Are you scared of being alone?
Does the thought of you being by yourself make you freeze up in fear or just make your heart start beating out of your chest?
Does it
Make you feel crippled?
Just alone
Why is that?
Why is it that some of us are so afraid afraid of being left with just ourselves?
And with our own thoughts and own devices that it honestly just cripples us
Well today, we'll look take a look at that
Aspect of fear through one of the characters from blue locks, you know blue locks dancing boy Meguru Bajira
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That will be going over just a few things
From the manga just to make it all tie together
Without further ado, let's get into it
so
I said this thing about trauma, right?
Essentially, what is it that you can't move past from?
What is it that happened in your past whether it's it was last week, you know two years ago
14 years ago when you were a child. What was it? What was that moment or moments that
Basically
Blocked in that they blocked off the part of your mind where is okay
I'm gonna be okay to be by myself to be my own person and
the reason I'm bringing this up because
Bajira
He experienced a trauma like that during his youth
so again for those who don't know who character Bajira is Bajira is
you know, obviously another character in Blue Lock another another four and
his
incredible skills with the ball is
honestly second to none like his dribbling and passing is
far and wide better than majority of the characters on the series and
And as a child his the way he played was clearly better than some of the other kids and
like like what we humans do what we don't understand we fear right and
The kids decided to bully him about it. They decided to bully him
because of a
if his eccentric personality because again, if you've
Seen the series or even ready, you know Bajira is a weird guy. He's he's he's weird
But then again, aren't we all right, but he's a little out there and
Not only that they they bullied him because of his gifts
They were they were they were jealous or not. They didn't understand it, but they hated the fact that he was so good
at soccer and that they couldn't do anything to stop him they didn't want to play with him anymore and
When he asked them why you know, just do what I do and granted he didn't understand
That not everyone can do what he do. That's his gift. But at the same time
The kids just started shunning him and he shunned him some of them even tried to beat him up
but
and his
Something that's simple as that right of not being if not being understood if not being
Not being and not being able to connect to other people around you and he kind of just shunned
the shunned him and he kind of shut down and became cut off and
The way he coped with it
It was to create what he calls the monster and the monster essentially is a
personification of the type of soccer that Bajira wants to play
somebody who can keep up with his skill keep up with his creativity when he has the ball and
be able to play the way he wants to play and
The issue with that is you can't play with an imaginary person and
They've shown some flashbacks
We try to play soccer with his teammates and some of his passes looked erratic because he wasn't passing to an actual person
he was passing to
the monster that was beyond the person where Bajira figured okay, this is the best place to put it and
Growing up he always felt alone because of that
He always felt like it was only him and the other person that he was playing with
He felt alone because of that he always felt like it was only him and in this monster that he made up in his mind
Because no one else seems to understand him. No one else
wants to take the time to understand him and and really get to get to know who he is and
I
Feel like that can happen to a lot of people here and I mean I was in the real world too, right?
Where you may be a little different from other people, you know for better or for worse, right?
And you feel you feel you do feel alone. I feel like no one really understands you and you
Either have to put on a mask or put on you
You put on airs about how you are how you really are
Maybe you had to put on a mask to be the perfect child and me to be the perfect sibling, you know spouse
boss employee, you know, whatever role is that you're trying to feel and
You may maybe you feel isolated because of that because no one ever gets a hundred percent of you
Because you're afraid to show a hundred percent of you
We go remember that's because something happened in your past. Maybe you tried to be more expressive be more
authentic and people reacted negative negatively to that and
Maybe I don't want too many times. You just said, you know, forget it. I
Don't I don't want to I don't want to experience that pain again
I don't want to experience that pain again. I don't want to experience any pain again. So I'm not gonna let myself feel anything and
As
Good as that sounds is really is really not it's really not it shutting yourself off in the world
Should shuts off
Everything not just the potential pain but also shuts off the potential
you know love and joy that you get to feel when you connect with other people and
That can leave you feeling numb I'm inside always
Always walking around with a with a sort of fakeness about it
Because after a while you start to resent yourself too because you feel okay. What's wrong with me? Why can't I just be like them?
Why can't I just be accepted? Why can't anyone just accept me for who I am, right?
And then you start not understanding yourself and then the people around you and it's just it just starts becoming a downward spiral and
downward spiral and
They can you can easily easily get stuck there and
When I want you down there, it's hard. It's hard to get out
It's hard once you want some negative self-talk starts to seep in
and really take all it gets it gets difficult to break those chains and
I just I just want to tell you that you it it's okay to be different
Because everyone's different and I know I don't know if you've ever walked around and you know seen another version of yourself
Unless you're a twin, right?
You're a twin triplet something like that, but even then
That just because they have the same face doesn't mean it's the same you right?
They're their own person and you're your own person and that's how that's how God made each and every one of us made is unique
It made us different with our different gifts and different talents. I mean again, that's the that's the theme of
the theme of
This season of the of me covering blue lock is that we're all different. We're all made different
We all have different gifts. We all have different talents. We all have different ways of thinking
different ways of
communicating different ways of expressing ourselves and
Them that's what makes this world beautiful. Okay, if everyone was the same we'd be boring is just
It'd be boring. You know creativity and there'd be no room for innovation. No room for
improvement if everyone's saying you're just doing the same thing each and every day and
Again, I don't know about you. I don't want to live in a world like that. That's just that
man, that's so so boring and
You can say being indifferent is cool. It really is because you get to do some things and no one else can and
That kind of moved me to my next point is
essentially moving past that trauma, you know, how to
since you fall back in love with yourself and your uniqueness and
not just not just yourself, but who who you are who God called you to be right and
For Bacchira it was basically just decided to be more confident in his own skills and being the one who gets to choose
right not always being the one to
Has to be chosen by somebody else if you feel like you need someone else to choose for you to choose you like yes
Come on, pick me pick me. I'm clearly the best here, but
Flipping it and be like, you know it no, I'm gonna take control of my own life. I'm going to
Be the one who gets to choose from now on that you basically if you're not
You know, I'm not gonna say worthy guess that's a
Good no one's better than anybody else. But if you're not on the same vibe that I am then I
Don't I don't want to have anything to do with you and then that's in the sense that you know, if you're not
If you're just all you can do is just drag me down or tear me down or you know
Try to put me down then I don't need you in my life
you know, we don't have to agree on everything, but you're not gonna sit here and
degrade me and
Just basically just badmouth me the whole time because I've seen so many times where people
and especially in playing the role in a romantic relationships now again, everyone's situation is different
you know, there's other factors involved, but
They just stay in these
In these just negative situations with these with these people
now whether the people themselves are negative or just
Them together is negative because then that happens too to good people can be in a negative situation because they're just not good for each other
and
It can be just at that time. Maybe we'll need to grow more
Individually so they can come together or what have you like I said, there's different different factors for different situations, but
oftentimes it's the fear of being alone the fear of
Still not being good enough for the next person because some people may think that hey if I can't make this relationship work
I'm not gonna be able to make any relationship work
So I might as well stay here with this person because you know already got skin in the game. I'm already here
and
That that's that's that's not it. That's really not it
You know take the time to really evaluate yourself in your situation because again
Like referring to last episode the only thing we can control is is ourselves, right? How we how we act how we react to things
We can only control what what we can do so
Yeah, so I strongly encourage you just to take the time to really look back at yourself
to really look back at your sister whatever situation you may be in and
Really reflect on yourself. It's like okay
What is it that I can do? What's the work that I can work on to kind of reclaim?
that that love for yourself and honestly because
Hey, you're awesome
honestly, you're awesome and
Not everyone's gonna see that awesomeness
Some people some people are gonna see it and love it some people are gonna see it and hate it because they want
They want to be able to express their awesomeness, too
But they can't because they're they're still stuck in the same cycle that they you're in right now
or that you were and if you already moved past it, right and
Maybe they're just too afraid or too, you know, what's the word there to I?
Don't know if it's just as good with the fray ran. I did just too afraid to be able to express themselves
to who afraid to be able to ask for that help for that advice and
So they they take it out on you and then again
That's what a lot of us do right when we're when we're scared or unsure anxious
We tend to we tend to deflect
Our insecurities on other insecure. That's what the word was
We tend to deflect our insecurities on other people
and or things or objects or whatever it is because
we don't either we don't want to or we don't know how to do the work on ourselves and
And again self-work is hard work
most just we don't think we're built for that when we really are and
Case a point for for Bajira, right? I mean you can just tie this all in so when Bajira
How he decided to be more confident his own skills and to
Become one who chooses right it was during his match against the main character Isagi
Bajira's team with with the Rin and going against Isagi because
Prior to that Bajira was only Sagi's team. They faced Rin they lost and then Rin took Bajira that joined his team
So now Isagi fought his way back up to face Rin again
So that way if he wins he gets to take Bajira back and Bajira at this point had just been waiting for Isagi to get back
I mean he believed in him. He believed he believed in Isagi more than he believed in himself and
Rin called him out on that. It's like you're playing a brand of soccer where you're waiting for somebody and
Struck a chord with Bajira because before then no one else has ever said that to him
No one else has ever really even acknowledged how he plays to that sense and
Bajira kind of realized that he really realized that during the match when
He saw that Isagi and Rin were on a totally different level than what he was
He felt as if neither one of them were looking at him. They were too busy looking at each other
you know trying to compete and
at that part of the story
Everyone else around Bajira was on a different level than what he was because he hasn't gone through his awakening. He hasn't
been essentially embraced his ego enough to play for himself and
It was during that match that he decided he he wasn't gonna wait for
Isagi to come rescue him anymore
He was he and and he also wasn't just gonna wait for the monster to show of the play
He decided he was gonna essentially become the monster. He was going to
Just take the steps he needed to take charge and become the monster
who makes things happen and it was during that match and honestly again if you've
If you read the manga, you know that that was honestly the nail in the coffin
That was the last piece that we needed to make the game go in one direction or the other was Bajira
Was for him to awaken and to realize okay
Nothing's gonna happen for me unless I make it happen. So let's make it happen and
and it was it was it was beautiful, honestly because he went from being a
person who was
Essentially scared to be by himself. He was so scared to be alone that he was just
He honestly didn't know how to play without Isagi right to his fullest potential and
But after this awakening after he decided okay, you know what?
He's still my boy. I'm still my boy. I'm still my boy. I'm still my boy
He's still my boy and I'm still gonna play with him. He's still longer than my best friend, but
He he's not he's not the end-all be-all if I if I can't have him or we can't play together
Whatever. That's not the end for me. This isn't the end of soccer. It's not the end of life. I can still move on and
continue to follow my dream of being the best striker, right and
Again, it's gonna want to say all this is to say that hey we
We are not defined by the people around us
You know, it all starts with you and all starts with you now. I encourage you to get people around you who
Who can encourage you who can push you right? It's gonna find encouragement and pushing are different
People can be encouraging and supportive of you
But you also need someone some people who are real with you too when they real with you when you're acting out of pocket
or when you're going back to the scared mentality again
So I'm like to step up say oh, we're not going back there because you you've already gotten past this
We're not gonna go backwards, you know, and I'm here to support you here to uplift you, but we're not we're not gonna do this
So we everyone needs that everyone needs somebody like that in their corner to just hey bring this let's come back to reality
Let's you know, let's dig in. I'm here with you. I got you and
You may not find them today. You might not find them tomorrow
You may you might already have someone like that in your corner
You just don't know it yet because you've been too afraid to even take the step
because
In case you haven't noticed everything's coming back to you taking the first step
And the first step is gonna be the hardest one. It's gonna be the most nerve-wracking one. It's gonna be
Probably the hardest thing you're ever gonna do but once you take it every step after it's just gonna get easier because
You know wave momentum works once you're already going in a direction is it gets easier to go that direction
it gets harder to stop and then to go back and
And if you're still not feeling too too encouraged about it
I got get the one scripture for today's episode and it's 2nd Timothy chapter 1 verse 7 and
It says for God has not given us a spirit of fear but one of power love and
sound judgment so again says right here God doesn't
The spirit of fear isn't isn't of God right? It's really of man and it's
Essentially the fear of not trusting
It's not trusting in him and in the creation that he make I mean we're all made in God's image and
If you're a believer, you know that God doesn't make mistakes, right? And
That means you're not a mistake. It means whatever you're going through
whatever quirk you may think is you know detrimental to you is not a mistake
It's a uniqueness and something he purposely put there for
For you to be honest. They bring to the world whatever it is that you
You bring whatever uniqueness that you have because there's only one you there's only there
and there would only ever be one you all of us are created uniquely and
God and he loves all of us right? He loves all of us
He wants us all to experience the love that he has for us within each other and
Honestly, there's no room for there's no room for fear in any of that
He didn't even say it's a spirit of power love and sound judgment
So we we are powerful people. We are powerful beings
And we are powerful people
So we we are powerful people. We are powerful beings
and when they say you can do anything you set your mind to that's literally yeah, the mind's a powerful thing and if you just
You know just
Take a leap of faith
On God on yourself
And really dare yourself to be to be great to be different
to embrace your differences
and not be
And i'll be so hung up on
Other people on what they may think especially strangers
Like if you're you're talking about people on the internet and think about you man people in the internet hate on everything. So like
And like 99% of you're never going to meet ever. So
Why why would you even care especially when the same 99% are most likely going through the same thing you are or something very similar?
and
Honestly, I don't know about you, but I got enough of my own stuff trying to deal with
Without worrying about what other people are doing on the internet or to care enough to you know
You know cast shame on them or whatever whatever the case may be honestly
Just there's not enough time in the day for that
and not enough brain power to really even put thought towards that so
But yeah, I mean that's today's episode
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I want
I want you to get what you need out of it
At the end of the day, that's that's all i'm here for it's all
What this is here for is to help you get past whatever roadblock to break whatever chain is holding you back
so
Yeah, always remember guys. You are the main character of your story and that story doesn't end until he says so
So, all right be blessed