1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:05,000 This is MJ. I'm an author, I'm an artist, I'm an analyzer. You can find all my work at MJMunoz.com. 2 00:00:05,000 --> 00:00:16,000 Welcome to Story Over Everything, episode 35.001. You can not always win. 3 00:00:18,000 --> 00:00:23,000 It's been another rough week for me in writing and in drawing. 4 00:00:23,000 --> 00:00:33,000 In fact, looking back on the week, I'm not sure if I've written or drawn at all over the period of time that I'm supposed to have written or drawn, 5 00:00:33,000 --> 00:00:43,000 which is September 3rd to September 8th. I don't know, I guess it's September 2nd to September 8th. I don't think I've done anything. 6 00:00:43,000 --> 00:00:53,000 And I know why. I have good concrete, tangible reasons why I didn't write during this period of time. 7 00:00:53,000 --> 00:01:01,000 It doesn't mean that I like those reasons. And some things in life are unavoidable. 8 00:01:01,000 --> 00:01:15,000 As much as you want to believe that if you believe hard enough, it will happen, as much as you want to believe that love never fades and friendships never end, 9 00:01:15,000 --> 00:01:26,000 as much as you want to believe that stick-to-it-iveness alone is enough to carry you through, I don't know that that's true. 10 00:01:26,000 --> 00:01:34,000 And that's not what I'm experiencing right now in life. And even if those things are true, which honestly I hope all of them are, 11 00:01:34,000 --> 00:01:47,000 even if all those things are true, sometimes you get defeated. Sometimes you get beat down. You can't win them all after all. 12 00:01:47,000 --> 00:02:00,000 That's what they say. And I believe that. I forgot that you can't win them all means that sometimes you're going to lose. 13 00:02:00,000 --> 00:02:07,000 And I guess I've forgotten, because things have been going so well for me lately, as far as my creative endeavors are concerned, 14 00:02:07,000 --> 00:02:22,000 sometimes you are going to lose means that you will be thoroughly thrashed. You will be locked down, put down, shot down every time you try to get back up 15 00:02:22,000 --> 00:02:31,000 and walked all over by whatever it is in life that you are competing against. Sometimes that's yourself. Sometimes that's your schedule. 16 00:02:31,000 --> 00:02:43,000 Sometimes that's, I don't even know what, but what is it? The righteous man falls down seven times, but that means he keeps getting up. 17 00:02:43,000 --> 00:02:51,000 And I think I've heard somebody from the Land of Israel Network said that it's not that he falls down seven times. 18 00:02:51,000 --> 00:02:58,000 It's that he's righteous, therefore he falls down seven times and keeps getting up. He falls down seven times and he keeps getting up, 19 00:02:58,000 --> 00:03:09,000 so that he's a righteous man. So yeah, I'm not doing anything moral by writing. I'm following my own heart's desires by writing and drawing 20 00:03:09,000 --> 00:03:20,000 and getting these stories out. So I'm not saying I'm trying to stop myself from robbing banks or anything, God forbid. 21 00:03:20,000 --> 00:03:30,000 I'm trying to do my heart's desire of getting me, of being creative and using that creative writing and drawing outlet to make my soul happy, 22 00:03:30,000 --> 00:03:38,000 make my heart happy, make some deep part of me happy and feel contented. And I just have not been able to do that. 23 00:03:38,000 --> 00:03:48,000 I've been doing extra work that has taken me, well the details don't matter. I've been doing extra work that has taken me out of the house 24 00:03:48,000 --> 00:04:02,000 and for an extra period of time. I'm getting home. I'm walking at least one kid to sleep, at least one time if not two. 25 00:04:02,000 --> 00:04:10,000 Thank you God for the opportunity I have to spend time with my children, snuggling. 26 00:04:10,000 --> 00:04:20,000 And I basically want to collapse into bed after that and spend a little bit of time with my wife. 27 00:04:20,000 --> 00:04:29,000 And then I have to go to sleep before the night is over. Last night I literally sat in bed and I thought I should write. 28 00:04:29,000 --> 00:04:37,000 I should at least draw. And I thought I don't want to write. I don't want to draw. I'm too tired. My feet hurt. 29 00:04:37,000 --> 00:04:45,000 I've got other things I need to do. And I ended up spending about 21 minutes later doing more stuff for a job. 30 00:04:45,000 --> 00:04:54,000 And I was waiting for a call from somebody for another job. And I don't know if I'm going to get that today or when that one's going to come. 31 00:04:54,000 --> 00:05:02,000 But that's like a huge possibility, a huge potential for me in the literary world. And that's where I want to be. 32 00:05:02,000 --> 00:05:10,000 And again, thank God for my wife. She came across the opportunity for me to enter the literary world in this very interesting way. 33 00:05:10,000 --> 00:05:21,000 It's like perfect for everything that I've been doing, all the stuff that I've been listening to, all the thoughts that I've had, all the plans that I've wanted to implement for myself as an author. 34 00:05:21,000 --> 00:05:30,000 This situation came up, this opportunity came up where I could take all those things I've been wanting to do and that I think are great ideas that I can see other people having success with. 35 00:05:30,000 --> 00:05:36,000 And I can implement them in this situation and make something really good out of it. 36 00:05:36,000 --> 00:05:47,000 And I'm not sure. I'm barely hanging in there. This is the second day in a row. I woke up super late to get to work. 37 00:05:47,000 --> 00:05:56,000 Again, thank God no kids woke up this morning with me for me to have to attend to before I could 100% get off and go into work. 38 00:05:56,000 --> 00:06:01,000 It's not only me that's having sleepless nights lately. We've got sick kids in the house. It's my wife as well. 39 00:06:01,000 --> 00:06:06,000 So I'm sure she's bearing the brunt of it. But I'm just so tired. I'm so, so tired. 40 00:06:06,000 --> 00:06:21,000 And I even, I did seize the opportunity last night. I could have written while I was walking last night at 2, I don't know, from like 2.15, 2.10 to like 2.45, 2.50. 41 00:06:21,000 --> 00:06:26,000 I was up walking one of the times I was walking. I think I'd walked before them as well. 42 00:06:26,000 --> 00:06:36,000 But I was listening to some biblical teachings because I want to make sure that I do that a certain amount each day. 43 00:06:36,000 --> 00:06:43,000 And that has also been harder for me to do every day and as consistently as I want to. And that's also frustrating for me. 44 00:06:43,000 --> 00:06:48,000 But anyway, I did that. I prioritized that because I think that's important. 45 00:06:48,000 --> 00:06:54,000 And that's what's keeping me centered, what's keeping me more. But I don't know. 46 00:06:54,000 --> 00:07:02,000 I hate to come back to saying it's a struggle and poor me because it's not poor me. I, it's not for me. I have so many blessings. 47 00:07:02,000 --> 00:07:10,000 I have so much good. It's just I'm in a trough right now. Right. The phrase peaks and troughs. I'm in a trough right now. 48 00:07:10,000 --> 00:07:15,000 And I need to climb back out. In fact, although I was about to break into song. 49 00:07:15,000 --> 00:07:25,000 Hand over hand over hand over hand. I'll crawl till I can stand. I think is the way that line goes. 50 00:07:25,000 --> 00:07:28,000 If I sang it, I'd know. I'm going to sing and if you hate it, too bad. 51 00:07:28,000 --> 00:07:41,000 Hand over hand over hand. Hand over hand till I can. No, I can't remember. 52 00:07:41,000 --> 00:07:53,000 I'll crawl. It's really impressive. I was just drowning. I'll crawl. Might as well be a butterfly. 53 00:07:53,000 --> 00:08:00,000 Anyway, that's from one of my favorite bands ever. And it's a really I know I love it. It's an inspiring song. 54 00:08:00,000 --> 00:08:05,000 It makes me feel like I can go. In fact, as soon as I finish this, I'm going to listen to that. 55 00:08:05,000 --> 00:08:10,000 And then I'll let you get to listen to me talking about Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets. 56 00:08:10,000 --> 00:08:15,000 So the plan is and I do not know if it will come to fruition today because things are so hectic. 57 00:08:15,000 --> 00:08:19,000 And I'm on my way to work and I'm going to try to you know, I'm not going to clock in. 58 00:08:19,000 --> 00:08:25,000 I'm going to eat something first before I clock in because I'm hungry. That's the thing, too. I've been so hungry. 59 00:08:25,000 --> 00:08:36,000 I was charged up. I will. Yeah, I'm going to try to take a few minutes of like sanity because I got up late. 60 00:08:36,000 --> 00:08:41,000 I rushed off this morning and I decided I got to do something. I got to do something. 61 00:08:41,000 --> 00:08:52,000 So I'll talk about my failures real quick and I'll talk about perseverance, I guess, and how hard it is to get back up and to do what you need to do. 62 00:08:52,000 --> 00:09:01,000 And yeah, golly, I'm having a super hard time. But again, thank God I have the strength. I'm still alive. I'm still here. 63 00:09:01,000 --> 00:09:10,000 I can still fog a mirror. I can still do this. I just need to move forward a little bit at a time and crawl if I have to. 64 00:09:10,000 --> 00:09:18,000 So yeah, I decided in the last like 34 seconds that I am going to rip that song from YouTube and I'm going to put it here at the end of the episode. 65 00:09:18,000 --> 00:09:27,000 I hope you enjoy. And anyway, I'm going the next episode of Story of Everything I will put out is a skimming leaves episode. 66 00:09:27,000 --> 00:09:36,000 It'll be episode 35.5 and it'll be my casual book chat skimming leaves on Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets. 67 00:09:36,000 --> 00:09:48,000 I'm stuck in book five. I don't know when I'll finish it, but I'm going to be brave and I'm going to let there be a lag in the content if there has to be because, yeah, just the way my time is being used right now. 68 00:09:48,000 --> 00:09:53,000 I'm having a very difficult time getting anything else done. But enough complaining. 69 00:09:53,000 --> 00:10:02,000 Now, you know, if you want to skip out on this song, this really awesome, cool, inspirational song by a fantastic award winning, long, long active, long action. 70 00:10:02,000 --> 00:10:08,000 How would you say that band with a long career, many successes, many feathers in their caps. 71 00:10:08,000 --> 00:10:14,000 They go ahead and skip out and you can go ahead and listen to hopefully well and stick around for on the feed. 72 00:10:14,000 --> 00:10:18,000 The next thing to come out is going to be that skimming leaves episode of Chamber of Secrets. 73 00:10:18,000 --> 00:10:26,000 So anyway, folks, enjoy that. Be strong. Be strong. Be strong, folks. Be strong and keep going. 74 00:10:26,000 --> 00:10:30,000 Whatever it is that you're after, keep going for it because you're the only one stopping you. 75 00:10:30,000 --> 00:10:35,000 That's the truth. Oh, well, you're the only one stopping you from getting what you want. 76 00:10:35,000 --> 00:10:43,000 And you got to learn to work with yourself, forgive yourself and say, no, we're going to keep doing this. 77 00:10:43,000 --> 00:10:48,000 I know it's hard. I know we're tired. I know whatever, but we're going to do this. 78 00:10:48,000 --> 00:10:52,000 And yeah, we're not going to think we're just going to make it happen. 79 00:10:52,000 --> 00:10:59,000 So anyway, with that, be well, folks. Until next time, this is MJ signing out and enjoy these cool tunes. 80 00:10:59,000 --> 00:11:22,000 Coming up next from their hit album, Grinning Streak, it's Crawl by BNL. 81 00:11:22,000 --> 00:11:32,000 It's harder than it looks to move through water. 82 00:11:32,000 --> 00:11:42,000 First, you've got to paddle like a pup. 83 00:11:42,000 --> 00:11:52,000 You see yourself, you're sure you'll land to slaughter. 84 00:11:52,000 --> 00:12:01,000 See, take what was pure and lock it up. 85 00:12:01,000 --> 00:12:06,000 I'll throw my hands up and drag myself through. 86 00:12:06,000 --> 00:12:12,000 I'll take my feet because I'm learning to crawl. 87 00:12:12,000 --> 00:12:19,000 It's really impressive when I was just drowning. 88 00:12:19,000 --> 00:12:32,000 I'll crawl. Might as well be a butterfly. 89 00:12:32,000 --> 00:12:41,000 I'll hold my breath and just stay under. 90 00:12:41,000 --> 00:12:51,000 Now there's rings of fire on the lake. 91 00:12:51,000 --> 00:13:01,000 Looking back from here, I have to wonder. 92 00:13:01,000 --> 00:13:10,000 How much did I think that I could take? 93 00:13:10,000 --> 00:13:15,000 So I'll throw my hands up and drag myself through. 94 00:13:15,000 --> 00:13:20,000 I'll take my feet because I'm learning to crawl. 95 00:13:20,000 --> 00:13:28,000 It's really impressive when I was just drowning. 96 00:13:28,000 --> 00:13:38,000 I'll crawl. Might as well be a butterfly. 97 00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:48,000 I'll crawl. It's really impressive when I was just drowning. 98 00:13:48,000 --> 00:13:58,000 I'll crawl. Might as well be a butterfly. 99 00:13:58,000 --> 00:14:08,000 Hand over, hand over hand. 100 00:14:08,000 --> 00:14:17,000 Hand over hand, till I believe that I can stand. 101 00:14:17,000 --> 00:14:37,000 I'll crawl. 102 00:14:37,000 --> 00:14:46,000 I'll crawl. It's really impressive when I was just drowning. 103 00:14:46,000 --> 00:14:56,000 I'll crawl. Might as well be a butterfly. 104 00:14:56,000 --> 00:15:06,000 I'll crawl. It's really impressive when I was just drowning. 105 00:15:06,000 --> 00:15:16,000 I'll crawl. Might as well be a butterfly. 106 00:15:16,000 --> 00:15:45,000 I'll crawl. 107 00:15:45,000 --> 00:15:55,000 I'll crawl. 108 00:16:15,000 --> 00:16:25,000 I'll crawl. 109 00:16:25,000 --> 00:16:49,000 I'll crawl. 110 00:16:49,000 --> 00:16:59,000 I'll crawl. 111 00:17:19,000 --> 00:17:47,000 I'll crawl. 112 00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:56,000 I hope you enjoyed that. Go to MJMunoz.com to leave any questions, comments, or other feedback you might have. 113 00:17:56,000 --> 00:18:00,000 There you can find all of my analysis, art, and fiction. 114 00:18:00,000 --> 00:18:05,000 I cover books, tokusatsu, comic books, anime, and more. 115 00:18:05,000 --> 00:18:09,000 Look around, you're sure to find something else that you'll enjoy as well. 116 00:18:09,000 --> 00:18:24,000 This has been a Story Over Everything production.