1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:13,200 Welcome to my Daily Report Carp, where every day is continuous tests with no subject. 2 00:00:13,200 --> 00:00:15,640 What's your answer and what's it mean for? 3 00:00:15,640 --> 00:00:19,960 I was hard on myself today. 4 00:00:19,960 --> 00:00:29,840 I initially thought, yeah, I completed everything that I said that I wanted to do. 5 00:00:29,840 --> 00:00:35,480 And I'm making good progress with that. 6 00:00:35,480 --> 00:00:42,320 However, what about tomorrow? 7 00:00:42,320 --> 00:00:43,920 What about the next day? 8 00:00:43,920 --> 00:00:45,720 What about when I have my kids? 9 00:00:45,720 --> 00:00:48,360 What about after the weekend? 10 00:00:48,360 --> 00:00:57,040 How am I going to move through all of these different tides and turns that come with everyday 11 00:00:57,040 --> 00:01:02,040 life and responsibilities? 12 00:01:02,040 --> 00:01:17,640 Then I thought the past me, my past self, even three months ago, would want to be in 13 00:01:17,640 --> 00:01:22,960 my shoes right now. 14 00:01:22,960 --> 00:01:32,280 And this same person, this past self, would be more understanding of this person I am 15 00:01:32,280 --> 00:01:33,280 today. 16 00:01:33,280 --> 00:01:39,440 It would be more easy, would be more proud of this person. 17 00:01:39,440 --> 00:01:47,880 Yeah, check myself and know that life goes on. 18 00:01:47,880 --> 00:02:01,520 Let's not forget where we came from, yet let's also enjoy small wins. 19 00:02:01,520 --> 00:02:09,440 However, it's a constant balancing act with that dark side. 20 00:02:09,440 --> 00:02:11,240 You know what I'm talking about. 21 00:02:11,240 --> 00:02:16,520 And with that, let's start it. 22 00:02:16,520 --> 00:02:21,240 This song in my head today. 23 00:02:21,240 --> 00:02:24,840 Mint condition breaking my heart. 24 00:02:24,840 --> 00:02:26,960 I was just in a vibe. 25 00:02:26,960 --> 00:02:40,240 I was wallowing today thinking about, man, if I wasn't financially supportive or if I 26 00:02:40,240 --> 00:02:50,160 didn't have these letters behind my name, I wouldn't mean shit. 27 00:02:50,160 --> 00:03:00,920 And that music just kind of put me in a mood, put me in a good mood honestly because I wanted 28 00:03:00,920 --> 00:03:01,920 some 90s vibes. 29 00:03:01,920 --> 00:03:14,080 No, just me in a down in a in a valley of the peaks and valleys of a day. 30 00:03:14,080 --> 00:03:18,360 What I read today. 31 00:03:18,360 --> 00:03:21,640 Two books. 32 00:03:21,640 --> 00:03:26,400 The audacity of hope from Barack Obama. 33 00:03:26,400 --> 00:03:32,240 And never split the difference by Chris boss with tall Ross. 34 00:03:32,240 --> 00:03:41,720 And it's interesting for the Barack Obama book is how he foreshadows a lot of things 35 00:03:41,720 --> 00:03:46,000 that he talks about in the promised land like filibusters. 36 00:03:46,000 --> 00:03:55,280 And in this particular chapter, he just talks about the Constitution and what it means to 37 00:03:55,280 --> 00:04:06,000 the country, what it means to individual politicians and what it means to everyday American life. 38 00:04:06,000 --> 00:04:16,520 He gave some interesting examples of just him telling the stories as a first year member 39 00:04:16,520 --> 00:04:19,160 of the Senate. 40 00:04:19,160 --> 00:04:31,320 And he is making his rounds and acts and you know, what are some advice he could get from 41 00:04:31,320 --> 00:04:32,320 people. 42 00:04:32,320 --> 00:04:40,560 And they all tell him to go see his one guy, this one senator. 43 00:04:40,560 --> 00:04:52,400 And this particular senator is like 87 years old, been a senator for like 60 years. 44 00:04:52,400 --> 00:04:58,720 And he's telling about how he first meets him and how he's greeted all of the incoming 45 00:04:58,720 --> 00:05:04,560 politicians and well now senators. 46 00:05:04,560 --> 00:05:17,520 And how as he's asked to speak and say a couple words, he says it seems to his words seem 47 00:05:17,520 --> 00:05:24,200 to ring out and speak the truth of what it was to be a Senate member. 48 00:05:24,200 --> 00:05:33,840 And yet he could think about 60 years later, 60 years earlier when he got his first shot 49 00:05:33,840 --> 00:05:36,920 at leadership at the Ku Klux Klan. 50 00:05:36,920 --> 00:05:40,360 And I thought that was dope. 51 00:05:40,360 --> 00:05:48,480 Just him going through all those inner workings of being a black man and just starting out 52 00:05:48,480 --> 00:05:53,560 and thinking that you've made it. 53 00:05:53,560 --> 00:05:59,960 Yet this is just one mountain that you climb and there's so many more to go to. 54 00:05:59,960 --> 00:06:04,840 So I just love the perspective. 55 00:06:04,840 --> 00:06:13,560 And with never split the difference, I read the chapter bargain and most thing I got from 56 00:06:13,560 --> 00:06:19,200 it was prepare, prepare, prepare. 57 00:06:19,200 --> 00:06:24,520 When the pressure is on, you don't rise to the occasion. 58 00:06:24,520 --> 00:06:29,400 You fall to your highest level of preparation. 59 00:06:29,400 --> 00:06:37,600 So you've got to have legitimate goals, even when in a discussion or an argument or a back 60 00:06:37,600 --> 00:06:40,840 and forth. 61 00:06:40,840 --> 00:06:57,680 And get ready to take a punch and set boundaries and learn how to punch back without anger. 62 00:06:57,680 --> 00:07:03,440 The guy across the table or woman across the table is not the problem. 63 00:07:03,440 --> 00:07:07,760 The situation is. 64 00:07:07,760 --> 00:07:16,080 And sometimes you got to be willing to go there, have those uncomfortable moments and 65 00:07:16,080 --> 00:07:18,080 I love it. 66 00:07:18,080 --> 00:07:22,000 Was I physically active today? 67 00:07:22,000 --> 00:07:26,400 Man that also worked out yesterday had me super sore. 68 00:07:26,400 --> 00:07:30,000 However, I made sure that I got Cameron. 69 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:31,000 I got him right here. 70 00:07:31,000 --> 00:07:34,800 Hey boy, he's asleep. 71 00:07:34,800 --> 00:07:41,840 And I made sure that we did some running. 72 00:07:41,840 --> 00:07:44,000 He got his physical activity. 73 00:07:44,000 --> 00:07:52,640 I know it was tired because he was sleep about time we pulled up to the house at about 9.20. 74 00:07:52,640 --> 00:07:58,960 And I knew to myself I did a good job. 75 00:07:58,960 --> 00:08:08,400 I was there with him and made sure he got everything that he needed. 76 00:08:08,400 --> 00:08:11,680 I was happy about that. 77 00:08:11,680 --> 00:08:14,200 So yes, physically active. 78 00:08:14,200 --> 00:08:16,080 My wife, my son. 79 00:08:16,080 --> 00:08:20,600 What did I get from my meditations? 80 00:08:20,600 --> 00:08:26,960 Man, I'm starting to see the beauty to in not being so rigid. 81 00:08:26,960 --> 00:08:37,000 I used to think that my day had started off bad or wasn't complete until I, unless I got 82 00:08:37,000 --> 00:08:44,320 that morning meditation, but I'm fine as long as I do it 24 hour spectrum. 83 00:08:44,320 --> 00:08:47,440 I have to find time. 84 00:08:47,440 --> 00:08:53,760 But however, finding time is the biggest thing. 85 00:08:53,760 --> 00:09:02,480 When you found it, take advantage of it every day. 86 00:09:02,480 --> 00:09:07,880 When the world seems like it is moving too fast, take a moment. 87 00:09:07,880 --> 00:09:11,800 Put your phone away and you will find peace. 88 00:09:11,800 --> 00:09:16,160 Know that the old you wish to be you. 89 00:09:16,160 --> 00:09:19,240 So don't be so hard on yourself. 90 00:09:19,240 --> 00:09:20,240 Straight up. 91 00:09:20,240 --> 00:09:29,920 What I succeed at today? 92 00:09:29,920 --> 00:09:30,920 No shortcuts. 93 00:09:30,920 --> 00:09:35,600 I stuck to the script. 94 00:09:35,600 --> 00:09:50,400 I was proud of myself that I could create a sense of urgency with the consistency. 95 00:09:50,400 --> 00:09:57,960 Even if it's only day three, I'm proud of this day. 96 00:09:57,960 --> 00:10:00,880 Seriously. 97 00:10:00,880 --> 00:10:08,120 What made me smile today? 98 00:10:08,120 --> 00:10:14,000 Ah, getting my boy. 99 00:10:14,000 --> 00:10:20,520 Being able to pay the bills. 100 00:10:20,520 --> 00:10:26,160 And on time with respect. 101 00:10:26,160 --> 00:10:39,000 And spend time with my son knowing that I did everything that I could. 102 00:10:39,000 --> 00:10:46,560 To be a better me to help him be a better better him. 103 00:10:46,560 --> 00:10:49,760 And it was a good day. 104 00:10:49,760 --> 00:10:53,360 It was a hard work day. 105 00:10:53,360 --> 00:11:06,720 And this day was me thinking with my logical mind. 106 00:11:06,720 --> 00:11:12,240 Me knowing what my dark side can give me. 107 00:11:12,240 --> 00:11:20,440 Knowing going down that wormhole of Instagram or whatever site that you want to go on or 108 00:11:20,440 --> 00:11:25,240 whatever game you want to do. 109 00:11:25,240 --> 00:11:31,360 Making myself to force myself to really look in deeper. 110 00:11:31,360 --> 00:11:33,960 And. 111 00:11:33,960 --> 00:11:43,000 To be transparent with myself to log the time in which I'm actually being productive. 112 00:11:43,000 --> 00:11:50,600 Using aids and using accountability managers setting up that system. 113 00:11:50,600 --> 00:11:53,840 It's not easy. 114 00:11:53,840 --> 00:11:56,400 It's worth it. 115 00:11:56,400 --> 00:12:01,000 Everything worth having comes after hard. 116 00:12:01,000 --> 00:12:05,680 I'm a great drug give myself. 117 00:12:05,680 --> 00:12:09,320 I'm a girl with A minus. 118 00:12:09,320 --> 00:12:11,360 Straight up. 119 00:12:11,360 --> 00:12:13,960 I wanted to get a run in but I did not. 120 00:12:13,960 --> 00:12:19,640 So therefore I cannot give myself before a. 121 00:12:19,640 --> 00:12:22,760 And I was hard on myself. 122 00:12:22,760 --> 00:12:26,040 However I came out of that. 123 00:12:26,040 --> 00:12:27,040 And. 124 00:12:27,040 --> 00:12:34,440 I'm proud of this person in the mirror. 125 00:12:34,440 --> 00:12:38,560 And I'm hoping that you're proud of yourself. 126 00:12:38,560 --> 00:12:44,400 I'm hoping that you're trying to find those systems to make yourself the most productive 127 00:12:44,400 --> 00:12:45,400 you can be. 128 00:12:45,400 --> 00:12:58,400 I'm hoping that you know that this is your only life that we have to live. 129 00:12:58,400 --> 00:13:05,200 Therefore use it experience it how you should and how you want to. 130 00:13:05,200 --> 00:13:08,720 This is only one chance. 131 00:13:08,720 --> 00:13:12,720 And I know you're going to make the best of it. 132 00:13:12,720 --> 00:13:13,720 So once again. 133 00:13:13,720 --> 00:13:14,720 You're amazing. 134 00:13:14,720 --> 00:13:15,720 You're amazing. 135 00:13:15,720 --> 00:13:16,720 You're one of one thing. 136 00:13:16,720 --> 00:13:35,240 Thank you.