1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:10,320 Hey there and thank you for joining me for another episode of YQG In Bloom. 2 00:00:10,320 --> 00:00:13,960 My name is Tracy Martens and I'm your host today. 3 00:00:13,960 --> 00:00:22,160 And I have with me Jill Moiseick who is mom said duck if you follow her on social media. 4 00:00:22,160 --> 00:00:23,640 Hey there, how's it going? 5 00:00:23,640 --> 00:00:24,800 Good Tracy, how are you? 6 00:00:24,800 --> 00:00:26,440 I'm doing good. 7 00:00:26,440 --> 00:00:31,680 Now as a mom we all say more than duck most of the time. 8 00:00:31,680 --> 00:00:35,840 So what made you start mom said duck? 9 00:00:35,840 --> 00:00:41,560 So mom said duck is like a really serendipitous story and it's kind of a long one so bear 10 00:00:41,560 --> 00:00:42,560 with me. 11 00:00:42,560 --> 00:00:49,080 But so in 2018 I went on a maternity leave for my son. 12 00:00:49,080 --> 00:00:52,480 It was my second, it was our second. 13 00:00:52,480 --> 00:00:54,320 And everything was great. 14 00:00:54,320 --> 00:00:55,320 You know all was well. 15 00:00:55,320 --> 00:01:01,480 I took an 18 month maternity leave and then when I was returning to go back to work five 16 00:01:01,480 --> 00:01:06,000 days before I was returning to work I was told I no longer had a job to go back to. 17 00:01:06,000 --> 00:01:10,640 That the woman who replaced my maternity leave would now be taking over my position. 18 00:01:10,640 --> 00:01:14,680 And so I was obviously in shock. 19 00:01:14,680 --> 00:01:18,840 It was I was kind of like climbing the corporate ladder at that point. 20 00:01:18,840 --> 00:01:23,680 I was ready to kind of get my you know take off my yoga pants and put my big girl pants 21 00:01:23,680 --> 00:01:26,400 back on kind of thing have adult conversation again. 22 00:01:26,400 --> 00:01:32,480 And instead I was just sort of you know at a halt and I had to sort of just stop what 23 00:01:32,480 --> 00:01:36,880 I was doing and kind of move backward in life kind of thing where I thought I would be moving 24 00:01:36,880 --> 00:01:38,000 forward. 25 00:01:38,000 --> 00:01:43,680 And so after I found that news out I am a really emotional person. 26 00:01:43,680 --> 00:01:46,400 I'm a really passionate person by nature. 27 00:01:46,400 --> 00:01:51,160 And so I it wasn't like I chose to let myself feel the feelings but I cried for five days 28 00:01:51,160 --> 00:01:52,160 straight. 29 00:01:52,160 --> 00:01:53,840 I cried. 30 00:01:53,840 --> 00:01:54,840 Blame you. 31 00:01:54,840 --> 00:01:56,600 It was it was horrible. 32 00:01:56,600 --> 00:01:58,400 It was really crappy what happened right. 33 00:01:58,400 --> 00:02:07,400 And so for five days I cried and then eventually kind of started coming to but what was interesting 34 00:02:07,400 --> 00:02:12,960 in the moment in the literal moment that I found out that I wasn't going to be going back 35 00:02:12,960 --> 00:02:14,720 to my job. 36 00:02:14,720 --> 00:02:19,880 I knew that the only experience that I had was in what I was doing labor relations HR 37 00:02:19,880 --> 00:02:22,880 but I knew right then and there that I wasn't going to go back to that. 38 00:02:22,880 --> 00:02:28,200 I don't know why I just had this feeling in my gut that you know we live in excuse me 39 00:02:28,200 --> 00:02:32,160 in Windsor you know there's lots of opportunity for that kind of thing didn't have to be with 40 00:02:32,160 --> 00:02:36,640 the same company was it but there was the thought of me going back into labor relations 41 00:02:36,640 --> 00:02:43,120 HR just in time unionized environments all this kind of stuff made me physically sick 42 00:02:43,120 --> 00:02:44,840 to think about doing. 43 00:02:44,840 --> 00:02:48,720 And so I just I was like okay I'm going to listen to my body I'm going to listen to my 44 00:02:48,720 --> 00:02:52,000 heart and I'm just going to kind of let it guide me. 45 00:02:52,000 --> 00:02:57,120 And then so of course you know after five days I started kind of like venturing out 46 00:02:57,120 --> 00:03:00,400 into life again and all this kind of stuff and I was kind of like pushing through and 47 00:03:00,400 --> 00:03:02,240 whatever you know. 48 00:03:02,240 --> 00:03:08,240 And then kind of like looking around at different things I could do you know in my next phase 49 00:03:08,240 --> 00:03:12,920 of my life because I knew that I wasn't going back to what I was doing before. 50 00:03:12,920 --> 00:03:20,840 And so my mom actually came over to my house and she threw a book at me a book that I had 51 00:03:20,840 --> 00:03:24,200 written when I was a little kid and I was like what is this and caveat to this story 52 00:03:24,200 --> 00:03:28,760 is that my mom didn't keep anything of mine from when I was a kid anything like it's like 53 00:03:28,760 --> 00:03:33,000 I like lived in like black and white photos time like there's no photos of me as a kid. 54 00:03:33,000 --> 00:03:37,080 And so the fact that she had kept something of mine I was like amazed by this. 55 00:03:37,080 --> 00:03:42,040 Why did she keep it or did it get just stuck in between something no idea. 56 00:03:42,040 --> 00:03:46,320 So and like it's so funny because my husband's mom has like kept everything like to this 57 00:03:46,320 --> 00:03:49,800 day she'll still give me things that looks like my like little guy did it kind of like 58 00:03:49,800 --> 00:03:53,280 yesterday kind of thing like it's so well kept and then meanwhile I have nothing you 59 00:03:53,280 --> 00:03:54,280 know. 60 00:03:54,280 --> 00:03:56,640 So it's kind of something I've always sort of teased my mom about. 61 00:03:56,640 --> 00:04:01,240 And then so she threw this book at me and she's who I get my sarcasm thermos so she literally 62 00:04:01,240 --> 00:04:03,160 just tossed the book at me kind of thing. 63 00:04:03,160 --> 00:04:04,640 I'm like what the hell is this thing. 64 00:04:04,640 --> 00:04:06,640 So she's like I don't know it's something that you wrote when you were a little kid 65 00:04:06,640 --> 00:04:08,480 she's like it's pretty good you know read it. 66 00:04:08,480 --> 00:04:12,720 So I read it and I was like oh my god this book is really good it's called What's Good 67 00:04:12,720 --> 00:04:14,680 for a Ten-Year-Old. 68 00:04:14,680 --> 00:04:19,000 And it was a book that I had written and I had drawn pictures for and it was a rhyming 69 00:04:19,000 --> 00:04:23,280 book and it was just like so good I just couldn't get over how good this little book was and 70 00:04:23,280 --> 00:04:24,800 I had written when I was ten. 71 00:04:24,800 --> 00:04:27,160 Well what okay I'm gonna stop you there. 72 00:04:27,160 --> 00:04:29,120 What was good for a ten-year-old. 73 00:04:29,120 --> 00:04:34,520 It was you know it's funny it's like all stuff that it like I included my fan like my mom's 74 00:04:34,520 --> 00:04:38,640 one of twelve kids and I'm really close with all of my cousins and stuff like that and 75 00:04:38,640 --> 00:04:42,800 so the whole book related to things around my family which was really cute too. 76 00:04:42,800 --> 00:04:46,360 So I was rhyming names with rhyming things with my aunts and uncles names and my cousins 77 00:04:46,360 --> 00:04:47,360 and all that stuff. 78 00:04:47,360 --> 00:04:49,240 It was really cute yeah. 79 00:04:49,240 --> 00:04:52,840 And then so yeah so she so I'm reading this book and I'm just like amazed that I had written 80 00:04:52,840 --> 00:04:58,800 this and like a caveat to this is that I had always said that I don't have a creative bone 81 00:04:58,800 --> 00:05:03,000 in my body always that's like a tagline so anytime something about art comes up or whatever 82 00:05:03,000 --> 00:05:05,200 I'm always like I don't have a creative bone don't ask me I don't have a creative bone 83 00:05:05,200 --> 00:05:07,040 in my body always what I said. 84 00:05:07,040 --> 00:05:11,440 So then I'm reading this book that I wrote as a ten-year-old and I'm like hold on a second 85 00:05:11,440 --> 00:05:15,360 I do have a creative bone in my body it was just I was a ten-year-old when I you know 86 00:05:15,360 --> 00:05:20,400 when when I was still kind of created or thought that I was anyway you just forgot you were 87 00:05:20,400 --> 00:05:23,720 I forgot or like it had gotten beaten out of me at some point over the course of my life 88 00:05:23,720 --> 00:05:24,720 something right. 89 00:05:24,720 --> 00:05:25,720 HR will do that. 90 00:05:25,720 --> 00:05:27,520 Yeah yeah exactly yeah. 91 00:05:27,520 --> 00:05:34,800 So yeah so then from there I just like that whole day I just like kept like like locking 92 00:05:34,800 --> 00:05:38,200 myself in the bathroom going to my bedroom like reading this book over and over I just 93 00:05:38,200 --> 00:05:39,920 like couldn't get enough of this book. 94 00:05:39,920 --> 00:05:44,680 So the next morning our little guy Edison he was about yeah like I don't know around 95 00:05:44,680 --> 00:05:50,360 18 months two years old somewhere around there and so he was at my at our bedside and so 96 00:05:50,360 --> 00:05:53,840 I pulled him in bed with us because of course he comes to mom's side not dad's side. 97 00:05:53,840 --> 00:05:54,840 Always. 98 00:05:54,840 --> 00:05:57,480 Right and so I pull him in bed with us put him between us and then he falls back to sleep 99 00:05:57,480 --> 00:06:01,280 my husband's still sleeping and as he's falling back to sleep I sleep I was massaging his little 100 00:06:01,280 --> 00:06:04,480 toes and so I was massaging his toes and I was thinking to myself I wonder if I could 101 00:06:04,480 --> 00:06:08,200 create a little poem about his body like I had written in this book kind of thing this 102 00:06:08,200 --> 00:06:11,680 little rhyming book that I had written and then so sure enough I came up with this poem 103 00:06:11,680 --> 00:06:15,480 that I had written and it was like good I was like oh that was pretty good that was pretty 104 00:06:15,480 --> 00:06:16,880 cute and clever. 105 00:06:16,880 --> 00:06:20,280 So then I wrote it grab my phone from my bed stand you know wrote it on my phone and then 106 00:06:20,280 --> 00:06:22,560 my husband woke up and I was like I read it to him like what do you think and he's like 107 00:06:22,560 --> 00:06:26,040 that was pretty good it's pretty cute and I'm like oh my god it was really cute right. 108 00:06:26,040 --> 00:06:29,560 So then I just couldn't stop telling everybody about this poem and I was reading it to anybody 109 00:06:29,560 --> 00:06:32,880 who was listening like walking to the street like you want to hear this this poem or you 110 00:06:32,880 --> 00:06:38,960 know like kind of thing and then so from there after about a week or so it was like all of 111 00:06:38,960 --> 00:06:42,640 a sudden I'm like just like sitting at the table with like an old laptop and I'm just 112 00:06:42,640 --> 00:06:48,600 I just started writing poems and so I like you know after probably two weeks or so I 113 00:06:48,600 --> 00:06:52,240 had like three or four poems and after a month I've got so after like a few months I've probably 114 00:06:52,240 --> 00:06:56,360 got like 30 of these poems and what I'm realizing is that they all relate to being a mom and 115 00:06:56,360 --> 00:07:02,400 they're all very sort of poignant poems and so they're just sort of like day to day kind 116 00:07:02,400 --> 00:07:07,040 of frustration type stuff about being a mom type type poems and so it was just kind of 117 00:07:07,040 --> 00:07:10,880 a fun funny thing to do whatever no big deals I guess it was kind of like a release I didn't 118 00:07:10,880 --> 00:07:15,240 know I needed something like that right and so now fast forward my husband and I are going 119 00:07:15,240 --> 00:07:20,040 to get some last minute gifts for our kids for Christmas my mom came over to babysit for 120 00:07:20,040 --> 00:07:25,320 us it was when Moxies was still open must have been their last season and so instead 121 00:07:25,320 --> 00:07:31,560 of going shopping of course we went to Moxies and grabbed a drink instead sorry mom and 122 00:07:31,560 --> 00:07:36,520 so while we're there I said to my husband what am I going to do like what do I do I 123 00:07:36,520 --> 00:07:41,080 don't know what to do who am I kind of thing you know I was kind of like I'm realizing 124 00:07:41,080 --> 00:07:46,960 at this point like I who I was was my career and yet I didn't even like the career I was 125 00:07:46,960 --> 00:07:52,440 in like that's just this weird that's the worst thing yeah it really is and so many 126 00:07:52,440 --> 00:07:56,360 people I feel like after that happened to me I'm realizing more and more people have 127 00:07:56,360 --> 00:08:01,440 this sort of it's the pre-midlife crisis it is I call my quarter life crisis it's true 128 00:08:01,440 --> 00:08:08,560 well I was like I'm 40 now so it was like it was probably I was 35 when it happened 129 00:08:08,560 --> 00:08:16,680 I find between 31 and 35 is a very weird transition where it's like I'm not that kid anymore 130 00:08:16,680 --> 00:08:23,080 but yet I don't feel like an adult but a yeah and you're just trying to find your place 131 00:08:23,080 --> 00:08:28,160 right you like realize that life is going to go on forever and that kind of thing yeah 132 00:08:28,160 --> 00:08:30,960 so anyway so we're sitting there and we're having a drink and I said what am I going 133 00:08:30,960 --> 00:08:33,800 to do and so my husband said well why do you try to pursue these poems and I'm like what 134 00:08:33,800 --> 00:08:38,960 do you mean he said so I work I work out with this person who calls himself a creative coach 135 00:08:38,960 --> 00:08:43,080 why don't you meet up with them so I ended up meeting up with this person at anchor coffee 136 00:08:43,080 --> 00:08:51,120 house and we and so I was chatting with her and she read one of my poems and started laughing 137 00:08:51,120 --> 00:08:56,160 because it was talking about poop and diapers and whatever and corn and my kids poop and 138 00:08:56,160 --> 00:08:59,200 all this kind of weird stuff right which and so she was laughing and she's reading she's 139 00:08:59,200 --> 00:09:03,600 like oh my god this is like so different or whatever you know so I'm like I don't know 140 00:09:03,600 --> 00:09:07,760 what to do I'm not I've always said I'm not creative I'm definitely technologically unsavvy 141 00:09:07,760 --> 00:09:11,400 if that's a word so she's like here's what I think you need to do you need to start a 142 00:09:11,400 --> 00:09:15,600 newsletter you need to you know go on your Facebook tell everybody you're starting a 143 00:09:15,600 --> 00:09:20,240 newsletter see if people will sign up and then decide how often you think you can write 144 00:09:20,240 --> 00:09:23,120 a poem and so I said I think I can do one every week because at this point I'm like 145 00:09:23,120 --> 00:09:26,920 just right and like crazy so I decided to come up with something called Fresh Poem Friday 146 00:09:26,920 --> 00:09:31,400 and so every Friday for the past four years I've been sending out a new poem to my Fresh 147 00:09:31,400 --> 00:09:36,760 Poem Friday subscribers and that's been wonderful and lovely and it's been great and I've had 148 00:09:36,760 --> 00:09:40,600 such wonderful feedback and all that kind of stuff but over the course of that I kind 149 00:09:40,600 --> 00:09:46,840 of realized like something was missing this was during the pandemic now and so I was like 150 00:09:46,840 --> 00:09:51,160 okay maybe I need to say like I love to say my poem so where can I say my poem so COVID 151 00:09:51,160 --> 00:09:55,160 you know you can go and do anything anywhere and so I thought okay maybe I'll do a podcast 152 00:09:55,160 --> 00:10:01,400 everybody's doing a podcast I'll do a podcast and so I started a podcast and recorded most 153 00:10:01,400 --> 00:10:08,440 of my poems at MediaWorks Studio in Windsor and loved it like absolutely loved it every 154 00:10:08,440 --> 00:10:12,320 time I got to go in and record poems I loved it and it was great and so I would put them 155 00:10:12,320 --> 00:10:15,960 out and it was great and they live still on Spotify and Apple and all those places that 156 00:10:15,960 --> 00:10:19,000 you listen to podcasts which is great but it was like there was still something missing 157 00:10:19,000 --> 00:10:23,280 and I couldn't figure out what that thing was and then kind of like over the evolution 158 00:10:23,280 --> 00:10:28,720 of the past four years I've kind of come to realize that what I think is missing or I 159 00:10:28,720 --> 00:10:34,000 thought was missing was people, humans, I sort of thrive on people, other people's energy 160 00:10:34,000 --> 00:10:40,120 and so I thought okay well maybe I need to say my poems to people so I'm like okay so 161 00:10:40,120 --> 00:10:46,200 how can I do that well turns out nobody wants to hire a funny mom poet this is not a thing 162 00:10:46,200 --> 00:10:47,200 yet. 163 00:10:47,200 --> 00:10:49,200 Come on corn poop is right. 164 00:10:49,200 --> 00:10:50,200 Right? 165 00:10:50,200 --> 00:10:54,920 Yeah so I'm like okay so then I'm like okay so nobody wants to hire a funny mom poet 166 00:10:54,920 --> 00:11:00,200 there so I had to kind of like you know trudge my own path or whatever so I'm like what can 167 00:11:00,200 --> 00:11:03,920 I do and so this is going to sound so corny but I kept going back to I had this like little 168 00:11:03,920 --> 00:11:10,440 note next to my computer at home and it said it was a Beyonce quote and it was build your 169 00:11:10,440 --> 00:11:16,360 own stage and make them see you and so I kept saying that to myself how can I do this how 170 00:11:16,360 --> 00:11:21,480 can I make people see me and it's not me it's my art it's my poems that I'm the most proud 171 00:11:21,480 --> 00:11:25,800 of you know so I want people to see it and to hear it and so I didn't know what to do 172 00:11:25,800 --> 00:11:30,480 and then so I kind of I thought okay well I've spent all my my family's money so far 173 00:11:30,480 --> 00:11:35,000 on this how can I sort of like get some help with this because I don't want to put all 174 00:11:35,000 --> 00:11:38,960 this time and money and energy into something and keep draining our our family's finances 175 00:11:38,960 --> 00:11:43,280 for this what can I do and so I thought you know what the City of Windsor has this awesome 176 00:11:43,280 --> 00:11:49,920 program through the Arts Arts Council Heritage Fund, the ACHF grant program and so I applied 177 00:11:49,920 --> 00:11:55,120 for it and I figured because grant writing is sort of an art in and of itself that it 178 00:11:55,120 --> 00:11:57,720 was going to be something that I wouldn't have gotten I would have kind of learned some 179 00:11:57,720 --> 00:12:02,520 things things along the way and then you know reapply again but I ended up getting a grant 180 00:12:02,520 --> 00:12:05,880 it wasn't for the full amount that I had reached out for but it was for half and I thought 181 00:12:05,880 --> 00:12:12,880 okay I can do something of $2,500 and so yeah so then I thought okay so I want to say my 182 00:12:12,880 --> 00:12:18,760 poems to an audience of people and my husband's office is actually right next to the court 183 00:12:18,760 --> 00:12:25,760 his own theater and so and we actually purchased the space and so when we closed the day we 184 00:12:25,760 --> 00:12:29,840 closed on that space I looked at him this was in 2021 and I looked at him and said I 185 00:12:29,840 --> 00:12:32,920 like grabbed his hand walked him over to the theater and I was like you see that theater 186 00:12:32,920 --> 00:12:36,040 and he's like yeah I'm like that I'm supposed to be there I'm supposed to say my poems there 187 00:12:36,040 --> 00:12:39,840 this is why we got this space like that I'm a big believer in the universe and so he's 188 00:12:39,840 --> 00:12:43,040 like yeah kind of like he's the grounded one I'm the floaty one you know kind of thing 189 00:12:43,040 --> 00:12:45,880 and so he's like whatever you know Jill sure you know if that's what you want to do or 190 00:12:45,880 --> 00:12:50,720 whatever so then yeah that's kind of how it how it worked so I got the grant and you know 191 00:12:50,720 --> 00:12:54,800 asked Corta if I could go and do my thing there and they were happy to have me and all 192 00:12:54,800 --> 00:13:01,520 that stuff so I'll be saying my poems on a stage two humans on Friday May 10th and it's 193 00:13:01,520 --> 00:13:07,440 already sold out it sold out the day after you put it on Instagram which is amazing yeah 194 00:13:07,440 --> 00:13:14,800 the very next day yeah now you said that you do poems every Friday how many people do you 195 00:13:14,800 --> 00:13:20,080 have on your list like you really like goes up and it fluctuates right some people will 196 00:13:20,080 --> 00:13:23,840 unsubscribe some people will subscribe kind of thing so it's about 250 right now that's 197 00:13:23,840 --> 00:13:31,520 awesome yeah yeah for poems for you know saying duck instead of the big F blank blank blank 198 00:13:31,520 --> 00:13:37,120 word you have to laugh or else you're gonna cry when you're a mom and it's a great outlet 199 00:13:37,120 --> 00:13:43,040 for it you should be also a comedian that's sweet you you should I think a lot of those 200 00:13:43,040 --> 00:13:48,360 stories would are really funny oh thank you yeah that's and that's kind of it is kind 201 00:13:48,360 --> 00:13:55,160 of I've never really fit into anything myself with this mom said duck stuff and in fact I 202 00:13:55,160 --> 00:13:59,560 kind of I was kind of like thinking about the path of like comedian as well and so I 203 00:13:59,560 --> 00:14:04,520 really kind of immersed myself in the local comedian scene in turn a comedy scene in Windsor 204 00:14:04,520 --> 00:14:10,080 in terms of like going to see shows and stuff like that and oh my gosh first of all you 205 00:14:10,080 --> 00:14:14,760 actually just posted something recently you went to show at a dispenser oh my gosh why 206 00:14:14,760 --> 00:14:18,960 can't I think of his Instagram handle I went there too oh the night that you did but on 207 00:14:18,960 --> 00:14:23,680 a different night formerly petty Pete I yes I you know what I'm about I think is you know 208 00:14:23,680 --> 00:14:29,720 what I'm about I think is this yeah Instagram handle oh yes dry dry Andre you know what 209 00:14:29,720 --> 00:14:34,280 I'm about yeah yeah yeah yeah he's awesome so he's funny yeah so we've connected and 210 00:14:34,280 --> 00:14:40,480 stuff and and he's been great and I actually met I met him through Osmosis Glow Shay through 211 00:14:40,480 --> 00:14:45,040 Osmosis Glow who did the sign for my husband's office so you know Windsor so connected right 212 00:14:45,040 --> 00:14:48,240 forward I think it's four degrees of separation or something oh yeah it's like one degree I 213 00:14:48,240 --> 00:14:53,080 think in Windsor it is and so yeah so I started going to like shows and stuff and like was 214 00:14:53,080 --> 00:14:58,080 just so impressed by the Windsor comedy scene and you have to get out if you haven't seen 215 00:14:58,080 --> 00:15:02,200 a comedy show Windsor you have to go it's just slowly coming back because we used to 216 00:15:02,200 --> 00:15:06,440 be huge and then it died down and now it's coming back again that we were here I had 217 00:15:06,440 --> 00:15:12,320 no idea oh yeah we used to have a lot of a lot of fun back when I was young okay okay 218 00:15:12,320 --> 00:15:15,680 well I'm so glad that it's back and anyway so I was going to see some of these shows 219 00:15:15,680 --> 00:15:21,000 and I thought I can't do what they do like it's just like I'm trying to take the work 220 00:15:21,000 --> 00:15:25,920 that I've done already and turn it into something and it just they go up there and they say a 221 00:15:25,920 --> 00:15:32,200 bit and it's just like it's just like how they segue and stuff like that like I I I needed to test 222 00:15:32,200 --> 00:15:35,920 the waters just to see what what they were doing to see if I could do it and it just didn't 223 00:15:35,920 --> 00:15:39,280 fit but that's okay I think that I think that mom said duck is very much a crossover of 224 00:15:39,280 --> 00:15:45,320 like poetry and comedy and spoken word and you know written word it's kind of like its 225 00:15:45,320 --> 00:15:48,960 own mishmash of something and I've kind of come to terms with the fact that I don't fit 226 00:15:48,960 --> 00:15:52,920 in and that's okay you know like it's my own thing and that's kind of maybe a good thing 227 00:15:52,920 --> 00:15:57,800 are you thinking of writing it all into a book I am but because I write new poems all 228 00:15:57,800 --> 00:16:01,360 the time it just seems unfinished like I feel like if I were to you know go through the 229 00:16:01,360 --> 00:16:06,240 process of of doing that let's say it took a year or something well I've written several 230 00:16:06,240 --> 00:16:10,920 more poems since right so until I tap out of that like I just don't have any more poems 231 00:16:10,920 --> 00:16:17,280 to write or whatever the case is now okay we've talked about the the corn poop and the baby 232 00:16:17,280 --> 00:16:24,600 toes and that what are some of the themes yeah so it's like it's like everyday stuff it's 233 00:16:24,600 --> 00:16:30,640 like very general stuff or everyday very specific things so it could be something like mom guilt 234 00:16:30,640 --> 00:16:38,600 or lying to our kids or you know or something as more specific you know more sort of micro 235 00:16:38,600 --> 00:16:43,120 and dialed into like school lunches or poop diapers or you know stuff like that it's just 236 00:16:43,120 --> 00:16:48,680 the same books yeah yeah yeah I when I when I get to that book part like I toyed with 237 00:16:48,680 --> 00:16:52,280 that at the beginning because it was the most obvious thing but it just again I'm a big 238 00:16:52,280 --> 00:16:56,480 believer in the universe of the if everything is kind of saying no then just move on and 239 00:16:56,480 --> 00:17:00,040 kind of you know move on to the next thing and what's amazing about this mom's day with 240 00:17:00,040 --> 00:17:04,760 mom said duck that's what my show is called in May at Corta is that it's the first thing 241 00:17:04,760 --> 00:17:10,560 that I've done with mom said duck that everything's kind of like happening naturally and organically 242 00:17:10,560 --> 00:17:14,960 and you know people are saying yes finally like I've been turned down or ignored for 243 00:17:14,960 --> 00:17:19,600 the past four years straight and so like it's finally sort of like it feels like this was 244 00:17:19,600 --> 00:17:26,280 the right next step so I'm super nervous I'm just as excited as I am nervous so I you know 245 00:17:26,280 --> 00:17:30,040 I almost don't even know what to expect because I've never done anything like this before I've 246 00:17:30,040 --> 00:17:33,120 never written poems leading up to this I've certainly never stood on this stage and said 247 00:17:33,120 --> 00:17:38,040 poems to an audience of moms leading up to this so I'm super nervous but it's I think 248 00:17:38,040 --> 00:17:41,960 I just need to sort of like you know take a big deep breath and this is I did this for 249 00:17:41,960 --> 00:17:47,080 a reason this is I'm here for a reason I I created this event you know so I could say 250 00:17:47,080 --> 00:17:52,360 these poems so just say I mean a lot of the people you're going to know and as you can 251 00:17:52,360 --> 00:17:58,040 see by these little lights the lights on that stage are going to be much brighter so you're 252 00:17:58,040 --> 00:18:02,400 pretty much going to see just your friends and family in the front and you're also a 253 00:18:02,400 --> 00:18:08,280 priestess so you're used to talking to strangers and people you can do this yeah it'll be a 254 00:18:08,280 --> 00:18:11,200 little different you know like I have to hold the crowd for however long you know I'm up 255 00:18:11,200 --> 00:18:16,560 there kind of thing so although I'm saying this and I couldn't do it I actually you've 256 00:18:16,560 --> 00:18:23,360 probably heard that the people's biggest fear in life like you know according to all of 257 00:18:23,360 --> 00:18:29,840 these like stats or whatever is that number one fear is public speaking followed number 258 00:18:29,840 --> 00:18:37,240 two by death so people would rather die public speech which I think is really funny and so 259 00:18:37,240 --> 00:18:41,240 you know that's not me I've always I've always really loved public speaking I kind of you 260 00:18:41,240 --> 00:18:47,040 know I find reasons to public speak you know kind of thing and so it's something I'm comfortable 261 00:18:47,040 --> 00:18:51,760 with that I that I enjoy and so I just have to kind of lean into that and and you know 262 00:18:51,760 --> 00:18:56,320 I think that we all have sort of different superpowers and stuff like that and so I think 263 00:18:56,320 --> 00:19:01,160 that the fact that I enjoy doing that I just need to sort of lean into it these are the 264 00:19:01,160 --> 00:19:04,760 conference I'm driving here like having these conversations in my head so if you went like 265 00:19:04,760 --> 00:19:09,720 okay listen to all the like motivation podcasts there are you know you can do this yeah that's 266 00:19:09,720 --> 00:19:14,040 where I am right now but that's okay you do whatever you have to do today to get there 267 00:19:14,040 --> 00:19:19,600 me it's you know a bottle of wine and some stuff that I bought at the dispensary yeah 268 00:19:19,600 --> 00:19:24,760 yeah well don't think that backstage I won't be like having shots and bring a few gummies 269 00:19:24,760 --> 00:19:31,000 yeah that'll be for after the show but yeah for sure it's going to be great everybody 270 00:19:31,000 --> 00:19:36,680 likes these kind of poems whether you're a parent or not everybody can relate because 271 00:19:36,680 --> 00:19:43,720 we've babysat sometime in our life so the court is on theater it holds to about 90 hundred 272 00:19:43,720 --> 00:19:50,440 people so it's fire marshaled for a hundred yeah and so there will be 75 ish people there 273 00:19:50,440 --> 00:19:55,000 that night yeah I didn't want to be so proud that we were like sardine in there but yeah 274 00:19:55,000 --> 00:19:59,720 but yeah that's a that's a perfect start and then it's gonna grow who knows yeah I don't 275 00:19:59,720 --> 00:20:06,480 know I just I just you know my biggest fear is is death not even necessarily like you know 276 00:20:06,480 --> 00:20:10,800 I'm actually excited to see that I believe in you know the other side and that kind of 277 00:20:10,800 --> 00:20:15,480 stuff right and so I'm excited about about seeing the people that I've lost but I'm scared 278 00:20:15,480 --> 00:20:21,760 to death of not living while I'm here and so I want to show my kids that you know things 279 00:20:21,760 --> 00:20:24,720 can be scary and they can be hard and all these kinds of things but you can still do 280 00:20:24,720 --> 00:20:29,200 it and who cares what other people think and you know and if you if I'm going especially 281 00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:32,960 at you know my short court is on like you said I'm gonna know so many people there and there 282 00:20:32,960 --> 00:20:36,560 are so many people that I don't know which is so fun to like I love that people scooped 283 00:20:36,560 --> 00:20:40,920 up tickets that don't know me and I don't know them I thought that was really cool but the 284 00:20:40,920 --> 00:20:45,040 fact that I'm able to sort of go out there and and do what I need to do and sort of rip 285 00:20:45,040 --> 00:20:50,720 that proverbial band-aid off with my friends and family there it's terrifying because being 286 00:20:50,720 --> 00:20:55,520 in front of your friends and family is almost harder but at the same time you know if I 287 00:20:55,520 --> 00:21:00,120 literally fall or proverbial or you know like what do you call that you know you slip you 288 00:21:00,120 --> 00:21:03,360 know you don't do as well that as you wanted to do that kind of thing at least you're you 289 00:21:03,360 --> 00:21:07,800 know you're surrounded by loved ones who are gonna tell you you know you're they're gonna 290 00:21:07,800 --> 00:21:12,400 tell you you're great anyways exactly which is you know maybe I'll need that maybe I do 291 00:21:12,400 --> 00:21:15,840 you know maybe I do stumble and fall or whatever the case but either way it's it's something 292 00:21:15,840 --> 00:21:20,720 I need to do for myself it's been in my heart and on my mind for a long time I finally just 293 00:21:20,720 --> 00:21:26,720 got it out into the open when I went to Timber Plum Marquis Tuckett's one of her events and 294 00:21:26,720 --> 00:21:31,520 I decided at one of her events I'm just gonna say out loud to these wonderful women who 295 00:21:31,520 --> 00:21:36,360 are super supportive about my idea about saying my poems on stage at court I knew it was gonna 296 00:21:36,360 --> 00:21:39,920 be a court because the office being there and stuff like that such a cool venue and such 297 00:21:39,920 --> 00:21:43,840 a cool theater and so everybody I told that night they're like oh my god this is an amazing 298 00:21:43,840 --> 00:21:46,760 idea you need to do it I need to know when tickets go on sale and da da da right so sometimes 299 00:21:46,760 --> 00:21:51,440 you just need that little push to be like okay I'm gonna I'm gonna try this I'm gonna 300 00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:56,520 do it so yeah and the first one's always the hardest for sure always the hardest yeah you 301 00:21:56,520 --> 00:22:02,920 can gauge by the audience reactions which ones are really good and maybe put those side 302 00:22:02,920 --> 00:22:09,600 it for a book or for another night and yeah exactly keep going yeah yeah that's that's 303 00:22:09,600 --> 00:22:13,840 the goal like I mean you know I have to I'm going into it with a mindset where I'm trying 304 00:22:13,840 --> 00:22:17,600 to give myself grace knowing that you know there will be things that I fumble and mumble 305 00:22:17,600 --> 00:22:21,560 and all this kind of stuff but that's okay you know like that's like this is the first 306 00:22:21,560 --> 00:22:26,520 time you do anything stuff like that's gonna happen so and that's okay perfect boring yeah 307 00:22:26,520 --> 00:22:32,080 and then you're gonna have a ton of stuff to write about because your kids are still 308 00:22:32,080 --> 00:22:38,120 growing up and yeah yeah you haven't even hit the teen yeah we haven't yeah there aren't 309 00:22:38,120 --> 00:22:44,040 any poems yet about puberty or yeah any of these things yeah that's a whole thing unto 310 00:22:44,040 --> 00:22:48,640 itself that's what I hear yeah so yeah yeah that's an and that's the thing about the book 311 00:22:48,640 --> 00:22:52,760 too is like I just don't know when I'm gonna be ready yet so you know when I feel that 312 00:22:52,760 --> 00:22:56,280 push or whatever then then I'll then I'll look into that but yeah it's just not there 313 00:22:56,280 --> 00:23:02,000 yet but it's nice to have all those options whether you restart up your podcast which 314 00:23:02,000 --> 00:23:07,920 I think is a great idea your your Fridays and Fresh Poem Friday yeah that's right yeah 315 00:23:07,920 --> 00:23:12,120 Fresh Poem Friday I don't know why I want to call it free be Friday it is free they're 316 00:23:12,120 --> 00:23:16,920 free so yeah that's probably why you're thinking start charging they're good yeah no you know 317 00:23:16,920 --> 00:23:20,840 and that's the whole thing of it I think it's you know like after four years it's like I 318 00:23:20,840 --> 00:23:25,120 feel everything has evolved so organically and naturally that after four years I felt 319 00:23:25,120 --> 00:23:31,000 comfortable now charging people money to you know to support me right I've been sort of 320 00:23:31,000 --> 00:23:34,080 you know they say giving away your gift give it I've been giving it away now for four years 321 00:23:34,080 --> 00:23:40,440 and so it's like okay like I'm ready to finally you know not feel guilty I'm not I'm always 322 00:23:40,440 --> 00:23:47,240 kind of like cringy about money money and me don't say I and so knowing that I've charged 323 00:23:47,240 --> 00:23:50,720 people money to come to the show and that they've paid and all that kind of stuff there 324 00:23:50,720 --> 00:23:54,800 there's been no guilt whatsoever about it which is which tells me I was ready to charge 325 00:23:54,800 --> 00:24:01,040 money for the thing you know it's time yeah exactly which is good mm-hmm this is awesome 326 00:24:01,040 --> 00:24:06,360 I thank you I'm really excited to see it now that I can go yeah yeah of course you're 327 00:24:06,360 --> 00:24:14,360 totally right VIP baby yeah as I said she is also a barista at anchor coffee house I 328 00:24:14,360 --> 00:24:20,200 know I was just about to say so yeah never mind it was gifted to me it was gifted to 329 00:24:20,200 --> 00:24:26,360 me yes you can't say no to a freebie yeah yeah have you tried out any of the poems on 330 00:24:26,360 --> 00:24:31,880 the people you work with oh the people that anchor is we could do an entire podcast on 331 00:24:31,880 --> 00:24:36,720 how amazing anchor coffee house is like I when I reached out to them about working there 332 00:24:36,720 --> 00:24:40,720 I knew it was a special place because you go in and just get a nice vibe yeah and coffee 333 00:24:40,720 --> 00:24:44,760 is incredible food's great staffs always so sweet and kind and all that kind of stuff 334 00:24:44,760 --> 00:24:48,120 I knew was special and then I started working there and I'm telling you we could do a whole 335 00:24:48,120 --> 00:24:53,200 podcast on why they're so successful they're just they pour love into everything that they 336 00:24:53,200 --> 00:24:58,560 do and it's just like it is such an honor to work there like they're just like the owners 337 00:24:58,560 --> 00:25:03,520 all the staff like everybody is fabulous fabulous and so they're super supportive of mom said 338 00:25:03,520 --> 00:25:09,600 duck in fact Rachel the owner and the brainchild behind which I love because she's a woman and 339 00:25:09,600 --> 00:25:13,760 I'm like a feminist you know and so the fact that like you know all the meat potatoes of 340 00:25:13,760 --> 00:25:18,800 this of anchor come from from Rachel and she asked me if I would do a little thing on their 341 00:25:18,800 --> 00:25:22,240 chalkboard they have their little chalkboard thing there yeah a little thing for Easter 342 00:25:22,240 --> 00:25:26,400 about scones and the Easter Bunny and stuff and so they're always you know she's a she's 343 00:25:26,400 --> 00:25:31,480 a newsletter subscriber too and so and that was the other thing too when I I knew that 344 00:25:31,480 --> 00:25:35,120 I didn't want to go back to my old life of HR and Liberalations and Corporate Setting 345 00:25:35,120 --> 00:25:40,800 and all this kind of stuff I knew that whatever was next for me as it related to working was 346 00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:48,080 going to be a place that I felt comfortable and that I could you know sort of hone in 347 00:25:48,080 --> 00:25:53,040 on my mom said duck stuff not sort of hide it or shy away from it or something like I 348 00:25:53,040 --> 00:25:56,800 would have had to have done if I you know we're back in like that corporate setting 349 00:25:56,800 --> 00:26:02,920 or whatever so you know I made the conscious effort to to be in a place that I thought 350 00:26:02,920 --> 00:26:07,440 would bring me peace and happiness and joy and love and all that kind of stuff and it's 351 00:26:07,440 --> 00:26:13,000 been that tenfold by a landslide they're just the most amazing people and then I'm actually 352 00:26:13,000 --> 00:26:18,960 the only one there who has kids and so my kids are like obsessed with anchor oh my gosh 353 00:26:18,960 --> 00:26:22,160 it's so funny they're so cute and so they got to see the kitchen and all that kind of 354 00:26:22,160 --> 00:26:25,840 stuff so it's been and my husband every time I work I pretty much he's in there you know 355 00:26:25,840 --> 00:26:28,960 grabbing a coffee or whatever so he's kind of like you know part of the crew now and 356 00:26:28,960 --> 00:26:33,280 stuff and like it's just such a oh my gosh it's like they've become like a second family 357 00:26:33,280 --> 00:26:39,720 to me so thank you anchor love you guys being a barista is yeah you were a barista I was 358 00:26:39,720 --> 00:26:45,840 yes it was a corporate Starbucks but I'll tell you one thing I loved it because you can be 359 00:26:45,840 --> 00:26:52,040 creative and also just the amount of people it really helps you get over if you ever have 360 00:26:52,040 --> 00:26:58,120 a fear of talking to strangers talking to people because just connecting with either 361 00:26:58,120 --> 00:27:02,960 the same people every day the same customers and they really appreciate if you remember 362 00:27:02,960 --> 00:27:09,280 them or getting to know the new ones it's a lot of fun and that probably helps a little 363 00:27:09,280 --> 00:27:14,320 bit with the stage fright because you're always on to be honest with you that's like the thing 364 00:27:14,320 --> 00:27:19,800 I found the easiest like that's kind of who I am by the way you're ready my my mom what 365 00:27:19,800 --> 00:27:25,240 are you gonna say sorry I said me I'm I'm the complete opposite so that's awesome okay 366 00:27:25,240 --> 00:27:31,760 I would never have guessed that yeah my mom my whole life I just grew up watching my mom 367 00:27:31,760 --> 00:27:35,200 talking to strangers just everywhere we went it's kind of like a running joke she can just 368 00:27:35,200 --> 00:27:40,240 you know talk to the wall and it'll talk back to her kind of thing and so I just grew up 369 00:27:40,240 --> 00:27:44,040 seeing that and it was just sort of a natural thing I think for me to see and so I just 370 00:27:44,040 --> 00:27:49,720 kind of grew up the same the same way and so that is just like that's my favorite part 371 00:27:49,720 --> 00:27:54,840 that wasn't something I had to learn it was just like I was like this I mean like I'll 372 00:27:54,840 --> 00:27:58,720 go in there and I mean sometimes that place is like lined up literally out the door and 373 00:27:58,720 --> 00:28:03,120 I love that people wait in line to still get their coffee we'll have regulars at the very 374 00:28:03,120 --> 00:28:07,400 back of the line who come in every day and they're and that just amazes me the fact that 375 00:28:07,400 --> 00:28:12,960 they're there on a such a busy day and they're still willing to wait that says a lot about 376 00:28:12,960 --> 00:28:19,640 the staff because I've I've worked at Tim Hortons I've worked at Starbucks and people 377 00:28:19,640 --> 00:28:24,680 are willing to wait they don't care how long it is if they're going to get good service 378 00:28:24,680 --> 00:28:30,200 and I think sometimes they care more about the service than what they do the actual product 379 00:28:30,200 --> 00:28:34,720 and so if they're waiting out the door that's a combination of all of them because I've 380 00:28:34,720 --> 00:28:40,320 been to Anchor Anchor has amazing beverages their pastries I try not to go in there too 381 00:28:40,320 --> 00:28:47,760 much because they're just working there yeah I couldn't do it yeah but they are great so 382 00:28:47,760 --> 00:28:53,080 that that is a testament to what a great place anchor anchor is they just every single good 383 00:28:53,080 --> 00:28:58,040 thing that comes their way is like so so so well deserved and they're just so like such 384 00:28:58,040 --> 00:29:02,440 great community people to community leaders and just you know other cafes open and they're 385 00:29:02,440 --> 00:29:07,440 promoting the other cafe like what a flex yes you know like I just like you know Rachel 386 00:29:07,440 --> 00:29:12,760 putting out all of her all of her recipes on her blog like you know like nothing sort 387 00:29:12,760 --> 00:29:17,760 of is held to their chest they're just so very like oh it is appreciated and it's makes 388 00:29:17,760 --> 00:29:24,840 them beloved in the city and quite honestly I like that about them the best is that they're 389 00:29:24,840 --> 00:29:29,320 so supportive of everybody else in all the other small businesses whether the coffee 390 00:29:29,320 --> 00:29:36,880 houses tea houses or smudge next door they're just one and supportive of all of their employees 391 00:29:36,880 --> 00:29:43,320 oh for sure everyone in there is sort of creative in their own way and they just they just they 392 00:29:43,320 --> 00:29:47,760 harness that so much it's just like it's just and it's it's everything so natural and organic 393 00:29:47,760 --> 00:29:52,200 nothing is forced it's just who they are they're just such good humans it's just who they are 394 00:29:52,200 --> 00:29:56,920 so I just feel so so so so so grateful and lucky to be part of that crew so it really 395 00:29:56,920 --> 00:30:03,160 is a blessing that that job just went away so that you were able to find anchor find 396 00:30:03,160 --> 00:30:10,720 your voice again in the poetic way and yeah it was hard for me to come to terms with that 397 00:30:10,720 --> 00:30:15,840 yeah like I would good things usually are though yeah yeah yeah I like I refer to it 398 00:30:15,840 --> 00:30:19,760 as like an acute depression I had like a cute depression for a short period of time because 399 00:30:19,760 --> 00:30:25,120 of it I really I really had a hard time with it at first but you're right like I mean you 400 00:30:25,120 --> 00:30:30,040 know I and but I even I knew I'm like okay whatever happens just let it sort of like 401 00:30:30,040 --> 00:30:34,640 whatever sort of messages come from the universe or whatever just sort of take it and and run 402 00:30:34,640 --> 00:30:38,240 with it and so and don't get me wrong there have been a lot of things that have not gone 403 00:30:38,240 --> 00:30:42,840 well with mom said duck you know so a lot of things that I look back in those cringe 404 00:30:42,840 --> 00:30:47,360 moments and stuff we have to be I really have to go through those yes cringy things those 405 00:30:47,360 --> 00:30:52,000 things that you know give you a thicker skin to make it to the other side so it's true 406 00:30:52,000 --> 00:30:57,560 change is the scariest thing and then like nothing comes out perfect if it comes out 407 00:30:57,560 --> 00:31:03,680 perfect chances are there probably is something wrong a little wrong with it you're going to 408 00:31:03,680 --> 00:31:08,440 stumble you're going to fall I've done it with this in every other career that I've 409 00:31:08,440 --> 00:31:16,080 had in my 54 years and there's been a lot of them so I mean you're you're getting you 410 00:31:16,080 --> 00:31:19,840 you're finding your grounding and you're getting to a really good place and now you're at the 411 00:31:19,840 --> 00:31:29,160 court is on theater baby and when is that again so it's Friday May 10th yep and tickets 412 00:31:29,160 --> 00:31:35,200 are sold out and it is the one and done show for right now yeah but yeah I'm going to reevaluate 413 00:31:35,200 --> 00:31:39,720 afterward and kind of see you know how did I feel like you know this is also new to me 414 00:31:39,720 --> 00:31:44,560 too right so I think this is what I want to do I'm I'm sort of leaning into the fear and 415 00:31:44,560 --> 00:31:48,520 the excitement of it all and then you know who knows maybe I come out and go okay I did 416 00:31:48,520 --> 00:31:51,440 not like that or whatever the case is I don't know I don't think that's going to be the 417 00:31:51,440 --> 00:31:56,800 case I don't either yeah but who knows you know so I'm just I'm doing it I don't none 418 00:31:56,800 --> 00:32:02,360 of us know what what will happen to us I actually just found out today that my little cousin 419 00:32:02,360 --> 00:32:09,520 died last night yeah I was 26 years old yeah and so it was just kind of another reminder 420 00:32:09,520 --> 00:32:15,480 of like you just never know you just never know and I just want to be able to to do this 421 00:32:15,480 --> 00:32:20,800 I want to do this thing and and and get it done and and say okay I did it now what you 422 00:32:20,800 --> 00:32:26,200 know kind of thing so and then yeah now that I have kids it's like I want I don't want to 423 00:32:26,200 --> 00:32:30,360 just talk about stuff I want to show them and they're actually I I've been toying with 424 00:32:30,360 --> 00:32:35,400 the idea of having them there because mom said duck is like it's talked about in my 425 00:32:35,400 --> 00:32:40,400 house like it's like a pet like it's like it's so just part of it is a duck yeah well 426 00:32:40,400 --> 00:32:47,400 a little story is that so my daughter's 10 my little guy's six and for the longest time 427 00:32:47,400 --> 00:32:51,400 my daughter would say why did you call it mom said duck we don't have a duck we have 428 00:32:51,400 --> 00:32:55,800 a cat why didn't you call it mom said cat and I would always be like Violet you're totally 429 00:32:55,800 --> 00:33:00,040 right like what was I thinking why didn't I call it mom said cat you know and of course 430 00:33:00,040 --> 00:33:03,960 it mom said duck if you type the effort into a text message it auto corrects to duck that's 431 00:33:03,960 --> 00:33:11,320 where the name comes from because we say duck a lot won't wear mommy yeah for sure and so 432 00:33:11,320 --> 00:33:15,720 yeah so it's just so much a part of our lives that and even like you know I was about to 433 00:33:15,720 --> 00:33:20,200 write the grant I was about to sit down and write the grant and I'm again I'm a very passionate 434 00:33:20,200 --> 00:33:25,160 person I feel a lot and so I started to cry before I started to write the grant because 435 00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:27,880 I'm like oh my god am I really going to do this what if I get it like what if it actually 436 00:33:27,880 --> 00:33:31,640 happens you know kind of thing and so I mean I'm not bawling or anything but like the tears 437 00:33:31,640 --> 00:33:35,640 are kind of streaming down my face and my daughter looked over and said mommy are you 438 00:33:35,640 --> 00:33:40,160 crying and I said yeah I'm crying so why are you crying and I said because I'm about to 439 00:33:40,160 --> 00:33:44,080 do something really scary for mom said duck and I want to do it but I'm just really scared 440 00:33:44,080 --> 00:33:50,520 about it and she said oh don't cry we're here for you oh yeah 10 yeah yeah well she was 441 00:33:50,520 --> 00:33:55,480 nine at the time but yeah like and so just you know there there's so much a part of it 442 00:33:55,480 --> 00:34:00,640 you know that it's like I think I I think as much as it may send them the therapy having 443 00:34:00,640 --> 00:34:06,200 them there at the same time I think it's really important that they're there because kids 444 00:34:06,200 --> 00:34:09,800 sort of get left out of stuff like that I don't want them to see the recording of it 445 00:34:09,800 --> 00:34:13,520 I want them to see the real deal and feel that energy you know the stuff that you can't 446 00:34:13,520 --> 00:34:17,920 see on this on the screen that you know you have to feel it see you feel it see that mommy 447 00:34:17,920 --> 00:34:25,160 scared a little bit before she gets on and I think it would be good and you can also 448 00:34:25,160 --> 00:34:30,520 say afterward this is what you do yeah yeah right and so like I said it may send them 449 00:34:30,520 --> 00:34:35,920 to therapy one day but but it may not it may also give them the courage to go out and do 450 00:34:35,920 --> 00:34:40,920 something really scary that's my hope that's my goal and so that's why I keep I keep thinking 451 00:34:40,920 --> 00:34:44,600 that yeah maybe they should be there that night so an adult's only show mm-hmm there 452 00:34:44,600 --> 00:34:51,840 will be booze specialty cocktails there that night yeah what's popping is what's popping 453 00:34:51,840 --> 00:35:00,960 sorry is going to be donating a hundred cone popcorn things are little bags of popcorn 454 00:35:00,960 --> 00:35:04,560 and there'll be a half of them will be blue and half of them will be pink we're gonna 455 00:35:04,560 --> 00:35:11,680 have pink and blue drinks and wine and beer and okay yeah we're gonna very excited so 456 00:35:11,680 --> 00:35:17,280 many giveaways there's like so many people who have agreed to participate in a giveaway 457 00:35:17,280 --> 00:35:22,720 yes the last time I talked to you you were just starting to get that all okay yeah yeah 458 00:35:22,720 --> 00:35:27,880 yeah so I'm actually leading up to the show I reached out to Molly made Windsor as part 459 00:35:27,880 --> 00:35:32,800 of the International Women's Day giveaway and so I said would you be interested in oh 460 00:35:32,800 --> 00:35:36,320 my gosh yeah Candice parent is her name so oh my gosh I would be totally interested let's 461 00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:39,760 let's do it so we did that that was gonna be part of my show but I thought it's kind of 462 00:35:39,760 --> 00:35:43,040 fun to do for International Women's Day what does mom want more than anything other than 463 00:35:43,040 --> 00:35:47,760 wine maybe a clean house is a clean house right so so we did that so that was really 464 00:35:47,760 --> 00:35:55,360 fun and then we've got Wolf and Rebel so any from Wolf and Rebel has given us a or 465 00:35:55,360 --> 00:36:03,200 given me a gift card anchor coffee house is going to be donating something Angela Unholzer 466 00:36:03,200 --> 00:36:09,560 and oh my gosh why can't I think of her she's a massage therapist on Ottawa Street she's 467 00:36:09,560 --> 00:36:14,920 donating a free massage I've got like a special one that I'm not talking about to anybody 468 00:36:14,920 --> 00:36:19,000 yet and that will be giving away so we've got lots of fun fun little giveaways will 469 00:36:19,000 --> 00:36:24,720 be giving away that night too so if you snagged a ticket yay and if not make sure that you 470 00:36:24,720 --> 00:36:35,640 do follow mom said duck on Instagram and Facebook and sign up for the Friday newsletters yes 471 00:36:35,640 --> 00:36:41,320 and make sure that you follow her because we all need a little laugh we all are going 472 00:36:41,320 --> 00:36:46,120 through the same thing in different stages of momhood yeah some people are just better 473 00:36:46,120 --> 00:36:51,120 at hiding it or even life in general I mean life in general exactly yeah this is and I 474 00:36:51,120 --> 00:36:55,640 think that's part of that's I think one of my superpowers too is I've always been vulnerable 475 00:36:55,640 --> 00:37:00,240 I've always been willing to sort of tell the messy side of my life you know people it gets 476 00:37:00,240 --> 00:37:03,600 me in trouble in terms of you know people will walk away and oh my gosh did you hear 477 00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:06,720 what she said she did this or she you know she admitted to did it and it's like well 478 00:37:06,720 --> 00:37:11,400 yeah but you did it too you just did it exactly I've kind of always that's always been like 479 00:37:11,400 --> 00:37:16,880 a little bit of a catch 22 for me where it's like you know I I don't mind being vulnerable 480 00:37:16,880 --> 00:37:22,040 to I am but it does you know people use it against you too so but I forget about them 481 00:37:22,040 --> 00:37:26,320 you know I try to kind of keep stepping into positivity yeah I realize that you know that's 482 00:37:26,320 --> 00:37:30,960 that's their thing they can kind of pretend that life is perfect in their Instagram world 483 00:37:30,960 --> 00:37:36,560 that's just not and you know what at the end of the day they may not show it but they probably 484 00:37:36,560 --> 00:37:40,960 are happy to know that yeah somebody else is going through it too they just don't want 485 00:37:40,960 --> 00:37:45,040 it I think so and I think that's like the beauty of of social media too like you know 486 00:37:45,040 --> 00:37:48,200 it's such a double-edged sword and I think that's my favorite thing about social media 487 00:37:48,200 --> 00:37:52,640 is especially now that we've sort of like all realized like all these filters and all 488 00:37:52,640 --> 00:37:56,680 this you know perfection is not you know blah blah like we've kind of all come to terms 489 00:37:56,680 --> 00:38:00,040 all these things and it's like I think that's my favorite thing about social media is like 490 00:38:00,040 --> 00:38:04,080 you read a quote or you you know like you see something or whatever and you totally relate 491 00:38:04,080 --> 00:38:08,840 to it and you're like holy shit I thought yeah like I how do they know that you know 492 00:38:08,840 --> 00:38:13,680 kind of thing and it's like so we've all okay okay so I'm normal turns out you know kind 493 00:38:13,680 --> 00:38:20,720 of thing so yeah it's just it is nice and really unfortunately none of the filters makes 494 00:38:20,720 --> 00:38:31,440 this look good I tried them and it's just really weird filters are so lame anyway don't 495 00:38:31,440 --> 00:38:35,200 get me wrong I like to take a good you know duck face selfie here and there and throw 496 00:38:35,200 --> 00:38:40,160 on a good Instagram filter but or what are you know snapchat so my favorite filters but 497 00:38:40,160 --> 00:38:46,280 you know like it's just for fun I need to do Jake's uh filter here filters with the 498 00:38:46,280 --> 00:39:02,280 big lips weekend Botox weekend killer yeah but Jill I want to thank you so much for stopping 499 00:39:02,280 --> 00:39:09,040 in today and give us a little peek in here oh it's great and definitely make sure that 500 00:39:09,040 --> 00:39:16,400 you follow Jill on mom's head duck and Instagram you have a website as well I do yeah I have 501 00:39:16,400 --> 00:39:23,400 a website yeah Facebook and get in on her Friday yeah my Friday poems yeah I swear to 502 00:39:23,400 --> 00:39:27,040 God I'm never going to get home Friday no it's okay yeah Friday's my favorite day of 503 00:39:27,040 --> 00:39:30,200 the week so that's why when I chose to put out the poems I chose Friday because it's 504 00:39:30,200 --> 00:39:33,800 always been my favorite day of the week still is and I just want to come up with something 505 00:39:33,800 --> 00:39:37,440 cute and funny to to kind of like put it out there whatever so yeah that's where fresh 506 00:39:37,440 --> 00:39:43,160 poem Friday came from but yeah excellent yeah follow me and and and get on the newsletter 507 00:39:43,160 --> 00:39:46,760 and that's where you'll hear about upcoming shows because I have a feeling there will 508 00:39:46,760 --> 00:39:50,640 be more so you have to you can't just be a one and done I don't know who knows maybe 509 00:39:50,640 --> 00:39:54,760 you know maybe like you know you go you hit him hit him hard on the way in and call today 510 00:39:54,760 --> 00:40:01,920 there we go you're way too much going on to to be a one and done thank you but again my 511 00:40:01,920 --> 00:40:06,080 name is Tracy Martens and I want to thank you so much for joining me for another episode 512 00:40:06,080 --> 00:40:13,480 of YQG In bloom make sure that you 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