The body is the canvas for awakening and liberation
and it does keep the score. For many of us this
can be a hard concept to grasp and of course
it is. We've been glorifying our minds for so
long and now we think that we can think everything
and yet our way to happiness and fulfillment
cannot be strategized and thought through. but
it can be felt. In this episode, I speak to Ludivine
Rose, a spiritual teacher devotee of the Goddess
with a tantric lineage and a practitioner of
body devotion, sacred sexuality and classical
Indian dance. Ludivine has been sharing her wisdom
with field community from the very beginning
of our journey and I'm so so honored to be able
to share her voice here with you as she's not
that easy to find on the internet. Let's explore
the body as a sacred map of memory, pleasure,
and healing. You are listening to The Feminine
Power Podcast, your portal into embodiment, feminine
awakening, and the true power of your life force,
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Follow the show and let's begin. The human body
is the most magical vessel of remembrance and
of love. The human body is a temple that, as
we bring awareness and tenderness and love towards
it, can reveal mysteries that are held, mysteries
that have been held for generations. traumas
and experiences that we have felt in our bodies
that are almost like a roadmap to uncover in
order to remember who we are. I think many of
you have heard about the book, The Body Keeps
the Score. And the body definitely keeps the
score. It's the map, it's the tissue of what
makes us alive. And in the tantric perspective,
We talk about four different qualities in order
to embody fully. One is dharma, purpose, kama,
love, artha, wealth, and boga. Wealth, it means
inner wealth, and boga is enjoyment. And it's
not just enjoyment in the moment of joy, it's
enjoyment also in the moment of challenges. And
that leads to moksha. And moksha is liberation.
And this is the aim. of life or of many lifetimes.
And it happened in the body. And that's what's
extraordinary about a body. I have a body, but
I am not my body. And yet through my body, this
is going to be the vehicle that is going to allow
me to liberate, which is kind of wild because
perhaps you've all heard this idea of I am one.
Okay, I am one. So why am I limited in a body?
If I am what? Right? It's this beautiful paradox.
Because it is only through the body, through
the gift of this body, that the human being has
the opportunity to liberate. And so as much as
the human body is a limitation, as much it becomes
the canvas for our liberation. And so just to
go back to the idea of the body keeps the score,
the body through our life is going to hold memories.
And the way that I have experienced it is kind
of a treasure map. And these memories that we've
had when we were children that we didn't even
know created traumas or experiences and we got
frozen here or blocked there or I have this pattern
that I don't know or I feel like I'm not completely
myself. And slowly, slowly, by coming into an
intimate relationship with our bodies, our bodies
starts to communicate with us and say, oh, wow,
there's this tension here. What is that? Let
me go explore it." And then you go down a rabbit
hole of exploration and you discover that something
happened at this particular time that created
this particular, literally it is as though the
tissues of your body had been frozen when you
had a trauma. And it's about... softening into
it and allowing these tissues to the ice of the
frozen trauma to become melted into water and
then soften to remember who you truly are. And
even if you haven't had a big trauma, every trauma
is big. When your mommy said, no, I don't have
time. And you realize, oh my God, I can't have
love in that moment. That was something that
could be considered traumatic. And it's very
beautiful to explore traumas and yet, if we focus
only on that, we're going to keep on fragmenting.
And fragmenting is not the goal. The goal is
to remember our wholeness. And so to be aware
of the trauma, but not allowing them to define
us. And in the exploration of pleasure and softening
and the body, it gives us an opportunity. With
the body, we cannot hide. Our mind is really
good at hiding. Oh, yes, I know this. I know
that. Yes, I've done the work. But the body in
that moment, there. Oh, right here it is. Okay.
So how can I learn how to soften that? Open in
that. Release in it. And in the release, let
the memory of what's there, an emotion, an experience,
a fear, to be revealed in the proper timing.
So, I guess that. I am keen to unpack quite a
few of your sharings now. And I'd like to go
with a simple one. As these days, a lot of people
come to listen to this podcast, for example,
because they're looking for meaning and for reconnection.
And this reconnection becomes so important as
we in the modern world seem to be disconnected
from each other. and from ourselves, from the
body. And you describe this beauty of the body,
how much wisdom it holds, and how many answers
could actually be found there. But how does one,
listening to this and getting inspired, start
the process of reconnection? Let's start with
tenderness. And maybe just giving yourself a
hug and saying, I love you. And I'm sorry. I'm
sorry I didn't know better. I'm sorry I've judged
you. I'm sorry I've criticized you. I'm sorry
I didn't even know that you existed. Because
my whole life I've thought that you were just
a hindrance, perhaps. or something that was not
the way I thought it needed to be. And in entering
this intimate relationship, which means wanting
something with and not something from the body,
the body starts remembering and then saying,
oh, I'm sorry, I forgot. Can you show me how
to remember? Ask your body to show you how it
wants you to remember connection. But then there's
some very practical tools. Things that feel good.
Feel. Feel good. Oh, what feels good. I like
taking baths. And in the bath, I can just maybe
put a drop of rose oil in my bath and then let
my body be in the bath and then touch my feet.
and say, thank you to my feet. Imagine your feet.
They've been holding your whole body since you
were maybe one years old. Isn't that extraordinary?
Then you go up to every part of your body, thinking
them one by one and touching them. Using the
word and the touch at the same time creates something
of an embodiment. It's just not an idea. It's
not I'm thinking about my feet is I'm thinking
I'm looking I'm feeling and touching it and Even
if you don't like your feet or you don't like
your breasts just having a moment of being present
with it and then you get to your breasts and
The breasts is the breasts are the most incredible
thing in the world they're actually like the
guardians of the treasure of our heart. And I
think all the feminine path is, well, guiding
us towards opening our hearts and feeling more.
But it's been so guarded because of pain and
traumas and experiences and this disconnection.
Well, we're disconnected from our hearts, we're
disconnected from our body, we're disconnected
from nature. And so our breasts are literally
the guardians of that. And I know about you,
but I've judged my breasts a lot. You want them
to be bigger, you want them to be firmer, you
want them to be smaller, you want them to be
all these things. But when we stop and we realize
that our breasts can nourish life, literally
with your breasts you can feed a baby. And if
you're not feeding a baby, what are you feeding?
What are you nourishing with your breast? And
that's where all of the practices of Taoism of
breast massage come in, where you literally use
the magic of your breast to nourish yourself
and your heart. And then once your heart is full,
then you get to nourish the world. And so it's
coming into a remembrance that your body is perfect
the way it is. Not only is it perfect, it's magic.
Not only is it magic, it is the place that is
going to give you a possibility of liberation.
How do I recognize that? And in the Taoist tradition,
we call the breasts the bells of love. And what
is a bell? Why do you have a bell? To call into
something? To call in? Wake up? Yeah, to wake
up. You just hold your breath and they're just
saying, wake up, wake up, wake up to the magic
that you are. And so shifting from wanting something
from them, being smaller, bigger, this or that,
to wanting something with them. So yeah, maybe
that's a very simple practice or a way to connect
to the beauty that exists in our heart. Yeah.
I'm finding in my personal path that there kind
of were two pathways about learning about life
and one of them was the usual one where everything
in the world tells me that there is something
wrong with me and therefore I have to fix. And
it is a very much of a commercial funded kind
of path because that makes me want to buy more
things to fix myself. Very much of a consumer
oriented kind of mindset. And that's where I
was in my first maybe 20 years of my life. I'm
quite lucky to connect with beautiful teachings
early on, and that I believe really helped me
to be where I am right now. But still, advertising,
social media, TV, what everyone is talking about,
I need to... do this kind of diet, fix my body,
do this kind of exercise, buy this kind of supplements
or do this kind of surgeries or do like there
is a constant brainwash that is unfortunately
really present still now everywhere. And that
mindset apart from of course making us just run
around and try to find solutions to our own selves
simply also disconnects from this beautiful magic
that we can embrace when we take the second path
that you are just describing, actually realizing
that we can work with the body to change everything
around us and to truly enjoy life. Somehow, And
I wonder why, maybe you have a perspective, in
ancient teachings and in some lineages, this
was something that was more obvious and something
that was more looked into and brought forward
in the society. What do you think is that? How
did we get disconnected from it? Thank you for
that. I think a lot has to do with our relationship
to nature. and far away from nature. When you're
dependent on nature to nourish you, you understand
that winter has its season and then comes spring
and then summer comes and then fall comes again.
And there is this cyclical nature that allows
our body to be in communion with the body of
the world. And a lot of these ancient teachings
understood that. that I can actually be in tune
with the body of the world and that nourishes
me. It's this relationship again to intimacy.
We are disconnected because the intimacy has
been lost. And intimacy comes from the Latin
word intima, which means the core of who we are.
So the connection to the core of who we are,
which is a being in relationality to the world,
has been forgotten. You are standing on the planet
spinning in the middle of the cosmos right now.
How extraordinary is that? And the whole path
is about how can I find myself? How can I find
my place within the tapestry of the world? And
when we raise children that understand that they
are part of the natural world. That they have
everything inside of them as resources. That
there is a gift inside of their heart that is
each and everybody has an individual gift. And
we are here to celebrate and honor that. We shift
from competition to collaboration. We shift from
learning through pain to learning through pleasure.
We shift from separation to connection. We shift
from being against something to being with something
and rather than everybody fighting with each
other trying to dominate each other we perhaps
can enter to humility that we all belong to an
interconnected web and that what I have to offer
is going to help you shine what you have to offer
and what you have to offer will help shine somebody
else and then in this sharing of love and care.
The abundance is there. And I don't think it's
a change. You said the word change. I don't think
we have to change anything. We just have to remove
the veil and see things as they are. And everything
about the society of the consumerist society
of the last, you know, it's of the last hundreds
of years. is just pulling us further and further
away from the essence of who we are because,
well, we can make money from it and then we think
that we don't have enough and so I need to have
more. But if we take off that premise that you're
not broken, that you're actually perfect the
way you are, and that there is a treasure inside
of your heart wanting to be revealed, what is
the environment that you need to be surrounded
by? in order for that treasure to come to the
surface. And that's an environment of safety
and trust. And in your own life, the safety and
trust is with your own body. It is safe to be
in this body. I trust this body. I know for many
years it wasn't safe. I know for many years I
couldn't trust it. And so learning to trust our
bodies becomes almost the most rebellious act
against consumerism and against all of society
because it's saying, I have the answers, not
I, my mind, but my body and my heart has the
answers. And it's not my truth. It is a truth
that you are abundant, that. The essence of the
divine is overflowing with presence and continuous
love always. And yet there are seasons. The thing
is that we always want to be in summer, or advertising
companies make me think that we always want to
be in summer, at the peak of ourselves. In our
menstrual cycle we need to always be in ovulation.
Hello, that's not sustainable. It is a system,
and I don't want to talk about patriarchy and
matriarchy, but it is a system that is asking
us to be in a performance -driven state always,
rather than being in the natural being state,
which is cyclical, especially as women. We move
with our cycles, we move with the cycles of the
moon. Just look at the moon. The moon is changing
all the time. And what is she doing by doing
nothing? She is shifting all of the waters in
all the world and in all of our body and in all
of nature. This is the power that you hold in
your body as well. And so, as we remember that,
we don't need anything anymore. And yet, we become
completely interdependent with the world that
is around us and with each other. And so it's
really shifting the dialogue from being independent
to interdependent, from doing something yourself
to doing something in a togetherness, from really
this idea of competition to collaboration. And
even if our body, oh, I'm going to compete with
my body, I'm going to have it to look like this,
and it's going to have to be like this, or as
like, if you collaborate with your body, your
body might give you some really good wisdom that
you would have not. on this note you've mentioned
we could be learning not from pain but from pleasure
and I must say I learned so much more and so
much better from pleasure not only it feels good
but it also shows me insights that I would never
come across cognitively and when I make myself
feel good then I am I'm a better creator. I'm
a better person. I'm just connected so much more.
And on the opposite, also coming to this conclusion
for myself, first I had to go through ideas and
thoughts that even some spiritual teachings,
not only the modern world, but some spiritual
teachings would share around pleasure isn't something
that we should be... working towards or with
rather we have to practice discipline and stillness.
Generally, the whole education system I went
through as a normal child would all be about
punishment, doing well or being punished, doing
the right thing or being punished. And now as
I'm going through my adult life, I'm seeing that
it doesn't really work for me. I want to be inspired.
I want to be with my open heart moving forward.
And then I'm the best creator. I suppose I should
be afraid of doing something wrong and therefore
perform okay. And what is that about? What is
this confusion around pleasure? I think it's
something very, very old that has been instilled
in our bodies and we're remembering. We're remembering
that, well, pleasure and discipline are actually
very deeply connected. And discipline, people
are very scared about it, but actually, discipline
is a key because discipline creates a good vessel.
In a good vessel, a good body, you have a capacity
to feel pleasure, not only to feel it, but to
cultivate it. And then your pleasure not just
being your own, but then blossoming in your heart
and then being able to use it to serve. Because
pleasure for your own sake is good, you need
pleasure at first after having gone through so
much pain. But then it's just for yourself, then
we get lost. And oftentimes when we don't have
the discipline, we become leaky. Oh, I'm going
to be hedonist. Hedonism is great for a minute,
but what's the goal? What's the aim? And if the
aim is serving, which is actually my aim is serving,
serving the divine as the expressions that I
am as the gift that I am or the gift that you
are, well, discipline is required. And regarding
the pain and pleasure, I think there's many different...
traditions over the years and its interpretation
of traditions. I'll put it like that because
Zen, for example, looks very disciplined and
seem very distant from the body and pleasure
and yet there is so much pleasure in that discipline
and showing in the Zazen and sitting straight.
But we get misunderstandings. There is so much
in Christianity, in the Judeo -Christian tradition,
we have been, like, told, you know, pleasure
is not good, you have to, like, be punished for
what you do, you're a sinner. And, well, I was
very scared of the word sin. But actually, sinning
simply means missing the mark of love. Oh, okay,
well, I'm sinning all the time. And if it means
missing the mark of love, how tender can I be
with myself? to walk back into love. And so I
think in many traditions, we have misread again
what the original teachings are. And because
of our own experiences, we have created a relationship
to pain. No pain, no gain. Well, no, no, no,
no, no. What are we doing here? And obviously,
life is life. and we're going to meet challenges
and it's going to be painful. But in this concept
of boka, enjoyment, if we come to understand
that everything that happens doesn't happen to
us, but for us, then these experiences of challenges,
yes, we need to cry. Yes, it's going to be challenging.
Yes. It's going to be hard at times. But if we
know it happens for us because it's moving us
into deeper growth, then we can surrender. And
that's where it's a discipline of surrender.
You can surrender to the experience by feeling
safety and trust in your body and saying, I know
it's hard right now, but we're going to move
through this. And in moving through this, well,
We can open to a wider breadth of experience.
I work a lot with taste, I work a lot with the
tongue, softening the tongue. When you soften
your tongue, your pelvic floor softens. And so
you're even having an experience that's very
challenging and you just see you're like reacting,
your whole body's getting rigid. And the moment
that you soften the tongue and step back into
yourself, okay, I'm stepping back into myself.
I want something with this moment. Okay. And
then in there, even the very challenging situation
can become pleasurable. This whole idea that
we have that we have to be good girls. This whole
idea that we have that we have to be the best.
This whole idea of competing with ourselves.
Started very young, you know, when our parents
ask us, what do you want to be when you grow
up? I can't just be, I have to be somebody. I
have to be something. Well, what am I going to
be? Well, I'm going to be the best. Because if
I'm the best, I'm going to get the love of my
mom and my dad. And then this relates to God.
It's like, if I'm perfect, if I'm a perfect devotee,
God will look at me. Well, you are already perfect.
And God will look at you. And your parents will
look at you as you develop an intimacy with yourself.
Because you and them, and you and it. are one
and the same. And the more you let the armors
of your heart melt, rather than functioning from
a place of protection that is based on fear,
you can operate from a place of guardianship
that is based on love. In your heart there is
the most precious treasure, and this treasure
is held in the temple of your body. How can I
be a guardian of this? Huh. Yeah, that. If you
forget, it stares like, well, I know I have something
precious, but I need to protect it because I
don't know how to get it. So I need to protect
it and anything in it. And then we go into reactive
mode. So how can we be conscious and respond
and not unconscious and react? Right? years of
practice and tenderness and coming together in
community. I really, really do believe we're
in a moment where community, sangha, family becomes
essential. Yeah. Yeah, I can still feel it. Yeah,
we're learning from each other. I'm so honored
to share your teachings on the feminine power
blueprint course that's coming up in October
with women from all over the world. It's the
second time we do this container. And I invited
you to teach. The erotic innocence, the subject
that's been so transformative as you've been
sharing on it with us already for quite a few
years. And I would love to ask you here, what
is it about? What is erotic innocence? And why
is it so important for us to transform? The erotic
innocence to me is a continuous reminder that
we are actually living in the garden. And yes,
there was the fall. But I think Eve was totally
aware of what she was doing. A lot of people
say, oh yeah, it's all the fault of women. And
then this became patriarchy. No, Eve was very
much aware. At least this is my understanding.
Because she knew we had to forget in order to
remember. If we hadn't forgotten about the garden.
about the fact that we are the essence of abundance
and joy and pleasure, we would have not remembered.
And so the erotic innocence is about remembering
that. It's about opening back to the innocence
and the playfulness and the tenderness of being
erotic beings, like the bees that are feeding
from the roses and then going and pollinating
the world. We are. pure erotic forces creating
life. And when we want something from life, we're
going to get it. We're going to manipulate it.
Well, interesting. But oftentimes you get the
stuff you want, but it's not really what you
want. It's what your mind wants. And it wants
because it wants out of fear. I want this because
I fear not having it. Whereas when we enter the
erotic innocence, it's simply being with your
body, with the joy that exists within your body,
and allowing innocently, spontaneously, tenderly
to see what wants to emerge. And so from there,
we can really create life, not manifest life
out of fear, but create life out of presence.
And so it requires something quite radical. to
be totally spontaneous in the moment. It requires
something complete to trust our bodies and to
trust the erotic force that creates all of life.
We are born out of an orgasm. even if the woman
or the man didn't have an orgasm in that moment,
the moment a sperm touches an egg, that's an
orgasmic response. Whoa, that's what created
us. Okay, so how can we allow that to be what
is going to create all of life around us? And
I think, you know, For many, we've had our sexuality
repressed, suppressed, abused, taken advantage
of. And what has happened is that we have cut
off ourselves from that part. So there's two
ways. Either we over -sexualized or we cut it
off. And in both ways, well, if we've had an
experience of trauma, the person that did that
is still... And I know it's not about a win or
a loss, but they're still having control on us
because our response, either overt or retracted,
is still responding to the event that has happened.
Whereas if we move into this conversation that
we're speaking about, we're not broken. I can
go back into wholeness. How does my body want
to express itself if I know? that my erotic self
is the most precious, innocent thing that exists
and it creates life. My breasts can nourish life.
My ovaries are holding all of the fertility of
the world. My tongue can soften my yoni. My eyes
are directly connected to my heart. I can taste,
smell, hear, sense, feel everything around me.
And all of that is the expression of what I am
here to share in the world. Whoa. I don't know.
Life gets really delicious. I wish more people
would return to this essence. This does give
a lot of freedom. And coming out of a state of
a victim is deeply important and something important
to address as so many women indeed have had a
sexual trauma that might result in misunderstanding
of this energy. And there is a lot of conditioning
still that is on the way. And that's where...
Discipline becomes essential. Because in those
moments of innocence as a child, our parents
didn't protect us. Okay? They didn't know how.
They didn't. And these moments happened and we
lost the innocence. But when we retrieve the
innocence, the discipline of holding the masculine
in us, that is not going to protect out of fear,
but guard out of love that preciousness, It's
not going to share this delight with whoever
is on the street. No, no, no. You get to learn
discernment, proper timing, coherence, and how
this energy can be expressed at will, in the
proper conditions. The world is a safe place,
and there are many situations. that get challenging
and complicated. But if we have this discipline
of shaping nothing will make me waver from the
knowing of this love in my heart. This is the
most precious thing that I will guard with all
of my love. That's where the discipline becomes
essential. Ludivine Rose has a series of 12 practices
inside field membership. helping women to feel
the sacredness of their body, their fertility
and sexual energy. Guided Tantric dance, breast
massage and meditations. You can join the membership
now and take these teachings into practice. And
if you'd like to transform your relationship
to your energy and embody your feminine power,
you can join us for a three -month live initiation
called Feminine Power Blueprint starting this
October 2nd, where Ludivine will teach erotic
innocence and myself and 10 more teachers will
share the wisdom all women deserve to have for
the most fulfilling lives we can all have. You
can find more information in this episode description.
This kind of state when you are so connected
to your inner masculine that is healthy and also
allow the flow and pleasure and sensuality and
this kind of chaos to happen in its safe container,
this is what I find to be power, a sense of power.
Unfortunately, again, I am finding in the world
that very few people are even aware of such possibility.
as we enter in spaces with women and start sharing
with each other on our struggles or our desires,
it comes up a lot that many, many women do not
feel the sense of safety and therefore feel a
little lost. And what you've just shared, this
inner masculine. could be so empowering if more
women learn it. Could you speak onto that, on
this balance between the feminine and masculine
that is within us and how to create it, even
start that path? Yeah, I'll speak about Shakti,
because Shakti is power. Shakti is the word for
feminine in Sanskrit, but it's the word for power.
And it means the power that brings beauty and
harmony. Shakti is in all things. Shakti is my
computer. Shakti is my body. Shakti is everything.
And it's the moving pulsation of life and how
to cultivate a relationship with Shakti. That's
where the discipline comes. This force of life
that moves through all of the cosmos is also
in me. I am also that. So cultivating every day
It's like a line, a communication line with it
becomes your safeguard. That's how safety is
built. This is not all about me. There is a great
force that is in charge of this. And it is Shakti.
It is the goddess. It is the tissue that holds
all of us together. And how can I create a relationship
in an everyday basis with that force that is
bigger than me? Humility. I don't know. Show
me. God, goddess, universe, source, whatever
you want to call it. You're spinning on the planet
in the middle of the cosmos. You were born out
of an orgasm and grew in a womb of a woman for
nine months. There is something bigger than us.
Whatever you want to call that. Every day. finding
a way to communicate with that and that's where
the masculine comes in. The discipline, the one
-pointedness, the focus, nothing else but that.
And when this relationship starts to being built
with intimacy, then it creates a container of
safety. I am not alone. I am connected to something
much bigger than myself. I am in relationship.
to this great power of life that makes the bee
buzz and the flower bloom and me being able to
write a paper or have this conversation. And
so it's literally taking yourself out of the
equation by connecting yourself with the great
source of something stronger. And yet you have
to be in charge of that to create the setup and
the discipline for it. The discipline of surrender
to something greater than ourself. The discipline
of pleasure to decide that even if you don't
want to do this, you will do it. And the question
here is, what is it that you can do every day
that makes you feel connected to Shakti? This
power that brings beauty and harmony. There's
many things. Dance, singing, riding, walking
in nature, caring for your dog. But when you
do it, open to the idea that you are connecting
to something that is bigger than yourself. And
then that creates that discipline, that container
that builds a good vessel. Because honestly,
this is where it all lies. A lot of people think
they need some big retreat or a medicine ceremony
to suddenly start feeling. But really, without
a daily commitment to yourself, nothing really
changes. And it's so simple. And you know, so
many years we've resisted commitment. Commitment
issues. Why? Well, offer that up. and say, okay,
I have commitment issues. I'm going to allow
it to be invited and work on it and do something
every day for five minutes. Do the same thing
every day for five minutes. Then you will build
power and then you can extend. Don't say I'm
gonna write a book because you're never gonna
write the book, but write every day for five
minutes and then suddenly four months later you
have a book. Amazing. Don't say, oh. I'm going
to go to this retreat and I'm going to feel completely
connected to my body. Yeah, you'll have a glimpse
of it. Say, oh, I'm just going to hold my heart
and say to my heart that I'm sorry every day
for the next 21 days. And then suddenly you're
going to say, I love you. And there's no more
sorry because you've been doing the being. It's
lifetimes of practice, and it's tender. And that's
why we need community, because we need support
with it. And in the tradition that I practice,
we take the body of the goddess every day. And
then ultimately, you and the goddess and the
universe are one. And it's all love. And it's
all about love. It's all about love. And then
in the love that you develop in your heart, then
you can allow other people the opportunity to
express their love as well. The veils are lifted
and we can see, we can see truly who we are and
each other. Now I've started this podcast episode
with a question right away because I knew the
way you speak, everything is just shared through
your energy. And now as we're coming to the end,
I would love you to share a little bit more about
yourself so that people now learn who they've
been listening to. At times I'm called Ludivine
Rose and the essence of my life is devotion,
devotion and intimacy. And for the first 10 years
of the exploration around remembering who I was,
it had started with the idea of the orgasm. We
are born out of an orgasm. Well, actually, I
was looking to where are we going? But in order
to look where we're going, I had to remember
where we came from. And so I had to look into
the aspect of sexuality. So for 10 years, my
life was really deeply devoted to sexual liberation
and understanding body and coming into my body,
because I wasn't in my body. I was completely
dissociated for traumas, experiences, fears.
And slowly, slowly, Through first sexual liberation,
I became to understand that the body was my home
and that it was safe to feel pleasure in my body.
And then I met a spiritual teacher and I became
a devotee of the goddess and the goddess resides
in the body. And I thought it had to do all with
sexuality, but it was actually the erotic. The
expression of this goddess is the erotic or mood
is the mood of love. And how actually the mood
of love and the mood of the erotic is our means
to connect with the divine. And that actually
you, me and all the world is the expression of
the divine, of the formless into four. And that
through the expression of the erotic and sexuality
transformed into sensuality. It can be transformed
into an openness of the heart, which is love.
And so I'm a devotee of love. I'm devotee of
the mother. This brought me into a tantric goddess
worship lineage. That's called Srividya. Sri
means auspicious, vidya means wisdom, which I've
been deeply immersed for the last eight years.
That brought me into classical Indian dance.
where the body is shaped in particular forms
and softened in order to allow the energy that
is traveling from the earth to be moved into
the womb to be then expressed through the heart
and then delighted by the audience. And that
brought me to Mary Magdalene in parallel and
following the trails of Mary Magdalene in southern
France and now I spend a lot of my time at the
cave where she spent the last 33 years of her
life. So I guess my path is a path of union,
of yoga, of true yoga and removing the veils
between me and the world in order to remember
the union of love in our heart in a delightful
way. So yeah, I guess that's so much more. But
very simply, all of this is being reflected in
what is my relationship with my brothers and
sisters? What is relationship with my father
and my mother? What is the relationship with
my partner? What is the relationship with the
work that I have? And how can I soften into a
relationship of love? And as my spiritual teacher
says, old people tend to be wise. not because
they're old but because hopefully they've loved
a lot and if they've loved a lot it means they've
lost a lot and so it's a path of loss but you
know not loss in the bad way loss of what we
think we want or who we think we are or who we
think we need to be all of these identities are
being shedded so I can just be Be me. Yeah, I
have an Instagram that I don't use a lot. It's
called olden .rose .mystery and you can reach
out to me there. I have a course on something
called the Academy of Oracle Arts, where I have
courses on goddess worship, but also we're starting
a six months course on Mary Magdalene. That's
going to be really rich and beautiful. I take
people on the land in France on pilgrimages.
So if you or any one of your friends want to
do that, just write me a message and we can do
privates. And I also bring people in India. And
in India, we go study the early tantric temples
that have the musician, the dancers and the love
couples on it. So many different universes that
can be explored. That was Ludivine Rose and to
explore her offerings as well as our upcoming
course Feminine Power Blueprint check out this
episode description. Feminine Power Blueprint
starts this October 2nd where Ludivine will teach
erotic innocence and myself and another 10 incredible
teachers will share the wisdom all women deserve
to have for the most fulfilling lives. Over 3
months with us you will learn how to work with
your feminine energy, how to work with your sexual
energy and become truly magnetic, confident and
truly alive. You can find more information in
this episode description.