WEBVTT 00:00:01.449 --> 00:00:04.750 Hey everybody, welcome back to another episode 00:00:04.750 --> 00:00:07.070 of redeem through his blood This is Scott Durfey 00:00:07.070 --> 00:00:10.509 and I'm joined as always by the princess of the 00:00:10.509 --> 00:00:15.929 home. Oh goodness gracious The queen only female 00:00:15.929 --> 00:00:21.589 in this house, so I have no competition my Sweetheart 00:00:21.589 --> 00:00:25.030 Deb Durfey. What's up, babe? Hi everyone. How 00:00:25.030 --> 00:00:30.649 are you? You know what? I'm good enough There's 00:00:30.649 --> 00:00:32.829 there's moments that I'm great and moments that 00:00:32.829 --> 00:00:35.630 I'm not so great. So I'm just I'm I'm happy to 00:00:35.630 --> 00:00:37.429 be here. The sun's out. I guess we should put 00:00:37.429 --> 00:00:39.509 that in a little bit of context for those of 00:00:39.509 --> 00:00:43.149 you who are new this week or whatever. Deb has 00:00:43.149 --> 00:00:46.229 recently been laid off. No big deal. But I'm 00:00:46.229 --> 00:00:47.810 looking for a job and I'm not real comfortable 00:00:47.810 --> 00:00:51.189 in that. It's not my expertise. Getting her out 00:00:51.189 --> 00:00:53.859 of her comfort zone just a little bit. No growing 00:00:53.859 --> 00:00:55.299 in the comfort zone, no comfort in the growing 00:00:55.299 --> 00:00:57.479 zone. I tell everyone that, now I get to swallow 00:00:57.479 --> 00:01:02.259 my words. Yeah. I love that. I love that. Well, 00:01:02.840 --> 00:01:06.519 and I got a... Kind of just tell everybody, hey, 00:01:06.659 --> 00:01:09.780 thanks for reaching out. I think you sensed my 00:01:09.780 --> 00:01:12.659 need. I think I had a moment of being a little 00:01:12.659 --> 00:01:16.000 bit needy last episode. Sometimes it just feels 00:01:16.000 --> 00:01:19.319 alone, feels empty. And I express that. And many 00:01:19.319 --> 00:01:22.579 people reached out and were super kind in their 00:01:22.579 --> 00:01:26.700 sentiment and their offerings. Yeah. Oh, yeah. 00:01:26.959 --> 00:01:29.180 Yeah. Somebody's going to step up and do social 00:01:29.180 --> 00:01:32.900 media for us. Thank you very much. David for 00:01:32.900 --> 00:01:37.239 that very much appreciate that and you know we 00:01:37.239 --> 00:01:41.200 have others that also reached out couple on Facebook 00:01:41.200 --> 00:01:45.540 even done we got a sweet shout out from Becky 00:01:45.540 --> 00:01:49.739 in central Iowa she said she's our biggest Midwest 00:01:49.739 --> 00:01:52.340 fan I almost started crying I just want to say 00:01:52.340 --> 00:01:54.920 now we're your fan thank you so much for reaching 00:01:54.920 --> 00:01:57.060 out it kind of makes it feel like now you're 00:01:57.060 --> 00:01:59.099 here with us and now we're we're speaking to 00:01:59.099 --> 00:02:03.599 you all so golly it's Really nice to have names 00:02:03.599 --> 00:02:06.040 and I think that's the thing that's been so kind 00:02:06.040 --> 00:02:08.460 of strange for me Which I don't understand because 00:02:08.460 --> 00:02:10.800 we've been doing it for several years, but you 00:02:10.800 --> 00:02:13.719 know, I do Professionally, I'm a communicator, 00:02:13.740 --> 00:02:16.280 but when I communicate professionally most of 00:02:16.280 --> 00:02:18.539 the time not all the time But most of the time 00:02:18.539 --> 00:02:21.560 is in front of live people And so when I'm teaching 00:02:21.560 --> 00:02:23.900 Institute or even gospel doctrine or when I'm 00:02:23.900 --> 00:02:25.900 at work on a stage It's in front of live people 00:02:25.900 --> 00:02:28.520 and and I get interaction and you can feel the 00:02:28.520 --> 00:02:30.520 energy back. It's just really difficult hope 00:02:30.520 --> 00:02:34.340 to do that here. Anyway, thank you everybody 00:02:34.340 --> 00:02:37.139 for reaching out. Thank you for listening. Thank 00:02:37.139 --> 00:02:39.780 you for being along here with us. It made me 00:02:39.780 --> 00:02:42.860 kind of reflect why I really do this. Well, it 00:02:42.860 --> 00:02:46.259 did for me. Yeah, because I was like, wait, am 00:02:46.259 --> 00:02:48.759 I waiting for everybody's approval before I keep 00:02:48.759 --> 00:02:52.819 going or am I doing this because I have a relationship 00:02:52.819 --> 00:02:55.060 with Jesus Christ that I want to testify. And 00:02:55.060 --> 00:02:58.800 what did you land on? Well, Obviously, well both 00:02:58.800 --> 00:03:02.259 kind of. Yeah. I got to be actually vulnerable 00:03:02.259 --> 00:03:05.539 here and just say I actually like knowing that 00:03:05.539 --> 00:03:09.740 people care and are open to it, but I also, you 00:03:09.740 --> 00:03:12.300 know, there's been times in my life where I have 00:03:12.300 --> 00:03:14.000 been, I mean, I've always been a member of the 00:03:14.000 --> 00:03:16.000 church, but I have felt really lonely. Yeah. 00:03:16.340 --> 00:03:20.460 And I wish that there, when I was going through 00:03:20.460 --> 00:03:24.099 this, I wish that there had been somebody call 00:03:24.099 --> 00:03:27.219 it puking your truth telling their story so I 00:03:27.219 --> 00:03:31.439 didn't feel so alone in my you know my journey 00:03:31.439 --> 00:03:34.219 because I put so many expectations on myself 00:03:34.219 --> 00:03:37.979 and to the level of perfection that I was putting 00:03:37.979 --> 00:03:41.060 on myself and I know I'm not alone I mean we 00:03:41.060 --> 00:03:44.659 we all are striving for perfection but what we've 00:03:44.659 --> 00:03:47.460 what I learned is you're not gonna get it here 00:03:47.460 --> 00:03:50.819 sweetheart it's like You can't get that even 00:03:50.819 --> 00:03:53.719 Jesus Christ was not perfected until he was resurrected 00:03:53.719 --> 00:03:57.259 see Here's the thing for me. I hear people like 00:03:57.259 --> 00:04:01.180 you say we're all striving for perfection and 00:04:01.180 --> 00:04:06.180 immediately I feel left out because I'm not Yeah, 00:04:06.180 --> 00:04:08.580 you know really yeah, really. I mean, I love 00:04:08.580 --> 00:04:10.840 that you're saying out loud I have said that 00:04:10.840 --> 00:04:14.039 too though. I have said I'm striving for perfection 00:04:14.039 --> 00:04:16.139 and maybe at times in my life I have actually 00:04:16.139 --> 00:04:19.970 believed that I'm not today striving for perfection, 00:04:20.350 --> 00:04:22.290 and maybe there's a little bit of me that should 00:04:22.290 --> 00:04:28.089 feel guilty about that or inadequate, but I don't 00:04:28.089 --> 00:04:30.430 strive for perfection today. I mean, I strive 00:04:30.430 --> 00:04:33.550 to do my best. I strive to be perfected in Him. 00:04:34.060 --> 00:04:38.600 I strive that through my alignment that the things 00:04:38.600 --> 00:04:42.459 that are out of alignment will fall away and 00:04:42.459 --> 00:04:46.480 will allow my life to be sanctified and made 00:04:46.480 --> 00:04:48.600 right through him and through a relationship 00:04:48.600 --> 00:04:53.040 with him. I struggle though with even having 00:04:53.040 --> 00:04:57.800 a desire sometimes to achieve perfection because 00:04:57.800 --> 00:05:01.100 to me it's out of reach. So it's like why try 00:05:01.100 --> 00:05:05.399 I don't know maybe maybe I don't know I think 00:05:05.399 --> 00:05:08.120 maybe we could dive into that a little bit and 00:05:08.120 --> 00:05:10.240 maybe some of those things will kind of unpill 00:05:10.240 --> 00:05:13.459 themselves as we go through our kind of our topic 00:05:13.459 --> 00:05:16.759 today, you know, we talked about receiving this 00:05:16.759 --> 00:05:19.240 feedback and wonderful feedback and again, we 00:05:19.240 --> 00:05:22.779 love you all and thank you for it and I feel 00:05:22.779 --> 00:05:26.500 like we have new friends like I know and I need 00:05:26.500 --> 00:05:30.209 that I'm such a I'm such an empath You know, 00:05:30.529 --> 00:05:35.389 I just, anyway, you know how the five love languages, 00:05:35.709 --> 00:05:38.889 I'm definitely a words of affirmation kind of 00:05:38.889 --> 00:05:42.970 guy for sure. So anyway, whatever. I had it, 00:05:42.970 --> 00:05:46.230 we did get an email though. We've been talking, 00:05:46.529 --> 00:05:50.129 we started a new semester at Institute. Holy 00:05:50.129 --> 00:05:53.730 moly. Great. Right? Kids. Just when you think 00:05:53.730 --> 00:05:56.449 they just don't get better and I know then it's 00:05:56.449 --> 00:05:59.750 like jaw drop. i know drop we find out we're 00:05:59.750 --> 00:06:02.029 getting released in may and it's like well last 00:06:02.029 --> 00:06:04.730 okay no problem maybe it's run its course you 00:06:04.730 --> 00:06:07.389 know whatever and and then we get a group of 00:06:07.389 --> 00:06:09.129 uh... students that come through we had like 00:06:09.129 --> 00:06:12.189 eighty two kids eighty two students and in class 00:06:12.189 --> 00:06:15.430 the other night and i'm tell you what that uh... 00:06:15.430 --> 00:06:19.970 these kids are Powerhouse. They get it. They 00:06:19.970 --> 00:06:23.810 understand what it means to have a relationship 00:06:23.810 --> 00:06:26.930 with the Savior, and they're really trying hard 00:06:26.930 --> 00:06:29.430 to do that. You know, they're working hard to 00:06:29.430 --> 00:06:32.009 have instruments of grace at work in their life, 00:06:32.009 --> 00:06:35.009 and they have questions naturally, and they have 00:06:35.009 --> 00:06:38.310 concerns, of course, and they have things that 00:06:38.310 --> 00:06:41.170 can challenge their faith from time to time. 00:06:41.449 --> 00:06:44.930 But they really are focused on the one needful 00:06:44.930 --> 00:06:47.019 thing, and I just can't believe believe it. They're 00:06:47.019 --> 00:06:50.800 the 2026 stripling warriors. They really are. 00:06:50.879 --> 00:06:54.420 I tell them every week when they're there, I 00:06:54.420 --> 00:06:56.339 say you guys don't even have to be here. Yeah. 00:06:56.720 --> 00:06:59.139 And look at you making an effort. There's so 00:06:59.139 --> 00:07:01.199 many different places you could be, but you still 00:07:01.199 --> 00:07:04.160 make an effort to be here. Each week we put our 00:07:04.160 --> 00:07:06.339 phone number on the board and we encourage our 00:07:06.339 --> 00:07:09.180 students. I hate to even call them students. 00:07:09.240 --> 00:07:10.980 I'd rather call them our kids, because I love 00:07:10.980 --> 00:07:12.939 them like our kids, but I don't want them to 00:07:12.939 --> 00:07:14.899 hear that and think, I'm not a kid, because we 00:07:14.899 --> 00:07:17.040 don't see you as kids. Young adults. I'm kind 00:07:17.040 --> 00:07:19.279 of caught between a rock and a hard place. Oh, 00:07:19.279 --> 00:07:21.040 your kids are old. They're a lot younger than 00:07:21.040 --> 00:07:23.339 any of your kids. So if you get offended, don't 00:07:23.339 --> 00:07:25.519 be offended, because we have old kids. You could 00:07:25.519 --> 00:07:30.480 have gone all evening without saying that. These 00:07:30.480 --> 00:07:33.720 these people that are coming I love them so much 00:07:33.720 --> 00:07:36.660 and and I'm you know before it was like, okay 00:07:36.660 --> 00:07:39.120 We're gonna be done in May now. It's like I don't 00:07:39.120 --> 00:07:42.180 want to be done in May I don't want them to go 00:07:42.180 --> 00:07:44.639 away. Anyway, we put a number, our number on 00:07:44.639 --> 00:07:46.579 the board and we encourage them to ask questions 00:07:46.579 --> 00:07:49.500 and send us texts and so on and so forth. And 00:07:49.500 --> 00:07:51.420 sometimes we'll respond to them in class and 00:07:51.420 --> 00:07:53.540 sometimes we'll just respond to them one off 00:07:53.540 --> 00:07:55.860 because we do have a lot of people that want 00:07:55.860 --> 00:07:58.360 to call and talk about things that are embarrassing 00:07:58.360 --> 00:08:00.620 to talk about sometimes in front of other people. 00:08:01.079 --> 00:08:05.399 Well, I got an email from somebody in class this 00:08:05.399 --> 00:08:08.319 past week, Deb, and I want to talk about this 00:08:08.319 --> 00:08:15.480 in our... podcast today Here it is I Have never 00:08:15.480 --> 00:08:18.199 fully understood repentance the the repentance 00:08:18.199 --> 00:08:21.040 process or what repentance looks like I have 00:08:21.040 --> 00:08:23.860 felt like it was something that everyone just 00:08:23.860 --> 00:08:27.019 kind of understood But never really explained 00:08:27.019 --> 00:08:30.480 this podcast and Institute courses honestly taught 00:08:30.480 --> 00:08:33.200 me so much about the atonement of Jesus Christ 00:08:33.200 --> 00:08:36.460 and my relationship with him With all that I 00:08:36.460 --> 00:08:39.820 have learned, it's made me think more about Christ's 00:08:39.820 --> 00:08:43.100 atonement in my life. I have realized that I 00:08:43.100 --> 00:08:47.220 still am just unsure to know if I am forgiven. 00:08:47.740 --> 00:08:50.740 How do I know that God has moved past my sins? 00:08:51.179 --> 00:08:54.019 How do I know that I have taken the right steps 00:08:54.019 --> 00:08:56.279 and that I'm on the right path with God again? 00:08:57.120 --> 00:08:59.919 And then this person says, I love you guys. Thank 00:08:59.919 --> 00:09:02.500 you for everything you do. We love you. Yeah. 00:09:03.549 --> 00:09:06.029 Yeah, we do we know who this is and we do love 00:09:06.029 --> 00:09:11.049 you I Don't know Deb. That's a that's a pretty 00:09:11.049 --> 00:09:13.769 important question Right. I there's a there's 00:09:13.769 --> 00:09:16.009 a couple of things there that I think that you 00:09:16.009 --> 00:09:18.750 know each of us relate to that question Yeah, 00:09:19.450 --> 00:09:20.830 there's there's a couple things I think that 00:09:20.830 --> 00:09:23.149 we each need to kind of reconcile here, right 00:09:23.149 --> 00:09:26.269 for sure So how do I know if I've been forgiven? 00:09:27.419 --> 00:09:29.340 There's there's a couple of things in here that 00:09:29.340 --> 00:09:31.360 I would probably change the way they're worded 00:09:31.360 --> 00:09:33.440 You know, how do I know that God's move move 00:09:33.440 --> 00:09:36.379 past my sins? I want to talk about that for a 00:09:36.379 --> 00:09:39.120 second But and then how do I know if I've taken 00:09:39.120 --> 00:09:41.240 the right steps and I'm on the right path with 00:09:41.240 --> 00:09:43.379 God again And that's one of the things that we 00:09:43.379 --> 00:09:45.759 talk about in the course the divine gift of forgiveness 00:09:45.759 --> 00:09:49.200 is How do I know that my path is pleasing before 00:09:49.200 --> 00:09:53.600 God? That's really part of the quest that's really 00:09:53.600 --> 00:09:56.259 when we get to that point where we know that 00:09:56.259 --> 00:09:58.820 the path We're on is pleasing to God. That's 00:09:58.820 --> 00:10:02.059 when we really know right? That's what I think 00:10:02.059 --> 00:10:06.120 when we can kind of have that assurity. So I 00:10:06.120 --> 00:10:10.159 Don't know We're not we're not gonna obviously 00:10:10.159 --> 00:10:13.360 Be able to talk about everything that has to 00:10:13.360 --> 00:10:16.980 do with repentance today For sure, but that there's 00:10:16.980 --> 00:10:20.059 a really important questions here And the and 00:10:20.059 --> 00:10:22.220 the questions are kind of the right ones, you 00:10:22.220 --> 00:10:25.350 know hundred percent So, I don't know, where 00:10:25.350 --> 00:10:30.730 do you go with it, babe? Well, I don't think 00:10:30.730 --> 00:10:35.389 there is a set way of perfect repentance. I don't 00:10:35.389 --> 00:10:38.830 feel like my repentance is going to be the same 00:10:38.830 --> 00:10:41.409 as your repentance. I think it's, and we've talked 00:10:41.409 --> 00:10:43.970 about this before, I think it's about a relationship. 00:10:44.129 --> 00:10:46.649 Okay, so you're saying my repentance isn't going 00:10:46.649 --> 00:10:48.370 to be like your repentance and you're measuring 00:10:48.370 --> 00:10:52.639 those by certain actions that one might do. Perhaps. 00:10:52.799 --> 00:10:54.860 Because I don't know how do you measure a relationship? 00:10:55.480 --> 00:10:58.639 Yeah. Well, you talked about five love languages. 00:10:58.679 --> 00:11:00.840 Yeah. You know, yours is words of affirmations. 00:11:00.940 --> 00:11:03.379 Mine's acts of service. So if you want to show 00:11:03.379 --> 00:11:05.240 me you love me, you're going to serve me. Right. 00:11:05.259 --> 00:11:08.179 You'll make the bed. Yeah. Yeah. If you want 00:11:08.179 --> 00:11:09.919 to know that I, you know, and so when I have 00:11:09.919 --> 00:11:13.259 a relationship with Jesus Christ, I want to serve. 00:11:13.580 --> 00:11:18.700 OK. I mean, it's it's it's that personal. And 00:11:18.700 --> 00:11:22.080 I, you know, we Sunday this I might be derailing, 00:11:22.080 --> 00:11:25.320 but Sunday we were talking in young women's about 00:11:25.320 --> 00:11:27.759 breaking the bread during the sacrament and how 00:11:27.759 --> 00:11:31.460 each piece of bread is different and torn and 00:11:31.460 --> 00:11:35.000 broken differently. Just how we are all broken 00:11:35.000 --> 00:11:39.000 and torn differently. So our transgressions, 00:11:39.179 --> 00:11:44.080 our sins, our sorrows, our pains are very, very 00:11:44.080 --> 00:11:47.200 different from each other. Therefore our relationship 00:11:48.139 --> 00:11:52.279 with the Savior could be very different. And 00:11:52.279 --> 00:11:55.019 relationship with Heavenly Father in the pleading, 00:11:55.620 --> 00:11:59.539 in the asking, in the aligning, you know, crying 00:11:59.539 --> 00:12:03.480 out. That's definitely true. And I think that 00:12:03.480 --> 00:12:05.559 that's where we eventually get when we start 00:12:05.559 --> 00:12:07.779 really beginning to understand what forgiveness 00:12:07.779 --> 00:12:11.799 looks like. But I think some of the things that 00:12:11.799 --> 00:12:15.100 are kind of internal scripts that we sometimes 00:12:15.100 --> 00:12:17.580 use around forgiveness that may be inaccurate. 00:12:17.740 --> 00:12:20.440 I think that it would help if we maybe identify 00:12:20.440 --> 00:12:23.179 what some of those are, for example, you know, 00:12:23.860 --> 00:12:26.639 when we automatically if we're just focusing 00:12:26.639 --> 00:12:29.580 on I messed up, you know, that's an internal 00:12:29.580 --> 00:12:32.419 script. That's what I'm telling myself. And so 00:12:32.419 --> 00:12:35.279 if I messed up and I think it's important that 00:12:35.279 --> 00:12:38.080 we understand where we do make mistakes and so 00:12:38.080 --> 00:12:41.960 forth. But we don't look at it as. God sees us 00:12:41.960 --> 00:12:46.639 as we are messed up. We made a mistake, etc., 00:12:46.639 --> 00:12:49.159 but we're not messed up. You know, we think God 00:12:49.159 --> 00:12:52.860 must be disappointed in me. You know, in fact, 00:12:52.960 --> 00:12:57.889 we've been told that. God's he doesn't hate you, 00:12:57.970 --> 00:13:00.149 but he's disappointed in you. You know, I've 00:13:00.149 --> 00:13:03.269 been told that and I know others have been told 00:13:03.269 --> 00:13:05.350 that and I don't believe that anymore. I don't 00:13:05.350 --> 00:13:07.990 believe that God is disappointed in us. Well, 00:13:07.990 --> 00:13:11.230 I think about I always go to this analogy because 00:13:11.230 --> 00:13:14.389 it makes sense to me is a toddler learning to 00:13:14.389 --> 00:13:17.190 walk. And when that toddler doesn't get it just 00:13:17.190 --> 00:13:19.789 right the first time and falls down, trips or 00:13:19.789 --> 00:13:24.340 runs into a wall or whatever. a parent is not 00:13:24.340 --> 00:13:29.240 going to get mad at that baby for falling down 00:13:29.240 --> 00:13:32.240 when they're learning something. And I feel like 00:13:32.240 --> 00:13:35.080 a lot of our transgression and a lot of our messing 00:13:35.080 --> 00:13:37.879 up, some of it's intentional. I'm not going to 00:13:37.879 --> 00:13:41.399 write us all off and say, oh, no, it's OK to 00:13:41.399 --> 00:13:44.320 mess up. No, it's never OK. But I think there's 00:13:44.320 --> 00:13:48.059 oftentimes when we mess up that it's like, oh, 00:13:48.539 --> 00:13:53.809 I messed up. Yeah. And to think The words God 00:13:53.809 --> 00:13:58.529 must be disappointed. I have to disagree with 00:13:58.529 --> 00:14:01.009 you. I mean, agree with you that I don't think 00:14:01.009 --> 00:14:04.009 God's disappointed. I really don't feel like 00:14:04.009 --> 00:14:06.889 he looks at us and goes, way to go, ding dong 00:14:06.889 --> 00:14:10.889 or whatever. But I think it's more like, can 00:14:10.889 --> 00:14:14.289 you learn from this? It's one thing I say to 00:14:14.289 --> 00:14:15.950 my kids all the time and they're probably sick 00:14:15.950 --> 00:14:18.450 and tired of hearing it. The only thing worse 00:14:18.450 --> 00:14:20.919 than having a bad experience is not learning 00:14:20.919 --> 00:14:23.620 from it. And I think that's what God's intention 00:14:23.620 --> 00:14:27.100 is, is to help us learn from it. And I'll know, 00:14:27.360 --> 00:14:32.440 I'll know I'm okay when I feel okay. You know, 00:14:33.039 --> 00:14:34.840 those are, those are some of the things that 00:14:34.840 --> 00:14:38.340 we go through. Well, has there ever been a time 00:14:38.340 --> 00:14:43.149 when You believed in Christ you repented but 00:14:43.149 --> 00:14:45.450 you still felt like you were watching for signs 00:14:45.450 --> 00:14:47.850 for everything to be okay Oh gosh, I'm gonna 00:14:47.850 --> 00:14:52.690 get really vulnerable right here as I mean a 00:14:52.690 --> 00:14:55.649 previous podcast I shared my story about Having 00:14:55.649 --> 00:14:58.049 a baby and placing it for adoption. Well not 00:14:58.049 --> 00:15:07.850 sure not Soon after and it was soon after I I 00:15:07.850 --> 00:15:10.789 found myself in the exact same situation, doing 00:15:10.789 --> 00:15:14.149 the exact same thing and getting pregnant again. 00:15:15.710 --> 00:15:17.730 So, you know, doing the same thing over and over 00:15:17.730 --> 00:15:20.429 and expecting different results. And as a, you 00:15:20.429 --> 00:15:24.889 know, 18 year old having a child. And like I 00:15:24.889 --> 00:15:26.690 said, when I shared that experience before, it 00:15:26.690 --> 00:15:30.049 was hard. It was very, very difficult, but I 00:15:30.049 --> 00:15:32.610 did the steps. that I thought were the steps 00:15:32.610 --> 00:15:36.570 to repentance. I talked to the bishop, I, I reconciliated, 00:15:36.590 --> 00:15:38.769 and I really feel like placing that baby for 00:15:38.769 --> 00:15:41.129 adoption into a good home where she could be 00:15:41.129 --> 00:15:45.049 sealed to another family was, was the perfect 00:15:45.049 --> 00:15:49.090 reconciliation of my mistake. And I did that, 00:15:49.090 --> 00:15:51.210 but here's the interesting thing that I've learned 00:15:51.210 --> 00:15:55.970 now decades later is I knew God forgave me for 00:15:55.970 --> 00:16:00.080 that because I made that wrong right. So how 00:16:00.080 --> 00:16:03.159 did I get in the exact same situation again? 00:16:04.120 --> 00:16:08.700 less than a year later here I am again not married 00:16:08.700 --> 00:16:17.700 and pregnant and Looking back now I I can definitely 00:16:17.700 --> 00:16:21.330 tell you that my relationship with Jesus Christ 00:16:21.330 --> 00:16:24.870 was not there. I had not been converted. I did 00:16:24.870 --> 00:16:28.909 not understand the atonement of Jesus Christ. 00:16:29.250 --> 00:16:33.350 I did not forgive myself. In fact, I had physical 00:16:33.350 --> 00:16:35.830 proof with stretch marks and with a stretched 00:16:35.830 --> 00:16:37.429 out body. After you have a baby, especially a 00:16:37.429 --> 00:16:42.470 C -section, I even had a scar to remind me that 00:16:42.470 --> 00:16:45.710 I disappointed God. And that's what I kept remembering. 00:16:46.169 --> 00:16:50.529 So I, in my own head, mean that logistically 00:16:50.529 --> 00:16:55.230 wise I felt forgiven however in my brain and 00:16:55.230 --> 00:16:58.529 in my belief system I did not feel like I had 00:16:58.529 --> 00:17:01.909 been forgiven that I was still broken in his 00:17:01.909 --> 00:17:06.910 eyes and you know when did it when did it finally 00:17:06.910 --> 00:17:10.250 click you know I'm embarrassed to say decades 00:17:10.250 --> 00:17:14.970 later that I finally said repentance is not a 00:17:14.970 --> 00:17:17.410 step -by -step process and making the wrong right 00:17:19.720 --> 00:17:25.279 repentance is allowing Jesus Christ to change 00:17:25.279 --> 00:17:29.900 me not just my broken heart but change my heart 00:17:29.900 --> 00:17:34.359 to make me feel and be someone that I wasn't 00:17:34.359 --> 00:17:40.099 to let me fall down hard enough to say now are 00:17:40.099 --> 00:17:43.960 you willing to take my name upon you now are 00:17:43.960 --> 00:17:55.799 you willing to be broken enough to align with 00:17:55.799 --> 00:18:00.900 his will. God wasn't waiting on me. He was already 00:18:00.900 --> 00:18:05.220 looking at his son. And that's who I needed to 00:18:05.220 --> 00:18:09.799 look to was his son. And that's repentance. Exactly. 00:18:10.420 --> 00:18:12.180 That's repentance. You know, when I think of 00:18:12.180 --> 00:18:14.839 that, I love that you share that. Thank you. 00:18:16.559 --> 00:18:19.720 I've been hearing this story for since we first 00:18:19.720 --> 00:18:22.400 met, and every time I hear it, it touches me 00:18:22.400 --> 00:18:24.980 and I feel the spirit bear witness to me that 00:18:24.980 --> 00:18:28.900 our Heavenly Father has sanctified and is sanctifying 00:18:28.900 --> 00:18:31.700 all that's going on around that babe. I also 00:18:31.700 --> 00:18:36.720 know that, you know, when we go through repentance 00:18:36.720 --> 00:18:39.720 processes, it's not uncommon. In fact, it's probably 00:18:39.720 --> 00:18:43.880 most common that we do sometimes wonder, am I 00:18:43.880 --> 00:18:48.900 forgiven? Has Heavenly Father move past my sins, 00:18:48.900 --> 00:18:52.140 etc. You know, and again, I think that when we 00:18:52.140 --> 00:18:55.940 think of it that way that we see it wrong Heavenly 00:18:55.940 --> 00:19:00.400 Father is I don't know if he moves past our sins 00:19:00.400 --> 00:19:04.900 I think that when we are not aligned with Jesus 00:19:04.900 --> 00:19:08.079 Christ that there's two focal points one is Jesus 00:19:08.079 --> 00:19:14.069 one is us and that when we are left With the 00:19:14.069 --> 00:19:16.509 full exposure of our sins without going through 00:19:16.509 --> 00:19:20.490 Jesus Christ that our sins condemn us But I believe 00:19:20.490 --> 00:19:22.670 that when we align with Jesus Christ in other 00:19:22.670 --> 00:19:25.450 words when we put one focal point in front of 00:19:25.450 --> 00:19:28.910 God and God can only see us through Jesus Christ 00:19:28.910 --> 00:19:33.430 because of our alignment with his atonement and 00:19:33.430 --> 00:19:36.769 is healing that when we do that, that God doesn't 00:19:36.769 --> 00:19:39.569 look at our sins. He sees us through Jesus Christ 00:19:39.569 --> 00:19:42.930 and he begins instead to pull us into Christ. 00:19:43.809 --> 00:19:48.069 The Father doesn't move past our sins. Instead, 00:19:48.069 --> 00:19:51.890 he moves us into Christ when we make that alignment. 00:19:52.109 --> 00:19:55.170 And that's what I hear you saying. You know, 00:19:55.529 --> 00:19:59.869 when we receive this email and they're talking 00:19:59.869 --> 00:20:03.910 about. Asking about how do I know if I'm forgiven 00:20:03.910 --> 00:20:08.390 and? And all of this this is this is a an important 00:20:08.390 --> 00:20:13.450 question. It's one that I think that Again that 00:20:13.450 --> 00:20:16.990 we all wrestle with from time to time If we just 00:20:16.990 --> 00:20:19.710 do what I if we just do what we just talked about 00:20:19.710 --> 00:20:24.750 and are able to Allow God to see us through Christ 00:20:24.750 --> 00:20:27.069 first and the way we do that is aligned with 00:20:27.069 --> 00:20:31.830 him Then it's through Christ's merits through 00:20:31.830 --> 00:20:34.289 Christ's obedience and through Christ's grace 00:20:34.289 --> 00:20:38.430 and I think I think the thing that makes us human 00:20:38.430 --> 00:20:42.230 and reminds us that we're in a fallen world is 00:20:42.230 --> 00:20:46.250 just like I shared in my story that I didn't 00:20:46.250 --> 00:20:49.410 know at that time that I really needed to align 00:20:49.410 --> 00:20:52.509 with Jesus Christ I didn't know what that looked 00:20:52.509 --> 00:20:57.359 like I didn't know what that meant and I could 00:20:57.359 --> 00:21:00.880 remember my sin if I had that shame still holding 00:21:00.880 --> 00:21:03.980 on if I still had that trauma from my from my 00:21:03.980 --> 00:21:07.720 past I knew God knew and I think that's where 00:21:07.720 --> 00:21:11.880 I Don't think God has any I don't I don't think 00:21:11.880 --> 00:21:14.440 he wants to think about all of that and I think 00:21:14.440 --> 00:21:20.839 like you said focusing on Jesus Christ and Letting 00:21:20.839 --> 00:21:22.839 him be my advocate because here's the bottom 00:21:22.839 --> 00:21:26.910 line truth. He felt that He knows that. He knows 00:21:26.910 --> 00:21:30.710 what that shame and trauma and fear and guilt 00:21:30.710 --> 00:21:35.470 feels like. And that's why I align with him because 00:21:35.470 --> 00:21:43.970 he gets me and he gets all of us. Just kind of 00:21:43.970 --> 00:21:47.539 quickly going back to the email. That we got 00:21:47.539 --> 00:21:51.059 I felt like it was something everyone just kind 00:21:51.059 --> 00:21:53.960 of understood but was never really explained 00:21:53.960 --> 00:21:57.859 to me And I think that's a problem that we have 00:21:57.859 --> 00:22:00.720 When it comes to repentance and and and it's 00:22:00.720 --> 00:22:03.099 it's okay that we have this problem, but there's 00:22:03.099 --> 00:22:06.019 a problem When I was on my mission, we taught 00:22:06.019 --> 00:22:08.259 repentance and there were steps, you know, and 00:22:08.259 --> 00:22:10.059 I don't remember if it was five steps or seven 00:22:10.059 --> 00:22:12.420 steps, but there were hours or something. Yeah, 00:22:12.579 --> 00:22:16.019 five hours of repentance or, you know, various 00:22:16.019 --> 00:22:19.279 things, various things like that. And, you know, 00:22:19.339 --> 00:22:25.529 which is fine. But. It's really not so much about 00:22:25.529 --> 00:22:28.109 steps as it is about establishing a relationship. 00:22:28.190 --> 00:22:30.609 I love the way that you describe repentance to 00:22:30.609 --> 00:22:34.549 our Institute students every time. Deb talks 00:22:34.549 --> 00:22:37.349 about repentance as just being, you know, it 00:22:37.349 --> 00:22:40.589 actually comes from the word Montanejo. We hear 00:22:40.589 --> 00:22:43.400 her... President Nelson talk about that word 00:22:43.400 --> 00:22:46.299 on more than one occasion, which just means to 00:22:46.299 --> 00:22:49.440 change or to turn around or to turn back towards 00:22:49.440 --> 00:22:52.920 that which is good. And that's repentance, which 00:22:52.920 --> 00:22:55.740 is to really talk about, which really talks about, 00:22:55.900 --> 00:22:58.880 again, a relationship. It's not so much, and 00:22:58.880 --> 00:23:01.819 it's not an institutional event, right? It's 00:23:01.819 --> 00:23:05.240 not a checklist. It's not penalty payment or 00:23:05.240 --> 00:23:08.609 punishment for sin. And a bunch of other things 00:23:08.609 --> 00:23:11.049 and I think you know, maybe in a future podcast 00:23:11.049 --> 00:23:13.650 We should talk about what repentance really is 00:23:13.650 --> 00:23:16.309 not because we've done that in the past In fact, 00:23:16.309 --> 00:23:18.569 I think that there have been more than several 00:23:18.569 --> 00:23:20.849 episodes that we've covered that and it's important 00:23:20.849 --> 00:23:23.609 that we know that but but to understand what 00:23:23.609 --> 00:23:26.670 repentance really is And if we understand that 00:23:26.670 --> 00:23:29.569 it is really just a relationship then we're not 00:23:29.569 --> 00:23:33.470 looking for some sort of confirmation And I think 00:23:33.470 --> 00:23:36.609 I think for a long time having a relationship 00:23:36.890 --> 00:23:40.109 Well, for me, for a long time, it's like, how 00:23:40.109 --> 00:23:41.849 do you have a relationship with someone that's 00:23:41.849 --> 00:23:46.589 not physically here? And it's it's been a super 00:23:46.589 --> 00:23:51.230 reflective thing that I have been consciously 00:23:51.230 --> 00:23:55.470 and intentionally making of what does my relationship 00:23:55.470 --> 00:23:57.470 with God look like? What does my relationship 00:23:57.470 --> 00:24:00.869 with Jesus Christ look like? And how do I strengthen 00:24:00.869 --> 00:24:02.869 that relationship when they're not physically 00:24:02.869 --> 00:24:08.450 here? Because being in this realm, all of our 00:24:08.450 --> 00:24:13.430 relationships except with the Godhead are with 00:24:13.430 --> 00:24:16.549 beings. We hug them, we kiss them, we say goodbye, 00:24:16.750 --> 00:24:18.450 we greet them when we haven't seen them in a 00:24:18.450 --> 00:24:23.309 while. And then you have an experience where 00:24:23.309 --> 00:24:28.569 someone you love goes to the other side. And 00:24:28.569 --> 00:24:32.789 it's like now it's a remembering now. And I have 00:24:32.789 --> 00:24:35.710 pictures just like I have. pictures of Jesus 00:24:35.710 --> 00:24:39.769 Christ. I have pictures of someone I love and 00:24:39.769 --> 00:24:43.150 care about. And then I remember the memories 00:24:43.150 --> 00:24:47.150 and I wish I actually I do have some sweet memories 00:24:47.150 --> 00:24:53.490 with my Savior and with Heavenly Father. And 00:24:53.490 --> 00:24:57.170 I know I've I've I've shared the experience when 00:24:57.170 --> 00:25:01.829 our oldest Jessica was three about leaving the 00:25:01.829 --> 00:25:05.490 pre -existence. She didn't have a veil. And that 00:25:05.490 --> 00:25:08.650 sweet message that God allowed her to bring to 00:25:08.650 --> 00:25:13.450 me. And that message was such a powerful message 00:25:13.450 --> 00:25:20.609 and so impactful to me today. 38, almost 39 years. 00:25:20.990 --> 00:25:26.710 Well, okay. So minus three, 36 years ago was 00:25:26.710 --> 00:25:30.390 remember my son. I said, what did heavenly father 00:25:30.390 --> 00:25:33.130 tell you? What else did he say is what I said. 00:25:33.960 --> 00:25:35.900 and she raised her little right hand and she 00:25:35.900 --> 00:25:40.180 said remember my son that was important for me 00:25:40.180 --> 00:25:44.619 to remember and to hear even though she doesn't 00:25:44.619 --> 00:25:47.500 remember that today i will never forget that 00:25:47.500 --> 00:25:50.619 experience because it is all about the relationship 00:25:50.619 --> 00:25:54.480 it is all about aligning with him and you know 00:25:54.480 --> 00:25:58.079 when i make a mistake and when i do something 00:25:58.079 --> 00:26:03.140 that that disconnects me or turns me away from 00:26:03.140 --> 00:26:05.980 God. You know, like at Institute, I turned my 00:26:05.980 --> 00:26:09.440 back on that thing, whatever it was that distracted 00:26:09.440 --> 00:26:12.160 me, and I turned to Him. And that's when I say, 00:26:12.720 --> 00:26:14.640 thank you, Heavenly Father, for the fall, so 00:26:14.640 --> 00:26:16.559 that I remember there's repentance, and I have 00:26:16.559 --> 00:26:18.539 a Savior that's gonna save me from this. And 00:26:18.539 --> 00:26:21.460 that is repentance. Yep. That is exactly what 00:26:21.460 --> 00:26:27.140 repentance is. I love this. I think it's as we 00:26:27.140 --> 00:26:29.619 kind of pull things together and wrap things 00:26:29.619 --> 00:26:32.740 up. There's one other concept here that is an 00:26:32.740 --> 00:26:34.960 important one for us, because we talk about this 00:26:34.960 --> 00:26:38.339 often, Deb. We talk about how the Holy Ghost 00:26:38.339 --> 00:26:43.059 is the administrator and administer of the atonement 00:26:43.059 --> 00:26:45.279 of Jesus Christ. In other words, it's through 00:26:45.279 --> 00:26:47.299 the Holy Ghost that we're healed. It's through 00:26:47.299 --> 00:26:50.660 the Holy Ghost that we receive forgiveness. And 00:26:50.660 --> 00:26:54.339 the Holy Ghost has so many roles, super important. 00:26:54.880 --> 00:26:58.119 And I think that we way underestimate the importance 00:26:58.119 --> 00:27:01.250 of our relationship there as well. But here's 00:27:01.250 --> 00:27:03.509 the thing, you know, oftentimes we think, well, 00:27:03.670 --> 00:27:07.130 if I feel, and we've actually taught this, and 00:27:07.130 --> 00:27:09.309 I'm kind of wanting to backpedal a little bit 00:27:09.309 --> 00:27:11.609 on this teaching for this reason, because we've 00:27:11.609 --> 00:27:14.150 taught that if you feel the spirit of the Holy 00:27:14.150 --> 00:27:16.490 Ghost, then you know that the atonement of Jesus 00:27:16.490 --> 00:27:18.569 Christ is at work in your life. That's true. 00:27:19.179 --> 00:27:21.880 That is absolutely true. So if you do feel the 00:27:21.880 --> 00:27:24.319 spirit at any point you can know that you're 00:27:24.319 --> 00:27:27.119 being forgiven or that you are forgiven of your 00:27:27.119 --> 00:27:29.019 sins and that Christ's atonement is at work in 00:27:29.019 --> 00:27:31.259 your life to offset the effects of the fall of 00:27:31.259 --> 00:27:33.640 Adam and even other aspects of your life as well 00:27:33.640 --> 00:27:37.039 That's true. But what if I don't feel the spirit? 00:27:37.220 --> 00:27:40.480 Am I not forgiven? And maybe because I know that 00:27:40.480 --> 00:27:42.480 there are a lot of our listeners and now I know 00:27:42.480 --> 00:27:45.380 a lot of them personally that because of mental 00:27:46.029 --> 00:27:48.730 Illness because of chemical imbalances because 00:27:48.730 --> 00:27:52.250 of other things not related to sin or worthiness 00:27:52.250 --> 00:27:55.170 There's sometimes that feel of the spirit is 00:27:55.170 --> 00:27:58.750 hard to come by And so, you know to that person. 00:27:58.750 --> 00:28:00.329 What do you say? Well, if you don't feel the 00:28:00.329 --> 00:28:03.490 spirit, you're not forgiven. No, absolutely not 00:28:03.490 --> 00:28:05.869 There are ways and it's really important for 00:28:05.869 --> 00:28:09.230 us to understand that we all will approach this 00:28:09.230 --> 00:28:11.710 relationship with our Heavenly Father through 00:28:11.710 --> 00:28:15.670 his Son and the Holy Ghost Deity all of deity 00:28:15.670 --> 00:28:18.390 all of Elohim. I love that we're studying that 00:28:18.390 --> 00:28:21.589 right now and gospel doctrine then come follow 00:28:21.589 --> 00:28:27.609 me but but but all of Elohim all of God to To 00:28:27.609 --> 00:28:30.789 have that relationship with all of God and to 00:28:30.789 --> 00:28:34.509 know that We can know that sometimes without 00:28:34.509 --> 00:28:37.890 really feeling that caloric burn of the spirit 00:28:37.890 --> 00:28:39.710 and it's important that we point that out as 00:28:39.710 --> 00:28:44.940 well because a relationship can be had in so 00:28:44.940 --> 00:28:47.680 many different ways. So the bottom line is this. 00:28:48.730 --> 00:28:52.869 I hope that our listeners will feel invited to 00:28:52.869 --> 00:28:57.049 quit auditing ourselves, you know Really? I mean, 00:28:57.049 --> 00:28:59.009 I think it's important and I talk about this 00:28:59.009 --> 00:29:01.170 and you'll hear me reiterate this I've been talking 00:29:01.170 --> 00:29:02.849 about this since the beginning of the podcast 00:29:02.849 --> 00:29:05.890 cast a few years ago I believe in what we call 00:29:05.890 --> 00:29:08.089 an alcoholics anonymous a tenth step where I 00:29:08.089 --> 00:29:10.390 take a personal inventory every night and where 00:29:10.390 --> 00:29:12.430 I'm wrong promptly admit it but that's different 00:29:12.430 --> 00:29:16.369 than a spiritual sin audit where I'm measuring 00:29:16.369 --> 00:29:21.609 myself in my forgiven not forgiven against the 00:29:21.609 --> 00:29:24.549 against the way I think God sees me God see doesn't 00:29:24.549 --> 00:29:27.609 see me that way remember he sees me through Jesus 00:29:27.609 --> 00:29:30.950 Christ and so he's not seeing me as I have my 00:29:30.950 --> 00:29:33.549 worthy or not worthy seeing me as I am I aligned 00:29:33.549 --> 00:29:37.549 with him so I need to quit auditing myself right 00:29:37.549 --> 00:29:41.109 and then I got a kind of this is going to kind 00:29:41.109 --> 00:29:44.329 of sound different but I got to quit monitoring 00:29:44.329 --> 00:29:48.880 what God's mood is Isn't it weird how we humanize 00:29:48.880 --> 00:29:51.759 God? It's so weird. But we do it. I know, but 00:29:51.759 --> 00:29:54.880 I monitor God's mood. Yeah. Do you do that? Oh, 00:29:55.440 --> 00:30:00.039 yeah. Oh, absolutely. Because I think he's disappointed 00:30:00.039 --> 00:30:03.819 because I think he's, you know, whatever. I humanize 00:30:03.819 --> 00:30:07.950 God. I know. I know. It's like, he must be mad 00:30:07.950 --> 00:30:09.890 at me. It's embarrassing to admit, but yes, I 00:30:09.890 --> 00:30:11.710 do. He must be mad at me today because I forgot 00:30:11.710 --> 00:30:14.170 to say my prayers. Or I'm not feeling him today. 00:30:15.029 --> 00:30:17.049 You know, I don't. I've been there. I must have 00:30:17.049 --> 00:30:20.329 done something to step away. To step away because. 00:30:21.029 --> 00:30:23.009 Yeah. Yeah. It must be pain. This is this is 00:30:23.009 --> 00:30:24.829 payment, penalty and punishment for something 00:30:24.829 --> 00:30:27.450 I've done wrong. And I start viewing it wrong. 00:30:27.670 --> 00:30:30.539 The Accuser. Right. Yeah, that's where that comes 00:30:30.539 --> 00:30:33.700 from the accuser. The other thing is is I've 00:30:33.700 --> 00:30:37.980 just got to start trusting more And I think and 00:30:37.980 --> 00:30:40.079 now I'll extend this invitation to all of us 00:30:40.079 --> 00:30:43.079 to just trust more that Christ work is finished 00:30:43.079 --> 00:30:47.700 We just align with what is already finished It's 00:30:47.700 --> 00:30:51.740 infinite and paid for an eternal purchased and 00:30:51.740 --> 00:30:56.789 it's finished. He said it It is finished as final 00:30:56.789 --> 00:31:00.029 words on the cross and and and I think that if 00:31:00.029 --> 00:31:02.990 we if we really believe that it is finished and 00:31:02.990 --> 00:31:06.410 as we really align with him and as we really 00:31:06.410 --> 00:31:09.910 allow God to see us through the purview or the 00:31:09.910 --> 00:31:13.079 lens of Christ's atonement by aligning and putting 00:31:13.079 --> 00:31:15.819 Christ's atonement between us and the vision 00:31:15.819 --> 00:31:19.059 of God, then we're comfortable. And when we're 00:31:19.059 --> 00:31:22.140 comfortable and we know and we have that assurity 00:31:22.140 --> 00:31:25.900 in our lives that our path in life is pleasing 00:31:25.900 --> 00:31:28.900 before God, then we know that the repentance 00:31:28.900 --> 00:31:32.940 process is at work in our lives, Deb. Yeah. And 00:31:32.940 --> 00:31:36.839 I think that's when it finally clicked for me. 00:31:37.339 --> 00:31:40.400 Was when I literal when I literally felt that 00:31:40.400 --> 00:31:46.279 change that change of heart that that Thing in 00:31:46.279 --> 00:31:52.839 me that was like, ah I get it now But it's it's 00:31:52.839 --> 00:31:57.299 such like I said having a relationship with Heavenly 00:31:57.299 --> 00:32:05.119 Father and Jesus Christ takes Faith muscles takes 00:32:05.119 --> 00:32:10.779 hope muscles and it's being very, very still 00:32:10.779 --> 00:32:17.480 and listening and pondering and meditating and 00:32:17.480 --> 00:32:20.500 then trusting that what you're hearing and what 00:32:20.500 --> 00:32:25.819 you're feeling is coming from him because that's 00:32:25.819 --> 00:32:29.039 the universal language is that spirit to spirit. 00:32:29.740 --> 00:32:34.740 I relate it somewhat to the communication a mom 00:32:34.740 --> 00:32:39.269 has with her infant. Because there's I mean a 00:32:39.269 --> 00:32:41.789 mom can sing and a mom can talk but that baby 00:32:41.789 --> 00:32:44.049 can't talk and when you make that eye contact 00:32:44.049 --> 00:32:47.869 with that baby There's communication. There's 00:32:47.869 --> 00:32:53.190 so much going on And I know that's what he does 00:32:53.190 --> 00:32:57.630 with us because we're babies We're embryos trying 00:32:57.630 --> 00:33:00.269 to figure out this thing called life. We're trying 00:33:00.269 --> 00:33:04.970 to become like him and We're just figuring things 00:33:04.970 --> 00:33:10.960 out and when we can be still know and feel that's 00:33:10.960 --> 00:33:13.619 the communication he wants us to to feel and 00:33:13.619 --> 00:33:16.579 know and have that peace I think I think that's 00:33:16.579 --> 00:33:20.039 the other part of this that when I felt that 00:33:20.039 --> 00:33:27.559 peace of oh okay now I feel that change a new 00:33:27.559 --> 00:33:30.480 heart yeah I love that too not just change my 00:33:30.480 --> 00:33:37.029 heart but gave me a new heart yeah I think that 00:33:37.029 --> 00:33:40.769 scripture encapsulates all of this in Matthew 00:33:40.769 --> 00:33:44.970 11 28 Come unto me all you that labor and are 00:33:44.970 --> 00:33:47.470 heavy laden and I will give you rest take my 00:33:47.470 --> 00:33:50.690 yoke upon you and learn of me For I am meek and 00:33:50.690 --> 00:33:52.750 lonely of heart and you shall find rest unto 00:33:52.750 --> 00:33:55.910 yourselves for my yoke is easy and my burden 00:33:55.910 --> 00:33:59.950 is light You know the question isn't has God 00:33:59.950 --> 00:34:03.809 moved past my sins The real question is, am I 00:34:03.809 --> 00:34:08.409 willing to stay in Jesus Christ? I hope that 00:34:08.409 --> 00:34:11.349 that's our resolve this week. Thank you so much 00:34:11.349 --> 00:34:15.090 for your email. And thank you all for your listening 00:34:15.090 --> 00:34:18.269 and your kind words and your spreading the good 00:34:18.269 --> 00:34:22.550 word and your support. Please keep it up. Thanks 00:34:22.550 --> 00:34:24.329 for being with us. We look forward to being with 00:34:24.329 --> 00:34:28.050 you again next week. We love you. Until then, 00:34:28.409 --> 00:34:28.829 be well.