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I mean, on the deepest level, I think a lot of my motivations

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come from just having a, not having a lot of stability

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in my childhood and in my upbringing.

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Like there just wasn't a lot of,

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it just felt like there wasn't a lot of ground to stand on.

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And for a while, I blamed all kinds of people for this.

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And then as I approached the age that my parents were,

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when they had me, I'm like, no, it makes perfect sense.

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Like they were young and like this is,

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they were opera singers.

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Like they had no money.

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They had, my dad had a career that forced him to travel

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in order to make any money.

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He had to be away from home in Europe, mostly singing opera,

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always at the mercy of agents, of promoters, of companies,

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like never really self-sufficient.

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Like when you're a performer,

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you are at the mercy of everybody around you

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and everybody wants a piece of it.

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And so I think that like.