Healing, dealing and working through some bullshit
Just had the Freemason, there's certain stances that Freemasons make and do to let people know their alliance, their allegiance, whatever you call it.
It's placing a hand on one arm while the other arm is straight.
People will prank it off with winking or putting something up over my eye.
I've been realizing that both sides of my parents are in that world.
I didn't fully understand it until I got to this apartment and that's when the Lord started speaking to me more and more about different parts of that world.
I started to see it. I've seen it in both my parents, allegedly before they became a union.
I saw it in my childhood photo where my sister was doing the Freemason hand.
When your parents are in that world, they force you to be in their world without even knowing it.
There's a point in time when you come aware of what's going on and you can either choose to continue doing that or not.
Before you know, it's not on you. The Lord is not going to hold you accountable because he knows it wasn't your choice.
Once you're aware and you perceive it with your life, then now it's on you.
I didn't know until I was 32 that I even learned anything about that world.
Now I understand different things and realize that so many people that I had around me in my life and in my circle were in that world.
That's why the isolation is necessary.
The trauma that we experienced as children makes sense because so many of the masons that go to my dad figure are supposed to traumatize children through SA and DV.
That trauma traumatizes the child which desensitizes them and makes it easier for them to fall into alliance with that world.
You're really confused and mind boggled because you're still trying to build a relationship with the Lord.
That's why they target young children because it's so easy to manipulate their minds and brainwash them and to believe in that God isn't real and that if he was, what will happen to you?
It's easier for you to believe in that other world now growing up and falling in line with them.
I'm losing a sense of myself because I was trying to understand how can I continue to make my business work and I wasn't used to being at home that much, especially around my family that much.
Not really having a break or a way to detox, it took a toll on me and I feel like that's when they realize this is the perfect time to attack because she's worn out, she's broken and it'll be easier for us to do these things and make these sacrifices.
Then she'll join our alliance pretty much and that didn't happen.
They did what they did but the Lord said, I'm going to use you, meaning me, to prove how real I am talking about the Lord and vengeance is His and everybody who harmed me, every sacrifice that was made to try to hurt me and traumatize me, the Lord's going to handle it and they're going to get theirs.
I know this was super long, when did and there's so many parts to this but that's part of the reason why I needed to take a step back was to truly have a clear head to truly understand those things.
Because even with smoking, I didn't realize that smoking, you're opening up different portals and different things to allow different energies in and I remember there's just bad influences throughout the extended family
and all the bad influences were done to each other and then all of them together tried to turn their bad influences, tried to turn me into trying to give me just to come to their bad influences because they all took an oath and decided to do that life
and they wanted me to join what I'm just not, I'm a believer in Christ and yeah, it felt good to say that stuff and get it out of just my head because I've been doing a lot of research on this stuff and I can do some more videos just like explaining things but it was necessary
because I didn't know so that's how I was able to get drugged, how I was able to get raped, how I was beaten and then try to make it seem like I was crazy and that was the way of trying to get me to shut up.
So yeah, thanks for watching.