I mean, on the deepest level, I think a lot of my motivations
come from just having a, not having a lot of stability
in my childhood and in my upbringing.
Like there just wasn't a lot of,
it just felt like there wasn't a lot of ground to stand on.
And for a while, I blamed all kinds of people for this.
And then as I approached the age that my parents were,
when they had me, I'm like, no, it makes perfect sense.
Like they were young and like this is,
they were opera singers.
Like they had no money.
They had, my dad had a career that forced him to travel
in order to make any money.
He had to be away from home in Europe, mostly singing opera,
always at the mercy of agents, of promoters, of companies,
like never really self-sufficient.
Like when you're a performer,
you are at the mercy of everybody around you
and everybody wants a piece of it.
And so I think that like.