From the time that they pronounced me that was
a good 45 minutes They cut my clothes and then
they paddled my heart my heart stopped and I
could see people screaming and crying But I didn't
realize that was actually my physical body because
I was somewhere else The only thing that I could
feel if you can imagine Absolute love and peace
there wasn't anything else to be felt. I was
greeted by people I'd known in the past I'm back
home again. Incredibly safe and felt at home.
Welcome, welcome to Round Trip Death, everybody.
We are super happy to have Brian Duzak with us
today. Brian, good morning. Hello, sir. Hello,
everybody. It's good to see you again. Thank
you for reaching out to the show. I can't wait
to hear all the details of your story after hearing
the idea. of what it is in our pre -interview
the other day. But before we jump right into
it, and we're going to be there really quick.
Brian, would you just take one minute and tell
us a little bit about you so we can get to know
you? Well, I'm 51 now. I live in Texas. I actually
grew up in the suburbs of Chicago. Fairly average
life, nothing too extreme. My dad actually pretty
much raised me from about two years old up until
I was seven, eight, and he got remarried. I like
to kind of brag about my stepmom a lot. I feel
like I chose her in a way. I introduced her to
my dad and six months later they were engaged
and a year later they got married. She was a
very spiritual woman, the yoga type, the meditator
type, open to A Course in Miracles, if you remember
that old thing. Introduced me to the law of attraction
when I was in my 20s, I believe, or maybe 30s.
But she was very well -rounded. She was open
to a lot of things, introduced me to a lot of
things. On my real mom's side, she's part Native
American. So I was very curious about those types
of things, you know, medicine and healing and
such. And never participated in yoga, a little
bit tried to do meditation. But one thing that
struck out to me in seventh and eighth grade,
I was checking out books about astral projection
and actually achieved astral projection in eighth
grade. I had a little bit of experience with
it, but kind of let it go in my 20s. Got stuck
in corporate America, working a full -time job.
I was working for a veteran -owned t -shirt company
where I was at my desk 14 hours a day and kind
of lost my way physically. I was a wrestler when
I was younger, but I had gained a lot of weight.
I got up to 250 -ish when I was wrestling at
160 -ish. It was just, you know, pizza, fast
food, Mountain Dew, Red Bull. Those are my four
main food groups. And that, by the way, is where
you're already leading right up to your NDE and
I appreciate that. And so go ahead and take us
down that road because people are going to hear
about you having a stroke at a young age. You
were what, 43 at that time? Yes, sir. Okay, go
ahead and get there. I had actually for a few
weeks had a pain in my left calf and had no idea
that it was a blood clot building up. I thought
I had shin splints. I was limping around the
office and people are just like, dude, what's
wrong with you? I'm like, I don't know. I actually
stopped by a clinic. At one point he gave me
some sort of a muscle relaxer medication I'd
taken for a couple of weeks. Wasn't helping at
all. Come to find out. I was building up blood
clots in my system from just eating a huge, fatty,
sugary diet. I just wasn't really taking care
of myself. I thought of myself as healthy. I
tried to eat right for the most part, but looking
back, yeah, it was pretty disgusting. Just, you
know, fast food pizza, Mountain Dew Red Bull.
Again, a lot of coffee as well, sugary coffee.
I made it home and I believe that was July 8th,
if I'm not mistaken. Ordered another pizza. And
I was about halfway through it, chugging a two
liter of soda. Just something was terribly wrong.
I believe that your pancreas that I had the feeling
under my right ribs was kind of a burning sensation.
And it was just getting stronger. I couldn't
feel like my heartbeat in that area. You know,
my wife's like, ah, you know, take some Pepto.
You'll be all right. You know, try going to the
washroom that wasn't fixing anything. And then
the tunnel vision set in and I couldn't catch
my breath. It was just a very strange feeling
I'd never felt before. The tunnel vision started
kind of like wide scope, but was slowly narrowing
in to where I could only see kind of like a stars
or static around this certain area. And I really
had the focus to see. So I was panicking. Her
and I were pretty much fighting at the time,
but I'm like, hey, can you just take me to the
hospital? Oh, you don't need the hospital. You'll
be fine, you know? But eventually I... guess
I coaxed her into taking me and we made it there.
She literally dropped me off at the emergency
room entrance and I stepped out of the car, closed
the door and she peeled out of there mad at me
because I was inconveniencing her. Anyways, that
relationship is over by the way. But I call it
walking the longest mile because it might have
been only 20 or 30 steps but it took everything
in me to Focus my energy in that direction just
right foot left foot right foot left foot and
the tunnel vision I say maybe got to about as
big as a paper towel roll. I could only see Right
in front of me. I made it through those sliding
automatic doors made it about seven more steps
and I looked to my left and there's people filling
out paperwork and There was just no way I couldn't
function. I feel like you know if my energy bar
went from 100 to zero here I was at like three
percent left there wasn't much left in me you
know by the grace of god I looked to my right
and there was a male orderly I guess you would
call her a nurse uh pushing a gurnee about to
turn down another hall and we made eye contact
and I was trying to say like help me I'm not
sure what came out of my mouth but it definitely
wasn't that and In that moment, I just remember
my hand, my arm just slinking and falling to
the floor from pure weakness, but I also saw
the back of my head on the way down and I didn't
feel the impact of touching the floor. But when
I saw the back of my head, you don't normally
see the back of your head unless you're using
a couple of mirrors. So right away I realized
like, wait, what? What? Wait, hold on a second.
Where are my arms? I'm on the floor. Where? Wait,
what? Yeah, so you're so you're out of your body
already observing everything. There was this
strange like ripping noise compared to two pieces
of Velcro being pulled apart slowly just to and
then there was kind of a pop feeling. That was
it. Yeah, all in that moment while I'm watching
the back of my head. It's just I'm literally
seeing I don't want to say inside my head, but
yeah, it was just kind of like black vision at
first. And then boom, there's the back of my
head and it fell to the floor and yeah, heard
the ripping noise. And like I said earlier, I
had been astral before. So my first reaction
was like, wait a minute, I'm astral right now.
And I looked down and normally there's like type
of a cord coming from like your sternum area
of your light body to the sternum of your actual
body. And it wasn't there. And in that few seconds,
I just really realized like, oh my gosh, I'm
dead. Like panic attack, panic attack, like danger
Will Robinson. There's a problem going on right
now. It's kind of strange and it's really hard
to explain when you're separate from your body,
you're not limited to the, you know, the five
senses or six senses. Some people would say,
but I guess I immediately it's from a completely
different perspective. Like I understood in that
moment, like, oh, this is like my over soul.
This is the higher me. This is the bigger me.
This is the one that's been here for eons and
will be here for many eons. Even though the Brian
body is only going to be here for a give or take,
who knows, 60, 70 years hopefully. But it was
just a very strange feeling. I immediately like
had this knowing. And the first thing that popped
through my head was I didn't finish my mission
and I need to get back in my body. Although I
still can't recall my mission fully, I immediately
knew like, oh gosh, oh gosh, I didn't finish
my mission. I didn't do what I was supposed to
do here. I even thought like God's going to be
upset with me as if I had made a promise to do
something while I'm here as Brian. Very awkward
feeling to know that you have a mission, but
not to know exactly what your mission is. I don't
know what that is, why we can't remember these
things. since talked to other people and they're
like, yeah, I know I have a mission too, but
I don't fully understand it either. I don't know
why they have this. I would love to meet somebody
that could like try to do hypnotization. So I
can remember these things, but still haven't
had success with that yet. Anyways, if you've
ever had an adrenaline rush or a panic attack,
I was having one, but I was having one as a body.
I mean, as a soul, not a body. Like I could literally
feel the pulsating, the freaking out was happening
and just like, Oh my God, Oh my God, what do
I do? I'm watching it in these few seconds. You
know, they noticed I fell down. Obviously the
orderly comes towards me and was asking for help
from another nurse. They ended up picking me
up, putting me on the gurney. And I'm kind of
here watching this. I remember a feeling of looking
at the gurney itself, the actual steel bars with
the pads on them. that they push you with and
everything that I looked at much like what I've
done in astral projection is you could literally
feel the the molecular density of everything
that you look at and you have 360 vision so I'm
turning my head right now but you don't have
to there are no physical attributes you you think
to the left you're looking to the left you think
to the right you're looking to the right and
I remember when i'm looking at this gurney feeling
the coolness iron or whatever metal it was i
could feel its molecular structure i can't really
explain that other than kind of like um have
you ever looked at battery a nine volt battery
of course not i would never do something like
that as kids i know we tried that no we do we
do it to test and see if they still have a charge
it was just kind of like that feeling like you
can Totally feel it inside you when you're looking
at something you can feel its structure the second
nurse that walked up I remember looking at her
smock and just feeling the Again, the density
of the threads and like what it was made of in
every way shape or form It's very hard to try
to explain that when you're in your normal physical
body, but outside of it I can only imagine like
what the ghosts are in between spirits are feeling
as far as Going through something like you could
feel what the dry walls made over the stuffing
inside it. You know, it's a very strange feeling.
It's kind of hard to explain. But yeah, the molecular
structure is the only way really I could say
that. But again, I watched them kind of pick
me up, put me on the cart, cart me off. I'm seeing
other people in the room are panicking. I remember
hearing Although I don't have ears, but I could
hear like, Oh, I hope that guy is going to be
okay. And another one's like, Oh geez, that guy
just totally fell on his face. And like, I could
hear other people's thoughts in a way during
that panic attack. Again, I didn't finish my
mission. I was freaking out. And then suddenly
this, um, Just like kind of like a glow is happening.
It's really increasing It's getting very bright
and I kind of glance over to my right and There
is an entity looking right at me I compared to
like if you're at a bar and you see an old friend
and you tap him on the shoulder and he turns
around and it's like hey But I look over in this
entities like And I'm looking at it, I compared
it to two things, like the glowing aliens from
the movie Cocoon, if you remember that movie.
Yeah, that's an old one. Yeah. And then also
there's a lot of colors and light going on, although
it's mainly this golden white there. I can see,
like if you stare at a TV screen or a monitor
very closely, you see the little RGB lines in
there. When you look at it, it's mainly golden
white. but there are little colors within kind
of like prisms of light inside it. I want to
say it was male although there was nothing you
know no chest or anything but I looked right
at it and I knew immediately that I was looking
at God it it had an angelic feel but it was more
than that and this kind of like a light fog was
coming for emanating from it and coming over
to me and kind of surrounded me and Immediately,
I just felt calm. I felt peace the whole panic
attack subsided. Thank God because that was a
very scary situation I'm just like looking at
it and it's kind of like yeah, you have any questions
for him? Like are you God? You know, I knew inside
my head or well my spirit but I knew it but I
just had to ask to verify and he's looking at
me like yeah most of the time don't you recognize
me you know me it kind of dawned on me that that
thought that I had earlier about being a soul
you know for all time like your soul your consciousness
is energy which never dissipates at least in
our universe and it was just like dawning on
me like I've been here forever different entities
I'll be here for a long time as different entities
but this guy right here knows me in between all
the above since the beginning and up until if
there ever is an end and it just knows me and
I just felt that like hey you're like an old
friend that I don't recognize unfortunately as
Brian in my body but right now like hey like
holy cow man like I'm sorry I didn't finish my
mission what do I do I need to get back in my
body ASAP and do what I came down to do again
I'm panicking and and he's just like calm down
everything will be fine you have some time let's
go for a walk and chat I can tell you have a
lot of questions you know you don't really say
no to God so it's just like yeah okay kind of
like mosey with me i don't remember like grabbing
his hand but i remember being right next to him
i didn't see a tunnel of light i didn't have
a life review i'm kind of mad about that because
i don't remember if i have one or not i don't
think i did but i do remember going into a room
type thing if you've ever seen the matrix by
chance where neo says we need guns and then all
of a sudden they're in that like golden room
There were no guns with God, but I was definitely
in this golden type room with him. I don't remember
seeing boundaries, but you could feel there is
one, although it's all light. You can't see walls.
It's hard to explain that too. Immediately. I'm
just like, Hey, I need to get back in my body.
I didn't finish my mission. Like I need to go
back. I didn't really like ask. Can I go back
to my body? I guess it's the sales guy in me.
I was just like, what do I have to do when I
get back in my body? And I wasn't asking. I wasn't
really thrown a choice out there. It was like,
maybe I even knew that I would be let back to
my body. But I remember when I first asked that
question, like I was concerned obviously about
my health. I didn't want to jump back in and
then just die again because my heart wasn't working
right. Or there's a stroke happening. I needed
to know what I needed to do to fix my body. And
literally the second I asked that, I don't really
love to use the word download, but there was
a message sent to my core of my being and immediately
message received. It's definitely telepathic
because I don't have ears to hear. And I remember
when it came to me, it wasn't in the words in
English, but somehow the message that was sent
was interpreted by my by my soul because that's
the language I speak. I feel like if I was Greek
or Italian or Hindu for that matter, it would
have been interpreted in the language that you
perceive at the time or that you speak at that
time. And the first thing that came was water,
aspirin, and citrus peels, emphasis on peels.
Not something I would normally think about, but
okay, noted. Now I'm thinking, okay, so if that's
going to help me when I get back, like what do
I need to do to kind of maintain? I realized
that I needed to lose weight, clear my arteries,
you know, fix my body because I've done a lot
of damage over the last 10 years or so gained
a lot of weight. And just immediately there was
a cycle of words that at the time I just didn't
know fully. I'd heard of some of the things that
popped in, but like I remember intermittent fasting,
moringa seeds, sea moss. a lot of different things,
parasite cleanses, things of that nature, stop
eating dairy, cut down on carbs, literally, or
bread even. And just all these little like diet
supplement kind of information was coming into
me. And it was a pretty long list. I'm like,
okay, like noted, okay. Now, wow, okay. If I
ask questions, they're immediately answered.
And in that moment, I just kind of realized like,
I don't know if you've ever thought if you sat
down with Jesus or God, What would you ask them?
There's a long list of questions, right? I'm
a guy with a million questions. So you know.
I could keep him busy for years asking my questions.
And I'm about to ask you a million questions
too, but go ahead and finish what happened. While
my brain's thinking of things to say, I had to
just ask. I was like, you know, again, are you
God? And he's like, yeah, like you don't recognize
me. Yes. Most of the time. Yeah, I'm God. In
that moment, I feel this presence of just the
love, the peace, the overwhelming calmness. I
compare that whole feeling to like, you know,
laying in your grandmother's bosom as she reads
you your favorite bedtime story. You know, you're
petting a puppy, you're eating a warm oatmeal
cookie, drinking some milk right by like a fireplace.
It was just all these things of like love, calmness,
security, peace, something I haven't felt in
this lifetime. And I do kind of miss it, to be
honest. As I'm feeling that, I even asked, I'm
just like, but there's something more here. Like
I even asked, like, are you Jesus too? Just as
plain as day as we're having a conversation with
a nice gentleman, he's like, yeah, sometimes
nonchalantly. Yeah, sometimes I'm Jesus too.
You know, me personally, I've been ominous for
about 20 years, which is kind of open to all
the beliefs, looked and researched into, you
know, some of them. And I asked next, I'm like,
you know, I feel this, this jovialness about
you, this happiness, this like kind love thing.
But I even said like, are you Buddha too? And
immediately his face went to that meek little
smile that you see in most images of Buddha and
just gave me a, wait, you're Buddha too? Wow,
that's awesome. And then something kind of hard
to explain. I just, this feeling of something
ancient, this feeling of time and wisdom. And
for whatever reason, I thought of Krishna, which
is more of like a Hindu deity god. And I even
asked him then, I'm like, are you also Krishna?
And no BS, my friend. He turned blue. He had
that little crown and gave me some sort of, I
can't remember the hand drive signal, almost
like a break dancing or the Egyptian move, but
gave me one of those. just to confirm like, yes,
I'm also Krishna. And that kind of took me back,
like, holy crap, like, you're all the above.
Like, I get it now. That's why I'm ominous. You're
not just that one thing that, you know, some
beliefs would say, this is the only God. You're
all seeing, all knowing omnipresent. You're all
the above. And these are just different messengers
of you to different continents, different languages,
to different people. It all just clicked in my
head. that makes perfect sense now. It kind of
verified some feelings that I had about God in
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for details. At this point, again, I had a book
load of questions, so I just started throwing
them out there, you know, and it's kind of unfortunate
maybe our human brain capacity cannot handle
the terabytes and terabytes of data that my soul
absorbed. But I am not able to recall any of
the things from this point forward that I learned.
And there was many questions, like literally
books and chapters of questions, just as you
said you would ask. In this moment, something
started changing as to where I noticed that my
bandwidth was increasing greatly. It started
with like one or two questions, three to five,
seven to 10, 15 to 500, two million questions.
And my bandwidth was increasing. I would call
that my... subconscious now what it had like
kind of flipped over to where I have a secondary
thought to where I remembered there's something
more here on the other side on the spirit world
so to speak to where I remembered I'm like you
know what there's something more I just remembered
I need to go up and I remembered like the calm
that I was feeling was more of like a own very
peaceful very mellow but I know that I had to
increase that in such a way and there's like
this note this frequency this vibration so to
speak to where I took the and just literally
I could feel my soul body everything just go
up up up up up to where I am now floating above
the earth I can see the earth down below me many
miles away still very large but yet I'm very
far from it, very far from it. And I could see
the earth again to use the matrix. If you remember
when Neo could see everything that was inanimate
was green, but everything that was animate had
like this gold hue life force about it. Like
you could see through a building and see all
the people walking, they were gold. At this point
I'm looking at earth and I could see all vegetation.
all animals and all humans, but they're just
little gold specks walking around on Earth. Quite
a crazy sight to see. In this moment, I'm noticing
that I'm hearing a lot of whispers and different
sounds of people talking and thinking and I'm
hearing these little whispers and they're coming
from different pieces of the Earth. I put almost
like my spiritual ear out to hear like, what
is that? I remember the first voice that I heard
was a young oriental girl, maybe nine, 10, 11
years old. You could feel she's terrified. You
could feel she's sad. You could feel she's worried
and she's looking for something. You could hear
her say, mommy, mommy, where are you? I was swimming
in the pond with my friends and then my foot
got stuck in the mud. It's so cold and it's so
dark down here. I realized in that moment, This
poor girl literally just passed away on Earth.
She was obviously swimming. She was in a pond,
I believe, and her foot got stuck in some mud.
And she just went from like I was a few moments
ago, human form, into her spirit form. But yet
I can see her. I didn't even call back out to
see if she could hear me. I was a little freaked
out by that, admittedly. But I could, I remember
smelling swamp water. I remember feeling the
cool, cold, clammy -ness as if I was like, uh,
empathizing with her and feeling what she felt
in that moment. The panic and the sadness and
the worry. You know, I'm still hearing more whispers
and I kind of moved on to the next one. And like
one that came out of the crowd was a very Scottish
accent. The older man, I would say easily in
the late seventies, mid eighties as far as age.
I vaguely remember, I can't remember if it was,
I want to say Martha or Laura because he had
a very heavy accent, but it just came off kind
of like almost like Sean Connery from back in
the day. But I heard Margaret, Margaret. He's
like, I remember we were driving, we were in
the truck and we went around the corner and it
was storming and the truck came in and he remembers
he was just in a crash and he's looking for his
wife and I could feel Their whole relationship
like they'd been together for easily 40 years
and he just loved her so much She was his everything
and he already missed her and he was worried
about her and how she gonna deal without him
and This anguish yet yet there was love yet There
was surprise because he just realized that he
just passed away or he's also in the in -between
but I even remember Seeing the image that's going
through his head as he's taking a left There
was water on the ground. It's raining. There
are lights around a corner. There's a fairly
sharp winding road. And I just remember him taking
the left and then head on seeing the truck lights.
And then I kind of snapped out of it like, whoa,
I just saw his image, you know, also just like
the girl that was in the swamp. And then the
third one was it caught my voice because he actually
had a lower, no accent. Like I feel like I don't
have an accent. Someone from Australia would
say that I had an accent, but his voice was similar
to mine in a lot of ways. And I could sense that
he was a young adult, somewhere around 17, 18,
19, perhaps Midwest. I couldn't tell you where
he was, but he was just kind of very sullen,
very depressed, very solemn. And he's just like,
man. I just couldn't take the depression anymore
and people picking on me and it's like I swallowed
all those pills hoping to end the pain and boy
my mom's gonna be so mad at me but at least you
know at least I'm not suffering anymore but I
could tell that this young man just passed away
from swallowing a bottle of some kind of pills
I could even feel like you ever take in a couple
of like supplements and you feel that feeling
like it didn't go all the way down. It's kind
of stuck right around here somewhere. I could
feel that in him. Like he had just gulped down
some pills and they just kicked in and he's not
with us anymore. And that admittedly freaked
me out because I'm realizing all these whispers
are happening. There's so many more of them.
And these are people that have recently passed
that are Coming to spirit side about to pick
out their new mission, maybe go back about to
have their life review. And I was kind of thinking
like, all right, I can still sense that I'm asking
these questions with God in my subconscious here
and all this data is being transferred. But again,
yet my focus is right here in this portion of
my experience. You know, I'm hearing these whispers
and it was literally almost too much to take
on. There are thousands and thousands more of
these people in the in -between. Like I am empathetic
and I can feel the sadness and the depression
and the despair of people that are now recently
passed. I felt like I kind of needed to change
the course of where I was focusing and I just
immediately like looked up and to my right and
lo and behold, there are these two entities up
there. Looking back, they didn't have male or
female parts, so to speak. They were light bodies,
just like the cocoon artist named Alex Gray,
the same kind of figure as what God was showing
me originally. But they're up here in this space,
I guess. I look and they're the ones that are
now trying to console these people that are in
the in -between. I remember them having very
graceful peaceful, just this very spiritual,
almost ominous energy. They're trying to talk
to you like, you'll be okay, hun, you know, one
at a time, you're going to be okay, let's show
you what you're going to do in your next life.
And, you know, they're just really trying to
help these people out in the in -between. And
I'm just observing like, wow, this is really
amazing to see the watch. Who are these people?
Who are these helpers? And I just realized in
that moment, like, wait a minute, this area.
I've been here before, that's how I knew to come
here. I know those two entities up there and
I kind of looked at one that seemed to be more
male and I'm looking at him and he kind of looked
over and gave me one of those like, what are
you doing over here right now? You're not supposed
to really be here. I felt like maybe I was...
Exploring an abandoned mall. I'm not supposed
to be here right now. And one of the security
guards just busted me wandering around this abandoned
mall. I'm like, I'm so sorry. I'm not even sure
how I got up here. I'm just trying to get back
in my body. And as I'm talking, he nudged over
the other entity, which did seem, looking back,
very female. He nudged the other entity who's
busy helping these in -between people. She kinda
looks over, looks at me again and was so surprised
to see me like, hey, you're not, wait a minute.
You knew you were gonna do this. You knew you
were gonna be here. You gave me something to
give you when this happened. Like almost as if
my, before I was Brian, my soul chose this whole
life and that I made plans with them that, hey,
just in case I come back, like I'm planning on
having a stroke. When I'm 43 and I'm going to
come up here, here's this thing to give to me
because I won't remember as Brian, but I need
you to give this to me." And she's like, hey,
I have something to give you. Let me go get it.
So she kind of, I want to say dissipated, just
moved off and just literally dissipated off to
another area of space. I'm not sure really how
to explain that it felt like she's going off
to like a janitor's broom closet here and this
isn't very familiar area i realized that i was
once one of these entities they knew me they
knew me the mail one even said a name. It wasn't
brian it was the name of my soul. it felt so
familiar like hey wow as soon as he said it i
was like oh yeah that's the real me that's the
extended energy my soul that's been here forever
that's going to remain here like this one knows
me like we're brothers like former co -workers
that was the whole feeling that i was getting
almost as if i was on maternity leave and just
step back into my office and haven't been here
in a while and everybody's like hey how you doing
that was the feeling i got do you remember that
name You know, I've stated it before, this memory
thing, I wish. I do recall that it wasn't a word,
like a name that we would say on earth. It's
not like Michael, Dave, Steve, Bob. It was something
way more than that. Almost like a different language.
100 % a different language. Do you know who those
two entities were? And that's a thing too. I
knew they were, I want to call them former coworkers.
Almost like if you walk back into an old job
you had when you were 17 and that same old guys
at the cash register But dang it. I don't remember
your name. I remember your face I remember how
you feel and I remember your emotions and mannerisms,
but uh, what's your name again Steve? You know,
it was kind of like that. Like there's just this
weird memory loss Is she a block there that happened?
So was there more before you came back into your
body? This is the very end she walked off And
the male version was like, hey, how's it going
down there? How are things going? And I'm just
like, man, I was panicking. I'm like, they're
poisoning the water. They're poisoning the air.
They're poisoning the food. We have to pay to
be on there. There's evil people. They're taking
advantage of children. There's still slavery
down there, just giving a full mission report.
I'm like, you need to send more people down here.
We need help to fix and turn around this planet
and raise the vibration of the planet. And he's
like, we've been sending people there. There's
plans. of spiritual warriors down there that
you need to help wake up and I'm like well wait
is that part of my mission and he's trying to
tell me like yeah you're here to help wake up
other spiritual warriors to raise the vibration
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fully understand how to do that don't feel like
I got a complete synapsis of what I needed, but
that was the gist of it. You know, I was kind
of contemplating like, what do you mean? I'm
here to raise the wood. And how am I going to
what? And the female entity came back with this
again, bigger than a bowling ball, smaller than
a beach ball. It looked like inside it was kind
of like a lava lamp. There's just reds and oranges
and even a couple of purples and blacks and glitterly
specks in this giant ball. And she's like, here,
this is what you gave me to give to you because
you knew this was going to happen. And this is
what you gave me to give to you when this happened.
And she kind of throws it at me. And in that
moment, maybe not even a second and a half, I'm
panicking because as a spirit body, I don't have
arms. How am I going to catch this thing? I kind
of remember a feeling of going like this, although
I don't actually have arms. And it just hits
me in the chest. And in that moment, my eyes
actually open in the real world. And the orderly
that picked me up off the floor, the original
one, is rubbing on my sternum. And I kind of
wake up. I look around for a second, like, is
this real? Like, I was just in space with two
crazy entities in space a minute ago. And I'm
looking up at him, and he's like, hey, do you
know your name? And I said my name, Brian Dusak.
He's like, good, good, you can speak. He's like,
do you know where you are? The G -rated version
is, I better be in a flippin' hospital because
I feel like crap. And he actually laughed a little
bit because I had a sense of humor. He's like,
sir, you just had an ischemic, I think it was
first, and then we gave you the juice, and then
a hemorrhagic stroke. He's like, the clot. that
was in your brain just broke into three smaller
ones. I'm not even sure how they knew that. Like,
did they already put me through an MRI machine?
How long was I out? I don't have answers to any
of those questions. But he's like, the clots,
one of them is traveling back to your brain.
One's going to your heart and the other's going
to your lungs. This is the knockout juice. They
had an IV in me already. And he's like, this
is the knockout juice. You're going to be out
from eight to 12 hours. We're gonna crack open
your ribs and we're gonna get that clap before
it gets to your heart sir and immediately that
same like telepathic voice that was coming from
God originally when I was asking all the questions
and getting answers was I Felt like he took over
because I don't remember willing my hand to move
but my hand went right on top of his hand as
he's got the his thumb on that plunger to put
in my IV lines and The words that came out of
my mouth were no We're not having any surgery
today. Take me to a private room. I know what
I need to do." And I feel like I used the force
on him because he took his thumb off the plunger,
pulled it out of my line and he was shaking a
little bit and you could see the hairs on his
arm stood up and his pupils dilated as if something
really affected him. He's like, I believe you.
What do you need? And I said, take me to a private
room. I said, I need water. I need aspirin. and
all the citrus you can bring me. But mind you,
it wasn't really me saying this. I'm observing
my mouth saying it, but something more was in
me at the time. Whether it was God speaking for
me, my guardian angels, whatever that is, you
could feel it in the room. There was a lot of
like staticky energy in the room at this moment.
And he's like, okay, okay, I believe you. He
wheeled me to a private room. He told the nurse
what was going on. He went off to go get those
three items. I remember a few minutes later,
Hillary Clinton's little sister came in and made
me sign the release paperwork for responsibility
because I'm denying surgery. They made me sign
three or four of those. He comes back in, he's
wheeling a cart, and there's two pitchers of
water, two packets of aspirin, and a bowl of
grapefruit, limes, lemon, and oranges. And he
just kind of pushed it up next to me. He's like,
here you go. I didn't even blink. I ripped open
the aspirin. I started crushing it with the pitcher.
I pulled it off the table and I had it like this.
And I remember them looking at me like they thought
I was going to sniff it. I put it in the water
and just started chugging that. And then I started
peeling the limes, the lemons, the grapefruits,
but I wasn't eating the fruit body. I wanted
nothing more. You could call it a crave, but
it was more than a crave. I needed the peels.
The peels, which is not very tasty. This is one
of the hardest things I can recall ever having
in my body, plus the aspirin. It's like brushing
your teeth after drinking, or drinking orange
juice after brushing your teeth. It's very...
They thought you were nuts. Let's face it. Nobody
does this. This is crazy. Denying heart surgery
and just saying, no, I'll take the citrus peels
and aspirin water instead. I made it through
like a lime. I made it through a lot of the grapefruit
and I did eat a little bit of the fruit and I'm
just chugging water and mushing this horrible
peels in my mouth. And I remember, you know,
I've got heart monitors on me and I can't like
mimic what the sound was, but my heartbeat went
very irregular for a minute there. It was already
rough, but it was just doing something. And I
remember hearing the voice one more time. and
it was cough hard, cough now, and don't stop
coughing. And mind you, I still got peels in
my mouth, so I tried to wash them down and just
coughing and coughing and pushing and coughing
and coughing. Took another sip of the water and
just trying to get more peels apart as I'm coughing
my heart out. And son of a gun, maybe, I don't
know, I want to say somewhere around the seventh
to tenth, twelfth cough, I felt this real crazy
feeling in my heart. It was a pop. And then a
squish I compared to like maybe if a tiny jellyfish
was in my arteries because I felt the pop of
its head and then the tail behind it. And I remember
my heartbeats going crazy. I'm still coughing.
I'm still trying to chew the little pieces of
my mouth. And then there was another squish as
if it had turned around or something. And then
a pop as is coming out. I guess that's your right
ventricle. I'm not sure. I'm not a scientist
or a doctor, but. I just passed that blood clot
through my heart while I'm chewing and drinking
the aspirin water. And I think the whole point
was to maybe break down that clot so that it
can pass through my heart without killing me
or getting stuck. I guess that's what happens
when you have a heart attack. I remember the
doctors looking at me. Because the surgeon that
was supposed to do my heart surgery came in the
room during this time. I forgot to mention that.
He came in the room and he's trying to tell me
like, you need it. We should have cut you open
moments ago. You need to have the surgery. You're
going to have a heart attack. And I'm just, nope,
nope, you know, and drinking the aspirin water
and chewing on these citrus peels. You know,
the orderlies kind of looking at me dumbfounded
like, well, I've never seen anything like that
before. He, you know, he was pretty freaked out.
Two other nurses are just like, Did that just
happen? I remember they were getting the defibrillator
paddles ready while I was coughing. They were
ready to jumpstart me again in case I had passed
out. A few minutes had gone by and I remember
feeling that same similar pop wish, but yet I
could tell the clot was getting smaller. That
first time it kind of hurt a little bit. But
now the second time I felt it more like a twinge
and then after it came around the third time
It was much less of a twinge. So whatever I was
doing was breaking up this cloud. Thank God,
you know pretty much at that point They put me
on observation for I think was three more days
Then I signed some paperwork and they released
me So no long -term effects from the stroke No
paralyzed or anything there were two minor things
that happened my left eye had a slight blind
spot I'd say about the size of a quarter that
dissipated after time and Then my left arm my
thumb was kind of I'd say numb or stiff I don't
know if that was like a nerve damage or something
But it it would start from my thumb went up around
my wrist to my elbow back behind and then into
my back muscles it was numb like literally you
could tap it you could feel there's a sensation
but it's it's kind of a numbing strange feeling
you know i stretched that out started taking
electrolytes and things of that nature to to
help it eventually went away the blind spot took
about six seven months to finally resolve I feel
like we need to put out some kind of a medical
disclaimer here. This isn't health advice. If
you're having a stroke, we're not giving medical
advice on what to do with it. This was Brian's
inspiration period and it worked for you. I just
feel like I need to jump in and say, I lost track
of how many things in your experience are different
than most NDE's. There's so many. as you probably
know. First I want to just go through some of
them and maybe you can elaborate if you feel
like on some of them. Leaving your body, I have
some notes here, a ripping noise and a pop feeling.
No one's ever told me that before. Can you explain
that any more than that? I actually have a sound
that I was listening to some music and there
is a sound that I found that That I actually
have Saved that I'll share with you. Maybe you
can reshare it in the podcast I believe it's
called a transmission from Mars. The album is
called planetary medicine and it's by a DJ group
called Mercury M -U -R -K -U -R -Y but Transmission
from Mars I believe is what it's called but the
first like 30 seconds of that if it was condensed
into like two That's literally exactly what I
heard, but I'll find it for you All right, yeah
send me that. Another thing that's very unusual
is that after leaving your body you felt panic
for a long time. Most people all of a sudden
feel peace because their pain is gone and other
things from this world and this physical body
are gone and so they usually feel peace and it's
so, I'm not going to say weird, it's unusual.
That you felt panic yet. It sounds like it wasn't
much later that you described to me love peace
calmness and security Well time is kind of different
there for sure, you know as I'm watching things
happen maybe a Minute occurred as I'm watching
them, you know, pick me up put me on the gurney
and cart me off But yeah For that minute, it
seemed like an eternity as a spirit. And yes,
uh, it was extensive, like yes, complete panic,
complete disarray. There was regret that I didn't
do more. There was a lot of crazy feelings for
that first minute, but luckily the big guy showed
up and calmed me down. All right, we'll get to
the big guy here in a minute. First, I want to
ask your opinion on something. You felt the young
Asian girl, the Scottish man and the young man
who had taken the pills. What do you think it
was the purpose in you having this empathic kind
of experience with them? If you would have asked
me early on, I wouldn't have an answer. But I
really thought about that after talking to a
couple other people about my experience. A lot
have said that there's a very good chance that
I was prior to this. one of those types of entities
that was helping people in the in -between. Because
A, I knew exactly how to get there. B, there
was the familiarity of being there when I got
there. C, the two entities completely recognized
me and I did recognize them. But I think that
was just, it was a spark of a memory as my larger
soul was just remembering. that it's there, that
this is a place that I've been before. That was
my part of my job. I think in the spirit realm
is being one of the consolers that was helping
walk people through after just passing away.
So I was kind of like tapping into that, that
memory or that ability or that job, so to speak.
So you felt like that was your role with those
two entities, the male and female were people
that you had for lack of a better term. worked
with or served with or whatever was helping people
pass over to the other side. Yes. Okay. That's
super interesting. I feel like they were shorthanded,
meaning that there might've been a larger group
of entities like this, and that some of us kind
of chose to come down here on earth in the 3D
and kind of left them with more work to do, if
that makes sense. So you feel like that'll be
your responsibility again when you die someday
I wish I knew the answer to that I mean I would
definitely go back there and and help and keep
doing that but I I don't know when the time comes
am I gonna pick to come back and You know, maybe
still raise the vibration of the planet or turn
something else around or volunteer hold another
dimension or planet. I wish I knew that's the
whole exciting part of it. I'm no longer scared
to die. I'm definitely looking forward to my
next mission. And that's part of what I was getting
at, but let's talk about that mission for a second.
How in the world can one person raise this vibrational
level, as you put it, of the planet? Have you
figured any of that out yet? It sounds way, way,
way overwhelming. I've been hypnotized. I've
gone to different Spiritual people, shamans,
ask that question. I've talked to psychics. They've
all said that's something I got to find within
myself. The more I think about it, some are saying
that just by being me and doing the things that
I have done in this lifetime are enough, but
I have this overwhelming, undying, nagging feeling
that I need to be doing more. How? I feel like
since that's happened, I wasn't always the nicest
guy. I wasn't a bad guy, but I wasn't always
so jovial or so peaceful or so knowledgeable
on things. And I feel like now that this has
happened to me that I'm trying to, I guess, reflect.
the entities that I saw there. I want to be more
jovial, be more kind, be more happy, be more
helpful, you know, helping literally raise, you
know, when I drive for a living, I pick up people
for public transportation. I used to do Lyft
and Uber, now it's called ViaTrans, which is
picking up the public. When they get in and somebody
gets in and they're just, they go, hey, how are
you doing today? You don't sound so good. You
know, what's going on? How can I help? You know,
other people with health advice and things that
I've gone through and the intermittent fasting,
the parasite cleanses and trying to help each
individual as I go. And I feel like at least
I can help one or two or five or 10 people in
a day. That's a little bit, but I know I need
to be doing a lot more to be honest, not to take
anything away from from your whole show. I want
to do a podcast. I'm just in a weird financial
bind to where I have to work seven days a week
right now and haven't found the time. But I feel
like if I have, you know, coming as an NDE experiencer,
I would like to have other NDE experiencers on,
but from another aspect to where like we can
compare notes of things, the way we felt things,
how we interacted, how the telepathy happened,
how that ripping or popping noise happened, you
know, just how it felt to not be using your normal
physical senses and using your spiritual senses.
I feel like Like how I had a mission, I feel
like a lot of people have different missions.
And if we were able to kind of conglomerate and
get together, you'll see how different parts
of the puzzle actually start to fit together.
And there's a lot of healers out there. There's
a lot of people that know they're healers that
are a little scared. Maybe they're on the religious
end and, you know, thinking about psychic things
or healing or even meditating is evil, right?
but to show people like, hey, I used to be like
that too. And, you know, look at us now, you
know, there's healers out here. Let's find our
missions and how it all fits together and help
each other out. I hope that made sense. Oh, absolutely.
And being on this podcast today, you're reaching
thousands of people. So you're off to a good
start on that. Sometimes those things that feel
like a mission, it's not like we can define them
ahead of time. And we can say, oh, that's exactly
what I need to do. But we follow along with little
promptings, little feelings that we're getting.
And after a while, we can look back and say,
ah, look what I've done. Now I can do even more
of that. And you may experience something like
that. You know, there's times where we can look
back and say, wow, four years of doing this podcast
and reaching You know hundreds of thousands and
a couple of million people so far Hopefully that's
done some good in the world and you're a piece
of that So thank you for that. It's all about
spreading hope and that's what this show is about
and that's what your message I think is about
Last thing before I let you go. I want to talk
a little bit more about your discussion with
God I find it so peculiar That and did you call
God? an it or a he or a she or a how did you
refer pronoun wise? I feel like God is light
and consciousness so therefore I have been trying
not to put it as just a male figure like we've
been taught through religion. It's so much more
than that. So much more than that. I have been
saying it because saying he although it showed
me a malish entity, it's so much more. We relate
that to a human form. It was pure consciousness.
It was just showing me a human form, I think,
so that I could relate to it, if that makes sense.
Yeah, I almost laughed. I thought it was funny
when you asked, are you God? And God said, most
of the time. It definitely has a sense of humor.
It just reminds me a little bit of, we've been
talking about some old movies today too. There's
an old movie called Oh God. George Burns? So
yes, Oh God starring George Burns and John Denver,
the singer. That guy, okay. I know you're a little
young for John Denver, but you've made reference
to some other older things here today. Yeah,
my mom definitely liked John Denver. Yeah. He
was in the movie, but that The thing is that
this reminded me of is what you said is George
Burns playing God was just so very matter -of
-fact like oh, yeah, okay You know, yes this
or no that it was very surprising I expected
a more of like an ethereal royalty kind of vibe
as you would picture going through like the Bible
or something You know old man in the clouds with
the wings and you know some sort of chariot perhaps
playing a harp I guess I don't know with his
walking stick, but it was nothing like that for
me But then again, after doing some research,
other people based off of their belief system,
they see what it is they believe in. And I think
that God, that's what you want to call it, supreme
being, whatever it is, shows us that just so
that we don't panic. If a Christian all of a
sudden saw Krishna, he'd probably be pretty dang
surprised. You know what I mean? If a Jewish
person saw a Buddhist monk, they'd be pretty
surprised. So I think they purposely kind of
try to relate into your belief system, which
is now why I understand it is omnipresent. It
is all knowing. It is all seeing. It's all of
the above. If God is omnipresent, he's created
all the things. And I'm not going to spend time
telling you much about my beliefs. That's not
what this show is about, but Here's the commonality
that I see with all of these. When people describe
some things that you did, love, peace, calm,
security, serenity, bliss, whatever kinds of
adjectives we want to use, to me, those are descriptions
of God, because that's where all of those feelings
are coming from. 100%. I agree with that. All
right. Thank you for that. And I appreciate you
spending time with me today. This has been good
fun. I've got a new friend with you, Brian, and
let's keep in touch. We'll circle back in a while.
And if you want help launching a podcast, I'm
happy to be there for you. If I could state real
quick that I made a Facebook group. It's called
Doozies Quest, D -O -O -Z -I -E -S Quest, where
I've posted this. in a long form where I wrote
it out, people can interact with me. So if anybody
knows how to remember some of the things or wants
to hypnotize me and or give me a reading, like
I'd love for somebody to reach out and other
spiritual warriors that realize that they've
got something and they're trying to wake up and
maybe we could all work together on this. Feel
free to join the group and communicate with me.
All right. You send me that link. I'll stick
it down on the show notes so everybody can find
it. Yeah. And there are groups that you may want
to connect with, like Ions, where a lot of experiencers
find a lot of peace and understanding by mingling
with other people that have been through similar
experiences. I missed last year's meeting, but
I'm going to do my best to get to this year's
meeting. Seattle this year. That's a haul from
Texas, but I'll figure it out. All right, Brian,
take care of my friend. Thanks again for listening
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