Welcome to my Daily Report Carp, where every day is continuous tests with no subject.
What's your answer and what's it mean for?
I was hard on myself today.
I initially thought, yeah, I completed everything that I said that I wanted to do.
And I'm making good progress with that.
However, what about tomorrow?
What about the next day?
What about when I have my kids?
What about after the weekend?
How am I going to move through all of these different tides and turns that come with everyday
life and responsibilities?
Then I thought the past me, my past self, even three months ago, would want to be in
my shoes right now.
And this same person, this past self, would be more understanding of this person I am
today.
It would be more easy, would be more proud of this person.
Yeah, check myself and know that life goes on.
Let's not forget where we came from, yet let's also enjoy small wins.
However, it's a constant balancing act with that dark side.
You know what I'm talking about.
And with that, let's start it.
This song in my head today.
Mint condition breaking my heart.
I was just in a vibe.
I was wallowing today thinking about, man, if I wasn't financially supportive or if I
didn't have these letters behind my name, I wouldn't mean shit.
And that music just kind of put me in a mood, put me in a good mood honestly because I wanted
some 90s vibes.
No, just me in a down in a in a valley of the peaks and valleys of a day.
What I read today.
Two books.
The audacity of hope from Barack Obama.
And never split the difference by Chris boss with tall Ross.
And it's interesting for the Barack Obama book is how he foreshadows a lot of things
that he talks about in the promised land like filibusters.
And in this particular chapter, he just talks about the Constitution and what it means to
the country, what it means to individual politicians and what it means to everyday American life.
He gave some interesting examples of just him telling the stories as a first year member
of the Senate.
And he is making his rounds and acts and you know, what are some advice he could get from
people.
And they all tell him to go see his one guy, this one senator.
And this particular senator is like 87 years old, been a senator for like 60 years.
And he's telling about how he first meets him and how he's greeted all of the incoming
politicians and well now senators.
And how as he's asked to speak and say a couple words, he says it seems to his words seem
to ring out and speak the truth of what it was to be a Senate member.
And yet he could think about 60 years later, 60 years earlier when he got his first shot
at leadership at the Ku Klux Klan.
And I thought that was dope.
Just him going through all those inner workings of being a black man and just starting out
and thinking that you've made it.
Yet this is just one mountain that you climb and there's so many more to go to.
So I just love the perspective.
And with never split the difference, I read the chapter bargain and most thing I got from
it was prepare, prepare, prepare.
When the pressure is on, you don't rise to the occasion.
You fall to your highest level of preparation.
So you've got to have legitimate goals, even when in a discussion or an argument or a back
and forth.
And get ready to take a punch and set boundaries and learn how to punch back without anger.
The guy across the table or woman across the table is not the problem.
The situation is.
And sometimes you got to be willing to go there, have those uncomfortable moments and
I love it.
Was I physically active today?
Man that also worked out yesterday had me super sore.
However, I made sure that I got Cameron.
I got him right here.
Hey boy, he's asleep.
And I made sure that we did some running.
He got his physical activity.
I know it was tired because he was sleep about time we pulled up to the house at about 9.20.
And I knew to myself I did a good job.
I was there with him and made sure he got everything that he needed.
I was happy about that.
So yes, physically active.
My wife, my son.
What did I get from my meditations?
Man, I'm starting to see the beauty to in not being so rigid.
I used to think that my day had started off bad or wasn't complete until I, unless I got
that morning meditation, but I'm fine as long as I do it 24 hour spectrum.
I have to find time.
But however, finding time is the biggest thing.
When you found it, take advantage of it every day.
When the world seems like it is moving too fast, take a moment.
Put your phone away and you will find peace.
Know that the old you wish to be you.
So don't be so hard on yourself.
Straight up.
What I succeed at today?
No shortcuts.
I stuck to the script.
I was proud of myself that I could create a sense of urgency with the consistency.
Even if it's only day three, I'm proud of this day.
Seriously.
What made me smile today?
Ah, getting my boy.
Being able to pay the bills.
And on time with respect.
And spend time with my son knowing that I did everything that I could.
To be a better me to help him be a better better him.
And it was a good day.
It was a hard work day.
And this day was me thinking with my logical mind.
Me knowing what my dark side can give me.
Knowing going down that wormhole of Instagram or whatever site that you want to go on or
whatever game you want to do.
Making myself to force myself to really look in deeper.
And.
To be transparent with myself to log the time in which I'm actually being productive.
Using aids and using accountability managers setting up that system.
It's not easy.
It's worth it.
Everything worth having comes after hard.
I'm a great drug give myself.
I'm a girl with A minus.
Straight up.
I wanted to get a run in but I did not.
So therefore I cannot give myself before a.
And I was hard on myself.
However I came out of that.
And.
I'm proud of this person in the mirror.
And I'm hoping that you're proud of yourself.
I'm hoping that you're trying to find those systems to make yourself the most productive
you can be.
I'm hoping that you know that this is your only life that we have to live.
Therefore use it experience it how you should and how you want to.
This is only one chance.
And I know you're going to make the best of it.
So once again.
You're amazing.
You're one of one thing.
Thank you.