Hello, hello, this is Sabrina Amina.
This is the Feelings Pod.
And today's episode is a little bit of an experiment
in showing up messy
and talking about mixed feelings
and the kind of
confusion that comes along with not really knowing
how you're feeling or the confusion that comes along
with having one feeling in one moment
and then having another feeling in another moment,
not being able to identify where, what your feeling is
and also just like
having, excuse me, having two feelings at the same time
or two or more feelings at the same time,
they just seem contradictory.
Okay, sorry for the coughing and the yawning.
I said it was gonna be messy.
It's the end of the day.
I bet I really wanted to talk about this
because this is what I've been moving through
and I feel like there might be a nugget of wisdom
if I talk about it for long enough.
So if you have the patience to stick around,
awesome.
If not, I really, I honor whatever your journey looks like
in this moment.
So yeah, today, this weekend was full of excitement
for me and connection
and spending time with friends and going to events
that were just nourishing and fulfilling and adventurous.
And then kind of coming back to my own home,
my own space, my own sanctuary of quiet
and feeling a little bit of a dip in the excitement
and energy because I notice that
social time is very exciting for me and it's fun.
And it, you know,
I experience a lot of joy when I'm in connection
with people I love.
The transition is tricky for me
because moving from connection to solitude,
it feels quite dramatic.
And so I go from feeling really connected
and having a great time to feeling a little bit lonely,
but also there's a dip in energy, right?
Because it took a lot of energy to do all this socializing.
So what I'm working on tracking is,
well, how am I feeling in this moment?
Am I feeling sadness?
Am I feeling loneliness or am I feeling tired?
Am I feeling just a need to rest?
Maybe I'm just feeling hungry
and I'm not feeling very well resourced.
Perfect time to record a messy podcast.
Ha ha ha ha.
So when I'm feeling a little bit untethered or unmoored,
I enjoy outward processing.
So I'll reach out to friends
or I'll record a messy podcast
and I'll just try to like make sense of the feeling.
However, sometimes trying to make sense
of how you're feeling cognitively
can just create a little bit more confusion.
So it's really helpful to just get back into the body
and really be fully present with the body.
So this is a tool that I rely on time and again.
One of the events that I went to this weekend
was a workshop with Luis Mojica.
I bring up Luis all the time on my podcast.
He's by far one of my favorite teachers.
You can follow him on holistic life navigation on Instagram.
So this workshop on Friday evening was on being disliked
and building a capacity for being disliked
by noticing the way that we fawn.
And fawning is like, it's a kind of protective strategy
that is considered one of the trauma responses.
This is how the body responds to some kind of threat.
So for example, we do, so if there's a threat,
we talk about fight, flight, freeze, fawn.
And I recently learned about fix is the fifth one.
So this talk was a bit about noticing the bodies,
the way the body moves to people pleasing in place,
in order to stay safe, in order to find safety.
So long pause, just to check in,
just to kind of track what's present in the body.
And you can take a deep breath in with me too.
And just notice where your body is right now.
Notice the quality of your breath.
Take a deep breath in and let it go.
Take a deep breath in, let it go.
Take a deep breath in and let it go.
So the breath is like such a magical tool
because no matter what kind of confusion
is happening in the mind, like the breath can always
bring you back into your body.
The breath can always bring you back into your body.
And the body just has its own wisdom
that doesn't really rely on the thinking brain.
So when you notice that you are feeling a bit like
ungrounded or confused or just a bit lost
or generally have this sense of not feeling ease or safety,
taking a few moments to breathe is your reminder.
It's like your physical somatic reminder in the body
that, oh, I can breathe slowly and deeply
and that sends a message to my nervous system
that I'm safe.
Where, especially in a moment where the thoughts
in your brain are activating
and making the body feel a bit unsafe.
So let's do that again.
I invite you to find an easeful position, restful,
make yourself as comfortable as possible,
close the eyes, take a deep breath in,
and let it go.
Breathe in and breathe out.
Deep breath in.
Pause at the top of the breath and breathe out.
And breathe out. Pause. Breathe in.
Pause. Breathe out. Pause. Breathe in.
Pause. Breathe in. Pause. And breathe out.
Follow that pattern of your breath for as long as you wish.
If you'd like to place a hand on the belly
as you inhale and exhale,
you have a physical reminder of how it feels
to bring breath into the body
and how it feels to let it go.
And as you inhale, you feel the belly rise,
and as you exhale, you feel the belly contract.
Inhale.
And exhale.
Inhale.
And exhale.
Inhale.
And exhale.
Once again, you wish to continue.
You can pause the recording here.
Continue your inhale.
And exhale.
Thank you so much for tuning into my messages.
Thank you so much for tuning into my messy podcast today.
That was just a real time experience
of how I find safety with myself
when things are a little bit stormy in the head,
stormy in the brain.
I hope this serves as a reminder
that you are always able to tune in.
Notice where you are and offer yourself
a little bit of care through the power
of your presence and your breath,
through the magic of your body
that has infinite wisdom.
It's not always accessible by the thinking brain.
Maybe happy, maybe well,
maybe free from suffering,
maybe feel love.
This is Sabrina Amina with the feelings pod.
Have a wonderful day.