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Hello and welcome to I accidentally pressed the theme song button on the mixer and it

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But hello and welcome to the Young and Love podcast, a podcast for being young and love

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has absolutely zero, absolutely nothing to do with your age and being young and love,

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but it has all to do with your maturity and your growth and your experiences in love over

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time here at Young and Love.

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We talk about all things love those things.

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Well, I guess three things love and those three things being your relation, your spiritual

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love, which is your love with your faith, your love with God, love with others, which

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can be your girlfriend, your boyfriend, your husband, your wife, your fiance, your family

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members, your friends.

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And then the one that I always say is second important after my spiritual love for me is

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your self love, how you love yourself, how you show yourself love, how you show yourself

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appreciation.

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But welcome back to episode.

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Was this the second episode?

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Yeah, welcome back to the second episode of the Young and Love podcast.

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Today as you can tell by the title, I actually don't know what I'm calling this episode as

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of right now in my notes here I have dating in 2023.

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I have dating me then dating you dating in 2023.

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I don't I don't really know whatever the title is.

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Welcome back to the title of this podcast.

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I am probably this is probably one of my favorite topics to talk about.

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I love talking about relationships.

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I love looking at other people's relationships and not judging them, but analyzing them.

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I love people coming to me and telling me about their relationships, the good, the bad,

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ugly and everything else in between.

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So I wanted to do this episode when I was just trying to figure out what in the world

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I was going to talk about today because today is Tuesday.

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The podcast is uploaded on Wednesdays or Thursdays.

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I apologize in advance if you can hear that clicking noise because I can hear it in my

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ear, but I don't know.

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But anyway, I wanted to talk about this for a while, but just struggle with trying to

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figure out how to properly map out an episode conversation about this.

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But lately I have seen a lot of when I say lately, I mean probably like the past five

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to ten years, just seen a lot of posts on social media about the struggles of dating,

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the struggles of relationships.

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I'm going to say in 2023, but in 2023, 22, 21, 20, 19, 18, 17 and all in all of those

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years seeing different posts about people struggling in relationships almost every single

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day seeing so many TikTok trends of people like outing different relationships that they

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were in and just outing the bad parts of those relationships.

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And it makes me wonder where are all the good relationships?

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Like what are y'all hiding?

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Where y'all at?

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Why is my for you page not full of those things versus being full of all the negative relationships

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that I am currently starting to see?

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And so in the post that I've seen or in the captions that I've seen, there really has

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been a breakdown in relationships and people just not being faithful.

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People presenting after like we see this often time people presenting themselves as one person

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on the first couple of dates and then eventually like that, that I guess the high romance or

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whatever starts to fade away and you start to see more of who people really are.

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You know, they're one way at first and then they change up months later or days later,

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sometimes weeks later.

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I saw a post today, somebody was somebody had screenshotted their text message exchange

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that they had with somebody that they were talking to and seeing how some people are

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really just there just for the sex.

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And then after after y'all have sex, then they're on and off to the next person.

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I've seen it all.

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I've heard it all.

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And I'm questioning where are the good relationships at and just questioning the climate of dating

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or trying to date in 2023.

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I will be honest, I have not had probably not even a slither of the experiences that

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I am seeing online, but I definitely have had my fair share of bad relationships, my

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fair share of trial and error, trial and error in relationships.

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And if I'm honest, I think a lot of the trial and error, a lot of the bad parts that I've

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seen in relationships, the bad parts that I've experienced in relationships, sometimes

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they are the other person.

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Sometimes they're the girls that I'm dealing with.

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But as of late, I've taken a lot of time to become more accountable of my own actions

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and really seeing where I messed up and where I slipped up in relationships, where I was

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probably the toxic person in relationships.

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And so rather than spending an episode, this will never be a podcast of me trying to degrade

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women, trying to pull down one gender to lift up another.

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This will never be that kind of podcast.

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So throughout this episode, I want to walk through different experiences that I've had

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in my life that have shaped my dating scene.

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Good or bad, kind of expose the negative attributes that I've probably contributed to relationships

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and then walk down to where I am now and where I am now in relationships and how I've changed.

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I don't think I've ever said out loud.

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Maybe I have probably on a live that I have been, I was in my longest relationship was

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seven years long.

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I think it's an episode for another day of how that relationship ended, what I learned

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in that relationship and then how I would, how I move forward after that relationship.

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I just want to, I just want to lay the lay the foundation.

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I have my own experiences of that seven year relationship, good or bad.

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They are my experiences.

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They might for me, that is for me, my experiences are my truth for other people.

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You know, for the girl I was in relationship with things that I might say or describe in

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that relationship might not be her truth.

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She is more than welcome to come on any podcast, any TikTok thing that I post and dispel anything

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that I see that she feels like isn't true.

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I'll never say her name.

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I would never disrespect her or anybody.

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But there were some things that happened in that relationship that I feel like I'm in

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a place now where I can be transparent and honest and kind of share those or share that

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experience with the people who are watching the podcast.

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What I've mainly learned through it all through that seven year relationship and through the

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relationships or the dating scene that I've experienced after that relationship is that

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I am no good to you if I am no good to me first.

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And so I oftentimes wonder if we are stuck in miserable relationships with people who

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seem like miserable people, not because they want to do us any bad, but because they don't

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do themselves any good first.

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I don't think you can love me if you don't know how to love you first.

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I don't think you can be kind to me if you are not kind to yourself.

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I don't think you can make time for me if you don't make time for yourself.

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I have been on the other end of that, of not understanding who I was, not understanding

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what I wanted in relationships and then showing up in relationships and not being able to

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give the girl that I was in relationship with anything because I really wasn't able to give

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myself anything.

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And so I think that first, in order for us to be good in relationships with other people,

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we have to be good in relationships with ourselves.

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And when we're good in relationships with ourselves, we're able to identify when other

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people are not good to them, when other people are not good to themselves first.

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And so we don't have these probably like, what was the word, these expectations that

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are like justified.

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I think that we have justified expectations in relationships.

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I think that we have justified expectations in relationships on a general consensus, like

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these things that we expect people to be loyal, to be faithful, to be committed, to be trustworthy,

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to put an effort, whatever.

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I think that having those expectations, that's justifiable, but who we have them for, I don't

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think that that is always justified.

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So before we jump too deep into this episode, we're going to play a quick icebreaker.

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It is a game that we have played.

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It is a very quick game.

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It's a game that you probably played before in summer camp.

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It is called this or that very quick.

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Let me know in the comment section down below this or that.

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Do you prefer a hot summer?

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I was going to say a hot summer.

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Do you prefer a hot summer or a cold winter?

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My answer super quick.

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I despise a hot summer.

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I think it is easier to get warm than it is to cool off.

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I feel like it'd be hard to cool yourself down in the summer and to like stay cool.

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Like to drink a cool bottle of water is great, but how long does that last?

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To fan yourself is great, but now your arms tired.

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To be in an air conditioned place is great, but when you got to step outside, it all fades

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versus in the winter time, you can put your gloves on, put your coat on, put a blanket

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on in the house, put the fireplace like you'll be fine.

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I feel like it's easier to stay warm when you're cold.

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I feel like it's easier to create warmth than it is to create to create cool.

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So winter winter all day for me.

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If I had to pick a season, though, I would pick fall fall right in the middle.

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Spring is also right in the middle, but spring y'all be doing a lot with this pollen.

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I can't do it.

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So definitely fall as a season.

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But in the game of this or that, I'm picking cold winter every time.

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If you pick hot summer, something wrong with you.

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But moving on, let's go back to dating in two thousand and twenty three.

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So I did a quick Google search and found some facts about dating in twenty twenty three

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found a fact about dating in twenty twenty three.

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And it's from the thriving center of psychology.

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I don't know how reliable the source is.

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So please excuse me.

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But the thriving center of psychology says that dating in twenty twenty three is that

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fifty six percent of people say that dating is harder now than in previous years.

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That's literally over half of the people that they pulled or surveyed.

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Fifty six percent of people say that dating is harder now.

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I do think that there's a lot that goes into that.

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Fifty six percent of people.

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I'm not going to jump into talking or having a discussion about the different characteristic

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traits because I do think that some can be genderized while others can be generalized.

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But I am going to talk about my experiences in relationships, how I've been in relationships

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and just what I've experienced, what I've seen, what I noticed in relationships that

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I've been in that kind of make dating in twenty twenty three seem like a hard task.

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All right.

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So as I stated earlier, I was in a relationship for seven years.

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I was 14 when that relationship started.

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So I guess I was 21 when the relationship ended.

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I'm 25 now.

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Twenty five, four, three, two, one, three.

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Two one zero.

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So that relationship ended in twenty nineteen.

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I don't really I don't really remember when I want to say at the top of twenty nineteen.

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I know that it was on and off for a minute.

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I think after somewhere in the pandemic is when it definitely it was like it fully ended.

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But I think throughout that relationship, if I can think about what my top three flaws

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were, my top three flaws were in that relationship, the first one would definitely be the lack

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of accountability.

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The second one would be the lack of vulnerability and third one would be the lack of self-appreciation.

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Now I think that not just for that seven year relationship that these things apply.

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I think that seven year relationship and then maybe the first couple of girls that I was

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talking to.

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I hadn't actually asked anybody to be my girlfriend until last year.

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But before that, I think those relationships in the middle of that, I definitely lacked

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accountability, vulnerability and self-appreciation.

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I think I came around to accountability before I started moving on to other relationships.

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But for the lack of accountability, I think that there were just different things in the

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relationship that I probably should have been doing, like making time for her, catering

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more to her love languages, being more willing to.

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I think I was not even I think I was a person that like if she wanted to do something and

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I didn't want to do it, we're not doing it.

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But if I wanted to do something and she wanted to do something, if I wanted to do something

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and she did not want to do it, she would still be like, all right, I want to do it.

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You know, but she would go and regardless of if she thought it was fun or not, she would

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still do it.

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And so I think on my end of accountability for those things that I think I lacked the

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self accountability of being like, bro, you know, if you love somebody, if you're in a

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relationship with somebody, you know, then part of that is doing the things that you

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probably don't want to now.

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Not everything.

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But sometimes it's a compromise of doing things that you don't want to do, but that, you know,

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make the other person happy.

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And so in those ways, I can definitely take accountability.

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Now I can take accountability.

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But then I don't think that I took much accountability and doing my part or serving my part in that

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relationship when it came to vulnerability.

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I definitely don't think that I was vulnerable with my emotions.

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I wasn't vulnerable with my feelings in that relationship.

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I wasn't vulnerable with my I don't think I was vulnerable with my expectations in that

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relationship either.

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And I don't even think not just a seven year.

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I think until I think really until this relationship or maybe the girl that I talked to before

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the relationship that I'm in now, I think that's when I started to become more vulnerable

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and expressing how I felt and not quite my I think I expressed my emotions a lot more

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in this relationship than I than I have in any relationship that I've ever been in.

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But in the relationships prior, I definitely was not vulnerable.

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And I think that we people talk oftentimes about how being vulnerable, like you have

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to create an atmosphere of vulnerable of a safe place for a man to be vulnerable.

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And I think that in all those relationships, like I think those spaces were available and

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they were open.

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I just don't know that I understood the importance of here.

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Here's the problem that I had in relationships, right?

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If I'm dating you, I don't think I did not think that I would have to tell you.

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I did not think that I would have to tell you that you were beautiful all the time because

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in my peanut sized brain, I imagined that you would think if I'm dating you, then obviously

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I think you're beautiful.

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And then I got older and I think I realized that it really wasn't about saying that she

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was beautiful, although that was the action that came with the underlying feeling.

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I think it was more of she wanted to know that I noticed her.

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She wanted to know that I noticed her.

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She wanted to know that I noticed the effort that she put in to look this nice on the date

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that we were going out on.

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She wanted to know that even after all this time that we've been together, that I still

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found her just as attractive as I did when we first started.

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I don't know why I made it such a big deal.

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Dang, there is your you.

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I'm coming to a revelation.

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I was I probably would have edited, edited this part out, but I'm coming to like a mass,

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a massive, a massive revelation here of like another point of accountability that like

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she wasn't asking.

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They're not asking women to the guys who are watching this.

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If your girl is asking you to tell her that she's beautiful, she just wants to know that

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you see her.

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She's not asking you for a lot.

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It doesn't take a lot.

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I was one of the guys.

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Well, I was one of those guys who never wanted to say it because you have to assume that

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if I'm with you, then of course I think you're attractive.

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No, no, no, no, no, no.

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Tell her it does not take a lot to open up your mouth and verbalize.

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Yo, I think you're beautiful.

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You look cute.

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You're beautiful.

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You're pretty.

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They're not to write a random text message right now and say you are so beautiful.

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That is what they want because she wants to know that you see her.

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You know how crazy that is.

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All right.

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So I don't know how we got there.

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I don't know how I did a slip this part, snip this part for tick tock.

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I don't know how I got there.

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Let me text my girlfriend right now and randomly just tell her that I think she's beautiful,

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although I'd be telling her all the time that she's beautiful.

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Let me tell her.

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All right.

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So yeah, lack of accountability, lack of vulnerability.

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I really don't know how we got to that beautiful part.

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Lack of vulnerability.

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And then I think the most important thing that I lacked, going back to the top of this

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episode we started at, is I lacked self-appreciation.

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I think that I struggled with some insecurities.

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I struggled with on what loving myself looked like.

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And so it was very hard.

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And honestly, I do wish for the seven year relationship, I wish that maybe she would

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have been more understanding of the fact that like, or just seeing the fact that I, even

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though I put on a good show, that I really wasn't comfortable with myself, I really didn't

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love myself.

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The way that a person, really the way that a man should love a person should love themselves.

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I think that if she would have saw that like, you don't really like yourself.

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You don't really show yourself that you love yourself.

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I think that had she seen that, then you can put two and two together of how do I expect

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you to love me if you don't even love yourself.

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And what loving yourself looks like, I think in action, I think verbally it looks like

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the way that you speak about yourself.

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If somebody calls you handsome, if somebody calls you beautiful, do you cast it down or

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do you accept it?

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The way you talk about, you know, I think physically the way that you take care of yourself,

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do you put an effort, if you're going outside, do you put an effort to look nice?

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Not 24 seven, because I don't do it all the time, but do you put an effort to look nice?

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Do you keep yourself well groomed?

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Those are the three things that I lacked, accountability, vulnerability and appreciation.

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Although those aren't like, I wouldn't consider those to be majorly toxic traits.

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I think that in our society today, I don't know, bro.

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I think there's a lot of masking going on in our society.

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I think that people are showing up as one person, showing up as a good person, both

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male and female.

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I think people are showing up as, you know, good people at first, as people who are not

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just in it for the sex, people who are not just in it for the money, people who are not

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just in it for the dates.

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I think they're showing up as that at first.

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And then I think that when the rubber hits the road and you know, you do want to move

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more into a relationship with that person somehow along the way they change.

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They're not as nice as they used to be.

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And that is one of the things that I remind myself constantly of in my current relationship

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is that I don't want to have showed up as this really nice guy.

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And then randomly, and then randomly like switch up on her and be somebody else.

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But I think also if my character is to be a nice person, I'm going to be a nice person

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regardless, like all the time.

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I think that when it's not in your character to be, and I think that that's why we kind

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of have to appreciate when people, when people's representative don't last throughout the entire

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time, I would much rather understand and discover who your character is and make a choice from

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there than to look at who your representative was and be mad that it kind of faded away.

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I'm glad it faded away because now I get to understand and learn who you're who you actually

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are as a person.

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But yeah, I think that people oftentimes are showing up one way and then changing up.

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I think that people are more undecided.

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I think that I don't know that we are just upfront with our expectations and relationships

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on both ends.

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I wonder if the people who are experiencing these negative, these bad relationships are

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showing up and saying, I'm looking for a relationship that's going to last long.

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I'm looking for a relationship that's going to turn into a marriage.

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You know, because then if you're saying that to a person and they are easy and they see

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the next cute girl, the next good looking guy and they're like chasing after them.

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Did like how did y'all have a conversation about lasting?

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You know what I mean?

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How do I how do I how do I word what I'm trying to say right now?

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I think that people who want to be in lasting relationships with the person that they're

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in a relationship with now will see.

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I see beautiful women all the time.

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There's nothing in me though that sees them and is like, oh, I wish I could pursue after

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a relationship with them.

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So I think that when you have conversations with the person that you're with and identify

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like what are you looking for?

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Are you looking for a long term relationship?

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Although some people now those are some people do be lying to be saying that they're looking

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for a long.

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I'm sure you can think about somebody right now who said that they were looking for a

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long lasting relationship.

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And in reality, they weren't in reality.

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They weren't because when the next best thing came, they ran to that.

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So I think that there is a portion of us that are part of us that we have to learn how to

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be content.

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Being single.

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And I think that that also goes back to being able to love yourself, being able to appreciate

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yourself, being able to spend alone time.

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I love the relationship that I'm in right now.

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However, if something happened, God forbid, I would be okay with being like, I enjoy there.

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I don't think there's anything wrong with being single.

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I enjoy my life as being a single man.

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I enjoy my life as being a man in a relationship.

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And so I think that when you don't learn how to enjoy your time alone, you'll see being

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single, you'll always see being single as a bad thing.

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I think that when you don't enjoy your time alone, when you don't know how to be comfortable

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being alone, you will see every breakup as all bad and as no good.

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I think every breakup, I think every situation, every relationship that you get out of gives

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you one, a time of freedom, but also gives you a time and an opportunity to learn yourself,

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to relearn yourself, to learn what worked for you in that relationship, what didn't

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work for you in that relationship, how are you good in that relationship?

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How are you not good in that relationship?

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And then to teach you how to apply those things moving forward.

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But when you're not satisfied, but when you are not happy with yourself, then you only

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see the breakup as a negative thing.

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I don't think, and so I don't think that being single is a terrible, I don't want to die.

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I don't want to die, you know, unmarried, you know, whatever.

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I don't want to die being single, but I do, I do.

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Absolutely.

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I enjoyed my time of singleness.

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I enjoy my time of being in relationships.

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What's my golden nugget?

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I guess my biggest, and so I guess the biggest golden nugget from this episode or the biggest

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repetitive thing from this episode is when it comes to dating, really in any year, but

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when it comes to dating in 2023, although it's hard, it is confusing.

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It is toxic.

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It's dangerous out here.

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Somebody say there's pee in the, there's pee in this pool.

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There's pee in the pool.

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I need to put some chlorine in the pool.

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I've also heard a lady say that there's not pee in the dating pool.

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It's just the pool.

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It's just the pool that you decide to go to.

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I don't really know how true that is.

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I feel like I've experienced a lot of different pools, a lot of different dating pools, and

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it seemed to be, you know, a little bit of pee in all of them.

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You just got to find the good people amongst the pee, whatever.

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But I think the ultimate, the ultimate like pow wow, the ultimate nugget of this episode

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is to be satisfied, be not satisfied, but understand the power of being single, understand

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the power of being alone and knowing how to take that time and utilize it properly, knowing

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how to take that time to get to really learn and not just learn yourself.

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Cause I think that we spend a lot of time learning ourselves and a little bit of time

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loving ourselves.

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And once you understand who you are and how you need to be loved, then it makes loving

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other people a little bit easier.

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It makes, it makes loving other people that you're in relationships with, especially it

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makes loving other people easier.

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It makes it more, it makes it easier to love them.

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And it gives you the ability to really love them from a different angle.

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One of the things that I'll say this and then I'm about to say, I'll say this and then we'll

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close out.

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That sounds like a church, a church thing to say, a churchy thing to say, but I'll say

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this and then we'll close.

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One of the things, one of the most important things that I learned in dating is to see

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the person that you were in relationship with as a person first and then your significant

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other second.

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I've been in relationships and I've seen the girls that I dated as my girlfriend first

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and that although loving can sometimes come with seeing them as your girlfriend, but also

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seeing them as somebody who broke your heart, somebody who, you know, crossed the lines

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of loyalty, somebody who, who, you know, is your home, but also somebody who was your

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aggravation.

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So for me, seeing my girlfriend as my girlfriend first, it always came with emotions that were

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attached to those experiences versus when I saw her as a person first, I didn't have

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any good or bad experience to base my emotions off of outside of the fact that I'm just kind

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to people first because there are things when I see people out on the street, there are

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things that people go through that I will never know.

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There are experiences that people have outside of my presence.

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And so when I put that mind on and I saw my girlfriend, I saw her as a person who has

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issues outside of this relationship, who's had experiences that I haven't been a part

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of, who has feelings that have nothing to do with me, good or bad, saw her as that first.

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And then I saw her as my girlfriend, who should be able to find a home in me outside of all

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the negative experiences that she's had as a person.

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That I feel like has changed my, my life.

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I feel like it has changed my dating life.

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I feel like it has changed my perspective and how I deal with people that I'm in a relationship

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with.

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It has really made me.

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That has really changed the person that I show up as in my relationships.

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And so the encouragement to you is though dating might be hard in 2023, though dating

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might be, you might've tried dating around and you know, you might've found some, some

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frogs in the dating pool.

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My encouragement to you is don't, I don't want to say don't give up as if it's like

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a rat race to find the person that, that you're supposed to be with.

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But I will say, take care of you first, learn and grow.

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That is literally what I did.

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Learn and grow you first.

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And I think that the right person will see you learning and will see you growing and

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they will come along and it'll be, it'll be the right person.

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It will always be the right person at the right time.

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Thank you guys for listening or for watching this podcast.

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Nothing but love as I said before, and I said, I will say it time and time again.

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I hope that if you are a genuine person that you can be met with, you can be found with

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genuine love.

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I have nothing but the greatest wishes and expectations really for everybody who like

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good people just deserve good people.

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That is, that is what my heart bleeds.

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Good people deserve good people.

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And I hope you find yours.

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Thank you again for listening to the podcast.

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Be sure to watch and subscribe on YouTube if you are not already, if you are not already

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and be sure to like and to follow or subscribe on whatever platform you're watching.

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Stay connected with me on all social media platforms.

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Really?

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That's just Instagram and Tik Tok at the Darius Covington.

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And until until until until I don't know what the proper word is until next time I will

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see you or you'll see me next week on Wednesday on the young and love podcast.

459
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Peace out y'all.

460
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And that is that that is episode.

461
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We're at 43 minutes.

462
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The thing is it really do.

463
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It really do be 43 minutes and then it lasts for like once I edit it, you know, once I

464
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edit it, it'll go down to like 20 or 30 minutes.

465
00:30:11,120 --> 00:30:12,120
Wow.

466
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Forty one thirty three.

467
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All right.

468
00:30:14,520 --> 00:30:15,520
Yes.

469
00:30:15,520 --> 00:30:16,520
So 41 minutes.

470
00:30:16,520 --> 00:30:17,520
All right.

471
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So that's that's that's that's that.

472
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So that's that's that's that.

473
00:30:48,520 --> 00:31:15,520
So that's that's that's that.

474
00:31:15,520 --> 00:31:34,520
So that's that's that's that.

475
00:31:34,520 --> 00:31:53,520
So that's that's that's that.

476
00:31:53,520 --> 00:32:12,520
So that's that's that's that.

477
00:32:12,520 --> 00:32:31,520
So that's that's that's that.

478
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So that's that's that's that.