Welcome to my daily report, Carl.
We're having a continuous test with no subject.
What's your answer and what's it mean for?
Happy Thursday, everybody!
Man, when I tell you all, it's the eye of the storm.
It's that halfway point in the track when you see the finish line.
It's that process that we're talking about.
It's that grind.
That's where we are in this week.
That's where I'm at personally.
And there's no time to cry.
One day is eventually.
To write now is some other time.
One day is today.
And I really want to profess that to everyone.
Because once you are working for something and you are living and breathing it, you don't
have time for the nonsense.
You don't have time for the misunderstandings.
You see clearly.
You shed the fat.
And that's where I'm at.
Cutting through the mess because I have my eyes on the prize.
Like somebody going up for the dunk, all they see really is the hoop.
And with that, let's start it!
First song in my head of the day.
Save Your Tears by the weekend.
Man shout out to our season 11 playlist.
Man we got about nine more days until we in our 12 month.
Crazy.
And I went with Save Your Tears because I was down on myself.
I was tired and I was feeling like there was no end.
And this song came on and I said you know what?
That's right.
I'm going to, even if I have to cry, I'm going to save this cry for later.
I don't have time to do it right now.
And that's what kept me going so.
Shout out to the weekend.
What did I read today?
I'm Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill.
And this particular chapter was talking about persistence and what it entails.
Habits, willpower, cooperation, accurate knowledge, definitiveness of plans, purpose,
desires, self-reliance.
That mattered.
And I'm really starting to peel back the layers of what it takes to endure.
What it means to be motivated.
What it is to be on a mission.
What are those key elements to make that recipe?
And this book is helping me out.
Was I physically active today?
Yes!
I have my boy Chase today and funny enough, I, my phone died hella early.
Like, last thing I'm listening to while my phone died was Autosmoke with Rachel Nichols.
So shout out to the Autosmoke podcast.
And basically my phone charger is, my car charger is not there.
I can't find a charger on my bag.
So phone dies.
And I'm like, forget it.
It's just us.
It was crazy for a minute because I was really in the moment when I thought, I don't really,
I don't have anybody to answer to.
Nothing to come back to.
And then my heart sank for a second.
Because I'm like, wow.
If I die today, I'm not survived by anyone.
Who will even know that I'm gone until like 72 hours?
And then I thought again, when you're gone, you're gone.
Sad business.
But within that, however, we just played and we ran and we really went to the max and
he was happy.
That made me happy.
And it was really just us.
I didn't have my phone on me.
I was just, it was me and him.
And I loved it.
When I get from my meditations today, bring theory to reality.
Because when we say in theory or in my mind, that makes sense.
Bring that to reality.
What is your real reality?
Wake up from your dream world, abandon, abandon coping mechanisms for loneliness and be where
you are.
I love that.
Absolutely.
100% love that.
In my mind, things make sense.
But in my actual life practice, I can easily look back at recent instances where my actions
don't reflect what I know to be right in theory.
I'm not having that.
I almost feel like I woke up from five dreams.
First things first is for me to point the finger at myself saying, what the hell are
you doing?
I hope you do the same for yourself.
Be critical of you.
I had a conversation, talking about the conversation with my bro, Cell.
And I was telling him that I welcome criticism from my friends.
I want to hear what people who have my best genuine interests have to say which would
possibly improve me.
What can I improve on?
My positivity throughout the day.
At certain times you get to a low point and you're the one who puts yourself down there.
So bring yourself up.
Even if the days are long, you still have you.
You still have breathing life and you're doing what needs to be done.
Enjoy it.
Find joy in everything.
What made me smile?
Chase had a dentist appointment today and just talking with the pediatrician and working
together with him and handling some concerns I had for him and really just being on top
of his health is wonderful.
And this is what I am supposed to bring to this generation and they're going to build
off that.
And that made me smile.
What I succeeded at today, I succeeded at sticking to the script.
I didn't change up.
I stayed where I was supposed to be.
It's not easily done in sequence, day after day.
But it's easy to be yourself, however.
Once you can accept that person and challenge that person and look that person in the face,
you're all right.
Better than all right.
And what I think of my day of raw.
Wakefulness, humbling, productive.
And what grade do I give myself?
Performance and when you think of a, you're thinking that someone that was super prepared
and super smart.
I don't think that I'm thinking of a champion that's hard fought and a battle was nipping
and tug, but the winner came out on top, but it wasn't without respect of the opponent.
It wasn't without the work and the back and forth.
And that's that type of a that I'm talking about.
That work for it's that grind is that respect for the opponent.
And I respect you and I'm appreciating you.
And I know that you can push yourself to be the best you and only you can do that.
And it's tough.
Such as life.
So what's the key?
What's the key?