Hello! Welcome to my daily report card. Every
day is a continuous test with no subject. What's
your answer? Was it meaningful? Pain is my friend.
That's an old saying. My father got restless
so he used to say whenever he had an ailment
or pain he looked through it by making it a friend.
Welcoming whatever pain he had as a friend. And
in this life, there are times when there is nothing
to look up to. There is nothing to look forward
to except for the day to be over. There is no
good news. And nice guys finish last. It's very
hard. Especially when you know that you're doing
everything in your power to try your best to
be the best version of yourself and yet still
fail. It sucks when you just keep pushing up
against the wall and it's not moving. But your
strength and energy just seems to decrease. Life
be lifin'. And with that, let's start it. Song
of the day. Sacrifices by Big Sean and Amigos.
That's just the season that I'm in. I'm trying
and I'm making those sacrifices and hopefully
something will come back in my way. What did
I read today? I'm starting a new book today.
It's called The Lost Art of Closing. Winning
the 10 Commitments that Drive Sales by Anthony
Inarino. Whatever business you think you're in,
you're in sales. And this is really just opening
up about how to close. To get that final ask.
You have to. Get. Numerous amount of. Micro commitments.
Before you get the actual big one. Was I physically
active? I wasn't able to hit the gym. However.
I just know when my sons are. NC and full of
energy and. I have to take that time to give
them their physical activity. Go to the park,
go to a field, go on a long walk, all of the
above. And we did that. We make sure it's at
least 40, 45 minutes. The goal is really an hour,
but sometimes it falls short. However, it's usually
enough. This is what I do it for. what i get
from my meditations embrace the suck when i was
in the army that was a commonly referenced title
about how everything in every day just sucks
it's hot or and it can be cold and you don't
have your family and Foods are not great. Whatever.
Still embrace it and put the mission first. What
did I succeed at today? I wanted to be mad. I
wanted to show my masculinity and Let it be known
who I am. And. At the end of the day, it really
doesn't matter. One of the four agreements is
never take anything personally. Because if you
are taking things personally, then you're assuming
that. That person is in your brain and knows
where you're coming from and feels what you feel.
Nobody will. And you won't for someone else.
You can try. And so just with that. just dropped
it just silence is key a lot of times and even
if you want and hope and wish for something to
be this way or for whatever it is your child
or significant other to act according way or
to appreciate what's in front of them or whatever
it doesn't matter it really doesn't matter and
cool heads prevail so i didn't go down that path
i wanted to i felt justified for but i didn't
because how many times can a person repeat themselves
before they feel like they're not saying anything
of true value and amongst that The more you speak
and the more that anger comes, you're not keeping
an impeccable word, which is the first of the
four agreements. What made me smile today? I
have my solo days with my sons weekly. So we're
all together and also make sure that they know
that they have their individual days and just
that embrace when I get back home from trying
my best, from networking and trying to make a
new lane for myself. I was able to get that embrace
from my son, my youngest. And that made Pushing
forward. Just a little bit more bearable. And
what I think of my day overall. Trying. It was
hard. It was. Felt stand still. And you can feel
like. You're on the treadmill when you. Feel
like you're. Working as hard as you can. But
you don't see any movement. And. I'm no different.
So it's hard. What grade do I give myself? I'm
going to be minus. Because. Even though I say
every day let's recommit to my body, I haven't.
Even though I say I want to read for 30 minutes
a day, I haven't met that mark. Even though I
say I want to have 10 minutes of silence where
I close my eyes and then write something down,
I don't get to that actual mark. Just meeting
the bar. Yes, fatigue and enthusiasm and just
the world. Your best may not be the same as it
is one day as it is another. It just hurts sometimes.
Because in the heart of hearts, you know you're
trying your best. Which is also one of the four
agreements. And always try your best. And if
we can't do anything. Sometimes we can't keep
an impeccable word. Sometimes we can't take anything
personally. However. We can always try our best.
Whatever that best is. And I hope. Through the
suck. Through the pain. We can still find a way
to muster out. Trying to be your best self. It's
not easy. And it won't be at the same intensity
and magnitude. As in other times. So. I'm taking
my own advice. And I hope you can do the same.
Just always try your best. Even in the dark times.
And with that. Once again.