WEBVTT 00:00:00.560 --> 00:00:02.839 Hey there everybody welcome out to another episode 00:00:02.839 --> 00:00:04.740 of redeemed through his blood. This is Scott 00:00:04.740 --> 00:00:07.860 Durfey as always and as always also I'm joined 00:00:07.860 --> 00:00:12.439 by my better half The lovely Debra Durfey. 00:00:12.439 --> 00:00:17.500 Hi friends. Hi Deb. Hi Well Before we get too 00:00:17.500 --> 00:00:20.940 far Going into this already. I just a couple 00:00:20.940 --> 00:00:23.260 of things I want to mention We've received a 00:00:23.260 --> 00:00:26.019 couple of emails recently really appreciate your 00:00:26.019 --> 00:00:30.480 input there your questions, etc When they're 00:00:30.480 --> 00:00:33.240 appropriate, we'll make them part of the podcast. 00:00:33.259 --> 00:00:35.600 And of course, if you send an email, make sure 00:00:35.600 --> 00:00:37.799 you give us permission to do that, unless you'd 00:00:37.799 --> 00:00:39.840 rather we didn't then let us know that as well. 00:00:40.219 --> 00:00:44.280 But you can email us at he redeems us at gmail 00:00:44.280 --> 00:00:47.280 .com. And another thing, Deb, I'm just going 00:00:47.280 --> 00:00:50.320 to be transparent. We've been doing this thing 00:00:50.320 --> 00:00:53.479 for a few years now, started with David and I, 00:00:53.479 --> 00:00:55.859 and now you and I have been doing it for several 00:00:55.859 --> 00:00:59.079 months now. And honestly, it's a lot of work. 00:01:01.219 --> 00:01:05.079 And you know, honestly too we do all of our own 00:01:05.079 --> 00:01:09.000 editing when I say we I mean me I do I do all 00:01:09.000 --> 00:01:11.959 of the editing, you know and and and all of that 00:01:11.959 --> 00:01:16.939 and I know that this would be a little more Readily 00:01:16.939 --> 00:01:20.159 or easily received if we were to have video and 00:01:20.159 --> 00:01:22.079 put it on YouTube, you know And all those other 00:01:22.079 --> 00:01:23.900 things we just don't have the bandwidth to do 00:01:23.900 --> 00:01:27.439 that Oftentimes, Deb. I find myself wondering 00:01:27.640 --> 00:01:31.719 Do we even continue doing this? Do we even keep 00:01:31.719 --> 00:01:34.340 doing what we're doing? Are we having an effect? 00:01:34.439 --> 00:01:38.920 Are we making a difference? And I know I'm making 00:01:38.920 --> 00:01:41.060 a difference in my own life and you are in yours 00:01:41.060 --> 00:01:44.480 and all of that. And for that reason alone, it's 00:01:44.480 --> 00:01:48.019 great. But I will tell you this, I've been thinking 00:01:48.019 --> 00:01:51.299 that almost every week lately. Okay, when should 00:01:51.299 --> 00:01:53.359 we wind it down? When should we be done? When 00:01:53.359 --> 00:01:56.180 should, you know, we kind of cap this thing off? 00:01:56.920 --> 00:02:00.099 Every time I do, I get an email. Every time I 00:02:00.099 --> 00:02:03.680 do I get a text every time I do somebody I run 00:02:03.680 --> 00:02:07.140 into or a friend or a cousin or a family member 00:02:07.140 --> 00:02:10.960 Makes a comment about that. They are definitely 00:02:10.960 --> 00:02:15.039 Being helped to establish and or reestablish 00:02:15.039 --> 00:02:18.240 or continue in or maintain a relationship with 00:02:18.240 --> 00:02:20.960 Heavenly Father his son and the Holy Ghost and 00:02:20.960 --> 00:02:23.879 I know it's helping me do that. I don't think 00:02:23.879 --> 00:02:28.349 our Institute students listen. It doesn't seem 00:02:28.349 --> 00:02:31.150 to be a thing that college kids do these days 00:02:31.150 --> 00:02:35.650 is listen to. It's too long for younger people. 00:02:35.729 --> 00:02:38.289 It's got to be about seven minutes max, you know. 00:02:38.449 --> 00:02:42.310 Anyway. So having said that, I'm not sure where 00:02:42.310 --> 00:02:45.310 I'm going with that. Maybe a little encouragement 00:02:45.310 --> 00:02:49.050 from y 'all's end wouldn't hurt. Maybe going 00:02:49.050 --> 00:02:51.650 on to our social media accounts, which are not 00:02:51.650 --> 00:02:54.050 super active, I admit it. I try and post once 00:02:54.050 --> 00:02:57.389 or twice a week. And again, there again, bandwidth 00:02:57.389 --> 00:03:00.530 is an issue. But if you'd like those and share 00:03:00.530 --> 00:03:04.909 those, and if we could just continue to have 00:03:04.909 --> 00:03:06.849 a good experience together, I guess that's kind 00:03:06.849 --> 00:03:09.060 of our goal. Well, we're a little homegrown. 00:03:10.000 --> 00:03:14.340 And I also feel like we're just sinners helping 00:03:14.340 --> 00:03:18.659 sinners. And, you know, truly, anytime we get 00:03:18.659 --> 00:03:23.199 feedback and people reach out individually and 00:03:23.199 --> 00:03:27.780 share, I really do. It humbles me. I mean, I 00:03:27.780 --> 00:03:32.840 think I'm just one of you. I listen to podcasts, 00:03:33.080 --> 00:03:35.020 too, and I'm just seeking for inspiration and 00:03:35.020 --> 00:03:38.449 revelation. and you know personal growth and 00:03:38.449 --> 00:03:40.530 I want a relationship with my I want a stronger 00:03:40.530 --> 00:03:43.349 relationship with my savior and my heavenly father 00:03:43.349 --> 00:03:47.330 it's and it's you know very rewarding to study 00:03:47.330 --> 00:03:51.889 to pray and to get vulnerable here has been a 00:03:51.889 --> 00:03:55.129 gift for me. Scary gift, but it has been a gift. 00:03:55.490 --> 00:03:57.469 As long as I don't know how many of you are listening. 00:03:58.669 --> 00:04:00.490 Just tell Scott, I don't want to know. Well, 00:04:00.590 --> 00:04:02.969 I look at the numbers of how many people are 00:04:02.969 --> 00:04:05.050 listening and I've shared that with Deb a time 00:04:05.050 --> 00:04:07.669 or two and she's like, ah, freaks me out. Yeah. 00:04:08.689 --> 00:04:11.469 I'm not a stage girl. I don't like to be front 00:04:11.469 --> 00:04:14.969 and center like Scott does So I'd rather be back 00:04:14.969 --> 00:04:16.589 behind the curtain making sure the show runs 00:04:16.589 --> 00:04:19.589 great. Yeah. Yeah, I For whatever that's worth. 00:04:19.810 --> 00:04:22.769 I am used to being on stage last week in Texas 00:04:22.769 --> 00:04:25.889 I spoke to almost a thousand people for two days, 00:04:25.889 --> 00:04:30.449 right? Yeah, it's just a and it's a lot and that 00:04:30.449 --> 00:04:32.589 contributes to I mean, there's just a big load 00:04:32.589 --> 00:04:36.310 here anyway So, you know, last week we talked 00:04:36.310 --> 00:04:39.930 about what we called the drift, right? And we 00:04:39.930 --> 00:04:42.790 kind of turned that as how easy it is sometimes 00:04:42.790 --> 00:04:46.089 for our focus to slide. You know, we talk a lot 00:04:46.089 --> 00:04:48.949 about Doctrine and Covenants, Section 6, where 00:04:48.949 --> 00:04:51.269 we're invited, look unto me in every thought, 00:04:51.370 --> 00:04:53.810 doubt not, fear not. And then we read down and 00:04:53.810 --> 00:04:57.149 we learn that when he's asking us to look unto 00:04:57.149 --> 00:04:59.370 him in every thought, he's asking us to behold 00:04:59.370 --> 00:05:01.509 the wounds, the prints of the nails in my hands 00:05:01.509 --> 00:05:04.139 and feet, et cetera. So he's asking... is to 00:05:04.139 --> 00:05:08.339 see him in his crucifixion or in his atonement, 00:05:08.439 --> 00:05:11.660 the events of the atonement. And again, I think 00:05:11.660 --> 00:05:13.939 that that's there to help us to know him better, 00:05:14.060 --> 00:05:16.680 to feel his love deeper, et cetera. But, you 00:05:16.680 --> 00:05:19.879 know, it kind of feels a little bit different. 00:05:20.139 --> 00:05:22.379 You know, today, just a little bit different. 00:05:22.480 --> 00:05:24.459 We don't necessarily want to talk about how to 00:05:24.459 --> 00:05:28.279 necessarily to correct that drift. But what happens 00:05:28.860 --> 00:05:32.560 what happens when life begins to feel more and 00:05:32.560 --> 00:05:34.459 more unsettled? And that's gonna happen to all 00:05:34.459 --> 00:05:38.639 of us. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, because it's not subtle. 00:05:38.879 --> 00:05:42.319 Sometimes things don't slowly move out of alignment. 00:05:42.579 --> 00:05:45.100 Sometimes they just feel really unorganized. 00:05:45.279 --> 00:05:47.720 Yeah, unorganized. I keep coming back to that 00:05:47.720 --> 00:05:49.779 word unorganized. You know, this past week in 00:05:49.779 --> 00:05:52.680 Gospel Doctrine, we talked about the creation. 00:05:53.359 --> 00:05:56.680 And I love that you know we took a little bit 00:05:56.680 --> 00:05:59.220 different perspective this year in gospel doctrine 00:05:59.220 --> 00:06:03.160 as I'm trying to I've been called to teach it 00:06:03.160 --> 00:06:05.800 again, and as I'm teaching gospel doctrine this 00:06:05.800 --> 00:06:08.439 year I'm really trying to refocus on and look 00:06:08.439 --> 00:06:11.220 for where Jesus Christ is in the Old Testament 00:06:11.220 --> 00:06:13.759 wherever we can find him You know we talked about 00:06:13.759 --> 00:06:17.800 creation last week And this is something you 00:06:17.800 --> 00:06:21.420 know as we know God didn't create ex nihilo which 00:06:21.420 --> 00:06:24.750 means create everything from nothing. What he 00:06:24.750 --> 00:06:28.209 did is he and he organized it. He shaped from 00:06:28.209 --> 00:06:30.629 what was already there. A lot of times we'll 00:06:30.629 --> 00:06:33.329 call that chaos, you know, shaped from what was 00:06:33.329 --> 00:06:36.089 already there. Yeah, which honestly feels familiar. 00:06:37.769 --> 00:06:41.389 In fact, too familiar. There are seasons when 00:06:41.389 --> 00:06:44.250 life just doesn't feel wrong. It just feels really 00:06:44.250 --> 00:06:47.389 scattered. Yeah. Reminds me of that 52 card pick 00:06:47.389 --> 00:06:51.949 up we played as played as kids. you know asking 00:06:51.949 --> 00:06:53.550 your younger sibling have you ever played the 00:06:53.550 --> 00:06:55.990 52 card pick up and then you just flip all 52 00:06:55.990 --> 00:06:57.850 cards in the air and they fall all over the ground 00:06:57.850 --> 00:07:01.129 that's kind of how did you say you did that with 00:07:01.129 --> 00:07:03.720 a younger sibling Oh yeah, and maybe my older 00:07:03.720 --> 00:07:06.899 sibling too. You just arch the card and just 00:07:06.899 --> 00:07:08.459 put them up in the air and let them all fall 00:07:08.459 --> 00:07:10.620 down. That sounds like a great plan for a younger 00:07:10.620 --> 00:07:13.639 sibling. Sounds like the older siblings, what 00:07:13.639 --> 00:07:15.720 they would do, they'd make you pick it up. Oh, 00:07:15.839 --> 00:07:18.899 I picked plenty of 52 cards up. Yeah. Yeah. Well, 00:07:19.000 --> 00:07:23.550 and that's how it goes. That's how it goes. This 00:07:23.550 --> 00:07:26.149 week we don't necessarily want to talk about 00:07:26.149 --> 00:07:29.329 the drift not being in the drift, but we're gonna 00:07:29.329 --> 00:07:32.870 talk we want to talk about Kind of why it happens, 00:07:32.870 --> 00:07:37.689 you know rather than Fixing our environment or 00:07:37.689 --> 00:07:39.689 the things that we're in maybe if we could just 00:07:39.689 --> 00:07:43.250 understand it better maybe if we could just understand 00:07:43.250 --> 00:07:47.230 that sometimes even the drift as we call it and 00:07:47.230 --> 00:07:53.259 Not necessarily overt or even covert sin, you 00:07:53.259 --> 00:07:57.019 know, maybe not outward rebellion, but just a 00:07:57.019 --> 00:07:59.259 drift, you know, and that drift is going to happen. 00:07:59.399 --> 00:08:01.959 We talked about it last week, but why does it 00:08:01.959 --> 00:08:04.980 happen? And I think that's important for us to 00:08:04.980 --> 00:08:09.240 know. You felt a little drift. I felt derailed. 00:08:10.060 --> 00:08:12.980 I mean, I felt more than drift. I felt derailed. 00:08:13.120 --> 00:08:17.180 Tell us what happens. So I on Friday, I got called 00:08:17.180 --> 00:08:22.000 into my boss's office with the corporate attorney 00:08:22.000 --> 00:08:27.420 and got laid off That was my last day and I packed 00:08:27.420 --> 00:08:31.779 up my office and I left Didn't say goodbye to 00:08:31.779 --> 00:08:35.399 my team didn't it was just very sudden and very 00:08:35.399 --> 00:08:38.340 And I you know, I was at peace with all of it 00:08:38.340 --> 00:08:39.960 when it was being explained to me. I was like, 00:08:40.039 --> 00:08:42.259 okay All right, whatever. Where do I sign? What 00:08:42.259 --> 00:08:49.919 do I do? and When I left You know, I'm I'm one 00:08:49.919 --> 00:08:53.519 of those to be honest with you. I'm calm in crisis. 00:08:53.519 --> 00:08:56.440 I really am It's one of the things that I don't 00:08:56.440 --> 00:08:58.120 know if I've just been in so much crisis that 00:08:58.120 --> 00:09:00.980 I know how to stay calm and then later I will 00:09:00.980 --> 00:09:06.720 go into Like after I feel like supported then 00:09:06.720 --> 00:09:11.039 I have my breakdown, but I just I just felt like 00:09:11.039 --> 00:09:15.100 Okay Next, I'll go on to the next thing, but 00:09:15.100 --> 00:09:17.500 it has been, you know, now that it's been a few 00:09:17.500 --> 00:09:21.919 days and reorganizing my time and my schedule 00:09:21.919 --> 00:09:24.860 and not getting up and going to work and not 00:09:24.860 --> 00:09:27.980 running a team and not, not, you know, in my 00:09:27.980 --> 00:09:31.779 normal comfort zone. What do I always say? Here 00:09:31.779 --> 00:09:35.080 I am practicing what I preach. No comfort in 00:09:35.080 --> 00:09:36.980 the growing zone, no growing in the comfort zone. 00:09:37.259 --> 00:09:42.159 So clearly I get to experience growth. And so 00:09:42.159 --> 00:09:44.440 there's definitely something I get to learn from 00:09:44.440 --> 00:09:49.159 this derailed experience that I felt. And it's 00:09:49.159 --> 00:09:53.539 not just that, because within the last couple 00:09:53.539 --> 00:09:57.019 of months, I got released from primary president. 00:09:58.340 --> 00:10:00.679 We just got released from being in institute. 00:10:00.879 --> 00:10:06.659 We're teaching our last semester of institute, 00:10:06.720 --> 00:10:11.809 which we've done for the last five years. Even 00:10:11.809 --> 00:10:15.370 my yoga studio is like uncertain. Like it's like 00:10:15.370 --> 00:10:16.889 they're trying to sell it. And so I'm feeling 00:10:16.889 --> 00:10:20.889 like I think there's all kinds of things just 00:10:20.889 --> 00:10:23.509 changing right now. I could, if I really thought 00:10:23.509 --> 00:10:25.909 about it, I could think of it. So I'm, I'm just 00:10:25.909 --> 00:10:27.830 trying to look for the opportunity for growth 00:10:27.830 --> 00:10:33.549 right now and just sitting in the chaos. And 00:10:33.549 --> 00:10:37.029 I'm, I literally, you know, I'm trying to be 00:10:37.029 --> 00:10:40.200 still. Which is a little bit easier when I'm 00:10:40.200 --> 00:10:42.720 not working because I feel like I when I'm working 00:10:42.720 --> 00:10:46.919 I'm on the run So it's interesting. It's an interesting 00:10:46.919 --> 00:10:51.799 place to sit From the from the drift to the derailment 00:10:51.799 --> 00:10:59.399 Yeah These are things, you know last week again 00:10:59.399 --> 00:11:01.120 when we were talking about the drift we were 00:11:01.120 --> 00:11:03.960 talking about how sometimes kind of happens slowly 00:11:03.960 --> 00:11:06.679 And we find ourselves and we take a look around 00:11:06.679 --> 00:11:09.580 and we say wow I've drifted. How did I get here? 00:11:09.820 --> 00:11:12.720 You know, and then all of a sudden suddenly sometimes 00:11:12.720 --> 00:11:16.519 We just get nailed with it like you did Friday. 00:11:16.639 --> 00:11:18.759 Yeah, that came out of the blue. You weren't 00:11:18.759 --> 00:11:22.019 expecting it You know, there were some clues 00:11:22.019 --> 00:11:25.500 and obvious things when a company is in a certain 00:11:25.720 --> 00:11:28.759 Posture etc. Then there are certain clues that 00:11:28.759 --> 00:11:32.659 come along etc. But you were still pretty much 00:11:32.659 --> 00:11:36.000 Sideways with and I think there's that emotion 00:11:36.000 --> 00:11:42.720 between I'm okay and I'm settled. Yeah. Yes. 00:11:42.759 --> 00:11:46.980 So where's your clarity today? I'm okay. Yeah, 00:11:47.080 --> 00:11:48.659 you're okay, but where's your clarity? Do you 00:11:48.659 --> 00:11:50.480 know what's gonna happen tomorrow? Absolutely 00:11:50.480 --> 00:11:52.659 not. And that's the point. The uncertainty, I 00:11:52.659 --> 00:11:55.860 think, is the part that I have to talk my, like, 00:11:56.799 --> 00:12:00.019 to calm my angst. I literally tell myself out 00:12:00.019 --> 00:12:01.580 loud, you guys are gonna think I'm absolutely 00:12:01.580 --> 00:12:04.220 cuckoo for Cocoa Puffs, but I literally have 00:12:04.220 --> 00:12:07.210 to tell myself, okay, just breathe. And then 00:12:07.210 --> 00:12:08.870 just slow down and it's like everything's gonna 00:12:08.870 --> 00:12:11.629 be okay. I have air to breathe. I have food to 00:12:11.629 --> 00:12:13.269 eat. I have a roof over my head. Everything's 00:12:13.269 --> 00:12:17.230 fine. But the angst inside of me, I have to like 00:12:17.230 --> 00:12:20.350 consciously and intentionally calm it down. Because 00:12:20.350 --> 00:12:23.889 the uncertainty is what brings me fear. Like 00:12:23.889 --> 00:12:27.450 not knowing. Okay. I'm gonna kind of go a little 00:12:27.450 --> 00:12:30.529 bit sideways on that one for just a minute. So 00:12:30.529 --> 00:12:33.309 uncertainty brings fear and not knowing. And 00:12:33.309 --> 00:12:35.870 I think that's true for all of us right, but 00:12:35.870 --> 00:12:40.289 but we can still be okay in our fear Right for 00:12:40.289 --> 00:12:43.330 sure. We can still feel settled in our fear. 00:12:43.330 --> 00:12:49.230 Sure. How do we do that? For me personally, I 00:12:49.230 --> 00:12:52.309 have to be still I have to be still and know 00:12:52.309 --> 00:12:55.629 that God's in charge. Okay, and I think it's 00:12:55.629 --> 00:13:00.029 a space of surrender. I think it's a space of 00:13:00.889 --> 00:13:03.210 that scripture that comes to me is be still and 00:13:03.210 --> 00:13:07.070 know that I am God because I have had numerous 00:13:07.070 --> 00:13:12.750 experiences where I have been in the same situation 00:13:12.750 --> 00:13:15.129 where there's been fear, where there has been 00:13:15.129 --> 00:13:20.570 uncertainty, and I just have to keep my focus 00:13:20.570 --> 00:13:26.610 on God has a plan and I'm part of that plan and 00:13:26.610 --> 00:13:31.049 I trust Him. So, I guess flipping my fear to 00:13:31.049 --> 00:13:34.690 faith and knowing that realistically I'm not 00:13:34.690 --> 00:13:37.389 in charge, but I feel like I want to be in charge. 00:13:40.559 --> 00:13:43.120 You know why I want to I want to be a little 00:13:43.120 --> 00:13:46.299 bit in control here. That's my heart. I love 00:13:46.299 --> 00:13:49.059 that. And this is another thing. I wasn't going 00:13:49.059 --> 00:13:52.059 to do this, but because it just popped into my 00:13:52.059 --> 00:13:54.460 mind and we've been talking a lot about this. 00:13:54.600 --> 00:13:57.059 But in the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous, 00:13:57.139 --> 00:13:59.740 there's a story in the back. And this is in the 00:13:59.740 --> 00:14:02.100 I'm reading from the third edition in the third 00:14:02.100 --> 00:14:05.220 edition. It's on page 449. And in the fourth 00:14:05.220 --> 00:14:07.840 edition, it's on page 417. And I'm not going 00:14:07.840 --> 00:14:10.549 to read the whole story, but just one. paragraph 00:14:10.549 --> 00:14:13.909 or just one part of a paragraph here it says 00:14:13.909 --> 00:14:16.450 acceptance is the answer to all my problems today 00:14:16.450 --> 00:14:18.750 and when I'm disturbed it's because I find some 00:14:18.750 --> 00:14:21.970 person place thing or situation some fact of 00:14:21.970 --> 00:14:24.970 my life unacceptable to me and I can find no 00:14:24.970 --> 00:14:28.409 serenity until I can accept that person place 00:14:28.409 --> 00:14:31.029 thing or situation as being exactly the way it's 00:14:31.029 --> 00:14:34.970 supposed to be at this moment nothing absolutely 00:14:34.970 --> 00:14:41.230 nothing happens in God's world by mistake Bingo. 00:14:42.210 --> 00:14:45.669 Yep. I love that. I love that so much. Let me 00:14:45.669 --> 00:14:48.110 just read the next sentence or two, too, because 00:14:48.110 --> 00:14:53.629 it pulls it into and makes it relatable to alcoholism. 00:14:54.009 --> 00:14:57.149 But we can relate this to any ism, any of our 00:14:57.149 --> 00:14:59.549 isms, any of our fears, any of our challenges. 00:14:59.549 --> 00:15:05.750 Employment ism. Unemployment ism. So until I 00:15:05.750 --> 00:15:08.350 could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay 00:15:08.350 --> 00:15:12.120 sober. Unless I accept life completely on life's 00:15:12.120 --> 00:15:15.440 terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate 00:15:15.440 --> 00:15:18.059 not so much on what needs to be changed in the 00:15:18.059 --> 00:15:22.059 world as on what needs to be changed in me and 00:15:22.059 --> 00:15:26.659 my attitudes. And I would add, and who am I allowing 00:15:26.659 --> 00:15:29.799 to change those things in me, including and maybe 00:15:29.799 --> 00:15:34.279 especially my attitudes. Yeah. Well, and it's, 00:15:34.279 --> 00:15:37.289 you know, like sometimes it... It doesn't necessarily 00:15:37.289 --> 00:15:39.950 feel wrong. It just doesn't feel finished. Yeah. 00:15:39.990 --> 00:15:42.269 Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And that's the thing, 00:15:42.470 --> 00:15:43.929 you know, so often, I mean, what is finished? 00:15:44.230 --> 00:15:47.070 I mean, truly, I guess we don't know. I mean, 00:15:47.149 --> 00:15:50.389 right. It'll all be good in the end. But if it's 00:15:50.389 --> 00:15:53.370 not good, it's not the end. Right. Right. Yeah. 00:15:53.450 --> 00:15:56.230 I don't know. You know, you just don't feel finished. 00:15:56.370 --> 00:15:58.210 I think that that's accurate because, you know, 00:15:58.250 --> 00:16:01.070 as I've seen this, I was at the gym. Work it 00:16:01.070 --> 00:16:03.850 out would when I get this text from Deb the other 00:16:03.850 --> 00:16:06.070 day. I just got laid off I'll call you in a couple 00:16:06.070 --> 00:16:08.129 hours or something. I think you said I said I 00:16:08.129 --> 00:16:09.750 call I'll call you when I leave I call you when 00:16:09.750 --> 00:16:13.309 I leave. Yeah, I didn't say a couple hours Even 00:16:13.309 --> 00:16:18.350 more ambiguous I might add So I'm at the gym 00:16:18.350 --> 00:16:20.690 I'm thinking oh my goodness, what do I do? Obviously, 00:16:20.690 --> 00:16:22.490 I shouldn't call her. Otherwise she would have 00:16:22.490 --> 00:16:25.009 said call me obviously I shouldn't go down there 00:16:25.009 --> 00:16:27.990 because I have another issue that could come 00:16:27.990 --> 00:16:30.759 into play and get us both in trouble and all 00:16:30.759 --> 00:16:35.000 these other things, and so I'm left with acceptance 00:16:35.000 --> 00:16:39.059 too, right? I didn't think of that. I mean, how 00:16:39.059 --> 00:16:42.940 many of us, when our spouse or our kid or somebody 00:16:42.940 --> 00:16:45.360 that we love or just somebody that we have some 00:16:45.360 --> 00:16:48.360 sort of empathetic pull towards, when they're 00:16:48.360 --> 00:16:50.600 going through these things, how many, we go through 00:16:50.600 --> 00:16:54.299 it too sometimes. And there are our own things 00:16:54.299 --> 00:16:57.259 that we have to reconcile, our own things that 00:16:57.259 --> 00:17:00.100 we have to come to grips with, et cetera, because 00:17:00.100 --> 00:17:04.480 there's a problem here. It creates, when things 00:17:04.480 --> 00:17:08.539 are unorganized, I'm gonna go back to that from 00:17:08.539 --> 00:17:11.180 Genesis, right? When things are unorganized, 00:17:11.519 --> 00:17:16.059 it feels like I've lost my rhythm. When I've 00:17:16.059 --> 00:17:17.980 lost my rhythm, I can't dance anyway, but when 00:17:17.980 --> 00:17:20.779 I've lost my rhythm, I'm a mess. Right? Yeah, 00:17:20.960 --> 00:17:24.420 you're just a spaghetti boy. Pretty much. You 00:17:24.420 --> 00:17:27.819 know, when things get unorganized like this, 00:17:27.859 --> 00:17:30.460 and this is a big one for me, I want answers 00:17:30.460 --> 00:17:32.839 and I want them now. That's because we live in 00:17:32.839 --> 00:17:36.039 a really fast world. And I'm a, you know, if 00:17:36.039 --> 00:17:38.140 it is to be it's up to me kind of guy, I was 00:17:38.140 --> 00:17:40.640 raised that way, and that's not a bad thing, 00:17:41.240 --> 00:17:44.160 but it's not all up to me. And that's where sometimes 00:17:44.160 --> 00:17:48.400 I have to remember. Right. So and then the other 00:17:48.400 --> 00:17:50.480 thing is in depth, I don't think you've done 00:17:50.480 --> 00:17:54.640 this, but a lot of times when we run into situations 00:17:54.640 --> 00:17:58.900 that challenge us, that maybe make life a little 00:17:58.900 --> 00:18:01.519 less predictable than we had planned for it to 00:18:01.519 --> 00:18:04.720 be, et cetera, we sometimes jump into self blame. 00:18:05.259 --> 00:18:08.660 Oh, I do that. Don't don't say I don't do that. 00:18:08.740 --> 00:18:12.640 That's I think that's human. And not only self 00:18:12.640 --> 00:18:15.740 -blame, but blame others. You know, it's like, 00:18:15.960 --> 00:18:19.960 not only do I want to point the finger at myself, 00:18:20.059 --> 00:18:22.539 but I also want to point it to others too, which 00:18:22.539 --> 00:18:24.980 reminding that, you know, there's fingers pointing 00:18:24.980 --> 00:18:30.319 back to myself. So yeah, blame is an interesting 00:18:30.319 --> 00:18:33.599 dynamic. That's one of the first ones. What I 00:18:33.599 --> 00:18:35.559 should have done, what you should have done, 00:18:35.680 --> 00:18:39.319 what they should have done. I mean, it's, you 00:18:39.319 --> 00:18:42.319 know. Blame is a big one. How do you sit with 00:18:42.319 --> 00:18:46.819 this uncertainty then? Well, I'm really uncomfortable. 00:18:47.279 --> 00:18:50.200 Yeah. I am really uncomfortable. Yeah. Yeah. 00:18:50.200 --> 00:18:53.079 And I've been uncomfortable before. We've all 00:18:53.079 --> 00:18:55.480 been uncomfortable before. We'll all have. And 00:18:55.480 --> 00:18:57.720 you'll get another opportunity at some point 00:18:57.720 --> 00:19:01.099 in the future to be uncomfortable. Oh, there's 00:19:01.099 --> 00:19:06.160 nothing more consistent than discomfort, AKA 00:19:06.160 --> 00:19:11.759 change. Right. Yeah. Right. But, but, but, you 00:19:11.759 --> 00:19:13.799 know, I got to remember. So when I'm feeling 00:19:13.799 --> 00:19:16.680 this discomfort, when I'm feeling this change, 00:19:16.759 --> 00:19:19.000 when I'm feeling things that are just out of 00:19:19.000 --> 00:19:22.019 whack or out of the ordinary or however you want 00:19:22.019 --> 00:19:26.880 to term it in my life, I need to remember what 00:19:26.880 --> 00:19:29.279 we taught or what we learned last week in gospel 00:19:29.279 --> 00:19:32.960 doctrine. And that is God creates from chaos. 00:19:34.180 --> 00:19:37.059 He'll take what's unorganized. He'll take what's 00:19:37.680 --> 00:19:40.500 Chaotic he'll take what doesn't make sense or 00:19:40.500 --> 00:19:43.859 seem reasonable or beautiful or any of that to 00:19:43.859 --> 00:19:46.700 us But if we allow him to do it and he does it 00:19:46.700 --> 00:19:48.559 through his son Jesus Christ and through his 00:19:48.559 --> 00:19:51.819 atonement Christ's atonement But but but if we'll 00:19:51.819 --> 00:19:56.359 allow him to Create from the chaos in our lives 00:19:56.359 --> 00:20:00.839 then when it's done and that season ends It will 00:20:00.839 --> 00:20:04.400 be as like he said in Genesis 2 it is good. Yeah, 00:20:04.880 --> 00:20:08.339 it is good and I like when he says at the end 00:20:08.339 --> 00:20:09.920 of one of those, and if I had my scriptures in 00:20:09.920 --> 00:20:12.420 front of me, I could tell you, when he was completely 00:20:12.420 --> 00:20:16.579 done and he said, it is very good. That's the 00:20:16.579 --> 00:20:19.319 piece that it's like, you know, because not only 00:20:19.319 --> 00:20:22.799 does he like chaos, he likes mess. And I think 00:20:22.799 --> 00:20:27.980 for me, oftentimes, it's important for me to 00:20:27.980 --> 00:20:34.789 be okay in the chaos and the mess. And to get 00:20:34.789 --> 00:20:39.680 comfortable in that is hard. I do a lot of yoga. 00:20:39.819 --> 00:20:42.720 I'm gonna go five, six, seven, eight. Well, okay, 00:20:42.859 --> 00:20:44.859 so now that you bring that up, I mean, let's 00:20:44.859 --> 00:20:47.000 talk about that. How do we get comfortable in 00:20:47.000 --> 00:20:48.859 the chaos and in the mess? So you just talked 00:20:48.859 --> 00:20:51.359 about something that maybe in a Sunday school 00:20:51.359 --> 00:20:53.519 class or in a gospel doctrine setting or something 00:20:53.519 --> 00:20:56.019 like that, you know, if you asked, okay, how 00:20:56.019 --> 00:20:58.740 do you get comfortable in the chaos? How do you 00:20:58.740 --> 00:21:01.160 get comfortable in the uncertainty? And maybe 00:21:01.160 --> 00:21:03.259 comfortable is not the right word. Maybe just 00:21:03.259 --> 00:21:05.539 settled. Yeah, it's not comfortable. Whatever 00:21:05.539 --> 00:21:09.119 vernacular feels comfortable or suits you then 00:21:09.119 --> 00:21:11.180 use it but because we're not we're not saying 00:21:11.180 --> 00:21:14.619 this is a you know lollipops and and bubble gum 00:21:14.619 --> 00:21:17.940 and butterflies and jumping jacks and rainbows 00:21:17.940 --> 00:21:21.519 and all of that you know this we're talking about 00:21:21.519 --> 00:21:24.640 really having Challenges and you know and and 00:21:24.640 --> 00:21:26.339 let's be honest. Let's put it in perspective 00:21:26.339 --> 00:21:30.279 your job Situation changes not the end of our 00:21:30.279 --> 00:21:33.839 world, right? It's not we weren't diagnosed with 00:21:33.839 --> 00:21:36.920 a Neither one of us were diagnosed with a terminal 00:21:36.920 --> 00:21:39.559 disease neither one of us had an accident that's 00:21:39.559 --> 00:21:41.920 dismembering or disfiguring neither one of us 00:21:41.920 --> 00:21:44.240 lost our life or one of you know, I mean there's 00:21:44.240 --> 00:21:46.299 so many other things if we put it in the grand 00:21:46.299 --> 00:21:48.480 scheme of things and keep it in perspective it's 00:21:48.480 --> 00:21:54.339 it's not it's it's not a a situation that should 00:21:54.339 --> 00:21:57.259 wreck our mortality. It just happens. For sure, 00:21:57.500 --> 00:22:00.279 for sure. Stuff like this just happens. And it's 00:22:00.279 --> 00:22:01.859 supposed to happen. These kinds of things are 00:22:01.859 --> 00:22:04.859 supposed to happen. And diagnosis and other things 00:22:04.859 --> 00:22:07.380 like that. Death. I mean, we've had a lot of 00:22:07.380 --> 00:22:10.259 that around us lately. Yeah. That is part of 00:22:10.259 --> 00:22:12.740 this mess. That is part of this chaos. It's part 00:22:12.740 --> 00:22:16.980 of, you know, the fall is part of what we're 00:22:16.980 --> 00:22:20.359 experiencing here. Yeah, so and again getting 00:22:20.359 --> 00:22:23.000 back to the creation story. He didn't get rid 00:22:23.000 --> 00:22:26.180 of the chaos He didn't get rid of the unorganized 00:22:26.180 --> 00:22:28.579 right? He didn't wait for everything to come 00:22:28.579 --> 00:22:31.380 into order. He worked with what was already there 00:22:31.380 --> 00:22:35.619 and through his power Right through his power. 00:22:35.619 --> 00:22:39.339 He was able to organize this and began to work 00:22:39.339 --> 00:22:42.259 in disorder And you know, so when I think of 00:22:42.259 --> 00:22:46.079 that, I often think Actually, I don't often think 00:22:46.079 --> 00:22:47.960 so I haven't often thought about this but today 00:22:47.960 --> 00:22:50.980 I think when I think of that today I think well 00:22:50.980 --> 00:22:55.279 You know if God begins his work in disorder in 00:22:55.279 --> 00:22:57.900 the creation maybe disorder is not necessarily 00:22:57.900 --> 00:23:00.319 a disqualification for his love for me or his 00:23:00.319 --> 00:23:03.039 willingness to work with me or his Ability to 00:23:03.039 --> 00:23:05.519 be with me. He's a creator, you know I think 00:23:05.519 --> 00:23:07.700 he just likes to put things in order and I think 00:23:07.700 --> 00:23:12.980 he I think for me I think of that the primary 00:23:12.980 --> 00:23:16.940 song, I'm a child of God, because I think my 00:23:16.940 --> 00:23:19.900 plea right now is, okay God, I'm willing to do 00:23:19.900 --> 00:23:23.059 whatever, but lead me and guide me and walk beside 00:23:23.059 --> 00:23:26.779 me. You just show me, and you know, to exercise 00:23:26.779 --> 00:23:30.160 my personal revelation, to hear Him, and to know 00:23:30.160 --> 00:23:34.160 what His will is for me, is definitely, you know, 00:23:34.279 --> 00:23:36.980 that space of surrender. I do know one thing, 00:23:36.980 --> 00:23:39.420 that this is the world that we were sent to. 00:23:39.519 --> 00:23:42.480 Oh, for sure. No accidents. This is intended 00:23:42.480 --> 00:23:47.559 for our experience here. I know, and I'm among 00:23:47.559 --> 00:23:52.000 you, that we want to have life just be easy breezy 00:23:52.000 --> 00:23:55.829 all the time. And I would love that too. What 00:23:55.829 --> 00:23:58.750 would we learn, for real? And for that reason, 00:23:59.329 --> 00:24:01.670 when I really come to myself and have a spiritual 00:24:01.670 --> 00:24:03.970 experience with that statement, then I realize, 00:24:03.970 --> 00:24:05.529 yeah, I really don't want to learn that way. 00:24:05.769 --> 00:24:09.549 Well, and right now, being in the unsettled, 00:24:09.549 --> 00:24:13.369 I don't want to be here, but because of my past 00:24:13.369 --> 00:24:17.190 experience, I know that it will all work out, 00:24:17.430 --> 00:24:20.509 that God's in charge. So that's what... gives 00:24:20.509 --> 00:24:23.150 me hope right now in this unsettled feeling, 00:24:23.710 --> 00:24:28.269 in this piece of, I don't like this. I mean, 00:24:28.269 --> 00:24:32.150 I'm not gonna lie, I don't like it. And I can 00:24:32.150 --> 00:24:34.349 future trip. I can start thinking about, oh crap, 00:24:34.410 --> 00:24:36.450 what about this? What about that? Oh, what am 00:24:36.450 --> 00:24:38.869 I gonna do about this? I mean, there's future 00:24:38.869 --> 00:24:42.849 tripping that goes on. And then I just go, Deb, 00:24:43.470 --> 00:24:47.549 you're not in charge. It is not for, I mean, 00:24:47.900 --> 00:24:51.799 I need to listen. I need to be still. I need 00:24:51.799 --> 00:24:56.680 to remember that my will and his will, when aligned, 00:24:57.400 --> 00:25:00.210 will have peace, even in the chaos. Yeah. Even 00:25:00.210 --> 00:25:03.289 in the chaos. And sometimes when I see peace 00:25:03.289 --> 00:25:06.049 in the chaos, that's when it's even more pronounced 00:25:06.049 --> 00:25:08.329 to me. Oh, that's the miracles, the daily miracles. 00:25:08.329 --> 00:25:10.869 Right. One hundred percent, the daily miracles. 00:25:11.150 --> 00:25:15.150 I love, and I mentioned this earlier in the episode, 00:25:15.230 --> 00:25:17.549 but I'm going to talk about it. This is in Doctrine 00:25:17.549 --> 00:25:20.170 and Covenants chapter. We don't have chapters 00:25:20.170 --> 00:25:21.890 in the Doctrine and Covenants. There are sections. 00:25:22.480 --> 00:25:26.000 This is his Doctrine and Covenants chapter there 00:25:26.000 --> 00:25:30.039 again section 6 We're gonna start in verse 36. 00:25:30.359 --> 00:25:33.460 This is the Savior. He says look unto me in every 00:25:33.460 --> 00:25:38.079 thought doubt not fear not so Deb Maybe just 00:25:38.079 --> 00:25:40.759 push pause right there. Would you say that potentially 00:25:40.759 --> 00:25:43.720 there could be fear in your situation? Oh 100 00:25:43.720 --> 00:25:47.140 % could there be doubt in your situation? Yes. 00:25:47.579 --> 00:25:49.980 So what is the anecdote according to the scripture 00:25:49.980 --> 00:25:54.950 for fear and doubt? To look unto him into every 00:25:54.950 --> 00:25:58.410 in every thought now now David used to say practice 00:25:58.410 --> 00:26:02.089 for me Yeah, but I I have so I have some thoughts 00:26:02.089 --> 00:26:04.109 around that and then I'll read this the whole 00:26:04.109 --> 00:26:06.970 scripture again But when when we're invited to 00:26:06.970 --> 00:26:08.609 look unto him and every thought I don't think 00:26:08.609 --> 00:26:11.509 that that for me let me put it this way because 00:26:11.509 --> 00:26:15.180 for me gospel by Scott Well, it's not even gospel, 00:26:15.339 --> 00:26:19.819 it's just logic and it's just a technique that 00:26:19.819 --> 00:26:23.200 I try to use. But when I think of doubt or when 00:26:23.200 --> 00:26:26.000 I think of look unto me in every thought, for 00:26:26.000 --> 00:26:29.200 me that doesn't necessarily mean that I am thinking 00:26:29.200 --> 00:26:34.440 Jesus in every moment. I mean, hopefully I am 00:26:34.440 --> 00:26:39.809 in my background apps. I don't know how else 00:26:39.809 --> 00:26:43.190 to put that. Hopefully in my background, you 00:26:43.190 --> 00:26:46.950 know, my life is aligned with him and it is influencing 00:26:46.950 --> 00:26:49.690 my every thought. So, you know, for me, when 00:26:49.690 --> 00:26:52.230 I think of look unto me in every thought, it's 00:26:52.230 --> 00:26:56.490 look to him, looking to him, and when do I look 00:26:56.490 --> 00:27:00.210 to him? In everything. And so not just my thinking, 00:27:00.390 --> 00:27:04.470 but my actions, my behaviors, my attitudes, everything. 00:27:04.910 --> 00:27:07.130 So look unto me in every thought, doubt not, 00:27:07.509 --> 00:27:10.039 fear not. And then he tells us how to do that. 00:27:10.220 --> 00:27:12.480 Behold the wounds which pierced my side and also 00:27:12.480 --> 00:27:14.180 the prints of the nails in my hands and feet. 00:27:14.240 --> 00:27:17.579 Be faithful and keep my commandments and you 00:27:17.579 --> 00:27:22.740 shall inherit the kingdom of heaven. Well, there's 00:27:22.740 --> 00:27:25.480 my answer. Well, that's the answer to all of 00:27:25.480 --> 00:27:28.420 us. Exactly. Exactly. You know what I just thought 00:27:28.420 --> 00:27:32.599 of when you were reading that is, you know, when 00:27:32.599 --> 00:27:36.180 the scripture about how he suffered afflictions. 00:27:36.410 --> 00:27:40.750 pains and afflictions of all kinds. And I just 00:27:40.750 --> 00:27:43.569 think, he knows what this feels like. He knows 00:27:43.569 --> 00:27:48.549 what this feels like. And I'm not alone. When 00:27:48.549 --> 00:27:50.809 he invites us to look unto him in every thought, 00:27:51.069 --> 00:27:52.990 it's literally every thought. It's literally 00:27:52.990 --> 00:27:57.369 every situation in our life. And so when we feel 00:27:57.369 --> 00:28:00.640 drift, We need to know that the drift is not 00:28:00.640 --> 00:28:03.579 sin necessarily. We need to know that the drift 00:28:03.579 --> 00:28:06.200 is part of being part of mortality, is part of 00:28:06.200 --> 00:28:08.660 the plan. We know that it came about because 00:28:08.660 --> 00:28:10.299 we talked a little bit about the fall of Adam 00:28:10.299 --> 00:28:12.440 and Eve last week and it came about because of 00:28:12.440 --> 00:28:16.500 the fall. We know that it again creates a loss 00:28:16.500 --> 00:28:19.380 of rhythm. It creates a lot of potential self 00:28:19.380 --> 00:28:22.339 -blame. It creates a lot of potential uncertainty 00:28:22.339 --> 00:28:25.619 and all of those kinds of things. But if we remember 00:28:25.619 --> 00:28:29.140 a couple of things. If we remember that as we 00:28:29.140 --> 00:28:31.460 look unto Him in every thought that we also remember 00:28:31.460 --> 00:28:33.819 He's aware of all of this. You know, I think 00:28:33.819 --> 00:28:38.039 it's important also to remember Because I was 00:28:38.039 --> 00:28:40.559 having a conversation the other day with a friend 00:28:40.559 --> 00:28:44.079 about this About I'm doing everything right. 00:28:44.500 --> 00:28:48.259 Why is this happening to me? I've been faithful. 00:28:48.279 --> 00:28:50.559 I've been doing all this thing and I had that 00:28:50.559 --> 00:28:54.799 belief system at one time that You know, I was 00:28:54.799 --> 00:28:57.680 feeling like I was having a job experience with, 00:28:58.059 --> 00:29:01.140 I go to church, I pay my tithing, I go to the 00:29:01.140 --> 00:29:06.980 checkbox mentality of I'm doing everything right. 00:29:07.079 --> 00:29:10.259 Why do bad things happen to good people? And 00:29:10.259 --> 00:29:14.599 I think it's important to remember for me that 00:29:14.599 --> 00:29:18.019 this isn't, God trusts me with this chaos. God 00:29:18.019 --> 00:29:21.579 trusts me with this unsettlement. He trusts that 00:29:21.640 --> 00:29:26.900 I will come to Him in every thought. I'm not 00:29:26.900 --> 00:29:29.539 gonna do a perfect, but He trusts, you know what 00:29:29.539 --> 00:29:31.460 I mean? It's like we get these challenges, we 00:29:31.460 --> 00:29:36.859 get these experiences for our good. It's not 00:29:36.859 --> 00:29:39.779 for our bad. It's not punishing us. And I think 00:29:39.779 --> 00:29:43.339 it's important to remember that, that it's for 00:29:43.339 --> 00:29:47.200 our growth and for our experience. This is going 00:29:47.200 --> 00:29:52.049 to make me stronger. Yeah, I agree with that 00:29:52.049 --> 00:29:55.910 another thing though. I think is sometimes When 00:29:55.910 --> 00:29:59.289 we fill these seasons change in our lives And 00:29:59.289 --> 00:30:01.690 this is just a seizing season that you're going 00:30:01.690 --> 00:30:04.230 through that we're going through It's just a 00:30:04.230 --> 00:30:06.490 season the season will end and we'll be in a 00:30:06.490 --> 00:30:08.589 new season yet again And there are all these 00:30:08.589 --> 00:30:11.430 overlapping seasons in our lives at the same 00:30:11.430 --> 00:30:13.910 time, you know, we're in the season of gram grandparenthood 00:30:13.910 --> 00:30:15.970 well, we still are in a little bit of the season 00:30:15.970 --> 00:30:19.089 of raising kids to you know, cuz You never quit 00:30:19.089 --> 00:30:20.970 raising your adult kids apparently. They don't 00:30:20.970 --> 00:30:26.349 like it. It just feels like lifetimes. It feels 00:30:26.349 --> 00:30:28.930 like that was my first lifetime as a child. That 00:30:28.930 --> 00:30:32.569 was my second lifetime raising my children. That 00:30:32.569 --> 00:30:36.190 was the third lifetime, you know, being a grandparent 00:30:36.190 --> 00:30:38.829 and, you know, and I feel like we live lifetimes. 00:30:38.930 --> 00:30:41.250 And I think my point is, is sometimes it's really 00:30:41.250 --> 00:30:44.920 difficult for us to make sense of it. Initially, 00:30:44.920 --> 00:30:48.279 especially. And so he doesn't wait for things 00:30:48.279 --> 00:30:51.299 to make sense before he comes close. He comes 00:30:51.299 --> 00:30:54.460 close at our invitation. He comes close because 00:30:54.460 --> 00:30:58.839 of our relationship. He doesn't wait. And just 00:30:58.839 --> 00:31:00.839 because we're going through a hard time, I think 00:31:00.839 --> 00:31:04.740 that you mentioned this. I have a little bit 00:31:04.740 --> 00:31:07.119 of a difficulty with the scripture in the Doctrine 00:31:07.119 --> 00:31:09.980 and Covenants. And it's Doctrine and Covenants 00:31:09.980 --> 00:31:12.079 8210 where it says, I the Lord am bound when 00:31:12.079 --> 00:31:13.720 you do what I say, but when you do not what I 00:31:13.720 --> 00:31:16.759 say, you have no promise. And so sometimes when 00:31:16.759 --> 00:31:20.319 that season comes to me, and I'm feeling difficulty 00:31:20.319 --> 00:31:23.299 in my life, it's easy for me to be self -indicted 00:31:23.299 --> 00:31:26.039 again because of things like that. Now I need 00:31:26.039 --> 00:31:28.779 to remember and take things in context, not out 00:31:28.779 --> 00:31:31.920 of context, and remember that it is my relationship 00:31:31.920 --> 00:31:34.440 through Him that qualifies me for the blessings, 00:31:35.779 --> 00:31:40.900 and alignment means doing what He says, and He 00:31:40.900 --> 00:31:42.539 never told me that it was gonna be easy, and 00:31:42.539 --> 00:31:46.460 I need to remember that. Yeah. I just remember... 00:31:46.650 --> 00:31:50.089 years ago when my challenges felt like punishments. 00:31:51.109 --> 00:31:55.029 And I think it's important. I feel like I know 00:31:55.029 --> 00:31:58.150 now that it's not that punishment, but I don't 00:31:58.150 --> 00:32:02.130 want God to think I'm that tough. Sometimes I 00:32:02.130 --> 00:32:05.650 don't feel strong. And it's like, okay, I guess 00:32:05.650 --> 00:32:10.130 I get to rely on Him who is strong. Yeah. That's 00:32:10.130 --> 00:32:12.309 the whole point. I know. It's really the whole 00:32:12.309 --> 00:32:15.269 point. That's the whole point of mortality is 00:32:15.269 --> 00:32:17.910 for us to go through the events of the fall, 00:32:18.410 --> 00:32:21.509 to fill the effects of the fall. It's the second 00:32:21.509 --> 00:32:24.529 pillar of eternity. We went through the creation 00:32:24.529 --> 00:32:27.369 where chaos was organized. Now we go through 00:32:27.369 --> 00:32:29.289 the fall and we feel the effects of the fall 00:32:29.289 --> 00:32:31.910 of Adam and Eve in our everyday lives. And it 00:32:31.910 --> 00:32:34.690 doesn't just mean sin, it means drift. It means 00:32:34.690 --> 00:32:38.009 intense. Chaos. Chaos. It means surprises. It 00:32:38.009 --> 00:32:40.509 means all of that. And when we are in that, it 00:32:40.509 --> 00:32:43.470 doesn't mean that he has stepped away from us. 00:32:43.470 --> 00:32:46.190 It means that there's a deeper invitation in 00:32:46.190 --> 00:32:49.690 that experience for us to come yet even closer. 00:32:49.680 --> 00:32:53.119 to him however sometimes we get confused because 00:32:53.119 --> 00:32:58.099 we hear the accuser in our lives telling us start 00:32:58.099 --> 00:33:00.460 the blame game exactly this is all your fault 00:33:00.460 --> 00:33:01.920 if you would have this or if you would have been 00:33:01.920 --> 00:33:04.099 more of this or if you were better at that and 00:33:04.099 --> 00:33:06.619 and on and on so you know what if what if what 00:33:06.619 --> 00:33:09.940 if we were in a season Like we are at any given 00:33:09.940 --> 00:33:12.420 time in our lives, and we don't really quite 00:33:12.420 --> 00:33:14.799 understand it. What if that doesn't necessarily 00:33:14.799 --> 00:33:17.599 need interpretation yet? What if we just need 00:33:17.599 --> 00:33:20.819 to just be in it and let him reveal to us rather 00:33:20.819 --> 00:33:23.339 than just take the bull by the horns boat, so 00:33:23.339 --> 00:33:25.279 to speak, and then be a bull in the china closet, 00:33:25.400 --> 00:33:27.220 so to speak, and just take it into art, which 00:33:27.220 --> 00:33:31.799 I tend to do. But what if, what if it just needs 00:33:31.799 --> 00:33:36.059 Christ in it? Oh, 100 % needs Christ in it. Every 00:33:36.059 --> 00:33:41.309 thought. come unto me in every thought. And there's 00:33:41.309 --> 00:33:45.930 nothing, you know, excluded. And I think again, 00:33:46.029 --> 00:33:51.230 it's that, for me, it's that be still. Because 00:33:51.230 --> 00:33:56.230 when I'm still, when I commune with Him, back 00:33:56.230 --> 00:33:59.349 to my favourite hymn, O may my soul commune with 00:33:59.349 --> 00:34:04.349 thee and find thy holy peace, I'm just so grateful 00:34:04.349 --> 00:34:07.519 because... Thank heavens I've had some experience 00:34:07.519 --> 00:34:11.699 with this in the past. I have some examples of 00:34:11.699 --> 00:34:15.559 where my life has become chaos, and I'm afraid, 00:34:15.659 --> 00:34:19.739 and I have seen where God has stepped in and 00:34:19.739 --> 00:34:23.800 blessed me abundantly. And I know He will do 00:34:23.800 --> 00:34:27.280 that. I know He's there. I know He will hear 00:34:27.280 --> 00:34:31.179 and answer my prayers. There's no doubt. I don't 00:34:31.179 --> 00:34:34.449 have doubt of that today. Thank heavens. because 00:34:34.449 --> 00:34:36.769 I have in the past but today I don't have that 00:34:36.769 --> 00:34:40.210 doubt and I'm grateful that in the stillness 00:34:40.210 --> 00:34:44.769 that I can find peace that I really can find 00:34:44.769 --> 00:34:48.769 joy in the chaos in the derailment and I know 00:34:48.769 --> 00:34:53.250 that as I welcome him into my heart and into 00:34:53.250 --> 00:34:57.769 my life that I will feel him that he will be 00:34:57.769 --> 00:35:01.869 with me and I know he will lead and guide me 00:35:01.869 --> 00:35:04.849 to the next best thing for my highest and greatest 00:35:04.849 --> 00:35:11.400 good. No doubt. In fact, I testify of that. Well 00:35:11.400 --> 00:35:16.119 here we are another season another of life another 00:35:16.119 --> 00:35:19.579 opportunity for growth And we know that many 00:35:19.579 --> 00:35:22.880 of you our listeners are in very similar situations 00:35:22.880 --> 00:35:26.000 And we also know that many of you are in much 00:35:26.000 --> 00:35:30.500 dire much more challenging situations than the 00:35:30.500 --> 00:35:32.679 one that we find ourselves in. Our life's not 00:35:32.679 --> 00:35:36.500 gonna change much. We'll be fine. Heavenly Father's 00:35:36.500 --> 00:35:40.119 blessed us and continues to bless us and will 00:35:40.119 --> 00:35:44.780 continue to bless us, I know. But we know that 00:35:44.780 --> 00:35:47.239 many of you are like, I wish that was my biggest 00:35:47.239 --> 00:35:50.570 problem. was just getting laid off. I wish that 00:35:50.570 --> 00:35:53.969 my biggest problem was just that, you know? And 00:35:53.969 --> 00:35:58.710 so we get that. Our hope here today is not to 00:35:58.710 --> 00:36:02.750 draw comparisons, not to create situations where 00:36:02.750 --> 00:36:07.250 we measure our challenges against each other 00:36:07.250 --> 00:36:11.159 or anything along those lines. I think... Our 00:36:11.159 --> 00:36:15.019 real effort and our real are what we really want 00:36:15.019 --> 00:36:17.900 to have us all Understand today is that this 00:36:17.900 --> 00:36:20.619 is the world that we were sent to it's not a 00:36:20.619 --> 00:36:23.980 surprise He's not surprised by any of the challenges 00:36:23.980 --> 00:36:25.980 that we're going through. He's seen him already 00:36:25.980 --> 00:36:28.139 He knows how they're gonna end he sees the beginning 00:36:28.139 --> 00:36:31.800 from the end and he's felt them, right? And and 00:36:31.800 --> 00:36:35.059 he didn't avoid it. He entered it He entered 00:36:35.059 --> 00:36:37.639 into that feeling and he did that for me. He 00:36:37.639 --> 00:36:39.539 did that for you. He did that for each one of 00:36:39.539 --> 00:36:42.710 our individual listeners individually, and he 00:36:42.710 --> 00:36:45.949 did it for all of us also collectively. And I 00:36:45.949 --> 00:36:49.050 think as we go through this week and think about 00:36:49.050 --> 00:36:51.269 and contemplate the things that potentially we've 00:36:51.269 --> 00:36:55.110 talked about here today and just create an invitation, 00:36:55.550 --> 00:36:59.469 a place where he can be there, where he can come 00:36:59.469 --> 00:37:02.489 in and be in our challenges. And I think the 00:37:02.489 --> 00:37:04.590 first step to doing that is invite him in to 00:37:04.590 --> 00:37:06.920 ask him in. Thanks for being with us everybody. 00:37:07.139 --> 00:37:08.800 We look forward to being with you again next 00:37:08.800 --> 00:37:10.280 week and until then, be well.