Hey y'all, welcome back to another episode of Wholesome Black Girl.
Hey y'all, I'm so hyped.
I'm your host, Kayla.
I'm Kamri.
And I'm Alyssa.
Yes, we have a guest here today.
Two guests, not one, but two.
We are, what do we call this episode?
Oh, Bring Back Hooked on Phonics.
We might call it that.
We don't know yet, but like, we might call it that.
But we are going to start with a...
Well, are we going to address us going viral before we get into everything?
Well, yeah.
I mean, that was a part of like, life be lifin'.
So that's what we're going to talk about first, our lives and how they was lifin'.
All I got to say about that whole viral moment, shout out to everybody that like really took
the time to come and follow us and things of that nature, interact with us.
We really do appreciate it.
Like, beyond words.
Yes, for real.
But fuck you to everybody else.
Because like, y'all really was showing that y'all don't have comprehension skills.
Y'all was showing y'all asses.
Yeah, y'all don't have comprehension skills.
Y'all took that little clip of us saying what we said about Aria.
Y'all took it as us saying that Ari Lennox was ugly.
Nobody ever said that.
I'm not understanding where y'all got that from.
Then fuck on site because y'all posted 30 seconds of that clip and didn't post the whole thing
and had everybody coming at us.
Y'all had bitches.
It was bitches in the comments calling us ugly.
I said, okay, you got to be another level of delusional to be calling us ugly.
I'm not arguing with people who flunked the ninth grade seven times.
I'm not arguing with niggas who really haven't picked up a books in second grade.
Y'all don't touch grass.
Y'all don't do anything but be on TikTok and Twitter all the time, going to hookah lounges
in the club, which nothing is wrong with that.
But that's all y'all do.
Y'all don't do shit else.
Sharing the hookah.
Exactly.
Don't even have enough money to get your own tip with weirdos.
Exactly.
I fuck each y'all.
And I also want to address another thing.
Y'all thought when we said regular that we was calling ourselves ugly.
No, we're not.
We wasn't doing it.
We were like, I hate that I have to keep explaining this, but regular doesn't mean ugly.
We just, we literally mean that we look like the average black girl in your neighborhood.
That's all that it means.
Kevin Samuels was right about you dumb bitches.
He was.
Preach.
Because women hate being average.
And he pointed that out about you weirdo.
I'm the baddest bitch in the world.
I'm a 10.
I can't even get $10 out of a nigga at all.
I'm sick of you bitches.
I'm sick of you.
Yes.
Not even a full pussy at that.
Damn.
Like, you get no play.
You get no niggas.
You don't even, like Cam said, y'all don't fucking touch grass.
And y'all think that y'all something that y'all not.
Everybody is fucking normal.
Everybody is normal.
And nothing, me and Kella, we're able to have conversations like this because we have the
nuance to have conversations like this.
We actually read books.
We watch documentaries.
We have real conversations with people.
We do all of those things.
Y'all don't do any of that shit.
We ask questions.
Exactly.
And we ask questions to people that we like that we have differing perspectives on too.
Like, we can tell that y'all moms is young.
Y'all ain't grow up with no big mama, no Madea, no grandmom, no nothing.
Grandmom's like 43.
Yeah.
And y'all outside, like y'all outside at the same time.
Your mom, your mom, your grandmom, and you all outside at the same time.
That's how I know y'all niggas is fucking ditzy in the head because y'all have nobody.
Y'all have no differing opinions in the house.
None of y'all do.
Those comments were a mess.
A fucking mess.
They really were, but I've also realized that TikTok and Instagram, they're two different
audiences because most of the people on TikTok agreed with us.
When we was on Instagram, people was calling us dumb bitches, saying that we was ugly.
I'm like, okay.
Then I had to do an analysis and I'm just like the people that follow these blog pages,
and I'm not saying everybody, I'm not saying everybody, but it is a different caliber of
people that follow like black blog, like gossip pages compared to the people that's on TikTok.
They live like their lives are like reality TV.
That's how y'all live y'all real natural born lives.
It's like what you see on Love and Hip Hop and all that other stuff.
And it shows.
And it really shows.
They have a name for that.
I literally was on Twitter the other day and I think it was like Doja Cat that they were
talking about.
They were doing like an analysis of Doja Cat and Lizzo and people were in the comments
like, oh my God, I'm so happy that Lizzo isn't catering to the shade room blacks.
And I really thought about it and I'm like, there really is a category of you dirty motherfuckers.
You don't got a job?
That's the thing.
Like I always used to look at myself and be like, Kayla, don't say certain things because
it's classes, it's elitist.
Right.
I used to say what?
You niggas are really bottom of the barrel.
No, for real.
Like the thinking caps are not on.
Like at all.
They don't even own a thinking cap.
Just sloping hairlines and fuck the fast clothes.
Yeah.
Like y'all just y'all really have been y'all been stuck in 2012 for a real long time.
For a long ass time.
And it's very concerning.
I'm genuinely concerned about y'all.
It really is.
And the fact that y'all thought processes are mimicking the thought processes of y'all
in high school shows that there has been no maturity.
No growth.
It's just y'all growing up, like just getting older, not maturing, just getting older.
Exactly.
And it's, I mean, gag every time I think about it.
Like every time I see one of y'all mentioning me, if y'all don't stop talking to me.
If y'all don't stop talking to me.
Yo, you still be getting tagged on that post?
If y'all don't stop talking to me.
Y'all gotta stop.
Are you serious?
Yes, I'm still getting tagged on that post.
She's like six days old?
Yes.
Stop talking to me.
Are you dead serious?
I was really arguing on that shit like a couple days ago.
She was.
Melissa was going to war for us.
This raggedy bitch was just talking all this shit.
And then I was like, you know what?
I had to really watch what I say now.
I feel like my mouth is more for like a Twitter audience.
Twitter still be trying to get me though.
Fuck you, Elon Musk.
I'm not even going to hold you.
I literally looked at her fucking page and why the fuck she look like she got leftover
COVID dead body meat in her ass cheeks.
And I'm just like, for someone who literally has, and I don't judge nobody who got surgery.
Like.
No, real shit.
If you can afford it, do what you need to do.
Yeah, for real.
Do what you got to do.
But this bitch got her whole body done.
And still look crazy.
Are you talking about the light skin girl?
I don't remember what color the bitch was.
It was this light skin bitch.
She up in color.
Who had like a botched ass fucking body, filtered the fuck up, looked like she had fillers in
her face.
She called me a black ass alien.
I said, now miss.
Like be fucking for real.
She looked like Tiny from Escape.
That's what she looked like.
Oh.
And she had the all dancing.
You said.
She had the all dancing.
She had.
Because somebody going to post this song on site and she going to see this.
I love you Tiny.
Wait, wait.
Yeah, we love you.
We love you Tiny.
We love you bitch.
The vocals right there, you know, like you're a great person.
So I'll say that about you.
Shout out to you for creating the OMG girls.
Yes.
Shout out to you.
They got me through a rough ass time.
They did.
For real.
We don't mean it.
Oh, well.
We making it worse.
Yo, we making it worse.
But.
Whatever.
We don't want to just focus on the negative.
We also had a lot of positives from that too.
Like, we don't want to just focus on the negative.
We also had a lot of positives from that too.
Like, we gained like almost four thousand followers on TikTok.
Yeah.
We got almost eight hundred followers on Instagram.
Engagement is growing.
Yeah, three hundred views on YouTube.
Like from that video.
So, you know, we definitely want to thank y'all for showing love and supporting us.
And we gained a lot of subscribers.
Yes.
Like over one hundred subscribers that day.
We did.
Yeah, on YouTube.
Like, we really do.
Thank you for the love.
And in the comments, people was watching that.
And we were like, oh, we're going to be on YouTube.
And in the comments, people was watching that episode and they were like, oh, I relate to
this.
I love how transparent y'all are.
So that just made me feel like really good about what the fuck we're doing.
Yeah.
Anything else we want to address?
Remember what I told you in the Uber.
Don't go too far.
Niggas watched.
Let me tell you something.
Wait, don't go too hard.
And I'm not.
And you know what?
And you, you, you know who I'm talking about.
Before, before you ever fix your dirty, stinking mouth to say, to say, to say, to say, to say,
to even form sentences, make sure you're right with the Lord up above.
Period.
Make sure, make sure you are right with the Lord though, because that's all we're going
to say.
Oh my God.
All right.
Yeah.
I'm done.
That's it.
That's, that's all we're going to do.
That's all we're going to do for now.
But that's really.
All right.
That's all we got for our show.
All right.
That's all we got for our Life Be Life.
So we're going to, we're going to wrap that segment up.
We still going to talk shit behind the scenes though.
Yeah.
We're going to.
I got to, I got to get myself together.
Yeah.
You was really about to get it.
Also want to say my last name is now Verizon.
So anyway, we are going to segue into our wholesome chat.
So it's going to be, by the time this is posted, this episode is posted, it's going to be Black
Maternal, Black Maternal Health Week.
So we have Melissa going to count us with her beautiful daughter.
What's her name?
I didn't even ask.
So I'm going to keep it a beam with y'all.
I did not give this baby the name that she fucking has.
Her bitch ass daddy.
Oh dang.
Was the one who gave her.
Shots fired.
And I'll never do the whole fuck my baby dad shit, but I really wanted to name her so bad.
So her first name is Adenike.
Oh, that's so pretty.
We call her Nini.
None of us call her by her fucking name.
Her first name means she who was crowned.
Oh, that is so pretty.
It really is.
I love it because my stepdad, well, my mom's ex, she gonna cuss me out if I keep calling
this man my damn stepdad.
He's Nigerian and he had a niece that had the name Adenike.
So that also ties into how my daughter got her name.
Her middle name is Nefertiti.
That's self-explanatory.
She don't got my last name.
She has her dad's last name of Jackson, wave plantation ass last name.
But you know what?
That's diasporic as fuck.
It is.
Very cultural.
That is really, that's culture right there.
A black ass name.
That really is.
That is a black, I mean black.
It spans.
It don't get no blacker than that.
It really don't.
Period.
I don't want my daughter growing up having a basic name.
I was the only one out of my two sisters that had an Americanized name.
My older sister had a Haitian name, my little sister's name is a combination of my older
sister's name and my name.
And then I got basic ass Melissa.
I know like 15 million Melissa's.
Sometimes they really be doing that.
But back to what I was saying, we wanted to have you on here because like I just said,
it is Black Maternal Health Week and I got something I clicked from an article.
It says, black women are three times more likely to die from a pregnancy related cause
than white women.
Multiple factors contribute to these disparities such as variation in quality healthcare, underlying
chronic conditions, structural racism, and implicit bias.
So we just want to talk on, well we want to touch on like your experience like with being
pregnant like your labor and delivery story and even postpartum.
So the first question we want to ask you is how did you find out you were pregnant and
what was that moment like?
Yo.
I hope nobody sees this and start judging me because of the situation because I'm very
in tune with my body.
Okay.
I knew the second that I was pregnant.
I fucking knew.
Here's the problem.
I've been with the same group of friends since high school.
Shout out to T, shout out to Danya.
Fuck the fourth bitch.
Oh wait.
You still owe me $500.
That's a story we gonna touch on later because that bitch, I added that bitch on my phone
plan and she ain't telling me she OT mobile spraying all these motherfuckers money.
So I had to pay like $500 to get her taken off my fucking phone plan.
Wow.
That bitch ran away to fucking Virginia.
But anyways, my friend Tiana's birthday is April 5th, right?
So happy belated girl.
Nah real shit.
Happy belated to that girl.
She's celebrating all month.
As she should.
So we decided to do a weekend trip to New York.
Okay.
My period didn't come yet.
I knew my period did not come yet.
But in the back of my mind, I'm like, I know I got nutted in.
But you know what?
I gotta get fucked up with my bitches one last time.
All right.
By April 5th, that weekend, if I'm not mistaken, we went to New York.
I was fucked up the whole time.
I had a delivery from Amazon for a box of pregnancy tests because I was scared to go
to the doctor.
So I was literally drunk as shit in Times Square and I was just like, where the fuck
is my package?
Fighting for my life.
I get back home, took the pregnancy test, and I knew I was pregnant.
I still have the picture on my phone.
I took like 10 of them because I just couldn't fucking believe it.
I just thought I was infertile.
Maybe the niggas I was fucking with was just shooting blanks.
I don't fucking know.
Possibly.
Because the sex was terrible.
But it'd be the niggas that have the worst sex that'd be getting pregnant.
I like this one.
I got rid of the other two, but the sex was terrible all three times.
And you know who you are because the other two are definitely blocked off my Instagram.
Oh, Lord.
Oh, yes.
Actually, no, one of them is really cool.
Like, I still follow him on Instagram.
But the other one, I went to this nigga house and literally he had shit and backwood guts
in the fucking toilet.
Yo, what?
Yo, I have the worst history with niggas.
I just be picking the worst ones.
I do too.
Because why you got boo boo and then he used the bathroom and then asked me if I had to
go pee.
So I know you went in there and shit.
There was no toilet paper.
So you didn't wipe your ass.
You didn't wipe your fucking ass.
That's crazy.
You niggas.
You niggas are just weird.
Yes.
Just walk around and pee in your drawer.
Finish your story.
Doesn't it feel like between there?
It don't feel wet.
No, because you know they be hairy.
Anyway, let's finish the story.
Let's finish the story.
But yeah, I went home, took the pregnancy test, found out I was pregnant.
So I set up a doctor's appointment.
I was six weeks pregnant.
I was blunt with my doctor.
I told my doctor what happened and she basically told me like, look, that early in the pregnancy,
the alcohol that you drink is not going to affect your baby.
I promise you, I was drinking like maybe a glass of wine every other day.
That make me sound like an alcoholic.
No girl, that be dope because I be drinking every damn day.
I be drinking every day.
Definitely had a glass.
It was white wine.
Had a glass of white wine like every, maybe even three days, every like three days while
I was pregnant.
But she came out healthy.
Like she got all her fingers and toes.
She be beating my ass.
That's weird, that's weird.
You know, that's how it happened.
So like when you found out that you were pregnant, was your partner happy?
I can't even honestly pinpoint what his reaction was.
He wanted a girl so bad because he has two boys from another relationship.
So he was always trying to get me pregnant.
I think that motherfucker was trying to trap me, that dirty bitch.
But you scared me doing that.
No honestly, because he wanted me pregnant so bad and then three months into my pregnancy,
he came to me.
I guess he was going through something mentally and he basically told me like, oh if I had
the option, I wouldn't be a father or a husband anymore.
I would just leave y'all and just go away.
Do like your daddy did.
His daddy don't even like him.
That's the crazy thing.
Like that's fucking crazy.
Wow, that was crazy.
I shouldn't have said that.
I'm sorry.
Look, it's fine.
Some people's daddies do, my dad left.
Mine did too.
That's why I got daddy.
But at the end of the day, we all got daddy.
That's why I be allowing these niggas to treat me like shit.
Damn, dead ass.
I ain't even gonna lie.
They see the way your dad is.
If he has a daughter, the daughters have to take the karma of what he did to other women.
And I tell my dad that all the time.
But her dad worshiped the ground that I walked on the whole time that I was pregnant.
That's good.
Rubbed my stomach, rubbed my feet.
Actually bought a paintbrush, because he did art and stuff like that.
Would get coconut oil and melt it down and just rub my body down in coconut oil but with
the paintbrush.
So it was like a long, strenuous look.
That is so beautiful.
It was so nice.
So nice.
I wanna see what that feel like.
For real shit, I probably would have got horny.
Exactly.
I definitely did that for her.
Yeah, like my coachy would have been on.
It would be standing right up.
Okay, so I'm gonna ask you a question.
I'm gonna ask you a question.
My second question is being a black woman and seeing all the maternal mortality rates
amongst black women and how were it impacted the most?
Did that scare you in any way?
Like when you found out you was pregnant?
It did.
That was like one of the first things that popped up in my mind.
Like I knew I wasn't gonna have to struggle during my pregnancy in terms of people being
there for me.
Thank God.
Like a lot of people just end up being in predicaments where they don't really have
any...
I had an amazing support system.
I didn't even tell my mom I was pregnant.
I'm scared as fuck of my mom.
My mom only found out because I told one of my cousins that I was pregnant and my cousin
went and ratted me out to my mom.
So my mom found out I was pregnant when I was like five months.
Bought everything from my daughter.
I wasn't gonna tell her.
I was just gonna pop up at her house with a baby and be like, here.
That's what I feel like I'm gonna do that when I have kids.
I always say I'm gonna do that.
I'm gonna just pop up with a baby.
But me, I'm gonna pop out with a baby like for the rest of the world.
But my mama gonna know.
I ain't gonna tell my mom.
I'm telling my mom.
I wish I told my mom.
I tell her everything.
I be like, girl, guess what?
She be like, what, you pregnant?
Yeah, girl.
They done took me out of the game.
So what was it necessarily that scared you about it?
Was it like the medical racism that black women experience or was it like maybe just
the whole delivery experience?
What was it that scared you?
Was it both?
It was both because I didn't know what to expect during the whole delivery process.
But at the same time, I don't like fucking going to the doctor.
Like I'm scared out of my fucking mind, especially because my pregnancy was really stressful on
my body and I didn't really realize it until afterwards.
And I was starting to get back to normal postpartum.
Well that's a lie.
I was going through postpartum like real bad.
But in terms of my pregnancy, like I was in and out of the hospital.
I forgot what the condition was called, but I wasn't even that.
Like I was throwing up and I couldn't keep anything down.
So I lost 30 pounds during my pregnancy.
I had no stomach.
I don't know where the hell the baby was.
Some people even thought I was lying about my pregnancy because I literally didn't really
have a stomach.
By the time I was like nine months and it was time to deliver.
They're like, are you sure you're at nine months?
Because you're like, I said, bitch, I am pregnant.
Please take this baby out of me because my back was hurting.
One of my kidneys started feeling like really, really bad.
Oh my God.
Really bad.
And did you like in those moments, did you like experience medical racism?
Like did the doctors like just dismiss you?
I'm not going to expose Einstein.
Anyways, they really, some people didn't really respect what I was trying to tell them.
Like I knew something was wrong.
But a lot of times when I would express it, they would be like, oh, that's normal.
You have back pain during pregnancy.
Oh, your pain is going to be like this during pregnancy.
But I'm like, no, like something is really, really wrong.
I think the one moment that really had everything come full circle for me was I had a UTI, BV
and a yeast infection all at the same fucking time.
Like I told my OBGYN, like I feel like something's off.
Like the sex, I was like a porn star in that fucking room.
I was a fucking porn star in that fucking room.
I'm going to be honest with you.
But after a while, like my body just started feeling weird.
The consistency of my nut was different.
Like that shit was coming out in clumps in my hand.
Oh my God.
I've never experienced anything like that.
And like I was scared to have a conversation with somebody about it because it made me
feel dirty.
Like, yeah, it automatically would make me think I have like a STI or STD.
Exactly.
And the way people act when you have an STD or STI.
For real.
Bitch.
Like I've been through it two times at this fucking point.
If I get it again, it is what it is.
Right.
It is what it is.
But you'll be surprised about how they really do treat black women when you go to the hospital.
Like I didn't really notice it until I went through my pregnancy experience.
I was just like, well, these doctors.
Especially when it comes to your reproductive system, because even with me, like I'm not
a mom, but like I've since I was like 12 and I started getting periods, they were super
painful.
Like ever since I was 12 years old, tremendously painful.
And I will always go to the doctors and I'll tell them like, this doesn't feel right.
Like when I'm when I'm on my period, like I can't move.
Like I literally am always throwing up.
I can't eat shit.
Your feet.
And then one day I went to like a black doctor and she was the first doctor to tell me that
I actually had an abnormality with my uterus.
I have a half uterus.
And that's why my periods were so painful because basically the blood is basically getting
backed up since it's only half.
It's getting backed up.
So that's why it's so painful.
And my cramps are so bad because I have a half of a uterus.
So I'm just like, I've been going to doctors for years and they always miss me and told
me, oh, it's not that serious.
Like, you know, that's normal.
It's regular.
But it's like as a woman, you know, your body better than anybody else.
And it just didn't feel right for me.
So I mean, that's really crazy that you experienced it.
Well, not.
It's not going to say it's far fetched because they do it to us a lot, but it's still fucked
up.
I had other questions for you, but you basically already answered them.
Yeah.
Well, tell us about your labor experience, though.
What was that like when you went into labor?
I thought my daughter was going to be born at the end of December because that's around
the time that I hit my 40 weeks.
But this girl was not trying to leave.
I get why.
This is a fucked up world.
I would have stayed in there, too.
So I had so many people in my ear telling me, like, don't let them induce you.
Don't let them induce you.
I thought I was going to have the big waterfall out my pussy.
Oh, my God.
The baby's coming moment.
But I didn't I didn't get to have that.
They noticed that a lot of women don't get to.
Yeah.
Please do not let them fucking induce you.
Let the if the baby wants to stay in there for fucking 42 weeks and there's no issues
and the baby's not sick and you're not sick.
Let the body do what it needs to do because they induced me.
When was I induced?
January, New Year's Day.
I went into the hospital on New Year's Day and I was in active labor for two days.
Wow.
They also don't tell you that you can't eat.
What?
I didn't fucking eat for two days.
I mean, I don't be eating now.
Never mind.
What am I complaining about?
What?
I'm not going to be in the hospital for the whole time that you're in active labor because
something I had to find out the hard way was my friend Tiana has a beautiful boy.
Xavier is now five years old.
I think it was either her or my friend, Danya, and her daughter is a Sia.
She's four.
One of them shit it on themselves.
They should like they you're pushing so hard.
Oh, yeah.
They say that's normal, though.
So hard that you shit yourself.
I just found that out.
You just found that out.
I just recently found that out that you can shit.
Yeah, because like, first of all, the way that you know, whatever.
I think it was King Arthur some shit.
You're a nasty motherfucker.
Let me tell you something.
You are so disgusting because the whole reason why we be giving birth on our fucking back
is because it's because the ass used to get around by seeing that shit.
You fucking nasty bastard.
Oh my God.
But like it don't make like the way that we give birth don't make sense.
Gravity don't even work that way.
You don't even pull that way.
Gravity goes down.
So just for future reference, mama, if you watching this, because we argue about this
all the time, I'm standing up and having my baby.
I'm going to squat.
No, real shit.
Because you're not you're not what you're not going to do is try to make me rearrange
my whole body when that science don't work like that.
Yeah.
I mean, I'll be saying I want to have my baby standing up.
But then after I realized I got it's quite a unicorn you with uterus.
I have a half uterus like I'll never be able to deliver vaginally.
Like it has to be a sex for it, though.
What's a cute term for a unicorn?
Unicorn you a uterus.
Look it up, y'all.
Any unicorn girls like any of y'all follow us.
Let me know.
But yeah, I'll never be able to deliver vaginally like ever.
It's going to be a C-section every time.
It's not possible because the uterus is so small.
Yeah.
That you can't like.
It's probably like the vaginal canal.
Yeah.
So it's not possible for me.
So I'll always whenever I have a kid, it's going to be a C-section.
But OK, so do you have any other positive besides like you telling us, you know, he
use coconut oil besides your body during pregnancy.
Do you have any other positive experiences?
The eating part.
What about eating like you just like the times when my body did allow me to eat?
I was fucking eating.
His best friend took us to like a K-pot and I was eating every single thing and it was
so damn good.
Your skin.
Well, I'm not disclaimer.
I'm going to speak from my pregnancy experience because I can't speak for everybody.
They say that if you have a daughter that she's going to suck the beauty out of you.
Yes.
That's a fucking lie.
Give you beauty.
I felt absolutely beautiful.
My skin was glowing.
My hair.
You were beautiful when she was documenting her pregnancy.
I was like, oh, my God.
My skin was always clear.
My nails were always done up until I was like seven months.
I was doing my toes.
But then after a while, I couldn't even see my pussy when I looked.
But it was like everybody also treats you way better.
That's fucked up.
What about friends?
Like, did your friendships change during pregnancy?
Did my friends change?
My friends were there from day one to the point where one of my friends wanted to throw
my baby shower.
Actually, let me touch on it real quick.
I didn't have a baby shower.
I'm not mad about that at all because of the circumstances of that situation.
Right.
To the bitch ass nigga that made my baby shower not happen.
Whoa.
Fuck you.
But I'm also kind of glad that it didn't happen because I would have just been stressed
the fuck out.
I'm always my mind is just all over the place.
But my friends were there since day one.
They were calling me in the hospital.
They went out that day, but they made sure that I was good.
And from day one since my daughter has been born, they'll always ask about her.
I don't really go down there with her as often as I should because my mom lives in Hatboro.
And it took me an hour to even get here.
Yeah.
So anytime that I do have my daughter and I'm able to get down there, I'll bring her
down here.
They love her beyond anything in this world.
I do have some friendships that I had to sever off.
Miss, I had to pay $500 to get you off my fucking phone bill.
But my friends were there since day one and it was fucking beautiful.
I gave them a niece.
We all have kids.
Yeah, that's what I was about to say.
I think it's a little bit different because your friends have children as well.
I think that women, the more women who don't have any friends that have kids are the ones
that kind of go through like those rough patches with their friends.
Except me though.
Shout out to all my friends that have kids.
Your kids are fucking beautiful.
I'll always be saying mothers are soldiers for real, for real.
Because like when I think about it, if I had a kid right now, I don't know what I would
do.
I still don't know what the fuck to do.
But the stuff that y'all do and the sacrifices that y'all make, I know that right now at
this point in my life that I don't have it.
So when I see y'all doing it, I'm just like, yo, salute to y'all because y'all really be
doing the damn thing for real, for real.
And I'm not trying to take away from fathers at all, but I always feel like a mom is always
going to give more than a dad will.
I don't agree.
Why not?
I don't agree.
I think that the fathers that want to be a father give.
No, I get that.
But I'm saying in a sense, like in a sense, like a mom is always since the mom like biologically,
like the baby needs the mom, like when it comes to like breastfeeding and stuff like
that, she's the mom is always going to give more.
I'm not saying that, you know, men don't do shit, but I'm saying the mom is always going
to give more and sacrifice more than a man like every single time.
If they're actually meant to be a mom though, because there's a lot of unfit mothers out
here.
I was about to spill somebody's whole life story.
Let me not, but I'm going to be really honest, especially with all the stuff that's in the
media and stuff.
I wasn't prepared the way that I should have to be when it came time for me to be a mother.
But at the end of the day, when the time came, as soon as my daughter hit the earth, I made
sure like I literally left what I wanted to do for the rest of my life because she was
four months and I was going through a divorce and I couldn't go back and forth between
my mom's house and at school.
But some of y'all are some terrible fucking moms.
And there's a lot of y'all out there.
It's a lot more than like people try to let on.
And I honestly, I honestly want to say like, even though I don't have any kids, stop using
your fucking kids as accessories.
Because y'all start to resent them when they get older and they start being actual human
beings that you have to take care of for the rest of their lives.
And also, parenthood does not end at 18, you dumb bitches.
It doesn't.
You're a parent for life.
Exactly.
Forever.
And the fact that a lot of y'all don't are just waiting until 18 to like, like be like,
basically like, OK, fuck it.
It's really, y'all are disgusting.
That's fucked up because you know damn well, an 18 year old cannot fend for themselves
in this fucking world at all.
And just because you had to do it doesn't mean that it was right.
I want to actually, I was having a conversation with somebody today about like having kids
and stuff like that.
Not me having kids, but I'm just we were just talking about just people who have kids in
general.
Like a lot of I feel like a lot of and I can only speak from my experience because I'm
a black woman.
So I feel like we were saying how we feel like a lot of black parents really do just
have kids just to have kids.
Like, or just because they feel like it's the right thing to do at a particular age.
They don't actually like look into where am I at mentally before they have kids.
Because mental health has never been a priority for us.
Never.
It's never been a priority for us.
And that's why like the suicide rates in black men especially are like at an all time high
because people are like men, black men, especially emotionally are neglected.
And it's from us.
It's from black women who didn't have a chance to really get themselves together because
especially after you have a kid like your whole body chemistry is like so much different.
It is like a lot of your parents, a lot of your mom's going through postpartum and having
kids back to back.
So it's like five or six of y'all.
She didn't eat her body never even got a break to like actually heal all the way.
So of course you can be a little bitchy sometimes.
And I'm not saying that like she is not her responsibility to heal that and like what
you did, what you went through like didn't happen.
But it's like we have to do better at taking care of ourselves because the same the same
people having kids are the same people that are also on on Instagram talking shit and
not knowing how to read.
The same people that was coming at us in the comments.
I bet y'all moms is like only like like was like 16, 15 when they had you.
And I was like, it's nine o'clock.
Do you know where to fuck your kids off?
That's what I be thinking.
Like some should not fucking be parents.
You shouldn't be parents.
It really shouldn't.
Some of our parents shouldn't have been parents.
No for real.
Like dead ass.
What has like motherhood taught you about yourself so far though?
I have to be patient with myself.
But at the same time, there is no book on being a parent.
My mom always say that when she be doing fucked up shit.
Like you just call me a dirty bitch and you talk about parenting don't come with a hand
to help.
This shit is hard.
Like I didn't really realize.
Honestly, me having a child kind of shifted the way that I viewed my mom because I really
thought about it and my mom had me and my older sister back to back.
My birthday is December 2nd.
My older sister's birthday is December 5th.
So we're Irish twins.
But I'm going to make it clear when I say this.
I'm a little more lenient with my mom now that I'm older and I had the experience.
I will never say my mom was a bad mom.
My mom did everything that she could, especially because my mom isn't from America.
She's from Haiti.
So all my ICNs watching this, show love please.
But yeah, some of you are actually like not meant to be parents.
And at first I was always team fuck them kids.
I sent the other two back to God.
I think I mentioned that earlier.
No, because honestly, like you guys need to stop playing because you guys need to stop
playing and just understand at the end of the day that if you know that you're not ready
to have a kid, you do have options.
Don't sit here and close your mind off and think, okay, well, no, I had this baby because
your fucked up mind will fuck up that kid and that fucked up kid.
And I'm a byproduct of that.
Especially if you resent that kid.
Because I hear a lot of young girls that have kids like, oh my gosh, they're in the fucking
way.
They're in the way.
Like I can't do this.
I can't do that.
And it's like you had the option to get rid of this shit, but because people try to make
you feel so bad about yourself for like literally taking a clump of cells out of your body,
like you sat there and had the kid and the kid can feel the resentment.
Yeah.
And my dad, like he always, he used to always say this with like pride.
Like I never wanted to have no fucking kids.
Like he used to say it all the time and it would make me feel so shitty.
And to this day, like I replay that over and over again.
He needs to get his ass whooped.
No, for real.
He really do need to get his ass whooped.
But he used to always say, I don't, I never wanted to have no fucking kids.
Like I never want to be a father.
And I felt it like throughout my childhood, I always felt that shit.
So I always felt less than.
So I now I'm now I'm getting to a place where like I'm loving myself more and I'm figuring
myself out.
But like that bothers me to this day.
Like I grew up very depressed, very sad because I knew that my dad did not want me.
So if you know that you don't want kids right now, please don't have them.
Don't have them.
Even if you literally your kids are literally going to be fucked up in the head and don't
feel bad for not wanting to have kids.
Yeah, please don't.
And even if you're in a relationship with somebody that wants kids, leave them the fuckers.
I'm being so I'm being so serious because like it's not fair that you hold them somebody
else back from getting the things that they really want.
All because you love the person.
You're not going to be able to change that person's mind.
Just like the other person can't change your mind about wanting to have kids.
Don't let nobody guilt trip you into having a whole human being because human beings are
a lot of fucking responsibility.
And that's coming from someone who like my lived experience was a little bit different.
Like I'm adopted.
That's one.
My mom is is a single parent, but she was financially stable as fuck.
I get whatever I want.
Me and her fight a lot and I be talking shit.
But like once the real shit she takes she takes takes very good care of me.
She takes very good care of me.
And if you can't provide that type of life for a kid or if you don't even if your kid,
if you look at your kid and you can't even fathom trying to get there for your kid, you
don't need to have one.
Like you don't need to have no kid.
Because like I could tell, like even though like I said, my mom's really a hot ass mess
sometimes.
Like she wanted me so bad.
And you could tell by the way she took care of me and set my life up.
Right.
Now, I that's it.
So don't be fucking dumb.
It's some people that had questions for you on Instagram about motherhood.
Some of them might not might not apply to you because you're a fairly new mom.
So but one of them was, do you think some of your best intentions for your child might
have caused more harm than good?
A couple decisions I made.
Yeah.
And that basically ties back into like there's no book on how to do this shit.
Yeah.
There really isn't.
Prime example, when me and her I didn't I actually knew from off rip that me and her
dad weren't going to be together too long.
But by the time that I came to that realization, I couldn't do anything.
And that's that's honestly what really hurt me because I was just like, damn, like, why
would you get me pregnant and then put me in this position when I told you he had two
kids?
I think I mentioned that earlier.
And they were enough.
They were bad as hell.
I still love them, though.
But by me being put into that predicament, it was just like we separated.
And for like two months, he didn't see my daughter.
And that was just kind of like, what the fuck?
Like you asked for this kid.
I couldn't work.
I couldn't go anywhere.
And at the time, me and my mom got into like this big argument.
So I was living with my cousin and her two kids in an apartment.
So I messaged him one day and I was just like, you know, well, if you don't come see your
daughter and if you can't help me out, I'm putting you on child support.
Niggas hate the word child support, which is kind of weird because like, if you don't
want to be a part of a child's life, like that's fine.
But at least try to make sure that they're taken care of.
Like, that's still your seed.
Like that's still a part of you.
Like you as well.
You niggas don't love yourselves.
Just like some niggas was claiming that some people don't love themselves because you can
use that child support card and swipe it.
I work at a seafood restaurant and damn, you can use that for seafood.
Literally my friend also works there with me and a mom came in with her child support
card and boy seafood boils with that.
I see why you don't want to give a child support.
I'm mad at it.
After I saw that, I was like, okay.
I mean, it could be for like the other kids.
I don't know.
You know what?
Let's not assume the worst because she might have been treating her own kids.
Especially because she wasn't my customer.
But also, also a lot of you young bitches really do be fucking up your children's money,
you weirdo.
And that's dirty.
Why would you do that?
You just using the nigga.
Like you just trying to get back at a nigga.
You don't even want to put the nigga on child support.
You really just want him to still fuck you.
Yeah.
Basically.
What future said?
Baby, now I'm mad because I won't fuck her no more.
Yeah, that's y'all.
Yeah.
It is some women like that.
It definitely is.
Another question somebody said scenario, your child's a part of the LGBT community.
How are you feeling?
I'm accepting her 100%.
Period.
I've never.
What type of question is that?
No, most shit.
Like the type of world that we live in now.
Like I've never flat out came out and said it, but I'm bisexual.
So this is your first time like coming out.
This yo, this little kid is my first time.
I've never.
Welcome to the alphabet.
Mafia bitch.
Real shit.
Like I've never, I guess because of the way that my family is set up, like my family is
Caribbean and they're real.
Like I literally have a great uncle who owns a church.
So your Caribbean don't really fuck with us.
Queer folk.
They really don't.
They don't.
I've heard that.
Yeah.
I told my mom I was bisexual.
She straight this.
Get the fuck out your ass.
I said, wow, I'm not.
See how that works.
If she comes to me and tells me that she's gay, she stole my daughter.
But just don't be bringing no crazy bitches in my house.
Cause I'm not about to sit here and be dealing with.
Look, I don't, I don't care what she is.
Lesbians are crazy.
They're fucking crazy.
They're insane.
They are insane.
Y'all, y'all are crazy.
Okay.
So we want to get to the fun stuff now.
So we want to ask like the pregnancy sexual questions.
So is it true that your coochie is wetter during pregnancy?
Yes.
Except the time that I was like, yo, like that shit.
I'll literally be sitting there and I'm like, am I on my period?
But then I'm like, you dumb bitch, you're pregnant.
Me too.
I'll be like.
So that's like times 10 when you're pregnant.
That shit is times 10.
Like sometimes I would wake up, there'll be a stand on the bed.
Whoever my future baby daddy is, I can't wait.
Super soca.
I was drawing the whole, like up until nine months, literally I was drawing.
Okay.
Did you wait the six weeks to fuck though?
No, I did not.
Did you tell them to put an extra stitch?
Nobody asked me.
I did rip though.
Yo.
How does that feel?
What is this like?
I don't, I think because of how traumatic the labor experience is, your body for, I cannot
even fucking tell you what the fuck happened during my, I remember glimpse and pieces of
it.
I think what really helped the whole process go was I had an epidural.
That's what I was about to say.
You probably had an epidural.
Here's the fuck the part about it though.
The person who worked in anesthesia, who put my epidural in, it was skewed.
So one half of my body felt nothing and the other half of my body felt every, everything.
It was so painful.
Count your fucking days bro.
What is wrong with y'all?
It's fucked up.
It's because niggas was actually getting they like daggone nursing license on ICDC college.
Shit like that be fucking up people's lives.
Fucking Quizzlet ass nurses.
I fucking hate y'all.
I got permanent back pain now.
Oh my god.
They also don't tell you that if you get an epidural, there's a chance that you can have
back pain for the rest of your life.
Yeah.
My friend, her kid is six years old and she said that her back still hurts from her epidural.
I said, excuse me?
No, no.
I said, excuse me.
But that was the highest I ever was in my fucking life.
My friend too and her baby is almost two.
Are you serious?
Wow.
Yeah.
My mom be saying that too.
She'd be saying her back still hurt from her epidural and we're in our twenties.
I'm sorry.
None of this is very convincing.
At this point, I might get a surrogate.
Okay.
For real.
You sacrifice your body.
I'm not doing that.
That shit is a fucking sacrifice.
But I want to be pregnant so bad.
I think I would look so cute.
Me too.
I think I would look cute too.
I can't wait to get pregnant and get the pregnancy body though.
Cause I already feel like I have a shape.
So I feel like once I'm pregnant, like my hips gonna definitely split.
My ass got so fat.
My ass is already fat.
Yeah.
And then my boobs, I always had small boobs.
Like I was like a B cup most of my life.
And I can't wait to get the boobs.
No, that titties be tittying because I don't breastfeed anymore.
What they also didn't tell me about pregnancy is I'm still lactating.
If I hear a baby start to cry, I immediately have a baby start to really think.
Oh my God.
I thought my mom was playing when she said that.
She told me sometimes she would hear baby crying and her boobs would just start soaking.
I'm out in public eating.
My child is asleep.
Somebody else's baby kid is crying and my titties start crying.
No, I don't like that.
And then I have nipple piercing.
I'm sorry, mom.
I thought she was just playing with me.
No, no.
I thought she was joking.
I'm like mom, stop crying.
Today if I squeeze my titty, I'll get some milk that comes out.
I'm like, wow, I'm really like a cow for real.
Okay.
Boo.
So we also want to get into postpartum sex.
So I did some research and it says childbirth can shift your internal parts into just the
right place to make them more sensitive to stimulation.
Many women report more comfort with their bodies and more intense orgasms after having
kids.
So do you agree with that?
That's true.
Because we want to know.
I'm going to be real blunt when I say this and I'm going to hurt a couple people when
I say this.
I did not have my first orgasm until last month.
Whoa.
Last fucking month.
What?
And I was lying to a lot of niggas like, oh yeah, you made me nut.
I don't know why.
I just be bored.
I be fucking lying.
Last month.
Clearly last month.
And it's so crazy because this person isn't my boyfriend, but I would basically say it's
like an elevated friends with benefits.
Right.
Like the sex was fucking insane.
And I hate saying that because he's a Libra.
He a cocky ass motherfucker.
Oh, I Libra.
Cocky ass nigga.
They definitely.
I've never, I've never dealt with, I've never dealt with Lieberman, but the propaganda is
not good.
The propaganda is not good.
I think I'm happy where I'm at.
If I were to ever, I sometimes I think to myself and I'm just like, I used to complain
about tourists men so much.
I really did.
Tourist men are psychotic.
Don't talk about my man.
I talk about one and he was still fucking with his ex girlfriend and had me over there
while she was on vacation.
Yikes.
I mean, he probably running a muck with my ass, but I'm not, I'm just blind right now
like sissies.
So I'm in love.
But you said the guy that just recently gave you orgasm is a Libra.
Yes.
Yeah.
The guy that I just recently like, well, one of the niggas I was dealing with, like that
was the best sex that I ever had.
Like in my whole.
Nasty ass niggas.
That shit was crazy.
I ain't even gonna sit here and fraud.
That shit was crazy.
I would just be left at all every time.
Like, wow.
I was shocked every fucking time.
You were so good that you just sit there and just look at them like, oh.
No real shit.
Real shit.
And then that nigga was stingy with his dick too.
Like I, yes.
I hate you niggas.
He was stingy as fuck with that shit.
Why am I acting shocked?
Like I literally was up all yesterday waiting for this nigga to call me when he got off
work.
You be like, you be sitting there looking at the phone like.
He said he got out of work at three.
Yeah.
It's three oh one.
Where are you?
I ain't get no call.
He called me this morning like nothing happened.
I'm talking about something.
Give me a kiss.
But you know, my Joe ass, my delusional ass, gonna give him a kiss every time.
And it was like, nobody.
I didn't know that your organ shift, but I can tell.
Yeah.
It feels like.
My vagina got shorter.
If that makes sense.
I'm not going to flat out be like, yeah, my pussy black rubber band tight.
I'm not gonna lie like that.
It's the same elasticity.
Yes.
Your vagina goes back to normal, but it is an empty wall.
The first couple of days after you push that baby out.
Of course it's a whole fucking head.
You see how big his fucking head is, bro?
I definitely tore and I had fucking stitches, but bro, this nigga put his thumb in my ass.
Look at this.
In my ass.
My friends looking at me crazy because I don't know.
Some people say like, oh, when somebody spits in your mouth, it's witchcraft.
This nigga looking at this man.
Well, oogaloo bitch.
Yo, I'm spitting my fucking mouth.
I was like, yo, bro, I'll be fucking this man and he'd be fucking me and I'd be moaning
my social security number to him.
Like no cap.
I said, let me screenshot this.
I put it in one of my dumps.
This shit was so funny.
Yo, was sucking on my titties and playing with my clit and fucking me all at the same
time.
My body did a screenshot and I tried.
Wait, wait.
Yo.
I'm screaming.
Like that was the first time that I've had sex with Smiley.
The nipple, your clit and fucking you all at the same damn time.
Oh, she having next level sex.
Yo.
And then it made me also realize like a lot of the sexual experiences I've had in the
past were because of two reasons.
I wasn't even really horny.
That was a form of self harm.
So if I had sex with you prior to.
I laughed because I felt dead.
No, like some of y'all did not deserve to fuck me.
No, for real.
Trash ass sexual experiences.
I had one niggas think so bad.
I just called my Uber right then.
I went to the bathroom, called my Uber, left, blocked his number and didn't talk to him
ever again.
Wait, I want you to tell us about this one experience that you.
Wait, I don't know if you want to talk about it though.
I'll talk about anything.
You said that you sucked dick throughout a whole movie.
Yo.
I need this bitch to talk about this.
Yo.
Do I feel bold enough to say his name on this podcast?
No, no, no.
I'm going to break it down like this because I don't know if this is actual government
and I'm going to break that down in a second.
I went to the first HBCU, shout out Chaney.
Them motherfuckers must think I'm a slut.
I went to Chaney and I just got out of a relationship.
It was really abusive.
I have a scar like right in the middle of my forehead.
I don't know if y'all ever peeped at, but this nigga literally decked me in my fucking
face and I have a permanent scar on my face, but that's another traumatic episode.
Dead ass.
We can talk about the physical abuse we went through.
Yeah, because a nigga took me in my ass until I turned into Tina Turner.
We can laugh about it now, but back then it was sad.
Yeah, but I wasn't even sad back then.
That's the shit that's really crazy.
I was still cheating.
That shit was not going to stop me.
I'm going to eat that punches, bitch.
I'm screwed.
It's like that one sound.
That nigga going to knock my block off, but I'm going to just put it back on.
Finish, finish, finish.
So I was in the little Tinder and B.O.K. phase.
That's where it first started.
So he was a photographer.
I don't know if he's still a photographer now.
I know he does like filmography and stuff like that.
His name is Cam.
And his contact name in my phone was Cam with the Cam.
So I was a drinker back then, but I was drinking the bottom shelf shit.
Like I was drinking Amsterdam in my fucking room.
E&J.
I hate E&J.
I love E&J.
That's how I know I'm a ghetto ass bitch because I love E&J.
I hate E&J.
That is like-
E&J, Amsterdam, Pink Whitney.
That shit tastes like fucking rubbing alcohol.
I still be drinking that shit.
I know Kella be looking at me like, this bitch.
If times are tough, I'm going to pull out a Four Loko or a fucking Pink Whitney.
I'll be drinking Teleport too.
Look.
I'll be drinking Teleport.
I've done some nasty shit on some fucking Teleport.
I know Kella ass looking at me like, this bitch.
That's what I grew up around.
So anyway, let's get back.
Let's get back.
I'm drinking Amsterdam.
I'm high as shit.
So he comes to visit me and at the time-
High off what?
Weed?
Are we talking about weed?
Weed.
I don't get into that type of stuff back then.
I still don't get into that type of stuff.
I'm not like that, yo.
And I was just talking to him about weed.
I was just talking to him about weed.
I don't get into that type of stuff back then.
I'm not like that, yo.
And I was just talking to him about bringing coke back into the scene.
Wait, let's let her finish this story because after this story we're going to get into our
internet hoes.
Oh girl.
But what happened?
He came to my room.
By the way, his dick was little.
Oh.
All right.
But here's the thing.
I fucked with him and that's what really beat the situation.
It really just be a pity fuck and I'll just be bored and I was horny.
Yeah, I definitely didn't.
What the fuck was the name of that one movie?
I think Kid and Play was in it.
House Party?
Jamie Foxx was in it.
House Party?
No, it definitely wasn't House Party because Jamie Foxx was in it.
Oh.
I don't know.
The movie was like an hour and some change long.
I want to say like an hour and 15 minutes.
Mind you, I'm drunk and high out of my fucking mind.
I start sucking.
All right.
This nigga nut.
I keep going.
Some people try to judge bitches like that and be like something's wrong with you.
I'm going to keep going.
This is Energizer Bunny mouth.
Yep.
Okay.
And I'm going to keep going.
I don't care if you're like.
It's more of like a pleasure thing.
Like I'm a submissive person.
I can't be a dominant person, but like seeing somebody being pleased like that, I kept going
in this.
Bitch.
Yes.
I don't get that off a sucking dick.
Well, I do, but I get that off of riding.
For real.
Once they start going back into their head, I just be like.
I'm a throaty.
I'm fed as shit.
I can't ride no dick.
I really fear talking about this and having her right there.
I promise you.
Because they going to eat us the fuck up.
Y'all already been eating us the fuck up and at the end of the day, I'm going to make this
pretty clear.
The reason why that I ended up making a lot of decisions sexually in my life was because
there weren't transparent conversations had with me.
As soon as my daughter has her first period, because I had my period at eight.
Same girl.
Same.
And then I got molested at eight.
So there was no conversation had with me.
And when that situation happened, I was shamed for that.
I want my daughter to grow up and be comfortable with her body, but not only be comfortable
with her body, have the space to talk to me and understand that you don't have to have
trash ass experiments because you're going to know what you're looking for.
You're going to know what you want.
Exactly.
And also, just because you talk openly about sex with your children doesn't mean that it's
going to make them have sex.
I had comprehensive sex education because I went to private school.
I also talked to my mom a lot about sex because like Melissa, I had my cycle at eight.
I was literally in third grade.
That's so traumatic.
Yeah, like I, and it didn't make me have sex any earlier.
Like I had it when I was, when I felt I was ready.
I don't regret, even though like it was trash because I was like young, but like I don't
regret.
Was it good?
I mean, it was good for the time.
Like I was, I was young.
I was like 14.
I was 14.
Yeah, I lost mine to be petty.
My mom did not talk to me about sex at all, or it was.
But I felt like it was like someone that I trusted in everything.
Like you know what I'm saying?
So I, like my experience was a little bit different.
You know what I'm saying?
I mean, I was, I was, you know, sexually assaulted prior to that.
The assault was pretty violent.
But I don't ever count that as me losing my virginity because it was not consensual.
I'm talking about the person that I actually lost it to that I trusted in everything.
That's like the purpose of this podcast too.
Just to like have open conversations, no matter how much people might judge us or like make
us look like, make it seem like we're like crazy.
Like this, the purpose of this podcast is to just have transparent, vulnerable, raw
conversations no matter how wild or insane it might sound to people.
But that's back to your story.
You suck dick for like an hour and some change.
That is insane.
Fucking hour.
That nigga was blowing up my phone.
Of course he was.
And I didn't really think much about like at the time, like I was just like, fuck it,
I'm gonna just suck dick.
But this really some mouth.
And now I'm a little more select.
The choices in terms of people are not either more positive, but I'm a little more selective
with who I have sexual experiences with because I know at the end of the day, I've perfected
my craft.
I know that's right.
I know what I'm doing.
I study movement.
I study body.
If a certain vein pops up here, I'm moving over here.
Like everything is just tying into place.
But it's just like that nigga tried to ask me for some mouth again and I aired that nigga
the fuck out.
I'm like, don't you hate when niggas do some shit like that?
Just disrespectful.
Niggas never forget they throw gold stuff.
For real.
Never.
I had a nigga save my fucking name in his phone as vacuum cleaner.
He was the alpha.
Shout out to the alphas.
But let's transition into our internet whole segment.
So our internet whole segment is basically where we talk about like all things pop culture,
things that's been happening in the media, politics, stuff in the blogs, all that stuff.
So one, I have a lot of joints under here, but we got to talk about a few.
So India went back to Dirk apparently.
Dirk recently went on live where India's wrist tattoo was seen.
I will go back to a rich nigga too.
Fuck outta here.
No, real shit.
I will go back to rich nigga too.
We can't do that shit.
In two seconds.
Like, I don't care.
We got the niggas who is asking us for bread.
None of these filly niggas is buying me a Birkin bag.
Of course I'm not going to go back to him.
I'm going to go back to Dirk.
Yeah, exactly.
And then on top of that, it's just like, come on.
We've all had our moments where we just do stupid stuff.
And if she want to play house with the nigga and all that other stuff, they got mad kids
together.
And plus she wasn't with him for a long time.
She was staying strong compared to all the other girlies.
She was stronger than me.
First of all, real shit.
Real shit because I was doubling back to that to Harlem Nights.
But Kella, you see why I was doubling back to him.
Exactly.
Like I understand.
Once I showed her the picture, she said, I get it.
See, now I got to see.
I got to see.
I got to find that picture I had.
But there's plenty of times where it's just like, you really like, you fuck with a nigga
so heavy, like you love them and all that other stuff.
And then the money on top of it.
Yeah.
This business is out of our tax grade.
Exactly.
Like I would definitely go back.
This is not my broke ass business.
Real shit.
Exactly.
I'm on my mind.
Now see, I don't know.
Did you see when Jada went back to Lil Baby?
That kind of had me like, poor.
Girl, I'm going to go back to him because everybody-
I know.
I probably was.
First of all, niggas always trying to act like Lil Baby is ugly.
Um.
This might be the first time me and Kella might-
He is just funny looking, but he's not ugly.
Yeah, that's a good word.
He's not ugly.
He's just funny looking.
Did you see that video?
He's like, let me slide past y'all.
Yes, I saw that.
I was like-
Yo, you know who I would laugh me out my panties?
Who?
G-Erbo.
And he's not even my type.
He's not even my type.
That nigga is not my type at all, but he-
He fucking shit.
Y'all saw him on Karisha, please?
I was cracking up.
That man is too funny.
He's too funny.
He could definitely laugh me out my panties and get this to us.
Okay, maybe not him.
I'm going to be honest with you.
Someone said that when he was on that live stream with Kai, he was typing like evil sciences.
But he really was though.
G-Erbo will just be doing funny shit and I love a funny ass nigga.
He do.
When we say we love hood niggas, that's the hood nigga we talking about.
Yes, that.
The hood nigga that actually know himself.
You know, we love a hood nigga who is very self-aware because G-Erbo is super self-aware,
super intelligent.
We love those hood niggas.
I was actually very shocked.
Not to fake the game, poo, shite, even though G-Erbo had him.
When I watched Karisha, please, I was actually very shocked at how aware he is.
He's very aware of himself and-
He's very intelligent.
Very intelligent.
A lot of these hood niggas are and that's the thing.
They all be listening to their music without listening to their interviews.
Yes.
Oh my God.
Facts.
When you study, and this is for people in general, when you all start studying these
artists and all this other stuff for whatever reason, please pay attention to the totality
of who they are presenting, not just one part or another.
Because a lot of these niggas be talking about shit that happened in the past, but they not
doing that shit now.
Yeah.
Facts.
And listen to them.
Because G-Erbo was talking about shit.
What, Kella, what do you want to talk about next on the Internet hoe segment?
Oh, I want to talk about, I was sent a tweet by somebody and they sent me a tweet of this
woman exposing a man for basically saying, I respectfully just want to fuck on you.
I don't want to-
I think I seen that.
She was like, if you wanted to ask me on a date, then just say that.
Is it talking about that one?
Yeah.
I want to tell you a little bit more after we go off camera.
Okay.
Because the world is this small.
The world is this small.
But basically, I think, first of all, he was honest.
Wait, let's tell everybody what happened first though.
Okay.
So it was a screenshot.
It was screenshots of a DM from a man to a woman, a very beautiful young woman.
And he was like, basically you trying to link.
And she was like, if you want to ask me on a date, just say that.
He basically was like, I don't want to ask you on a date.
I told you what I wanted.
He was really respectful with it too.
That's what I'm saying.
He said, I'm just looking for some sex partners to just have sex with.
Yeah, because I don't know what I want right now.
I don't want to take anybody seriously.
And to be honest, she could have really left it at that.
Yeah.
She posted on Twitter and was like, men are so un-serious or something like that.
But I don't think he did anything wrong.
He didn't do anything wrong.
He didn't do anything wrong at all.
And she was like, free my bitches from the bare minimum.
I was telling the person that sent it to me, women claim that they want honesty, but that's
not what they want.
They only want honesty if you're pouring your heart out to them and how much you love them
and want to spend the rest of it.
They all want all of y'all to be head over heels.
And quite frankly, a lot of y'all don't have anything to offer.
Not the part of nothing to offer.
But I think it's really hard when you're in a predicament like that because everybody
wants to be loved.
Everybody wants somebody, everybody wants the dates.
Everybody wants all the extra shit.
Because I'm not even going to sit here and put too much on this dude.
Because I really don't want for this nigga to watch this shit and then get on Twitter
and be like, this bitch talking shit about me on her podcast.
But when we started dealing with each other, we had a transparent conversation and he straight
up was like, I don't want no relationship right now.
Like we both got out of really serious relationships.
So he straight up was like, yeah, I don't.
But I was just like, damn, this man's so fine.
And I was obsessed.
And like, I got this nigga wife beater that I sleep with every night in his hat that I
sleep with every night.
And it's not even because of the dick, because it's crazy because my dumb ass and a lot of
people really will straight up like try to have sex the first night.
This nigga took two months for us to fucking have sex.
Do you understand how stressed I was though?
Yeah, I was like, I was the second link.
I waxed my whole entire body.
I get in his car.
He took him out some.
What you doing?
I said, we not go fuck.
He's like, no, baby, I'm gonna teach you how to drive.
What the fuck is you're doing?
I'm crying.
I said, I'll be like, no, baby.
But it was it was worth it.
It honestly was worth it.
But oh, sorry, girl.
You're fine.
Yeah, she's this is really hard to do this with a baby.
And I didn't really think about that beforehand.
I just want her to be comfortable.
But at the same time, it's like she smacked my microphone a couple of times and smacked
Camry microphone, too.
But having somebody just be transparent like that, like no bitch want to admit to her friends
like, yeah, he doesn't want to be in a relationship, but I am giving him this pussy.
But why?
Well, we all do it.
Like just live your life.
Yeah, I just live your life.
We all be doing it as much as bitches like to go on the Internet and act like, oh, I
don't do that.
Y'all do it.
Because if y'all wasn't doing it, niggas wouldn't be so comfortable asking other bitches
for that.
It's common sense.
What do you mean?
Like the fuck?
And also, like we're not dealing with niggas like with mad money.
Like they really do have to troubleshoot because some of y'all bitches don't deserve anything
in this life.
Jack fucking shit.
Some of you don't deserve anything in this life.
So they really are trying to figure out like if it's even worth pursuing because some of
y'all ain't worth shit.
All right.
Some of y'all not worth shit.
Yeah.
The entitlement sometimes too with women.
And we like to hold all parties accountable on this pocket.
Sometimes women are just a little too entitled to men's money.
Yeah.
Why are you?
And I just that's something that I just don't understand.
As if you don't have your own, which you might not.
That's what she has to say.
We are grown adults.
I don't give a fuck what them bitches was doing back in 1960 because guaranteed that
nigga was going to work fucking other bitches, beating her ass, then coming home and making
her play housewife.
We are in 2023.
And they couldn't have no dad going bank accounts or nothing like that.
You couldn't even open a bank account as a woman until the 1970s.
So it was understandable as a man for his money.
But we're in 20 fucking 23.
If you really take that bird brain of yours and really think, do you really think on this
green earth?
And there's girls who will sit here and argue with me.
I don't care how wet your pussy is.
I don't care how good your throat is.
There's no way in hell that you are living comfortably with a man paying for all your
expenses without him having his cake and eating that shit too.
That it.
As long as you do you and don't say nothing about it, then it's even.
That's how I feel about it.
Like you on the side, baby.
Yeah.
Just don't say no.
Your grandma did it.
Hey, that's it.
Okay.
So let's go on to our other.
Well it's something else I want to talk about.
Suki, Sexy Red and NLE Chapa.
So basically a picture went viral of Suki Hana.
Oh you did?
I fucking hate that shit.
Wait the song that they all did together?
Yeah.
No I didn't listen to that.
No but I'm talking about this is what I'm talking about.
A picture went viral of Suki and Sexy Red getting walked like a dog by NLE Chapa.
He was holding them by the hair basically like walking them like they was on like a
leash.
And all parties were consensual.
So why are we talking about that?
Yeah.
Many people said Suki was disrespecting herself and even came in NLE Chapa.
He later clarified that it was Suki's idea and that he respects her.
My whole thing is they all consented to it.
What the fuck are y'all mad at?
Like for real.
As long as you not letting a nigga that gonna dog walk you by your hair.
Exactly.
You shouldn't be worried about.
They all consented to that shit.
I just don't see the problem.
I don't see the issue.
It's not for you.
Y'all just trying to find anything.
Like anything to be mad at for real.
Motherfuckers don't got shit to fucking do.
And if you know Suki Hana's music.
You that's so on brand for her.
She just released a song and the last line was.
My pussy pink.
My booty hole brown girl.
Sexy red.
Like what did you think they were gonna release bro?
She releasing a song about eating a nigga ass.
I'm out of town hanging with my rams.
Like.
My coochie pink.
Y'all expect her to act like Rory Harvey.
I like that song.
You know what I mean?
That's my shit.
That song be eating.
Come in niggas.
Like a bitch toes.
I'm like.
Yeah she right in there.
I was at the same song where she was like.
You know the dreadheads do it the best.
I don't.
You know the dreadheads do it the best.
Come on.
I'm gonna be honest they don't do it the best.
I'm sorry.
Okay so.
I also want to talk about Trina's Tiny Desk performance.
That shit was great.
Now it was some bitches that was on Twitter.
That was saying oh.
Tiny Desk like they've lowered themselves to have someone like Trina.
Oh my gosh.
You classed us as needless bitches.
No real shit.
I said that's how I know y'all not bad bitches.
And I'm one of y'all.
Are you kidding me?
Yes it was bitches on Twitter saying that.
They was like oh.
Tiny Desk like they've degraded themselves.
Why would you put someone like Trina on such a prestigious platform.
Trina is fucking mother.
And here's my thing.
She is.
And she's a legend.
Laid the platform for the JT's for the Sukihanas.
Like I think at one point Love and Hip Hop had them all together.
And what I.
What y'all feeling to realize is.
If you think City Girl lyrics is wrong.
And you think Sukihanas.
Trina literally said I make them eat it while my period on.
Yes.
Now that's crazy.
She said if I had a chance to be a virgin again I'd be fucking by the time I was ten.
Okay so I don't.
What type of.
Y'all need to relax.
She is a legend.
Especially when it comes to southern rap too.
Oh my gosh.
Like one of the first like southern rap females to really come on the scene.
And do it like and did the damn thing.
And y'all can feel how the whole respectability part of this.
And it's like listen.
There are a lot of these girls like we was talking about the last episode where they
do OnlyFans and all that other stuff and they don't want to do it anymore.
But there's still plenty of women who are very sex positive and sexually liberated in
that sense.
And so they still deserve to have people be in bigger rooms.
And plus rich niggas playing the sex work.
And plus like our sex positivity and female rap has also transcended into other genres
too.
Like if you think about even some of the white pop girls that be having their little sex
songs where do you think they get there from?
It's from us being so open about our sexuality.
Exactly especially since they were really not allowed to like be so overtly sexual.
Like that was really taboo for them to really talk about it even though they was doing it.
Exactly.
It was a lot of pure image.
Trina looked the fuck good.
You bitches are haters.
Y'all pussy is trash.
And that's why y'all had an issue with that.
So next topic.
Exactly.
Not one fucking lie told.
Maybe you should take some notes from her tiny desk.
No real shit.
Respect the mother.
Like what the fuck.
Also have y'all been well so I only talk about this if y'all are familiar with it but the
escape and SWV drama.
I watched the show and it's like I ain't gonna lie like escape really was acting like SWV
is like really I don't want to say they was treating them like they was beneath them but
like escape was acting like they was bigger than SWV but when I talked to my mom and like
my aunties and stuff they was like SWV was way bigger than escape so I don't know why
they would want.
It's only because Candy and Tiny had a better career than the other two.
Like they're riding off of Candy and Tiny and I'm gonna I'm not gonna lie what her name
is Natasha the lead singer she was probably the best vocalist there but when it came to
overall talent Tiny and Candy were the ones that had the talent.
And Candy had such a distinct voice and that's what made escape pop because it's like her
voice was so different.
I mean I don't like her voice.
I'm not a fan of it.
No no this is the thing I think that Candy can sing I just don't like her tone.
I don't like her tone that's just me personally some people might like it though and that's
cool but um SWV was definitely bigger than them in the 90s.
This is from what my mom and my aunties have told me and I just don't I think one of the
arguments that Candy was making is that oh like me and Tiny we have like 10 million followers
so we're gonna reach more of an audience but I feel like people forget just because you
have a certain amount of followers doesn't mean that that's automatically gonna always
transcend into some of them be buying they followers.
Yeah even if we look at the whole sweetie situation like she got I don't know how many followers
I think like 13 million followers.
I mean I know that she didn't buy those but niggas are not coming to her for music they're
coming because she's beautiful.
Yeah and her aesthetic like I like her aesthetic.
Her doctor's fucking amazing though.
Yes.
Them titties be sitting.
They kinda look hard though.
They do.
They do sometimes.
They do.
I've never seen like a boob job where it looks super super natural unless it was like a breast
reduction but I just feel like they always have that little hard ass erect look to them.
Yeah.
I think it's supposed to give bimbo right?
Yeah.
Like the bimbo look.
I don't want to look like that.
Okay so next segment we gonna do the hot seat so we gonna ask like would you rather questions.
So first one golden showers or wax play?
Now when you mean wax play you mean like when they light the candle and pour it on your
body?
Yeah.
I'm gonna look at me funny because of this.
Golden showers.
Golden have you ever like.
I feel like everybody needs to try something once.
I was just saying that to my man.
That's never for me I'll never try that but I ain't judging the girl he said to it.
Yeah I definitely did it in the shower.
He peed in my mouth bro.
Okay maybe not that.
I don't even talk to him no more.
Oh my god.
In your mouth?
In my mouth.
Did I swallow it?
No because I ain't that trifling.
Ciao.
Y'all is some freaky ass bitches.
I wasn't taking it that far.
I just pee on my feet or something like that.
Feet on your feet?
Oh my god.
Okay accidentally send a sex to your grandfather or your baby daddy?
My grandfather.
Not even no not a sex a nude.
I don't want to see my child's father happy.
I would send it to my grandfather because he's literally legally blind so I wouldn't
suffer the consequences.
Okay okay.
All right so.
I love you goodbye.
Kella had this one.
Shit on dick during anal or throw up sucking dick.
I've never thrown up on a dick before and if I know I'm sucking dick I'm not going
to eat beforehand.
But I don't think anybody can come back from.
That's the only image I have of Suki Hana in my mind at this point when she was with
Bill.
Oh yeah she did throw up.
And she posted it and I was just like.
Why would you do that girl?
I ain't got a lot of confession.
You've thrown up on dick?
No no not threw up on dick.
I shit on a dick.
You shitted on a dick?
I did.
What are you saying?
He was like I think you just shit on my dick.
I was like oh my god get off of me.
And then I ran to the bathroom.
I had a nigger stick his ass in my ass.
And he was like and I locked the door he was like Cam it's okay.
He was like it's okay.
I would have cried.
I would have been crying.
I was sitting in that bathroom and I was fucking crying.
I was crying.
I was like he was like Cam I promise you it's okay.
It's fine.
I've never shit on a dick.
Oh my god.
But I had a nigger stick his finger in my ass.
And there was shit on his finger and he wiped it on my fucking bed.
No.
Oh my god.
It's funny because he was an alpha too.
Shout out to the alphas.
But um honestly like I'm gonna keep it frank.
A little truffle butter will not kill me.
But throwing up on the dick will definitely kill me.
Yeah I've never done it.
Oh my god.
I've never done that before.
How did you feel?
I felt so embarrassed.
I literally pushed him.
Like I turned around and then I ran to the bathroom.
You had Taco Bell beforehand.
No no no.
I actually didn't eat nothing that day.
That's crazy.
I ran to the bathroom and I was crying.
He was like Cam I locked the door.
He was like Cam it's okay.
It's not that deep.
I'm like no.
No are you gonna think I'm a dirty ass bitch.
He said no.
Like it's fine.
It's fine.
To be honest it was like my second time doing that with him.
But I was like I'm gonna do it.
I'm gonna do it.
Like I said no.
Like it's fine.
It's fine.
To be honest it was like my second time doing that with him so I don't think I was like
really like.
Girl you gotta be doing an anal douche for that type of stuff.
You gotta prepare.
Yeah.
I didn't prep.
You have to schedule anal.
Shout out to the LGBTQ community for putting me onto there okay.
I never thought that was a thing until I got older so now I don't know if I'm gonna be
surprised.
Yeah I didn't prep for it.
my friend put me on to like exfoliating.
I will, if I know that I'm-
You never know.
Look, I'm gonna make sure I'm fucking prepared.
I'm only fucking one person.
Shout out to you, baby.
But I'm gonna make sure I'm prepared.
Like I don't think he realizes the reason
why I be taking so long is
cause I'm literally prepping for the moment.
Prepping, yeah, yeah.
Cause I don't know what type of surprise he go.
Well, that wraps up everything.
Thank you for coming and talking about your experience.
We really appreciate it.
I appreciate y'all having me.
Like this was nice.
Yes, it really was.
We gotta have her on here again eventually
cause this was fun as shit.
Y'all.
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What is my ad?
What the fuck?
Now cause I just changed it.
She changed her ad so much, bro.
Like when you DM me today,
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