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Hello! I hope you're all well. I hope everyone's doing as okay as they can be at the moment.

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On today's show, we call it a show and I don't know why but here's what it is. So on today's

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show there's a few bits and pieces I want to talk about. One of which is my most recent

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visit to the physio. I'm going to discuss the most recent issues that I've been having,

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certain pains and whatever else. They've not been very nice I'll be honest with you but

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we'll discuss that shortly. And also there's something quite positive actually that I want

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to discuss and that is as a family we're seriously contemplating a big move across country. Again,

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I'll discuss that shortly but yeah it's definitely something I'm interested in doing that's for

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sure. We'll talk about that soon. First things first, my physio appointment. It's been a

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while since I've had physio I'll be honest with you. The gentleman that I was seeing

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for my physio has been moved to doing walled rounds so he's not dealing with people going

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in just requiring physio. So I had to meet a new person. She was absolutely brilliant

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I'll be honest with you. Really really nice lady. She even noticed as soon as I got off

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my mobility scooter because Lisa came with me I went on my mobility scooter. I couldn't

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walk to the hospital that's a bit missed. But as soon as I got off Eleanor, my scooter,

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if you know you know. But I sort of got off and as I'm walking into the gym she's noticed

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my right foot quite severely dragging on the floor. It's something that happens every single

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day it's been going on for many many months I'll be honest with you. As I walk my right

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foot, if I get really tired my left does it sometimes but predominantly is my right which

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is actually my stronger leg. Don't know why. But my right foot it points down as I'm walking

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and my toes drag across the floor. Yep I'm aware that's called foot drop. Again I'm quite

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new to some of this terminology and everything else but yeah I'm aware it's called foot

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drop but it's something that actually hasn't gone away for me for a very long time. I've

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dealt with it for quite a number of months. In fact I'm going to go as strong as at least

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six months it's been every single day previously to that it was now and then but yeah it's

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been getting steadily worse. But yeah I mean the physio actually mentioned and the word

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actually stuck in my head I'll be honest with you and not many things do these days but

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the word stuck in my head from my physio that she said it's actually dangerous. And I'm

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thinking to myself I can understand it. It does make sense that it's dangerous because

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it has caused me quite a significant amount of falls. And actually speaking of falls I

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had one the other day. I came down the stairs and I knew I wasn't right so I got my stick

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which was at the bottom of the stairs. It was sticky sticky stick stick this one. The

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other stick was upstairs. That's just a bit of fun me naming my equipment. That will never

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change in fact I'm looking for names for the two new sticks I've been given. So if anyone's

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got any names feel free to ping them across to me because I need help. But yeah as I took

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a step forward I kind of didn't take a step forward and I actually slammed straight into

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our shoe rack shoulder first and it hurt. I took a spill while I was on the living room

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floor and Lisa she had to call both my dad and my brother to come over and then between

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them all sort of get me up. And yeah we were going to do an A&E run I'll be honest with

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you Lisa did try and ring an ambulance but they were very busy so they couldn't get

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in. But yeah long story cut short A&E was closed so it was a case of just sort of try

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and fight through and hope everything was okay. A few days on yeah it's bruised I have

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bruised but I'm okay so that's a bit of a result. But yeah going back to the physio

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doing some of the exercises was very very difficult I'm going to be honest I didn't

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find it easy at all. I've been given physio to do at home which is going to involve sitting

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and standing exercises. So I have to sit on a chair with another chair in front of me

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with a lower back and I just sort of stand using that other chair's back to help guide

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me up safely. So that is something that going forward I'm going to be doing. It's supposed

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to be quite helpful for legs and lower back which is kind of where my problem is at the

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moment. You know I get a lot of grinding in my neck but the predominant pains lower back

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and legs so hopefully that's going to be okay. It might never know it might give me a little

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bit more strength I really hope so. But yeah I mean some of the things I was laying on

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my back and having to try and raise my legs while I was laying flat it hurt that actually

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hurt an awful lot and I have to be honest with you in terms of raising my legs on my

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own I can't actually get them in that term when I'm laying flat more than a few centimetres

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off the bed and it was very very painful. So yeah blessed her with physio she sort of

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guided me the best she could she sort of did the exercises where she sort of bending my

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knees putting my knees as far to the chest as possible but she understands I actually

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I really can't do that one myself that's where I need assistance from someone. But

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yeah I mean it was actually quite nice to get along to the physio and get that done.

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She's going to see me again in four weeks and see if we can sort of pass along some

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exercises for me to do to just build up that little bit of strength because let's be fair

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if we can it would be good it really would be good bear with me a second I'm just going

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to have a quick sip of my cup of tea I'm sat here with a nice strong cup oh that's nice

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it does get a little bit chilly out here in my new studio as we're gonna call it so nice

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hot strong cup of tea thanks very much don't mind if I do but yeah I mean that's pretty

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much it for the physio side of things. So it was it was a very very good appointment

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my physio she was lovely she really was and Lisa's help coming along was brilliant it

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really was. So four weeks time back to physio let's see how that one goes. I'm gonna have

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another little sip of my tea I'm not gonna lie to you yep I've actually made that really

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nice I do like a nice strong cup of tea I'll be honest with you I'm still going off script

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a little bit here but it's beautiful strong tea and as I say these days I don't know

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what it is I used to hate coffee I really like a nice strong coffee as well now yeah

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I don't know why I don't know why at all but I can't complain I do enjoy but yeah back

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on topic talking about the pains I've been getting and I'll be honest with you at night

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especially these pains have been absolutely awful the last few days to the point actually

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I've not really had a lot of sleep my lower back and my legs at times the pain is absolutely

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excruciating as I'm laying there and I sort of try and move around try and get myself

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comfortable all sorts it's just not working it's just not working at all and yeah I'm

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not enjoying it I'll be honest with you I'm not enjoying it and I'll be honest with you

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I can't quite work it out because it's okay it's been there for a very long time but actually

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it's getting steadily worse and I'm not quite sure actually how to deal with it so I told

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you previously that I'd upped my painkillers especially of an evening so I take three of

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these neuropathic painkillers and even they're not really touching it overnight now and I

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can't work out exactly what the story is predominantly the pains are my calf muscles and my thigh

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muscles and it sort of interlinks to my knees my lower back but it's not the kind of pain

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that makes you want to sort of scream out it's just the kind of pain that's there and

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you can't do anything about it and it's very very uncomfortable and I know people are out

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there they've got worse pains and whatever else I fully respect that but actually this

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is very new for me so I mean pain is something I can normally cope with without too much

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of a problem but this is something else it's genuinely something else and yeah it's hard

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work and it's actually causing me to lose quite a bit of sleep I'll be honest with you

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there but there you go I'm carrying on keep fighting because at the end of the day let's

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be fair I've got to get used to this and it's uncomfortable it's not nice and it hurts but

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we're all in the same boat I'm no worse than anyone else so anyone else going through those

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sort of pains or worse believe me when I say to you my heart goes out to you it really

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really does but we've got this as a community we've got this and again I'll be honest with

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you the people that I've spoken to that also are going through all this sort of stuff incredible

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people really incredible people so if you're able to if you're able to get onto an avenue

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I've mentioned it before and I will mention it again if you're able to get onto some sort

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of support group please do so you know talk to people and so just try and get things out

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in the open for yourself because it's horrible we know that and if we don't have to go through

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it on our own let's not let's come together let's come together as a community and try

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and help each other as much as we can and I will be honest with you the MS community

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it's a fantastic place I'm gonna say it's a fantastic place because yeah people are

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going through some really horrible times but there's always somebody there there's always

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somebody that is prepared to talk and try their best to help so if you need that please

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do so and again the MS society give them a call Google the number I haven't got the number

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sat here in front of me give them a call because there's people there that will talk and will

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help and will give you advice but sort of coming across from the pain aspect as I said

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to at the start as a family we're really quite seriously talking about uprooting and moving

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across country at the moment we're in the East Midlands I won't give my location my

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exact location out but we're in the East Midlands and what we're seriously contemplating is

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a move down to the South Coast you know I'm from the South myself London Essex that area

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and but actually we'd like to go down to the South Coast we've started the ball rolling

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excuse me I'll have another sip of my tea but yeah we've sort of started the ball rolling

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we've had the house valued and it's quite a reasonable value I'll be honest with you

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and we've we've looked into it we've had a look at some houses down on the South Coast

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online so we've not been down yet but actually it's a real possibility that we could do this

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and I think for the sake of the family for the kids a nice a nice change to a new area

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and the possibility of waking up every day to a bit of sea air and lots of things to

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do you know relatively close to to cities and whatever else genuinely I think it's

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a great idea say myself Lisa we've spoke about it my dad my brother Richard we've all sat

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down and we've discussed and yes something that's a real possibility we are looking into

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it and I have to admit I'm actually really excited about the prospect I've had the conversation

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with my work about a potential transfer so there is a possibility of that so yeah in

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all truth a fresh start sometimes in life that's what's needed a fresh start and actually

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quite looking forward to it if it happens but yeah I mean that's pretty much it for

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today I don't want to keep you too long the same as always thank you all for listening

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genuinely it's massively appreciated and I'm incredibly grateful and there's some

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some words I actually put down that I want to say just very briefly and it is very much

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a case of just reminding people that no matter what you're going through no matter how dark

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the time is that you're going through if you're able to talk or just ask for help from someone

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the dark time that you're going through actually there's always that possibility that there's

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a real bright light at the end of it please try and remember that no matter how dark things

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are there's always always a way to to get out of that dark and into the light thank

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you all for listening have a great day and I will look forward to speaking to you again

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soon bye bye