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Hey y'all, whether it's morning, evening, or afternoon, I'm just glad that you guys have decided to vibe with Eve.

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And for those of you who are new, welcome. And for those of you who are not new to this protruded, it's hey y'all and I hope all is well.

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So before we get into the show, I just want to tell y'all today will be different today. I'm having guests and we're gonna vibe out with them.

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So without further ado, I want you guys to sit back, relax and enjoy the show. Whether you guys are on a go or on a move,

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I just want y'all to sit back, relax and get real comfortable because this episode is gonna be real, real raw and uncut.

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Like, yeah. So let's get into it. So today I'm vibing out with...

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Big Steve, have a little wine and get some stuff.

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Big Limey with the body.

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Because...

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That's how I tell my mind.

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Alright, so let's get into it.

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I'm going to have a move too. Hey, I'm a bear.

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I'm going to have a move.

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I'm going to have a shot. You can tell he get a shot up there. I'm just playing him drink.

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Alright, so today we're just going to do raw and uncut. Like I said, and then today I'm going to ask y'all a few questions before we get deeper into it.

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So first, you already introduced yourself. So tell me a little bit about yourself.

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First, I'm going to say something real quick. This girl, she's not shy. Like, she's doing her big ones out there.

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Go ahead.

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Thank you. Thank you. Okay. So first, tell me a little bit about yourself.

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Alright, so, don't know what me, Big Steve, have a little one here.

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I'm 26. Give me one. Give me one.

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I'm from West Baltimore. Go ahead and let's put in a big...

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I am a mother of one with my bonus insurance.

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I got three bonus insurance. I'm sorry.

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I just relocated from Baltimore to North Carolina. I'm in Greensboro. Shout out to Greensboro.

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She's telling me, what's up, playing?

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Yeah, what Marnie say? Yeah.

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Yeah, that's a little bit about me. What's up?

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This is Nadia. I'm 23. My birthday coming up.

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Big Steve, Big Steve, yeah. I'm in school for nursing.

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Big up. Big up.

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I'm a violent little ewe in this bitch.

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We got time to talk about things.

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I'm out of the William and Ian talk.

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Oh wait, I'm not feeling so.

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No, I'm feeling it.

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I need a walk too.

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I need a talk too.

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I'm having a bad time.

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I'm just a little young boy.

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I'm 27. I get told that I make you hate, but I do.

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I just be cool and cool.

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I see other ways.

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Young hearts, more.

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That's paying your bonus amount.

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I feel you need to make a mess of it.

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I'm on the way to get a million. You got to think of me.

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Yeah, I don't.

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He was like, cool to baby.

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Well, this is the biggest ewe.

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Violent with the bigger ewe.

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Tonight, I'm just sitting back and listening to my first time.

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I'm proud to hear it. Do a thing.

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So I'm just going to sit back and observe and be a sponge tonight.

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But I am going to speak my peace.

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Oh, we know big stuff.

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We got to do that up to a damn full shake.

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We want to vibe with ewe tonight.

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Yeah.

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Never the little one.

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It's going to start off with a vibe.

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It's a vibe.

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I don't want to see that goofy bitch.

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It's never not a vibe.

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You want to?

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Yeah, I'm past that James thing.

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I know it looked real good.

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It was just fluffy.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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I'm green all the time.

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That shit over here.

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Yeah.

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Oh, you're cut, baby.

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Cut big and big.

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These favorite amers really amers.

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They famous.

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You said it's really amers.

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I'm cold as shit.

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I'm good.

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You got any classes class tonight?

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Yeah.

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I know.

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I know.

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All right.

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We already told you about yourself.

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This one.

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I've been dying here.

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One of the topics I want to talk about.

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Let's break the ice like this.

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What motivates you everyday?

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What motivates you

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everyday?

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What motivates me everyday

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is my son first.

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No, I'ma say this.

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God first.

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Right?

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Because if you don't got him in your life,

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ain't nothing that you touch won't prevail.

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And that's factual.

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That's actual factual.

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And then I see my son.

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And then my son and then all of my family.

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Not just a particular one.

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All my family.

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Right?

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I don't know.

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I think my motivation really started from

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growing up.

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Growing up, I always knew what I wanted to be

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and what I didn't want to be.

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And I always surrounded myself

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around women.

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Or guys that had likewise

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mindsets like me.

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Strung stuff along, strung word with me.

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You know what I'm saying?

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But I think for the most part of it,

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my motivation I'll say is

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God first.

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Because God wants you to live right.

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He wants you to do right.

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We fleshly people.

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So we gonna fuck up.

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Got it.

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They say fuck in the same sentence.

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But we, we, we hate it.

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So we gonna fuck up.

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You know what I'm saying?

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So I think now, by me moving,

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I change and I really been around

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different environments.

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And where I'm at there, like really God

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fearing people.

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Like the state of North Carolina, they big one God down there.

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So it's like they, that's what really be

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me to you and get into my word more.

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For real cause like every conversation

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that you have with them down there, they

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gonna bring God up. So you ain't got no other

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choice but to even get with it or get lost.

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Okay.

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Big shout out, big shout out.

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Yeah, big shout out to the big

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family that's coming in.

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Yeah, big shout out to the big family that's coming in.

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Big shout out to the big family that's coming in.

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Big hands coming in hot.

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Big hands coming in hot.

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Ready like little seeds.

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Big hands coming in hot.

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Big hands.

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Big hands.

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Big hands.

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Got a turkey.

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A couple of ram, you ready to get it down for you.

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My motivation

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my little ones and me.

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really

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don't know if I got you like yourself.

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Facts.

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Facts.

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Facts about myself and then

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my parents are motivating me to go.

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That was on watching.

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Poet.

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74 and 16.

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We, we, we, we, we, we screaming.

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I know.

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We talking.

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Yeah, we vibing with eight.

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Everybody motivate me in a little way though.

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I ain't gonna lie.

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Everybody really do motivate me in a little way.

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All the way to the shot.

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Yeah.

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One of your hands.

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Hey, you know what's funny?

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Everybody got a lot to talk about until they feel like they been interviewed.

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Yeah.

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Speaking a little bit.

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All right. No.

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That's all it is.

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My blood.

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Ain't no hope.

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I'm no poor bitch.

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No way.

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No way.

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You tell me.

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That was a shit day.

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Hey, how you feeling today?

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I'm fine.

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How your day go?

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Nothing really happened today.

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Nothing really.

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I mean, I woke up.

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Of course.

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I got my room together.

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That was about it.

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And then went outside and eat with y'all and stuff.

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That was about it.

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Yeah, that was about it.

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What motivates you, bro?

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What motivates me?

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I don't want to be fucked up.

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I see homeless people.

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And I mean, you know, everybody got that story.

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I don't want to have that bad story.

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So that's what motivates me to keep going.

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And I got people to, you know, I'm a provider.

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I love my folks.

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I love my folks.

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And in fact, that's leading to a question.

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I want to ask you.

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So, you know, on Friday, me and my family, me and my girlfriend, not Debra.

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No.

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My aunt, my aunt, my aunt, my aunt, my aunt.

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We get crabs.

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This sounds like how we vibing in here.

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This is what we do.

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We go get crabs.

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Get our crabs, get our bottles.

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Take our stuff before we eat our crabs.

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Throw me butt.

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A call of cc came up.

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I think this is very big.

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I think everybody have a different opinion on it.

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What is your love language?

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Love language.

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Ah, you know it's funny.

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You're loving me.

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It's your actions.

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No, not right now.

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I'll tell people about different love languages.

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That's what I said.

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I'm gonna hold that mic for a minute.

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I would say your love language are your actions because they go in so many different aspects.

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All right.

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So let me tell you all this.

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And listen, that's crazy that this even presented this stuff because I swear just last week.

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You said that to me.

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You said that to me.

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You said that to me.

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What's up?

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Let's just say it.

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It's crazy that this wasn't...

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Thank you.

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It's crazy that this wasn't specific because last week

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me and my co-workers were sitting at where we were talking about love languages, right?

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So, sitting back and looking.

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My love language has changed.

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My love language has changed because now I'm getting to know who I am as a woman, right?

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So, I thought my love language was money or like...

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Like, guessing all that.

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Yeah. I thought that was my love language because that was the environment that I was raised around.

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So that was the only love language that I knew, right?

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So now me at 26 and me stepping out of my element and getting to know me.

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Yeah, baby. My love language ain't that no more.

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My love language is communication, loyalty, like I'm bad on it.

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Like, fuck what you're bringing in.

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I want you to be able to...

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Don't get me wrong. You gotta have something on that.

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Because I ain't fucking with them.

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They ain't going to shit for me.

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Me just knowing that you have my back stability as my love language.

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Right?

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It was like, oh, back then it was what you could do for me.

270
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It might sound like a gold digger, might sound like...

271
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But I'm going to push it over. It's had our own paper.

272
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You got what I'm saying?

273
00:12:52,600 --> 00:12:54,600
But at the end of the day, it was like, what a nigga could do for me.

274
00:12:54,600 --> 00:12:58,600
And that was my mindset, but that was because that was how I was raised.

275
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But now it's like, yeah, what can you do for me?

276
00:13:02,600 --> 00:13:04,600
But what can you do for me in my mind?

277
00:13:04,600 --> 00:13:06,600
How can you add to my peace?

278
00:13:06,600 --> 00:13:08,600
Because can't nobody give you peace and can't nobody make you happy.

279
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That shit start within yourself.

280
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And I had to learn that though.

281
00:13:12,600 --> 00:13:16,600
Like real shit, I really had to learn that because for so long, you know how you be like,

282
00:13:16,600 --> 00:13:20,600
he'll make me happy. He can never make you happy, though.

283
00:13:20,600 --> 00:13:24,600
He can only add on to what your happiness was already with what's what's in you.

284
00:13:24,600 --> 00:13:26,600
You feel what I'm saying? So I can say that.

285
00:13:26,600 --> 00:13:34,600
I'm really wrong for real because I'm learning a whole lot about myself.

286
00:13:34,600 --> 00:13:36,600
And I didn't even know it existed.

287
00:13:36,600 --> 00:13:40,600
But I'm isolated. I'm by myself, so I ain't got no other choice but to take into myself.

288
00:13:40,600 --> 00:13:45,600
So, yeah, I'm the only person, my love language changed.

289
00:13:45,600 --> 00:13:49,600
And it may change little on down the line, but that's what I meant right now in my life.

290
00:13:49,600 --> 00:13:52,600
Like that's what my love language is, ability.

291
00:13:52,600 --> 00:13:54,600
That's bad. That's real bad.

292
00:13:54,600 --> 00:13:56,600
I love it because it's affection.

293
00:13:56,600 --> 00:13:58,600
What's your love language, sis?

294
00:13:58,600 --> 00:14:00,600
You gotta go. Kiss me, text me.

295
00:14:00,600 --> 00:14:02,600
Speak that language.

296
00:14:02,600 --> 00:14:04,600
That language to me, whoa.

297
00:14:04,600 --> 00:14:08,600
That's because I show affection though.

298
00:14:08,600 --> 00:14:11,600
Yeah, I was in my head last time. I was touching it.

299
00:14:11,600 --> 00:14:14,600
And I just asked the word though. I was touching it.

300
00:14:14,600 --> 00:14:19,600
Because I was like, I never grew up in a hospital love, so I give it a life.

301
00:14:19,600 --> 00:14:20,600
No, no.

302
00:14:20,600 --> 00:14:22,600
I said it.

303
00:14:22,600 --> 00:14:24,600
I didn't even know.

304
00:14:24,600 --> 00:14:27,600
Mine's on tip like on the way I show it again.

305
00:14:27,600 --> 00:14:29,600
You get what I'm saying?

306
00:14:29,600 --> 00:14:31,600
Or I give time and all on that type of job.

307
00:14:31,600 --> 00:14:34,600
I show it because I never grew up in a hospital love.

308
00:14:34,600 --> 00:14:37,600
That's what I'm saying. I'm talking about myself over the years.

309
00:14:37,600 --> 00:14:39,600
Oh, you want to hold it?

310
00:14:39,600 --> 00:14:41,600
Can I say something?

311
00:14:41,600 --> 00:14:43,600
What's your, John?

312
00:14:43,600 --> 00:14:45,600
So I'm going to say this, right?

313
00:14:45,600 --> 00:14:47,600
My love language.

314
00:14:47,600 --> 00:14:49,600
My love language.

315
00:14:49,600 --> 00:14:52,600
She always said it for me. That's good.

316
00:14:52,600 --> 00:14:57,600
My love language used to be a giver.

317
00:14:57,600 --> 00:15:00,600
But then when I moved away

318
00:15:00,600 --> 00:15:03,600
and I stepped away from like everything

319
00:15:03,600 --> 00:15:06,600
and it's different wrong with your little things being together.

320
00:15:06,600 --> 00:15:08,600
I'm just speaking for me, right?

321
00:15:08,600 --> 00:15:13,600
When I moved away and I came back, like when I would come back to visit, right?

322
00:15:13,600 --> 00:15:18,600
The lingo was always, oh, I miss you because,

323
00:15:18,600 --> 00:15:19,600
da, da, da, da, da.

324
00:15:19,600 --> 00:15:24,600
So you miss me because of what I could give, what I could give to you, right?

325
00:15:24,600 --> 00:15:28,600
You didn't miss me from my vibe. You didn't miss me from my personality.

326
00:15:28,600 --> 00:15:30,600
You missed me just because I'm me, right?

327
00:15:30,600 --> 00:15:34,600
So it kind of like, once I stepped away

328
00:15:34,600 --> 00:15:37,600
and I had to learn to be okay with that, right?

329
00:15:37,600 --> 00:15:40,600
Because the computer love language is a giver, right?

330
00:15:40,600 --> 00:15:44,600
And I had to accept like, all right, maybe God had me here in this person

331
00:15:44,600 --> 00:15:46,600
like to give them that at that time.

332
00:15:46,600 --> 00:15:48,600
But I'm no longer that person anymore.

333
00:15:48,600 --> 00:15:52,600
I give now only what I really can give

334
00:15:52,600 --> 00:15:56,600
versus me draining myself to give so much, right?

335
00:15:56,600 --> 00:16:00,600
So it wasn't until I stepped away, right?

336
00:16:00,600 --> 00:16:02,600
And I came back and I heard the lingo.

337
00:16:02,600 --> 00:16:07,600
The lingo was always, oh, because I miss you because I ain't hit him like, take me here.

338
00:16:07,600 --> 00:16:09,600
I ain't hit him like, what's your sign?

339
00:16:09,600 --> 00:16:15,600
I'm not me. That was, that was, that was, no, at that time, that was the third way God was using me at though.

340
00:16:15,600 --> 00:16:16,600
You know what I'm saying?

341
00:16:16,600 --> 00:16:20,600
He was using me to be that person, but where's the now?

342
00:16:20,600 --> 00:16:21,600
So where's the now?

343
00:16:21,600 --> 00:16:23,600
I've surpassed it.

344
00:16:23,600 --> 00:16:24,600
So where's the now?

345
00:16:24,600 --> 00:16:29,600
I didn't even realize how much of an introvert I was until I moved away.

346
00:16:29,600 --> 00:16:32,600
I always felt like I needed to be around people, right?

347
00:16:32,600 --> 00:16:34,600
I needed to be around a vibe.

348
00:16:34,600 --> 00:16:35,600
Speaking about that.

349
00:16:35,600 --> 00:16:36,600
But I'm a vibe, I'm a vibe.

350
00:16:36,600 --> 00:16:37,600
Yes!

351
00:16:37,600 --> 00:16:38,600
Yes!

352
00:16:38,600 --> 00:16:39,600
Yes!

353
00:16:39,600 --> 00:16:40,600
Yes!

354
00:16:40,600 --> 00:16:41,600
Yes!

355
00:16:41,600 --> 00:16:46,600
And so I didn't realize how much of an introvert I was really until I moved away

356
00:16:46,600 --> 00:16:49,600
because that was me tapping into myself.

357
00:16:49,600 --> 00:16:51,600
I didn't know that about myself though.

358
00:16:51,600 --> 00:16:52,600
I just moved away.

359
00:16:52,600 --> 00:16:54,600
I'm really alone and for it.

360
00:16:54,600 --> 00:16:56,600
I really don't want you to know.

361
00:16:56,600 --> 00:16:58,600
I really don't want to be here.

362
00:16:58,600 --> 00:16:59,600
I don't.

363
00:16:59,600 --> 00:17:01,600
I want to be at peace.

364
00:17:01,600 --> 00:17:02,600
Yeah, right?

365
00:17:02,600 --> 00:17:06,600
I feel like it's pretty, pretty easy.

366
00:17:06,600 --> 00:17:09,600
I mean, let me get last option.

367
00:17:09,600 --> 00:17:14,600
But because I was here and I was living in it, it was like, yeah, that was me.

368
00:17:14,600 --> 00:17:19,600
I thought that that was me, but no, it wasn't until I stepped away and I really realized like,

369
00:17:19,600 --> 00:17:23,600
I really don't want to be there and it's nothing wrong with that.

370
00:17:23,600 --> 00:17:27,600
Because sometimes society will make you feel like you're wrong for not wanting to.

371
00:17:27,600 --> 00:17:29,600
Oh, that's the point of self-love.

372
00:17:29,600 --> 00:17:30,600
Saying no is so funny.

373
00:17:30,600 --> 00:17:32,600
Alright, so where does love come from?

374
00:17:32,600 --> 00:17:33,600
Back.

375
00:17:33,600 --> 00:17:34,600
I don't know.

376
00:17:34,600 --> 00:17:37,600
I feel like it's definitely worth it.

377
00:17:37,600 --> 00:17:38,600
It's a...

378
00:17:38,600 --> 00:17:39,600
Exactly.

379
00:17:39,600 --> 00:17:40,600
I feel that shit in my chest.

380
00:17:40,600 --> 00:17:42,600
Like, if I'm gonna go heartbreak, my heart will...

381
00:17:42,600 --> 00:17:43,600
I don't know.

382
00:17:43,600 --> 00:17:44,600
My shit is falling.

383
00:17:44,600 --> 00:17:45,600
Don't you touch me.

384
00:17:45,600 --> 00:17:46,600
My chest be hurting.

385
00:17:46,600 --> 00:17:47,600
That's how I know.

386
00:17:47,600 --> 00:17:49,600
We're going to radio.

387
00:17:49,600 --> 00:17:51,600
You cannot do that.

388
00:17:51,600 --> 00:17:52,600
No.

389
00:17:52,600 --> 00:17:53,600
Go here, big head.

390
00:17:53,600 --> 00:17:54,600
We talk.

391
00:17:54,600 --> 00:17:55,600
Go here, big head.

392
00:17:55,600 --> 00:17:57,600
We want to fuck it.

393
00:17:57,600 --> 00:17:59,600
We ain't got your name on it.

394
00:17:59,600 --> 00:18:01,600
We already know how you is.

395
00:18:01,600 --> 00:18:02,600
We don't go to home.

396
00:18:02,600 --> 00:18:03,600
We don't go to home.

397
00:18:03,600 --> 00:18:04,600
We don't go to home.

398
00:18:04,600 --> 00:18:05,600
We don't go to home.

399
00:18:05,600 --> 00:18:06,600
We don't go to home.

400
00:18:06,600 --> 00:18:08,600
We don't talk and we can help somebody.

401
00:18:08,600 --> 00:18:10,600
Oh, we're not trying to help somebody.

402
00:18:10,600 --> 00:18:11,600
Chill out right now.

403
00:18:11,600 --> 00:18:12,600
Chill out.

404
00:18:12,600 --> 00:18:13,600
Chill out.

405
00:18:13,600 --> 00:18:14,600
Chill out.

406
00:18:14,600 --> 00:18:15,600
Chill out.

407
00:18:15,600 --> 00:18:16,600
No, not right now.

408
00:18:16,600 --> 00:18:18,600
What's it your uncle just said?

409
00:18:18,600 --> 00:18:19,600
Bye.

410
00:18:19,600 --> 00:18:21,600
They got your bag on.

411
00:18:21,600 --> 00:18:24,600
Miss me, miss me, miss me.

412
00:18:24,600 --> 00:18:26,600
I'll tell you miss me.

413
00:18:26,600 --> 00:18:27,600
Okay, sure.

414
00:18:27,600 --> 00:18:29,600
I'll tell you miss me.

415
00:18:29,600 --> 00:18:32,600
I'll tell you miss me tonight.

416
00:18:32,600 --> 00:18:34,600
Oh, fuck you.

417
00:18:34,600 --> 00:18:36,600
Okay, Kim.

418
00:18:36,600 --> 00:18:38,600
His name is real good.

419
00:18:38,600 --> 00:18:40,600
His name is real good.

420
00:18:40,600 --> 00:18:43,600
It's like, I really gotta remind somebody

421
00:18:43,600 --> 00:18:46,600
that that's her thing to say.

422
00:18:46,600 --> 00:18:48,600
Go ahead, be a sucker shit.

423
00:18:48,600 --> 00:18:49,600
What's love?

424
00:18:49,600 --> 00:18:50,600
What's love?

425
00:18:50,600 --> 00:18:51,600
What's love?

426
00:18:51,600 --> 00:18:52,600
What's love?

427
00:18:52,600 --> 00:18:58,600
What's love got to do with that?

428
00:18:58,600 --> 00:19:02,600
What's love, what a sucker and emotions.

429
00:19:02,600 --> 00:19:03,600
I don't think we can do that.

430
00:19:03,600 --> 00:19:07,600
What's love got to do with that?

431
00:19:07,600 --> 00:19:08,600
Hey, hey.

432
00:19:08,600 --> 00:19:09,600
Your handbag.

433
00:19:09,600 --> 00:19:10,600
Right.

434
00:19:10,600 --> 00:19:11,600
You guys didn't see him.

435
00:19:11,600 --> 00:19:13,600
Okay

436
00:19:22,080 --> 00:19:24,080
Come from

437
00:19:27,240 --> 00:19:29,240
Oh

438
00:19:29,240 --> 00:19:45,240
True fact

439
00:19:59,620 --> 00:20:01,500
Come on

440
00:20:01,500 --> 00:20:03,500
Like, like he ain't saying that.

441
00:20:03,500 --> 00:20:04,500
No, no, no, no.

442
00:20:04,500 --> 00:20:06,500
If you're gonna fold all that love,

443
00:20:06,500 --> 00:20:08,500
but nobody's talking, it's gonna be like,

444
00:20:08,500 --> 00:20:10,500
it's gonna be like, one step below the line.

445
00:20:10,500 --> 00:20:12,500
But love, he said love.

446
00:20:12,500 --> 00:20:14,500
We talking about love.

447
00:20:14,500 --> 00:20:16,500
I can't be organized. We never really organized.

448
00:20:16,500 --> 00:20:17,500
You're good.

449
00:20:17,500 --> 00:20:19,500
I'm gonna put the scream in the house.

450
00:20:19,500 --> 00:20:21,500
I'm gonna leave off everything.

451
00:20:21,500 --> 00:20:23,500
What you say love, bro?

452
00:20:23,500 --> 00:20:25,500
It's a feeling.

453
00:20:25,500 --> 00:20:27,500
Like, you feel me?

454
00:20:27,500 --> 00:20:29,500
Like, you making a bomb with somebody.

455
00:20:29,500 --> 00:20:31,500
You're only gaining that trust.

456
00:20:31,500 --> 00:20:32,500
How you doing?

457
00:20:32,500 --> 00:20:34,500
All right, see, they all move over there.

458
00:20:34,500 --> 00:20:37,500
I ain't got a lot on me. I feel that shit about heart.

459
00:20:37,500 --> 00:20:40,500
You ain't sweating, but where did it come from?

460
00:20:40,500 --> 00:20:42,500
Where did it come from?

461
00:20:42,500 --> 00:20:45,500
Where did that feeling in your heart come from?

462
00:20:45,500 --> 00:20:49,500
It's that body symbol for love is the heart.

463
00:20:49,500 --> 00:20:50,500
Where did it come from?

464
00:20:50,500 --> 00:20:52,500
But the heart doesn't look like the heart.

465
00:20:52,500 --> 00:20:54,500
And your body is not the shape of a heart.

466
00:20:54,500 --> 00:20:55,500
All right, so it's state.

467
00:20:55,500 --> 00:20:56,500
Love is patient. Love is kind.

468
00:20:56,500 --> 00:20:58,500
Love endures all things.

469
00:20:58,500 --> 00:21:00,500
Love is blind.

470
00:21:00,500 --> 00:21:02,500
It is blind.

471
00:21:02,500 --> 00:21:05,500
And it'll take all of your mind.

472
00:21:05,500 --> 00:21:07,500
Because it means to love.

473
00:21:07,500 --> 00:21:12,500
Surely not. You need to elevate and find.

474
00:21:12,500 --> 00:21:13,500
Yeah.

475
00:21:13,500 --> 00:21:15,500
My girl needs this.

476
00:21:15,500 --> 00:21:17,500
Hey, forgive us. We got one thing.

477
00:21:17,500 --> 00:21:18,500
We five of those.

478
00:21:18,500 --> 00:21:19,500
She ain't saying she said.

479
00:21:19,500 --> 00:21:20,500
But she ain't.

480
00:21:20,500 --> 00:21:21,500
Love.

481
00:21:21,500 --> 00:21:23,500
The bar tonight.

482
00:21:23,500 --> 00:21:24,500
And we gotta thank you.

483
00:21:24,500 --> 00:21:25,500
It's no fail.

484
00:21:25,500 --> 00:21:27,500
Wait, Jennifer.

485
00:21:27,500 --> 00:21:28,500
Why?

486
00:21:28,500 --> 00:21:29,500
I said, come on.

487
00:21:29,500 --> 00:21:30,500
Let's do it.

488
00:21:30,500 --> 00:21:31,500
Come on.

489
00:21:31,500 --> 00:21:32,500
Yes.

490
00:21:32,500 --> 00:21:33,500
All right.

491
00:21:33,500 --> 00:21:34,500
You wish the next question.

492
00:21:34,500 --> 00:21:35,500
Because we tried.

493
00:21:35,500 --> 00:21:38,500
Black on black crime.

494
00:21:38,500 --> 00:21:40,500
Black on white crime.

495
00:21:40,500 --> 00:21:42,500
We got something like TM.

496
00:21:42,500 --> 00:21:43,500
TM.

497
00:21:43,500 --> 00:21:45,500
We don't want nobody's food to be raised cut.

498
00:21:45,500 --> 00:21:48,500
Pick Eminem.

499
00:21:48,500 --> 00:21:49,500
No.

500
00:21:49,500 --> 00:21:50,500
No.

501
00:21:50,500 --> 00:21:52,500
We have a look for the law.

502
00:21:52,500 --> 00:21:54,500
I wish the next question.

503
00:21:54,500 --> 00:21:55,500
Come on.

504
00:21:55,500 --> 00:21:57,500
I wish the next question was getting for you.

505
00:21:57,500 --> 00:22:03,500
All right, so I think I'm gonna just go off of like the episode I did on like I'm gonna pick a random one

506
00:22:03,500 --> 00:22:05,500
because I want to hear somebody's opinions because

507
00:22:05,900 --> 00:22:11,580
Me and my dad had to talk about it. He was like you need okay. We all need to practice. We preach

508
00:22:11,580 --> 00:22:14,460
I know sometimes I say stuff and I don't practice it. So

509
00:22:14,860 --> 00:22:19,940
How do y'all feel when it comes to forgiveness? Are you willing to forgive how long?

510
00:22:19,940 --> 00:22:26,100
X Y and Z so I'll go first when I talked about forgiveness on the podcast

511
00:22:26,100 --> 00:22:33,140
I was like it takes time everything takes time especially depending on who the person is to you and how long

512
00:22:33,380 --> 00:22:37,780
God being cool or whatever. Yes. So for me like I

513
00:22:38,540 --> 00:22:44,980
Can forgive but I'm not gonna forget it especially because depending on what the situation was at times

514
00:22:44,980 --> 00:22:51,140
Yes, it is pointless, but I feel as though people forget this thing called boundaries and respect

515
00:22:51,700 --> 00:22:53,940
And as we get older you get to see

516
00:22:55,460 --> 00:22:57,460
You know how people are

517
00:22:58,020 --> 00:23:02,420
And I'm just real big on my boundaries and respect if you can't respect it that I

518
00:23:03,140 --> 00:23:05,140
I got one thing to say

519
00:23:05,780 --> 00:23:08,100
If God can forgive why can't we?

520
00:23:08,980 --> 00:23:11,140
All right, so that's easiest thing than because

521
00:23:12,180 --> 00:23:14,180
I'm a real sorry, but

522
00:23:14,180 --> 00:23:17,300
I'm still going to church

523
00:23:19,060 --> 00:23:21,060
But that's what

524
00:23:23,140 --> 00:23:25,140
My thing about people god, I get the wrong

525
00:23:25,940 --> 00:23:27,940
Uncut I ain't even gonna know

526
00:23:29,700 --> 00:23:31,700
That's how I really

527
00:23:32,580 --> 00:23:34,740
I really did wrong. I think that's why I go

528
00:23:36,340 --> 00:23:38,580
I don't throw rocks to hop my hand. He knows what's up

529
00:23:38,580 --> 00:23:44,260
I'm gonna go out get mad and I say some raunchy ass shit on my mouth, but God will come back

530
00:23:44,740 --> 00:23:46,740
Hold me

531
00:23:47,300 --> 00:23:51,860
You know what some friends I gotta really get down on my knees and really ask some for the goodness

532
00:23:51,860 --> 00:23:55,940
Like not a prayer where I'm just writing in my car or sitting in my bed and like God, please

533
00:23:56,660 --> 00:23:58,660
No, because my mouth can be

534
00:24:00,660 --> 00:24:03,460
So it's though, it's sometimes I really really have

535
00:24:03,460 --> 00:24:11,300
No, I'm getting my ass, but I'm gonna be honest with you. For giving this for giving this stuff within a mind

536
00:24:11,940 --> 00:24:15,460
Hold on real quick y'all because I gotta be a mother real quick. Hey, tell you what

537
00:24:16,580 --> 00:24:18,580
I was saying

538
00:24:18,580 --> 00:24:21,060
Forgive me start into the mind, right? So

539
00:24:22,100 --> 00:24:24,100
When you've been real

540
00:24:24,100 --> 00:24:27,140
When you're being realistic about the situation of forgiveness

541
00:24:28,100 --> 00:24:30,580
Everybody is payment and we all make mistakes

542
00:24:30,580 --> 00:24:33,860
Why would if we we have all hurt your mind?

543
00:24:34,500 --> 00:24:36,500
Why but if it's intentionally

544
00:24:39,940 --> 00:24:46,500
So when now when I feel my mind starting to wander off to unforgiveness

545
00:24:47,780 --> 00:24:49,780
I ask for the

546
00:24:50,500 --> 00:24:54,900
So redirect my mind because that's why it's fun. Now I'm forgiving this

547
00:24:56,180 --> 00:24:58,180
Remind just out of pain

548
00:24:58,180 --> 00:25:05,220
So it's not to say that you should forget the pain but when you feel yourself

549
00:25:06,420 --> 00:25:08,420
Going into deep about like all right

550
00:25:08,900 --> 00:25:10,900
Such a such deal such a such

551
00:25:11,460 --> 00:25:14,020
Let me look at him this way or hurt this way

552
00:25:14,740 --> 00:25:20,180
You got to read out. You got to that's what is coming with with self control because God don't give us a spirit of

553
00:25:21,060 --> 00:25:23,060
not

554
00:25:23,060 --> 00:25:29,940
You gotta go back and redirect yourself even when you're driving down today. I have to capture my thoughts because my mind started to

555
00:25:29,940 --> 00:25:35,380
Wonder why me driving on the highway. I like no, let me redirect myself real quick. You know what they say

556
00:25:35,620 --> 00:25:37,620
If you feed into it

557
00:25:38,260 --> 00:25:41,220
You never want to get a chance to even really fully forget

558
00:25:41,620 --> 00:25:45,380
It's just gonna be I forget you that day and this is gonna be like oh, all right

559
00:25:45,380 --> 00:25:51,220
You do one little thing is gonna trigger me. So forgiveness is really when you accept the person for who they are

560
00:25:51,220 --> 00:25:53,220
Oh, genuinely

561
00:25:53,700 --> 00:25:57,780
And you dealt them how you dealt with them and you sat boundaries with them

562
00:25:58,260 --> 00:26:02,100
They ain't gotta have the same ass ass, but you ain't gotta do that. Oh fuck you for ever

563
00:26:02,820 --> 00:26:06,580
Because that's how I used to be. I used to be like you did one thing on me is fucking for out

564
00:26:06,900 --> 00:26:08,900
whereas oh it hurt a motherfucker more

565
00:26:09,460 --> 00:26:12,660
Well, you don't get them the same ass. That's what I'm gonna see you love from at this

566
00:26:13,380 --> 00:26:17,460
You deal with it when you want to deal with it. All right. Can I say something sure cannot speak?

567
00:26:17,460 --> 00:26:22,660
Sure. All right. Hey, you got someone set the mic. We was just talking about love, right?

568
00:26:23,780 --> 00:26:28,740
So technically was forgiveness, but no, it's right. We started on love, right?

569
00:26:29,380 --> 00:26:31,780
So if our whole truth is love

570
00:26:32,820 --> 00:26:34,820
Then why can't we forget?

571
00:26:35,460 --> 00:26:37,140
Because guess what?

572
00:26:37,140 --> 00:26:39,140
Nobody's perfect

573
00:26:41,140 --> 00:26:43,140
This will be a born-in-his-world

574
00:26:43,140 --> 00:26:45,140
To it

575
00:26:46,020 --> 00:26:48,020
And that's the point

576
00:26:48,500 --> 00:26:53,460
You know what? I think timing is everything because some people might not get love early in life

577
00:26:53,940 --> 00:26:55,940
They learn to grow into love

578
00:26:55,940 --> 00:27:02,180
Because they come through things and they come through people in life and just the little things that they do build up a relationship with them

579
00:27:02,260 --> 00:27:06,020
In a certain way and they start seeing things like this person cared for me

580
00:27:06,420 --> 00:27:10,660
Or you know really cared about my feelings and things like that. So people start seeing them like

581
00:27:10,660 --> 00:27:13,860
Okay, now I'm starting to understand the one you know

582
00:27:14,420 --> 00:27:18,020
It's really hard to understand anything depending on sometimes you're in vomit

583
00:27:19,700 --> 00:27:23,860
Your environment can kill a lot of your aspirations your goals

584
00:27:23,860 --> 00:27:34,820
No, he ain't doin it. No, you didn't. I ain't see you doing it. I don't know

585
00:27:41,060 --> 00:27:43,060
Like

586
00:27:43,060 --> 00:27:56,060
So, you know, we just going off the racket, but we're going to stay on the racket.

587
00:27:56,060 --> 00:28:03,060
Now, if y'all want to vibe with us, we really want to be here with us.

588
00:28:03,060 --> 00:28:05,060
If not, we're going to stay in no hard feelings.

589
00:28:05,060 --> 00:28:06,060
But guess what?

590
00:28:06,060 --> 00:28:09,060
We're going to still be here and still tuned in and locked in.

591
00:28:09,060 --> 00:28:16,060
So, guess what? When you put down that cigarette, that cigar, that beer, that glass of wine or that shot of liquor,

592
00:28:16,060 --> 00:28:20,060
or whatever your poison is, I ain't got nothing to do with that.

593
00:28:20,060 --> 00:28:23,060
But guess what? We're going to still be here.

594
00:28:23,060 --> 00:28:28,060
So, Erkin, okay, this is the first time I really have to interact with you,

595
00:28:28,060 --> 00:28:31,060
endure what you're doing, and I'm seeing how you vibe,

596
00:28:31,060 --> 00:28:35,060
and I'm proud to see you standing very affirmative and strong.

597
00:28:35,060 --> 00:28:37,060
Thank you.

598
00:28:37,060 --> 00:28:41,060
How do you think your life was growing up?

599
00:28:41,060 --> 00:28:44,060
Okay, you step ahead, but we going, okay.

600
00:28:44,060 --> 00:28:53,060
Growing up, I feel like my childhood was supposed to be.

601
00:28:53,060 --> 00:28:57,060
You know, I was raised in the household with both parents.

602
00:28:57,060 --> 00:28:59,060
It still is, and I'm grateful for that.

603
00:28:59,060 --> 00:29:05,060
However, when you do grow up, you know, being from Baltimore City at times,

604
00:29:05,060 --> 00:29:09,060
it's difficult because, you know, when you go to school, and people be always like,

605
00:29:09,060 --> 00:29:11,060
so you don't do certain stuff, you don't do that.

606
00:29:11,060 --> 00:29:14,060
And as I got older, I realized how it is.

607
00:29:14,060 --> 00:29:22,060
I feel like I am very, very, very glad that I was raised the right way, not the wrong way, because...

608
00:29:22,060 --> 00:29:25,060
And we not going to say you was raised the wrong way?

609
00:29:25,060 --> 00:29:29,060
No, I'm not saying like, I'm not going to say wrong, but like, I was raised the proper way,

610
00:29:29,060 --> 00:29:33,060
because a lot of people use that word sheltered a lot.

611
00:29:33,060 --> 00:29:35,060
You know, we heard that word a lot.

612
00:29:35,060 --> 00:29:40,060
And that word used to be like, I wouldn't say a trigger, but it always had me question,

613
00:29:40,060 --> 00:29:43,060
like, what do people definition of shelter mean?

614
00:29:43,060 --> 00:29:46,060
Because people like, oh, you don't do this, you don't do that.

615
00:29:46,060 --> 00:29:52,060
But as I got older, I'm glad I did it, because a lot of people that grew up with grew up too fast,

616
00:29:52,060 --> 00:29:56,060
you know, couldn't enjoy life, couldn't do what they wanted to do.

617
00:29:56,060 --> 00:30:00,060
It's like now you're doing stuff that you don't want to do right now.

618
00:30:00,060 --> 00:30:04,060
So I'm glad that I did grow up in a childhood where I could be a child,

619
00:30:04,060 --> 00:30:09,060
be able to express myself and learn me as I go, because...

620
00:30:09,060 --> 00:30:12,060
Yeah, I'm just glad I didn't grow up so fast.

621
00:30:12,060 --> 00:30:17,060
Okay, well, can I pass this around, because I don't want that anybody feel like they're slipper,

622
00:30:17,060 --> 00:30:19,060
so I want everybody to be involved.

623
00:30:19,060 --> 00:30:21,060
Give me that motherfucker right here.

624
00:30:21,060 --> 00:30:23,060
Oh, shit.

625
00:30:23,060 --> 00:30:25,060
Like, what you... you're on childhood?

626
00:30:25,060 --> 00:30:27,060
Are you asking like, childhood?

627
00:30:27,060 --> 00:30:30,060
Your childhood, your childhood because...

628
00:30:30,060 --> 00:30:33,060
Hey, hey, hey, I'm with no childhood with you, childhood.

629
00:30:33,060 --> 00:30:36,060
I want to walk my hands.

630
00:30:36,060 --> 00:30:38,060
I want to walk my hands.

631
00:30:38,060 --> 00:30:42,060
Tell her how you was roller skating, hey, and you had an air fryer.

632
00:30:42,060 --> 00:30:43,060
Rebecca the D?

633
00:30:43,060 --> 00:30:44,060
Yeah.

634
00:30:44,060 --> 00:30:49,060
Now, I'm going to talk about this thing between my man and his daughter,

635
00:30:49,060 --> 00:30:56,060
and this thing about the shelter situation, because me and him used to do the same situation with my kids,

636
00:30:56,060 --> 00:30:58,060
when my children was younger.

637
00:30:58,060 --> 00:31:04,060
All right, now, my kids never had an issue.

638
00:31:04,060 --> 00:31:06,060
I'm a new teacher.

639
00:31:06,060 --> 00:31:09,060
One day, I'm reading a book.

640
00:31:09,060 --> 00:31:10,060
I'm reading a book.

641
00:31:10,060 --> 00:31:12,060
I'm reading Eric's new house.

642
00:31:12,060 --> 00:31:17,060
I'm a new teacher, so I'm going to read it.

643
00:31:17,060 --> 00:31:21,060
My youngest, my oldest son, my best friend,

644
00:31:21,060 --> 00:31:27,060
and he telling me that my youngest son was like, leading on a do-it-some crap.

645
00:31:27,060 --> 00:31:30,060
I was actually working on some other stuff,

646
00:31:30,060 --> 00:31:33,060
and I'm here, Jackabin, my man is telling me,

647
00:31:33,060 --> 00:31:35,060
hey man, you're the oldest brother.

648
00:31:35,060 --> 00:31:38,060
He ain't supposed to be letting them know, you need to blah, blah, blah, blah.

649
00:31:38,060 --> 00:31:41,060
I'm going on about my business.

650
00:31:41,060 --> 00:31:46,060
Five minutes later, my niece come running downstairs.

651
00:31:46,060 --> 00:31:49,060
They fighting, they fighting.

652
00:31:49,060 --> 00:31:53,060
My uncle upstairs, the older one that my man had talked to,

653
00:31:53,060 --> 00:31:57,060
he got a younger son, I got my young son, all Jack up.

654
00:31:57,060 --> 00:32:03,060
This is like 13 and 15 years old, never had an issue with them fighting.

655
00:32:03,060 --> 00:32:08,060
And now to guess what, they ain't no happy with nothing.

656
00:32:08,060 --> 00:32:11,060
Facts.

657
00:32:11,060 --> 00:32:17,060
But I will say, after that, they've been tighter than ever.

658
00:32:17,060 --> 00:32:21,060
And a lot of things that I tell him,

659
00:32:21,060 --> 00:32:25,060
like when his kid was saying they were sheltered,

660
00:32:25,060 --> 00:32:30,060
and I might say something, but when we talk, I'm like, yeah, you know,

661
00:32:30,060 --> 00:32:34,060
your kids definitely are growing up at a different time than mine,

662
00:32:34,060 --> 00:32:38,060
and they ain't that far apart, but it's still so crazily different.

663
00:32:38,060 --> 00:32:42,060
Where I would let my kids go out and do whatever, whatever.

664
00:32:42,060 --> 00:32:45,060
He's like, I don't know, I ain't no, I'm going to get my,

665
00:32:45,060 --> 00:32:48,060
I wasn't going to get my kids every day from school.

666
00:32:48,060 --> 00:32:51,060
But when you see what's going on in school there,

667
00:32:51,060 --> 00:32:54,060
I can see why he going, got his kids every day from school, you know,

668
00:32:54,060 --> 00:32:56,060
at times are different now.

669
00:32:56,060 --> 00:32:59,060
So I've never fought for him for that.

670
00:32:59,060 --> 00:33:03,060
I always understood, yeah, he's pretty much smart for doing what he did with y'all.

671
00:33:03,060 --> 00:33:10,060
Because he always had y'all on a, like right on a level

672
00:33:10,060 --> 00:33:14,060
where you knew what was what, but you knew how to represent yourself.

673
00:33:14,060 --> 00:33:19,060
I never forget one day, because the young son was doing something

674
00:33:19,060 --> 00:33:24,060
and his daughter came downstairs and said,

675
00:33:24,060 --> 00:33:27,060
dad, he's doing blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

676
00:33:27,060 --> 00:33:35,060
And dad said, you go upstairs and tell him if he don't get his ass, blah, blah, blah, blah.

677
00:33:35,060 --> 00:33:40,060
But the child went upstairs and knew it stinkly to edit it.

678
00:33:40,060 --> 00:33:44,060
She went upstairs and said, dad said, you better get your behind.

679
00:33:44,060 --> 00:33:49,060
Dad said, she didn't get up, so he said, yeah, I thought she's the lord that comes to the house.

680
00:33:49,060 --> 00:33:53,060
So I like how he works it.

681
00:33:53,060 --> 00:33:58,060
We all different, but his children all grew up wonderfully.

682
00:33:58,060 --> 00:34:01,060
Like my children grew up wonderfully.

683
00:34:01,060 --> 00:34:04,060
Like some of these young people around here grow up wonderfully.

684
00:34:04,060 --> 00:34:07,060
Because I'm, I'm with him and I'm the oldest thing down there.

685
00:34:07,060 --> 00:34:10,060
I think I'm older than Harold.

686
00:34:10,060 --> 00:34:16,060
I'm the second OG.

687
00:34:16,060 --> 00:34:22,060
But like I said, my man, my man, let's turn this thing.

688
00:34:22,060 --> 00:34:25,060
And he, he even showed the OG sub-fans.

689
00:34:25,060 --> 00:34:27,060
So I'll give him that.

690
00:34:27,060 --> 00:34:29,060
And they say take a village, right?

691
00:34:29,060 --> 00:34:31,060
I don't know about the village.

692
00:34:31,060 --> 00:34:33,060
I'm talking to Billy.

693
00:34:33,060 --> 00:34:40,060
I grew up in a broken household.

694
00:34:40,060 --> 00:34:42,060
What's a broken household?

695
00:34:42,060 --> 00:34:45,060
Like I feel like I had no childhood.

696
00:34:45,060 --> 00:34:48,060
I had to grow up and be older than I had to be.

697
00:34:48,060 --> 00:34:49,060
I looked at them.

698
00:34:49,060 --> 00:34:53,060
My little sister, I had an older brother that ain't really be an older brother.

699
00:34:53,060 --> 00:34:58,060
So I feel like, like now my age, people think I'm like 26.

700
00:34:58,060 --> 00:35:03,060
No, I'm really like young and people think I'm older than I am.

701
00:35:03,060 --> 00:35:05,060
But I had to grow up and be older than my age.

702
00:35:05,060 --> 00:35:07,060
I moved out at 18.

703
00:35:07,060 --> 00:35:10,060
Like my mom, I don't know, my mom was broken.

704
00:35:10,060 --> 00:35:12,060
So she didn't know how to like show emotion.

705
00:35:12,060 --> 00:35:15,060
Like she, my mom never told me she loves me.

706
00:35:15,060 --> 00:35:16,060
My mom never hugged me.

707
00:35:16,060 --> 00:35:18,060
That's a strong thing.

708
00:35:18,060 --> 00:35:22,060
Like it was just like, I don't know.

709
00:35:22,060 --> 00:35:24,060
She, like she fucked all of us up.

710
00:35:24,060 --> 00:35:28,060
Like me, my brother, my little sister, like she fucked us up.

711
00:35:28,060 --> 00:35:30,060
Let me try, man.

712
00:35:30,060 --> 00:35:34,060
I just want to say something real quick.

713
00:35:34,060 --> 00:35:40,060
She might have fucked you up, but she ain't fucked you up because, because you're strong.

714
00:35:40,060 --> 00:35:44,060
We are, we are, we are, we are right now.

715
00:35:44,060 --> 00:35:49,060
We never thought nothing about you getting fucked up because you, from day one when you came into Nessy,

716
00:35:49,060 --> 00:35:51,060
you, you was going top.

717
00:35:51,060 --> 00:35:54,060
It was great to give you an instant membership.

718
00:35:54,060 --> 00:35:58,060
Because you represented, you, you represented.

719
00:35:58,060 --> 00:36:00,060
That's all I want to say about that.

720
00:36:00,060 --> 00:36:03,060
You go in and, you go in and things that you go do because I don't think you did stuff.

721
00:36:03,060 --> 00:36:05,060
Let me try it, man.

722
00:36:05,060 --> 00:36:06,060
Right?

723
00:36:06,060 --> 00:36:09,060
I remember one night, I told you I was going to do skate works.

724
00:36:09,060 --> 00:36:11,060
You want me to skate works too?

725
00:36:11,060 --> 00:36:14,060
I don't even know the skate works, but I ain't go to skate works.

726
00:36:14,060 --> 00:36:15,060
Oh yeah.

727
00:36:15,060 --> 00:36:17,060
You want to skate works?

728
00:36:17,060 --> 00:36:18,060
No.

729
00:36:18,060 --> 00:36:19,060
All right.

730
00:36:19,060 --> 00:36:21,060
So at the time, right?

731
00:36:21,060 --> 00:36:22,060
Bottom on top.

732
00:36:22,060 --> 00:36:24,060
We always, we always lived in the city.

733
00:36:24,060 --> 00:36:30,060
My mama, my mama always kept me in the city, but we always lived in like good parks in the city.

734
00:36:30,060 --> 00:36:37,060
I'm going to raise park heights for my life, but when we moved to park heights, when we moved to park heights,

735
00:36:37,060 --> 00:36:39,060
we lived on park heights in Silver.

736
00:36:39,060 --> 00:36:47,060
That was like, that was in the city, but it was like, on the tipways, they were like, on the top of the hill.

737
00:36:47,060 --> 00:36:50,060
We had your niggas and then at the bottom of the hill was home owners.

738
00:36:50,060 --> 00:36:52,060
It was a balance.

739
00:36:52,060 --> 00:36:55,060
Excuse me, I'm talking about this thing.

740
00:36:55,060 --> 00:36:58,060
So anyway, make a last first short.

741
00:36:58,060 --> 00:37:01,060
I remember one night, man, my father was sitting on the porch.

742
00:37:01,060 --> 00:37:04,060
Get off of it now.

743
00:37:04,060 --> 00:37:05,060
Bye.

744
00:37:05,060 --> 00:37:07,060
Get out.

745
00:37:07,060 --> 00:37:09,060
I said get out.

746
00:37:09,060 --> 00:37:10,060
All right.

747
00:37:10,060 --> 00:37:13,060
So one day it was me and my father, he was sitting on the porch right.

748
00:37:13,060 --> 00:37:17,060
He was like, so my mother and my father came from two different backgrounds.

749
00:37:17,060 --> 00:37:21,060
My father came from two parents in his household.

750
00:37:21,060 --> 00:37:25,060
Parents was married, but they both was recovering at it.

751
00:37:25,060 --> 00:37:32,060
My mother came from both our parents, but they was together when she was younger,

752
00:37:32,060 --> 00:37:35,060
but they separated after a while.

753
00:37:35,060 --> 00:37:41,060
And my grandfather was still in my home, and my mother like, and my grandmother was still in my mother like,

754
00:37:41,060 --> 00:37:43,060
but they wasn't together.

755
00:37:43,060 --> 00:37:44,060
Okay.

756
00:37:44,060 --> 00:37:49,060
And so my mother came from a different background than my father or whatever.

757
00:37:49,060 --> 00:37:53,060
And my father used to often say all the time, like, you do everything as a child,

758
00:37:53,060 --> 00:37:58,060
what you want to have to do when it is time for you to do what you're supposed to do.

759
00:37:58,060 --> 00:38:04,060
And that question never makes sense to me until now, because it's like now that I'm 26.

760
00:38:04,060 --> 00:38:08,060
I didn't, it ain't nothing that I really didn't do.

761
00:38:08,060 --> 00:38:12,060
Like, looking back at it like 16, I moved out.

762
00:38:12,060 --> 00:38:16,060
I was living with a whole new world.

763
00:38:16,060 --> 00:38:21,060
And, but that was because of the things that was going on in my household.

764
00:38:21,060 --> 00:38:24,060
Like, I got a lesson at the age of eight.

765
00:38:24,060 --> 00:38:30,060
I got successful rancor at the age of 12, because of the lifestyle that my father chose to live.

766
00:38:30,060 --> 00:38:31,060
You know what I'm saying?

767
00:38:31,060 --> 00:38:35,060
So it was like, it turned me into a bitter, like you can use it to tell me all the time,

768
00:38:35,060 --> 00:38:38,060
like you feel pretty, but why your attitude is so nasty.

769
00:38:38,060 --> 00:38:41,060
But nobody never knew what I was wanting, because my mother was a type of mother,

770
00:38:41,060 --> 00:38:45,060
like over going to my house, staying in my house, so I never had an outlet.

771
00:38:45,060 --> 00:38:49,060
And then when I started like acting out, my mother was like, oh, you need therapy.

772
00:38:49,060 --> 00:38:53,060
Oh, bitch, you need therapy. We need therapy to get out of here.

773
00:38:53,060 --> 00:38:56,060
But she would always pinpoint it on me, right?

774
00:38:56,060 --> 00:39:00,060
So she would be like, you need therapy. No, we need therapy.

775
00:39:00,060 --> 00:39:01,060
You get what I'm saying?

776
00:39:01,060 --> 00:39:07,060
And where is the old, you got some females that turn into a freak.

777
00:39:07,060 --> 00:39:09,060
And then you have some females that turn bitter.

778
00:39:09,060 --> 00:39:10,060
It turned me bitter.

779
00:39:10,060 --> 00:39:13,060
Everything that I would be like turned me bitter.

780
00:39:13,060 --> 00:39:17,060
Where is the old like people used to tell me, I'm not like, you're so pretty.

781
00:39:17,060 --> 00:39:19,060
Why do you act like that?

782
00:39:19,060 --> 00:39:20,060
Why do you like this?

783
00:39:20,060 --> 00:39:23,060
But it was because I had to grow up that way.

784
00:39:23,060 --> 00:39:26,060
I felt like I didn't have nobody to protect me.

785
00:39:26,060 --> 00:39:30,060
So I always was defensive, because I had to protect myself.

786
00:39:30,060 --> 00:39:32,060
I was the only child for 16 years.

787
00:39:32,060 --> 00:39:34,060
I didn't have nobody to protect me.

788
00:39:34,060 --> 00:39:38,060
No, I never went to a nigga to solely comfort me.

789
00:39:38,060 --> 00:39:41,060
But I went to a nigga for certain things.

790
00:39:41,060 --> 00:39:42,060
You get what I'm saying?

791
00:39:42,060 --> 00:39:47,060
Like, I always had my mother for all they wish I was good,

792
00:39:47,060 --> 00:39:50,060
but they didn't give me that love that I was looking for.

793
00:39:50,060 --> 00:39:55,060
The whole time I really was a soft person, like positive, bubbly,

794
00:39:55,060 --> 00:39:56,060
want to be affectionate.

795
00:39:56,060 --> 00:39:57,060
Like, my son is.

796
00:39:57,060 --> 00:40:03,060
I don't push him away when he tried to love up on me because I know how that feels.

797
00:40:03,060 --> 00:40:06,060
So like, everybody be like, oh, he's so affectionate.

798
00:40:06,060 --> 00:40:09,060
He's affectionate because I'm very affectionate with him.

799
00:40:09,060 --> 00:40:11,060
And he has an affection of dead.

800
00:40:11,060 --> 00:40:16,060
So I said this to a like, that is true.

801
00:40:16,060 --> 00:40:21,060
I did grow up early, like, where is the male at 26?

802
00:40:21,060 --> 00:40:26,060
The only thing that I really hate beautiful about was like, take tricks on a head and cause

803
00:40:26,060 --> 00:40:28,060
I had the niggas with money.

804
00:40:28,060 --> 00:40:30,060
I done been to the clubs, I done hung up.

805
00:40:30,060 --> 00:40:31,060
I done did all that.

806
00:40:31,060 --> 00:40:32,060
You get what I'm saying?

807
00:40:32,060 --> 00:40:39,060
So it's like, now at 26, I'm trying to get my priorities together.

808
00:40:39,060 --> 00:40:45,060
I'm like, I'm thinking like a 35 year old when I'm not even thinking like a 26 year old.

809
00:40:45,060 --> 00:40:46,060
You know what I'm saying?

810
00:40:46,060 --> 00:40:51,060
So I mean, but I don't regret nothing that I went through because all that shit made me

811
00:40:51,060 --> 00:40:52,060
the woman that I am today.

812
00:40:52,060 --> 00:40:58,060
So I wouldn't say that it's a right or wrong way because practicing don't come in a man.

813
00:40:58,060 --> 00:41:03,060
And she mean just wow, my son, I don't think he's saying he's time for this podcast.

814
00:41:03,060 --> 00:41:07,060
So it really don't come in a man.

815
00:41:07,060 --> 00:41:09,060
So you can't really say you was raised the right way.

816
00:41:09,060 --> 00:41:15,060
You just was raised to your love language.

817
00:41:15,060 --> 00:41:21,060
So the love language is basically the beat that's in your eyesight and out of your heart.

818
00:41:21,060 --> 00:41:22,060
At the time.

819
00:41:22,060 --> 00:41:26,060
Yeah, because you can think that you can give a child your all right.

820
00:41:26,060 --> 00:41:31,060
I really believe that my parents gave me they all but it wasn't good enough for me.

821
00:41:31,060 --> 00:41:33,060
And that's me being real.

822
00:41:33,060 --> 00:41:37,060
They knew what I needed.

823
00:41:37,060 --> 00:41:39,060
And then we look back at it.

824
00:41:39,060 --> 00:41:46,060
My mom, I finally realized how my grandma was saying this.

825
00:41:46,060 --> 00:41:51,060
When I realized how my grandma was saying this.

826
00:41:51,060 --> 00:41:53,060
It's a cycle of this fight.

827
00:41:53,060 --> 00:41:56,060
It's something like my mom was the seed that he grew up in the house.

828
00:41:56,060 --> 00:41:57,060
No, no, no.

829
00:41:57,060 --> 00:41:58,060
I had it.

830
00:41:58,060 --> 00:42:00,060
Oh, I ain't even gonna say that.

831
00:42:00,060 --> 00:42:04,060
No, when I say it didn't get it.

832
00:42:04,060 --> 00:42:05,060
I had it.

833
00:42:05,060 --> 00:42:06,060
I had it.

834
00:42:06,060 --> 00:42:08,060
She didn't feel like a brat.

835
00:42:08,060 --> 00:42:11,060
No, when me, I'm gonna say brat.

836
00:42:11,060 --> 00:42:12,060
You had the basics.

837
00:42:12,060 --> 00:42:13,060
You had the basics.

838
00:42:13,060 --> 00:42:18,060
No, I'm talking about who I am.

839
00:42:18,060 --> 00:42:21,060
So now we get ready to see what it's like.

840
00:42:21,060 --> 00:42:23,060
I don't get it so far now.

841
00:42:23,060 --> 00:42:28,060
When I say, when I say, so my mom wasn't tight with it though.

842
00:42:28,060 --> 00:42:29,060
There we go.

843
00:42:29,060 --> 00:42:31,060
This is what I was like.

844
00:42:31,060 --> 00:42:35,060
But I was the kid and he cared about how it all goes.

845
00:42:35,060 --> 00:42:38,060
Listen, my mom used to tell me this now.

846
00:42:38,060 --> 00:42:45,060
I remember me as a child, right?

847
00:42:45,060 --> 00:42:49,060
I always fuck with people for how they made me feel, never for what you had.

848
00:42:49,060 --> 00:42:52,060
My mother fucked with you for how you look.

849
00:42:52,060 --> 00:42:54,060
And she came across a lot of fake bitches.

850
00:42:54,060 --> 00:42:58,060
Whereas though, when you look around now, none of them bitches is dead.

851
00:42:58,060 --> 00:43:03,060
That's why all of my day ones, right now my mom used to laugh at, oh, I ain't bringing

852
00:43:03,060 --> 00:43:04,060
her home.

853
00:43:04,060 --> 00:43:06,060
She looked like, nah, nah, nah.

854
00:43:06,060 --> 00:43:08,060
We ain't got to talk every day, see, chat every day.

855
00:43:08,060 --> 00:43:14,060
But that's what Christmas carom, they don't even got kids by my son.

856
00:43:14,060 --> 00:43:16,060
She always did for my son.

857
00:43:16,060 --> 00:43:18,060
When I, you feel me?

858
00:43:18,060 --> 00:43:20,060
See, you ain't got no good.

859
00:43:20,060 --> 00:43:27,060
So when I say, so when I say, so when I say, she gave me the love that I did, I was a,

860
00:43:27,060 --> 00:43:30,060
I was a child that didn't have to buy me the world.

861
00:43:30,060 --> 00:43:33,060
I was a child that if you just gave me a hug and a kiss, I would have made my day.

862
00:43:33,060 --> 00:43:35,060
So I wouldn't say, right?

863
00:43:35,060 --> 00:43:38,060
She just gave me what she knew how to do it.

864
00:43:38,060 --> 00:43:42,060
She just gave me what she knew how to give.

865
00:43:42,060 --> 00:43:44,060
She knew how to provide.

866
00:43:44,060 --> 00:43:49,060
My mother took me how to survive, but not to took me how to, to have some kind of emotion.

867
00:43:49,060 --> 00:43:51,060
My father took me how to survive.

868
00:43:51,060 --> 00:43:52,060
I know how to survive.

869
00:43:52,060 --> 00:43:54,060
He put me in any environment.

870
00:43:54,060 --> 00:43:56,060
Bitch, I'm gonna bounce back.

871
00:43:56,060 --> 00:44:02,060
So when it comes down to me loving, because that plays a part until you don't realize how

872
00:44:02,060 --> 00:44:05,060
fucked up you are to get older.

873
00:44:05,060 --> 00:44:10,060
Cause when I got with my son father, he was the nigga that wanted that he didn't have much,

874
00:44:10,060 --> 00:44:14,060
but he was the nigga that took me how to tap into, tap into my emotions.

875
00:44:14,060 --> 00:44:16,060
He used to want to talk.

876
00:44:16,060 --> 00:44:18,060
I didn't even know how to talk.

877
00:44:18,060 --> 00:44:20,060
I didn't even know how to talk.

878
00:44:20,060 --> 00:44:21,060
I'm just being real.

879
00:44:21,060 --> 00:44:24,060
Like when he want to talk to me, that's not empty.

880
00:44:24,060 --> 00:44:30,060
But when he's gone now, it's like, no, talking really can tell a lot.

881
00:44:30,060 --> 00:44:32,060
Communication.

882
00:44:32,060 --> 00:44:34,060
And you know what?

883
00:44:34,060 --> 00:44:37,060
So let me ask you this.

884
00:44:37,060 --> 00:44:40,060
So think about this.

885
00:44:40,060 --> 00:44:43,060
Yeah, I'm talking to Mike because I've had to make a film.

886
00:44:43,060 --> 00:44:45,060
No, you got the mic speaking soon.

887
00:44:45,060 --> 00:44:47,060
But you think about this, right?

888
00:44:47,060 --> 00:44:50,060
You just hit on the topic, right?

889
00:44:50,060 --> 00:44:52,060
What you just said?

890
00:44:52,060 --> 00:44:54,060
What you just said?

891
00:44:54,060 --> 00:44:56,060
She gave me the love that I wanted.

892
00:44:56,060 --> 00:44:58,060
I mean, not the love that I needed.

893
00:44:58,060 --> 00:45:00,060
But she knew how to get.

894
00:45:00,060 --> 00:45:03,060
And one thing about life is you can't blame a person.

895
00:45:03,060 --> 00:45:05,060
But I had to put them together.

896
00:45:05,060 --> 00:45:07,060
Exactly, because you know why?

897
00:45:07,060 --> 00:45:09,060
Because she was a mother too.

898
00:45:09,060 --> 00:45:11,060
And she was in a different time.

899
00:45:11,060 --> 00:45:13,060
I'm giving him my all, but that may not be.

900
00:45:13,060 --> 00:45:16,060
But one thing about it is you got to look at it like this.

901
00:45:16,060 --> 00:45:19,060
Even in cooking, you notice they always pass down a recipe.

902
00:45:19,060 --> 00:45:22,060
Yes, my grandmother would love us a whole lot.

903
00:45:22,060 --> 00:45:24,060
And guess what?

904
00:45:24,060 --> 00:45:26,060
Also in family, we left with a recipe.

905
00:45:26,060 --> 00:45:28,060
Right?

906
00:45:28,060 --> 00:45:32,060
But as you go on in time, you learn how to take out some ingredients

907
00:45:32,060 --> 00:45:34,060
and add in your own.

908
00:45:34,060 --> 00:45:36,060
I'm giving you a new show.

909
00:45:36,060 --> 00:45:38,060
Okay, well, yeah, honestly,

910
00:45:38,060 --> 00:45:42,060
by what she said, does it imply that you did cook at one time?

911
00:45:42,060 --> 00:45:45,060
What's wrong? I feel like they don't try to get you.

912
00:45:45,060 --> 00:45:47,060
You know what, I just got in my ass.

913
00:45:47,060 --> 00:45:50,060
I feel like you don't even cook on the show.

914
00:45:50,060 --> 00:45:52,060
I know. I was coming on the little slow.

915
00:45:52,060 --> 00:45:54,060
You don't cook?

916
00:45:54,060 --> 00:45:56,060
I'm not going to be tired of you.

917
00:45:56,060 --> 00:45:58,060
I'm not going to be tired of you.

918
00:45:58,060 --> 00:46:00,060
Hold on.

919
00:46:00,060 --> 00:46:02,060
I didn't talk about who should I ask.

920
00:46:02,060 --> 00:46:04,060
I know I like to talk a lot.

921
00:46:04,060 --> 00:46:06,060
I told you. I told you all really.

922
00:46:06,060 --> 00:46:10,060
But no, I'm really loving this because you don't know how much healing you bring in.

923
00:46:10,060 --> 00:46:12,060
And I just want to tell you this.

924
00:46:12,060 --> 00:46:14,060
Maybe you got a gift.

925
00:46:14,060 --> 00:46:16,060
You got a plan.

926
00:46:16,060 --> 00:46:18,060
I want you to stick to that.

927
00:46:18,060 --> 00:46:20,060
Right?

928
00:46:20,060 --> 00:46:22,060
Because I'm going to do it.

929
00:46:22,060 --> 00:46:24,060
What?

930
00:46:24,060 --> 00:46:26,060
21.

931
00:46:26,060 --> 00:46:28,060
Oh my God.

932
00:46:32,060 --> 00:46:34,060
21.

933
00:46:34,060 --> 00:46:36,060
Why 21?

934
00:46:36,060 --> 00:46:38,060
Hey, can I say something?

935
00:46:38,060 --> 00:46:40,060
21, I was right.

936
00:46:40,060 --> 00:46:42,060
Who 21?

937
00:46:42,060 --> 00:46:44,060
Irka.

938
00:46:44,060 --> 00:46:46,060
She wouldn't be right here with me if she weren't 21.

939
00:46:46,060 --> 00:46:48,060
21?

940
00:46:48,060 --> 00:46:50,060
That nigga was here with you.

941
00:46:50,060 --> 00:46:52,060
I remember 21.

942
00:46:52,060 --> 00:46:54,060
21?

943
00:46:54,060 --> 00:46:56,060
I'm going to just say that 21 baby.

944
00:46:56,060 --> 00:46:58,060
Because that's a deeper situation.

945
00:46:58,060 --> 00:47:00,060
That nigga was back before.

946
00:47:00,060 --> 00:47:02,060
We can come back and talk about that.

947
00:47:02,060 --> 00:47:04,060
Even when I look at daddy with a body.

948
00:47:04,060 --> 00:47:06,060
I'm leaving.

949
00:47:06,060 --> 00:47:08,060
Terry was 19.

950
00:47:08,060 --> 00:47:10,060
No, you're like 23.

951
00:47:10,060 --> 00:47:12,060
No, no, but.

952
00:47:12,060 --> 00:47:14,060
I was still busting my big father.

953
00:47:14,060 --> 00:47:16,060
He was hit with a black bottle.

954
00:47:16,060 --> 00:47:18,060
Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know.

955
00:47:18,060 --> 00:47:20,060
It was a situation that you had with me

956
00:47:20,060 --> 00:47:22,060
when I loved having him live in my community every day.

957
00:47:22,060 --> 00:47:24,060
No, real shit.

958
00:47:24,060 --> 00:47:26,060
Because baby, me,

959
00:47:26,060 --> 00:47:28,060
22,

960
00:47:28,060 --> 00:47:30,060
how you handled it,

961
00:47:30,060 --> 00:47:32,060
you handled it, you handled it.

962
00:47:32,060 --> 00:47:34,060
How I would handle it now.

963
00:47:34,060 --> 00:47:36,060
But me at 27.

964
00:47:36,060 --> 00:47:38,060
I feel like I've been through a lot of shit in life.

965
00:47:38,060 --> 00:47:40,060
That don't want to be worth it no more.

966
00:47:40,060 --> 00:47:42,060
But that don't want to be worth it.

967
00:47:42,060 --> 00:47:44,060
That's what I'm saying.

968
00:47:44,060 --> 00:47:46,060
I'm proud of y'all because a bitch like me,

969
00:47:46,060 --> 00:47:48,060
I'm not even a female.

970
00:47:48,060 --> 00:47:50,060
No, I'm still a girl.

971
00:47:50,060 --> 00:47:52,060
No, no, I'm not saying no, no, no.

972
00:47:52,060 --> 00:47:54,060
But I'm saying.

973
00:47:54,060 --> 00:47:56,060
No, no, no, every day we learn.

974
00:47:56,060 --> 00:47:58,060
Every day we learn.

975
00:47:58,060 --> 00:48:00,060
No, no, no, I'm saying.

976
00:48:00,060 --> 00:48:02,060
That's shit.

977
00:48:02,060 --> 00:48:04,060
That's it.

978
00:48:04,060 --> 00:48:06,060
I'm not even saying.

979
00:48:06,060 --> 00:48:08,060
I'm not even like, I think about the future.

980
00:48:08,060 --> 00:48:10,060
I'm not even like, I'm not even thinking about the future.

981
00:48:10,060 --> 00:48:12,060
That's what I'm saying.

982
00:48:12,060 --> 00:48:14,060
And that's the thing.

983
00:48:14,060 --> 00:48:16,060
That time it was up and it was stuck.

984
00:48:16,060 --> 00:48:18,060
I didn't care about the jail.

985
00:48:18,060 --> 00:48:20,060
I didn't care about the...

986
00:48:20,060 --> 00:48:22,060
I didn't care about the...

987
00:48:22,060 --> 00:48:24,060
And think about this, right?

988
00:48:24,060 --> 00:48:26,060
I lost whole scholarship.

989
00:48:26,060 --> 00:48:28,060
I had a full ride to college.

990
00:48:28,060 --> 00:48:30,060
Full scholarship.

991
00:48:30,060 --> 00:48:32,060
Think about this, right?

992
00:48:32,060 --> 00:48:34,060
But I let my emotions...

993
00:48:34,060 --> 00:48:36,060
Your emotions are going to cost you every time.

994
00:48:36,060 --> 00:48:38,060
Every time.

995
00:48:38,060 --> 00:48:40,060
Think about this.

996
00:48:40,060 --> 00:48:42,060
Every time.

997
00:48:42,060 --> 00:48:44,060
Okay.

998
00:48:44,060 --> 00:48:46,060
You got kids out here in the world, right?

999
00:48:46,060 --> 00:48:48,060
You got kids that were faced into a situation.

1000
00:48:48,060 --> 00:48:50,060
You got kids that were faced into a situation.

1001
00:48:50,060 --> 00:48:52,060
And then you got kids that want to be a part of a situation.

1002
00:48:52,060 --> 00:48:54,060
That's two fights in two worlds, right?

1003
00:48:54,060 --> 00:48:56,060
That's two fights in two worlds, right?

1004
00:48:56,060 --> 00:48:58,060
You got people that's put in a systematic system.

1005
00:48:58,060 --> 00:49:00,060
Whereas those hardest hell to get out of.

1006
00:49:00,060 --> 00:49:02,060
Whereas those hardest hell to get out of.

1007
00:49:02,060 --> 00:49:04,060
And it's a lot of good apples in that bag.

1008
00:49:04,060 --> 00:49:06,060
But guess what? All it takes is one.

1009
00:49:06,060 --> 00:49:08,060
For they throw it a whole bunch away.

1010
00:49:08,060 --> 00:49:10,060
And then you got kids who got parents

1011
00:49:10,060 --> 00:49:12,060
that can afford to give them anything

1012
00:49:12,060 --> 00:49:14,060
and everything they want, right?

1013
00:49:14,060 --> 00:49:16,060
And those kids also give

1014
00:49:16,060 --> 00:49:18,060
those parents problems.

1015
00:49:18,060 --> 00:49:20,060
Because they want to be like the kids

1016
00:49:20,060 --> 00:49:22,060
that they see outside the adolescence.

1017
00:49:22,060 --> 00:49:24,060
And it's like everything you try

1018
00:49:24,060 --> 00:49:26,060
to teach your kids not to be on that high

1019
00:49:26,060 --> 00:49:28,060
point. The kids, the people

1020
00:49:28,060 --> 00:49:30,060
and the parents on the low point is trying to

1021
00:49:30,060 --> 00:49:32,060
get to your level because they want their kids

1022
00:49:32,060 --> 00:49:34,060
to have the standards that they feel

1023
00:49:34,060 --> 00:49:36,060
y'all have because they're not seeing

1024
00:49:36,060 --> 00:49:38,060
really what's going on in your home.

1025
00:49:38,060 --> 00:49:40,060
So the thing in life is this.

1026
00:49:40,060 --> 00:49:42,060
It's the don't with it.

1027
00:49:42,060 --> 00:49:44,060
It's the what?

1028
00:49:44,060 --> 00:49:46,060
About a thing.

1029
00:49:46,060 --> 00:49:48,060
Oh wait.

1030
00:49:48,060 --> 00:49:50,060
About a thing.

1031
00:49:50,060 --> 00:49:52,060
Everything.

1032
00:49:52,060 --> 00:49:54,060
It's what y'all want.

1033
00:49:54,060 --> 00:49:56,060
It's what y'all want.

1034
00:49:56,060 --> 00:49:58,060
Everybody.

1035
00:49:58,060 --> 00:50:00,060
Don't you let it.

1036
00:50:00,060 --> 00:50:02,060
Don't you let it.

1037
00:50:02,060 --> 00:50:04,060
Don't you let it.

1038
00:50:04,060 --> 00:50:06,060
Don't you let it.

1039
00:50:06,060 --> 00:50:08,060
Don't you let it.

1040
00:50:08,060 --> 00:50:10,060
Don't you let it.

1041
00:50:10,060 --> 00:50:12,060
Listen.

1042
00:50:12,060 --> 00:50:14,060
Listen for me to move.

1043
00:50:14,060 --> 00:50:16,060
Not the one y'all.

1044
00:50:16,060 --> 00:50:18,060
I got that shit.

1045
00:50:18,060 --> 00:50:20,060
No.

1046
00:50:20,060 --> 00:50:22,060
Cause I'm going to tell y'all this.

1047
00:50:22,060 --> 00:50:24,060
I'm going to tell y'all this.

1048
00:50:24,060 --> 00:50:26,060
Baby.

1049
00:50:26,060 --> 00:50:28,060
I'm going to put different shit though.

1050
00:50:28,060 --> 00:50:30,060
Nobody got a meaningful tattoo?

1051
00:50:30,060 --> 00:50:32,060
What?

1052
00:50:32,060 --> 00:50:34,060
Every tattoo I got is meaningful.

1053
00:50:34,060 --> 00:50:36,060
I got a tattoo.

1054
00:50:36,060 --> 00:50:38,060
Listen.

1055
00:50:38,060 --> 00:50:40,060
I don't know what my tattoo is.

1056
00:50:40,060 --> 00:50:42,060
I got a tattoo.

1057
00:50:42,060 --> 00:50:44,060
My tattoo was in my head.

1058
00:50:44,060 --> 00:50:46,060
You got tattoos?

1059
00:50:46,060 --> 00:50:48,060
Yeah, in my brain.

1060
00:50:48,060 --> 00:50:50,060
I'm starting my head.

1061
00:50:50,060 --> 00:50:52,060
I got physical stars on my body.

1062
00:50:52,060 --> 00:50:54,060
That came from

1063
00:50:54,060 --> 00:50:56,060
other things in life.

1064
00:50:56,060 --> 00:50:58,060
Take a spoon.

1065
00:50:58,060 --> 00:51:00,060
I don't even say.

1066
00:51:00,060 --> 00:51:02,060
I'm trying to lie down.

1067
00:51:02,060 --> 00:51:04,060
I'm trying to show this to you.

1068
00:51:04,060 --> 00:51:06,060
It helicopter's.

1069
00:51:06,060 --> 00:51:08,060
The innovation never miss.

1070
00:51:08,060 --> 00:51:10,060
Because people got to no room cause

1071
00:51:10,060 --> 00:51:12,060
for people to lay down on it.

1072
00:51:11,400 --> 00:51:13,900
It's the top of my heart.

1073
00:51:12,060 --> 00:51:14,060
But it got real there.

1074
00:51:14,060 --> 00:51:16,060
It was the most important thing at the time,

1075
00:51:16,540 --> 00:51:18,540
So let's move all our emotions out.

1076
00:51:18,540 --> 00:51:20,380
I feel like this is all there is to it.

1077
00:51:20,380 --> 00:51:22,060
It's хочу cutio,

1078
00:51:22,060 --> 00:51:23,560
y'all.

1079
00:51:23,480 --> 00:51:25,900
Okay.

1080
00:51:25,900 --> 00:51:30,340
because now like when you was living without a child, right?

1081
00:51:30,340 --> 00:51:32,580
You can move how you wanted to.

1082
00:51:32,580 --> 00:51:34,620
And now I see, I've been around you,

1083
00:51:34,620 --> 00:51:36,740
so I see the growth in you.

1084
00:51:36,740 --> 00:51:37,580
You know what I'm saying?

1085
00:51:37,580 --> 00:51:39,460
And I respect that in you because

1086
00:51:39,460 --> 00:51:42,740
I didn't see you crash out a lot of times.

1087
00:51:42,740 --> 00:51:43,620
Real shit.

1088
00:51:43,620 --> 00:51:44,900
And me too.

1089
00:51:44,900 --> 00:51:46,660
We didn't argue, but guess what?

1090
00:51:46,660 --> 00:51:48,380
She like a daughter than we just like my daughter.

1091
00:51:48,380 --> 00:51:51,020
I watched her and my daughter had it go crash out

1092
00:51:51,020 --> 00:51:53,580
on a little situation and I said, I'm not getting in.

1093
00:51:53,580 --> 00:51:55,060
Y'all gotta figure that out.

1094
00:51:55,060 --> 00:51:56,460
Because I love both of y'all.

1095
00:51:56,460 --> 00:51:58,620
And I ain't choosing no size or none of that.

1096
00:51:58,620 --> 00:52:00,340
And guess what?

1097
00:52:00,340 --> 00:52:02,740
It went back and look who we at today.

1098
00:52:02,740 --> 00:52:05,380
So some things you just can't take too serious

1099
00:52:05,380 --> 00:52:06,700
and make it a situation.

1100
00:52:06,700 --> 00:52:07,260
But that's how it is.

1101
00:52:07,260 --> 00:52:09,980
Because a lot of people got a lot of pride and ego.

1102
00:52:09,980 --> 00:52:11,420
Let's speak on that.

1103
00:52:11,420 --> 00:52:12,420
Let's speak on that.

1104
00:52:12,420 --> 00:52:13,540
That's how it was gonna say like.

1105
00:52:13,540 --> 00:52:15,260
Let's speak on that.

1106
00:52:15,260 --> 00:52:16,100
So let me tell y'all.

1107
00:52:16,100 --> 00:52:16,900
Let me tell y'all.

1108
00:52:16,900 --> 00:52:19,700
Let me tell y'all how God really hung with me, right?

1109
00:52:19,700 --> 00:52:22,860
I remember before I moved to North Carolina, right,

1110
00:52:22,860 --> 00:52:24,140
the drugs was calling me.

1111
00:52:24,140 --> 00:52:26,100
You know the cost of living down there is cheaper than you,

1112
00:52:26,100 --> 00:52:27,220
right?

1113
00:52:27,220 --> 00:52:29,380
So the drugs calling me.

1114
00:52:29,380 --> 00:52:33,540
One drug was like, yeah, we can start you up for 1350.

1115
00:52:33,540 --> 00:52:35,740
Whoa now, baby.

1116
00:52:35,740 --> 00:52:36,740
Whoa.

1117
00:52:36,740 --> 00:52:38,700
That was my mindset, right?

1118
00:52:38,700 --> 00:52:40,100
Like, all right.

1119
00:52:40,100 --> 00:52:41,820
Then another drug called me like, oh, yeah,

1120
00:52:41,820 --> 00:52:44,780
we can start y'all for 15.

1121
00:52:44,780 --> 00:52:46,020
16.

1122
00:52:46,020 --> 00:52:49,660
I was making $15 a novel when I was 17 years old.

1123
00:52:49,660 --> 00:52:50,460
I had two.

1124
00:52:50,460 --> 00:52:51,300
Listen, hit me up.

1125
00:52:51,300 --> 00:52:52,380
Yo, I got you.

1126
00:52:52,380 --> 00:52:53,460
Hit me up.

1127
00:52:53,460 --> 00:52:56,300
But let me tell you how to go out of that.

1128
00:52:56,300 --> 00:52:58,300
Hump my ass, right?

1129
00:52:58,300 --> 00:53:00,100
That's what.

1130
00:53:00,100 --> 00:53:02,420
When I went down North Carolina, right,

1131
00:53:02,420 --> 00:53:03,820
I had already had a job.

1132
00:53:03,820 --> 00:53:06,140
They would stop me off with $19 a novel.

1133
00:53:06,140 --> 00:53:08,580
That's good for them, because like I said,

1134
00:53:08,580 --> 00:53:10,980
the cost of living down there is cheaper.

1135
00:53:10,980 --> 00:53:12,180
Oh, I ain't going to be able to do that.

1136
00:53:12,180 --> 00:53:14,500
Ended up not being able to do the job.

1137
00:53:14,500 --> 00:53:16,500
My girl.

1138
00:53:16,500 --> 00:53:21,700
I ended up getting a job that makes me $15 a novel.

1139
00:53:21,700 --> 00:53:22,340
I worked.

1140
00:53:22,340 --> 00:53:22,820
Come on.

1141
00:53:22,820 --> 00:53:26,540
$16 hours a day.

1142
00:53:26,540 --> 00:53:28,220
So I could bring home.

1143
00:53:28,220 --> 00:53:31,660
She had $2,300 a check at this time.

1144
00:53:31,660 --> 00:53:33,500
But that was God humbling me.

1145
00:53:33,500 --> 00:53:35,500
Because I remember before I moved down,

1146
00:53:35,500 --> 00:53:36,900
I'm not fucking working on no job.

1147
00:53:36,900 --> 00:53:39,300
That stopped me over $15 a novel.

1148
00:53:39,300 --> 00:53:41,260
But then you know what he told me?

1149
00:53:41,260 --> 00:53:43,380
It ain't about what you need to hours for,

1150
00:53:43,380 --> 00:53:45,300
the hours that you put in.

1151
00:53:45,300 --> 00:53:46,700
And that was the lesson I used to learn.

1152
00:53:46,700 --> 00:53:48,300
That return is the return.

1153
00:53:48,300 --> 00:53:52,300
So that's why that $15 a novel put me

1154
00:53:52,300 --> 00:53:53,540
in a luxury apartment.

1155
00:53:53,540 --> 00:53:55,620
That's your gotta poo.

1156
00:53:55,620 --> 00:53:57,100
I got a grill.

1157
00:53:57,100 --> 00:53:58,100
I got a park.

1158
00:53:58,100 --> 00:53:59,460
I got a doggy park.

1159
00:53:59,460 --> 00:54:00,380
I got a jam.

1160
00:54:00,380 --> 00:54:02,620
You know what the luxury is?

1161
00:54:02,620 --> 00:54:04,380
You freeing your mind.

1162
00:54:04,380 --> 00:54:07,460
You went down and started over from scratch.

1163
00:54:07,460 --> 00:54:10,780
And now it's hard.

1164
00:54:10,780 --> 00:54:12,300
You know why it's hard?

1165
00:54:12,300 --> 00:54:14,300
It's hard because it ain't for the women.

1166
00:54:14,300 --> 00:54:15,900
No, no, no.

1167
00:54:15,900 --> 00:54:17,380
But you know why it's hard?

1168
00:54:17,380 --> 00:54:18,300
No, but it's hard.

1169
00:54:18,300 --> 00:54:21,780
I'm telling you, because at first I'm like, shit.

1170
00:54:21,780 --> 00:54:22,700
But you know what?

1171
00:54:22,700 --> 00:54:24,180
Well, it's not hard.

1172
00:54:24,180 --> 00:54:25,060
It's all humbling.

1173
00:54:25,060 --> 00:54:26,020
You gotta fight.

1174
00:54:26,020 --> 00:54:30,300
No, it's humbling because of what you just said, right?

1175
00:54:30,300 --> 00:54:35,260
When you looked at it, you looked at it like, this ain't shit.

1176
00:54:35,260 --> 00:54:38,860
But the whole thing was, I'm in a whole mindset.

1177
00:54:38,860 --> 00:54:40,100
So guess what?

1178
00:54:40,100 --> 00:54:42,620
A half a loaf is better than a whole loaf any day,

1179
00:54:42,620 --> 00:54:43,180
because guess what?

1180
00:54:43,180 --> 00:54:44,140
I'm still eating.

1181
00:54:44,140 --> 00:54:44,940
Guess what?

1182
00:54:44,940 --> 00:54:49,300
After my 40 hours, I paid $20,000 to $250,

1183
00:54:49,300 --> 00:54:51,020
because I had time in the head.

1184
00:54:51,020 --> 00:54:53,300
But I didn't know that.

1185
00:54:53,300 --> 00:54:55,020
I'm like, 50,000, I want.

1186
00:54:55,020 --> 00:54:55,860
And then you know it.

1187
00:54:55,860 --> 00:55:00,700
I was able to pay my deposit, my rent, by myself.

1188
00:55:00,700 --> 00:55:04,660
My big father added on after the fact, because we was beating him.

1189
00:55:04,660 --> 00:55:06,260
He had to say, my big father.

1190
00:55:06,260 --> 00:55:07,060
My big father.

1191
00:55:07,060 --> 00:55:07,780
You know what he said?

1192
00:55:07,780 --> 00:55:14,180
He said, I bought him more cheese and fried.

1193
00:55:14,180 --> 00:55:16,260
He had no after the fact.

1194
00:55:16,260 --> 00:55:16,980
Don't get me wrong.

1195
00:55:16,980 --> 00:55:18,460
He helped me later.

1196
00:55:18,460 --> 00:55:20,220
I'm just talking about the word big father.

1197
00:55:20,220 --> 00:55:20,900
Move with me.

1198
00:55:20,900 --> 00:55:21,860
No, I'm already being wrong.

1199
00:55:21,860 --> 00:55:22,360
I'm kidding.

1200
00:55:22,360 --> 00:55:23,420
That's shit wrong.

1201
00:55:23,420 --> 00:55:24,020
Eh?

1202
00:55:24,020 --> 00:55:24,520
Right?

1203
00:55:24,520 --> 00:55:26,780
You need to be with mama.

1204
00:55:26,780 --> 00:55:27,280
No.

1205
00:55:27,280 --> 00:55:27,940
I'm the mother.

1206
00:55:27,940 --> 00:55:29,380
I'm the son of my mother.

1207
00:55:29,380 --> 00:55:30,660
I'm the son of my mother.

1208
00:55:30,660 --> 00:55:31,160
OK.

1209
00:55:31,160 --> 00:55:31,660
OK.

1210
00:55:31,660 --> 00:55:33,660
I'm like, see that's the pro.

1211
00:55:33,660 --> 00:55:34,500
I'm the son of my mother.

1212
00:55:34,500 --> 00:55:35,460
See, bought him more than he could.

1213
00:55:35,460 --> 00:55:36,380
I'm the big mother.

1214
00:55:36,380 --> 00:55:37,660
Carolina sent me back.

1215
00:55:37,660 --> 00:55:39,180
You said, I'm the son of my mother.

1216
00:55:39,180 --> 00:55:39,660
OK.

1217
00:55:39,660 --> 00:55:40,140
OK.

1218
00:55:40,140 --> 00:55:41,180
But I'm saying it.

1219
00:55:41,180 --> 00:55:42,140
No.

1220
00:55:42,140 --> 00:55:43,900
At the time, he was my big father.

1221
00:55:43,900 --> 00:55:44,500
Look at this.

1222
00:55:44,500 --> 00:55:45,820
I said what I said.

1223
00:55:45,820 --> 00:55:46,860
You could say it.

1224
00:55:46,860 --> 00:55:47,820
But that wasn't his right.

1225
00:55:47,820 --> 00:55:48,740
He was my big father at the time.

1226
00:55:48,740 --> 00:55:50,220
He was a boy.

1227
00:55:50,220 --> 00:55:53,140
And I'm not going to say right hand when he was because he wasn't.

1228
00:55:53,140 --> 00:55:54,660
You keep that shit wrong, really.

1229
00:55:54,660 --> 00:55:55,300
Well, guess what?

1230
00:55:55,300 --> 00:55:55,940
You know what?

1231
00:55:55,940 --> 00:55:58,460
I can't take that two different ways.

1232
00:55:58,460 --> 00:56:00,740
I'm going to take it two different ways because even

1233
00:56:00,740 --> 00:56:03,500
through all of it, you're option down, guess what?

1234
00:56:03,500 --> 00:56:04,860
He's still there.

1235
00:56:04,860 --> 00:56:05,420
Yeah.

1236
00:56:05,420 --> 00:56:06,260
So that show.

1237
00:56:06,260 --> 00:56:08,180
But he took me through a lot too.

1238
00:56:08,180 --> 00:56:10,100
But y'all were young.

1239
00:56:10,100 --> 00:56:10,900
Y'all were young.

1240
00:56:10,900 --> 00:56:11,620
No, we still young.

1241
00:56:11,620 --> 00:56:12,540
That's my point.

1242
00:56:12,540 --> 00:56:13,700
So it's level two.

1243
00:56:13,700 --> 00:56:14,540
You took him for sure.

1244
00:56:14,540 --> 00:56:15,700
No, that's an excuse.

1245
00:56:15,700 --> 00:56:17,940
I feel like that's the right thing.

1246
00:56:17,940 --> 00:56:19,500
I feel like that's the right thing.

1247
00:56:19,500 --> 00:56:23,540
That's like a teacher telling you to study for a test, right?

1248
00:56:23,540 --> 00:56:24,900
Now, let's you feel them for you.

1249
00:56:24,900 --> 00:56:25,380
You got it.

1250
00:56:25,380 --> 00:56:26,380
You got it.

1251
00:56:26,380 --> 00:56:26,860
You got it.

1252
00:56:26,860 --> 00:56:27,860
You put it.

1253
00:56:27,860 --> 00:56:28,860
No, he definitely put it.

1254
00:56:28,860 --> 00:56:29,360
What he put?

1255
00:56:29,360 --> 00:56:30,100
I'm going to hold.

1256
00:56:30,100 --> 00:56:30,900
I got the easiest.

1257
00:56:30,900 --> 00:56:31,980
This is their way.

1258
00:56:31,980 --> 00:56:33,260
I know he told us all the time.

1259
00:56:33,260 --> 00:56:33,760
Yo.

1260
00:56:33,760 --> 00:56:36,260
What you get to do, y'all?

1261
00:56:36,260 --> 00:56:39,140
One thing, he wouldn't let me know that I'm not going to go to home.

1262
00:56:39,140 --> 00:56:40,140
He's a nerd.

1263
00:56:40,140 --> 00:56:40,640
He's a nerd.

1264
00:56:40,640 --> 00:56:41,700
He had a nerd.

1265
00:56:41,700 --> 00:56:42,660
Everybody else had.

1266
00:56:42,660 --> 00:56:45,780
You said if I wasn't strong in my mind,

1267
00:56:45,780 --> 00:56:49,820
I would have been for it because he's like, you talk.

1268
00:56:49,820 --> 00:56:51,500
He's telling all the time, you talk so much.

1269
00:56:51,500 --> 00:56:52,000
Ships.

1270
00:56:52,000 --> 00:56:53,660
It would really get in your mind.

1271
00:56:53,660 --> 00:56:54,620
Oh, so good.

1272
00:56:54,620 --> 00:56:55,700
It's the both of y'all.

1273
00:56:55,700 --> 00:56:56,700
Y'all the same thing.

1274
00:56:56,700 --> 00:56:58,540
Y'all the both the same.

1275
00:56:58,540 --> 00:57:06,460
But I can say that even if we don't work out in our relationship,

1276
00:57:06,460 --> 00:57:09,540
that is my team player, regardless of what.

1277
00:57:09,540 --> 00:57:11,380
That is the challenge that I created.

1278
00:57:11,380 --> 00:57:15,180
And one thing, no matter what, who would have been through hell of a shit?

1279
00:57:15,180 --> 00:57:16,180
Don't get me wrong.

1280
00:57:16,180 --> 00:57:18,260
I'll be like, fuck that nigga.

1281
00:57:18,260 --> 00:57:21,180
But whatever he cut out to, I'm gonna hit him in my back.

1282
00:57:21,180 --> 00:57:21,820
All right?

1283
00:57:21,820 --> 00:57:24,660
Don't matter if he show up four days late.

1284
00:57:24,660 --> 00:57:25,660
Because I want what I want.

1285
00:57:25,660 --> 00:57:27,420
What I want.

1286
00:57:27,420 --> 00:57:28,500
He show up.

1287
00:57:28,500 --> 00:57:29,740
So see, all right, so.

1288
00:57:29,740 --> 00:57:31,180
So I had to get to a place.

1289
00:57:31,180 --> 00:57:32,220
He's never going to go.

1290
00:57:32,220 --> 00:57:34,180
He's never going to go play inside, eh?

1291
00:57:34,180 --> 00:57:35,420
One thing I got to look at.

1292
00:57:35,420 --> 00:57:37,420
He uses his extensions.

1293
00:57:37,420 --> 00:57:38,900
You know how I remember that?

1294
00:57:38,900 --> 00:57:41,180
You got November the 15th and November the 16th.

1295
00:57:41,180 --> 00:57:43,380
Hey, hey, well, black people, wake me up.

1296
00:57:43,380 --> 00:57:44,060
Let me try that.

1297
00:57:44,060 --> 00:57:45,340
Let me try that.

1298
00:57:45,340 --> 00:57:46,340
Let me try that.

1299
00:57:46,340 --> 00:57:48,140
He's got a nigga that's good at waking up in the back.

1300
00:57:48,140 --> 00:57:50,140
We were all out shit.

1301
00:57:50,140 --> 00:57:52,140
You know how you get that catch up on the track?

1302
00:57:52,140 --> 00:57:53,140
But you know what?

1303
00:57:53,140 --> 00:57:54,140
But you know what?

1304
00:57:54,140 --> 00:57:55,140
But you know what?

1305
00:57:55,140 --> 00:57:56,140
I'm not waiting.

1306
00:57:56,140 --> 00:57:57,140
You know what I can say?

1307
00:57:57,140 --> 00:57:58,140
Because I don't wait.

1308
00:57:58,140 --> 00:57:59,140
I'm coming to look for you.

1309
00:57:59,140 --> 00:58:01,140
But you know what I can't say?

1310
00:58:01,140 --> 00:58:03,140
You know what I can't say?

1311
00:58:03,140 --> 00:58:05,140
I'm gonna straight me dead right now.

1312
00:58:05,140 --> 00:58:06,140
Y'all think I'm lying.

1313
00:58:06,140 --> 00:58:07,140
I'm lying in the look line.

1314
00:58:07,140 --> 00:58:09,140
Ladies better than ever, come to him.

1315
00:58:09,140 --> 00:58:11,140
That mother on the fifth?

1316
00:58:11,140 --> 00:58:12,140
He there.

1317
00:58:12,140 --> 00:58:13,140
He there.

1318
00:58:13,140 --> 00:58:14,140
He never went.

1319
00:58:14,140 --> 00:58:16,140
So he might have fucked up the whole month.

1320
00:58:16,140 --> 00:58:19,140
So now on the fifth, the first year, the fifth, you get the second year.

1321
00:58:19,140 --> 00:58:20,140
I don't know.

1322
00:58:20,140 --> 00:58:22,140
It's something like that five.

1323
00:58:22,140 --> 00:58:23,140
That bitch fourth.

1324
00:58:23,140 --> 00:58:24,140
You know who that five is?

1325
00:58:24,140 --> 00:58:25,140
The five head fingers.

1326
00:58:25,140 --> 00:58:26,140
He like, fuck that.

1327
00:58:26,140 --> 00:58:27,140
That bitch.

1328
00:58:27,140 --> 00:58:29,140
I saw a dude on the fifth.

1329
00:58:29,140 --> 00:58:31,140
And I was like, this is on the first.

1330
00:58:31,140 --> 00:58:32,140
I saw a guy.

1331
00:58:32,140 --> 00:58:33,140
I saw a guy.

1332
00:58:33,140 --> 00:58:35,140
Hey, bro, I saw a guy on the first.

1333
00:58:35,140 --> 00:58:36,140
I'm like this.

1334
00:58:36,140 --> 00:58:38,140
I'm money on the fifth.

1335
00:58:38,140 --> 00:58:41,140
That is something, but let's not, bro.

1336
00:58:41,140 --> 00:58:43,140
That nigga wants to see this.

1337
00:58:43,140 --> 00:58:47,140
Did he always get that right?

1338
00:58:47,140 --> 00:58:48,140
He always got that right.

1339
00:58:48,140 --> 00:58:49,140
He didn't always get that right.

1340
00:58:49,140 --> 00:58:51,140
He didn't always get that right.

1341
00:58:51,140 --> 00:58:52,140
No.

1342
00:58:52,140 --> 00:58:53,140
I'm going to be honest with you.

1343
00:58:53,140 --> 00:58:54,140
You can't be.

1344
00:58:54,140 --> 00:58:56,140
It's happening down here with him.

1345
00:58:56,140 --> 00:58:58,140
He been getting it right.

1346
00:58:58,140 --> 00:59:00,140
So timing is everything.

1347
00:59:00,140 --> 00:59:01,140
Right.

1348
00:59:01,140 --> 00:59:02,140
I feel it.

1349
00:59:02,140 --> 00:59:03,140
A lot of people don't understand it.

1350
00:59:03,140 --> 00:59:05,140
If you force shit, that's what you're going to get.

1351
00:59:05,140 --> 00:59:08,140
You're going to get a bunch of Jewish bullshit.

1352
00:59:08,140 --> 00:59:10,140
Some things in life you got to give time to grow.

1353
00:59:10,140 --> 00:59:12,140
You can't plan to see the day tomorrow.

1354
00:59:12,140 --> 00:59:13,140
Thank you.

1355
00:59:13,140 --> 00:59:14,140
I'm fucking corn.

1356
00:59:14,140 --> 00:59:16,140
But now I had a love on myself too.

1357
00:59:16,140 --> 00:59:18,140
Because I was putting so much.

1358
00:59:18,140 --> 00:59:24,140
But see, it's hard to love on yourself and you got so many distractions in your life.

1359
00:59:24,140 --> 00:59:28,140
That keep you from loving because you just trying to keep moving.

1360
00:59:28,140 --> 00:59:31,140
One time you felt we used to live.

1361
00:59:31,140 --> 00:59:35,140
Now we like more so in a survival plan.

1362
00:59:35,140 --> 00:59:38,140
I don't want to live like I'm surviving.

1363
00:59:38,140 --> 00:59:40,140
You want to survive like we live?

1364
00:59:40,140 --> 00:59:42,140
I want to live.

1365
00:59:42,140 --> 00:59:45,140
So I know what it is.

1366
00:59:45,140 --> 00:59:47,140
To survive.

1367
00:59:47,140 --> 00:59:48,140
If I have to.

1368
00:59:48,140 --> 00:59:53,140
But when we come to it, we grew up first to survive first.

1369
00:59:53,140 --> 00:59:57,140
I grew up to survive first.

1370
00:59:57,140 --> 00:59:58,140
You live it.

1371
00:59:58,140 --> 00:59:59,140
Yeah, that's what I'm saying.

1372
00:59:59,140 --> 01:00:04,140
But when I say live, let me express myself.

1373
01:00:04,140 --> 01:00:08,140
You know how some people say when you live, right?

1374
01:00:08,140 --> 01:00:10,140
Compared to survive.

1375
01:00:10,140 --> 01:00:14,140
Surviving means by any means necessary.

1376
01:00:14,140 --> 01:00:21,140
When you live and you want to track because you know what the system is and you know the bylaws and you know all the routines and the rules.

1377
01:00:21,140 --> 01:00:23,140
You know, I got to do this.

1378
01:00:23,140 --> 01:00:25,140
I got to work if I want to eat.

1379
01:00:25,140 --> 01:00:26,140
You know what I'm saying?

1380
01:00:26,140 --> 01:00:28,140
To where you go to survive.

1381
01:00:28,140 --> 01:00:37,140
Surviving, you know what, let me reiterate that because it's two ways that you can look at it.

1382
01:00:37,140 --> 01:00:45,140
And it could be, you know what, this question is so big because you got to look at your upbringing and all of that shit.

1383
01:00:45,140 --> 01:00:46,140
Exactly.

1384
01:00:46,140 --> 01:00:54,140
You just can't go off of a point in life because in order to get to a point in life, you got to come from some way.

1385
01:00:54,140 --> 01:00:55,140
I'm lost.

1386
01:00:55,140 --> 01:00:56,140
You're lost.

1387
01:00:56,140 --> 01:00:58,140
You're lost for what I'm saying.

1388
01:00:58,140 --> 01:01:00,140
No, you're lost.

1389
01:01:00,140 --> 01:01:04,140
What I'm saying is, like, some people think a lot you should go to already be here.

1390
01:01:04,140 --> 01:01:08,140
No, what I'm saying is, it's all relative.

1391
01:01:08,140 --> 01:01:11,140
The other day, I saw this article.

1392
01:01:11,140 --> 01:01:20,140
I ain't going to lie, this girl got me a taste of my mouth and I'll be like, I saw this article every day when they just came across this tribe in a Brazilian jungle.

1393
01:01:20,140 --> 01:01:27,140
They've never seen no other motherfuckers but themselves. They don't know about shit.

1394
01:01:27,140 --> 01:01:29,140
That's the whole, nothing is going on.

1395
01:01:29,140 --> 01:01:30,140
All right?

1396
01:01:30,140 --> 01:01:42,140
But those people have a high-level, where, yeah, you got some people that's on the lower level, but the motherfuckers on the top level, they feel they live in like kings.

1397
01:01:42,140 --> 01:01:44,140
Nothing like them.

1398
01:01:44,140 --> 01:01:47,140
The poorest motherfuckers living in a man.

1399
01:01:47,140 --> 01:01:55,140
They're all relative. You know what I'm saying? To them, they, they're on top of the world as far as we concerned and shit.

1400
01:01:55,140 --> 01:01:56,140
No, I used to think that.

1401
01:01:56,140 --> 01:01:59,140
So it depends on how you feel about yourself.

1402
01:01:59,140 --> 01:02:12,140
If you live in a life where you feel like, man, I got to have the Gucci's and all the bullshit, bullshit that goes on in the world and you ain't going to never be happy.

1403
01:02:12,140 --> 01:02:18,140
But sitting there, you go again because you know why. But back, oh boy, I don't want to get down.

1404
01:02:18,140 --> 01:02:28,140
If you go to shit and just make you feel good inside, all that other shit, you know, if you go for it and get it, it's all materialistic.

1405
01:02:28,140 --> 01:02:30,140
So it's not real.

1406
01:02:30,140 --> 01:02:36,140
The shit that most people go for, that's what's giving them the trouble. Try to achieve some bullshit.

1407
01:02:36,140 --> 01:02:37,140
I'm tasting it when I just played this.

1408
01:02:37,140 --> 01:02:39,140
Don't be sucking on my black now.

1409
01:02:39,140 --> 01:02:42,140
Oh, that's really shit. You better check it out.

1410
01:02:42,140 --> 01:02:47,140
Because I know if there's no feelings, don't be sucking on my black.

1411
01:02:47,140 --> 01:02:49,140
That's coming up. That's coming up.

1412
01:02:49,140 --> 01:02:51,140
That's all your interpretation.

1413
01:02:51,140 --> 01:02:54,140
One thing we're going to do, we're going to hold everybody accountable for their own self.

1414
01:02:54,140 --> 01:02:57,140
We ain't going to go through all of that cause and all that shit.

1415
01:02:57,140 --> 01:03:00,140
You know what I mean? No disrespect and nobody.

1416
01:03:00,140 --> 01:03:03,140
See you in a while.

1417
01:03:03,140 --> 01:03:04,140
Hey.

1418
01:03:04,140 --> 01:03:05,140
Thank you for seeing her.

1419
01:03:05,140 --> 01:03:06,140
Hey.

1420
01:03:06,140 --> 01:03:09,140
Thank you for letting me take her.

1421
01:03:09,140 --> 01:03:11,140
I appreciate it.

1422
01:03:11,140 --> 01:03:14,140
I'm not going to be on TV.

1423
01:03:14,140 --> 01:03:16,140
I'm going to be on TV starting off the one.

1424
01:03:16,140 --> 01:03:18,140
It ain't been a while since we had a shot.

1425
01:03:18,140 --> 01:03:21,140
Hey, you want to admit a session right now?

1426
01:03:21,140 --> 01:03:23,140
You know what I think? Who never had a shot?

1427
01:03:23,140 --> 01:03:26,140
I think, I think, I think, you know what I think?

1428
01:03:26,140 --> 01:03:31,140
I think you need to change up the vibe a little bit.

1429
01:03:31,140 --> 01:03:33,140
And let's look at it like this.

1430
01:03:33,140 --> 01:03:38,140
Let me ask everybody right now, since you are in a different place in the space of your life.

1431
01:03:38,140 --> 01:03:41,140
Seattle, my mom, Big Head.

1432
01:03:41,140 --> 01:03:43,140
I'm asking all y'all that, right?

1433
01:03:43,140 --> 01:03:46,140
I know y'all ain't listening right now because y'all are the big man you see.

1434
01:03:46,140 --> 01:03:48,140
You have a story, you know what I'm saying?

1435
01:03:48,140 --> 01:03:49,140
I got it.

1436
01:03:49,140 --> 01:03:51,140
And I'm going to tell you some, what I'm saying right now.

1437
01:03:51,140 --> 01:03:54,140
Where, where, okay.

1438
01:03:54,140 --> 01:04:00,140
Where do you see yourself in the next five years?

1439
01:04:00,140 --> 01:04:06,140
Coming from all of the taxes that you feel like you had that's left behind.

1440
01:04:06,140 --> 01:04:10,140
Do you feel like you can't grow?

1441
01:04:10,140 --> 01:04:12,140
You can't grow?

1442
01:04:12,140 --> 01:04:14,140
You sleepy?

1443
01:04:14,140 --> 01:04:22,140
I feel like in the next five years, I'm a, um, I ain't even doing that.

1444
01:04:22,140 --> 01:04:24,140
I don't know if I'm doing that.

1445
01:04:24,140 --> 01:04:26,140
I really feel like me, I don't know.

1446
01:04:26,140 --> 01:04:31,140
I really feel like the way I think and the way I want shit, I'm really going to be a millionaire.

1447
01:04:31,140 --> 01:04:33,140
Like I ain't going to lie to y'all.

1448
01:04:33,140 --> 01:04:34,140
I feel that.

1449
01:04:34,140 --> 01:04:35,140
I like that.

1450
01:04:35,140 --> 01:04:36,140
I really challenge it.

1451
01:04:36,140 --> 01:04:37,140
I want you to believe in myself.

1452
01:04:37,140 --> 01:04:40,140
And see, that's why you in the basement because we starting from the ground up.

1453
01:04:40,140 --> 01:04:42,140
I'm going to bust a ride and I'm going to be a celebrity.

1454
01:04:42,140 --> 01:04:44,140
Celebrity here's makeup artist.

1455
01:04:44,140 --> 01:04:45,140
I ain't going to lie.

1456
01:04:45,140 --> 01:04:46,140
It is.

1457
01:04:46,140 --> 01:04:48,140
That's the shit that I do that make me like, it's my sanity.

1458
01:04:48,140 --> 01:04:51,140
I like cooking and I like being a millionaire.

1459
01:04:51,140 --> 01:04:56,140
But I really feel like I would be a millionaire.

1460
01:04:56,140 --> 01:04:57,140
Big facts.

1461
01:04:57,140 --> 01:04:58,140
I like that.

1462
01:04:58,140 --> 01:04:59,140
Gaynees.

1463
01:04:59,140 --> 01:05:00,140
Gaynees.

1464
01:05:00,140 --> 01:05:02,140
Get big heads, black heart.

1465
01:05:02,140 --> 01:05:07,140
Real quick, get your phone in the next five years.

1466
01:05:07,140 --> 01:05:11,140
I'm coming to Mooga and I'm going to get a loan.

1467
01:05:11,140 --> 01:05:16,140
And I will be a billionaire too.

1468
01:05:16,140 --> 01:05:17,140
Okay.

1469
01:05:17,140 --> 01:05:21,140
Because I ain't really been saying much like that.

1470
01:05:21,140 --> 01:05:22,140
I like that.

1471
01:05:22,140 --> 01:05:23,140
I like that.

1472
01:05:23,140 --> 01:05:24,140
I'm talking because this is what this is about.

1473
01:05:24,140 --> 01:05:26,140
I want y'all to go off of it because everybody hears me.

1474
01:05:26,140 --> 01:05:27,140
Everyone is there.

1475
01:05:27,140 --> 01:05:31,140
So they, y'all getting to pick a bug and guess what?

1476
01:05:31,140 --> 01:05:33,140
That's a pop top.

1477
01:05:33,140 --> 01:05:34,140
This is why.

1478
01:05:34,140 --> 01:05:35,140
It's messed up.

1479
01:05:35,140 --> 01:05:46,140
Because then your shit go up and it's like, this shit go up and it's like, oh my god.

1480
01:05:46,140 --> 01:05:48,140
The violence was violent.

1481
01:05:48,140 --> 01:05:50,140
And you know what's crazy?

1482
01:05:50,140 --> 01:05:51,140
Who's Big Rick?

1483
01:05:51,140 --> 01:05:53,140
It's the Saturday night.

1484
01:05:53,140 --> 01:05:54,140
I know.

1485
01:05:54,140 --> 01:05:55,140
I know you.

1486
01:05:55,140 --> 01:05:56,140
I know.

1487
01:05:56,140 --> 01:05:57,140
I know.

1488
01:05:57,140 --> 01:05:58,140
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.

1489
01:05:58,140 --> 01:05:59,140
Can I clean those up?

1490
01:05:59,140 --> 01:06:00,140
You know.

1491
01:06:00,140 --> 01:06:01,140
You don't feel bad.

1492
01:06:01,140 --> 01:06:02,140
What they saying?

1493
01:06:02,140 --> 01:06:03,140
Like, you got sweat on.

1494
01:06:03,140 --> 01:06:04,140
I was like, you know.

1495
01:06:04,140 --> 01:06:05,140
Hey, roasting now.

1496
01:06:05,140 --> 01:06:06,140
Roasting now.

1497
01:06:06,140 --> 01:06:07,140
Roasting now.

1498
01:06:07,140 --> 01:06:08,140
Roasting now.

1499
01:06:08,140 --> 01:06:09,140
Roasting now.

1500
01:06:09,140 --> 01:06:10,140
Roasting now.

1501
01:06:10,140 --> 01:06:11,140
Roasting now.

1502
01:06:11,140 --> 01:06:12,140
Roasting now.

1503
01:06:12,140 --> 01:06:13,140
Roasting now.

1504
01:06:13,140 --> 01:06:14,140
Roasting now.

1505
01:06:14,140 --> 01:06:15,140
Roasting now.

1506
01:06:15,140 --> 01:06:16,140
Okay.

1507
01:06:16,140 --> 01:06:17,140
Thank you.

1508
01:06:17,140 --> 01:06:18,140
What I missed in this one is your father.

1509
01:06:18,140 --> 01:06:19,140
flows.

1510
01:06:19,140 --> 01:06:20,140
They showed you girls.

1511
01:06:20,140 --> 01:06:22,140
Remember that first one where gave you.

1512
01:06:22,140 --> 01:06:43,700
People didn't show you you couldn't finish that first one

1513
01:06:43,700 --> 01:06:51,780
me be like I really honestly don't know where I'll be next life is but I will say I want

1514
01:06:51,780 --> 01:06:58,820
in the next five years my own house I want on my house I want land but look what you

1515
01:06:58,820 --> 01:07:04,780
did you started I want to get you two pieces of land and it showed you where you could

1516
01:07:04,780 --> 01:07:11,500
be I want to be a house anyway we gotta be a big one a comfortable house you want a comfortable

1517
01:07:11,500 --> 01:07:18,340
house I want to be I wanted to wear as though like when my family come out of town we is

1518
01:07:18,340 --> 01:07:23,540
driving at the house we chilling at the house we and it's so much space even if I ain't

1519
01:07:23,540 --> 01:07:32,060
got a run we want a head and we don't have at the cook I know I want my house to be

1520
01:07:32,060 --> 01:07:36,460
gonna I'm balcony's that sit up high and then got the garage up under there I'm already

1521
01:07:36,460 --> 01:07:42,740
manifesting it I don't want it like 20 but you just say you don't see five years and

1522
01:07:42,740 --> 01:07:50,820
look I'm saying I'm saying no but I'm just saying see see how easy that was yeah it

1523
01:07:50,820 --> 01:07:55,340
wasn't wrote down like you just say I'm saying I wrote that down but that's what I'm saying

1524
01:07:55,340 --> 01:08:00,740
though but you know that's your what you got that's your that's your goal let me say y'all

1525
01:08:00,740 --> 01:08:08,260
to start all the way over to one beaver you know why it's called the one beaver it's called

1526
01:08:08,260 --> 01:08:16,220
solitude is you want you to be by yourself because that one you feel like that way it's

1527
01:08:16,220 --> 01:08:21,860
a really skewed to life and you gotta take all the colors and put it together to form

1528
01:08:21,860 --> 01:08:51,260
a foundation so now you can see the color hey this is also the bar and grill so don't

1529
01:08:51,260 --> 01:08:56,580
mind us we in the environment that is just flowing so it's everywhere tonight but it's

1530
01:08:56,580 --> 01:09:06,340
still love and respect and peace go ahead well I see myself in the next five years yeah

1531
01:09:06,340 --> 01:09:14,340
I really wanted no do you really want to know do you really want to know no I don't know

1532
01:09:14,340 --> 01:09:23,980
where I see you sound good so you gotta make sure you believe me look look look look look

1533
01:09:23,980 --> 01:09:31,260
look I'm a please this motherfucking parlay hit I'm a hit I'm a hit look when I hit on

1534
01:09:31,260 --> 01:09:37,660
the parlay I'm a hit for a lot of money I'm talking about at least half an hour I'm gonna

1535
01:09:37,660 --> 01:09:44,660
give it I'm gonna give it half an hour me reach half an hour on this parlay with that

1536
01:09:44,660 --> 01:09:47,980
half an hour I'm flipping that motherfucker I'm starting a hell of a business I'm a Daphne

1537
01:09:47,980 --> 01:09:57,100
invest in a couple sandwiches sandwiches around Baltimore you know you know I'm gonna get

1538
01:09:57,100 --> 01:10:07,020
a taco I'm gonna get some of my real me go homies from home people go get a couple of

1539
01:10:07,020 --> 01:10:31,020
them start them up I'm trying to get more Mexican homeboys now I got black homeboys

1540
01:10:31,020 --> 01:10:47,380
now I choose to hang out with people because when you grow up in our environment if you

1541
01:10:47,380 --> 01:11:02,700
in the streets all day only people you know is the people of your color but now you working

1542
01:11:02,700 --> 01:11:09,820
we ain't gonna hate anything but one thing we say to we all Kings I'm like never done

1543
01:11:09,820 --> 01:11:17,220
my I give him my hat talk because he could be outside but when you look at it if he acts

1544
01:11:17,220 --> 01:11:21,860
himself deeply he sit down right now he looked at all the friends that he had and look at

1545
01:11:21,860 --> 01:11:30,020
what he don't have now acts on how much he appreciate where he is in the carotid I want

1546
01:11:30,020 --> 01:11:34,540
to take the joke out of the situation and I want to give you the reality we can joke

1547
01:11:34,540 --> 01:11:40,820
all day because don't get me that's us having fun but the thing is I want to hear y'all

1548
01:11:40,820 --> 01:11:48,020
being young because a lot of y'all out there now a lot of a lot of people of y'all don't

1549
01:11:48,020 --> 01:11:55,180
speak about what they want in life because they really not bosses but under the young

1550
01:11:55,180 --> 01:12:10,500
people and if you don't know how to survive you're gonna lose in this city you gotta know

1551
01:12:10,500 --> 01:12:19,260
what it takes to live but I give you because you used to call me on the phone when you

1552
01:12:19,260 --> 01:12:27,700
were working over at the other job right friend of mine came through and outside being a friend

1553
01:12:27,700 --> 01:12:34,020
but you're leaving and I'm proud of you because you've been there over what you six seven years

1554
01:12:34,020 --> 01:12:41,860
now yeah all right but look at it though look at where you came from look at where you came

1555
01:12:41,860 --> 01:12:48,580
from no way you came in and he said when he said hit on something off that money that money

1556
01:12:48,580 --> 01:12:53,300
hit different when you work for it when you see that that oh see that overtime make you

1557
01:12:53,300 --> 01:12:59,140
feel like oh shit this that extra shit so when you young guess what exhaust yourself on that

1558
01:12:59,140 --> 01:13:04,100
type of shit and not the party because guess what party ain't gonna always be there and

1559
01:13:04,100 --> 01:13:11,660
I ain't say not enjoy yourself I ain't a lot no no no let me let me let me let me let me

1560
01:13:11,660 --> 01:13:19,940
let you write my spaces man I don't want to party fuck party I like telling me I like

1561
01:13:19,940 --> 01:13:40,660
to be with my family with the James you say you be right what you say we work for okay so guess

1562
01:13:40,660 --> 01:14:08,420
what I'm trying to get my cut this is fine but that's we keep it wrong cut this way it's

1563
01:14:08,420 --> 01:14:26,340
rolling cut like you know really give them fuck we want the smoke if my fuck is like

1564
01:14:26,340 --> 01:14:41,180
a big oh you know it's crazy we got James in here for the youth we got

1565
01:15:26,340 --> 01:15:40,220
that's why you can always learn from the youth

1566
01:15:40,220 --> 01:15:57,220
he was wrong so guess what he did you

1567
01:15:57,220 --> 01:16:10,420
know

1568
01:16:10,420 --> 01:16:12,940
I know

1569
01:16:12,940 --> 01:16:14,940
I'm a db

1570
01:16:24,940 --> 01:16:26,940
We on the park

1571
01:16:36,220 --> 01:16:38,220
Yeah, cuz it came out of nowhere

1572
01:16:38,220 --> 01:16:44,760
We playing for nothing we had a we was saying

1573
01:16:51,540 --> 01:16:53,540
Guess what now

1574
01:16:53,540 --> 01:16:58,540
And you know what

1575
01:16:58,540 --> 01:17:05,980
I got videos

1576
01:17:28,540 --> 01:17:30,540
I

1577
01:17:58,540 --> 01:18:01,180
It's not see it's not that little kid

1578
01:18:01,900 --> 01:18:03,900
It's because the way times are now

1579
01:18:03,900 --> 01:18:23,900
Now

1580
01:18:33,900 --> 01:18:45,900
I was grown

1581
01:18:47,100 --> 01:18:51,100
Listen to our conversation then and listen listen and man

1582
01:18:52,220 --> 01:18:54,660
Sold a different conversation. That's right

1583
01:18:54,660 --> 01:19:01,540
Who was supposed to stick around stuck around whatever was and they fell off right and we're

1584
01:19:15,340 --> 01:19:21,820
Time we showed up for them in that time. That was the time that we need that they needed us

1585
01:19:21,820 --> 01:19:24,820
So we built them up

1586
01:19:31,140 --> 01:19:33,820
Did you just you select them a word?

1587
01:19:35,180 --> 01:19:37,180
So I'm saying that this

1588
01:19:37,180 --> 01:19:39,180
You just like

1589
01:20:07,180 --> 01:20:10,100
Let's go

1590
01:21:07,180 --> 01:21:09,180
See

1591
01:21:09,180 --> 01:21:21,180
I

1592
01:21:21,180 --> 01:21:35,180
Don't know what the question was

1593
01:21:51,180 --> 01:21:54,060
We

1594
01:22:21,180 --> 01:22:27,380
You know what I'm saying just because people throw rocks don't mean you got to throw rock back

1595
01:22:29,060 --> 01:22:32,940
You write long as that rock don't hit you you keep walking

1596
01:22:32,940 --> 01:22:52,220
But when it's time to stand your ground it's nothing wrong with standing for who you stand for

1597
01:22:52,220 --> 01:22:57,620
just her in general being here tonight because she don't really get devout she always come through eat and hear us but now

1598
01:22:57,620 --> 01:23:04,620
the night she's actually a part of the base

1599
01:23:04,620 --> 01:23:06,620
all the time

1600
01:23:06,620 --> 01:23:08,620
I know you don't

1601
01:23:08,620 --> 01:23:10,620
you don't

1602
01:23:10,620 --> 01:23:13,620
you know you said it because you want man you grown up

1603
01:23:13,620 --> 01:23:19,620
you out come through in the premium game you will hit some shit you will hit some shit in this motherfucker

1604
01:23:19,620 --> 01:23:21,620
everybody up here

1605
01:23:21,620 --> 01:23:23,620
be a bitch

1606
01:23:23,620 --> 01:23:25,620
I ain't gonna mess your thing up

1607
01:23:25,620 --> 01:23:30,620
because y'all look like your head's out of format I will fuck it up

1608
01:23:30,620 --> 01:23:37,620
I know I know I'm not for matter but I had no idea what was going on

1609
01:23:37,620 --> 01:23:43,620
I did I probably would not have shown up because I would mess up y'all clothes

1610
01:23:43,620 --> 01:23:45,620
but now I'm here

1611
01:23:45,620 --> 01:23:47,620
you're messing up no flow

1612
01:23:47,620 --> 01:23:49,620
I'm talking to him

1613
01:23:49,620 --> 01:23:56,620
I'm talking to him

1614
01:23:56,620 --> 01:23:59,620
I love you

1615
01:23:59,620 --> 01:24:01,620
girl

1616
01:24:01,620 --> 01:24:03,620
don't touch me

1617
01:24:03,620 --> 01:24:05,620
hey

1618
01:24:07,620 --> 01:24:10,620
hey but one thing I can say

1619
01:24:10,620 --> 01:24:13,620
hey I wish we had shown him

1620
01:24:13,620 --> 01:24:15,620
I would have loved it

1621
01:24:15,620 --> 01:24:19,620
I'm gonna show you a shot oh Jesus man

1622
01:24:19,620 --> 01:24:21,620
no I ain't guessing nothing I believe it

1623
01:24:21,620 --> 01:24:23,620
call it your name

1624
01:24:23,620 --> 01:24:28,620
so what was your vibe for the night how did you feel overall

1625
01:24:28,620 --> 01:24:35,620
if you say old in middle in young in right

1626
01:24:35,620 --> 01:24:39,620
what are you feeling about the experience that you had tonight

1627
01:24:39,620 --> 01:24:41,620
what this old in

1628
01:24:41,620 --> 01:24:47,620
you feel like they know oh he's a ball head

1629
01:24:47,620 --> 01:24:49,620
I had my son

1630
01:24:49,620 --> 01:24:51,620
that's all right

1631
01:24:51,620 --> 01:24:55,620
ain't no better than the best of the all will be going she she

1632
01:24:55,620 --> 01:25:01,620
he didn't even know he got none at the top and I got a ball in you

1633
01:25:01,620 --> 01:25:03,620
I was trying to

1634
01:25:03,620 --> 01:25:05,620
close the window

1635
01:25:05,620 --> 01:25:10,620
I say like I had to park a sense like June that was like my own personal birthday present from

1636
01:25:10,620 --> 01:25:13,620
my mom's birthday present from me by me turn 21

1637
01:25:13,620 --> 01:25:17,620
you know usually when you turn 21 people won't go crazy go stupid

1638
01:25:17,620 --> 01:25:21,620
me I keep this simple and this is what I've been wanting to do for a very long time

1639
01:25:21,620 --> 01:25:29,620
so within finally seeing it come to light it is like it's big and I wanted to be more

1640
01:25:29,620 --> 01:25:34,620
broader to the point where like I didn't get people on here from all over like

1641
01:25:34,620 --> 01:25:39,620
you got your big old professors rappers stuff like that I don't want to be like

1642
01:25:39,620 --> 01:25:45,620
champs nothing but I want to have my own slow and you feel like people do this

1643
01:25:45,620 --> 01:25:51,620
you know I just want to do this for myself because everybody's like oh

1644
01:25:51,620 --> 01:25:57,620
you like that I'm gonna be myself everything I do is original you know

1645
01:25:57,620 --> 01:25:59,620
here another one here

1646
01:25:59,620 --> 01:26:01,620
what?

1647
01:26:01,620 --> 01:26:07,620
Harold's in the house he added that drink champ he said he agreed to be original

1648
01:26:07,620 --> 01:26:09,620
hey you don't hear me say no

1649
01:26:09,620 --> 01:26:11,620
hey don't say that

1650
01:26:11,620 --> 01:26:13,620
hey you said I said

1651
01:26:13,620 --> 01:26:15,620
then get the guns

1652
01:26:15,620 --> 01:26:17,620
guns guns

1653
01:26:17,620 --> 01:26:23,620
so we got over all for tonight I'm glad that body's being the first time having people on there

1654
01:26:23,620 --> 01:26:29,620
because people have been asking to be on here this one it went different than what I would expect it to be

1655
01:26:29,620 --> 01:26:33,620
I knew it wasn't gonna be like round around everybody bouncing around I knew that was what it was

1656
01:26:33,620 --> 01:26:35,620
you know what it sounds like

1657
01:26:35,620 --> 01:26:37,620
there was also white belly shit

1658
01:26:37,620 --> 01:26:39,620
you know you haven't seen that shit

1659
01:26:39,620 --> 01:26:41,620
the white belly

1660
01:26:41,620 --> 01:26:49,620
but it got this story well it's like people going there and they tell like the addicts and prostitutes and they tell them that story

1661
01:26:49,620 --> 01:26:51,620
but it basically

1662
01:26:51,620 --> 01:26:53,620
I used to have prostitutes or that

1663
01:26:53,620 --> 01:26:55,620
you said that to me

1664
01:26:55,620 --> 01:26:57,620
that's what I wanted to see

1665
01:26:57,620 --> 01:26:59,620
that's bad shit

1666
01:26:59,620 --> 01:27:01,620
drug dealers and shit

1667
01:27:01,620 --> 01:27:03,620
but it was like no you feel me

1668
01:27:03,620 --> 01:27:05,620
you feel me y'all

1669
01:27:05,620 --> 01:27:07,620
it wasn't awkward

1670
01:27:07,620 --> 01:27:09,620
they wasn't afraid

1671
01:27:09,620 --> 01:27:11,620
to you know to express something that you know

1672
01:27:11,620 --> 01:27:13,620
that they're gonna win the cup

1673
01:27:13,620 --> 01:27:15,620
that hurt that

1674
01:27:15,620 --> 01:27:17,620
you know that something that made them

1675
01:27:17,620 --> 01:27:19,620
you feel me

1676
01:27:19,620 --> 01:27:21,620
you feel me?

1677
01:27:21,620 --> 01:27:23,620
they put two and zero in it

1678
01:27:25,620 --> 01:27:27,620
you know what

1679
01:27:27,620 --> 01:27:29,620
it's crazy that

1680
01:27:29,620 --> 01:27:31,620
the only reason why we probably speaking this way is because we got the mic on us

1681
01:27:31,620 --> 01:27:33,620
but it probably wouldn't have went no different

1682
01:27:33,620 --> 01:27:35,620
you might have heard some different shit

1683
01:27:35,620 --> 01:27:37,620
by there would have been a little rock

1684
01:27:37,620 --> 01:27:39,620
we might have played some music and we don't want no trouble

1685
01:27:39,620 --> 01:27:41,620
but it's just music that we all grew up

1686
01:27:41,620 --> 01:27:43,620
off of and we vibe with

1687
01:27:43,620 --> 01:27:45,620
but we cut it off tonight

1688
01:27:45,620 --> 01:27:47,620
because we don't want no smoke

1689
01:27:49,620 --> 01:27:51,620
and guess what

1690
01:27:51,620 --> 01:27:53,620
and that's the whole thing

1691
01:27:53,620 --> 01:27:55,620
of the basement

1692
01:27:55,620 --> 01:27:57,620
you know what the basement is

1693
01:27:57,620 --> 01:27:59,620
everybody here starting from the bottom

1694
01:27:59,620 --> 01:28:01,620
it ain't no judgment

1695
01:28:01,620 --> 01:28:03,620
on life that's why it's no feeling

1696
01:28:03,620 --> 01:28:05,620
I'm running out of bottom

1697
01:28:05,620 --> 01:28:07,620
we had the bottom at a different level

1698
01:28:07,620 --> 01:28:09,620
see he don't understand see that's what I'm talking about

1699
01:28:09,620 --> 01:28:11,620
he says you had the bottom with the black card list

1700
01:28:21,620 --> 01:28:23,620
and we got black card

1701
01:28:23,620 --> 01:28:25,620
members in the basement so that shows you that

1702
01:28:25,620 --> 01:28:27,620
it's a lot of growth

1703
01:28:27,620 --> 01:28:29,620
a lot of respect and a lot of people in here

1704
01:28:29,620 --> 01:28:31,620
ain't no game

1705
01:28:31,620 --> 01:28:33,620
it's just life

1706
01:28:33,620 --> 01:28:35,620
see I got a white one

1707
01:28:35,620 --> 01:28:37,620
we all got a black card

1708
01:28:37,620 --> 01:28:39,620
I don't got no black card

1709
01:28:39,620 --> 01:28:41,620
that green motherfucker in that blue you pull off

1710
01:28:41,620 --> 01:28:43,620
that's black because guess what that's facts

1711
01:28:43,620 --> 01:28:45,620
take that back

1712
01:28:45,620 --> 01:28:47,620
he said that Lamborghini outside

1713
01:28:47,620 --> 01:28:49,620
pay cash

1714
01:28:51,620 --> 01:28:53,620
guess what

1715
01:28:53,620 --> 01:28:55,620
that zucchini outside

1716
01:28:55,620 --> 01:28:57,620
a fatty cash

1717
01:28:57,620 --> 01:28:59,620
I ain't had that with any money

1718
01:28:59,620 --> 01:29:01,620
but I got zucchini and it was linguiney

1719
01:29:01,620 --> 01:29:03,620
with that shit cut off

1720
01:29:03,620 --> 01:29:05,620
manifed a jaw break

1721
01:29:05,620 --> 01:29:07,620
stop

1722
01:29:07,620 --> 01:29:09,620
don't tell him to stop

1723
01:29:09,620 --> 01:29:11,620
don't tell him to stop

1724
01:29:11,620 --> 01:29:13,620
don't spit that shit out

1725
01:29:13,620 --> 01:29:15,620
gotta watch him

1726
01:29:15,620 --> 01:29:17,620
he can't even handle the throats

1727
01:29:19,620 --> 01:29:21,620
okay edit it off for him

1728
01:29:21,620 --> 01:29:23,620
edit that

1729
01:29:23,620 --> 01:29:25,620
you did that motherfucker

1730
01:29:25,620 --> 01:29:27,620
on and I hit you like damn

1731
01:29:27,620 --> 01:29:29,620
no I'm trying

1732
01:29:29,620 --> 01:29:31,620
I did that

1733
01:29:31,620 --> 01:29:33,620
you can talk about man baby

1734
01:29:33,620 --> 01:29:35,620
man I'm mad

1735
01:29:35,620 --> 01:29:37,620
man you're gonna be lonely shit

1736
01:29:37,620 --> 01:29:39,620
don't make me call that pap you're the top of your head

1737
01:29:39,620 --> 01:29:41,620
brother

1738
01:29:41,620 --> 01:29:43,620
fuck it with me now

1739
01:29:43,620 --> 01:29:45,620
I was in a series to

1740
01:29:45,620 --> 01:29:47,620
I had to cut off that stage but I couldn't do it

1741
01:29:47,620 --> 01:29:49,620
I had to cut off that stage but I couldn't do it

1742
01:29:49,620 --> 01:29:51,620
I was sorry

1743
01:29:51,620 --> 01:29:53,620
you guys always

1744
01:29:53,620 --> 01:29:55,620
you guys always

1745
01:29:55,620 --> 01:29:57,620
you guys always

1746
01:29:57,620 --> 01:29:59,620
you guys always

1747
01:29:59,620 --> 01:30:23,620
you guys always