WEBVTT 00:00:11.299 --> 00:00:14.080 Life is a crisis. Life is a crisis. Life is a 00:00:14.080 --> 00:00:16.899 crisis. Should we start? Speaking of life is 00:00:16.899 --> 00:00:19.100 a crisis. Life is a crisis and welcome back to 00:00:19.100 --> 00:00:21.739 your favorite crisis coping skill. I'm Clarissa. 00:00:21.839 --> 00:00:25.519 I'm Courtney. And this is 30 D &D. 30 Dirty and 00:00:25.519 --> 00:00:26.980 Dying. Did you almost forget what it was called? 00:00:27.239 --> 00:00:29.910 No. Okay, we've been gone for a minute. We had 00:00:29.910 --> 00:00:32.009 to take a little break. Yeah, because Corny was 00:00:32.009 --> 00:00:35.969 lost at sea. Into the ocean. End it all! But 00:00:35.969 --> 00:00:38.810 it didn't end. Well, the cruise ended and I was 00:00:38.810 --> 00:00:41.170 sad about it. Now she's back. Now I'm back. Landlubber. 00:00:41.990 --> 00:00:45.270 She's a landlubber again. Yeah, I guess. You 00:00:45.270 --> 00:00:50.609 don't love it? Land? Yeah. No. I love cruises. 00:00:51.229 --> 00:00:54.750 I didn't take my Wubbutrin the entire week and 00:00:54.750 --> 00:00:58.179 I didn't cry once. This I would just like to 00:00:58.179 --> 00:01:00.420 remind everybody that take your medicine. Nothing 00:01:00.420 --> 00:01:02.880 you hear in this podcast is medical advice Please 00:01:02.880 --> 00:01:05.459 don't do anything. We say if you're medicated 00:01:05.459 --> 00:01:07.939 continue the medication. I however just suck 00:01:07.939 --> 00:01:11.319 at taking pills Which I need to talk to my therapist 00:01:11.319 --> 00:01:15.079 now Do you I'm afraid to throw up? Oh, yeah, 00:01:15.140 --> 00:01:18.099 then you do a Forgetful thing I was like same 00:01:18.099 --> 00:01:20.180 but I've never been like I need to bring this 00:01:20.180 --> 00:01:23.439 up in therapy No, but I don't have to take mood 00:01:23.439 --> 00:01:28.310 altering drugs yet One day I'm hopeful. They've 00:01:28.310 --> 00:01:31.069 always been like, let's try organic stuff. Not 00:01:31.069 --> 00:01:32.370 organic. That's the wrong word. But you know 00:01:32.370 --> 00:01:35.609 what I mean? Like, yeah, not not pharmaceutical, 00:01:35.609 --> 00:01:39.609 like make me try and fix my brain parts. Some 00:01:39.609 --> 00:01:41.409 of it works. Some of it doesn't. I don't know. 00:01:41.510 --> 00:01:44.469 I've just this is life and I'm living it. And 00:01:44.469 --> 00:01:48.310 so are you out there if you're 30 or 30 ish or 00:01:48.310 --> 00:01:53.609 late 20 ish and it's getting weird. You found 00:01:53.609 --> 00:01:55.489 the right fucking place because it's always weird 00:01:55.489 --> 00:01:57.750 here. It is it is and we're gonna embrace that 00:01:57.750 --> 00:02:00.349 today with a real talk We haven't done a real 00:02:00.349 --> 00:02:02.390 talk in a while, but we do love our real time. 00:02:02.409 --> 00:02:05.290 It's one of our favorite things Yeah, and we 00:02:05.290 --> 00:02:08.849 thought we'd come back swinging And talk about 00:02:08.849 --> 00:02:13.849 like our ovaries and shit Yeah, yeah, why don't 00:02:13.849 --> 00:02:15.729 you tell them what we're doing today Courtney 00:02:15.729 --> 00:02:19.819 Other than what I just said About ovaries and 00:02:19.819 --> 00:02:21.780 shit? Yeah, tell us about your ovaries and shit. 00:02:22.620 --> 00:02:25.759 Biological clock. Yep. We're coming to that age. 00:02:27.620 --> 00:02:33.020 How we feel about it. Yes. How we feel about 00:02:33.020 --> 00:02:37.919 kids. How we feel. Do we feel pressured? True. 00:02:38.560 --> 00:02:42.659 And we'll we'll get to that. But first, we're 00:02:42.659 --> 00:02:44.960 going to go back in time. Whoa. We've never done 00:02:44.960 --> 00:02:49.699 that before. We do it every week. Let's go back 00:02:49.699 --> 00:03:00.580 Back in time alright 2012 the year that the world 00:03:00.580 --> 00:03:03.620 was supposed to end and it should have I saw 00:03:03.620 --> 00:03:07.039 something recently that was like it did and This 00:03:07.039 --> 00:03:09.680 is a new timeline and that's why the Mandela 00:03:09.680 --> 00:03:11.620 effects. I don't remember the Mandela effects 00:03:11.620 --> 00:03:16.099 ever being a thing but Don't know Also, it's 00:03:16.099 --> 00:03:18.500 just like maybe this is just a nightmare like 00:03:18.500 --> 00:03:20.900 a dystopian nightmare that we're all experiencing 00:03:20.900 --> 00:03:24.280 Millennials because the world did end yeah in 00:03:24.280 --> 00:03:29.120 2012 perhaps even y2k and This is just in our 00:03:29.120 --> 00:03:31.460 in our brains because we're trapped in some sort 00:03:31.460 --> 00:03:34.639 of weird Science fiction purgatory. I don't know. 00:03:34.639 --> 00:03:38.580 I never watched Star Wars, but How about a so 00:03:38.580 --> 00:03:42.680 2012 the world ended? But in case it didn't I 00:03:42.680 --> 00:03:46.360 was in high school still I Was in college. Yes. 00:03:46.740 --> 00:03:49.379 Yes. Tell me what your life was like in 2012. 00:03:49.580 --> 00:03:53.099 Um, I Don't remember anything past yesterday. 00:03:53.319 --> 00:03:55.780 Um, that's not true We do back in times every 00:03:55.780 --> 00:03:57.979 week and you eventually get there every time. 00:03:58.020 --> 00:04:06.800 Yeah, so in 2012 it was my 10 11 11 12 sophomore 00:04:06.800 --> 00:04:09.949 junior year Okay, so like smack dab in the middle 00:04:09.949 --> 00:04:12.569 of college smack dab in the middle of college. 00:04:14.729 --> 00:04:19.449 I think at that time, I stopped talking to Bob. 00:04:19.589 --> 00:04:23.170 It was a magical year. No more Bob. That's I 00:04:23.170 --> 00:04:25.470 hope that's why the world didn't end. Like they 00:04:25.470 --> 00:04:26.870 were like, you know what, we're gonna give her 00:04:26.870 --> 00:04:29.949 a real shot. Because she's really just fucked 00:04:29.949 --> 00:04:33.110 up the last five years. But we're gonna we're 00:04:33.110 --> 00:04:34.850 gonna let her try. So you can thank Courtney. 00:04:35.350 --> 00:04:38.350 For the world not exploding in 2012 if in fact 00:04:38.350 --> 00:04:40.230 it didn't I'm going I'm going to try to go back 00:04:40.230 --> 00:04:43.930 to my instagram exclusively because I feel like 00:04:43.930 --> 00:04:46.790 I've said what I posted in 2012 a lot it was 00:04:46.790 --> 00:04:49.889 stupid it was whatever I'm sure we'll talk about 00:04:49.889 --> 00:04:51.829 it again, but I don't feel like loading Facebook 00:04:51.829 --> 00:04:54.430 right now So I'm going to talk about what was 00:04:54.430 --> 00:04:58.550 happening in my life in 2012 on Instagram I don't 00:04:58.550 --> 00:05:01.029 have much so I might bleed a little bit into 00:05:01.029 --> 00:05:04.129 early 2013 here with my post. Okay, because I 00:05:04.129 --> 00:05:06.360 got my first I got my Instagram for the first 00:05:06.360 --> 00:05:10.240 time in December of 2012. Okay, so very end of 00:05:10.240 --> 00:05:14.720 2012. So I have a picture of my dog. Fuchs. Yep, 00:05:14.720 --> 00:05:17.420 Fuchs who is still alive and well as of recording 00:05:17.420 --> 00:05:22.459 this. Just woke up from a nap. He's on his ottoman. 00:05:23.360 --> 00:05:27.100 I got Cheeto in 2012. Amazing. Look at us. Pets. 00:05:27.860 --> 00:05:30.480 I think Fuchs was roughly like a year old or 00:05:30.480 --> 00:05:32.779 something. I think we got him in 2011 or maybe 00:05:32.779 --> 00:05:37.259 2010. Okay, I was in high school um and then 00:05:37.259 --> 00:05:39.439 I got I got a picture of our Christmas tree that 00:05:39.439 --> 00:05:42.819 year I mean is it Instagram if you're not posting 00:05:42.819 --> 00:05:45.100 pictures of Christmas trees Especially with the 00:05:45.100 --> 00:05:47.779 black border around and a very weird blown out 00:05:47.779 --> 00:05:50.519 filter really weird filter I mean you can barely 00:05:50.519 --> 00:05:52.620 fucking see the tree That's how it always went 00:05:52.620 --> 00:05:55.759 another picture of my dog under the tree duh 00:05:55.759 --> 00:05:58.519 looking cute as fuck You can also kind of see 00:05:58.519 --> 00:06:01.459 an ornament that I made in first grade Me it's 00:06:01.459 --> 00:06:05.259 in a wreath. We used crinkle papers I'm pretty 00:06:05.259 --> 00:06:07.000 sure my mom still has all that but she doesn't 00:06:07.000 --> 00:06:08.740 she doesn't put up a Christmas tree and she puts 00:06:08.740 --> 00:06:11.000 up a like a mini Christmas tree now Yeah, and 00:06:11.000 --> 00:06:14.079 she she puts on like one ornament a year. I also 00:06:14.079 --> 00:06:18.600 posted this Haters gonna hate it's a it's a it's 00:06:18.600 --> 00:06:22.040 a panda. It's a panda meme panda panda panda 00:06:22.040 --> 00:06:25.379 like a broads in Atlanta Man, I posted I really 00:06:25.379 --> 00:06:29.550 made the most of December I posted this thing 00:06:29.550 --> 00:06:32.990 that my teacher drew on the board about intrinsic 00:06:32.990 --> 00:06:35.889 identity. Deep. Yeah, I know. I'm pretty fucking 00:06:35.889 --> 00:06:38.949 deep. Mostly this is my dog. Also, I drew a picture 00:06:38.949 --> 00:06:43.029 of a doodle I did of Michael Buble as a radish. 00:06:45.949 --> 00:06:48.430 When I was probably like in chemistry class, 00:06:48.569 --> 00:06:51.290 you know, just. Oh, this was 2013. I'm looking 00:06:51.290 --> 00:06:54.029 on my Instagram. Oh, yeah. It's you. Oh, no, 00:06:54.129 --> 00:06:58.589 it fell. I remember that that was January 2013. 00:06:58.589 --> 00:07:02.209 Oh, man. I love that. However, oh, this was also 00:07:02.209 --> 00:07:04.829 January. It's okay. We're just me and you making 00:07:04.829 --> 00:07:06.930 cake pops. Yeah, this was right before my grandmother 00:07:06.930 --> 00:07:11.509 died. Oh, no, it's cool. It's fine. It's okay. 00:07:12.230 --> 00:07:15.689 Oh, no, no, we've told this story. So my grandma, 00:07:16.269 --> 00:07:19.870 my meemaw, she died in January of 2013. So she 00:07:19.870 --> 00:07:23.839 was She had cancer. So like she at some point 00:07:23.839 --> 00:07:25.600 toward the end obviously because that's when 00:07:25.600 --> 00:07:27.920 they let you go on hospice. She was in hospice 00:07:27.920 --> 00:07:31.480 at my house So either toward the end of 2012 00:07:31.480 --> 00:07:34.259 and obviously into the beginning of 2013 and 00:07:34.259 --> 00:07:37.000 she died at the end of January So I didn't go 00:07:37.000 --> 00:07:39.699 out much, but I did decide to go out with you 00:07:39.699 --> 00:07:43.860 and our pal Iggy, is that what we've called him? 00:07:44.060 --> 00:07:47.850 Yeah, I know we were out with Tina I don't know 00:07:47.850 --> 00:07:48.810 if you've ever given her a name, but it's the 00:07:48.810 --> 00:07:50.550 first thing that came to mind. We were out with 00:07:50.550 --> 00:07:53.589 our movie theater pals, and Kourtney and I made 00:07:53.589 --> 00:07:55.990 cake pops, and then we went laser bowling, and 00:07:55.990 --> 00:07:57.990 it was really fun and cute, and it was a nice 00:07:57.990 --> 00:08:00.389 way to distract myself. And then what date was 00:08:00.389 --> 00:08:02.230 that? When did you post that? Like actually? 00:08:02.850 --> 00:08:06.269 I posted it on January 19th, 2013. She died like 00:08:06.269 --> 00:08:09.959 six days later. Um, I have some very interesting 00:08:09.959 --> 00:08:13.259 pictures. Okay. 2012. Yeah. I mean, you can't, 00:08:13.279 --> 00:08:16.220 I went bowling again in 2012. Listen, it's like 00:08:16.220 --> 00:08:18.399 all there was to do around here at the time. 00:08:19.160 --> 00:08:22.879 So a picture of me and my bowling shoes with 00:08:22.879 --> 00:08:26.040 a rounded edge border. Those are the only ones 00:08:26.040 --> 00:08:27.800 I use. Yes. With the black frame and the rounded 00:08:27.800 --> 00:08:32.360 edge. Um, also just the bowling balls. Mm. Hot. 00:08:32.879 --> 00:08:35.120 Yep. I like to use those pink ones. They were 00:08:35.120 --> 00:08:37.799 too heavy for me though. I had to find sixes 00:08:37.799 --> 00:08:40.759 or eights because I weak bitch. No, me too. But 00:08:40.759 --> 00:08:42.379 I like to use the pink ones and I would have 00:08:42.379 --> 00:08:45.820 to use both hands. Um, our favorite pretzel bites 00:08:45.820 --> 00:08:49.279 with cheese, pretzel bites with cheese. That's 00:08:49.279 --> 00:08:52.100 what I feel like if you look at anyone's Instagram 00:08:52.100 --> 00:08:55.799 in like 2012, 2013, it was basically just a really 00:08:55.799 --> 00:08:59.799 close up shot of one item. Yes, weirdest border 00:08:59.799 --> 00:09:01.919 and there's such a weird no border on this and 00:09:01.919 --> 00:09:04.059 no filter on this well good to know it was pretty 00:09:04.059 --> 00:09:06.720 much an ad because it was when we first got them 00:09:06.720 --> 00:09:08.779 Yeah at movie theater and then I ate them and 00:09:08.779 --> 00:09:11.480 I it was like our new pretzel bites hashtag So 00:09:11.480 --> 00:09:14.620 good hashtag movie theater hashtag. Yum. They 00:09:14.620 --> 00:09:16.360 were good. Wow. Look at you fucking marketing 00:09:16.360 --> 00:09:22.000 queen. I Made cookies. Yeah, and I made a monster 00:09:22.000 --> 00:09:24.960 cookie and I posted a picture of that. It looks 00:09:24.960 --> 00:09:27.779 kind of like a meat pie Well, I put it on a pizza 00:09:28.009 --> 00:09:31.929 Uh, yeah. Pizza pan. But then I also made regular 00:09:31.929 --> 00:09:34.389 cookies. Good for you. Yes, I said - Ooh, the 00:09:34.389 --> 00:09:37.190 apples on the kitchen decor. Man, that was - 00:09:37.190 --> 00:09:40.990 Grandma. There's just something about - Cheeto 00:09:40.990 --> 00:09:44.789 on Christmas! Look how tiny he was! Oh my god. 00:09:44.909 --> 00:09:48.809 Cheeto is the OGPodcat, and he made his grand 00:09:48.809 --> 00:09:51.830 entrance. In 2012. So honestly, that's the best 00:09:51.830 --> 00:09:55.159 reason. Happy birthday, Cheeto! This is officially 00:09:55.159 --> 00:09:57.139 your birthday podcast. I don't know when your 00:09:57.139 --> 00:09:59.840 birthday is but we know it was in 2012. Oh, he's 00:09:59.840 --> 00:10:01.659 got a hat on. Do you know what this had to have? 00:10:01.679 --> 00:10:06.220 That's so cute. And then my artsy picture for 00:10:06.220 --> 00:10:11.080 the snow. Get you it's so we had this decoration 00:10:11.080 --> 00:10:14.879 like they're what are like tree bulbs. Bulbs 00:10:14.879 --> 00:10:17.759 is what we call them. But they were outside. 00:10:18.000 --> 00:10:19.759 Oh, like the big ones. They were like the big 00:10:19.759 --> 00:10:21.879 tree bulbs. I got you. They were almost like 00:10:21.879 --> 00:10:24.700 they were like blow up like a bouncy ball material. 00:10:24.720 --> 00:10:27.539 That sounds fucking fun. So that's what we're 00:10:27.539 --> 00:10:29.360 outside and had still on top of them. And that 00:10:29.360 --> 00:10:32.399 was the picture. And I titled it White Christmas. 00:10:33.240 --> 00:10:38.759 Wow. No filters, I don't think. 2K12. 2K12. What 00:10:38.759 --> 00:10:43.690 are some other? Oh, this was Do we have any lucky 00:10:43.690 --> 00:10:46.389 charms my least favorite person? Yeah, he was 00:10:46.389 --> 00:10:50.529 in my 2012 era. Oh Horrible time horrible time. 00:10:50.529 --> 00:10:53.590 I hated this man. I Don't understand. I don't 00:10:53.590 --> 00:10:55.929 understand. Well, it was definitely the end of 00:10:55.929 --> 00:10:58.990 2012 that I stopped talking to Bob because I 00:10:58.990 --> 00:11:03.070 posted this picture of My camera app and that's 00:11:03.070 --> 00:11:07.019 his head Yeah, his fucking spoon face. He looked 00:11:07.019 --> 00:11:09.080 like a spoon. Look at this picture. Why do I 00:11:09.080 --> 00:11:11.600 look so pretty? You always look pretty. Oh, thank 00:11:11.600 --> 00:11:14.139 you. Very close up selfie. Very close up selfie. 00:11:14.240 --> 00:11:16.980 Definitely edited. Oh, 100%. Your skin looks 00:11:16.980 --> 00:11:19.580 like the snow. Well, I'm very white. No, but 00:11:19.580 --> 00:11:21.580 it's like too smooth. It doesn't look like a 00:11:21.580 --> 00:11:24.519 person. Yeah. Like I can't even see your birthmarks. 00:11:24.879 --> 00:11:27.639 The neon. The neon green. It was a time. It was 00:11:27.639 --> 00:11:29.980 like that cool story bro shirt with the neon. 00:11:30.220 --> 00:11:33.429 I had that shirt. I know you did. With and I 00:11:33.429 --> 00:11:35.110 think the picture that you showed me of it and 00:11:35.110 --> 00:11:37.529 I believe we've posted this before. I was wearing 00:11:37.529 --> 00:11:41.210 it with green zebra shorts. Yes. It was that 00:11:41.210 --> 00:11:45.909 time. It was the time. And then this is my bedroom 00:11:45.909 --> 00:11:51.669 with my zebra print bedding, my green walls, 00:11:51.870 --> 00:11:56.889 and I had zebra socks on. It was a vibe. It was 00:11:56.889 --> 00:11:59.309 a vibe. That was my whole personality. Apparently, 00:11:59.309 --> 00:12:03.289 I think this is why as millennials, Some of us 00:12:03.289 --> 00:12:05.909 struggle with Interior design because we went 00:12:05.909 --> 00:12:08.950 through so many eras and meanwhile like our moms 00:12:08.950 --> 00:12:11.210 and grandmothers were just like the whole kitchen 00:12:11.210 --> 00:12:15.509 must be fruit And we're like the whole wall must 00:12:15.509 --> 00:12:18.549 be zebra, but also like neon purple Yeah, which 00:12:18.549 --> 00:12:20.990 is still a vibe and I do it now I don't see the 00:12:20.990 --> 00:12:25.269 problem, but look how tiny she was I can't get 00:12:25.269 --> 00:12:30.759 over it. Oh my god What a little bean was was 00:12:30.759 --> 00:12:33.120 a bean. Do you want to know some other things 00:12:33.120 --> 00:12:35.080 that happened in out in the world pop culture? 00:12:35.240 --> 00:12:37.639 Yes, please. Because I'm just going back to this 00:12:37.639 --> 00:12:41.240 and just getting nostalgic and this look my laces 00:12:41.240 --> 00:12:43.419 for my shoes. They're green, bright green, bright 00:12:43.419 --> 00:12:47.019 green. This is the bright green episode. Well, 00:12:47.220 --> 00:12:50.240 breaking dawn part dose came out. Oh shit. Yep. 00:12:51.179 --> 00:12:53.340 So I almost when I made the color already made 00:12:53.340 --> 00:12:56.179 the collage when we'd settled on our thing. So 00:12:56.179 --> 00:12:59.860 I'm using that. I almost made it the picture 00:12:59.860 --> 00:13:02.519 of like for breaking dawn where they hold up 00:13:02.519 --> 00:13:04.889 Carlisle's head. But then I thought it would 00:13:04.889 --> 00:13:07.490 get flagged so I probably used a weird voluntary 00:13:07.490 --> 00:13:11.450 guy the way when I first I Do you have the text 00:13:11.450 --> 00:13:13.350 messages that I sent you as I was watching that 00:13:13.350 --> 00:13:15.090 part? I mean, I'm sure I do but I don't I mean 00:13:15.090 --> 00:13:16.870 it because that would be so funny It'd be a lot 00:13:16.870 --> 00:13:18.809 of scrolling. It's been years in the making if 00:13:18.809 --> 00:13:20.730 you want to hear that It's we definitely talked 00:13:20.730 --> 00:13:23.850 about it on the Twilight episode. So yeah Reverse 00:13:23.850 --> 00:13:30.029 it go back to season one Yep, yep And listen 00:13:30.029 --> 00:13:31.889 to Courtney tell the story about when she first 00:13:31.889 --> 00:13:34.110 watched Breaking Dawn and the Carlisle moment. 00:13:34.330 --> 00:13:38.529 Oh my god. That was wild. Just like holding up 00:13:38.529 --> 00:13:41.370 his head. Also, big song that came out and was 00:13:41.370 --> 00:13:45.830 very poppin' was Starships. We're meant to fly, 00:13:46.029 --> 00:13:51.509 hands up and touch the sky. Let's do this one 00:13:51.509 --> 00:13:59.590 more time. Higher than a motherfucker! Also, 00:13:59.610 --> 00:14:03.690 I think Taylor Swift red. Oh shit. Is that the 00:14:03.690 --> 00:14:06.970 album name? That's an album. Yes I kind of remember 00:14:06.970 --> 00:14:09.529 it. I don't I never listened to Taylor Swift 00:14:09.529 --> 00:14:12.590 until let's find out the track listings I'm sure 00:14:12.590 --> 00:14:15.370 there are the only Taylor Swift album that I 00:14:15.370 --> 00:14:18.889 have listened to from start to finish is torture 00:14:18.889 --> 00:14:22.070 pose apartment I listened to some of it. We did 00:14:22.070 --> 00:14:24.669 an episode about it. You can also go find that 00:14:24.669 --> 00:14:29.009 Yeah, it came out in 2012 red And then we're 00:14:29.009 --> 00:14:33.289 never ever getting back together. We are never 00:14:33.289 --> 00:14:38.929 ever ever getting back together. Uh, begin again? 00:14:39.350 --> 00:14:41.289 I don't know that one. I don't know. We'll have 00:14:41.289 --> 00:14:43.149 to phone a friend and it'll have to be sissy. 00:14:43.450 --> 00:14:46.169 Yeah. I knew you were trouble. I knew you were 00:14:46.169 --> 00:14:52.179 trouble when you walked in. Go me to places you've 00:14:52.179 --> 00:14:55.340 never been. Now we're lying on the cold hard 00:14:55.340 --> 00:15:01.399 ground. I watched that edit with the goat like, 00:15:01.460 --> 00:15:05.080 I can only hear that I can too. And I'm not I 00:15:05.080 --> 00:15:06.679 like the song. It's a fine song. When I listen 00:15:06.679 --> 00:15:08.500 to the song, something's missing. It's the goat. 00:15:08.759 --> 00:15:12.700 It's the goat is missing. And I think I think 00:15:12.700 --> 00:15:15.980 she already rereleased that album. Did she yeah 00:15:15.980 --> 00:15:18.379 Taylor's version Taylor's version but in she 00:15:18.379 --> 00:15:20.659 what she should have done when she redid that 00:15:20.659 --> 00:15:24.200 song Collab with goat collab with goat. Absolutely 00:15:24.200 --> 00:15:29.799 22 you like that one? 22 yeah, I guess I don't 00:15:29.799 --> 00:15:31.659 know if you like it, but you stim and sing it 00:15:31.659 --> 00:15:45.580 a lot, so Hey, hey, oh that was terrible Oh Catfish, 00:15:45.840 --> 00:15:49.019 the show started. Was, hold on, but the movie 00:15:49.019 --> 00:15:50.799 came out first? Yeah, the movie came out like 00:15:50.799 --> 00:15:54.659 2010 or 2011. Okay. And then the show MTV, they 00:15:54.659 --> 00:15:57.700 did that in 2012. Okay, I watched the shit out 00:15:57.700 --> 00:15:59.600 of that. Oh my god. Do you know that's still 00:15:59.600 --> 00:16:01.860 going on? Yeah. Like how can you still be Catfish 00:16:01.860 --> 00:16:04.500 knowing Catfish is out there? I don't know. I 00:16:04.500 --> 00:16:06.379 don't know. Here's the thing. I'm gonna, I'm 00:16:06.379 --> 00:16:07.679 gonna say something controversial because why 00:16:07.679 --> 00:16:10.379 the fuck not? I love it. Okay, do it. So when 00:16:10.379 --> 00:16:12.299 people are like on Catfish and they're like, 00:16:12.360 --> 00:16:15.409 I'm in love with them. No, you're not. If you've 00:16:15.409 --> 00:16:17.750 never fucking met him, I thoroughly don't believe 00:16:17.750 --> 00:16:20.070 that you can fall in love with someone without 00:16:20.070 --> 00:16:22.669 knowing them meeting them Like via the internet. 00:16:22.750 --> 00:16:25.950 I don't think that I think you can have an affinity 00:16:25.950 --> 00:16:28.110 for a person But I think you're falling in love 00:16:28.110 --> 00:16:30.809 with an idea of them. Mm -hmm You can fall in 00:16:30.809 --> 00:16:33.169 love with an idea of a person, you know, but 00:16:33.169 --> 00:16:35.490 you can't that's why fanfiction works You can 00:16:35.490 --> 00:16:37.289 fall in love with the idea of a person over the 00:16:37.289 --> 00:16:39.919 internet because you're filling in gaps to make 00:16:39.919 --> 00:16:41.860 them exactly what you want and less human. I'm 00:16:41.860 --> 00:16:43.500 not saying you don't like them. I'm not saying 00:16:43.500 --> 00:16:45.139 it's fucked up when you find out that they're 00:16:45.139 --> 00:16:48.139 not real and they're 45. It's very fucked up 00:16:48.139 --> 00:16:51.740 and and how dare they but also you're not in 00:16:51.740 --> 00:16:53.600 love with them. Don't send thousands of dollars 00:16:53.600 --> 00:16:56.000 to a stranger. Baby don't do that you know or 00:16:56.000 --> 00:16:59.159 anyone really but like you're not in love with 00:16:59.159 --> 00:17:02.399 them. It's just I don't but I love catfish and 00:17:02.399 --> 00:17:05.720 uh maybe one day as a society we will learn but 00:17:05.720 --> 00:17:10.180 until that day Neve is around. Neve is there 00:17:10.180 --> 00:17:13.579 for all your catfish needs. Yeah. I did. Does 00:17:13.579 --> 00:17:15.720 he have a new co -host yet? Because like Max 00:17:15.720 --> 00:17:17.559 left obviously a while ago. And is that one girl 00:17:17.559 --> 00:17:19.680 for a while? Cammie. Yeah. Who I love. I loved 00:17:19.680 --> 00:17:22.079 her. I think they had a great vibe. But she just 00:17:22.079 --> 00:17:24.839 announced she was gonna leave too. So I don't 00:17:24.839 --> 00:17:26.380 know. I don't know if there's been an announcement. 00:17:26.400 --> 00:17:28.240 I cannot tell you the last time I actually watched 00:17:28.240 --> 00:17:31.140 it. I never watched the episodes with Cammie. 00:17:31.160 --> 00:17:33.339 Oh, I did. I watched the episodes. I haven't 00:17:33.339 --> 00:17:36.220 seen all of them, but I saw most of them, I think 00:17:36.220 --> 00:17:39.960 up until I watched them through quarantine where 00:17:39.960 --> 00:17:41.920 they were just like assaulting people via zoom, 00:17:41.940 --> 00:17:44.619 which was so fun. I mean, if they're not gonna 00:17:44.619 --> 00:17:47.339 like get on a phone call, or they do some of 00:17:47.339 --> 00:17:50.059 them do. Okay, I don't know. There's some I guess 00:17:50.059 --> 00:17:53.180 I have not catfished anyone. I bet Pete catfishing 00:17:53.180 --> 00:17:56.039 time was 2020. Of course, because people are 00:17:56.039 --> 00:17:58.519 lonely in their homes. And like, they were asking 00:17:58.519 --> 00:18:00.680 for money. There was a lot more of like the money 00:18:00.680 --> 00:18:02.799 situation. Yeah, seasons. But like, I've never 00:18:02.799 --> 00:18:04.559 catfished anyone. But I feel like if I get a 00:18:04.559 --> 00:18:06.160 DM from me even was like, we need to zoom with 00:18:06.160 --> 00:18:08.410 you right now to prove it, I would do it. Yeah, 00:18:08.410 --> 00:18:11.950 I'd be like, yes. Hello But I don't think I've 00:18:11.950 --> 00:18:15.190 not watched too too many after that point At 00:18:15.190 --> 00:18:17.190 least not in order to where I can say like the 00:18:17.190 --> 00:18:20.150 whole like where they're at with it now But so 00:18:20.150 --> 00:18:22.170 I mean, I'll definitely keep watching it though. 00:18:22.329 --> 00:18:24.089 I mean is he still doing it after his accident? 00:18:24.609 --> 00:18:27.089 I I guess I mean they haven't canceled the show 00:18:27.089 --> 00:18:29.450 I don't know if they filmed recently like I don't 00:18:29.450 --> 00:18:31.589 know where they are and the whole filming schedule 00:18:31.589 --> 00:18:34.250 But like like where they were at season wise 00:18:34.250 --> 00:18:36.069 with all that so I don't maybe max will come 00:18:36.069 --> 00:18:38.680 back Mean they're like best friends. I love kindred 00:18:38.680 --> 00:18:42.140 souls. I love max. He's such a dick his peppered 00:18:42.140 --> 00:18:44.539 hair. It's not pepper He's a full -blown silver 00:18:44.539 --> 00:18:48.299 fox. Ah, and I love it. I Just like that how 00:18:48.299 --> 00:18:50.599 he's like you see how that's ridiculous, right? 00:18:50.799 --> 00:18:57.039 Like I live with max You would I do yeah, I'm 00:18:57.039 --> 00:19:01.740 max your neve Hey Thanks for listening to 30 00:19:01.740 --> 00:19:04.160 Dirty and Dying, the show for millennials by 00:19:04.160 --> 00:19:06.519 millennials. We get real about chronic illness, 00:19:06.900 --> 00:19:09.480 burnout, nostalgia, and why we aren't exactly 00:19:09.480 --> 00:19:12.200 thriving. If that sounds like you, join us every 00:19:12.200 --> 00:19:14.660 Thursday for new episodes. Now back to the show. 00:19:14.980 --> 00:19:18.400 Um, so today we're doing a real talk about, uh, 00:19:18.539 --> 00:19:22.059 biological clocks and ticking. Um, we talked 00:19:22.059 --> 00:19:26.059 about TikTok, TikTok, TikTok. You were so dedicated. 00:19:26.200 --> 00:19:30.890 Your face got so serious. We talk about like 00:19:30.890 --> 00:19:33.309 the pressure to have kids and stuff in season 00:19:33.309 --> 00:19:35.869 one, but obviously it's been a couple years Yeah, 00:19:35.990 --> 00:19:38.609 we're older now. Mm -hmm. And we thought it's 00:19:38.609 --> 00:19:41.710 worth revisiting and talking about again because 00:19:41.710 --> 00:19:44.650 it's it's one of those things that You might 00:19:44.650 --> 00:19:46.829 be totally confident in your decision I don't 00:19:46.829 --> 00:19:49.650 mean that but like why you're making your decision 00:19:49.650 --> 00:19:52.109 and your lifestyle probably continues to change 00:19:52.109 --> 00:19:53.950 and evolve and you gain some new perspectives, 00:19:53.970 --> 00:19:57.509 so we We're no exception to that rule. So we're 00:19:57.509 --> 00:19:58.970 just going to talk about it. You know, now that 00:19:58.970 --> 00:20:01.450 we're a little bit older, we're both 30 plus. 00:20:02.410 --> 00:20:05.809 And the idea of taking biological clock basically 00:20:05.809 --> 00:20:11.220 is boiled down to as a woman. gets older starts 00:20:11.220 --> 00:20:14.140 to feel maybe an increased pressure to procreate 00:20:14.140 --> 00:20:17.859 because Society says that you should and there 00:20:17.859 --> 00:20:20.140 is that there is the thing of like once you're 00:20:20.140 --> 00:20:23.660 after a certain point like you're Geriatric pregnancy. 00:20:23.839 --> 00:20:26.420 Yeah, I think if you're pregnant post 35, is 00:20:26.420 --> 00:20:28.059 that it something like that? It's technically 00:20:28.059 --> 00:20:29.980 called a geriatric pregnancy. There could be 00:20:29.980 --> 00:20:32.400 complications whatever but really I think it's 00:20:32.400 --> 00:20:35.059 I think mostly I did a tiny little bit of research 00:20:35.059 --> 00:20:36.980 to like where the term comes from this. Okay. 00:20:37.140 --> 00:20:41.299 And it it's essentially attributed to like, because 00:20:41.299 --> 00:20:43.680 you only have like a finite number, assuming 00:20:43.680 --> 00:20:45.460 everything's in working order, and you know, 00:20:45.500 --> 00:20:48.160 whatever, you only have a finite number of eggs 00:20:48.160 --> 00:20:51.180 in your ovaries. Like you're born with however 00:20:51.180 --> 00:20:54.819 much you got. And then they deplete wish I had 00:20:54.819 --> 00:20:57.440 none. Huh? I said I wish I had none. Oh, I thought 00:20:57.440 --> 00:20:59.240 you said which I had none. I was like, Well, 00:20:59.240 --> 00:21:01.750 that's a fun trick. How'd you get more? Because 00:21:01.750 --> 00:21:05.150 you can, I mean, you got what you got. And in 00:21:05.150 --> 00:21:09.069 general, they do start to kind of decrease and 00:21:09.069 --> 00:21:13.609 you know, you've been losing eggs since whenever 00:21:13.609 --> 00:21:17.049 you started your period. So your numbers start 00:21:17.049 --> 00:21:19.369 to deplete a little bit, and hormonal stuff starts 00:21:19.369 --> 00:21:21.910 to happen. And it just becomes can potentially 00:21:21.910 --> 00:21:26.349 be a little more difficult to conceive for some 00:21:26.349 --> 00:21:29.329 people. So I think there's this pressure of like, 00:21:29.329 --> 00:21:32.299 well, I really need to get on that. If you know 00:21:32.299 --> 00:21:35.059 what I mean. Yeah. You got to get on that. But 00:21:35.059 --> 00:21:37.539 you got to get on that. In order to get on it, 00:21:37.579 --> 00:21:40.980 you got to get on it. Unless you don't want to 00:21:40.980 --> 00:21:44.660 get on it. Yeah, I mean, maybe it's in the doctor's 00:21:44.660 --> 00:21:46.680 office or something, but you got it. Something 00:21:46.680 --> 00:21:49.599 has to happen. Yeah, something's got to be put 00:21:49.599 --> 00:21:51.740 into something else. Yeah, somewhere, somehow 00:21:51.740 --> 00:21:56.910 someone I don't know. But so we are both child 00:21:56.910 --> 00:21:59.529 free people, childless, child free. I don't know 00:21:59.529 --> 00:22:02.049 how you want to put it. You're definitely like 00:22:02.049 --> 00:22:04.849 child free because you have decided and kept 00:22:04.849 --> 00:22:07.569 your decision strong that you don't want to have 00:22:07.569 --> 00:22:11.049 kids. Correct. So just, I don't know, talk us 00:22:11.049 --> 00:22:12.650 through that a little bit. You know, obviously 00:22:12.650 --> 00:22:14.549 you've always had this position. If they go back 00:22:14.549 --> 00:22:16.630 and listen to season one, that was your position. 00:22:17.470 --> 00:22:21.049 But how has it stayed constant and what are some 00:22:21.049 --> 00:22:23.799 things that have You know gone into keeping it 00:22:23.799 --> 00:22:25.440 a constant decision as you've gotten a little 00:22:25.440 --> 00:22:29.059 older Well how to keep it a constant is might 00:22:29.059 --> 00:22:31.259 got a vasectomy That's also why I thought it 00:22:31.259 --> 00:22:33.099 would be a good time to talk about this because 00:22:33.099 --> 00:22:35.380 well No, because it's like it's at a certain 00:22:35.380 --> 00:22:37.440 point you do just if you're making your decision 00:22:37.440 --> 00:22:39.460 and you're staying confident in it you you do 00:22:39.640 --> 00:22:41.519 Permanent type things like no, we're definitely 00:22:41.519 --> 00:22:44.160 not doing this and you guys recently made that 00:22:44.160 --> 00:22:47.259 choice. Yes So what just what went into making 00:22:47.259 --> 00:22:49.440 that choice and you just talk us through the 00:22:49.440 --> 00:22:51.920 whole thing a little bit Um, I mean, I feel like 00:22:51.920 --> 00:22:56.920 the older that I got the the less I enjoyed Being 00:22:56.920 --> 00:23:00.240 around kids. Yeah, like I love my nieces like 00:23:00.240 --> 00:23:03.440 I love my friends kids like I want to spoil them 00:23:03.440 --> 00:23:06.319 I'm the fun and it doesn't mean I don't hate 00:23:06.319 --> 00:23:08.339 children. No, but you don't want to have your 00:23:08.339 --> 00:23:11.440 own. I don't want to be around them all the time. 00:23:11.460 --> 00:23:14.900 Yeah. Like, in spurts, when I get to spend time 00:23:14.900 --> 00:23:18.220 with the kids around me, that's fine. Yeah. But 00:23:18.220 --> 00:23:23.819 like, in small amounts of time. Yeah. Well, I 00:23:23.819 --> 00:23:25.400 do think there's a difference in like, I don't 00:23:25.400 --> 00:23:28.789 think anybody who likes or who doesn't want kids 00:23:28.789 --> 00:23:31.289 just has to hate kids no but i feel like that's 00:23:31.289 --> 00:23:33.390 what like people think yeah it's perpetuated 00:23:33.390 --> 00:23:35.569 hard yeah it's just like okay so you don't want 00:23:35.569 --> 00:23:41.849 kids do you hate them um but also i have a lot 00:23:41.849 --> 00:23:45.009 of reasons that i don't want to be pregnant specifically 00:23:45.009 --> 00:23:49.869 okay um i have a phobia of throwing up you do 00:23:49.869 --> 00:23:54.029 uh and i don't want to risk potentially throwing 00:23:54.029 --> 00:23:55.730 up and i had this conversation with someone they're 00:23:55.730 --> 00:23:58.859 just like well it's not like it's not a fact 00:23:58.859 --> 00:24:01.160 that you're going to i'm like but i'm not going 00:24:01.160 --> 00:24:05.079 to take that chance yeah because i don't want 00:24:05.079 --> 00:24:09.440 to throw up that bad hey whatever my friend ali 00:24:09.440 --> 00:24:12.900 every single day of her entire nine -month pregnancy 00:24:12.900 --> 00:24:15.259 it didn't stop at the first there's a condition 00:24:15.259 --> 00:24:18.430 i almost said first semester It didn't stop at 00:24:18.430 --> 00:24:20.190 the first semester. We're so removed from this 00:24:20.190 --> 00:24:23.210 process. But no, there's like a condition, right? 00:24:23.369 --> 00:24:25.950 That like, it makes you really sick. Morning 00:24:25.950 --> 00:24:27.809 sickness. Yeah, but no, there's something where 00:24:27.809 --> 00:24:30.130 it's not just the first trimester, where it's 00:24:30.130 --> 00:24:31.769 like you're sick the whole time. And sometimes 00:24:31.769 --> 00:24:34.910 you have to be hospitalized. I think Amy Schumer 00:24:34.910 --> 00:24:38.049 had it. Like I watched her documentary that she 00:24:38.049 --> 00:24:39.849 did. And I think she had that. It was really 00:24:39.849 --> 00:24:42.170 bad. Like she had to be hospitalized like several 00:24:42.170 --> 00:24:45.720 times for... dehydration and yeah, it was bad. 00:24:45.720 --> 00:24:47.779 So I mean, it can't it's a real medical condition. 00:24:48.160 --> 00:24:50.279 Yeah. And I just I don't I don't want to risk 00:24:50.279 --> 00:24:53.539 it. I don't want to risk the potential of throwing 00:24:53.539 --> 00:24:56.920 up. Yeah. But also the idea of pushing it out 00:24:56.920 --> 00:24:59.619 of me. Disgusting. Right. So then but a lot of 00:24:59.619 --> 00:25:03.059 people would say it's magic. No, fuck that. That's 00:25:03.059 --> 00:25:06.359 all I was gonna say. It's a miracle of childbirth. 00:25:06.480 --> 00:25:09.809 Yeah, it's not a miracle. It's a medical crisis. 00:25:11.049 --> 00:25:12.730 But no, what I was gonna say is a lot of people 00:25:12.730 --> 00:25:15.289 would hear that and be like, okay, but you can 00:25:15.289 --> 00:25:18.910 still be a parent and not be pregnant. People 00:25:18.910 --> 00:25:21.210 do surrogates, people adopt, whatever. So then 00:25:21.210 --> 00:25:23.450 it really isn't just about not wanting to be 00:25:23.450 --> 00:25:26.710 pregnant. You also have no desire to parent a 00:25:26.710 --> 00:25:28.990 child, right? Um, that's where I think the disconnect 00:25:28.990 --> 00:25:30.910 is for a lot of people. Yeah. So people think, 00:25:31.269 --> 00:25:33.509 I mean, if people think it's selfish, then that's 00:25:33.509 --> 00:25:36.440 fine. Of course, it's selfish. This is my also 00:25:36.440 --> 00:25:39.880 but also having a kid like when people say who's 00:25:39.880 --> 00:25:41.380 gonna take care of you and your older that's 00:25:41.380 --> 00:25:44.119 not that selfish Yeah, I agree with you people 00:25:44.119 --> 00:25:46.279 having kids can be selfish and people not having 00:25:46.279 --> 00:25:49.180 kids gonna be selfish But this money that I earned 00:25:49.180 --> 00:25:51.700 I want to go on a cruise. Yeah, I don't want 00:25:51.700 --> 00:25:55.099 to be held back by a kid I don't want to have 00:25:55.099 --> 00:25:59.740 to like I can barely take care of myself I'm 00:25:59.740 --> 00:26:02.740 not mentally well ever and I'm not physically 00:26:02.740 --> 00:26:06.059 well That's that's important to think so and 00:26:06.059 --> 00:26:08.519 also like I also have all these metal like all 00:26:08.519 --> 00:26:11.339 of these medical conditions Yeah, I have alcoholism 00:26:11.339 --> 00:26:14.460 in my family Mike has Alzheimer's in his family 00:26:14.460 --> 00:26:17.720 Yeah, like it's like why why would I want to 00:26:17.720 --> 00:26:19.839 potentially pass these things on to someone else? 00:26:19.940 --> 00:26:22.519 I think that's fair like Crohn's is genetic. 00:26:22.519 --> 00:26:26.650 Yeah, it's such an like they can get it They 00:26:26.650 --> 00:26:29.930 can get like alcoholism like the all of that 00:26:29.930 --> 00:26:33.890 like it's fucking genetic it's like and it skips 00:26:33.890 --> 00:26:37.210 generations Like not on my team. Well on mine. 00:26:37.210 --> 00:26:40.650 So like my grandparents parents. Yeah, grandma 00:26:40.650 --> 00:26:45.069 was fine My mom. Yeah, not okay. We're fine. 00:26:45.410 --> 00:26:48.589 My kids are gonna be alcoholics bummer for them 00:26:49.210 --> 00:26:52.289 No, like I get it. It's not fact. But it's possible. 00:26:52.289 --> 00:26:54.089 But it's one of those things. I'm just like, 00:26:54.450 --> 00:26:58.369 I didn't ask to be here. So why am I going to 00:26:58.369 --> 00:27:01.369 make someone else be here? But in this in the 00:27:01.369 --> 00:27:03.349 world, the environment that we're in right now, 00:27:03.609 --> 00:27:07.349 like everything's shitty and unknown and like 00:27:07.349 --> 00:27:10.049 traumatic. Yeah. And I'm like, why would I want 00:27:10.049 --> 00:27:14.339 to? bring someone else in this world. Fair. No, 00:27:14.339 --> 00:27:15.799 I think that's but honestly, and this is the 00:27:15.799 --> 00:27:17.740 thing a lot of people are gonna hear the who 00:27:17.740 --> 00:27:19.819 who want kids or who have kids or whatever. I'll 00:27:19.819 --> 00:27:22.000 be like, Well, there's never a good time. Or 00:27:22.000 --> 00:27:24.759 that's all true. Or I don't feel that way. And 00:27:24.759 --> 00:27:26.660 that's fine. That's totally fine. But that this 00:27:26.660 --> 00:27:29.339 here is the difference, right? Because they want 00:27:29.339 --> 00:27:31.779 kids, or they're okay with having kids, or they 00:27:31.779 --> 00:27:33.359 have a drive to have kids, or they enjoy the 00:27:33.359 --> 00:27:35.279 kids they have. And then there are people who 00:27:35.279 --> 00:27:37.940 just don't. So those things matter more to the 00:27:37.940 --> 00:27:39.619 people who don't because it's like these are 00:27:39.619 --> 00:27:41.720 part of our reasoning. and then it doesn't matter 00:27:41.720 --> 00:27:43.619 to you and that's okay because then you want 00:27:43.619 --> 00:27:45.660 to have kids and that's i'm not saying you're 00:27:45.660 --> 00:27:47.420 a bad person because you brought a kid into this 00:27:47.420 --> 00:27:49.900 world right now no but it's like if i don't really 00:27:49.900 --> 00:27:51.819 want to don't pressure me to do it exactly and 00:27:51.819 --> 00:27:54.019 i think that that's really what it is it's not 00:27:54.019 --> 00:27:57.220 this thing of like everybody thinks the same 00:27:57.220 --> 00:27:58.940 way and people are just deciding that it doesn't 00:27:58.940 --> 00:28:01.140 matter obviously people who want to have children 00:28:01.140 --> 00:28:04.140 think about it a different way as they should 00:28:04.140 --> 00:28:07.119 because they want them yes unless they want them 00:28:07.119 --> 00:28:10.049 for Selfish reasons. I do think there is this 00:28:10.049 --> 00:28:12.430 thing of like there Then this goes back to kind 00:28:12.430 --> 00:28:14.410 of like the topic that that prompted us doing 00:28:14.410 --> 00:28:16.809 this today There is this bite that biological 00:28:16.809 --> 00:28:19.150 pressure of like feeling like you should procreate. 00:28:19.170 --> 00:28:22.430 I do think that happens there there are times 00:28:22.430 --> 00:28:26.089 where I'm just like Maybe yeah, like and then 00:28:26.089 --> 00:28:29.750 my brains like no exactly get a little like panicked 00:28:29.750 --> 00:28:32.910 like oh my god I'm like should we do this should 00:28:32.910 --> 00:28:34.869 we have had a kid should I have a kid? I'm 30 00:28:34.869 --> 00:28:36.829 should I have it and then I get a little panicked 00:28:36.829 --> 00:28:39.509 like I'm running out of time Mm -hmm. Oh my god, 00:28:39.730 --> 00:28:42.210 and then I'm like now I don't really care like 00:28:42.210 --> 00:28:46.970 I've never been as Set in it as you have been 00:28:46.970 --> 00:28:52.109 for for longer like I'm I'm not definitely opposed 00:28:52.109 --> 00:28:56.420 to having a kid but I also don't have, I've never 00:28:56.420 --> 00:29:00.099 had this like drive to be a mom. I've never felt 00:29:00.099 --> 00:29:02.240 like I want to be a mom. People talk about that 00:29:02.240 --> 00:29:04.700 all the time, women especially, like I really 00:29:04.700 --> 00:29:06.180 want to have a kid, I want to be a mom, it's 00:29:06.180 --> 00:29:08.519 all I want to do. And I respect that and that's 00:29:08.519 --> 00:29:09.900 cool. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with 00:29:09.900 --> 00:29:11.259 that. And I know people that are like that and 00:29:11.259 --> 00:29:13.579 they're great parents. Yeah, and that's fantastic. 00:29:13.599 --> 00:29:15.920 And I love that. And those kids are gonna be 00:29:15.920 --> 00:29:18.440 great. Yeah, and I know people who didn't feel 00:29:18.440 --> 00:29:20.180 like it and then they're good with it, they're 00:29:20.180 --> 00:29:22.619 happy with it, it's okay. I've, and they developed 00:29:22.619 --> 00:29:25.200 that drive to like, yeah, I definitely love being 00:29:25.200 --> 00:29:29.970 a mom or dad or whatever. I have never felt like 00:29:29.970 --> 00:29:34.490 this need to be a mother. I just don't feel that 00:29:34.490 --> 00:29:37.329 need. I'm not saying I couldn't do it. If it 00:29:37.329 --> 00:29:39.390 happened, I'm not saying if I if I did have a 00:29:39.390 --> 00:29:42.690 kid that I wouldn't get into the swing of things 00:29:42.690 --> 00:29:45.029 and I wouldn't love it and love every second. 00:29:45.029 --> 00:29:49.509 I don't know that. Yeah. But I just. Every time 00:29:49.509 --> 00:29:51.670 that like biological pressure comes in, I'm like, 00:29:51.750 --> 00:29:53.369 oh, my God, should I have done this by now? Like, 00:29:53.369 --> 00:29:55.170 I'm getting old and my eggs are shriveled and 00:29:55.170 --> 00:29:58.509 deviled eggs in there. But then I'm like, I don't 00:29:58.509 --> 00:30:01.089 know, I don't really if if I go through and and 00:30:01.089 --> 00:30:03.750 I they're like, okay, well, it's over now. You 00:30:03.750 --> 00:30:06.109 can't ever do it. I don't think that's gonna 00:30:06.109 --> 00:30:08.390 break me. You know what I'm saying? I think about 00:30:08.390 --> 00:30:11.349 that. That's a good I'm glad you said that because 00:30:11.349 --> 00:30:15.390 there are times where I've and like am i making 00:30:15.390 --> 00:30:17.710 the wrong decision yeah totally but then i i'm 00:30:17.710 --> 00:30:20.349 just like if i never do i will not be unhappy 00:30:20.349 --> 00:30:22.390 with that choice that's what i'm saying exactly 00:30:22.390 --> 00:30:26.150 like i love the life mike and i have right and 00:30:26.150 --> 00:30:29.430 i love knowing that we can do what we want together 00:30:29.430 --> 00:30:32.029 and like we have our family of the two of us 00:30:32.029 --> 00:30:36.529 and our cats and dogs yeah and that's why i'm 00:30:36.529 --> 00:30:39.609 not i'm not unhappy yeah that's how i feel like 00:30:39.609 --> 00:30:42.839 i'm not i don't feel unfulfilled because we don't 00:30:42.839 --> 00:30:45.140 have a child of our own there's nothing i don't 00:30:45.140 --> 00:30:47.079 feel like there's anything missing i'm not saying 00:30:47.079 --> 00:30:49.539 it wouldn't add and there wouldn't be great things 00:30:49.539 --> 00:30:52.319 yeah if it happens but like i don't feel like 00:30:52.319 --> 00:30:55.180 and i really never have i don't feel like we're 00:30:55.180 --> 00:30:57.039 missing something we're not doing something where 00:30:57.039 --> 00:30:59.720 our relationship doesn't have something or my 00:30:59.720 --> 00:31:01.779 personal life just as an individual doesn't have 00:31:01.779 --> 00:31:04.789 something Just don't feel that and I'm sure there 00:31:04.789 --> 00:31:06.670 are people who do like I said Those are probably 00:31:06.670 --> 00:31:08.910 people who have no always known I want to have 00:31:08.910 --> 00:31:11.589 kids I want to be a mom and I want to and I just 00:31:11.589 --> 00:31:13.470 don't think everybody has that and I think that's 00:31:13.470 --> 00:31:17.190 okay. I would rather Be a little bummed out and 00:31:17.190 --> 00:31:20.130 low -key regret that I didn't have a kid Then 00:31:20.130 --> 00:31:22.049 have one because I think I'm supposed to and 00:31:22.049 --> 00:31:25.700 then really regret it like Billy is here And 00:31:25.700 --> 00:31:28.299 now I got to deal with Billy and I low -key hate 00:31:28.299 --> 00:31:30.380 him. Yeah, I don't think that's gonna happen 00:31:30.380 --> 00:31:33.140 No, but I also would hope that you didn't name 00:31:33.140 --> 00:31:36.579 your kid Billy. I'm not no no, maybe a girl You 00:31:36.579 --> 00:31:38.880 know what? I like it. I like that. Yeah, not 00:31:38.880 --> 00:31:40.720 a boy though. I just it's not it's my go -to 00:31:40.720 --> 00:31:44.240 like Random person name Billy not in my book. 00:31:44.299 --> 00:31:48.079 So don't worry. I come up with better ones But 00:31:48.079 --> 00:31:51.599 no, it's just like I would rather Be like a little 00:31:51.599 --> 00:31:54.450 bummed out that I didn't do it Then be really 00:31:54.450 --> 00:31:56.750 bummed out that I did and then there's you can't 00:31:56.750 --> 00:31:58.829 take that back. No, there's a human being here 00:31:58.829 --> 00:32:01.150 that needs me and I'm like, you know what? I 00:32:01.150 --> 00:32:04.849 don't really like this. This sucks. I mean, look 00:32:04.849 --> 00:32:07.390 at my parents. I'm just gonna look good for mine. 00:32:08.490 --> 00:32:11.470 Oh, no, your mom. This is also something my mom 00:32:11.470 --> 00:32:14.230 has never pressured me to have kids. In fact, 00:32:14.230 --> 00:32:16.130 she's done the opposite. She's been like, please 00:32:16.130 --> 00:32:17.289 don't get pregnant. Please don't get pregnant. 00:32:17.309 --> 00:32:19.950 And then she she said a lot. She's like, listen, 00:32:20.150 --> 00:32:25.410 I didn't want kids. And she didn't. I was accidental. 00:32:25.970 --> 00:32:28.849 Yes. And she said, I enjoyed being a mom. I loved 00:32:28.849 --> 00:32:32.789 being a mom. I love being your mom, but I'm not 00:32:32.789 --> 00:32:35.609 a kid person. I think I, you know, I don't think 00:32:35.609 --> 00:32:37.990 I would have done well with like other kids, 00:32:38.190 --> 00:32:40.210 a lot of kids. That's why I'm an only child part 00:32:40.210 --> 00:32:42.490 of it. Like, and she has said, she's like, listen, 00:32:42.549 --> 00:32:44.150 don't let anybody pressure you into having kids. 00:32:44.230 --> 00:32:46.049 If you don't want to do it, probably shouldn't. 00:32:46.160 --> 00:32:48.880 But it's just having a real view of it. She's 00:32:48.880 --> 00:32:52.220 like, it's, it's going to rock your life. Like, 00:32:52.240 --> 00:32:54.720 yeah, and it changes everything changes every 00:32:54.720 --> 00:32:58.119 and they can change relationships. Yes. Like, 00:32:58.740 --> 00:33:02.660 do I think that Mike and I can withstand? Yeah, 00:33:02.920 --> 00:33:06.900 that addition to our home? Yeah, probably. Yeah, 00:33:06.960 --> 00:33:10.539 but it could. It can come like I see so many 00:33:10.539 --> 00:33:13.259 people like really struggle in their relationships 00:33:13.259 --> 00:33:15.279 with their significant other after having a kid, 00:33:15.619 --> 00:33:18.259 because they no longer focus on each other and 00:33:18.259 --> 00:33:20.220 their relationship and they only focus on the 00:33:20.220 --> 00:33:23.140 kid. Yeah, and then their needs and feelings 00:33:23.140 --> 00:33:27.579 are left to the side. And they are no longer 00:33:27.579 --> 00:33:29.880 feeling fulfilled. And that's why people get 00:33:29.880 --> 00:33:33.230 depression. Yeah, one I think too. It's like 00:33:33.230 --> 00:33:34.950 some of that is natural, right? But you gotta 00:33:34.950 --> 00:33:36.809 be ready to dance with it. You gotta be expecting 00:33:36.809 --> 00:33:39.589 that hey, this is gonna be a lot. This is gonna 00:33:39.589 --> 00:33:41.529 affect us. We need to be ready to withstand that 00:33:41.529 --> 00:33:43.789 we need to have things that and I'm not saying 00:33:43.789 --> 00:33:45.569 if you didn't have that when you had your kid 00:33:45.569 --> 00:33:47.250 that you failed or something. That's not what 00:33:47.250 --> 00:33:51.210 I mean at all. I'm just saying it's It's something 00:33:51.210 --> 00:33:54.289 to think about if you don't have that like I 00:33:54.289 --> 00:33:56.990 definitely want to do this Yeah, and I know that 00:33:56.990 --> 00:33:59.190 my whole life my mom has been like listen do 00:33:59.190 --> 00:34:01.150 whatever you want But like I didn't want kids 00:34:01.150 --> 00:34:03.869 and not in this like I low -key wish you were 00:34:03.869 --> 00:34:06.430 never born way but just acknowledging that it 00:34:06.430 --> 00:34:08.769 makes a big difference and you know, my mom was 00:34:08.769 --> 00:34:13.590 really young when she had me too and my dad is 00:34:13.590 --> 00:34:17.510 your dad really something else and You know, 00:34:17.510 --> 00:34:20.309 I can just tell you right now. I doubt that they 00:34:20.309 --> 00:34:23.329 would have stayed together if I was not born. 00:34:23.789 --> 00:34:25.329 You know what I mean? My parents didn't say together 00:34:25.329 --> 00:34:28.650 when we were born. There you go. Mine didn't 00:34:28.650 --> 00:34:30.769 eventually. But but a lot of people do have that 00:34:30.769 --> 00:34:34.130 thing of like, I want to have a family. I want 00:34:34.130 --> 00:34:37.170 my kid to have their family. It affects a lot 00:34:37.170 --> 00:34:40.449 of things. I'm just it can really change the 00:34:40.449 --> 00:34:42.030 trajectory of your life, which can be really 00:34:42.030 --> 00:34:45.539 great. Or really bad. Yeah, and it just depends 00:34:45.539 --> 00:34:47.679 on what you're ready to dance with and am I do 00:34:47.679 --> 00:34:51.219 I want to risk that? No No, I like I personally 00:34:51.219 --> 00:34:53.699 think that we would do it, but we've also me 00:34:53.699 --> 00:34:56.699 and Justin I mean we've talked a lot about like 00:34:56.699 --> 00:35:02.019 How we would parent and how we would do certain 00:35:02.019 --> 00:35:03.820 things and go through certain things and I think 00:35:03.820 --> 00:35:07.519 because it's not a priority for us to Have our 00:35:07.519 --> 00:35:11.400 own kid together. It's like we can Kind of unpack 00:35:11.400 --> 00:35:14.039 it and potentially be somewhat prepared now. 00:35:14.179 --> 00:35:16.679 I know when it happens, you're not Everything 00:35:16.679 --> 00:35:20.159 kind of hits the fan I get that but because it's 00:35:20.159 --> 00:35:21.980 not something we're actively trying to do We're 00:35:21.980 --> 00:35:23.960 also not kidding ourselves into scenarios of 00:35:23.960 --> 00:35:26.139 like everything will be fine, right? It's just 00:35:26.139 --> 00:35:28.559 kind of very real and honest because it's not 00:35:28.559 --> 00:35:31.880 something that we're actively trying to achieve 00:35:31.880 --> 00:35:35.599 but we've had a chance to really unpack what 00:35:35.599 --> 00:35:37.440 it might look like. And obviously, yeah, he has 00:35:37.440 --> 00:35:40.699 a kid. So he knows some stuff. I've learned some 00:35:40.699 --> 00:35:43.019 stuff. So it's a little bit of a different situation 00:35:43.019 --> 00:35:47.199 than just like nothing. But not really. I mean, 00:35:47.219 --> 00:35:50.199 for us as our own couple, I'm saying it's it's 00:35:50.199 --> 00:35:52.940 just it's just not a priority. So yeah, and I 00:35:52.940 --> 00:35:56.139 feel like also like Mike and I have finally gotten 00:35:56.139 --> 00:36:00.219 to this point, like in our careers, to where 00:36:00.219 --> 00:36:03.639 we don't necessarily have to live paycheck to 00:36:03.639 --> 00:36:07.760 paycheck yeah which is nice and i don't want 00:36:07.760 --> 00:36:10.760 to stop that yeah and that's fair people who 00:36:10.760 --> 00:36:14.039 are like that's selfish well fucking duh it's 00:36:14.039 --> 00:36:16.000 how am i not supposed to be selfish a little 00:36:16.000 --> 00:36:18.639 bit it's my life right I have to get through 00:36:18.639 --> 00:36:20.320 this fucking thing, right? You tell me I have 00:36:20.320 --> 00:36:23.340 to wake up every day and do the damn thing. So 00:36:23.340 --> 00:36:24.940 shouldn't I get a little bit of choice in how 00:36:24.940 --> 00:36:27.039 I do the damn thing? Yeah, like, if we want to 00:36:27.039 --> 00:36:28.860 go to work tour, we're gonna fucking go to work 00:36:28.860 --> 00:36:30.420 or we don't have to get a babysitter. I want 00:36:30.420 --> 00:36:34.000 to sleep until two because I did. I did, you 00:36:34.000 --> 00:36:36.800 know, yeah, I when I'm not I want to sleep in 00:36:36.800 --> 00:36:38.760 on the weekends. Mike doesn't have things planned. 00:36:39.219 --> 00:36:40.940 Exactly. I think when you've lived a certain 00:36:40.940 --> 00:36:43.920 kind of life, especially like a childhood, that's 00:36:43.920 --> 00:36:49.349 been Maybe not super stable or or you feel like 00:36:49.349 --> 00:36:56.090 you were not Able to be very selfish. Yeah Like 00:36:56.090 --> 00:36:58.269 I feel like and I've not been through as much 00:36:58.269 --> 00:37:00.210 as some people whatever this is Olympics, but 00:37:00.210 --> 00:37:04.329 like I had a rough start especially to my own 00:37:04.329 --> 00:37:07.409 adulthood like I had I had a rough like early 00:37:07.409 --> 00:37:10.469 20s and Sometimes I feel like I set myself back 00:37:10.469 --> 00:37:12.530 a little bit because of some things that happened 00:37:12.530 --> 00:37:15.289 with my mental health and then just Who I was 00:37:15.289 --> 00:37:17.730 associating with and whatever I could go on all 00:37:17.730 --> 00:37:21.989 day. But my point is I'm really enjoying living 00:37:21.989 --> 00:37:24.690 my life for me Yeah, you know because I don't 00:37:24.690 --> 00:37:28.449 think I really got to do that In a way that was 00:37:28.449 --> 00:37:30.090 fulfilling. I'm not saying I didn't make self 00:37:30.090 --> 00:37:32.150 decisions I'm not saying I didn't do things for 00:37:32.150 --> 00:37:37.489 me and to you know spur my life forward but there 00:37:37.489 --> 00:37:41.230 was a lot of like Anguish there and there were 00:37:41.230 --> 00:37:43.730 some things that were not I wasn't able to feel 00:37:43.730 --> 00:37:46.570 fulfilled Because it's what I wanted and live 00:37:46.570 --> 00:37:49.389 the life that worked for me I was kind of putting 00:37:49.389 --> 00:37:52.869 myself and being put into boxes To try and succeed 00:37:52.869 --> 00:37:54.949 in a life that really didn't work for me for 00:37:54.949 --> 00:37:56.769 a lot of reasons whether that's my mental health 00:37:56.769 --> 00:37:58.849 whether that's just like what I enjoy and how 00:37:58.849 --> 00:38:02.329 I want to live my life my views on things whatever 00:38:02.329 --> 00:38:05.909 and I'm finally getting to do that, you know 00:38:05.909 --> 00:38:10.079 and Don't think that I would be one of those 00:38:10.079 --> 00:38:12.360 people who like everything has to change when 00:38:12.360 --> 00:38:14.619 I have a kid because I'm a little older and I'm 00:38:14.619 --> 00:38:19.440 a little established but also I'm not ready to 00:38:19.440 --> 00:38:23.039 risk that because I feel like I haven't had enough 00:38:23.039 --> 00:38:27.960 time to just Be me. Yeah and be in my life and 00:38:27.960 --> 00:38:30.280 do what I want to do for me who you want to be 00:38:30.280 --> 00:38:36.539 be a RBI me, you know, oh, yeah, I mean childhood 00:38:36.539 --> 00:38:39.820 wise. Yeah, I mean, I like both my sister and 00:38:39.820 --> 00:38:42.260 I grew up too fast. Yeah, like we didn't get 00:38:42.260 --> 00:38:45.760 to have a real childhood. Yep. Because we had 00:38:45.760 --> 00:38:50.219 to take care of ourselves and take care of our 00:38:50.219 --> 00:38:53.059 parents. Yes. And like, well, yes, we did have 00:38:53.059 --> 00:38:56.480 support with like, our grandma and like, Amarillo 00:38:56.480 --> 00:38:58.619 Uncle Doug. Yeah, like we had people there to 00:38:58.619 --> 00:39:02.690 like, make sure that Like it wasn't like a five 00:39:02.690 --> 00:39:04.130 -year -old taking care of themselves. You know, 00:39:04.190 --> 00:39:06.909 I mean, I wasn't a dateline episode. No, no We 00:39:06.909 --> 00:39:10.909 had support we had help but like it's different. 00:39:11.050 --> 00:39:15.530 Yeah, exactly. It's different and I Don't know. 00:39:15.849 --> 00:39:19.829 I don't want to subject a Kid to that. I don't 00:39:19.829 --> 00:39:21.309 think that's gonna be me and Mike obviously, 00:39:21.389 --> 00:39:24.949 but like I also Grew up too fast and I just want 00:39:24.949 --> 00:39:27.420 to have a good time Yeah, I'm here for a good 00:39:27.420 --> 00:39:28.940 time. Not a long time. That's exactly what I'm 00:39:28.940 --> 00:39:31.300 saying I'm enjoying being able to have a good 00:39:31.300 --> 00:39:35.199 time and pursue things and just kind of be unapologetically 00:39:35.199 --> 00:39:38.159 me and I'm not saying I couldn't do that with 00:39:38.159 --> 00:39:40.980 a kid, but I know things might change and I don't 00:39:40.980 --> 00:39:44.340 want to be a parent that's like Super selfish. 00:39:44.800 --> 00:39:47.719 I want to be able to to be what my kid needs 00:39:47.719 --> 00:39:51.159 while also be myself And I don't think I'm ready 00:39:51.159 --> 00:39:54.219 to toe that line and maybe I never will be yeah 00:39:54.219 --> 00:39:56.480 some people Maybe you're not ready when it starts 00:39:56.480 --> 00:39:58.420 and you fucking you get ready because there it 00:39:58.420 --> 00:40:01.039 is. Like I don't I don't know that my mom was 00:40:01.039 --> 00:40:04.039 ready. She was she got ready. She figured it 00:40:04.039 --> 00:40:06.380 out. I'm sure you can. I'm sure you I don't know 00:40:06.380 --> 00:40:08.519 that I want to have to do that under that kind 00:40:08.519 --> 00:40:11.239 of pressure. And if I never feel like I can, 00:40:11.340 --> 00:40:13.340 then maybe that's my answer. And I feel like 00:40:13.340 --> 00:40:17.059 I'm OK with that. Yeah, I don't. Every time the 00:40:17.059 --> 00:40:18.920 biological clock thing happens, I really do. 00:40:19.000 --> 00:40:23.059 It's the same thing of like. moment of panic 00:40:23.059 --> 00:40:26.780 like oh my god I'm 30 I always said if I was 00:40:26.780 --> 00:40:29.940 gonna have a kid I should probably get knocked 00:40:29.940 --> 00:40:34.480 up before I'm 30 here I am what do I do now and 00:40:34.480 --> 00:40:38.460 then what if I can't and then it's like kind 00:40:38.460 --> 00:40:41.559 of okay with that yeah what if I can't oh well 00:40:41.559 --> 00:40:44.219 oh well you know I think I don't think that would 00:40:44.219 --> 00:40:47.239 matter to me And that's where I come down on 00:40:47.239 --> 00:40:49.320 the whole biological clock scenario. Yeah, it 00:40:49.320 --> 00:40:51.539 happens. It ticks. It gets scary for about 45 00:40:51.539 --> 00:40:54.340 seconds. Yeah, I remember that it's like just 00:40:54.340 --> 00:40:57.139 not that much of a priority. So it's okay. Yeah. 00:40:57.500 --> 00:40:59.320 I mean, there's been a couple times where I looked 00:40:59.320 --> 00:41:02.340 at Mike and like, do you do you wanna? Yeah. 00:41:02.340 --> 00:41:04.260 And he was like, no, I was like, thank you for 00:41:04.260 --> 00:41:06.539 really being back in. Yes. That's all I needed. 00:41:06.539 --> 00:41:10.260 So with him deciding to take the plunge, if you 00:41:10.260 --> 00:41:14.559 will, and get his dick cut off or whatever. I'm 00:41:14.559 --> 00:41:16.239 kidding. I know what a vasectomy is. I just like 00:41:16.239 --> 00:41:21.300 to be a dick. But with deciding to do that. Well, 00:41:21.300 --> 00:41:23.320 it's reversible, technically. Of course. Yeah, 00:41:23.320 --> 00:41:25.739 I know. But I'm just saying, like, I'm curious, 00:41:25.980 --> 00:41:28.460 like, I know you can't speak for him. But like, 00:41:28.760 --> 00:41:30.539 what's that been? What was that decision like 00:41:30.539 --> 00:41:34.239 as a couple of like, coming to terms of like 00:41:34.239 --> 00:41:38.420 doing something quote unquote permanent and you 00:41:38.420 --> 00:41:40.260 knowing for sure you're on the same page there? 00:41:40.559 --> 00:41:42.480 There was like almost no discussion. He was like, 00:41:42.599 --> 00:41:44.940 yeah, I'll do it. You asked him to do it. Well, 00:41:44.940 --> 00:41:48.699 we just like talked like especially Recently 00:41:48.699 --> 00:41:54.380 when things for women were being taken away true 00:41:54.380 --> 00:41:57.420 true Mike's like yeah, I'm gonna do this which 00:41:57.420 --> 00:41:59.639 is great for him. Yeah way to go Mike. Mm -hmm 00:41:59.639 --> 00:42:01.539 He's the best. Yeah, we've talked about it when 00:42:01.539 --> 00:42:04.420 we're at this age what it's like we could still 00:42:04.420 --> 00:42:09.639 We might still be fertile But we don't know myrtle. 00:42:09.639 --> 00:42:12.889 Yep we don't want to do it right now, you do 00:42:12.889 --> 00:42:14.929 have to start making kind of like game time calls 00:42:14.929 --> 00:42:17.550 of like, okay, well, maybe we should do something 00:42:17.550 --> 00:42:21.210 about this. And you guys did. Well, I also because 00:42:21.210 --> 00:42:25.349 I was considering getting a hit tubes, tubes 00:42:25.349 --> 00:42:27.989 tied. Yeah, I was a hysterectomist. I talked 00:42:27.989 --> 00:42:31.030 to my GI doctor about that, because like, they're 00:42:31.030 --> 00:42:32.550 still going into your stomach. They're still 00:42:32.550 --> 00:42:34.730 like, yeah, and you have cutting in all of the 00:42:34.730 --> 00:42:38.789 things. And he was just like, well, you'd have 00:42:38.789 --> 00:42:41.199 to make sure that you're not inflamed. Yeah. 00:42:41.539 --> 00:42:44.760 And do I want to risk potentially getting nicked? 00:42:45.519 --> 00:42:47.880 Or like, obviously, they do these things all 00:42:47.880 --> 00:42:53.079 the time. But like, there's a higher chance of 00:42:53.079 --> 00:42:55.900 like a complication because of my Crohn's and 00:42:55.900 --> 00:42:58.000 because of my inflammation. Yeah. Well, for women, 00:42:58.239 --> 00:43:00.639 and for people who have like their reproductive 00:43:00.639 --> 00:43:04.130 organs internal, yeah, it's a bigger surgery. 00:43:04.389 --> 00:43:07.070 It's like Mike was awake. Yeah, maybe this is 00:43:07.070 --> 00:43:08.750 another reason why I don't want to have kids. 00:43:08.969 --> 00:43:11.150 I don't need I don't want everyone looking in 00:43:11.150 --> 00:43:14.329 there. Get away from me, dude. Because like part 00:43:14.329 --> 00:43:16.869 of me is like everyone's down. I'd rather it 00:43:16.869 --> 00:43:19.570 just I think the goal for most people is to be 00:43:19.570 --> 00:43:21.750 able to do it naturally and just but that also 00:43:21.750 --> 00:43:26.250 seems like it's gonna hurt. I think if by some 00:43:26.250 --> 00:43:29.849 weird thing that happened that I have a child. 00:43:30.429 --> 00:43:33.449 I think I would rather just like schedule a c 00:43:33.449 --> 00:43:35.230 -section and call it a day. Me too. But people 00:43:35.230 --> 00:43:38.769 are like, oh, but the but the recovery is bad. 00:43:39.030 --> 00:43:40.809 I don't care. I don't think I care either. But 00:43:40.809 --> 00:43:43.309 this is also the thing. I'm talking about this, 00:43:43.690 --> 00:43:46.269 like a total dumbass because I haven't experienced 00:43:46.269 --> 00:43:49.110 it. I've never had a surgery. Well, I've had 00:43:49.110 --> 00:43:51.550 colonoscopies. I've never had any. But I'm asleep. 00:43:51.659 --> 00:43:54.280 I've never had a surgery. The most I've had is 00:43:54.280 --> 00:43:56.639 the... I mean, can they really count colonoscopy 00:43:56.639 --> 00:43:59.940 as a surgery? They just put a camera up my butthole. 00:44:00.300 --> 00:44:03.119 I don't know. I've never had one. I've never 00:44:03.119 --> 00:44:04.760 had any kind of surgery. I think it's considered 00:44:04.760 --> 00:44:07.539 a surgery, but like, they're not cutting anything 00:44:07.539 --> 00:44:13.500 open. They're just up my butt and into my colon. 00:44:13.840 --> 00:44:16.860 Yeah. So I think it's okay. It's definitely fine. 00:44:16.940 --> 00:44:20.280 It's fine. I don't think... Like I haven't had 00:44:20.280 --> 00:44:22.900 like an action like a surgery beyond that. Yeah, 00:44:22.900 --> 00:44:26.400 I've never had anything. Um, so Like fuck me 00:44:26.400 --> 00:44:28.199 for talking about it right for being like, yeah, 00:44:28.219 --> 00:44:30.739 just cut it out. Who cares? Like I don't know 00:44:30.739 --> 00:44:33.739 anything about anything. Um I did hear though 00:44:33.739 --> 00:44:35.260 that when they do that, they'd have to take your 00:44:35.260 --> 00:44:37.840 organs out and put them in bowls And I don't 00:44:37.840 --> 00:44:40.139 like that. Yeah, not wild. I don't like that 00:44:40.139 --> 00:44:43.960 idea, you know, like what if They like go in 00:44:43.960 --> 00:44:47.150 there, right? Yeah, and I have like They find 00:44:47.150 --> 00:44:50.550 that I have like cancer on my something. But 00:44:50.550 --> 00:44:52.989 that's that's more about this. This is my hypochondria 00:44:52.989 --> 00:44:55.110 coming out. I have that kind of hypochondria 00:44:55.110 --> 00:44:57.429 where I always think I'm dying, but I don't want 00:44:57.429 --> 00:45:00.010 to do anything about it. Same. I'm scared to 00:45:00.010 --> 00:45:01.730 death of going to the doctor. I'm scared to death 00:45:01.730 --> 00:45:03.610 of having tests. When I have blood work, I like 00:45:03.610 --> 00:45:05.710 I like hyperventilate. It's bad. And it's not 00:45:05.710 --> 00:45:07.090 because I'm scared of needles or blood. I don't 00:45:07.090 --> 00:45:09.130 give a shit about that. I'm afraid that they're 00:45:09.130 --> 00:45:13.829 going to tell me I'm dying. So I don't go. Unless 00:45:13.829 --> 00:45:15.889 something is really really bad and even then 00:45:15.889 --> 00:45:17.869 I'm like, do you think I'm having an embolism? 00:45:18.530 --> 00:45:20.170 Do you want to go to the hospital? Absolutely 00:45:20.170 --> 00:45:21.969 not. I just want to know if you think I'm having 00:45:21.969 --> 00:45:26.110 one That happens at least once a month here Justin 00:45:26.110 --> 00:45:29.090 loves it. I'm sure he yeah, he's like, you know 00:45:29.090 --> 00:45:30.769 what? I said, yes, I'm just putting you in the 00:45:30.769 --> 00:45:32.889 car and we're gonna go to the hospital. I was 00:45:32.889 --> 00:45:35.329 like, never mind I'll never tell you again. I'll 00:45:35.329 --> 00:45:43.000 just do it. I'll die impromptu obituary that 00:45:43.000 --> 00:45:47.019 says I did this because of you. Jesus Christ. 00:45:47.199 --> 00:45:48.820 Yeah, we should have a kid for sure. They should 00:45:48.820 --> 00:45:55.340 hear this. Well, this was fun. We just we like 00:45:55.340 --> 00:45:57.239 to have our real talks and you know, they can't 00:45:57.239 --> 00:46:00.599 ever get too super serial. Never super serious. 00:46:00.760 --> 00:46:02.539 Just a little cereal. Like to have fun. Real 00:46:02.539 --> 00:46:04.699 talks can be fun if you're honest and you're 00:46:04.699 --> 00:46:08.000 willing to cope with some humor and just not 00:46:08.000 --> 00:46:09.900 care what people think about what your opinion 00:46:09.900 --> 00:46:11.480 on this is and that's kind of like where we come 00:46:11.480 --> 00:46:13.980 down so we wanted to have this conversation hope 00:46:13.980 --> 00:46:16.139 it helps you be more open about what your thoughts 00:46:16.139 --> 00:46:17.760 and feelings are whether they align with ours 00:46:17.760 --> 00:46:19.920 or whether they don't it's totally cool whatever 00:46:19.920 --> 00:46:22.980 your whatever your reaction to that tick -tock 00:46:22.980 --> 00:46:25.980 of your biological clock is you know the party 00:46:25.980 --> 00:46:29.340 don't stop i was more thinking of hunger games 00:46:29.340 --> 00:46:31.619 tick -tock tick -tock i've never watched hungry 00:46:31.619 --> 00:46:35.269 games oh really no oh But I think this was a 00:46:35.269 --> 00:46:37.130 fun conversation I like talking about this kind 00:46:37.130 --> 00:46:38.929 of stuff and if you do too You should definitely 00:46:38.929 --> 00:46:41.489 listen to all of our real talks and make sure 00:46:41.489 --> 00:46:44.369 you're following us wherever you podcast Spotify 00:46:44.369 --> 00:46:49.269 Apple podcasts Amazon music Google podcast I 00:46:49.269 --> 00:46:50.869 don't fucking know wherever you're at wherever 00:46:50.869 --> 00:46:53.269 you're at right now Hit the little button and 00:46:53.269 --> 00:46:55.170 we'll be there and you can listen to us. Yeah, 00:46:55.170 --> 00:46:56.829 we're back, baby We had to take a little break 00:46:56.829 --> 00:47:00.170 baby because Corning was lost in the ocean, but 00:47:00.170 --> 00:47:03.900 we found her. It's cool. She's back For now. 00:47:04.360 --> 00:47:06.360 Yeah, if there's anything particularly you guys 00:47:06.360 --> 00:47:08.500 want to hear from us, you should let us know 00:47:08.500 --> 00:47:10.340 because we're at one of those. We're near the 00:47:10.340 --> 00:47:13.659 midpoint of season seven. So we're kind of reevaluating 00:47:13.659 --> 00:47:16.360 what we what the excuse me what the rest of the 00:47:16.360 --> 00:47:18.219 season is going to look like. So if there's anything 00:47:18.219 --> 00:47:19.760 in particular you want to hear, but it's also 00:47:19.760 --> 00:47:21.280 our favorite thing. So we're going to choose 00:47:21.280 --> 00:47:23.139 our favorite things anyways. Yeah, but you're 00:47:23.139 --> 00:47:25.219 welcome to throw ideas at the table. Yeah, because 00:47:25.219 --> 00:47:26.760 it could be our favorite thing. Yeah, you're 00:47:26.760 --> 00:47:29.460 you guys are our favorite things. Very true without 00:47:29.460 --> 00:47:32.340 you. We wouldn't have this we would not so also 00:47:32.340 --> 00:47:34.639 keep an eye out for all the fun stuff We're doing 00:47:34.639 --> 00:47:37.619 maybe merch We're still gonna do that this year. 00:47:37.800 --> 00:47:42.039 Yeah Yeah, she was in the ocean you guys mermaids 00:47:42.039 --> 00:47:44.619 attacking her it was a whole thing pirates. Yeah 00:47:44.619 --> 00:47:47.360 the Caribbean I was in the Caribbean dolphins 00:47:47.360 --> 00:47:58.469 whales sharks, etc Alright have a great day guys, 00:47:58.750 --> 00:48:09.550 bye! Bye! This week on Shitbox, everyone's fired!