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Hello, hello, my name is Sabrina Amina, and this is the Peelings Pod.

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I'm super excited because today is the first episode of the third season of my podcast,

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and I'm proud of that because this has felt very much like a work of heart, and it's not

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perfect, certainly, but it's an exploration that feels true and authentic and aligned

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for me, and it's been received pretty well, as far as I know.

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And yeah, I just, this season, I started in the winter, so I did a winter season, the

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spring season, and now it's a summer season, and I started this podcast with the intention

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of just sharing what I learned through experiencing emotions with mindfulness, and most of the

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episodes thus far have been focused on some of the more challenging emotions, and those

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are the emotions I've been able to navigate with more ease thanks to my mindfulness and

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mindful self-compassion practice.

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So at the very least, I hope this podcast serves as an invitation for you to do the same.

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I hope it inspires you to open up to the more difficult feelings that sometimes we push

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aside or are afraid of facing.

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Today, I want to focus on disappointment because I think it's an emotion that we try to avoid

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at all costs.

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We don't want to be disappointed, so what do we do?

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We avoid putting ourselves in situations where we might have to face disappointment, which

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is fear-based behavior, and if there's one thing I strive for, it is to be in touch with

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and aware of my fear-based behaviors as much as possible because my fear-based behaviors

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keep me playing small.

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They keep me from showing up fully and authentically.

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They keep me hiding.

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I think they keep me from pursuing my heart's desires, and the inspiration for this episode

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today came from a conversation I had with a friend yesterday who, I forget the context,

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but they basically said, well, I don't want to get my hopes up.

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I was like, I don't know, those kinds of statements now stop me in my tracks a bit, and I'm like,

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why?

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Why wouldn't you want to get your hopes up?

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Hope is such a beautiful thing.

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Hope is such a wonderful emotion.

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What would we do in a world without hope?

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Get your hopes up, people, stop being afraid to be disappointed.

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We live in a world where disappointment is a reality, but also incredible joy and satisfaction

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and pleasure and the yummy goodness is available to us too.

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As long as we're unwilling to face depth and darkness, we're also not available to

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experience the incredible lightness of being, in the words of, oh, I forget the author's

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name right now, Mila Melancundera, yes.

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Yeah, so please, please, tap into your hope.

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Tap into your desires.

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Tap avoiding the things that you really want, the things that you really desire because

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it might not work out because guess what?

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It might work out.

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It just might work out, and it just might get to be that good.

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So yeah, just like feeling to that for a minute.

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What does it feel like to just set aside fear for a minute?

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And I think one of the scariest places to let go of fear or just face the fear is in

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relationship, you know, when you meet someone new and you're excited about it, but you hold

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yourself back a bit because you're like, ah, it might not work out, and you hide or withdraw

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or play silly games, and we all do it.

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What if we could just really show up fully in these connections that feel exciting and

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vibrant and breathe life into us?

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What if instead of starting a project thinking, oh, I'm not going to get my hopes up about

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this, instead of future casting into a potential disappointment, what if you were fully here

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and in it right now, fully present to the excitement and fully present to the spark

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of desire that inspired you to pursue this project and lived in that space?

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And yeah, sometimes we can kind of navigate challenges and disappointments, but that's

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part of the beauty of the process, like facing disappointment.

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Let me tell you, you are totally capable of facing disappointment.

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You know, I'm just going to say it.

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I remember the disappointment I felt when Trump got elected, and I was just like, holy

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moly, holy moly.

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For some reason, that was like the biggest disappointment that came to mind in this moment.

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But yeah, just think of a huge disappointment that you had.

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And like, just remember that you dealt with it and got through it.

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You know what?

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Imagine a Yankees fan, like Yankees fan, like I don't know what it, like sports fans, you

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know, they get crazy about their teens.

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And honestly, I don't think they show up to the stands with this kind of energy.

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Well, I'm going to root for the Yankees, but I'm also not going to get my hopes up.

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They show up, they fully in support of their team, they fully imagine that they're going

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to win.

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They're so certain of it, they put money on their, on their knowing and their trust,

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on their belief that their team is going to win.

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And they're not worried about disappointment.

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I mean, sure, they deal with it if they have to, but like, they're all in.

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The sports fans, sports fans.

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Not really a sports fan, but like definitely honor their commitment to the mission, whatever

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that is.

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Anyhow, so yeah, like be in a space where you let yourself feel the good feelings fully

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without worrying about it not working out without constantly being in fear of the thing

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going away without constantly worrying or, or trying to control and manipulate.

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So this is, this is a problem.

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It's like sometimes it, we're so desperate to avoid disappointment that we'll do anything

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we can to try to control the situation.

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And then you like squeeze the life out of it.

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It's like, ugh, that doesn't feel good.

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Trying to control out of fear.

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That's not the way to go.

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Go with your heart's desire.

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Follow that.

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Your desire is truth.

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It comes from a place of authenticity.

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And tap into that.

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I'm not like, desire is something sacred and real.

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It's something different than kind of something like that might feel like a frivolous want.

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Like, but I don't know that.

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That's a line of thought that I don't want to follow right now.

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My point is that instead of dismissing desires as frivolous, like really tap into them, really

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tune into what do you want to see in your life?

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What do you want to create in your life?

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And what would it feel like to pursue that and set aside the worry and fear that it might

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not work out?

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How does that land for you?

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I just want to take a pause because I'm feeling particularly activated by this.

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I just know in my life I have held myself back from things because I was afraid.

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I don't, I don't, like, listen, here's a lesson I hear over and over again that I still sometimes

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bristle at the thought of, but there's also this idea that we're not actually disappointed

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and we're not actually afraid of being disappointed, but rather we're afraid of getting the thing

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that we want.

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Like what if it is that good?

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What if I can get exactly what we want?

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And then like, wow, then you realize, oh, the desires I have, I can bring to life.

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And then what?

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What do I do when I actually get what I want?

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Yeah, so when you limit yourself to just like, well, I'm going to kind of dip my toe in this

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thing that I think I want, that, you know, actually I do want, but I'm not going to fully

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commit to that desire because I don't want to get hurt.

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I don't want to be disappointed.

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I don't want to deal with that.

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Cultivate the trust in yourself, cultivate the self-confidence, cultivate the courage

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to face that fear.

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That's my invitation for you this week.

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Let yourself allow for the possibility of disappointment.

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And when you let yourself allow for the possibility of disappointment, you also allow yourself

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the possibility of living out your wildest dreams.

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Sure it might not work out, but there's also the possibility that it very well could work

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out.

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So yeah, lean into that.

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Notice the places and spaces where you're like, hmm, not going to get my hopes up.

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Get your hopes up, babe.

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That is my message to you this week.

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Get your hopes up.

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And with that short message from our sponsors, i.e. the Spirit Guides, let's settle into

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our practice for today.

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Find a comfortable position.

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Wherever you land, whether you're lying down or sitting up, just make any micro adjustments

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you need to get maybe 10% more comfy.

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And as you settle in, connect to your breath, bring attention and awareness to your inhale.

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Bring attention and awareness to each exhale.

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And as you slowly breathe in and out, breathe in the courage that you need.

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Breathe out the fears you've been grasping.

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Breathe in that courage, feel it in your belly.

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Exhale any fears that come up.

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Take a deep breath in and let it go.

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If it feels comfortable, rub the hands together, creating a little bit of friction and warmth.

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Take a deep breath in.

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And as you exhale, place your hands gently on your solar plexus, which is the spot just

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above your belly button, the color associated with this chakra is yellow.

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And the solar plexus chakra is our source of personal power.

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Imagine breathing fully into this space.

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Imagine breathing in courage and imagine exhaling any fear or doubt.

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And as you breathe into the belly, imagine a golden yellow light emanating from this

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space, radiating outwards.

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Imagine that warm light enveloping your entire body as it expands and radiates outward.

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Imagine the power of the sun kind of radiating from your center.

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And feeling into that power, feeling into that warmth, feeling into the energetic alignment

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of joy.

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Take a deep breath in and let it go.

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As you continue to follow the inhale and exhale, imagine pulse around this light.

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Imagine the light expanding as you inhale and contracting as you exhale.

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Take a deep breath in and out.

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And imagine that yellow glow surrounding your entire body being an aura.

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Just allowing a smile to curl up from the corners of your mouth.

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And as you close the practice with a deep inhale and a full exhale, set the intention

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to allow yourself to be surrounded by this golden light today.

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This fortifying, rich, brilliant, protective light that allows you to tap into your joy

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and your desire.

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That allows you to face fear head on.

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And we'll close with one last deep inhale and a full exhale.

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And if you wish to continue your breathing for a few moments, feel free.

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Whenever you feel ready, you can flutter the eyes open and see what it feels like to observe

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the space surrounded by this powerful force field of light.

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Thank you so much for listening.

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Thank you so much for practicing with me.

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I wish you a wonderful week.