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Hey y'all, whether it's morning, evening, or afternoon, I'm just glad that you guys had decided to

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vibe with me, the one and only E. For those of you who are new, welcome to my podcast and for the

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ones who are not new to this, but true to this, hey y'all, what's up? What's up, Ben? I hope all

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is well for all of you as well. So before I get into it, I want you guys to sit back, relax,

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and enjoy listening to my voice, whether you want to go or on the move. I just want y'all to enjoy

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hearing me because as always, and if you're new here, every vibe of the day is something special.

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Okay, so let's get into it. So today's vibe of the day is feelings. So deep in my feelings

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where the LMA. The reason why feelings is the vibe of the day is because I feel as though

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lately I've been in my feelings about things that are very serious, good things. Basically,

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y'all are low 50-50, and I know half of y'all have been in your feelings too about certain stuff,

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and it's okay because I'm gonna tell y'all like if you're new here, everything I say is broad

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uncut. I'm gonna tell you how it is and how I want off the dome. I'm not the one to sugarcoat

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shit. I'm sorry, I'm not the one to do it because I know we grown. I'm not gonna sugarcoat anything.

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If you're feeling some type of way, whatever the case may be, baby, let it out because you have

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feelings and your feelings matter. So let me stop playing around. Let's get into it. People be like,

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why are you always in your feelings? Because I'm a sensitive ass hoe at times. That's why

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that's why I'm being my feelings. Sometimes feelings like if you're new here again, I always

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weigh out the pros and cons of every vibe of the day. And last week's vibe was bullying. Baby,

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ain't shit was positive about that. So yeah, you ain't gonna have no positive shit about no fucking

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bullying. Okay, so we're feeling, let's talk about the positive side. Remember my feelings? If I'm

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really, really happy and something like getting my flowers, things like that, baby, I'm in my

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feelings. Because like, oh my gosh, you really took the time to really give me my flowers. You

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pointed out these things about me. You're honoring me in some type of shape way, some type of shape

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of form that I have not been, excuse me, really seeing, but also been feeling at the same time.

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Because you know, when you work so hard, the feeling you have is that you burnt out. But deep

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down, that's a good ass feeling because you're doing something that matters. Like, shout out to all

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you parents out there, you know, workers, college students, students, entrepreneurs, everybody up

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there in my black community, shout out to y'all because this shit ain't easy. And that's finally

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being our feelings. But deep down inside is like, look, I'm doing this for a reason. And sometimes

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I'm gonna lash out because I need to lash the hell out. But that feeling of being able to

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accomplish it, let alone being able to feel relief and things like that, that is one of the best

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feelings in the world. Like feelings are things that people at times need to cherish. Because

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feelings at times, certain feelings you cannot get every time. I feel like certain feelings

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is once in a lifetime, especially when it comes to a person or people that you deal with. And

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let me break it down for y'all with that. When I say person, it takes a good lifetime for somebody,

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I feel as though to put that butterfly feeling in you to have you like, oh my god, I feel like

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I'm on cloud nine. I feel like I'm just so shy. Like I'm so, this feeling I have is just cannot be

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explained. And when you have those feelings that just cannot be explained, those are the best

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motherfucking feelings ever. Even a minute since I felt like that. So hopefully I get to feel like

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that again soon. But you know, I'm not gonna rush it. I'm not gonna rush it. But I'm telling y'all,

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I know y'all out there like, yup, yup, I had that feeling before. And that feeling right now,

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like I'm just in a situation with a person and they have me feeling like I'm on cloud nine or

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they have me feeling some type of way I never felt before. And when it comes to people, I'm

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talking about like a relationship jobs, relationships, talk stages, marriage, whatever you got going on.

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If that person's making you feeling like, oh my gosh, like, I don't want to lose you,

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I'm on cloud nine, I don't know what to do in a good way. That's good, because it's every so rare.

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And I love that feeling for people because everybody deserves happiness. I'm probably gonna

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have this energy, everything like that. Everybody deserves those type of feelings and energy because

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that feeling really, it impacts your mental, y'all know, big on that mental. If you're new here,

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y'all, I'm big on the mental like, when it comes to that mental, you want to make sure you are and

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you feel up to par. Because maybe when you feel like shit, the mental feels like shit,

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then you're physically feeling like shit, like you're aching, you know, we don't want that.

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So when it comes to a feeling, especially with a person, because we still on the person side of

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me, whoever out there is getting the best feeling of their life, like they on cloud nine,

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another life day and another lifetime, butterfly feelings, whatever, congratulation to y'all.

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And I wish y'all have the best because that is the love is one of the most beautiful things ever,

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or being in that feeling, where's though you feel like you're comfortable with this person,

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that is very, that is very, very beautiful. Feelings and being comfortable also into

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swans with each other because if I'm not feeling comfortable with you, I don't know what to do.

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As long as along with friends, maybe if we can click like that instantly, I don't know what to

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tell you. Because my feelings is real big. Like, I'm not my friends, I want to feel joy, I want to

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feel happiness, I want to feel like this is my safe space. These are my people that I feel safe

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with. And it is, it is, it is, I experience it to this day. When you around them people,

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I shall dogs, whatever the case may be, they make you feel so much broad, have a broader feeling

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in horizon when y'all around, when y'all around each other. Like, I'm not very likely y'all,

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my circle is small, it's small as hell, but I love every last one of them because they make

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me feel alive. That's the number one thing too, your friends are your outlets. I feel like, you

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know, your family, yes, love them to death too, with your friends, those are the ones that know

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you a little bit deeper too. They know a little bit stuff that your family don't know. It's sometimes

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as good as sometimes like, girl, you a boy, you know, you should let them know what it is what it

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is, you know, it is life, but that feeling of having good friends, good homeboys, good homegirls,

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all that, that is one of the best things ever because I know we can all relate. In the past,

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we had fucked up friendships that we felt as though we didn't want to lose, but as you got older and

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start to see the real them and the real you and how things are, it's like, okay, I don't want this

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feeling. I don't want to feel like my wife playing tricks on me. You know, nobody wants that feeling.

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So that's like, family, when it comes to family, baby, I feel, for me, my household,

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my immediate family in my household, plus my doll in my turtle,

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in my uncle who has been here for a year with me, the only ones that make me feel

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same make me feel like I'm comfortable, I'm safe, I feel the need to be me. You know,

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at times they work my goddamn nerves. I still feel a sense of that everything I do for them

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works out and that feeling of them being appreciative and advice versus the best feeling ever.

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Don't get me wrong. I don't hate anyone. I don't at all. However, when it comes to like outside of

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the family for both sides, sometimes the feeling is just like, this is one thing I'm gonna say too.

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You can fake feeling. And I know we all be around people where we had to fake the funk just to get

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over it, but baby, I'm telling you, I can't fake that shit for a good hour. I can't. Like,

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I can't. So like, like I say, I'm sensitive on certain stuff. Like, in the last episode about

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bullying, I said, I'm 50, 50, like I'm tough. And then I still got that substance out of me.

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Sometimes my tough battery just be like, not today. Like, let's just be soft. Let's be soft

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feelings. Especially when it comes to music and things like that. Should we turn up? Should we

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turn up feelings or sad feelings or depressed? Don't be depressed. Don't be in the depressed

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feelings. Those are the worst feelings ever. Don't do it. Don't do it. I don't like when people tell

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me they feel depressed because it makes me depressed. So yeah, that's when I sense this shit.

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That sensitive side of me comes out and I don't like showing people that because I try to keep

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the G or something. I'm like, fuck it. I'm gonna show you. But that's the thing too,

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especially when it comes to family, friends, relationships, associates, strangers, whatever.

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You gotta be real careful on who you display your feelings to and what feelings you display when

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you are around these people and where exactly you are when it's when you're giving out these

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feelings and expressing and displaying it because I'm not very lucky at times. It can be the most

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craziest moments where you feel like I'm over. I'm sick of it. I'm done, especially with a person.

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Things are going so good. But sometimes that mental is just like, you can't do it no more,

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especially when it comes to faking the funk. We all have to fake the funk on something.

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We do. I'm tired. Like, I'm gonna look, I'll be tired of faking the funk, especially when you at work.

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When you work and nobody, nobody want to keep faking the funk. Sometimes I be tired of that

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feeling. That feeling is like, okay, you know, I say you are, but deep down it's like, you want to say,

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child, I'm over it. You know, so when it comes to your feelings, y'all, on a positive side,

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be able to express yourself. Don't be ashamed, especially at times where people be like, oh,

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you so conceited, be like, you are, you are, because regardless of what's the moment is or

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just a regular day, and if you had that feeling of you want to spread love and joy, you feeling

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happy, you feel excited, you feel whatever the case may be, show it, shit, that feeling can rub off

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on the motherfuckers. Shit, somebody walking around me smiling like, smiling like they won the thousand

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dollars. I'm gonna smile right with them because baby, that's just like your day up. But I feel like

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kids make my feelings turn it up extra more, especially when Halloween or Halloween, when,

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you know, Halloween just pants, whatever, y'all, the kids pants in my house, they really just

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want me, like their feelings, their costumes and their energy just had this feeling on me that

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want me up some more. Like I love children to death, like they are people that make you feel like,

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oh my god, nothing in the world can make me upset because your little face just makes everything

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change. Like y'all, I told myself, I can't wait to have children, like I'm not, I'm not rushing it,

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but when I do, I know that feeling is gonna be immaculate because oh my god. Children, I just

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feel like put a big impact to a person and that's one of the positive things, and I just feel like

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people that have a sense of herky, nasty taste of feeling for children makes me fucking sick.

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Like why the fuck are you having this eight feeling for a child? Like they ain't do shit to you.

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What did you do to them? Because children, oh baby, they're gonna tell you what it is. They sense

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adults that don't like other adults before you're sensing enough feeling that a child has,

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since I'm talking on it, that feeling that children feel and is gravitated to you,

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that's some powerful feeling because you know, like when you're older, your parents be like, oh,

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this ain't gonna be your friend, and they tell you, those things, I can look at the children.

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You know, when children are around certain people, they get that feel of, they feel safe,

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they feel comfortable like, oh, this is such a such, I love being around such a such. Now,

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having around a motherfucker, they don't really like that feeling on me like, oh, something, right?

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Or this child knows something I don't know, and I need to ask some questions. But first, let me,

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you know, observe before I ask my child or this child some open-ended questions, you know. So I

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want y'all like, y'all have children out there, nieces and nephews, whatever the case may be,

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just evaluate that because children's feelings matter regardless if they don't know how to

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express them, they're gonna, their actions gonna express it, especially when it comes to certain

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people, even other children. Yes, they get a sense of feeling like, uh-uh, I don't want to be around

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this one. And that's the thing of it, that's the thing that I love about children, like, they're

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able to, if they're not able to express their feelings in the best way possible, oh, they're

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gonna show a type of way on how they feel, like the actions gonna display, like, oh, body language

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through most definitely display how a person feel, especially at our grown age, you know,

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like when you are around somebody, now we're talking about the cons of feeling, because at times we

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had them feelings where we just like, uh, I'm in a fucked up mood or cheese, you know, excuse me,

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y'all know how this go, come on now, we're all black here, just the black community, you know,

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how this goes. And if you're not, and if you're not, it's okay, y'all, like, it's okay, you don't

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even gotta fake it. However, regardless, I don't care, kids, um, pre-teens, teenagers, grown-ups,

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uh, pre-adults, young adults, older adults, older people, I don't care when it comes to our feelings

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we're real big on that shit. And the reason I say that is because, like I said lately, I've been in

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my feelings about certain stuff that I just do not accept the fact going, like, I feel, by me being in

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my 20s, early 20s at that, I should not have to feel like I need to really prove a point to grown

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people, more, the older grown people to understand what I do and who I am and why I do what I do.

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Like for example, when you, you know, people don't understand that people have feelings,

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people fail to realize you could talk shit all day about a person, but what don't click in your

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head is how they will feel on the, on the other side. Like lately, I just don't like certain

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stuff that people been saying because I say this all the time. The tongue is the powerful thing,

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and whatever you say, it could come light. And I be watching what I say, well, not watching,

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be careful what I say. I think people say watch, watch what you say because like, what,

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be careful what you say, shit, damn it. Be careful what you say because you don't know

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how that can affect a person, especially when it comes to their feelings.

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So let me give you an example. When it comes to my feelings, how I'm feeling lately, I feel like

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older adults, older adult, don't understand that people, those younger adults like me and their

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peak of the 20s, we go through shit just as well as y'all do. And it's maybe not be the same,

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but I still go through shit. I'm human shit. I have feelings. I have the right to express myself.

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Or I have the right to feel the way I feel, especially if you're in my presence, especially

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if me and you are not out of our ear with each other, we don't have no type of bond or whatever.

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The vibe is not like we want QT. If it's on a baby, we're gonna keep the corduance cute.

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I think we need to play along with it because don't try to fake a feeling that you know it's

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not fucking real. I say this to say because I just, I can't, like I said, I can't fake the funk

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when it comes to my feelings. But I was young, I always kept a good poker face. Now I'm grown.

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I can't. If something is really urgent, like really erasing my feelings and it's not giving a

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good vibe and I'm not feeling that vibe and it's not good for me, I'm letting it be known because

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I'm tired of beating around the bush, especially because of my feelings. And I'm gonna tell you

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all this. I want you all to remember one thing from this episode today. Do not ever let somebody

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dictate how you feel about whatever or whomever it may be because they don't control you

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and they're not you. That's how people feel about it. I was like when it comes to my feelings,

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I have the right. You have the right. We have the right to say what the hell we want because

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that's how I feel. However, that's how we feel. That's how you feel. That's how I feel. That's

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how we feel collectively. Period. When it comes to feelings, people fail to realize that

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certain things may or may not affect them as well as it would affect me or you.

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You know, it's definitely kind of the family members, them so-called quote unquote

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things too that try to play with you. Because I'm gonna tell you this. Like I said in the

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beginning of the episode, if you all didn't listen to it, don't make a fucking mockery out of me.

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Don't make a joke out of me because if I catch on to that shit and you line or whatever my name,

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that feelings gonna fuck me up. Yes, I'm like, you know what you got me feeling? You got me

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really feeling fucked up and I'm gonna put you in your place the right way because I don't condone

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violence. But if it has to get that way, for some of us all by all means, you know, but I just don't

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condone it and that's the worst feeling I hate when you have to fight for your respect because

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respect and feelings also intertwines with each other as well as long as being comfortable.

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Don't play with me with the kind of my respect because when you play with my respect now,

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I'm feeling like I'm being disrespected and now I'm gonna show you my feelings and I'm gonna be

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disrespected. Fool back. I don't like that feeling and I don't like seeing other people get into the

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mold but it's like, I gotta show you better than I can tell you and that's some real fucked up shit.

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Because feelings is one of the many things that everyone has and everyone deals with their feelings

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in different type of way. As a social work major and also as a former human counseling major,

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I learned that everybody has different ways of coping with feelings, grief, egg, wine, z.

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The one thing you cannot lie and say is you don't have feelings. We all have feelings about something,

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someone, whatever the case may be because when people say I don't have feelings and I don't like

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people on that, I'm like, oh you are narcissistic, like what the fuck is going on? Like you're

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fucking scaring me, don't do that shit. Because then also I feel like people be doing certain

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shit like that and put on a front to make it feel like oh I'm cold-hearted. No, don't do that shit

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because you know deep down inside you're feeling that shit, that shit is eating you up inside,

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that feeling of guilt and all that is eating you up. So don't put on a front and you're faking the

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feeling and then you sit back like shit, I really fucked up because somebody caught on. Yeah, I don't

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do it. I'm gonna do it. But yeah, when it comes to the feelings as a grown adult, at times it's

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like you gotta, you want to keep that poker face on but sometimes if somebody's playing with you

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or something is not sitting right with you, express yourself because the truth will set you free but

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first it's gonna piss you off. I'd rather you tell me the truth than have me feeling like what the

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have me, got me feeling like my mind playing tricks on me. I don't like that, I don't want that,

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but grown, if you feel clever way, you feeling away, whatever, baby talk to me, okay, don't talk to

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them, talk to whoever, express it because I'm telling you feelings is one of the things that we

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all have that some of us express it well. It's 50-50, like I can't express it, then I can't

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and then it's some that don't know how to express it and then it's some that's like,

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fuck it, you don't even gotta worry about my feelings, especially when it comes to me.

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I don't know how y'all do it, I really don't know how y'all do it, like y'all just don't,

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don't, don't displace them feelings and I'd be like, why pookie, why you not displaying your feelings

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because I remember somebody told me that was a guy that was like, I was raised up or not

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displaying my feelings and I carried that with me up his toe. Now, I'm a grown, he was like,

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he was like, I'm a grown-ass man out here, I don't, I don't, I don't, I'm not expressing my feelings

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and that shit. I ain't got time for the bull and I was like, ooh, but I'm like, what if you're feeling

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mad and you're gonna lash out and that feeling won't crank up or whatever he was like, if you do

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or do, but I'm not gonna tell like in words what's going on, maybe the actions will or not,

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but I will give this to y'all men at that. Y'all all play a really, really, really good game of

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keeping the poker face on. Like y'all be really keeping it on like you, you could be the happiest

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man in the room. Your face ain't gonna tell it. It's not, I'd be like, damn, is it all right?

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Hold on, he'd be like, I'm good, I'm happy as hell. And they say it in the most calm voice, I remember

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like, I mean like for real or you, were you playing, you know, us women on the other side,

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it's 50-50. Like you have some women that can ride that poker face for the all day, every day,

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no matter what it is. And his son, you could turn it on, you could turn it off and it's like,

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you can't turn it on and you're not even gonna turn it off. It's a mixture for us, you know,

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it's a really mixture. I'm in that percentile because sometimes I'd be like, look, I'm gonna try,

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but then there's something just like up, or out the window. Because now something,

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it got me cranking up my feelings, it got me feeling like a jacket about you know, when you

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riding that thing up, boom, I'm gonna pop this box feelings until you all right feeling, your

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feelings matter. Do not have nobody out here trying to play with you when it comes to your

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feelings. I don't care who they are, what they are, how much money you got, what they do, X,

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Y and Z. When it comes to your feelings, you have the authority, the mother fucking right

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to say and feel how you feel. Because at the end of the day, you're grown, if you feel it's right

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away, say it. If you don't like something, whatever the case, do it. I don't, man, I had dropped my

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phone for that. I'm gonna drop my mic again, but I'm gonna say this, feelings is something

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that we must cherish. And sometimes we have to let out. When I say let out, if you feeling like

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you got a scream, how the kick do to you at all. When them cherish them feelings, some feelings,

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some feelings that we cherish are not so good. And that we have, we must break that. Because like I

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said, that mental is a terrible thing to waste. The mental is a terrible thing to have fucked up.

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Your brain is always, it's always clicking, it's always throwing something, it's always racing,

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just like your heart is. So just the magic, you just frustrated shit. Your mind is gonna even more

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be frustrated more. Everything is gonna be so beaten fast, because it's like, you feeling this way,

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and you just like, I just don't know what to do that feeling just got me feeling like,

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do I want to do it? Do it? You know, I'm telling y'all, feelings is something that you just don't

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want nobody to fuck around with. You don't want to buy feeling your joy. You don't want nobody

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making you not be so joyful. You know what I'm saying? So with that being said, I want y'all to

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I want y'all to know this. What are the feelings? Don't be afraid to tell it how it is. Don't be

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afraid to feel the way you do. And don't be afraid to tell them how you feel. I don't care if they

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are your aunties, all mother, father, sister, brother, teachers, professionals, whatever.

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If you ought to explain to them how you feel, let it be no ASAP. Let them know ASAP, because I'm

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telling you, we don't express yourself to, say like you're going through a situation with a person,

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or you want something to happen with a person or people or something. Let me put it, let me give

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y'all the good, then the bad. Say if you want to make a good impression on someone. Your feel is so

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damn nervous. Like you have that urge to feel like, oh my god, I want to do it, but it just takes you

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so, it takes you so much time to do it. And y'all want to say this, because I've been in this. Let me

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tell y'all know I love giving y'all my stories, because like they're true and I'm not, I'm not

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new to this or true to this. I've been in those, I had those feelings before like, I wanted to

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express myself to a dude. It took me a good time to express my feelings to this person, because

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y'all, I was nervous to tell. That feeling, my adrenaline was racing, I'm like, okay, it was so

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bad, I had to practice what I was going to say and how I'm going to say it to them. Because oh,

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you don't want to mess it up. And you want the feeling to be as special as you thought of it to be.

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I'm glad it happened, but it ain't last long. So in my mind, I'm like, you know, I felt like in

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the beginning when you talk to somebody, no matter who it is, relationship wise, talk stage,

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whatever wise, building first and whatever wise, the first two or three weeks were the best weeks

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to give life. Then you know, sometimes life be life and then they just go ghost. And that feeling

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just like it go from, oh, this part of life to fucking spot away. It's like, what the fuck? You

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just like, don't ghost me. You're not James St. Patrick. That's, that's me. I ghost you, you know.

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It's like, don't listen to me. I don't do that. However, on the flip side, when it comes to your

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feelings and you know, what it ain't good. Regardless, I don't care how bad it is. You got to

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wild out whatever the case may be. Always stay on your P's and Q's. Always stay on the P's and Q's.

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Like, I know you want to come in there being evil, but first that's what we think. We group. That's

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come on soft. That's be like, no, what's the better word? Be sarcastic. That's be sarcastic with it.

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Don't just, you know, go off. That's be sarcastic. That's where it gets them. And then if they mess

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it up more, crank it up and show that ass. You know, sometimes those feelings do make you want to act

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out because we playing with you. You're not going to play with me. You're not. You're not going to

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do it because my feelings matter. I matter. You matter. We all matter. It is sadist to say to y'all,

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I want y'all to leave off what I want to leave y'all off of this. When it comes to your feelings,

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baby, that's one of the most precious things to add to it. That's one of the things where, you know,

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we all have different ways of expressing it, let alone showing it. And I'm not mad at y'all. I'm

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not knocking it at all. However, sometimes I look at people and I'm like, Oh my gosh, do you have any

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feelings? But the ones that don't display their feelings, those were the ones that

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been through some things and they overcheat a lot. So shout out to y'all also, the ones that do,

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that don't display it a lot. Because I'm not right now. Like I mentioned, as a social work major,

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and as a former human counseling major, and when I used to, for human counseling to do

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this stuff for them, I used to be like, wow, how do y'all not show any type of feelings on

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my mort, no remorse. And when you dig and dig and read between the lines, you're like, whoa,

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you're a survivor. You're a real real survivor. We're all survivors, but y'all are real real

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survivors that y'all can be able to not show it. Because that can also help a person. I'm gonna

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tell y'all this too. The way that people cope with feelings can also rub off on another person.

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So, like I said, within a couple episodes ago, I think don't be afraid to get help.

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Don't get afraid. Don't be afraid to get help, especially in the black community,

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where we was growing up. I know y'all remember that saying black people don't need therapy.

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Shit. Bullshit. Bullshit. I think all of us need counseling, social worker,

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therapy, somebody to listen to us. Because I feel like when you go to somebody that don't know you

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from a can of paint, that'll help you be able to express yourself a little bit. It's gonna take

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time. That feeling is gonna take time to get a feel of the person. But if you know, like if you're

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going to a counselor or therapist, whatever, and you do your background on them, and you read and

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then you get a sense of feel like, okay, while you're reading or whatever you're doing, getting

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your data for this person or information for this person, you get a sense of feel like, okay, I feel

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better. And then when you read it in person, whatever, it's like, okay, cool. I feel like

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all black people need to see someone because regardless of sometimes we feel like we're good,

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sometimes we may not be good. And that's where a person that is licensed and trained in these fields

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are then I felt like should be the number one people to go to because these are people that care

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about feeling all day every day. That's their career to it. That's their career goal of making sure

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that your feelings are heard and that you're that you feel mattered. Like you feel like your

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presence matter. Overall around the board, just making sure that you feel the way you want to feel.

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That's why if you don't know, I'm gonna let y'all know. Open ended questions always tops the

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cake with every conversation that specialists have. And when I was in my trade, not trade,

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majors in learning all this and currently now, it helps you express your feelings in deeper,

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broader, broader ways, ways. I said, well, waves too, because I'm telling you when you are

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in counseling, it is a wave. It's because sometimes it's like, okay, we might not be here.

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We might we might be up top might be about is a pattern. It's a wave is a cycle that we all are

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going to get through. So as I say this to say when it comes to your feelings, do not be afraid to

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express them. Don't be afraid to let them feelings be known regardless how bad or good they are.

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But if they real, real bad, God, not very loud, you go to a person you go to somebody that's,

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you know, professional licensing and they feel as though it's really bad, they're going to report it.

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Because they they feel your safety matters and they don't want you to put any harm on yourself

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or others. Okay. Oh, yeah. I believe y'all with this. Once again, when it comes to your feelings,

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please do not feel any type of way any type of shame about your feelings. I don't care how old you are,

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you're entitled to express your feelings to somebody or to whomever you believe in.

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Because your feelings matter that mental matters that brain is always racing. And another thing,

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be careful what you say because that tongue is the most powerful thing ever, especially when it

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comes to your feelings, especially who you talking to. Okay. I'm gonna say it again. Feelings. So

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deep in my feelings can be a good or bad thing. But regardless at the end of the day, you're human.

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If you feel as though you need to lash out, shout in a good or bad way, whatever the case may be,

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do it and make sure you get that feeling and that urge that you've been wanting to let go

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or to receive. Okay. So as always, you guys will hear from me next Wednesday. I hope you guys

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guys be safe out here. It is getting a little cold outside. So please bundle up and also please

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make sure that if you're taking medication, everything like that, please take it because

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this is that flu season as well. This is the season when people get cold at. So yeah, bundle up.

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Please be safe out here because soon it is ready to get dark at five o'clock as well. And also,

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I wish you all nothing but peace and blessings and please be safe out here because it's almost

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the holiday time that we all love and enjoy. And I want you all guys to be able to enjoy that feeling.

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Okay. So you guys will hear from me next Wednesday. Bye.