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In this episode, I speak to Miriam Adler, the

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founder of La Luna and a relationship coach.

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And I must say, as me and her, we took this journey

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together and over a few months, we've been coaching

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each other. And in that experience, I felt like

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this work around inner child was deeply, deeply

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powerful and transforming. And she was able to

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hold space so much that I could find pieces of

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myself and reconnect with certain pieces of myself

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by feeling into that little girl that always

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lived in me. I felt Miriam's power around inner

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child integration and this is why I want to share

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her work and her thoughts and her wisdom around

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the inner child work here on this podcast. Keep

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listening if you want to learn how patterns like

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codependency, emotional withdrawal or fear of

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abandonment often come from moments in early

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childhood. and why you might unconsciously attract

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partners who don't commit or give just enough

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to keep you hoping but do not truly give you

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the love you truly deserve. Why you might struggle

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with self -worth and how to heal yourself by

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reconnecting to your little child that lives

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within. And you will also learn why intellectual

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insight alone into this work won't really deeply

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change these patterns and how to actually connect

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your body into this process and experience profound

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healing. You are listening to the Feminine Power

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Podcast, your portal into embodiment, feminine

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awakening, and the true power of your life force,

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sexual energy. I'm your host Mariya Grinina, founder

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of Feel, a global platform for feminine embodiment

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and a coach for women ready to live with magnetism,

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love and full aliveness. If you're ready to rise,

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you're in the right place. Follow the show and

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let's begin. Yeah, and I've had a beautiful experience

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exchanging coaching with you for quite a few

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months. and I've had deep highlights. I have

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deep highlights for myself about my own inner

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child and those highlights that I found and those

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stories that I found by working with you are

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shaping my life now. There's so much empowerment

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in the stories that I uncovered about a little

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me inside of myself and I've built so much more

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compassion for myself and gained so much more

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clarity and therefore Now I'm making better decisions

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around my life, around my love life, around my

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relationships. And I would love more people to

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learn more about what does it mean to heal their

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inner child, to build a new relationship with

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them, to re -parent them and exchange stories

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and revelations that we've had in our journey

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together to show people some examples. And before

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we dive in, I would love to share your story

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with our audience. Tell me who is Miriam Adler

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and what does she do and what brought her here?

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Oh, big question. Well, who's Miriam Adler? I

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think there was a moment in my path that was

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very, when I think back what really brought me

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on this path and what brought me sitting here

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today was actually an incredible feeling of...

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lostness of who I am. So when you ask me the

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question of who is Miriam Adelaide, it always

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brings me back of this deep soul searching that

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I felt since I ever could remember, like in my

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teens, in my early twenties, like in these formative

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years where I felt so disconnected of who I actually

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was. And rather than connecting to who I am and

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my authenticity, I was very much trying to please

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my parents few of me or their expectations of

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me. And actually some of these expectations they

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had of me was actually illusionary expectations

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that I put on myself. So I grew up with this

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very quiet perfectionist voice inside of me of

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constantly wanting to do better. And I remember

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one time, I think many times walking home after

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school from having done tests and I was really

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good in school. I was a very good student. And

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I would just dissect the tests that I did. Like,

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I'm like, okay, what did I do? I did bad and

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here I could have done better. And this voice

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of dissecting myself and wanting to do better

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kept following me in in everything I was doing.

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Then it was in my early 20s, it was directed

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at my body. I felt like, oh my God, I needed

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to perfect my body and look better. And somehow

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I got drawn into the world of modeling. So after

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I finished school, there was this moment where

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I was like, OK, I could go to Harvard. I could

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go to all these universities and and study medicine

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like the path that was given to me. But again,

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I was like so lost of who I am. But there was

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a voice inside of me that was like, you're not

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going to choose anything that doesn't feel like

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your truth. And I didn't really know back then

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what that was, right. But, and then I kind of,

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like I said, I got lost in the world of modeling

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and it was a world where I deeply disconnected

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from my body. And, and I felt, oh my God, I lost

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my period for six years. I, I was like in this

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constant. dieting and binge eating and just like

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very much like punishing myself. And there was

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this voice inside that kept knocking off like,

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Oh my God, what are you doing with your life?

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What are you doing with your life? What are you

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doing with your life? And that kind of started

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to get louder and louder. And the beautiful thing

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about also intimate relationships is like I was,

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I was in a relationship back then and also that

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broke apart because obviously intimate relationships

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are such mirrors so it felt like everything in

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my life kind of like crumbled and in that crumbling

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where I just couldn't hold the outer shell of

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perfection anymore my path really started and

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with that was a deep reconnection to actually

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all the moments in my life that I have held suppressed

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my feelings. And as you know, we ever talk about

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inner child, but when we suppress our feelings

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and when we hold ourselves so tightly, there

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is such a huge part of our psyche missing, right?

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Like the feminine part is torn. totally silenced.

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So it took me, I think now it's been 10 years

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since that, and it took me actually, and it's

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still taking me time to really recover that feminine

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essence of mine and nurture that and live in

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an integrated woman self. And that is what makes

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me sit here today, because over the years of

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doing this and obviously seeing myself grow and

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step into more power, into more truth, into what

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I'm doing today, I also realized like the responsibility

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that I have now to actually support other women

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through that. Responsibility is a big word, but

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actually the deep, yeah, dharma or service that

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I could do because I could just see many, many,

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many other women suffering from the same split

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of their feminine, right? So that's why I'm sitting

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here today. Yeah. And tell me about what you

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offer now to the world. I'd love to hear and

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share more about your treats that are so beautiful

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and on all these important subjects for mother

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relationship, for love, for feminine. Yeah. So

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like I shared, that was more like my personal

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path. And then I think five, six years into studying

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my own healing journey, it kind of became like

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it started, it became really clear that I wanted

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to, I wanted to offer that to the world, every

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gift that I received. And I founded La Luna,

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which now it is my baby, definitely. And it is

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collective or a community and a series of life

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experiences, retreats, right, that help women.

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now also couples, mother and daughters in the

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aspects of first of all learning to relate more

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truly more authentically to ourselves and then

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the relationship that we have with others, with

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lovers, with our parents, with family because

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I realized that in the end why I'm doing this

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work is because I want to I want my relationships

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to thrive because my relationships are what makes

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my life like obviously the relationship to myself

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first but then all the other relationships that

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are around me so I wanted to focus my work on

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really changing the landscapes of relationships

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and what I offer now I mean first of all obviously

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I offer like we've done together I offer one

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-on -one coaching and these are containers of

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three months where I take women but also couples

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and actually also man recently through this journey

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of really reconnecting. with the heart, with

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actually the truth of who they are underneath

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all the insecurities and wounds. Because I realized

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how many of us still live through our wounds.

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And we will discuss what that looks like when

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we live life through our wounds rather than through

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the open heart, through actually the vastness

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of who we really are. And then with La Luna I

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offer retreats because I really strongly believe

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in the power of group work and in the power of

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being present in one space. Different retreats,

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one is for women around embodying their feminine,

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one is for singles and couples around the relationship

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between masculine and feminine and really learning

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to embody these energies within you so that then

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your relationships can actually thrive and also

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a retreat that is directed to actually solving

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these relational patterns that we talked about

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today. And the other avenue that I've been going

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down is leading mother and daughter retreats

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around healing the mother wound. Yeah, that's

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beautiful. They look truly amazing and I love

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that you cover different styles of relationships

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and so many veterans can come up in those journeys

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that they need integration and I would love...

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to talk about those things that you've seen coming

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up for people in your work, whether be it a coaching

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or be it retreats around what we want to talk

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about, the inner child. I mean, what I see is

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that it's at the core of everything. And what

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I see is that so many of us, or if not all of

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us, have a little child inside that somehow We

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are not fully aware of because a lot of these

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beliefs and certain insecurities are actually

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within the unconscious. We are not aware that

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it's actually our inner child that is driving

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our lives. And what I see is that so often we

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end up in relationships or we end up in even

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work -wise or we end up in situations where we

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actually don't realize how much of that situation

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is called upon through a negative belief that

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has been implemented in childhood. So, for example,

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this week I was working with three clients and

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it was really powerful because what I saw is

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they all had very different childhoods, but somehow

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similar beliefs started to form of like, I'm

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invisible, I'm not seen, or I'm not important.

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And these beliefs are obviously formed through

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certain impactful scenarios or certain impactful

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experiences that happened in our lives. as children

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or as adolescents that we weren't able to fully

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process. So what happens is that I start to uncover

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triggers with people. For example, I'm going

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to just share the story of a client of mine because

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it's going to help visualize it more. So she

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experienced a trigger. And obviously triggers

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are gold because triggers always show us where

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there is something unprocessed in our lives.

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So when something triggers us, rather than projecting

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it outwards and thinking it's the other person

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that is doing something wrong, actually, if it

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triggers us, if it moves something in us more

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than... it more than something normally would,

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right? So we get really aggravated or our mind

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starts to raise or we experience a body sensation.

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Something really impacts us. We know that the

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essence or the core of that trigger happened

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way before... allows us to surface an emotion

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that somehow has been trapped in our body and

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has been happening way before this scenario that

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is happening now. So trigger is always gold.

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And so my client, she was very triggered by her

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mother taking over her life. Like her mother

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watches her children a lot and she felt like

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her mother was kind of like taking over her role,

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right? So she felt pushed to the side. So we

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went to the core emotion of that trigger and

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she was like, oh yeah, I feel pushed to the side

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with my mother. And then in that process, through

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breathing, like it always works, like I always

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invite the client to bring an increased amount

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of... breath through the body because then the

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breath actually opens up old memories and we

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can actually access memories that we wouldn't

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usually access. So she traveled back in time

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to the first time ever she felt pushed to the

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side. And the first time ever she felt pushed

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to the side was a memory with her mother where

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she felt where she felt not seen, where she felt

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kind of disregarded, where she felt like her

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mother didn't, you know, where her mother didn't

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take care of her the way she needed to be taken

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care of. So she was envisioning herself standing

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in the corner, feeling pushed to the side. And

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in that memory, we then got to the core of what

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happened when she felt pushed to the side. She

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then started to react with shutting down, with

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becoming robotic, with trying to like, with trying

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to please. So, you know, she wouldn't no longer

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feel it. So she tried to be extra nice to her

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mother so she would be seen. And so she kind

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of disregarded and abandoned herself. Right.

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And then when she was going through that memory

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and really feeling that and connecting to that

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child in that memory, And breathing, she was

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actually able to have the release of the emotions

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of that child, to actually feel her sadness and

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her pain and also her anger that she felt in

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that moment, but never allowed herself to feel.

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So that emotion was still stuck in her body.

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Right. And then by her releasing that and actually

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calling upon her grown up self now. that is able

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to hold that emotion that is no longer a child

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that is the victim of it but actually is able

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to hold it securely she was able to find safety

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in herself and in that memory and then i asked

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her what she would tell the child as that grown

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-up self now and she was like you have space

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you deserve to take up space so that would what

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That's what she told the child. And as soon as

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the child heard, she heard that even more tears

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came and her whole body posture changed rather

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than being contracted and making herself invisible

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and living through that whole body started to

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open and take up space. And then I asked her

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to take that taking up space into her. future

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or into her present moment self. And then she

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was able to actually see how she would react

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to triggers now differently, rather than making

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herself small again or pleasing again or collapsing

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again. Now she started to realize when that feeling,

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that trigger comes online and that negative belief

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of like, I don't have space or I'm pushed to

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the side. Now she can say, you deserve to take

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up space to herself and actually change the imprint

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somatically, take a breath, ground her feet.

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And in that moment, rather than, yeah, like I

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said, avoiding or collapsing or pleasing, she

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can actually move towards the person and act

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and respond differently than she had all her

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life. Right. And that is how we change our lives,

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because we no longer are living through our wounds,

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but we're actually living through Yeah, we are

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living through our grown -up selves rather than

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our children now and we actually get to lead

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life from a very, yeah, from a very empowered

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stance rather than a stance of being the victim

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of our negative beliefs and then with therefore

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also attracting obviously everything, you know,

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I will attract situations if my belief was you

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know, I'm pushed to the side, I will obviously

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constantly attract situations that I'm pushed

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to the side. So now she doesn't need to attract

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that. I mean, I feel like we can share a couple

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more experiences because these examples are usually

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some of the best ways of learning and understanding

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what can happen when an inner child gets integrated.

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I'll share mine. I'll share my experience of

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integrating a moment from the past that I now

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use in my relationships that truly help me to

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connect deeper rather than acting from insecurities.

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And indeed, I feel like the most powerful part

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of healing inner child is to learn to not act

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from insecurities and fears that our inner child

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has learned long time ago when she was small

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and vulnerable, when she couldn't protect herself.

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Now knowing that as an adult I make my decisions,

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I'm a strong person and I am the one who guides

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myself in life, I can stand up and empower myself

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and act from a different place of power. But

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if I don't heal my inner child, unconsciously

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and subconsciously I act still from those insecurities

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as if I don't have the power I actually truly

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have now. And that's what makes a difference

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when you heal your inner child and when you don't.

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So my example would be from our coaching sessions

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where I figured through this body exploration

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that in my relationships with men, in my love

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relationships with men and my romantic relationships,

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I've always had this pattern which made me detach

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from them. even though it would be a safe relationship,

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a committed relationship, there would be moments

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when I'd detach and somehow just go into my own

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safe space, avoiding intimacy. And those moments

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were about when my men would want to just do

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something fun for themselves without me or...

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receive an exciting invitation or basically do

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something without necessarily involving me. Which

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with my conscious mind I find pretty toxic. I

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would want my man to feel free and enjoy himself

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and there is abundance of everything that we

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can do together. I consciously would understand

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that and I want to be an empowered woman and

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a confident woman but something in me would always

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tell me Oh, look at that! He's gonna do that

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now without you. Maybe he's gonna have so much

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fun there that you will no longer be even needed.

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Like, there is this toxic voice and that would

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make me detached. And I would go and find something

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else to do for myself. Instead of just sitting

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with the feelings and taking them as a part of

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our exciting life together, I would... need to

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go and take something else for myself so that

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I feel like I'm secure. I can always be good

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without him. And exploring this pattern, which

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is quite a light pattern, wasn't like a big trauma

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or anything, apparently led me to a big trauma.

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that I found through this exploration that it

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was when I was about one and a half years old

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when I've had this amazing relationship with

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a book of my mother that was always mine and

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was always given to me and I had such a privilege

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of having it all to myself and then my sister

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was born and suddenly this book is no longer

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for me. suddenly someone else is with it and

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I no longer have this access. And that made me

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feel like if something good is given to someone

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else, I will be left out and I'll be left behind

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and I have luck and I really need to fulfill

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this need elsewhere. And back then when I was

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a year and a half, my grandmother has given me

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an alternative, her boob. She would put me on

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her stomach and I didn't suck her boob but I

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would like play with it, I would still feel safe.

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So I kind of told my mom in my mind you know

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what you don't give me the boob I'm gonna find

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it elsewhere. And since then growing up in all

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my intimate relationships if I wouldn't get 100

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% of something I would detach and tell them you

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know what I'm going to get it elsewhere and I'll

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prove myself that I can get it elsewhere, which

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of course would not create deeper intimacy that

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I truly desire. I don't want it to detach from

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my loved ones every time they just want to have

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fun or want to do something good. And by meeting

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myself back then when I was this little child

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and learned that pattern, I could create clarity.

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And I could reparent my little girl and I'd go

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into that breath work it led me through and I

00:23:52.670 --> 00:23:56.089
would meet her and be like, it's okay. There

00:23:56.089 --> 00:23:59.589
is enough for everyone. You are fine. You don't

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need to run anywhere and take anything from anyone.

00:24:02.849 --> 00:24:05.769
You're fine. There is abundance. You can always

00:24:05.769 --> 00:24:08.869
be fed and you can just walk through life with

00:24:08.869 --> 00:24:12.250
confidence that you can have anything you want

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and you don't need to take it from someone. And

00:24:14.839 --> 00:24:16.819
you don't need to run away if you don't get it

00:24:16.819 --> 00:24:20.819
immediately. And now in my relationships, when

00:24:20.819 --> 00:24:25.319
my relationship with my man, I am feeling much

00:24:25.319 --> 00:24:28.940
more empowered. He can have fun. I can have fun.

00:24:29.099 --> 00:24:31.440
We all can have fun. There is abundance of boobs,

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which I tell to myself. It's ridiculous. I could

00:24:34.890 --> 00:24:37.289
tell to myself, there is enough of that food

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that can be provided at any moment. That's okay.

00:24:40.609 --> 00:24:44.670
So, it can feel abstract, but for me, in that

00:24:44.670 --> 00:24:47.390
moment, it really made sense. And I could recoup

00:24:47.390 --> 00:24:51.609
this little piece of myself that was struggling.

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And having said that, so my little trauma was

00:24:55.809 --> 00:24:58.670
not that significant or painful, right? My mother

00:24:58.670 --> 00:25:02.450
did not really abandon me. But for me, when I'm

00:25:02.450 --> 00:25:05.980
here in a house, that meant Oh my God, my entire

00:25:05.980 --> 00:25:09.079
world, my entire food supply is not taken away

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and given to someone else. And by re -parenting

00:25:12.140 --> 00:25:14.640
myself when I'm an adult and I consciously understand

00:25:14.640 --> 00:25:17.859
these things, I empower myself. And that's what

00:25:17.859 --> 00:25:20.460
I wish for people to start paying attention to

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these little things that actually can be so big.

00:25:24.119 --> 00:25:26.559
I love what you're saying. I mean, I remember

00:25:26.559 --> 00:25:30.359
that moment really well. And I think the beautiful

00:25:30.359 --> 00:25:33.279
thing is like you're saying, it's like we don't

00:25:33.279 --> 00:25:40.480
need to experience huge traumas to create patterns

00:25:40.480 --> 00:25:43.720
in our life that are actually unconsciously hurting

00:25:43.720 --> 00:25:45.960
us, which is like this pattern of lack, right?

00:25:46.099 --> 00:25:49.140
That so many of us have, right? I mean, I've

00:25:49.140 --> 00:25:51.519
been healing that as well. And it's like, whoa,

00:25:51.539 --> 00:25:54.339
like when we speak about patterns in your life,

00:25:54.680 --> 00:25:57.599
I think what is important for people that listening

00:25:57.599 --> 00:26:01.480
is like, what am I repeating in my life that

00:26:01.480 --> 00:26:04.450
is hurting me? What am I repeating in my life

00:26:04.450 --> 00:26:11.869
that feels like, that actually feels like, yeah,

00:26:12.289 --> 00:26:14.170
I guess, yeah, what am I repeating in my life

00:26:14.170 --> 00:26:17.910
that is hurting me? Daily practice is what truly

00:26:17.910 --> 00:26:22.589
transforms inspiration into embodiment. It is

00:26:22.589 --> 00:26:26.289
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00:26:26.289 --> 00:26:29.549
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links in the episode description. We all repeat

00:26:59.420 --> 00:27:01.900
things in our life that is hurting us. We all

00:27:01.900 --> 00:27:04.819
have these like spiraling, whether it's in relationship

00:27:04.819 --> 00:27:08.180
or in job or in certain circumstances that when

00:27:08.180 --> 00:27:11.559
we actually become aware and we're like, whoa,

00:27:11.660 --> 00:27:15.039
like it's not the man. It's actually, it started

00:27:15.039 --> 00:27:17.359
way before that because I've been repeating the

00:27:17.359 --> 00:27:19.779
same pattern with any man that I've been dating.

00:27:20.279 --> 00:27:23.460
Right. And that is then a beautiful invitation

00:27:23.460 --> 00:27:26.019
to then dig deeper. And I think like you're saying,

00:27:26.200 --> 00:27:29.819
one thing is cognitively understanding it and

00:27:29.819 --> 00:27:34.079
going back to the memory like we did and feeling

00:27:34.079 --> 00:27:36.900
that. But the other thing that I think is so

00:27:36.900 --> 00:27:40.019
missing from therapy these days or from psychotherapy

00:27:40.019 --> 00:27:46.660
these days is actually the somatic and like implementing

00:27:46.660 --> 00:27:49.420
the somatic and the primal system into that.

00:27:49.799 --> 00:27:53.140
So implement or inducing that experience with

00:27:53.140 --> 00:27:56.319
actually allowing you to feel because It wasn't

00:27:56.319 --> 00:27:59.059
just important that you understood your pattern

00:27:59.059 --> 00:28:01.160
and what happened in the past. It was actually

00:28:01.160 --> 00:28:04.019
important for you through breathwork and through

00:28:04.019 --> 00:28:06.799
even light movements to travel back to that memory,

00:28:06.839 --> 00:28:10.880
find yourself and then somatically feel what

00:28:10.880 --> 00:28:13.180
safety feels like in your body through breath

00:28:13.180 --> 00:28:16.099
and through obviously visualization and through

00:28:16.099 --> 00:28:18.380
holding yourself and talking to yourself. So

00:28:18.380 --> 00:28:21.599
your nervous system actually was able to release

00:28:21.599 --> 00:28:25.059
the anxiety that it felt when I was a child and

00:28:25.059 --> 00:28:28.829
the pain and it was replaced with actual safety.

00:28:28.910 --> 00:28:31.769
And it was like, wow, my love, you're totally

00:28:31.769 --> 00:28:34.490
safe. And rather than having that cognitively

00:28:34.490 --> 00:28:38.789
understood, to have it being felt in the body

00:28:38.789 --> 00:28:41.549
and then being able to go back to that memory

00:28:41.549 --> 00:28:44.910
each time now another trigger would show up and

00:28:44.910 --> 00:28:48.470
being again, reminding yourself of that somatic

00:28:48.470 --> 00:28:51.789
feeling of safety. That's, I think how we change.

00:28:52.119 --> 00:28:55.059
patterns. So it's important to bring the body

00:28:55.059 --> 00:28:58.059
into that process. Yeah. So thanks. Thank you

00:28:58.059 --> 00:29:02.039
for sharing. It was so beautiful. It's such a

00:29:02.039 --> 00:29:05.299
powerful thing to do because then in integration

00:29:05.299 --> 00:29:09.400
in everyday life, I can just remember that place

00:29:09.400 --> 00:29:13.019
and talk to my ear child in a moment. Like, look.

00:29:13.470 --> 00:29:16.430
It's not like that. It's not like that. We have

00:29:16.430 --> 00:29:19.569
everything now. It's not that moment. And you've

00:29:19.569 --> 00:29:22.529
actually always had everything. It was okay to

00:29:22.529 --> 00:29:25.589
share. Yeah, exactly. And you were describing

00:29:25.589 --> 00:29:27.970
your shadows so beautifully because what happens

00:29:27.970 --> 00:29:30.869
is we feel the pain of lack. It's like, where's

00:29:30.869 --> 00:29:33.430
the boob, right? You feel the pain of lack. And

00:29:33.430 --> 00:29:36.390
what happens then is you start to protect yourself,

00:29:36.549 --> 00:29:38.930
which that is your shadow. And your shadow in

00:29:38.930 --> 00:29:42.079
that case was like... I'm going to do it all

00:29:42.079 --> 00:29:44.519
myself. I'm independent. I don't need you. I'm

00:29:44.519 --> 00:29:46.799
going to replace you. I'm going to take from

00:29:46.799 --> 00:29:49.220
somebody else, right? Like that is your shadow.

00:29:49.480 --> 00:29:51.940
And even visualizing your shadow, who's like

00:29:51.940 --> 00:29:54.099
kind of like, you know, it always helps to have

00:29:54.099 --> 00:29:57.920
kind of a visualization of that. And by you understanding

00:29:57.920 --> 00:30:02.119
that that is your reactivity and by actually

00:30:02.119 --> 00:30:04.579
really knowing that when that shadow comes back

00:30:04.579 --> 00:30:06.819
online, this kind of impulse with your partner

00:30:06.819 --> 00:30:08.700
of like he's doing something beautiful. And then

00:30:08.700 --> 00:30:12.960
you're like, You know, I'm going to now replace

00:30:12.960 --> 00:30:15.740
you with something else, right? Because I don't

00:30:15.740 --> 00:30:18.079
want to be vulnerable. Now you're like, whoa,

00:30:18.119 --> 00:30:21.440
this is my shadow response. And actually, the

00:30:21.440 --> 00:30:24.779
only thing that can ever steal from me is my

00:30:24.779 --> 00:30:27.759
own shadow, because my own shadow is actually

00:30:27.759 --> 00:30:31.779
what's now going to take my experience of abundance

00:30:31.779 --> 00:30:33.880
away from me, because the shadow is like, there

00:30:33.880 --> 00:30:36.000
is not enough, so I'm going to just take everything

00:30:36.000 --> 00:30:40.319
from somebody else. So the shadow. destroys actually

00:30:40.319 --> 00:30:43.319
our life and the abundance and the fullness of

00:30:43.319 --> 00:30:46.539
what is here. So when we develop that relationship

00:30:46.539 --> 00:30:49.579
with our shadow, obviously we can smile it and

00:30:49.579 --> 00:30:51.740
we're like, my love, here you are again, right?

00:30:51.759 --> 00:30:54.460
But then we can also develop boundaries with

00:30:54.460 --> 00:30:58.000
that shadow voice, which is so massively important

00:30:58.000 --> 00:31:03.359
to not let that take over our experience. I find

00:31:03.359 --> 00:31:07.839
in this work, in inner child integration, creating

00:31:07.839 --> 00:31:13.140
new boundaries and creating this talk with them,

00:31:13.420 --> 00:31:15.339
creating an ability to speak with your inner

00:31:15.339 --> 00:31:18.960
child and describe to them the boundaries and

00:31:18.960 --> 00:31:22.859
parent them as good parents would be so important.

00:31:23.500 --> 00:31:25.500
And this ability can definitely be developed

00:31:25.500 --> 00:31:28.039
and built. And it's so exciting. Sometimes when

00:31:28.039 --> 00:31:30.400
I explain it to people who haven't done this

00:31:30.400 --> 00:31:34.500
work, They're like, are you crazy? You have to

00:31:34.500 --> 00:31:36.599
speak to so many parts of you. You basically

00:31:36.599 --> 00:31:39.460
speak with yourself all the time. But in reality,

00:31:39.519 --> 00:31:42.759
it is a powerful skill and a new ability you

00:31:42.759 --> 00:31:46.960
can create that makes you so empowered. Perhaps

00:31:46.960 --> 00:31:49.980
you can share a little more about these boundaries

00:31:49.980 --> 00:31:57.079
and this re -parenting. So, like I shared, the

00:31:57.079 --> 00:32:01.019
boundary and re -parenting. is a process that

00:32:01.019 --> 00:32:05.839
I have to become aware when that voice inside

00:32:05.839 --> 00:32:08.720
of me is speaking, when the voice of my wound

00:32:08.720 --> 00:32:10.779
is speaking, or when the voice of my limiting

00:32:10.779 --> 00:32:13.559
belief is speaking, or when the voice of that

00:32:13.559 --> 00:32:16.500
shadow part of me is speaking that wants to tell

00:32:16.500 --> 00:32:19.160
me, like, you're not loved, or look, I knew it,

00:32:19.500 --> 00:32:22.700
like, he's preferring other women over there,

00:32:22.799 --> 00:32:25.980
right? Like, we have... When we start to become

00:32:25.980 --> 00:32:28.259
conscious of that voice, it's very repetitive.

00:32:28.619 --> 00:32:31.140
It's very like, it kind of always tells us the

00:32:31.140 --> 00:32:33.980
same, same story over and over again. So then

00:32:33.980 --> 00:32:36.839
the boundary with that voice looks like that

00:32:36.839 --> 00:32:40.059
in the moment that I catch it, I'm actually gonna

00:32:40.059 --> 00:32:42.180
just say with a lot of love, right? My love,

00:32:42.299 --> 00:32:45.349
like I... don't no longer need to, because I

00:32:45.349 --> 00:32:49.230
actually feel safe. Because what happens is that

00:32:49.230 --> 00:32:52.009
this voice actually wants to protect us, right?

00:32:52.109 --> 00:32:59.769
This voice wants to, it learned to make us feel

00:32:59.769 --> 00:33:03.589
safe through acting in a certain way. So now

00:33:03.589 --> 00:33:05.829
the boundary looks like, okay, I'm interrupting

00:33:05.829 --> 00:33:08.769
that and I'm actually tuning into safety in my

00:33:08.769 --> 00:33:13.200
body, taking a breath and like... slowing down

00:33:13.200 --> 00:33:17.400
and then I even have a visualization for that

00:33:17.400 --> 00:33:21.579
voice for me it's a bird that is like and I'm

00:33:21.579 --> 00:33:24.220
like and I'm in that vision I'm just like soothing

00:33:24.220 --> 00:33:27.420
it and I'm giving it a bit of like like seeds

00:33:27.420 --> 00:33:30.279
to eat and I'm like okay and I'm like thank you

00:33:30.279 --> 00:33:34.019
so much and then I'm gonna actually replace that

00:33:34.019 --> 00:33:38.059
with my grown up woman self voice with the voice

00:33:38.059 --> 00:33:40.960
of trust, right? I'm just tuning in and I'm like,

00:33:41.099 --> 00:33:45.599
okay, what is really true now? And with that,

00:33:45.680 --> 00:33:48.400
what is really true now, I get to challenge the

00:33:48.400 --> 00:33:51.420
belief system. I get to challenge the truth of

00:33:51.420 --> 00:33:54.400
these thoughts. And I'm like, okay, like, is

00:33:54.400 --> 00:33:56.259
that really true? Right? Is that really true?

00:33:56.420 --> 00:33:59.920
No, I already know it's not true. And I think

00:33:59.920 --> 00:34:02.500
it's very quick. It's quite quick. Like once

00:34:02.500 --> 00:34:04.900
you've done it once and twice and three times,

00:34:04.980 --> 00:34:09.059
you're kind of like, it's just like a separation

00:34:09.059 --> 00:34:13.500
from that voice and the reparenting of that.

00:34:13.760 --> 00:34:16.659
looks like at least for me. I mean, maybe I say

00:34:16.659 --> 00:34:19.920
a personal example for that actually. What a

00:34:19.920 --> 00:34:22.820
pattern of mine was and what I had to reparent

00:34:22.820 --> 00:34:28.519
was the feeling of something in love was lacking.

00:34:28.760 --> 00:34:31.780
Like I would experience with any man that I would

00:34:31.780 --> 00:34:36.369
date this feeling of somehow after a while of

00:34:36.369 --> 00:34:39.150
somehow not feeling like the priority or not

00:34:39.150 --> 00:34:41.969
feeling important enough or there was that feeling

00:34:41.969 --> 00:34:46.389
of lack of like feeling unloved right and I realized

00:34:46.389 --> 00:34:50.190
over the years I'm like it's for sure not dependent

00:34:50.190 --> 00:34:53.010
on the man because I've experienced the same

00:34:53.010 --> 00:35:00.389
feeling over and over again right so what I What

00:35:00.389 --> 00:35:04.269
I had to go back to was the memory of myself.

00:35:04.449 --> 00:35:07.510
Also, my sister was born when I was four, five,

00:35:07.590 --> 00:35:12.090
and feeling that she took over my life. She took

00:35:12.090 --> 00:35:14.869
over my mother. She took all the attention away

00:35:14.869 --> 00:35:17.449
from me. So I started to believe that I'm not

00:35:17.449 --> 00:35:20.630
important. So now, actually, this little girl

00:35:20.630 --> 00:35:22.909
that believed that she's not important started

00:35:22.909 --> 00:35:30.670
to actually direct my other relationships. When

00:35:30.670 --> 00:35:33.510
I felt that which was really important for me

00:35:33.510 --> 00:35:37.329
was an actual and with that started to form an

00:35:37.329 --> 00:35:39.730
anxious attachment pattern like I would be like

00:35:39.730 --> 00:35:43.469
reaching out and like I would get extremely Yeah,

00:35:43.469 --> 00:35:46.989
I would get extremely anxious and full of panic

00:35:46.989 --> 00:35:50.050
when I wouldn't get what I actually wanted and

00:35:50.050 --> 00:35:58.329
I would feel very unsafe very unsafe and I actually

00:35:58.329 --> 00:36:02.239
needed to go through a detachment process with

00:36:02.239 --> 00:36:08.519
my partner, where I had to face my fear of actually

00:36:08.519 --> 00:36:12.179
losing him and not being his biggest priority.

00:36:13.260 --> 00:36:17.179
And in that, really facing my deepest fear in

00:36:17.179 --> 00:36:21.519
that moment of loss, I was able to re -parent

00:36:21.519 --> 00:36:25.530
that because the pain was becoming so loud. And

00:36:25.530 --> 00:36:27.730
rather than to react to the pain by soothing

00:36:27.730 --> 00:36:29.929
it through him or soothing it through a message,

00:36:30.110 --> 00:36:35.170
I had to learn to soothe it myself. And that

00:36:35.170 --> 00:36:38.170
is reparenting, because in these moments that

00:36:38.170 --> 00:36:42.829
this fear would get so loud or this panic would

00:36:42.829 --> 00:36:46.429
get so loud, I would be like, OK, Miriam. And

00:36:46.429 --> 00:36:50.820
I would almost see myself like... As a grown

00:36:50.820 --> 00:36:53.539
-up looking at my little child, it was almost

00:36:53.539 --> 00:36:56.179
like I was witnessing this little part of me,

00:36:56.400 --> 00:36:59.340
this very fragile part of me in total angst.

00:36:59.679 --> 00:37:02.559
And I would like breathe into her and hold her

00:37:02.559 --> 00:37:05.320
and I would tell her like, you're safe now, like

00:37:05.320 --> 00:37:10.159
I got you. And in this I got you, she was able

00:37:10.159 --> 00:37:13.420
to really release all the tears and all the pain.

00:37:13.719 --> 00:37:16.199
And it wasn't necessarily memories attached to

00:37:16.199 --> 00:37:20.360
them. It was just like my nervous system was

00:37:20.360 --> 00:37:25.780
just releasing the sensations of having been

00:37:25.780 --> 00:37:30.460
left out and not being held the way that I needed

00:37:30.460 --> 00:37:34.829
to be held. In that, when I started to realize

00:37:34.829 --> 00:37:38.130
that I'm no longer the unsafe child, that I no

00:37:38.130 --> 00:37:41.349
longer need to, but now I'm actually able to

00:37:41.349 --> 00:37:44.030
hold the emotion of loneliness that was underneath.

00:37:44.210 --> 00:37:46.610
And I was able to hold the emotion of sadness

00:37:46.610 --> 00:37:52.070
that was underneath. It did no longer control

00:37:52.070 --> 00:37:55.530
my life. So I think a really big part of reparenting

00:37:55.530 --> 00:38:02.340
is learning that we can hold our emotions, that

00:38:02.340 --> 00:38:06.820
we are no longer slaves of, or that we are no

00:38:06.820 --> 00:38:12.880
longer children that need to be soothed by somebody

00:38:12.880 --> 00:38:17.320
else, but that actually we are grown -ups that

00:38:17.320 --> 00:38:20.480
are able to breathe through our emotions, whether

00:38:20.480 --> 00:38:27.070
it's pain, grief. anger, right? And that we can

00:38:27.070 --> 00:38:30.570
make that emotion feel safe enough to be fully

00:38:30.570 --> 00:38:33.590
processed rather than suppressed. And when we

00:38:33.590 --> 00:38:37.849
learn to hold these emotions as grownups, that's

00:38:37.849 --> 00:38:42.789
how we re -parent our inner child. Because rather

00:38:42.789 --> 00:38:46.349
than reacting to that emotion, now we move through

00:38:46.349 --> 00:38:49.530
it and then come back into a state of alignment

00:38:49.530 --> 00:38:56.030
and presence. And then act from that alignment

00:38:56.030 --> 00:38:58.909
and presence rather than from the reactivity

00:38:58.909 --> 00:39:02.349
of that emotion, if that makes sense. That definitely

00:39:02.349 --> 00:39:07.289
does. What's really beautiful to see here is

00:39:07.289 --> 00:39:11.690
your ability and ability of people who learn

00:39:11.690 --> 00:39:15.690
to do this inner child healing to soothe, right?

00:39:15.829 --> 00:39:18.889
It is as if you meet that little girl who lives

00:39:18.889 --> 00:39:23.269
inside. and hug her and love her and give her

00:39:23.269 --> 00:39:27.309
what she actually wanted back then. And it's

00:39:27.309 --> 00:39:30.769
like the need suddenly gets satisfied and no

00:39:30.769 --> 00:39:34.349
longer she needs to cry and shout for it and

00:39:34.349 --> 00:39:37.369
claim it because it's given. What do you feel

00:39:37.369 --> 00:39:41.530
like are the most common patterns people face

00:39:41.530 --> 00:39:46.570
that come out of this wounded inner child? Yeah,

00:39:46.690 --> 00:39:48.829
that's a beautiful question. I think the most

00:39:48.829 --> 00:39:51.690
common patterns or the patterns that I see are

00:39:51.690 --> 00:39:55.489
either a collapse which looks like pleasing.

00:39:55.900 --> 00:40:01.099
or a learned way of not raising your voice, of

00:40:01.099 --> 00:40:03.719
doing anything possible that you're not losing

00:40:03.719 --> 00:40:07.579
love and with that kind of, rather than standing

00:40:07.579 --> 00:40:09.920
in your authenticity and truth and strength,

00:40:10.300 --> 00:40:14.039
you basically abandon yourself or you've learned

00:40:14.039 --> 00:40:16.619
to abandon yourself and make somebody else's

00:40:16.619 --> 00:40:21.090
truth your truth. And I see that in many women

00:40:21.090 --> 00:40:23.550
and I see that in many men, actually. And then

00:40:23.550 --> 00:40:25.949
man, it's like this Mr. Nice guy, right, that

00:40:25.949 --> 00:40:30.010
is like has learned to please mama because if

00:40:30.010 --> 00:40:32.269
he doesn't please mama, mama gets really angry

00:40:32.269 --> 00:40:35.110
and mama withholds love or mama gets controlling.

00:40:35.369 --> 00:40:39.050
And so now he's like catering to to mama and

00:40:39.050 --> 00:40:41.869
doing all the right things, trying to do all

00:40:41.869 --> 00:40:44.530
the right things. But he's actually abandoning

00:40:44.530 --> 00:40:48.179
himself in the process and he's Losing his own

00:40:48.179 --> 00:40:50.739
authority in life and the sad part about a man

00:40:50.739 --> 00:40:53.500
that is in that pattern right is actually that

00:40:53.500 --> 00:40:58.920
he Yeah, he he does anything to please his woman

00:40:58.920 --> 00:41:02.340
But somehow his woman still doesn't feel it's

00:41:02.340 --> 00:41:05.099
enough and she actually loses attraction to him

00:41:05.099 --> 00:41:09.420
because she is like she actually wants his authority

00:41:09.420 --> 00:41:11.980
and she wants his truth and he she wants his

00:41:11.980 --> 00:41:14.989
strength and he's doing anything but you know,

00:41:15.110 --> 00:41:17.690
in this doing anything, he is actually losing

00:41:17.690 --> 00:41:20.570
what he wants the most, right? Which is, which

00:41:20.570 --> 00:41:23.110
is his woman. And it's a very, it's a very, uh,

00:41:23.750 --> 00:41:27.869
it's a very like, it's very sad to actually see

00:41:27.869 --> 00:41:30.969
this pattern. It is so common. It's unbelievable.

00:41:31.630 --> 00:41:35.110
I remember myself in very early days of dating.

00:41:35.389 --> 00:41:37.449
Actually, first time I did this, I was about

00:41:37.449 --> 00:41:41.969
15 years old when I started testing men how far

00:41:41.969 --> 00:41:45.440
I can push them. And if I can push them far,

00:41:45.579 --> 00:41:48.300
I'd break up. And I've done that so many times

00:41:48.300 --> 00:41:51.079
when I was like, especially when as a teenager

00:41:51.079 --> 00:41:56.000
in my early years, I wasn't so conscious about

00:41:56.000 --> 00:41:58.760
being kind and compassionate. I rather was playing.

00:41:59.340 --> 00:42:02.219
And I remember doing this on purpose, pushing

00:42:02.219 --> 00:42:06.719
a guy to check how hard can he bend? And the

00:42:06.719 --> 00:42:11.030
harder he'd bend... the less attracted I'd become.

00:42:11.489 --> 00:42:13.849
And it's so sad to see this, how many people

00:42:13.849 --> 00:42:15.809
would really bend for love thinking that this

00:42:15.809 --> 00:42:17.869
is the right thing to do and definitely comes

00:42:17.869 --> 00:42:21.869
from this really early wound. And then how sexy

00:42:21.869 --> 00:42:25.909
it is to see a man who can set a boundary. I'd

00:42:25.909 --> 00:42:27.710
be like, please do this and that. And I'd be

00:42:27.710 --> 00:42:31.650
like, no, you need to pace it out. And I'd be

00:42:31.650 --> 00:42:35.829
like, yes, okay, now I want to stay in this relationship.

00:42:36.329 --> 00:42:39.730
Unbelievable. Yeah, because it's like I think

00:42:39.730 --> 00:42:43.429
it's it's obviously we test it's a power dynamic

00:42:43.429 --> 00:42:47.650
and we always will test Are you powerful enough

00:42:47.650 --> 00:42:52.309
to hold me? Right and if I'm able to just push

00:42:52.309 --> 00:42:55.329
the guy over right like with my little fingertip

00:42:55.329 --> 00:42:59.050
and he bends down to me Obviously then I'm in

00:42:59.050 --> 00:43:03.070
this like I lose respect for somebody that doesn't

00:43:03.070 --> 00:43:06.750
respect himself right and that's that's really

00:43:06.750 --> 00:43:09.409
important to know and the healing for a man in

00:43:09.409 --> 00:43:12.289
this pattern like you're saying happens if he

00:43:12.289 --> 00:43:15.730
learns to go back to that like these traumatic

00:43:15.730 --> 00:43:18.789
memories where he felt that his voice didn't

00:43:18.789 --> 00:43:21.670
matter where he felt that his mother would like

00:43:21.670 --> 00:43:24.369
explode in anger at him and he felt scared and

00:43:24.369 --> 00:43:28.670
frightened and now he needs to bring his voice

00:43:28.670 --> 00:43:31.090
into these memories and bring his power into

00:43:31.090 --> 00:43:35.110
these memories and not fear anymore losing the

00:43:35.110 --> 00:43:37.889
feminine, but actually standing up for him because

00:43:37.889 --> 00:43:39.929
that's where it comes from. He was afraid to

00:43:39.929 --> 00:43:42.710
lose mama, then now he's afraid to lose his woman.

00:43:43.050 --> 00:43:46.230
And I think when a man really faces this fear

00:43:46.230 --> 00:43:51.070
of losing somebody and realizes that, OK, even

00:43:51.070 --> 00:43:55.460
if I lose you, my life is potent and beautiful

00:43:55.460 --> 00:43:59.019
and abundant. And yes, you are the flower in

00:43:59.019 --> 00:44:02.760
my life, but my life is going to continue to

00:44:02.760 --> 00:44:06.780
thrive. And with that, knowing of that, he then

00:44:06.780 --> 00:44:10.340
doesn't operate from fear of loss, which when

00:44:10.340 --> 00:44:12.579
you operate from fear of loss, your relationships,

00:44:12.860 --> 00:44:16.539
it's like you're actually operating from a disempowered

00:44:16.539 --> 00:44:19.699
state, right? And that is always going to be

00:44:19.699 --> 00:44:23.559
felt on the other side. I think this is an important

00:44:23.559 --> 00:44:26.380
pattern and I think another, obviously we also

00:44:26.380 --> 00:44:29.360
see this, both of us, I mean we both do women's

00:44:29.360 --> 00:44:33.480
work, right? We both see this a lot in women

00:44:33.480 --> 00:44:37.980
the same way and so many women learn to abandon

00:44:37.980 --> 00:44:42.550
themselves and that looks by... dating somebody

00:44:42.550 --> 00:44:46.769
that you know doesn't respect them or or trying

00:44:46.769 --> 00:44:49.829
like to look for breadcrumbs and that is then

00:44:49.829 --> 00:44:53.090
the self abandonment or the self abandonment

00:44:53.090 --> 00:44:55.969
and actually being the nice girl and smiling

00:44:55.969 --> 00:44:59.210
all the time and like ha ha ha ha when they actually

00:44:59.210 --> 00:45:02.250
mean to say no and when they mean to say like

00:45:02.250 --> 00:45:05.809
hey this is not okay for me because also as women

00:45:05.809 --> 00:45:08.269
we've been taught right to behave to be nice

00:45:08.269 --> 00:45:12.320
to be sweet to not be too much And then that

00:45:12.320 --> 00:45:17.820
surfaces with that collapsed, adjured self of

00:45:17.820 --> 00:45:19.800
behaving of actually, and then we don't even

00:45:19.800 --> 00:45:21.960
know anymore what is our truth, right? Because

00:45:21.960 --> 00:45:25.199
we're so accustomed to make anybody else's truth

00:45:25.199 --> 00:45:28.659
more important than ours. And then that shows...

00:45:29.470 --> 00:45:32.469
then that kind of transforms into codependency

00:45:32.469 --> 00:45:35.170
and we end up in codependent relationships where

00:45:35.170 --> 00:45:37.750
we make somebody else's need more important than

00:45:37.750 --> 00:45:41.150
ours. So let's touch on these actually because

00:45:41.150 --> 00:45:44.869
this thing of especially women who are dating

00:45:44.869 --> 00:45:47.650
and then are settling for this low commitment

00:45:47.650 --> 00:45:51.510
for breadcrumbs is so common. It's one of the

00:45:51.510 --> 00:45:54.130
major issues that women go into this work for

00:45:54.130 --> 00:45:58.210
actually. So where does it come from this breadcrumb

00:45:59.160 --> 00:46:03.440
Okayness. Oh, this bread crumb. Okayness, because

00:46:03.440 --> 00:46:07.219
obviously at the core of it, it's low self -worth,

00:46:07.579 --> 00:46:11.280
right? So I'm going to need to take anything.

00:46:12.980 --> 00:46:16.960
Anything is better than nothing. Because we believe

00:46:16.960 --> 00:46:19.039
that actually somewhere inside there is a belief

00:46:19.039 --> 00:46:21.619
that either we are not worthy for love or we

00:46:21.619 --> 00:46:26.199
don't deserve it or we don't deserve love. with

00:46:26.199 --> 00:46:29.599
that is like, okay, if I operate from like, I'm

00:46:29.599 --> 00:46:32.199
not worthy for love, if somebody even gives me

00:46:32.199 --> 00:46:35.380
a tiny little breadcrumb, I'm like, okay, like,

00:46:35.460 --> 00:46:37.900
I'm gonna take that because if I'm not taking

00:46:37.900 --> 00:46:40.519
that, maybe then I'm not gonna receive anything

00:46:40.519 --> 00:46:43.699
else because like, I'm actually, I'm not really

00:46:43.699 --> 00:46:46.539
believing myself to be worthy for more than a

00:46:46.539 --> 00:46:51.159
breadcrumb, right? And I think at the core of

00:46:51.159 --> 00:46:55.840
that is, again, a girl that has learned somehow

00:46:55.840 --> 00:47:02.519
to abandon her own self and wait for somebody

00:47:02.519 --> 00:47:06.179
else to save her. Because as soon as a woman

00:47:06.179 --> 00:47:10.739
learns to retrieve these parts where she's abandoned

00:47:10.739 --> 00:47:13.860
herself and waits for somebody else to save her

00:47:13.860 --> 00:47:17.440
or protect her or make her feel safe or write

00:47:17.440 --> 00:47:20.639
always this external grasping when she takes

00:47:20.639 --> 00:47:23.840
that back into herself and actually learns to

00:47:23.840 --> 00:47:27.260
make herself feel safe and The more she makes

00:47:27.260 --> 00:47:30.579
herself feel safe the less she abandons herself

00:47:30.579 --> 00:47:35.059
her truth more. She speaks up the more her nervous

00:47:35.059 --> 00:47:37.559
system will operate from this place of safety.

00:47:38.139 --> 00:47:41.440
And then actually a man that will give breadcrumbs

00:47:41.440 --> 00:47:46.550
won't actually be attracted to her. She won't

00:47:46.550 --> 00:47:48.750
be attracted to him anymore because she's like

00:47:48.750 --> 00:47:51.570
that doesn't match the safety that I feel inside

00:47:51.570 --> 00:47:54.309
So I'm like, I'm not taking these breadcrumbs.

00:47:54.309 --> 00:47:58.030
Thank you very much So that is I think how we

00:47:58.030 --> 00:48:01.309
yeah how we how we heal how we heal that pattern

00:48:01.309 --> 00:48:05.010
Yeah, yeah totally agrees basically to to stop

00:48:05.010 --> 00:48:08.750
taking back breadcrumbs one needs to heal the

00:48:08.750 --> 00:48:11.510
self -worth in them and to heal the self -worth

00:48:11.510 --> 00:48:15.079
in them part of it is to go back into times and

00:48:15.079 --> 00:48:18.079
places where you've learned that you don't deserve.

00:48:19.380 --> 00:48:22.219
And yeah, but you've learned that just a tiny

00:48:22.219 --> 00:48:26.300
bit of something is enough. Yes. And you know,

00:48:26.300 --> 00:48:28.780
it is so beautiful. I mean, we, we studied this

00:48:28.780 --> 00:48:31.840
together, but we always speak a lot about the

00:48:31.840 --> 00:48:34.719
inner mother, right? Like the mothering of ourselves

00:48:34.719 --> 00:48:36.579
and the nourishment. And obviously the mother

00:48:36.579 --> 00:48:40.360
is the form she teaches us to receive nourishment.

00:48:40.440 --> 00:48:44.809
So when we when we actually create a new role

00:48:44.809 --> 00:48:48.969
of an inner mother, we re -teach ourselves what

00:48:48.969 --> 00:48:52.170
it feels like to receive nourishment. So it opens

00:48:52.170 --> 00:48:55.250
our ability to receive and it heals our ability

00:48:55.250 --> 00:48:57.590
to receive when we are implementing that kind

00:48:57.590 --> 00:49:00.969
of mother archetype in ourselves. But what I

00:49:00.969 --> 00:49:03.889
found really important, especially in the realm

00:49:03.889 --> 00:49:09.079
of relationships and dating and is actually the

00:49:09.079 --> 00:49:12.920
figure of the inner father and I always call

00:49:12.920 --> 00:49:18.000
him the witness and for me the witness when I

00:49:18.000 --> 00:49:22.150
understood that actually the masculine is the

00:49:22.150 --> 00:49:25.050
witnessing presence in me is the one that observes

00:49:25.050 --> 00:49:28.070
the one that watches out the one that protects

00:49:28.070 --> 00:49:30.969
me the one that is yeah is awareness himself

00:49:30.969 --> 00:49:35.090
and the feminine in me is my heart my feelings

00:49:35.090 --> 00:49:39.570
my ability to experience life fully when i then

00:49:39.570 --> 00:49:44.429
understood that actually i need to my inner witness

00:49:44.429 --> 00:49:48.590
is the is the presence that makes me feel safe.

00:49:48.670 --> 00:49:51.590
So the more I watch myself with these eyes of

00:49:51.590 --> 00:49:55.769
kindness or the more I get to like say to myself

00:49:55.769 --> 00:49:58.449
like my love I see you I see how hard you work

00:49:58.449 --> 00:50:01.670
like you're doing you know yeah you got this

00:50:01.670 --> 00:50:03.690
like you're doing the more I speak to myself

00:50:03.690 --> 00:50:06.909
and I witness my own experience like that the

00:50:06.909 --> 00:50:11.090
more safe I feel to open and feel and the more

00:50:11.090 --> 00:50:17.139
I will be matched by another presence that resembles

00:50:17.139 --> 00:50:19.619
this witness that I carry inside of me, because

00:50:19.619 --> 00:50:21.719
what I've realized in my own personal life, I'm

00:50:21.719 --> 00:50:27.059
like, my own inner witness is quite sharp. It's

00:50:27.059 --> 00:50:28.820
like, it's like heart muscle. And it's like,

00:50:28.840 --> 00:50:30.860
come on, you can do better. You step straighter.

00:50:30.860 --> 00:50:32.900
Like, come on, like get your shit together. What

00:50:32.900 --> 00:50:35.340
are you doing? You know? And all of a sudden

00:50:35.340 --> 00:50:38.300
I started to see the resemblance of that in my

00:50:38.300 --> 00:50:40.900
partner. And he was really strict with me and

00:50:40.900 --> 00:50:44.130
like, come on. And I somehow... really loved

00:50:44.130 --> 00:50:46.809
his strictness. I'm like, oh yeah, give me more,

00:50:47.030 --> 00:50:51.010
tell me off more. Like, but I'm like, why, you

00:50:51.010 --> 00:50:55.260
know, I was missing the... the warmth and the

00:50:55.260 --> 00:50:58.079
kind of like understanding from him. But then

00:50:58.079 --> 00:51:00.880
I realized I'm like, I'm not giving that to my

00:51:00.880 --> 00:51:04.340
own self. So I need to upgrade my own inner witness

00:51:04.340 --> 00:51:08.280
first, my own inner masculine first, so that

00:51:08.280 --> 00:51:12.139
he actually can match that. And this in my own

00:51:12.139 --> 00:51:15.340
inner masculine teaches him how to hold me. Right.

00:51:15.579 --> 00:51:18.900
So, yeah, that was a big that was a big that

00:51:18.900 --> 00:51:21.739
was a big shift of mine. And I practice that

00:51:21.739 --> 00:51:25.650
now all day long. I'm like looking down at myself

00:51:25.650 --> 00:51:29.510
and then my family. Yeah, it's a beautiful practice.

00:51:29.650 --> 00:51:32.110
Yeah, that's at the core of what we're really

00:51:32.110 --> 00:51:34.110
sharing is that if people want to live a good

00:51:34.110 --> 00:51:38.289
life, the answers are within. And sometimes it's

00:51:38.289 --> 00:51:40.389
hard to understand what does it mean? Okay, what

00:51:40.389 --> 00:51:43.329
do you mean? Everything I want is within. But

00:51:43.329 --> 00:51:45.769
that's exactly about what you're now sharing.

00:51:46.010 --> 00:51:49.739
If you want a different... relationship, then

00:51:49.739 --> 00:51:52.820
you're checking inside what kind of relationship

00:51:52.820 --> 00:51:56.940
you have with yourself. And often, if digging

00:51:56.940 --> 00:51:59.420
deep enough, we see that it's exactly matching

00:51:59.420 --> 00:52:01.860
the kind of relationships we have on the outside.

00:52:02.440 --> 00:52:05.420
So by changing what's inside, we can change what's

00:52:05.420 --> 00:52:08.039
on the outside. And your example just showed

00:52:08.039 --> 00:52:11.900
that. Yeah. I love always like that, that saying,

00:52:11.920 --> 00:52:14.800
like it really stuck with me. Like the only common

00:52:14.800 --> 00:52:17.599
denominator in all the relationships that we

00:52:17.599 --> 00:52:22.340
have is our is ourselves. So if I know this,

00:52:22.699 --> 00:52:26.440
I know that actually it's never about really

00:52:26.440 --> 00:52:30.280
the other person. always about me. And that is

00:52:30.280 --> 00:52:32.980
greatly empowering because I get to know that

00:52:32.980 --> 00:52:38.059
if I upgrade, if I resolve these patterns, if

00:52:38.059 --> 00:52:41.519
I actually really have the courage to look at

00:52:41.519 --> 00:52:45.059
myself and change these dynamics, I automatically

00:52:45.059 --> 00:52:49.000
will change the... the outer relationships that

00:52:49.000 --> 00:52:51.679
I have. And I think that's why we're, we're doing

00:52:51.679 --> 00:52:54.820
this work really is because we want to live a

00:52:54.820 --> 00:52:57.440
good life. We want to live a love -filled life.

00:52:57.659 --> 00:53:00.340
We want to, we want to live our life with an

00:53:00.340 --> 00:53:03.400
open heart because like, imagine not living your

00:53:03.400 --> 00:53:05.940
life with an open heart. It's like the saddest,

00:53:06.099 --> 00:53:09.880
yeah, like grayest experience that there is,

00:53:10.059 --> 00:53:14.480
right? Like living life from lack. So yeah, it's,

00:53:14.480 --> 00:53:18.480
it's. It's beautiful and it never ends. It never

00:53:18.480 --> 00:53:23.920
ends. It never ends. It never ends. There is

00:53:23.920 --> 00:53:27.039
no end to this road. And I must say that in this

00:53:27.039 --> 00:53:29.579
part of and on this path of self -development

00:53:29.579 --> 00:53:33.309
and on this path of getting into an amazing life

00:53:33.309 --> 00:53:35.710
where our relationships are thriving and we love

00:53:35.710 --> 00:53:38.369
ourselves and we have amazing experiences. This

00:53:38.369 --> 00:53:40.610
integration of inner child and also re -parenting

00:53:40.610 --> 00:53:43.449
and then healing this relationship with inner

00:53:43.449 --> 00:53:45.469
masculine and inner feminine that you've touched

00:53:45.469 --> 00:53:48.849
upon. Particularly the foundations. There is

00:53:48.849 --> 00:53:52.070
nothing without it. It's one of the most important

00:53:52.070 --> 00:53:55.329
things. And like you're saying, that relationship

00:53:55.329 --> 00:53:58.210
with these childlike parts will stay with us.

00:53:58.619 --> 00:54:02.179
forever. It's not like, oh, we healed our wounds,

00:54:02.420 --> 00:54:06.380
right? Like, yes, we heal, but like we make whole,

00:54:06.400 --> 00:54:12.019
but actually these certain imprints are staying

00:54:12.019 --> 00:54:15.340
with us. probably all our lives, you know, it's

00:54:15.340 --> 00:54:18.059
just how we relate to them becomes differently.

00:54:18.059 --> 00:54:20.820
And it's not going to stop that one day I'm going

00:54:20.820 --> 00:54:23.739
to not needing to have to take care of that child

00:54:23.739 --> 00:54:26.340
anymore. And I'm not leading to self -soothe

00:54:26.340 --> 00:54:29.340
anymore. And I'm not leading to be like, come

00:54:29.340 --> 00:54:32.440
back, because that's the condition of being human,

00:54:32.440 --> 00:54:36.519
right? Like it's a constant reminder that we

00:54:36.519 --> 00:54:41.079
are not separate. And yeah, and I think if we

00:54:41.079 --> 00:54:45.440
don't practice this, we definitely, yeah, we

00:54:45.440 --> 00:54:49.079
definitely somehow these, these sneaky beliefs

00:54:49.079 --> 00:54:52.239
and voices do sneak themselves back in. Right.

00:54:53.739 --> 00:54:56.159
And one thing I think that's also beautiful to

00:54:56.159 --> 00:54:58.519
mention is like, sometimes we get really tired.

00:54:58.719 --> 00:55:00.760
Like, oh my God, like I've been doing this for

00:55:00.760 --> 00:55:05.119
10 years and I'm just keep, you know, it keeps,

00:55:05.360 --> 00:55:08.960
I keep experiencing like spirals and intensity

00:55:08.960 --> 00:55:12.409
and things. And I think it's really important

00:55:12.409 --> 00:55:18.510
to know that it's never, it's always gonna like

00:55:18.510 --> 00:55:22.929
move in a spiral healing. Like it never is just,

00:55:22.929 --> 00:55:26.969
it never just is complete, but what changes is

00:55:26.969 --> 00:55:31.889
the actual density and intensity of what comes

00:55:31.889 --> 00:55:34.889
up. Or it might still be very intense what comes

00:55:34.889 --> 00:55:40.039
up in these explorations. But we are so accustomed

00:55:40.039 --> 00:55:43.000
to holding it and there is such a deeper knowing

00:55:43.000 --> 00:55:49.320
of who we are and our stability has changed that

00:55:49.320 --> 00:55:55.139
actually nothing can blow us over just the same

00:55:55.139 --> 00:55:58.739
way. And we actually can move through grief and

00:55:58.739 --> 00:56:01.900
pain with way greater openness because we're

00:56:01.900 --> 00:56:06.340
less scared. of feeling and I think when we are

00:56:06.340 --> 00:56:10.619
less scared of feeling that is what changes all

00:56:10.619 --> 00:56:12.400
our lives because you have to think like why

00:56:12.400 --> 00:56:15.739
did we protect ourselves in the first place because

00:56:15.739 --> 00:56:18.699
we were scared to feel the fullness of our pain

00:56:18.699 --> 00:56:20.780
we're scared to feel the fullness of our loneliness

00:56:20.780 --> 00:56:23.159
we're scared to feel the fullness of the abandonment

00:56:23.159 --> 00:56:26.500
to feel the fullness of the rejection or the

00:56:26.500 --> 00:56:29.480
sadness right and when we learn to feel the fullness

00:56:29.480 --> 00:56:34.099
of these emotions or things that happen to us,

00:56:34.960 --> 00:56:38.739
we lose the fear. Our heart can remain being

00:56:38.739 --> 00:56:41.159
open. We no longer need to protect ourselves

00:56:41.159 --> 00:56:43.460
and then we can live life through that openness,

00:56:43.679 --> 00:56:48.099
which is I think what we want to do. Yes. Yes

00:56:48.099 --> 00:56:50.119
and yes and yes. This is a beautiful conclusion

00:56:50.119 --> 00:56:53.460
for our podcast. And I wonder if there is, what

00:56:53.460 --> 00:56:54.940
would you share with people who are just starting

00:56:54.940 --> 00:56:57.199
this path? How could they start their inner child

00:56:57.199 --> 00:57:07.800
healing journey? That's a good question. Yeah,

00:57:07.820 --> 00:57:10.059
what I would share with people that just started

00:57:10.059 --> 00:57:17.239
this path is the importance of finding therapies

00:57:17.239 --> 00:57:22.460
that include your body. Like, whether it's breathwork,

00:57:22.679 --> 00:57:27.219
whether it's somatic movement, whether it's...

00:57:27.150 --> 00:57:31.090
dance, but to find therapies that will allow

00:57:31.090 --> 00:57:35.869
you to access these deeper buried emotions and

00:57:35.869 --> 00:57:38.730
move them through your body and then allow you

00:57:38.730 --> 00:57:43.059
to process and hold them in a more integrated

00:57:43.059 --> 00:57:46.820
way. So I think what is really important is not

00:57:46.820 --> 00:57:49.619
to just make this a cognitive digging process

00:57:49.619 --> 00:57:52.199
of the past of going through the childhood and

00:57:52.199 --> 00:57:55.059
speaking about the childhood, but it's actually

00:57:55.059 --> 00:58:00.519
not so important. It's not really about the stories.

00:58:00.579 --> 00:58:03.420
It's about the feelings that are behind the stories

00:58:03.420 --> 00:58:07.280
and for you to find therapies that will allow

00:58:07.280 --> 00:58:11.179
you to feel rather than to think. That's 100%.

00:58:11.179 --> 00:58:14.179
I couldn't agree more. I'm so happy you've mentioned

00:58:14.179 --> 00:58:19.739
that because a lot of people can tend to intellectualize

00:58:19.739 --> 00:58:21.659
everything. And when listening to these kind

00:58:21.659 --> 00:58:23.659
of things like the broadcasts we've just recorded,

00:58:24.519 --> 00:58:27.840
It can be really difficult to approach what we

00:58:27.840 --> 00:58:30.860
are sharing just through the mind. Imagine like

00:58:30.860 --> 00:58:33.360
researching, okay, so what is inner chat healing?

00:58:33.460 --> 00:58:35.659
When does it start? What is the proof? What's

00:58:35.659 --> 00:58:37.800
the statistics? Which obviously probably does

00:58:37.800 --> 00:58:40.659
not exist. And like how exactly does that work?

00:58:40.719 --> 00:58:43.340
And what is the exact step number one? It's not

00:58:43.340 --> 00:58:46.039
like that. It is such an intuitive and deep work

00:58:46.039 --> 00:58:48.360
and the body is the one that leads this journey.

00:58:49.119 --> 00:58:52.199
And to also find a facilitator or therapist that

00:58:53.360 --> 00:58:56.519
resonant safety from their body, because you

00:58:56.519 --> 00:59:03.019
want to be held by like a motherly love. You

00:59:03.019 --> 00:59:05.659
want to be held when you go through these deep

00:59:05.659 --> 00:59:10.199
releases by somebody that can induce the space

00:59:10.199 --> 00:59:13.559
with that divine motherly love. And that is really

00:59:13.559 --> 00:59:16.440
the healing frequency. It's not necessarily logic,

00:59:16.800 --> 00:59:22.059
but it's that. power of a mother's love that

00:59:22.059 --> 00:59:25.500
can heal anything, right? Like it's, it's really

00:59:25.500 --> 00:59:28.340
true. So we learned to embody that in ourselves.

00:59:28.340 --> 00:59:31.119
And if we are held by that in a container, it's

00:59:31.119 --> 00:59:34.880
immensely powerful. And obviously, I mean, you

00:59:34.880 --> 00:59:38.059
called your whole, like you called your whole

00:59:38.059 --> 00:59:41.440
work feel, right? Which is, which is beautiful.

00:59:41.639 --> 00:59:44.559
It's probably exactly that, right? Or what made

00:59:44.559 --> 00:59:52.039
you choose the word feel for It is exactly that,

00:59:52.179 --> 00:59:54.300
right? Because by feeling, this is where we are

00:59:54.300 --> 00:59:56.860
transforming. There is enough information these

00:59:56.860 --> 00:59:59.780
days, everything that's developing in technology

00:59:59.780 --> 01:00:01.880
and social media. And I mean, information is

01:00:01.880 --> 01:00:06.500
no longer an issue. We don't need to... more

01:00:06.500 --> 01:00:09.119
now we need to feel more and that's really the

01:00:09.119 --> 01:00:13.019
answer for our development and sharing things

01:00:13.019 --> 01:00:15.639
like holding and experiencing that's where treats

01:00:15.639 --> 01:00:18.280
are really coming going into an experience where

01:00:18.280 --> 01:00:20.360
you can actually be held and witnessed and see

01:00:20.360 --> 01:00:23.320
how other people are so powerful working one

01:00:23.320 --> 01:00:27.460
-on -one or doing practices even just doing practices

01:00:27.460 --> 01:00:31.239
is just so so powerful and intellectualization

01:00:31.239 --> 01:00:35.199
is rather can be rather harmful yes if it's approached

01:00:35.199 --> 01:00:39.820
that And maybe we give them like one really simple

01:00:39.820 --> 01:00:43.699
practice actually that you can start to do every

01:00:43.699 --> 01:00:47.780
morning that has changed my experience. Like

01:00:47.780 --> 01:00:51.760
I'm going to actually get up and it's a shaking

01:00:51.760 --> 01:00:55.210
practice. you soften your legs and with that

01:00:55.210 --> 01:00:57.730
soften of your legs the kind of vibration starts

01:00:57.730 --> 01:01:01.630
to come through all of your body and by moving

01:01:01.630 --> 01:01:04.050
vibration through all of our body our nervous

01:01:04.050 --> 01:01:07.769
system gets to through breath sound and that

01:01:07.769 --> 01:01:11.250
shaking start to release any places where we

01:01:11.250 --> 01:01:14.599
are holding tension and contraction and when

01:01:14.599 --> 01:01:17.539
we start to loosen these places where we're holding

01:01:17.539 --> 01:01:20.480
tension and contraction and we are able to bring

01:01:20.480 --> 01:01:23.280
energy there usually in these places of tension

01:01:23.280 --> 01:01:26.199
and contraction there lives these old memories

01:01:26.199 --> 01:01:30.539
right or these old or these old emotions that

01:01:30.539 --> 01:01:33.900
we weren't able to process and by giving them

01:01:33.900 --> 01:01:36.480
breath and movement and sound we're able to move

01:01:36.480 --> 01:01:38.760
them through the body so often in the morning

01:01:38.760 --> 01:01:42.369
I wake up and I do this I breathe in and out

01:01:42.369 --> 01:01:49.389
of the mouth. And especially when I'm moving

01:01:49.389 --> 01:01:52.750
through like tender moments where I am triggered

01:01:52.750 --> 01:01:56.449
or I am tense or I am, then I'm like really allowing

01:01:56.449 --> 01:01:59.389
this emotion to flow through me. And then I usually

01:01:59.389 --> 01:02:02.329
experience an emotional release that allows me

01:02:02.329 --> 01:02:05.550
to come back to myself and hold myself, right?

01:02:05.550 --> 01:02:08.289
And that's, it's a beautiful, potent practice.

01:02:08.869 --> 01:02:12.530
Yeah. I mean, I love this practice. It's so important.

01:02:12.789 --> 01:02:16.070
I hope more people start their day this way or

01:02:16.070 --> 01:02:18.329
do this after work or do this before something

01:02:18.329 --> 01:02:21.469
important to release all this tension that's

01:02:21.469 --> 01:02:24.010
there. That's pretty normal to collect these

01:02:24.010 --> 01:02:31.230
days. Thank you, Maria. I'm so grateful and I

01:02:31.230 --> 01:02:33.909
loved our three months together. I mean, you

01:02:33.909 --> 01:02:36.289
were sharing what has happened. you worked on,

01:02:36.590 --> 01:02:38.949
but I mean, me, I was working on my blood drinking

01:02:38.949 --> 01:02:43.349
whore. It's the archetype that I really wanted

01:02:43.349 --> 01:02:46.889
to bring forward because I've been my like, we're

01:02:46.889 --> 01:02:49.090
talking about conditioning. So my was like my.

01:02:49.369 --> 01:02:52.550
pretty nice girl that wants to like also please

01:02:52.550 --> 01:02:55.570
and like, and I was able to bring forward that

01:02:55.570 --> 01:02:57.909
blood drinking whore that doesn't give a damn

01:02:57.909 --> 01:03:00.730
and she takes what she wants. And so yeah, this

01:03:00.730 --> 01:03:03.250
work can become really juicy, you know, really

01:03:03.250 --> 01:03:06.730
grateful for the months we shared together. I

01:03:06.730 --> 01:03:09.329
love guiding you towards your blood drinking

01:03:09.329 --> 01:03:16.070
whore. Owning it and making it juicy and sexy

01:03:16.070 --> 01:03:19.760
is just so good. Such a bastard power. Such a

01:03:19.760 --> 01:03:22.820
bastard power. That was Miriam Adler on the Feminine

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to us and allows us to grow this podcast and

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our mission to help women to embody their true

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power. I'm Mariya Grinina, I'm your host of the

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Feminine Power Podcast and Feminine Magnetism

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Coach. And if you want to connect with me, check

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the episode description.