Welcome back to the laughing matters podcast.
I am your host WS Walker and we are wrapping up the conversation with
Brianne today, which I just literally noticed that Brianne is Brianne with an
N E at the end, I, as long as I have known her, I have, I've actually never noticed this.
Uh, huh.
But look, you guys, you know, you got to know her a little, she's fantastic.
And so far we've had a pretty good talk.
If you didn't see or listen to part one of the secret behind why we find
something funny, it's, uh, it's pretty necessary for part two, which is
what you're listening to right now.
So sorry for the audio quality on part two as well.
The AC jumped into overdrive at one point and it gets a bit noisy.
I'm sure you'll forgive me.
Uh, but you may be wondering why I'm speaking through this opening.
I want to jump straight back into that conversation where we left off for those
of you who are listening to, you know, part one and two back to back.
So... one of the reasons I threw this up here and was like, Hey, I want to do an
interview, like I want to, more of me telling you about this stuff, but I
want to, you know, have a talk on camera was I had a pretty serious reaction to
that revelation, you know, that, that I was breaking my compassion with this
laugh, specifically this laugh. (It's a bad laugh)
And then what are you, anything popping to mind with your immediate thoughts on that?
I feel like I've had similar thoughts, not so much around like laughter, but so
much, I feel like there's kind of like a cheapening of like the genuine, like
human spirit, like the getting together and the like, that feeling the joy, like
it just like, you feel it present everywhere, you know?
And I think one of the biggest things on like controlling my emotions is like, I'm
aware of like, you know, where I feel them and like my body and I'm feeling
like that all over joy is literally something that I totally search for.
And I find it in like Mario Party and I find it at live shows and I find it at
like 3 30 in the morning and I haven't slept for a few hours and I don't know.
I've never really thought about like the laughter like that before, because I know
I've had my cheap laughs and I'm trying to watch what I laugh about, what I talk
about a lot, like I've tried to stop gossiping, watching how I speak about
people and the way I speak about things.
So you kind of talked about it earlier, word, like Cuban language, it's like the
number one thing you can control.
I feel like it's our first line of, I don't want to say defense, but it's one
of the first things that I can make tangible about myself.
It's the way that I talk and the words that I speak.
And the fact that there isn't just an automatic correlation between what you,
what you think, what you say.
Oh, and I have a huge problem with that, like expressing truly what I'm thinking.
It's very complicated.
At least it can be.
It's not just like people think it was just one filter that it passes through of
like, am I going to say this or not?
But it's also like, is there a better way of saying of this?
Is it like, it goes through this kind of revision process, but like as it's
barreling down to the mouth, you're running out of time to say it.
And then like, but a lot of times you find yourself being like, cause it just
didn't make the cut at the last second.
No, I'm a very harsh editor or maybe I should be a harsher editor.
I'm really not sure which one it is.
Believe it or not, I'm like having four simultaneous like thought
processes at the same time.
It just feels like layers upon layers of thought in my head.
Which is why it's, I'm sure it's fun for you to like have those moments where
you're talking about something with somebody and you get, for some reason,
there's a pause in the conversation and you get like three or four seconds to
yourself to go from A to B to C to D to D.
And it, because you're having those four conversations, they're conversing too
with the conversation that you're having, which brings inside stuff that they,
why would they even, yeah, and you just restart the conversation at F and they're
like, well, that was a weird shift.
You're like, actually it wasn't very intuitive.
You shifted.
It takes about six steps to get there.
It's a little Kevin McKinney, but.
That's not bad though.
I love trimmers.
So when you like notice the cheap laughter, like what did you do to change that?
Like what did you do to shift your self into like genuine laughter?
Interesting question.
I'm so glad you asked.
That sounds like something kind of hard to do.
I've been just trying to change more minor things about me.
Some less things, less impulsive than a laugh.
And it's hard.
Yes.
So that's the key.
The behavior is the symptom.
The actual disease is the thing that you have to change.
The, the, at the time I was doing standup as well, I was doing a comedy podcast.
I was, I was good at it, but I was also very mean.
I go very blue.
I honestly didn't care who I hit.
I would go for the laugh.
End of the day, no matter how anybody walked away from it.
And I guess that was kind of needed to get to the point where I was like, oh my God,
but the night that I realized it, we had at that point with the comedy podcast, we had
36 two hour episodes that have been recorded.
That's supposed to be an off.
Huh?
Is that still rolling?
Yeah.
Cool.
Bless you.
Thank you.
People say bless you when you sneeze and I say bless you when you sneeze.
And I never understood that because sneezing feels amazing.
I love sneezing.
And hip cupping are awful.
We were.
That's when I need your blessing.
Yes.
I don't need you to bless me for, I'm blessed cause I sneeze.
I absolutely agree.
I love a good sneeze.
Have you ever seen somebody thought they were going to sneeze and didn't sneeze?
Oh, I'm pissed.
That's all the evidence.
I'm pissed.
That's all the evidence you need.
Oh no, I didn't cough.
I'm not upset by that at all.
We had 36, we had 36 two hour episodes in the can of the podcast at the point where
I discovered this and I stopped stand up immediately and I stopped the podcast.
I killed the podcast immediately that night.
Never went back.
Well, I mean, I do a podcast now, but I think we can argue that it's
significantly different.
I had to make a lot of choices, a lot of decisions.
And one of the things that I came to was, you know, I had done enough research.
Like I'd spent most of my life trying to figure out is there a God like what morally,
what's going on, you know, with the world?
Like what are morals?
Why do we have them?
Why am I?
Why am I drawn to logic?
Like how did all these things patterns, right?
Science is all patterns.
It's things that were already happening, but we're just observing them and we see it
happening with okay.
It happened like this and I'm going to assume it's going to happen like this.
I can now I know how to explain this to others.
I know how to make other people understand this.
Right.
If I come across this situation, I understand that it's going to do this.
So I understand that if I do this to it, it's going to do this other thing and they
observe that and they keep messing with it and they keep like just observing what it
does over and over and over again.
But the point that a lot of scientists and physicists and mathematicians come to is
that was one of the cameras.
Okay, so you guys may have noticed earlier, Kelsen, Brianne's boyfriend who was operating
camera one never, you know, operated a DSLR in his life and it did a pretty good job.
And at any rate, one of the cameras kept shutting itself off for some reason and the
one he wasn't operating and so like he would occasionally go.
I think that one just turned off because he'd hear it.
This one required some fiddling around with and it took a minute.
And so we kind of lost the trail of the thought.
Essentially, I was diving into basically, you know, since everything's patterns when
it comes to science and physics, it's all observation of these patterns.
A lot of these scientists come around to the thinking at some point of why do these
patterns repeat in the first place?
Why is it that this should happen?
At all?
And that gets a lot of scientists thinking on a guiding hand, essentially, you know,
a designing hand.
Back to the show.
Where were we?
Ultimately, what did I do about it?
Well, I didn't just absorb these individual things.
Like you can't just you can't make a change based off of just understanding that.
I came to the conclusion that in a universe in which this is plainly hidden in front of
our faces, in a universe in which we are guided down this hidden path that removes us from
our fellow man in a world where we're supposed to be giving a **** about it.
I mean, the first the top organized religions all agree on one point and that is the golden
rule.
Care about your fellow man.
Love how Kurt Vonnegut said it and hello babies.
Hello babies, welcome to Earth.
Have you ever heard that?
No, I haven't.
Oh, it's genius.
It's just it's a paragraph, but he says basically it's it's hot in the summer and cold in the
winter and it gets wet and it's interesting and yada yada.
But there's only one rule.
Gee dang it.
You got to be kind.
And it's it's such a I don't know.
It's that.
Yes.
We love each other.
Care about each other.
It's the core of how you get to happiness.
It is the good like is so intrinsically built into the design of our world and our ability
to live within our world that it's obvious evidence of a designing hand.
What makes those patterns in science and math repeat in the first place?
If it's all chaos theory, that's that's not an option.
Really at this point, we can rule out chaos theory.
Chaos theory is a one in a nigh infinite amount of possibilities.
Every other one has to be guided.
It's so finely tuned.
Most scientists believe that there is something.
So coming from a place of that, I realized that I ultimately if I can't make myself think
about, you know, oh, I'm going to drop my defenses and do it.
What I can do is I can trust them.
That's terrifying.
A lot of people say, how can you just open your arms?
And I did do it.
I did 44 days homeless where I slept in the Nashville mission was wonderful to me, but
it did house some very dangerous people.
Ever was I touched or was I like even approached in an aggressive way?
I chose to love them all.
Love.
I chose but that was hard, man.
More specifically, it was hard to to love God.
It was hard to to trust God and that and what became what was crazy about it was it wasn't
this thing that you could start here and then you have this.
It was this thing that you have to kind of do both at the same time and they intermingle
by loving everybody here by opening myself to that by trusting all of them.
I trusted him and I loved him.
I felt love towards him for the first time.
Like it was hard for me to love God because I couldn't talk to God on a porch at three
o'clock in the morning.
You know, I couldn't have a beer with God.
I couldn't get a hug from God, somebody I've never actually directly spoken to and seen
in nonverbal communications from.
I've had moments where I'm close to God, but it's it is something that is difficult, kind
of like swimming upstream.
But when I started loving people was difficult, but only until I realized there was a part
of them that was more like God than it was like people.
It seems to be here.
We call it the heart, but honestly, it's got nothing to like bless his heart.
What does the muscular blood pumping organ have to do with anything?
We're talking about something that's there that can't be weighed, can't be seen, it
can't be touched, it can't be tasted, but we feel it.
And I think it's the origin of our emotions.
I know when I have felt my best, it's like it literally it's like radiating from this
part of my body.
You know what I mean?
Yeah.
When you love it, just you shine.
Yeah.
And it's visible.
It's, you know, people actually how you're glowing.
Yeah.
And it's in a way that is being thrown off like that just the use of the word glowing,
like you're not physically emitting light, but it's the closest approximation they have
because you are emitting something.
And it's, we're all, that part of us is all interlinked, all entangled.
The way that quantum entanglement happens is two things coming into existence at the
same time, the same place.
We're all the same shit.
The entire universe came out of one singularity where every atom in the universe existed simultaneously.
We are all quantum Lee entangled.
We are all part of this big thing.
That's a story for another time.
Oh, it's one I'm ready to dive into.
We'll make that for a part two.
I think, yeah, we are definitely past filming limit for this.
So guys, if you want to hear more of this, Brianne, do you have anything you want to
plug?
We have cameras here, cameras here.
I've had a really, really good time.
It's been an absolute pleasure seeing you and I'm really excited to do this again because
it's like, I feel like specifically like with the laugh, you know, I feel like that has
a lot to do with like what you were, you had your own revelation within that.
And I feel like there's definitely a lot that I can learn from that.
So I'm excited to continue this conversation and think about this conversation and how
I can apply it to like the things I know I need to work on.
Kelly, you got anything to plug?
It's not appropriate.
I appreciate you holding back, sir.
So, but that's it.
I guess that's going to do it for Will Talks.
Will and way.
I don't know.
I don't know what I'm going to call this.
This hopefully could help.
We will pick back up on this another time right at this leaving point.
I'm bookmarking it.
Bookmarked.
And remember guys, be good to them.
Be good for them.
You're going to be fantastic.
I'm WS Walker.
She's Brianna.
Bye guys.
Quick, stop the other one.
And that is it for another episode of the Laughing Marrish Podcast.
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Just a few cute things that happened.
So make sure you stick around for that.
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And one last plea.
If you have need for advice whatsoever, reach out to me.
I've got you man.
All right.
So I will leave you with be good to each other.
Be good for each other.
And you're going to be fantastic.
I'm WS Walker.
You are the fantastic you.
And we'll catch you next time around.
Be sweet.
Kelsey, I really want to include you, but I know that I can't be looking at you.
That's the one angle I can't do here because it's just that awkward dull days just off
camera.
It looks like you're staring at it, but if you look close, you're definitely not.
Kelly, am I staring at your soul?
I'll get you gadget next time.
I'll be wait.
Sorry, that's an inspector.
W H or W A I.
W A.
Where there's a will, there's a way.
Can we please do that?
Yes, we can.
We're doing the intro.
Hi, I'm WS Walker from the Laughing Matters podcast and will help from the could help
channel to this little starlet over here.
I'm way.
What is?
It's way.
And this is way.
So when there's a will, you know there's a way.
There's a way.
So pretty good.
You can close your eyes and you can think you're a star baby.
This baby I'm a whoa.
No, no, no, no, I'm.