From the time that they pronounced me dead was
a good 45 minutes. They cut my clothes and then
they paddled my heart, my heart had stopped and
I could see people screaming and crying but I
didn't realize that was actually my physical
body because I was somewhere else. The only thing
that I could feel if you could imagine absolute
love and peace there wasn't anything else to
be felt. I was greeted by people I'd known in
the past. I'm back home again. Incredibly safe
and felt at home. Welcome, welcome to Round Trip
Death, everybody, and a special and warm welcome
for Marilyn Yvette coming to us from Canada.
How are you today, Marilyn? I'm doing great.
Thanks for having me today, Eric. Thank you for
being patient with me. Our listeners don't know
what we're talking about. I was not off to a
great start today. But what part of Canada do
you live in? So I'm just north of Toronto. So
I think a lot of people have maybe heard of Toronto.
So it's kind of just heading into the eastern
region of the country. So up there above the
Great Lakes somewhere? Yeah, Lake Ontario is
close. Okay. It's me pretending like I know geography,
which... Which I don't. I wasn't too bad at it
back in eighth grade, but didn't stick with me
as well. Before we jump into your near -death
experience, which is an interesting one. We talk
about drowning from time to time, but we'll get
to that in a minute. I want our listeners to
get to know you. Tell us a little bit about you.
So I am. I'm a mother and I worked mostly in
the business sector and that's where my school
and college and university is based in business
programs, but I have been also marrying that
up with a spiritual path along the way. So I
have a lot of things like holistic health practitioner,
cognitive behavioral therapist, spiritual life
coach. So the list goes on. I just finished a
certification for an end of life doula. So now
I'm looking at marrying up the business aspect
with the spiritual aspects and just rolling into
that full time. Yeah, we've had a handful of
end of life doulos on the show. You have? Yeah,
I think it is fabulous. Most people have never
heard of it. I hadn't heard of it until we had
the first one on a while back. But it just it
makes so much sense because we don't know how
to deal with death. We don't even like to talk
about it. Yeah, and it's I for me the passion
is helping them not fear death and what happens
after and helping the family accept it and Understand
what's happening after so that's where my passion
lies there Yeah, maybe someday we'll have a whole
death doula show but in the meantime We have
the happy ending deaths where people come back
Yeah, so let's get into that and this happened
to you when you were a child Take us back. You
were only what five years old Yeah, approximately
five years old and kind of lived in a cottage
country, a town beautiful, much like where I
live now. It was just one of those, you know,
beautiful sunny days. You could feel the sun
just kissing your skin and just the sounds of
summer at this public beach that we live close
to. So I was there with my sister and my mom
and we wanted to go swimming, but we weren't
over where the lifeguard and, you know, they
have the safety buoys, so you don't go beyond
that. And usually, you know, the sand is leveling
up so that it slowly goes down to swim. So where
we were, it just kind of dropped down and I was
just little. And I'm not sure I even was as drunk,
for me to be honest, but I was swimming away
and just frolicking and having a great time.
And then all of a sudden, I was under the water
and I don't know if it was a bit of an undertow
or something, but I just couldn't get to the
surface at all. I was struggling and I was trying
to... you know, swim my little heart out. And
then I really started to panic because I couldn't
breathe and I'd been under there for a bit. Just
then when I was at the height of feeling, you
know, absolutely mortified that I wasn't going
to make it, I heard somebody say, Marilyn, it's
OK. You're going to be OK. I'm here to help you.
So I opened my eyes and I looked and there was
this angel. So although we were both underwater
at the time, she was completely dry and she had
very long, long curly hair like me, but her hair
was much longer and she was, you know, maybe
early teen looking. And when she spoke to me,
she didn't move her lips, but I could hear her.
It was just, she was so serene that she calmed
me immediately. The whole water was all lit up
in like this yellow kind of glow. But the feeling
of being like wrapped in a warm soft link and
feeling safe and secure I just Relaxed and so
as she was saying come to me. It's okay Come
to me. It's okay, and she was doing this I could
feel myself going with her the next recollection
I have is Waking up in the hospital and the nurse
giving me heck because I had soiled the bed with
all the water, I guess. But it was in the newspaper,
and I guess I was in there for two weeks. So
it was, I guess, a pretty big deal. But I've
never forgotten it. I've never forgot a single
detail, how she looked, how she sounded. And
then my daughter had an interaction with her
much later. And this person had said, or this
angel had said, I'm here protecting your mom.
Don't be afraid. and I lived in the house I had,
I think it was on an old burial ground because
there was a lot of stuff going on. I'd never
described how she looked or anything, but she
described her to a T, to me, and it was the same
angel I had seen based on the descriptions. Okay,
some people would ask, how do you remember something
very well when you were only five years old?
I don't remember much from when I was five. Well,
that's a great question. And I think I would
ask the same thing. I think anybody that's gone
through this, you say when you know, you know,
but if you haven't, I would question. But what
I can say is, and especially with some of the
studies I've done in psychology, when you have
traumatic experience like that, that's really
imprinted in you more so than like a nice healthy
day at the beach or something like that. You
know, you remember having a nice day and feeling
warm and fuzzy. But when something is so traumatic
as that, like that affects your central nervous
system, it's imprinted in you. But it's such
an emotional experience that I think that's what
is long lasting. I questioned it as well. when
I found my family many years later, I had talked
to them quite a bit about different things I
remember, and that was one thing, but I just,
for instance, I thought I saw a giant and I fell
off a horse, but apparently he was a family friend
and she was six foot five, and I did fall off
this horse, and that was even younger than that,
so I do. have recollections of that and I've
never wavered from what I've said from then till
now and they were able to tell me yes that those
are things you remember that's what happened
and that's what you said at that time. Well and
I totally believe you it's just it has to be
like you're saying some kind of a a larger -than
-life, shall we say, experience for you to remember
from when you were that young. So it was obviously
super, super profound. Let's talk more about
the angel in a minute. I want to ask you some
more questions about that. But has your family
since told you anything else that happened, like
how you were rescued? Were you alive when you
were rescued? Not that that matters because near
-death experiences, frankly, can be something
very close to that, and we call those associated
experiences, and that's fine too. But tell me
what you know about what happened. Well, that's
a great question. So I guess it was a small town,
so it was broadcast. I mean, it was quite quickly.
My father heard it, and he was like, oh my God,
I know that's one of my daughters. And he flew
down there just as they were loading me into
the ambulance. Where were you, by the way? So
the lake was called Lake. Kuchiching and it is
in Arroyo, Ontario, which is about, I want to
say three hours north of Toronto in the Muskoka
region. You may have heard of Muskoka because
a lot of people vacation there from the U .S.
Even Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell had a cottage
up that way. Sorry to interrupt. I just was curious
where it is. So your father flew up there and
then what happened? Yeah, so they were loading
the ambulance and they had to revive me for sure.
And I guess what happened, I don't know if somebody
told the lifeguard or ran and grabbed a lifeguard,
but I was saved by a lifeguard. And I'm wondering
if that's when I felt the pull. I hope to find
him someday and say thank you. But yeah, it's
just a young fellow on duty and he was the one
who rescued me. Yeah, they did have to revive
me as far as I know. It's what my father told
me. Let's get back to that pole thing. I didn't
really understand that. Did you feel like this
was a pole that was saving your life or like
the angel was pulling you like, come on, we're
headed off to heaven now, young lady. So I was
being pulled straight. So when she pulled like
this, I could feel my body move, although she
wasn't touching me. So as she pulled, I came
forward with her. So I felt that strong pull
as if somebody had to grab me. But I wasn't pulled
up. I was pulled straight. I was like, yeah,
I'm good to go with you. I was feeling like that
was just the way, you know, it was going to be.
And I didn't feel scared anymore. I felt safe.
So I went with it. So I'm wondering, and I have
no idea, but, you know, would that be when the
lifeguard jumped in or because I've had so much.
psychic experience since then. Just really incredible
things. I was told later by somebody who was
trained by Dolores Cannon in quantum healing
that young Marilyn passed away and I was actually
a walk -in because they don't want to waste a
body and because my early life was so difficult
that somebody stronger who could go through that
came in, but I don't know for sure. Tell me more
about the angel. I believe you said she looked
like a young teen Yeah, so she wasn't quite an
adult, but she also wasn't a kid like me. She
was older So I was thinking she was like she
looked about 14 maybe 12 14. She had very very
long blonde curly hair, but it was like down
to her feet like down to her ankles and She was
wearing a gown and her wings were outstretched
And the gown wasn't moving with the water or
wet and neither was her hair. So I thought even
then that's kind of odd. But and then there was
a huge glow of like yellowish, bright and the
closer it was toward the brighter it was. And
then it kind of mushroomed out into a bright
yellow. And it didn't even look like we were
in the water. We were just in this bubble. When
your daughter explained what she looked like
to her. Were there specific details such as,
besides the hair, eye color, what she was wearing,
things like that, that you recognized as being
the same? Yeah, she said, Mom, she looked like
you when you were little. And she really did.
We looked quite a bit alike, but we didn't look
exactly alike. So just that light eyes, like
I don't know if you can see or not, but my eyes
are really quite light. And so she had those.
She was fair, just really like, you know, small
features, very, very feminine. I'm going to ask
you to speculate here. Do you think she had some
kind of relation to you and that's why she was
assigned to you or concerned with you and looked
like you? Wow, you know what? Nobody's ever said
that and that makes absolute sense. Yeah, that
could be the case. I don't know why that never
occurred to me before because she did look so
much like me. My mom had... twin girls after
I was born so I was only a couple years old but
they passed away so I don't know maybe it could
be them or or a distant relative like that it
already passed that'd be a great thing to find
out wouldn't it yeah I and actually I just did
a huge family what traced us all the way back
to King Louis so but I'm gonna meet with some
of the cousins and see if we can share our pictures,
so it would be interesting if there was one like
that. It's under the Empire Loyalist of Canada.
I don't know if you've heard of that, but the
early settlers to Canada. So that's the status
that I was researching for our family. So I should
look into that. I have a feeling you won't find
someone with hair all the way down to their feet.
So don't hang up. Don't get hung up on that one.
But everything else, that's interesting. Okay.
Tell me what was going on with your daughter
when she had an experience with this same angel.
Yeah, so she was visiting me at that point we
lived in different cities and she was down for
like a long weekend visit and where I lived there
was a lot of action in the basement and I had
like some pretty profound experiences there and
I didn't even like to go downstairs like you
know you see the people they just deeded up the
stairs. if I had to go down there at all. And
it was just a particularly difficult time in
her life too then. And she had fallen asleep
on the couch and I did have like bedrooms, but
she had fallen asleep. And then she woke up and
she was, mom, mom, get out here, get out here.
across from the couch I had like an open stairway
that would go downstairs but there was a railing
and she said that this angel was standing at
the top of the railing of the stairs looking
down the stairs and she noticed that my daughter
saw her and she said don't be afraid I'm here
for your mom I protect your mom and then I said,
what did she look like? And she said, like you,
but only younger, like as a kid. And she said
the same. She had the long blonde hair, the wings,
the gown, stuff like that. So I thought that
was pretty neat. So I'm assuming that's a guardian
angel. If she's still around, that would have
been a good 40 years after the original incident.
If I were you, I'd want to know who that person
is. I hope you're not going to go crazy with
that seed I planted now. So not very many people
have an experience like this as a child. It probably
made you a little bit different than everybody
else growing up. In what ways do you think it
did? So obviously it was a lot more serious.
I was trying from a very young age to figure
out, you know, the meaning like, why are we here?
What's the meaning of life? I had had experience
previous to that with Jesus that I found out
later was Jesus. So I knew there was something,
so I was very, very spiritual at the time. Later
on when I was, because I was in foster care a
lot as a kid, when I was finally placed in a
permanent home, it was a Catholic, we were Catholic,
and I went to church like every single morning
and on Saturdays and Sundays I was very serious
about it. I just wanted to envelop myself in
it and learn it all, and I wanted to serve God.
So I went way too steady to be a nun for a bit,
but they were like, yeah, no, you can serve God's
blocks of ways, but that just wasn't the right
fit. But I had had experience after that with
many near -misses that said to me, Something
is there and and and i should believe it and
without even having an early knowledge of religion
i was very much submerged in it i've never really
felt like even when i'm in a crowd of people
always feel like what am i doing here like i
just always feel kind of different so what the
gifts that i had since then i because we grew
up at a time where they said don't talk about
that that's evil that's bad or they'll think
you're crazy or a witch or something. So I kind
of just blocked it as much as I could. And I
guess in the last, I guess, close to 10 years,
I've been just letting it flood through and accepting
it. And now I'm trying to help others with it.
So I'm creating courses and wrote a book last
year and newspaper articles. And now you're a
podcast. And I just want to help people understand
that they don't have to fear death. It actually
was very wonderful. I would have went and stayed
if I could have. What's your book called? It's
called Keeping the Light On, A Soul's Journey
of Ascension, and it's under Marilyn Yvette.
So that is kind of a compilation of stories of
what little experiences I've had. So instead
of writing it as a novel, I wrote it almost like
a diary so that you could see this is when I
... had an out -of -body experience and went
to another life or this. I often have people
come to me when they pass before I even get the
news or shortly thereafter. So I wrote about
all those kinds of things so that people can
feel safe in the knowledge that you're going
to be okay. And it's actually pretty great over
there. Are you familiar with the term shared
death experience? No. Okay. Look it up. This
is something if you're familiar with the IANDS
group, I -A -N -D -S, Yes, actually, I just joined
it. OK. I've been to some of their conferences
and things and and there are other related experiences
to near death experiences. One is shared death,
which can happen in kind of different ways. I'm
no expert on it. But in some way, you're sharing
an experience with someone who's died. For example,
someone a while back that I had on the show was
telling me that they woke up in the middle of
the night one night. Grandpa was standing at
the foot of their bed. They had a short conversation
She gets up the next morning. Her mom says hey,
I need to tell you grandpa passed away last night
Or you could be in the same room as an end -of
-life doula You may have some of those kinds
of experiences. They don't happen all the time
But they can be very interesting a pretty cool
one that was a shared experience with my grandmother
that somebody else passed and came to us both
and had told her, I've already been to see Marilyn.
So when we went to go break the news because
it was their daughter and she was like a sister
to me, she said, I already know. She told me
that she'd already been to see you and I was
just floored. Yeah. So those things happen sometimes
too. This stuff is all related, isn't it? It
sure is, it's all connected, everything, yeah.
What do you think is the point? Because I think
all near -death experiences teach us something.
What do you think was the point of yours? Well,
I really think we're here to ascend and learn
and feel and understand and whether it's karma
or just your soul going through these experiences
to ascend. So something like that was... Maybe
so that I could help others with that, especially
at such a young age. But it was also in a very
difficult situation. It was, you know, time of
hippies when I was born. And it was a very tough
life for us as children. We went through some
awful experiences. And so maybe that helped me
to keep the hope or the flame going. So I myself
wouldn't give up because, you know, many times
I felt like this is happening. But I've helped.
so many people in the same situation my entire
life, like the nickname Mother Marilyn, is there
for that reason and maybe that was part of it.
What advice do you have for someone who may have
gone through an experience like this, some kind
of an NDE, and just hasn't been able to talk
to anybody about it? I think you mentioned you
didn't really talk about it for a long, long
time. Was it good to not talk about it? Is it
better to get it out there and talk about it?
Yeah, I definitely think it's better to get it
out. I did talk about it in a personal space
with people that I felt were like -minded or
akin to hearing something like that. I didn't.
talk to people outside or religious people because
I knew I'd be labeled. But nowadays, I think
it's far more acceptable. I mean, science has
proved that there is consciousness that leaves
our body and we do have science to back that
up. But what I would recommend if somebody goes
through this is to seek people out such as yourself
or myself or anybody who's been through that
kind of thing so that they're telling that story
in a space where it's safe and they can be comfortable.
You know, give them the confidence that what
what happened to them is probably what they think
happened. And I think anybody that's been through
it can tell you there's so many of the same shared
feelings because it is so difficult to describe
in that moment how you feel because it's a different,
it's different than your weightless, you're safe,
you're warm, you're happy. I think that would
help them to accept it. this happened and then
maybe they could go on to help others as well
in time. Those feelings that you just mentioned,
do you have any more of them that you remember
from when you were five years old? How exactly
did you feel? I guess I can say like safe was
the number one word. I would use safe, warm,
love, magnified by millions. Like it's just,
it's all light and love and it just encompasses
you. and it wraps you in a cocoon, and that's
all you feel. And so, of course, you're going
to say, sure, I'll go with you. It's wonderful.
It's incredible. You mentioned something about
having no fear of death. Do you really mean that?
Yeah. So I've been through cancer several times.
And I think when you face your own mortality,
things go into perspective to begin with. But
the fact that I've been on the brink and have
many close calls, and things have happened, I
have zero fear of NASA. Matter of fact, I'm like,
when I get there, I want to talk to this person
and I want to do this and I want to do that.
So it's almost something I'm looking forward
to in an odd way to say, but yeah, I have zero
fear at all. Maybe give that angel a big hug.
Yeah, absolutely. I'm sure it'll be at the bridge.
Okay, I'm going to give you the last word here,
Marilyn. And by the way, thank you so much for
coming on the show, for reaching out to us and
being willing to tell your story. Last word,
go ahead and just give any advice that you have.
You know, you've learned a lot from this experience.
It changed your life. If somebody out there is
wondering, is this all real or not? What do you
have to say to them? I can tell you with absolute
certainty, it is all real. There's too many experiences
myself and many other people have had that you
can say it is. you know, lack of oxygen or whatever
they previously claimed it was. You know, look
up the studies, science has backed it up and
proved it, that you could even see people leaving,
the soul leaving the body at death in a lot of
photos and stuff. It's just a different vibration
than what we're going to have. Like, Earth is
very heavy, think of the gravity and stuff, and
there it's light. If you are lighter and you
are happier in your life and you're doing good
things with good karma, you'll find yourself
closer there and start to experience these kinds
of things. But there's absolutely nothing to
fear as long as, you know, you haven't been somebody
like Adolf Hitler. There should be no reason
why he won't experience that. People that have
gone before you are there. They're waiting for
you. They're very happy in a different venue.
I could talk about what I've seen there other
times. Yeah, it's going to be OK. Better than
OK or just OK? Oh, absolutely fantastic. Fabulous.
All right. Thanks a lot, Marilyn. Thanks for
having me. Thanks again for listening and sharing
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