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Good morning, good afternoon, and good evening everybody. It's your girl Sonia

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McQueen with your mind, your body, your choice. Wow, today this morning when I

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awakened I was reading my Bible as always and it was talking about a God of

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Second Chances and it just made me think of how many of us, and I don't mean

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biblically, I don't mean spiritually, I mean in your everyday walking life with

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other people have a chance at a second life, especially it's so prominent this

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day and age with social media. You know if you were extremely unpopular at

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school you can create a page and invite all these friends and be the coolest

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person ever. You know gaming, people are gaming with people who can't see them. I

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still don't understand that but you can actually play a video game with somebody

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across the world who can't see you and y'all can become best buds. You can video

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whatever it's called with several people who have no idea that you're a serial

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killer. You know you have this opportunity to create a new persona, a new

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person, be a new creature in the face of other people. Now here's the trick, either

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A, you're changing to become a better person and people who already know you

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just don't trust it. You know you you fooled them before or they just not

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giving you an opportunity. Maybe you are genuine and you are trying to change.

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Maybe you were on drugs and you stopped doing drugs and it's been five six years.

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You haven't touched a drug in all this time and not a drip of alcohol, nothing

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but people still want to remind you of where you used to be or they tell other

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people, oh man you got to be careful letting her in your house because you

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know she's a drug addict. You know they just won't let you be this new great

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person and this is your second chance to become the type of person people trust.

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They like, they want to be around, they can leave their wallet or purse around

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you, they can trust you with their kids or the keys to their home or whatever or

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whatever but other people are holding you to what you used to be. So that second

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opportunity might have to come another way. Social media, you open a page you

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don't invite any of those people, it's a private page, it's not public and you

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meet a whole new world of people. Maybe you join a couple of the online clubs on

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social media and you're getting friends through that avenue. Maybe they're in

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your own town and you get to go out and you get to meet them and they become

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fast friends and you have a second chance at being this new person. You know

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let me talk to some of the people who haven't done things right by other

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people. Maybe you were an abuser, maybe you used to be your significant other,

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you used to abuse your children and maybe you found God, maybe you just found

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another way to live and you see the wrongs of your ways. You were raised that

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away so that's all you knew but now you know better and it's been years but

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people won't let you live it down. That's harder. I wasn't abused, you know, I

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wasn't, I never had a weapon, I've said that before. I wasn't abused physically

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and I could actually say I'm in that boat because I've said it before, my stepmother

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treated me, did think of Cinderella, take that times five and that was her

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treatment towards me and now as an adult when I see her I speak but I keep it

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moving. I had to forgive her but I'll never forget so I'll never let her in my

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space. That's different right but you want to and she never apologized. Let me

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throw that out there. Maybe if she apologized then was genuine and we talked

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about it maybe it would be a different situation but you know how it is you go

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to apologize to people and you're sincere you mean it from the bottom of

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your heart and they really don't forgive you. They don't forgive you and they

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never let you live it down and they'll tell other people you get into a new

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relationship be careful. So-and-so beats people go look at the police reports go

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do this go do that and they systematically on purpose ruin relationships

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for you and you keep trying to have the second chance but people are pigeon

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holding you to what you used to be. You know you got a maneuver maybe you got to

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sit that person down and from the bottom of your heart apologize. Tell them what

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you did wrong don't don't tell them what they've done wrong tell them what you

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did wrong apologize for your actions and be sincere with it you never know how

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that could affect people so often people apologize and in the midst of their

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apology they want to tell you what you've done though or what pushed them to do

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that because of your actions and your this and it becomes not an apology but

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an excuse. There's such a big difference I acted this way and I'm sorry I acted

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this way but if you would have never done if you would have never said if you

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would have never went and it becomes an excuse and the apology is thrown out the

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window when it's negated by a but.

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Why don't you throw that but out there the apology is gone so apologize from

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your heart apologize from your soul. Do not turn it into a but and if and when

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but just I'm sorry please accept my apology I was wrong I should have never

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but I did and I apologize for that. You know I spoke I hope I already posted

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this podcast but I spoke about how I had a friend who her her husband used to

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beat her and we tried to help her a couple of times but then we would notice

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she would do things like throw stuff at him and belittle him and call him every

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name in the book which would incite him and his temper would flare and he would

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put his hands on her and then she would scream bloody murder and he would feel

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remorseful she'd have a black eye, bust a lip whatever she would call the police

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he go to jail and then after a couple of days they're back together she's in

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love he's in love and then he does something she's calling him every name

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in the book throwing stuff breaking stuff trying to hit him with things

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jumping on him and then once again he puts his hands on her she calls the

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police she got a black eye, bust a lip and it's such a vicious cycle it's a

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crazy crazy insane cycle but I've heard of that I've heard I've literally had a

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friend tell me she didn't feel love unless her mate put his hands on her and

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then she felt like he loved her you know how crazy that sounds to me but I don't

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know what she's been through in her life but you know what with the proper

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treatment and the proper help from somebody outside of their relationship

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they both could have a second chance either with each other or with somebody

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else but being stuck in that vicious cycle is horrific if you have kids they

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see it and next thing you know it's a generational curse if you don't have kids

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you could end up in the hospital in prison doing longer time or even worse

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and y'all know what the even worse is take the ability to have a second

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chance seriously don't use those words I've said this before don't use the

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words oh I'll always be like this I've been like this all my life I'm always

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gonna be like this you're speaking that into your life you're speaking it into

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existence it doesn't have to be like that you are speaking a high rate of

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negativity into your own life and you're taking ownership of it like it's

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something to be proud of like it's a badge of honor to be mean to be rude to

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be a thief to be a liar to do drugs to be an alcoholic to beat your mate

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because you've seen it to beat your kids it's been like this all my life ain't

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nothing gonna change you're right nothing good is coming to you as long as you

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hold on to that and you speak it into your own existence you know I had a

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second chance and a third chance and a fourth chance and I took advantage of

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each and every one of them God only knows what chance I'm on now but this

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chance is a wonderful chance the word spoken to me moved to Florida or not

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moved to Florida but move from here you're gonna meet your husband you're

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gonna walk into your purpose all true and I'm living that life now the words

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spoken to me by somebody I greatly admire and love you are unstable totally

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changed the way I was thinking and moving because nobody had ever been honest

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with me before everybody just talked about me behind my back but nobody had I

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don't even want to say the courage because most people in my family were

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strong they're strong but nobody ever said it to my face those words you are

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unstable made me plant my feet on solid ground and say you know what I'm gonna

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change that and I did and I had another chance and I have been working my butt

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off to live this second part of my life in nothing but love and positivity y'all

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hence the reason for these podcasts which was part of my healing journey I

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don't listen to my talk I think I listened to one podcast and I was

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impressed I'm not gonna lie to y'all I was impressed but if I go back and

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listen to some of the first ones I bet you I'm screaming out for help and love

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and encouragement and don't get me wrong my husband gives me all that God knew

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what he was doing when he gave me this man and I have friends who breathe life

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into me in this uptink chance so I give it back now tenfold I think of the

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people around me now tenfold I'm a annual giver to St. Jude's and I run for

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St. Jude so you know I'm gonna give you guys my my hashtag or whatever it is

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pretty soon and you know I pray that some of y'all you know give a donation

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to so St. Jude and and find something charitable that you believe in I love

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St. Jude because all that money goes to helping those children all of it all of

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it you know it's not to me there was a cancer I'm not gonna say which one I

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used to give to and the higher-ups are living large they're living in mansions

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and stuff and and you're still paying money and if you don't have enough money

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you you can't do this and you can't do that and that it's hurting people but

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they're getting billions of dollars but St. Jude families don't pay a dollar

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not a nickel to help save their kids lives how could I not get behind that and

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last year was my first year and I think I've said this before I'm just proud it

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was my first year I was the number one and we're talking teams people do you

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know they they create teams and everybody on the team you know ask for

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donations I didn't have a team it was just me and for the longest I was the

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number one I got the most donations but at the very end two teams came out ahead

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of me so I was the third overall with donations but I was all by myself it

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just shows you know people genuinely care and it was just beautiful but I

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digress I got off topic a little bit no I didn't because it's my chance I used to

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do this you know I used to help the homeless I used to feed the homeless I

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used to give put stuff in my car when I seen a homeless person I I give them

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stuff I used to give money to people on the corners I stopped that when I seen a

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couple of specials about that I stopped that but if somebody is on the corner if

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I see him in front of a store and they're begging hey you hungry I'll go buy you

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some food if they turn that down you good you want some water you want something

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to drink they turn that down to oh you're really good because that's what my money

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supposed to be going towards right but if I can't feed you or and get you

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something to drink and put a couple snacks on you then you don't need my

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money but I used to do all those things now I am committed to doing something

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full time in my aunt team chance so I said all that to say you guys you know

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if you're in a rut right now don't stay stuck there you have people against you

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family friends whatever and they're trying to pigeon hold you and hold you

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into something you used to do or you did years ago release release get your

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second chance get your third chance get your 20th chance it doesn't matter get

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it run and get it quickly and if you have to block people remember my funeral

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for the living I killed off so many people during that time so I could heal

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and once I healed I Lazarus them if you don't know who Lazarus is pull out your

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Bible and look up Lazarus but I had to start bringing some of those people back

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into my life because now I know your position and you can't harm me you can't

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you're trying to hold me in my pack is your issue even the ones lying you know

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I think I've told you guys I people with my family still think I've been on

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drugs I used to be on drugs I am on drugs whatever I've never done drugs ever

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never was an alcoholic ever I have been sick from drinking maybe four to five

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times my entire life I have drank hard alcohol well I can't count that but I

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am a wine or beer drinker wine or beer maybe twice a month one glass one beer

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I've been a beer drinker since I was 17 when I shouldn't have been drinking but

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even then okay I drink a 40 ounce I would get sick and throw up but still

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that's the harshest I've ever done but to this day there are people in my family

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who believe otherwise and as their issue that's their issue God gave me a whole

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new family a whole new family you know I I'm gonna move away from that because

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this is about you and I really feel like a couple you need a second beginning so

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go ahead go get it don't feel bad about it don't feel guilty go ahead and have

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your funeral for the living if you want to later on have your Lazarus rising if

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you need to get off of social media for a while to do so do it do it there are

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people on social media who every day they post five six seven eight nine ten

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eleven posts from Sun up to Sun down their posting and I used to think man

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what a miserable life they must be living off of social media you know

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they're trying to show their best life but they are recording it all but then

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today when I heard my Bible thing I thought you know what this is probably

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their second chance third four fifth chance or they really are enjoying their

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life and they want to share it with everybody in the world you never know

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my assumptions are silly people assuming is crazy about other people's lives we

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got to stop doing that as well now sometimes I like to use my imagination

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and you know if you see a couple or something I imagine their whole life

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what they're going through whatever that's just me being in a writer but you

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know go ahead y'all get your seconds your third your fifths your fiftieth your

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hundreds it don't matter go get it and live it to the best of your ability

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alright this is your girl Sonya McQueen I'm gonna get off of this you know you

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can find me at Sonya M at ledbymotivation.com that's Sonya with a Y

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s o n y a m at ledbymotivation.com you can also send us an email at ledby

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motivation 07 at Gmail or you can check us out on the web ledbymotivation.com

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and have a good day on purpose