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Hello Prosecco Queens fam and welcome to this episode of Ratter Die from teens to Prosecco Queens.

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I am your host and forever dreamer Teresa. How's everybody doing? As I sit here looking at old

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journals and poems I wrote just thinking and reminiscing and trying to understand how certain

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things for me transpired over the last couple years. I realize more and more that these experiences

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will continue to shape who I am as all of our experiences shape who we are in certain ways.

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And it's interesting because we have expectations. We as humans have such a bad habit of expecting

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outcomes and expecting things from others without learning how to give ourselves those things first.

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And I don't mean actual tangible things, physical things, items. I just mean comfort

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and love and protection and happiness to say the least. To only say a few. And I think it's

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really interesting the more I think about it how it's just not taught to us that way. Generation

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after generation after generation of people who are just trying to survive there wasn't really time

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to express to explore and to understand that as humans we have a responsibility to ourselves

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to try to get as much out of this experience as possible. And I do not mean that in a selfish way.

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I don't mean use your power for yourself to hurt others. I just mean we have responsibility to take

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care of ourselves so we can be the best that we need to be for ourselves and for our families.

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Because the days are long but the years are short man. And I put on a TikTok recently. Go check out

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my TikTok page. It's silly but it's me how sometimes randomly I will just sit back and it'll hit me

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how fast the past 20 years 30 years have gone and you blink your eyes and you wonder how did I get

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in this place. Now I will not say that I am not blessed. I am grateful and blessed and thankful

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and I express that every day because the reality is things can shift in a heartbeat for anybody

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in any way and your life may never look the same again. So I stick with being grateful

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and thankful sometimes for the struggle because I'm able to have the struggle

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where other people may not have been able to and may not have been able to come out of it.

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And that's the point that we have to appreciate. Do I wish things were easier? Of course everybody

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does but I realize so much of what myself and my family has gone through has made me want

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to dream more and to do better and to see things clearer and to explore so much more

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of who I'm supposed to be. And I think everybody should really take that introspective look at

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themselves and do the same thing. Learn who you are because ultimately you only have to live with

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yourself. If you're blessed and lucky we have families and we have friends and careers or jobs

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whatever that may be for anybody and most of the time only the people that are closest to you

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really can see you for what you present but that's not necessarily who you are and I don't think

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that we take enough time to learn that. We project so much crap out there. Social media is so fake

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and yet we all do it and of course we all do it. I'm not gonna stop doing it because I love to be

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able to see how everybody's doing, share the good and the bad and understand that life ebbs and flows.

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Am I always crazy about some of this stuff? I see hell no. I don't think any of us are but it's so

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important to learn to be true to yourself. It's important to take care of yourself. It is important

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to be a stand-up person. We are not perfect. We are never going to be perfect and nobody's asking

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anybody to be perfect. Isn't it said that Jesus said and I paraphrase of course,

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he who has not sinned may cast the first stone right? None of us are perfect and we all have

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moments where we're judgmental and critical of others and mostly of ourselves but I think inherently

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we just want to live our lives drama free, pay the bills, have security, be healthy and be happy

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and I am down for whatever that looks like for anybody. I'm sitting here looking at old journals

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that I wrote during COVID and I get sad. It's the first time I've looked at them in very long time

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because I don't recognize that woman, that shell of a woman with raging anxiety causing me to be

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physically ill and little did I know my body was telling me that stuff was wrong and I refused to

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listen to it. My body was telling me and making me realize something was going on. It was my

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intuition. It was my body screaming at me to listen to me and I didn't do it. I just thought, oh my

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God, here it comes. This was a time that all of us didn't know what was going to happen and let's

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be honest. As I sit here speaking this podcast, there are drones flying over New Jersey which I'm

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sure you've all seen because I know I've seen them and I saw four or five of them yesterday

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when we were driving right here over Morris County and apparently they didn't know what they are.

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We had a crazy election. We got the holidays coming. Weather crap is everywhere and all we're

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trying to do is survive. But isn't that a little bit exhausting? Just trying to always survive.

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I'm trying to thrive in whatever way that I can. I'm trying to prove to myself that I can do

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better for myself and my family in whatever capacity that looks like. As 2024 comes to a close,

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I was able to accomplish certain things I didn't think I was able to put out more episodes than

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I did last year and I'm not going to lie. I almost quit this a few times because it's a lot of work

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but it's like a passion project for me and you guys have heard me say before it's a labor of love

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and I still think sometimes it's too much but we'll see how 2025 goes. I'm changing the name to

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Just Prosecco Queens podcast. I am changing the format, a bunch of smaller episodes and also other

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interviews. I'm going to mix it up, try to put out more episodes as much as I can and I really

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want to try to not only put out more on my platform, I want to use my voice to help inspire others,

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to comfort others, to be a soundboard, as well as laugh and have a great time. If I can make you feel

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any bit of comfort, if I can feel you make you feel any kind of camaraderie that you're not alone

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in any way, that is accomplishing my goal. Now I wouldn't mind a team behind me doing the editing

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but you know what? Maybe one day, right? Screw it, it just hasn't happened yet. You put something

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out in the universe, you put good out in the universe and all you can do is pray that good comes back.

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This human experience is crazy. Good things happen to bad people, bad things happen to good people.

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We could be the most positive person in the world and something can happen that can change our lives

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forever. I can't say that I'm always crazy happy because I'm not and I have so many moments where

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I have to break down to build myself back up and learning to do that has been the hardest

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for me. I'm planning a lot of things for the year to come and I pray and hope that not only do we grow

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as a podcast and we grow listeners and followers but that you will feel that coming back to my page

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makes your day better. My dream is to be able to use my voice in the best way possible. I implore

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you all to have a wonderful holidays, laugh, spend time with family or shit. Just relax on your chair

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because I'm looking forward to that as well. Do whatever makes you happy, makes your heart happy.

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Life is so damn hard and it goes so quickly so why not enjoy the moments where you can look back

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and go damn yo. That was good times and remember there's nothing wrong with going into your bed,

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covering yourself up and chilling. There's nothing wrong with separating yourself if you need to

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from all the craziness and there's nothing wrong with building your own community. There's nothing

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wrong with being able to say this small little piece of heaven is mine and I am going to protect it.

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I wish you all the happiness in the world. A wonderful Christmas, a beautiful new year

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and all I can say about 2025 is maybe aliens aren't the worst thing. I guess we'll see

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and we'll go from there. You know at some point I do believe we switched the timeline. I'm still

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trying to figure out when it happened because this shit just seems so unreal everything that's going

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on which is why I'm saying what I'm saying just enjoy what you can. You know having to pay rent

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and all these freaking bills and everything is exhausting and January always feels like the

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longest month ever. So enjoy these last two weeks where it's like dead zone of just shopping,

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family, drinking, dancing, TikTok videos and stupidity and just know that your Prosecco queen

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has every intention of starting 2025 off right and getting as much content out as possible.

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So please come back to me. Don't forget to like, follow, share, review and let's get the word out

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there for all of us. Don't forget if you would like to be a guest on the show or you have a story

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to tell you can reach me at Prosecco Queens podcast at gmail.com. You all know I'm on IG at

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Prosecco Queens podcast. I am on TikTok. Gonna have some funny content coming soon with Natalie,

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my daughter and that is also at Prosecco Queens podcast and we have a channel on YouTube. So

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please subscribe and that's at Prosecco Queens podcast as well. Please know I am here. I am here

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to help. I am here to listen and I'm learning as well. Love yourself. Love your family. Take care

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of yourself and have a wonderful, happy new year. I'll talk to you all soon.