1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:02,200 So when you hear the word regret, 2 00:00:02,200 --> 00:00:04,720 what's the first thing that comes to your mind? 3 00:00:04,720 --> 00:00:08,940 What do you wish you had never done or never said? 4 00:00:08,940 --> 00:00:10,340 But more importantly, 5 00:00:10,340 --> 00:00:13,560 how long are you gonna punish yourself for your mistakes? 6 00:00:14,480 --> 00:00:16,120 You know, it's easy to put ourselves down 7 00:00:16,120 --> 00:00:18,740 and to think that we are the worst of the worst. 8 00:00:18,740 --> 00:00:23,160 But in reality, we're all flawed, but we're also loved. 9 00:00:23,160 --> 00:00:24,520 And for this season finale, 10 00:00:24,520 --> 00:00:27,120 we're gonna look at a character who had to learn 11 00:00:27,120 --> 00:00:29,140 how to change her self view 12 00:00:29,140 --> 00:00:31,160 and to accept the fact that she is loved 13 00:00:31,160 --> 00:00:32,800 despite her mistakes. 14 00:00:32,800 --> 00:00:36,320 And I'm talking about the blue hair demon made herself, Rem. 15 00:00:36,320 --> 00:00:37,720 Hey, what's going on guys? 16 00:00:37,720 --> 00:00:40,720 My name is Nate and you're listening to the Otaku Liberation, 17 00:00:40,720 --> 00:00:42,600 a show where we help you break the chains 18 00:00:42,600 --> 00:00:44,000 that are holding you back in your life 19 00:00:44,000 --> 00:00:47,000 by connecting some biblical principles with the Bible. 20 00:00:48,700 --> 00:00:51,700 The Blue Hair Demon Made Herself Rem. 21 00:00:51,700 --> 00:00:52,540 And we're gonna talk about the 22 00:00:52,540 --> 00:00:54,840 The Blue Hair Demon Made Herself Rem. 23 00:00:54,840 --> 00:00:55,680 And we're gonna talk about the 24 00:00:55,680 --> 00:00:57,600 The Blue Hair Demon Made Herself Rem. 25 00:00:57,600 --> 00:00:59,440 By connecting some biblical principles with themes 26 00:00:59,440 --> 00:01:01,040 from your favorite anime. 27 00:01:01,040 --> 00:01:03,240 And without further ado, let's get into it. 28 00:01:04,140 --> 00:01:06,800 So again, this episode really going over 29 00:01:06,800 --> 00:01:09,800 the idea of regrets, right? 30 00:01:09,800 --> 00:01:11,080 Because I mean, this whole season, 31 00:01:11,080 --> 00:01:12,640 this whole season covering ReZero 32 00:01:12,640 --> 00:01:16,640 has been about facing your past, accepting your past 33 00:01:16,640 --> 00:01:18,960 and doing what you can to move forward 34 00:01:18,960 --> 00:01:22,760 and move beyond your mistakes, right? 35 00:01:22,760 --> 00:01:26,720 And we've seen that similar theme 36 00:01:26,720 --> 00:01:28,200 throughout each of the characters, right? 37 00:01:28,200 --> 00:01:30,800 All of it about how they had to face their own past, 38 00:01:30,800 --> 00:01:33,760 but in different aspects and in different ways. 39 00:01:33,760 --> 00:01:36,840 And in Rem's case, it's about, you know, 40 00:01:36,840 --> 00:01:39,440 dealing with her regrets over her mistakes 41 00:01:39,440 --> 00:01:42,240 and her mindset that she's had in the past, 42 00:01:42,240 --> 00:01:45,360 really up until she met Subaru. 43 00:01:45,360 --> 00:01:49,480 And the Bible verse I wanted to kind of tie into that 44 00:01:49,480 --> 00:01:54,480 is Psalms chapter 139, verse 14. 45 00:01:54,480 --> 00:01:57,280 I will praise you because I have been remarkably 46 00:01:57,280 --> 00:01:58,640 and wondrously made. 47 00:01:58,640 --> 00:02:01,760 Your works are wondrous and I know this very well. 48 00:02:01,760 --> 00:02:04,840 And essentially what it is is, you know, 49 00:02:04,840 --> 00:02:06,600 you're seeing yourself in a positive light 50 00:02:06,600 --> 00:02:09,520 because you are made just to be who you are, right? 51 00:02:09,520 --> 00:02:12,760 You're not defined by the mistakes that you've made. 52 00:02:12,760 --> 00:02:15,520 You know, you're not defined by the burdens 53 00:02:15,520 --> 00:02:17,440 and regrets you're holding onto. 54 00:02:17,440 --> 00:02:21,280 You're defined by our Lord, right? 55 00:02:21,280 --> 00:02:23,080 He's called you to be more than that. 56 00:02:23,080 --> 00:02:24,960 He knows about the mistakes you've made, 57 00:02:24,960 --> 00:02:27,040 that you're going to make and you know, 58 00:02:27,040 --> 00:02:29,160 everything in between, right? 59 00:02:29,160 --> 00:02:31,600 So, I mean, that was the case. 60 00:02:31,600 --> 00:02:35,760 All of us are just terrible beings, right? 61 00:02:35,760 --> 00:02:36,760 And none of us are perfect. 62 00:02:36,760 --> 00:02:40,000 None of us have lived that perfect life, right? 63 00:02:40,000 --> 00:02:41,800 We've all done something or said something 64 00:02:41,800 --> 00:02:44,720 that we regret and wish we could take back, right? 65 00:02:44,720 --> 00:02:49,720 And for Rem, it starts back in, really, 66 00:02:50,000 --> 00:02:52,000 from the very beginning, from her birth. 67 00:02:52,000 --> 00:02:57,000 And to kind of really, in order to really show that, 68 00:02:57,840 --> 00:03:02,320 and kind of go back to how Rem and her twin sister, Ram, 69 00:03:02,320 --> 00:03:04,200 were born and kind of grew up, right? 70 00:03:04,200 --> 00:03:09,200 So, for Rem, she has a huge inferiority complex 71 00:03:09,960 --> 00:03:13,560 to her older twin sister, Ram. 72 00:03:13,560 --> 00:03:18,440 And she holds both respect and guilt for her sister. 73 00:03:18,440 --> 00:03:21,760 And that's because, so, like I said before, 74 00:03:21,760 --> 00:03:23,920 Rem and Ram are onis or demons 75 00:03:23,920 --> 00:03:24,960 or whatever you want to call it. 76 00:03:24,960 --> 00:03:27,280 But in the verse, they're called onis, right? 77 00:03:27,280 --> 00:03:31,280 And typically, onis are born with two horns. 78 00:03:31,280 --> 00:03:34,240 You know, that's kind of just like a trademark of their, 79 00:03:34,240 --> 00:03:35,680 they have the two horns. 80 00:03:35,680 --> 00:03:39,440 And when it comes to twins, 81 00:03:39,440 --> 00:03:41,560 their twins are seen as a bad omen 82 00:03:41,560 --> 00:03:43,920 because both twins or each twin 83 00:03:43,920 --> 00:03:45,800 is only born with one horn, right? 84 00:03:45,800 --> 00:03:48,640 The pair is just split between the two. 85 00:03:48,640 --> 00:03:50,600 And normally that kind of dampers 86 00:03:50,600 --> 00:03:53,080 their overall capabilities, quality of life, 87 00:03:53,080 --> 00:03:54,200 things like that. 88 00:03:54,200 --> 00:03:57,640 So they were actually going to be executed 89 00:03:57,640 --> 00:04:00,800 the day they were born because they were twins. 90 00:04:00,800 --> 00:04:05,800 And Ram, the older one, she protected both her and Rem 91 00:04:07,760 --> 00:04:12,320 with her extraordinary magical power, you know? 92 00:04:12,320 --> 00:04:16,200 Because Ram was pretty much good at everything. 93 00:04:17,080 --> 00:04:19,400 Pretty much every, literally everything from magic, 94 00:04:19,400 --> 00:04:22,960 you know, cooking, hunting, all the different things 95 00:04:22,960 --> 00:04:26,400 that were valued in their culture, Ram excelled at. 96 00:04:26,400 --> 00:04:29,360 While Rem did, you know, 97 00:04:29,360 --> 00:04:30,960 not to say she was bad at those things, 98 00:04:30,960 --> 00:04:34,920 she just wasn't as proficient as her sister was. 99 00:04:34,920 --> 00:04:39,360 And that started to be the sense of, 100 00:04:39,360 --> 00:04:43,200 like I say, inferiority and kind of resentment within Rem, 101 00:04:43,200 --> 00:04:46,000 not so much towards Ram, but towards herself, 102 00:04:46,000 --> 00:04:50,080 where Rem believed that if she, 103 00:04:50,080 --> 00:04:53,240 if she being Ram and she had never been born, 104 00:04:53,240 --> 00:04:56,840 then her sister could have been that much more better off, 105 00:04:56,840 --> 00:05:01,200 right, than can have been way more successful, 106 00:05:01,200 --> 00:05:02,600 whatever the case may be. 107 00:05:02,600 --> 00:05:03,720 And it feels like, again, 108 00:05:03,720 --> 00:05:06,520 that she's just better off not existing. 109 00:05:06,520 --> 00:05:11,520 And I know, I know a lot of us kind of go through 110 00:05:11,800 --> 00:05:12,640 that whole thing. 111 00:05:12,640 --> 00:05:17,640 You know, you think, you know, the world or whoever you're, 112 00:05:18,120 --> 00:05:19,560 you know, the people that you care about, 113 00:05:19,560 --> 00:05:22,080 you may think that they may be better off without you 114 00:05:22,080 --> 00:05:25,280 for whatever the case may be, whatever the reasoning is. 115 00:05:25,280 --> 00:05:26,360 That's not true. 116 00:05:26,360 --> 00:05:27,720 That's not true at all. 117 00:05:27,720 --> 00:05:32,120 You know, you were put here for a reason 118 00:05:32,120 --> 00:05:35,480 and you've made the relationship you've made for a reason. 119 00:05:35,480 --> 00:05:39,160 And, you know, your life and their lives 120 00:05:39,160 --> 00:05:43,080 would be changed drastically if you weren't here. 121 00:05:43,080 --> 00:05:45,040 Well, obviously your life, you wouldn't have a life 122 00:05:45,040 --> 00:05:45,880 because you wouldn't be here, 123 00:05:45,880 --> 00:05:47,400 but you get what I'm saying. 124 00:05:49,720 --> 00:05:52,800 But anyway, back to the whole kind of mindset thing, 125 00:05:52,800 --> 00:05:54,840 you know, you don't, you may not, 126 00:05:54,840 --> 00:05:58,400 you may think that you don't deserve to know these people, 127 00:05:58,400 --> 00:06:02,240 to be in this situation, to have favors shown upon you. 128 00:06:02,240 --> 00:06:05,360 And, you know, in whatever the case may be, 129 00:06:05,360 --> 00:06:07,120 maybe you've been told your whole life 130 00:06:07,120 --> 00:06:08,840 that you don't deserve anything. 131 00:06:08,840 --> 00:06:10,440 So you start to believe it. 132 00:06:10,440 --> 00:06:12,240 Or on the, on flip side, 133 00:06:12,240 --> 00:06:14,680 maybe not straight out told that you don't deserve it. 134 00:06:14,680 --> 00:06:17,560 You just never been told that you do. 135 00:06:17,560 --> 00:06:19,800 And both of those things make it equally hard 136 00:06:19,800 --> 00:06:21,200 to believe that. 137 00:06:21,200 --> 00:06:24,000 And listen, in Rem's case, she was never, 138 00:06:25,040 --> 00:06:27,760 outside of the initial discrimination for them being twins, 139 00:06:27,760 --> 00:06:30,480 she was never put down or anything like that 140 00:06:30,480 --> 00:06:34,000 in terms of her lack of, lack of ability. 141 00:06:34,000 --> 00:06:35,960 Because again, Rem, she could, 142 00:06:35,960 --> 00:06:38,040 she was able to do everything that Ram could do, 143 00:06:38,040 --> 00:06:41,120 but just not as well, nowhere near as well, honestly. 144 00:06:41,120 --> 00:06:42,440 Ram was actually kind of a genius 145 00:06:42,440 --> 00:06:44,440 when it came to a lot of these things. 146 00:06:44,440 --> 00:06:48,920 But because everyone was praising Ram so much, 147 00:06:48,920 --> 00:06:52,800 Rem just, and Rem just felt like she was, you know, 148 00:06:52,800 --> 00:06:54,520 just there on the sideline, like, you know, 149 00:06:54,520 --> 00:06:57,080 typical younger sibling syndrome, right? 150 00:06:57,080 --> 00:06:59,000 You're living in the shadow of your older, 151 00:06:59,000 --> 00:07:02,080 of your older sibling or your older family member, 152 00:07:02,080 --> 00:07:03,720 you know, whether it might be your parents, you know, 153 00:07:03,720 --> 00:07:06,320 if you grew up in a town where your parents are very well 154 00:07:06,320 --> 00:07:08,840 known for their accomplishments and things like that. 155 00:07:08,840 --> 00:07:10,280 And I kind of touched on this point a little bit 156 00:07:10,280 --> 00:07:14,560 with Subaru during his episode about how his father was, 157 00:07:14,560 --> 00:07:16,200 you know, the greatest thing is to slice bread. 158 00:07:16,200 --> 00:07:19,200 And then you got him, him being Subaru, you know, 159 00:07:19,200 --> 00:07:22,920 everyone, they don't see the actual person that's standing 160 00:07:22,920 --> 00:07:25,160 there, they see who they're related to. 161 00:07:25,160 --> 00:07:29,920 And this is a similar, similar take with, with Rem. 162 00:07:29,920 --> 00:07:31,680 And that's part of the reason why they, 163 00:07:31,680 --> 00:07:34,040 Rem and Subaru were able to connect as well as they do, 164 00:07:34,040 --> 00:07:37,040 because that type of familiarity, right? 165 00:07:37,040 --> 00:07:38,480 At least that's my take on it. 166 00:07:38,480 --> 00:07:41,240 When I, when I was watching it and going back with my 167 00:07:41,240 --> 00:07:42,760 research for these episodes, 168 00:07:42,760 --> 00:07:45,960 I feel like that similarity in both of their backstories 169 00:07:45,960 --> 00:07:49,080 where they were, you know, whether directly or not, 170 00:07:49,080 --> 00:07:53,200 compared to their family members who could do everything 171 00:07:53,200 --> 00:07:56,280 under the sun and they themselves couldn't. 172 00:07:56,280 --> 00:08:00,440 And I think that does breed that type of inferiority 173 00:08:00,440 --> 00:08:03,320 complex, that type of resentment eventually towards 174 00:08:03,320 --> 00:08:06,440 either the person you're being compared to or resentment 175 00:08:06,440 --> 00:08:08,960 towards yourself because you can't live up to other 176 00:08:08,960 --> 00:08:10,880 people's expectations for you. 177 00:08:10,880 --> 00:08:13,160 And both of those are very, you know, 178 00:08:13,160 --> 00:08:15,680 very dangerous places to be. 179 00:08:17,320 --> 00:08:20,280 So again, that's kind of all where it started with Rem. 180 00:08:20,280 --> 00:08:24,840 And where it kind of shifts to the guilt aspect of it 181 00:08:24,840 --> 00:08:26,320 is what happens later. 182 00:08:26,320 --> 00:08:30,320 So, yeah, some years have passed after the twins have been 183 00:08:30,320 --> 00:08:33,080 born, I can't really say how old they are. 184 00:08:33,080 --> 00:08:36,720 Maybe, you know, eight or nine in human years, right? 185 00:08:36,720 --> 00:08:38,160 And they're still children, 186 00:08:38,160 --> 00:08:41,680 but their village is attacked by, you know, 187 00:08:41,680 --> 00:08:44,240 the witch's cult, which is the main, 188 00:08:44,240 --> 00:08:47,720 one of the main bad groups in the, in their series itself. 189 00:08:47,720 --> 00:08:50,280 And during the attack, I mean, 190 00:08:50,280 --> 00:08:51,960 Ram was, you know, 191 00:08:51,960 --> 00:08:54,360 taking care of the vast majority of the enemies. 192 00:08:54,360 --> 00:08:56,320 Because again, she's just that strong, right? 193 00:08:56,320 --> 00:08:58,400 And she was just trying to make sure that she protected her 194 00:08:58,400 --> 00:08:59,920 sister Rem. 195 00:08:59,920 --> 00:09:04,920 But in that process, I guess the main boss of the raid 196 00:09:05,240 --> 00:09:08,560 at that point, he attacked Ram and broke her horn off. 197 00:09:08,560 --> 00:09:12,240 And for Oni's, you know, once they lose their horn, 198 00:09:12,240 --> 00:09:14,040 and that's pretty much a wrap. 199 00:09:14,040 --> 00:09:15,440 Not like they die or anything, 200 00:09:15,440 --> 00:09:19,640 but their magic control is nowhere near what it used to be. 201 00:09:19,640 --> 00:09:24,280 And it's kind of, it's just, it's not a good thing, right? 202 00:09:24,280 --> 00:09:28,640 But in that moment, when Rem saw her sister lose her horn 203 00:09:28,640 --> 00:09:33,120 for a split second, she felt joy in her heart. 204 00:09:33,120 --> 00:09:35,080 And I'm saying like a real brief moment, 205 00:09:35,080 --> 00:09:37,680 like not even something that she didn't really register 206 00:09:37,680 --> 00:09:40,440 until later on when she started reflecting on it. 207 00:09:40,440 --> 00:09:45,440 And that glimpse of joy that she felt at someone else's pain, 208 00:09:48,040 --> 00:09:49,880 not just someone else, but her sister's pain, 209 00:09:49,880 --> 00:09:54,040 her sister's misfortune ate, ate Ram up, 210 00:09:54,040 --> 00:09:55,480 ate her up from the inside. 211 00:09:55,480 --> 00:10:00,480 It, it, and it's funny, 212 00:10:01,760 --> 00:10:04,880 funny's not the right word, but looking back at it, right? 213 00:10:04,880 --> 00:10:07,440 How many people do we know or have known like that 214 00:10:07,440 --> 00:10:11,840 who they do take joy at someone else's misfortune for, 215 00:10:12,640 --> 00:10:14,320 and like genuine joy out of it. 216 00:10:14,320 --> 00:10:16,040 I'm not talking about this fleeting feeling 217 00:10:16,040 --> 00:10:17,400 that Rem had for a brief second. 218 00:10:17,400 --> 00:10:20,160 I'm talking about they get their kicks from it, right? 219 00:10:20,160 --> 00:10:21,400 They love seeing people fail. 220 00:10:21,400 --> 00:10:24,920 They love seeing people go through hardship, right? 221 00:10:24,920 --> 00:10:29,920 And I think as humans, as humans, 222 00:10:31,120 --> 00:10:35,360 I think we do enjoy seeing it to an extent. 223 00:10:35,360 --> 00:10:36,440 And I don't want to say enjoy it, 224 00:10:36,440 --> 00:10:37,880 like we get the pleasure from it, 225 00:10:37,880 --> 00:10:40,240 but it's that's the reason why we watch all these 226 00:10:40,240 --> 00:10:42,200 quote unquote reality TV shows, right? 227 00:10:42,200 --> 00:10:45,120 We, it's something about seeing people go through 228 00:10:45,120 --> 00:10:46,480 some type of struggle, 229 00:10:46,480 --> 00:10:48,480 whether it's something that we can relate to, 230 00:10:48,480 --> 00:10:51,040 whether it's something that, you know, 231 00:10:51,040 --> 00:10:52,200 when they make it to the other side, 232 00:10:52,200 --> 00:10:56,360 that we strive to be, to be at the other end, 233 00:10:56,360 --> 00:10:57,720 whatever the case may be. 234 00:10:57,720 --> 00:10:59,280 But what I'm talking about here 235 00:10:59,280 --> 00:11:02,920 is for the people who genuinely get like, 236 00:11:02,920 --> 00:11:05,000 like how we watch, you know, sports or something like that, 237 00:11:05,000 --> 00:11:06,760 how we get the, you know, that rush, that feeling, 238 00:11:06,760 --> 00:11:08,560 you know, when our team finally wins, 239 00:11:08,560 --> 00:11:11,680 they get that same feeling from people suffering. 240 00:11:11,680 --> 00:11:16,160 And for them, it's a sick kick. 241 00:11:16,160 --> 00:11:19,000 But in Rem's case, it wasn't that, 242 00:11:19,000 --> 00:11:21,080 I mean, again, it was a fleeting feeling, 243 00:11:21,080 --> 00:11:23,720 but for her, she felt just, 244 00:11:23,720 --> 00:11:25,880 oh, she was just overwhelmed with guilt, 245 00:11:25,880 --> 00:11:26,720 overwhelmed with guilt. 246 00:11:26,720 --> 00:11:29,280 I mean, this is something that she held onto for years 247 00:11:29,280 --> 00:11:31,040 and she didn't tell anyone until, 248 00:11:31,040 --> 00:11:35,080 and again, she met Subaru years later. 249 00:11:35,080 --> 00:11:40,080 But this, this, you know, overwhelming guilt 250 00:11:40,480 --> 00:11:45,480 led Rem to essentially strive to be the perfect replacement 251 00:11:45,520 --> 00:11:46,760 for her sister. 252 00:11:46,760 --> 00:11:51,760 And it did two things for me, it made Rem put her sister 253 00:11:51,840 --> 00:11:53,920 on a pedestal to idolize her. 254 00:11:53,920 --> 00:11:56,440 And because she's trying to be everything 255 00:11:56,440 --> 00:11:58,560 that her sister was before, 256 00:11:58,560 --> 00:12:01,200 because after this, after Ram lost her horn, 257 00:12:01,200 --> 00:12:04,480 she essentially became terrible at everything, right? 258 00:12:04,480 --> 00:12:06,480 I mean, it did like a whole 180, 259 00:12:06,480 --> 00:12:09,320 where Rem was better at Ram than everything. 260 00:12:12,120 --> 00:12:15,440 And it's funny, despite that, Rem, 261 00:12:15,440 --> 00:12:18,560 the younger one, she put her sister on a pedestal, 262 00:12:18,560 --> 00:12:19,680 always saying that, you know, 263 00:12:19,680 --> 00:12:22,840 Ram's the best at everything, she can do everything. 264 00:12:22,840 --> 00:12:25,000 But when we see her, when we first meet him, 265 00:12:25,000 --> 00:12:27,000 Ram can't do anything without Rem's help. 266 00:12:27,000 --> 00:12:29,520 So it's kind of, it was funny to hear her say that, 267 00:12:29,520 --> 00:12:31,120 but looking back in the backstory 268 00:12:31,120 --> 00:12:36,120 and how it all played out, it begins to make sense. 269 00:12:36,360 --> 00:12:41,360 And another thing too, is that it kills Rem's self-esteem, 270 00:12:42,240 --> 00:12:43,320 right? 271 00:12:43,320 --> 00:12:46,920 That she's trying so hard to be everything her sister was, 272 00:12:46,920 --> 00:12:51,920 to be the ideal, everything, ideal maid, 273 00:12:52,280 --> 00:12:56,840 ideal sister, ideal fighter, whatever, 274 00:12:56,840 --> 00:12:58,480 in the insert title here, 275 00:12:58,480 --> 00:12:59,880 that's what Rem's struggle showed to be, 276 00:12:59,880 --> 00:13:01,040 she showed to be the best at, 277 00:13:01,040 --> 00:13:04,000 because she's trying to live up to where her sister was. 278 00:13:04,000 --> 00:13:06,800 And she feels guilty, because she feels like it was her fault 279 00:13:06,800 --> 00:13:09,080 that her sister never lived up to her potential 280 00:13:09,080 --> 00:13:10,400 for being born. 281 00:13:10,400 --> 00:13:14,640 And B, she felt extremely guilty, 282 00:13:14,640 --> 00:13:17,040 because in her sister's distress, 283 00:13:17,040 --> 00:13:20,200 she felt just a fleeting moment of joy. 284 00:13:20,200 --> 00:13:24,560 And because she holds herself by a death grip, 285 00:13:24,560 --> 00:13:26,840 essentially that, hey, you know, 286 00:13:26,840 --> 00:13:29,840 I don't deserve happiness because what I did, 287 00:13:29,840 --> 00:13:33,000 because of how I felt when my sister was suffering, 288 00:13:33,000 --> 00:13:36,040 because I feel like I took that from her. 289 00:13:36,040 --> 00:13:38,040 And the question I have is, 290 00:13:38,040 --> 00:13:39,640 how many of us feel like that today, 291 00:13:39,640 --> 00:13:41,680 that we feel like we don't deserve happiness, 292 00:13:41,680 --> 00:13:45,840 that we don't deserve joy and goodness in our life, 293 00:13:45,840 --> 00:13:48,960 because in a moment of weakness, 294 00:13:48,960 --> 00:13:52,640 in a moment of naivety, whatever you wanna call it, 295 00:13:52,640 --> 00:13:57,640 we fell, I mean, there's no better way to put it, we fell. 296 00:13:58,960 --> 00:14:02,560 Whether it's we let ourselves down, 297 00:14:02,560 --> 00:14:03,960 we let our loved ones down, 298 00:14:03,960 --> 00:14:08,960 we got joy out of someone else's torment or whatever, 299 00:14:09,680 --> 00:14:11,000 struggle that they're going through, 300 00:14:11,000 --> 00:14:14,720 we feel like they deserved it, 301 00:14:14,720 --> 00:14:18,200 that it's good for them and made us feel, whatever it is. 302 00:14:18,200 --> 00:14:20,200 I'm just giving general examples, 303 00:14:20,200 --> 00:14:22,680 but I'm sure you thought of something 304 00:14:22,680 --> 00:14:24,360 or a couple of things by now. 305 00:14:24,360 --> 00:14:26,960 And I'm asking yourself, 306 00:14:27,840 --> 00:14:31,600 do you still deserve to be held captive by that, by yourself? 307 00:14:31,600 --> 00:14:33,920 And I ain't talking about someone else bringing it up, 308 00:14:33,920 --> 00:14:35,560 someone else holding you accountable for it, 309 00:14:35,560 --> 00:14:37,000 but you putting yourself down. 310 00:14:37,920 --> 00:14:42,200 Because again, this whole season is about us facing our past, 311 00:14:42,200 --> 00:14:47,000 it's about us facing it and accepting our past 312 00:14:47,000 --> 00:14:50,120 for what had happened so we can heal and move on. 313 00:14:50,120 --> 00:14:52,240 You mean, not saying it's never gonna be there 314 00:14:52,240 --> 00:14:54,600 or it's gonna be long forgotten about, 315 00:14:56,000 --> 00:14:58,400 is the water in the bridge like, no, it's still there, 316 00:14:58,400 --> 00:15:01,080 it still happened, you're still gonna have the scars from it, 317 00:15:01,080 --> 00:15:03,040 but now it's not an open wound. 318 00:15:03,040 --> 00:15:05,840 And that's what we're trying to get. 319 00:15:05,840 --> 00:15:08,680 So I'm really praying that you guys get 320 00:15:08,680 --> 00:15:12,480 and maybe get over that hump and just realize, 321 00:15:12,480 --> 00:15:14,640 it's okay to forgive yourself. 322 00:15:14,640 --> 00:15:16,320 Oftentimes it's the hardest, 323 00:15:16,320 --> 00:15:18,800 we're the hardest people to forgive is ourselves 324 00:15:18,800 --> 00:15:21,480 because we hold ourselves up to a higher standard 325 00:15:21,480 --> 00:15:24,640 that sometimes isn't feasible, right? 326 00:15:24,640 --> 00:15:27,160 Because again, we're all human, we all have to make mistakes. 327 00:15:27,160 --> 00:15:30,640 And it does take, sometimes it does take someone else 328 00:15:30,640 --> 00:15:33,320 to give us an extra push to pull us out, 329 00:15:33,320 --> 00:15:34,800 get us out of our own heads, right? 330 00:15:34,800 --> 00:15:38,960 So we can actually be functioning people again. 331 00:15:38,960 --> 00:15:42,160 And for Rem, of course, that person was Subaru 332 00:15:42,160 --> 00:15:46,000 because he's got that main character energy 333 00:15:46,880 --> 00:15:50,000 that always works on everybody around him. 334 00:15:50,000 --> 00:15:53,800 And Subaru was able to convince Rem to let go 335 00:15:53,800 --> 00:15:55,040 of her resentful feelings 336 00:15:55,040 --> 00:15:58,680 and to actually look towards the future, right? 337 00:15:58,680 --> 00:16:01,120 Again, that the whole thing of letting go of the past 338 00:16:01,120 --> 00:16:02,680 and looking forward. 339 00:16:02,680 --> 00:16:07,680 And the way he does this is essentially, 340 00:16:09,720 --> 00:16:11,440 so after he saves the village 341 00:16:11,440 --> 00:16:15,000 from the demi-human demon attack or whatever, 342 00:16:15,000 --> 00:16:17,640 he ends up saving Rem as well. 343 00:16:17,640 --> 00:16:20,480 Because so the village that's near the mansion 344 00:16:20,480 --> 00:16:22,240 that they stay at was being attacked 345 00:16:22,240 --> 00:16:25,080 by these demon doll type monster things 346 00:16:25,080 --> 00:16:28,200 that if they bite you, they inflict you with a curse 347 00:16:28,200 --> 00:16:29,040 and you're just gonna die. 348 00:16:29,040 --> 00:16:30,400 That's typically how it is. 349 00:16:30,400 --> 00:16:33,960 And Subaru and Rem went to go save some of the kids 350 00:16:33,960 --> 00:16:38,120 who were captured by the beast. 351 00:16:38,120 --> 00:16:40,480 And of course, while they rescue them, 352 00:16:40,480 --> 00:16:42,280 of course they get attacked themselves. 353 00:16:42,280 --> 00:16:44,440 And even though Rem is the better fighter 354 00:16:44,440 --> 00:16:46,640 between the two by far, 355 00:16:46,640 --> 00:16:48,480 she was about to be overwhelmed 356 00:16:48,480 --> 00:16:51,000 and just essentially killed. 357 00:16:51,000 --> 00:16:52,520 But in the last minute, 358 00:16:52,520 --> 00:16:54,360 Subaru came and pushed her out the way 359 00:16:54,360 --> 00:16:56,520 so he could take the brunt of the attack. 360 00:16:56,520 --> 00:16:58,480 No one thought that was gonna kill him. 361 00:16:59,480 --> 00:17:03,480 But luckily Roswaal and them got there in time, 362 00:17:03,480 --> 00:17:05,640 got him to safety and he didn't die. 363 00:17:05,640 --> 00:17:08,080 He didn't have to start over in that loop. 364 00:17:08,080 --> 00:17:10,920 But it was in that moment that Rem realized 365 00:17:10,920 --> 00:17:12,520 Subaru saved her in more than one way. 366 00:17:12,520 --> 00:17:16,920 It wasn't just a physical thing in their talk afterwards. 367 00:17:16,920 --> 00:17:21,520 When he essentially just encouraged her to live for herself, 368 00:17:21,520 --> 00:17:25,960 to not have her whole existence be wrapped up 369 00:17:25,960 --> 00:17:30,960 in being Rom's twin and being what Rom used to be 370 00:17:31,160 --> 00:17:36,160 is just understanding that you're you, she's her. 371 00:17:36,800 --> 00:17:39,320 And whatever might've happened, 372 00:17:39,320 --> 00:17:41,120 and none of that matters anymore 373 00:17:41,120 --> 00:17:44,680 because she still loves you, you love her, 374 00:17:44,680 --> 00:17:46,160 and you're both here now. 375 00:17:46,160 --> 00:17:51,080 So now you gotta essentially turn from that dark place 376 00:17:51,080 --> 00:17:52,320 you're in and face the sun 377 00:17:52,320 --> 00:17:54,360 so you can actually walk towards it. 378 00:17:54,360 --> 00:17:58,240 And basically from that point on, 379 00:17:58,240 --> 00:18:00,480 Subaru becomes a pillar of support for her, 380 00:18:00,480 --> 00:18:03,120 or as she calls him, her hero. 381 00:18:03,120 --> 00:18:06,000 And because he understands and encourages her 382 00:18:06,000 --> 00:18:11,000 to move past her past, to actually not be in that same place. 383 00:18:11,200 --> 00:18:15,440 And I think it's funny how, it's funny 384 00:18:15,440 --> 00:18:18,160 because it's easy for us to tell that to other people 385 00:18:18,160 --> 00:18:20,280 than it is for us to do it ourselves. 386 00:18:20,280 --> 00:18:22,600 Because when Subaru telling Rem this 387 00:18:22,600 --> 00:18:24,720 is essentially the same thing he needed to do 388 00:18:24,720 --> 00:18:27,200 to pass the trial in the sanctuary. 389 00:18:27,200 --> 00:18:31,520 But the trial for him happened way later after this fact. 390 00:18:31,520 --> 00:18:34,680 I mean, this happened towards the beginning of the series 391 00:18:34,680 --> 00:18:36,720 but with him talking to Rem and encouraging her 392 00:18:36,720 --> 00:18:39,280 and then the sanctuary happened. 393 00:18:39,280 --> 00:18:42,040 If you're watching the anime, it happens in season two. 394 00:18:42,040 --> 00:18:44,480 So it's a whole season after this. 395 00:18:44,480 --> 00:18:49,280 And it just goes to show that why we need other people 396 00:18:49,280 --> 00:18:52,240 to help push us through some of the darkest times 397 00:18:52,240 --> 00:18:56,120 in our life, because they are able to see more things 398 00:18:56,120 --> 00:18:57,480 than we are. 399 00:18:57,480 --> 00:19:01,760 And again, I know for me sometimes, 400 00:19:01,760 --> 00:19:02,960 well, that's the long with my thoughts. 401 00:19:02,960 --> 00:19:06,960 I tend to beat myself up more than I need to. 402 00:19:06,960 --> 00:19:09,480 I mean, I've gotten a lot better with it over the years 403 00:19:09,480 --> 00:19:11,120 and doesn't happen nor near as much. 404 00:19:11,120 --> 00:19:14,760 But there are times where you're thinking so much 405 00:19:14,760 --> 00:19:16,640 and you literally thinking yourself to death. 406 00:19:16,640 --> 00:19:20,320 And that's just, that's not gonna help anyone. 407 00:19:20,320 --> 00:19:23,640 So I just wanna ask who is your, 408 00:19:23,640 --> 00:19:25,360 quote unquote Subaru, who's your hero? 409 00:19:25,360 --> 00:19:27,720 Who has been that person who's been there for you 410 00:19:27,720 --> 00:19:30,520 and who helped you get out of your darkness? 411 00:19:30,520 --> 00:19:32,720 And if you have someone like that, 412 00:19:32,720 --> 00:19:35,440 I encourage you to go and thank them really. 413 00:19:35,440 --> 00:19:38,400 If they're still with us, I encourage you to reach out 414 00:19:38,400 --> 00:19:41,280 to them in whatever way you feel comfortable 415 00:19:41,280 --> 00:19:43,440 and just thank them and let them know 416 00:19:43,440 --> 00:19:45,800 that you appreciate what they've done. 417 00:19:45,800 --> 00:19:50,000 And if you don't have anyone like that in your life, 418 00:19:50,000 --> 00:19:52,760 then don't worry. 419 00:19:52,760 --> 00:19:54,600 Don't worry because I truly believe 420 00:19:55,480 --> 00:19:58,120 when you want something bad enough, 421 00:19:59,520 --> 00:20:02,680 God's gonna put the right people in your path, 422 00:20:02,680 --> 00:20:05,400 in your realm. 423 00:20:05,400 --> 00:20:09,360 And again, it may not even be for you, 424 00:20:09,360 --> 00:20:11,440 maybe for you to help somebody else. 425 00:20:11,440 --> 00:20:14,560 But I know for me, one of the best things, 426 00:20:14,560 --> 00:20:16,680 best ways to help get out of a rut 427 00:20:16,680 --> 00:20:19,760 is to help somebody else with theirs. 428 00:20:19,760 --> 00:20:22,080 Because it does something, 429 00:20:22,080 --> 00:20:23,840 one, it brings you closer with that person, 430 00:20:23,840 --> 00:20:26,080 and two, it gets your mind off of your own issues. 431 00:20:26,080 --> 00:20:27,880 A mind, because like I said, 432 00:20:27,880 --> 00:20:29,200 sometimes you think things to death, 433 00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:30,320 you think yourself to death, 434 00:20:30,320 --> 00:20:34,920 and not just taking your mind off a thing, 435 00:20:34,920 --> 00:20:36,880 even if it's just for a day, 436 00:20:36,880 --> 00:20:40,200 really, really helps get the ball rolling 437 00:20:40,200 --> 00:20:42,400 and may help you get to that breakthrough. 438 00:20:42,400 --> 00:20:43,680 I mean, you never know. 439 00:20:43,680 --> 00:20:46,200 So I encourage you just don't give up. 440 00:20:46,200 --> 00:20:47,040 Don't give up. 441 00:20:47,040 --> 00:20:52,040 Don't be bogged down by what you've done, 442 00:20:52,240 --> 00:20:53,360 what you might've done, 443 00:20:53,360 --> 00:20:55,640 what you wish you hadn't done, 444 00:20:55,640 --> 00:20:56,920 what you should have, 445 00:20:56,920 --> 00:20:58,880 what it could've showed us. 446 00:21:00,080 --> 00:21:03,320 You mean, yes, it happened or it didn't happen, 447 00:21:03,320 --> 00:21:05,280 but the fact is you're here now, 448 00:21:05,280 --> 00:21:07,280 you're still standing, you're still breathing, 449 00:21:07,280 --> 00:21:10,160 and that means there's something else, 450 00:21:10,160 --> 00:21:13,000 a memory or something else on the other side. 451 00:21:13,000 --> 00:21:15,680 Just like Subaru, just like Amelia, 452 00:21:15,680 --> 00:21:18,360 just like Roswald, and just like Ram, 453 00:21:18,360 --> 00:21:21,640 they've all had, I mean, not Ram, R.E.M., 454 00:21:21,640 --> 00:21:25,280 they've all had different things in their past 455 00:21:25,280 --> 00:21:27,720 that have holding them back from their potential, 456 00:21:27,720 --> 00:21:31,480 from moving on, from really utilizing themselves 457 00:21:31,480 --> 00:21:33,440 to their fullest potential, 458 00:21:33,440 --> 00:21:38,440 and they've all had to get through it in a different way 459 00:21:38,640 --> 00:21:41,800 in their own inner internal battles, 460 00:21:41,800 --> 00:21:45,640 and they've all had people there who supported them, 461 00:21:45,640 --> 00:21:46,680 who pushed them forward, 462 00:21:46,680 --> 00:21:49,280 and who truly believe in them for them, 463 00:21:49,280 --> 00:21:54,280 not because of who they know, who they're related to, 464 00:21:55,000 --> 00:21:57,320 not even because they believe in who they are right now, 465 00:21:57,320 --> 00:22:00,000 it's because they believe in who they are, 466 00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:01,000 who they're meant to be, 467 00:22:01,000 --> 00:22:03,880 and who they can see them as, 468 00:22:03,880 --> 00:22:05,840 if that kind of makes sense, right? 469 00:22:07,200 --> 00:22:10,040 Because again, all the people we see who are successful, 470 00:22:10,040 --> 00:22:12,240 nowadays, the professional athletes, 471 00:22:12,240 --> 00:22:14,680 the actors and actresses, 472 00:22:14,680 --> 00:22:17,560 the people in the political space, 473 00:22:17,560 --> 00:22:20,960 the people who you see all the time who have made it there, 474 00:22:22,040 --> 00:22:23,640 they weren't always there, right? 475 00:22:23,640 --> 00:22:24,640 They started from somewhere, 476 00:22:24,640 --> 00:22:27,040 they're human just like me and you, 477 00:22:27,040 --> 00:22:28,280 and they've made their mistakes, 478 00:22:28,280 --> 00:22:31,160 they've put in time, they've put in the effort, 479 00:22:31,160 --> 00:22:33,720 they've reconciled with themselves 480 00:22:33,720 --> 00:22:36,280 in some form or fashion that allowed them to move forward 481 00:22:36,280 --> 00:22:38,520 to get to the level that they're at now, 482 00:22:38,520 --> 00:22:40,960 and that's in all of us, right? 483 00:22:40,960 --> 00:22:41,800 That's in all of us, 484 00:22:41,800 --> 00:22:44,680 that by itself isn't special, 485 00:22:44,680 --> 00:22:46,560 that's something that we all can do, 486 00:22:46,560 --> 00:22:49,520 and I really just wanna encourage each and every one of you 487 00:22:49,520 --> 00:22:53,000 to really strive for that, 488 00:22:53,000 --> 00:22:55,800 strive for that to get past your mental block, 489 00:22:55,800 --> 00:22:57,120 get past your past, 490 00:22:57,120 --> 00:22:59,920 and just be able to move forward, you know? 491 00:23:01,320 --> 00:23:03,400 That's pretty much it, we're just trying to get better, 492 00:23:03,400 --> 00:23:04,400 one day at a time. 493 00:23:05,640 --> 00:23:07,680 Well, this is the end of this season, 494 00:23:07,680 --> 00:23:10,360 I hope you guys enjoyed ReZero, 495 00:23:10,360 --> 00:23:14,200 and hopefully you might check it out at some point. 496 00:23:14,200 --> 00:23:16,200 I think at the time of recording this, 497 00:23:16,200 --> 00:23:18,720 season three was announced, so I'm excited, 498 00:23:18,720 --> 00:23:20,440 can't wait to get back into it, 499 00:23:20,440 --> 00:23:23,600 but for next season, we're gonna look at an anime 500 00:23:23,600 --> 00:23:28,320 that really shows us what it means to go back to basics, 501 00:23:28,320 --> 00:23:32,840 and how starting over isn't always a bad thing, 502 00:23:32,840 --> 00:23:35,800 and really what it means to kinda back to basics 503 00:23:35,800 --> 00:23:38,280 is just kinda really going back to the root of it all, 504 00:23:38,280 --> 00:23:42,120 of whether it's your journey, your passion, 505 00:23:42,120 --> 00:23:45,200 or whatever it is that you're striving for, 506 00:23:45,200 --> 00:23:48,520 and really have some time in order to get ahead, 507 00:23:48,520 --> 00:23:50,000 we gotta start over. 508 00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:54,920 And this is an anime where science prevails overall, 509 00:23:54,920 --> 00:23:56,520 Dr. Stone. 510 00:23:56,520 --> 00:23:58,920 So again, look forward to that, 511 00:23:58,920 --> 00:24:00,960 thank you guys for tuning into today's episode, 512 00:24:00,960 --> 00:24:03,040 and I pray that you got what you needed out of it, 513 00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:05,880 and hopefully you learned something new about yourself, 514 00:24:05,880 --> 00:24:07,040 and throughout this whole journey 515 00:24:07,040 --> 00:24:10,440 that you just learned to reflect, accept, 516 00:24:10,440 --> 00:24:12,760 and move forward, you know? 517 00:24:12,760 --> 00:24:15,120 Feel free to subscribe to the podcast, leave a review, 518 00:24:15,120 --> 00:24:16,480 I would love reading guys' comments, 519 00:24:16,480 --> 00:24:18,880 and it helps me improve each and every episode. 520 00:24:18,880 --> 00:24:20,000 And always remember, 521 00:24:20,000 --> 00:24:22,040 you are the main character of your story, 522 00:24:22,040 --> 00:24:24,920 and that story doesn't end until he says so. 523 00:24:24,920 --> 00:24:26,080 All right, be blessed. 524 00:24:26,080 --> 00:24:37,720 And I'll see you guys next time. 525 00:24:37,720 --> 00:24:59,860 Peace.