WEBVTT 00:00:03.730 --> 00:00:06.750 From the time that they pronounced me dead was 00:00:06.750 --> 00:00:10.230 a good 45 minutes. They cut my clothes and then 00:00:10.230 --> 00:00:13.449 they paddled my heart, my heart had stopped and 00:00:13.449 --> 00:00:16.609 I could see people screaming and crying but I 00:00:16.609 --> 00:00:18.589 didn't realize that was actually my physical 00:00:18.589 --> 00:00:22.030 body because I was somewhere else. The only thing 00:00:22.030 --> 00:00:25.390 that I could feel if you could imagine absolute 00:00:25.390 --> 00:00:28.510 love and peace there wasn't anything else to 00:00:28.510 --> 00:00:31.589 be felt. I was greeted by people I'd known in 00:00:31.589 --> 00:00:35.090 the past. I'm back home again. Incredibly safe 00:00:35.090 --> 00:00:40.429 and felt at home. Welcome, welcome to Round Trip 00:00:40.429 --> 00:00:43.850 Death, everybody, and a special and warm welcome 00:00:43.850 --> 00:00:47.090 for Marilyn Yvette coming to us from Canada. 00:00:47.549 --> 00:00:49.689 How are you today, Marilyn? I'm doing great. 00:00:49.689 --> 00:00:51.990 Thanks for having me today, Eric. Thank you for 00:00:51.990 --> 00:00:54.409 being patient with me. Our listeners don't know 00:00:54.409 --> 00:00:59.219 what we're talking about. I was not off to a 00:00:59.219 --> 00:01:02.500 great start today. But what part of Canada do 00:01:02.500 --> 00:01:06.040 you live in? So I'm just north of Toronto. So 00:01:06.040 --> 00:01:08.299 I think a lot of people have maybe heard of Toronto. 00:01:08.340 --> 00:01:11.099 So it's kind of just heading into the eastern 00:01:11.099 --> 00:01:14.379 region of the country. So up there above the 00:01:14.379 --> 00:01:17.420 Great Lakes somewhere? Yeah, Lake Ontario is 00:01:17.420 --> 00:01:20.659 close. Okay. It's me pretending like I know geography, 00:01:20.879 --> 00:01:24.829 which... Which I don't. I wasn't too bad at it 00:01:24.829 --> 00:01:27.489 back in eighth grade, but didn't stick with me 00:01:27.489 --> 00:01:30.069 as well. Before we jump into your near -death 00:01:30.069 --> 00:01:34.069 experience, which is an interesting one. We talk 00:01:34.069 --> 00:01:36.890 about drowning from time to time, but we'll get 00:01:36.890 --> 00:01:39.170 to that in a minute. I want our listeners to 00:01:39.170 --> 00:01:41.790 get to know you. Tell us a little bit about you. 00:01:42.390 --> 00:01:47.719 So I am. I'm a mother and I worked mostly in 00:01:47.719 --> 00:01:50.079 the business sector and that's where my school 00:01:50.079 --> 00:01:53.239 and college and university is based in business 00:01:53.239 --> 00:01:56.480 programs, but I have been also marrying that 00:01:56.480 --> 00:01:58.859 up with a spiritual path along the way. So I 00:01:58.859 --> 00:02:01.939 have a lot of things like holistic health practitioner, 00:02:02.480 --> 00:02:05.079 cognitive behavioral therapist, spiritual life 00:02:05.079 --> 00:02:07.819 coach. So the list goes on. I just finished a 00:02:07.819 --> 00:02:10.629 certification for an end of life doula. So now 00:02:10.629 --> 00:02:13.349 I'm looking at marrying up the business aspect 00:02:13.349 --> 00:02:16.030 with the spiritual aspects and just rolling into 00:02:16.030 --> 00:02:19.310 that full time. Yeah, we've had a handful of 00:02:19.310 --> 00:02:23.270 end of life doulos on the show. You have? Yeah, 00:02:23.270 --> 00:02:26.909 I think it is fabulous. Most people have never 00:02:26.909 --> 00:02:29.530 heard of it. I hadn't heard of it until we had 00:02:29.530 --> 00:02:32.849 the first one on a while back. But it just it 00:02:32.849 --> 00:02:35.069 makes so much sense because we don't know how 00:02:35.069 --> 00:02:37.310 to deal with death. We don't even like to talk 00:02:37.310 --> 00:02:40.460 about it. Yeah, and it's I for me the passion 00:02:40.460 --> 00:02:43.860 is helping them not fear death and what happens 00:02:43.860 --> 00:02:47.139 after and helping the family accept it and Understand 00:02:47.139 --> 00:02:49.860 what's happening after so that's where my passion 00:02:49.860 --> 00:02:52.419 lies there Yeah, maybe someday we'll have a whole 00:02:52.419 --> 00:02:56.240 death doula show but in the meantime We have 00:02:56.240 --> 00:02:59.199 the happy ending deaths where people come back 00:02:59.199 --> 00:03:02.439 Yeah, so let's get into that and this happened 00:03:02.439 --> 00:03:05.639 to you when you were a child Take us back. You 00:03:05.639 --> 00:03:08.400 were only what five years old Yeah, approximately 00:03:08.400 --> 00:03:10.860 five years old and kind of lived in a cottage 00:03:10.860 --> 00:03:13.280 country, a town beautiful, much like where I 00:03:13.280 --> 00:03:15.419 live now. It was just one of those, you know, 00:03:15.680 --> 00:03:18.259 beautiful sunny days. You could feel the sun 00:03:18.259 --> 00:03:21.800 just kissing your skin and just the sounds of 00:03:21.800 --> 00:03:24.340 summer at this public beach that we live close 00:03:24.340 --> 00:03:26.819 to. So I was there with my sister and my mom 00:03:26.819 --> 00:03:29.979 and we wanted to go swimming, but we weren't 00:03:29.979 --> 00:03:32.099 over where the lifeguard and, you know, they 00:03:32.099 --> 00:03:34.300 have the safety buoys, so you don't go beyond 00:03:34.300 --> 00:03:37.680 that. And usually, you know, the sand is leveling 00:03:37.680 --> 00:03:40.740 up so that it slowly goes down to swim. So where 00:03:40.740 --> 00:03:42.620 we were, it just kind of dropped down and I was 00:03:42.620 --> 00:03:45.219 just little. And I'm not sure I even was as drunk, 00:03:45.360 --> 00:03:47.259 for me to be honest, but I was swimming away 00:03:47.259 --> 00:03:49.120 and just frolicking and having a great time. 00:03:49.120 --> 00:03:51.879 And then all of a sudden, I was under the water 00:03:51.879 --> 00:03:53.900 and I don't know if it was a bit of an undertow 00:03:53.900 --> 00:03:56.659 or something, but I just couldn't get to the 00:03:56.659 --> 00:03:59.599 surface at all. I was struggling and I was trying 00:03:59.599 --> 00:04:02.990 to... you know, swim my little heart out. And 00:04:02.990 --> 00:04:05.030 then I really started to panic because I couldn't 00:04:05.030 --> 00:04:07.650 breathe and I'd been under there for a bit. Just 00:04:07.650 --> 00:04:10.210 then when I was at the height of feeling, you 00:04:10.210 --> 00:04:13.810 know, absolutely mortified that I wasn't going 00:04:13.810 --> 00:04:19.709 to make it, I heard somebody say, Marilyn, it's 00:04:19.709 --> 00:04:24.389 OK. You're going to be OK. I'm here to help you. 00:04:25.189 --> 00:04:28.209 So I opened my eyes and I looked and there was 00:04:28.209 --> 00:04:32.389 this angel. So although we were both underwater 00:04:32.389 --> 00:04:36.350 at the time, she was completely dry and she had 00:04:36.350 --> 00:04:38.629 very long, long curly hair like me, but her hair 00:04:38.629 --> 00:04:41.589 was much longer and she was, you know, maybe 00:04:41.589 --> 00:04:44.730 early teen looking. And when she spoke to me, 00:04:44.850 --> 00:04:47.389 she didn't move her lips, but I could hear her. 00:04:47.589 --> 00:04:51.689 It was just, she was so serene that she calmed 00:04:51.689 --> 00:04:55.949 me immediately. The whole water was all lit up 00:04:55.949 --> 00:04:59.310 in like this yellow kind of glow. But the feeling 00:04:59.310 --> 00:05:03.350 of being like wrapped in a warm soft link and 00:05:03.350 --> 00:05:07.410 feeling safe and secure I just Relaxed and so 00:05:07.410 --> 00:05:11.310 as she was saying come to me. It's okay Come 00:05:11.310 --> 00:05:14.310 to me. It's okay, and she was doing this I could 00:05:14.310 --> 00:05:18.089 feel myself going with her the next recollection 00:05:18.089 --> 00:05:22.439 I have is Waking up in the hospital and the nurse 00:05:22.439 --> 00:05:25.439 giving me heck because I had soiled the bed with 00:05:25.439 --> 00:05:28.160 all the water, I guess. But it was in the newspaper, 00:05:28.480 --> 00:05:31.379 and I guess I was in there for two weeks. So 00:05:31.379 --> 00:05:35.000 it was, I guess, a pretty big deal. But I've 00:05:35.000 --> 00:05:37.100 never forgotten it. I've never forgot a single 00:05:37.100 --> 00:05:40.180 detail, how she looked, how she sounded. And 00:05:40.180 --> 00:05:42.779 then my daughter had an interaction with her 00:05:42.779 --> 00:05:46.079 much later. And this person had said, or this 00:05:46.079 --> 00:05:48.279 angel had said, I'm here protecting your mom. 00:05:48.360 --> 00:05:52.120 Don't be afraid. and I lived in the house I had, 00:05:52.240 --> 00:05:54.420 I think it was on an old burial ground because 00:05:54.420 --> 00:05:56.959 there was a lot of stuff going on. I'd never 00:05:56.959 --> 00:05:59.560 described how she looked or anything, but she 00:05:59.560 --> 00:06:02.959 described her to a T, to me, and it was the same 00:06:02.959 --> 00:06:06.319 angel I had seen based on the descriptions. Okay, 00:06:06.519 --> 00:06:08.899 some people would ask, how do you remember something 00:06:08.899 --> 00:06:10.920 very well when you were only five years old? 00:06:11.459 --> 00:06:14.139 I don't remember much from when I was five. Well, 00:06:14.279 --> 00:06:16.379 that's a great question. And I think I would 00:06:16.379 --> 00:06:18.540 ask the same thing. I think anybody that's gone 00:06:18.540 --> 00:06:20.399 through this, you say when you know, you know, 00:06:20.600 --> 00:06:23.500 but if you haven't, I would question. But what 00:06:23.500 --> 00:06:25.740 I can say is, and especially with some of the 00:06:25.740 --> 00:06:28.300 studies I've done in psychology, when you have 00:06:28.300 --> 00:06:31.220 traumatic experience like that, that's really 00:06:31.220 --> 00:06:33.680 imprinted in you more so than like a nice healthy 00:06:33.680 --> 00:06:35.959 day at the beach or something like that. You 00:06:35.959 --> 00:06:37.639 know, you remember having a nice day and feeling 00:06:37.639 --> 00:06:40.240 warm and fuzzy. But when something is so traumatic 00:06:40.240 --> 00:06:42.680 as that, like that affects your central nervous 00:06:42.680 --> 00:06:45.480 system, it's imprinted in you. But it's such 00:06:45.480 --> 00:06:48.819 an emotional experience that I think that's what 00:06:48.819 --> 00:06:52.720 is long lasting. I questioned it as well. when 00:06:52.720 --> 00:06:56.120 I found my family many years later, I had talked 00:06:56.120 --> 00:06:59.220 to them quite a bit about different things I 00:06:59.220 --> 00:07:01.379 remember, and that was one thing, but I just, 00:07:01.699 --> 00:07:03.939 for instance, I thought I saw a giant and I fell 00:07:03.939 --> 00:07:06.779 off a horse, but apparently he was a family friend 00:07:06.779 --> 00:07:09.399 and she was six foot five, and I did fall off 00:07:09.399 --> 00:07:11.819 this horse, and that was even younger than that, 00:07:11.819 --> 00:07:15.449 so I do. have recollections of that and I've 00:07:15.449 --> 00:07:18.269 never wavered from what I've said from then till 00:07:18.269 --> 00:07:21.269 now and they were able to tell me yes that those 00:07:21.269 --> 00:07:23.250 are things you remember that's what happened 00:07:23.250 --> 00:07:25.629 and that's what you said at that time. Well and 00:07:25.629 --> 00:07:29.389 I totally believe you it's just it has to be 00:07:29.389 --> 00:07:33.410 like you're saying some kind of a a larger -than 00:07:33.410 --> 00:07:36.709 -life, shall we say, experience for you to remember 00:07:36.709 --> 00:07:39.589 from when you were that young. So it was obviously 00:07:39.589 --> 00:07:42.670 super, super profound. Let's talk more about 00:07:42.670 --> 00:07:44.810 the angel in a minute. I want to ask you some 00:07:44.810 --> 00:07:47.910 more questions about that. But has your family 00:07:47.910 --> 00:07:50.649 since told you anything else that happened, like 00:07:50.649 --> 00:07:54.310 how you were rescued? Were you alive when you 00:07:54.310 --> 00:07:57.670 were rescued? Not that that matters because near 00:07:57.670 --> 00:08:00.870 -death experiences, frankly, can be something 00:08:01.079 --> 00:08:05.439 very close to that, and we call those associated 00:08:05.439 --> 00:08:08.740 experiences, and that's fine too. But tell me 00:08:08.740 --> 00:08:10.879 what you know about what happened. Well, that's 00:08:10.879 --> 00:08:14.519 a great question. So I guess it was a small town, 00:08:14.560 --> 00:08:16.939 so it was broadcast. I mean, it was quite quickly. 00:08:17.220 --> 00:08:20.220 My father heard it, and he was like, oh my God, 00:08:20.240 --> 00:08:22.660 I know that's one of my daughters. And he flew 00:08:22.660 --> 00:08:24.720 down there just as they were loading me into 00:08:24.720 --> 00:08:28.259 the ambulance. Where were you, by the way? So 00:08:28.259 --> 00:08:31.790 the lake was called Lake. Kuchiching and it is 00:08:31.790 --> 00:08:35.570 in Arroyo, Ontario, which is about, I want to 00:08:35.570 --> 00:08:38.990 say three hours north of Toronto in the Muskoka 00:08:38.990 --> 00:08:40.590 region. You may have heard of Muskoka because 00:08:40.590 --> 00:08:42.950 a lot of people vacation there from the U .S. 00:08:43.029 --> 00:08:45.330 Even Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell had a cottage 00:08:45.330 --> 00:08:48.429 up that way. Sorry to interrupt. I just was curious 00:08:48.429 --> 00:08:51.289 where it is. So your father flew up there and 00:08:51.289 --> 00:08:53.379 then what happened? Yeah, so they were loading 00:08:53.379 --> 00:08:56.600 the ambulance and they had to revive me for sure. 00:08:57.179 --> 00:08:59.980 And I guess what happened, I don't know if somebody 00:08:59.980 --> 00:09:02.860 told the lifeguard or ran and grabbed a lifeguard, 00:09:02.919 --> 00:09:05.840 but I was saved by a lifeguard. And I'm wondering 00:09:05.840 --> 00:09:09.059 if that's when I felt the pull. I hope to find 00:09:09.059 --> 00:09:12.000 him someday and say thank you. But yeah, it's 00:09:12.000 --> 00:09:14.639 just a young fellow on duty and he was the one 00:09:14.639 --> 00:09:17.480 who rescued me. Yeah, they did have to revive 00:09:17.480 --> 00:09:19.600 me as far as I know. It's what my father told 00:09:19.600 --> 00:09:22.399 me. Let's get back to that pole thing. I didn't 00:09:22.399 --> 00:09:25.500 really understand that. Did you feel like this 00:09:25.500 --> 00:09:28.879 was a pole that was saving your life or like 00:09:28.879 --> 00:09:32.080 the angel was pulling you like, come on, we're 00:09:32.080 --> 00:09:35.340 headed off to heaven now, young lady. So I was 00:09:35.340 --> 00:09:37.799 being pulled straight. So when she pulled like 00:09:37.799 --> 00:09:40.240 this, I could feel my body move, although she 00:09:40.240 --> 00:09:43.450 wasn't touching me. So as she pulled, I came 00:09:43.450 --> 00:09:46.210 forward with her. So I felt that strong pull 00:09:46.210 --> 00:09:49.149 as if somebody had to grab me. But I wasn't pulled 00:09:49.149 --> 00:09:51.850 up. I was pulled straight. I was like, yeah, 00:09:51.870 --> 00:09:54.269 I'm good to go with you. I was feeling like that 00:09:54.269 --> 00:09:56.370 was just the way, you know, it was going to be. 00:09:56.429 --> 00:09:58.789 And I didn't feel scared anymore. I felt safe. 00:09:58.789 --> 00:10:02.250 So I went with it. So I'm wondering, and I have 00:10:02.250 --> 00:10:04.830 no idea, but, you know, would that be when the 00:10:04.830 --> 00:10:08.250 lifeguard jumped in or because I've had so much. 00:10:08.460 --> 00:10:12.019 psychic experience since then. Just really incredible 00:10:12.019 --> 00:10:16.500 things. I was told later by somebody who was 00:10:16.500 --> 00:10:19.379 trained by Dolores Cannon in quantum healing 00:10:19.379 --> 00:10:22.399 that young Marilyn passed away and I was actually 00:10:22.399 --> 00:10:25.659 a walk -in because they don't want to waste a 00:10:25.659 --> 00:10:29.779 body and because my early life was so difficult 00:10:29.779 --> 00:10:32.720 that somebody stronger who could go through that 00:10:32.720 --> 00:10:35.730 came in, but I don't know for sure. Tell me more 00:10:35.730 --> 00:10:38.090 about the angel. I believe you said she looked 00:10:38.090 --> 00:10:41.909 like a young teen Yeah, so she wasn't quite an 00:10:41.909 --> 00:10:44.850 adult, but she also wasn't a kid like me. She 00:10:44.850 --> 00:10:47.269 was older So I was thinking she was like she 00:10:47.269 --> 00:10:52.169 looked about 14 maybe 12 14. She had very very 00:10:52.169 --> 00:10:55.370 long blonde curly hair, but it was like down 00:10:55.370 --> 00:10:59.090 to her feet like down to her ankles and She was 00:10:59.090 --> 00:11:01.830 wearing a gown and her wings were outstretched 00:11:02.039 --> 00:11:04.759 And the gown wasn't moving with the water or 00:11:04.759 --> 00:11:08.019 wet and neither was her hair. So I thought even 00:11:08.019 --> 00:11:11.639 then that's kind of odd. But and then there was 00:11:11.639 --> 00:11:16.000 a huge glow of like yellowish, bright and the 00:11:16.000 --> 00:11:18.019 closer it was toward the brighter it was. And 00:11:18.019 --> 00:11:20.840 then it kind of mushroomed out into a bright 00:11:20.840 --> 00:11:22.759 yellow. And it didn't even look like we were 00:11:22.759 --> 00:11:25.659 in the water. We were just in this bubble. When 00:11:25.659 --> 00:11:28.000 your daughter explained what she looked like 00:11:28.000 --> 00:11:31.399 to her. Were there specific details such as, 00:11:31.399 --> 00:11:34.980 besides the hair, eye color, what she was wearing, 00:11:35.039 --> 00:11:37.240 things like that, that you recognized as being 00:11:37.240 --> 00:11:40.320 the same? Yeah, she said, Mom, she looked like 00:11:40.320 --> 00:11:43.639 you when you were little. And she really did. 00:11:43.779 --> 00:11:46.120 We looked quite a bit alike, but we didn't look 00:11:46.120 --> 00:11:48.919 exactly alike. So just that light eyes, like 00:11:48.919 --> 00:11:50.480 I don't know if you can see or not, but my eyes 00:11:50.480 --> 00:11:53.240 are really quite light. And so she had those. 00:11:53.659 --> 00:11:55.960 She was fair, just really like, you know, small 00:11:55.960 --> 00:11:58.850 features, very, very feminine. I'm going to ask 00:11:58.850 --> 00:12:01.450 you to speculate here. Do you think she had some 00:12:01.450 --> 00:12:05.070 kind of relation to you and that's why she was 00:12:05.070 --> 00:12:07.789 assigned to you or concerned with you and looked 00:12:07.789 --> 00:12:13.049 like you? Wow, you know what? Nobody's ever said 00:12:13.049 --> 00:12:16.730 that and that makes absolute sense. Yeah, that 00:12:16.730 --> 00:12:18.450 could be the case. I don't know why that never 00:12:18.450 --> 00:12:20.990 occurred to me before because she did look so 00:12:20.990 --> 00:12:24.539 much like me. My mom had... twin girls after 00:12:24.539 --> 00:12:27.639 I was born so I was only a couple years old but 00:12:27.639 --> 00:12:30.159 they passed away so I don't know maybe it could 00:12:30.159 --> 00:12:34.379 be them or or a distant relative like that it 00:12:34.379 --> 00:12:36.720 already passed that'd be a great thing to find 00:12:36.720 --> 00:12:39.779 out wouldn't it yeah I and actually I just did 00:12:39.779 --> 00:12:43.220 a huge family what traced us all the way back 00:12:43.220 --> 00:12:46.919 to King Louis so but I'm gonna meet with some 00:12:46.919 --> 00:12:51.139 of the cousins and see if we can share our pictures, 00:12:51.159 --> 00:12:53.620 so it would be interesting if there was one like 00:12:53.620 --> 00:12:57.159 that. It's under the Empire Loyalist of Canada. 00:12:57.159 --> 00:12:59.220 I don't know if you've heard of that, but the 00:12:59.220 --> 00:13:02.399 early settlers to Canada. So that's the status 00:13:02.399 --> 00:13:06.659 that I was researching for our family. So I should 00:13:06.659 --> 00:13:09.399 look into that. I have a feeling you won't find 00:13:09.399 --> 00:13:11.480 someone with hair all the way down to their feet. 00:13:11.919 --> 00:13:14.799 So don't hang up. Don't get hung up on that one. 00:13:15.320 --> 00:13:18.460 But everything else, that's interesting. Okay. 00:13:18.750 --> 00:13:20.669 Tell me what was going on with your daughter 00:13:20.669 --> 00:13:23.210 when she had an experience with this same angel. 00:13:24.250 --> 00:13:27.389 Yeah, so she was visiting me at that point we 00:13:27.389 --> 00:13:30.090 lived in different cities and she was down for 00:13:30.090 --> 00:13:33.149 like a long weekend visit and where I lived there 00:13:33.149 --> 00:13:36.730 was a lot of action in the basement and I had 00:13:36.730 --> 00:13:40.090 like some pretty profound experiences there and 00:13:40.090 --> 00:13:42.049 I didn't even like to go downstairs like you 00:13:42.049 --> 00:13:44.129 know you see the people they just deeded up the 00:13:44.129 --> 00:13:47.480 stairs. if I had to go down there at all. And 00:13:47.480 --> 00:13:50.620 it was just a particularly difficult time in 00:13:50.620 --> 00:13:54.360 her life too then. And she had fallen asleep 00:13:54.360 --> 00:13:57.399 on the couch and I did have like bedrooms, but 00:13:57.399 --> 00:14:00.419 she had fallen asleep. And then she woke up and 00:14:00.419 --> 00:14:02.519 she was, mom, mom, get out here, get out here. 00:14:02.970 --> 00:14:05.669 across from the couch I had like an open stairway 00:14:05.669 --> 00:14:07.909 that would go downstairs but there was a railing 00:14:07.909 --> 00:14:11.070 and she said that this angel was standing at 00:14:11.070 --> 00:14:13.809 the top of the railing of the stairs looking 00:14:13.809 --> 00:14:16.870 down the stairs and she noticed that my daughter 00:14:16.870 --> 00:14:21.269 saw her and she said don't be afraid I'm here 00:14:21.269 --> 00:14:24.590 for your mom I protect your mom and then I said, 00:14:24.789 --> 00:14:27.149 what did she look like? And she said, like you, 00:14:27.590 --> 00:14:29.970 but only younger, like as a kid. And she said 00:14:29.970 --> 00:14:32.149 the same. She had the long blonde hair, the wings, 00:14:32.490 --> 00:14:35.389 the gown, stuff like that. So I thought that 00:14:35.389 --> 00:14:37.769 was pretty neat. So I'm assuming that's a guardian 00:14:37.769 --> 00:14:40.590 angel. If she's still around, that would have 00:14:40.590 --> 00:14:44.870 been a good 40 years after the original incident. 00:14:45.490 --> 00:14:47.350 If I were you, I'd want to know who that person 00:14:47.350 --> 00:14:50.960 is. I hope you're not going to go crazy with 00:14:50.960 --> 00:14:54.980 that seed I planted now. So not very many people 00:14:54.980 --> 00:14:58.899 have an experience like this as a child. It probably 00:14:58.899 --> 00:15:00.940 made you a little bit different than everybody 00:15:00.940 --> 00:15:03.919 else growing up. In what ways do you think it 00:15:03.919 --> 00:15:06.440 did? So obviously it was a lot more serious. 00:15:07.279 --> 00:15:10.159 I was trying from a very young age to figure 00:15:10.159 --> 00:15:12.120 out, you know, the meaning like, why are we here? 00:15:12.159 --> 00:15:15.179 What's the meaning of life? I had had experience 00:15:15.179 --> 00:15:18.350 previous to that with Jesus that I found out 00:15:18.350 --> 00:15:21.370 later was Jesus. So I knew there was something, 00:15:21.789 --> 00:15:25.169 so I was very, very spiritual at the time. Later 00:15:25.169 --> 00:15:28.350 on when I was, because I was in foster care a 00:15:28.350 --> 00:15:31.129 lot as a kid, when I was finally placed in a 00:15:31.129 --> 00:15:33.950 permanent home, it was a Catholic, we were Catholic, 00:15:34.070 --> 00:15:36.409 and I went to church like every single morning 00:15:36.409 --> 00:15:39.169 and on Saturdays and Sundays I was very serious 00:15:39.169 --> 00:15:42.279 about it. I just wanted to envelop myself in 00:15:42.279 --> 00:15:44.720 it and learn it all, and I wanted to serve God. 00:15:44.899 --> 00:15:47.759 So I went way too steady to be a nun for a bit, 00:15:48.139 --> 00:15:50.799 but they were like, yeah, no, you can serve God's 00:15:50.799 --> 00:15:53.179 blocks of ways, but that just wasn't the right 00:15:53.179 --> 00:15:55.899 fit. But I had had experience after that with 00:15:55.899 --> 00:15:59.570 many near -misses that said to me, Something 00:15:59.570 --> 00:16:02.830 is there and and and i should believe it and 00:16:02.830 --> 00:16:05.850 without even having an early knowledge of religion 00:16:05.850 --> 00:16:08.950 i was very much submerged in it i've never really 00:16:08.950 --> 00:16:10.950 felt like even when i'm in a crowd of people 00:16:10.950 --> 00:16:13.049 always feel like what am i doing here like i 00:16:13.049 --> 00:16:16.529 just always feel kind of different so what the 00:16:16.529 --> 00:16:20.490 gifts that i had since then i because we grew 00:16:20.490 --> 00:16:22.450 up at a time where they said don't talk about 00:16:22.450 --> 00:16:24.870 that that's evil that's bad or they'll think 00:16:24.870 --> 00:16:28.429 you're crazy or a witch or something. So I kind 00:16:28.429 --> 00:16:30.669 of just blocked it as much as I could. And I 00:16:30.669 --> 00:16:34.029 guess in the last, I guess, close to 10 years, 00:16:34.029 --> 00:16:36.769 I've been just letting it flood through and accepting 00:16:36.769 --> 00:16:39.870 it. And now I'm trying to help others with it. 00:16:39.909 --> 00:16:42.750 So I'm creating courses and wrote a book last 00:16:42.750 --> 00:16:45.549 year and newspaper articles. And now you're a 00:16:45.549 --> 00:16:49.250 podcast. And I just want to help people understand 00:16:49.250 --> 00:16:52.570 that they don't have to fear death. It actually 00:16:52.570 --> 00:16:56.269 was very wonderful. I would have went and stayed 00:16:56.269 --> 00:16:59.679 if I could have. What's your book called? It's 00:16:59.679 --> 00:17:02.740 called Keeping the Light On, A Soul's Journey 00:17:02.740 --> 00:17:05.960 of Ascension, and it's under Marilyn Yvette. 00:17:06.579 --> 00:17:10.960 So that is kind of a compilation of stories of 00:17:10.960 --> 00:17:13.799 what little experiences I've had. So instead 00:17:13.799 --> 00:17:16.140 of writing it as a novel, I wrote it almost like 00:17:16.140 --> 00:17:19.839 a diary so that you could see this is when I 00:17:19.839 --> 00:17:22.299 ... had an out -of -body experience and went 00:17:22.299 --> 00:17:25.339 to another life or this. I often have people 00:17:25.339 --> 00:17:28.160 come to me when they pass before I even get the 00:17:28.160 --> 00:17:31.759 news or shortly thereafter. So I wrote about 00:17:31.759 --> 00:17:33.880 all those kinds of things so that people can 00:17:33.880 --> 00:17:36.640 feel safe in the knowledge that you're going 00:17:36.640 --> 00:17:38.880 to be okay. And it's actually pretty great over 00:17:38.880 --> 00:17:41.119 there. Are you familiar with the term shared 00:17:41.119 --> 00:17:45.519 death experience? No. Okay. Look it up. This 00:17:45.519 --> 00:17:48.039 is something if you're familiar with the IANDS 00:17:48.039 --> 00:17:51.150 group, I -A -N -D -S, Yes, actually, I just joined 00:17:51.150 --> 00:17:54.750 it. OK. I've been to some of their conferences 00:17:54.750 --> 00:17:58.529 and things and and there are other related experiences 00:17:58.529 --> 00:18:01.349 to near death experiences. One is shared death, 00:18:01.690 --> 00:18:03.670 which can happen in kind of different ways. I'm 00:18:03.670 --> 00:18:07.970 no expert on it. But in some way, you're sharing 00:18:07.970 --> 00:18:10.890 an experience with someone who's died. For example, 00:18:11.069 --> 00:18:13.630 someone a while back that I had on the show was 00:18:13.630 --> 00:18:16.490 telling me that they woke up in the middle of 00:18:16.490 --> 00:18:19.569 the night one night. Grandpa was standing at 00:18:19.569 --> 00:18:22.849 the foot of their bed. They had a short conversation 00:18:22.849 --> 00:18:26.930 She gets up the next morning. Her mom says hey, 00:18:27.009 --> 00:18:29.329 I need to tell you grandpa passed away last night 00:18:29.329 --> 00:18:32.849 Or you could be in the same room as an end -of 00:18:32.849 --> 00:18:36.130 -life doula You may have some of those kinds 00:18:36.130 --> 00:18:38.750 of experiences. They don't happen all the time 00:18:38.750 --> 00:18:43.039 But they can be very interesting a pretty cool 00:18:43.039 --> 00:18:47.420 one that was a shared experience with my grandmother 00:18:47.420 --> 00:18:51.099 that somebody else passed and came to us both 00:18:51.099 --> 00:18:53.900 and had told her, I've already been to see Marilyn. 00:18:54.619 --> 00:18:57.480 So when we went to go break the news because 00:18:57.480 --> 00:19:00.240 it was their daughter and she was like a sister 00:19:00.240 --> 00:19:02.420 to me, she said, I already know. She told me 00:19:02.420 --> 00:19:04.200 that she'd already been to see you and I was 00:19:04.200 --> 00:19:08.359 just floored. Yeah. So those things happen sometimes 00:19:08.359 --> 00:19:12.180 too. This stuff is all related, isn't it? It 00:19:12.180 --> 00:19:14.000 sure is, it's all connected, everything, yeah. 00:19:14.299 --> 00:19:16.119 What do you think is the point? Because I think 00:19:16.119 --> 00:19:18.400 all near -death experiences teach us something. 00:19:19.000 --> 00:19:21.339 What do you think was the point of yours? Well, 00:19:21.799 --> 00:19:24.039 I really think we're here to ascend and learn 00:19:24.039 --> 00:19:27.039 and feel and understand and whether it's karma 00:19:27.039 --> 00:19:29.759 or just your soul going through these experiences 00:19:29.759 --> 00:19:33.789 to ascend. So something like that was... Maybe 00:19:33.789 --> 00:19:36.130 so that I could help others with that, especially 00:19:36.130 --> 00:19:39.150 at such a young age. But it was also in a very 00:19:39.150 --> 00:19:41.890 difficult situation. It was, you know, time of 00:19:41.890 --> 00:19:45.289 hippies when I was born. And it was a very tough 00:19:45.289 --> 00:19:48.289 life for us as children. We went through some 00:19:48.289 --> 00:19:51.569 awful experiences. And so maybe that helped me 00:19:51.569 --> 00:19:55.410 to keep the hope or the flame going. So I myself 00:19:55.410 --> 00:19:57.490 wouldn't give up because, you know, many times 00:19:57.490 --> 00:19:59.930 I felt like this is happening. But I've helped. 00:20:00.029 --> 00:20:03.130 so many people in the same situation my entire 00:20:03.130 --> 00:20:06.109 life, like the nickname Mother Marilyn, is there 00:20:06.109 --> 00:20:08.670 for that reason and maybe that was part of it. 00:20:08.930 --> 00:20:11.170 What advice do you have for someone who may have 00:20:11.170 --> 00:20:14.390 gone through an experience like this, some kind 00:20:14.390 --> 00:20:18.109 of an NDE, and just hasn't been able to talk 00:20:18.109 --> 00:20:21.250 to anybody about it? I think you mentioned you 00:20:21.250 --> 00:20:23.269 didn't really talk about it for a long, long 00:20:23.269 --> 00:20:26.930 time. Was it good to not talk about it? Is it 00:20:26.930 --> 00:20:29.390 better to get it out there and talk about it? 00:20:29.230 --> 00:20:32.269 Yeah, I definitely think it's better to get it 00:20:32.269 --> 00:20:35.029 out. I did talk about it in a personal space 00:20:35.029 --> 00:20:37.930 with people that I felt were like -minded or 00:20:37.930 --> 00:20:39.970 akin to hearing something like that. I didn't. 00:20:40.140 --> 00:20:43.039 talk to people outside or religious people because 00:20:43.039 --> 00:20:45.319 I knew I'd be labeled. But nowadays, I think 00:20:45.319 --> 00:20:47.779 it's far more acceptable. I mean, science has 00:20:47.779 --> 00:20:50.059 proved that there is consciousness that leaves 00:20:50.059 --> 00:20:52.339 our body and we do have science to back that 00:20:52.339 --> 00:20:55.140 up. But what I would recommend if somebody goes 00:20:55.140 --> 00:20:57.880 through this is to seek people out such as yourself 00:20:57.880 --> 00:21:00.640 or myself or anybody who's been through that 00:21:00.640 --> 00:21:03.039 kind of thing so that they're telling that story 00:21:03.039 --> 00:21:06.019 in a space where it's safe and they can be comfortable. 00:21:06.319 --> 00:21:09.519 You know, give them the confidence that what 00:21:09.519 --> 00:21:12.720 what happened to them is probably what they think 00:21:12.720 --> 00:21:15.539 happened. And I think anybody that's been through 00:21:15.539 --> 00:21:19.279 it can tell you there's so many of the same shared 00:21:19.279 --> 00:21:22.500 feelings because it is so difficult to describe 00:21:22.500 --> 00:21:26.380 in that moment how you feel because it's a different, 00:21:26.759 --> 00:21:29.940 it's different than your weightless, you're safe, 00:21:30.079 --> 00:21:32.599 you're warm, you're happy. I think that would 00:21:32.599 --> 00:21:36.640 help them to accept it. this happened and then 00:21:36.640 --> 00:21:39.680 maybe they could go on to help others as well 00:21:39.680 --> 00:21:43.160 in time. Those feelings that you just mentioned, 00:21:43.680 --> 00:21:45.880 do you have any more of them that you remember 00:21:45.880 --> 00:21:48.839 from when you were five years old? How exactly 00:21:48.839 --> 00:21:52.619 did you feel? I guess I can say like safe was 00:21:52.619 --> 00:21:55.319 the number one word. I would use safe, warm, 00:21:56.059 --> 00:21:58.980 love, magnified by millions. Like it's just, 00:21:59.420 --> 00:22:03.559 it's all light and love and it just encompasses 00:22:03.559 --> 00:22:07.130 you. and it wraps you in a cocoon, and that's 00:22:07.130 --> 00:22:09.170 all you feel. And so, of course, you're going 00:22:09.170 --> 00:22:12.130 to say, sure, I'll go with you. It's wonderful. 00:22:12.329 --> 00:22:14.990 It's incredible. You mentioned something about 00:22:14.990 --> 00:22:17.170 having no fear of death. Do you really mean that? 00:22:17.910 --> 00:22:21.210 Yeah. So I've been through cancer several times. 00:22:21.230 --> 00:22:23.309 And I think when you face your own mortality, 00:22:23.589 --> 00:22:26.069 things go into perspective to begin with. But 00:22:26.069 --> 00:22:29.210 the fact that I've been on the brink and have 00:22:29.210 --> 00:22:32.240 many close calls, and things have happened, I 00:22:32.240 --> 00:22:34.539 have zero fear of NASA. Matter of fact, I'm like, 00:22:34.559 --> 00:22:37.059 when I get there, I want to talk to this person 00:22:37.059 --> 00:22:38.839 and I want to do this and I want to do that. 00:22:39.160 --> 00:22:40.859 So it's almost something I'm looking forward 00:22:40.859 --> 00:22:43.460 to in an odd way to say, but yeah, I have zero 00:22:43.460 --> 00:22:46.019 fear at all. Maybe give that angel a big hug. 00:22:46.599 --> 00:22:48.619 Yeah, absolutely. I'm sure it'll be at the bridge. 00:22:49.180 --> 00:22:51.099 Okay, I'm going to give you the last word here, 00:22:51.240 --> 00:22:53.640 Marilyn. And by the way, thank you so much for 00:22:53.640 --> 00:22:57.140 coming on the show, for reaching out to us and 00:22:57.140 --> 00:23:00.109 being willing to tell your story. Last word, 00:23:00.289 --> 00:23:02.769 go ahead and just give any advice that you have. 00:23:03.170 --> 00:23:05.410 You know, you've learned a lot from this experience. 00:23:05.589 --> 00:23:09.049 It changed your life. If somebody out there is 00:23:09.049 --> 00:23:11.849 wondering, is this all real or not? What do you 00:23:11.849 --> 00:23:15.089 have to say to them? I can tell you with absolute 00:23:15.089 --> 00:23:18.630 certainty, it is all real. There's too many experiences 00:23:18.630 --> 00:23:20.950 myself and many other people have had that you 00:23:20.950 --> 00:23:25.359 can say it is. you know, lack of oxygen or whatever 00:23:25.359 --> 00:23:27.960 they previously claimed it was. You know, look 00:23:27.960 --> 00:23:30.019 up the studies, science has backed it up and 00:23:30.019 --> 00:23:32.559 proved it, that you could even see people leaving, 00:23:32.700 --> 00:23:36.680 the soul leaving the body at death in a lot of 00:23:36.680 --> 00:23:39.339 photos and stuff. It's just a different vibration 00:23:39.339 --> 00:23:41.480 than what we're going to have. Like, Earth is 00:23:41.480 --> 00:23:44.400 very heavy, think of the gravity and stuff, and 00:23:44.400 --> 00:23:46.759 there it's light. If you are lighter and you 00:23:46.759 --> 00:23:48.799 are happier in your life and you're doing good 00:23:48.799 --> 00:23:50.539 things with good karma, you'll find yourself 00:23:50.539 --> 00:23:52.859 closer there and start to experience these kinds 00:23:52.859 --> 00:23:54.980 of things. But there's absolutely nothing to 00:23:54.980 --> 00:23:58.000 fear as long as, you know, you haven't been somebody 00:23:58.000 --> 00:24:00.339 like Adolf Hitler. There should be no reason 00:24:00.339 --> 00:24:02.700 why he won't experience that. People that have 00:24:02.700 --> 00:24:05.299 gone before you are there. They're waiting for 00:24:05.299 --> 00:24:07.480 you. They're very happy in a different venue. 00:24:07.480 --> 00:24:10.200 I could talk about what I've seen there other 00:24:10.200 --> 00:24:13.339 times. Yeah, it's going to be OK. Better than 00:24:13.339 --> 00:24:16.599 OK or just OK? Oh, absolutely fantastic. Fabulous. 00:24:17.220 --> 00:24:19.339 All right. Thanks a lot, Marilyn. Thanks for 00:24:19.339 --> 00:24:24.400 having me. Thanks again for listening and sharing 00:24:24.400 --> 00:24:26.680 this podcast. Don't forget to hit the follow 00:24:26.680 --> 00:24:29.559 or subscribe button and sign up for our newsletter 00:24:29.559 --> 00:24:32.400 at roundtripdeath .com. If you want to share 00:24:32.400 --> 00:24:35.160 your near -death experience or if you have questions 00:24:35.160 --> 00:24:37.880 or comments about the show, send an email to 00:24:37.880 --> 00:24:41.339 eric at roundtripdeath .com. Until then, I wish 00:24:41.339 --> 00:24:43.220 you everything good that you're looking for in 00:24:43.220 --> 00:24:44.880 this life and the next.