Hey y'all, whether it's morning, evening, or afternoon, I'm just glad that you guys have decided to vibe with Eve.
And for those of you who are new, welcome. And for those of you who are not new to this protruded, it's hey y'all and I hope all is well.
So before we get into the show, I just want to tell y'all today will be different today. I'm having guests and we're gonna vibe out with them.
So without further ado, I want you guys to sit back, relax and enjoy the show. Whether you guys are on a go or on a move,
I just want y'all to sit back, relax and get real comfortable because this episode is gonna be real, real raw and uncut.
Like, yeah. So let's get into it. So today I'm vibing out with...
Big Steve, have a little wine and get some stuff.
Big Limey with the body.
Because...
That's how I tell my mind.
Alright, so let's get into it.
I'm going to have a move too. Hey, I'm a bear.
I'm going to have a move.
I'm going to have a shot. You can tell he get a shot up there. I'm just playing him drink.
Alright, so today we're just going to do raw and uncut. Like I said, and then today I'm going to ask y'all a few questions before we get deeper into it.
So first, you already introduced yourself. So tell me a little bit about yourself.
First, I'm going to say something real quick. This girl, she's not shy. Like, she's doing her big ones out there.
Go ahead.
Thank you. Thank you. Okay. So first, tell me a little bit about yourself.
Alright, so, don't know what me, Big Steve, have a little one here.
I'm 26. Give me one. Give me one.
I'm from West Baltimore. Go ahead and let's put in a big...
I am a mother of one with my bonus insurance.
I got three bonus insurance. I'm sorry.
I just relocated from Baltimore to North Carolina. I'm in Greensboro. Shout out to Greensboro.
She's telling me, what's up, playing?
Yeah, what Marnie say? Yeah.
Yeah, that's a little bit about me. What's up?
This is Nadia. I'm 23. My birthday coming up.
Big Steve, Big Steve, yeah. I'm in school for nursing.
Big up. Big up.
I'm a violent little ewe in this bitch.
We got time to talk about things.
I'm out of the William and Ian talk.
Oh wait, I'm not feeling so.
No, I'm feeling it.
I need a walk too.
I need a talk too.
I'm having a bad time.
I'm just a little young boy.
I'm 27. I get told that I make you hate, but I do.
I just be cool and cool.
I see other ways.
Young hearts, more.
That's paying your bonus amount.
I feel you need to make a mess of it.
I'm on the way to get a million. You got to think of me.
Yeah, I don't.
He was like, cool to baby.
Well, this is the biggest ewe.
Violent with the bigger ewe.
Tonight, I'm just sitting back and listening to my first time.
I'm proud to hear it. Do a thing.
So I'm just going to sit back and observe and be a sponge tonight.
But I am going to speak my peace.
Oh, we know big stuff.
We got to do that up to a damn full shake.
We want to vibe with ewe tonight.
Yeah.
Never the little one.
It's going to start off with a vibe.
It's a vibe.
I don't want to see that goofy bitch.
It's never not a vibe.
You want to?
Yeah, I'm past that James thing.
I know it looked real good.
It was just fluffy.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I'm green all the time.
That shit over here.
Yeah.
Oh, you're cut, baby.
Cut big and big.
These favorite amers really amers.
They famous.
You said it's really amers.
I'm cold as shit.
I'm good.
You got any classes class tonight?
Yeah.
I know.
All right.
We already told you about yourself.
This one.
I've been dying here.
One of the topics I want to talk about.
Let's break the ice like this.
What motivates you everyday?
What motivates you
everyday?
What motivates me everyday
is my son first.
No, I'ma say this.
God first.
Right?
Because if you don't got him in your life,
ain't nothing that you touch won't prevail.
And that's factual.
That's actual factual.
And then I see my son.
And then my son and then all of my family.
Not just a particular one.
All my family.
Right?
I don't know.
I think my motivation really started from
growing up.
Growing up, I always knew what I wanted to be
and what I didn't want to be.
And I always surrounded myself
around women.
Or guys that had likewise
mindsets like me.
Strung stuff along, strung word with me.
You know what I'm saying?
But I think for the most part of it,
my motivation I'll say is
God first.
Because God wants you to live right.
He wants you to do right.
We fleshly people.
So we gonna fuck up.
Got it.
They say fuck in the same sentence.
But we, we, we hate it.
So we gonna fuck up.
You know what I'm saying?
So I think now, by me moving,
I change and I really been around
different environments.
And where I'm at there, like really God
fearing people.
Like the state of North Carolina, they big one God down there.
So it's like they, that's what really be
me to you and get into my word more.
For real cause like every conversation
that you have with them down there, they
gonna bring God up. So you ain't got no other
choice but to even get with it or get lost.
Okay.
Big shout out, big shout out.
Yeah, big shout out to the big
family that's coming in.
Yeah, big shout out to the big family that's coming in.
Big shout out to the big family that's coming in.
Big hands coming in hot.
Ready like little seeds.
Big hands coming in hot.
Big hands.
Got a turkey.
A couple of ram, you ready to get it down for you.
My motivation
is
my little ones and me.
Cause
really
don't know if I got you like yourself.
Facts.
Facts about myself and then
my parents are motivating me to go.
That was on watching.
Poet.
74 and 16.
We, we, we, we, we, we screaming.
I know.
We talking.
Yeah, we vibing with eight.
Everybody motivate me in a little way though.
I ain't gonna lie.
Everybody really do motivate me in a little way.
All the way to the shot.
Yeah.
One of your hands.
Hey, you know what's funny?
Everybody got a lot to talk about until they feel like they been interviewed.
Yeah.
Speaking a little bit.
All right. No.
That's all it is.
My blood.
Ain't no hope.
I'm no poor bitch.
No way.
You tell me.
That was a shit day.
Hey, how you feeling today?
I'm fine.
How your day go?
Nothing really happened today.
Nothing really.
I mean, I woke up.
Of course.
I got my room together.
That was about it.
And then went outside and eat with y'all and stuff.
That was about it.
Yeah, that was about it.
What motivates you, bro?
What motivates me?
I don't want to be fucked up.
I see homeless people.
And I mean, you know, everybody got that story.
I don't want to have that bad story.
So that's what motivates me to keep going.
And I got people to, you know, I'm a provider.
I love my folks.
And in fact, that's leading to a question.
I want to ask you.
So, you know, on Friday, me and my family, me and my girlfriend, not Debra.
No.
My aunt, my aunt, my aunt, my aunt, my aunt.
We get crabs.
This sounds like how we vibing in here.
This is what we do.
We go get crabs.
Get our crabs, get our bottles.
Take our stuff before we eat our crabs.
Throw me butt.
A call of cc came up.
I think this is very big.
I think everybody have a different opinion on it.
What is your love language?
Love language.
Ah, you know it's funny.
You're loving me.
It's your actions.
No, not right now.
I'll tell people about different love languages.
That's what I said.
I'm gonna hold that mic for a minute.
I would say your love language are your actions because they go in so many different aspects.
All right.
So let me tell you all this.
And listen, that's crazy that this even presented this stuff because I swear just last week.
You said that to me.
What's up?
Let's just say it.
It's crazy that this wasn't...
Thank you.
It's crazy that this wasn't specific because last week
me and my co-workers were sitting at where we were talking about love languages, right?
So, sitting back and looking.
My love language has changed.
My love language has changed because now I'm getting to know who I am as a woman, right?
So, I thought my love language was money or like...
Like, guessing all that.
Yeah. I thought that was my love language because that was the environment that I was raised around.
So that was the only love language that I knew, right?
So now me at 26 and me stepping out of my element and getting to know me.
Yeah, baby. My love language ain't that no more.
My love language is communication, loyalty, like I'm bad on it.
Like, fuck what you're bringing in.
I want you to be able to...
Don't get me wrong. You gotta have something on that.
Because I ain't fucking with them.
They ain't going to shit for me.
Me just knowing that you have my back stability as my love language.
Right?
It was like, oh, back then it was what you could do for me.
It might sound like a gold digger, might sound like...
But I'm going to push it over. It's had our own paper.
You got what I'm saying?
But at the end of the day, it was like, what a nigga could do for me.
And that was my mindset, but that was because that was how I was raised.
But now it's like, yeah, what can you do for me?
But what can you do for me in my mind?
How can you add to my peace?
Because can't nobody give you peace and can't nobody make you happy.
That shit start within yourself.
And I had to learn that though.
Like real shit, I really had to learn that because for so long, you know how you be like,
he'll make me happy. He can never make you happy, though.
He can only add on to what your happiness was already with what's what's in you.
You feel what I'm saying? So I can say that.
I'm really wrong for real because I'm learning a whole lot about myself.
And I didn't even know it existed.
But I'm isolated. I'm by myself, so I ain't got no other choice but to take into myself.
So, yeah, I'm the only person, my love language changed.
And it may change little on down the line, but that's what I meant right now in my life.
Like that's what my love language is, ability.
That's bad. That's real bad.
I love it because it's affection.
What's your love language, sis?
You gotta go. Kiss me, text me.
Speak that language.
That language to me, whoa.
That's because I show affection though.
Yeah, I was in my head last time. I was touching it.
And I just asked the word though. I was touching it.
Because I was like, I never grew up in a hospital love, so I give it a life.
No, no.
I said it.
I didn't even know.
Mine's on tip like on the way I show it again.
You get what I'm saying?
Or I give time and all on that type of job.
I show it because I never grew up in a hospital love.
That's what I'm saying. I'm talking about myself over the years.
Oh, you want to hold it?
Can I say something?
What's your, John?
So I'm going to say this, right?
My love language.
She always said it for me. That's good.
My love language used to be a giver.
But then when I moved away
and I stepped away from like everything
and it's different wrong with your little things being together.
I'm just speaking for me, right?
When I moved away and I came back, like when I would come back to visit, right?
The lingo was always, oh, I miss you because,
da, da, da, da, da.
So you miss me because of what I could give, what I could give to you, right?
You didn't miss me from my vibe. You didn't miss me from my personality.
You missed me just because I'm me, right?
So it kind of like, once I stepped away
and I had to learn to be okay with that, right?
Because the computer love language is a giver, right?
And I had to accept like, all right, maybe God had me here in this person
like to give them that at that time.
But I'm no longer that person anymore.
I give now only what I really can give
versus me draining myself to give so much, right?
So it wasn't until I stepped away, right?
And I came back and I heard the lingo.
The lingo was always, oh, because I miss you because I ain't hit him like, take me here.
I ain't hit him like, what's your sign?
I'm not me. That was, that was, that was, no, at that time, that was the third way God was using me at though.
You know what I'm saying?
He was using me to be that person, but where's the now?
So where's the now?
I've surpassed it.
So where's the now?
I didn't even realize how much of an introvert I was until I moved away.
I always felt like I needed to be around people, right?
I needed to be around a vibe.
Speaking about that.
But I'm a vibe, I'm a vibe.
Yes!
And so I didn't realize how much of an introvert I was really until I moved away
because that was me tapping into myself.
I didn't know that about myself though.
I just moved away.
I'm really alone and for it.
I really don't want you to know.
I really don't want to be here.
I don't.
I want to be at peace.
Yeah, right?
I feel like it's pretty, pretty easy.
I mean, let me get last option.
But because I was here and I was living in it, it was like, yeah, that was me.
I thought that that was me, but no, it wasn't until I stepped away and I really realized like,
I really don't want to be there and it's nothing wrong with that.
Because sometimes society will make you feel like you're wrong for not wanting to.
Oh, that's the point of self-love.
Saying no is so funny.
Alright, so where does love come from?
Back.
I don't know.
I feel like it's definitely worth it.
It's a...
Exactly.
I feel that shit in my chest.
Like, if I'm gonna go heartbreak, my heart will...
I don't know.
My shit is falling.
Don't you touch me.
My chest be hurting.
That's how I know.
We're going to radio.
You cannot do that.
No.
Go here, big head.
We talk.
Go here, big head.
We want to fuck it.
We ain't got your name on it.
We already know how you is.
We don't go to home.
We don't talk and we can help somebody.
Oh, we're not trying to help somebody.
Chill out right now.
Chill out.
No, not right now.
What's it your uncle just said?
Bye.
They got your bag on.
Miss me, miss me, miss me.
I'll tell you miss me.
Okay, sure.
I'll tell you miss me.
I'll tell you miss me tonight.
Oh, fuck you.
Okay, Kim.
His name is real good.
It's like, I really gotta remind somebody
that that's her thing to say.
Go ahead, be a sucker shit.
What's love?
What's love got to do with that?
What's love, what a sucker and emotions.
I don't think we can do that.
What's love got to do with that?
Hey, hey.
Your handbag.
Right.
You guys didn't see him.
Okay
Come from
Oh
True fact
Come on
Like, like he ain't saying that.
No, no, no, no.
If you're gonna fold all that love,
but nobody's talking, it's gonna be like,
it's gonna be like, one step below the line.
But love, he said love.
We talking about love.
I can't be organized. We never really organized.
You're good.
I'm gonna put the scream in the house.
I'm gonna leave off everything.
What you say love, bro?
It's a feeling.
Like, you feel me?
Like, you making a bomb with somebody.
You're only gaining that trust.
How you doing?
All right, see, they all move over there.
I ain't got a lot on me. I feel that shit about heart.
You ain't sweating, but where did it come from?
Where did it come from?
Where did that feeling in your heart come from?
It's that body symbol for love is the heart.
Where did it come from?
But the heart doesn't look like the heart.
And your body is not the shape of a heart.
All right, so it's state.
Love is patient. Love is kind.
Love endures all things.
Love is blind.
It is blind.
And it'll take all of your mind.
Because it means to love.
Surely not. You need to elevate and find.
Yeah.
My girl needs this.
Hey, forgive us. We got one thing.
We five of those.
She ain't saying she said.
But she ain't.
Love.
The bar tonight.
And we gotta thank you.
It's no fail.
Wait, Jennifer.
Why?
I said, come on.
Let's do it.
Come on.
Yes.
All right.
You wish the next question.
Because we tried.
Black on black crime.
Black on white crime.
We got something like TM.
TM.
We don't want nobody's food to be raised cut.
Pick Eminem.
No.
We have a look for the law.
I wish the next question.
Come on.
I wish the next question was getting for you.
All right, so I think I'm gonna just go off of like the episode I did on like I'm gonna pick a random one
because I want to hear somebody's opinions because
Me and my dad had to talk about it. He was like you need okay. We all need to practice. We preach
I know sometimes I say stuff and I don't practice it. So
How do y'all feel when it comes to forgiveness? Are you willing to forgive how long?
X Y and Z so I'll go first when I talked about forgiveness on the podcast
I was like it takes time everything takes time especially depending on who the person is to you and how long
God being cool or whatever. Yes. So for me like I
Can forgive but I'm not gonna forget it especially because depending on what the situation was at times
Yes, it is pointless, but I feel as though people forget this thing called boundaries and respect
And as we get older you get to see
You know how people are
And I'm just real big on my boundaries and respect if you can't respect it that I
I got one thing to say
If God can forgive why can't we?
All right, so that's easiest thing than because
I'm a real sorry, but
I'm still going to church
But that's what
My thing about people god, I get the wrong
Uncut I ain't even gonna know
That's how I really
I really did wrong. I think that's why I go
I don't throw rocks to hop my hand. He knows what's up
I'm gonna go out get mad and I say some raunchy ass shit on my mouth, but God will come back
Hold me
You know what some friends I gotta really get down on my knees and really ask some for the goodness
Like not a prayer where I'm just writing in my car or sitting in my bed and like God, please
No, because my mouth can be
So it's though, it's sometimes I really really have
No, I'm getting my ass, but I'm gonna be honest with you. For giving this for giving this stuff within a mind
Hold on real quick y'all because I gotta be a mother real quick. Hey, tell you what
I was saying
Forgive me start into the mind, right? So
When you've been real
When you're being realistic about the situation of forgiveness
Everybody is payment and we all make mistakes
Why would if we we have all hurt your mind?
Why but if it's intentionally
So when now when I feel my mind starting to wander off to unforgiveness
I ask for the
So redirect my mind because that's why it's fun. Now I'm forgiving this
Remind just out of pain
So it's not to say that you should forget the pain but when you feel yourself
Going into deep about like all right
Such a such deal such a such
Let me look at him this way or hurt this way
You got to read out. You got to that's what is coming with with self control because God don't give us a spirit of
not
You gotta go back and redirect yourself even when you're driving down today. I have to capture my thoughts because my mind started to
Wonder why me driving on the highway. I like no, let me redirect myself real quick. You know what they say
If you feed into it
You never want to get a chance to even really fully forget
It's just gonna be I forget you that day and this is gonna be like oh, all right
You do one little thing is gonna trigger me. So forgiveness is really when you accept the person for who they are
Oh, genuinely
And you dealt them how you dealt with them and you sat boundaries with them
They ain't gotta have the same ass ass, but you ain't gotta do that. Oh fuck you for ever
Because that's how I used to be. I used to be like you did one thing on me is fucking for out
whereas oh it hurt a motherfucker more
Well, you don't get them the same ass. That's what I'm gonna see you love from at this
You deal with it when you want to deal with it. All right. Can I say something sure cannot speak?
Sure. All right. Hey, you got someone set the mic. We was just talking about love, right?
So technically was forgiveness, but no, it's right. We started on love, right?
So if our whole truth is love
Then why can't we forget?
Because guess what?
Nobody's perfect
This will be a born-in-his-world
To it
And that's the point
You know what? I think timing is everything because some people might not get love early in life
They learn to grow into love
Because they come through things and they come through people in life and just the little things that they do build up a relationship with them
In a certain way and they start seeing things like this person cared for me
Or you know really cared about my feelings and things like that. So people start seeing them like
Okay, now I'm starting to understand the one you know
It's really hard to understand anything depending on sometimes you're in vomit
Your environment can kill a lot of your aspirations your goals
No, he ain't doin it. No, you didn't. I ain't see you doing it. I don't know
Like
So, you know, we just going off the racket, but we're going to stay on the racket.
Now, if y'all want to vibe with us, we really want to be here with us.
If not, we're going to stay in no hard feelings.
But guess what?
We're going to still be here and still tuned in and locked in.
So, guess what? When you put down that cigarette, that cigar, that beer, that glass of wine or that shot of liquor,
or whatever your poison is, I ain't got nothing to do with that.
But guess what? We're going to still be here.
So, Erkin, okay, this is the first time I really have to interact with you,
endure what you're doing, and I'm seeing how you vibe,
and I'm proud to see you standing very affirmative and strong.
Thank you.
How do you think your life was growing up?
Okay, you step ahead, but we going, okay.
Growing up, I feel like my childhood was supposed to be.
You know, I was raised in the household with both parents.
It still is, and I'm grateful for that.
However, when you do grow up, you know, being from Baltimore City at times,
it's difficult because, you know, when you go to school, and people be always like,
so you don't do certain stuff, you don't do that.
And as I got older, I realized how it is.
I feel like I am very, very, very glad that I was raised the right way, not the wrong way, because...
And we not going to say you was raised the wrong way?
No, I'm not saying like, I'm not going to say wrong, but like, I was raised the proper way,
because a lot of people use that word sheltered a lot.
You know, we heard that word a lot.
And that word used to be like, I wouldn't say a trigger, but it always had me question,
like, what do people definition of shelter mean?
Because people like, oh, you don't do this, you don't do that.
But as I got older, I'm glad I did it, because a lot of people that grew up with grew up too fast,
you know, couldn't enjoy life, couldn't do what they wanted to do.
It's like now you're doing stuff that you don't want to do right now.
So I'm glad that I did grow up in a childhood where I could be a child,
be able to express myself and learn me as I go, because...
Yeah, I'm just glad I didn't grow up so fast.
Okay, well, can I pass this around, because I don't want that anybody feel like they're slipper,
so I want everybody to be involved.
Give me that motherfucker right here.
Oh, shit.
Like, what you... you're on childhood?
Are you asking like, childhood?
Your childhood, your childhood because...
Hey, hey, hey, I'm with no childhood with you, childhood.
I want to walk my hands.
Tell her how you was roller skating, hey, and you had an air fryer.
Rebecca the D?
Yeah.
Now, I'm going to talk about this thing between my man and his daughter,
and this thing about the shelter situation, because me and him used to do the same situation with my kids,
when my children was younger.
All right, now, my kids never had an issue.
I'm a new teacher.
One day, I'm reading a book.
I'm reading a book.
I'm reading Eric's new house.
I'm a new teacher, so I'm going to read it.
My youngest, my oldest son, my best friend,
and he telling me that my youngest son was like, leading on a do-it-some crap.
I was actually working on some other stuff,
and I'm here, Jackabin, my man is telling me,
hey man, you're the oldest brother.
He ain't supposed to be letting them know, you need to blah, blah, blah, blah.
I'm going on about my business.
Five minutes later, my niece come running downstairs.
They fighting, they fighting.
My uncle upstairs, the older one that my man had talked to,
he got a younger son, I got my young son, all Jack up.
This is like 13 and 15 years old, never had an issue with them fighting.
And now to guess what, they ain't no happy with nothing.
Facts.
But I will say, after that, they've been tighter than ever.
And a lot of things that I tell him,
like when his kid was saying they were sheltered,
and I might say something, but when we talk, I'm like, yeah, you know,
your kids definitely are growing up at a different time than mine,
and they ain't that far apart, but it's still so crazily different.
Where I would let my kids go out and do whatever, whatever.
He's like, I don't know, I ain't no, I'm going to get my,
I wasn't going to get my kids every day from school.
But when you see what's going on in school there,
I can see why he going, got his kids every day from school, you know,
at times are different now.
So I've never fought for him for that.
I always understood, yeah, he's pretty much smart for doing what he did with y'all.
Because he always had y'all on a, like right on a level
where you knew what was what, but you knew how to represent yourself.
I never forget one day, because the young son was doing something
and his daughter came downstairs and said,
dad, he's doing blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
And dad said, you go upstairs and tell him if he don't get his ass, blah, blah, blah, blah.
But the child went upstairs and knew it stinkly to edit it.
She went upstairs and said, dad said, you better get your behind.
Dad said, she didn't get up, so he said, yeah, I thought she's the lord that comes to the house.
So I like how he works it.
We all different, but his children all grew up wonderfully.
Like my children grew up wonderfully.
Like some of these young people around here grow up wonderfully.
Because I'm, I'm with him and I'm the oldest thing down there.
I think I'm older than Harold.
I'm the second OG.
But like I said, my man, my man, let's turn this thing.
And he, he even showed the OG sub-fans.
So I'll give him that.
And they say take a village, right?
I don't know about the village.
I'm talking to Billy.
I grew up in a broken household.
What's a broken household?
Like I feel like I had no childhood.
I had to grow up and be older than I had to be.
I looked at them.
My little sister, I had an older brother that ain't really be an older brother.
So I feel like, like now my age, people think I'm like 26.
No, I'm really like young and people think I'm older than I am.
But I had to grow up and be older than my age.
I moved out at 18.
Like my mom, I don't know, my mom was broken.
So she didn't know how to like show emotion.
Like she, my mom never told me she loves me.
My mom never hugged me.
That's a strong thing.
Like it was just like, I don't know.
She, like she fucked all of us up.
Like me, my brother, my little sister, like she fucked us up.
Let me try, man.
I just want to say something real quick.
She might have fucked you up, but she ain't fucked you up because, because you're strong.
We are, we are, we are, we are right now.
We never thought nothing about you getting fucked up because you, from day one when you came into Nessy,
you, you was going top.
It was great to give you an instant membership.
Because you represented, you, you represented.
That's all I want to say about that.
You go in and, you go in and things that you go do because I don't think you did stuff.
Let me try it, man.
Right?
I remember one night, I told you I was going to do skate works.
You want me to skate works too?
I don't even know the skate works, but I ain't go to skate works.
Oh yeah.
You want to skate works?
No.
All right.
So at the time, right?
Bottom on top.
We always, we always lived in the city.
My mama, my mama always kept me in the city, but we always lived in like good parks in the city.
I'm going to raise park heights for my life, but when we moved to park heights, when we moved to park heights,
we lived on park heights in Silver.
That was like, that was in the city, but it was like, on the tipways, they were like, on the top of the hill.
We had your niggas and then at the bottom of the hill was home owners.
It was a balance.
Excuse me, I'm talking about this thing.
So anyway, make a last first short.
I remember one night, man, my father was sitting on the porch.
Get off of it now.
Bye.
Get out.
I said get out.
All right.
So one day it was me and my father, he was sitting on the porch right.
He was like, so my mother and my father came from two different backgrounds.
My father came from two parents in his household.
Parents was married, but they both was recovering at it.
My mother came from both our parents, but they was together when she was younger,
but they separated after a while.
And my grandfather was still in my home, and my mother like, and my grandmother was still in my mother like,
but they wasn't together.
Okay.
And so my mother came from a different background than my father or whatever.
And my father used to often say all the time, like, you do everything as a child,
what you want to have to do when it is time for you to do what you're supposed to do.
And that question never makes sense to me until now, because it's like now that I'm 26.
I didn't, it ain't nothing that I really didn't do.
Like, looking back at it like 16, I moved out.
I was living with a whole new world.
And, but that was because of the things that was going on in my household.
Like, I got a lesson at the age of eight.
I got successful rancor at the age of 12, because of the lifestyle that my father chose to live.
You know what I'm saying?
So it was like, it turned me into a bitter, like you can use it to tell me all the time,
like you feel pretty, but why your attitude is so nasty.
But nobody never knew what I was wanting, because my mother was a type of mother,
like over going to my house, staying in my house, so I never had an outlet.
And then when I started like acting out, my mother was like, oh, you need therapy.
Oh, bitch, you need therapy. We need therapy to get out of here.
But she would always pinpoint it on me, right?
So she would be like, you need therapy. No, we need therapy.
You get what I'm saying?
And where is the old, you got some females that turn into a freak.
And then you have some females that turn bitter.
It turned me bitter.
Everything that I would be like turned me bitter.
Where is the old like people used to tell me, I'm not like, you're so pretty.
Why do you act like that?
Why do you like this?
But it was because I had to grow up that way.
I felt like I didn't have nobody to protect me.
So I always was defensive, because I had to protect myself.
I was the only child for 16 years.
I didn't have nobody to protect me.
No, I never went to a nigga to solely comfort me.
But I went to a nigga for certain things.
You get what I'm saying?
Like, I always had my mother for all they wish I was good,
but they didn't give me that love that I was looking for.
The whole time I really was a soft person, like positive, bubbly,
want to be affectionate.
Like, my son is.
I don't push him away when he tried to love up on me because I know how that feels.
So like, everybody be like, oh, he's so affectionate.
He's affectionate because I'm very affectionate with him.
And he has an affection of dead.
So I said this to a like, that is true.
I did grow up early, like, where is the male at 26?
The only thing that I really hate beautiful about was like, take tricks on a head and cause
I had the niggas with money.
I done been to the clubs, I done hung up.
I done did all that.
You get what I'm saying?
So it's like, now at 26, I'm trying to get my priorities together.
I'm like, I'm thinking like a 35 year old when I'm not even thinking like a 26 year old.
You know what I'm saying?
So I mean, but I don't regret nothing that I went through because all that shit made me
the woman that I am today.
So I wouldn't say that it's a right or wrong way because practicing don't come in a man.
And she mean just wow, my son, I don't think he's saying he's time for this podcast.
So it really don't come in a man.
So you can't really say you was raised the right way.
You just was raised to your love language.
So the love language is basically the beat that's in your eyesight and out of your heart.
At the time.
Yeah, because you can think that you can give a child your all right.
I really believe that my parents gave me they all but it wasn't good enough for me.
And that's me being real.
They knew what I needed.
And then we look back at it.
My mom, I finally realized how my grandma was saying this.
When I realized how my grandma was saying this.
It's a cycle of this fight.
It's something like my mom was the seed that he grew up in the house.
No, no, no.
I had it.
Oh, I ain't even gonna say that.
No, when I say it didn't get it.
I had it.
She didn't feel like a brat.
No, when me, I'm gonna say brat.
You had the basics.
No, I'm talking about who I am.
So now we get ready to see what it's like.
I don't get it so far now.
When I say, when I say, so my mom wasn't tight with it though.
There we go.
This is what I was like.
But I was the kid and he cared about how it all goes.
Listen, my mom used to tell me this now.
I remember me as a child, right?
I always fuck with people for how they made me feel, never for what you had.
My mother fucked with you for how you look.
And she came across a lot of fake bitches.
Whereas though, when you look around now, none of them bitches is dead.
That's why all of my day ones, right now my mom used to laugh at, oh, I ain't bringing
her home.
She looked like, nah, nah, nah.
We ain't got to talk every day, see, chat every day.
But that's what Christmas carom, they don't even got kids by my son.
She always did for my son.
When I, you feel me?
See, you ain't got no good.
So when I say, so when I say, so when I say, she gave me the love that I did, I was a,
I was a child that didn't have to buy me the world.
I was a child that if you just gave me a hug and a kiss, I would have made my day.
So I wouldn't say, right?
She just gave me what she knew how to do it.
She just gave me what she knew how to give.
She knew how to provide.
My mother took me how to survive, but not to took me how to, to have some kind of emotion.
My father took me how to survive.
I know how to survive.
He put me in any environment.
Bitch, I'm gonna bounce back.
So when it comes down to me loving, because that plays a part until you don't realize how
fucked up you are to get older.
Cause when I got with my son father, he was the nigga that wanted that he didn't have much,
but he was the nigga that took me how to tap into, tap into my emotions.
He used to want to talk.
I didn't even know how to talk.
I'm just being real.
Like when he want to talk to me, that's not empty.
But when he's gone now, it's like, no, talking really can tell a lot.
Communication.
And you know what?
So let me ask you this.
So think about this.
Yeah, I'm talking to Mike because I've had to make a film.
No, you got the mic speaking soon.
But you think about this, right?
You just hit on the topic, right?
What you just said?
She gave me the love that I wanted.
I mean, not the love that I needed.
But she knew how to get.
And one thing about life is you can't blame a person.
But I had to put them together.
Exactly, because you know why?
Because she was a mother too.
And she was in a different time.
I'm giving him my all, but that may not be.
But one thing about it is you got to look at it like this.
Even in cooking, you notice they always pass down a recipe.
Yes, my grandmother would love us a whole lot.
And guess what?
Also in family, we left with a recipe.
Right?
But as you go on in time, you learn how to take out some ingredients
and add in your own.
I'm giving you a new show.
Okay, well, yeah, honestly,
by what she said, does it imply that you did cook at one time?
What's wrong? I feel like they don't try to get you.
You know what, I just got in my ass.
I feel like you don't even cook on the show.
I know. I was coming on the little slow.
You don't cook?
I'm not going to be tired of you.
Hold on.
I didn't talk about who should I ask.
I know I like to talk a lot.
I told you. I told you all really.
But no, I'm really loving this because you don't know how much healing you bring in.
And I just want to tell you this.
Maybe you got a gift.
You got a plan.
I want you to stick to that.
Right?
Because I'm going to do it.
What?
21.
Oh my God.
21.
Why 21?
Hey, can I say something?
21, I was right.
Who 21?
Irka.
She wouldn't be right here with me if she weren't 21.
21?
That nigga was here with you.
I remember 21.
21?
I'm going to just say that 21 baby.
Because that's a deeper situation.
That nigga was back before.
We can come back and talk about that.
Even when I look at daddy with a body.
I'm leaving.
Terry was 19.
No, you're like 23.
No, no, but.
I was still busting my big father.
He was hit with a black bottle.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know.
It was a situation that you had with me
when I loved having him live in my community every day.
No, real shit.
Because baby, me,
22,
how you handled it,
you handled it, you handled it.
How I would handle it now.
But me at 27.
I feel like I've been through a lot of shit in life.
That don't want to be worth it no more.
But that don't want to be worth it.
That's what I'm saying.
I'm proud of y'all because a bitch like me,
I'm not even a female.
No, I'm still a girl.
No, no, I'm not saying no, no, no.
But I'm saying.
No, no, no, every day we learn.
Every day we learn.
No, no, no, I'm saying.
That's shit.
That's it.
I'm not even saying.
I'm not even like, I think about the future.
I'm not even like, I'm not even thinking about the future.
That's what I'm saying.
And that's the thing.
That time it was up and it was stuck.
I didn't care about the jail.
I didn't care about the...
And think about this, right?
I lost whole scholarship.
I had a full ride to college.
Full scholarship.
Think about this, right?
But I let my emotions...
Your emotions are going to cost you every time.
Every time.
Think about this.
Every time.
Okay.
You got kids out here in the world, right?
You got kids that were faced into a situation.
And then you got kids that want to be a part of a situation.
That's two fights in two worlds, right?
You got people that's put in a systematic system.
Whereas those hardest hell to get out of.
And it's a lot of good apples in that bag.
But guess what? All it takes is one.
For they throw it a whole bunch away.
And then you got kids who got parents
that can afford to give them anything
and everything they want, right?
And those kids also give
those parents problems.
Because they want to be like the kids
that they see outside the adolescence.
And it's like everything you try
to teach your kids not to be on that high
point. The kids, the people
and the parents on the low point is trying to
get to your level because they want their kids
to have the standards that they feel
y'all have because they're not seeing
really what's going on in your home.
So the thing in life is this.
It's the don't with it.
It's the what?
About a thing.
Oh wait.
About a thing.
Everything.
It's what y'all want.
Everybody.
Don't you let it.
Listen.
Listen for me to move.
Not the one y'all.
I got that shit.
No.
Cause I'm going to tell y'all this.
I'm going to tell y'all this.
Baby.
I'm going to put different shit though.
Nobody got a meaningful tattoo?
What?
Every tattoo I got is meaningful.
I got a tattoo.
Listen.
I don't know what my tattoo is.
I got a tattoo.
My tattoo was in my head.
You got tattoos?
Yeah, in my brain.
I'm starting my head.
I got physical stars on my body.
That came from
other things in life.
Take a spoon.
I don't even say.
I'm trying to lie down.
I'm trying to show this to you.
It helicopter's.
The innovation never miss.
Because people got to no room cause
for people to lay down on it.
It's the top of my heart.
But it got real there.
It was the most important thing at the time,
So let's move all our emotions out.
I feel like this is all there is to it.
It's хочу cutio,
y'all.
Okay.
because now like when you was living without a child, right?
You can move how you wanted to.
And now I see, I've been around you,
so I see the growth in you.
You know what I'm saying?
And I respect that in you because
I didn't see you crash out a lot of times.
Real shit.
And me too.
We didn't argue, but guess what?
She like a daughter than we just like my daughter.
I watched her and my daughter had it go crash out
on a little situation and I said, I'm not getting in.
Y'all gotta figure that out.
Because I love both of y'all.
And I ain't choosing no size or none of that.
And guess what?
It went back and look who we at today.
So some things you just can't take too serious
and make it a situation.
But that's how it is.
Because a lot of people got a lot of pride and ego.
Let's speak on that.
That's how it was gonna say like.
Let's speak on that.
So let me tell y'all.
Let me tell y'all.
Let me tell y'all how God really hung with me, right?
I remember before I moved to North Carolina, right,
the drugs was calling me.
You know the cost of living down there is cheaper than you,
right?
So the drugs calling me.
One drug was like, yeah, we can start you up for 1350.
Whoa now, baby.
Whoa.
That was my mindset, right?
Like, all right.
Then another drug called me like, oh, yeah,
we can start y'all for 15.
16.
I was making $15 a novel when I was 17 years old.
I had two.
Listen, hit me up.
Yo, I got you.
Hit me up.
But let me tell you how to go out of that.
Hump my ass, right?
That's what.
When I went down North Carolina, right,
I had already had a job.
They would stop me off with $19 a novel.
That's good for them, because like I said,
the cost of living down there is cheaper.
Oh, I ain't going to be able to do that.
Ended up not being able to do the job.
My girl.
I ended up getting a job that makes me $15 a novel.
I worked.
Come on.
$16 hours a day.
So I could bring home.
She had $2,300 a check at this time.
But that was God humbling me.
Because I remember before I moved down,
I'm not fucking working on no job.
That stopped me over $15 a novel.
But then you know what he told me?
It ain't about what you need to hours for,
the hours that you put in.
And that was the lesson I used to learn.
That return is the return.
So that's why that $15 a novel put me
in a luxury apartment.
That's your gotta poo.
I got a grill.
I got a park.
I got a doggy park.
I got a jam.
You know what the luxury is?
You freeing your mind.
You went down and started over from scratch.
And now it's hard.
You know why it's hard?
It's hard because it ain't for the women.
No, no, no.
But you know why it's hard?
No, but it's hard.
I'm telling you, because at first I'm like, shit.
But you know what?
Well, it's not hard.
It's all humbling.
You gotta fight.
No, it's humbling because of what you just said, right?
When you looked at it, you looked at it like, this ain't shit.
But the whole thing was, I'm in a whole mindset.
So guess what?
A half a loaf is better than a whole loaf any day,
because guess what?
I'm still eating.
Guess what?
After my 40 hours, I paid $20,000 to $250,
because I had time in the head.
But I didn't know that.
I'm like, 50,000, I want.
And then you know it.
I was able to pay my deposit, my rent, by myself.
My big father added on after the fact, because we was beating him.
He had to say, my big father.
My big father.
You know what he said?
He said, I bought him more cheese and fried.
He had no after the fact.
Don't get me wrong.
He helped me later.
I'm just talking about the word big father.
Move with me.
No, I'm already being wrong.
I'm kidding.
That's shit wrong.
Eh?
Right?
You need to be with mama.
No.
I'm the mother.
I'm the son of my mother.
OK.
I'm like, see that's the pro.
I'm the son of my mother.
See, bought him more than he could.
I'm the big mother.
Carolina sent me back.
You said, I'm the son of my mother.
OK.
But I'm saying it.
No.
At the time, he was my big father.
Look at this.
I said what I said.
You could say it.
But that wasn't his right.
He was my big father at the time.
He was a boy.
And I'm not going to say right hand when he was because he wasn't.
You keep that shit wrong, really.
Well, guess what?
You know what?
I can't take that two different ways.
I'm going to take it two different ways because even
through all of it, you're option down, guess what?
He's still there.
Yeah.
So that show.
But he took me through a lot too.
But y'all were young.
Y'all were young.
No, we still young.
That's my point.
So it's level two.
You took him for sure.
No, that's an excuse.
I feel like that's the right thing.
That's like a teacher telling you to study for a test, right?
Now, let's you feel them for you.
You got it.
You put it.
No, he definitely put it.
What he put?
I'm going to hold.
I got the easiest.
This is their way.
I know he told us all the time.
Yo.
What you get to do, y'all?
One thing, he wouldn't let me know that I'm not going to go to home.
He's a nerd.
He had a nerd.
Everybody else had.
You said if I wasn't strong in my mind,
I would have been for it because he's like, you talk.
He's telling all the time, you talk so much.
Ships.
It would really get in your mind.
Oh, so good.
It's the both of y'all.
Y'all the same thing.
Y'all the both the same.
But I can say that even if we don't work out in our relationship,
that is my team player, regardless of what.
That is the challenge that I created.
And one thing, no matter what, who would have been through hell of a shit?
Don't get me wrong.
I'll be like, fuck that nigga.
But whatever he cut out to, I'm gonna hit him in my back.
All right?
Don't matter if he show up four days late.
Because I want what I want.
What I want.
He show up.
So see, all right, so.
So I had to get to a place.
He's never going to go.
He's never going to go play inside, eh?
One thing I got to look at.
He uses his extensions.
You know how I remember that?
You got November the 15th and November the 16th.
Hey, hey, well, black people, wake me up.
Let me try that.
He's got a nigga that's good at waking up in the back.
We were all out shit.
You know how you get that catch up on the track?
But you know what?
I'm not waiting.
You know what I can say?
Because I don't wait.
I'm coming to look for you.
But you know what I can't say?
You know what I can't say?
I'm gonna straight me dead right now.
Y'all think I'm lying.
I'm lying in the look line.
Ladies better than ever, come to him.
That mother on the fifth?
He there.
He never went.
So he might have fucked up the whole month.
So now on the fifth, the first year, the fifth, you get the second year.
I don't know.
It's something like that five.
That bitch fourth.
You know who that five is?
The five head fingers.
He like, fuck that.
That bitch.
I saw a dude on the fifth.
And I was like, this is on the first.
I saw a guy.
Hey, bro, I saw a guy on the first.
I'm like this.
I'm money on the fifth.
That is something, but let's not, bro.
That nigga wants to see this.
Did he always get that right?
He always got that right.
He didn't always get that right.
No.
I'm going to be honest with you.
You can't be.
It's happening down here with him.
He been getting it right.
So timing is everything.
Right.
I feel it.
A lot of people don't understand it.
If you force shit, that's what you're going to get.
You're going to get a bunch of Jewish bullshit.
Some things in life you got to give time to grow.
You can't plan to see the day tomorrow.
Thank you.
I'm fucking corn.
But now I had a love on myself too.
Because I was putting so much.
But see, it's hard to love on yourself and you got so many distractions in your life.
That keep you from loving because you just trying to keep moving.
One time you felt we used to live.
Now we like more so in a survival plan.
I don't want to live like I'm surviving.
You want to survive like we live?
I want to live.
So I know what it is.
To survive.
If I have to.
But when we come to it, we grew up first to survive first.
I grew up to survive first.
You live it.
Yeah, that's what I'm saying.
But when I say live, let me express myself.
You know how some people say when you live, right?
Compared to survive.
Surviving means by any means necessary.
When you live and you want to track because you know what the system is and you know the bylaws and you know all the routines and the rules.
You know, I got to do this.
I got to work if I want to eat.
You know what I'm saying?
To where you go to survive.
Surviving, you know what, let me reiterate that because it's two ways that you can look at it.
And it could be, you know what, this question is so big because you got to look at your upbringing and all of that shit.
Exactly.
You just can't go off of a point in life because in order to get to a point in life, you got to come from some way.
I'm lost.
You're lost.
You're lost for what I'm saying.
No, you're lost.
What I'm saying is, like, some people think a lot you should go to already be here.
No, what I'm saying is, it's all relative.
The other day, I saw this article.
I ain't going to lie, this girl got me a taste of my mouth and I'll be like, I saw this article every day when they just came across this tribe in a Brazilian jungle.
They've never seen no other motherfuckers but themselves. They don't know about shit.
That's the whole, nothing is going on.
All right?
But those people have a high-level, where, yeah, you got some people that's on the lower level, but the motherfuckers on the top level, they feel they live in like kings.
Nothing like them.
The poorest motherfuckers living in a man.
They're all relative. You know what I'm saying? To them, they, they're on top of the world as far as we concerned and shit.
No, I used to think that.
So it depends on how you feel about yourself.
If you live in a life where you feel like, man, I got to have the Gucci's and all the bullshit, bullshit that goes on in the world and you ain't going to never be happy.
But sitting there, you go again because you know why. But back, oh boy, I don't want to get down.
If you go to shit and just make you feel good inside, all that other shit, you know, if you go for it and get it, it's all materialistic.
So it's not real.
The shit that most people go for, that's what's giving them the trouble. Try to achieve some bullshit.
I'm tasting it when I just played this.
Don't be sucking on my black now.
Oh, that's really shit. You better check it out.
Because I know if there's no feelings, don't be sucking on my black.
That's coming up. That's coming up.
That's all your interpretation.
One thing we're going to do, we're going to hold everybody accountable for their own self.
We ain't going to go through all of that cause and all that shit.
You know what I mean? No disrespect and nobody.
See you in a while.
Hey.
Thank you for seeing her.
Hey.
Thank you for letting me take her.
I appreciate it.
I'm not going to be on TV.
I'm going to be on TV starting off the one.
It ain't been a while since we had a shot.
Hey, you want to admit a session right now?
You know what I think? Who never had a shot?
I think, I think, I think, you know what I think?
I think you need to change up the vibe a little bit.
And let's look at it like this.
Let me ask everybody right now, since you are in a different place in the space of your life.
Seattle, my mom, Big Head.
I'm asking all y'all that, right?
I know y'all ain't listening right now because y'all are the big man you see.
You have a story, you know what I'm saying?
I got it.
And I'm going to tell you some, what I'm saying right now.
Where, where, okay.
Where do you see yourself in the next five years?
Coming from all of the taxes that you feel like you had that's left behind.
Do you feel like you can't grow?
You can't grow?
You sleepy?
I feel like in the next five years, I'm a, um, I ain't even doing that.
I don't know if I'm doing that.
I really feel like me, I don't know.
I really feel like the way I think and the way I want shit, I'm really going to be a millionaire.
Like I ain't going to lie to y'all.
I feel that.
I like that.
I really challenge it.
I want you to believe in myself.
And see, that's why you in the basement because we starting from the ground up.
I'm going to bust a ride and I'm going to be a celebrity.
Celebrity here's makeup artist.
I ain't going to lie.
It is.
That's the shit that I do that make me like, it's my sanity.
I like cooking and I like being a millionaire.
But I really feel like I would be a millionaire.
Big facts.
I like that.
Gaynees.
Get big heads, black heart.
Real quick, get your phone in the next five years.
I'm coming to Mooga and I'm going to get a loan.
And I will be a billionaire too.
Okay.
Because I ain't really been saying much like that.
I like that.
I'm talking because this is what this is about.
I want y'all to go off of it because everybody hears me.
Everyone is there.
So they, y'all getting to pick a bug and guess what?
That's a pop top.
This is why.
It's messed up.
Because then your shit go up and it's like, this shit go up and it's like, oh my god.
The violence was violent.
And you know what's crazy?
Who's Big Rick?
It's the Saturday night.
I know.
I know you.
I know.
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
Can I clean those up?
You know.
You don't feel bad.
What they saying?
Like, you got sweat on.
I was like, you know.
Hey, roasting now.
Roasting now.
Okay.
Thank you.
What I missed in this one is your father.
flows.
They showed you girls.
Remember that first one where gave you.
People didn't show you you couldn't finish that first one
me be like I really honestly don't know where I'll be next life is but I will say I want
in the next five years my own house I want on my house I want land but look what you
did you started I want to get you two pieces of land and it showed you where you could
be I want to be a house anyway we gotta be a big one a comfortable house you want a comfortable
house I want to be I wanted to wear as though like when my family come out of town we is
driving at the house we chilling at the house we and it's so much space even if I ain't
got a run we want a head and we don't have at the cook I know I want my house to be
gonna I'm balcony's that sit up high and then got the garage up under there I'm already
manifesting it I don't want it like 20 but you just say you don't see five years and
look I'm saying I'm saying no but I'm just saying see see how easy that was yeah it
wasn't wrote down like you just say I'm saying I wrote that down but that's what I'm saying
though but you know that's your what you got that's your that's your goal let me say y'all
to start all the way over to one beaver you know why it's called the one beaver it's called
solitude is you want you to be by yourself because that one you feel like that way it's
a really skewed to life and you gotta take all the colors and put it together to form
a foundation so now you can see the color hey this is also the bar and grill so don't
mind us we in the environment that is just flowing so it's everywhere tonight but it's
still love and respect and peace go ahead well I see myself in the next five years yeah
I really wanted no do you really want to know do you really want to know no I don't know
where I see you sound good so you gotta make sure you believe me look look look look look
look I'm a please this motherfucking parlay hit I'm a hit I'm a hit look when I hit on
the parlay I'm a hit for a lot of money I'm talking about at least half an hour I'm gonna
give it I'm gonna give it half an hour me reach half an hour on this parlay with that
half an hour I'm flipping that motherfucker I'm starting a hell of a business I'm a Daphne
invest in a couple sandwiches sandwiches around Baltimore you know you know I'm gonna get
a taco I'm gonna get some of my real me go homies from home people go get a couple of
them start them up I'm trying to get more Mexican homeboys now I got black homeboys
now I choose to hang out with people because when you grow up in our environment if you
in the streets all day only people you know is the people of your color but now you working
we ain't gonna hate anything but one thing we say to we all Kings I'm like never done
my I give him my hat talk because he could be outside but when you look at it if he acts
himself deeply he sit down right now he looked at all the friends that he had and look at
what he don't have now acts on how much he appreciate where he is in the carotid I want
to take the joke out of the situation and I want to give you the reality we can joke
all day because don't get me that's us having fun but the thing is I want to hear y'all
being young because a lot of y'all out there now a lot of a lot of people of y'all don't
speak about what they want in life because they really not bosses but under the young
people and if you don't know how to survive you're gonna lose in this city you gotta know
what it takes to live but I give you because you used to call me on the phone when you
were working over at the other job right friend of mine came through and outside being a friend
but you're leaving and I'm proud of you because you've been there over what you six seven years
now yeah all right but look at it though look at where you came from look at where you came
from no way you came in and he said when he said hit on something off that money that money
hit different when you work for it when you see that that oh see that overtime make you
feel like oh shit this that extra shit so when you young guess what exhaust yourself on that
type of shit and not the party because guess what party ain't gonna always be there and
I ain't say not enjoy yourself I ain't a lot no no no let me let me let me let me let me
let you write my spaces man I don't want to party fuck party I like telling me I like
to be with my family with the James you say you be right what you say we work for okay so guess
what I'm trying to get my cut this is fine but that's we keep it wrong cut this way it's
rolling cut like you know really give them fuck we want the smoke if my fuck is like
a big oh you know it's crazy we got James in here for the youth we got
that's why you can always learn from the youth
he was wrong so guess what he did you
know
I know
I'm a db
We on the park
Yeah, cuz it came out of nowhere
We playing for nothing we had a we was saying
Guess what now
And you know what
I got videos
I
It's not see it's not that little kid
It's because the way times are now
Now
I was grown
Listen to our conversation then and listen listen and man
Sold a different conversation. That's right
Who was supposed to stick around stuck around whatever was and they fell off right and we're
Time we showed up for them in that time. That was the time that we need that they needed us
So we built them up
Did you just you select them a word?
So I'm saying that this
You just like
Let's go
See
I
Don't know what the question was
We
You know what I'm saying just because people throw rocks don't mean you got to throw rock back
You write long as that rock don't hit you you keep walking
But when it's time to stand your ground it's nothing wrong with standing for who you stand for
just her in general being here tonight because she don't really get devout she always come through eat and hear us but now
the night she's actually a part of the base
all the time
I know you don't
you don't
you know you said it because you want man you grown up
you out come through in the premium game you will hit some shit you will hit some shit in this motherfucker
everybody up here
be a bitch
I ain't gonna mess your thing up
because y'all look like your head's out of format I will fuck it up
I know I know I'm not for matter but I had no idea what was going on
I did I probably would not have shown up because I would mess up y'all clothes
but now I'm here
you're messing up no flow
I'm talking to him
I love you
girl
don't touch me
hey
hey but one thing I can say
hey I wish we had shown him
I would have loved it
I'm gonna show you a shot oh Jesus man
no I ain't guessing nothing I believe it
call it your name
so what was your vibe for the night how did you feel overall
if you say old in middle in young in right
what are you feeling about the experience that you had tonight
what this old in
you feel like they know oh he's a ball head
I had my son
that's all right
ain't no better than the best of the all will be going she she
he didn't even know he got none at the top and I got a ball in you
I was trying to
close the window
I say like I had to park a sense like June that was like my own personal birthday present from
my mom's birthday present from me by me turn 21
you know usually when you turn 21 people won't go crazy go stupid
me I keep this simple and this is what I've been wanting to do for a very long time
so within finally seeing it come to light it is like it's big and I wanted to be more
broader to the point where like I didn't get people on here from all over like
you got your big old professors rappers stuff like that I don't want to be like
champs nothing but I want to have my own slow and you feel like people do this
you know I just want to do this for myself because everybody's like oh
you like that I'm gonna be myself everything I do is original you know
here another one here
what?
Harold's in the house he added that drink champ he said he agreed to be original
hey you don't hear me say no
hey don't say that
hey you said I said
then get the guns
guns guns
so we got over all for tonight I'm glad that body's being the first time having people on there
because people have been asking to be on here this one it went different than what I would expect it to be
I knew it wasn't gonna be like round around everybody bouncing around I knew that was what it was
you know what it sounds like
there was also white belly shit
you know you haven't seen that shit
the white belly
but it got this story well it's like people going there and they tell like the addicts and prostitutes and they tell them that story
but it basically
I used to have prostitutes or that
you said that to me
that's what I wanted to see
that's bad shit
drug dealers and shit
but it was like no you feel me
you feel me y'all
it wasn't awkward
they wasn't afraid
to you know to express something that you know
that they're gonna win the cup
that hurt that
you know that something that made them
you feel me
you feel me?
they put two and zero in it
you know what
it's crazy that
the only reason why we probably speaking this way is because we got the mic on us
but it probably wouldn't have went no different
you might have heard some different shit
by there would have been a little rock
we might have played some music and we don't want no trouble
but it's just music that we all grew up
off of and we vibe with
but we cut it off tonight
because we don't want no smoke
and guess what
and that's the whole thing
of the basement
you know what the basement is
everybody here starting from the bottom
it ain't no judgment
on life that's why it's no feeling
I'm running out of bottom
we had the bottom at a different level
see he don't understand see that's what I'm talking about
he says you had the bottom with the black card list
and we got black card
members in the basement so that shows you that
it's a lot of growth
a lot of respect and a lot of people in here
ain't no game
it's just life
see I got a white one
we all got a black card
I don't got no black card
that green motherfucker in that blue you pull off
that's black because guess what that's facts
take that back
he said that Lamborghini outside
pay cash
guess what
that zucchini outside
a fatty cash
I ain't had that with any money
but I got zucchini and it was linguiney
with that shit cut off
manifed a jaw break
stop
don't tell him to stop
don't spit that shit out
gotta watch him
he can't even handle the throats
okay edit it off for him
edit that
you did that motherfucker
on and I hit you like damn
no I'm trying
I did that
you can talk about man baby
man I'm mad
man you're gonna be lonely shit
don't make me call that pap you're the top of your head
brother
fuck it with me now
I was in a series to
I had to cut off that stage but I couldn't do it
I was sorry
you guys always