Alright boom, there's something right in there.
Introduce yourself, tell us where you're from.
This is your girl, Zarya, where I'm from, from Detroit, you know, the, um, high Austin
spy cast.
Tell us a little about yourself.
About myself, hmm.
I'm Zarya again, um, pretty chill.
What do you like to do?
What I like to do, I like to read.
I like to read.
I like to read a bunch of stuff, nonfiction, history, science.
I like to travel.
I like to explore.
I like to chill, just exist.
You know, just being on my existing.
Okay.
How do you apply the information that you read?
Um, how do I apply that information?
If I was, I end up connecting, which is crazy.
Yeah.
Because everything comes together.
I like how I could be reading religion,
and I could apply like a science principle.
I love how I can be reading something about the city,
the history of the city, and how I could apply it
to different aspects of history.
I know I just love the interconnection of education.
That's nice.
And that's how I like going.
I like yoga, too.
I like movement.
I like dancing.
I like singing.
I like poetry.
I like movies.
OK.
Basic stuff.
Yeah.
Before we started the episode, you were talking to me
about how you got a new job at the floor house.
Yeah, the floor house.
How did that come about?
What was that about?
So one, I wanted to actually use my education and my job.
I don't like a regular job.
I don't want to work in McDonnell.
I want to be teaching, or I want to see people.
I want to help.
I wanted something similar to my old job.
And it's crazy, because I don't know how funny
stuff they just find me.
You just manifest.
So I just had a thought.
Me and Austin, we were Jefferson.
The Jefferson, we used to like looking at the houses.
And I always thought I was like, I
need to be that motherfucking in that big house.
Oh, god.
So I just was talking to the universe, to my god.
And my god said, go on indeed, and put in museum.
And it found me, because it didn't even show up.
It sent me email to a pop for the job.
What?
So that's just the universe working.
I noticed you said, my god, why do you feel about religion?
That's interesting.
I like that.
But religion is so, so big and so deep.
I consider myself a spiritualist.
I don't believe in a certain thing.
I believe in principles of Hinduism, Christianity,
the basics.
Believe in the basics of Buddhism.
Suffering is life, but you don't necessarily,
the way through is experience in the suffering.
Bunch of philosophies.
That's nice.
What about you?
About me.
About what?
About religion.
How would you describe, what's your key values, key principles?
I'm not sure how I would describe my key principles,
but I do know.
If you had to make the 10 commandments,
what would be your 10 commandments?
My 10 commandments.
Or let's just do five, because 10 is a lot.
Yeah, 10 is a lot.
If I keep going, I'm going to go to 10.
I'm going to try to give you five.
I'll say my number one would be love.
You got to love everything and everyone around you.
Even if you hate them in your brain,
love them through your heart.
You can't just be out here throwing out bad vibes.
Some people is annoying.
Some people we just can't.
You have to accept them for who they are.
Yes.
And that took me a long time to figure out.
I just figured that out.
But it's real refreshing, we could just, no matter what.
Just love those around you.
Love the person who's found my back.
Yeah.
Because wounds heal.
Scars heal.
As long as you not dying, what they say,
if it don't kill you, it'll make you stronger.
Hey, it makes you stronger.
It's the same.
My second commandment will have to be, let's stay.
Just learn from anything and everything.
I mean, the same thing as loving.
If you can love to learn, life will open every single door
for you.
You'll never have to worry about picking a lock,
breaking into somewhere, imposter syndrome, nothing.
None of that.
As long as you're willing to learn,
it's always something for you to do.
Because it's always something to learn.
No one knows it all.
And I really appreciate it.
It's something to learn. No one knows it all.
And I really had to step outside of that thinking
I knew it all.
I mean, being the smartest in the room is OK.
I mean, it's an ego stroke.
But if I can play dumb and get more information out of you
about some shit I think I know, then who really
is up at the end of the day?
You don't see it.
Who really is up at the end of the day?
That's my favorite part.
I love paying, just acting like you and I.
I don't know.
I've never knew that idea then.
I've never heard that in my life.
That's my favorite thing, because I feel like you're really
able to see how people treat you,
based off of what they think you know.
That's the best part about it.
What fun it's like if you're showing all your cars all the time.
Exactly.
How do you make this fun?
I don't want you knowing I got an ace in the deck.
You know what I'm saying?
I need you knowing I got a spade and we playing spades.
You don't need to know all the never-breaking,
all the information I know.
I know.
And I like that sometimes my appearance may show
that I know less than what I actually do.
And I'm actually okay with being seen as that,
because people don't know you until you open up your mouth.
That's another thing.
Just lately, the way I've been perceived,
I've always kind of not really cared, just because you know
who you are.
It's like when you know who you are inside your head.
You know who you are behind closed doors.
You know who you are.
But like just really just separated from like the image of self.
It's just amazing.
It's okay to not be understood.
It is.
And that'll take me straight to my third commandment would be
be okay with being misunderstood.
Yes.
And it's like not everybody needs to understand you.
And you don't need to understand everything.
I mean.
And that's hard for like I think people were like me who wants
to just know everything, who wants to understand the foundations
of everything and how everything relate.
It's like you just can't know and you have to be okay with that.
You just got to be okay with it.
Just not, yeah, just not knowing the answer.
Not having an explanation.
Some things just happen and never question what the universe
give you.
I mean whatever opportunities present themselves, take them
and use them to the best of your ability, don't if you spend the
whole time trying to figure out why, why, why, why you're going
to go crazy.
You're going to go in the whole experience.
And you wouldn't see the big picture.
You wouldn't see the collateral beauty of it.
Wow.
Because I know I struggled for a long time when I was even now
sometimes I do stuff without thinking about it.
Like it would be natural and I feel like, oh, I need to know
exactly.
I want it to be conscious of my movement.
But life is really like a wave.
It just happens.
You just got to go with it.
You got to go with the flow.
You know what I'm saying?
You can't, you're not going to understand why you do everything
and how you do everything.
Just accept being good.
So that's really what I got to get over because I think it was
an insecurity in thinking that I had a lack of control over my
life.
I want, we can't have control over our life.
We got to control the controllables which is attitude.
Mindset and how you choose to display who you are, how you
choose to display your emotions.
That's the only thing we can control.
Right.
And so me feeling like I had that lack of control over my life
and I tried to grab it by, you know what I'm saying?
Oh, I know how to do this or this is because I did it.
Nothing I do.
Everything is out of my hands now.
Everything that I do is because it's not always an external factor,
but I'm grateful for everything I have and everyone that I meet
because they are really who make me who I am.
And I want to be where I am today without all of those
experiences.
The experiences and just yes, I have the first thing.
That's how I've been feeling.
I feel like I've really acknowledged that, I think the word is
a mirror.
I always wonder why did this happen, why this happened, why these
people treated this like this.
But it's like if you really look at life like a mirror, you get to
understand it better.
And that's how I look at it every single day for me waking up and
hearing birds, to me seeing how like a regular everyday people interact
and just it's like a mirror.
Yeah, however you see yourself, it's how you see the outside world.
For a long time I saw nothing but sadness, depression.
I go outside and everything was gloomy.
Even though on a 90 degree day I see one cloud, I'm feeling like the
cloud.
But it's like we can't live like that, you know what I'm saying?
You gotta be optimistic.
Because there's people out here, I was listening to a video, he said,
it's sunny outside but you're looking at the specs on the window, you
know what I'm saying?
Look past that, look past that, bad stuff, you know what I'm saying?
See the bigger picture.
You gotta appreciate the beauty and stuff.
Even if the beauty is damaged, even if the beauty is just messed up, you
have to experience it.
You know that's a Chinese philosophy.
If they break a dish in the house, Chinese, it's an Asian, I'm gonna say Asian.
Asian philosophy goes if they break a dish in the house, they take the pieces,
they put it back together and they glue it with gold.
Because I forget, you guys can look it up, but it's something like you gotta
see the beauty and things broken or something like that.
You gotta be broken and beautiful, something like that.
I think about that often, but yeah.
We gotta go to the fourth commandment.
What's the fourth one?
Right here.
I feel like the first three really.
Yeah, that's a good one.
The fourth one will be listen before you speak.
We got two ears and one mouth for a reason.
That's really what I've been focusing on lately because a lot of times we'll talk
to somebody, we'll ask them one question.
In our head, we have a follow up question that we think would be really good.
Instead of listening to what they say into the first question, we too busy trying to
remember what the second question was gonna be.
By the time they get done talking, you're spitting out the second question.
The second question don't got nothing to do with any of what they just said.
It's a funny thing about human conversation.
It's so funny how, and I've noticed that, I pick that up all the time because I'm always
the quietest one in the room.
You get to see how the two loud people, for example, are over-lav or it's just so funny.
We really don't listen.
A lot of people don't listen.
90% of people don't even listen.
They don't even know what you're talking about.
They're just nodding.
Yeah, because they think about some shit that happened this morning.
They think about the bowl of cereal they just ate.
They don't even fucking know what you're talking about.
And you know the best part is, when you actually sit down and listen to somebody and repeat
to them what they said with a little bit of context behind it, they ain't gonna palm
your hands.
You don't say it because they're like, wow.
You really just listening.
Exactly.
And they feel it important.
And people don't even realize when you listen, it's so easy to have what they call it a
conversation.
It's called chemistry and a conversation.
You know a lot of people have broken dialogue or broken conversations because one person
I listen to is somebody else's head somewhere else.
But when you actually give the other person the time to talk and get their thoughts out,
you guys can.
And it flows naturally and that's the best part of human beings.
You can really see how we are social beings.
That's what I'm saying.
And it's like, we're really, scientifically we bounce off of like, our skills, no one,
another body of skills is present.
And it's just so funny how science, like how humans, we do what we're supposed to.
You know, we're complex.
We're weird.
Humans are fucked up.
They're to me the most demonic creatures but it's really a beauty in just being a human.
Yeah.
And I was reading.
He said the only thing that keeps us from being animals is being able to think about
our own thoughts.
Yeah, to be in conscious.
And that's, it's crazy to think about.
I guess I do need a fifth commandment.
Let's see.
What do you think the fifth commandment should be?
What kind of thing?
Yeah.
Something as deep as, you know what I'm saying?
Trust your intuition.
Yes.
That would be a good fifth commandment because just trust your gut.
You have to.
Your body is never going to be wrong.
If you just listen to it.
You just have to, and that's another thing.
You just have to listen to like that voice in your head.
It could be hard to like die separate between like anxiety and intuition but like it's
so crazy how like intuition is real.
Like how I've been able to see like stuff happen before it even happened or just have
a feeling of like what the next step could be.
Like, but I can't describe to you how I know, why I know, I just know.
And that's the thing we were talking about earlier.
Just, you just got to know.
You just got to go with it.
You just got to follow it.
It's okay to be misunderstood even when you're misunderstanding yourself.
It's okay to be lost in thought.
It's alright.
Yes.
And I think if you always know the path, it's like what fun is that?
You just, your whole life is mapped out for you.
That's no fun.
It's nothing fun in having your life mapped out.
It's nothing fun in being just, I'm not articulated.
And just knowing everything was going to happen.
Which is, that's the good thing about life is because even if you do have intuition,
really strong intuition, you never are for certain.
You just know you're like, it's like a force.
It's like a magnetic pole.
Just magnetic energy, you don't know.
You just keep going, keep going, keep working.
Yeah.
What else?
I'm trying to think.
Oh, I want to bounce this off for you.
I was, I talked about it in my last episode.
It was like how we can, we might misjudge anxiety when making decisions.
And it's really like the key to listening to your body is being able to label emotions.
If you label emotions wrong, you'll be taking the wrong medicine.
You know what I'm saying?
So I was saying like when we get anxious before we do something, maybe that's like a sign
that we should be doing it.
You know what I'm saying?
Maybe that's not anxiety.
Maybe that's your body telling you like, yeah, you're getting close.
It's like a game of high and cold between making a decision.
And I talked about how I get to that pushing point and I'd be afraid because I think I'm
just anxious or I'm fearful of it.
But now I try to fall into fear.
I don't try to run away from it.
I tell myself if something makes you anxious or you feel scared to do it, now you got to
do it.
Yeah.
You got to do it.
I feel like I've been so, for a minute now, I've been so content with the comfortable
with what I know, not knowing it's a whole world out here.
And I have to get comfortable with being uncomfortable.
Yes.
I have to be like, and that's something a lot to be thrown up.
That's something that I think society don't even teach us.
Like you're always taught, oh, do this this way.
Go to school.
Get this job.
Get that job.
Invest in this.
Wait until you're 60.
I don't even know if I'm going to make it to tomorrow.
You don't even know tomorrow is meant for promise.
I don't even know I'm going to make it through the rest of today.
I can walk outside and die.
Literally.
I'm saying like, we got to learn to come.
We have to learn to appreciate and experience.
Yeah.
We got to be able to, and we got to accept the fact that we're going to die.
Because a lot of people be out here.
We can't be afraid of that.
Man, we got to love death because it's like, damn, all right, I'm done.
You know what I'm saying?
At least all I want to know, all I want to die is saying I did the best I could with
what I had and I worked hard and I persevered.
And I want to leave a long lasting effect on those behind me.
I want to have a legacy.
So really the only thing that dies is your body.
But if you leave stuff here for people to study and for people to follow and for ideas.
That's how I've been from up today.
I've always kind of felt this way.
I just have to leave the impact.
I just have to.
But seeing this old white man house and seeing how this legacy of just generational wealth,
financial literacy, the arts, the science was passed down through the generations.
This generation who's like, they're billionaires.
I'm saying.
They're billionaires.
It really inspires me to be like, I need to have a legacy.
I have a legacy.
And it's so real.
I love it.
And it just, you ever, I don't know if everybody gets this feeling, but you ever get the feeling
that you're just destined for something.
Like you dumb in like, I can't be regular.
I can't just be regular.
So like, I've always felt that way, but like I can never articulate it until like people
start noticing, people start bringing it up to my attention.
You're out of, like you're not real.
Yeah.
You're like in my essay, because I'm writing an essay for, for the school of public health.
That's what I want to do.
I'm writing, basically writing about exactly what I want to do and why I want to do it.
But I was like, I wanted to start it off saying like, I'm a statistical improbability.
People with my story, people who've like been through with like, I shouldn't have this mindset.
That's what I'm saying.
But I do, because the universe gives what like, it was like you.
It knows.
And I think most definitely like, I think the God chooses certain people to have a voice,
to be the best leader they can be, and to just work for better change.
And I know for a fact, like a hundred percent say like, I know that.
I just, I just feel different.
I just, I'm different.
I just don't fall in line with me.
I'm from a different class.
I'm not even from this planet.
I'm not even from, I'm an alien.
Yeah, I'm an alien.
I'm not even from this planet.
That's me.
They found my ship.
I was looking for it.
You know what I'm saying?
Don't be fooled by this meat sack.
You know what I'm saying?
I'm not from here.
I'm here to, I'm here to leave some for these people.
I'm here to, I'm here to make this money.
I'm here to take all the money that's, that's dropping that people just can't catch.
They ain't got the hands for it.
I'm here to take it all in one pile.
And right before I die, just give it all.
Hand it straight to them.
You know what I'm saying?
But it's not just going to come as a free check.
They got to, they got to do something for it.
They got to, I need to know that they minds is ready to handle the money that I'm going to give them.
I need to know that it's towards a solution.
Solution's not creating problems.
Because it creates a lot of problems.
I want my money to create solutions.
And that's just so inspiring.
And that's so great we have.
I really was journaling talking about this exact same thing yesterday.
Yeah.
That's okay to have a universe like.
That's what I'm saying.
It's like.
This is so beautiful.
Yeah.
And it makes me like, it makes like every day, I'm just so happy to wake up.
I'm so happy to be conscious.
Yes.
I'm so happy to just understand just that I matter in this world and just learning every
single day, learning just something different.
Like that's the best part of our life.
They say you learn something new every day.
That is crazy.
That is insane.
It's always a set of information you have never come across every day.
Yeah.
And it's, I don't know.
It's so much that we don't know.
The more you, the more you find out, the more you find out that you don't know.
You don't.
You don't know anything at all.
And something, oh my God, something I feel like would not expedite, but that will help
me.
I don't know if I might help you to this figuring out how to understand my own potential.
Because a lot of the times we see other people's potential, but it's hard for us to see our
own potential.
So how do we go about finding our own potential and when we find it, going about executing
it, you know what I'm saying?
You ever thought about that?
I have.
And it's like, how do I understand what I am capable of?
But other people see it perfectly fine.
I meet strangers all the time that say, you know what, young man, you're going to be very
rich.
Never seen them in my life.
People coming up to you just knowing, they just, it's so freaky.
I think that's the sign.
That might be the sign.
The universe always confirms when it comes down to, and your numbers when it comes down
to just seeing the things you want in front of you.
Like being around them, working at the country club.
I always, I love golf.
I love fast cars.
How about I be around the next, what are you not saying?
That's what I'm saying.
That's how I feel.
And I feel like it's a new transition.
I feel like I've always been attracted to what I needed.
I don't know, the universe gives you everything you can handle.
All the tools are always at your disposal.
You always have them.
And when you start using them, everything just starts working.
Everything just changing.
Even like Lil said, Bex, you don't need to care.
He just brushed it off.
It's not.
It's gonna come back.
I'm not worried about money.
It just seemed like, one thing, one thought that occasionally goes through my mind is,
I know I'm gonna be rich.
How am I gonna do it?
But that's one of the things that I just can't control.
And I gotta leave it up to the universe to expose me to that horizon.
When it's time for me to get the money.
I'm just learning how to use it right now.
So if I ain't got the money right now, I might as well do everything in my power to learn about it.
To understand it.
To meet the people with it.
You know what I'm saying?
That's exactly how it's been.
I feel like I changed my outlook on just learning.
Like, oh, I'm doing this because I want to get rich.
Because I know this is what I'm doing.
No, I want to actually understand.
I want to understand.
I want to use the knowledge.
I want to get it like, no, I want to do the hard work in order to receive the benefits.
So by the time it comes, you know what I'm saying?
There's nothing.
No, I'm not enough.
Because I already disciplined myself.
I already did the work.
And I know it's a given.
I know it's for me.
Hey, this is my, you know what I'm saying?
I feel like the more I learn, the more people I meet, the more money just fall in my hands.
You know what I'm saying?
Connection.
The universe not gonna give you the money if it know you can't manage it.
So you got to learn how to manage money without money.
So when you get the money, it's just, you know what I'm saying?
You got to go to practice before you go to the game.
Exactly.
You have to practice before you start.
You got to practice before you go to the game.
That's not real.
You know what I'm saying?
You got to put the work in.
You're doing it.
And, you know, another thing I had to really get myself to understand was that hard work doesn't mean you working yourself too hard.
You know what I'm saying?
You don't got to be smart.
You don't got to be done.
I'm sore.
I've been up all night.
That's another thing.
And I thought I had to learn that.
You don't, and reason people don't get rich because they work that hard off.
The way they get rich is they think rich.
They think smart.
They think, you got to think outside the bubble.
You have to like.
How can I get somebody else to do this work?
Yes.
I don't want to do it.
I know how to do it.
How can I get, one of my brains can get 50 other brains to do exactly what I can do, but better and more efficiently.
More efficiently.
Efficiency is very important.
Oh my God.
That's what I've been on lately.
Efficiency and quality.
Yes.
I love the quality of stuff.
I've been ordering some good clothes because I just love the quality.
I love clothes.
I just love clothes.
I just like thrifting and just the quality.
When you find like the real good shops, just the quality and like for $5.
Man, he's just.
It's just, because you know a lot of people, a lot of the clothes today aren't that good quality because it's fast fashion.
Everybody wearing the same thing.
Everybody ordering off them sweatshops, shops.
Yes.
You know what I'm saying?
And then the thing about thrifting is one of one.
You can't find it anywhere.
If we are one of eight billion people currently, we don't know how many people came before us.
Oh my God.
We survived this, but you know how many, who knows how many times death was right there.
Who knows how many times like the Mosse versus the different Austin Nazarius, they did different things.
That's what I'm saying.
Like who knows?
Who got into this point?
It's a blessing that we hear.
It just ain't building people and we made it.
We have a unique just DNA.
We are us.
It's only everybody is just like you said, everybody is one on one.
Everybody is one on one.
It's the craziest thing ever.
And it's so cool.
Even animals, even plants.
That's rooms.
Like this.
Even think about snowflakes.
This snow, never this.
It's never a snowflake.
It's the same.
It's never two of the same snowflakes.
That is so crazy.
Every day is a day that has never happened before.
It's just a different frequency.
After writing this book and it's called a frequency.
Everything is a frequency.
Light is a frequency.
Really?
Smile is a frequency.
And it's just a different frequency every day.
It's crazy how every day goes by.
No day is the same.
Ever.
No day is ever the same.
And it's so cool.
It's just crazy to think about.
Every day we get older.
A little bit older.
I think about that all day.
I love just starting off the day in the shower.
Looking at you.
I usually like to do affirmations.
Today, no matter what, it's going to be a good day.
And I'm going to learn so much.
I'm going to get so much out of the day.
And every day I do.
Even the day I sit in the bed and write.
I get something out of it.
Even those days are at the beginning they be hard.
But when I really just give myself some time to relax and chill out.
And just be bored with the day.
Okay, yeah.
I sat at home one day.
And I was on my iPad.
And I was on my phone.
And I was on the game.
I can be happy knowing I've had days like that.
Not every day you got to get something done.
I mean, yeah.
It's all about balance.
It's all about, if one of you is working, be efficient.
Learn as much as you can get out of it.
And ask questions.
Come up with solutions.
Yes.
But it's also a break when you use time to chill.
It's time to put up your feet.
It's time to eat something good.
It's time to eat on the boat.
It's a little rainy day sitting and creating a turn of lights out.
Yes, and then it's just a different vibe.
And the crew laid up like, hey, there.
Put the car in the garage.
I ain't home.
Lights out.
It's broad.
I ain't home.
Nah, ain't that turn of phone?
Man.
The best.
The best feeling.
I like that.
It's just beautiful.
Beautiful.
Life is beautiful.
I had that on my wall.
Life is just every day.
And I think I've gotten to the point where I know you use affirmations.
I don't really necessarily need them.
Because I feel like I program myself subconsciously.
Yes, because that's where we think it.
So you don't necessarily know.
My affirmations are like in my head.
As soon as I wake up, I'm reminded of who I am.
That's my affirmation.
That's beautiful.
Because I'm always reminded of who I am.
You're always reminding yourself.
And you're always great.
Just make sure you never lose sight of yourself.
Because we about to be in the real world.
We are.
We've covered so much ground.
And we ain't even...
We ain't even...
We ain't even lose sight of the world.
You know it's outside.
We know.
And just make sure you keep...
Because it's going to get hard.
It is.
And that's okay.
That's okay.
Because the universe never going to give you anything that you're not ready for.
You can't handle.
It's cool.
And anything...
If anything happened or anything just that happened, we didn't think what's going to happen.
It teaches us something.
If we're not ready for something, we don't get it.
Yeah.
That's the law.
Because how could you...
How could an...
The universe wants you to produce.
How can it expect you to produce?
And it gives you something that you don't even know how to use like at all.
It's okay to not know how to use some.
Maybe you got some...
You can use quantitative reasoning to figure out how to use some.
But if you just have no previous knowledge on it at all, it's not going to give it to you until you at least a little bit.
Ready.
Yeah.
So, thinking of life like that, it's like you can handle any challenge that comes to you.
Because think about all the bad days where you was like, I don't know how.
Yeah, I don't know how I'm going to get through this.
I don't know what I'm going to do.
It's like, look where you at today.
You made it through.
You're not dead.
You know what I'm saying?
You're still alive.
That's the best thing.
And I feel like I'm a like a procrastinating perfectionist.
Because I feel like everything I got to do got to be so...
And I'm just so anxious.
I'm like, no, what if this don't work out this?
Then I'm not going to be the greatest.
But then it's just like...
Yeah, that's like, come on.
Look at where we are.
Look at what we've done.
Look how far we've come.
Look how far.
And look at all the lessons learned.
Dog.
And...
I don't regret.
Like, I love being just at any given point in time in my life.
I could be like, I don't wish I really did anything differently.
Yes.
I'm glad.
I'm glad in my potential path.
I'm glad in my past.
Yes.
But I'm in the present still.
Yes.
And I love that.
And I thank you.
A lot of people, they'll be like, oh, I hate that I did this or I hate that I did that.
But it's like, no, I'm glad that that happened because of the person that will come today.
Because I've hated I found out that what's the name was a bad person.
And we were wrong with that relationship.
Dude, how do you know like, what if you never find out that there's a bad person?
You still is in that relationship or that friendship today.
You would never know.
You would be being held back and you wouldn't even know what was holding you back.
Because some people just here for a season.
So, people here for a season.
It wasn't...
Hold on, let me think.
I'm not to say something.
I think you're in places that...
Some people here for a reason.
Some people here for a season.
You know what I'm saying?
That's real.
I love that.
Dang.
That's a really good quote.
You just got beautiful.
I appreciate every single person that I've met.
Good or bad.
Any kind of stress that they brought into my life.
I'm glad that they brought it now.
Especially before I go off to college.
I'm glad of all the negative experiences that I've had before I went off to college.
Because think about all the people that was shadowed and locked away from all the bad
experiences.
Anything that could have happened.
Now they got to experience it on their own on a big campus.
For some people, a whole other state.
Some people never been outside their neighborhood.
Some people never been outside their city.
So, think about moving 2,000 miles away to a whole other state.
And you ain't never been through nothing.
I'm so glad I had these people bring these amounts of stress into my life.
Because it just built my character.
I'm a whole new character now.
And it gave me perspective.
Perspective is everything.
And for so long I feel like I was the victim.
I'm not the victim of my life.
No, I'm not the victim of certain relationships.
Every single thing has taught me something.
Has taught me more about the intellect of other people.
Because there's so many different people.
As we just stated.
Everyone's one of one.
So, when you really get to experience and really understand perspective.
The best thing possible.
The best thing imaginative.
So, even the people that's like going to like a whole new, brand new environment.
I hope like, that me that would be like the number one advice.
It's just to constantly see perspective.
Yeah.
Cause it's, like that's what we are.
Perspective.
Oh my God.
I used to, I was writing about this one time.
It was like, anytime we feel like a negative emotion.
So say, anger, racism, stuff like that.
All those negative emotions derive out of misunderstanding.
Yes.
How can you get mad at something that you understand?
It's, at that point it's self-inflicted.
Yeah.
And it's like, once you understand why something has happened.
It's easier to feel compassion for it.
Cause I've seen people, I get mad at them.
Like, why would they treat me like that?
Why are they doing this?
Why are they doing this to me?
Why is this being done to me?
And then I step back out of myself.
You gotta step out of the ego and stop thinking.
You have to be personalized and you have to step back from it.
Yes.
Yeah.
You step out of yourself and you look at them and you say, they human.
You gotta think about they past.
If you know it.
If you know they past, think about they past.
Say, I could, everything that happened to them back then could have affected them to make them who they are today.
And how was that being transcribed right now in front of me?
And once you could see that, it's hard to get upset.
I start to feel bad.
It really is.
Yeah.
I feel like I haven't been, I think I shitting on it.
And I haven't been like, oh my God, I've been.
I've still been given, like I still gave love.
I still pray for them people.
Yes.
I can't hate you.
I can't hate on you.
I don't know what caused you to be, for the way I did it.
You're just human.
I just hope you feel better.
I hope you get it together.
Because I would hate to see you feel.
I would love to see you prosper.
Yeah.
Just prosper over there.
You know what I'm saying?
I'm bringing it.
Yes.
But still, I'm gonna still let you prosper.
I'd have people cross me in my face.
And it's like, that's cool.
You know what I'm saying?
It's straight.
It's cool.
All it takes is like, save, save somebody or use some money.
Right?
So I saw this in the movie.
The door was getting bad because some door here had been, um, seen around all of them
$20, but he wouldn't come say nothing to him.
He was ready to go hurt this door.
He was ready to go in his whole life and put himself in jail.
You know what I'm saying?
But he was stopped.
I'm gonna say about his uncle or something.
He was like, listen, how much do you owe me?
It's gonna be $20.
Okay.
As he talked to you, you know, anytime, anytime you see him, he ran away.
Well, think about it.
It took you $20 to get this person out your life.
You never got to talk to him again.
He never come and ask you for anything again.
All it took was $20.
I see $20 every day.
You know what I'm saying?
That's all it, it's all it takes.
It's $20 to get somebody out of my life.
I take that over causing him any type of harm.
You know what I'm saying?
I don't, because all that do is reflect back to you.
All you do is just hurt your brain just thinking about what somebody else is doing.
Yeah, like, let them go, bro.
They took my $20.
It's cool.
$20 was gone.
I hope they used it.
I hope they used it good.
That's perfect.
You know what I'm saying?
I hope they multiplied it.
I hope that $20 turned into $100.
You know what I'm saying?
And they just ain't telling me about it because they think I'm going to ask for at least $10.
You know what I'm saying?
But it's fine.
It's temporary.
Everything is temporary.
And there's no point in me wasting time being mad at you when I could be happy that you're
either out of my life and you're doing good or just content with you not being around me.
That's the one piece.
And it would take me to get into one argument for you to leave me alone.
I'll take that.
You know what I'm saying?
That's real.
It would take me to give you the $100.
It takes one misunderstanding for you to just leave me.
To leave?
But that's fine.
That's cool.
I'm glad we didn't waste that time.
I'm glad we got it out the way.
I'm glad it was over.
I'm glad we...it is what it is.
It's gone.
You know what I'm saying?
I'm damn mad.
Yeah.
It's gone.
It can hurt though.
It can.
When you get attached though, you gotta learn how to love without being attached.
And that's really hard.
Yeah, that is hard.
It's really hard.
Yeah, it's hard not to be attached because a lot of times we love people for the things
that we were without for so long.
So somebody provides a...say like the touch factor in your life and you were just so used
to not having a touch and not that you got it, you just...you just wanted for the touch.
But they verbally abuse you.
They touch you though.
So you on the dynamic of, oh I'm ignored to bad because they got so much good.
You gotta let that go.
You attached.
You gotta let that go.
It's not healthy.
It's not.
And once you feel like you able to step away from that...
Nah, I'm talking for a bit.
But yeah.
Yeah.
It's over here.
Yeah.
It's like, you know.
It's on me.
I don't...
It's 427.
How far is the face you gotta go?
Right on the corner.
It's over here.
So I'm gonna be on the inside anyway.
But yeah, that attachment is...
It's a matter of fact.
Yeah.
It's crazy.
It's...
But once it's gone, you be like...
It's not.
You have to go to real life.
You gotta...you gotta grieve.
Yeah.
It's hard.
It's a grieve process.
Grieve and real life people, it's really hard.
Yeah.
Because they still here.
You gotta see them.
Sometimes you still gotta interact with them.
Man.
It's like you gotta...
Learn how to put your pride to the side.
Know who you are to your core.
Know your authenticity.
Know your personal frequency.
Your personal power.
Being content with that.
Being like, oh, I can control everything.
Yeah.
Just being content.
Yeah.
Being content.
But not comfortable.
Oh, content but not comfortable.
Wow.
I really liked that one.
You know, I'm grateful because a lot of people are falling out with it.
I ain't had to run the tour in public.
I fall out with them.
I never see them again in my life.
And I'm okay with that.
Unless they understand.
Unless they understand watching.
You know they understand watching.
But you know they understand watching.
But I don't look over there.
I know where they at.
You know they looking out.
Yeah, they watching.
But I'm not worried about them.
They worried about me because they like, oh, I did this tour and what...what are you going to do back?
Nothing.
They're not going to do nothing.
They're not going to hurt you.
They're not going to...
Just...
I'm going to chill.
I'm going to go over there.
I'm going to be a little sad and go thrice.
Yeah.
But I just want all the people to know anybody that I've ever had, not even necessarily a
negative interaction, but I guess you could say an awkward falling out with.
Bro, even if we don't talk, I still got love for you.
Yeah.
I still love you.
I might not...
I still want to see you do good.
I appreciate what you showed me.
I still appreciate you showing me.
So because humans, we don't like being vulnerable.
But when every relationship shows a little bit of vulnerability, and as you've got to
accept it, even interactions with strangers.
Oh, the stranger didn't open the door, but he opened the door for...I can't be mad at that
stranger.
I just have to observe this as a human experience.
Yeah.
Keep it in my head and keep going.
Just...
Open the door for the next person.
Yeah.
Anytime I feel like I've been done wrong or I feel not a negative emotion, but I feel
down, instead of sitting there feeling sorry for myself, I go help somebody else.
Because it's really selfish to sit and talk within yourself and treat everybody around
you like how you feel.
Don't do that.
Go out and treat people how you want to feel.
So if you're feeling down and you've accepted it, now you're just feeling sorry for yourself,
get up and go do what...do unto others how you want done to you.
Yes.
You know what I'm saying?
So...
It was this quote.
It was...I forgot.
It was something like, I would be the love I never received.
Oh.
In every single relationship, that's like friendship, maybe in a sister, me.
Every single thing, I would be the love I never received.
Why not?
Because...why not?
There's no real reason why you shouldn't.
There's no reason why you shouldn't.
Yeah.
Why you shouldn't just give nothing but positive.
Just push it out.
Like, good vibes.
True good vibes.
I've been writing a book.
I don't know what I'm gonna say, title it.
It's not bad.
I just want to know.
I'm gay keeping.
I just want to know what I'm writing, the book.
Keep the title.
All right.
But in the book, I talked about how when we get down to the real, we got to be able to
accept that.
Now everything is going to be sunshine and rainbows.
Mm-hmm.
As duality of everything.
Some bad gonna happen.
Accept that negative is gonna happen.
And when it happens, just take it in and be like, dang.
It don't rain forever.
The sun gonna come out.
It's always gonna come out.
But just be aware that it's gonna rain.
Yeah.
And when the cloud comes, don't be all sad.
Don't be sad.
Accept the negative.
Don't victimize yourself.
Persevere.
Mm-hmm.
And sometimes rain is good.
Rain is how things grow.
Exactly.
Rain is how things die.
And pressure is how diamonds are made.
Oh.
So it's like experiences bad, negative stuff.
It's not necessarily bad.
Right.
You just have to experience.
You have to go through it.
That's why I let my negative emotions, I let them.
I feel them.
I experienced them.
Yeah.
You only experience that emotion, I think for three minutes or something.
Yeah, I heard about that.
90 seconds.
Yeah.
And after that, it's like self-inflicted.
Mm-hmm.
Yeah.
Once you observe that, and that's also depersonalizing.
You just have to step away from yourself.
Step away from who you even think you are sometimes.
Right.
Because you have to understand that we are ever changing definition.
Our DNA is always replicating.
We're always changing.
We're never the same person.
Wow.
Never.
Ever.
Of course, we have like the same values, but not really.
Right.
A lot of people lose their values.
A lot of people need to write their values down so they can follow.
You got your values ready?
Mm-hmm.
I got mine ready.
I'll win them every day.
And...
You don't want to read my values.
I text myself a lot.
Just so I don't forget some stuff.
I want to start writing my book.
I don't know.
I don't even know.
Or how it's there.
You just got to go.
I got a book on how to write a book.
So I'm going to read that book and start writing.
I just type.
I'll call my book.
I'll just type.
I'll call my book the um...
My book is like...
Instead of it being structured like...
It's just...
Chapter, chapter, chapter.
It's like just a book of lessons.
And I put the little header.
Type whatever lesson is in this paragraph.
Might be two paragraphs.
I might get down to up to two pages from one little heading, but it's just a book of lessons.
Yeah, it's like...
I like that.
That's how my notes at this.
I've been reading this book I stole.
Oh my god, you don't know how many books I've done so fast.
No, I don't.
This is like 30.
They ain't looking for them.
But I'm reading those books.
They're not.
It's free.
They take it out on my check anyway.
Taxes.
Right.
So there you go.
I've been in Tupac.
The Rose Baker from the Concrete.
Oh.
And I love how like...
I love random poetry.
Just jotting down random thoughts.
I've really been doing all my notes.
And I think if I organize it, I could structure it like a book.
Nice.
Alright, I'm looking for my...
Looking for my code of ethics I call it.
Let's see.
I'm gonna read it.
Alright, let's see.
Alright.
This is my code of ethics.
I told myself this.
Number one, always take care of family.
And when I say that, I don't always mean blood.
Just people that you consider family, you know what I'm saying?
Because family don't always gotta be the person you're related to.
You know what I'm saying?
So just the people that you personally consider family.
Number two, priorities.
Understand the order of importance.
You gotta know what's...
And your priorities may change.
But always make sure they fall within some type of moral code.
You gotta kinda put yourself first, but just always take care of your business.
Number three, keep your word and don't make promises you can't keep.
Because it's disheartening to break promises.
I hate breaking promises.
It's the worst feeling in the world.
Especially for the person's promise you broke.
Because every time you break a promise, you break trust.
So no matter how bad you want some, if you think it's a possibility that that promise can't be fulfilled.
Excuse me, that promise can't be fulfilled.
Don't even make it.
Under promise and over deliver.
Yes.
Number four, I take quality over quantity.
I want...in the weight room they say don't risk form for a heavier weight.
So don't just...
I'd rather spend...
Three good hours with my favorite person.
Then a week with a person that I just like.
You know what I'm saying?
Number five, be grateful for what you have and share your blessings.
I think that's self-explanatory.
Number six, talk only good about people or say nothing at all about them.
And good doesn't always mean praise.
But even defending somebody when you know they can't defend themselves because they're not there.
Or just remove yourself from the conversation.
Number seven, listen attentively.
Number eight, it's learning people's name.
The art of learning people's name is amazing.
I've been doing it for the past few weeks.
You just go up and you ask your name and you say...
You introduce yourself, you ask them how they're doing.
And then you say, what's your name?
Or you can ask for the name first.
You can go...
I can go...
How can I go?
You can say...
You can introduce yourself, you can shake hands.
You say, how are you doing?
They say good and you say, I'm being myself.
What's your name?
They'll tell you your name.
And you say nice to meet you, whatever your name is.
That's true because people respond anytime you use somebody's name.
That's how conversations go.
I say that today when I was seeing everyone introducing themselves.
People who say their names, they constantly remember them.
That's how you get ahead, that's how you speak.
I love that. That's so funny.
And when you call them by their name, you got their attention.
You grab it.
Today, you know my name is a little hard to pronounce by their name.
So I caught myself saying, oh, it's fine when people kept messing it up.
And then the lady, she was like, no, that's your name.
I'm just like, oh my God.
Yeah, that's my name.
Yeah, let's see. We can come back to that anymore.
Number nine, always believe you're capable.
Even when you got kind of a doubt overcoming,
you got to always believe you're capable of doing something.
Number ten, never wait for the right moment.
Because you're starting now.
Yes.
One day or day one.
I've just seen that on TikTok.
Oh, I got 11.
It's not over until you win.
It's not.
Never give up. Never.
Never.
Beautiful, beautiful.
Yes, it is.
Yes. That's so crazy.
You like a duplicate of me.
It's the frequency.
Yeah, that's nice.
Wow, that was a really good episode.
How do we go?
What would be the title of this episode?
I don't know.
Because the first one was just pilot.
I let myself off the hook or down.
I just put pilot.
You got to think about that because you got to have a different theme for each one.
Yeah, we do.
Our location?
We could do.
My favorite.
No, do something like...
I don't know how.
I don't know how podcast titles go.
Yeah, I don't know how.
I would think it would be something like a TV show.
Like if it's like how they name it.
Yeah.
We can end the episode and figure it out.
I need a cash phrase and I need outro.
I'm reminding myself here.
You need to call your fans something.
Yeah, I do need to call them something.
Maybe we'll figure that out sooner or later.
Yay!
Bye!
From Zarya.
I don't have no outro.
What do you think?
Stay.
Stay getting money.
Stay doing you.
Stay living.
Yeah.
Peace.
See ya.