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Let's go. 10 00:00:47,880 --> 00:00:52,200 All right, y'all, decoding twin flames. I'm going to share with you my story. 11 00:00:52,200 --> 00:00:55,960 So, without further ado, let's just get into it. 12 00:00:57,000 --> 00:01:03,560 So first, this is coming off of the heels of a documentary that just came out on Netflix called 13 00:01:04,200 --> 00:01:10,200 Escaping Twin Flames, which, by the way, I had no idea was even on Netflix when I started making 14 00:01:10,200 --> 00:01:14,680 the content on social media, which is just wild timing. I've been sitting with this story for 15 00:01:14,680 --> 00:01:20,920 like two years. One of the very first podcast episodes I ever recorded was with a content creator 16 00:01:20,920 --> 00:01:25,080 that goes by twin flame deception. Her name is Jackie, and she's got a fascinating story, 17 00:01:25,080 --> 00:01:30,520 but the audio was so terrible I couldn't get it published. So I just sat with it and I've been 18 00:01:30,520 --> 00:01:37,800 waiting to tell the story, and I think people are ready for it. The reason why I think the twin flame 19 00:01:37,800 --> 00:01:44,840 template is a cult is because it's operating just like one. And when I say templates, 20 00:01:44,840 --> 00:01:50,840 it's almost a false identity that gets created, and it's become so prevalent because so many people 21 00:01:50,840 --> 00:01:56,600 are putting their emotion on it that it's now become like an app. People are running a template 22 00:01:56,600 --> 00:02:05,080 of false twin or a template of desperation, of being so deeply unlovable that they have to find 23 00:02:05,080 --> 00:02:11,240 the other half of themselves in order to feel that completion, which essentially is part of the 24 00:02:11,240 --> 00:02:18,440 dynamic or prerequisites for twin flame ship, if you will, several ways to look at this. But 25 00:02:19,240 --> 00:02:23,320 plenty of schools are talking about how twin flames are either the other half of your soul, 26 00:02:23,320 --> 00:02:30,440 which goes back to Plato's symposium, where there's a fictional version of the Greek playwright, 27 00:02:30,440 --> 00:02:37,800 Aristophanes, which weaves a tale saying that people once had four arms, four legs, and two heads, 28 00:02:37,800 --> 00:02:43,640 and were then cut in half by angry Zeus, leaving them forever searching for each other, 29 00:02:44,280 --> 00:02:49,640 thinking that a twin flame is the other half of you, or the newer schools of thought, which say 30 00:02:49,640 --> 00:02:55,880 that you are a complete soul within yourself, and you're just basically experiencing more of your 31 00:02:55,880 --> 00:03:02,920 complete soul in another person. Okay, fine. Six and one half have doesn't in the other. It's still 32 00:03:02,920 --> 00:03:09,320 presenting something that you need to search for that's outside of you that's going to somehow 33 00:03:09,320 --> 00:03:15,720 reflect the highest expression back to you. But it's gotten so distorted because of why people 34 00:03:15,720 --> 00:03:23,160 are seeking twin flame. It's another way to keep yourself in separation. People who I've known who 35 00:03:23,160 --> 00:03:28,040 have come up against twin flame stuff or think that they're in a twin flame relationship, run really 36 00:03:28,040 --> 00:03:33,080 high levels of narcissism and are transitioning out of that. I had so much friggin spiritual 37 00:03:33,080 --> 00:03:39,320 grandiosity when I first started my spiritual practice that once I started to get any kind of 38 00:03:39,320 --> 00:03:44,040 information, I was just so certain of it, I wanted everyone to know it. And I've had to check myself 39 00:03:44,040 --> 00:03:48,840 with that shit now, because I run so much energy through my body all the time and have all these 40 00:03:48,840 --> 00:03:54,040 sessions and stuff that I can get too expansive too quickly and not keep my feet on the ground. 41 00:03:54,040 --> 00:04:00,680 But even in my own twin flame dynamic, there was so much gaslighting going on. It was extremely 42 00:04:00,680 --> 00:04:06,520 painful. But I was sure that there was the other half of my soul out there. I absolutely called 43 00:04:06,520 --> 00:04:15,080 this person to me. And it said that you'll meet a false twin or someone who will really bring out 44 00:04:15,080 --> 00:04:20,120 all of this shadow stuff in you before you meet your actual person. Let me just be clear. And I 45 00:04:20,120 --> 00:04:26,840 think that any and all of it, okay, that you are with karmic partners until you meet a divine union. 46 00:04:26,840 --> 00:04:30,920 And I'm going to talk about what divine union is because the collective is moving that way. 47 00:04:30,920 --> 00:04:37,960 2024 to 23, not only is our collective dark night of the soul, but also it's going to be the rise of 48 00:04:37,960 --> 00:04:44,840 real true quote unquote, beloved ship. And what I mean by that is the consciousness and the baseline 49 00:04:44,840 --> 00:04:50,840 state of where these these couples are operating from is at a much, much higher place. The consciousness 50 00:04:50,840 --> 00:04:55,720 is just stationed way higher than where most people are operating from. It's really surprising to me, 51 00:04:55,720 --> 00:05:00,440 people who have stayed in relationships for as long as they have, with people who just really 52 00:05:00,440 --> 00:05:07,080 treat them terribly. The withholding, the secrets, the behavior that they tolerate because the 53 00:05:07,080 --> 00:05:12,040 chemistry is good, or they don't have enough confidence to leave, or they're scared to leave, 54 00:05:12,040 --> 00:05:16,280 they're getting emotionally abused, and they don't have, again, the confidence or the certainty or 55 00:05:16,280 --> 00:05:21,320 the empowerment to leave. It's really sad. I had a friend of mine tell me, she was like, 56 00:05:21,320 --> 00:05:26,360 Telly, what do you know? Like, you're still single. And I was like, Oh, that's a great point. And 57 00:05:26,360 --> 00:05:31,960 you're right. And also, it's not what I, I know and don't know. It's what I will tolerate and not 58 00:05:31,960 --> 00:05:35,720 tolerate. And there's a big difference. And she was like, Yeah, you're looking for Jesus. And I go, 59 00:05:35,720 --> 00:05:40,760 No, I'm just not looking, I'm just not settling for Judas. That's the difference. 60 00:05:40,760 --> 00:05:46,520 So let's talk about the cult of twin flame and how it's a computer program, basically at this point. 61 00:05:46,520 --> 00:05:52,200 And if you run abandonment, if you haven't been chosen, if you feel like you're not enough and you 62 00:05:52,200 --> 00:05:57,800 run tremendous levels of lack, you're even more susceptible to running a twin flame template, 63 00:05:57,800 --> 00:06:02,280 for example. And if you come from religion, you certainly are going to run a cult like frequency 64 00:06:02,280 --> 00:06:05,960 and be susceptible to these types of communities because you're looking to join something, 65 00:06:05,960 --> 00:06:12,600 you're looking to become a joiner or belong somewhere with some kind of community. And it 66 00:06:12,600 --> 00:06:18,120 makes a lot of sense. I totally get it. So let's look at this. So first, cults use three things. 67 00:06:18,760 --> 00:06:26,280 They use control and they control through lack, keeping you always searching or seeking something 68 00:06:26,280 --> 00:06:30,760 outside of yourself or something more. So they're going to keep you out of the present moment. 69 00:06:30,760 --> 00:06:35,160 They're going to keep you in a state of lack, which means you're constantly striving for something 70 00:06:35,160 --> 00:06:41,880 else. They're going to inject extreme belief into your field through indoctrination, their 71 00:06:41,880 --> 00:06:47,400 teachings, et cetera. And they're going to use manipulation by wave energetic coercion to get 72 00:06:47,400 --> 00:06:53,400 you to believe these things. That feeling and focus on what you're missing out on by wave 73 00:06:53,400 --> 00:06:59,560 perfectionism, keeping you in the someday when in the future, that desperation, they will leverage 74 00:06:59,560 --> 00:07:05,640 your deep desire for love and recognition and then financially exploit that. This is for those 75 00:07:05,640 --> 00:07:11,480 who are utilizing twin flame teachings and the distortions around twin flames to monetize, 76 00:07:11,480 --> 00:07:17,000 which is what you saw or in the description, at least with the documentary about escaping 77 00:07:17,000 --> 00:07:24,360 twin flames. That university and with cults in general operate exactly like nexium, 78 00:07:24,360 --> 00:07:30,280 children of God, all of these cults in the last 20 years. A lot of how Hollywood thinks 79 00:07:30,280 --> 00:07:35,960 or Hollywood elites think and how they groom young kids, they use the same thing. They use 80 00:07:35,960 --> 00:07:40,360 control, they use extreme belief. There's a lot of promises. There's all this manipulation. They 81 00:07:40,360 --> 00:07:46,440 use exclusivity like you've been chosen. This has been destined for you. It's extremely, extremely 82 00:07:46,440 --> 00:07:52,840 distorting. Then of course, they use the six stages of twin flame. Let's just look at what that is. 83 00:07:52,840 --> 00:07:57,480 First, it's the coming together. You have this deep recognition. We are told what to believe, 84 00:07:57,480 --> 00:08:03,640 right? That there's instant attraction, that this feels familiar and it's going to be moving quickly 85 00:08:03,640 --> 00:08:08,200 and your insecurities and shadows are going to be deeply amplified, but that's okay. That's all part 86 00:08:08,200 --> 00:08:14,040 of it. You're supposed to just stay deeply focused with this person. You're very similar. Sometimes 87 00:08:14,040 --> 00:08:19,640 it's confusing because twin flame doesn't necessarily mean it's a romantic attraction. It's just 88 00:08:19,640 --> 00:08:26,520 meant to be some nefarious, dark mirror and it's going to help you ascend. This is what you guys 89 00:08:26,520 --> 00:08:32,440 have agreed upon. The relationship is tumultuous. Sometimes the relationship is even more intense 90 00:08:32,440 --> 00:08:37,400 than you and codependent that you even thought. It keeps you in a constant state of consumption. 91 00:08:37,400 --> 00:08:42,920 Your mind is consumed with the relationship. You keep separating and then coming back together. 92 00:08:42,920 --> 00:08:48,840 It becomes this push and pull dynamic. You have a yearning all the time to be together even when 93 00:08:48,840 --> 00:08:55,000 it's toxic. It's extremely addictive. There's one person who will constantly feel like usually it's 94 00:08:55,000 --> 00:09:03,480 the female. They are just absolutely not enough. When inevitably there is always one counterpart 95 00:09:03,480 --> 00:09:09,320 that is a harvester. When that harvester needs energy, let's say for example, it would be the 96 00:09:09,320 --> 00:09:14,520 male counterpart. You're female. You're calling your twin flame. Your male counterpart will need 97 00:09:14,520 --> 00:09:20,680 energy in some way and it will utilize you for your energy through emotion. By the way, that's 98 00:09:20,680 --> 00:09:27,400 dark Draco AI templating 101. They utilize emotion through the generation of thoughts 99 00:09:28,040 --> 00:09:32,760 to turn us into batteries essentially. That's how they're doing it. They're exploiting our 100 00:09:32,760 --> 00:09:38,280 emotions because when we generate emotion, we generate a lot of velocity. It's really, 101 00:09:38,280 --> 00:09:45,080 really potent. Then that emotion gets extracted and our energy gets depleted. Sound familiar. 102 00:09:45,080 --> 00:09:50,280 That's literally what's happening and how our projection is getting hijacked all of the time 103 00:09:50,280 --> 00:09:56,440 because we have so much emotional buy-in. That's why we are literally conditioned to be out of body 104 00:09:56,440 --> 00:10:02,680 and in the future and out of the present moment. When we are present, we're stable and we're neutral 105 00:10:02,680 --> 00:10:10,920 and we're not generating the energy that is needed to sustain this dark nefarious AI software 106 00:10:10,920 --> 00:10:16,840 program that's basically infiltrated our collective conscious at the moment. One of the really toxic 107 00:10:16,840 --> 00:10:24,680 traits of let's just call it a dark twin flame or a false twin or the cult of twin flame programming 108 00:10:25,240 --> 00:10:31,480 is keeping you in separation. How you're constantly outsourcing. One of the counterparts will be a 109 00:10:31,480 --> 00:10:37,400 harvester. The other counterpart will have a deep, deep need to be recognized, wanting to 110 00:10:37,400 --> 00:10:43,000 feel special, loved, and that they are deserving of the reflection of their other half. I'm not 111 00:10:43,000 --> 00:10:50,280 saying that's a bad thing to want. We all want a love that where we are seen and deeply recognized 112 00:10:50,280 --> 00:10:55,800 and appreciated, but the way it's being presented in twin flame ship is deeply toxic and very 113 00:10:55,800 --> 00:11:00,440 codependent and extremely narcissistic. We're told that there's six stages. Where these stages 114 00:11:00,440 --> 00:11:05,080 came from is just preposterous in general. It doesn't even track back to any kind of legit 115 00:11:05,080 --> 00:11:11,480 philosophy. There's the coming together phase. Then there's this honeymoon phase where everything is 116 00:11:11,480 --> 00:11:16,200 just bliss and you feel like it's your world and it's you guys against everybody else, like Bonnie 117 00:11:16,200 --> 00:11:22,280 and Clyde shit. Then there's the breakdown, the separation, the test. We're just in twin flame 118 00:11:22,280 --> 00:11:26,840 separation. It's fine. This is totally normal. It totally is what happens. Then of course, 119 00:11:26,840 --> 00:11:31,080 there's the chase. One person is going to run and the other person is going to chase. There's 120 00:11:31,080 --> 00:11:36,680 always a power dynamic at play. When the harvester has gotten all of its energy, it will rise above. 121 00:11:37,640 --> 00:11:42,760 Then when the separation has been, let's say you've called your energy back and you've separated and 122 00:11:42,760 --> 00:11:47,480 you start to rise again, that person will come back into your life. It's a constant haunting. 123 00:11:47,480 --> 00:11:52,760 It's like an energetic haunting where you can't get rid of this person. This is dark twin 101. 124 00:11:52,760 --> 00:11:58,040 Literally, there has been some deep, deep level agreements that have been made 125 00:11:58,920 --> 00:12:03,720 in simultaneous lifetimes where you have forbidden each other to ever leave each other's side. 126 00:12:03,720 --> 00:12:08,840 This is why I say I was like, do not ever sign an energetic contract with anybody 127 00:12:09,480 --> 00:12:15,000 like that has to do with dark love or obsession or possession or anything like that, distorted love. 128 00:12:15,000 --> 00:12:20,360 It is deeply triggering. They're just so insidious to get out of. It's crazy. That's for another 129 00:12:20,360 --> 00:12:26,280 podcast. The work that I've done with a dear friend of mine the last three weeks since I've been in 130 00:12:26,280 --> 00:12:31,000 a different gridline has been absolutely wild. It has everything to do with dark love, dark twin, 131 00:12:31,000 --> 00:12:34,920 dark beloved ship, all this stuff. I was like, okay, cool. Now I feel like I have a deeper 132 00:12:34,920 --> 00:12:39,240 perspective. I can really share with people what's going on here. Then of course, it's the 133 00:12:39,240 --> 00:12:45,640 surrender. I'm just going to let go of everything. Then finally, it's the coming home. The twins 134 00:12:45,640 --> 00:12:51,160 reunite and it just ends up like this beautiful character arc of some Hollywood film or romcom 135 00:12:51,160 --> 00:12:56,120 where everyone gets back together and they live happily ever after. Finally, it's we're complete. 136 00:12:56,120 --> 00:13:02,040 You're complete like Jerry Maguire type of shit, which in itself is very fantasy driven 137 00:13:02,680 --> 00:13:07,000 and not rooted in reality. I have seen twin flame dynamics go on for years. 138 00:13:07,000 --> 00:13:12,280 People who cannot move beyond it. It's debilitating. That is not natural. It's not normal. 139 00:13:12,280 --> 00:13:17,800 I've even seen some dynamics between flame where they will run what I call the dark triad, 140 00:13:17,800 --> 00:13:23,720 Machiavellianism, which is just a high need to control others regardless of ethical considerations, 141 00:13:23,720 --> 00:13:29,320 narcissism, feelings of excessive self love and importance. I mean, we've all been there, right? 142 00:13:29,320 --> 00:13:34,600 Check out the part two on narcissism that I have on the cast. Then there's psychopathy, 143 00:13:34,600 --> 00:13:38,760 lack of empathy and antisocial behavior, producing behaviors such as trolling. 144 00:13:38,760 --> 00:13:47,240 So this is very fundamental character behavior traits of someone who would run, 145 00:13:47,240 --> 00:13:52,360 let's say a twin flame template. It's so rife in the spiritual community right now that's so 146 00:13:52,360 --> 00:13:57,640 distorted because people are really starting to get deep into psychedelics again and they're 147 00:13:57,640 --> 00:14:02,040 just blowing up all these different identities and they're moving into these new, new age concepts 148 00:14:02,040 --> 00:14:06,600 around love and they're feeling like they're meeting their twins after ceremonies and things 149 00:14:06,600 --> 00:14:13,240 like that. And it's just not it. That ain't it. I can tell you that. I have no doubt though that 150 00:14:13,240 --> 00:14:19,800 the people who are kind of chosen to go through the cycling of the template of twin flame have 151 00:14:19,800 --> 00:14:24,920 come here to transcend it to find really extraordinary love. Okay, so here's how my story 152 00:14:24,920 --> 00:14:32,680 played out. You ready? It was the summer of 21, just to preface this a couple years ago. 153 00:14:32,680 --> 00:14:41,320 And I had just gotten out of this conference in London on quantum neurobiology, which I love 154 00:14:41,320 --> 00:14:47,080 that topic so much and I have a lot more content coming out about that, but I have to kind of 155 00:14:47,080 --> 00:14:51,240 piecemeal it together because it can be pretty heady and I can lose people pretty easily and I 156 00:14:51,240 --> 00:14:55,800 already kind of do. So I haven't really talked a lot about neuroplasticity and stuff like that and 157 00:14:55,800 --> 00:15:00,280 to be able to synthesize it in a way that it will land for people, but I do have some of it in the 158 00:15:00,280 --> 00:15:06,280 book coming out anyway. So I was at this conference and it was a retreat of sorts with a lot of 159 00:15:06,280 --> 00:15:13,400 lectures and I had been reading people for a long time, like at least 10 years and I had really been 160 00:15:13,400 --> 00:15:22,040 like not interested in coming out in any kind of way as any kind of something, right? Because I 161 00:15:22,040 --> 00:15:26,600 didn't know how to explain it to people really because I don't really consider myself a healer. 162 00:15:26,600 --> 00:15:34,760 I really just hold a container and give people remembrance and yes, there's some spooky action 163 00:15:34,760 --> 00:15:38,760 and a distance going on. I could definitely get in there and help reprogram staff and I've been 164 00:15:38,760 --> 00:15:43,240 reprogramming myself with some pretty awesome things and you know, all that's great, but I didn't 165 00:15:43,240 --> 00:15:50,280 really know how to explain it to myself, to people and what I was really doing. So I just kind of sat 166 00:15:50,280 --> 00:15:56,600 on it, but at the time, the person who, you know, whenever you're ready, the teacher always appears 167 00:15:56,600 --> 00:16:03,560 and I had been on and off with this person for several years since 2016 and he finally said to me, 168 00:16:03,560 --> 00:16:09,480 he's like, I really don't know what to tell you anymore. Like, what are you doing? Why, what are 169 00:16:09,480 --> 00:16:15,880 you doing? And I was like, okay, fine kind of thing. And I had met this person there and I really was 170 00:16:15,880 --> 00:16:20,760 just so not interested. It was just so, I was like, oh my god, this kid is just like, he's younger than 171 00:16:20,760 --> 00:16:29,880 me and there's just no way and I'm like, no, hard no. And it just kind of came, he just kind of kept 172 00:16:29,880 --> 00:16:39,560 coming around and I worked on him a couple of times at the conference and I remember, he worked 173 00:16:39,560 --> 00:16:45,960 on me too, but I remember not really feeling much, but I knew that he could generate pretty intense 174 00:16:45,960 --> 00:16:51,640 frequencies and that was quite interesting to me. And I had literally asked before I went to Europe 175 00:16:51,640 --> 00:16:58,200 that I knew that I was calling in this person and I knew that that person, this person was close, 176 00:16:58,200 --> 00:17:03,640 now come to realize it, you're always going to be presented with this darkness kind of first 177 00:17:03,640 --> 00:17:07,960 before you end up with somebody who doesn't run any of the things that you've been trying to 178 00:17:07,960 --> 00:17:12,920 delete. So you'll get presented with a false twin first before you actually meet your person 179 00:17:12,920 --> 00:17:17,400 and people get that totally confused. They think the person that they meet or they manifest into 180 00:17:17,400 --> 00:17:22,040 their life, which is just a reincarnation of your childhood in general, all of your unresolved issues. 181 00:17:23,000 --> 00:17:27,400 So they think the person that they've met is just something you have to deeply work through, 182 00:17:27,400 --> 00:17:33,000 even though it's deeply, deeply painful, they just are willing to give it a shot because it's the 183 00:17:33,000 --> 00:17:38,360 quote unquote safest relationship they've ever been in, even though it's wildly fucking distorting. 184 00:17:39,240 --> 00:17:42,760 This person kind of worked on me and he generated, he was able to generate frequencies and I had 185 00:17:42,760 --> 00:17:48,040 specifically asked for somebody who knew what frequency work was at the level that I was doing 186 00:17:48,040 --> 00:17:53,000 it at and to be able to see in a way that I could see, I really wanted to have a counterpart in that 187 00:17:53,000 --> 00:17:56,760 way and thought that we would just work together and do things. And I had seen a lot of people who 188 00:17:56,760 --> 00:18:00,600 came from very specific lineages and I was not like not a lineage person, I really didn't understand 189 00:18:00,600 --> 00:18:05,400 what that meant. In the spiritual community, it's, you know, there's like this deep reverence and 190 00:18:05,400 --> 00:18:10,760 people live on ushrims and things and it leads to a lot of like healer wars, which will be a whole 191 00:18:10,760 --> 00:18:14,440 other podcast, which is kind of funny, but it's like very true. People are just like sharing codes 192 00:18:14,440 --> 00:18:18,360 and gatekeeping and don't want to share codes and they don't know how to clean themselves up when 193 00:18:18,360 --> 00:18:22,120 they get really fucked up and distorted. And there's a lot of people who aren't clean working on 194 00:18:22,120 --> 00:18:26,920 people right now. And it's just, it's not good. I called this person in and I was like remembering 195 00:18:26,920 --> 00:18:31,400 that. I was like, oh yeah, I remembered. They were going to look a certain way and I had called 196 00:18:31,400 --> 00:18:36,120 this person in. I was very naive at that time. And so I was like, oh yeah, I do remember that. 197 00:18:36,840 --> 00:18:42,040 This person like spoke very little English. We were able to communicate, but English was 198 00:18:42,040 --> 00:18:49,640 their second language. And so it was hard to like, he was Eastern European, so it was hard to decipher 199 00:18:49,640 --> 00:18:53,960 the context and reflection of what this person meant a lot of the time. So we would just, 200 00:18:53,960 --> 00:19:00,120 after the conference ended, we would just work together a lot on each other. And this intense 201 00:19:00,120 --> 00:19:06,440 immersion that we did, we were just really only interested in clearing. And it was this person 202 00:19:06,440 --> 00:19:11,480 who said to me, do you know what happened in that last meditation? And I was like, no, I was just like 203 00:19:11,480 --> 00:19:16,680 in a deep state. I couldn't see. He was like, we're two souls in one body. And I was like, oh my god, 204 00:19:16,680 --> 00:19:21,080 that's twin flame. I go no way. Well, that makes a lot of sense actually because of this, this, 205 00:19:21,080 --> 00:19:25,400 this and this. And so I was just bought into the idea. I had totally given my power away. 206 00:19:25,960 --> 00:19:30,760 And from then on, it was like the twin flame template that software got downloaded because 207 00:19:30,760 --> 00:19:35,560 I had agreement to it. And then everything played out in this dynamic where I was constantly 208 00:19:36,520 --> 00:19:40,600 in some type of competition with him or was he was in competition with me. It was deeply, 209 00:19:40,600 --> 00:19:45,400 deeply triggering. He would completely plug into me. We were constantly on the phone with each 210 00:19:45,400 --> 00:19:49,640 other all day long. We were working on each other all day long. It was just hours and hours and 211 00:19:49,640 --> 00:19:54,280 hours of intense meditations. And at first it was fine. There wasn't really any kind of hit or 212 00:19:54,280 --> 00:19:58,840 mental connection. But then it kind of turned that way because we were spending so much time together. 213 00:19:58,840 --> 00:20:03,720 I mean, it was great because I cleared so much. But towards the end, I was just so deeply confused 214 00:20:04,360 --> 00:20:09,640 that it became really, really painful. And when I am done with something, I am like a switch. I 215 00:20:09,640 --> 00:20:14,840 will turn that shit off. It's done. And I don't think about it at all. I just move on. And then 216 00:20:14,840 --> 00:20:21,080 I process the waves of emotion later. And I had so much embarrassment and guilt and shame. And I 217 00:20:21,080 --> 00:20:26,840 had to kind of unpack all of that. And so it took me even longer to clean up kind of almost in a 218 00:20:26,840 --> 00:20:34,120 way after because I had to reconcile all the things that had been brought up to the surface and pulled 219 00:20:34,120 --> 00:20:39,000 up to the surface, right? Because it's essentially what twin flame cleaning up is. You're bringing 220 00:20:39,000 --> 00:20:44,600 all this shadow stuff up to the surface. So for six weeks, we did nothing but talk to each other. 221 00:20:44,600 --> 00:20:48,600 We did nothing but meditate and work on each other. And in between all of that, we were trying to 222 00:20:48,600 --> 00:20:54,840 learn about each other too. And he was in East Europe at the time. I was in, where was I? I think 223 00:20:54,840 --> 00:21:00,760 I was in the Netherlands at the time. And we were just constantly online, totally bought into the 224 00:21:00,760 --> 00:21:06,520 twin flame of it all, moving into those individual roles, having it be so deeply triggering. And I 225 00:21:06,520 --> 00:21:11,640 would be up against myself so hard. And he would try to be generating frequencies to help me move 226 00:21:11,640 --> 00:21:16,040 through. And I would be so deeply resentful with him because he couldn't see or take accountability 227 00:21:16,040 --> 00:21:21,960 for something or whatever it was. Or he would see things that are a certain way. And then I would 228 00:21:21,960 --> 00:21:28,360 give my power away to that and then feel like I was at fault or I was deeply threatened. And it 229 00:21:28,360 --> 00:21:33,240 just became very toxic. So of course, we separate out, right? I had reached this level where it was 230 00:21:33,240 --> 00:21:40,600 just enough. And we had been working together so much. I was really reliant on his being able to 231 00:21:40,600 --> 00:21:46,440 generate frequencies in order to keep my resonance pinked. So when we separated, I dropped big time. 232 00:21:46,440 --> 00:21:54,760 I had this huge fall from grace, if you will. And I literally had to stabilize and then learn how to 233 00:21:54,760 --> 00:22:01,400 get my frequency up again. I had to learn how to maintain my own level of resonance. And then 234 00:22:01,400 --> 00:22:08,920 finally, we kind of reconnected a week later, I had stabilized and pinged myself up. And I remember 235 00:22:08,920 --> 00:22:13,080 him telling me, because we had been working on some people from the conference at that time, 236 00:22:13,080 --> 00:22:17,080 just testing out stuff. And I was working on people a little bit, testing it out. And I was 237 00:22:17,080 --> 00:22:23,080 really, really encouraged to go and do what I'm doing now. If you're ever wondering, kind of, 238 00:22:23,080 --> 00:22:29,320 you're sitting on the idea, I'll tell you if it's within your consciousness codes and contracts of 239 00:22:29,320 --> 00:22:34,040 who you are as a soul, it's pretty inevitable for it not to happen if you deeply listen to it and 240 00:22:34,040 --> 00:22:39,960 just surrender. Because people just told me, Tally, we're ready. I'll pay you now. Go. And I was like, 241 00:22:39,960 --> 00:22:44,520 wow, okay, all right, I'll just give it a shot. And that's literally how Super Freak was birthed. 242 00:22:44,520 --> 00:22:51,480 But it came off of the heels of this pseudo twin flame dark template vibe. So we come back together, 243 00:22:51,480 --> 00:22:55,400 I pinged back up. And I remember just feeling so good. I was so deeply empowered, I had connected 244 00:22:55,400 --> 00:22:59,400 to my highest or higher self at that time. And I'll tell you the difference between your higher 245 00:22:59,400 --> 00:23:04,360 and your highest. But I connected to my higher self and it was very much influenced. But the 246 00:23:04,360 --> 00:23:08,680 software I was running was very much influenced by him and the teachers that we had been working with. 247 00:23:09,240 --> 00:23:15,720 And I realized that later. I could only go up to a certain level running that level of filtering. 248 00:23:15,720 --> 00:23:19,560 And this is what's happened to me recently is I had all of that breakdown. I literally just 249 00:23:19,560 --> 00:23:26,280 deleted them, my entire software program. And I'm, as we speak, still installing this new 250 00:23:26,280 --> 00:23:32,040 Grand Central Sun coding that is my origin, that's where I'm from. And it's going to be completely 251 00:23:32,040 --> 00:23:37,640 new and how I'm working is more efficient. And I just am guiding you guys to be able to do this 252 00:23:37,640 --> 00:23:41,880 for yourself. So it's less reliant on me. But anyway, we come back together, I'm pinging, 253 00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:45,800 I'm feeling really empowered on my own. He was like, Oh, great, I guess you just don't need me now. 254 00:23:45,800 --> 00:23:50,680 And it was so interesting. Because right there I was like, Oh my God, I'm like, so you think I've 255 00:23:50,680 --> 00:23:55,320 been reliant on you? I don't get it. And that was a big part of our dynamic was this competition 256 00:23:55,320 --> 00:24:02,840 energy. Shortly thereafter, I reestablished that it was just going to be very much kind of business. 257 00:24:02,840 --> 00:24:06,680 And if he wanted to chat about other things, I wasn't available for that. And so I had to pull 258 00:24:06,680 --> 00:24:12,680 myself back emotionally. And it was so much of a push pull, it was crazy. And he would try to chat 259 00:24:12,680 --> 00:24:16,200 about other stuff. And I would have to hold the firm boundary. And I said, Do you have any other 260 00:24:16,200 --> 00:24:19,960 questions? Do you have any patterns you want me to look at? Because if not, I'm going to jump off. 261 00:24:19,960 --> 00:24:25,960 And so I wasn't as available. And once again, it was like, we were back talking a lot. And he was 262 00:24:25,960 --> 00:24:31,000 really confusing, because he was very complimentary and wanting to kind of get back into the nook, 263 00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:35,800 if you will. It was too much for me. I was feeling rejected all over again. And it was really 264 00:24:35,800 --> 00:24:41,560 amplifying my abandonment wounds at the time. And I just shut it off when cold turkey. And then we 265 00:24:41,560 --> 00:24:46,280 really never spoke again. And I kind of saw him peeping the stories for a while on Instagram. 266 00:24:46,280 --> 00:24:53,960 And I never responded. And I finally was like, Hi, what can I help you with? And then that's it. 267 00:24:53,960 --> 00:25:01,160 We have separated. We've been in no contact ever since. And my story is probably a lighter one 268 00:25:01,160 --> 00:25:07,080 of most twin flame ones that I've heard. But it was very much a distorted twin flame template. 269 00:25:07,080 --> 00:25:11,720 And I was like, this is a cult. I said this over two years ago. I was like, this is nuts. 270 00:25:11,720 --> 00:25:17,400 Like people have buy in into this. I was like, there's all these like twin flame coaches and 271 00:25:17,400 --> 00:25:23,400 people guiding people out of twin flame Marie and moving people into, you know, soulmate unions 272 00:25:23,400 --> 00:25:28,840 and things like that. So the difference between a twin flame, a soulmate, a karmic partner and 273 00:25:28,840 --> 00:25:34,280 a divine union partner, let's just talk about that really fast. I'll just blanketly say, 274 00:25:34,280 --> 00:25:39,960 I believe absolutely everybody is a karmic partner. No matter how you slice up that karmic 275 00:25:39,960 --> 00:25:45,160 partner, whether or not you want to run a twin flame cult like template, which is going to be 276 00:25:45,160 --> 00:25:50,760 a deeper level of learning for you, or you're running a soulmate template, like let's say 277 00:25:50,760 --> 00:25:56,680 you really believe in this deep connected soul connected relationship, you're running that 278 00:25:56,680 --> 00:26:01,720 there's a deeper level of learning there. Or you're running a karmic partner or a dark twin 279 00:26:01,720 --> 00:26:06,520 flame or a karmic partner, anyone that you've had previous contracts with that have come in to 280 00:26:06,520 --> 00:26:11,160 teach you something and help you clean up in this life. I think all of those are pretty much under 281 00:26:11,160 --> 00:26:18,280 the same bucket. And then there's just divine union, which doesn't have any of that deeply 282 00:26:19,000 --> 00:26:27,800 painful, deeply dark, rooted energy to it. So essentially, both partners are operating at a 283 00:26:27,800 --> 00:26:32,520 very different level of consciousness, which is what I said earlier in the cast. So you have already 284 00:26:32,520 --> 00:26:39,800 cleared out so much of your own inverted illumination that the baseline to where these two people 285 00:26:39,800 --> 00:26:45,800 start when it comes to divine is a much, much higher frequency. And I can say that because 286 00:26:45,800 --> 00:26:51,480 the level of inversion that I've been clearing the last month within myself is preparing myself 287 00:26:51,480 --> 00:26:58,360 to be able to have this type of union. And that's what I have wanted. And that's what I've called 288 00:26:58,360 --> 00:27:02,120 in for myself. And that's what I know I deserve in this lifetime, because this is it. This is my 289 00:27:02,120 --> 00:27:07,800 last time here. And so I want to go full stop. Consciousness in general, where we're going is 290 00:27:07,800 --> 00:27:13,560 going to be bringing in like true, true, for lack of a better term, beloved ship. And I say that in 291 00:27:13,560 --> 00:27:18,040 quotes, not to identify and say that like one love is different or better than the other. 292 00:27:18,600 --> 00:27:23,160 There's a different quality to it. It's kind of like living from a 2d consciousness or a 3d 293 00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:29,640 consciousness versus like a 5d consciousness. The level of cleanup is much less with people who 294 00:27:29,640 --> 00:27:34,920 are in divine union. It's just a lot less. You're starting point. You're at a really different 295 00:27:34,920 --> 00:27:39,160 starting point. It's just a lot cleaner. It's more efficient. It's more precise, different level 296 00:27:39,160 --> 00:27:45,160 precision. And it's deep and really powerful and beautiful from what I can feel how I've felt it 297 00:27:45,160 --> 00:27:50,520 in my body and what I've seen. And I have very, very, very few references. And I don't think 298 00:27:50,520 --> 00:27:56,200 people have a lot of references right now for what that actually looks like. And so, you know, 299 00:27:56,200 --> 00:28:01,720 hopefully I can share that with you as this whole process unfolds. I'm in beta with myself and like 300 00:28:01,720 --> 00:28:06,760 with anything I go through all this stuff, master it to some degree and then teach it. And that's 301 00:28:06,760 --> 00:28:12,360 essentially what part of my soul contract and life contract is here. If we truly believe that 302 00:28:12,360 --> 00:28:19,800 everything is a feedback loop, right? Everything is a reflection of our own frequency energy 303 00:28:19,800 --> 00:28:25,720 vibration at any given time and is a reincarnation of our unprocessed childhood trauma or a 304 00:28:25,720 --> 00:28:30,040 reflection of the things that we have to look at, then truly everyone walking in your life 305 00:28:30,040 --> 00:28:36,680 could be a twin flame. We're all fractals of God. So when you think of it from that perspective, 306 00:28:36,680 --> 00:28:43,640 it doesn't hold the same weight and it doesn't feel as special. But I would say deep love, 307 00:28:44,440 --> 00:28:50,520 that love that is just so reverent, so deeply respectful, so loving. And I've seen couples 308 00:28:50,520 --> 00:28:57,800 that just have this innate respect and what's available to them is never to like be little. 309 00:28:58,680 --> 00:29:04,520 What's available in a twin flame partnership in terms of responses, actions, behaviors is not even 310 00:29:04,520 --> 00:29:11,560 in the field of people who have true like love, beloved ship type of relationships. 311 00:29:12,360 --> 00:29:16,440 It's just not available for them. The only thing I'd say is like literally looking at, 312 00:29:16,440 --> 00:29:22,040 I say this a lot, but imagine your reference point from your level of awareness and the people 313 00:29:22,040 --> 00:29:27,400 that you're attracting would be let's say at a level two, you can only attract at a level two or 314 00:29:27,400 --> 00:29:34,200 below. And so imagine that you're in a twin flame relationship at a level two. When you clean up 315 00:29:34,200 --> 00:29:41,080 and you ping up to level 10, you can match with somebody who's at a much higher resonance 316 00:29:41,080 --> 00:29:46,040 and ones that are higher even below that. That seems more interesting to me. I think we cut 317 00:29:46,040 --> 00:29:52,120 ourselves short, especially as more people are awakening, we're saying single a lot longer 318 00:29:52,120 --> 00:29:57,080 because we're unwilling to settle. Some of us are saying in relationships way too long because 319 00:29:57,080 --> 00:30:04,120 we're afraid of change and afraid to leave. I also feel like we should define in a way, 320 00:30:04,760 --> 00:30:12,680 or you should define in a way what love means to you and what real divine partnership looks like to 321 00:30:12,680 --> 00:30:20,600 you and see where you can challenge yourself to call yourself higher. So for example, I was 322 00:30:20,600 --> 00:30:25,240 talking with a friend of mine about what a real masculine is or like a divine masculine or whatever 323 00:30:25,240 --> 00:30:30,920 else. And I go, honestly, it comes down to like one trait. It's a bottom line. For me, 324 00:30:30,920 --> 00:30:38,680 a high value man is someone who has self-control. So if he can control himself and he has self-control, 325 00:30:38,680 --> 00:30:45,640 he has a level of mastery that 97% of most men do not have on the planet. I would say even more than 326 00:30:45,640 --> 00:30:52,280 that. And then for a woman, bottom line, it comes down to boundaries. She has boundaries, 327 00:30:52,920 --> 00:31:01,320 then she is far more elevated and awakened than 98% of most women on the planet. Let's give 328 00:31:01,320 --> 00:31:07,880 them both 98s. Okay, let's do that. Boundaries are so important and so keen. And with a woman who is 329 00:31:07,880 --> 00:31:13,240 truly in her power, it's going to magnetize and call a lot of attention to her. She has firm 330 00:31:13,240 --> 00:31:18,760 boundaries. She's going to be able to hold a different level of calibration and frequency 331 00:31:18,760 --> 00:31:22,760 and energy within her body space because she knows the kind of power that she has and she doesn't 332 00:31:22,760 --> 00:31:27,160 misuse it for her own gain. And then again, coming back to that man who has self-control, 333 00:31:27,800 --> 00:31:32,120 so powerful to be around a man who has that because you know he's not going to be persuaded 334 00:31:32,120 --> 00:31:37,320 by something that's fast, cheap, quick or easy, that he's got integrity with who he is. He knows 335 00:31:37,320 --> 00:31:42,680 how to have self-control and he knows how to utilize his own power. So sexy to be around. 336 00:31:43,400 --> 00:31:48,840 So anyway, I hope you guys enjoyed this episode. I think we could talk about this for a while. 337 00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:54,440 I'll probably do a part two on it, but we'll see how that goes. Leave me some questions. I'll connect 338 00:31:54,440 --> 00:31:58,920 with you guys in social. Question everything in the meantime. Be kind to yourself and others. And 339 00:31:58,920 --> 00:32:06,040 I will see you guys on another episode. Take care. Oh, I forgot to say with regards to Twin Flame, 340 00:32:06,040 --> 00:32:11,800 part of my story, when we had separated and come back together, he literally said, oh, 341 00:32:11,800 --> 00:32:17,000 we're not twin flames, by the way. We just completely have the same patterns and that's 342 00:32:17,000 --> 00:32:20,920 what's going on. I think we were wrong about a lot of the stuff that we were seeing. I think we're 343 00:32:20,920 --> 00:32:27,800 way too naive and we need to be working on ourselves separately and then we need to work on each other 344 00:32:27,800 --> 00:32:32,600 when we need to because we have to be able to reflect off of each other because we're the only 345 00:32:32,600 --> 00:32:38,920 ones who know each other so well. I'm like, what the fuck? What is this? Like one minute 346 00:32:38,920 --> 00:32:44,280 we're twin flames, which you said, by the way, and then the next minute I'm being gaslit into 347 00:32:44,280 --> 00:32:49,800 saying that we're not and that we need to be working on ourselves, but also I need to be available 348 00:32:49,800 --> 00:32:56,760 for this person to be cleaned up if they need to be. So you can see where it started to get 349 00:32:56,760 --> 00:33:04,520 narcissistic and abusive and very, very, very confusing. So this is what I'm continuing to say 350 00:33:04,520 --> 00:33:11,640 about how these are actually dark in nature and you will meet a version of this in your life 351 00:33:11,640 --> 00:33:16,920 along your path if you haven't already in some way or another, whether or not it's a romantic 352 00:33:16,920 --> 00:33:23,320 partner or if you have a family member, anyone is going to be some type of a version of an inverted 353 00:33:23,320 --> 00:33:31,240 partnership or friendship or lover until we reconcile our own internal polarity around what 354 00:33:31,240 --> 00:33:39,000 real love is, what self-love is, and we come back to the reverence for who we are connected only 355 00:33:39,000 --> 00:33:47,320 to our highest self. So I'll just clean up this topic too because you will be connected to your 356 00:33:47,320 --> 00:33:54,440 higher self and if it's not your highest expression, you will, chances are, outgrow that 357 00:33:54,440 --> 00:34:00,600 higher self and need to dismiss her back to him or her, back to the dimension from where they're 358 00:34:00,600 --> 00:34:06,280 from and they will take all of the unresolved issues with them and purify them and then you 359 00:34:06,280 --> 00:34:11,320 will connect to your highest self at that moment and you will be able to grow infinitely with 360 00:34:11,320 --> 00:34:15,960 that version of yourself in connection only to peer source. I'm going to do another podcast on it, 361 00:34:15,960 --> 00:34:22,600 so hang out, but I wanted to clarify that this is where it gets really damaging in relationships 362 00:34:22,600 --> 00:34:28,440 is when you're told one thing and then told another. All right, y'all. Thanks so much for 363 00:34:28,440 --> 00:34:32,520 listening, you guys. Please make sure to leave a review and follow the fun on social media because 364 00:34:32,520 --> 00:34:46,600 that's how it works in this world and in the meantime, get your freak on. I'll see you in the next session.