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Welcome to Fit to Be Real. And a little extra.

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I'm Victoria. Hey guys, I'm Carly. And this is

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round two. Oh my god guys, you don't even know.

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You don't even know. Tell them so they know.

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Okay, we did this already. On Tuesday and today

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is Thursday. And we realized from our, what's

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his name? Producer. Producer. What? Not what's

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his name, what was his title? That's what I meant.

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I know his name, Pedro. at minute 56. He's gonna

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be mad at you. Our producer at minute 56 decided

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to chime in and say hey Carly's microphone's

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been off the entire time. Technically I didn't

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see the text message like 20 minutes before.

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It doesn't matter. The first 30 minutes wouldn't

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have been useful anyway. But my microphone was

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off and we had this amazing conversation that

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was unusable because it was only Victoria. And

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then she was responding. You would not have heard

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me at all. So Victoria was very angry. Very angry.

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Our producer says, sounds good. So mad. His name

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is Pedro. I meant what's his title, not what's

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his name. There were emojis to be had. So we're

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redoing it today. Because you know, we have all

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the time in the world. Yes, we have nothing to

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do. And we're going to try and make all the same

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jokes and all the same conversation that we did

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on Tuesday. I'm going to try and recreate it

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just like my mom does for every picture she's

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ever taken. Oh my God, you do the same thing.

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Do it again, do it again. Manufacturing memories.

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I feel like that's what you have to do as you

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get older. You just have to tell people to do

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things again so you can take a picture of it

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because you're just, you get slower. I feel myself

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getting slower on the snap. On the snap? Like

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on the snap. Don't sports talk. That was my cool

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way of saying, like on taking a picture. On the

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snap, like I'm slower on the snap, you know.

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Oh my God. You do get a picture out and then

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you're like, oh, it's a video. She's 99 years

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old. Oops. Or it's on me instead of facing the

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other way. I am going to say this because I did

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say this on Tuesday. We, I got a text message

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from Stacey who is one of our C fit squad members.

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What's up Stacey? And she thought of a really

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good 2026 saying. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah. So hold

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on, hold on, hold on. Already, you didn't do

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it again. Sorry. If you stayed tuned into the

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very end of our previous episode, you heard Carly's

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2026 catchphrase of the year, which was 2026,

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don't be a little bitch. Kind of rhymes, kind

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of doesn't. It's pretty, pretty Carly. Oh, it

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rhymes. 2026, don't be a little bit. Don't be

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a little bix. But it's fine. So this is Stacey's

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version. Stacey texted and was like, I found

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a good, I thought of a good one. And she said,

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play no tricks in 2026. And I like that one too.

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No tricks in 2026. Yeah. Tricks are for kids.

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And we can't be having any more tricks. Good

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cereal. That was my jam. Those commercials were

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awesome too, with the bunny. Yeah, the bunny

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and Trix berries. Yes, like berries it turned

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your Unfortunate having to have milk in your

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cereal bowl like different colors You gave that

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to my children They hate milk in their cereal

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I'm like, what do you want for breakfast? They're

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like cereal no milk. I'm like, no, that's a cookie

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So well, well, I don't understand why cuz they

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grew up on almond milk. Yeah I didn't like milk.

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That's true. I do have to put the least amount

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of milk. They can't even taste it. It can't get

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soggy. For them, it's got to be soggy because

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they drank almond milk there unless they hate

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almond milk as much as I hate cow's milk. Yeah,

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maybe. She doesn't care. I don't. She will buy

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27 gallons at one time, put them all in the refrigerator,

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and then forget the next week that she has. Quite

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literally, maybe five. Almond milk doesn't go

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bad, right? Oh, Pedro is very upset. We are not,

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what are they called? An expiration date family.

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Yes. Mom would like find them, is it fuzzy? It's

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good. It's good. Just take the bread, just cut

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it off. Just cut the mold off the bread. That's

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how we grew up. I mean, she's got leftovers from

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when we were in high school in the fridge still.

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And she's saving them. Do not go in there. I've

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tried to redo the refrigerator. She knows what's

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in there. She's got cans of V8 from when I was

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trying to lose weight before the wedding 15 years

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ago. Oh my god, I loved V8. And we lived on V8,

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and it's still in there. Not V8. Splash. No,

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V8 splash was my jam though. V8 tomato puree.

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Yep. Basically. It was thick. It was thick. You

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could probably put it in a can or on the stove

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and make soup out of V8. And like dip a girl

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cheese in there. Yes. Oh, that's so good. We

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need a snowstorm so bad. Snowstorms are tacos.

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Snowstorms are tacos, but It just reminds me

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of that commercial with the snowman and he comes

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in the Campbell's soup commercial with the tomato

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soup and then the snowman melts and it's a really

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a child. Yes, but he's having chicken noodle

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soup. Oh shoot. Because he slurps the noodle

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into his mouth. I can't get everything right.

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I can't be good at everything. The operative

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version is everything. You can't get anything

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right. No tricks. That's what you're looking

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for. No tricks 2026. Don't be a little bitch.

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I think you could put them together. Play no

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tricks you little bitch in 2026. Do you know

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how hard it is to say that word and hear it coming

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out of my mouth? I feel like a fish out of water

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right now. I think that's why you're punching

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the bee. She doesn't really know how to say it.

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I don't because I don't say it a lot. To be fair.

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Do we fail? She walked in today. I got it. I

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have to. We have to talk about it. I knew you

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were going to make fun of me. If you're not watching

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and you're listening to us, we're going to need

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you to take a moment and tune in to the YouTube

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video. OK? And check out this outfit. OK? We're

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going to start at the bottom. I approve of it

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all, but it's just OK. It's what are those? They're

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my Uggs. They're my Uggs. They're platform Uggs.

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They go all the way up the leg. Thank god you

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have long jeans on. These are my jeans from high

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school. Belbada. Belbada, you were never this

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skinny in high school. How are these fitting

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you? They're a little baggy, actually. But I

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kept them for a reason. They are my most comfy

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jeans in the whole world. I don't know what that

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means. Comfy jeans? These are like sweat. They're

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actual jeans, they're not stretchy jeans. It

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was before stretchy jeans were a thing. I know,

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I just don't think jeans are comfortable, so

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that's hard to believe. These are going to get

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like holes in them at some point. Be buried in

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them? Yeah. Like you know when they're so old,

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they're gonna get holes in them and I'm gonna

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have to throw them away. It's starting at the

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bottom. See the bottom? Yeah, okay. So she's

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got these jeans on from 1926 and now she's wearing

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a three -quarter zip. Sweater. It says angel

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around my doesn't matter. It is in gothic script

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because it says angel because my mom calls me

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an angel. She can't read it. So it's a gothic

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script. She's not zipping the three quarters

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up all the way up. Let the gold chain show. I

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tucked it in. She straightened her blonde hair

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and she was like, don't I look like what I wore

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in the 90s? But none of this is what you were

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in the 90s, except for the jeans. Don't you guys

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don't I look like I should be strolling the Granite

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Ron mall at the Deb and the Contempo? Your delco

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is strong right now. She thinks she was vibing

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with Avril Lavigne. Yeah, I was like, I look

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so Avril today. And I think she looks like Eric

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Matthews from Boy Meets World. Tell me I'm wrong.

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She looked it. She said, you look like a guy

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from the 90s. Who's that guy's older brother?

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And I was like, what? I said the older brother

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from Boy Meets World. She said Eric Matthews.

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Remember nothing. You remember? Nothing. I think

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I look like what the cool girls wore at the Granite

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One mall. At the Melissa Etheridge concert. Correct.

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Listen, I did love the Indigo Girls. I went to

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a few Indigo Girls concerts growing up, so maybe

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that's what I'm channeling. Yeah. All right.

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So we're not talking about any of this today.

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None. We have not segued well. We're not even

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on track. She's not a good segueist. We're not

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on track. How are we going to get out of this?

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So what are we talking about today? Drum roll,

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please. No, don't drum roll. Nevermind. None.

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Wow. You are Eric Matthews. Oh, I'm sorry. I'm

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enjoying my coffee and thinking about, you know,

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579 and Contempo Casuals. You are not dressed

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like those two stores. So I started a little

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thing. What we're talking about is my health

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and fitness journey that I am opening up for

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you to also resonate with. Right now. All chosen

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words. I'm the only one that knows about it.

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I enjoyed that. I did DM you this morning. Did

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you say it? Did you know? Yeah, yeah. I am her

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only friend. And she is opening it up to have

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more friends in the hopes that she can help somebody

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else that is in... the mindset that you were

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in. Okay, we have to backtrack. So I started,

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I flipped the switch December 9th, 38 days ago

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of completely fed up with what my body looks

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like, how I'm feeling in it, and everything else

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that wraps around with it, which I know is like

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a universal feeling. So already you can resonate

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with this, whoever's listening. Well, Carly means

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she's my only friend. with absolutely no context.

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I feel like they know. Is that I've done this

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so many times with, well, Carly for one, since

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2020, where we were each other's accountability.

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I mean, this dates back to our Weight Watchers

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at Kin's days. We always diet together. We've

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been doing the, I mean, my first Weight Watchers

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experience was when I was 10. And so it's been...

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We've talked about that before we've done all

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the diets yada yada yada yada. This is not what

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I'm doing. It is not a diet I Had wine and beer

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this past weekend and never wine and beer I wanted

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a cookie Opportunity to present itself, but I

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wanted to go she thought about it thought about

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it. It just was out of reach so that it's not

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a hundred percent just like being strict, it's

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finding balance. I lost balance when I was very

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sad for many years, which we talked about. And

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then I lost balance when I am very strict with

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the diet and can lose the weight, but I have

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no life. Yeah, it's all consuming. It's all or

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nothing. Yeah. Yeah. We go big or go home. And

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then I've now regained all of it with being happy

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in my life in a new relationship with new relationships.

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you're going to gain weight. I think it's not

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a happy relationship if you don't gain weight.

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Yeah, because one, you're not being true to yourself,

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and two, that's what you do. You go out to get

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to know somebody, but what are you normally doing?

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You're going out to eat. Yeah, or staying in

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and ordering, or eating at a later time than

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your normal schedule, than you normally would.

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Or eating pancakes and sausage for two straight

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years in a row. I was gonna bring it up. When

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Carly and Andrew met, They would go to, was it

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brunch? No, we would go to breakfast before our

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auditions in the morning. So we would wake up.

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Every morning? Go sign up three to five mornings

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a week. And because we were so strict eating

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growing up and like always on a diet because

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we were actors and dancers, I was living on my

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own for the first time and ordering what I wanted.

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And it was pancakes. all the time. It showed.

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Yeah. Oh my God. And he, we're still here 21

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years later. Trying to get her to eat a pancake.

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He tried to get me to eat a pancake this morning.

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He did? Yes. He made pancakes for Dean and he

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was like, you want one? And I was like, why would

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you ask me that? No. Oh my God. I know the times

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have changed, but anyway. We don't have enough

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episodes in us to divulge and talk through you.

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But that is so funny that you said that he asked

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me to have a pancake this morning. Well, you

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should have said yes. Listen. Poor guy's just

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trying to go back in time when you were chill.

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I was chill, but I gained 40 pounds. 40 when

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I met him. I'm at 30. Yeah. I've gained 30 and

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some change since July 2024. If you ask him,

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he says it's not true. But it's all what you

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feel in your body and I 100 % have. I can't fit

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into my clothes in my closet. I don't want to

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get rid of them because I'm cheap. And no, you

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always say I'm going to fit in that again. I

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still do it. I know. But it's also. Yeah, I mean,

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yes, because I'm going to write. He just bought.

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We're buying traveling outfits like when you

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get off a plane or go on a plane and like you

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want to look good. so we have these do they match

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well he's his own color and then i've you know

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my own color so no we don't match together so

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yes yeah um but i don't know like being this

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short i'm not going to dive into this too much

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but being this short is if a large fits around

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my waist and my butt it's way too long for me

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yeah but a medium would be a little bit too tight

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but it's the perfect line so he bought both so

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i just tried them on and picked mine uh and we'll

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return the other one But I forget why I was telling

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you this. How did we get into this? He doesn't

00:15:03.059 --> 00:15:06.159
see it. No, that was before. You gained 30 pounds.

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Yeah. Wow. Be better. Come back. Oh my God. Not

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telling me. You bought traveling outfits. Yeah,

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but I forget why. He doesn't see it. No. You

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gained 30 pounds. God damn it. I forget why I

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was telling you this. Well, we'll figure it out.

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You guys stay there. Well, hold on. It'll come

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at some point. I have a feeling it has something

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to do with not getting rid of, we were talking

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about getting rid of clothes and not getting

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rid of clothes. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Useless.

00:15:31.379 --> 00:15:36.899
She's absolutely useless. Co -hosting a solo

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mission. I'm a very good secretary. I'm a very

00:15:40.779 --> 00:15:43.159
good secretary. Thank you, New Girl. Did you

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notice my Pepperwood shirt? I did. I didn't say

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anything about it, but I noticed. She's wearing

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a full face of makeup as well. Thanks, Eric.

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I just got all my, I just bought a bunch of makeup

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online and it just came in before this and I

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was like, oh, let me try it. So I'm ready for

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the day. She's also, I brought that up because

00:16:02.860 --> 00:16:05.200
she's feeling good right now. She's on a roll

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and I feel like you should talk about that. Yeah,

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we've digressed so many times and I'm really

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upset as to why I can't remember. I told you

00:16:12.440 --> 00:16:16.759
about these pants. But yeah, so we've been doing

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this together forever, how long? And it works

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and it would still work. But I think I've gone

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into such an imbalance that I needed to kind

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of elevate the accountability portion. So what

00:16:30.779 --> 00:16:32.679
I've done is I've made an Instagram account,

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which is quite literally the opposite of who

00:16:34.600 --> 00:16:39.639
I am. An open journal, vulnerable thoughts, I'm

00:16:39.639 --> 00:16:43.740
putting out posts, photos that I would never

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deem acceptable to put out because we are way

00:16:47.679 --> 00:16:54.990
harder on ourselves. It is out there in an Instagram

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account for the public. It is not open to the

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public right now, except for Carly, which is

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why she's my only friend. Only friend. However,

00:17:02.149 --> 00:17:06.009
she did not let me in on this until two weeks

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into this process. So she was like, hey, I just

00:17:09.670 --> 00:17:11.890
want to let you know, and I'll friend you. This

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is what I'm doing. It's working. And I'm feeling

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like this is a good thing for me. I actually

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think it was like three weeks in. OK. It was

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like right before Christmas and I was feeling

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really good. Three weeks in I was feeling really

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good. But let me tell you why it was quote -unquote

00:17:35.150 --> 00:17:38.390
working or still is quote -unquote working. What

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I'm doing in this is every day I wake up I post

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my weight. I post my weight in a story and then

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all of my stories that I post create into highlights.

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So if you tune into this and want to check this

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out and want to feel like someone else sees you

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because you're feeling the same way or just want

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to check it out every highlight is something

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I log every day so I have one for my weight which

00:18:06.960 --> 00:18:14.279
started at 177 .6 and I have one for my daily

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menu everything I've eaten I've taken a picture

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of I have written down in meal snack time increment

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form and then only tracked macro wise my protein

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calories I know what I'm doing but protein is

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what I think I've missed the boat on especially

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as you you age and you do weights and I don't

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eat meat other than fish and plant -based products.

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So like my protein really dipped in the past

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two years, three years. So that's my main, my

00:18:48.009 --> 00:18:52.190
main tracking macro. And then every day I post

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my workout and or if I'm resting that day or

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actively resting, i .e. just walking my dog.

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Every day I walk my dog, but I don't track that

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because that's just like a life habit. That's

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something that I'm going to do no matter what

00:19:06.630 --> 00:19:08.769
size I am and no matter what I've eaten that

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day. But there are some days where every other

00:19:12.529 --> 00:19:15.569
Sunday I may just walk the dog because Carly's

00:19:15.569 --> 00:19:18.049
teaching and I'm not. It's my first day of that

00:19:18.049 --> 00:19:23.430
week to not work out. I will say that she does

00:19:23.430 --> 00:19:26.630
post her weight even when it goes up. Yep. And

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not just when it goes down, which I think is

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very hard. There are many days, especially over

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Christmas, that I didn't want to do it and I

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wanted to lie and I wanted to not even step on

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the scale to know. It's not because I went off

00:19:41.289 --> 00:19:44.789
the boat. It's not because I Completely ruined,

00:19:44.789 --> 00:19:48.589
you know a meal or because I you know had my

00:19:48.589 --> 00:19:53.589
period which we'll talk about But I did it anyway,

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I just did it it was it was a hard time of doing

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this over the holidays and then the New Year

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week and then What happened if the oh then I

00:20:06.029 --> 00:20:10.359
got my period then I got injured So my workouts

00:20:10.359 --> 00:20:14.039
really plummeted because I couldn't move. And

00:20:14.039 --> 00:20:16.599
so you'll see that in the reflection of all of

00:20:16.599 --> 00:20:21.240
my daily weigh -in logs. Because that's real.

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Like, you don't start something and then immediately

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drop 20 pounds. No. That's just not healthy.

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And anybody that says it is, it's going to come

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back with a vengeance, which we've talked about.

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No, but I did lose a lot of weight pretty quickly.

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So if I went from 177 right before Christmas,

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I think I went down to 160, which I have not

00:20:40.849 --> 00:20:43.809
seen that number in almost a year and a half.

00:20:45.910 --> 00:20:49.910
Yeah, that's true. And that's a lot of weight

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for a very short amount of time. So along with

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my stories and my highlights, I have actual posts

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that will stay up forever of insight. on like

00:21:02.819 --> 00:21:05.519
why these things happen because in real time

00:21:05.519 --> 00:21:08.480
they were happening to me and I was doing the

00:21:08.480 --> 00:21:10.500
research and wanting to understand what was going

00:21:10.500 --> 00:21:13.220
on so you lose a lot of water and then your body

00:21:13.220 --> 00:21:17.960
has to basically sit there in waiting being like

00:21:17.960 --> 00:21:21.000
prove this that this is real like continue this

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yeah months and months and weeks and weeks and

00:21:25.240 --> 00:21:27.279
then we'll start losing like fat and it doesn't

00:21:27.279 --> 00:21:30.339
really take that long but to a degree the drama

00:21:30.339 --> 00:21:33.140
of it is that you have to prove to your body

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that you're committed to this before the fat

00:21:36.880 --> 00:21:39.240
cells start to shrink so the body kind of holds

00:21:39.240 --> 00:21:40.920
on and it's like all right well we're gonna keep

00:21:40.920 --> 00:21:43.539
this big circle of a fat cell but we're gonna

00:21:43.539 --> 00:21:46.519
fill it up with water and then we're gonna start

00:21:46.519 --> 00:21:48.619
taking that water away okay you're kind of proving

00:21:48.619 --> 00:21:51.779
it okay cool all right oh you're really into

00:21:51.779 --> 00:21:54.910
this we're gonna start shrinking that big circle

00:21:54.910 --> 00:21:57.569
of a fat cell and now we're gonna lose fat and

00:21:57.569 --> 00:21:59.009
the fat's not gonna come back because that cell

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is now gone. It's completely disappeared. It's

00:22:01.490 --> 00:22:03.910
something called the fat whoosh. And so I have

00:22:03.910 --> 00:22:06.849
a whole post on that. I have a whole post on

00:22:06.849 --> 00:22:09.009
PMS and what the heck happens and why does the

00:22:09.009 --> 00:22:12.049
scale go up seven pounds when it's not real.

00:22:12.890 --> 00:22:15.049
And then everything that comes along with that

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because for women, Sorry Pedro, but for women

00:22:19.900 --> 00:22:22.839
it's very different process and calorie wise

00:22:22.839 --> 00:22:25.119
and metabolic rate wise like everything is different

00:22:25.119 --> 00:22:28.539
for us and a big part of that though is PMS and

00:22:28.539 --> 00:22:30.359
all the things that come with it So there are

00:22:30.359 --> 00:22:34.180
there are other things to read in and among that

00:22:34.180 --> 00:22:37.660
which is the hardest part None of this is hard

00:22:37.660 --> 00:22:42.359
posting my weight not hard But the journal entry

00:22:42.359 --> 00:22:45.440
stuff is hard, what do you mean? So I have posts

00:22:45.440 --> 00:22:48.099
of just like post -holiday all of my thoughts

00:22:48.099 --> 00:22:53.180
of my frustration of what happened and how I'm

00:22:53.180 --> 00:22:56.619
feeling and why it feels like this or oh my gosh

00:22:56.619 --> 00:22:59.880
I made it through the holiday and I didn't do

00:22:59.880 --> 00:23:03.519
nearly as much quote unquote damage of just giving

00:23:03.519 --> 00:23:05.539
up and being like I'm gonna eat all the cookies

00:23:05.539 --> 00:23:09.640
I think I went into class during that midweek

00:23:09.640 --> 00:23:12.579
of Christmas to New Year and everybody was talking

00:23:12.579 --> 00:23:14.660
about like, oh my gosh, we had so, this is a

00:23:14.660 --> 00:23:16.500
good dessert, this pie, this, this. And I was

00:23:16.500 --> 00:23:19.079
like, you know what? This wasn't a dessert Christmas

00:23:19.079 --> 00:23:22.920
this year. They weren't that good. Ouch, I had

00:23:22.920 --> 00:23:27.109
a lot of the parties. Yes, but I brought a lot

00:23:27.109 --> 00:23:28.950
of the dessert. Yeah, well Victoria Victoria

00:23:28.950 --> 00:23:30.990
does the baking and all the dessert bringing

00:23:30.990 --> 00:23:32.769
Yeah, you're right. A lot of them were like the

00:23:32.769 --> 00:23:35.910
Costco cookies. Yeah. Yeah, so it was not It

00:23:35.910 --> 00:23:39.450
wasn't a homemade I have to have this cake Christmas.

00:23:39.609 --> 00:23:43.430
Not important. It wasn't Worth it. It wasn't

00:23:43.430 --> 00:23:46.069
worth it. And I'm a someone that's like I don't

00:23:46.069 --> 00:23:49.450
care I'm go we come from Carmella who will I

00:23:49.450 --> 00:23:51.710
you know eat a sleeve of Oreo cookies exactly

00:23:51.710 --> 00:23:55.380
and not think twice and then which is like the

00:23:55.380 --> 00:23:58.339
worst and waste of sugar and calorie. Well, now

00:23:58.339 --> 00:24:02.039
that I read that the cream is basically just

00:24:02.039 --> 00:24:04.859
glue, we don't eat Oreo cookies anymore. I mean,

00:24:04.900 --> 00:24:07.420
the package says causes cancer. Yeah. Read the

00:24:07.420 --> 00:24:12.319
package. But to us, that's, you know, we weren't

00:24:12.319 --> 00:24:15.740
allowed to eat, not weren't allowed. We were

00:24:15.740 --> 00:24:17.859
of the belief that potatoes were really fattening.

00:24:17.900 --> 00:24:19.980
But on Friday nights, we would have Elio's pizza

00:24:19.980 --> 00:24:22.630
and dip Chips Ahoy cookies and cool it. Oh, that

00:24:22.630 --> 00:24:25.869
was so good. Which I would do again if we got

00:24:25.869 --> 00:24:27.950
to go back and do it, but the mindset of what

00:24:27.950 --> 00:24:29.930
was good and what wasn't good. Right. So for

00:24:29.930 --> 00:24:32.349
me, any dessert, I'm like, yeah, give it to me.

00:24:32.430 --> 00:24:34.089
It's chocolate. I want it. I don't care if it's

00:24:34.089 --> 00:24:37.630
good or not. And this Christmas, I was it was

00:24:37.630 --> 00:24:40.609
just a different thing. So my whole post on the

00:24:40.609 --> 00:24:46.769
mindset. Mindsight. No mindset mindset in hindsight.

00:24:46.769 --> 00:24:50.799
Oh, my God. Of the holiday. was how proud I was,

00:24:51.039 --> 00:24:53.460
even though my weight went up. I was very proud

00:24:53.460 --> 00:24:54.980
of myself for the choices that I made, because

00:24:54.980 --> 00:24:58.980
it's such a weird week of get togethers. I don't

00:24:58.980 --> 00:25:01.019
really eat that, but that's what you're offering?

00:25:01.220 --> 00:25:03.579
And it's there. OK, and it's there. Or it's just

00:25:03.579 --> 00:25:07.180
freaking there. Carly's house is the house of

00:25:07.180 --> 00:25:11.720
Willy Wonka at all party time. There's always

00:25:11.720 --> 00:25:14.960
Dot's Pretzels out, or Christmas crack. I didn't

00:25:14.960 --> 00:25:18.619
have one Dot's Pretzel. See, and I am, and I

00:25:18.619 --> 00:25:21.809
think Victoria's better at it than I am. Once

00:25:21.809 --> 00:25:25.829
I start, I can't stop. And I am so happy that

00:25:25.829 --> 00:25:29.950
my mom gave me that special talent. Oh, me too.

00:25:30.730 --> 00:25:34.369
If I start it, it's over. I should have put that

00:25:34.369 --> 00:25:36.809
as well as many other things in my special talents

00:25:36.809 --> 00:25:39.329
on my resume. Once I start eating something,

00:25:39.390 --> 00:25:43.490
I can't stop. Watch me. Just watch me. Put some

00:25:43.490 --> 00:25:46.170
dots pretzels in front of me and watch me go.

00:25:47.190 --> 00:25:49.529
Except it was back then, so it was the peanut

00:25:49.529 --> 00:25:52.970
butter pretzels. Oh, god. But she still is obsessed

00:25:52.970 --> 00:25:57.190
with it. Yeah. And peanut M &Ms. It just, if

00:25:57.190 --> 00:26:01.910
I start, I can't stop. And that, I can. No, I

00:26:01.910 --> 00:26:06.170
can't. It's an addiction. Yeah. Sugar's an addiction.

00:26:06.289 --> 00:26:08.789
And we have that in our blood. We just do. And

00:26:08.789 --> 00:26:13.390
it comes from karma. Thanks, mom. Cool. But.

00:26:15.000 --> 00:26:17.720
Have a whole post. Yeah on on how I felt about

00:26:17.720 --> 00:26:21.200
that recently I think my latest post was just

00:26:21.200 --> 00:26:26.119
me typing and it was just kind of like thought

00:26:26.119 --> 00:26:31.539
vomit of What it's like Like I basically wanted

00:26:31.539 --> 00:26:34.279
to just erase all the work that I've done Create

00:26:34.279 --> 00:26:36.279
a brand new account start over because I didn't

00:26:36.279 --> 00:26:38.680
want to show that like I lost I went down to

00:26:38.680 --> 00:26:42.599
160 and my goals like 145 150 like I'm doing

00:26:42.599 --> 00:26:45.000
great. Oh, but the holidays Oh, but the injury.

00:26:45.279 --> 00:26:48.740
Oh, but the period where I Made worse choices

00:26:48.740 --> 00:26:51.799
for myself and the scale kept going up, but I

00:26:51.799 --> 00:26:56.359
didn't because I think that's the real part of

00:26:56.359 --> 00:26:59.609
this is that All of us have done this and or

00:26:59.609 --> 00:27:02.589
are going through it right now again in their

00:27:02.589 --> 00:27:04.849
journey. I can't believe I've let this happen.

00:27:05.009 --> 00:27:07.309
I can't again. I have gained weight. I can't

00:27:07.309 --> 00:27:09.730
believe it's this hard now that I'm in my late

00:27:09.730 --> 00:27:12.609
30s. That's my biggest I have off to do a post

00:27:12.609 --> 00:27:14.230
about that because I think about that all the

00:27:14.230 --> 00:27:18.589
time. They've always warned at some age. It's

00:27:18.589 --> 00:27:21.200
usually a in your 30s number, your metabolism

00:27:21.200 --> 00:27:24.319
changes. I didn't think it could because we have

00:27:24.319 --> 00:27:27.920
horrible metabolisms. But it got worse. It's

00:27:27.920 --> 00:27:31.099
gotten slower. And my choices are not as bad.

00:27:31.200 --> 00:27:35.299
But my body needs me to work for it harder. And

00:27:35.299 --> 00:27:38.079
that's just age. And that's just how it goes

00:27:38.079 --> 00:27:44.019
to a degree. So it's a struggle. And I did say

00:27:44.019 --> 00:27:47.819
on Tuesday when we did this the first time, We

00:27:47.819 --> 00:27:51.079
know how hard it is for you because we do this

00:27:51.079 --> 00:27:54.500
for a living and it's hard for us. So I think

00:27:54.500 --> 00:27:57.779
another reason that this Instagram account is

00:27:57.779 --> 00:28:01.119
so helpful for others is to see like, oh, she

00:28:01.119 --> 00:28:04.079
struggles with it. So then I don't feel so bad.

00:28:04.240 --> 00:28:06.579
Maybe this resonates with me. This doesn't resonate

00:28:06.579 --> 00:28:09.579
with me. I do this. Maybe I don't do this. Just

00:28:09.579 --> 00:28:13.690
you can find like a common something. that everybody

00:28:13.690 --> 00:28:15.809
goes through this, everyone, no matter what.

00:28:15.809 --> 00:28:18.910
If you're in the fitness industry, if you are

00:28:18.910 --> 00:28:22.470
in nutrition, it happens to everybody. And it's

00:28:22.470 --> 00:28:26.190
hard, I'm going to say it again, to get up there

00:28:26.190 --> 00:28:29.029
in front of a lot of people when you're feeling

00:28:29.029 --> 00:28:33.710
not great and doing what we do. And I think this

00:28:33.710 --> 00:28:37.750
is going to be helpful to know that there is,

00:28:37.750 --> 00:28:40.710
you know, there's something behind that. When

00:28:40.710 --> 00:28:43.000
we're teaching, that you might not want to be

00:28:43.000 --> 00:28:44.200
up there in front of a lot of people when you're

00:28:44.200 --> 00:28:45.960
not feeling your best. That was last night for

00:28:45.960 --> 00:28:49.460
me. Really? Yeah. Was I with you? Yeah, yeah,

00:28:49.460 --> 00:28:56.319
yeah. We were together. Yes. OK. Sure were. Yeah,

00:28:56.319 --> 00:29:00.740
I didn't feel good. It's like no matter what,

00:29:00.900 --> 00:29:03.259
I think for everyone, once you hit a certain

00:29:03.259 --> 00:29:07.079
time in the day, bloat just happens because you've

00:29:07.079 --> 00:29:09.940
eaten how many meals and you've done how many

00:29:09.940 --> 00:29:12.119
activities or maybe you've been sedentary all

00:29:12.119 --> 00:29:14.200
day or you've had too much water or maybe you

00:29:14.200 --> 00:29:16.920
didn't have enough there's so many reasons and

00:29:16.920 --> 00:29:20.220
I was feeling so good yesterday got to my chiropractor

00:29:20.220 --> 00:29:23.599
I felt even better and then something Happened

00:29:23.599 --> 00:29:26.460
around the four or five o 'clock p .m.. And I

00:29:26.460 --> 00:29:28.400
had to eat something real quick before teaching,

00:29:28.440 --> 00:29:30.640
but I felt bloated I felt gross so why don't

00:29:30.640 --> 00:29:32.259
you tell everybody what you ate like you told

00:29:32.259 --> 00:29:34.779
everybody last night It was a tuna packet which

00:29:34.779 --> 00:29:37.480
is 17 grams of protein eats that before teaching

00:29:37.480 --> 00:29:40.559
a jumpy class One scoop of protein powder that

00:29:40.559 --> 00:29:42.759
I drank that was 20 grams of protein and then

00:29:42.759 --> 00:29:46.410
a quarter cup of walnuts Which was 4 .8. No one

00:29:46.410 --> 00:29:50.009
cares. Who eats tuna before teaching a dance

00:29:50.009 --> 00:29:52.430
fitness class? What did you? What would have

00:29:52.430 --> 00:29:56.049
you wanted me to repeat? I don't know. I don't

00:29:56.049 --> 00:29:59.529
know. What would you want me to have eaten? Not

00:29:59.529 --> 00:30:04.589
tuna. Did it bother you? The thought did. No.

00:30:05.259 --> 00:30:08.880
Your outfit bothered me. But I didn't feel good.

00:30:09.000 --> 00:30:10.839
The shirt that I had on was the shirt I wore

00:30:10.839 --> 00:30:12.940
all day because it was the Wednesdays are the

00:30:12.940 --> 00:30:16.079
longest day and I don't get to change and do

00:30:16.079 --> 00:30:18.079
stuff. And I wish I had packed another shirt

00:30:18.079 --> 00:30:20.299
and then I was bloated. It was clinging to my

00:30:20.299 --> 00:30:22.859
fupa. And there was just like so many things.

00:30:22.880 --> 00:30:25.380
Say that again, please. My fupa? Come on, we

00:30:25.380 --> 00:30:29.180
all know what that is. But I felt horrible. And

00:30:29.180 --> 00:30:32.660
I felt sluggish. And then my back hurt. And then

00:30:32.660 --> 00:30:37.369
there's so many things. don't stop the party

00:30:37.369 --> 00:30:39.829
and you pick up your knee, let's go. I'm looking

00:30:39.829 --> 00:30:42.410
at myself in the mirror going, my God, stand

00:30:42.410 --> 00:30:45.750
up taller, suck it in, fix your shirt. So there's

00:30:45.750 --> 00:30:48.029
so much going on. Do you want to hear a secret?

00:30:49.089 --> 00:30:51.990
I felt the same way last night. I know you guys

00:30:51.990 --> 00:30:53.529
don't believe me. Don't make that face. Don't

00:30:53.529 --> 00:30:55.509
make that face. Walk in somebody else's shoes.

00:30:55.690 --> 00:30:57.789
Walk in these clod hoppers. You don't want to

00:30:57.789 --> 00:31:02.390
walk into a - mental disorder. No, I was feeling

00:31:02.390 --> 00:31:05.230
bloated too. I do what you do and I was feeling

00:31:05.230 --> 00:31:07.849
bloated too. No, but when you do, I didn't feel

00:31:07.849 --> 00:31:11.829
good. I had just chugged water. I had eaten dinner

00:31:11.829 --> 00:31:14.490
before the class cause I teach till nine and

00:31:14.490 --> 00:31:17.750
I was like looking at myself in the mirror, seeing

00:31:17.750 --> 00:31:20.289
something that maybe other people don't see,

00:31:20.289 --> 00:31:23.450
but I was seeing it. Yeah, right. The entire

00:31:23.450 --> 00:31:26.329
billions of people population don't say it, but

00:31:26.329 --> 00:31:29.519
you are correct. I was not feeling good because

00:31:29.519 --> 00:31:33.440
I wasn't either and you're not me. And I was

00:31:33.440 --> 00:31:36.400
like, shut up. You're fine. Just keep going.

00:31:36.599 --> 00:31:39.779
And I think I literally said to everybody, shut

00:31:39.779 --> 00:31:43.920
up. You're fine. Just keep going. You're so annoying.

00:31:44.720 --> 00:31:47.779
The difference that you need to understand is

00:31:47.779 --> 00:31:52.059
that you were this weight and at this weight

00:31:52.059 --> 00:31:55.890
in a different phase of your life, you would

00:31:55.890 --> 00:31:59.690
never be able to wear the crop top. No. And be

00:31:59.690 --> 00:32:01.730
like, I don't feel good, but I'm in a crop top

00:32:01.730 --> 00:32:04.490
because I still can. That's where it's different.

00:32:04.589 --> 00:32:08.730
Well, I did teach. I'm going to tell you, my

00:32:08.730 --> 00:32:12.650
highest weight, I was 212 pounds and I was in

00:32:12.650 --> 00:32:16.509
front of people teaching. I, the only difference

00:32:16.509 --> 00:32:22.369
was I don't ever remember not being happy. Like

00:32:22.369 --> 00:32:27.119
I've told Christina, a million times, I was happy.

00:32:27.579 --> 00:32:30.559
I was heavy, but I was happy. Is this post -Melody?

00:32:30.839 --> 00:32:33.339
Yeah, this was after Melody. I was happy. Are

00:32:33.339 --> 00:32:36.460
you going to say because I was pregnant? It's

00:32:36.460 --> 00:32:39.440
different. It's different. Yeah. You were that

00:32:39.440 --> 00:32:42.960
big because you had a child. Yeah. You brought

00:32:42.960 --> 00:32:47.240
a child into the world. It's not the same, but

00:32:47.240 --> 00:32:50.559
it's valid, and it's completely justified. Well,

00:32:50.740 --> 00:32:53.259
I think what I mean to say was I was happy, I

00:32:53.259 --> 00:32:56.599
didn't feel good. Right. I didn't feel good.

00:32:56.680 --> 00:33:04.980
I was 212 for Dean. I was more for Melody. Post

00:33:04.980 --> 00:33:08.890
-birth? Yeah, I came - Well, no. When I left

00:33:08.890 --> 00:33:11.690
the hospital for Dean, I was 208 pounds and I

00:33:11.690 --> 00:33:13.630
was like, wait a second, he wasn't a four pound

00:33:13.630 --> 00:33:17.250
baby. He was over eight pounds or seven pounds.

00:33:17.890 --> 00:33:20.289
Like what, how did, what? That's like, I don't

00:33:20.289 --> 00:33:22.329
know, there's so many. How did I do that? Water.

00:33:22.529 --> 00:33:26.390
But I was, I was over 200 for all three of them.

00:33:26.549 --> 00:33:29.809
So like, yes, you're right. You're right. I was

00:33:29.809 --> 00:33:34.609
heavier because I had a baby, but yeah. And then

00:33:34.609 --> 00:33:40.160
two more. Yeah. It is it's not I agree. It's

00:33:40.160 --> 00:33:43.980
not invalid cuz like you feeling Crappy about

00:33:43.980 --> 00:33:46.839
yourself now in moments of like oh my god such

00:33:46.839 --> 00:33:49.579
a long day Why can't I hold my stomach in or

00:33:49.579 --> 00:33:55.119
are very accurate? for you and your mental illness

00:33:55.119 --> 00:34:02.920
but You're, yes, yes, it's all valid. It's all

00:34:02.920 --> 00:34:05.200
valid for whatever reason anybody gains weight

00:34:05.200 --> 00:34:08.199
or loses weight or feels bad or feels good. It's

00:34:08.199 --> 00:34:11.719
all valid, but it's not the same for us. Like

00:34:11.719 --> 00:34:14.980
we can't compare because I've never been heavy

00:34:14.980 --> 00:34:17.199
because I had a baby. I've been heavy because

00:34:17.199 --> 00:34:20.840
I've been sad or I've been happy or I've been

00:34:20.840 --> 00:34:24.900
just eating poorly and life is life. The reasons

00:34:24.900 --> 00:34:27.659
are different. I think you're correct. I've never

00:34:27.659 --> 00:34:30.880
been heavy and sad. I've been very heavy and

00:34:30.880 --> 00:34:33.659
happy. Right, right, right, right. And tired

00:34:33.659 --> 00:34:35.840
from babies. And well, no, no, no, before baby,

00:34:35.840 --> 00:34:39.300
I was very heavy and happy. Yeah. Because I was

00:34:39.300 --> 00:34:41.539
with Andrew and we were going around New York

00:34:41.539 --> 00:34:44.219
City, drinking and eating and living life. All

00:34:44.219 --> 00:34:48.760
you can eat. What was the Asian noodle brunch

00:34:48.760 --> 00:34:51.679
spot downtown? Oh, God. Remember that place?

00:34:51.860 --> 00:34:54.610
Yeah. It was like a noodle. house but it was

00:34:54.610 --> 00:34:56.969
Asian. They let you drink all you wanted and

00:34:56.969 --> 00:34:59.170
they didn't ID because it was all college kids

00:34:59.170 --> 00:35:02.170
at NYU. I mean we were living our best life and

00:35:02.170 --> 00:35:05.489
mom always likes to say you lived the life that

00:35:05.489 --> 00:35:08.210
I couldn't afford in New York but mom was auditioning

00:35:08.210 --> 00:35:09.949
and I was like I'm not auditioning I'm living

00:35:09.949 --> 00:35:12.090
I'm living a really fun life of eating and drinking

00:35:12.090 --> 00:35:13.889
with my friends. It was like a three dollar bowl

00:35:13.889 --> 00:35:17.329
of like noodles. Yes it was so good um but yes

00:35:17.329 --> 00:35:20.829
so I don't know what it's like to be heavy and

00:35:20.829 --> 00:35:24.769
sad. It's almost like you have, there's a piece

00:35:24.769 --> 00:35:33.110
of society that you have more of an allowance

00:35:33.110 --> 00:35:37.170
at that time to be heavy because you had a baby.

00:35:37.190 --> 00:35:40.210
Right. It's like, oh, but you had a baby. That's

00:35:40.210 --> 00:35:44.429
amazing. If you have weight on you and there

00:35:44.429 --> 00:35:49.219
are no children involved, You're just fat right

00:35:49.219 --> 00:35:51.820
like figure it out. Yeah, right And I say all

00:35:51.820 --> 00:35:54.500
of that in sarcasm and jest because I don't agree

00:35:54.500 --> 00:35:58.019
with it, but there is definitely You have the

00:35:58.019 --> 00:36:00.679
allowance. Uh -huh. I agree. I don't know why

00:36:00.679 --> 00:36:05.079
just how like our brains are wired or conditioned

00:36:05.079 --> 00:36:09.699
to but Yeah, I don't know no doesn't that doesn't

00:36:09.699 --> 00:36:12.480
make me feel anything towards you it's just when

00:36:12.480 --> 00:36:19.219
you try to relate you can't Okay, well, I'm your

00:36:19.219 --> 00:36:22.000
only friend on Instagram right now, so you better

00:36:22.000 --> 00:36:25.559
be nice to me or I will just slam you with nasty

00:36:25.559 --> 00:36:28.800
DMs, which I have been doing already. You mean

00:36:28.800 --> 00:36:31.699
private DMs no one else can see? Yes, I will

00:36:31.699 --> 00:36:34.039
comment on her DMs and be like, ew, gross. Oh

00:36:34.039 --> 00:36:38.420
my god. Boy, back to the task at hand. So this

00:36:38.420 --> 00:36:41.260
this accountability account also does my progress

00:36:41.260 --> 00:36:44.039
photos. So by the time this comes out, the ones

00:36:44.039 --> 00:36:47.679
I took on Tuesday, I I will put out there. Were

00:36:47.679 --> 00:36:51.099
you not happy? It's not that I'm not happy because

00:36:51.099 --> 00:36:56.159
I'm doing the work. So I know at some point visual

00:36:56.159 --> 00:37:00.179
change will happen and then I already feel better

00:37:00.179 --> 00:37:02.260
internally. So like it's like they're just not

00:37:02.260 --> 00:37:03.980
matched up yet. Well, say it again. You're doing

00:37:03.980 --> 00:37:08.579
the what? The work. Say it again. The work? The

00:37:08.579 --> 00:37:11.039
people in the back. Oh, it's hard. It's hard

00:37:11.039 --> 00:37:14.940
work. Yeah. It's freaking hard. Yeah. Every choice

00:37:14.940 --> 00:37:17.880
has to be accounted for. Every choice is an important

00:37:17.880 --> 00:37:21.099
one for putting any type of snack, food, meal

00:37:21.099 --> 00:37:24.079
in my mouth. I take a picture if we're at a restaurant.

00:37:24.239 --> 00:37:26.920
I take the picture. You don't care. So when we

00:37:26.920 --> 00:37:28.420
did an accountability program, so many people

00:37:28.420 --> 00:37:30.039
would be like, well, I'm out with friends. OK,

00:37:30.119 --> 00:37:32.079
take a picture. Take a picture. If this is what

00:37:32.079 --> 00:37:34.559
you want, you will do it and you will succeed

00:37:34.559 --> 00:37:37.300
because it's what you want. So if your priority

00:37:37.300 --> 00:37:41.559
is not not doing this in front of other people,

00:37:42.340 --> 00:37:44.829
then it's not your priority. Right? Like your

00:37:44.829 --> 00:37:46.769
health is first, your body is first, your choices

00:37:46.769 --> 00:37:49.110
are first. Everything else comes second. So,

00:37:49.289 --> 00:37:51.070
and I just happened, which what we talked about

00:37:51.070 --> 00:37:55.030
on Tuesday, I happen to have the support in all

00:37:55.030 --> 00:37:58.210
facets. All facets. From the guy who cannot be

00:37:58.210 --> 00:38:04.409
named. Because she forgot it. No, the support

00:38:04.409 --> 00:38:07.449
in any version of your home life, whatever that

00:38:07.449 --> 00:38:12.010
looks like is paramount. It just, it does, it

00:38:12.010 --> 00:38:14.780
just is whether it's like What kind of meal?

00:38:15.440 --> 00:38:17.079
Can you eat this? Would you like to eat this?

00:38:17.159 --> 00:38:19.500
I'm going to cook that like that type of support.

00:38:19.599 --> 00:38:23.000
And also, I think you said it like we were at

00:38:23.000 --> 00:38:27.079
a you're at my house. Yeah. Yeah. For you know,

00:38:28.019 --> 00:38:29.699
in between Christmas, when everybody's at my

00:38:29.699 --> 00:38:33.599
house, she grabbed a Like a handful. I didn't

00:38:33.599 --> 00:38:35.599
even know she was doing this at this point. She

00:38:35.599 --> 00:38:37.239
hadn't even told me. It was before Christmas.

00:38:37.360 --> 00:38:39.239
It was before. Yeah. And she grabbed a handful

00:38:39.239 --> 00:38:41.579
of something and he said, are you going to take

00:38:41.579 --> 00:38:44.039
a picture of that? And I knew what that meant

00:38:44.039 --> 00:38:46.000
because we take pictures of our food and send

00:38:46.000 --> 00:38:48.300
it to each other. And I was like, oh, wait, I'm

00:38:48.300 --> 00:38:51.840
on the outs. She's sending pictures to him now

00:38:51.840 --> 00:38:54.800
and not me. No, no. But I knew what that meant.

00:38:54.960 --> 00:38:56.179
And she was like, yeah, yeah, I already took

00:38:56.179 --> 00:38:58.579
a picture of it. And that was it. And that was

00:38:58.579 --> 00:39:01.139
just me creeping and eavesdropping on their conversation.

00:39:01.380 --> 00:39:03.619
It was probably Andrew's Christmas crack. Oh,

00:39:03.619 --> 00:39:08.320
so good. But that was him not judging, trying

00:39:08.320 --> 00:39:12.400
to help. Because what if you had said, no, I

00:39:12.400 --> 00:39:14.360
didn't, and you know what? I really don't want

00:39:14.360 --> 00:39:16.059
it. Because I don't want to take a picture of

00:39:16.059 --> 00:39:18.179
it. Which is why I didn't have the cookie this

00:39:18.179 --> 00:39:20.960
weekend. Because I was like, eh, it's not worth

00:39:20.960 --> 00:39:23.380
the work. And I was so happy that I did that.

00:39:23.630 --> 00:39:25.630
I had the beer though, and I took a picture.

00:39:26.050 --> 00:39:28.289
So I think what she's saying is you can live

00:39:28.289 --> 00:39:31.309
your life as long as you take accountability

00:39:31.309 --> 00:39:34.269
for it. You can, and she took accountability

00:39:34.269 --> 00:39:37.269
for herself, and then let me in on it. I'm gonna

00:39:37.269 --> 00:39:39.449
say that again. She let me in on it after the

00:39:39.449 --> 00:39:42.889
fact. She did not discuss with me before. Just

00:39:42.889 --> 00:39:47.030
again. Wait, here's the reason. I wanted, it

00:39:47.030 --> 00:39:51.889
had to be about me. For me. It had to be for

00:39:51.889 --> 00:39:54.369
me. I couldn't have. I don't like the reason

00:39:54.369 --> 00:39:57.309
why I couldn't have help. No, no, no. Not that

00:39:57.309 --> 00:39:59.090
it was going to turn into something about you.

00:39:59.230 --> 00:40:03.010
It just it had to be like I was so fed up that

00:40:03.010 --> 00:40:05.190
I was like, what what can I do that's different

00:40:05.190 --> 00:40:07.489
than I've done before? But it's going to last

00:40:07.489 --> 00:40:09.750
for me or that's going to really click. Yeah,

00:40:09.750 --> 00:40:13.269
because I mean, ask Pedro for the year and a

00:40:13.269 --> 00:40:16.449
half that he's now known me and like knows me

00:40:16.449 --> 00:40:20.159
well. I've said, we're going to start eating

00:40:20.159 --> 00:40:21.940
better. We're going to start making these decisions.

00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:24.559
We have to stop eating at this time. Let's start

00:40:24.559 --> 00:40:27.380
meal prepping. All of these let's go do, or I'm

00:40:27.380 --> 00:40:29.440
going to do this. And then I never followed through.

00:40:29.739 --> 00:40:33.920
So I needed for the first however long to prove

00:40:33.920 --> 00:40:37.539
to myself that I could do it without help, but

00:40:37.539 --> 00:40:40.579
in the lifestyle that I have. Yeah. And she decided

00:40:40.579 --> 00:40:43.300
to start it at Christmas. That's when I got fed

00:40:43.300 --> 00:40:45.079
up. I looked at myself in the mirror, working

00:40:45.079 --> 00:40:48.880
out by myself. on a Tuesday morning, December

00:40:48.880 --> 00:40:55.079
9th. Okay. And I couldn't, I couldn't take it

00:40:55.079 --> 00:40:59.340
anymore. Like I couldn't believe what was looking

00:40:59.340 --> 00:41:01.719
back at me, even though I look at myself every

00:41:01.719 --> 00:41:03.579
day. It's just that that, whatever that was in

00:41:03.579 --> 00:41:06.699
that moment, I was like, here it is. And I started

00:41:06.699 --> 00:41:08.400
taking progress photos right then and there in

00:41:08.400 --> 00:41:10.639
a t -shirt and leggings, not like what you normally

00:41:10.639 --> 00:41:12.719
do in a bra or something where you can really

00:41:12.719 --> 00:41:16.320
see change. That's the first progress photo.

00:41:16.539 --> 00:41:20.000
and I made an account. And I didn't tell Pedro

00:41:20.000 --> 00:41:21.760
either. Pedro didn't know. I did it for like,

00:41:21.760 --> 00:41:24.960
I think, a week and a half before I was like,

00:41:25.980 --> 00:41:28.159
I'm taking pictures of food. Here's why. Yeah.

00:41:28.199 --> 00:41:31.860
Yeah. So we have an accountability program Victoria

00:41:31.860 --> 00:41:35.880
and I created over COVID. And we used to send

00:41:35.880 --> 00:41:38.019
each other pictures of our food, all of our meals.

00:41:38.539 --> 00:41:41.019
We followed our accountability program as well.

00:41:41.099 --> 00:41:43.800
That's how we lost all the weight that we lost.

00:41:44.299 --> 00:41:47.139
And to this day, I mean, I think recently we

00:41:47.139 --> 00:41:50.840
stopped sending pictures because we aren't good

00:41:50.840 --> 00:41:53.340
coaches for each other. Not anymore. Not anymore.

00:41:53.460 --> 00:41:55.480
There was a time where we were on par, but we're

00:41:55.480 --> 00:41:56.960
now in different. I think it's because we're

00:41:56.960 --> 00:41:59.659
also in different phases of this for ourselves.

00:41:59.800 --> 00:42:02.719
Right. We are both not trying to lose a ton of

00:42:02.719 --> 00:42:04.940
weight at the same time, which we were in in

00:42:04.940 --> 00:42:07.119
the beginning. It was together. It was like we

00:42:07.119 --> 00:42:10.179
had the same type of goal. Yeah. For even if

00:42:10.179 --> 00:42:12.789
it was an individualized. we needed to lose weight,

00:42:12.889 --> 00:42:15.969
feel healthy, and be better for our jobs and

00:42:15.969 --> 00:42:18.230
for our life. And now you're in maintenance,

00:42:18.289 --> 00:42:21.730
and I need to lose. But that doesn't mean we

00:42:21.730 --> 00:42:24.170
couldn't have still done it. Also, our phones

00:42:24.170 --> 00:42:28.690
are geriatric, and Carly's is always dead. She's

00:42:28.690 --> 00:42:30.210
like, I've been sending you pictures of my food

00:42:30.210 --> 00:42:31.949
for two weeks. And I was like, oh, my phone's

00:42:31.949 --> 00:42:33.730
been dead. I'm like, I know. But it was kind

00:42:33.730 --> 00:42:36.289
of nice. Nobody was responding. Well, that was

00:42:36.289 --> 00:42:39.510
your first go at an accountability. Yeah, but

00:42:39.510 --> 00:42:41.269
I would take a picture of something really bad

00:42:41.269 --> 00:42:44.750
and be like, she's not going to look. Oh, well.

00:42:44.750 --> 00:42:49.349
Doesn't matter. So it just, it had to be different

00:42:49.349 --> 00:42:52.750
this time. And at the same time, the same as

00:42:52.750 --> 00:42:54.909
in accountability. Like, I think that's the key.

00:42:54.969 --> 00:42:58.670
And we say that all the time. What? Your straw

00:42:58.670 --> 00:43:01.530
from your coffee is in your hair. That's what.

00:43:03.170 --> 00:43:07.780
Gross. I always say consistency is key and accountability

00:43:07.780 --> 00:43:12.280
is key, and those two things worked. Consistency

00:43:12.280 --> 00:43:14.840
is key, accountability is key, and those things

00:43:14.840 --> 00:43:17.960
worked for me. Oh, why did there have to be a

00:43:17.960 --> 00:43:21.320
shoulder show with it? She danced through the

00:43:21.320 --> 00:43:23.539
rhyme. Because I got so excited that my third

00:43:23.539 --> 00:43:25.380
line was going to rhyme and I didn't mean it

00:43:25.380 --> 00:43:27.900
to that I had to show a little shoulder. Oh,

00:43:27.920 --> 00:43:32.760
Eric, stop. But yeah, I think those things are

00:43:32.760 --> 00:43:34.760
what works. It works for us. Maybe doesn't work

00:43:34.760 --> 00:43:37.500
for you. But you know, if you might want to check

00:43:37.500 --> 00:43:39.760
out, she's letting she's letting friends look

00:43:39.760 --> 00:43:42.519
at her account now. Well, now it's to the now

00:43:42.519 --> 00:43:47.860
it's to the part where. Not even, hold on, the

00:43:47.860 --> 00:43:51.579
beginning decision. I think we talked about this

00:43:51.579 --> 00:43:53.659
Tuesday. She can't remember what we said four

00:43:53.659 --> 00:43:55.440
seconds ago, but she can remember a lot of things

00:43:55.440 --> 00:43:57.880
from Tuesday. Word for word. I had so many jokes

00:43:57.880 --> 00:44:06.659
to tell. Is that I work better for me if others

00:44:06.659 --> 00:44:11.119
get something from it as well. So for me, I need

00:44:11.119 --> 00:44:17.110
to do this accountability. and the public part

00:44:17.110 --> 00:44:20.690
of it, that it could help someone else who is

00:44:20.690 --> 00:44:24.909
like in the same phase of like, oh my God, I'm

00:44:24.909 --> 00:44:28.349
fed up. It can help them and that actually helps

00:44:28.349 --> 00:44:32.190
me more. Yeah, that's like the reward. Not only

00:44:32.190 --> 00:44:34.909
the getting healthy and the losing weight, but

00:44:34.909 --> 00:44:40.110
the worth it part is that you find something,

00:44:40.510 --> 00:44:43.559
you meaning you guys. find something as a takeaway,

00:44:43.760 --> 00:44:46.500
even if it's only one thing. And, you know, you

00:44:46.500 --> 00:44:50.139
like to help people. I like to help myself. But

00:44:50.139 --> 00:44:52.880
that's not true. I know we said this the other

00:44:52.880 --> 00:44:54.500
day. You know, and I didn't agree with it then.

00:44:54.539 --> 00:44:59.039
Yes, you did. But I lied. I need to do things

00:44:59.039 --> 00:45:03.619
for myself first and make sure that I'm OK. She

00:45:03.619 --> 00:45:07.159
will make sure everybody else is OK first. And

00:45:07.159 --> 00:45:10.219
I think that's where that comes from. Like helping

00:45:10.219 --> 00:45:13.949
somebody else. is part of your reason for doing

00:45:13.949 --> 00:45:16.210
this because you know how many people struggle

00:45:16.210 --> 00:45:18.309
with this. Well, and on the daily, we see it,

00:45:18.369 --> 00:45:20.909
we hear it in conversation at like right before

00:45:20.909 --> 00:45:23.190
class. You're like, oh, my gosh, I know it's

00:45:23.190 --> 00:45:24.989
so hard, but you're here. You're doing it. You're

00:45:24.989 --> 00:45:26.929
doing great. You made the you did the hard part.

00:45:27.090 --> 00:45:32.730
So there's so I think. The volume of women that

00:45:32.730 --> 00:45:37.309
I know struggle with, I'm up, I'm down, I'm up.

00:45:37.710 --> 00:45:41.170
and happy I'm down I'm sad I'm trying to lose

00:45:41.170 --> 00:45:44.710
because I have an event and it's not working

00:45:44.710 --> 00:45:47.789
or it is working and it worked and now I've gained

00:45:47.789 --> 00:45:50.610
all my weight back like it's life it's life which

00:45:50.610 --> 00:45:52.889
is why I didn't delete this when I was gaining

00:45:52.889 --> 00:45:55.050
gaining gaining gaining I'm now back on the down

00:45:55.050 --> 00:45:59.750
post new year and injury that was really the

00:45:59.750 --> 00:46:03.010
past week kind of threw me but I still did it

00:46:03.010 --> 00:46:05.610
and I kept going yep so now I'm on the way back

00:46:05.610 --> 00:46:09.320
down slowly a lot slower than the first time

00:46:09.320 --> 00:46:13.440
I started losing and losing, but it's happening.

00:46:13.960 --> 00:46:19.019
And so I think, I think if that helps one person

00:46:19.019 --> 00:46:22.980
start and then maybe tune in and check in with

00:46:22.980 --> 00:46:25.820
me, I'll respond. Like, I don't know, I haven't

00:46:25.820 --> 00:46:29.500
thought past doing it for myself. So if you're

00:46:29.500 --> 00:46:34.860
going to follow or friend or... on anything I've

00:46:34.860 --> 00:46:38.239
posted or anything, I think it's gonna be a back

00:46:38.239 --> 00:46:41.980
and forth. I think I will, I don't know. I think

00:46:41.980 --> 00:46:45.519
we can make it some sort of, okay, you do it

00:46:45.519 --> 00:46:47.260
too. I'll hold you accountable. I don't know,

00:46:47.300 --> 00:46:50.559
we'll see. I'm not sure. So also, we are not

00:46:50.559 --> 00:46:53.920
what I eat in a day people. Do not look at her

00:46:53.920 --> 00:46:56.440
menu and what she eats and think that that's

00:46:56.440 --> 00:47:00.179
gonna work for you. It's not. It's not. We don't

00:47:00.179 --> 00:47:02.639
like those posts that say, this is what I eat

00:47:02.639 --> 00:47:05.320
in a day because not one of them are real, okay?

00:47:06.860 --> 00:47:09.679
And same for her. What works for her is not gonna

00:47:09.679 --> 00:47:18.019
work for you. But also, nothing's gonna change

00:47:18.019 --> 00:47:20.260
if you don't change. And that was a big thing

00:47:20.260 --> 00:47:22.039
we said on Tuesday that I was like, we need to

00:47:22.039 --> 00:47:23.960
say that again because we have people constantly

00:47:23.960 --> 00:47:26.760
coming in. I work out seven days with you and

00:47:26.760 --> 00:47:31.420
I eat pretty well. Why isn't this working? Because

00:47:31.420 --> 00:47:36.360
you need to recheck your nutrition, triple check,

00:47:36.900 --> 00:47:38.980
quadruple check, because what you think you're

00:47:38.980 --> 00:47:42.980
eating that's really good is probably not. And

00:47:42.980 --> 00:47:44.860
that's why it's not working. You can work out

00:47:44.860 --> 00:47:47.480
hard. I was the biggest example. So were you.

00:47:47.800 --> 00:47:50.820
We worked out hard 23 hours of the week teaching

00:47:50.820 --> 00:47:54.139
and didn't lose a pound. No, because we were

00:47:54.139 --> 00:47:57.539
eating more than we were burning. And your body,

00:47:57.659 --> 00:48:00.760
there's so many reasons. I have it in a post.

00:48:00.860 --> 00:48:07.260
Yeah. Because how many times have we done this?

00:48:08.019 --> 00:48:11.360
We're in our 40s, almost in our 40s. Figure out

00:48:11.360 --> 00:48:15.239
which one's which. Shut up. And this is not my

00:48:15.239 --> 00:48:17.500
first like. It's not her first rodeo. Rodeo.

00:48:17.659 --> 00:48:20.300
It's not. But it had to be different from all

00:48:20.300 --> 00:48:23.510
the other times because this. This phase is different,

00:48:23.789 --> 00:48:26.750
and this time it's different. I'm different as

00:48:26.750 --> 00:48:29.289
a human and as a person, so it's not going to

00:48:29.289 --> 00:48:33.349
work the same that I did in 2020. Right. She

00:48:33.349 --> 00:48:36.170
was 30 when she lost a bunch of weight the first

00:48:36.170 --> 00:48:38.969
time. You're now 37. Your body is completely

00:48:38.969 --> 00:48:42.630
different. Yeah. Yes. So that's a big thing,

00:48:42.909 --> 00:48:45.329
and she's got to change. Something that she's

00:48:45.329 --> 00:48:48.010
doing is not working for her. So same with you.

00:48:48.250 --> 00:48:52.400
If you don't change it, it's... You can't eat

00:48:52.400 --> 00:48:56.780
like you're 21. People do that. I talk to people

00:48:56.780 --> 00:48:59.820
all the time about that in my one -on -one with

00:48:59.820 --> 00:49:02.579
clients where it's like, OK, cool. That's your

00:49:02.579 --> 00:49:04.400
goal. Awesome. Well, what are you eating? Well,

00:49:04.400 --> 00:49:06.559
what are you doing? OK, well, what are you willing

00:49:06.559 --> 00:49:09.500
to change? No, nothing. It's not that bad. It's

00:49:09.500 --> 00:49:11.139
just this little. It's this little. If I don't

00:49:11.139 --> 00:49:13.000
do that, then I'm sacrificing everything. It's

00:49:13.000 --> 00:49:18.079
like, well, something's got to change. It's you

00:49:18.079 --> 00:49:20.739
know, you got to amp up your activity. You got

00:49:20.739 --> 00:49:25.900
to you know change the Specific calories you're

00:49:25.900 --> 00:49:27.760
taking in. I mean everybody's different So I

00:49:27.760 --> 00:49:29.880
don't want to say like trigger words of specific

00:49:29.880 --> 00:49:31.440
things for you to think that that's what you

00:49:31.440 --> 00:49:34.119
have to do But for me, I have to stop eating

00:49:34.119 --> 00:49:38.039
late Yeah, and I have to stop eating so early

00:49:38.039 --> 00:49:40.280
and then I have to eat actual meals I wasn't

00:49:40.280 --> 00:49:43.360
eating enough and I was gaining weight because

00:49:43.360 --> 00:49:46.650
what I was eating Was healthy enough. It was

00:49:46.650 --> 00:49:49.289
healthy ish But I wasn't eating enough calories.

00:49:49.309 --> 00:49:51.230
So your body goes, okay. Well, you don't feed

00:49:51.230 --> 00:49:53.769
me so I'm gonna hold on to everything you're

00:49:53.769 --> 00:49:56.570
putting in right and continue to add up until

00:49:56.570 --> 00:49:58.989
the day you just stop feeding me and then I have

00:49:58.989 --> 00:50:02.449
storage for later and That happened month after

00:50:02.449 --> 00:50:05.030
month after month after month and 30 pounds later.

00:50:05.329 --> 00:50:09.849
I am where I am. Yeah, and You know life changes

00:50:09.849 --> 00:50:14.179
my life situation changed. I have partner now

00:50:14.179 --> 00:50:18.500
that really likes food and and good food and

00:50:18.500 --> 00:50:21.780
restaurants and ordering and I want to eat the

00:50:21.780 --> 00:50:23.860
noodle bowls all the time too but my body can't

00:50:23.860 --> 00:50:28.320
do that and I was keeping up with with him on

00:50:28.320 --> 00:50:30.639
my own terms you didn't know what I was doing

00:50:30.639 --> 00:50:32.780
yeah but I was like yeah I want noodles too cuz

00:50:32.780 --> 00:50:36.360
I do I want them but I have to be smart about

00:50:36.360 --> 00:50:39.719
it and I have them right I'm making pasta tonight

00:50:39.719 --> 00:50:44.110
it's veggie craft protein pasta. And it tastes

00:50:44.110 --> 00:50:48.050
so similar to real pasta. And it's 12 to 17 grams

00:50:48.050 --> 00:50:51.510
of protein for like, the same portion of pasta.

00:50:51.530 --> 00:50:54.250
So like you find what works. And then I feel

00:50:54.250 --> 00:50:56.289
good about it because I didn't want to go strict

00:50:56.289 --> 00:51:01.070
again. And hello, Peppers joining the couch.

00:51:01.510 --> 00:51:03.789
I didn't want to go so strict again like we did

00:51:03.789 --> 00:51:06.610
in 2020 as if I didn't have plans and places

00:51:06.610 --> 00:51:09.750
to go. We didn't. It was COVID. We didn't leave

00:51:09.750 --> 00:51:13.739
our house. All Victoria and I did was sit at

00:51:13.739 --> 00:51:17.400
my house, think about what we were going to make

00:51:17.400 --> 00:51:20.340
for food and go over the nutrition part of it

00:51:20.340 --> 00:51:22.860
and then teach for CFIT. And work out. And work

00:51:22.860 --> 00:51:24.719
out. That's all we did. We didn't see anybody.

00:51:24.800 --> 00:51:27.579
We didn't have events. And we know that people

00:51:27.579 --> 00:51:30.340
thought it was harder. We thought it was amazing

00:51:30.340 --> 00:51:33.579
for our plan. And when I started gaining, I was

00:51:33.579 --> 00:51:36.360
like, I'm never going to get there again because...

00:51:36.349 --> 00:51:38.610
life is never going to stop like that again.

00:51:38.789 --> 00:51:41.949
So that's not in the cards for me. And that's,

00:51:41.949 --> 00:51:44.889
it's not true. So it's what I told myself. And

00:51:44.889 --> 00:51:46.489
then I was like, yeah, sure. What are we, what

00:51:46.489 --> 00:51:48.809
are we doing for takeout? And I would make like

00:51:48.809 --> 00:51:52.269
a silly decision for my body because I just told

00:51:52.269 --> 00:51:54.449
myself I was never going to get to 2020 again.

00:51:55.010 --> 00:51:57.409
And I don't want to get to 2020 again. I want

00:51:57.409 --> 00:52:00.269
to do life right now, but I have to find the

00:52:00.269 --> 00:52:02.849
balance. So this account for me is the balance

00:52:02.849 --> 00:52:09.039
and the start of like, life. And I want to say

00:52:09.039 --> 00:52:13.440
it again. It is hoard. It is hoard work. And

00:52:13.440 --> 00:52:16.500
if you're not willing to change what you're doing,

00:52:16.500 --> 00:52:18.219
cause it's not working for you right now. If

00:52:18.219 --> 00:52:20.719
you're looking at her account, trying to find

00:52:20.719 --> 00:52:23.860
ways for her, you know, to take some tips, then

00:52:23.860 --> 00:52:25.679
what you're doing isn't working for you. You

00:52:25.679 --> 00:52:28.639
have to change something. Yeah. And that is number

00:52:28.639 --> 00:52:31.960
one, the hardest flip. Nope. The hardest switch

00:52:31.960 --> 00:52:35.059
to flip. Yeah. Flip to switch. I do that all

00:52:35.059 --> 00:52:38.719
the time. Um, so if you've made it this far in

00:52:38.719 --> 00:52:45.320
our, our rant, the account is fit to be, get

00:52:45.320 --> 00:52:51.599
it, underscore V, get it, underscore dedicated.

00:52:52.119 --> 00:52:54.800
And I went through a bunch of like, what, what

00:52:54.800 --> 00:52:57.659
kind of handle? I don't know. First of all, I

00:52:57.659 --> 00:53:00.440
wanted to be discreet, find me doesn't have a

00:53:00.440 --> 00:53:02.820
picture. So it's, I know, I know it's not a hundred

00:53:02.820 --> 00:53:06.650
percent yet, but fit. to be underscore v underscore

00:53:06.650 --> 00:53:09.369
dedicated because i have not been dedicated to

00:53:09.369 --> 00:53:13.570
myself i've been dedicated to you i've been dedicated

00:53:13.570 --> 00:53:15.829
to them i've been dedicated to him i've been

00:53:15.829 --> 00:53:18.670
dedicated to my dog i haven't dedicated the past

00:53:18.670 --> 00:53:22.769
year and a half didn't point to me nope it was

00:53:22.769 --> 00:53:30.059
there with the middle finger yeah um So it's

00:53:30.059 --> 00:53:32.599
dedicated because motivation is not what does

00:53:32.599 --> 00:53:35.519
this. Dedication is what does this. And through

00:53:35.519 --> 00:53:37.159
the holidays, I stay dedicated and I'm proud

00:53:37.159 --> 00:53:40.099
of myself for that. And through a back injury,

00:53:40.159 --> 00:53:41.900
I stay dedicated and I'm proud of myself for

00:53:41.900 --> 00:53:45.440
that. And so it's going to end up continuing

00:53:45.440 --> 00:53:49.980
because of dedication, not motivation. So fit

00:53:49.980 --> 00:53:52.980
to be me, which could be very or Victoria dedicated.

00:53:53.739 --> 00:53:57.300
Oh, that was my thought. That was cool. I like

00:53:57.300 --> 00:54:00.340
that. And you know, we're doing it here, so fit

00:54:00.340 --> 00:54:06.400
to be. Well, I will not be her only friend anymore

00:54:06.400 --> 00:54:10.380
and I'm sad about that. She did nothing. She

00:54:10.380 --> 00:54:12.659
helped me in no way. I checked it every day and

00:54:12.659 --> 00:54:15.159
you saw that I looked every day. I know, but

00:54:15.159 --> 00:54:18.619
that, yeah. And I texted, I DM'd you this morning

00:54:18.619 --> 00:54:20.820
and was like, whoa. The other day I saw what

00:54:20.820 --> 00:54:24.460
she ate and I was like, gross. There are some

00:54:24.460 --> 00:54:26.619
things I just eat to eat and it is pretty nasty.

00:54:27.420 --> 00:54:30.480
But it's calories and it's nutrients and I don't

00:54:30.480 --> 00:54:33.039
really care how it gets in. It's just gonna come

00:54:33.039 --> 00:54:39.059
out anyway. It's hard work. It's hoard. It's

00:54:39.059 --> 00:54:41.760
hard to hear about. I'm just kidding. But if

00:54:41.760 --> 00:54:44.500
you really wanna make a change, friend her. Gonna

00:54:44.500 --> 00:54:52.420
make a change. Once in my life. It's gonna be

00:54:52.420 --> 00:54:56.320
real good. Gonna make a difference. Gonna make

00:54:56.320 --> 00:55:03.559
it right. Oh, I thought we were gonna keep going.

00:55:03.679 --> 00:55:09.300
I couldn't remember the words. That's Celine.

00:55:09.420 --> 00:55:13.260
We're doing Michael. Celine is everywhere. Anyway,

00:55:13.880 --> 00:55:16.199
check out her Instagram. We can all be friends

00:55:16.199 --> 00:55:18.699
together. So yes, if you have been a seafitter

00:55:18.699 --> 00:55:21.280
for a long time, then you've unbeknownst gone

00:55:21.280 --> 00:55:23.099
through the journey with me just by watching

00:55:23.099 --> 00:55:27.099
my body change in the past decade alone. seven

00:55:27.099 --> 00:55:31.179
years, I guess, alone. So now it's like the inside

00:55:31.179 --> 00:55:36.940
scoop of it. I also have to say, I don't care

00:55:36.940 --> 00:55:41.440
if you don't fight. I'm doing this either way

00:55:41.440 --> 00:55:48.539
and I don't care. I don't think this is important.

00:55:50.860 --> 00:55:53.360
What? The world needs to know. You know what

00:55:53.360 --> 00:55:55.599
I mean? She doesn't care if she has five followers.

00:55:56.000 --> 00:55:57.820
Cause she only has one right now. This isn't

00:55:57.820 --> 00:56:01.760
about like, let's get out there and let's do

00:56:01.760 --> 00:56:04.420
it this way and let's get more followers. I don't,

00:56:04.679 --> 00:56:06.980
it's no, this is a 100 % and you're going to

00:56:06.980 --> 00:56:11.539
see by the fact that I'm, I post my weight and

00:56:11.539 --> 00:56:14.260
everything else that comes with it. I think my

00:56:14.260 --> 00:56:19.099
next progress photo is alarming for me, but I'm

00:56:19.099 --> 00:56:21.119
going to put it out there because I have to,

00:56:21.860 --> 00:56:25.550
to keep going that it is that's Not the part

00:56:25.550 --> 00:56:27.409
of this, right? We didn't do a podcast because

00:56:27.409 --> 00:56:29.650
we think we're like the most important people

00:56:29.650 --> 00:56:37.949
ever. No, no. Well. Oh, no, no. So I just have

00:56:37.949 --> 00:56:40.210
to say that because this is the hardest part

00:56:40.210 --> 00:56:42.130
for me is just the vulnerability aspect. It's

00:56:42.130 --> 00:56:44.489
not like the facts and the facts is my weight

00:56:44.489 --> 00:56:46.210
and the facts is what I'm eating and the facts

00:56:46.210 --> 00:56:48.570
is what I'm doing for my workout every day or

00:56:48.570 --> 00:56:51.190
not doing for my workout every day and posting

00:56:51.190 --> 00:56:53.739
the progress. But the vulnerability of it is

00:56:53.739 --> 00:56:55.599
like how I feel about it, which is what I'm putting

00:56:55.599 --> 00:56:58.980
out there is what is very uncomfortable. So the

00:56:58.980 --> 00:57:01.780
discomfort is also, I think, a part of this whole

00:57:01.780 --> 00:57:04.679
journey and might be what you're missing because

00:57:04.679 --> 00:57:07.980
you want to be comfortable. So we can chat about

00:57:07.980 --> 00:57:10.760
it. Yeah. All right. That's a first for her.

00:57:10.940 --> 00:57:13.199
Usually she says, don't come up to me and talk

00:57:13.199 --> 00:57:15.539
about anything that I've talked on this podcast.

00:57:15.900 --> 00:57:18.199
Well, wait, that's another reason I didn't tell

00:57:18.199 --> 00:57:20.570
you. and didn't make it public from the start.

00:57:20.630 --> 00:57:22.409
I didn't want people talking to me about it.

00:57:22.489 --> 00:57:25.250
I wasn't ready for it. I didn't know. I didn't

00:57:25.250 --> 00:57:26.630
know. I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't

00:57:26.630 --> 00:57:28.030
know how it was going to work. I didn't know

00:57:28.030 --> 00:57:30.269
if it was something that was going to stick anyway.

00:57:30.369 --> 00:57:32.230
Maybe I would just delete it and do it a different

00:57:32.230 --> 00:57:38.829
way. So now it is what it is. And yeah, you can

00:57:38.829 --> 00:57:41.250
come up and talk to me about it. Don't talk to

00:57:41.250 --> 00:57:43.389
me about my feelings, but you can come up and

00:57:43.389 --> 00:57:44.690
talk to me about everything. Sorry, there's no

00:57:44.690 --> 00:57:48.409
disclaimers. There's no, no, it's all or nothing.

00:57:48.650 --> 00:57:50.170
All right, fine. Okay, it's a sleeve of Oreos

00:57:50.170 --> 00:57:53.570
or it's none. All right, fine. Okay, that's where

00:57:53.570 --> 00:57:55.449
we are here. I'm surprised it's only one sleeve.

00:57:57.510 --> 00:58:00.210
I've been known to have a little more than one

00:58:00.210 --> 00:58:02.469
sleeve, but that's all I'm ready to talk about

00:58:02.469 --> 00:58:05.250
right now. I get it. She's never gonna be ready.

00:58:05.789 --> 00:58:07.610
Just to let you know, she's never gonna be ready.

00:58:11.460 --> 00:58:15.739
So, to end this because she needs to go back

00:58:15.739 --> 00:58:22.420
to TGIF. 1999. What's that song? I just wanna

00:58:22.420 --> 00:58:27.219
go back, back to 1999. Whoa, whoa. We're making

00:58:27.219 --> 00:58:30.039
up this song. Whoa. No, there's a song. I know.

00:58:30.300 --> 00:58:36.460
I just wanna go back, back to 1999. Back to 1999.

00:58:36.860 --> 00:58:39.530
Why is that a, yes. Who sings it? It's like Robin

00:58:39.530 --> 00:58:42.929
or. It's not Robin. It's like someone like Robin.

00:58:43.050 --> 00:58:45.710
Your computer is going to die. We got to go.

00:58:45.869 --> 00:58:49.650
Low battery. Yeah, I forgot to charge it. But

00:58:49.650 --> 00:58:52.269
the microphones have been on. So we're at the

00:58:52.269 --> 00:58:55.949
win this week. But yeah, so that's that's our

00:58:55.949 --> 00:58:58.570
spiel. That's our thing. And by our I mean mine.

00:58:58.829 --> 00:59:02.269
Well, I'm in it too. Carly. I'm her friend. You

00:59:02.269 --> 00:59:05.710
will see Carly's friendly posts as well. I'll

00:59:05.710 --> 00:59:09.260
start commenting. So if this works for you, this

00:59:09.260 --> 00:59:11.659
resonates for you, then by all means reach out.

00:59:12.059 --> 00:59:15.579
And if it doesn't, cool, but it does, I know

00:59:15.579 --> 00:59:19.760
it does. So remember, listen, it resonates, hold

00:59:19.760 --> 00:59:24.809
on, it resonates for me. Do you want to tell

00:59:24.809 --> 00:59:26.909
us more about that? No, I just want you to know

00:59:26.909 --> 00:59:29.730
there's something in this for everybody I totally

00:59:29.730 --> 00:59:33.449
understand this and I've done this with her Yeah,

00:59:33.869 --> 00:59:37.389
not in a public Instagram way But I've felt very

00:59:37.389 --> 00:59:40.030
vulnerable texting her my weight and what I eat

00:59:40.030 --> 00:59:42.670
and all the stuff So I it resonates with me.

00:59:43.090 --> 00:59:48.110
So it resonates with everybody. Yeah Also, yeah,

00:59:48.170 --> 00:59:50.690
it's Instagram, by the way. I just came at the

00:59:50.690 --> 00:59:52.429
camera like if you're not watching. Oh, wow.

00:59:52.469 --> 00:59:55.690
Now it's 2004. I'm included. Include me. I'm

00:59:55.690 --> 00:59:58.309
not gonna come. Just include me. Carly's a pick

00:59:58.309 --> 01:00:02.190
-me -girl. I just learned what those are. What?

01:00:02.309 --> 01:00:07.889
That's old news. Oh. Fina! Just remember, you're

01:00:07.889 --> 01:00:12.230
always fit to be real and always allowed to be

01:00:12.230 --> 01:00:26.099
a little extra. For legal reasons, we have to

01:00:26.099 --> 01:00:28.000
tell you that this podcast is meant for entertainment

01:00:28.000 --> 01:00:31.019
and educational purposes only. We are not healthcare

01:00:31.019 --> 01:00:33.440
professionals. For all of your health, wellness,

01:00:33.699 --> 01:00:35.860
fitness, and self -care needs, please refer to

01:00:35.860 --> 01:00:38.340
the medical professional in your life, your primary

01:00:38.340 --> 01:00:41.039
care physician, your therapist, a certified coach,

01:00:41.380 --> 01:00:43.719
whoever it may be. And then let us know what

01:00:43.719 --> 01:00:46.039
they say because I guarantee we need to know

01:00:46.039 --> 01:00:49.099
it too. Okay? Okay, bye.