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Good morning, good afternoon, good night, BFAM Podcast. Thank you for joining me from wherever you are and thank you for giving me your time.

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Today's quote of the day is...

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First Corinthians 1031, whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.

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Tonight I am here with Ms. Shael. Ms. Shael, introduce yourself.

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Hi, my name is Ms. Shael. I go to the University of Southern California.

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Give us a little background on you. What are the three fun facts we should know about you?

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Three fun facts about me are...I'm not from LA, but if you're not from LA, I'm from the OC if any of your listeners know where that's at.

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I'm the youngest of five siblings. I love my family dearly.

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What's my last name? I used to play soccer.

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How did you like that? What got you into soccer?

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Just my family. My sisters all played soccer.

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I fell into it and for a while it was just fun, but then I actually started taking it seriously.

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I grew to love it, but I was never like...

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...super intense.

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Super intense.

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If I ever wanted to quit, I would have just been like, I'm done.

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I feel you on that.

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Topics, topics, topics. What can we talk about?

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Before we started, you were talking about you never know.

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Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Get into that.

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The theme of my junior year was like...I think that was when I just got really close.

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It was coming off of COVID and I'm getting close to friends that I was already close to, but just by getting...knowing them on a deeper level.

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What I learned about one of my really close guy friends, and it was someone that I had been best friends with probably since sixth grade.

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A really close friend of mine.

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I had learned other stuff about other people that year too.

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As the year went on, I just realized that the theme of that year was just like...

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You never know anything that anyone is going through ever.

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They could be going through the worst possible thing.

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You wouldn't know a thing, you know as much as they let on.

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They're just smiling at your face all day and go home and deal with the most crazy shit ever.

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Like actually, you hear and start crying type stuff.

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You were going through this and then I was just chilling with you at lunch.

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What?

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It's actually heart breaking.

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It's crazy because even during my freshman year in high school, I lost two friends to suicide.

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We was there at school for all of two months.

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The happiest guys I ever knew.

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Niggas that made me laugh.

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It's always, always, always...

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Even when they're just chilling, I'll be like, bro actually I love...

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But that's another thing.

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I make sure every single one of my friends, I always have a deeper connection with them.

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It's just us and we could just sit and...

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I actually strive to be the friend that's like...

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If you feel like you can't go to anyone else, you can always come to me.

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I'm always going to like, bro, don't ever feel like a burden.

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I'd rather have you crying on my shoulder than going to your funeral.

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Man, that's deep, bro.

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And then we was talking about how you never know how a compliment can change somebody's day.

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Oh yes, bro.

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What's holding us back though?

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We were actually...

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Today, we were just bored after doing our work.

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We were just walking around campus.

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We were going to the village.

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And there was this group of beautiful black women just taking pictures.

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And we were walking and I was like, they're so beautiful.

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I kept saying that and the lot was just like, tell them.

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You guys are so beautiful.

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They were like, oh my gosh.

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And I'm going to get so flustered.

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But it's just like, that makes someone's day.

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And you were already thinking it.

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You already said it.

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Just speak up.

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Just speak up.

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There's nothing to voice it, bro.

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You're not hurting nobody with a compliment at all.

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You can literally change someone's entire trajectory of their day.

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Dude, you don't know.

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A nigga can be walking to go kill herself.

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To go over to buy pills to overdose, nigga.

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You say, oh, you're so beautiful.

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They're going to turn around and change their mind, bro.

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You might have extended somebody's period on this earth for another 10 years.

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You literally could have extended.

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And they can become a millionaire within that 10 years.

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So you never know, bro.

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And that's what made me so mad.

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I feel like a lot of people now, anywhere, lack social interaction skills.

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And that's just something I've been observing.

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Because you'll walk past somebody and they give you the meanest look

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that you've ever seen in your life.

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And you're like, bro.

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Like, go out of their way to just like...

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And then when you say, what's up, they act lost and don't know what to say, bro.

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And I'm like, I just don't think people understand how far how are you doing today can go.

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I meet people every day just by asking how they're doing.

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I notice that.

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Like, literally, this is why I say you and my dad need to just sit and have a conversation.

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Because you can be in an elevator with my dad for actually like two seconds, one for it.

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He'll be like, hey, how are you?

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How are you doing today?

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How are you doing, folks?

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What's your name?

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Just chopping it up.

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Because it's just like, it's nothing, too.

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And that could actually be what saves somebody.

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You could be like, no one cares about me.

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No one gives actual care about anything that I'm doing.

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Like, if I would have take myself from this earth, no one would bat an eye.

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But the fact that one person said, how are you?

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Yes, bro.

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Like, dang, like maybe someone does care.

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And then sometimes how are you is like, that's always a good introductory question.

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Because like, they'll tell you they're good, but sometimes that's not enough.

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Sometimes you got to be like, well, why is your day good?

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And then the deeper you go with the questions, bro, they open up more.

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A lot of people just got this big ass wall in front of this little ass kid, this deep inner child.

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And you just got to keep hanging at the wall, bro, to break it down so they can come out and be more of themselves.

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Because a lot of people, they just crumble up and they see the world as their enemy and not like they friend.

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That's why I don't like the quote, it's me versus me every day.

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I got to kill the man in the mirror.

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N***a become friends with the n***a in the mirror, bro.

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Because why are you going against yourself? You really the only friend.

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That's another thing.

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Like this, like, hold on, just watch my training.

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But like, that's another thing.

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Like the way that people were raised plays such a crazy impact into their life.

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Like every day, like, you know, like when I'm a kid, I'm like, oh, my mom, my mom make me like whatever.

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You know, you complain. But like, as I grow up, like all of high school, every single day, I was so grateful for how I was raised.

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Just like even in terms of just like, oh, like just basic knowing how to do so, how to like live on my own.

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Like my mom made it a point.

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Like she got five kids.

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Every single one of them is going to know how to take care of themselves.

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But like even like my mom always made it like a point to like, like uplift her children.

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Right. Because even because we all like it's like, but it's like, you know, you're a black family in a predominantly white space.

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Like you're obviously going to have different insecurities.

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Up and down, ups and downs.

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Exactly. But it's like she always made like anytime like we would like talk to some people.

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Oh, hold on. I'll get into this.

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I'm listening.

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But like anytime like, and it wasn't often, but anytime you like, oh, like, you know, like you pick at yourself, she'd be like, girl, do you know people pay to look like you?

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Do you know? And just like, like it's like an aggressive type love, but it's like, dang, like people looky do.

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People looky do like pay to like look like you.

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Yeah. And I just realized like I remember my mom said that like to like me and my sister when we were like in the middle school because it didn't happen often.

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But like, you know, whenever we like talk about it, she was like, she was just like, make sure like that we were actually like, like locked in.

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But I remember I got into the car with one of my friends.

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And like her mom was taking us home because we lived like down the street.

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She moved, but like we lived down the street from each other.

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And she wore jeans or something. It was something like she wore jeans and it was a super hot day.

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And like I'm sorry. It was like, I don't care. It was super hot.

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And she was like to complain about when she got in the car. She's like, bro, I don't know why I wear jeans.

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And then like she was I was just like, yeah, I don't know why you chose me.

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Just make sure it's hot. And she was like, oh, like, well, my thighs and blah, blah, blah.

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And I was like, Mia, stop. And her mom was just like, oh, yeah.

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Like what kind of shit is that? Like actually just like, oh, yeah.

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That's low key crazy, bro. And I made a point whenever we shoot comes in my house, like we would like get ready before football games.

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It's like I was like, I'm not like whatever. Just like this is like we're so cool.

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Yeah, like like junior year we were really close. It was a point.

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Literally when she came over to my house, I was like, your mirror privileges are taken away because if you're just going to like like back, you're so beautiful.

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Like, bro, I'm not letting you do that over my house. Like you're not bringing that in.

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You're already doing that on your at your own house. I'm not going to let you like, like I want this to be a space that you can actually just like

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like be happy and enjoy and like genuinely not have to worry about all that because why should you have to worry about that?

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Yes. A lot of people being they own head and then one like when you you say it out loud and people actually kind of approve of the thoughts that you have in your head.

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They make you like 10 times worse because you like, dang, when people.

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Yeah, yeah, you actually because I feel like there's a certain point where you're just like talking to talk.

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Yeah, but then when someone else the most someone else is like, yeah, it's like, oh, like it's not because there's always like even whenever you talk about it.

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So there's always a point like, you know, maybe I'm just tripping like whatever, whatever.

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But if someone else like confirms that then it's like, I'm not tripping like this is actually what it is for you.

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And it's hard because I feel like we even if we're not paying attention, we always self analyze like more than we actually think we are.

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Every every part of the day you like, dang, do I look good?

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Because we can't walk around with a mirror and you can't see yourself. So you don't really the only people that you got around you that's really a mirror is the people sitting right in front of you.

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And they're not keeping it real, which, you know, really just in your own head.

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Yeah, combat fighting with the person that's up there.

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Yeah, and it's just like it's just so like sad sometimes.

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But also what I realized is I think especially like after covid because I grew up in a Christian household.

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But like and it's like you always like believe it.

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But there's a point in your life where it's like you truly like take it to heart and you're like, like you start like seeing stuff like manifest like just like being like, like you just really start being like the Lord is working and you can see it like so vividly like it's actually crazy.

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And I just remember like I'd ask yourself and be like, oh, like your worth is found in Christ, like not the world and blah, blah, blah, blah.

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But it's like, you know, I'm like around like boys and it's like, like obviously like they're all my friends, but it's like if no one's ever looking at you that way, you can't help but think about yourself and be like, dang, like, why am I not?

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Why am I not getting paid? Why am I like, it's like what's like what's if you're not insecure, even if it's still a thought and it's like, dang, like really like what is wrong with me?

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I'm like, I'm trying to think something wrong with you. Go ahead. And there was a point in my life where like it actually manifested be like, bro, my worth is not found in anyone else but Christ and since then it's literally like so what bro?

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I don't like who can like, like really and truly I'm not worried about what anyone else says because like, bro, I'm chosen by the highest high like the king of kings bro. I am not like, like God.

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No, that was it.

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I know I'm tired of people calling me. Yeah, start from my phone on DND. But like I was saying, though, no, like you were saying, God only gonna bring the people that's meant for you in your life.

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You might think somebody meant for you in your life but you don't really know until the higher power upstairs. Let it happen. We can't force too many connections like, yeah, I know when it's like, you know, I want to get into them.

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But like, if it don't work out, don't you force it never works out bro. Never force it back. That's the second you force it is no start to drain you. You're gonna start to get anxiety you don't start overthinking your every move is not going to be natural, but you gotta let it fall in naturally literally like that's another

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prayer specifically that I've started praying is just Lord let your will be done. Yeah, because like at the end like it's so like freeing because it's like bro like anytime like when I was stressing about like college applications just where I was going to go to school, whether or not I was going to play like there's a point where I was actually like crying because like it was just like I was trying to figure out if I was going to play at this school but the coach was like being iffy and I was like, well, I don't know where I want to go and I don't know where I'm going to be happy and literally like there was a part I was just like Lord like, like it's like just let it literally like.

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It's actually insane because it's not I was talking about this with someone else. It's not a carelessness. It's a carefree. Yes, bro. Like it's like it's in two different things completely. You know, I'll say I'll care for when you bring all this anxiety into your life. You start to question every move. You start to look at every move. But once you like even if anybody who listen to even if you don't believe in God, if you believe in Allah whatever you believe in them, bro. As soon as you give it to them, they're going to believe in you. So, I'm going to be like, oh, I want to believe in God. I want to believe in God. I want to believe in God. I want to believe in God. I want to believe in God. I want to believe in God. I want to believe in God.

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That higher power, bro. Everything starts to work in your favor. It's not up to you. We can't make every decision and I had to realize that I had to learn that because it was like it got to a point where I was like, I want to be in charge of my decisions and I want it to be because I did it. But that's not how life works. You're not you're not the you don't I don't rush it. You don't say that. I don't rush it. It's like really every every blessing that has happened to me, but it's been up to some higher power because I'm not you. You don't never know what you didn't miss.

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I don't know. You know, you were talking about that. I listen to humble beginnings. But you were talking about like something about like the good and the bad how like you're in control of only that and so like it was I can't remember like we're for you made such a good point that I was actually like dude like like you like like no you let me spit on that.

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It's like oh yeah, you were talking about you never know if something is good or bad because it's hard to you can judge something in a moment but judgments don't last.

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Yeah, you never know the blessings that like God you literally like there was a point where I was just like like you can watch these so bad and like just like pray by me like oh like Lord please like this but if like you don't understand what is past this like you don't understand that I am like not letting you get this 10k this whatever it's like I have so many more blessings like like bro like it's like we we don't tunnel vision ourselves.

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Yeah, it is one path and we forget about the world around us. You'll be like fighting, screaming to force way more possibilities out here. You don't even know what's better than what you got. The shit you can be aiming for could be like a seven out of 10. But what God got for you is like a 10 out of 10. You don't understand you want to know because you all you telling note everything. So like that's we got to find a good balance between saying yes and no. Yeah, like you got to know when to say no, but don't be saying no to everything. But you got to be able to say yes to just go.

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Go out, Brian. Just make make choices. Even if you don't know where it's going to lead to, but make the choice because that the one decision we always one decision away, but you never know. Like think about it. We always one decision away. I'm one decision away from from becoming a millionaire. Even if the one decision I make don't make me into a millionaire. It's one step forward. You know, like have you heard like the three degrees theory? Tell me, tell me, tell me. It's like you're always three degrees away from anyone at any place in time. Like it's like like you could be like, okay,

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I'd like to say like some famous person. If you really did your research like you could connect like Michelle Obama to like who's someone completely to you. Yeah, like literally like you could like there's and then stuff like, oh, you know this person. This person knows this person. This person took a picture with this person in 2017. Yeah, it's like that's three degrees like it's like you never like and even if you just think about that in terms of your future, like just like the stepping stones like just to like like get anywhere in it. Yeah, that's just crazy. That right there is why I'm like I watch.

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Who I'm ruled to and I just I just try to be nice to everybody not even like a kiss up to people way, but it don't take much to be a decent person. Even if you don't like somebody, you don't got to be an asshole. Yeah, you don't got to make it part of your day to go on a day. But you can still ask them how they do it. Even if you don't like them breath and people get that. They don't like them. So I'm gonna treat them like this. No, bro, because you don't even you treat them bad. Watch this. Watch this. Watch the uncle. Watch the uncle be your next boss. Yeah, you didn't disrespect the nephew. Now you can't get a raise. Now you can't

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pay less than everybody else. And what you gonna do? What you gonna do? You don't got no proof for you. Yeah, you know, I'm saying so it's like, like, watch who you're talking to watch certain people you have to have like, and it's not even a bad thing. But you just like an arm. There's nothing wrong with an arm distance friend. Yeah, because they're not you shouldn't let everyone get close to you and see that because then that's been like, you know, people start to like, like, take you for granted. People start to treat you a certain type of way. And it's like, you let them in before you truly

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know the type of time that they're on. Yeah. And once you know, you don't have to be like, nah, cool. You just know how to move arms length away. But that's like a hot fog. You know, everybody a hot fog away. Everybody. I bring you in.

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Everybody a hot fog away. Man, I f you up though. Can I ask you how you doing? It's easy Brandon makes it make people feel good about themselves. And the more we can make other people feel good about themselves, the better we can feel about ourselves. Because I know I feel way better when I help somebody.

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I met this guy that works. You know, people that work in front desk like we're gonna scan it. I met this guy named Michael, bro. He's so chill. Yeah, I'm walking down the hall. I was trying to balance my fucking water bottle. Yes, I was doing that. And he was smiling. So he asked me, what's up? So I'm like, well, how you doing? No, I asked him, how you doing today? He was like, I'm doing good. This is not. He was like, well, how you doing? I'm like, it's alright. It's Sunday. You know, I can't complain.

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It's boring Sunday. But like, I love boring days like this. Because it's really like, that's when your opportunities really kind of jump out at you and you can really make stuff happen. Those Sundays is the days where you that's where you can make your move. I feel like that's the biggest window opportunity because it's not really too much.

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Because you're not like tied to any event. You could just like, actually just go and explore. You just chill out. Yeah, get your stuff done early in the day. And that's why I try to get up early. Even if I don't wake up at the ass cracker. Yeah, I try to get up before nine in the morning, bro. Yeah, because you behind.

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You know, I'm talking about people in Detroit. I gotta get up at six o'clock here because it's already nine o'clock over there. The stock market opened up at nine thirty. You know, if I'm waking up at nine over here is 12 on the East Coast.

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Yeah, they did. They had a guy and they've been here for five hours. So it's like, even if you listen, even if you don't have to have that mentality about life, but you always got to have it.

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Yeah, it got to be a healthy balance between. OK, it's still a competition out there, but I'm only looking at my stats. You know, yeah, it's the comparison is good. Don't let the Internet tell you like, um, yeah, I think healthy.

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Yeah, there you go. It's like don't let the Internet tell you like, oh, don't compare yourself to anybody. OK, I can't keep comparing myself to myself. Yeah, I got to see somebody that's doing something in the range of what I want to do so I can see how I'm moving.

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I'm not saying do it every move verbatim, but it's healthy to be like, all right, I want to become a billionaire within the next 20 years. You know, I said, that's a smart goal. 20, 20 years. I can't be getting up at 11, 12 in the afternoon if that's not what billionaires do.

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So I got to emulate some of the billionaire tendencies, so I'm going to do my research. I speak it into existence. Yeah, so I just kind of like already move like you have like you got to move like how they move because you got to think they didn't become a billionaire and then start moving like that.

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There's a difference between comparison and I think competition because you can you can you can kind of like look at someone and be like, OK, they're doing this and kind of compare and be OK.

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This is how this is how I need to start moving. This is stuff that I need to do versus like, oh, well, well, they're doing that. So I know you can look at someone as kind of like like a template almost kind of like like go base off them, you know, tweak it to help whatever you need to do versus like like competition and always being like, oh, they're doing this and I need to this.

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And then like, no, right here, great quote. I forget what artists said, but it was great artists still, you know, saying they don't copy, but they still look at you like I like them.

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And the more you can pick from pick from this pop it from that pop it from this pop, it's like almost going thrifting, brother. I keep picking up, I'm going to start picking up good shit. You know, if I wanted no more.

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Somebody else share it. There's no more use to me, brother. If you have stuff that's like no more of use to you, brother, my strategy. Yeah, brother. Throw it away or give it to somebody.

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You got it. The more you move your own possessions along, the more your life is going to move. The more we hoard, the more we become. It becomes too heavy to move. So we got it. We got to pack light.

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You know what I'm saying? You're moving into California. I came to Los Angeles with one fucking suitcase. I moved into college with one fucking suitcase. You'll show me pictures and you'll be like, you have all this stuff.

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I'll be like, did you bring that? No, I left that in Detroit. Like what? Because I'm like, I'm thinking like I could have won against my dad and was like, look, I'll pay for the extra carry on because I want to take this with me.

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But like in my head, I'm like, bro, if I can take X, Y, Z, bro, I can build a whole new wardrobe in Los Angeles, bro. I ain't broke. And if I am, I got to make it work. That's giving yourself a challenge, bro.

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I wanted to like start from zero because that's really where you can see yourself grow. You know what I'm saying? If you bring in everything that you already have, how you ever going to see any progression in your life?

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I think that's also very admirable about you. Like, well, one, just the way you interact with people, but also you will like, you're always up for a challenge.

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Like you're always going to like try new things, like no fear. And I think that's very well, you said, I listened to your podcast.

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I ain't a lot of scared sometimes. No, but you said it was like embracing it. I was like, no, that's fucking kind of hard.

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I want to pass this on to Brad. Like if you're thinking about doing something and then you hesitate, you not have to do it. Like you have to go. You have to go do it.

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So if you like what someone says, no balls. Yeah, you got to do it. The more you can challenge yourself in that aspect, the more you're going to break out of that shell that you win because nobody else is going to do it for you.

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That's something I had to learn. Nobody else is going to break you out your shell. They got to see you breaking yourself out your shell to offer you help.

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It's almost like seeing somebody. All right. Imagine this. It's a little practice. You see somebody on the freeway. Yeah. Close your eyes.

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You see somebody on the side of the freeway, on the shoulder of the freeway. Car broke down. They just sitting in the car. You know what I'm saying?

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So I'm going to just keep driving. Yeah. And then you know, I'm not worried. Yeah. Yeah. So now imagine this.

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They get out. They either trying to fix the tire that's busted or they trying to push the car up the ramp.

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Now that I see you helping yourself, I'm like, all right, I can give a hand. And then once somebody else see me helping you, they're going to want to help too.

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And it's going to kiss a big ass chain effect. And you just got to help yourself first. And then the outside help going to come. Yeah.

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You can't just wait for somebody to come. You're like, all right, let me help you. How's anybody ever going to know what to do?

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I feel like it also shows like, like not like in terms of putting your worth in this, but it shows that you're like worthy.

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It's like, yeah, because if you're sitting in their car, then I'm just thinking, oh, he's just pulled over.

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Like, I don't even know that you're needing help. Nobody's going to know. No one knows.

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And it's like, but it's like you see like, oh, you're actually like working to like make efforts to help yourself first.

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It's like, yeah, I'll help you. Like, yeah, I won't feel like I'm pulling dead weight.

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Like we're doing this together. Like I'm helping you. Easy, easy, easy.

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You know what I'm saying? What was I about to say? I was about to say, uh, I was listening, so I forgot. It was like.

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Oh, there was something you said in your other podcast. Sorry, I've been jumping around.

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My brain moves faster than I can speak. But in your other, you were sparking like, like you gave out gears.

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I'm trying to get people to hear you say.

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But you said something about just like, like, like what coming from a life of poverty has taught you.

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Oh, yeah.

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And it made me think of like just J. Cole in Love Yourself.

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He was like, think being broke was better. And he had to like, like go into it and be like, I'm not trying to get on.

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I'm like, everyone that's broke.

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But I think, yeah.

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I'm not saying go out there and spend all your money.

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No, no, no. He's like bet it.

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It's like, I'm about to go bankrupt. Austin said go bankrupt. Austin did not say go bankrupt.

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You got the money. Just take time to learn about poverty, though.

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Like, if you well off, take time to learn about the other side, because once you once you learn about both sides of the coin,

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it's way easier to pick whatever side you're more comfortable with or like which way you want to go.

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So we got to be susceptible to everything.

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That's low key why I didn't want to go to HBCU though, because it's like.

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I already grew up in Detroit.

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Half the motherfuckers I knew growing up, or most of them, I'm going to if I'm going to see y'all get in college,

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how am I ever meeting any new people?

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I mean, yes, new people out in college, but since I already know y'all, I'm going to fall into y'all group with y'all.

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So everything will just be an extension out of doing from the same to the same.

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You know what I'm saying? But yeah, I come out here to California to the other side of the country.

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I have no choice but to do stuff.

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I didn't bring myself back to my own point.

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I was like, look, y'all gonna learn this, bro.

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If you go to college, you got to start thinking like when we got scholars on.

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When y'all when y'all do go to college, if y'all decide, I'm not going to.

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But it's like. You can comfort yourself with not doing stuff like at home or like in your city,

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like you can like you can like say you see a pretty girl,

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you can get away with like not talking to her because you like, I'm about to go home.

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I might see her again.

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You got a lot of stuff to like, you got a shell that you can go back to.

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Once you're in college, bro, if you want to talk to a girl, you may never see.

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Especially how big USC is.

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Look, bro, whoever listen, if you need this, you got to.

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It's going to be when you get to college, you're going to be forced to make your own decisions.

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You know what I'm saying? No, you can't go nowhere.

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It's a brand new decision.

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And don't be afraid. Don't be like everybody else who like all going to school to get a degree.

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Look, I'm not saying I'm not worried about studies, but I am.

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I could care less about like the letter grade.

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I'm starting to look at work as more of an opportunity to get better at something,

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even if I kind of know how to do it already.

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I'm not about to sit here and brush it off.

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I'm about to read the information that they give me or I'm about to.

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I'm using everything as a new learning experience.

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Everything like is a precursor.

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And I just realized that because I was talking to Janadio and Karan.

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There are two people that went to boarding schools their whole life.

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Yeah, over in London.

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In London. And they were talking about just like how they prep them.

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They're like, if I never went to a boarding school, I would not.

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Like I would be like dying.

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No, I'm good. Thank you.

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I would be dying like just trying to like go to school.

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Yes, bro.

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In like 13 hours away, like a 10 hour time difference.

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But like literally every day in college is just a glimpse because obviously you're getting help.

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People cook our food.

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We have obviously so much help, but it's a glimpse of just like real world life.

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Like today, like you have to make this.

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No one's going to wake you up.

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No one's going to.

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No one's making you do anything.

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Oh, nobody gives a fuck.

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Even like the bad shit you're doing in college.

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Nobody nobody's going to call the police.

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Nobody's going to come.

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No one's going to call your parents.

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No one's going to help.

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Like there are ways for you to get help, but no one is coming to you and be like, are you OK?

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What do you need?

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Teachers don't give a fuck.

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You don't got to come to class.

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Nothing is mandatory here.

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Yeah, they just want your money.

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I'm not going to.

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Yeah, so it's a good environment, but it's up to you to use it.

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You need to lock in so you're not getting like so you're not like just screwing yourself over.

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First semester, like partying, like you need to actually like it's it's such a like

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a kind of like awakening and being like you actually need to

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in terms of time management, stress management, money management.

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Yes, bro, because you like you don't have a check coming in unless you got a job.

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That's if you can get a job when you are in school.

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So right now, however old you are listening to this, bro, you got to start to organize

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yourself in a way to where you move in like it's never too early.

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Now, I'm not saying like you got to be out here paying bills and shit,

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but you got to put yourself in a mindset where it's like, all right, life is real.

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I can have fun, but let me manage this and not live like I'm a kid.

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It's OK to have that inner child come out.

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I had an inner child come out all the time, bro.

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I live in a cold kid.

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Yeah.

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But you still got to be mature enough to make big boy decisions, though.

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You know what I'm saying?

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And it's good to practice every day.

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And I think about like, all right, you go on the parties every weekend.

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How about you try sitting in the house and study?

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Think about limiting yourself from doing everything.

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You have to like be able to have like a balance.

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I feel like balance is everything.

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Yes, bro.

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It's so also like take advice from people that can't.

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I remember like growing up, like I said, one of my facts was I was the youngest of

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like five siblings.

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So I got four siblings older than me.

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Ranges from like two years older than me to 12 years older than me.

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So like I got some experience.

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But like, like just as I've grown up, like like before, like they would talk to me and

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try to like give me advice.

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I'd be like, all right, bro, like, you know, just kind of be like, bro, like just let me do.

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Now, literally, I wanted to get out pen and paper, literally right before I was going

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to college, especially like since like a lot of them went here, like they would tell me

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advice and I'm like, they're like, they're like, don't date your freshman year, like

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lock in on your homework notes and make like they're like telling me all this advice and

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even just like, like life skills.

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Like I'm like, I'm taking everything so personal because I'm like, you guys have made these

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mistakes.

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You've done like everything under the sun to where it's like, like I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm

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trust.

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I'm taking everything you said like to heart.

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These people are not trying to like stop you from having fun.

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They're trying to tell you which road not to go down.

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They're trying to see you so much headache, bro.

361
00:31:12,080 --> 00:31:16,080
You can waste time going down the road that was already like paved.

362
00:31:16,080 --> 00:31:20,080
Like you could, you think you go into a shortcut, but really you're just going down the road

363
00:31:20,080 --> 00:31:26,080
that already you know, what this reminds me of when we were in Greece, my family, like

364
00:31:26,080 --> 00:31:30,560
we, I took a big family trip to Greece this summer and we're in two cars because like,

365
00:31:30,560 --> 00:31:33,840
well, it was a surprise basically, but my family ended up surprising me.

366
00:31:33,840 --> 00:31:35,280
And so we're trying to just go down.

367
00:31:35,280 --> 00:31:39,840
We're in like kind of a remote like mountain, whatever we're trying to go down to the city

368
00:31:39,840 --> 00:31:42,320
and like Google maps is taking us and we end up driving it.

369
00:31:42,320 --> 00:31:47,520
It literally long story short, it ends us like up in like the middle of the woods, like,

370
00:31:47,520 --> 00:31:51,840
like our car is like rocking on rocks, like under like, and we're in a little car and

371
00:31:51,840 --> 00:31:55,520
I literally almost started crying, but it's just like, it's telling you to go this way,

372
00:31:55,520 --> 00:31:57,680
but you're talking about like paved roads, paved roads.

373
00:31:57,680 --> 00:32:00,720
And I'm like, even though like it's telling you to go that, like you, you just kind of

374
00:32:00,720 --> 00:32:03,920
have to add a point, like you also have to use some discernment for that.

375
00:32:03,920 --> 00:32:05,920
You know what?

376
00:32:05,920 --> 00:32:07,920
It ain't so black.

377
00:32:07,920 --> 00:32:11,920
You guys can't see, but I'm jumping up and down right now.

378
00:32:11,920 --> 00:32:13,920
Mine is not common.

379
00:32:13,920 --> 00:32:17,920
My mom to this, cause I started with my grandma and all Texas black man, but he literally like,

380
00:32:17,920 --> 00:32:21,920
he will tell you, he would tell you time and time again, but now my mom will say common

381
00:32:21,920 --> 00:32:27,920
sense ain't common at all, bro.

382
00:32:27,920 --> 00:32:29,920
It's like actually crazy.

383
00:32:29,920 --> 00:32:31,920
No, I'm done.

384
00:32:31,920 --> 00:32:35,920
Bro, bro, bro, bro, you got to like, when y'all thinking, bro, not everybody thinks like you.

385
00:32:35,920 --> 00:32:37,920
Oh my gosh.

386
00:32:37,920 --> 00:32:41,920
So like me and my roommate, current bro, we like, why the hell do everybody look at us

387
00:32:41,920 --> 00:32:45,920
with a stank face when we ask them how they do is, but then we like, we got to think about

388
00:32:45,920 --> 00:32:49,920
people passing, like they not interacting with people.

389
00:32:49,920 --> 00:32:51,920
That's as chill as me and him every single day.

390
00:32:51,920 --> 00:32:53,920
You know what I'm saying?

391
00:32:53,920 --> 00:32:55,920
They not meeting people like me and him.

392
00:32:55,920 --> 00:32:59,920
So it's really a defense mechanism that a lot of people use and how I understand it to

393
00:32:59,920 --> 00:33:01,920
an extent.

394
00:33:01,920 --> 00:33:03,920
Like I feel you on the, okay.

395
00:33:03,920 --> 00:33:07,920
This happened to me like one, two, three, four, five times.

396
00:33:07,920 --> 00:33:09,920
Now I can't trust nobody.

397
00:33:09,920 --> 00:33:11,920
You know what I'm saying?

398
00:33:11,920 --> 00:33:15,920
But at some point you got to stop feeling sorry for yourself is okay.

399
00:33:15,920 --> 00:33:17,920
You traumatized, but we all traumatized in this way.

400
00:33:17,920 --> 00:33:21,920
But like, bro, you can't just make, you can't identify with your traumas, bro.

401
00:33:21,920 --> 00:33:27,920
You cannot, I think at a certain point, bro, you got to be able to, okay, I'm tired of feeling like this.

402
00:33:27,920 --> 00:33:35,920
I think, and I think I've actually like thought about this a lot and I've tried to like kind of like give benefit of the doubt and be like, you know, like I'm

403
00:33:35,920 --> 00:33:45,920
grateful enough to not have gone through anything of that much, like any real trauma, like really, obviously I have my own issues, but like any real trauma that's affected me in that way.

404
00:33:45,920 --> 00:33:49,920
So I'm trying to be like, maybe if that were to happen to me, I would move like that too.

405
00:33:49,920 --> 00:33:55,920
But then like almost in a way, and I'm not like invalidating anything that's ever happened in a way.

406
00:33:55,920 --> 00:34:00,920
Like also you have to kind of like use that to, and it's not like, what is it?

407
00:34:00,920 --> 00:34:02,920
You can forgive, but not forget.

408
00:34:02,920 --> 00:34:08,920
Like you can, you can use that to help you kind of like keep it in your heart, but not let it dictate everything.

409
00:34:08,920 --> 00:34:10,920
And like, yeah.

410
00:34:10,920 --> 00:34:18,920
And when you say forgive and not forget, bro, bro, it's a difference between forgiving and not forgetting and forgiving and not forgetting.

411
00:34:18,920 --> 00:34:20,920
You know what I'm saying? I know what you're saying.

412
00:34:20,920 --> 00:34:27,920
No, no, no, no, no, that's not gonna dive deep into it because a lot of us would be like, oh, I forgive and I don't forget, but I don't hold grudges, bro.

413
00:34:27,920 --> 00:34:33,920
If you forgive and you just keep remembering the fucking instance, dude, that is literally a grudge.

414
00:34:33,920 --> 00:34:37,920
You gotta be able to like forgive and not forget the lesson that you were taught.

415
00:34:37,920 --> 00:34:38,920
That's it.

416
00:34:38,920 --> 00:34:46,920
You gotta forget what they did, but you can't forget the lesson that was taught because that's when you, that's when you can utilize the lessons that you got, bro.

417
00:34:46,920 --> 00:34:47,920
Lost his time.

418
00:34:47,920 --> 00:34:48,920
Everything is a learning experience.

419
00:34:48,920 --> 00:34:49,920
Everything.

420
00:34:49,920 --> 00:34:50,920
Everything.

421
00:34:50,920 --> 00:34:54,920
Y'all gotta, bro, life is real, but like it's like not real at the same time.

422
00:34:54,920 --> 00:34:55,920
No, I don't know.

423
00:34:55,920 --> 00:34:58,920
You can die, but like it's really a game.

424
00:34:58,920 --> 00:35:00,920
Like people be like, life is not a game.

425
00:35:00,920 --> 00:35:01,920
Yes, it is.

426
00:35:01,920 --> 00:35:06,920
But like, like, like really and truly like it's like everything, like, like it's like choose your game.

427
00:35:06,920 --> 00:35:10,920
And then like every, every, every option is like, it's like this one or this one.

428
00:35:10,920 --> 00:35:11,920
This one or this one?

429
00:35:11,920 --> 00:35:12,920
This decision or that decision?

430
00:35:12,920 --> 00:35:13,920
This decision or that decision?

431
00:35:13,920 --> 00:35:14,920
For real.

432
00:35:14,920 --> 00:35:15,920
It's like, yes, life is a game.

433
00:35:15,920 --> 00:35:16,920
I'm not gonna lie.

434
00:35:16,920 --> 00:35:19,920
And I'm not saying go out and like start running around in the middle of the street.

435
00:35:19,920 --> 00:35:20,920
You can still die.

436
00:35:20,920 --> 00:35:21,920
Yeah.

437
00:35:21,920 --> 00:35:22,920
I mean, if you want to go out and run around in the middle of the street.

438
00:35:22,920 --> 00:35:24,920
Don't come and reference me telling you that.

439
00:35:24,920 --> 00:35:25,920
I told you to do that, but.

440
00:35:25,920 --> 00:35:26,920
Brother from another, be fair.

441
00:35:26,920 --> 00:35:29,920
I was just saying, it's like running around in the middle of the street.

442
00:35:29,920 --> 00:35:30,920
It's a game.

443
00:35:30,920 --> 00:35:33,920
No, you can still get injured and get hurt, but like.

444
00:35:33,920 --> 00:35:34,920
Yeah.

445
00:35:34,920 --> 00:35:37,920
Like everything is as serious as we make it out to be.

446
00:35:37,920 --> 00:35:39,920
Sometimes like, sorry, go ahead.

447
00:35:39,920 --> 00:35:43,920
No, it's like, I saw a quote on TikTok.

448
00:35:43,920 --> 00:35:49,920
He said, don't sweat the small things.

449
00:35:49,920 --> 00:35:52,920
And then he goes, usually everything is small.

450
00:35:52,920 --> 00:35:54,920
Usually it's all small.

451
00:35:54,920 --> 00:35:56,920
Don't sweat nothing, bro.

452
00:35:56,920 --> 00:35:58,920
Like, yeah, let that shit go.

453
00:35:58,920 --> 00:36:01,920
I used to be, I used to be so anxious for no reason.

454
00:36:01,920 --> 00:36:02,920
And I never understood it.

455
00:36:02,920 --> 00:36:07,920
I was so young, so I was like in like eighth grade and I would have the anxious feeling.

456
00:36:07,920 --> 00:36:10,920
Like, you know, you know, the feeling in your chest, like the pain in your chest.

457
00:36:10,920 --> 00:36:12,920
And I started to normalize it in myself.

458
00:36:12,920 --> 00:36:15,920
And I'm like, if I'm not feeling that way, then something must be wrong.

459
00:36:15,920 --> 00:36:17,920
But then it got to a point where the shit was like hurting.

460
00:36:17,920 --> 00:36:19,920
It was like, I'm actually physical.

461
00:36:19,920 --> 00:36:20,920
I can't breathe without feeling anxious.

462
00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:23,920
So I'm like, bro, I got to understand what is going on.

463
00:36:23,920 --> 00:36:27,920
So I'm like, let me do some research into this because I know this is not normal, bro.

464
00:36:27,920 --> 00:36:29,920
I should be able to feel free within myself.

465
00:36:29,920 --> 00:36:32,920
I should be able to feel comfortable in my own body.

466
00:36:32,920 --> 00:36:40,920
So the more I started to pay attention to myself, understand what I was doing, see how I was actually thinking like surface level thinking.

467
00:36:40,920 --> 00:36:42,920
Yeah, but it's something deeper than that.

468
00:36:42,920 --> 00:36:44,920
I feel like it's three levels.

469
00:36:44,920 --> 00:36:45,920
You got the conscious thinking.

470
00:36:45,920 --> 00:36:48,920
It's a middle ground and you got subconscious.

471
00:36:48,920 --> 00:36:56,920
The middle ground is really where the shit that's influencing you is influencing you like subconscious.

472
00:36:56,920 --> 00:36:59,920
That's going to take a little bit longer to get into.

473
00:36:59,920 --> 00:37:01,920
But you can't think about it.

474
00:37:01,920 --> 00:37:02,920
But you just kind of brush it off.

475
00:37:02,920 --> 00:37:05,920
Yeah, it's like digging a grave though.

476
00:37:05,920 --> 00:37:09,920
So like at the top, you got the surface level, bro.

477
00:37:09,920 --> 00:37:11,920
You got the grass, the dirt and shit.

478
00:37:11,920 --> 00:37:12,920
And you got to go a little bit deeper.

479
00:37:12,920 --> 00:37:15,920
And like right there is like when shit really start clicking.

480
00:37:15,920 --> 00:37:24,920
And then by the time you get to the middle ground, you got enough momentum, enough momentum to understand how to get to the subconscious level.

481
00:37:24,920 --> 00:37:28,920
So say you was digging a grave is what six feet.

482
00:37:28,920 --> 00:37:33,920
Say you dig two feet is your two feet deep is your conscious.

483
00:37:33,920 --> 00:37:35,920
Another two feet would be the middle ground.

484
00:37:35,920 --> 00:37:37,920
And then the last two feet to be the subconscious.

485
00:37:37,920 --> 00:37:38,920
You know what I'm saying?

486
00:37:38,920 --> 00:37:44,920
And when you get to the end of the grave, that's when you can see the casket.

487
00:37:44,920 --> 00:37:53,920
But I think another thing is also like the importance of being able to spend time by yourself.

488
00:37:53,920 --> 00:38:06,920
And just with yourself, because I think some people don't they don't like I feel like people will oftentimes just like do too much stuff and always have to be doing something and always have to be being busy or like going out.

489
00:38:06,920 --> 00:38:10,920
And there's nothing wrong because me personally, like I'm an extrovert and I love I regenerate.

490
00:38:10,920 --> 00:38:12,920
I love hanging out with people.

491
00:38:12,920 --> 00:38:13,920
I love it could be in a party event.

492
00:38:13,920 --> 00:38:14,920
It could just be like this.

493
00:38:14,920 --> 00:38:15,920
Like just so I'm sitting talking.

494
00:38:15,920 --> 00:38:23,920
I love like hanging out people, but I think there is a very big and deep importance of just spending time with yourself.

495
00:38:23,920 --> 00:38:28,920
That's why when you be going on just an excursion with yourself, I think it's so inspirational.

496
00:38:28,920 --> 00:38:33,920
I'd be like, I need to get like that because sometimes I'll be like, like I'll text you like, say I want to go to the bookstore.

497
00:38:33,920 --> 00:38:35,920
I just you can do stuff by yourself.

498
00:38:35,920 --> 00:38:36,920
Just go.

499
00:38:36,920 --> 00:38:37,920
There's like you it's good.

500
00:38:37,920 --> 00:38:44,920
It's actually healthy and it's almost unhealthy to not be able to just be alone with your thoughts and just chill.

501
00:38:44,920 --> 00:38:45,920
Yes.

502
00:38:45,920 --> 00:38:47,920
You're not just by you got to do.

503
00:38:47,920 --> 00:38:50,920
You got to do it by and even when you go up.

504
00:38:50,920 --> 00:38:51,920
Oh, continuation.

505
00:38:51,920 --> 00:38:53,920
That's another thing.

506
00:38:53,920 --> 00:38:54,920
What the fuck?

507
00:38:54,920 --> 00:39:01,920
I think it was a subtle art and I give it a fuck or another.

508
00:39:01,920 --> 00:39:09,920
I used to read a lot of the tree, but basically it was saying stop thinking of life as every time you think you want to do something new.

509
00:39:09,920 --> 00:39:17,920
Stop thinking of it as a whole new project because once you start a whole new project, that's it takes so long to get into habit.

510
00:39:17,920 --> 00:39:19,920
So of course you're going to become discouraged.

511
00:39:19,920 --> 00:39:24,920
Don't start a new thinking pattern and be like, oh, I'm going to hold on to this because usually you're going to lose the momentum you got.

512
00:39:24,920 --> 00:39:31,920
You can think about it as, oh, I'm just going to continue to do this because when you tell yourself, I'm just going to continue to do this.

513
00:39:31,920 --> 00:39:34,920
Your mind is already in the mind state.

514
00:39:34,920 --> 00:39:36,920
Oh, so I already been doing it.

515
00:39:36,920 --> 00:39:39,920
I don't need to go through the initial phase that hard shit.

516
00:39:39,920 --> 00:39:41,920
All I got to do is keep going.

517
00:39:41,920 --> 00:39:45,920
So it's like I'll be like, dang, I need to start dressing up.

518
00:39:45,920 --> 00:39:46,920
I need to start doing this.

519
00:39:46,920 --> 00:39:48,920
I need to start getting more in the heart.

520
00:39:48,920 --> 00:39:50,920
I've already been into this stuff.

521
00:39:50,920 --> 00:39:53,920
I got to continue to follow my passion within this stuff.

522
00:39:53,920 --> 00:40:01,920
And that takes a lot of weight off my brain to just because you know, when like you watch a tick tock or something, you like, I do love doing that.

523
00:40:01,920 --> 00:40:02,920
Yeah.

524
00:40:02,920 --> 00:40:13,920
You want to get in because you like, I need to start doing that again. But really you're going like if you go, oh, I need to continue to do that, then it's easier to fill it and fulfill that passion.

525
00:40:13,920 --> 00:40:14,920
Yeah, go ahead.

526
00:40:14,920 --> 00:40:22,920
I think like for me personally, when I'm when I I feel like when I think about stuff too big, it stresses me out.

527
00:40:22,920 --> 00:40:25,920
Yeah. And I just like get I get I get I get so there was a point.

528
00:40:25,920 --> 00:40:35,920
I think my junior year I was just get like so overwhelmed. Like it was like life stuff like just like family stuff and then like on top of like school and just like everything.

529
00:40:35,920 --> 00:40:37,920
And it felt like just like everything was piling up.

530
00:40:37,920 --> 00:40:42,920
But it's like taking stuff little by little makes such a difference.

531
00:40:42,920 --> 00:40:47,920
Like I remember my parents, you don't have to like decide what school you're going to right now.

532
00:40:47,920 --> 00:40:50,920
All you have to do right now is to answer this question.

533
00:40:50,920 --> 00:40:51,920
Write this paragraph.

534
00:40:51,920 --> 00:40:52,920
Yes.

535
00:40:52,920 --> 00:40:53,920
Like like literally you don't have to bake a whole cake right now.

536
00:40:53,920 --> 00:40:56,920
You just got to crack an egg.

537
00:40:56,920 --> 00:40:59,920
That was hard.

538
00:40:59,920 --> 00:41:01,920
That was hard.

539
00:41:01,920 --> 00:41:02,920
That was hard.

540
00:41:02,920 --> 00:41:03,920
You didn't make that up.

541
00:41:03,920 --> 00:41:04,920
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

542
00:41:04,920 --> 00:41:05,920
No crumbs.

543
00:41:05,920 --> 00:41:06,920
He said that was me.

544
00:41:06,920 --> 00:41:07,920
That was me.

545
00:41:07,920 --> 00:41:08,920
That was me.

546
00:41:08,920 --> 00:41:09,920
That was me.

547
00:41:09,920 --> 00:41:10,920
That was me.

548
00:41:10,920 --> 00:41:11,920
That was me.

549
00:41:11,920 --> 00:41:12,920
But keep going.

550
00:41:12,920 --> 00:41:13,920
Keep going.

551
00:41:13,920 --> 00:41:18,920
Yeah. But no, just like taking things little by like, oh, and this is what you were talking about.

552
00:41:18,920 --> 00:41:19,920
Like, oh, dang.

553
00:41:19,920 --> 00:41:23,920
Sorry, sorry, I'm going to side check.

554
00:41:23,920 --> 00:41:25,920
But like what you're talking about, a humble beginning too.

555
00:41:25,920 --> 00:41:30,920
Just like, like I remember when I would get stressed out, especially like during college

556
00:41:30,920 --> 00:41:35,920
I just wasn't just like stuff was just coming at me quick and I was just getting like, like really overwhelmed.

557
00:41:35,920 --> 00:41:36,920
Yeah.

558
00:41:36,920 --> 00:41:41,920
My mom was just like, like take a break, clean your room, make your bed.

559
00:41:41,920 --> 00:41:42,920
No.

560
00:41:42,920 --> 00:41:46,920
When you, bro, I'm telling you, when you go to bed with a clean room, you, you sleep better.

561
00:41:46,920 --> 00:41:51,920
My mom says, my mom said that and I used to be like, bro, like I don't, I'm already overwhelmed.

562
00:41:51,920 --> 00:41:53,920
I don't, I don't even have time to do that.

563
00:41:53,920 --> 00:41:54,920
Right.

564
00:41:54,920 --> 00:41:55,920
Dude, dude.

565
00:41:55,920 --> 00:41:59,920
It makes me like, oh, we should be good.

566
00:41:59,920 --> 00:42:03,920
My, like literally my, my dad used to like, he said this one time where I was like, like

567
00:42:03,920 --> 00:42:07,920
trying to like say something and I was just getting, and he was like speaking to me and I wasn't hearing him.

568
00:42:07,920 --> 00:42:11,920
And he was like, you don't understand that I'd been 17 before.

569
00:42:11,920 --> 00:42:12,920
Man.

570
00:42:12,920 --> 00:42:16,920
But then, but then, but then it's also like, he's like, what?

571
00:42:16,920 --> 00:42:19,920
Like he's like, I've been 17 two times over.

572
00:42:19,920 --> 00:42:21,920
Like, you don't, like I've been, I've been here before.

573
00:42:21,920 --> 00:42:28,920
If you would just trust me and listen to me, like know that I am like, I'm trying to help you.

574
00:42:28,920 --> 00:42:29,920
I got you.

575
00:42:29,920 --> 00:42:30,920
Yeah.

576
00:42:30,920 --> 00:42:35,920
Like just, and even if you don't, like, if you, if you're just host, try this once, just once.

577
00:42:35,920 --> 00:42:39,920
And if it doesn't work out, I'll take, I'll take, I'll take, I'll take it.

578
00:42:39,920 --> 00:42:40,920
Oh my God.

579
00:42:40,920 --> 00:42:44,920
Sometimes I'm kicking myself in the fucking head for not listening to my dad.

580
00:42:44,920 --> 00:42:45,920
No!

581
00:42:45,920 --> 00:42:47,920
Cause bro, he'd be right every single time.

582
00:42:47,920 --> 00:42:50,920
He'd be, he'd be right every single time.

583
00:42:50,920 --> 00:42:52,920
I love my dad, bro.

584
00:42:52,920 --> 00:42:53,920
No, I-

585
00:42:53,920 --> 00:42:54,920
Bro, he is like the greatest.

586
00:42:54,920 --> 00:42:55,920
Oh my gosh.

587
00:42:55,920 --> 00:42:57,920
I don't even think, I don't even think he, bro, he's like the greatest.

588
00:42:57,920 --> 00:42:59,920
Our dads need a link because they got a link.

589
00:42:59,920 --> 00:43:00,920
Ain't they both cute?

590
00:43:00,920 --> 00:43:01,920
Yeah, they are.

591
00:43:01,920 --> 00:43:02,920
Fuck you dawg.

592
00:43:02,920 --> 00:43:03,920
No dude.

593
00:43:03,920 --> 00:43:05,920
That's what I'm saying bro.

594
00:43:05,920 --> 00:43:07,920
Bro, my dad is the coolest.

595
00:43:07,920 --> 00:43:08,920
I'm about to send my dad this.

596
00:43:08,920 --> 00:43:09,920
Yeah.

597
00:43:09,920 --> 00:43:11,920
I love my dad, bro.

598
00:43:11,920 --> 00:43:17,920
He came on here and stayed two weeks, even if I didn't get, I'm kind of sad I didn't

599
00:43:17,920 --> 00:43:20,920
get to see him, but I'm kind of glad we were able to-

600
00:43:20,920 --> 00:43:22,920
Dude, this is like even like kind of-

601
00:43:22,920 --> 00:43:24,920
Yeah, to like still be here at the same time, bro.

602
00:43:24,920 --> 00:43:29,920
I got to spend a few days with him in the B&B, down time, like we was, we was chilling,

603
00:43:29,920 --> 00:43:30,920
bro.

604
00:43:30,920 --> 00:43:31,920
We always vibing, bro.

605
00:43:31,920 --> 00:43:32,920
I miss that dude so much.

606
00:43:32,920 --> 00:43:34,920
We send each other music every day.

607
00:43:34,920 --> 00:43:41,680
Every day like we always sharing songs always going to the gym breath and he really he is one

608
00:43:41,880 --> 00:43:43,880
He's a big

609
00:43:44,480 --> 00:43:48,160
Influence on who I am today even if I you know, sometimes you click

610
00:43:52,600 --> 00:43:59,040
He really pushed me without even touching me, you know, I'm saying he really was always there anything I wanted to do

611
00:43:59,040 --> 00:44:06,320
But he like all right bet let's go. I gotta be for somebody he ready to kill. I know I'm not saying he bought the face the problem

612
00:44:06,320 --> 00:44:11,060
You know, I'm saying you like you want me to do somebody I do something but but he asked me before jumping in

613
00:44:11,060 --> 00:44:12,960
Oh, so he really let it

614
00:44:12,960 --> 00:44:16,880
He really helped me make all my decisions without even like giving me the answers

615
00:44:16,880 --> 00:44:21,400
He just was there and just watching he it's like when the teacher don't give you the answer

616
00:44:21,560 --> 00:44:23,560
But they'd be like show you the way

617
00:44:23,840 --> 00:44:25,840
They'll be like

618
00:44:25,840 --> 00:44:29,000
Yeah, I'm trying this like he's like, how about you try this man?

619
00:44:29,000 --> 00:44:33,720
I think it's just because we don't kids have a tendency to not want to listen to their parents on time

620
00:44:33,720 --> 00:44:40,160
But that's natural though. But like later like initially I'd be like man, whatever but later I'd be like no

621
00:44:45,360 --> 00:44:47,740
Like even like cuz like

622
00:44:48,520 --> 00:44:54,040
That's like that for my parents too. Yeah, but my siblings have become especially my two older ones

623
00:44:54,040 --> 00:44:58,840
Yeah, my two younger ones have just become like like like important figures for me to look to but more of a more recent my

624
00:44:58,840 --> 00:45:00,840
tool or once literally like are a

625
00:45:01,520 --> 00:45:06,420
Second set of parents because they're both married to literally like and there's their spouses

626
00:45:06,420 --> 00:45:11,920
I've known since I was like eight like 13 like it's like I've known that it's literally they are

627
00:45:12,240 --> 00:45:18,240
Another set of parents so they just have those even like even regardless of my other two love my sisters

628
00:45:18,240 --> 00:45:21,280
I'm like my other two but just those three like just

629
00:45:21,280 --> 00:45:23,280
relationships

630
00:45:23,280 --> 00:45:26,760
in my life just like oh my god, I

631
00:45:28,280 --> 00:45:30,160
Am so every single day

632
00:45:30,160 --> 00:45:34,120
I'm just so grateful just to like have because I know like

633
00:45:34,560 --> 00:45:39,400
Sometimes people like would be like oh like you have it so perfect like this how whatever and I did it I did

634
00:45:39,400 --> 00:45:41,800
I'm not gonna see here in front like obviously like every family has

635
00:45:43,440 --> 00:45:47,400
There's certain stuff like you just don't I'm not gonna I'm not gonna tell you my family business

636
00:45:47,400 --> 00:45:49,800
So you're never gonna know what's going on. Yeah, I closed doors

637
00:45:49,800 --> 00:45:51,800
Yeah, I'm already know but like

638
00:45:51,840 --> 00:45:57,080
Just I'm so grateful like when it comes out when you really like sit down and write that stuff on paper

639
00:45:57,080 --> 00:46:02,780
I had two loving parents. Yeah in a beautiful home in California. That's not easy

640
00:46:05,960 --> 00:46:10,920
For older siblings have been sent to college living a good life

641
00:46:13,080 --> 00:46:15,080
Like it's so

642
00:46:15,080 --> 00:46:20,480
Inspirational like like really and truly like I feel like I as a kid like it was just your life

643
00:46:20,480 --> 00:46:24,400
You're just living it like you all you take it for I'm not gonna say like I almost like I took it for granted

644
00:46:24,400 --> 00:46:27,620
I guess just typical normal, but it's like when you really think about it

645
00:46:27,620 --> 00:46:35,720
I was I am so blessed like even not I'm not even talking materialistically just the relationships like some people have a

646
00:46:35,880 --> 00:46:39,680
Bunch of some things and they hate every single one of you. They get it's a burden

647
00:46:39,680 --> 00:46:45,280
I because of the way that I was raised I want a big family like I want it like getting I'm

648
00:46:46,040 --> 00:46:51,560
Like I'm feeling you on now. I'm hearing you. I can't imagine my life without like a big family

649
00:46:51,560 --> 00:46:53,560
I want that just

650
00:46:55,400 --> 00:46:58,640
Being wait if you don't have anyone else you have your silly

651
00:46:59,120 --> 00:47:05,120
We could go anywhere where the life of the part we literally like if I I could have no one else if I got my

652
00:47:05,120 --> 00:47:10,600
Ceilings and but bro, I'm straight bro like and I'm trying to rebuild the relationship

653
00:47:10,600 --> 00:47:14,320
I have with my sister my two little sisters. We cool, but like me and my older sister

654
00:47:14,320 --> 00:47:18,720
we kind of just drifted apart on accident, but like I

655
00:47:19,720 --> 00:47:22,560
Love her so much like he's even like growing up

656
00:47:22,560 --> 00:47:24,640
It was me and her for like a really long time

657
00:47:24,760 --> 00:47:31,640
And we had like our childhoods kind of like stripped away with it stripped away from us because of the circumstances now because lay

658
00:47:31,640 --> 00:47:36,400
The circumstances that was going on we had to grow up fast, so we really had to take care of each other

659
00:47:36,400 --> 00:47:41,800
So that's like where a lot of independency come from I don't really mind being alone cuz me and my sister

660
00:47:41,800 --> 00:47:45,640
We was chilling bro. We could yeah, so if my dad wasn't at the crib

661
00:47:45,760 --> 00:47:48,640
We know what to do my mom had to leave we know what to do

662
00:47:48,640 --> 00:47:51,160
I knew how to cook by time I was like three four years old

663
00:47:51,480 --> 00:47:56,800
My sister was teaching me how to iron you know I'm saying so we we know how to do the basic essentials in life

664
00:47:56,800 --> 00:47:59,320
And we both together learned how to um

665
00:47:59,320 --> 00:48:04,400
You know I'm saying become independent on our own and just enjoy the time that we had with our parents

666
00:48:04,400 --> 00:48:07,920
We never looked at our parents like oh, they don't spend enough time with us, so we're gonna resent them

667
00:48:07,920 --> 00:48:10,960
We always had this understanding that it was like

668
00:48:11,960 --> 00:48:18,120
They came through it brother, they're busy bro, so it's like yeah, I'm not about to I'm not about to sit here and be mad at him

669
00:48:18,120 --> 00:48:19,320
Like sulking yeah

670
00:48:19,320 --> 00:48:23,640
Yo he don't, I don't spend no time with my dad, I don't spend no time with my money, always busy where do they be?

671
00:48:23,640 --> 00:48:25,640
No, bro, I like I

672
00:48:25,640 --> 00:48:31,080
They human too they got to a point where it was like I don't treat my parents like they like um

673
00:48:31,880 --> 00:48:35,800
Friends, but I do treat them like they fucking human though. You know I'm saying cuz it's like

674
00:48:36,440 --> 00:48:40,440
They gonna mess up that I'm gonna mess up like they mess up just like I mess up

675
00:48:40,440 --> 00:48:42,840
Go ahead go ahead like I feel like

676
00:48:43,960 --> 00:48:49,880
Like some people don't understand like this is their parents first time being a parent man, though

677
00:48:49,880 --> 00:48:53,880
It's like like and it's like even the regards to having siblings you have whatever

678
00:48:53,880 --> 00:49:00,040
This is their first time parenting you man the type of you you are perfectly like you are so incredibly unique and different

679
00:49:00,040 --> 00:49:03,320
You and your sister were raised together, but you are two completely different people

680
00:49:03,320 --> 00:49:07,960
So it's like your parents have to adjust to that too and try to work to be the best parent that they could be

681
00:49:07,960 --> 00:49:11,000
For you too like this is their first time on earth

682
00:49:11,000 --> 00:49:13,000
This is their first time on earth

683
00:49:13,000 --> 00:49:15,000
It's all of our first time on earth

684
00:49:15,000 --> 00:49:22,040
People we get I'm sorry for cutting you off but we get too much into the authoritative part like oh I gotta listen to my parents

685
00:49:22,040 --> 00:49:26,200
Like bro, okay, they brought you into this world. Okay. They got some sort of authority on you

686
00:49:26,920 --> 00:49:32,200
Bro, y'all can't actually y'all y'all learning from each other though. Don't talk back to your parents or don't talk crazy

687
00:49:32,200 --> 00:49:37,480
Yeah, yeah, yeah be able to tell them you don't got to tell them that they directly wrong

688
00:49:37,480 --> 00:49:43,000
But just show them how they can improve, bruh, and even if you can just show them what your actions bro

689
00:49:43,000 --> 00:49:47,640
They learning from you too. Nope. I read this book. It was like um

690
00:49:47,640 --> 00:49:51,080
It was like to forgive you gotta understand like

691
00:49:52,680 --> 00:49:57,080
Once you get to a certain age you become the parent of your parent. Mm-hmm

692
00:49:57,080 --> 00:50:03,160
The roles can't switch. No, once you get to a certain age, obviously you'll forever be their child

693
00:50:03,160 --> 00:50:06,760
But it's like as my siblings have grown up like they gotta start telling your parents

694
00:50:06,760 --> 00:50:11,160
No, as my siblings have grown up like there's certain stuff where I can't like say to my parents

695
00:50:11,160 --> 00:50:12,920
I'm still like I'm not even 18 yet

696
00:50:12,920 --> 00:50:16,280
Like there's certain stuff where it's like I can't say it but I'm not even 18 yet

697
00:50:16,280 --> 00:50:19,320
There's certain stuff where it's like I can't say it but it's like my siblings will talk to them

698
00:50:19,320 --> 00:50:22,760
But it's like like we're both adults now. We're on the same

699
00:50:23,560 --> 00:50:26,200
When it comes down when it all goes on we are on the same level at this point

700
00:50:26,200 --> 00:50:31,080
So you can't you can't talk to me any type of way like you should be able to sit and we should be able to sit

701
00:50:31,080 --> 00:50:35,560
And have a uh, civil conversation because at this point we're peers. Yes, we are peers now

702
00:50:35,560 --> 00:50:39,160
Like you still my parent but like not even in a disrespectful way, but like bro

703
00:50:39,160 --> 00:50:46,760
We you gotta be able to listen to me. Yes, like the shit i'm saying making sense

704
00:50:58,760 --> 00:51:00,760
And that's the best part because

705
00:51:01,480 --> 00:51:06,440
You gotta think okay your parent you got a relationship with your parents and you could be married because they did xyz wrong

706
00:51:06,440 --> 00:51:09,640
But you gotta understand it's another level to it, bro. You got grandparents, bro

707
00:51:09,720 --> 00:51:11,560
And them grandparents have to raise your parents

708
00:51:11,560 --> 00:51:17,960
So it's really like you gotta help your parents heal from the traumas that just their parents gave us the concept of like breaking

709
00:51:18,360 --> 00:51:19,720
um

710
00:51:19,720 --> 00:51:24,760
The family tree though. No, no, no breaking like generational uh curses. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes

711
00:51:25,560 --> 00:51:27,080
That is so

712
00:51:27,080 --> 00:51:28,840
like there's like there's

713
00:51:28,840 --> 00:51:32,200
You can be raised and it's like like there's certain stuff for like

714
00:51:32,200 --> 00:51:36,600
Like i'm i'm gonna be serious like there's certain stuff like sometimes like when I was like younger like my my mom would do

715
00:51:36,600 --> 00:51:41,640
So and it wouldn't even like i'm i'm talking but it's like i'm so privileged like I take I I admit that I take that

716
00:51:41,960 --> 00:51:44,440
But like there's certain stuff. It's like i'm never gonna do that to my kids

717
00:51:44,440 --> 00:51:47,640
I'm never gonna do like this like i'm not gonna raise my kids in this way, but it's like

718
00:51:48,440 --> 00:51:51,480
she was raising that way and though she has done like

719
00:51:52,680 --> 00:51:55,320
Like let's say there's 10 things like 10 generational curses

720
00:51:55,320 --> 00:51:59,960
Whatever though my mom has broken down like there's not i'm bashing on this one

721
00:51:59,960 --> 00:52:05,800
there's nine other things that she has fought tooth and nail to just like shelter me from and it's like I

722
00:52:06,120 --> 00:52:07,240
There's some like there's stuff

723
00:52:07,240 --> 00:52:13,240
I don't even see that she is that she's working to not have her kids go through this and even my dad too

724
00:52:13,240 --> 00:52:19,880
Like not have their kids go through the same stuff that they went through and it's like you don't even know that it goes back

725
00:52:22,840 --> 00:52:27,400
And then we gotta remember our parents is kids too everybody's a fucking child

726
00:52:27,400 --> 00:52:29,400
You know

727
00:52:29,400 --> 00:52:34,120
It's a you can we can call them adults brad, but essentially everybody is a child

728
00:52:34,760 --> 00:52:38,680
Your parents are gonna look at their parents bro for help too. You know what i'm saying? Like

729
00:52:39,320 --> 00:52:45,240
Is your parents are not superman and batman brad? They're not invincible. You can't have anyone on a pedestal

730
00:52:45,720 --> 00:52:47,400
Like anyone

731
00:52:47,400 --> 00:52:51,240
Yes, have a certain respect for your parents. I'm not saying go to them and be like oh you're wrong

732
00:52:51,240 --> 00:52:53,240
I know like we're like

733
00:52:53,240 --> 00:52:58,120
Yeah, like bro have a you can have a sit down conversation with them brad and be like yo

734
00:52:59,000 --> 00:53:00,680
That's how I feel about this

735
00:53:00,680 --> 00:53:06,040
No, people need to like like I like what were we talking about the other day? Just like

736
00:53:06,920 --> 00:53:11,080
Just sitting down and actually being able to listen to another point of view. Yes

737
00:53:11,400 --> 00:53:13,880
You need to be able to listen to opposing

738
00:53:14,680 --> 00:53:19,880
Views and thoughts and just listen you need to be able to agree to disagree

739
00:53:19,880 --> 00:53:26,360
You know, you don't always have to prove your point. You don't always have to turn someone else's pov

740
00:53:26,600 --> 00:53:30,520
You can just be like that's how you feel. Yes, how I feel that's okay

741
00:53:30,840 --> 00:53:34,360
I love it when motherfuckers prove me wrong, bro. Yeah, you're saying that bro like

742
00:53:35,880 --> 00:53:37,880
I'm not wrong

743
00:53:39,320 --> 00:53:46,280
I like to be in I get the i'm sure a lot of people i'm not gonna say everybody can get defensive when they're wrong, but like

744
00:53:46,280 --> 00:53:51,320
I still like to be like damn I was wrong. I can learn from it though. Yeah, and it's like

745
00:53:52,040 --> 00:53:56,200
If I if I know your point is right and I know my point is wrong, bro

746
00:53:56,200 --> 00:54:01,480
I'm gonna argue you until you until you tell me why you're gonna be able to you need to be here

747
00:54:01,480 --> 00:54:07,240
Because oh my gosh my parent like when I would ask like why stuff is like the way it is or like

748
00:54:07,240 --> 00:54:11,560
Like a lot of times my dad would be like look it up. Yeah, look you have a computer in your pocket

749
00:54:11,560 --> 00:54:17,720
Look it up. You need to be able to prove why you need to be able to advocate for yourself

750
00:54:17,720 --> 00:54:21,960
Yeah, and i'm not saying that you wrong, but just come prove to me that you're right like you need to be able to hold it down

751
00:54:22,440 --> 00:54:24,440
And you can't just shy away when anybody

752
00:54:25,560 --> 00:54:27,320
Start to um

753
00:54:27,320 --> 00:54:29,800
Rattle your tail rather rattle your feathers and shit, bro

754
00:54:29,880 --> 00:54:34,040
That was another thing like when because I don't know if this is something that happens to you

755
00:54:34,040 --> 00:54:39,640
But like for me personally like when I would argue with my parents like it was like I would start like crying

756
00:54:39,640 --> 00:54:42,200
But it wasn't like a crying like oh

757
00:54:42,680 --> 00:54:45,080
It was like a more so like frustrated cry

758
00:54:45,320 --> 00:54:48,520
Yeah, but it was like like my parents were like you can't be doing that

759
00:54:48,520 --> 00:54:51,240
Yeah, just shutting off you can't you can't do that

760
00:54:51,240 --> 00:54:56,760
But I also like on on one end I was like, yes, like I understand that but it's also like I like I

761
00:54:57,320 --> 00:55:03,400
This is a space to where I feel comfortable enough to cry because I feel like so because i'm not going out in public

762
00:55:03,400 --> 00:55:06,920
I'm not i'm not don't ever let him see you sweat my mom my parents

763
00:55:06,920 --> 00:55:10,680
You said some bars bro, like don't ever let them see you sweat

764
00:55:10,920 --> 00:55:16,600
Cool, like you could like literally and so it's like I had to learn that like you can feel whatever but the moment you

765
00:55:17,000 --> 00:55:20,680
Like that's kind of like let them know like they're they're already like I already got you

766
00:55:20,760 --> 00:55:25,640
Yeah, I already got you and you gotta be selective on what point of weakness is that you're showing you can't always be stoned

767
00:55:25,640 --> 00:55:28,360
Because then nobody gonna feel like they can fuck with you. But like when you can

768
00:55:29,720 --> 00:55:33,320
I love the 40 laws of the 48 laws of power. I love that

769
00:55:33,320 --> 00:55:40,120
Fuck, but it's really like you gotta be selective on what weaknesses you're showing because once you give people the false fallacy that you are

770
00:55:40,340 --> 00:55:45,480
Indestructible they're gonna treat you with so you gotta have your human moments. You gotta have your damn

771
00:55:46,200 --> 00:55:49,320
Even if it's not a true human home true human moment

772
00:55:49,960 --> 00:55:56,360
You still gotta feel some type of way about certain things though. Yeah, and that just you gotta allow yourself to like

773
00:55:56,360 --> 00:55:58,600
Yeah, you gotta you gotta be like, you don't have to be hard

774
00:55:58,600 --> 00:56:02,760
You gotta mess up sometimes because but when you mess up you gotta bounce back from because you got to show them though

775
00:56:02,760 --> 00:56:04,760
You gotta be like

776
00:56:07,320 --> 00:56:09,000
Why you can't do that

777
00:56:09,000 --> 00:56:11,400
They don't feel more like damn I want to be like him

778
00:56:12,120 --> 00:56:15,640
Because they gotta see you mess up the moment you try to outshine the master, bro

779
00:56:16,360 --> 00:56:20,520
Can't call it a day bro. You through and I was telling people bro. I love being underdog

780
00:56:23,080 --> 00:56:27,640
I was just hoofing the day bro. I love being underdog. I'm not the tallest and I can admit that

781
00:56:27,640 --> 00:56:31,800
I even I do get offended with you if you try to talk but

782
00:56:32,600 --> 00:56:37,400
That's something that I had to come to terms with in myself. I cannot control my height

783
00:56:37,400 --> 00:56:41,920
You don't see and I could be that all I want to get taller but it's like yeah

784
00:56:41,920 --> 00:56:44,360
I'm still blessed to be as athletic as I am and people yeah

785
00:56:44,360 --> 00:56:48,360
I know that like you don't even know what type of athlete I am. I'll pull up to the gym, bro

786
00:56:48,360 --> 00:56:50,400
They just be looking at me dog. I'm gonna pop

787
00:56:50,400 --> 00:56:54,360
And then I everybody want to play with me yeah

788
00:56:54,360 --> 00:56:58,400
So I'll never walk into the gym trying to be uh, the biggest and the loudest bro

789
00:56:58,400 --> 00:57:03,120
I walk in the gym just being humble old me because I know I know what I'm capable of when I get in here and get

790
00:57:03,120 --> 00:57:08,560
To it. Boom. I'm giving you bucket after bucket after bucket. All you can do is respect me after that

791
00:57:08,560 --> 00:57:15,760
Yeah, and like it's more impressive when they was doubting you at first. That's why I don't never like I don't never got to be the type

792
00:57:15,760 --> 00:57:21,240
I did this this and that I'll go around with walking around with my medals on working in silence working in silence

793
00:57:21,240 --> 00:57:24,640
It's like you you you actually like it's well

794
00:57:25,520 --> 00:57:29,280
Was done in darkness will be showing in the later. So whatever they say

795
00:57:32,720 --> 00:57:37,400
Oh my gosh, bro, my

796
00:57:39,640 --> 00:57:42,800
But like, okay, yeah junior junior senior year

797
00:57:42,800 --> 00:57:47,480
You're like there were some fun years, but like how there's looking like that was when I think I got like really close my press

798
00:57:47,480 --> 00:57:53,400
I was just going through seven. It's like like you can only do stuff on your own like like like like for a certain amount of time

799
00:57:53,400 --> 00:57:58,960
Yeah, and before you actually have to be like like be real with them like but there was a point like where it was just like I

800
00:57:59,640 --> 00:58:04,080
Was doing so and okay. This is like a really like such like

801
00:58:04,720 --> 00:58:08,920
Not privileged it is privileged, but like such like a like a superficial example

802
00:58:08,920 --> 00:58:15,080
But like I'm just for the sake of just okay. So we listen so I was in a pre-college program and we were

803
00:58:16,280 --> 00:58:17,200
like

804
00:58:17,200 --> 00:58:21,840
We got interviewed to be on the news in like November and because you're gonna be on a segment for Black History Month

805
00:58:21,840 --> 00:58:27,560
It was a really good program. Yeah, and so they interviewed like they took five of the seniors

806
00:58:27,560 --> 00:58:31,880
And so it was like oh like whatever like like these friends like people that I know like I'm so close to this day

807
00:58:31,880 --> 00:58:36,560
Like it's a great program and then like I was one of them until they each interview us asked

808
00:58:36,560 --> 00:58:40,600
Some questions talks about like oh like the thing was called cap council of African American parents

809
00:58:41,320 --> 00:58:43,320
plug though

810
00:58:43,320 --> 00:58:45,320
Okay

811
00:58:45,320 --> 00:58:47,320
I'm hearing you

812
00:58:47,320 --> 00:58:52,240
So like they lost or short like the interview is only like five and they and then after they did like the initial five like

813
00:58:52,240 --> 00:58:54,520
It was like our teacher like our teacher

814
00:58:54,520 --> 00:58:59,320
But like the program director handpicked us to be like, oh these are the best and then they ended up asking some more

815
00:58:59,320 --> 00:59:04,200
Just like not randoms because they're great. We're all scholars, but like, you know, just like an extra few and

816
00:59:04,200 --> 00:59:08,000
So I was in the original five. So it was like, okay. I was like, oh, you're supposed to be there

817
00:59:08,520 --> 00:59:11,600
Whatever it airs. I ended up not making the cut

818
00:59:11,600 --> 00:59:16,320
But everyone else did and another person did and I was like watching it was like we everyone's like

819
00:59:16,320 --> 00:59:20,720
Oh, like I my dad's like trying my grandpa's like, oh go watch go watch it. I was watching this like

820
00:59:21,440 --> 00:59:24,600
I didn't even make it and like I low-key like

821
00:59:25,560 --> 00:59:27,560
Okay

822
00:59:28,560 --> 00:59:30,560
I

823
00:59:30,560 --> 00:59:34,680
Started saying okay. Oh my god

824
00:59:36,680 --> 00:59:41,520
Oh, so see I was playing on Thanksgiving Day, bro, and I'm like

825
00:59:42,840 --> 00:59:44,840
commercial

826
00:59:46,280 --> 00:59:50,900
My roommate cross or I literally was like actually like like so

827
00:59:53,040 --> 00:59:55,040
But then like also like

828
00:59:55,040 --> 01:00:01,480
It was a sermon one day also the sermon today I was gonna talk about before but I forgot but it had to do with like

829
01:00:01,480 --> 01:00:04,080
My perfect piece, but I'm sure about what I did. So long. So long

830
01:00:04,800 --> 01:00:09,240
But then um, like it was one sermon that I went to it was just me and my dad

831
01:00:09,240 --> 01:00:15,200
I can't remember but it was just us and it like a low key like resonated and it was just like

832
01:00:16,360 --> 01:00:19,560
El Roy oh my gosh, my little niece's middle name is El Roy

833
01:00:19,560 --> 01:00:24,200
That's and it means and it means God who sees and the whole sermon was on God

834
01:00:24,200 --> 01:00:29,520
You don't always have to be like praised for everything because our God is a God who sees like he's gonna

835
01:00:30,320 --> 01:00:35,880
Regardless like he's he's keeping like no one else. He's keeping tabs like he's got and literally like I remember

836
01:00:35,880 --> 01:00:39,920
He just reminded me of that cause I was like you don't always have to be like, like, you know

837
01:00:39,920 --> 01:00:47,640
Your accomplishments don't always have to just like be public be publicized like somebody fucking knows our God is a God who sees bro

838
01:00:47,640 --> 01:00:54,320
Like he's you don't like you can you can you can have peace and working in silence because he knows somebody

839
01:00:55,080 --> 01:00:59,960
And then look we can wrap it up after this cuz we coming up on our breath. I

840
01:01:01,120 --> 01:01:07,000
Want y'all all to remember that your name is being brought up in rooms that you haven't even stepped in

841
01:01:08,080 --> 01:01:15,880
It's not hard, especially with the Internet today. If you've done anything relevant, you know I'm saying anything that could possibly be recorded

842
01:01:15,880 --> 01:01:17,440
Trust me

843
01:01:17,440 --> 01:01:19,440
The word of mouth is insane

844
01:01:19,600 --> 01:01:25,360
It's so many people that I get to know and I'm sure they talk about me highly in rooms that I have never stepped in

845
01:01:25,360 --> 01:01:32,280
I'm not probably yeah, and I probably won't even step in but it's people out here that know of me that I wouldn't even begin to

846
01:01:32,280 --> 01:01:36,660
Guess it's CEOs the CEOs out here that wish they could meet me

847
01:01:36,660 --> 01:01:41,960
It's it's presidents out here that that knowing me and want to meet me, you know, I'm saying so

848
01:01:41,960 --> 01:01:45,640
Every move that you make does not go in vain, bro

849
01:01:45,800 --> 01:01:49,360
I'm telling you as long as you keep making good moves

850
01:01:49,640 --> 01:01:54,600
Whatever a good move look like to you is gonna be seen and you'll never got to worry about

851
01:01:55,400 --> 01:01:57,800
Don't worry about not being on

852
01:01:59,760 --> 01:02:06,240
Reprimanded or whatever however, you want to call don't don't worry about your name is being brought up in rooms that you have never stepped in

853
01:02:06,240 --> 01:02:07,040
before

854
01:02:07,040 --> 01:02:09,040
It's doors out here that's open

855
01:02:09,040 --> 01:02:16,040
And they just waiting on you to walk in all you got to do is make one decision at a time and understand that

856
01:02:16,560 --> 01:02:22,360
You are always one decision away from living the life that you always wanted to live and that's what we gonna write

857
01:02:22,360 --> 01:02:37,800
Thank you for listening I appreciate you all good night and I love you all good night