Alright everybody, welcome to this week's episode
of Super Freak. I am your host Talia and I have
made my way back from a very interesting sojourn
of memory recall and for those of you who have
been following along then you know I just finished
a very profound let's say reorganization and
assignment to the Basilica in Vatican City in
Rome. And I'm still recalibrating from all of
that. As information comes in, I will share some
of it on a podcast. For those of you in the field
hub and the pattern lab, you guys will get a
deeper dive into the mechanics. And for those
who have questions in upcoming sessions, I'm
happy to answer those for you as well. So I am
currently back in California, in Los Angeles,
particularly for the first time in close to six
years. And the state and condition of this city...
is really difficult to witness. It is a state
of such deep disempowerment and just the separation
and the brokenness of the zombie apocalypse that
I have been walking and interacting with the
last three days. Astonishing. really like how
how did we get here right this is the questions
i'm asking like i talk about all this this stuff
all the time you guys know this um it's one thing
to see stuff and talk about it and have the embodied
understanding of it but it's a whole other to
have to experience the the literal feedback loop
of that awareness, like literally feeling like
I am dropped in into this world, absolutely not
of it, almost invisible, but seeing everything.
Like I feel like I've just been projected into
this grid line to gather information and then
I'll be sent somewhere else. in a way which I
never thought I would be doing any of this when
I first started all of this work kind of actually
like scoffed laughed at the idea that you know
you can just walk around a place and the field
changes but it is absolutely after 20 years of
studying all of this exactly how it happens so
I'm going to get into this in layers and this
is coming off of a sub -sec essay, which thank
you all very much for the feedback on that, of
the Quiet Cost of Obedience. And this is moving
into a three -part series of engineered reality.
But in today's podcast, I'm going to talk about
the mechanics of how consciousness and the grid
line that you're in reflects the consciousness
that is running and available. within that grid
line. It creates various succinct feedback loops
and you are going to see the polarity of it.
So when I'm walking around Venice Beach seeing
the state of humanity in this deep state of polarization,
their separation from themselves, I'm not disgusted,
I'm not feeling all the way unsafe even though
I've been clocked by some zombied, drugged out,
homeless, walking very very early in the morning
because of course I have this massive jet lag.
But I never, I feel fine because I know how energetically
to protect myself and stuff but even still you
never know because it's very unpredictable when
people are that disembodied. But I'm very like
quite sad by the state. of how broken people
are and how disassociated they are and how it
is absolutely a zombie apocalypse and how orchestrated
that has been to move into bicosis like I talked
about in my last episode, which is like a complete
and total bifurcation of mind and body to the
point where it's creating its own version of
psychosis. So when I walk around and see people
this disenfranchised from their the God within
them. Mechanically how that happens is they literally
cannot sense, feel or have access to a different
way of being. So that pattern will get recursed
so deeply that it starts to operate inside of
a concentric circle feedback loop. So if you
can imagine those really horrifying rides at
Disneyland where it's like teacups and you're
in a teacup that's in a saucer and there's like
three to four of those teacups on saucers violently
rotating themselves in one direction while simultaneously
the entire ride that those saucers are on are
violently oscillating the other direction so
it's creating this deliberate attempt to, under
the guise of it being a really good time, disorient
your temporal anchoring. And it's not a surprise
that is inside of the Alice in Wonderland part
of these parks, which is very metaphorically
based. on time and time references and losing
time, where Alison goes down to the rabbit hole,
she's chasing a rabbit that's always late, and
then she subsequently wakes up from the dream
and goes back into reality. So it's very much
based on a lot of mathematics and time references.
And then so you have this ride that is moving
you completely deliberately out of that, which
is kind of how I see these people as I walk through
and down this very long Boardwalk, which I haven't
been on again in so long so very interesting
There is a violent Some of it is very very slow
oscillation. The other one is extremely high
vibrating oscillations in this in a concentric
circle and it's like glitching and It kind of
is a like a flashing light going on and off and
they just cannot stop this violent individual
feedback loop that they're in. So there's a very
succinct, as I was just walking this morning,
there's a way that this presents itself, mechanically,
how this happens. And I wrote down some of it
so I could be able to not collapse into, let's
say, the empathy part of what I've been experiencing.
with people because it's very sad to see animals,
couples, the state of the animals that are with
homeless people, the amount of disassociation
that's there, and the state of humanity in general
at this point in this particular grid line even
after I've been in all these other places all
over the world the last six months. So I'm gonna
just deliver it to you as it came to me and we'll
go from there and then see see how we feel. How
did we get here will be answered at some point
because essentially this is all happening in
succession. We got here because of recursive
patterning. We got here because we are conditioned
to hate change. We got here because I'll say
people don't hate change, nervous systems do.
And there has been an intentional veiling of
access to self. There has been a deliberate attempt
to disenfranchise the nuclear family, to separate
us from the God within us. And now we are a collective
cohort that is more medicated and in debt and
separate from each other and polarized. from
each other now more than ever across the globe.
And the good news about all of that is the unveiling
is here. We are actively inside of it and there
will continue to be planted stories, planted
events to further perpetuate outrage. And I go
into that at length. in again, this engineered
reality series coming up on Substack. So please
follow along over there and let's get into it.
So essentially the question that I asked, even
though I kind of already knew the answer like
intuitively, but I don't know if I've actually
talked about it in this way, but how... How does
the polarity of people's experience reflect the
consciousness of the grid line that you're living
on? That was the question. So how does the polarity
of people's experience within a particular grid
line reflect the collective consciousness of
that grid line? And the answer that I got was
first, there's individual collective feedback
loops. So in quantum psychosomatics, okay, your
polarized experiences aren't just psychological
or energetic. They're quantum states held in
your cellular matrix that entangle with the field's
collective body. So you have your individual
field and then you have the auric field of the
collective. that you're operating inside of.
And that goes by neighborhood, by neighborhood,
by neighborhood. So when you experience extreme
polarity by way of, like, expansion contraction,
homelessness complete, you know, next to millionaires,
when you have that level of polarity, your somatic
system collapses specific quantum probabilities
into biological reality. So these collapses don't
happen in isolation, they happen through field
intelligence. Your body's quantum state instantaneously
correlates with other bodies processing similar
polarities. So the feedback loop is actually
quantum entanglement at the quantum psychosomatic
level. Your cells know what the collective body
knows because they are the collective body differentiated.
So essentially, You have an individual feedback
loop, and then you have an individual collective
feedback loop. So this is why your environment
is an environment that you co -regulate with.
Because gridlines are information highways. Okay,
they're not metaphorical pathways. They're quantum
coherence networks where field intelligence self
-organizes. And as you move through memory, you're
going to be guided and pinged to go to specific
locations to become even more coherent versions
of yourselves. Okay. You're going to move into
a different type of network. So your field intelligence
can reorganize itself. So your body acts as both
a node and an antenna. So polarized. psychosomatic
states create measurable quantum signatures and
each grid line has its own signature. So right
now, because there's so much fascia crystalline
restructuring that are propagating through our
nervous systems and morphogenic fields at the
moment, high polarity experiences generate stronger
quantum coherence or decoherence patterns. So
that is an intentional, let's say instruction
with fields. It's intentional. So I'm going to
say that again. High polarity experiences generate
stronger quantum coherence or decoherence patterns.
When let's say multiple bodies in proximity hold
similar psychosomatic tensions, they create standing
wave patterns in the local field, what shows
up as charged locations or collective resonance
zones. The grid isn't carrying information, it
is information achieving self -awareness through
distributed embodiment. Okay. This is why certain
fields and certain locations have an amplified
energetic expression to them. Sedona. Mount Shasta.
spiritual vortices. Yes, the land and the grid
line and the consciousness of that land holds
a specific resonance, but it's what is being
generated inside that field in terms of intention
that creates a completely different or amplified
charge within that field. So people will say,
oh my God, every single time I just go to this
particular part of the beach or everything, every
single time I go to, you know, Sedona or Mount
Shasta or Glastonbury, I just get all of these
messages and I feel a certain way. Part of that
is because of the grid line. Part of that also
is because of what we're doing to influence that
grid line. And part of that is our nervous system
establishing meaning making and familiarity around
a certain location and grid line. So we have
and create an expected outcome from that particular
grid line. So it's information highways. The
next point as to how we get here, okay, how we
get so extremely polarized and how certain people
just cannot. cannot see a different way out confirms
the synthetic and the organic architecture that's
completely being established now and how our
nervous systems are syncing up with one or the
other. But it is this polarization integration
paradox. So your body exists in superposition
until observation. Okay, conscious awareness
collapses it into a specific psychosomatic state.
So polarity isn't... isn't dysfunction, it's
your quantum system maintaining multiple potential
states simultaneously. This is what holding paradox
is. So the person experiencing chronic pain and
let's say spontaneous remission isn't confused,
they're embodying quantum superposition until
field intelligence decides which let's say timeline
or comprehensive pattern aggregate to collapse
into manifestation. So, if you can hold paradox
and then through that emergent field, spontaneous
remission becomes possible for you without collapsing
into the patterns that created that, let's say,
cancer experience for you. Like, why does your
consciousness have to create homelessness or
cancer or a symptom in order to remember itself?
Okay? That's the question I ask a lot with when
I see symptoms is What is happening at a working
at a recursive level in the consciousness that
you're stationed at now? With regards to how
you're rendering yourself in time now that is
creating this level of body pain separation debt
recursive patterning Feedback loop with lack.
What is actually going on there? What are we
not understanding so? If you can experience and
embody, let's say, or hold the paradox around
that superposition until the field intelligence,
again, decides which timeline to collapse and
then into manifestation slash personal experience,
if you could hold that, then those patterns,
you move through the patterns at, let's say,
a more efficient rate. So collective consciousness
holds all polarities as simultaneous quantum
potential. It's no different than us individually.
So because we hold all of these polarities simultaneously,
integration doesn't mean choosing one pole. It
means expanding your somatic capacity to hold
quantum superposition without premature collapse.
So the collective body evolves by increasing
its coherence bandwidth its ability to maintain
paradox semantically without fragmenting into
Discrete either or states so when I see this
level of clarity that's telling me that the consciousness
that's surrounding it Doesn't have a whole lot
of coherence bandwidth. They're being very distracted
by performance goodies and an abundance of things
to do and keeping you constantly in the future
away from a slower nature -bound pace deliberately
so you're not individually expanding more of
your capacity to be able to hold more paradox
and more of your own light. So that creates a
reflective mirroring dynamic. and I've talked
about mirror mechanics a lot. I posted and wrote
about it on Substack on December 25th. Kind of
an interesting stack, go check that out. So the
reflective mirroring, essentially the consciousness
here and the grid line here and the people here
are reflecting the consciousness it's running.
So you're not receiving the field's polarities,
you are the field achieving local observation.
When your body experiences this level of polarity,
It's because the field intelligence is using
your nervous system to measure its own quantum
state. So let me just say that again. The field
around you is utilizing your field, the intelligence
that's running in your field, as a way to measure
itself, its own quantum state. Which... Again,
whenever I get into the deeper layers of this
work, always becomes so unbelievably simple that
what you think about, you bring about, the people
that you surround yourself with matter, that
it's all about coherence. Coherence is the name
of the game. And the more people aware individually
of who can hold their own, like their own selves,
who can have themselves and hold paradox the
most. change the field that they're in. That
is how we collectively evolve. So, the universe
knowing itself, right, through us individually,
it's because the field is using your nervous
system, the plasma of your bodies to reflect
what's happening back to it, literally ontological
systems, very much how... Large language models
are working right now in reflective mirroring
mechanics in order to understand itself better
so Let's say more sensitive bodies act as quantum
measurement devices for let's say the collective
soma your migraine your autoimmune flare your
spontaneous Kundalini activation Okay, these
are not personal pathologies or achievements.
They're just the collective body taking quantum
measurements of itself through your psychosomatic
apparatus. So you feel torn between extremes
because the field is torn. And your body is sophisticated
enough to register that quantum tension cellularly
before it collapses into consensus reality. So
the implications of all this is, unfortunately,
what unintegrated polarity looks like. There's
some questions that I think we should be asking
ourselves when we're interacting in these environments.
It's not enough just to ignore what's going on.
It's asking a different set of questions as to
where the pressure is actually coming from. So
let me walk you through some questions, you guys.
Like, let's do a field audit, okay? Because I
know I just said a bunch of stuff. You're like,
okay, Talia, well, that sounds really great.
But just understand and take away this one idea,
okay? Polarity is not a dysfunction. It's just
a gradient. And gradient is required for any
type of phase transition. So if you think about
each continent as like one big brain, okay, one
big host. or storage facility. It operates like
a system within a larger system. The system evolves
by increasing bandwidth for paradox. That's how
we evolve. And if we lose tolerance for that,
we basically drop and continue to drop in resonance.
So let's say a fifth dimensional consciousness
that loses coherence will move and shift down
to a 4 .5, 4 .1, 3 .8, 3 .5, okay, third dimension
into very extreme levels of polarity, desensitized
to the point where you can't even believe you're
living in the world that you're living in. You
actually can't believe you're seeing some of
this shit around you that you're seeing. How
morality has been deteriorated. How our collective
prefrontal cortex has been deteriorated. We are
frozen. So I'm gonna give you guys a set of questions
to ask yourselves. Number one, a field audit
within the grid line that you're in, okay, or
place that you go to. Another one to audit just
in terms of the consciousness reflecting itself
back to you throughout your environment, your
relationships. Like, do I feel good around this
person? And then like a polarity diagnostic.
Let's say you can ask yourself, well, I'll get
to that. And then how you know you're in a pattern
versus a threshold. So the first question I want
you to ask in the field audit is, What changes
in my nervous system when I enter this place?
Do I feel more contracted, expanded, vigilant,
or receptive here? Does my body move toward clarity
or confusion in this environment? Or do I collapse
into an old survival strategy? Is this activation
clean, like is it alert, grounded, or is it chaotic?
anxious and narrative heavy. I left a very narrative
heavy location and I'm in a very disassociated
location right now. So I find both of those very
interesting because the narrative heavy location
where I was before was very activating based
on the level of memory I was moving through.
So if you have the ability to move through Let's
say very chaotic places, but hold yourself inside
of that like many of you doing the work here
You can be in a really disenfranchised location
and have it be very activating for you But for
those who are more sensitive just ask yourself
that series of questions If you're thinking about
moving towards another location, okay, so your
relationship audit Around this particular person
do I become more myself or more strategic? Do
I feel amplified? or distorted? What part of
me comes online around this person? Is it expansive?
Is it performative? Or is it defensive? Is this
a relationship that feels, let's say, too future
-oriented or too past -oriented? Or do I have
the capacity to stay very present with this person
and evolve in real time? This will... move you
into more clarity around the relationships that
are changing for all of you right now. And I
know that they are. People are leaving, new people
are coming in, et cetera. Okay, so polarity diagnostics,
essentially how you know you're in a pattern
versus a threshold. So, critical distinction.
Does this situation I'm in feel like an old pattern
resurfacing or like pressure before a new identity
emerges. Is my body tired of this or sharpened
by it? Most of you are likely in the former.
If I removed the narrative, okay, whatever the
RAS system of the brain, the reticular activating
system of the brain, which is the narrative making
part of our brains, If I remove the narrative,
what remains? Fear, expansion, or something else.
If it's fear, it's a recursive logic, so you're
gonna wanna hold, like literally kick that logic
out, because that's not you, it's conditioned.
And if it's expansion or something else, then
you know you're at a threshold. And we can work
around both of those, so don't worry there. Alright
you guys, so just to give you an overarching
summary here, re -listen to those questions,
audit your own life, but your body is not just
reacting to life, it's participating in a distributed
feedback system between individual consciousness
and collective patterning. The polarities you
feel are not an accident, they are accommodating
underlying patterns and programs, okay? expansion,
contraction, despair and hope, tension and release.
They're gradients of stored potential that are
organizing under pressure. The collective works
the same way. And I'm going to talk a lot about
patterns under pressure in the field hub, in
the pattern lab, and a lot this year because
it is something that when you train your brain
to see, you can't unsee it. It is like very,
very potent pattern recognition, human behavior
identification, one -on -one mechanics. So these
are not random polarities. They're gradients
of stored, again, stored potential organizing
under pressure. When you have awareness and that
meets one of our sensations, something collapses
in that process. into identity, biology or action.
And that collapse doesn't happen in isolation.
It's not in a vacuum. I mean, quantum mechanically,
you can say that it is an avoid or a vacuum,
but it's not an isolated event. It ripples, it
ripples through relational networks, your family
lineages, the environment that we're in and shared
nervous systems. So real integration isn't about
eliminating polarity, it's about increasing your
capacity to hold complexity without fragmenting.
It means you can expand your coherence bandwidth
so you don't prematurely collapse into old patterns.
So perhaps the real question here isn't how to
fix your polarity, but what new Kind of a tractor
state your body is stabilizing under constraint
and what possibility is waiting on the other
side of that threshold So we have all of these
constraints all these these patterns under pressure
We're reconciling. We're trying to reconcile
the clarity inside of ourselves by holding more
paradox But perhaps many of you don't know what
that means to hold paradox yet And so ask yourselves
that question. This is a pressure point. I'm
at a threshold with opposing views. What possibility
is waiting on the other side of that threshold
for me? Maybe it's a feeling. Maybe it's more
peace. Maybe it's a different state. Maybe it's
your shoulders that drop an inch. So I'll leave
you all with that. question and those series
of questions to ask yourself in this podcast.
I look forward to seeing you guys in sessions.
Just to let you know, the pattern lab is open
for enrollment. There will be a limited group
that I'm allowing in. We have, you know, a handful
of spots still open. There's been some early
adopters, which I've been very quiet about launching
this. So drop into the field hub if you want
to really want to learn the mechanics and have
you know monthly drop -ins and calibrations with
loads and loads of resources including the shop
now is available in there. By the time you get
to the pattern lab you have the entire pattern
academy all of the workshops and all of the shop
included in that and it's very very interactive
it's live interactive with me where we will workshop
patterns what's coming up for you in real time.
Alright you guys, always love the questions that
you ask. I'll see you in the field and in another
episode in a couple weeks. Take care.