Hello Prosecco Queens fam and welcome to this episode of Ratter Die from teens to Prosecco Queens.
I am your host and forever dreamer Teresa. How's everybody doing? As I sit here looking at old
journals and poems I wrote just thinking and reminiscing and trying to understand how certain
things for me transpired over the last couple years. I realize more and more that these experiences
will continue to shape who I am as all of our experiences shape who we are in certain ways.
And it's interesting because we have expectations. We as humans have such a bad habit of expecting
outcomes and expecting things from others without learning how to give ourselves those things first.
And I don't mean actual tangible things, physical things, items. I just mean comfort
and love and protection and happiness to say the least. To only say a few. And I think it's
really interesting the more I think about it how it's just not taught to us that way. Generation
after generation after generation of people who are just trying to survive there wasn't really time
to express to explore and to understand that as humans we have a responsibility to ourselves
to try to get as much out of this experience as possible. And I do not mean that in a selfish way.
I don't mean use your power for yourself to hurt others. I just mean we have responsibility to take
care of ourselves so we can be the best that we need to be for ourselves and for our families.
Because the days are long but the years are short man. And I put on a TikTok recently. Go check out
my TikTok page. It's silly but it's me how sometimes randomly I will just sit back and it'll hit me
how fast the past 20 years 30 years have gone and you blink your eyes and you wonder how did I get
in this place. Now I will not say that I am not blessed. I am grateful and blessed and thankful
and I express that every day because the reality is things can shift in a heartbeat for anybody
in any way and your life may never look the same again. So I stick with being grateful
and thankful sometimes for the struggle because I'm able to have the struggle
where other people may not have been able to and may not have been able to come out of it.
And that's the point that we have to appreciate. Do I wish things were easier? Of course everybody
does but I realize so much of what myself and my family has gone through has made me want
to dream more and to do better and to see things clearer and to explore so much more
of who I'm supposed to be. And I think everybody should really take that introspective look at
themselves and do the same thing. Learn who you are because ultimately you only have to live with
yourself. If you're blessed and lucky we have families and we have friends and careers or jobs
whatever that may be for anybody and most of the time only the people that are closest to you
really can see you for what you present but that's not necessarily who you are and I don't think
that we take enough time to learn that. We project so much crap out there. Social media is so fake
and yet we all do it and of course we all do it. I'm not gonna stop doing it because I love to be
able to see how everybody's doing, share the good and the bad and understand that life ebbs and flows.
Am I always crazy about some of this stuff? I see hell no. I don't think any of us are but it's so
important to learn to be true to yourself. It's important to take care of yourself. It is important
to be a stand-up person. We are not perfect. We are never going to be perfect and nobody's asking
anybody to be perfect. Isn't it said that Jesus said and I paraphrase of course,
he who has not sinned may cast the first stone right? None of us are perfect and we all have
moments where we're judgmental and critical of others and mostly of ourselves but I think inherently
we just want to live our lives drama free, pay the bills, have security, be healthy and be happy
and I am down for whatever that looks like for anybody. I'm sitting here looking at old journals
that I wrote during COVID and I get sad. It's the first time I've looked at them in very long time
because I don't recognize that woman, that shell of a woman with raging anxiety causing me to be
physically ill and little did I know my body was telling me that stuff was wrong and I refused to
listen to it. My body was telling me and making me realize something was going on. It was my
intuition. It was my body screaming at me to listen to me and I didn't do it. I just thought, oh my
God, here it comes. This was a time that all of us didn't know what was going to happen and let's
be honest. As I sit here speaking this podcast, there are drones flying over New Jersey which I'm
sure you've all seen because I know I've seen them and I saw four or five of them yesterday
when we were driving right here over Morris County and apparently they didn't know what they are.
We had a crazy election. We got the holidays coming. Weather crap is everywhere and all we're
trying to do is survive. But isn't that a little bit exhausting? Just trying to always survive.
I'm trying to thrive in whatever way that I can. I'm trying to prove to myself that I can do
better for myself and my family in whatever capacity that looks like. As 2024 comes to a close,
I was able to accomplish certain things I didn't think I was able to put out more episodes than
I did last year and I'm not going to lie. I almost quit this a few times because it's a lot of work
but it's like a passion project for me and you guys have heard me say before it's a labor of love
and I still think sometimes it's too much but we'll see how 2025 goes. I'm changing the name to
Just Prosecco Queens podcast. I am changing the format, a bunch of smaller episodes and also other
interviews. I'm going to mix it up, try to put out more episodes as much as I can and I really
want to try to not only put out more on my platform, I want to use my voice to help inspire others,
to comfort others, to be a soundboard, as well as laugh and have a great time. If I can make you feel
any bit of comfort, if I can feel you make you feel any kind of camaraderie that you're not alone
in any way, that is accomplishing my goal. Now I wouldn't mind a team behind me doing the editing
but you know what? Maybe one day, right? Screw it, it just hasn't happened yet. You put something
out in the universe, you put good out in the universe and all you can do is pray that good comes back.
This human experience is crazy. Good things happen to bad people, bad things happen to good people.
We could be the most positive person in the world and something can happen that can change our lives
forever. I can't say that I'm always crazy happy because I'm not and I have so many moments where
I have to break down to build myself back up and learning to do that has been the hardest
for me. I'm planning a lot of things for the year to come and I pray and hope that not only do we grow
as a podcast and we grow listeners and followers but that you will feel that coming back to my page
makes your day better. My dream is to be able to use my voice in the best way possible. I implore
you all to have a wonderful holidays, laugh, spend time with family or shit. Just relax on your chair
because I'm looking forward to that as well. Do whatever makes you happy, makes your heart happy.
Life is so damn hard and it goes so quickly so why not enjoy the moments where you can look back
and go damn yo. That was good times and remember there's nothing wrong with going into your bed,
covering yourself up and chilling. There's nothing wrong with separating yourself if you need to
from all the craziness and there's nothing wrong with building your own community. There's nothing
wrong with being able to say this small little piece of heaven is mine and I am going to protect it.
I wish you all the happiness in the world. A wonderful Christmas, a beautiful new year
and all I can say about 2025 is maybe aliens aren't the worst thing. I guess we'll see
and we'll go from there. You know at some point I do believe we switched the timeline. I'm still
trying to figure out when it happened because this shit just seems so unreal everything that's going
on which is why I'm saying what I'm saying just enjoy what you can. You know having to pay rent
and all these freaking bills and everything is exhausting and January always feels like the
longest month ever. So enjoy these last two weeks where it's like dead zone of just shopping,
family, drinking, dancing, TikTok videos and stupidity and just know that your Prosecco queen
has every intention of starting 2025 off right and getting as much content out as possible.
So please come back to me. Don't forget to like, follow, share, review and let's get the word out
there for all of us. Don't forget if you would like to be a guest on the show or you have a story
to tell you can reach me at Prosecco Queens podcast at gmail.com. You all know I'm on IG at
Prosecco Queens podcast. I am on TikTok. Gonna have some funny content coming soon with Natalie,
my daughter and that is also at Prosecco Queens podcast and we have a channel on YouTube. So
please subscribe and that's at Prosecco Queens podcast as well. Please know I am here. I am here
to help. I am here to listen and I'm learning as well. Love yourself. Love your family. Take care
of yourself and have a wonderful, happy new year. I'll talk to you all soon.