So you know what everybody, most of us don't
avoid looking inward because we don't care. We
avoid it because we're not sure what we're going
to find there if we do look inward. You know,
there's a question I have. Is there anything
that you've been quietly avoiding to look at?
And if so, why? Not because you don't want to
change, but because maybe you don't know. What's
there? Maybe sometimes we get a little bit afraid
of what might be there. And I know that we all
have at least dealt with this and maybe I'll
still continue to at least at some level. You
know, the crazy thing about this is this is really
kind of normal. It's human. This was actually
part of Heavenly Father's plan for us when the
fall of Adam and Eve was incorporated as one
of the pillars of eternity. Welcome out to Redeem
Through His Blood. This is Scott Durfee. We're
super excited to bring you another episode where
we focus on another step of recovery. We have
our great friends Nick and Crystal here with
us today. Hello, Nick. Hey guys, so happy to
be here. Crystal, how are you? Good, how are
you? Good, and of course we have the lovely Princess
Deborah Durfee with us as always. Hi Deb. Hi
everyone. So, you know, here we are, we're in
April, last month. was, of course, March. March
being the third month, we focused on the third
step. The third step was really, in fact, the
first three steps, guys, were really centric
to what we talked about in this podcast, establishing
and developing and cultivating and abiding within
a relationship with deity through. our Heavenly
Father, Son, Jesus Christ. We do that in step
one. We recognize we're powerless. We're natural
men. We're sinners. We're just powerless. Two,
we come to know Him and that it's through Him
that we can regain sanity. Sanity can look like
a bunch of different things. It can look like
peace and a million other things, potentially.
And then we make a decision. And then that decision,
that's step three. That's what we talked about
last week. In that decision, that's when we decide
to walk hand in hand with him and begin to turn
our will over to him. The question then becomes,
how do we begin to turn our will over to him?
So Nick, we're going to roll right into step
four. Help us understand the correlation there.
What makes step four essential following three?
So maybe some of your experience with it. I don't
know perfect. Thank you so step four the beauty
of step four is is this is where the rubber starts
to hit the road, you know steps one two and three
are More like an internal, you know, I'm I'm
like, okay, I can't do it on my own All right,
I need God's help and I'm gonna I'm gonna let
him help me but But now what? And so step four
is about what's, what's blocking us from the
spirit, you know, and, and, uh, I kind of, I
like to, um, envision that I've got this tube
of light that kind of comes into my chest, into
my heart, you know, and, and that's God's light
shining into me. And we've all got that. And,
and it isn't that God ever took his spirit away
from me or stop shining that light. It's that
I filled that tube up with bricks that blocked
that light from coming in. And step four, we
begin to take a look at what those bricks are,
and then we start to look at the truth behind
them. And in some of the recovery literature,
it talks about how every serious emotional problem
can be seen as a case of misdirected instinct.
This is what the natural man is made up of. God
designed us with these instincts, the sex instinct,
the instinct for material and emotional security,
the instinct for an important place in society.
These are the things that get out of whack and
then they begin to drive us. So it says, When
we want to find out exactly how, when, and where
our natural desires have warped us, we wish to
look squarely at the unhappiness this has caused
others and ourselves by discovering what our
emotional deformities are. We can move toward
their correction. My own personal experience
with this is that I've heard a quote that says,
I've been walking around in life asleep, dreaming
I was awake. And what I love about that is that
for the majority of my life, I was completely
asleep to what was truly driving my behavior.
And what step four really gets into is looking
at how... I'm holding others responsible for
how I feel, you know, it focuses specifically
on resentments, you know, and so it's that blame,
like, oh, if my parents wouldn't have done this,
then I wouldn't be this way, or, oh, if, you
know, my boss at work wasn't whatever, then I
would be happier, you know, and so it goes through
and shows me how to get free from those things,
but then it dives into fear, you know, and fear
is really the big driver. And it shows how fear
is really a lack of trust or faith. When I'm
in fear, it's because I'm shouldering the burden
myself instead of being yoked with the Savior.
And the cool thing about step four is it gives
us some tools and some prayers to work with on
how to start surrendering these things to the
Savior. And that's exactly why we do it. So we
can start surrendering these things to the Savior
so that that spiritual light will no longer be
blocked by the bricks in your tube, right? Exactly.
Yeah, it clears them out. Well, Deb, explain
to us, what is step four? Well, I think it's
totally appropriate that you say fear -based,
because it's a fearless and moral inventory.
You're taking, I call it, mirror work. You're
putting the mirror in front of your face and
you are looking yourself in your very own eye
and you're like, who am I and what am I doing?
Why am I here? Where am I going? Where did I
come from? What is the ultimate destination?
And I think for me personally, getting raw and
fearless is not for anyone but myself. I feel
like I was sharing this a little bit earlier,
but as a child, there were some things that happened
to me. And therefore, as a child, I acted out.
And that was one of those guilts or that shame
or that fear that I suppressed deep in the bottom
of my every soul. And I didn't want to talk about
it. I didn't want to bring it up. I didn't want
to admit it. And so when I started my step work,
and exposed, it was all just recent stuff. I
didn't go back to things that, and you've heard
this saying, I'll take that to my grave, or no
one will ever know this. And it was one of those
things that I personally, once I was able to,
and it was the second time around working through
this personal and moral, fearless, fearless and
moral inventory, that I truly was able to say
it out loud and go, I didn't just die. It didn't
kill me because I honestly thought by saying
what had happened to me and what I had the behavior
that I had acted out on was like the unforgivable.
It was just in my brain. It was horrific. And
I think that literally taught me more about even
looking in the mirror at myself and knowing it's
all out. There's no sealed room. There's no sealed
spot. There's no sealed secret. And we often
hear we're only as sick as our secrets. And they
can cause dis -ease in the body. I truly believe
that. I think that as we don't face our fear
and we keep shoving and shoving and shoving,
I feel like fear can be. damning in more ways
than just spiritually. I think it can be a physical
pain or element. Step four really is what you
just said. We take a fearless and searching moral
inventory of ourselves. And I think, Nick, you
really hit the purpose of that. The purpose of
that is so that we can now... Begin to give that
to him right now that it's uncovered. We just
give it to him. We talked to him about it Crystal
you come at it from just a slightly different
perspective. Maybe But you still have a lot of
different, you know, with your experience with
going through what you and Nick have been through
and putting your family back together. And gang,
for those of you who don't know Nick and Crystal,
we're going to encourage you to go back several
episodes ago. We had these guys on. It should
be easy to find. I'll try and reference it and
maybe even link it in the show notes. But if
you don't know Nick and Crystal's story, you're
really missing out. And this episode will actually
have way more impact on you if you understand
from the vantage point or the perspective that
these two bring, especially with their relationship,
their marriage, and their kids, and all of that.
So anyway, now that I've prefaced it. Yeah, Crystal.
I mean, I feel like I just, you know, being a
part of this conversation is really good for
me. I feel like I sit here and I just learn from
all of you because I'm still learning how to
work the steps. And like, I'm thinking, you know,
why do I avoid looking inward? Sometimes I just
I don't know how to do the work at time. I think
like my younger self would have been like, I'm
trying. I just don't know. Like, tell me how
to do it. Right. I remember when I was younger,
my dad would be like, I would come to him and
say, you know, why does this keep happening to
me? Or why am I in the same spot? And he would
say, well, what are you doing that's contributing
to this? I can't remember exactly how he said
it, but basically it was like, what are you doing?
How are you getting in your own way? And I just
remember thinking like, I'm going to go to someone
else that's going to just be like, you poor thing.
Oh my gosh. Why does it keep happening to you?
And so, but the thing that he was doing, I think,
was just trying to help me get out of my own
way, right? How am I contributing to this? And
you can't change what you can't see about yourself.
So when you can start to look inward, you can
start to see, you know, maybe where you need
to develop a little bit more. And I think in
my mind at that time, I just felt like if I have
to say that I'm not doing it right or I, you
know, need to grow, like it didn't reflect the
sense of self that I wanted to believe I had.
Does that make sense? Like it didn't reinforce
my idea of what it means to be me. And it was
just a very black and white thought. And there's
a lot of fear in letting go of that belief or
that we grip to that. who am I or that perspective
or perception of who we think we are in that
moment and we grip to that because here's the
thing and this was true for me that there were
some character defects there were some things
you know that I found out through resentment
and fear and whatnot things that I needed to
take care of. There were some things in there
that didn't paint a very pretty picture of me,
at least by my perspective. It was exposing.
It exposed some scary things for me to confront.
And part of the reason that I didn't want to
confront them, because is once I confronted them,
then I no longer had that anchor to hold me back.
And there's sometimes, for me guys, there was
sometimes comfort in the anchor holding me back.
If I'm not responsible to change, if I'm not
responsible to grow, maybe I'll perceive that
as maybe an easier, softer way. Well for me,
it was easier for me to blame somebody else for
how I felt or what I was going through. And that
was. a really eye -opening experience when I
worked on my step four and put the mirror in
front of my face and said, what's my part? Because
to the world, you know, when you say, my husband
just cheated on me. What a gift. What's your
part? It's like I wanted to dig my sponsor's
eyes out. I'm like, well, I'm like, how is this
a gift? But honestly, it was such an eye -opening
event for me that it was like. I do have a part
of this. This is something that I get to look
at and I get to own my part, my contributions,
my perception of it. When you guys were doing
your four -step inventories, was there a theme
that popped up more than maybe others? For me,
I saw a lot of resentment. I saw a lot of fear.
both of those, just a ton of fear. I was a victim.
My fear actually drove most of my resentment
even. Maybe still does, I don't know. Did you
guys have anything that came up that was difficult?
Well, the thing that drove so much of the first
few inventories that I did was my fear of how
I think other people perceive me. My vanity is
hands down, it's the thing that will get my resentment
going so strong when I feel like somebody is
making me look bad. And it's been really interesting
to take a look at that, especially when it pops
up today, because it still pops up, but given
the tools, Now, like Deb was talking about, it's
a giant mirror. When I get angry at somebody
else, I know that they are reflecting back to
me an insecurity about myself that is driven
by fear like you were talking about. There's
a story that comes to mind. Crystal and I were
divorced for seven years while addiction tore
through my life and her life by proxy. Whatever
word. What in proxy, she was there. Yes, she
was there. She had a front row seat. She was
there. And thankfully, she left there for a little
while when things got real bad. And so we ended
up getting remarried last August. And I am bringing,
I brought a five -year -old along with me. When
we first got remarried, you know, it was like,
all right, God, like give us maybe a year to
settle in and then then maybe we'll take on this
other little one. And it was like three weeks
after we got remarried where it was like, nope,
she's coming and she's coming right now, which
has been amazing. But and she was being raised
by her grandparents. And so they've been amazing
people, like the greatest, you know, such a gift
for us. And she moved in with us, you know, and
it was not easy. And, you know, I ran through
this inventory with Scott last September, October,
when I did this inventory, but, you know, I started
seeing this behavior and it was really hard integrating
bringing our family back together, bringing our
other three kids, and then bringing this fourth
one in and trying to adjust to all the change.
And so I started getting really angry and really
resentful because... my five year old was not
behaving the way that I wanted her to. So therefore
she's making me look bad. And you know, so then
that resentment goes even further where I'm getting
angry with her grandma internally, you know,
and starting to blame and do these things and,
and intellectually like, okay, I can see that
this is absurd, you know, but the way that I
feel the emotions, they're so strong. And so
I wrote this out in the inventory process that
has us look at how does this affect your self
-esteem? How does this affect your pride? How
does this affect your ambition? How does this
affect your personal relationships? And so as
I went through and filled this out, what it was
is I was ashamed of what I had done. I had so
much fear bringing this little girl to live with
us. And then I was owned by what I thought other
people were going to think about me. And so I
needed her to act a certain way so that it would
portray me in a good light. And getting to the
truth of that and seeing that this is all driven
by fear. And then the fear inventory, it talks
about how we give this fear over to God and we
ask God what He would have us be. That's the
prayer. And so I wrote this prayer out. And the
answers came that it's going to be a lifelong
process, number one. There is no quick fix. And
that this is a blessing for us and our family.
And it's something that still crops up here and
there. But thankfully, it owned me for maybe
a week until I could write this out, run it by
another person. I ran it by Scott. I was like,
all right, here's what it is. This is, you know,
it sounds crazy, but this is what's really going
on inside of me. And then, and then it's just
like, once I see the truth, it's like that thing
that's blocking me is just gone. Yeah. My sponsor
referred to that as the way to move that is what
I don't want you to know about me is I wish you
said that. My eyes got really big, and I was
like, whoa, OK, let's do some really deep inventory.
I love that. You know, I think the benefit, Nick,
to doing the work, and it's work. Let's be honest.
100%. It's not easy. A lot of emotions. Yeah,
there's a lot of things. And this isn't a one
and done. I mean, when we get to step 10 in October,
we'll talk about how we continue to take personal
inventory. And when we're wrong, we promptly
admit it every day. which is a maintenance step
and it's much less threatening. Intense. Intense.
That's the word. But the thing that was difficult
for me is, especially with the fear inventory,
I'm so fear -based. It's shame -based and fear
-driven, actually. Shame comes from my fear.
One thing I have to give you credit for is you
were known as angry. and you had a ton of anger.
Yeah, that's another story. And when you, I know,
and I watched you, first row seat, front row
seat, process through those anger. And this is
how I was able to actually do it. And recognize
fear. And that was so impressive to be able to
watch you unfold that. Well, I'll share that
story. I was this, how far along was I? I mean,
I was 15 years sober, maybe not quite, but Big
Al was my sponsor and I needed to do an inventory,
another four step on anger, just because it was
owning me. Every little thing, I would control
people with anger, I would, if I felt threatened,
fear, all anger. So I write my inventory out
on anger. and I'm sitting over there at Juice
and Java here in Orm, Utah, with Big Al, and
he's reading it through it, you know, and I'm
going through it with him, and he's reading it,
and we're chatting back and forth, and finally
at the end, he just kind of sets the notepad
down, and he says, he called me Durf, he said,
you know what, Durf, you're not angry, you're
just a scared little boy. And that was the most
accurate assessment anybody had ever made of
me. and maybe the bravest that anybody had ever
made to me. You know what I can do with that?
You know what I can do with fear? Especially
because I understand it. I can take that to Heavenly
Father. I can take that to the foot of the cross.
I can take that to my relationship with Him.
Well, and I again, as I was able to observe that
there was so much freedom that I got to watch.
You unfold. I am free today. Yeah. When you labeled
that as fear, it was, and that's when I literally
watched the shift. Well, and that's probably
true for all of us. Maybe all of us could speak
to this at some level, but when we look at fear,
the first question I have to ask myself is what
am I trying to control? Yeah. What is it? You
know for me? It's it's it's mostly Perspective
perception set the word or perspective management
where I'm trying to manage what you think of
me I've already y 'all have already brought that
up, but you know so that that's a lot of times.
That's the fear that drives me first My daughter
when you're talking about this it makes me think
of this I tell the story a lot just because I
think it's so cute, but when she was like seven,
eight years old. We lived in this house that
had long hallways or it was actually my mom's
house. So she would go over there and there were
long hallways. And when the lights were out,
the hallways were scary, right? But she was afraid
of witches. And so she did this all on her own.
And then she told me years later, she was like,
I was afraid of witches and I would go in the
hallway. And she's like, I just took a step in
the dark and was like, OK, witches, come and
get me. And she's like, I just stood there and
nothing happened. So I took a step further into
the dark and was like, OK, witches, come and
get me. And she's like, and nothing happened.
And she's like, so then from then on, I just
wasn't afraid of the hallways in the dark. And
I was like, I love that so much because that's
really what it is. It's taking a step into the
dark, not really knowing what you're going to
find. And when you confront it, you realize it's
really not that. It's scary, you know? She faced
her fears. She faced her fears. And on the other
side of that is freedom, you know? Yeah, exactly.
I love that analogy. That's exactly. Exposing
all of this inventory to him so that he can help
me carry it, what is it that, I mean, and I think
this is universal. We all, I think, get a little
bit held back. Why do you think that is? Sorry
to talk again, but I think sometimes the resentments
can be a motivator for me. where I'm like, okay,
I'll show them, right? I'll show them that I
can do this or be this person or whatever. And
then when I accomplish the goal and I don't get
the validation from them, whoever they are, then
I'm angry. And I'm like, how dare you not tell
me how good I am or whatever, you know what I
mean? And so sometimes I think in my weird way
of thinking, if I let it go, then what's gonna
motivate me to move forward? One of the really
cool things in recovery is being able to walk
other people through this process. And one of
the things that I like to do with my guys is
when we go through a fear inventory and when
we get to the root of the resentments, which
is fear, is we write out a prayer to God, it's
called the two -way prayer. And it comes in the
big book, it talks about how we let God demonstrate
through us what he can do and we give our fears
to him and then we ask him what he would have
us be. This is a practice that I do four or five
times a week in the morning. I like to inventory
the fears that I've got going on that morning,
write it out. I've heard it called love letters
to God. I write out my letter to God and then
God writes a letter back to me. I'll go through
and I'll catalog the things. I kind of view it
as my daily surrender. Here's what I'm giving
to you. I do it with these guys and so they will
write out their fear. Let's say it's one of the
guys that I just did this with a couple weeks
ago. He was talking about how he had this fear
that he would never be able to provide for his
family. He wouldn't be able to find a job. He's
newly sober. He's got a wife. and they have their
third kid on the way. And so he's writing out
this fear, you know, and then he writes this
letter to God, you know, God, I'm giving you
this fear. What would you have me be? You know,
and it's the answer is, you know, I would have
you be trusting. I've got a plan for you and
for your family. You're exactly where I want
you to be. And, you know, it's all of these very
reassuring things, but it's crazy because when
I do this with guys, I can literally watch them
begin to have their first experience with God.
You know, God does such amazing things with fear
because He is the opposite. of the fear. He brings
the peace in and I feel like it's part of the
game that he created with life. He's like, all
right, I'm gonna give you these emotions and
they're gonna be driven by fear and it's gonna
constantly be there every day and you've got
it every day as a reminder that you need me.
Because once that's gone, you've got a real short...
Remember, you know, you don't remember very long
that you need me so I've given you these character
defects I've given you these flaws I've given
you this fear, you know, I've given you this
this instinct that that Attaches to fear so that
you remember that you constantly need to turn
to me one of the effects of the fall of Adam
and Eve Exactly. Yeah. Yeah, and you know, it's
really amazing what's happened in my life by
acknowledging those fears and doing my best to
weed the garden, so to speak, on a daily basis
and turn those things over. It isn't that problems
go away, it's that there's a level of peace that
it's going to work out and I don't have to be
the one to figure it out. And today I just got
to do my best with what's in front of me. I don't
have to figure out all of the next 10 years and
how I'm going to get from point A to point B.
It comes down to like, all right, who can I help
today? Where can I be most useful? And I find
that by getting out of self... and trying to
focus on somebody else and do something to lift
somebody else, whether it's spend time with my
kids or at work, just be present and see where
I can be of service. I find that the fear tends
to go away and I'm a lot happier. I love that.
I love that. And it's so true. Yeah. The question
for me is, am I willing to look at it? Am I just
willing to look at it? But more than that, am
I willing to look at it with him, my character
defects, those things that I have going on, those
things that I still need to inventory or the
things that come up and need to be inventoried?
I'm not going through it alone. I'm going through
it with him now. And when I'm able to do that,
then even a new level of honesty, Deb, we talked
about that earlier, but a new level of honesty
comes up for me, you know? I keep going to the,
if I'm uncomfortable, God has my attention. Pain
is an indicator. It's like, oh, and there's been
recently some things happen in our little family
that's made me just a little uncomfortable for
my family and my need to control or to help or
rescue jumps in. And it's like, no, I get to
push pause, I get to put the mirror in front
of my face, and I get to ask God, where can I
be of service? And I think, you know, because
there's, anytime I'm uncomfortable, I know that
God's at work in my life. No growing in the comfort
zone, no comfort in the growing zone, which is
I always say, because some of my greatest growing
moments was. when I was very, very uncomfortable.
And so when things get a little uncertain for
me, I just get to be still, and Crystal and I
talked about this the other day, go find the
eye of the storm, go find that calm in the chaos
and the crazy, and connect and go, okay, God
has me, He's present, and like you said, I'm
gonna yoke with Him and let Him drive the forces.
because it can get messy, so messy if I don't.
Crystal, final thoughts? I just wish I could
just listen to you guys this whole time and just
learn from you all. The final thoughts are, I
see this in... when I'm working with clients,
a lot of the time where it's like, okay, I can
see them just getting in their own way. So much
of the time. Yeah, so just push pause. So just
as a reminder, Crystal's working as a therapist
in a rehab center. Right, right. So it's an amazing
opportunity to just - For them to learn. To learn
from them and to, you know. see it in front of
my face, but so I see, you know, they're in this
crazy kind of system. They want to get to a new
system, a healthier system, but they keep kind
of pulling back into old habits, old ways of
being. And in order for them to shift and move
to this new healthier system, they have to be
open and willing to learn something new and to
trust that if they just kind of take the steps,
it will guide them to a better life. But there's
a lot of fear, right? And so, yeah, I loved being
able to talk to you the other day about just
finding, where do you find peace? Because it's
so much of the balance we have to navigate, right?
we're going to purposely put ourselves in positions
to grow and learn and be open, which is going
to bring a lot of discomfort. But at the same
time, we have to be able to find that peace from
God, right? As we move through this, because
if we don't find the peace, it just is painful
and we'll retreat most of the time. So, I think,
you know, I don't want to stay as I am right
now. I hope that I learn and I grow and I become
better every day, but in order to do that, I
have to open myself to something greater than
me. I have to be able to look at where I'm getting
in my own way. I have to be able to see my character
defects. It's just part of the beautiful plan.
Yeah. Agreed. Exercising those spiritual muscles.
That's right. Yeah. We exercise our physical
muscles and we're okay with that pain, but when
the spirituality or the mental gets uncomfortable,
we're like. Yeah, what's going on here? This
is not okay. Yeah, and it's okay to be uncomfortable.
Yes. It's okay. It is. It's okay. Necessary.
It's okay. Yeah, I really have grown to love
this step, you know, because I kind of look at
it like as a way to keep my desk cleared off,
so to speak, you know, and when I first got sober,
you know, there was so much noise and so much...
internal clutter from all of all of these things,
you know, all of the hard feelings I had towards
other people and the fear that drove me and going
through and working through that, you know, through
the inventory process has made it where now when
something pops up, it's very easy to see when
something is there that needs to be worked on,
you know, and, and now it, it drives me. to dive
in to do the work to get rid of that. But this
is that spot that draws me closer to the Savior
because I'm able to see myself honestly. And
I found that being willing to be honest, pray
honestly out loud has really helped with that.
And then this is one of those that you can't
do on your own. And we'll talk about it next
month, but there has to be getting honest with
other people, because that's how you truly will
see yourself more honestly, or see yourself for
who you really are. Yeah, there's no doubt. Step
four is really something that was interesting
for me. I had to remember, I think Deb, you said
it, that one of the things that was really difficult
for you is because of because of what other people
may think of you or whatever. And I really began,
I think, and I still sometimes do this, is one
of my constant character defects is sometimes
requires attention. But I sometimes, I am so
sometimes concerned about who I am or who I'm
appearing to be. Step four is not about discovering
who we are. Step four, we should already have
that identity in place, right? I already know
who I am and whose I am because of step one,
two, and three. I know I'm his. I know that my
relationship is with him. So what I'm uncovering
then is that gets in the way. If I'm thinking
that, that just kind of gets in the way. If I
think of myself as my identity, as being my fears,
my resentments, my patterns, et cetera, then
I never take the time or develop the courage
to dive in to addressing those things so that
I can exercise my trust in him by turning them
to him. Can I just say something really fast?
I thought it was really impactful when Nick shared
how he allows that light to come into our hearts,
because we are light. But I think it's really
critical for us. Well important for me. I'm gonna
own my own stuff I think it's important for me
to remember that I'm the one that blocks that
light and what are those things? When we take
a personal inventory, what are those things that
are blocking the light and that's something we
can ask out loud and Then stop for a moment and
listen to that answer like writing that love
letter. It's I loved that analogy Well, I think
dub and Nick and crystal we've we've really you
know, we're ever kind of up against our time
limit here, I But there's just so much more that
we could talk about and so much more here There's
so much more power that can be behind on this,
you know you The thing is is that we just need
to remember this. We can all use this. You probably
don't need to go find something. You already
know what it is, right? But the question is,
are you willing to look at it again with him?
Are you willing to bring him in to take a look
at whatever it is that may be blocking, I love
that neck too, that may be blocking the spirit
of my life. And if God isn't asking you to fix
it today, he's just inviting you to let him show
you the truth about it he's just he's just helping
us he just wants to help me understand what the
truth is behind these character defects behind
these fears behind these resentments behind these
things and how they block me from the spirit
so you know maybe we could just set up a simple
invitation for everybody this week maybe just
take five or ten minutes this week and do a little
simple personal fearless personal inventory and
make some discoveries about things that need
to be healed, need to be transformed, need to
be converted through the power of Christ's Atonement.
If we could just ask him one question as we do
this, I think the important question for us would
be is to just ask him, Heavenly Father, what
are you trying to show me about me right now?
Not to shame you, but to free you. Thanks for
being with us, everybody. We look forward to
being with you again next week, and until then,
be well.