
00:55:20,360 --> 00:55:22,360
Oh yeah.

1359
00:55:22,360 --> 00:55:26,360
Yeah, that's a real big like because being in,

1360
00:55:26,360 --> 00:55:30,360
like I said, being young period and you are in your 20s,

1361
00:55:30,360 --> 00:55:31,360
you in your 20s period,

1362
00:55:31,360 --> 00:55:34,360
I feel like that's when the life gets real.

1363
00:55:34,360 --> 00:55:36,360
Because we're not teenagers, no more stuff, you know,

1364
00:55:36,360 --> 00:55:39,360
your parents or guardian, whoever is not leading you no more.

1365
00:55:39,360 --> 00:55:42,360
It's up to you to decide what you want to do,

1366
00:55:42,360 --> 00:55:45,360
how you want to do it and why you doing what you want to do.

1367
00:55:45,360 --> 00:55:50,360
And yeah, I like, I tell myself every day and then like,

1368
00:55:50,360 --> 00:55:53,360
I'm the oldest of two siblings.

1369
00:55:53,360 --> 00:55:57,360
I gotta show my siblings the right way,

1370
00:55:57,360 --> 00:56:01,360
even though at times I had fuck ups, we all have fuck ups.

1371
00:56:01,360 --> 00:56:05,360
It's like, I don't want to have so many fuck ups

1372
00:56:05,360 --> 00:56:07,360
that that's all people remember too.

1373
00:56:07,360 --> 00:56:11,360
You know, I always try to display the positive side,

1374
00:56:11,360 --> 00:56:14,360
even though at times we all been in the moments where we did

1375
00:56:14,360 --> 00:56:17,360
have to show negativity, but that's another thing to a society.

1376
00:56:17,360 --> 00:56:19,360
People remember the bad thing, remember the good.

1377
00:56:19,360 --> 00:56:23,360
That's what somebody else do, and I also, I always do.

1378
00:56:23,360 --> 00:56:26,360
I don't like judging people because I don't know

1379
00:56:26,360 --> 00:56:29,360
about judging me and you don't know about story.

1380
00:56:29,360 --> 00:56:32,360
And I always tell people like, don't judge a book by its cover

1381
00:56:32,360 --> 00:56:35,360
until you had the chance to actually sit down,

1382
00:56:35,360 --> 00:56:38,360
open that book, get the main idea in context.

1383
00:56:38,360 --> 00:56:43,360
And if you don't like it, shut the book and just go on, you know.

1384
00:56:43,360 --> 00:56:45,360
And I do appreciate it super late.

1385
00:56:45,360 --> 00:56:50,360
You know, just to like close with your siblings.

1386
00:56:50,360 --> 00:56:54,360
I have an older brother.

1387
00:56:54,360 --> 00:56:57,360
We didn't really talk like that.

1388
00:56:57,360 --> 00:56:59,360
When I was really going through it in college,

1389
00:56:59,360 --> 00:57:02,360
I was trying to put him out on the spot.

1390
00:57:02,360 --> 00:57:07,360
I wish he could have been there more for me because it's like,

1391
00:57:07,360 --> 00:57:12,360
it's like, when he wasn't there for me, it was just like, damn,

1392
00:57:12,360 --> 00:57:15,360
I'm really out of here all by my son. That's how I felt.

1393
00:57:15,360 --> 00:57:17,360
So like, nah, I really do appreciate it.

1394
00:57:17,360 --> 00:57:19,360
Like, really just be like, give him like,

1395
00:57:19,360 --> 00:57:21,360
your silver attention that they need, you know.

1396
00:57:21,360 --> 00:57:22,360
That thing.

1397
00:57:22,360 --> 00:57:24,360
And like, just keep doing that, you know.

1398
00:57:24,360 --> 00:57:25,360
Thank you.

1399
00:57:25,360 --> 00:57:27,360
Family really can be everything.

1400
00:57:27,360 --> 00:57:36,360
Yeah, like, it's so hard at times to even,

1401
00:57:36,360 --> 00:57:41,360
I'm not gonna say try to be the best

1402
00:57:41,360 --> 00:57:43,360
because I feel like when you're a sibling,

1403
00:57:43,360 --> 00:57:45,360
it's just when you're older sibling too,

1404
00:57:45,360 --> 00:57:49,360
it's like you're the second in line when it comes to the parents.

1405
00:57:49,360 --> 00:57:54,360
You're second in charge when it comes to making sure they okay.

1406
00:57:54,360 --> 00:57:56,360
And you also want to make sure you okay too.

1407
00:57:56,360 --> 00:57:58,360
And when you spoke about your brother,

1408
00:57:58,360 --> 00:58:00,360
I wanted to say to like, did y'all,

1409
00:58:00,360 --> 00:58:02,360
did you ever have the conversation with him

1410
00:58:02,360 --> 00:58:06,360
or like expressing how you felt?

1411
00:58:06,360 --> 00:58:11,360
Yeah, we did, but it's just more like,

1412
00:58:11,360 --> 00:58:13,360
like communication with my family,

1413
00:58:13,360 --> 00:58:16,360
like it looked like it was all so like,

1414
00:58:16,360 --> 00:58:19,360
it's kind of like hard to like, you know,

1415
00:58:19,360 --> 00:58:22,360
express ourselves, but like, as a family,

1416
00:58:22,360 --> 00:58:27,360
they're like, they're kind of getting better at that, but, you know.

1417
00:58:27,360 --> 00:58:28,360
Yeah, I understand.

1418
00:58:28,360 --> 00:58:34,360
Like, it takes time to have the moments with your family.

1419
00:58:34,360 --> 00:58:37,360
Cause you know, the same family's all you got.

1420
00:58:37,360 --> 00:58:41,360
And I feel like when it comes to the immediate family,

1421
00:58:41,360 --> 00:58:45,360
at times, it's all you have because like me, my immediate family,

1422
00:58:45,360 --> 00:58:47,360
I grew up in a household with both parents and like,

1423
00:58:47,360 --> 00:58:50,360
I'm an older sibling and now I have my uncle with me.

1424
00:58:50,360 --> 00:58:52,360
Those are the ones that I see every day

1425
00:58:52,360 --> 00:58:54,360
and I do a lot of things every day.

1426
00:58:54,360 --> 00:58:58,360
Now when it comes to outside the family here and there,

1427
00:58:58,360 --> 00:59:01,360
but I feel like when it comes to your immediate family,

1428
00:59:01,360 --> 00:59:05,360
that bond is so much tighter than outside of the other,

1429
00:59:05,360 --> 00:59:09,360
the outside of your family because it's like, they know,

1430
00:59:09,360 --> 00:59:11,360
they seen everything.

1431
00:59:11,360 --> 00:59:14,360
They know everything, you know.

1432
00:59:14,360 --> 00:59:16,360
So yeah, I understand.

1433
00:59:16,360 --> 00:59:19,360
Trust me, I understand.

1434
00:59:19,360 --> 00:59:21,360
I understand.

1435
00:59:21,360 --> 00:59:24,360
There anything else you want to talk about?

1436
00:59:24,360 --> 00:59:31,360
I do.

1437
00:59:31,360 --> 00:59:34,360
I don't know.

1438
00:59:34,360 --> 00:59:37,360
I am.

1439
00:59:37,360 --> 00:59:39,360
It's okay.

1440
00:59:39,360 --> 00:59:41,360
We did talk about a lot.

1441
00:59:41,360 --> 00:59:43,360
So we did touch on a lot.

1442
00:59:43,360 --> 00:59:45,360
If you go out to rock out, we can rock out.

1443
00:59:45,360 --> 00:59:48,360
We can close it out because you're always welcome to come back

1444
00:59:48,360 --> 00:59:52,360
and I'm always welcome to have you come back.

1445
00:59:52,360 --> 00:59:55,360
Okay, so let me go in this soft.

1446
00:59:55,360 --> 00:59:59,360
I thank you so much, they, for taking the time to come

1447
00:59:59,360 --> 01:00:04,360
onto my lovely podcast and vibe out with me and also my Vibers

1448
01:00:04,360 --> 01:00:09,360
because we all need to talk to my and I've been waiting to have

1449
01:00:09,360 --> 01:00:13,360
like another male's perspective on here, like around my age

1450
01:00:13,360 --> 01:00:17,360
and then also go to my university like, come on now.

1451
01:00:17,360 --> 01:00:22,360
You said no.

1452
01:00:22,360 --> 01:00:25,360
You are young.

1453
01:00:25,360 --> 01:00:27,360
But it's not that far.

1454
01:00:27,360 --> 01:00:29,360
I mean, like, it's not far.

1455
01:00:29,360 --> 01:00:31,360
It's not that far.

1456
01:00:31,360 --> 01:00:33,360
You're right.

1457
01:00:33,360 --> 01:00:35,360
I know I did.

1458
01:00:35,360 --> 01:00:39,360
Oh my gosh, I'm so dead.

1459
01:00:39,360 --> 01:00:42,360
You laugh as you know.

1460
01:00:42,360 --> 01:00:44,360
I did.

1461
01:00:44,360 --> 01:00:47,360
But it's cool.

1462
01:00:47,360 --> 01:00:49,360
It's cool.

1463
01:00:49,360 --> 01:00:53,360
I know that by over here.

1464
01:00:53,360 --> 01:00:57,360
With that being said, I thank you so, so very much for coming

1465
01:00:57,360 --> 01:01:00,360
on here and being able to talk and rock out with us.

1466
01:01:00,360 --> 01:01:02,360
I appreciate it a lot.

1467
01:01:02,360 --> 01:01:06,360
And I will really appreciate when you come back and talk more

1468
01:01:06,360 --> 01:01:10,360
because like, yeah, there's a lot more talk about.

1469
01:01:10,360 --> 01:01:14,360
I'm here for it.

1470
01:01:14,360 --> 01:01:16,360
Thank you.

1471
01:01:16,360 --> 01:01:18,360
Thank you anytime, anytime, you know, let a friend know.

1472
01:01:18,360 --> 01:01:22,360
Telephone, telephone, you know, let's collaborate.

1473
01:01:22,360 --> 01:01:24,360
That's all what I'm about.

1474
01:01:24,360 --> 01:01:27,360
So with that being said, thank you once again.

1475
01:01:27,360 --> 01:01:30,360
And I wish you guys nothing but peace and blessings.

1476
01:01:30,360 --> 01:01:32,360
Please be safe out here.

1477
01:01:32,360 --> 01:01:35,360
You know, daytime savings, daytime light savings, whatever is here,

1478
01:01:35,360 --> 01:01:37,360
you know, when it gets five o'clock, it gets dark.

1479
01:01:37,360 --> 01:01:39,360
So please be safe out here, ladies and gentlemen.

1480
01:01:39,360 --> 01:01:41,360
And also it is that flu season.

1481
01:01:41,360 --> 01:01:45,360
Please get your shots and all that to stay bundled up with all that too.

1482
01:01:45,360 --> 01:01:50,360
And as always, you guys will hear from me next time.

1483
01:01:50,360 --> 01:02:10,360
Bye.