Okay, I think some episodes actually seem more like thought out, but anyway, that's probably just because
um, I like have like a note of what I'm supposed to do and what I'm supposed to talk about
but also sometimes I go on little side tangents and you probably realize that by each and every episode
but anyway, we're just
Some of these episodes, you know what you might like some more than others and that is okay
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Like talk about it on an episode
So this episode is actually going to be a book review
I don't do a whole lot of book reviews
Because I'm trying to get back into reading one of my friends. It's like really into reading and
and
She told me you know, they install a good read and do all these different things so
Shout out to you. Anyway, I'm not actually gonna shout out your name because
You know what that's our own business if
But I don't I want to keep
Some things private and some things like separate from what I actually talk about
on the podcast
So
This book that we're gonna be doing is like the silent patient I just
read finished reading it
last
Thursday, I want to say
It was a really
Good book
It kind of focuses on Alicia Bannston
She's like this artist and this episode is going to have
Quite a bit of spoilers. So if you haven't read the book
Don't listen to this episode
but remember like when you were a kid and
You had to do like book essays
for like your class so
Think of this episode like one of those
essays that you had to do
But maybe you really didn't want to do but you know what I mean
This is not something like that. It's like you don't want to do but
There was a couple books that I read
That
Honestly, I
Did like the cliff notes version and that was like my
book essay
I enjoyed reading. I just don't want to do the books that they kind of
I
Anyway, so the silent patient
It's focused on Alicia Bannstein and most of the whole book is actually
Located and like this the psych ward
Psychiatric facility
and it's also focusing on Theo or Theodore
Which is a very interesting name for a psychologist
I don't know why but whenever I think about theodore I think about Alvin and the chipmunks so
Gosh
I promise you like I say I go down little bunny trails
But it's a true crime is thriller
Your laugh you cry you won't really laugh actually
But it kind of like I say it focuses on Alicia Bannstein
She is the primary suspect in the beginning of like the book of killing her husband
Gabriel and at the very end of the book
Towards the end she actually writes in her journal. I didn't kill Gabriel. He killed me
I just happened to pull the trigger and I feel like that is a very
iconic and apropos like moment in the whole like book itself because we feel that
That's what we did was justified and in some ways I guess you could state that this was justified
And a lot of people
Even in the psychiatric facility want to blame her they're like well she was the parent. I mean
She was the wife of course she killed her husband
Usually too if you have mental illnesses, I have noticed this
Or your diagnosed with mental illnesses
I will be said that maybe you you will automatically usually be
charged with something or
people are going to assume that
Something happened because of
Like you
Even if maybe you didn't necessarily calls that even if like maybe you mental illness is
Being managed I
Notice people who would some because I worked in a psychiatric facility for
Five months. It was not a good place to work. There were a lot of things that were happening. It's actually
The psychiatric facility that I worked in
It's we actually got in the top ten for the top place
Worst places the work like for mental health. Yeah
But there was so many
And sometimes you you see a lot of that in this book
to where there's
like some anger management with
Alicia and another patient they have this
Ongoing kind of huge
So some
At some points in the book because there are a lot of like plot twist you might think that it's elif
I think the names he lived um in some point you might think that it's a different person
So I might Google
Sometimes decides to go off when I just start saying random words
So anyway, if you heard that
I will also say there is
I'm gonna give a smut warning now on a scale of
close door
To smut I would say it kind of means
More like maybe to like okay, it's kind of closed or there might be a little bit of smut in there
So
What people especially this is more on my main spokes
But close door and sometimes you see this in movies too
where you know
Things are happening behind those doors and maybe
that whole ideology of what they're actually doing in the bedroom is
But it doesn't go into depth and
and at some points
It does have more like a closed door like policy with that which I
respect because
Sometimes I wonder if this might necessarily add to the storyline if it doesn't add to the storyline like why is it in there I
Understand why they put it in there and I'll go into
Oh, what about that later on so yes, of course, there's like trauma and the second word
Between
Like Elyst and Alicia there's also this individual named Christian who
Apparently
He knew Alicia
Somehow all these different people interact so it's like kind of who done it who actually killed Gabriel which is Alicia's husband
Who actually killed him?
Classic who done it story
So you have Christian who is also a psychologist
However, he knew Alicia before she went into like this
psychological
psychiatric facility and everybody is trying to understand why she has become
Silent after all these years
in this time and
You realize that it was kind of because she she liked this painting a
Eloquentist
It's like this Greek mythology
where she was kind of condemned to not speak from her husband and
From a young age you also realize Alicia
Had this trauma. She felt like she was responsible for her mom's death
Even though Alicia was in the car with her
The mom I think had her own like mental illnesses and her own demons that she was fighting
and so
She had Alicia in the car when she was actually going into a brick wall
And
Alicia's mom didn't make it but
Alicia did her dad constantly said that it was
Alicia that should have died
then
instead of his wife, you know
Very messed up I know
But that is
One of like the ideologies so she takes that throughout her life that she's worthless
That no one is ever actually going to love her
You know
And we do take these
thoughts
whether people like meant to these thoughts these actions whether people like met them to
To harm us or to actually
I don't know how it can be well meaning but
Even if maybe it was just like a split second decision where he did the moment
Emotions are high people
Even if that's the case
Sometimes
drunk thoughts
drunk actions are sober thoughts, you know
so even if
Person was like necessarily drinking at that time they like tell you
Like how they feel about you quote unquote
Sometimes it might be some truth and what they're actually saying maybe they truly do feel that
In a whether that's love whether that's animosity whatever it is
just
Sometimes, you know drunk actions also
Whatever
So there's like trauma
and at some points I thought it was supposed to
Like be Christian because a lot of the signs are kind of like pointing
towards him that he would have done it
Also and then just kind of pinned it on Alicia because of course
she's
the wife she's gonna be the primary suspect and
Also
She has this mental illness of maybe she went quote unquote mad and that's what people want you to believe at the beginning of the book
While the author because names Alex
I can't remember his last name right now because I
Gave the book to someone so
I'm in the process of going into someone so I can't remember
It starts with the beat
But the author once you believe that maybe it's Christian who
Cuz also Christian knew her knew Alicia before
She comes into the psychiatric facility you realize all these people's lives intersect in some ways
So he was friends with Gabriel and
Then which again was Alicia's husband
Gabriel asked him hey, can you make kind of like a before
Because she needs help she needs assistance. She's
She's claiming that she's seen somebody like kind of stalking around our apartment
or
Stalking around our neighborhood
and
There is no one there. She's asked me though kind of like keep an eye on it. I
Think it's because she's never got past
One her dad dying and to like all the trauma that she has been so the child. I think that's what it is
So you actually think
Gabriel at some points too. I'm like Gabriel is a pretty solid dude. Maybe he does truly care about his life
and
Didn't deserve
I mean
To that stand but like you feel like you feel for them
So and
And maybe he's not a red flag as much as I'm thinking because
Something had to in my mind. I'm thinking something had to have clicked
This guy has to be a red flag, but I'm not really seeing a whole lot of red flags
maybe
Maybe I'm missing something
Okay, so
So then you say
Christian
Was friends with Gabriel, but Gabriel actually convinced
says
Christian to take
Alicia on to his caseload
Okay
He's like, you know what you're my friend I
Know maybe
You you can get it open up about it. Maybe she'll like actually tell you what's going on
So technically this dude was seeing somebody
Without it like
Illegally like he wasn't like doing private practice. He wasn't like keeping it on the books or anything
And he was doing it too and his Christian was
Counseling Alicia in his girlfriend's home at the time
You know what should have lost his license then and there that's my whole
Lots of spiel for another time, but I also know that doesn't happen in real life all the time
You know people say they I should they should lose their practice. They should lose their license
I wish that happened. So sometimes it's like I
I
Want justice to be served, but I realize that doesn't always happen. Okay
So anyway, that's that's a whole nother discussion
And
You see like Theo which this vehicle trying to piece all of these different options together like okay?
Like Christians seeing this person
ethically, you know
And
Alicia for the longest time she's not talking about why she the silent patient
Theo gets her off the medication
Because Christian is like the psychiatrist and like the psych ward
Psych psychiatrist
Psychiatrist in the second and he is able to like a minister the
medicine
He keep
Christian keeps Alicia on very
high pain medication
and all these different like I don't know how many she's on and
Again, I have worked in the second
Psychiatric facility I have seen where people were kind of so
Drugged up almost that they were kind of like zombies and so
this this does happen if you're like reading along with the book and
And understand okay, she's just kind of like deadpan like it's like how is that possible?
Because like everything is like taking so because
one
Christians keep saying you know what borderlines
Because he diagnosed with borderline personality BPD are
Seductive that's kind of his line throughout the book they can kind of like manipulate the situation and
You don't necessarily know until you get into it that oh
I'm in too deep. I'm in over my head
So he uses this medication to kind of like sedate her and
some ways the kind of
Make her
Not act out because of course they think that she's the problem or even that's how it's
the author rights to make it
They make you think that Alicia's kind of the whole entire problem in and of itself
The Theo
His name's theodore, but he goes by Theo for most of the books. So that's what I'm gonna kind of go by
Theo gets her off the medication he
He at least maybe like one or two medications. She's on now
So that at least he can kind of get through to her and she's not just a blank wall
And
I will say there's also
To there is like a specific term for it. I was trying to look it up
but there
There is a term for it and
of when you will go
silent when
Different traumas happen and
You just can't speak you can't get out the wood because it was so traumatic
You almost
Don't have a voice like you want to scream
But you can't
Also
There's some things that in this book that maybe should be some dead
giveaways right off the bat
for instance
He closes theodore or Theo
Sometimes closes the door when he's in like therapy sessions because he's like well nothing's going to happen
It's what he says and they have like this panic button
So basically if you don't
If you've never been in a psychiatric facility don't recommend that you take a tour there
unless you're
Unless you want to but they have these
They're kind of like a necklace almost like
Think of like a life alert, you know like the
Think about that and it's kind of like this necklace that you wear
You press the button if you're in dire emergency and people are supposed to
He would supposed to come and assist you at that particular point
Like I say I worked in that situation
Sometimes the panic button does nothing
Yeah, anyway
Especially so at the one point I think it's like the first sex session
He
Doesn't get Alicia that actually talk verbally, but she does lash out at him and
I think kind of like walls or like digs or nails into like his skin
And you know some people think that that's a cry for help
Theo
The whole book is written so that you're on the other side and I'm saying that because
You're gonna realize that you should not have been on the other side the whole time
Like oh, that's why you didn't want to do the panic button. That's why he didn't want to do this. That's why
I love a lot a lot because you think okay, he wants to like meet up with her
He wants to actually check in how she's doing and wants to help he is a good guy so
The whole book is written like that so honestly too
Because I
I
Love that field in my mind sometimes I don't really want to think that it's like the psychologist
You know
Like you should do this blah blah blah blah like now just go off
But if you're actually interested in why people kind of
Don't talk after trauma
It's also like like I say it's kind of like in your brain you want to
Yell out you want to scream but that bite or flight
Has kind of left and so now you just kind of disassociate
And you don't actually can't form the woods to process what had happened to you and a
if if you're a visual learner
You can even probably do this on like YouTube
and
I feel like Jenny and Georgia that TV show does a
Great job of like displaying
Parts of trauma like whether that's like panic attacks or
Just because I've had panic attacks another like
So
Out of banks if you watch that
JJ but his name is not JD JJ in my life. It's Rudy Pinko
He actually is feeling like
Rudy Pinko in the life is being his panic attacks
So it makes it more evident in the TV show
When like maybe certain things are happening in his character's life
So it's kind of like easier to follow along it's like oh, you know what that's an accurate
Display of what it looks like and then you realize
the actor
Who's playing this individual actually has anxiety in real life?
That means that even more believeable without make sense
So that's like you can probably
But if you're looking at
At what people remain silent I would definitely
Not talking I don't know
But those are like two great examples of what it looks like
When people speak traumatic events and how that kind of plays out
Being someone who has a spewing trauma
You know we all deal with trauma specific ways
You know honestly
And I we all have trauma to a certain extent
It's just kind of how we process it
Okay, so
Another thing that I kind of noticed in like the book and I just kind of wanted
We have these like self-fulfilling prophecies almost and that's what you kind of see with like Theo with Alicia
She doesn't think that she's worthy of anything
She doesn't believe that anybody could truly love her and so in some ways
She maybe pushes Gabriel away. Maybe he loved her at like one point
And maybe he'd like still like deep down loves her
But sometimes when
You're not like I'm not saying you have to be fully healed to be in a relationship
But at some particular point if you don't start like healing a little bit and doing the work
That saying if you don't heal you're gonna bleed on people who never cut you is an accurate
betrayal, but sometimes
Because
There is like this one statement in the book. Do I have my mom's madness in me and sometimes
Could I do some of the things that she did like just the passive aggressive nature or
Even like the impulsiveness
Wanting to cause a fight when he you know all these different things that her mom had
Her mom had some mental illness we don't really know like her mom's like trauma growing up
What we do know is it had an effect on Alicia which then
ties into her adult life and why she doesn't feel
How she kind of displays herself in an art
Because that is kind of how she's communicating in the beginning of the book
So maybe like right
Like draw a picture and it's so vivid of like maybe someone coming to rescue her someone feeling that they can rescue her
And
Also like with
The one picture
Where she has
Basically a picture of Gabriel
Like crucified
And
You are religious individual faith-based listening to this is my sound kind of like
religious which I honestly
There were some things that are just kind of like a metaphor for life
And
But she basically has this person crucified and sometimes we do what kind of
You know even after we show them like the bigger picture and then beside that she has
Like the gun or like the
So sometimes
Okay, there was a motive
Behind what she was doing we see that we see that she
But at the same time she was fearful she was gonna turn out
Just
She knows she never really felt like she belonged
And I think sometimes when
People are drowning too much
sometimes we try to save them and even if they
Are drowning too much
But what we need to step in I
Would not recommend this
Don't try to save somebody who doesn't necessarily want to be saved
It's the one that you can't necessarily save them
They have like they have to be able to pull up on the like at some point
Don't recommend it, but I feel like that's what each individual is trying to do they realize
like Theo and
Alicia I
Mean Theo and Gabriel
They realize that their marriage was maybe like failing actually not there
Gabriel and Cathy which is Theo's wife
They were both trying to save people
Who would drown and they ended up maybe like drowning themselves and realizing that they couldn't save them
And I'm not saying you know this is this is a whole nother like topic because it does go into some like deeper
issues
later on
Also Theo had some self-fulfilling prophecies. He felt like he would never be good enough
He would never be a mountain anything never be successful
to now
You know never find anybody that would love him and
So on both sides of things you see like this inferiority complex of
Okay, I'll never be good enough this person's always gonna
Be better or
I'll never amount to anything
Never be worthy of love never be worthy of respect when in all actuality
What we should see is
is maybe this person
Doesn't like even when Theo brings home Cathy for the first time
He's like oh
Think like the father says about might not last long or something like in reference to
like the whole relationship and
And there's just like nice to see you too dad and it's like sometimes I
Don't know people realize
necessarily what they say like that can be hurtful and
Can actually be detrimental to somebody
I don't know who is drowning or well Tokyo long enough to find somebody it's like those
those woods
They're not like woods about formation. They're not helpful. They're actually harmful
And
Or like wish you could be like your brother or you know
even like making comments about
People's like sighs can sometimes lead to eating disorders. There's all like these different right perspectives
So
You definitely see that there's like the sympathy already complex
of trying to prove
Actually trying to prove that you know what I can I can make it work. I can get a nice girl
I can do these different things. I can prove to my dad
How much of a success that I am?
This is all in the is my name
And
I'm gonna be best
Psycho therapist I'm gonna do this right and it's all kind of performance based because then I'll have value
Then I'll have
And sometimes we should realize that it's just
Certain people like these people said these things
They were trying to harm me
That doesn't mean that I
I am worthless and I don't
I'm unlovable
I'm discarded goods. I'm
Whatever
but sometimes we interpret it as that direction and
We can kind of
Offer up these self-fulfilling prophecies in a way that
Okay, when things don't work out
You know what?
My dad was right all these years. I
I could make a marriage work. I was gonna end up just like them, you know and those
Those are harmful ideologies. So sometimes we're more determined than ever
To not end up like our parents that we end up doing
similar things
Or not end up like somebody
That we end up doing
Some of the things anyway, so
In some ways I do believe that
Both marriages were kind of drowning because you realize that there's like an infidelity, right?
So Gabriel he's having these like photo shoots
Staying late at the office
Anybody who stays up late at the office that that can't ever be good like
People just don't work anymore if they're staying late at the office that only means one thing, right?
anyway
and then
Also, but be a he discovers Kathy is cheating on him
And
He he discovers that a computer's open because he is actually
Like having a hard time trying to get through to Alicia at this particular point
He's having a hard time
Just everything in general
He realized okay
Kathy is
Cheating on him she has her email open
and
There's like these messages going back and forth. I don't I
Don't know anybody
emails like yes, I get it like if you DM somebody like I
feel like
DM somebody's central messages or
doing it through
Some form of private message or like a
Maybe oh, yeah, but I was like
she's some more
professional in my mind, so
When I'm sending something I'm like, this is an itinerary for the week. I don't anyway
That's just beyond me
Why send email especially if you work email, but he notices that and
Feels like should I keep quiet or should I come to her with a concern?
Honestly, I feel like coming to her
Might have been a little bit because he was like I can I can fix my marriage I can I
Couldn't ignore the fact that
she's
cheating on me and
Delity because you know
Also
I can't believe she's cheating on me behind my back. Well, I don't think
Normally that's not something you want to do people to do what I knew fun of you is to cheat right in front of you
So, you know, but and I'm not saying hey, you know what?
What I am saying though is there is a little bit of an extent and I'm gonna get
into some of this as well, but
So
His marriage was drowning and then also
Gabriel's marriage was kind of crumbling too and I feel like in some ways they
both Theo and Kathy and Gabriel
Probably had some trauma too, but you
Know
Theo and Alicia
They were drowning because deep down
They didn't ever think that they were deserving of this and
So in some ways
They kind of like self sabotage the relationship
And sometimes that can happen they thought that they could you know safety of the person
Like Kathy maybe like in the beginning like oh
You're dealing with this. Okay, let's talk about it. Let's see what's going on after a certain amount of time
Yeah, you want to try to help the person
But I also feel like there's a point where you have to set up a boundary of being like
You know what I want to be here for you. I love you
You might actually need to see someone and talk to them
Like I
In the situation
Thought I could save them. They had a lot of like, you know people I feel like people have trauma
Anyway, so
And I know sometimes that might just be like a cover all
People have trauma get over I
Believe people have trauma, okay
But sometimes what happens is like I know you have a therapist and I am not them
Okay
Please I want to be here for you, but I can't be there for you to that extent and not if both of us are drowning
I can't keep
So not only did they have like a
A inferiority complex. He also had like a savior complex where he's like I can rescue you I can
Just pull up on my hand I will be
your
Person who can help you he thought that with Alicia. He thought that with his marriage
You know some people don't necessarily want to be safe and also here's the thing too about each
like Gabriel and
Kathy
When they're talking about their relationship, Gabriel goes to Alicia time and time again. He's like, hey, you know what I
What if we go here this weekend because I
I will we do something to get out of the house
Because you know what I feel like something in us has died
She doesn't want to take him up so I think in some ways
Yeah, like not making the effort
Definitely put it's like okay at least this individual. I'm not saying like
Honestly, do I do not believe I?
Think that it would definitely put too much and be too much pressure
To know someone was
Like she not you and I
I do think that sometimes even
Even if you're like emotionally cheating with someone you've already
You might not have done the deed or like
Done anything in the bedroom, but even if you feel like emotionally cheated this is my personal
Opinion in some way like if you if you're just like kind of sharing like hey
I'm in a tough spot right now
That might be okay. I've I've shared that with some friends, but if it's like a
person that may be
Like you or
Maybe feelings for you, you don't know but they're
They could potentially be and potentially move you away from your partner
If you're like sharing your pieces and be like this is what I went through these are all my pain
You know and you're talking about your husband and saying this is oh that's gas lining. That's this that's that?
Sometimes having your relationship set on private is sometimes the best
Option and when I'm saying I'm not saying like if you have social media post that person
but
I'm saying like having a relationship, but not letting everybody know every single detail about your relationship
Because if you are in the brink of something don't
pull another person in to like the storm
Try to hold on to the sales though are they falling you know, I just I
Don't think about it that way
Unless it's like okay, it's very toxic and maybe it's like a TV situation
Unless it's something like super super serious
I honestly don't think that you should have people offering unsolicited advice in your relationship
But that's neither here nor there
So I do think that you have they can save your complex Gabriel
And not so much, but I think that they
And then Kathy like she was like, you know what all the way we used to
Do interesting we use the live life and do it to the fullest
Now we're not doing any of that and he's like I have a job. I have a life
She's like well, I have a job too, but I
I want to do it with you. I think in some ways they pushed
Especially if you're not getting that validation especially if that's how you see validation
That's how you see love. You're not getting it in a partner
Then let me go to a partner who is going to appreciate and is going to love me
I'm not I don't
Justify
Understand especially like in this like the book how it happened, okay, and sometimes in real life people's like oh
We just fell out of love walk me through walk me through how you fell out of love, okay?
You didn't fall out of love
This happened this happened this happened
You want me to connect the dots cuz I can tell you what
Just based on what you told me, you know
there's
So when people like oh, yeah, I just I
Just fell out of love. I wasn't feeling it anymore. It's like
something happened and love is also
if love is sometimes a choice like it's like
Sometimes you have to choose to love somebody even though your worst days even on their worst days
so
Love is sometimes
So both people's relationship was drowning and they tried to save it
You know what
At some points though in the book
Theo gave off like Joe Goldberg from you
Which Joe Goldberg he kind of was like the stalker?
type personality and it's also like I think I
Think he was based primarily on the book
bones
Hidden bones in the basement or something. That's what like the you
Do TV show is based on this like this book, but also like the character of
Joe Goldberg and he has many aliases on the TV show
Because he's shown them outrun from this past
It's both the resemble Ted
Anyway
Because
But like I'm just talking about from the stalker vibes alone
Theo is just giving
Joe Goldberg
So at one point so he figures out okay
who
Kathy which is his wife is
cheating he
follows
he follows them
one time into the woods and
like
very interesting like
They're
They're doing like kind of
The dirty in the woods very very weird and
Honestly
I'm just trying to be as conscious as I can also
I don't think that it's necessarily dirty just want to clarify that I just
sometimes
Anyway, so
And he follows them
So there's also like the
Emotional disordination and trauma situations sometimes we act out or
We feel like maybe this urge to protect like we don't
In Alicia's case she's
When you love maybe defaces one of her paintings she kind of
Takes one of her art supplies and kind of I think punctures the whole
There was there's several different situations in the book where
Alicia and Elif kind of have like a feud so if
That one's not the correct one
So
You have that one is like I say there's several ones
Sometimes we fell out need to protect sometimes we don't
scream and we can't necessarily
Say what's going on or a lot what also happens is
I think because Alicia also had
Suicidal
Ideations and she has like some self-home scores on her wrist
But some of them were kind of deep so I'm like I think that well
It's all super techniques
But it can be a deep score, but what I'm saying is I wonder if like some of those scores
Because
People had automatically assumed hey, you know what
She did this to herself even though like on that night
Her husband it was a very dramatic night and
And some other things happen so
Also like
So also soothing techniques the way that we can interact with other people and sometimes be different
There were a lot of plot twists as well
For instance it seems like they wanted to pin everything on Paul which was
Well actually not Paul Paul was totally different
Max
which
Alicia must have been this very
attractive person that everybody just
She must have been a 10 out of 10
I mean, it seems like everybody had a crush on her. Anyway, they thought it was another thing.
It was like a love pentagon. Forget about the love triangle. This is just
Anyway, like so
Max
Is
Oh, yeah is Gabriel's brother
And apparently he liked
Alicia and
So also to
Here's another thing that they want you to kind of pick up on is
sometimes
Alicia and
Gabriel's relationship was great and other times
There's more of like a domestic violence situation. So sometimes people's like
Husband
And also like so they seem to pin everything on max and max was like, well, of course she was crazy
You know, she was also seeing this doctor
Like psychiatrist type of deal
So we know she was on medication. So she was having to be regulated
And
Another one is gene philips who
Also had was obsessed with maybe her artwork
Too much
Very
Unsettling how obsessed with the artwork he was
anyway, um and then christian, but I feel like a lot of times because
Okay, so christian and theo
I think that they had take um taken classes together in college and
They don't like the eye to eye on
how
practices
Should work or how people should be treated and like
Um
And
So then later on in the book you find out that it was actually theo who wanted to take the case
um and
Figure out like who actually killed
Alicia. I mean
Who killed Gabriel and his whole
scenario
um and
Because he um Alicia had said that there was someone who was stalking and she could tell
And this person might stop by your house and different things like why she wasn't
Why she would stay or like maybe in the art studio
Um, you find out later that it's theo because
Gabriel
Is actually she on Alicia with Kathy
And so it's
Yeah, so
Then theo decides later like you figure all this out later on in the story line that
Theo wants
to work in this psychiatric facility because he thinks that he can get
Alicia to talk more than anybody because
he was there
He also and a lot of people
want
Alicia to believe that this man wasn't actually real that she was just making it up. Maybe she was
Paranoia and just imagining different things that there wasn't really someone that was stalking her all this time, right?
Well
That the story line seems too far-fetched
um
She actually lied to
To like she does start to talk at the end
of the book
Kish, you know
She finally has the words to say
And
She she lies about like the story of how like
Theo has been actually died because
The see if
Theo is actually gonna pick up that she was lying
Kish, Theo is the one that comes into her house
Basically starts this like home invasion
You know
And he's like oh, I just wanted to awaken her like I was awakened to the problems in my relationship
To realize my wife was cheating on me
If you really wanted to help this person this is not the way to do it. You don't you don't start a home invasion
Be like oh, I'm sorry. I was trying to help you
That's just dumb making sense
um
And also
In a lot of ways
to
You see that there was incriminating evidence against him. So he was the one that tied
Um
With wires and it was actually the wires that you used like for framing
And one of the events that was he wore like the sea mask into her house
all these different things
um
And then
You find out too that
He
basically
Intrubinously
um all sorts of like
or he inserts
um
Drugs into
Alicia's skin
and
Making her drowsy
Making her kind of pass out
And he tries to play like her so undecorated in the book
Um
Like oh, I hope she's okay. I I think it was Christian because you know, he was the only one who had access to this medicine
It was actually him
And in this one
Um picture that Theo does not like
There's the journal because he's like
Rummaging, you know
um while kind of
Alicia is
Basically on life support and all of this um
Rummaging through like loom
To see if you can find any incriminating evidence
That like actually shows he was the villain in all of this
you know
He he knew Alicia too before she came into like a psychiatric facility
um
And
And there's like a detective too that shows up at Theo's door
Of his house and
They like escort him away
um
to like
Daddy Wagon and um
He also, Theo does not make his marriage work
Um
Like because
He also killed
He also killed kind of
Uh his wife's lover then Kathy's
and he sensed and he sensed Theo um
And
Yeah
But
The whole storyline
I was like I hate when you find like there were just so many
Plot plot twists that I just didn't necessarily know what was gonna happen and I was really hoping that Theo wasn't gonna be it
But I should have known
I really shouldn't have known
Anyway that
We see end of that episode and um if you do want to hear anything else or
any book reviews any movies that
You guys think about
Which is
Anything in general
Um
I do not know