WEBVTT 00:00:03.790 --> 00:00:06.669 From the time that they pronounced me that was 00:00:06.669 --> 00:00:10.250 a good 45 minutes They cut my clothes and then 00:00:10.250 --> 00:00:13.609 they paddled my heart my heart stopped and I 00:00:13.609 --> 00:00:17.129 could see people screaming and crying But I didn't 00:00:17.129 --> 00:00:19.510 realize that was actually my physical body because 00:00:19.510 --> 00:00:22.890 I was somewhere else The only thing that I could 00:00:22.890 --> 00:00:26.809 feel if you can imagine Absolute love and peace 00:00:26.809 --> 00:00:29.829 there wasn't anything else to be felt. I was 00:00:29.829 --> 00:00:33.070 greeted by people I'd known in the past I'm back 00:00:33.070 --> 00:00:36.890 home again. Incredibly safe and felt at home. 00:00:38.890 --> 00:00:40.670 Welcome, welcome to Round Trip Death, everybody. 00:00:41.070 --> 00:00:43.729 We are super happy to have Brian Duzak with us 00:00:43.729 --> 00:00:47.250 today. Brian, good morning. Hello, sir. Hello, 00:00:47.270 --> 00:00:50.250 everybody. It's good to see you again. Thank 00:00:50.250 --> 00:00:52.710 you for reaching out to the show. I can't wait 00:00:52.710 --> 00:00:57.149 to hear all the details of your story after hearing 00:00:57.149 --> 00:01:00.759 the idea. of what it is in our pre -interview 00:01:00.759 --> 00:01:03.679 the other day. But before we jump right into 00:01:03.679 --> 00:01:05.819 it, and we're going to be there really quick. 00:01:06.219 --> 00:01:08.120 Brian, would you just take one minute and tell 00:01:08.120 --> 00:01:10.659 us a little bit about you so we can get to know 00:01:10.659 --> 00:01:15.219 you? Well, I'm 51 now. I live in Texas. I actually 00:01:15.219 --> 00:01:18.359 grew up in the suburbs of Chicago. Fairly average 00:01:18.359 --> 00:01:22.200 life, nothing too extreme. My dad actually pretty 00:01:22.200 --> 00:01:24.980 much raised me from about two years old up until 00:01:24.980 --> 00:01:28.530 I was seven, eight, and he got remarried. I like 00:01:28.530 --> 00:01:30.670 to kind of brag about my stepmom a lot. I feel 00:01:30.670 --> 00:01:34.569 like I chose her in a way. I introduced her to 00:01:34.569 --> 00:01:37.310 my dad and six months later they were engaged 00:01:37.310 --> 00:01:40.290 and a year later they got married. She was a 00:01:40.290 --> 00:01:43.150 very spiritual woman, the yoga type, the meditator 00:01:43.150 --> 00:01:46.409 type, open to A Course in Miracles, if you remember 00:01:46.409 --> 00:01:50.909 that old thing. Introduced me to the law of attraction 00:01:50.909 --> 00:01:54.290 when I was in my 20s, I believe, or maybe 30s. 00:01:54.489 --> 00:01:57.689 But she was very well -rounded. She was open 00:01:57.689 --> 00:01:59.829 to a lot of things, introduced me to a lot of 00:01:59.829 --> 00:02:02.750 things. On my real mom's side, she's part Native 00:02:02.750 --> 00:02:05.609 American. So I was very curious about those types 00:02:05.609 --> 00:02:08.349 of things, you know, medicine and healing and 00:02:08.349 --> 00:02:12.210 such. And never participated in yoga, a little 00:02:12.210 --> 00:02:15.050 bit tried to do meditation. But one thing that 00:02:15.050 --> 00:02:17.050 struck out to me in seventh and eighth grade, 00:02:17.069 --> 00:02:19.349 I was checking out books about astral projection 00:02:19.349 --> 00:02:22.810 and actually achieved astral projection in eighth 00:02:22.810 --> 00:02:25.729 grade. I had a little bit of experience with 00:02:25.729 --> 00:02:29.069 it, but kind of let it go in my 20s. Got stuck 00:02:29.069 --> 00:02:31.789 in corporate America, working a full -time job. 00:02:32.370 --> 00:02:34.849 I was working for a veteran -owned t -shirt company 00:02:34.849 --> 00:02:38.349 where I was at my desk 14 hours a day and kind 00:02:38.349 --> 00:02:40.629 of lost my way physically. I was a wrestler when 00:02:40.629 --> 00:02:43.009 I was younger, but I had gained a lot of weight. 00:02:43.330 --> 00:02:47.310 I got up to 250 -ish when I was wrestling at 00:02:47.310 --> 00:02:50.729 160 -ish. It was just, you know, pizza, fast 00:02:50.729 --> 00:02:54.030 food, Mountain Dew, Red Bull. Those are my four 00:02:54.030 --> 00:02:57.270 main food groups. And that, by the way, is where 00:02:57.270 --> 00:02:59.710 you're already leading right up to your NDE and 00:02:59.710 --> 00:03:03.810 I appreciate that. And so go ahead and take us 00:03:03.810 --> 00:03:05.949 down that road because people are going to hear 00:03:05.949 --> 00:03:09.169 about you having a stroke at a young age. You 00:03:09.169 --> 00:03:12.770 were what, 43 at that time? Yes, sir. Okay, go 00:03:12.770 --> 00:03:16.270 ahead and get there. I had actually for a few 00:03:16.270 --> 00:03:20.629 weeks had a pain in my left calf and had no idea 00:03:20.629 --> 00:03:22.729 that it was a blood clot building up. I thought 00:03:22.729 --> 00:03:25.449 I had shin splints. I was limping around the 00:03:25.449 --> 00:03:27.710 office and people are just like, dude, what's 00:03:27.710 --> 00:03:29.849 wrong with you? I'm like, I don't know. I actually 00:03:29.849 --> 00:03:32.590 stopped by a clinic. At one point he gave me 00:03:32.590 --> 00:03:35.789 some sort of a muscle relaxer medication I'd 00:03:35.789 --> 00:03:38.530 taken for a couple of weeks. Wasn't helping at 00:03:38.530 --> 00:03:42.740 all. Come to find out. I was building up blood 00:03:42.740 --> 00:03:45.460 clots in my system from just eating a huge, fatty, 00:03:45.680 --> 00:03:48.080 sugary diet. I just wasn't really taking care 00:03:48.080 --> 00:03:51.639 of myself. I thought of myself as healthy. I 00:03:51.639 --> 00:03:53.500 tried to eat right for the most part, but looking 00:03:53.500 --> 00:03:56.680 back, yeah, it was pretty disgusting. Just, you 00:03:56.680 --> 00:03:59.120 know, fast food pizza, Mountain Dew Red Bull. 00:03:59.259 --> 00:04:01.599 Again, a lot of coffee as well, sugary coffee. 00:04:02.419 --> 00:04:05.780 I made it home and I believe that was July 8th, 00:04:05.780 --> 00:04:09.389 if I'm not mistaken. Ordered another pizza. And 00:04:09.389 --> 00:04:12.069 I was about halfway through it, chugging a two 00:04:12.069 --> 00:04:16.230 liter of soda. Just something was terribly wrong. 00:04:16.449 --> 00:04:19.209 I believe that your pancreas that I had the feeling 00:04:19.209 --> 00:04:22.129 under my right ribs was kind of a burning sensation. 00:04:22.490 --> 00:04:24.350 And it was just getting stronger. I couldn't 00:04:24.350 --> 00:04:27.029 feel like my heartbeat in that area. You know, 00:04:27.050 --> 00:04:29.350 my wife's like, ah, you know, take some Pepto. 00:04:29.569 --> 00:04:31.449 You'll be all right. You know, try going to the 00:04:31.449 --> 00:04:34.930 washroom that wasn't fixing anything. And then 00:04:34.930 --> 00:04:38.240 the tunnel vision set in and I couldn't catch 00:04:38.240 --> 00:04:40.379 my breath. It was just a very strange feeling 00:04:40.379 --> 00:04:43.339 I'd never felt before. The tunnel vision started 00:04:43.339 --> 00:04:47.319 kind of like wide scope, but was slowly narrowing 00:04:47.319 --> 00:04:50.759 in to where I could only see kind of like a stars 00:04:50.759 --> 00:04:54.480 or static around this certain area. And I really 00:04:54.480 --> 00:04:57.680 had the focus to see. So I was panicking. Her 00:04:57.680 --> 00:04:59.319 and I were pretty much fighting at the time, 00:04:59.339 --> 00:05:01.379 but I'm like, hey, can you just take me to the 00:05:01.379 --> 00:05:03.600 hospital? Oh, you don't need the hospital. You'll 00:05:03.600 --> 00:05:06.769 be fine, you know? But eventually I... guess 00:05:06.769 --> 00:05:10.209 I coaxed her into taking me and we made it there. 00:05:10.610 --> 00:05:13.750 She literally dropped me off at the emergency 00:05:13.750 --> 00:05:17.069 room entrance and I stepped out of the car, closed 00:05:17.069 --> 00:05:19.329 the door and she peeled out of there mad at me 00:05:19.329 --> 00:05:23.529 because I was inconveniencing her. Anyways, that 00:05:23.529 --> 00:05:27.750 relationship is over by the way. But I call it 00:05:27.750 --> 00:05:30.189 walking the longest mile because it might have 00:05:30.189 --> 00:05:33.589 been only 20 or 30 steps but it took everything 00:05:33.589 --> 00:05:37.279 in me to Focus my energy in that direction just 00:05:37.279 --> 00:05:40.220 right foot left foot right foot left foot and 00:05:40.220 --> 00:05:43.740 the tunnel vision I say maybe got to about as 00:05:43.740 --> 00:05:47.319 big as a paper towel roll. I could only see Right 00:05:47.319 --> 00:05:50.019 in front of me. I made it through those sliding 00:05:50.019 --> 00:05:53.439 automatic doors made it about seven more steps 00:05:53.439 --> 00:05:55.259 and I looked to my left and there's people filling 00:05:55.259 --> 00:05:59.300 out paperwork and There was just no way I couldn't 00:05:59.300 --> 00:06:01.810 function. I feel like you know if my energy bar 00:06:01.810 --> 00:06:05.189 went from 100 to zero here I was at like three 00:06:05.189 --> 00:06:07.529 percent left there wasn't much left in me you 00:06:07.529 --> 00:06:10.670 know by the grace of god I looked to my right 00:06:10.670 --> 00:06:13.910 and there was a male orderly I guess you would 00:06:13.910 --> 00:06:17.569 call her a nurse uh pushing a gurnee about to 00:06:17.569 --> 00:06:20.389 turn down another hall and we made eye contact 00:06:20.389 --> 00:06:25.370 and I was trying to say like help me I'm not 00:06:25.370 --> 00:06:27.170 sure what came out of my mouth but it definitely 00:06:27.170 --> 00:06:30.689 wasn't that and In that moment, I just remember 00:06:30.689 --> 00:06:34.689 my hand, my arm just slinking and falling to 00:06:34.689 --> 00:06:37.569 the floor from pure weakness, but I also saw 00:06:37.569 --> 00:06:41.350 the back of my head on the way down and I didn't 00:06:41.350 --> 00:06:45.089 feel the impact of touching the floor. But when 00:06:45.089 --> 00:06:46.750 I saw the back of my head, you don't normally 00:06:46.750 --> 00:06:48.290 see the back of your head unless you're using 00:06:48.290 --> 00:06:50.209 a couple of mirrors. So right away I realized 00:06:50.209 --> 00:06:52.670 like, wait, what? What? Wait, hold on a second. 00:06:52.810 --> 00:06:54.990 Where are my arms? I'm on the floor. Where? Wait, 00:06:55.050 --> 00:06:58.019 what? Yeah, so you're so you're out of your body 00:06:58.019 --> 00:07:01.240 already observing everything. There was this 00:07:01.240 --> 00:07:04.779 strange like ripping noise compared to two pieces 00:07:04.779 --> 00:07:09.399 of Velcro being pulled apart slowly just to and 00:07:09.399 --> 00:07:12.120 then there was kind of a pop feeling. That was 00:07:12.120 --> 00:07:14.139 it. Yeah, all in that moment while I'm watching 00:07:14.139 --> 00:07:16.639 the back of my head. It's just I'm literally 00:07:16.639 --> 00:07:20.220 seeing I don't want to say inside my head, but 00:07:20.220 --> 00:07:22.480 yeah, it was just kind of like black vision at 00:07:22.480 --> 00:07:24.579 first. And then boom, there's the back of my 00:07:24.579 --> 00:07:27.060 head and it fell to the floor and yeah, heard 00:07:27.060 --> 00:07:30.100 the ripping noise. And like I said earlier, I 00:07:30.100 --> 00:07:32.800 had been astral before. So my first reaction 00:07:32.800 --> 00:07:35.180 was like, wait a minute, I'm astral right now. 00:07:35.180 --> 00:07:38.300 And I looked down and normally there's like type 00:07:38.300 --> 00:07:41.019 of a cord coming from like your sternum area 00:07:41.019 --> 00:07:45.040 of your light body to the sternum of your actual 00:07:45.040 --> 00:07:49.899 body. And it wasn't there. And in that few seconds, 00:07:50.019 --> 00:07:53.420 I just really realized like, oh my gosh, I'm 00:07:53.420 --> 00:07:57.220 dead. Like panic attack, panic attack, like danger 00:07:57.220 --> 00:07:59.899 Will Robinson. There's a problem going on right 00:07:59.899 --> 00:08:02.879 now. It's kind of strange and it's really hard 00:08:02.879 --> 00:08:04.939 to explain when you're separate from your body, 00:08:04.980 --> 00:08:07.660 you're not limited to the, you know, the five 00:08:07.660 --> 00:08:10.000 senses or six senses. Some people would say, 00:08:10.379 --> 00:08:14.180 but I guess I immediately it's from a completely 00:08:14.180 --> 00:08:18.699 different perspective. Like I understood in that 00:08:18.699 --> 00:08:21.019 moment, like, oh, this is like my over soul. 00:08:21.019 --> 00:08:23.360 This is the higher me. This is the bigger me. 00:08:23.720 --> 00:08:26.040 This is the one that's been here for eons and 00:08:26.040 --> 00:08:29.060 will be here for many eons. Even though the Brian 00:08:29.060 --> 00:08:31.000 body is only going to be here for a give or take, 00:08:31.060 --> 00:08:33.659 who knows, 60, 70 years hopefully. But it was 00:08:33.659 --> 00:08:35.759 just a very strange feeling. I immediately like 00:08:35.759 --> 00:08:38.940 had this knowing. And the first thing that popped 00:08:38.940 --> 00:08:41.659 through my head was I didn't finish my mission 00:08:41.659 --> 00:08:44.740 and I need to get back in my body. Although I 00:08:44.740 --> 00:08:48.309 still can't recall my mission fully, I immediately 00:08:48.309 --> 00:08:50.490 knew like, oh gosh, oh gosh, I didn't finish 00:08:50.490 --> 00:08:52.490 my mission. I didn't do what I was supposed to 00:08:52.490 --> 00:08:55.570 do here. I even thought like God's going to be 00:08:55.570 --> 00:08:59.090 upset with me as if I had made a promise to do 00:08:59.090 --> 00:09:02.570 something while I'm here as Brian. Very awkward 00:09:02.570 --> 00:09:05.409 feeling to know that you have a mission, but 00:09:05.409 --> 00:09:07.950 not to know exactly what your mission is. I don't 00:09:07.950 --> 00:09:10.470 know what that is, why we can't remember these 00:09:10.470 --> 00:09:13.669 things. since talked to other people and they're 00:09:13.669 --> 00:09:15.529 like, yeah, I know I have a mission too, but 00:09:15.529 --> 00:09:18.129 I don't fully understand it either. I don't know 00:09:18.129 --> 00:09:20.789 why they have this. I would love to meet somebody 00:09:20.789 --> 00:09:24.909 that could like try to do hypnotization. So I 00:09:24.909 --> 00:09:26.850 can remember these things, but still haven't 00:09:26.850 --> 00:09:30.129 had success with that yet. Anyways, if you've 00:09:30.129 --> 00:09:32.269 ever had an adrenaline rush or a panic attack, 00:09:32.710 --> 00:09:35.330 I was having one, but I was having one as a body. 00:09:35.610 --> 00:09:38.710 I mean, as a soul, not a body. Like I could literally 00:09:38.710 --> 00:09:41.429 feel the pulsating, the freaking out was happening 00:09:41.429 --> 00:09:43.669 and just like, Oh my God, Oh my God, what do 00:09:43.669 --> 00:09:47.370 I do? I'm watching it in these few seconds. You 00:09:47.370 --> 00:09:49.309 know, they noticed I fell down. Obviously the 00:09:49.309 --> 00:09:53.190 orderly comes towards me and was asking for help 00:09:53.190 --> 00:09:55.929 from another nurse. They ended up picking me 00:09:55.929 --> 00:09:57.929 up, putting me on the gurney. And I'm kind of 00:09:57.929 --> 00:10:01.870 here watching this. I remember a feeling of looking 00:10:01.870 --> 00:10:05.029 at the gurney itself, the actual steel bars with 00:10:05.029 --> 00:10:08.419 the pads on them. that they push you with and 00:10:08.419 --> 00:10:11.460 everything that I looked at much like what I've 00:10:11.460 --> 00:10:14.460 done in astral projection is you could literally 00:10:14.460 --> 00:10:18.600 feel the the molecular density of everything 00:10:18.600 --> 00:10:22.159 that you look at and you have 360 vision so I'm 00:10:22.159 --> 00:10:23.940 turning my head right now but you don't have 00:10:23.940 --> 00:10:27.379 to there are no physical attributes you you think 00:10:27.379 --> 00:10:29.519 to the left you're looking to the left you think 00:10:29.519 --> 00:10:32.700 to the right you're looking to the right and 00:10:32.700 --> 00:10:35.340 I remember when i'm looking at this gurney feeling 00:10:35.340 --> 00:10:39.440 the coolness iron or whatever metal it was i 00:10:39.440 --> 00:10:42.059 could feel its molecular structure i can't really 00:10:42.059 --> 00:10:46.840 explain that other than kind of like um have 00:10:46.840 --> 00:10:49.799 you ever looked at battery a nine volt battery 00:10:49.799 --> 00:10:52.659 of course not i would never do something like 00:10:52.659 --> 00:10:56.340 that as kids i know we tried that no we do we 00:10:56.340 --> 00:10:58.820 do it to test and see if they still have a charge 00:10:58.820 --> 00:11:01.940 it was just kind of like that feeling like you 00:11:01.940 --> 00:11:05.110 can Totally feel it inside you when you're looking 00:11:05.110 --> 00:11:08.490 at something you can feel its structure the second 00:11:08.490 --> 00:11:10.529 nurse that walked up I remember looking at her 00:11:10.529 --> 00:11:14.309 smock and just feeling the Again, the density 00:11:14.309 --> 00:11:17.610 of the threads and like what it was made of in 00:11:17.610 --> 00:11:20.509 every way shape or form It's very hard to try 00:11:20.509 --> 00:11:23.250 to explain that when you're in your normal physical 00:11:23.250 --> 00:11:26.309 body, but outside of it I can only imagine like 00:11:26.309 --> 00:11:29.190 what the ghosts are in between spirits are feeling 00:11:29.190 --> 00:11:32.210 as far as Going through something like you could 00:11:32.210 --> 00:11:34.610 feel what the dry walls made over the stuffing 00:11:34.610 --> 00:11:37.429 inside it. You know, it's a very strange feeling. 00:11:37.429 --> 00:11:40.110 It's kind of hard to explain. But yeah, the molecular 00:11:40.110 --> 00:11:42.690 structure is the only way really I could say 00:11:42.690 --> 00:11:44.830 that. But again, I watched them kind of pick 00:11:44.830 --> 00:11:48.509 me up, put me on the cart, cart me off. I'm seeing 00:11:48.509 --> 00:11:50.909 other people in the room are panicking. I remember 00:11:50.909 --> 00:11:54.299 hearing Although I don't have ears, but I could 00:11:54.299 --> 00:11:55.960 hear like, Oh, I hope that guy is going to be 00:11:55.960 --> 00:11:58.620 okay. And another one's like, Oh geez, that guy 00:11:58.620 --> 00:12:01.620 just totally fell on his face. And like, I could 00:12:01.620 --> 00:12:05.820 hear other people's thoughts in a way during 00:12:05.820 --> 00:12:08.820 that panic attack. Again, I didn't finish my 00:12:08.820 --> 00:12:12.259 mission. I was freaking out. And then suddenly 00:12:12.259 --> 00:12:16.659 this, um, Just like kind of like a glow is happening. 00:12:16.779 --> 00:12:19.700 It's really increasing It's getting very bright 00:12:19.700 --> 00:12:23.519 and I kind of glance over to my right and There 00:12:23.519 --> 00:12:27.320 is an entity looking right at me I compared to 00:12:27.320 --> 00:12:29.919 like if you're at a bar and you see an old friend 00:12:29.919 --> 00:12:32.220 and you tap him on the shoulder and he turns 00:12:32.220 --> 00:12:35.919 around and it's like hey But I look over in this 00:12:35.919 --> 00:12:40.190 entities like And I'm looking at it, I compared 00:12:40.190 --> 00:12:43.149 it to two things, like the glowing aliens from 00:12:43.149 --> 00:12:45.230 the movie Cocoon, if you remember that movie. 00:12:45.889 --> 00:12:49.169 Yeah, that's an old one. Yeah. And then also 00:12:49.169 --> 00:12:52.370 there's a lot of colors and light going on, although 00:12:52.370 --> 00:12:55.169 it's mainly this golden white there. I can see, 00:12:55.429 --> 00:12:58.269 like if you stare at a TV screen or a monitor 00:12:58.269 --> 00:13:00.929 very closely, you see the little RGB lines in 00:13:00.929 --> 00:13:03.110 there. When you look at it, it's mainly golden 00:13:03.110 --> 00:13:06.039 white. but there are little colors within kind 00:13:06.039 --> 00:13:09.080 of like prisms of light inside it. I want to 00:13:09.080 --> 00:13:11.940 say it was male although there was nothing you 00:13:11.940 --> 00:13:14.799 know no chest or anything but I looked right 00:13:14.799 --> 00:13:18.820 at it and I knew immediately that I was looking 00:13:18.820 --> 00:13:22.960 at God it it had an angelic feel but it was more 00:13:22.960 --> 00:13:28.860 than that and this kind of like a light fog was 00:13:28.860 --> 00:13:31.620 coming for emanating from it and coming over 00:13:31.620 --> 00:13:36.679 to me and kind of surrounded me and Immediately, 00:13:36.679 --> 00:13:40.779 I just felt calm. I felt peace the whole panic 00:13:40.779 --> 00:13:43.059 attack subsided. Thank God because that was a 00:13:43.059 --> 00:13:46.600 very scary situation I'm just like looking at 00:13:46.600 --> 00:13:49.240 it and it's kind of like yeah, you have any questions 00:13:49.240 --> 00:13:52.519 for him? Like are you God? You know, I knew inside 00:13:52.519 --> 00:13:56.059 my head or well my spirit but I knew it but I 00:13:56.059 --> 00:13:58.179 just had to ask to verify and he's looking at 00:13:58.179 --> 00:14:01.580 me like yeah most of the time don't you recognize 00:14:01.580 --> 00:14:05.200 me you know me it kind of dawned on me that that 00:14:05.200 --> 00:14:07.740 thought that I had earlier about being a soul 00:14:07.740 --> 00:14:11.600 you know for all time like your soul your consciousness 00:14:11.600 --> 00:14:15.039 is energy which never dissipates at least in 00:14:15.039 --> 00:14:18.539 our universe and it was just like dawning on 00:14:18.539 --> 00:14:21.320 me like I've been here forever different entities 00:14:21.600 --> 00:14:24.299 I'll be here for a long time as different entities 00:14:24.299 --> 00:14:28.820 but this guy right here knows me in between all 00:14:28.820 --> 00:14:31.940 the above since the beginning and up until if 00:14:31.940 --> 00:14:35.120 there ever is an end and it just knows me and 00:14:35.120 --> 00:14:38.139 I just felt that like hey you're like an old 00:14:38.139 --> 00:14:42.029 friend that I don't recognize unfortunately as 00:14:42.029 --> 00:14:45.149 Brian in my body but right now like hey like 00:14:45.149 --> 00:14:47.509 holy cow man like I'm sorry I didn't finish my 00:14:47.509 --> 00:14:49.690 mission what do I do I need to get back in my 00:14:49.690 --> 00:14:52.970 body ASAP and do what I came down to do again 00:14:52.970 --> 00:14:56.210 I'm panicking and and he's just like calm down 00:14:56.210 --> 00:15:00.230 everything will be fine you have some time let's 00:15:00.230 --> 00:15:02.610 go for a walk and chat I can tell you have a 00:15:02.610 --> 00:15:05.309 lot of questions you know you don't really say 00:15:05.309 --> 00:15:09.500 no to God so it's just like yeah okay kind of 00:15:09.500 --> 00:15:12.460 like mosey with me i don't remember like grabbing 00:15:12.460 --> 00:15:14.759 his hand but i remember being right next to him 00:15:14.759 --> 00:15:17.700 i didn't see a tunnel of light i didn't have 00:15:17.700 --> 00:15:19.820 a life review i'm kind of mad about that because 00:15:19.820 --> 00:15:21.659 i don't remember if i have one or not i don't 00:15:21.659 --> 00:15:24.879 think i did but i do remember going into a room 00:15:24.879 --> 00:15:27.419 type thing if you've ever seen the matrix by 00:15:27.419 --> 00:15:31.220 chance where neo says we need guns and then all 00:15:31.220 --> 00:15:33.000 of a sudden they're in that like golden room 00:15:33.399 --> 00:15:35.580 There were no guns with God, but I was definitely 00:15:35.580 --> 00:15:38.860 in this golden type room with him. I don't remember 00:15:38.860 --> 00:15:42.799 seeing boundaries, but you could feel there is 00:15:42.799 --> 00:15:45.379 one, although it's all light. You can't see walls. 00:15:45.419 --> 00:15:48.559 It's hard to explain that too. Immediately. I'm 00:15:48.559 --> 00:15:50.960 just like, Hey, I need to get back in my body. 00:15:51.139 --> 00:15:53.340 I didn't finish my mission. Like I need to go 00:15:53.340 --> 00:15:57.100 back. I didn't really like ask. Can I go back 00:15:57.100 --> 00:16:00.000 to my body? I guess it's the sales guy in me. 00:16:00.179 --> 00:16:02.919 I was just like, what do I have to do when I 00:16:02.919 --> 00:16:06.539 get back in my body? And I wasn't asking. I wasn't 00:16:06.539 --> 00:16:08.559 really thrown a choice out there. It was like, 00:16:08.659 --> 00:16:11.379 maybe I even knew that I would be let back to 00:16:11.379 --> 00:16:14.460 my body. But I remember when I first asked that 00:16:14.460 --> 00:16:16.600 question, like I was concerned obviously about 00:16:16.600 --> 00:16:19.159 my health. I didn't want to jump back in and 00:16:19.159 --> 00:16:21.820 then just die again because my heart wasn't working 00:16:21.820 --> 00:16:24.750 right. Or there's a stroke happening. I needed 00:16:24.750 --> 00:16:27.769 to know what I needed to do to fix my body. And 00:16:27.769 --> 00:16:30.330 literally the second I asked that, I don't really 00:16:30.330 --> 00:16:33.429 love to use the word download, but there was 00:16:33.429 --> 00:16:38.710 a message sent to my core of my being and immediately 00:16:38.710 --> 00:16:41.750 message received. It's definitely telepathic 00:16:41.750 --> 00:16:45.169 because I don't have ears to hear. And I remember 00:16:45.169 --> 00:16:48.269 when it came to me, it wasn't in the words in 00:16:48.269 --> 00:16:51.610 English, but somehow the message that was sent 00:16:51.610 --> 00:16:55.179 was interpreted by my by my soul because that's 00:16:55.179 --> 00:16:57.899 the language I speak. I feel like if I was Greek 00:16:57.899 --> 00:17:00.600 or Italian or Hindu for that matter, it would 00:17:00.600 --> 00:17:03.580 have been interpreted in the language that you 00:17:03.580 --> 00:17:06.099 perceive at the time or that you speak at that 00:17:06.099 --> 00:17:09.420 time. And the first thing that came was water, 00:17:09.819 --> 00:17:13.400 aspirin, and citrus peels, emphasis on peels. 00:17:13.920 --> 00:17:16.680 Not something I would normally think about, but 00:17:16.680 --> 00:17:19.670 okay, noted. Now I'm thinking, okay, so if that's 00:17:19.670 --> 00:17:21.329 going to help me when I get back, like what do 00:17:21.329 --> 00:17:23.890 I need to do to kind of maintain? I realized 00:17:23.890 --> 00:17:26.630 that I needed to lose weight, clear my arteries, 00:17:27.089 --> 00:17:29.069 you know, fix my body because I've done a lot 00:17:29.069 --> 00:17:31.829 of damage over the last 10 years or so gained 00:17:31.829 --> 00:17:35.009 a lot of weight. And just immediately there was 00:17:35.009 --> 00:17:39.150 a cycle of words that at the time I just didn't 00:17:39.150 --> 00:17:41.390 know fully. I'd heard of some of the things that 00:17:41.390 --> 00:17:43.750 popped in, but like I remember intermittent fasting, 00:17:44.069 --> 00:17:47.160 moringa seeds, sea moss. a lot of different things, 00:17:47.359 --> 00:17:50.059 parasite cleanses, things of that nature, stop 00:17:50.059 --> 00:17:53.500 eating dairy, cut down on carbs, literally, or 00:17:53.500 --> 00:17:56.880 bread even. And just all these little like diet 00:17:56.880 --> 00:17:59.740 supplement kind of information was coming into 00:17:59.740 --> 00:18:02.299 me. And it was a pretty long list. I'm like, 00:18:02.480 --> 00:18:05.940 okay, like noted, okay. Now, wow, okay. If I 00:18:05.940 --> 00:18:08.539 ask questions, they're immediately answered. 00:18:08.839 --> 00:18:11.359 And in that moment, I just kind of realized like, 00:18:11.839 --> 00:18:13.700 I don't know if you've ever thought if you sat 00:18:13.700 --> 00:18:16.950 down with Jesus or God, What would you ask them? 00:18:17.549 --> 00:18:20.650 There's a long list of questions, right? I'm 00:18:20.650 --> 00:18:23.349 a guy with a million questions. So you know. 00:18:23.549 --> 00:18:27.730 I could keep him busy for years asking my questions. 00:18:28.309 --> 00:18:30.569 And I'm about to ask you a million questions 00:18:30.569 --> 00:18:33.450 too, but go ahead and finish what happened. While 00:18:33.450 --> 00:18:35.970 my brain's thinking of things to say, I had to 00:18:35.970 --> 00:18:38.049 just ask. I was like, you know, again, are you 00:18:38.049 --> 00:18:41.029 God? And he's like, yeah, like you don't recognize 00:18:41.029 --> 00:18:44.579 me. Yes. Most of the time. Yeah, I'm God. In 00:18:44.579 --> 00:18:47.440 that moment, I feel this presence of just the 00:18:47.440 --> 00:18:50.579 love, the peace, the overwhelming calmness. I 00:18:50.579 --> 00:18:53.160 compare that whole feeling to like, you know, 00:18:53.279 --> 00:18:55.339 laying in your grandmother's bosom as she reads 00:18:55.339 --> 00:18:58.099 you your favorite bedtime story. You know, you're 00:18:58.099 --> 00:19:01.059 petting a puppy, you're eating a warm oatmeal 00:19:01.059 --> 00:19:05.900 cookie, drinking some milk right by like a fireplace. 00:19:06.099 --> 00:19:09.400 It was just all these things of like love, calmness, 00:19:09.579 --> 00:19:12.819 security, peace, something I haven't felt in 00:19:12.819 --> 00:19:16.670 this lifetime. And I do kind of miss it, to be 00:19:16.670 --> 00:19:20.549 honest. As I'm feeling that, I even asked, I'm 00:19:20.549 --> 00:19:23.150 just like, but there's something more here. Like 00:19:23.150 --> 00:19:26.450 I even asked, like, are you Jesus too? Just as 00:19:26.450 --> 00:19:28.569 plain as day as we're having a conversation with 00:19:28.569 --> 00:19:30.750 a nice gentleman, he's like, yeah, sometimes 00:19:30.750 --> 00:19:34.170 nonchalantly. Yeah, sometimes I'm Jesus too. 00:19:34.690 --> 00:19:37.109 You know, me personally, I've been ominous for 00:19:37.109 --> 00:19:39.450 about 20 years, which is kind of open to all 00:19:39.450 --> 00:19:41.769 the beliefs, looked and researched into, you 00:19:41.769 --> 00:19:44.789 know, some of them. And I asked next, I'm like, 00:19:44.829 --> 00:19:48.650 you know, I feel this, this jovialness about 00:19:48.650 --> 00:19:51.589 you, this happiness, this like kind love thing. 00:19:51.650 --> 00:19:55.289 But I even said like, are you Buddha too? And 00:19:55.289 --> 00:19:57.470 immediately his face went to that meek little 00:19:57.470 --> 00:20:00.630 smile that you see in most images of Buddha and 00:20:00.630 --> 00:20:04.750 just gave me a, wait, you're Buddha too? Wow, 00:20:04.750 --> 00:20:08.269 that's awesome. And then something kind of hard 00:20:08.269 --> 00:20:10.660 to explain. I just, this feeling of something 00:20:10.660 --> 00:20:14.339 ancient, this feeling of time and wisdom. And 00:20:14.339 --> 00:20:16.880 for whatever reason, I thought of Krishna, which 00:20:16.880 --> 00:20:19.940 is more of like a Hindu deity god. And I even 00:20:19.940 --> 00:20:23.160 asked him then, I'm like, are you also Krishna? 00:20:23.740 --> 00:20:27.700 And no BS, my friend. He turned blue. He had 00:20:27.700 --> 00:20:30.019 that little crown and gave me some sort of, I 00:20:30.019 --> 00:20:31.880 can't remember the hand drive signal, almost 00:20:31.880 --> 00:20:35.339 like a break dancing or the Egyptian move, but 00:20:35.339 --> 00:20:39.029 gave me one of those. just to confirm like, yes, 00:20:39.029 --> 00:20:43.450 I'm also Krishna. And that kind of took me back, 00:20:43.809 --> 00:20:46.829 like, holy crap, like, you're all the above. 00:20:47.210 --> 00:20:49.410 Like, I get it now. That's why I'm ominous. You're 00:20:49.410 --> 00:20:52.490 not just that one thing that, you know, some 00:20:52.490 --> 00:20:55.250 beliefs would say, this is the only God. You're 00:20:55.250 --> 00:20:58.230 all seeing, all knowing omnipresent. You're all 00:20:58.230 --> 00:21:01.009 the above. And these are just different messengers 00:21:01.009 --> 00:21:03.970 of you to different continents, different languages, 00:21:04.069 --> 00:21:06.410 to different people. 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It started 00:23:04.359 --> 00:23:06.680 with like one or two questions, three to five, 00:23:06.740 --> 00:23:10.420 seven to 10, 15 to 500, two million questions. 00:23:10.680 --> 00:23:13.920 And my bandwidth was increasing. I would call 00:23:13.920 --> 00:23:17.880 that my... subconscious now what it had like 00:23:17.880 --> 00:23:22.240 kind of flipped over to where I have a secondary 00:23:22.240 --> 00:23:25.980 thought to where I remembered there's something 00:23:25.980 --> 00:23:30.220 more here on the other side on the spirit world 00:23:30.220 --> 00:23:33.420 so to speak to where I remembered I'm like you 00:23:33.420 --> 00:23:35.599 know what there's something more I just remembered 00:23:35.599 --> 00:23:39.799 I need to go up and I remembered like the calm 00:23:39.799 --> 00:23:42.740 that I was feeling was more of like a own very 00:23:42.740 --> 00:23:46.920 peaceful very mellow but I know that I had to 00:23:46.920 --> 00:23:49.059 increase that in such a way and there's like 00:23:49.059 --> 00:23:52.779 this note this frequency this vibration so to 00:23:52.779 --> 00:23:59.200 speak to where I took the and just literally 00:23:59.200 --> 00:24:02.579 I could feel my soul body everything just go 00:24:02.579 --> 00:24:07.200 up up up up up to where I am now floating above 00:24:07.200 --> 00:24:11.759 the earth I can see the earth down below me many 00:24:11.759 --> 00:24:15.890 miles away still very large but yet I'm very 00:24:15.890 --> 00:24:19.829 far from it, very far from it. And I could see 00:24:19.829 --> 00:24:22.930 the earth again to use the matrix. If you remember 00:24:22.930 --> 00:24:26.650 when Neo could see everything that was inanimate 00:24:26.650 --> 00:24:29.309 was green, but everything that was animate had 00:24:29.309 --> 00:24:32.390 like this gold hue life force about it. Like 00:24:32.390 --> 00:24:33.970 you could see through a building and see all 00:24:33.970 --> 00:24:36.650 the people walking, they were gold. At this point 00:24:36.650 --> 00:24:39.690 I'm looking at earth and I could see all vegetation. 00:24:40.039 --> 00:24:43.339 all animals and all humans, but they're just 00:24:43.339 --> 00:24:46.819 little gold specks walking around on Earth. Quite 00:24:46.819 --> 00:24:50.500 a crazy sight to see. In this moment, I'm noticing 00:24:50.500 --> 00:24:53.579 that I'm hearing a lot of whispers and different 00:24:53.579 --> 00:24:56.680 sounds of people talking and thinking and I'm 00:24:56.680 --> 00:24:59.000 hearing these little whispers and they're coming 00:24:59.000 --> 00:25:03.079 from different pieces of the Earth. I put almost 00:25:03.079 --> 00:25:05.319 like my spiritual ear out to hear like, what 00:25:05.319 --> 00:25:08.500 is that? I remember the first voice that I heard 00:25:08.500 --> 00:25:11.539 was a young oriental girl, maybe nine, 10, 11 00:25:11.539 --> 00:25:15.880 years old. You could feel she's terrified. You 00:25:15.880 --> 00:25:18.460 could feel she's sad. You could feel she's worried 00:25:18.460 --> 00:25:20.940 and she's looking for something. You could hear 00:25:20.940 --> 00:25:24.140 her say, mommy, mommy, where are you? I was swimming 00:25:24.140 --> 00:25:26.640 in the pond with my friends and then my foot 00:25:26.640 --> 00:25:30.980 got stuck in the mud. It's so cold and it's so 00:25:30.980 --> 00:25:35.109 dark down here. I realized in that moment, This 00:25:35.109 --> 00:25:38.430 poor girl literally just passed away on Earth. 00:25:39.349 --> 00:25:42.250 She was obviously swimming. She was in a pond, 00:25:42.269 --> 00:25:45.490 I believe, and her foot got stuck in some mud. 00:25:46.190 --> 00:25:49.210 And she just went from like I was a few moments 00:25:49.210 --> 00:25:52.069 ago, human form, into her spirit form. But yet 00:25:52.069 --> 00:25:54.630 I can see her. I didn't even call back out to 00:25:54.630 --> 00:25:56.710 see if she could hear me. I was a little freaked 00:25:56.710 --> 00:25:59.460 out by that, admittedly. But I could, I remember 00:25:59.460 --> 00:26:02.039 smelling swamp water. I remember feeling the 00:26:02.039 --> 00:26:04.720 cool, cold, clammy -ness as if I was like, uh, 00:26:04.740 --> 00:26:06.859 empathizing with her and feeling what she felt 00:26:06.859 --> 00:26:09.660 in that moment. The panic and the sadness and 00:26:09.660 --> 00:26:13.220 the worry. You know, I'm still hearing more whispers 00:26:13.220 --> 00:26:16.539 and I kind of moved on to the next one. And like 00:26:16.539 --> 00:26:18.880 one that came out of the crowd was a very Scottish 00:26:18.880 --> 00:26:22.000 accent. The older man, I would say easily in 00:26:22.000 --> 00:26:25.279 the late seventies, mid eighties as far as age. 00:26:26.519 --> 00:26:28.640 I vaguely remember, I can't remember if it was, 00:26:28.740 --> 00:26:31.359 I want to say Martha or Laura because he had 00:26:31.359 --> 00:26:34.519 a very heavy accent, but it just came off kind 00:26:34.519 --> 00:26:37.180 of like almost like Sean Connery from back in 00:26:37.180 --> 00:26:40.480 the day. But I heard Margaret, Margaret. He's 00:26:40.480 --> 00:26:42.660 like, I remember we were driving, we were in 00:26:42.660 --> 00:26:44.720 the truck and we went around the corner and it 00:26:44.720 --> 00:26:48.440 was storming and the truck came in and he remembers 00:26:48.440 --> 00:26:51.440 he was just in a crash and he's looking for his 00:26:51.440 --> 00:26:54.839 wife and I could feel Their whole relationship 00:26:54.839 --> 00:26:57.759 like they'd been together for easily 40 years 00:26:57.759 --> 00:27:00.700 and he just loved her so much She was his everything 00:27:00.700 --> 00:27:02.900 and he already missed her and he was worried 00:27:02.900 --> 00:27:06.240 about her and how she gonna deal without him 00:27:06.240 --> 00:27:09.839 and This anguish yet yet there was love yet There 00:27:09.839 --> 00:27:11.859 was surprise because he just realized that he 00:27:11.859 --> 00:27:14.900 just passed away or he's also in the in -between 00:27:14.900 --> 00:27:19.640 but I even remember Seeing the image that's going 00:27:19.640 --> 00:27:22.740 through his head as he's taking a left There 00:27:22.740 --> 00:27:25.079 was water on the ground. It's raining. There 00:27:25.079 --> 00:27:27.779 are lights around a corner. There's a fairly 00:27:27.779 --> 00:27:31.200 sharp winding road. And I just remember him taking 00:27:31.200 --> 00:27:33.819 the left and then head on seeing the truck lights. 00:27:34.579 --> 00:27:37.240 And then I kind of snapped out of it like, whoa, 00:27:37.380 --> 00:27:39.980 I just saw his image, you know, also just like 00:27:39.980 --> 00:27:43.140 the girl that was in the swamp. And then the 00:27:43.140 --> 00:27:45.720 third one was it caught my voice because he actually 00:27:45.720 --> 00:27:48.660 had a lower, no accent. Like I feel like I don't 00:27:48.660 --> 00:27:50.660 have an accent. Someone from Australia would 00:27:50.660 --> 00:27:53.200 say that I had an accent, but his voice was similar 00:27:53.200 --> 00:27:56.000 to mine in a lot of ways. And I could sense that 00:27:56.000 --> 00:27:59.059 he was a young adult, somewhere around 17, 18, 00:27:59.099 --> 00:28:02.440 19, perhaps Midwest. I couldn't tell you where 00:28:02.440 --> 00:28:05.559 he was, but he was just kind of very sullen, 00:28:05.720 --> 00:28:08.980 very depressed, very solemn. And he's just like, 00:28:09.099 --> 00:28:12.500 man. I just couldn't take the depression anymore 00:28:12.500 --> 00:28:16.079 and people picking on me and it's like I swallowed 00:28:16.079 --> 00:28:19.460 all those pills hoping to end the pain and boy 00:28:19.460 --> 00:28:23.559 my mom's gonna be so mad at me but at least you 00:28:23.559 --> 00:28:25.920 know at least I'm not suffering anymore but I 00:28:25.920 --> 00:28:29.099 could tell that this young man just passed away 00:28:29.099 --> 00:28:31.119 from swallowing a bottle of some kind of pills 00:28:31.119 --> 00:28:35.279 I could even feel like you ever take in a couple 00:28:35.279 --> 00:28:37.579 of like supplements and you feel that feeling 00:28:37.579 --> 00:28:39.440 like it didn't go all the way down. It's kind 00:28:39.440 --> 00:28:41.859 of stuck right around here somewhere. I could 00:28:41.859 --> 00:28:44.160 feel that in him. Like he had just gulped down 00:28:44.160 --> 00:28:46.480 some pills and they just kicked in and he's not 00:28:46.480 --> 00:28:50.019 with us anymore. And that admittedly freaked 00:28:50.019 --> 00:28:53.680 me out because I'm realizing all these whispers 00:28:53.680 --> 00:28:56.640 are happening. There's so many more of them. 00:28:57.019 --> 00:28:59.380 And these are people that have recently passed 00:28:59.380 --> 00:29:03.420 that are Coming to spirit side about to pick 00:29:03.420 --> 00:29:06.220 out their new mission, maybe go back about to 00:29:06.220 --> 00:29:09.039 have their life review. And I was kind of thinking 00:29:09.039 --> 00:29:12.539 like, all right, I can still sense that I'm asking 00:29:12.539 --> 00:29:16.059 these questions with God in my subconscious here 00:29:16.059 --> 00:29:19.339 and all this data is being transferred. But again, 00:29:19.440 --> 00:29:22.960 yet my focus is right here in this portion of 00:29:22.960 --> 00:29:25.420 my experience. You know, I'm hearing these whispers 00:29:25.420 --> 00:29:28.220 and it was literally almost too much to take 00:29:28.220 --> 00:29:31.309 on. There are thousands and thousands more of 00:29:31.309 --> 00:29:34.029 these people in the in -between. Like I am empathetic 00:29:34.029 --> 00:29:36.309 and I can feel the sadness and the depression 00:29:36.309 --> 00:29:39.970 and the despair of people that are now recently 00:29:39.970 --> 00:29:43.890 passed. I felt like I kind of needed to change 00:29:43.890 --> 00:29:46.730 the course of where I was focusing and I just 00:29:46.730 --> 00:29:50.930 immediately like looked up and to my right and 00:29:50.930 --> 00:29:54.329 lo and behold, there are these two entities up 00:29:54.329 --> 00:29:58.240 there. Looking back, they didn't have male or 00:29:58.240 --> 00:30:02.680 female parts, so to speak. They were light bodies, 00:30:03.039 --> 00:30:06.660 just like the cocoon artist named Alex Gray, 00:30:07.140 --> 00:30:09.720 the same kind of figure as what God was showing 00:30:09.720 --> 00:30:14.140 me originally. But they're up here in this space, 00:30:14.140 --> 00:30:17.000 I guess. I look and they're the ones that are 00:30:17.000 --> 00:30:19.700 now trying to console these people that are in 00:30:19.700 --> 00:30:22.359 the in -between. I remember them having very 00:30:22.359 --> 00:30:26.940 graceful peaceful, just this very spiritual, 00:30:27.079 --> 00:30:29.740 almost ominous energy. They're trying to talk 00:30:29.740 --> 00:30:32.099 to you like, you'll be okay, hun, you know, one 00:30:32.099 --> 00:30:34.339 at a time, you're going to be okay, let's show 00:30:34.339 --> 00:30:36.019 you what you're going to do in your next life. 00:30:36.519 --> 00:30:38.099 And, you know, they're just really trying to 00:30:38.099 --> 00:30:40.359 help these people out in the in -between. And 00:30:40.359 --> 00:30:42.779 I'm just observing like, wow, this is really 00:30:42.779 --> 00:30:45.859 amazing to see the watch. Who are these people? 00:30:45.960 --> 00:30:48.299 Who are these helpers? And I just realized in 00:30:48.299 --> 00:30:50.700 that moment, like, wait a minute, this area. 00:30:51.849 --> 00:30:54.250 I've been here before, that's how I knew to come 00:30:54.250 --> 00:30:57.569 here. I know those two entities up there and 00:30:57.569 --> 00:30:59.769 I kind of looked at one that seemed to be more 00:30:59.769 --> 00:31:02.369 male and I'm looking at him and he kind of looked 00:31:02.369 --> 00:31:05.609 over and gave me one of those like, what are 00:31:05.609 --> 00:31:08.470 you doing over here right now? You're not supposed 00:31:08.470 --> 00:31:12.309 to really be here. I felt like maybe I was... 00:31:13.109 --> 00:31:15.589 Exploring an abandoned mall. I'm not supposed 00:31:15.589 --> 00:31:17.710 to be here right now. And one of the security 00:31:17.710 --> 00:31:20.789 guards just busted me wandering around this abandoned 00:31:20.789 --> 00:31:23.630 mall. I'm like, I'm so sorry. I'm not even sure 00:31:23.630 --> 00:31:26.109 how I got up here. I'm just trying to get back 00:31:26.109 --> 00:31:29.730 in my body. And as I'm talking, he nudged over 00:31:29.730 --> 00:31:32.289 the other entity, which did seem, looking back, 00:31:32.390 --> 00:31:35.309 very female. He nudged the other entity who's 00:31:35.309 --> 00:31:39.369 busy helping these in -between people. She kinda 00:31:39.369 --> 00:31:41.789 looks over, looks at me again and was so surprised 00:31:41.789 --> 00:31:45.190 to see me like, hey, you're not, wait a minute. 00:31:45.650 --> 00:31:47.789 You knew you were gonna do this. You knew you 00:31:47.789 --> 00:31:51.250 were gonna be here. You gave me something to 00:31:51.250 --> 00:31:55.210 give you when this happened. Like almost as if 00:31:55.210 --> 00:31:59.170 my, before I was Brian, my soul chose this whole 00:31:59.170 --> 00:32:02.190 life and that I made plans with them that, hey, 00:32:02.250 --> 00:32:05.250 just in case I come back, like I'm planning on 00:32:05.250 --> 00:32:08.380 having a stroke. When I'm 43 and I'm going to 00:32:08.380 --> 00:32:11.759 come up here, here's this thing to give to me 00:32:11.759 --> 00:32:16.420 because I won't remember as Brian, but I need 00:32:16.420 --> 00:32:18.440 you to give this to me." And she's like, hey, 00:32:18.519 --> 00:32:20.779 I have something to give you. Let me go get it. 00:32:21.539 --> 00:32:24.759 So she kind of, I want to say dissipated, just 00:32:24.759 --> 00:32:28.660 moved off and just literally dissipated off to 00:32:28.660 --> 00:32:32.349 another area of space. I'm not sure really how 00:32:32.349 --> 00:32:34.329 to explain that it felt like she's going off 00:32:34.329 --> 00:32:37.250 to like a janitor's broom closet here and this 00:32:37.250 --> 00:32:40.309 isn't very familiar area i realized that i was 00:32:40.309 --> 00:32:43.130 once one of these entities they knew me they 00:32:43.130 --> 00:32:46.849 knew me the mail one even said a name. It wasn't 00:32:46.849 --> 00:32:50.079 brian it was the name of my soul. it felt so 00:32:50.079 --> 00:32:52.359 familiar like hey wow as soon as he said it i 00:32:52.359 --> 00:32:54.900 was like oh yeah that's the real me that's the 00:32:54.900 --> 00:32:57.799 extended energy my soul that's been here forever 00:32:57.799 --> 00:33:00.160 that's going to remain here like this one knows 00:33:00.160 --> 00:33:03.000 me like we're brothers like former co -workers 00:33:03.000 --> 00:33:05.059 that was the whole feeling that i was getting 00:33:05.059 --> 00:33:07.759 almost as if i was on maternity leave and just 00:33:07.759 --> 00:33:10.299 step back into my office and haven't been here 00:33:10.299 --> 00:33:12.380 in a while and everybody's like hey how you doing 00:33:12.380 --> 00:33:15.720 that was the feeling i got do you remember that 00:33:15.720 --> 00:33:18.990 name You know, I've stated it before, this memory 00:33:18.990 --> 00:33:23.089 thing, I wish. I do recall that it wasn't a word, 00:33:23.329 --> 00:33:25.670 like a name that we would say on earth. It's 00:33:25.670 --> 00:33:28.750 not like Michael, Dave, Steve, Bob. It was something 00:33:28.750 --> 00:33:31.650 way more than that. Almost like a different language. 00:33:32.230 --> 00:33:35.210 100 % a different language. Do you know who those 00:33:35.210 --> 00:33:38.569 two entities were? And that's a thing too. I 00:33:38.569 --> 00:33:41.470 knew they were, I want to call them former coworkers. 00:33:42.220 --> 00:33:44.539 Almost like if you walk back into an old job 00:33:44.539 --> 00:33:47.480 you had when you were 17 and that same old guys 00:33:47.480 --> 00:33:50.039 at the cash register But dang it. I don't remember 00:33:50.039 --> 00:33:51.920 your name. I remember your face I remember how 00:33:51.920 --> 00:33:54.440 you feel and I remember your emotions and mannerisms, 00:33:54.440 --> 00:33:57.380 but uh, what's your name again Steve? You know, 00:33:57.680 --> 00:33:59.700 it was kind of like that. Like there's just this 00:33:59.700 --> 00:34:03.339 weird memory loss Is she a block there that happened? 00:34:03.539 --> 00:34:05.839 So was there more before you came back into your 00:34:05.839 --> 00:34:10.719 body? This is the very end she walked off And 00:34:10.719 --> 00:34:13.699 the male version was like, hey, how's it going 00:34:13.699 --> 00:34:15.840 down there? How are things going? And I'm just 00:34:15.840 --> 00:34:18.440 like, man, I was panicking. I'm like, they're 00:34:18.440 --> 00:34:20.340 poisoning the water. They're poisoning the air. 00:34:20.400 --> 00:34:22.400 They're poisoning the food. We have to pay to 00:34:22.400 --> 00:34:25.400 be on there. There's evil people. They're taking 00:34:25.400 --> 00:34:27.300 advantage of children. There's still slavery 00:34:27.300 --> 00:34:29.460 down there, just giving a full mission report. 00:34:29.719 --> 00:34:31.820 I'm like, you need to send more people down here. 00:34:32.019 --> 00:34:34.380 We need help to fix and turn around this planet 00:34:34.380 --> 00:34:36.320 and raise the vibration of the planet. And he's 00:34:36.320 --> 00:34:39.199 like, we've been sending people there. There's 00:34:39.199 --> 00:34:41.219 plans. of spiritual warriors down there that 00:34:41.219 --> 00:34:43.980 you need to help wake up and I'm like well wait 00:34:43.980 --> 00:34:46.360 is that part of my mission and he's trying to 00:34:46.360 --> 00:34:49.079 tell me like yeah you're here to help wake up 00:34:49.079 --> 00:34:51.400 other spiritual warriors to raise the vibration 00:34:51.400 --> 00:34:54.460 of hurting. 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There's just reds and oranges 00:36:50.469 --> 00:36:53.670 and even a couple of purples and blacks and glitterly 00:36:53.670 --> 00:36:57.469 specks in this giant ball. And she's like, here, 00:36:57.670 --> 00:37:00.630 this is what you gave me to give to you because 00:37:00.630 --> 00:37:03.650 you knew this was going to happen. And this is 00:37:03.650 --> 00:37:05.969 what you gave me to give to you when this happened. 00:37:06.429 --> 00:37:09.889 And she kind of throws it at me. And in that 00:37:09.889 --> 00:37:12.949 moment, maybe not even a second and a half, I'm 00:37:12.949 --> 00:37:15.829 panicking because as a spirit body, I don't have 00:37:15.829 --> 00:37:18.730 arms. How am I going to catch this thing? I kind 00:37:18.730 --> 00:37:21.809 of remember a feeling of going like this, although 00:37:21.809 --> 00:37:24.530 I don't actually have arms. And it just hits 00:37:24.530 --> 00:37:28.699 me in the chest. And in that moment, my eyes 00:37:28.699 --> 00:37:32.199 actually open in the real world. And the orderly 00:37:32.199 --> 00:37:34.159 that picked me up off the floor, the original 00:37:34.159 --> 00:37:38.960 one, is rubbing on my sternum. And I kind of 00:37:38.960 --> 00:37:41.699 wake up. I look around for a second, like, is 00:37:41.699 --> 00:37:45.599 this real? Like, I was just in space with two 00:37:45.599 --> 00:37:49.019 crazy entities in space a minute ago. And I'm 00:37:49.019 --> 00:37:51.000 looking up at him, and he's like, hey, do you 00:37:51.000 --> 00:37:53.739 know your name? And I said my name, Brian Dusak. 00:37:54.030 --> 00:37:56.289 He's like, good, good, you can speak. He's like, 00:37:56.409 --> 00:37:59.070 do you know where you are? The G -rated version 00:37:59.070 --> 00:38:01.610 is, I better be in a flippin' hospital because 00:38:01.610 --> 00:38:04.090 I feel like crap. And he actually laughed a little 00:38:04.090 --> 00:38:06.309 bit because I had a sense of humor. He's like, 00:38:06.449 --> 00:38:09.650 sir, you just had an ischemic, I think it was 00:38:09.650 --> 00:38:12.630 first, and then we gave you the juice, and then 00:38:12.630 --> 00:38:15.769 a hemorrhagic stroke. He's like, the clot. that 00:38:15.769 --> 00:38:18.610 was in your brain just broke into three smaller 00:38:18.610 --> 00:38:21.250 ones. I'm not even sure how they knew that. Like, 00:38:21.250 --> 00:38:23.530 did they already put me through an MRI machine? 00:38:23.969 --> 00:38:26.969 How long was I out? I don't have answers to any 00:38:26.969 --> 00:38:30.630 of those questions. But he's like, the clots, 00:38:30.929 --> 00:38:33.090 one of them is traveling back to your brain. 00:38:33.409 --> 00:38:35.210 One's going to your heart and the other's going 00:38:35.210 --> 00:38:37.710 to your lungs. This is the knockout juice. They 00:38:37.710 --> 00:38:40.389 had an IV in me already. And he's like, this 00:38:40.389 --> 00:38:42.210 is the knockout juice. You're going to be out 00:38:42.210 --> 00:38:45.389 from eight to 12 hours. We're gonna crack open 00:38:45.389 --> 00:38:47.550 your ribs and we're gonna get that clap before 00:38:47.550 --> 00:38:51.469 it gets to your heart sir and immediately that 00:38:51.469 --> 00:38:53.889 same like telepathic voice that was coming from 00:38:53.889 --> 00:38:56.010 God originally when I was asking all the questions 00:38:56.010 --> 00:38:59.829 and getting answers was I Felt like he took over 00:38:59.829 --> 00:39:02.969 because I don't remember willing my hand to move 00:39:02.969 --> 00:39:05.849 but my hand went right on top of his hand as 00:39:05.849 --> 00:39:08.610 he's got the his thumb on that plunger to put 00:39:08.610 --> 00:39:11.650 in my IV lines and The words that came out of 00:39:11.650 --> 00:39:14.679 my mouth were no We're not having any surgery 00:39:14.679 --> 00:39:18.139 today. Take me to a private room. I know what 00:39:18.139 --> 00:39:21.340 I need to do." And I feel like I used the force 00:39:21.340 --> 00:39:24.760 on him because he took his thumb off the plunger, 00:39:24.880 --> 00:39:26.900 pulled it out of my line and he was shaking a 00:39:26.900 --> 00:39:29.000 little bit and you could see the hairs on his 00:39:29.000 --> 00:39:32.280 arm stood up and his pupils dilated as if something 00:39:32.280 --> 00:39:35.679 really affected him. He's like, I believe you. 00:39:35.840 --> 00:39:38.920 What do you need? And I said, take me to a private 00:39:38.920 --> 00:39:42.849 room. I said, I need water. I need aspirin. and 00:39:42.849 --> 00:39:45.590 all the citrus you can bring me. But mind you, 00:39:45.650 --> 00:39:47.670 it wasn't really me saying this. I'm observing 00:39:47.670 --> 00:39:50.889 my mouth saying it, but something more was in 00:39:50.889 --> 00:39:53.289 me at the time. Whether it was God speaking for 00:39:53.289 --> 00:39:56.750 me, my guardian angels, whatever that is, you 00:39:56.750 --> 00:39:59.230 could feel it in the room. There was a lot of 00:39:59.230 --> 00:40:02.190 like staticky energy in the room at this moment. 00:40:02.730 --> 00:40:05.769 And he's like, okay, okay, I believe you. He 00:40:05.769 --> 00:40:08.469 wheeled me to a private room. He told the nurse 00:40:08.469 --> 00:40:10.769 what was going on. He went off to go get those 00:40:10.769 --> 00:40:14.010 three items. I remember a few minutes later, 00:40:14.289 --> 00:40:16.150 Hillary Clinton's little sister came in and made 00:40:16.150 --> 00:40:18.989 me sign the release paperwork for responsibility 00:40:18.989 --> 00:40:21.610 because I'm denying surgery. They made me sign 00:40:21.610 --> 00:40:24.670 three or four of those. He comes back in, he's 00:40:24.670 --> 00:40:27.130 wheeling a cart, and there's two pitchers of 00:40:27.130 --> 00:40:30.250 water, two packets of aspirin, and a bowl of 00:40:30.250 --> 00:40:32.929 grapefruit, limes, lemon, and oranges. And he 00:40:32.929 --> 00:40:34.590 just kind of pushed it up next to me. He's like, 00:40:34.630 --> 00:40:37.449 here you go. I didn't even blink. I ripped open 00:40:37.449 --> 00:40:39.889 the aspirin. I started crushing it with the pitcher. 00:40:40.110 --> 00:40:43.230 I pulled it off the table and I had it like this. 00:40:43.269 --> 00:40:45.769 And I remember them looking at me like they thought 00:40:45.769 --> 00:40:48.590 I was going to sniff it. I put it in the water 00:40:48.590 --> 00:40:51.769 and just started chugging that. And then I started 00:40:51.769 --> 00:40:54.250 peeling the limes, the lemons, the grapefruits, 00:40:54.429 --> 00:40:56.809 but I wasn't eating the fruit body. I wanted 00:40:56.809 --> 00:40:59.670 nothing more. You could call it a crave, but 00:40:59.670 --> 00:41:02.510 it was more than a crave. I needed the peels. 00:41:02.969 --> 00:41:06.250 The peels, which is not very tasty. This is one 00:41:06.250 --> 00:41:08.150 of the hardest things I can recall ever having 00:41:08.150 --> 00:41:10.670 in my body, plus the aspirin. It's like brushing 00:41:10.670 --> 00:41:12.809 your teeth after drinking, or drinking orange 00:41:12.809 --> 00:41:15.929 juice after brushing your teeth. It's very... 00:41:15.929 --> 00:41:19.289 They thought you were nuts. Let's face it. Nobody 00:41:19.289 --> 00:41:22.969 does this. This is crazy. Denying heart surgery 00:41:22.969 --> 00:41:25.510 and just saying, no, I'll take the citrus peels 00:41:25.510 --> 00:41:28.719 and aspirin water instead. I made it through 00:41:28.719 --> 00:41:31.900 like a lime. I made it through a lot of the grapefruit 00:41:31.900 --> 00:41:34.440 and I did eat a little bit of the fruit and I'm 00:41:34.440 --> 00:41:37.340 just chugging water and mushing this horrible 00:41:37.340 --> 00:41:39.739 peels in my mouth. And I remember, you know, 00:41:39.739 --> 00:41:43.719 I've got heart monitors on me and I can't like 00:41:43.719 --> 00:41:46.159 mimic what the sound was, but my heartbeat went 00:41:46.159 --> 00:41:48.639 very irregular for a minute there. It was already 00:41:48.639 --> 00:41:54.519 rough, but it was just doing something. And I 00:41:54.519 --> 00:41:56.760 remember hearing the voice one more time. and 00:41:56.760 --> 00:42:00.280 it was cough hard, cough now, and don't stop 00:42:00.280 --> 00:42:02.500 coughing. And mind you, I still got peels in 00:42:02.500 --> 00:42:04.980 my mouth, so I tried to wash them down and just 00:42:04.980 --> 00:42:06.940 coughing and coughing and pushing and coughing 00:42:06.940 --> 00:42:09.320 and coughing. Took another sip of the water and 00:42:09.320 --> 00:42:12.539 just trying to get more peels apart as I'm coughing 00:42:12.539 --> 00:42:16.179 my heart out. And son of a gun, maybe, I don't 00:42:16.179 --> 00:42:17.679 know, I want to say somewhere around the seventh 00:42:17.679 --> 00:42:21.420 to tenth, twelfth cough, I felt this real crazy 00:42:21.420 --> 00:42:24.500 feeling in my heart. It was a pop. And then a 00:42:24.500 --> 00:42:27.199 squish I compared to like maybe if a tiny jellyfish 00:42:27.199 --> 00:42:29.739 was in my arteries because I felt the pop of 00:42:29.739 --> 00:42:34.079 its head and then the tail behind it. And I remember 00:42:34.079 --> 00:42:36.880 my heartbeats going crazy. I'm still coughing. 00:42:37.039 --> 00:42:39.000 I'm still trying to chew the little pieces of 00:42:39.000 --> 00:42:41.780 my mouth. And then there was another squish as 00:42:41.780 --> 00:42:43.860 if it had turned around or something. And then 00:42:43.860 --> 00:42:47.519 a pop as is coming out. I guess that's your right 00:42:47.519 --> 00:42:49.800 ventricle. I'm not sure. I'm not a scientist 00:42:49.800 --> 00:42:52.760 or a doctor, but. I just passed that blood clot 00:42:52.760 --> 00:42:56.400 through my heart while I'm chewing and drinking 00:42:56.400 --> 00:42:59.380 the aspirin water. And I think the whole point 00:42:59.380 --> 00:43:03.059 was to maybe break down that clot so that it 00:43:03.059 --> 00:43:06.440 can pass through my heart without killing me 00:43:06.440 --> 00:43:08.320 or getting stuck. I guess that's what happens 00:43:08.320 --> 00:43:10.679 when you have a heart attack. I remember the 00:43:10.679 --> 00:43:13.079 doctors looking at me. Because the surgeon that 00:43:13.079 --> 00:43:15.079 was supposed to do my heart surgery came in the 00:43:15.079 --> 00:43:16.900 room during this time. I forgot to mention that. 00:43:17.099 --> 00:43:18.619 He came in the room and he's trying to tell me 00:43:18.619 --> 00:43:20.599 like, you need it. We should have cut you open 00:43:20.599 --> 00:43:23.320 moments ago. You need to have the surgery. You're 00:43:23.320 --> 00:43:26.079 going to have a heart attack. And I'm just, nope, 00:43:26.179 --> 00:43:28.619 nope, you know, and drinking the aspirin water 00:43:28.619 --> 00:43:30.900 and chewing on these citrus peels. You know, 00:43:30.980 --> 00:43:32.860 the orderlies kind of looking at me dumbfounded 00:43:32.860 --> 00:43:34.840 like, well, I've never seen anything like that 00:43:34.840 --> 00:43:37.420 before. He, you know, he was pretty freaked out. 00:43:37.539 --> 00:43:39.989 Two other nurses are just like, Did that just 00:43:39.989 --> 00:43:42.469 happen? I remember they were getting the defibrillator 00:43:42.469 --> 00:43:44.809 paddles ready while I was coughing. They were 00:43:44.809 --> 00:43:47.250 ready to jumpstart me again in case I had passed 00:43:47.250 --> 00:43:50.510 out. A few minutes had gone by and I remember 00:43:50.510 --> 00:43:54.949 feeling that same similar pop wish, but yet I 00:43:54.949 --> 00:43:57.429 could tell the clot was getting smaller. That 00:43:57.429 --> 00:43:59.960 first time it kind of hurt a little bit. But 00:43:59.960 --> 00:44:02.619 now the second time I felt it more like a twinge 00:44:02.619 --> 00:44:04.860 and then after it came around the third time 00:44:04.860 --> 00:44:07.619 It was much less of a twinge. So whatever I was 00:44:07.619 --> 00:44:09.699 doing was breaking up this cloud. Thank God, 00:44:09.699 --> 00:44:13.780 you know pretty much at that point They put me 00:44:13.780 --> 00:44:17.000 on observation for I think was three more days 00:44:17.000 --> 00:44:19.500 Then I signed some paperwork and they released 00:44:19.500 --> 00:44:24.450 me So no long -term effects from the stroke No 00:44:24.450 --> 00:44:27.150 paralyzed or anything there were two minor things 00:44:27.150 --> 00:44:29.989 that happened my left eye had a slight blind 00:44:29.989 --> 00:44:32.570 spot I'd say about the size of a quarter that 00:44:32.570 --> 00:44:37.050 dissipated after time and Then my left arm my 00:44:37.050 --> 00:44:40.550 thumb was kind of I'd say numb or stiff I don't 00:44:40.550 --> 00:44:42.530 know if that was like a nerve damage or something 00:44:42.530 --> 00:44:45.710 But it it would start from my thumb went up around 00:44:45.710 --> 00:44:48.690 my wrist to my elbow back behind and then into 00:44:48.690 --> 00:44:51.880 my back muscles it was numb like literally you 00:44:51.880 --> 00:44:54.179 could tap it you could feel there's a sensation 00:44:54.179 --> 00:44:57.599 but it's it's kind of a numbing strange feeling 00:44:57.599 --> 00:45:00.320 you know i stretched that out started taking 00:45:00.320 --> 00:45:02.480 electrolytes and things of that nature to to 00:45:02.480 --> 00:45:05.260 help it eventually went away the blind spot took 00:45:05.260 --> 00:45:09.329 about six seven months to finally resolve I feel 00:45:09.329 --> 00:45:11.489 like we need to put out some kind of a medical 00:45:11.489 --> 00:45:14.389 disclaimer here. This isn't health advice. If 00:45:14.389 --> 00:45:16.829 you're having a stroke, we're not giving medical 00:45:16.829 --> 00:45:20.349 advice on what to do with it. This was Brian's 00:45:20.349 --> 00:45:25.570 inspiration period and it worked for you. I just 00:45:25.570 --> 00:45:30.789 feel like I need to jump in and say, I lost track 00:45:30.789 --> 00:45:33.730 of how many things in your experience are different 00:45:33.730 --> 00:45:37.989 than most NDE's. There's so many. as you probably 00:45:37.989 --> 00:45:41.170 know. First I want to just go through some of 00:45:41.170 --> 00:45:43.210 them and maybe you can elaborate if you feel 00:45:43.210 --> 00:45:46.269 like on some of them. Leaving your body, I have 00:45:46.269 --> 00:45:50.090 some notes here, a ripping noise and a pop feeling. 00:45:51.130 --> 00:45:54.110 No one's ever told me that before. Can you explain 00:45:54.110 --> 00:45:58.449 that any more than that? I actually have a sound 00:45:58.449 --> 00:46:02.130 that I was listening to some music and there 00:46:02.130 --> 00:46:07.949 is a sound that I found that That I actually 00:46:07.949 --> 00:46:11.469 have Saved that I'll share with you. Maybe you 00:46:11.469 --> 00:46:14.550 can reshare it in the podcast I believe it's 00:46:14.550 --> 00:46:17.329 called a transmission from Mars. The album is 00:46:17.329 --> 00:46:21.190 called planetary medicine and it's by a DJ group 00:46:21.190 --> 00:46:26.130 called Mercury M -U -R -K -U -R -Y but Transmission 00:46:26.130 --> 00:46:28.510 from Mars I believe is what it's called but the 00:46:28.510 --> 00:46:31.010 first like 30 seconds of that if it was condensed 00:46:31.010 --> 00:46:34.329 into like two That's literally exactly what I 00:46:34.329 --> 00:46:36.449 heard, but I'll find it for you All right, yeah 00:46:36.449 --> 00:46:39.550 send me that. Another thing that's very unusual 00:46:39.550 --> 00:46:43.889 is that after leaving your body you felt panic 00:46:43.889 --> 00:46:47.309 for a long time. Most people all of a sudden 00:46:47.309 --> 00:46:51.449 feel peace because their pain is gone and other 00:46:51.449 --> 00:46:54.630 things from this world and this physical body 00:46:54.630 --> 00:46:58.090 are gone and so they usually feel peace and it's 00:46:58.090 --> 00:47:01.110 so, I'm not going to say weird, it's unusual. 00:47:01.500 --> 00:47:05.460 That you felt panic yet. It sounds like it wasn't 00:47:05.460 --> 00:47:09.280 much later that you described to me love peace 00:47:09.280 --> 00:47:14.179 calmness and security Well time is kind of different 00:47:14.179 --> 00:47:16.599 there for sure, you know as I'm watching things 00:47:16.599 --> 00:47:20.699 happen maybe a Minute occurred as I'm watching 00:47:20.699 --> 00:47:22.619 them, you know, pick me up put me on the gurney 00:47:22.619 --> 00:47:26.659 and cart me off But yeah For that minute, it 00:47:26.659 --> 00:47:30.199 seemed like an eternity as a spirit. And yes, 00:47:30.199 --> 00:47:33.280 uh, it was extensive, like yes, complete panic, 00:47:33.539 --> 00:47:37.119 complete disarray. There was regret that I didn't 00:47:37.119 --> 00:47:39.940 do more. There was a lot of crazy feelings for 00:47:39.940 --> 00:47:42.699 that first minute, but luckily the big guy showed 00:47:42.699 --> 00:47:46.340 up and calmed me down. All right, we'll get to 00:47:46.340 --> 00:47:49.119 the big guy here in a minute. First, I want to 00:47:49.119 --> 00:47:52.659 ask your opinion on something. You felt the young 00:47:52.659 --> 00:47:58.059 Asian girl, the Scottish man and the young man 00:47:58.059 --> 00:48:01.360 who had taken the pills. What do you think it 00:48:01.360 --> 00:48:06.199 was the purpose in you having this empathic kind 00:48:06.199 --> 00:48:10.079 of experience with them? If you would have asked 00:48:10.079 --> 00:48:13.519 me early on, I wouldn't have an answer. But I 00:48:13.519 --> 00:48:16.179 really thought about that after talking to a 00:48:16.179 --> 00:48:19.159 couple other people about my experience. A lot 00:48:19.159 --> 00:48:21.699 have said that there's a very good chance that 00:48:21.699 --> 00:48:27.139 I was prior to this. one of those types of entities 00:48:27.139 --> 00:48:30.719 that was helping people in the in -between. Because 00:48:30.719 --> 00:48:33.940 A, I knew exactly how to get there. B, there 00:48:33.940 --> 00:48:36.280 was the familiarity of being there when I got 00:48:36.280 --> 00:48:40.340 there. C, the two entities completely recognized 00:48:40.340 --> 00:48:44.940 me and I did recognize them. But I think that 00:48:44.940 --> 00:48:50.300 was just, it was a spark of a memory as my larger 00:48:50.300 --> 00:48:54.139 soul was just remembering. that it's there, that 00:48:54.139 --> 00:48:57.719 this is a place that I've been before. That was 00:48:57.719 --> 00:49:00.760 my part of my job. I think in the spirit realm 00:49:00.760 --> 00:49:03.559 is being one of the consolers that was helping 00:49:03.559 --> 00:49:06.340 walk people through after just passing away. 00:49:06.460 --> 00:49:08.880 So I was kind of like tapping into that, that 00:49:08.880 --> 00:49:12.659 memory or that ability or that job, so to speak. 00:49:13.340 --> 00:49:16.219 So you felt like that was your role with those 00:49:16.219 --> 00:49:19.880 two entities, the male and female were people 00:49:19.880 --> 00:49:23.079 that you had for lack of a better term. worked 00:49:23.079 --> 00:49:27.719 with or served with or whatever was helping people 00:49:27.719 --> 00:49:32.940 pass over to the other side. Yes. Okay. That's 00:49:32.940 --> 00:49:36.239 super interesting. I feel like they were shorthanded, 00:49:36.440 --> 00:49:38.900 meaning that there might've been a larger group 00:49:38.900 --> 00:49:41.639 of entities like this, and that some of us kind 00:49:41.639 --> 00:49:44.820 of chose to come down here on earth in the 3D 00:49:44.820 --> 00:49:47.880 and kind of left them with more work to do, if 00:49:47.880 --> 00:49:50.480 that makes sense. So you feel like that'll be 00:49:50.480 --> 00:49:53.800 your responsibility again when you die someday 00:49:53.800 --> 00:49:56.900 I wish I knew the answer to that I mean I would 00:49:56.900 --> 00:49:59.099 definitely go back there and and help and keep 00:49:59.099 --> 00:50:02.139 doing that but I I don't know when the time comes 00:50:02.139 --> 00:50:05.300 am I gonna pick to come back and You know, maybe 00:50:05.300 --> 00:50:07.780 still raise the vibration of the planet or turn 00:50:07.780 --> 00:50:10.900 something else around or volunteer hold another 00:50:10.900 --> 00:50:13.809 dimension or planet. I wish I knew that's the 00:50:13.809 --> 00:50:16.070 whole exciting part of it. I'm no longer scared 00:50:16.070 --> 00:50:18.389 to die. I'm definitely looking forward to my 00:50:18.389 --> 00:50:21.949 next mission. And that's part of what I was getting 00:50:21.949 --> 00:50:24.329 at, but let's talk about that mission for a second. 00:50:24.869 --> 00:50:28.250 How in the world can one person raise this vibrational 00:50:28.250 --> 00:50:31.449 level, as you put it, of the planet? Have you 00:50:31.449 --> 00:50:34.190 figured any of that out yet? It sounds way, way, 00:50:34.190 --> 00:50:38.230 way overwhelming. I've been hypnotized. I've 00:50:38.230 --> 00:50:41.559 gone to different Spiritual people, shamans, 00:50:41.739 --> 00:50:44.920 ask that question. I've talked to psychics. They've 00:50:44.920 --> 00:50:46.599 all said that's something I got to find within 00:50:46.599 --> 00:50:49.679 myself. The more I think about it, some are saying 00:50:49.679 --> 00:50:52.300 that just by being me and doing the things that 00:50:52.300 --> 00:50:55.159 I have done in this lifetime are enough, but 00:50:55.159 --> 00:51:01.199 I have this overwhelming, undying, nagging feeling 00:51:01.199 --> 00:51:05.139 that I need to be doing more. How? I feel like 00:51:05.139 --> 00:51:07.360 since that's happened, I wasn't always the nicest 00:51:07.360 --> 00:51:09.699 guy. I wasn't a bad guy, but I wasn't always 00:51:09.699 --> 00:51:13.340 so jovial or so peaceful or so knowledgeable 00:51:13.340 --> 00:51:15.860 on things. And I feel like now that this has 00:51:15.860 --> 00:51:20.059 happened to me that I'm trying to, I guess, reflect. 00:51:20.300 --> 00:51:22.659 the entities that I saw there. I want to be more 00:51:22.659 --> 00:51:25.300 jovial, be more kind, be more happy, be more 00:51:25.300 --> 00:51:28.400 helpful, you know, helping literally raise, you 00:51:28.400 --> 00:51:30.880 know, when I drive for a living, I pick up people 00:51:30.880 --> 00:51:33.260 for public transportation. I used to do Lyft 00:51:33.260 --> 00:51:36.219 and Uber, now it's called ViaTrans, which is 00:51:36.219 --> 00:51:38.579 picking up the public. When they get in and somebody 00:51:38.579 --> 00:51:40.820 gets in and they're just, they go, hey, how are 00:51:40.820 --> 00:51:42.539 you doing today? You don't sound so good. You 00:51:42.539 --> 00:51:44.679 know, what's going on? How can I help? You know, 00:51:45.119 --> 00:51:47.360 other people with health advice and things that 00:51:47.360 --> 00:51:50.099 I've gone through and the intermittent fasting, 00:51:50.300 --> 00:51:52.480 the parasite cleanses and trying to help each 00:51:52.480 --> 00:51:55.940 individual as I go. And I feel like at least 00:51:55.940 --> 00:51:58.840 I can help one or two or five or 10 people in 00:51:58.840 --> 00:52:01.500 a day. That's a little bit, but I know I need 00:52:01.500 --> 00:52:03.659 to be doing a lot more to be honest, not to take 00:52:03.659 --> 00:52:07.119 anything away from from your whole show. I want 00:52:07.119 --> 00:52:09.619 to do a podcast. I'm just in a weird financial 00:52:09.619 --> 00:52:11.739 bind to where I have to work seven days a week 00:52:11.739 --> 00:52:14.280 right now and haven't found the time. But I feel 00:52:14.280 --> 00:52:18.579 like if I have, you know, coming as an NDE experiencer, 00:52:18.780 --> 00:52:22.820 I would like to have other NDE experiencers on, 00:52:23.460 --> 00:52:26.219 but from another aspect to where like we can 00:52:26.219 --> 00:52:29.139 compare notes of things, the way we felt things, 00:52:29.199 --> 00:52:32.960 how we interacted, how the telepathy happened, 00:52:33.059 --> 00:52:35.880 how that ripping or popping noise happened, you 00:52:35.880 --> 00:52:39.099 know, just how it felt to not be using your normal 00:52:39.099 --> 00:52:43.079 physical senses and using your spiritual senses. 00:52:43.539 --> 00:52:46.409 I feel like Like how I had a mission, I feel 00:52:46.409 --> 00:52:49.090 like a lot of people have different missions. 00:52:49.130 --> 00:52:52.869 And if we were able to kind of conglomerate and 00:52:52.869 --> 00:52:55.349 get together, you'll see how different parts 00:52:55.349 --> 00:52:57.630 of the puzzle actually start to fit together. 00:52:58.250 --> 00:53:00.230 And there's a lot of healers out there. There's 00:53:00.230 --> 00:53:02.809 a lot of people that know they're healers that 00:53:02.809 --> 00:53:05.570 are a little scared. Maybe they're on the religious 00:53:05.570 --> 00:53:08.309 end and, you know, thinking about psychic things 00:53:08.309 --> 00:53:12.110 or healing or even meditating is evil, right? 00:53:12.360 --> 00:53:14.900 but to show people like, hey, I used to be like 00:53:14.900 --> 00:53:17.800 that too. And, you know, look at us now, you 00:53:17.800 --> 00:53:21.260 know, there's healers out here. Let's find our 00:53:21.260 --> 00:53:23.139 missions and how it all fits together and help 00:53:23.139 --> 00:53:27.119 each other out. I hope that made sense. Oh, absolutely. 00:53:27.519 --> 00:53:30.559 And being on this podcast today, you're reaching 00:53:30.559 --> 00:53:33.380 thousands of people. So you're off to a good 00:53:33.380 --> 00:53:37.159 start on that. Sometimes those things that feel 00:53:37.159 --> 00:53:40.420 like a mission, it's not like we can define them 00:53:40.420 --> 00:53:44.179 ahead of time. And we can say, oh, that's exactly 00:53:44.179 --> 00:53:47.900 what I need to do. But we follow along with little 00:53:47.900 --> 00:53:50.199 promptings, little feelings that we're getting. 00:53:50.780 --> 00:53:53.820 And after a while, we can look back and say, 00:53:54.039 --> 00:53:56.920 ah, look what I've done. Now I can do even more 00:53:56.920 --> 00:54:00.760 of that. And you may experience something like 00:54:00.760 --> 00:54:03.860 that. You know, there's times where we can look 00:54:03.860 --> 00:54:08.880 back and say, wow, four years of doing this podcast 00:54:08.880 --> 00:54:12.840 and reaching You know hundreds of thousands and 00:54:12.840 --> 00:54:16.119 a couple of million people so far Hopefully that's 00:54:16.119 --> 00:54:18.619 done some good in the world and you're a piece 00:54:18.619 --> 00:54:22.260 of that So thank you for that. It's all about 00:54:22.260 --> 00:54:25.219 spreading hope and that's what this show is about 00:54:25.219 --> 00:54:27.639 and that's what your message I think is about 00:54:27.639 --> 00:54:31.139 Last thing before I let you go. I want to talk 00:54:31.139 --> 00:54:33.639 a little bit more about your discussion with 00:54:33.639 --> 00:54:38.780 God I find it so peculiar That and did you call 00:54:38.780 --> 00:54:43.190 God? an it or a he or a she or a how did you 00:54:43.190 --> 00:54:47.070 refer pronoun wise? I feel like God is light 00:54:47.070 --> 00:54:50.590 and consciousness so therefore I have been trying 00:54:50.590 --> 00:54:53.670 not to put it as just a male figure like we've 00:54:53.670 --> 00:54:55.889 been taught through religion. It's so much more 00:54:55.889 --> 00:54:58.829 than that. So much more than that. I have been 00:54:58.829 --> 00:55:03.699 saying it because saying he although it showed 00:55:03.699 --> 00:55:07.860 me a malish entity, it's so much more. We relate 00:55:07.860 --> 00:55:12.039 that to a human form. It was pure consciousness. 00:55:12.059 --> 00:55:14.340 It was just showing me a human form, I think, 00:55:14.579 --> 00:55:17.920 so that I could relate to it, if that makes sense. 00:55:18.960 --> 00:55:21.639 Yeah, I almost laughed. I thought it was funny 00:55:21.639 --> 00:55:26.079 when you asked, are you God? And God said, most 00:55:26.079 --> 00:55:29.980 of the time. It definitely has a sense of humor. 00:55:30.329 --> 00:55:34.489 It just reminds me a little bit of, we've been 00:55:34.489 --> 00:55:37.150 talking about some old movies today too. There's 00:55:37.150 --> 00:55:43.050 an old movie called Oh God. George Burns? So 00:55:43.050 --> 00:55:47.110 yes, Oh God starring George Burns and John Denver, 00:55:47.309 --> 00:55:51.369 the singer. That guy, okay. I know you're a little 00:55:51.369 --> 00:55:54.210 young for John Denver, but you've made reference 00:55:54.210 --> 00:55:56.130 to some other older things here today. Yeah, 00:55:56.130 --> 00:55:58.869 my mom definitely liked John Denver. Yeah. He 00:55:58.869 --> 00:56:01.349 was in the movie, but that The thing is that 00:56:01.349 --> 00:56:04.730 this reminded me of is what you said is George 00:56:04.730 --> 00:56:07.530 Burns playing God was just so very matter -of 00:56:07.530 --> 00:56:10.650 -fact like oh, yeah, okay You know, yes this 00:56:10.650 --> 00:56:13.769 or no that it was very surprising I expected 00:56:13.769 --> 00:56:17.489 a more of like an ethereal royalty kind of vibe 00:56:17.489 --> 00:56:19.670 as you would picture going through like the Bible 00:56:19.670 --> 00:56:21.989 or something You know old man in the clouds with 00:56:21.989 --> 00:56:24.710 the wings and you know some sort of chariot perhaps 00:56:24.710 --> 00:56:27.190 playing a harp I guess I don't know with his 00:56:27.190 --> 00:56:29.369 walking stick, but it was nothing like that for 00:56:29.369 --> 00:56:32.050 me But then again, after doing some research, 00:56:32.409 --> 00:56:34.550 other people based off of their belief system, 00:56:34.969 --> 00:56:38.750 they see what it is they believe in. And I think 00:56:38.750 --> 00:56:42.110 that God, that's what you want to call it, supreme 00:56:42.110 --> 00:56:45.730 being, whatever it is, shows us that just so 00:56:45.730 --> 00:56:48.329 that we don't panic. If a Christian all of a 00:56:48.329 --> 00:56:51.230 sudden saw Krishna, he'd probably be pretty dang 00:56:51.230 --> 00:56:54.349 surprised. You know what I mean? If a Jewish 00:56:54.349 --> 00:56:56.389 person saw a Buddhist monk, they'd be pretty 00:56:56.389 --> 00:57:00.230 surprised. So I think they purposely kind of 00:57:00.230 --> 00:57:02.389 try to relate into your belief system, which 00:57:02.389 --> 00:57:05.989 is now why I understand it is omnipresent. It 00:57:05.989 --> 00:57:07.929 is all knowing. It is all seeing. It's all of 00:57:07.929 --> 00:57:10.469 the above. If God is omnipresent, he's created 00:57:10.469 --> 00:57:15.150 all the things. And I'm not going to spend time 00:57:15.150 --> 00:57:17.789 telling you much about my beliefs. That's not 00:57:17.789 --> 00:57:21.099 what this show is about, but Here's the commonality 00:57:21.099 --> 00:57:23.940 that I see with all of these. When people describe 00:57:23.940 --> 00:57:28.519 some things that you did, love, peace, calm, 00:57:29.119 --> 00:57:32.099 security, serenity, bliss, whatever kinds of 00:57:32.099 --> 00:57:37.280 adjectives we want to use, to me, those are descriptions 00:57:37.280 --> 00:57:40.619 of God, because that's where all of those feelings 00:57:40.619 --> 00:57:44.699 are coming from. 100%. I agree with that. All 00:57:44.699 --> 00:57:48.230 right. Thank you for that. And I appreciate you 00:57:48.230 --> 00:57:50.389 spending time with me today. This has been good 00:57:50.389 --> 00:57:54.110 fun. I've got a new friend with you, Brian, and 00:57:54.110 --> 00:57:56.829 let's keep in touch. We'll circle back in a while. 00:57:57.250 --> 00:57:59.829 And if you want help launching a podcast, I'm 00:57:59.829 --> 00:58:02.489 happy to be there for you. If I could state real 00:58:02.489 --> 00:58:05.010 quick that I made a Facebook group. It's called 00:58:05.010 --> 00:58:09.090 Doozies Quest, D -O -O -Z -I -E -S Quest, where 00:58:09.090 --> 00:58:11.690 I've posted this. in a long form where I wrote 00:58:11.690 --> 00:58:14.070 it out, people can interact with me. So if anybody 00:58:14.070 --> 00:58:17.030 knows how to remember some of the things or wants 00:58:17.030 --> 00:58:19.829 to hypnotize me and or give me a reading, like 00:58:19.829 --> 00:58:22.650 I'd love for somebody to reach out and other 00:58:22.650 --> 00:58:24.989 spiritual warriors that realize that they've 00:58:24.989 --> 00:58:26.849 got something and they're trying to wake up and 00:58:26.849 --> 00:58:29.130 maybe we could all work together on this. Feel 00:58:29.130 --> 00:58:31.789 free to join the group and communicate with me. 00:58:32.010 --> 00:58:33.550 All right. You send me that link. I'll stick 00:58:33.550 --> 00:58:35.690 it down on the show notes so everybody can find 00:58:35.690 --> 00:58:38.510 it. Yeah. And there are groups that you may want 00:58:38.510 --> 00:58:43.449 to connect with, like Ions, where a lot of experiencers 00:58:43.449 --> 00:58:47.710 find a lot of peace and understanding by mingling 00:58:47.710 --> 00:58:50.190 with other people that have been through similar 00:58:50.190 --> 00:58:51.929 experiences. I missed last year's meeting, but 00:58:51.929 --> 00:58:53.710 I'm going to do my best to get to this year's 00:58:53.710 --> 00:58:56.829 meeting. Seattle this year. That's a haul from 00:58:56.829 --> 00:59:00.210 Texas, but I'll figure it out. All right, Brian, 00:59:00.369 --> 00:59:03.840 take care of my friend. 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